#like ik people who like me dont care about that but thats the thing.

[widevibratobitch]

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#havent really been active on tumblr the last few days but now i came back to post another vent and fuck off again lol hiiiiii #i havent cried in way too long. ngl sobbing hysterically in your bed does hit different lol #anyway. what a great time to remind myself of every single bad thing anyone has ever said about my body and my face <3 #anyway i finished the sobbing till i cant breathe session and now my one eye hurts like there's sth stuck in it but there's nothing #but while i was digging in it trying to find sth under my eyelid that could explain the pain i really really looked at it #my friend once said my eyes are the colour of a swamp and by god she was right. #and like damn. i was never insecure about my eyes but maybe i should add that to the list. #but like whatever. like obv im not gonna start being actually insecure about mu stupid eyes but it did hit me that there is really #not a single thing about my body that i can with all confidence say is nice/pretty/whatever. not a single thing that i genuinely like. #like at best case it's 'not as bad as it could be'. like i have nothing lol. cant even honestly say something as silly as 'i like my eyes' #cause no. they look like a swamp. #idk im just so tired of trying my best all the time and still looking like a rotting leaking bag of garbage. #i try to remind myself that i dress funny and do fun make up and that is what people will notice about me but the truth is #everyone will still always see that under all that bs im just plain ugly and just generally unattractive #and ill never be able to distract anyone from that not really #like ik people who like me dont care about that but thats the thing. #im just tired of being one of the people that will always be liked/loved/whatever 'despite' sth. #like there is nothing of value in me that is NATURAL. its all fucking fake. #anyway. wish i were dead same old same old.

[gibbearish]

ive seen ppl saying smth in the wider plagiarism discussion to the tune of "don't worry anxious people, it's impossible to accidentally plagiarize!" and i feel like that lacks a lot of nuance that anxious brains like mine latch on to to just dismiss the possibility outright, as well as a lack of life experiences fueling it.

it is possible to "accidentally plagiarize" in that you can read something, forget about it, then a while later have your brain spit the ideas back out without telling where it got them. so of course you just assume they're yours and share them as such, because That's Where Most Of The Thoughts In Your Head Come From! and it both is and isn't plagiarism, you weren't /intending/ to pass someone's else's work off as your own, i'd even say in a way you were just as much a victim of misinformation as your audience. but you very much so did still resuse the work of someone else, even if you don't remember it.

but in my experience, this kind of thing also happens to a lot of people. you tell a friend a joke then wake up in a cold sweat two days later realizing the reason they didnt laugh was because they'd told you that joke a month ago. you reply to a friend's text and after sending you realized you ended it with the same exact phrase as theirs. you're writing edgy poetry and write a line you really like only to see it in a text post two days later saying youve already liked the post. like, it happens. so if it DOES happens and you're just honest and explain, people will understand. something like "oh shit im sorry, i totally have read that, i mustve forgotten and only remembered bits and pieces and just thought they were mine. thank you for letting me know and for the source" works wonders.

people know you can forget things. people won't automatically doubt your apology just because all true plagiarists say it was accidental. HOPEFULLY people can understand the nuance between a genuine remorseful explanation, and a thief who hoped no one would find out scrambling for excuses for why they did it. and those who can't, that's a them problem, not a you problem, you've taken responsibility for your actions as much as you can. they think the answer is simple, that the only thing stopping you from saying "yes i did it on purpose, i knew the whole time and deliberately copied them" is shame/inability to admit to your actions. but sometimes things AREN'T that simple, so imo ppl who are shitty to you for not following the script they made up for you in their head should be ignored

#youre allowed to make up scripts for people in fact good luck stopping yourself since thats kinda just part of how conversation works #is you try to predict how your audience will react to a certain statement #and my therapist actually encouraged me to practice run stuff i wanna talk about in sessions because That Makes It Easier To Talk About #like who cares if it's rehearsed‚ it's still the truth‚ yknow? #however that only applies to the things /you/ want to say. you are the only one aware of this script and the only one who agreed to it in #the first place which is why you plan contingencies into the script #is because you only have control over one character and can only take guesses at what the others might say #if you guess wrong and they do something different that doesnt mean /theyre/ not following the script #it means /your/ copy was a misprint and you filled in the blanks wrong. so do what good actors do and improvise. you'll get back on script #eventually. or not‚ if your guesses devolved into wildly speculative fanfiction‚ but frankly you knew going into it that #most of your script was guesswork so you should be prepared to have to make some things up on the fly #or see again: prepare contingencies #if your guesswork on your copy of the script turns out to be wrong‚ wouldnt it be sooo handy to have a second copy which follows this #version of events much better? #and if not that one‚ maybe this third? how about this fourth? etc etc etc #but really just. when guessing at what others will say. know that you are guessing and dont hold it against /them/ if youre wrong #sorry ik that wasnt super related to the post itself im just also passionate abt that #plagiarism #james somerton

[yuridovewing]

As a fellow Dovewing lover, it's frustrating how the fandom watered her down into a whiny brat who never cared about Ivypool. I mean, seriously? Not only did Dovewing care about her sister (reacting in horror when Lionblaze, her own mentor and Jayfeather are willing to potentially sacrifice Ivypool's safety by employing her as her spy instead of trying to get her out of the Dark Forest's clutches, hiding a thorn in her nest to cover for her scarring from her training).

Heck, even the scene where she tries to feed Ivypool her catch during a hunting patrol was demonized because 'she was trying to make Ivypool break the code like SHE does, as if it doesn't matter' and because she got upset when Ivypool started arguing with her! But you guys said she didn't care, right? