#im also not fully sure its my adhd

[jewshboy]

honestly my worst adhd symptom recently has been The Thoughts.

#by this i mean i cant shut off my fucking brainnnn #and like im fine with it when im alone. its fine #but gOD I JUST WANT TO BE PRESENT #its been so bad recently and its getting hard to cope with #cause im trying my best to enjoy the moment and the people im with #and i just cant cause im thinking about the next thing/plan or things that just arent relevant #i just. im tired of looking forward to whatever plans i have and then it being gone the moment i blink #i feel like my life is just passing me by and i never have a moment to breath or catch up #its more worse with some people than it is with others #im also not fully sure its my adhd #has it always been like this and am i just now paying attention to it? #am i dissociating? am i masking and therefor have less energy to be present cause im trying to seem like a functioning person? #is it just The Thoughts?

[catfishofoldin99colours]

oh this week is gonna be a BAD time to be off my meds : - )

#catfish speaks #for context i am low on supply and havent set up a doctor's appointment to get a refill cos i had to MOVE BACK HOME #which involved DRIVING ACROSS THE ENTIRE SOUTHERN HALF OF THE COUNTRY #so yknow been a Bit preoccupied #anyway now im suffering from chronic fatigue and pain and also my adhd is going nuts #BECAUSE I HAVENT BEEN TAKING MY MEDS COS I FORGOT #AND I FORGOT BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN TAKING THEM #i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow #but regardless #i am waiting to hear back on some jobs hopefully #and i BOOKED a doctors appointment tomorrow #but apparently my mum thinks im just not doing anything ever #like hey mum. IM DISABLED #GET OFF MY BACK #im so pissed rn #really fucking hoping the new doctor im seeing tomorrow will just give me a prescription for SOMETHING #and its not a nightmare back and forth idiocy hurdle #i am having a genuinely bad time and possibly liable to hurt myself if i dont get medicated soon :) #(not sure how true that statement is but i haven't fully gone cold turkey off these meds before so. yippee)

[daisybell-on-a-carousel]

I've definitely got something going on up here but I don't have the confidence or the knowledge to say what

#like? i relate to adhd posts Alot. recently ive noticed that i relate to plenty of autistic posts too #and /some/ unreality things DO get to me #sometimes i genuinely even believe that ive suddenly changed dimensions and despite KNOWING full well thats silly #i wont be fully confident that everythings normal until i can confirm it (usually seeing my family's faces) #which like. thats not frequent. i cant think of recent examples. but its happened Enough for me to be aware it happens more than it #probably should #i cant drink water at all because of its texture? liquid density? idk but putting flavoring in doesn't help. i just cant drink water #sometimes ill get so worked up about it that drinking water will actually make me feel ill #i get Distressed if schedules are changed suddenly or if takes longer than planned #and if a question is like time sensitive. like sometimes some1 will ask my if i want to eat at x restaurant and give me 5 seconds to decide #and even if like small things change i get distressed. like. i Need to sit the left side of the table near the wall or window #uh what else what else thats notable. hm. more anxiety? i feel like its a normal amount #but apparently my parents feel its a cause for concern if they wake up with their chest feeling tight from anxiety #which was wild for me to learn #theres also the headaches but those are unrealted im like pretty sure they're from my casual caffeine addiction. but that does remind me of #the sensory overload! i guess thats what it is? idk idk i just know that sometimes i get especially snappish and irritable #but that usually only happens during the headaches. but. thats probably because the headaches lower my tolerance for sound and brightness? #oh! poor object permanence and the absolute worst memory. also can object permanence apply to time too because i notice that more #like something that happend a week ago will feel like a distant memory. like i haven't forgotten anything its just. distant. doesn't feel #like i did that thing just a week ago #potato rambles n speaks #somehow i usally just chalk all of this up to the caffeine problem #while simultaneously also convincing myself the caffeine problem isnt that bad (<- gets headaches if i go like over a day without caffeine) #the caffeine is dark soda. g help me and what i subject my poor body to

[void-chara]

My gift for the @technoblade-gift-exchange !! i was assigned to @simplepotatofarmer who asked for dsmp rivals duo. i hope you like it Loyal!

rambling about headcanons, designs, and my process and stuff under the readmore, because i wanna talk about it but dont want the post to be super long !!

i had originally planned to not have a background and then at the last second i decided to speedrun drawing one in a few hours so um. quality difference but its fine. also unrelated but im pretty sure everything about how i draw animals and anthros makes it very obvious i used to be in the warrior cats fandom lol. anyway onto the designs!!

the gold on techno is scars from the totem at the execution, which i think is a pretty common thing for techno designs. he isnt supposed to be a piglin, but rather similar species of anthropomorphic pig. also his mane and tail fluff are naturally brown but he dyes them pink ^_^ so cool !! um. i maaayyy have forgotten the crown until i was way too far into the piece to add it. haha. oops. pretend its missing because. uuh. hes in a casual outfit. "but he still has the cape" yeah its comfy. "but dream has a mask thats not casual" dream is dream he does Not relax fully ever. see entirely intentional i would never make a mistake.

dream is an original shapeshifter species i came up with because i couldnt decide what i wanted him to be. i havent decided on a name for the species yet but i plan to make almost every solid-color or nearly solid color mcyt into this species. theyre mostly involuntary/unconscious shapeshifters. so like they change slowly over weeks or months to adapt to their surroundings, with little conscious control. basically i wanted him to be like five different things so i shoved them together lol, rabbit ears but in a pattern that looks like an axolotl, a cool tail, TOE BEANS tho you cant see them. this was actually the first time ive ever had a dream design im happy with so thats really nice.

i um. i made full use of my time lol, i spent a bit over a week on the lineart, another week on the coloring, and maybe a week and a half on rendering. unless i suddenly became shit at math(which is possible) that adds up to roughly the amount of time i had to work on it. im really proud of myself actually since i usually take a while to do art, and i wasnt sure i would be able to make something id be happy with in this amount of time. but i did! woah!! this was my first time participating in a fandom gift exchange and it was so fun, and also helped motivate me to draw more instead of getting distracted like i usually do (classic adhd moment) lol. anyway super cool!!

