#it's 2am and I'm just kinda rambling

[natsubane]

watched all the available episodes of sousou no frieren today and surprised myself with how much i enjoyed it so i want to leave my thoughts here before i forget them; i think it would've been a lot more enjoyable if i was catching it from the start, but i ended up crying more than several times anyway

it's such a good concept to begin with, the storytelling is so compelling, and i really enjoyed the atmosphere in every episode. the worldbuilding is very good, we never really get exposition dumped but we learn things as the characters do, which keeps things believable and easy to stomach... plus, we always see stories about the defeat of the demon king, and much less the story of the aftermath, which got me interested in it in the first place. and especially when you add in the factor of time as a matter of inconsequence to frieren in comparison to everyone else especially with her personality... it's so satisfying seeing the exploration of things like the delicate balance between memories of the past and their inability to be changed with how they have influenced and shaped growth (of both the characters and the world) into the present, the passing of time and its varying (in)significance to the characters caught in its flow, the transience of life and (the learning of) what it means to live...

even then the flow of time passing is animated so well; there's this relentlessness to its passing, but despite that it flows like a calm river, clear and constant and steady, never hurrying, never drying. and mage's comment about it showcasing perfectly how frieren stays the same despite time passing is really neat too. on the flip side seeing how things have changed over time (the borrowing, adaptation, improvement of spells from demons which then go on to be adopted by mages is something i really fucking liked!! and the way fern uses the magic so casually as a way to demonstrate the development of magic turning a death spell into 'ordinary offensive magic' is so so good. frieren using this to teach her a history lesson was Also really good.)

it's hard to dislike any of the main characters when they show such strong cohesion of their complex pasts and personalities, and their actions do so well to showcase who they are even in battle (fern's precision and blunt simplicity stands out here). you can even see how they have changed each other over the course of their journey... frieren wanting to give up on finding the lost ring so not to slow the party down but fern insisting they'll stay until she finds it contrasting with her impatience with frieren spending months trying to find the blue moon weed at the beginning of their journey is something that stuck with me a lot

the other thing that stuck with me is the rebuilding of the original party not only thematically within their roles but also in influence by the original heroes (fern being taught by frieren and their noted similarity in the earlier episodes with regards to magic, stark being taught by eisen and the same way they express and approach fear, sein's choice not to become an adventurer being directly influenced by heiter not to mention their obvious similarities in habits)... and of those it's really fitting how frieren represents himmel's hero role now after she was influenced by her journey with himmel, especially with his death giving immense meaning to her new journey and frieren copying his actions because it's what he would do

but i enjoyed it... will be back next week..... waha.............

#blue/- #blue/nemophila #nemophila-thoughts #nemophila/frieren #nemophila/fern #nemophila/stark #nemophila/sein #nemophila/himmel #i know everyone in the frieren tag is like talking about ships and everything but i didn't even focus on that while i was watching at all #himmel's love for frieren is important thematically so i'm a lot more aware of that but i think this impact is stronger if it's unrequited #i mean. frieren aro represent wahoo but also i hope she comes to understand what it means to himmel even if she never returns the feelings #i think this is one of those pieces of media where au won't ever hit as hard because the canon has all the pieces laid out for it #how are you going to recreate the same feeling in an au... i think i get it now.......... #still i think in regards to the characters. it's easy to enjoy all of them and their complexities even as they slowly reveal them #stark being a coward but then we reveal that he doesn't think being afraid is bad and also the burden of his past weighing on him #also the fact that he just. has never been showed kindness like getting a birthday present leading into his awkwardness w fern's birthday #he kinda just ticks a lot of my boxes. also he's kobayashi chiaki #sein's hesitance to join the party but then becoming someone they can depend on when frieren's disconnect is a bit more obvious #it's like 2am i don't think my rambling is even coherent any more. good night

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

#girl help #like if I wait?? I REALLY doubt I'll ever post this random little thing I just finished writing bc I'll psych myself out of it #but also. I kinda wanted innocence and sadness to be my 100th fic on ao3 #Lu rambles #this is likely a moot point and I'll do a quick proof of this 2am fic tomorrow and post it anyway #I just... there is a part of me that Hates trying new things. and this is a new thing. and I know it isn't my best quality writing #because that was kind of the point?? just to Not overthink it and write what I Wanted to write #but it is definitely uhh.. experimental shall we say. and I feel weird about that I guess?? self-conscious?? hesitant??? #I want to post it!! I also don't want to be Perceived. so yeah #I can't sleep and I'm processing all this via a Tumblr poll skskskkffnsmnf

[imwritesometimes]

maybe I'll just never write stuff for anything but my super weird/niche/dormant/old pairings ever again 🤷‍♀️

#it's past 2am the sleep meds are..... losing the battle. I'm in my AO3 inbox like wow... all these lil comments. for me. #idk it's weird man cause I see all the comments and 🥰 it's like maybe I AM decent to even good! at this whole fic hobby thing #I haven't been able to write for...... a while now. my last fic all but flopping kinda crushed my enthusiasm #but the tiny dead dormant old fandoms... my fics there get a few kudos... and it's like holy shit! getting a new comment on one??? 🤯 #like I of course treasure very comment/kudo there's just idk like a niche pairing fic might only get 50 kudos but goddamnit #that's SOMETHING in a small or dormant fandom! #idk where this is all going tbh I'm still stuck in video game blorbo hell #and still unable to write? but feeling less 🥴 about my DESIRE to write #at least for THESE blorbos #absolutely zero desire to write again probably for the foreseeable future for..... lots of stuff #which idk I don't have any unfinished stuff so it doesn't really matter #I just also sadly know that the blorbos I AM enthusiastic abt... not many other ppl are so 🤷‍♀️ #my bread and butter north star OTPs are not uhhh... popular ships lol #kinda out here clogging tags with my crap over them but idk 🤷‍♀️ IDK MAN 🤷‍♀️ #this got very rambly and idk what the POINT really is other than LOL why haven't my sleep meds been working this week 😠 #erin explains it all

