#if its bad ill just make fun of it. LOL

[empyreasheart]

new mh book put the fandom in shambles

#elisey speaks #ill probably read it out of curiousity #if its bad ill just make fun of it. LOL #mh having poorly written books isnt new the difference is that this ones pandering to older g1 fans by trying to make it really edgy #but not really understanding what g1 fans #want...? #byt also i dont really care about protecting the sanctity of monster high

[puppyeared]

MAN your art, but especially the latest pieces of Walking Fire Friend and Sparkle Dog really have the vibes of like, sanrio?? I want stickers and half a dozen accessories with them plastered all over so bad

!!! thank u for the kind words!! im playing around with the halftone effect, i like how it makes it look like a newspaper comic ^_^

#i also wanna design stickers so sososo bad.. id love to make some skip to loafer stickers with the main four <3 #i dont reallyknow much abt the process itself though.. and i dont have a paypal or any way to send or receive money in the first place orz #im sure ill do it once i figure it out but i appreciate the sentiment!!! #its been my dream to make my own custom motivational stickers with little dogs.. like the ones i used to get in grade school lol #im not sure if ill keep going in this direction with my art bc its all experimental but its been really fun playing around with it #its bothered me for the longest time that im just ass at rendering or putting detail in my art. but at the end of the day i just dont #care enough to go thru with it and i prefer to keep things simple anyway so that reflects my own tastes ig... #this is probably the closest ill get to a soft render that i like to see so if i could do more for that ill definitely try...!!!! #yapping #ask #answered #doodles #sona #puppysona

[oozeandgoo-art]

had an odd dream that i was reading a comic book. sketched a couple of the pages i could remember.

#i might adapt this into an actual story because i am SO SO SO mad that it isn't a thing i can go back to reading #oc #im definitely keeping the concept of save-bot i fucking love save-bot he's just doing his best. i love a robot who wants to help people #im not equipped to be writing about underground rebellions with any sense of real tact though #besides its in a superhero universe/story so you know it would just be so sucks lol #sketch #god the colors were so interesting. the teal parts were all very precisely crosshatched and the fire was this gorgeous brush pen looking #colored inks that just seemed like they were MOVING #and i mean some of that was because i was dreaming but god even in my halfhearted copy you can see some of the movement #it was a bad scene but a really really REALLY fun dream. i love when a book can *get* to me so i was really enjoying it #put it aside so i could take a break and woke up. instant fury at the universe for not having it be a real book instead #ill reblog with details if anyone's curious. i can explain this scene but i dont feel like it #the green people are in a secret basement though. hiding from the government. blue jacket guy is a speedster robot named save-bot who does #rescue stuff with every fire department so fire suppression technology is not very good because save-bot "can just save you'' #however they're badly over their legal occupancy and the secret basement has One (1) exit so everyone is like really fucked here. #includinig save-bot who is going to do his job until he dies because he is an ai without any sense of self preservation and he cares #which i didn't even CATCH until i woke up and started tryin to frantically note everything down #and then i was like wait. the glitter on that last page before i realized i needed a glass of water to keep reading... what WAS that... #(it was tears suspended in midair because save-bot goes so fast and also knows he's so fucked LOL) #seriously i'm so mad someone else didn't make this.

[strangeauthor]

idk if i want to do art fight anymore. i feel a little bad for saying that lol

#author makes a speech #its not for anything bad its just i realized ill get super overwhelmed and it would suck the fun out of it lol

[marsbotz]

good news for all my haters: im not coming back. not properly. i think social media and being around ppl in general is destroying me so im gonna just focus my energy on other stuff

ill probably still be a little bit active occassionally but for now i think il just stick to posting art etc. im moving to sheezy.art (which is down for maintenance rn but opens for registration again on fridays!) bc the energy there is much nicer for me.. but ill still post on here and insta. im also gonna be working on building my own website again!! so bookmark it and maybe some day itll have cool stuff on it.... :]