Loyal if u decided to read all this for some reason then again i really hope u like it!! u are so cool and i really love ur rivals duo opinions and creations so i hope u like this! i know theres been shit happening lately, i hope ur doing ok!!

#technoblade #dreamwastaken #rivals duo #dream smp #dreblr #technogiftexchange #<- thats the tag right? #also wow i think i said too many words. i dont think anyone else rambled that much about their gift. um. in my defense the only thing more #powerful than my written language learning disorder is my adhd and autism. so. yeah. lots of words. #aaaaaa i feel like how i wrote everything is so awkward. i am just a creature imitating others i have no idea how to interact with people.. #hmmm. posting now before anxiety gets the better of me! #edit: wait fuck i forgot my art tag. how do i ALWAYS forget my art tag. #chara makes things

[thxrnking]

Now a thought you've given me while reading the jack/wander dynamic is that not only would they lose each other, but they'd also put the other in harms way by giving nightswan acsses to one without the other being there to protect them or stop her from possibly hurting them (the way you write them, jack leaving wander and putting directly into the hands of nightswan)

So i guess the question is, is wanderlust aware of the fact that he's just there as leverage for jack, or is he blissfuly unaware? Im sure jacks fully aware that if he left nightswan would hurt wander (very possibly because she keeps him reminded of that fact) but does wander know? and would he care? is he happy to be of service, no matter what the price is, or is there a certain fear that keeps him in line, knowing his place is to keep jack in his and if he fails to do so its his head? and would that be something he'd use if jack seriously considered rebelling, reminding him that hes actively in danger if he does so??

Sorry if this was complicated or something you were already alluding to my adhd go brrrrrrrr

I've spent all day on this answer and I just hope I can make it make sense.

Night Swan would only hurt her Children if they displeased her directly, she would never punish them for the stupidity/disobedience of the others. Instead she prefers to motivate them with the promise of reward: personal praise for Sara, recognition for Brezziana, and Jack and Wanderlust for each other. As long as they stay loyal they get their 'prize' and fear of losing it pushes them to do as their told.

Wanderlust is vaguely aware that Night Swan is using him against Jack, but he honestly doesn't care. His own motivation is Jack's safety, and he will do anything to make that happen, even if it means going along with Night Swan for now to keep her from hurting him.

Post-corruption Wanderlust has much fewer moral issues over what he's willing to do, including but not limited to, lying, manipulation, threat of physical force, actual physical force, scheming etc.

Initially he encourages Jack to give in to her corruption of him as a direct way of ending Jack's torture at her hands. If he's corrupted then she won't harm him any more. Over time though, he actively maintains the corruption (reminding Jack what he has because of it i.e. him) because he believes Jack is and will be happier as the Swan Prince. Confident, no insecurities, almost always smiling.

He trusts no one else to be able to keep Jack happy.

Wanderlust is a man of few words post-corruption, but he is always three moves ahead of everyone else. And the second going along with Night Swan doesn't serve his purpose, he doesn't plan to stick around.

Jack wouldn't really think of rebelling, perfectly happy with the life he has as Jack Swan, however the fact he chose his corruption does make him more susceptible to changing back. He may question but without someone to keep poking a hole in his doubts, it won't just happen.

#Just Dance 2024 #Night Children AU #dark!Jacklust #jd Jack Rose #jd Wanderlust #hope that makes sense #feel free to ask for clarification

[beatcroc]

How do you feel about Theodore Noisevelt? As someone with ADHD I can feel it oozinf out of him so bad I love him so much

noise is the one guy i've kept intentionally 1-dimensional/ comic relief because i simply enjoy tormenting him too much and if i gave him any real depth i'd start feeling bad about it shjsdjsdf. also i dont even TRY to reconcile the unmasked 'just some guy' Theodore J. with noise's regular look because theres just way too much mental dissonance there. hes not allowed to be normal like that theodore j. isnt real he cant hurt me

i started trying to come at this one like 3 different ways and it turns out i have a lot of trouble organizing my thoughts about noise too. he sucks and i hate him. by which i mean hes great and i love him. I think he's one of the best examples of how to make a character legitimately fun and enjoyable despite being a horrible little shitlord with zero redeeming qualities. You just gotta 1: keep it light, 2:CRUCIALLY: make him funny, and 3: as a potent extra bonus in noise's case specifically, make him a huge fucking loser who is only /almost/ able to fully convince you of the contrary.

