#just needed to Emote into the void

[soleadita]

i’m frothing at the mouth about this episode. i don’t even know where to start. finding out CHIM is the one who set up karen and hen? iconic. delicious. unmatched. (also gives extra hilarious context to the drunk chim and karen scene in 3x17). bobby’s “i love you now let us do our job”?? i died. hen’s little “i don’t know if i’m ready for serious”? hilarious. adorable. i’m sitting here rubbing my hands together and laughing at her (affectionately) knowing full well she MARRIES THIS WOMAN.

chim and hen eating lunch at the beach atop the ladder truck? karen and hen staring at baby denny in the car seat and trying to figure out what to do with an infant? “as long as we’re here, on this earth, as long we have tomorrow, it’s not too late”?! “this was your dream”/“now i have a new one, here, on earth, with denny”!!!! to quote the formidable, beloved, iconic dr. christina yang: SOMEBODY SEDATE ME.

(honorable mention to buck’s “you can live without a spleen, right?” i love you, you big himbo!!)

i'm also IN TEARS about hen's medical school arc. no way can i put my feelings into the right words, but there’s something so fucking tender and empowering about realizing that the thing you thought you wanted, the thing you fought so hard to make happen, the thing, the thing, the thing—is maybe, in practice, not actually what you want? that dreams change, and that's okay? that you ARE ALLOWED TO STOP DOING SOMETHING? if it ends up not being what you expected? idk. just. henrietta and karen wilson, i love you both so fucking much.

#this is so long and inelegant my apologies to anyone who actually reads it #just needed to Emote into the void #btw karen IS god's gift to the human race!! #henren #hen wilson #karen wilson #henren begins #911 #911 6x06 #911 spoilers

[lipt-97]

came back just to post these. okay bye

#gbf #belifaa #did you get triple zero (summon)? the sanfaa scissoring summon? SSS? i sierotixed it. It was awesome. Everythung in gbf is going right for #e except for the fact that i had to sieroticket it but its alright. just the notion of so much lucilius is just enough to put me back on my #feet again it’s almsot unreal how much lucilius-centric stuff theyve pushed out the past few months. his GBVSR debut. his summon. #Omg when I saw the gbfes fashion show i was a few seconds behind zen and she told me “You wont believe this” and I was like “WHAT? BELIEVE #WHAT? WHAT? WHAYT DO YOU MEAN” and the official lucilius cosplayer walked out in his robes it felt unreal unreal like it was seeing my onl #dreams come true after years and years of being like Theres no way they’d do that. There’s no way they’d make a cosplay for lucilius in his #robes because hes in his void outfit forever. BUT THEY DID…..AND THERE WAS BLOOD UNDER HIS SKIN….AND HIS LIPS WERE GLOSSED…AND HE HAD A LIT #LE BIT OF TAREME AND TSURIME (TARIME) ACTION ON HIS EYES AND EVERYTIME HE WALKED HIS ROBES KIND OF FLUTTERED AS HE SHUFFLED ALONG I HAD TO #SIT ON THE BATHROOM FLOOR lay down on the bathroom floor and I almpst puked from how nauseous it made me i was OVERJOYED BEYOND MY PHYSICAL #LIMITATIONS OF HAPPINESS . I WAS SO HAPPY. THIS YEAR HAS BEEN UTTERLY MISERABLE FOR ME AND I HAVE NOT BEEN THIS DEPRESSED SINCE HIGH SCHOOL #BUT SEEING LUCILIUS like this genuinely blew me off my socks . I don’t know if i should be 100% thankful because I’ve been trying to figure #out how to balance my emotional state with the media i consume but #I think i really needed it. thank you lucilius for ending my 2023

[limepigeon]

He can take it. You both can.

#disco elysium #harrykim #kimharry #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #look I have I have so many emotions for them I don’t know where to go with them so I’m just tossing this out into the void #like one of those floating lanterns #they need to kiss and be happy or my heart will implode #that’s all

[buboloboogie]

HAPPY LATE 420 TO THE SUCKER BOYS !!!

bro is about to be highlo for the next 48 hours

#the suckening #jrwi #jrwi the suckening #just roll with it #jrwi fanart #jrwi suckening #emezil tucker #shilo bathory #420 #jrwi emizel #jrwi shilo #jrwi shitpost #ik vampires cant get any effect usually from substances but i figured they just used Blush of Life #high headcannons; #Arthur would either go completely non verbal for the entirety #or he would be more giggly #aka he actually emotes more like a normal person #Shilo would yap for HOURS he would also need a project or a movie to keep him distracted #emezil was a big stoner #got into the habit/used it 4 mental health reasons before he got medicated w/ adderal and it just kinda stuck #got into the habit before he got medicated w/ adderal and it just kinda stuck #Also Arthur will just sit there and pet void for genuine hours #I also feel like he doesn't know anything about weed or he's a veteran #just because of his time with the toreadors #bub's sillies

[cinclidaefang]

Hello everyone, may I draw your attention to my recently acquired boy? My little guy?

His name is Kuroha and he is a one month old mexican black kingsnake :}}

#he just had his first meal with me and I am insane about it!!! #I have to leave him alone for ancouple days so I’m sharing him woth you all to cope #I’ve wanted this species for 5+ years so you can imagine the emotional state I’m in #snakes #mexican black kingsnake #mbk #screaming from the void #or erm I guess I need a photo tag? #Futography #yeaahhahah…

[lollytea]

She was driven mad by the truth (Clover and Emmeline love Hunter to pieces)

#that scene in ftf makes me fucking insane!!!! #their concerned little faces as they trail after him #like. hes not going anywhere. hes just pacing. they dont need to do this #but theyre silly brainless little creatures. they dont really know how to comfort him. #all they know is that hes sad :( and they are filled with love for him :( so they want to be close to him so hes less alone :( #do you ever think about how #clover and emmeline spent who knows how many years lost and forgotten #without a witch #i feel like a bond with a witch is the core of any palisman. they feel a void if they dont have one #so their little brains can certainly put together how devastated hunter must be to lose his ''other half'' #its literally the worst thing their little brains could think of. its heartbreaking for them to see #but again. thryre not the brightest. theyre just like ''he's all alone'' :( #so their solution is to attach themselves to him so hes not alone #thats all they can think to do. theyre trying #also i feel like a part of their love for hunter is influenced by willow and gus' love for hunter #considering witches and palismen have a mental link im sure they fully understand just how deep the adoration for this boy runs #and thats all the reason they need to love him too #(i cant sleep. so you get very emotional babbling about palismen)

[whatthefuckisasweep]

sighing and putting my head in my hands and crying and throwing up as i think about stanley uris and how he was the most terrified loser.

how he was deathly scared of being dirty, of not knowing where he was, of not being able to predict the world around him. how he was more scared of his world order being offended than anything else. how knowing that pennywise is real sent him down this spiral of 'what else can be real' and it broke him. but he STILL was the one who cut everyone's hand and made the oath. how bill constantly reminds him of his bird book and how it saved him. how he is more mentally fragile than eddie. how he's one of the only Losers who ever says "i can't do this", but he still gets to his feet and makes jokes right after he cries. stan uris, who, after Mike is like, "i just saw a killer bird!" goes, "what kind of bird?"

thinking about how we really don't know how his death went down so we don't know what he was thinking in those last moments. how he threw away his whole picturesque life because of a promise he made, and because he couldn't honor it. how he's such a private person, a quiet one, but he's so so so sharp and graceful. i wish they showed more of his fear in the movies, how much it fucked him up in the end.

stanley uris i think about you a lot.

#it #it book #stanley uris #stan uris #i love him. #i literally am so emotional about him. #i usually don't have two favorites #but stan is like. he's really good. the it fandom is challenging my 'i dont change my selected favourites' view #im usually so decisive about these things and i know without doubt what im going to like and not like #but this media keeps surprising me. at first i even like. did not care about stan at all #the movies made me confused about him. i was like. who tf is this guy #but now hes arguably my favorite #and i just REALLY love his character. like i love. him. so. bad #i need to rant about him rn #and i need to just scream about this into the void or else ill just like. have unfettered energy #its literally 4am. im crying. im crying. IM CRYING I LOVE HIM. #it movie #losers club #the losers club #somenoe just yell about him with me rn

[waywardted]

Believing in rom-communism is all about believing that everything is going to work out in the end... Now, it may not work out how you think it will, or how you hope it does, but, believe me, it will all work out.

#ted lasso spoilers #ted lasso #otp: you liven up the place #mine #m*ne: lasso #i like don't want to tag this with anything i'm having a thought exercise lmao #this is the tip of the iceberg for real i really do think it's their movie #and on an emotional level i'm devastated by this and on an intellectual level i'm just. fascinated #if we take the end as endgamey (though i'm partial to hannah canon ha) #within that endgame the universe gives her a consolation prize of a ted #and i don’t even think that’s my biased reading like his name means the same thing he also is from another country is also divorced also has #a child who evidently can be moved around more easily maybe cause she’s younger and amsterdam is closer #plus all the other similarities we’d talked about after amsterdam #and all the little moments that fatefully lead rebecca to this moment are moments with ted #ted walks away from her and she walks out the door to find this man again #it wouldn’t have happened if she didn’t need to say goodbye to her soulmate #with all of that idk it seems like they added this man not just as love interest but so that he'd be specifically #filling the void ted left in her life and in their romcom #to invoke sleepless in seattle like that when there is a very clear fated soulmate relationship at play #and then to give the ending to another character #like no shade to matthijs he's a fine man but #it just seems intentionally to say the hero of this story has to leave #so 'god's gift' is this substitute #is it the 'it just doesn't happen twice'?? is ted like the maggie of this situation??? #is it 'the dream of someone else' which kinda seems like hannah's reading?? #you can't always get what you want (the romcom ending the way you think it's going to) but you get what you need (them ending up with their #respective families and possibilities for the future)??? #it's just that isn't it. just a completely heartbreaking realization of ted's romcommunsim speech #it's bananas and on purpose and i'm in pain

[ygodmyy20]

when life gives you emotions, write your blorbos in those situations to cope with said emotions. Perfect plan!

Teru (terumob) drabble (sorta no idea the length of this), rambles, whatever you want to call them. Wrote this in 10 mins with a cup of coffee, probably won't become anything else, so throwing it here.

putting some in front of the read me some below it.

Teru sips his coffee. It's too bitter, but perfect for today as rain belts against the windows of the kitchen, loud, but also comforting in their sound. The flavor of burnt beans sits heavy on his tongue long after he removes the cup from his lips.

Shigeo had been gone for over a week. At first, Teru loved the fact that he could spread out on their bed. Stretching his limbs long, like he used to do when he lived alone. Taking up all the space he needed to sleep soundly.

The novelty faded after two nights. The spot on Shigeo's side grew bigger each passing day, and Teru found himself curling up on his side, pressed to his side of the bed, wrapping himself in all the sheets and comforters they had. The space next to him was vast, gaping, and loud.

Teru slept hot too.

Shigeo's natural aura was cool, like fresh sheets on an autumn day. He never slept warm since they moved in together.

Now he wakes up in a sweat, disheveled and sticky. Armpits uncomfortable and warm, the space between the back of his knees slick. It felt gross.

It was also 2am.

Teru had to go back to sleep. And eventually, he did. But the sleep didn’t feel good. It didn’t feel satisfying.

Last night he stayed up as late as he could, distracting himself with internet videos. He placed his phone on his night stand, bringing all the blankets on the bed up around his shoulders to cozy into the mattress. He was in a good mental place, the distraction had helped. He was fine.

Tears explode from behind his eyes, aggressive, and unwanted. The space beside him grows.

It’s too quiet.

The space is too big.

It’s just an apartment.

But the space is too big.

Shiego would be back, he was going to be home soon. Just a few more days. But the space yawned wider next to him, expanding across the rest of the room. The pillows had started to loose his scent. Same with the sheets. He needed to wash them, as he sweated through the cold nights.

He sips his coffee again. it's bitter on his tongue, but welcomed. His stomach flips in reaction to the acid.

Teru never realized how much love could make you hurt so bad. Shigeo would be home in a few days, they would kiss and snuggle as they once did. He knew this, he knew this in his bones.

But this period, this time, this in-between the day and night and floating between dead horizons, sunk claws into Teru's chest, stronger than he ever expected. He saw other people, he went to work—he wasn't alone.

But he was. He was lonely for just one single person. He knew these feelings existed, he knew his feelings for Shigeo were strong. But when Shigeo left, they exploded like vines from his heart twisting around his throat and his eyes and his fingertips. He didn't realize how much this love rooted deep into his soul. How painful it was. How amazing it was.

Even though the knowledge that Shigeo would be home soon fills his chest with sunlight.

The coffee still tastes bitter.

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #teruki hanazawa #terumob #wrote in 10 mins #edited for like 10 mins #now I need to run errands #throws this into the void as she runs out the door #also I am fine #but i effing love my partner and I miss him a lot and #I just have so many big emotions I don't know what to do with them #and the bed is just too big #the apartment is too quiet #and too much going on in my head in the silence #my art #writes

[tenebrius-excellium]

Thinking about Httyd...hot and perhaps too personal take: To me, Httyd was more than anything else a movie about emotional starvation. And Forbidden Friendship was the sweetest, briefest celebration of relief from that.

Afterwards, everybody basically told Hiccup to man up “because that’s just life” and I will never forgive Httyd2 and Httyd3 for that.