#idk ill see how this goes but ive been like lurking here for a couple days and every time without fail it makes me feel shitty #may not be a permanent thing but i have a couple safeguards in place now to stop me from getting sooooo bad. i think #i deleted all the apps off my phone. which has helped a lot esp deleting insta for reels #and i actually made another blog for like if i ever go Cazy again. for like vents and stuff . altho if im not on social media at all it #shldnt be a prblem #i wont share that but u can ask for it if u want. tho unlikely ill post for a while idk #for the record my neocities has like nothing on it rn. its essentially a series of tests from when i started last yr #and got nowhere lollll.. but im hoping to have a lot of fun with it soon #lol this whole thing is a little stupid. and i feel bad but just know its all my own fault. my own issues etc #its happened b4 itll happen time and time again i think. so im just gonna part ways w it #from now on if im gonna overshare it has to be in a lengthy edited well written blog post !!!!!!!!!!! #oke. bye #i do actually have smth to post later on my rnm blog but whatevaaa #oh ill start up my queues again too

[liquidstar]

a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops. #and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can! #and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here: #barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time. #barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done. #and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies. #and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them) #and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances'' #from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

[lesbiangiratina]

Phone appointment in like 20 minutes wish me luck i will need it

#was supposed to be yesterday. had a panic attack. bad. but they had to reschedule anyway. #i feel erm. not as bad. right now. power of xanax. hope its enough. #i think im stressed cuz im bad at communicating especially when anxious and communication is a little difficult with this dr to begin with #and yeah ill be honest my mom just straight up making fun of my speech issues yesterday morning probably caused it all LOL BUT ITS FINE. #the kat goes meow

[cherry-shipping]

one of the (admittedly many) reasons i love love love LOVE my uf and ht self inserts i think is because all the shit i hate about myself is amplified with them and i LOVE them for it. theyre weird gross perverted overbearing annoying creeps who nobody really feels comfortable around. and its the BEST!!!!!!!!! like yeah they suck shit. they dont know anything and theyre genuinely disturbing and disgusting people. arent they just the BEST

#cherry chats #i happen to love girls who are the worst ever. is the thing #when my ht/uf inserts make everyone around them uncomfortable and gross people out and when nobody likes them i think its so awesome and fun #they both suck so bad. theyre awesome #they dont KNOW shit they cant DO shit theyre weird nasty FREAKS #theyre overbearing and clingy and creepy and selfish and completely fucked in the head. and theyre everythinf 2 me #^____^ #i love my fucked up little self inserts. they are so not okay over there #had a visual image of my uf self insert lighting they and sans’ bed on fire cause he annoyed them. lmfao #blame kiss with a fist That song is everything in the world to me Ok #btw speaking of which i should really give my most common self inserts nicknames #because going ‘my uf and ht self inserts’ every time is a pain #like. my trollsona although i dont talk about them much is a favorite too and their name is zairku Cuz troll names etc #and in my head i nicknames my horrortale guy 207 for. some fuckin reason #ermm. whadda hell do i call that underfell freak then. #……………… cherry???? bc thats qhat i used to go by way way WAY back in the day??? #and it. SORTA fits the general uf aesthetic…..??? #well. just like how 207 was a placeholder that just became their nickname i guess cherry would be the same #if i called them that as a temporary placeholder while i think of something else itd just end up being their name anyway. lol #okie dokie hehehee thats good then ^__^ i think ill add that 2 my pages when i get out of bed #which is. very soon bcuz i wanna smoke. so im goin outside. its -4° out

[nuclearnerves]

my alter came to me and said "CAN I GIVE MY SELF INSERT OC DID" and I went "what? how the fuck are we gonna explain that to people" and she went "BIDEN.... BLAST!!!!!!" and hit me with a wave of dopamine so strong and overpowering that I blacked out and woke up to this completely and fully illustrated and went "god damn it. yeah whatever its fine."