[sunberry-strawflower]

Alrighty so I've pretty much made it an unspoken rule that I make an edit of a fandom I'm currently in with training wheels by melanie martinez

Ever since I started making edits I stg every single fandom I've been in that I've made an edit for has some kind of training wheels edit. First Danganronpa, then OMORI, then Eddsworld, then Inanimate Insanity. And it makes sense actually--training wheels is my favorite song to ever exist I love it so so much <3

So now I'm in the THSC fandom so I gotta make an edit with the song. Only thing is I dunno what the edit should be. A ship edit or a character edit? Bcz I've made 2 ship edits and 2 character edits with the song so far, so THSC will have to be the tie breaker.

There's not a lot of options for ships bcz most popular thsc ships (except for like rosemin and stickvin) don't have any screen time😭like bro how am I supposed to make a curtisson ship edit if they're not even in the same room during the game. There's not a lot of scenes with them in general either so I don't think I could make an edit with just Sven or Burt (unless I snatch fanart or use the same picture over and over again which I'm not gonna do LMAO)

Character edit might be easier tbh--there's more options there. That being Henry, Charles, Ellie, RHM, Reginald, Dave, and maybe Rupert bcz they get a fair amount of screentime throughout the game. The question is though...who? Hmm...I'm leaning more towards one of Triple Threat or Dave bcz the thought of the other three in a training wheels edit cracks me up so I probably wouldn't even be able to make it properly PFF

I'll have to think on it more--probably go for the easiest option bcz I haven't edited since like November 2022

#I don't really know where I was going with this tbh-- #I kinda started rambling idk wtf I'm talking abt it's like 2am😭 #I dunno why but my brain is kinda nagging me to make the edit stickvin #trying not to give in and just make a character one bcz that'd be easier #but stickvin though... #the song kinda fits them I think #the more I think abt it #so maybe I will #or maybe I won't we'll see-- #Idek if I'm gonna share it or not what am I doing PFFT #alrighty I'm gonna think on it some more #💬

[cherriko-art]

I haven't even started Leah's romance route yet but I've already got their entire relationship and dynamic mapped out in my head.

Rambling into the void, but my female farmer OC, Mili, is basically a female himbo. I'd like to think that she doesn't really get all the passive aggressive jabs Leah makes to the farmer in the beginning of the game, and it makes Leah feel kinda bad abt it later on. As they grow more familiar with each other, I'd believe Mili's tenacious attitude eventually wears down Leah's defensive walls and she starts to grow fond of Mili and her lil' antics (much to Leah's own horror).

And since Mili is kinda airheaded but kind, she's easy to take advantage of, even if others don't exactly have any ill intentions. This would start to annoy Leah as she sees Mili running around helping everyone and their dog around town, and she starts to get kinda overprotective of Mili, and chastises her for never being able to say no to anyone (both farmer siblings are like this tbh). I kinda headcanon that Leah hates Scott bc 1. She's lowkey jealous that Mili and Scott hang out a lot in the mines (but she can't bring herself to go to there herself, its gross and dirty and also there's no reception) but mainly bc 2. She thinks Scott is absolutely full of shit with his museum that exists purely due to all the donations Mili makes to it, but he essentially takes all the credit for. Mili disagrees, but regardless, Leah and Scott don't get along.

After they start dating, Leah becomes an overprotective but proud gf who loves showing Mili off to her followers. The only thing is that she despairs over Mili's lack of fashion sense, esp since Mili's older sibling, Lu-Ran, is perfectly well-dressed themselves. So it becomes her hobby to dress Mili up in cute but practical clothes.

On Mili's end, she's just a simple girl with simple thoughts. Leah is a drop-dead gorgeous gf with a heart of gold (according to Mili, disagreed with by many others). She doesn't really get all the influencer stuff but she's supportive and likes to chat with Leah's followers on livestreams. She doesn't know that Leah's followers have basically formed a Mili Fan Club/Protection Squad.

I also like to think that Leah is a lifestyle influencer and environmental advocate. She donates the money made during livestreams and sponsorships towards environmental research and causes. My headcanon is that she's one of Ling's main sponsor (anonymous of course) for her coral research.

Overall, I'm a big fan of "opposites attract" tropes, so I am obsessed with my OC Mili and seeing how the relationship dynamic with Leah would work out. Mili would help Leah become more emotionally vulnerable and be less rigid, while Leah would be a solid rock in Mili's chaotic life who helps keep her grounded and remind her to take care of herself and not just others. Leah is a bit antisocial though, despite being an influencer, so being together with the social butterfly that Mili is would be quite interesting. With Mili as the bridge, Leah would eventually open up to other villagers too and become friends with Mili's friends too (other than Scott of course). From the get-go, Leah would get along very well with Mili's older sibling (my other farmer OC), Lu-Ran, as they're very down-to-earth, quiet and acceptably-dressed (to Leah's standards).

Anyways, if you actually read my word vomit, thank you for entertaining my 2am brain ramblings.