Point 1 is like 90% just because this game is funny cartoons and leans hard into that, and noise is like, the MOST cartoons out of everyone. like when i say unmasked noise haunts me it's because he does not feel like he should be A Guy. he is a Cartoon Entity. but seeing as pizza tower can also pull a surprising amount of gravitas when it wants to, that last 10% is really just that like. Noise isn't really actively mean? He is an absolute hellion but he's not Mean. More than anything he just wants to get a rise out of people, and though this often entails being destructive, none of his bastardry really does much lasting or large-scale damage [compared to, perhaps, lets say, pizzahead]

2 wraps pack into both other points; he's funny both because it's cartoons, and because he's a huge loser. A tangential point to both of those that fits here though is that he's fucking like pathologically obsessed with peppino. Which is really par the course for like half the characters in this game, and i do think at least half the reason he targets peppino so much is just that peppino is Incredibly Easy to get a big reaction out of, but it also seems like there's more to it that just that? and for noise specifically there's like zero logical reason for it??? He is, in nearly all walks of life, far better off than peppino, and yet. Here he is. Seemingly quite jealous and insistent on tormenting [and perhaps even imitating?] this guy who is realistically quite far beneath him. And like. Why. Don't you have better things to be doing mr. TV star? You literally have better things to be doing but this is what you're dedicating yourself to you fucking little weirdo. And it's not even like a genuine hatred! It's a bit! They're still like lunch buddies off-camera or whatever! I forgot where I was going with this im moving on

Point 3 is just. He doesn't have any fucking friends? You can kinda get the vibe of this normally but getting his campaign REALLY drives home how much emptier all his shtick is than peppino's. And this would potentially be kinda sad if not for the fact that 1. He doesn't care at all and 2. It is his own damn fault. for being such a such a petty little gloryhound. like for the most part the cast of this game is pretty befriend-able but noise is only particularly interested in being the center of attention at all times; and he will lie, cheat, and kill to make sure it stays that way. and again hes allowed to do this because its funny cartoons. and also because no one cares. its just like yeah, that's noise, he's our local bastard, whatever. he puts on so much bravado and no one is phased by it they all know he is full of shit. he never drops the act because GOD FORBID he not be the coolest and best at everything forever and everybody else just kinda lets him believe it and/or let him believe he has them fooled. there's also the occasional peeks that he hates but then like BRO WHY ARE YOU DOING IT???? YOU CAN STOP. NOBODY WOULD MIND!! IVE SEEN YOU HAVING CASUAL LUNCH WITH PEPPINO!!!! anyway. i think thats pretty much everything i wanted to say.

tldr: thank you funny cartoons

#pizzaposting #this turned into a mini essay which i did not really intend. sorry for taking a month </3

[etherealmach1ne]

- Intro Post ⋆｡°✩

| Hello! My name is Max/Bee/Star or V1 and i am 19. This is primarily my otherkin/personal blog, however ill probably post whatever. ^^

i'm an artist and occasional animator, i also do livestreams every so often. i love drawing robots or fanart of things i like, i also draw furries. I am autistic, adhd and likely (quiet) bpd.

i am agender, my pronouns are they/he/it/bot. i do not mind most gendered terms (although i tend to prefer the masc ones, there is exceptions) so you can use he or "look at the little guy!" the way you would if you saw a little robot wearing a fancy hat. Im also Greysexual and Queer.

My Kins/Kintypes (will go more in depth another time)

Robotkin/Machinekin - Nonspecific, i feel this with anything that could be referred to as a machine, electronic or mechanical. Although with robots im most attached to ones with non-humanoid faces. This was the first kin-thing i discovered about myself!

Angelkin - i believe this is also nonspecific, but im most drawn to multiple winged ones, the statues of angels, or depictions of them being abstract like beings of pure light.

Fictionkin - v Here is a list of my fictional character kins v

Starscream (Transformers) - My highest(and most intense) kin, mainly G1 starscream or similar versions (earthspark and some comics). He is incredibly important to me. Skyfire also plays an important comfort role to me because of this kin, I do ship them so i am incredibly attached to them both.

Bumblebee (Transformers) - Much less intense of a kin, i mainly kin G1 or the bumblebee movie version (or similar ones in some comics once again)

V1 (ULTRAKILL) - Realised this kin at the same time i realised i was robotkin! Was also a very intense kin, however its calmed down as im hyperfixated on starscream/transformers at the moment.

Questioning/not sure

Starkin - This may link with Angelkin, as i do see stars and angels as connected/appearing similar.. not sure.

Birdkin - Same thing, i do very much relate with having wings. some of their behaviours i also feel attached to, but im unsure if its just because i associate them with other kins..

Deerkin - Ive had certain shifts that seem to align with deer, ive always been quite drawn to them.

Foxkin - i connect a lot with the way foxes act and used to identify with them a lot in my early teen years, some shifts ive had could also align with them.

Interests (some, at least..)

Transformers (current special interest) | Robots/anything mechanical (also special interest)

Space/Sci-fi | Character analysis (or overanalysing..) | Art/Animation (of course)

(Any kind of) Science ( i am not smart enough to understand it fully but im autistic enough to find it exciting regardless /hj)

Video games in general (ULTRAKILL, Undertale/Deltarune, Fnaf, Splatoon, Portal, to name a few) | Phasmophobia/Lethal Company/Among us

Clowns/Jesters | Markiplier (his videos and his projects) | Good omens

Other

With fictional kins i do tend to feel discomfort with doubles (people who share the same kin) however you can still interact, i do try to look past the discomfort.

DNI if youre a weirdo (proship, homophobe/transphobe, racist, ect.)

i'll likely never post anything entirely nsfw here, but im not sure about suggestive stuff,. it will be tagged if i do, so if you dont want to see that it should be easily filtered out! i'll likely leave it all below a "read more" anyway just to be safe.

Dont be shy to interact! whether its to ask questions or anythin!