#alia #li #kina #jackop #mama #aling #starkeeper #i have a lot of paranoia about posting this #i havent even shown it to some of my closer friends #i dont think my alter now has splintered into alters. i think these are just characters. #she likes to create and have fun and colors and organize and i dont want to stop her if it makes us happy #i dont fully understand whats going on but i know its a nice fun feeling good thing #jesus christ i literally cant remember almost everything before turning 18 and im still sitting here like 'what if this means im faking :'( #shut up dude youre mentally ill. a normal person wouldnt make this #someone whos faking doesnt read articles about DID and read comics about DID and go 'oh wow this is so relatable!!!' idiot #other peoples opinions about you does not make you a bad person. your actions do. and this is not a bad action. #this is a good fun enjoyable action. you are doing something that makes you happy even if its not for everyone its for you. #hi sorry if you are reading these tags drop a like lol #did osdd #colorkeep

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[guinevereslancelot]

the best thing about teaching toddlers is that the kids take a two hour nap in the middle of the day right after lunch and i get to spend most of that time doing nothing on my phone <3

#i spent part of it on my lunch hour today bc they went down while i was gone #and then i didnt have to do lunch time cleanup either #i just came back from my lunch hour a few minutes ago and they're literally going to be alseep for another hour and a half or two hours #and i just get sit sit here :) #usually there's some kinds of tasks to do during naptime but not today for me #but even when there's tasks its still basically an hour extra break after that #which is needed when working with kids tbh #anyway #i love getting paid to sit on the floor in the dark and scroll on my phone lol #so glad im done being horribly ill #if only this job paid better it would be the perfect job tbh #def going to start my own home daycare someday #its tiring but basically my job is to be fun and silly and make sure the kids are safe lol #also change diapers and wipe their noses all day long but its not that bad except for getting sick #i do change diapers when they start waking up from nap so i dont get the whole two hours off but still #its a very nice extra break

[birdricks]

they rlly r being super heavy handed w the messages this season huh 😭

#i dont care that much man. i like that theyre addressing stuff #but it does feel a lot less witty than how theyve done it before #rick stright up just Saying ‘oh yeah im bad at knowing when other ppl r smart’ #and the obvious parallel to morty there #i dont MINDDD…. bc u can say its bc of the therapy. making him more able to articulate stuff #vs s3 style ‘maybe you matter so little that i like you’ kind of off hand stuff #i mean. it just feels a littleeee lame tho. esp if theyre not building to anything w it #i still hope the finale can pull thru. #i dont mind them having these little moments but part way thru the ep and then immediately moving on..? sucks #again ik theyve done it like that in the past but thats mostly when its been building throughout the ep #eg wedding squanchers or whirly dirly #that first one being the whole ‘ill never open myself up again’ thing lol #whatverr man it was a fun episode. i just wish they could fully commit to one or the other u know #like whirly dirly Is fun. but the Point is the emotional part between rick and jerry #this one is just a fun ep. u dont Neeeed a hsahtag deep moment every time #again. idgaf as long as they follow theu #ok cool u brought up how rick underestimates morty and thinks it fun to bully him bc of that. DO SMTHHH WITH THIS PLEASE #rnm spoilers

[widevibratobitch]

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#havent really been active on tumblr the last few days but now i came back to post another vent and fuck off again lol hiiiiii #i havent cried in way too long. ngl sobbing hysterically in your bed does hit different lol #anyway. what a great time to remind myself of every single bad thing anyone has ever said about my body and my face <3 #anyway i finished the sobbing till i cant breathe session and now my one eye hurts like there's sth stuck in it but there's nothing #but while i was digging in it trying to find sth under my eyelid that could explain the pain i really really looked at it #my friend once said my eyes are the colour of a swamp and by god she was right. #and like damn. i was never insecure about my eyes but maybe i should add that to the list. #but like whatever. like obv im not gonna start being actually insecure about mu stupid eyes but it did hit me that there is really #not a single thing about my body that i can with all confidence say is nice/pretty/whatever. not a single thing that i genuinely like. #like at best case it's 'not as bad as it could be'. like i have nothing lol. cant even honestly say something as silly as 'i like my eyes' #cause no. they look like a swamp. #idk im just so tired of trying my best all the time and still looking like a rotting leaking bag of garbage. #i try to remind myself that i dress funny and do fun make up and that is what people will notice about me but the truth is #everyone will still always see that under all that bs im just plain ugly and just generally unattractive #and ill never be able to distract anyone from that not really #like ik people who like me dont care about that but thats the thing. #im just tired of being one of the people that will always be liked/loved/whatever 'despite' sth. #like there is nothing of value in me that is NATURAL. its all fucking fake. #anyway. wish i were dead same old same old.