#cherry draws #coral island #coral island ocs #coral island farmer #coral island fanart #leah coral island #long post #character analysis #sorry I really got into dissecting this #yet I haven't even played Leah's route yet alds;jfad;kl #I wrote all this based on the limited knowledge I have of Leah from the game and knowing previews of Leah's heart events #I know she comes off as a shallow influencer kinda but based on her reactions to the in-game plots I rlly think she's one of the good ones #she's just kinda curt is all #and antisocial #she's pink but she's coded like an edgy goth boi

[withered--s0uls]

I feel some ppl forget that Varian and Hugo are the oldest of the Vat7k squad.

Like no, Nuru isn't going to mother around two men. She's 16 whilst they are 18 and 19.

They are supposed to be the ones responsible/in charge here and are the ones who, logically, were intrusted with the two minors safety.

Like I can see her being an older sister to Yong bc he's 12, and being a *younger* sister to Varigo. But I see so many ppl write her as mothering them around and stuff it is kinda weird?? Not saying she can't be a mom friend, just that maybe the two adults of the group should be written as taking responsibility for the groups safety and stuff.

Idk man its 2am and I'm rambling.

On that note, I hc that despite the planned betrayal, needing to take responsibility and look after the group is something Hugo feels like he has to do as the oldest. Him looking out for everyone, and trying to assure that after the mission is complete, Nuru and Yong at least return home in one piece (Varian too but hes 18 so yk) is how he actually grows attached to the group.

Make vat7k more like Varigo desperately trying to parent the pre teen and teen whilst having no parenting experience and just barely being adults themselves lmao it would be fun

#vat7k #tts #varian and the seven kingdoms #rambling

[amethystfairy1]

Hi, this is going to be kinda rambly but I just wanted to tell you how much I LOVE Traveling Thieves. Ren’s coping mechanism is so in character it hurts. Scar tends to get written in so many different ways and you managed to combine all of his personas and still have it feel incredibly in character. Scratch that, everyone's characters are so unbelievably well written. The world building is so well done and thought through I just can’t. I almost screamed when I got to the end of what you have written so far (I didn’t because it was 2am but I probably would have otherwise). All of the trauma and pain just hits in all the right places. I cannot praise you enough!

Hello, hello! ✨

I'm so glad you love Traveling Thieves!

Isn't it through!? Ren is such a dramatist is just had to be a performative coping mechanism...question is for Traveling Thieves Ren, at least, who is he when he isn't performing? I'm so glad Scar's character is doing well, too! He's always fun to write, very tricky considering how many different distinct traits he has, but mixing them all together with a little✨elven twirl✨has been so much fun!

I just posted the newest chapter for Traveling Thieves, the Ren and Martyn story is getting wayyy longer than I planned, but it's been so much fun I don't want to cut it short without making sure everything gets played out properly! Of course, this isn't the last we'll see of them, either, not by a long shot!

Thank you for coming by! 💖

#fanfic #ao3 fanfic #hermitcraft #rendog #goodtimeswithscar #traveling thieves au

[rinniemybeloved]

Heya Sanam! I saw your requests were open so I wanted to ask for something if possible (and that you wanted to write fluff). This only if you are comfortable and in the mood for writing it ^^

Mmmm so what about some headcanons of Suna with a fem reader who loves animals like way too much. I'm talking about books with information, stickers, knowing random data and such.

Have a lovely day and remember to rest <33

This is literally so cute tysm for the ask. I hope you like it!

[✦] - 𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐎 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐀 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐀 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐋𝐒

notes : this is so cute. He'd be the best bf ever

warnings : cuteness overload ～⁠(⁠つ⁠ˆ⁠Д⁠ˆ⁠)⁠つ⁠｡⁠☆

pairing : Rintarō Suna x fem! animal lover! reader

Does he like animals? Not really. He doesn't hate them, but he doesn't like being around them that much either. The only experience he has had with animals is his little sister's cat.

So, expect him to be a little weirded out when he sees your love for animals. Luckily, it didn't take him that much time to get used to you talking about animals often.

You and his sister get along really well because of your shared love for animals. A huge part of his camera roll is literally just videos of you teaching his little sister facts about foxes.

Suna is a very lazy guy who will put minimum effort into 90% of things he does. The remaining 10% is playing volleyball and memorizing your top 20 favorite animals.

I have a headcanon that Suna is kinda rich, so he spoils you a lot. He buys you plushies and cute little keychains ever so often.

Your bed is literally filled with the plushies that he bought you.

Zoo dates are a must. Aquarium dates are also a must.

Once you recorded him trying to feed a llama and he SQUEALED because he so scared of the way it took the food from his hand. You sent it to the volleyball club group chat and he was sooooo embarrassed.

He secretly loves falling asleep to you rambling about animals at 2am.

He got you a parrot for your birthday because you could 'talk to the parrot about all of your life problems instead of talking to him.' He ended up talking to the parrot more than you did lol

#[✦] #haikyuu!! #hq #suna #suna rintaro #suna fluff #suna x reader #suna x reader fluff #haikyuu fluff

[pink-strawberry-kissess]

i have so many requests and asks about aeon twins so imma just ramble

i feel like yes, if i were to write into the canon that they have kids, they would both be in their 40s at that point

i know some people write for them to have like secret kids pre re6. but i like to keep things as canon as possible before diverging.

even though it's highly unlikely that we'd ever get aeon kids (twins), let alone one

i think it's a huge missed opportunity for them to have a secret kid. either ada having it on her own and leon finds the kid later and realizes it's his daughter.