#intro post #blog intro #transformers #otherkin #fictionkin #starscream #ultrakill #machinekin #robotkin #angelkin #about me #looking for mutuals #looking for friends

[fanficwriter284]

hey fan its your favorite annoying prick!

anyway i was wondering what illnesses everyone has. im super bad at making lore/ giving characters traits and was looking for inspo. i feel like if i give people something to relate to it would help make my content better especially if thy wisdom comes from you!

Haha hi again and oh that’s certainly and interesting ask!

Chucky-

Let’s start off with the man himself.

Chucky is far from perfect, especially from what he’s been through and dealt with in his life…

Chucky has extreme panic and anxiety attacks. Which leave him extremely vulnerable and exhausted since he often goes through various episodes when he has them. He often needs someone there to calm him down in order to ease the attack.

He has PTSD. If someone even resembles his father or does a motion similar to his dad to will make him freeze. He can’t move and he can’t speaks. He’s just there existing watching time pass. He needs someone to help pull him out of his hazed state.

He has chronic aggression and psychosis. From the events of his father and years of neglect from his biological mother he never was fully there as a child and this came into full effect when his brother died. (Thankfully this lessened when he lived with his mom and later on his Foster Father but once his mom died he ran away and these came back and hit him like a truck) When he’s having a panic attack or his sanity is flattering he hears and sees things…Mainly his father and dead brother in his head and it drives him mad.

And he’s a Sociopath…But you probably already knew that so he’s horrible at understanding emotions.

Tiffany- Self Worth Issues.

Due to the vast amount of belittlement she ensued as a child, this was bound to happen. Despite her mother being long gone she can help but pick out her flaws and fixate in them. Similar to what her mother did to her, leading to Tiffany becoming very insecure about her self and image. Luckily she has her husband…he doesn’t understand it and is horrible with emotions but he tries.

Glen and Glenda- They both just have anxiety. Nothing much. And nightmares. But that’s pretty much it.

Slappy- He wouldn’t really call it an illness and actually embraces it. He has ADHD. So he can be a handful at times and be a bit too hyperactive. Which can be a struggle for other people especially for his best friend Chuck. Since Chucks very sensitive around loud and chaotic stuff that’s besides the sound of slaughter. So Slap does his best and tries not to overwhelm Chucky. Though it can be quite a struggle for him.

Sometime he forgets to do things because he jumps around from task to task and often forgets to eat or drink. THANKFULLY his wife always makes sure he has something in his system so he doesn’t pass out.

Slappy also has extreme abandonment issues since he was dumped down a sewer drain and left to be forgotten by his father. So that left him very jumpy and on his toes, giving him extreme trust issues. He often tries to cover up his many insecurities with jokes and laughter to divert his and other peoples attention away from the matters, despite how uncomfortable or anxious he is. It’s not healthy at all, thankfully he has Anne and Chuck.

Annabelle- Social Anxiety. She doesn’t like dealing with people or being in heavily crowded areas. They over whelm her and make her feeling claustrophobic. However being with her husband always makes it easier.

Jig- Just has Sensory Processing Disorder and OCD. And he feels no physical pain and has issues understanding others and their emotions and the reasoning behind such.

Jig is overall focused on the way he presents himself if he keeps the outside clean and proper he will be okay. However if his suit gets dirty he will hyper-fixate on the stain and white until it’s gone sometimes he’ll go past the suit and onto his own skin and will keep going till he bleeds. He need someone to snap him out of it or me could go it bone.

He feels that he is someone on the outside looking in analyzing every obstacle and object in his perimeter he is very calculated and doesn’t factor human emotions into the equation. He feels no connection and just distant. The only people he care about to some degree is his family and even that connection took YEARS to develop.

His home is always clean and neat and if anything is it’s of line he will loose his mind.

Billy- Really doesn’t have an illness but…He’s horrified of himself and the wrathful nature he suppresses. He often downplays his other emotions expect the ones related happiness. He’s always smiling even when he’s not happy. This is due to the environment in which he was living in prior to meeting his family. His mother didn’t like it when he frowned so she forced a smile on his face until he could to it on his own. He was raised to be a killing machine that smiles his way through the job…nothing more.

This can often lead to anxiety attacks but don’t appear that way about he’s hides away, and smiles through the pain. And he loves marking others smile how can he do that if he isn’t smiling…..

(I hope this is good enough! 😁)

#The Fam

[azrielfiend]

as someone with adhd i reallyreallyreally appreciated your rivulet post i wholeheartedly agree with everything you said

i did wanna share some of my headcanons for an adhd rivulet though, because i have adhd and i just love the silly fellow so much (maybe some people can grab ideas from this idk. start to recontextualize "adhd rivulet" as something more accurate and in depth)

- they're still hyperactive, but it manifests more as smaller things! swooshing their tail, swaying a bit or bobbing up and down, pacing a bit, or if theyre in shallow water maybe swooshing it around

- they still sometimes get extreme hyperactive periods, but theyre more infrequent. kinda like zoomies! but, theyre a slippery critter, so sometimes they lose control and crash into something

- after these periods of intense hyperactivity, they are tiredd. if its safe, theyll take a nap somewhere. i like to think after this they might go nap by moon :]

- sensory issues! they do NOT like when their skin/fur/whatever is dry. they retain moisture for quite a while, but they still gotta make sure to go for a swim. importantly, they would not be PHYSICALLY harmed if fully dry, but they r e a l l y do not like it. because of their big ol' eyes, i also like to think they have some light sensitivity

- theres also good sensory stuff though! they like smooth, hard, and cool surfaces. pearls, moon's puppet, the rarefraction cell when they had it, all good textures

- when they get too overstimulated, they go as deep as safely possible into the water. it muffles sound, light, and any bad textures are washed away

- gets lost because they have difficulty remembering their goal and the way to get there/back. theyll succeed eventually, buuut itll take a few more cycles

Im sorry this is so long i got extremely excited as i was writing. I could probably go into way more detail but i should REALLY give your poor inbox a break. everything i mentioned is loosely derived from my own experiences with adhd or the experiences of those close to me with adhd. Because of this, i know that my headcanons wont resonate with everyone, but i hope this resonates with people more than just the "haha slugcat go fast therefore adhd"

Sorry again for rambling in your inbox, have a lovely day/night!

this is really cool!! thank you for feeding me a piece of your mind :)

also no worries i struggle to answer asks but i love getting them!

#ask #rain world #the rivulet #rain world downpour

[asm5129]

RWBY v9 e4 Thoughts and Analysis

Genuinely might be my favorite opening of the entire show. 

Also, genuinely, screw everyone who ever said Ruby didn’t have a character arc. 

RWBY is really, really good at keeping stories going in the background even as the main focus shifts around. So just...stop with that shit, okay? CRWBY are very particular with what they choose to do and when. Not everything's perfect, but if you get hung up on things you didn’t like from the past, you’ll never be able to fully appreciate what’s happening now. It’s always gonna bother you in the back of your mind. Ruby wasn’t always the most important person in the show. Let it go so you can talk about what led us here, to this exceptional story. We good? Good. 

“You do not go to the tree, the tree goes to you! Unless of course you’re me, you see?”

Yeah, so the Curious Cat (referred to as CC from here on out) is definitely in some position of authority in the Ever After, but they do not control it or anything like that. I suppose we shall find out their role soon enough. 

Regardless, it seems that the Tree decides when you’re ready to leave, not you. CC can bypass that it seems, but i doubt that will work for our heroes.

If the residents of the Ever After exist to facilitate a story, then the Tree will let them out when the story is done. 

Maybe the Ever After only rained when Ruby was sad (rather than, for instance, Weiss) because it’s deemed her the protagonist of the story that must reach it’s conclusion before RWBY and co are allowed to leave? Just a thought.

“it’s a matter of perspective” that’s an intriguing line

Also, Little does not have a history with CC like I thought they and the other mice might. However, that’s not to say CC liking to eat mice has no impact on whether the mice know what a cat is, especially since last week Little wasn’t even completely convinced they were a mouse.

It’s been said before, but CC really is a standout character. The design, the performance, the power set,  even the dialogue make literally everything about them engaging. As does, of course, the characterization, cuz this Cat is just as impossible as any cat irl. Now i actually like cats, but I’ll be the last one to say they don’t tend towards being completely absurd and impossible in their behavior

CC just takes that to the next level. Honestly though CC is basically just ADHD: the animal

Craving a steady stream of interesting conversations to keep them focused

too real 😅

“Got ‘im! Totally roasted”

From the tone of Yang’s voice, i genuinely think she was just throwing poor Weiss a bone here  😄

Missed a chance to have CC making a cat video tbh, but “Luminous Rectangle” and “why is it printing tiny flat versions of me” is still amazing

CC just briefly giving voice to some of the common complaints about RWBY is kinda nice

its CRWBY saying “We’re listening. We hear you. We are working to address your concerns, but only to the point that it won’t compromise our story.”

Also roasting the gods is fun. Does seem like it’s clear that the Gods have nothing to do with the Ever After then, though, if CC both didn’t know and is super comfortable calling them out this way

More information about Alyx, from a new source. Love how everyone who speaks about her has a different take, it makes her really interesting. 

Also rare smiling v9 Ruby Rose sighting

I love that CC is still a cat, with all the usual catlike behaviors. Would've been easy to anthropomorphize them more, I’m happy that didn’t happen.

“Each acre is made specifically for it’s inhabitants and their roles”

Intriguing. So...does CC not have an acre to call home? If not, why not? What makes them unique among this world’s rules?

a grogurt parfait, huh? Sounds gross. 

“Well I’m sure we’ll cause a lot less trouble once we’re back to normal” oh Weiss, honey, I wouldn’t count on that  😂

Ugh CC Blake’s right, they've got enough problems without you reminding them of what’s happening in remnant

“Oh no, i wasn’t paying attention” Ruby you are one of 5 people and your entire bag of trauma just got poked, it’s not your fault. You gotta work on that self-blaming instinct, he says knowing full well how hard that is from personal experience (seriously, i see so much of myself in Ruby)

The Lonely carpenter and the rusted Knight

one sweet, one handsome

Guessing we’ll meet them soon enough

Also that confirms the Knight in the trailer and intro isn’t Jaune. the Knight was in the original book.

So yeah was wrong about the Chekov's butterfly

Couple interesting lines here

First

”I’m the herbalist. Until I’m not, anyway” 

Our first hint that roles are not set in stone.

and second

“Everyone needs help these days. Everyone.” Who else is Herb referring to?

“Huntresses are heroes. We protect those who can’t protect themselves” Blake is really following in Ruby’s stead, this is literally the line Ruby gives her all the way back in volume 1 when they talk about their love of books. Of course, she’s doing it after going through all the healing Ruby hasn’t done yet.  It is cool to see this dichotomy of Blake stepping up and embodying what she valued in Ruby while Ruby becomes more like she was in volume 1 and 2

Also, I like that Ruby’s answer to “What does a huntress do” is “fight monsters”. it shows that she’s still thinking about things wrong

“In order to help you become whatever it is you need to become, you really ought to have a better understanding of what you are now”. Great line. Cuts straight to the heart of the issue.

.”This is how a king winds up a prince”

So...the Red Prince used to be the Red King? And he became the Red Prince, perhaps because he didn’t understand who he was, and thus who he wanted to be wasn’t quite right? We’ll see. But clearly there’s a much more complicated transformation process that can happen here than we expected. Perhaps a far more literal one, as well.

“You don’t have to go forward you know. You could go back. Back to before.”

Before she lost her arm. It’s not about her arm though--it’s about everything. It’s about going back to what things were like before beacon fell. Going back to who she was like before beacon fell.

Yang is shocked--but she doesn't immediately reject the idea. Unlike Blake...

“You could just be human. Or just a cat. It’s up to you.”

“Why would i do that?”

“I told you. It’s simple. Much simpler than trying to be a bridge between human and faunus. Why struggle with that responsibility?”

So it’s clear now. The reason Blake wasn’t front and center on injustice during the Atlas arc. 

This is what she was struggling with. Well this, and taking the life of an actual living, breathing person

Doesn’t matter that it was Adam, he was still a person.

So for a couple volumes she just...stopped trying to be that bridge. Focused on proving to her loved ones that she had grown, and that she wouldn’t run away again. Showing them--and especially Yang--that she loved them.

“You could be a nobody. Isn’t that what you want? to be free?”

God i’m so proud of these girls. This is such a beautiful scene. It’s so well directed, so well written, and there’s so much we can all learn from it, purely on an emotional growth level..

And then we come to Ruby. And unlike her friends, she doesn’t have it in her to reject the part of herself that appears here. Instead, she gets this brutal face-to-face with all of her worst insecurities, worst impulses, all her imposter syndromes and her habit of putting everything on her own shoulders. honestly this section deserves a deep dive all its own.

“You don’t even have to be Ruby Rose. So. Who are you gonna be?” 

Ruby is gonna go through a major transformation this volume. I can only hope it’s the one she needs.

I’m really curious why exactly CC was so angry about what Herb was doing. What exactly did he do wrong? Hopefully we will find out tomorrow. 

the “That’s a bit much” lien from herb intrigues me though.  Was he affected by the pain the girls--and Ruby in particular--were being forced to confront?

“Take a little bit of my heart”

Really curious about CC’s powers

and little being adorable again. Can’t wait for tomorrow!!

[therhythmafterthesummer]

hi bestie :) its my bday today and i just wanted to thank you for making my last year happier and better with your fics and works and interactions on this platform :)) also as an ace neurodivergent, i really do resonate with your works and feel happy and represented and hopeful that one day i’ll find myself a boyfie that can accept me for who i am lol

ANYWAYS thank you so much for giving so much joy in my last year and im sure you will continue to bring me joy this year too lol

IF i may indulge in with a request, can we get a tmi or a spoiler for wereroomies!jisung or seungmin? they are both my ult biases and babies and you’ve mentioned your working on their fics so…. i beg for a crumb lmao OMG WAIT THEORY TIME (you can tell there is adhd) so i rmb you said that jisung is a nurse and seungmin is a med student? imagine they go to work tgt (seungmin is there for placements) and then han wingmans him to seungmin’s yn lol

ANYWAYS TYSM AND ILY BESTIE HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY TODAY TOO

(ps you are the sole reason i got into werewolf fics bc of wereroomies)

omg happy birthday !!!

the fact that what i, an ace neurodivergent, write resonates with you, who's also an ace neurodivergent, warms my heart. i genuinely don't think i ever experienced as much acceptance around those two things as i did when i joined this community a year ago. the fact that you feel like my works represent you makes me all fuzzy and and and 🥺 idk, it's cute. thank you for telling me this. you've got no idea how much it means to me.

i'll give you a few little spoilers for wereroomies!seungmin. be aware these might change as i start working fully on him, so these aren't set in stone, but hope you (and anyone else that reads these) enjoy them anyway:

my idea for seungmin is to also code him as autistic and ace (sorry, i can't help it).

he and jeongin have been together since they were kids (maybe they come from the same pack? i haven't decided yet), so i hope to have more of jeongin in his instalment, too.

i also hope to highlight his relationship with the pretty mum... since they're really close.

i want to craft his story around self-descovery. it might be a bit sad at parts--especially when it comes to his relationship with the reader... but hopefully our puppy min will overcome any challenge he might have to deal with.

i'm still fine-tuning some things about him and his background, but i started writing something already, so we'll see how long it takes me to work on that fully (: it's now a race to see who i finish first, seungmin or jisung hahah

oh, and, as a bonus, i'll tell you that he'll probably share hobbies with pretty mum~

#iadorethemskz #ask #wereroomies ask

[thetenamongstthesethrees]

TW: REFERENCE TO SH AND RELAPSE OF SH AND SUICIDE ATTEMPT

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Ok so ik ive been inactive for a *WHILE* and im srry for that but like i have a buncha things that happened these past 3 months that I NEED To share SOOOO....

First things first, the one im most excited abt: I DID MY FIRST PERFORMANCE!!! My school was doing little mermaid jr and I got Scuttle! I was really happy to get my first role and getting at least one solo, and Im just happy overall on how it went! I think I did really good on my first try! Only bad thing was that now im kinda going through my lil mermaid hyperfixation and have been looking up fics where Sebastian and Ariel kinda have a Father/Parental Figure-Daughter or Older Brother-Younger (stupid but ultimately well meaning) Sister dynamic and have started to write a fic on that bc no ones done it before apparently😒(im going cray cray, bonkers mayhaps)

Might've gotten my eye infected(I live in the east of the us, new york to be more specific and woke up the day after the "live vintage (BLAME CANADA/j) filter" with my right eyes nerves slightly more irritated and haven't gotten that checked out so thats fun)

FINALLY finished that one drawing ive been making for 3 MONTHS.(well, technically....)

Almost done writing my passion project, AKA the one I originally wanted to make into an animated series but have settled for a book just in case that can't happen! I still need to work out some kinks, design more outfits, get all their personalities in check, make sure the world and magic is fully fleshed out, ect.

I also do band, and while I originally thought that I would have a problem bc of both band and theatres close scheduling(i originally had dress rehearsal on june 2nd, AND my band concert on June 2nd) but it all worked out in the end! My band concert went great, and while the dress rehearsal was a mess, we at least got through it! :)

Unintentionally quit SH! I was originally only meant to stop until AFTER performances, but ive been bettering myself and learned that if I ever want to forgive myself or at least move on I gotta stop feeling sorry for myself and not forget nor forgive, but remember, i just can't let it haunt me. I know I'll relapse, I always do eventually, but I want to enjoy these few moments of mental "clarity" while I can. I've also learned that for some reason i tend to become a more terrible person and despicable person the more time I spend at home with my mother, so that's fun. God, I hate America's education system, its messed me up BAD. AND the foster care system. I just tried to kms 2 times today, and she didn't even notice, or care. How sad is that?

On a lighter note, yes, as the rest of yt and TikTok, I got a minor lil hyperfixation on the Lorax and really think ppl should make more [PLATONIC] Lorax and Onceler dynamics, mainly the type where they're like some really annoying pair of bickering siblings or a father whos sick of his adopted child's shit, like there is so much on the table for platonic fluff and angst and most of what I've seen is romantic smut and fluff like CHANGE IT UP A LIL

Also, Ive been going to karaoke centers on Tuesdays and have become a lot more confident to performing in front of ppl! So far, I've performed "All You Wanna Do", "The Ballad of Jane Doe", "Heart of Stone", and am gonna do "What the World Needs" the next upcoming Tuesday, where I'm gonna try interacting with the audience while singing!!

(Also, before I end this....I may have ADHD??? my teacher who has ADHD says some of my behavior is "similar to hers"(i feel like thats just her way of saying i reek of neurodivergency) and I also did some research and I display similar/exact behaviors listed, have taken online tests from doctorate confirmed sites and basically all of them said to go get a diagnosis. I also found I do a few behaviors similar to stimming! Also also, I kinda suspect a lil more bc my mom has Autism and apparently sometimes neurodivergency is biological (i forgor the word) but my mom is kinda in denial abt my Depression diagnosis and thinks I got anxiety "biologically", so if I tell her I wanna get tested for ADHD shes just kinda gonna gaslight me into not believing that and i already told the school therapist and basically she just told me that I'm probably just imagining things or copying behaviors from my mother and that "kids like to give themselves all these titles nowadays" so I just did what I always do which is to keep it shut and act until they think you fell in line)

So yeah, thats all! Thanks for reading, now that my schedule is clear again ima start posting more frequently again, so be aware :) <3333

#musical theater #musical theatre #theater kid #theatre #band kids #band practice #band vs theatre #clarinet #electric guitar #piano #lorax 2012 #the little mermaid #self care #self improvement #self mutalition #self h@rm #note to self #recovering #inevitable relapse #book series #what being a writer is like sometimes #possible adhd #i feel sick #sewer slide #sewerslide attempt #angst writing #i need a nap #i need therapy #i need to be put down #i need to start writing again

[venusvity]

no no, that was rlly helpful! im honestly pretty sure i also have adhd, and ive struggled with trying to fully write out a doc with all my character info before lmao. its very nice to know i can just go with the flow afksksjsjsj thank u! :D

no problem! def just go with the flow sdkjnjksn bc it's truly just for fun like don't take it too seriously that's my biggest piece of advice! 💗

#╰ * venus : questions ⧽ burn it to the ground .

[toastywatchesstevenuniverse]

Hope you are doing well dude, I imagine life got pretty crazy on you since you've been busy- hope things get calmer and you get a chance to relax! Be sure to be kind to yourself if you feel like you're not doing enough - if you're feeling like you're not productive enough, you probably need to take a break and let off some steam. Have a good one!

-NOTE: (Writing this right before i hit send i alreayd wrote all the stuff below and i just noticed all the grammar mistakes but i think the lack of spelling is more representative of my fuckin mental state so im keeping them and this is definitely not out of laziness or something like that)

You have no idea how much that meant to see in my inbox

Yeah I meant to start posting again but then well, 1. my cat who ive had since 2006 died a day ago, and that killed a lot of my energy

2. again just been struggling with life and motivatioin w/ art so much that its still been a struggle to fuckin' get myself to remember to draw for this blog, but im so stubborn to keep my whole "art with every post" thing actually be part of this that i really do wanna keep my promise on that bc it'd make this blog more special if i got to do a piece everytime i post, even though it means slower updates

It means a lot to be told this though, made me honestly tear up, like, thanks. I actually really needed to hear this. <3