#httyd #wherethekiteflies #y'all keep forgetting that Hiccup grew up without a Mom. #In the same day he finds his mother; he loses his Dad. #and the third movie has nothing better to do than to make Hiccup let go of his friend because it's clingy or whatever #to keep the only stable; emotionally available being around that he has ever known. #he's painted as selfish and immature for wanting that. #Neither Astrid; nor Valka; nor Gobber understand Hiccup in the way Toothless did. #Hiccup is simply expected to go without emotional validation or the praise and intimacy he desires for his entire life #because taking responsibility is more important than feeling understood. or whatever. #this boy was granted Forbidden Friendship as the only real hug he ever received... from a dragon who chose him; who stayed with him; #who loved him; who didn't leave or bully or disappoint him. this dragon was the healthiest relationship Hiccup ever had. #and it was judged to be weak. to weaken him as a Chief. when his passion and compassion for Toothless and others were in fact #Hiccup's greatest strengths as Chief. it were those qualities; this sensitivity that made him amazing. #but the plot decided that he needed to become just like Stoick and Astrid and like the Valka who abandoned her dreams & hopes for "reality #how is desiring and needing emotional backup in life void of reality; weak; delusional and too idealistic? #shame on you httyd sequels for never granting this boy what he desired most. and that was honest; unconditional support. #analysis #httyd analysis #rant #hiccup

[dyingbowlofpetunias]

I have so many thoughts about the centennial meetings like I think the reason why Hob waited 33 years is yes because Dream is his Friend and he wanted to see him again but I think Dream is more than that. He is Hob's constant. The only thing that he always knew (or at least thought) he could count on. And of course he loves life and he loves change but I think he also needs that constant that is Dream to know that there will at least always be Dream even when everything else changes and fades and dies. To know that he won't one day end up a million years old and alone. I think thats what gives him the stable foundation to then go and live and live and live. He needed Dream to come back, he needed to know that he was still there and he never lost hope... Yeah I'm fine

#This is what makes you know what even more tragic and devastating #the sandman #hob gadling #dreamling #dream of the endless #Im sorry i have so many emotions #And i know these aren't revolutionary thoughs or deep analysis i just need to shout into the void about it

[swiftiebookwormlogastellus]

the subtle ache in your heart that comes with knowing that you’re just a person in the eyes of your friends. That you could die tomorrow and they’d only care for a week. That most of them wouldn’t notice until they’d need you and even then they’d just find someone else to use.

The burning pressure behind your eyelids that comes with knowing that you’ve devoted your life to love and yet out of everyone you know, you struggle the most. That the people who couldn’t care less about it have people who love them. That no matter how much you’ve tried you’ve always burned.

the tension in your joints that comes with the want, the need to hold and be held. To feel safe when you’re around people. To have someone hug you without holding a knife to your back.

The simple torture in your mind that comes with knowing that the common denominator is you. That you’re apathetic about the people who care and pathetic about the people who don’t. That you’re too caught up in the memory of friends who crowded around the base of a tree because you’d climbed it and you were crying and they refused to leave until you did. That you’re too caught up in the nostalgia of good morning and good night. That you’re too caught up in the game of life to realize that it’s not a game to win but rather an experiment to enjoy.

that no matter what you do, you’re too damaged to be loved as you are.

#Sybil screams into the void #sybil speaks #vent lol #Whee platonic heartbreak #whee chronically ruminating on unimportant things #whee feeling emotions not just as in feeling them mentally but also feeling them physically #like ouch I already took it mentally don’t need to come for my body too buddy

[doomedpuppetyuri]

splatoon fans can we as a fandom agree that we take things way too seriously and just. calm down

#like i love the game but like #some of yall take it too seriously #like idk if its just me but. i feel like we need to take ranked a little less seriously #as a very competitive person and semi-frequent ranked player #like #losing matches r frustrating #trust me i get it #i have #a lot of issues surrounding emotional dysregulation #its probably 70% of why i've been stuck in therapy for so long #but like #this game is rated E10+ #there are no real life benefits to being ranked higher #your life won't end if you drop a rank #idk #sorry #rant over #back to being silly #shutting up now #gaige talks into the void #splatoon

[no1ryomafan]

The struggle of talking about your favorite fictional characters depth because no one in the tiny ass fandom that exists gives him the proper analysis he deserves and you rotated him enough in your head that you have detailed opinions about his character arc but making essays are REALLY fucking hard so the only thing you can shove to peoples faces is random incoherent rambles about one very specific scene or just pointing to your ao3 where you’ve written in depth character fics about him but aren’t canon complaint whatsoever since it’s “what if he actually addressed his trauma, got help and it lead to a happier ending for him than canon?” which feels like it contradicts aspect of why him getting doomed by the narrative is so appealing to begin with but you cry like a bitch remembering what happens to him that you need to cope like every other fandom.