ALSO SORRY NO. THEY DON'T HAVE A SON. I JUST DON'T SEE IT. (you can see a son, it's fine.)

but i see them having a daughter. she'd be a perfect combo of the both of them. cute, slightly naive, but also very sly and smart. she'd be gorgeous. a perfect combo of them both and i love the idea of her having some sort of physical feature of leons. even if it's slightly lighter hair or his eyes

(WHICH I KNOW IS UNLIKELY BECAUSE GENETICS) BUT IT HAPPENS SOMETIMES. half asians will end up with rare eye colours something (i mean look at what they massacred jill's "half japanese" with. (also this isn't a dig at her face model, i think jill is cute but in NO way does she look "half japanese")

okay back to the kids

because of the likelihood that ada is in her 40s, they would both be terrified of miscarrying, so leon would be a wreck. he would hold her so tenderly once they find out, but also just be SO FUCKING SCARED.

ada would hide it as much as she can, but even her pregnancy hormones wouldn't be able to hide it. leon would wake up in the middle of the night to find ada gone from the bed. but he would just be like- no she's in the house lol

and he goes to look for her and she's in the bathroom or something just sitting and holding her slightly bigger tummy and crying. she's just talking to herself and can't believe that she's here. she didn't expect to be in her 40s and carrying leon's baby and she can't stand the idea of losing it

also this is kinda why i headcanon that the pregnancy is an accident. or at the very least it would be something that they do AFTER Ada's finished tying up loose ends

her pregnancy would be slightly more difficult

(although it's not as big of a thing like NOW. it's mostly still okay to have kids in your 40s)

he would end up consoling her, taking his time with letting her come to him and he'd hold her so carefully. his hands would never leave hers, or the baby when they sleep.

he'd help her bathe when she gets bigger. and just love that she's glowing. (he'd also love how big her boobs get heheheheh)

leon would be making all these healthy meals for them, for ada and the baby hehe but also he'd be going out at 2am for her cravings

i don't know why but i headcanon that ada is a really good swimmer, and would like to swim when she can because the water helps with lifting the weight of the baby on her tummy hehe

ALSO leon helping with holding her belly when she gets bigger she lets out all these moans and sounds of like, RELIEF but he can't help but interpret them differently sdbfksfjj (he gets a fuckin boner)

also so much pregnancy sex

okay i'm sleepy

#aeon #ada wong #leon s kennedy #leon kennedy #leon x ada #leon kennedy x ada wong #leon s kennedy x ada wong #ada wong x leon kennedy #ada x leon #pregnancy headcanons #aeon kids #aeon twins

[blue-b-bro]

My s2 au rambling

It's 2am and I should be working on my paper soooo

Listen. So we leave the break up boat angst as it is. I can't deprive my babygirl of his suicide attempt (it's my depression bias, ok?). BUT. No traumatizing Lucius. It was unnecessary, they didn't commit to it anyway, they just tormented our boy for nothing, so no, no trauma for Lucius. He got somehow rescued shortly after being thrown over board or something. He isn't traumatized, but he's seriously pissed at Ed. (he's not with Zheng in this au atm or Stede uses different ship to get to the Revenge idk)

The rest of e1-3 can stay the same I guess... Ed gets resurrected by the power of love and hope, but then remembers Stede hurt him and tells him to fuck off. Now, what if Ed went ashore with only Buttons? Like, I get people being unsatisfied that they turned him into a seagull, and so we didn't have him anymore, but I find his scene with Ed in the forest really touching.

So Ed meets Anne and Mary and he can realize he doesn't want a relationship like theirs, how forcing yourself to be something else for your partner would just end up in both of you hating each other. Ed calls Mary out, Anne burns it all down, Buttons is there. Buttons transforms into a seagull, proving to Ed that change is possible, you just have to believe. But now he's alone in the forest, so he goes back to Anne and Mary and they go, somehow, to the Republic of Pirates, Mary and Anne to get back to piracy and Ed decides to visit Jackie (since we know they're friends).

[DRAFT: what about them finding Zheng on their way? Like on a sea, somehow. Let's say they were traveling in a dinghy and were let on board. I want Lucius to be somehow there and he and Ed being awkward, Ed trying to avoid him, because he doesn't know how to deal with this kind of situation and Lucius being pissed. Ed also could help as a navigator with his cloud knowledge, he could be their Buttons! Ed could help with towels and actually like it, but Lucius would be suspicious, because last time he saw Ed acting like that he almost died. Ed just tries to chill, tries to figure his shit up, but is haunted by his guilt and self hatred, he tries to not think about it. Lucius starts to notice him hiding his negative feelings, acting as if everything is fine and peachy, "look I'm folding stuff". He doesn't care about Ed, doesn't want to, but as time goes by, his empathy starts to make him not being able to just ignore Ed's suffering. They were friends, kinda, before. He knows how emotional Ed actually is. Jim also almost killed Lucius, but they were fine after that, so maybe he could cut some slack... He begrudgingly tries to talk to Ed, but he obviously says everything is fine. Ed actually avoids any kindness, feeling like a monster after everything he did, which only makes him more miserable. He tortured Izzy, he traumatized his crew... Stede came back, but should he? Maybe it would be better if he never came back, if they left him to die there...

Idk how to go there, but I want Lucius to help Ed deal with his emotions, knowing that Lucius is the emotionally intelligent one, and was helping him like this in the past. He wouldn't be so nice to him as before, still keeping a grudge, but he's too empathetic to just ignore him. Lucius gets to know how twisted Ed's coping mechanisms are and how lost he is, they get to know each other better (Lucius always knowing who he is vs Ed just starting to discover that).

MEANWHILE Stede and Izzy could have the same adventures as e4-5 (I guess idk what to make Stede do in this version of e4, but idc rn). Stede and Izzy could bond and have more interactions with the crew. I'd also love to see more of whatever that gaze Izzy gave Stede in "Bonnet, we need to go" scene. Izzy realizing his life could be different, better (just like Ed in s1e4), Stede getting attached to Izzy. I also want there to be addressed how Izzy tries to ignore Ed, ignore his existence. How he never talks about him. I'd love for them to have a talk similar to that one in e3 ("Allright Bonnet, have it your way"), where it comes out that they both feel responsible for what happened with Ed, like, how Stede feels responsible for Everything that happened, and Izzy'd be like "oh fuck off" and try to persuade him, it's him who's guilty, somehow comforting each other that way.

Oh! And Stede's crew could be trying to find Lucius. They'd have their adventures, but while searching for Lucius. And also Oluwande could help the break up crew with their trauma, since he's the most emotionally intelligent in this group.

So yeah, Ed and Lucius could become friends and Lucius could help Ed with the whole self identity thing and Stede and Izzy also could become friends (they could go into pining direction, but I wouldn't make them boyfriends at this point, it's too soon), Stede and the crew could help Izzy becoming his own person and developing some self worth as a human being, and Izzy could help Stede realize he doesn't have to be something he isn't just to please other people, because Izzy was the one to see Stede in his more cringe moments but also the surprisingly successful ones (he and Oluwande). Izzy knows what's under the mask Stede puts on around other people, that he isn't so nice or composed as he'd like people to see him, and so his acceptance of Stede would be so meaningful +Izzy's a cool pirate so also that.

Dunno what next, but for calypso's birthday and Ned Low's attack I'd like Ed and Lucius to be with the crew, because I want Ed's angst and I liked the idea with this being Lupete wedding. And it'd be bad to make a party before finding Lucius.]

#My au is so cool :D #No joke I'm having so much fun it actually may become coherent enough one day to become a short fic lol #Ofmd #Ofmd s2 #Ofmd au #our flag means death #lucius spriggs #edward teach #stizzy #stede bonnet #izzy hands

[purpledaisiesthings]

Like the previous ask I am also a huge jachaela shipper and am super annoyed that they built up there relationship the whole series just to have Michaela end things.

My question is why do you think Zeeke and Michaela are endgame if he doesn’t even know who’s he is when she gets in to his cab? Like if this is before the cave then isn’t this when he’s still an addict? Honestly if some person I didn’t know hopped in to my cab and started talking about all this stuff that supposedly happens in the future I’d be beyond weirded out 😂

I have no problem with him as character but Beverly once stated that it doesn’t hold a candle to 12 years together so obviously Michaela and Jared we together for over a decade and so obviously they love each other to be together that long I mean no sane person would stay together that long with someone if they didn’t want to be with them or see a future with them.

Oh anon, get ready cos this is gonna be a long read (I apologize)😄 and I know we will still disagree but that's ok.

I feel like the point they were driving at with the show is to have these characters experience a potential future so that they can realize what they truly want and meet people they need to meet. Kinda like raising the question of, "If I know what my future will be, what will I change or choose today?" At least, that's what I think they were driving at with this whole divine consciousness thing. It's about choices.

Ben needed to meet Saanvi so she can help cure Cal and Maybe Mick needed to heal from the loss of Evie and also figure out if she truly wanted to be with Jared outside of the pain she felt.

People don't usually stay in relationships for years if they don't plan to be with them forever. But in Michaela's case she was with him for yrs and she still hesitated to marry him. Which takes me back to the whole divine consciousness experience to figure out what she wanted.

When they first met, both Zeke and Michaela didn't know who the other was. But now, from her perspective, she has experienced love with Zeke, albeit this version is still an addict like you pointed out 😄. But tbf, she has always known him to be an addict. He just got cut off from his drugs because he was stuck in that cave for a year. And then she helped him heal from the death of his sister. They both helped eachother heal. Maybe this version, in reality, is meant to do the same for him. So she has experienced what life could potentially be with both Jared and Zeke and she chose Zeke.

We don't know what that conversation is going to be like when she starts telling him all these weird stuff, that's left to our imagination I guess. But from what we've seen of Zeke's character, he's understanding and empathetic. Lol, whatever it is, we just know she chooses Zeke.

To me, Zeke and Michaela's journey together has been one where they always chose eachother. No matter what. They have been hinting at them as soulmates and endgame from the jump. I don't think it comes as a surprise that it was Zeke in the end.

I'm gonna end here cos I know I'm rambling now 😄. It's 2am for me, my thoughts are all mush

#anonymous asks #answered #zekaela

[emotionally-damaged-carrot]

hello!! can i request something?

could you do male reader x steven grant? where the reader is usually flirtatious, tough and overly protective over steven but one day he felt so overwhelmed as he had some bottled up personal problems that he never talked about. then one day, reader showed up at the museum to see steven without the male's acknowledge. reader showed up with an obvious change of behaviour but tries to hide it away. steven was curious about it and asked but reader just denies it. until later in steven's apartment, reader showed his extreme vulnerable side of him -- he broke down suddenly. of course comfort and fluff afterwards.

if you're taking this request thank you very much!! sorry this is quite long. have a great day dear author.

Steven Grant x Male Reader

Bottles break

I am so so sorry this took so long, I just didn't know how to write this one. And I hope I didn't ruin it by adding extra stuff, sorry if there wasnt enough of what you asked for. Just ran out of words to put. But I can rewrite this if you want. Just send an ask, don't be shy. (No proofread sorry, It's 2am here and I don't have the energy. Sorry.)

Steven is just a little bean, very innocent. And I wanted to keep it that way, away from the harmful things of the world, to keep his mind clean. But you know what they say. Sometimes even the bravest feel fear, even the strongest can feel weak, even the happiest ones can feel sad. And same goes for me. Now I knew that keeping it all bottled up inside me was not a good thing, that someday that bottle will break.

———

Hearing Donna talk to Steven wasn't really a good sign.

"Stop staring at Y/n and get back to work, Stevie. You look like a stalker."

"Give the man a break, Donna. He's been working all morning, plus, it's almost lunch."

Donna rolls her eyes and walks away.

"Y-you didn't have to do that, love."

"You should really stop letting people like Donna push you around."

I say walking over to him behind the counter.

"I know, I know. It's just that, I-I'm really one to escalate situations."

"Of course, always the defuser."

I say finally making it to his side and hugging him, burrying my face on his chest. His hand going up to my hair to pet me.

"Where'd you wanna eat lunch?"

I say lifting my heal up to look at him face to face, eyes staring at each other.

"Anywhere you want, as long as they have something vegan."

He says with a smile looking down at me.

———

After lunch we went back to the museum and just did our thing for the rest of the day 'til closing time.

"Darling, would you like to go out tonight?"

I heard Steven say to me as we get ready to leave.

"I don't see why not."

I say looking at him with a smile as he packs up.

Going out of the museum, we decided to get home first and change before going out.

On our way, to this steak place that steven found, that surprisingly has imitation meat and salad. After ordering our food, we sat in comfortable silence for a while just looking around and on ocassions, each other which makes us blush whenever one catches the other.

"Your meal has arrived, and we hope you enjoy it."

The waiter says as he sets the food infront of us.

"Which one is the umm the vegan one?"

Steven asks not even looking down at the steak.

"That would be the one with the little flag, sir."

The waiter answers with a chuckle.

"Right, sorry about that."

Steven apologizes looking down in embarrassment.

"No problem, sir. If there is no more questions I will leave you to your meal."

The waiter says walking away.

"This place is kinda posh, innit."

Steven says with a small smile on his face.

"I quite like it, no toddlers running around cause havoc."

"Yea."

We eat in silence, until I ask Steven about the poster of the ennead that was outside the museum. Which inturn gets him rambling until the end of the meal. With me not really listening to him speaking. Just looking at his face just admiring his coffe black eyes, that just shines with excitement and that smile that never fails to make me fall even more inlove with him.

"Are you listening?"

"O-of course I was, what made you think I wasn't?"

"The staring gave it away."

"What can I say? You're just handsome."

I say which succesfully makes him blush.

"So are you, you the most handsome man I have met."

Steven said, which caught me by surprise.

"No wonder you're always blushing around me, you are always graced by my divinity."

I say making Steven blush more and clear his throat.

"Let's just get home, it's getting late."

He says getting up and waiting for me to get up as well, before walking. Making our way to our apartment.

———

It's been a week since those events have passed, everyday I tried protecting Steven from Donna and such. Just trying to keep him the way he is, but he will want to explore. And that is something I might not be able to help with. Especially with me just keeping all my problems inside, with my mother's death recently, my father abbandoning me before I was even born the wounds are still open, not fresh, but not scars. Just kept it all hidden, bottled up inside me.

And here I am, sitting on our bed, tears running down my face. The bottle had too many cracks, it was only a matter of time before it would shatter, luckily Steven was at work. I told him to tell Donna I was not feeling too well, which is not a lie, so I got the say off. Steven wouldn't be back until 6pm, or so I thought.I wasn't expecting Steven to come home during lunch.

"Y/n? I got us food, thought it would only be nice for us to eat together."

He says as he opens the bedroom door, seeing me in the state I am in, which is not too great. Eyes red, tear stains visible on my cheeks, still breathing heavily and soft sobs coming out.

"Oh no no, what happened, love, are you okay?"

He says walking closer to me and sitting on the bed beside me, hugging me, pulling me close to his body, by head on his chest. Now laying down on the bed with his back resting on the head board, one arm on my waist holding me tight, and the other going up and down my back in a soft carres.

"Come on, love, are you okay? You wanna talk about it?"

I shake my head now crying and full on sobbing.

"I-I-I never H-had anyo-ne ask me i-if I'm okay b-before."

I say muffled and stumbling on my words.

"You don't have to tell me now if you don't want to. I will always be here when you need me. I will be the rock you build upon, the light at the end of the tunnel, the hand to hold you when you feel lonely and I will give you the love you need and deserve. We can talk about it when you're ready."

Hearing him say that, makes my heart flatter as he puts his face on my hair giving me kisses.

"C-can we just s-stay here for a w-while?"

"Of course, whatever makes you happy."

"T-thanks."

"I should be thanking you, for all those times you stood up for me, for all those time you saved me from Donna's lectures. And I'm sorry for not checking up on you sooner. I promise to be a better person. Just please, talk to me when you want to."

He says muffled by the hair.