I won't promise I'll update this week: but im gonna post the next episode the second I am ready. I'm gonna finally spin the wheel at this point bc I fully redid th wheel with a fresh set of prompts so that the whole "lack of ideas and cant choose" thing is at least out of my way: I just hope I can manage to get myself to work again

also not helpful for me that i started rewatching amphibia and also ducktales bc i apparently am so fucking adhd that i cant keep focused on a show without randomly starting another show and then never finishing any of them (Its a miracle I've finished any show at all lmao)

anyways i'll be back to updating the second im able to i did not forgor

love yall

#toasty steven universe watchthrough

[batsinurbelfrey]

15 QUESTIONS, 15 TAGS

tagged by LA's #1 Boyfriend [gn] @18minutemajor

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYBODY? Not my first name, but my middle name is my grandmother's first.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Last night LOL, I got a Very Kind letter in the mail from someone I love very deeply, and I had just had a long and stressful day.

3. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? I always go "no, im not a person that counts pets as kids so i dont" but you know what. With Dai working her way through her FIFTH medical emergency of the year right now, im gonna say Yes. One. costs abt the damn same at this point at least lol

4. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? I DO. but it really depends on the situation, I have a deep fear of hurting someone's feelings who doesn't maybe Know me well enough yet and misreads me etc etc. Basically, the more I come to trust you, the more of a bitch I am. /jjjjjj

5. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY/HAVE YOU PLAYED? As a kid I played Basketball, Baseball, Soccer [Defence and Goalie depending on the years] , and lacrosse. Soccer was my favorite I loved both positions and liked the coaches too, lacrosse I quit after a month because I was told the girl's team wasn't allowed to play full contact but the boys was and 12yr old me went full fucking protest mode. [which admittedly pissed the city off a bit because I was there on fully paid funding through a like "get poor kids off the streets" initiative fkladjslkgadsgl but-] My dad also tried to spend a summer teaching my brother and I to play tennis at the local rec center so he'd have someone to play with but I hated that too LOL

6. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT SOMEONE? Visually its usually just, whatever's the brightest color [be that like, hair, clothes, tattoos etc] but physically im def always watching for like, "what is their level of physical comfort right now" so i can overthink it and navigate the conversation with that in mind trying to hit all the right dialogue choices for their mood like a crazy person [*Points* GAD/ADHD] /lh

7. EYE COLOUR? Gray [but blue or green in certain lights, due to like color temperature and refraction n' stuff]

8. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy endings, but ONLY if theres like. a little loss or sacrifice to get there and give it value. "feel good" movies almost always just Annoy me, they feel Empty and Dull. [but its totally fine if they are your jam. we dont yuck yums here]

9. ANY SPECIAL TALENTS? UHHH--- "i dont think so" sounds BAD lol. but maybe like "good at reading people" not in a bad manipulative way. but just in the sense of like. i tend to be the friend ppl come to when upset and confused and i watch and listen and then go "this is why you feel that way" and they are like "OH--- yeah... damn thanks that helps" etc lol

10. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Washington DC! fun fact the hospital was since bulldozed for condos and a trader joes 💀

11. WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES? drawing, live music, vinyl collecting, embroidery, video games, flower pressing, reading [when i can].

12. DO YOU HAVE PETS? YES < 3

13. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5' 9 or 5'10 seemingly, depending on which doctor you ask for some reason LOL, probably has to do with my godawful posture

14. FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? ART CLASS FOR SURE, that was always the only place I liked being. if you held a gun to me and said "no electives" tho, id say English. [what can I say, im Queer]

15. DREAM JOB? I DO NOT FUCKING DREAM OF LABOR!!!! I just want to live in a nice little house doing my nice little hobbies and seeing all my friends and magically have money for all that. that said, I am basically currently doing a younger me's "dream job" though so, can't complain too hard.

my lunch break is ending and i gotta dash SOOO im just gonna say i tag anyone who sees this and would like to do it! this is your open invitation < 3

#tag game #tagged #personal

[musicals-and-mushrooms]

Vox Machina as Undertale/Deltarune songs

Hello yes im alive! Sorry about how long this took, the holiday season got really busy and then my adhd was like ooh cleaning hyperfixation time so i have fully marie kondo'ed my room! Anyway, heres the post, if you have any suggestions just let me know, hopefully next year i can do a lot more cool cozy and nerdy ramblings for whoever enjoys it!😊

Scanlan - Death by Glamour. I mean i guess sam is just mettaton also one of his costumes looked like mettaton ex anyways. Its just a scanlan song

Keyleth - Alphys. This is definitely for kiki's socially awkward side, i couldnt find one that encapsulates how fully powerful she is! But alphys suits her i think

Pike - NGAHHH! so pike has said this before im sure of it. Also im not repeating songs so thats cool!

Grog - Temmie Village/Smart Race. Its ironic i know,(i have an intelligence of 6 i know what im doing) but its a pretty cool song. Temmie Village is what is actually going on in grogs head.

Vex - Attack of the Killer Queen. I mean the title says it all really. Shes a queen.

Vax - Don't Forget. Ok you can all go cry now

Percy - Vs. Susie. This song could have definitely been the backing track for the orthax scene in tlovm.

Sorry for not putting more detailed descriptions, im very tired. Hope you enjoy this though!

#critical role #Cr1 #vox machina #Undertale #Deltarune #Toby fox #Keyleth #keyleth of the air ashari #pike trickfoot #grog strongjaw #vaxildan #vexhalia #percy de rolo #percival fredrickstein von musel klossowski de rolo iii #scanlan shorthalt #crit role #robyn rambles