…My conclusion is I fucking hate Ryoma Nagare for ruining my life. /s

#meg text #getter robo #ryoma nagare #me and my friends are likely gonna finish new tomorrow and mentally I’m preparing to weep #nobody but me is gonna be emotional about the ending bc it’s not that sad but GRAAAH #I’m not fucking normal about this idiot #I want to go into the void and recuse him myself then BEAT HIM UP for making me feel this way #<I already brought him back in fic but shhhh that’s sadly not canon #I really wanna write essays about him though I just can’t WORD #I struggle to write fucking fics but something where I have to be clear to argue a subject??? Guess I’ll die #somebody come down from the heavens and make getter essays that wasn’t that one retrospective PLEASE #NEW NEEDS TO BE TALKED ABOUT MORE FFS

[amaraudermind]

YOU'RE SOOOOO RIGHT ABOUT EZRA YOU'RE SO RIGHT IT'S LIKE YOU LOOKED INTO MY HEAD AND WROTE EVERYTHING DOWN

he's so in tune with the force I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS

NO YOU'RE RIGHT HE IS

And it's like. Being in tune with the force is one thing, right? Lots of Jedi are, lots of force users in general are, even!

But like. Okay so Hera mentioned in the pilot that Ezra opening the Holocron being a level of test, right? And it sounded like she and Kanan had discussed before something about him opening the Holocron meaning Kanan would train him.

But that's such a horrible test! In clone wars they specified that you could only open a Jedi Holocron as a Jedi. You had to be so dialed in specifically on the light side of the force.

So walk with me here. Ezra Bridger. He not only has a strong connection to the force. He not only instinctively calls on it without knowing a thing about it. He effortlessly tunes into the light side of the force, like it's as natural as breathing.

"but Void" I hear from the crowd "Ezra also tunes into the dark side of the force"

Indeed. Yes. Correct.

No but just stick with my crazed rambling for a sec okay? Because the dark side is supposed to be the easy path, the one that's so simple to fall into, it calls to force users, I mean, we see that the dark side is exactly that time and again.

I bring this up because. It's not for Ezra. The first time he grasps for the dark side he's in a panic, and it hurts him. It does get them away from the grand inquisitor but it almost doesn't. And the next time? It's after encouragement from Maul, and even then he's having to actively pursue it. He has to try to use the dark side.

And, because I think of this oh so much, when Maul needs him to open the Jedi Holocron--after he's been using the dark side and frequently, mind you--Ezra still can.

And like I have so many more incoherent thoughts about him and his force connection there's just so much he has taken up my entire brain<3

#void answers #star wars #ezra bridger #seriously words cannot encompass the amount of emotions i feel about him #why and how and what #how are you the way that you are ezra bridger #literally i have seen never seen a single other character as confounding as ezra #there are REASONS everyone latches onto this kid #i just feel like when he's actively using the dark side and clearly changed a lot #like. okay sabine says it's still ezra 'sometimes' when we see him using the dark side. #and i don't know. this part i know is more of a stretch but it feels like ezra is less called to the dark side #and more is convinced that it's the way to protect his family in a logical sense. like he has logic'd his way into thinking he NEEDS #the dark side of the force. and therefore it makes sense for him to continue using it wven though it's not natural to him. #it's still him 'sometimes' because he's having to put effort into using the dark side. when he's not trying he's...bouncing back. #and once he found a reasonable argument to NOT use the dark side. to see that it wasn't helping. it was pretty easy to step back again. #i don't know i might have just literally lost my mind from thinking about him too much i am in the middle of yet another watchthrough #we'll see how well my thought processes hold up against seeing it all transpire again #anyway

[eddies-house]

so...some past trauma has been reactivated which...fucking sucks. but it also means i might churn out some good writing?

#like for some reason when im at my most fucked mental state i can write like the most poetic shit #obvi cause it's like im distracting myself from the pain or whatever #and all the emotion goes into writing #so it's like god this fucking sucks and i kinda want to fall off of the earth #but also i can create worlds beyond this place #idk its like tragically beautiful i guess #idk im in a mood #life is kinda ehh and it feels like a very transitional point in time #where things can change so drastically very soon #and on top of it some mothefucker i dont care to speak to and havent spoken to in years wants to pop up #*insert reignited trauma* #UGH #if you read this ily #cause i just needed to spew my thoughts out into the void #vics thoughts