"Sleep, love, we can talk about it whenever you feel like it."

He says giving my head a kiss and carresing the back of my head, finger running up and down. While still keeping me in a tight embrace.

"T-thank you."

"I will be here for you, always."

#x male reader #x reader #moon knight #y/n #gay #marvel #mcu #steven grant x reader #steven grant x male reader #steven grant x y/n

[alienoutsiderxeno]

I gotta block you, sorry(/gen) you have my deadname :/

It kinda seem low-key petty NGL. Even though you just dropped this in my ask without context, warning or reasoning behind this. Even though you mentioned it was a dead name you didn't want to remember. Plus it seems like your apology seem half baked. There's so many people with the deadname that you don't like to remember to look back. But please understand this is isn't the only name go by since I have an alternative for people just wanted to call me Alien instead of my main name.

I honestly don't want to start petty drama or anything. I just would advise not doing that to other people who shared the dead name you highly disliked. This really added a rocky experience for 2024 to me already. Unless you really want want to talk like civil people, you can reach to my dms to educate me with explanation. Not just dropping it into an half assed ask to be a anon to be petty about. Even if you said you were sorry. I felt it was kinda personal to think I'm not allowed to enjoy my own name. Without proper information for context, I wouldn't be rambling about this at fuckin 2am. Sincerely Alien.

#Alien T.T #gremlin rambles #personal rant #This is not how I wanted to enjoy my night #anon ask #inbox #anonymous #asks #Now I'm going to hug my emotional support Spamton Plushie ATM

[eric-the-bmo]

What's up nerds I'm going to explain Leo's playlist but it's also a v bad playlist [and it's like, 2am] so I'll be trying my best (also Restraining myself from rambling about all the lyrics that make me go Insane)

I also still feel like it's Incomplete, like something is missing but I'm not quite sure what?? eh whatever. for now it's sort-of complete so.. I'm talking about it

here we go:

God is a Circle- This song was here since the very beginning and while it doesn't fit anymore, I've grown too attached to delete it from here.

Oracle- There's going to be a running theme of me adding prophet-aligned songs to this list. Also the mentions of things not being real :-)

Breathe- Specifically added this bc it kinda feels like a depersonalization moment

o m e n- a cool prophet song

Thunder Bird- I told you there was going to be a theme here. Sometimes Malks just get wild visions y'know

Bible Belt- LISTEN. THIS IS THE ONLY SONG WITH ANY MENTION OF LEO'S YOUNGER YEARS. I'm so normal about it

The Bite is Eternal- What kinda VtM OC playlist would this be if I didn't put a Bloodlines OST in here /hj

Favorite Poison- The first of many Jeremiah-centric songs on here. The line "maybe it's love 'cause I feel okay" makes me go insane

Touch-Tone Telephone- The conspiracy theorist song!! (totally talking to Chris for this one maybe, this song represents his No Stone Unturned Touchstone anyway)

High- ah yes, another Jeremiah-centric song. That moment when you don't remember drinking your vampire bf's blood so you just think it's just his presence that you enjoy

Tuscon- yknow. sometimes your sire sends you away to San Jose. Autoheart has such beautiful songs with such Heartbroken energy ["I thought I'd found a way out of here baby but I was wrong" is so,,, god.]

The Mind Electric- Listen. Sometimes your memories get messed up bc of your gaslighting sire, and also you go through such a traumatic Event that your brain gets all scrambled. [aka the sound of this song kinda encompasses his Extreme Mental Distress]

Mr. Rattlebone- SHUT UP THIS IS THE JEREMIAH SONG. In my brain it's from his POV as he's talking to pre-embraced/ghoul Leo, god I'm so normal about this song dude

ALCHEMY- I feel like this perfectly encompasses his current feelings about Jeremiah- the anger and horror of him realizing what's going on, the fact he's still on the fence with his feelings about the guy bc of Lingering Feelings and is Angry about that- god I have so many Thoughts about this song. If you gotta listen to any of these songs listen to this one (this song also represents his Grudge Touchstone [bc i couldnt think of anything else /lh])

how many little moments have I forgotten?...- memory issue moment /hj

#Spotify #leo vibes #vtm oc #eric finally speaks #oc playlist

[lavenoon]

I enjoy reading all these sleep facts, please info dump some more when you have time! (or when comic is finished/you need a drawing break!)

Enablers, all of you! Sketch is done, so another quick ramble as I eat the breakfast I forgot:

Accommodations are plentiful! If sleep doesn't work for you as is, despite melatonin/ routine/ whatever, maybe there's something else missing/ not right!

Like I'm talking about compression blankets or weighted blankets, both offering some pressure that will help you wind down, or bed tents and canopies if you feel too exposed just with the ceiling above you! Most of these may be marketed towards neurodivergent folks (neurodivergent kids more often than not, unfortunately), if you feel like it may enhance your sleeping experience, use it!

Gonna ramble a bit about my sleep, putting it under a cut - doesn't feel too personal for me, I'm not embarrassed, but I'm prone to oversharing so making that opt-in lmao

I'm autistic and have ADHD, sleep is a whole ass challenge for me - and I only started really being kind to myself over it this year! (especially because I only really looked into autism/ got diagnosed this year, too lmao)

I use:

Melatonin half an hour before my bedtime

two weighted blankets, for the summer I have a compression blanket to not die of heat stroke

all in all I currently sleep under 8 blankets. Yes. Princess on the Pea kinda bs here

A bed tent! A cheap one from Ikea that only covers the top of the mattress, the big ones are a bit too much of a hassle even though I love them in theory

My bed has a raised frame, too, and is a child's single bed - I feel enclosed when I sleep and that's ideal

My sensory issues means my legs CANNOT touch at night or I die, so I have a pillow to put between my legs!