[yoylechess]

play online with your friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#this was made because of tf2 #i wanna play but unfortunately i think people will want me FUCKING DEAD KILLED AND MURDERED irl if im bad at the game ive never played befo #ofc not gonna happen but what if a person on the internet thinks that for half a second then forgets??? ill be ruined!! tarnished forever!! #apparently #according 2 my brain #fun fact i found out abt tf2 via sfm and looked it up #(i was tiny itty bitty btw this is important information) #and i heard stuff about it being shut down FOREVER!!!!!!! and unplayable and stuff.. & just believed it and went OK!!! tf2 doesnt exist #& then i prompty forgot #until recently but it looks soooo fun #but also i have an anxiety disorder that kept me from leaving my house and home 99% of the time for 2 yrs #and now im TEARING EVRYTHING UP #LET ME IIIINNNNN LET ME IN TF2 #also applies to lethal league but to a lesser extent #sorry for rambling #funny how i use ta spend 100% of my time on animal jam (an online game) and now if i even THINK about an online game im like #“yeah but imagine if the entire userbase wanted you dead lol” like OKAY BRAAINNN #nothing happened on aj to make me feel this way btw i look back on aj very fondly #i do still think that da stamp from user thisdastampdoesnotexist still applies #that one where its like #animal jam logo on a black background with white text reading “i will ruin your life and everything in it” #i love that thang sm #<3 animal jam sucked lowkey but i still love it to death #and im talking about CLASSIC not fucking PLAY WILD which i will never not call play wild because its play wild #you will never be animal jam classic animal jam play wild #my relationship with animal jam is like that screenshot of a set of text messages that read as follows: #Imy 😢😢😢 #i miss you too 🥺 #i was so drunk i dont miss you bitch #<- me and animal jam

[sketchdeath]

thinking about how i legitimately have a learning disability that was never ever caught despite [insert all the horrors] and now im an adult who has barely an elementary school childs basic grasp of math 😐🤨‼️👍

#slipping thru the cracks like water #sorry i just had a random memory of like. all the times thruout my entire life that i just. couldn't do it and thought that i was going to #grow up to be a failure. #debatable rn to be honest‼️👍 #mine #i feel like i cant even talk about how little i know too. i feel like ill be ridiculed. because i have been lol! #yes ive made the effort to learn yes i went to tutoring. i just got pushed aside the majority of times because well. lol. i was coasting. #and now even doing basic math makes me actually legitimately panic. its like im reverted back to trying to do it in school and not being #able to. #i can not do mental math. i can only do some very basic stuff #i can not read fractions or decimals #i can not read big numbers #it is difficult for me to count things in a row especially if those things are very similar #i can not properly measure time or estimate the time it takes for me to get ready/leave for things. i have to plan things in advance to #extreme lengths #cant calculate a tip on the fly. very bad at estimating that. have to preplan. #struggle with coming up with how much things will cost when put together/estimating cost #super fun stuff that makes me feel infantalized as an adult 👍

[todayisafridaynight]

I genuinely can never thank you enough for the past year. I can't express how much it's meant to me to be understood and have my energy reciprocated with someone on the same wavelength. Although I've been in the fandom for quite a bit longer than most people writing in, and longer than you, even, I can't remember the last time I felt this welcome and motivated. A TRULY embarrassing amount of my work's just been fueled by "oh Snap's gonna wanna see that," and of course that circle's expanded since then, but it probably wouldn't have had I not met stream chat through you, aaaaaand if I'm honest you're still up there... lol...