Love holding on to either my blankets or a plushie, too, to have something in my arms. Makes me feel safe

Earplugs! Gods, I am SO noise sensitive, I don't know how I ever slept without. I use the foam kind, and they're a godsent, the wax kind I hate so so much lmao

A sleep mask! Specifically one that also covers the ears, originally one of those with integrated headphones, but I took those out and just use it as is #livingintheyear3022

A few specific comfort items/ routines (texture blanket, specific plushie, blankets in specific order, some other stuff)

My sister once said before I got my autism diagnosis: "Look at your bed. Of course you're autistic." and I cannot blame her lmao

And granted, even with all that, I still struggle to sleep a lot of the times! I naturally would get tired around 1AM to 2AM, but that's not feasible for work, so I have to manually shift my body's sleep schedule, and that's rough. I've adapted somewhat, and wake up around 6AM usually (almost 8 today, I slept in! Because I woke up and couldn't fall asleep for two hours tonight!)

Bottom line is, unfortunately ideal sleep is, as all ideals, most likely impossible to reach. But you can still experiment with different accommodations - there's definitely more than I mentioned here, and different things work for different people (like how I absolutely cannot stand sound based asmr, and have friends who really prefer some background noise for sleep), so don't be scared to try out a couple things!

Wishing all of you good sleep luck <3

#answer let luce #anonymous #sleep talk #enablers enablers I cannot believe you /lh #I love adding things to my little list like YES this also helps!! #it makes traveling a pain tho ngl #the neurodivergency really jumped out with sleep lmao #and also this reply oh my god gfdhjsk

[lerr-writes-fic]

8 Shows To Get To Know Me

thanks for tagging me @stephmcx!! I'm always so surprised when people tag me in these things 🥹🥹

8 of my favorite shows are M*A*S*H, Twin Peaks, Dynasty, Seven Deadly Sins, Neon Genesis Evangelion, The Witcher, Hawaii Five-0, and Gorl World YouTube Drama

you can read my unhinged ramblings below the cut ♥️♥️

M*A*S*H: this show was my absolute favorite in high school, and it took me so long to watch because I had to rely on re-runs. If I was lucky, I would catch 2 episodes Monday-Thursday and 1-2 episodes on Saturday 12-2am. The series finale completely destroyed me to the point that I have a hard time finishing any TV show these days.

Twin Peaks: yet another show where the then series finale really stuck with me until we got The Return finale which also really stuck with me. Special Agent Dale Cooper remains one of my all-time favorite characters. His optimism and work ethic are inspirational.

Dynasty: y'all haven't lived until you watch an 80's soap opera. The drama and wardrobe are phenomenal. Some of the craziest shit I've ever seen was in Dynasty season 2 and 3. The plot points to get to this clip... incredible.

Seven Deadly Sins: this is the first anime I really got into, and it changed my life. Ban was my first husbando, and the rest is history. The series finally ended in two parts last year, and I kinda wish the second part never happened. It's sad that the series was dropped from the original animation studio, so later seasons do not have great animation. It's a fun ride! Just don't want the second half of the last season.

Neon Genesis Evangelion: a lot of my favorite shows have endings that just rocked my world, and boy howdy is Evangelion one of them. At the end of the anime, I was very hopeful, but I was devastated after finishing End of Evangelion. Two endings that are supposed to be the same but different. I am Shinji. Shinji is me. I first watched this show in 2019 and then rewatched in 2021, and it hit different in the midst of a pandemic and after the Texas 2021 Winter Storm. Excited to rewatch again this year!

The Witcher: while I prefer the video games now, the show is so good that I ended up binging the first season in 1 day with a friend of mine and then I bought Witcher 3 on my PS4 the next day. The rest is history. I love Geralt of Rivia so much. He is my special traumatized old man with a praise kink who has seen some shit boy.

Hawaii Five-0: this is not a show, it is a gay fever dream. I started watching this show while visiting my grandmother last year because she had crime show re-runs on constantly, and I always hoped that Hawaii Five-0 would come on. I am continually amazed by how close Steve and Danny are that I sometimes don't believe it's a real show. How did they get away with it all and still not make McDanno canon? They lived together, went to couple's counseling, shared the same bed, cuddled on the couch, DANNY TOLD STEVE TO PICK A BASE. gay gay homosexual gay.

Gorl World YouTube Drama: I fell into Gorl World about 2 years ago, boy howdy I can't stop watching. I don't enjoy reality television, but I sure as fuck am down to watch hours uponhours of coverage on everything that goes down with Foodie Beauty, ALR, Nikocado Avocado, and others. FB in particular bc her life is so buckwild that it can't be real. i miss the nashie era. long live Queen BBJ ♥️♥️

#about me #tv shows i love #don't judge me for how much i follow foodie beauty drama #that woman is a hot mess #we're all wondering if she has covid or got MERS from hugging a camel on the side of the road #she recently uprooted her whole life to live in kuwait with a man who doesn't love her and her marriage to him isn't real/legal #i think this is all an elaborate plot on FB's part to get her ex back #the same ex who dated her publicly for 5 days and also smoked crack/meth live on youtube #which like how did that not get taken down from youtube #we still don't know #anyway #don't judge me #or my unhinged youtube watch history