It's always, always a highlight of my day to see your your work, your posts, and your responses, whether they're to me or to others, and it's always a highlight of my week to be able to make it to streams! You're a huge inspiration for me, particularly in terms of your work ethic across the board. I always come out of streams energized and feeling like I can actually finish things, and usually this is hubris, but it's gotta count for something.

Not to be dramatic, but you kinda changed my life, no exaggeration. I still really can't see myself the way I was two or three years ago not just calling it quits after some of my Gaiden experiences... lol... but I'm still around, and like always, I wanna be able to write in and interact as much as I used to sometime soon. Thanks for everything! I hope RGGS continues to deliver so we can stay in touch :3

i cant thank YOOOOU enough for the past Xsome months or so. feelins ABSOLUTELY mutual in that i wasnt sure anyone else would really be into talkin bout rgg as you and i have (or would be willing to read my. miles-long scrolls of bullshit LMAO) so it's been real fun gettin to know you an everyone and chattin !!

most bafflin thin to ever to think i have good work ethic, i feel like ive been behind everyone for the past couple weeks and even with the things i do make it's really not up to snuff. it's always nice to hear that's not supposedly exactly the case :) I Suppose :^)

rgg community (like any community lbr) can be. An Experience, esp for someone with a position like yours. so im glad i can make it worth to hang around somewhat LOL

regardless, i always look forward to you next ask or the next time you leave tags on a post i make. if i ever bother making a post again ☠️☠️

#fave #snap chats #I DID SIT ON THIS ALL DAY OOPS #i got a bit busy with some stuff...... also i always try my best to write a sufficient response cause ill feel bad if i dont </3 #mad funny youre stoked for me to see stuff And I Am Always Stoked To See Stuff cause i got a similar sentiment towards you #i mean i TRYYYY not to get too in my head bout it since then i get paranoid but i always do hope on the downlow like #'ah man. hope this is funny. hope masu likes it. hope im shot for this one' VERY NORMAL things to want :) #so funny tho. funny timin of this ask i feel like ive been disappointin people an particularly yous #which 'snap that doesnt make sense please be happy with yourself for three seconds' which. NO?? no. impossible #but i do get worried im disappointing or being too annoying or yk. just being a pest or not being adequate #so it's fun/ny gettin this ask today all that considered LOL #I MEAN I KNOW EVERYONE BEEN NICE THE PAST DAY OR SO YK SO NO REASON TO THINK IT #i cant avoid thinkin a it... my number one bully is myself he Will Not leave me alone no matter how hard i try to complain to the board #the board also bein myself. i cant excommunicate myself from myself-- #REGARDLESS. very cool that i give you motivation :) esp after streams :) #every time i finish a stream i feel like i made an ass out of myself. ALWAYS HAVE FUN. but i feel at the cost of bein obnoxious #tho i guess theres no point stayin round if i was. lest its like Last Resort kinda deal then TRULY i am sorry im The Last Resort #ILL STOP WHINING FOR FIVE SECONDS TO SAY thank you :) for everythin :) both just chattin with me an all the work you do for the community #it truly is a lot and indescribable and its very cool i have someone like that who likes what i do. you do be the beyonce in walmart to me #to reference that post i rb'd last night LOL its still hard for me to understand but ig i dont have to understand it #i think i mentioned this before but i remember when id draw for persona (cringe ik) id mostly draw adachi (this is relevant Trust) #and this one mate one day was just 'snap its really nice how much. love you bring to the adachi community' #which is a hilarious thing to say since adachi sucks but POINT IS im glad i. i THINK im kinda doing the same thing now still #thats the consensus ive gotten the past couple asks.. lol.. its nice bringin people together and havin a fun and welcomin space :) #ILL WRAP IT UP HERE THO before i make people throw up. i kept this ask hoarded long nuff.. ill just hoard it in my chest cavity instead #once more thank you forever and always :) when we inevitability branch off to other things i'll always treasure all you've done for me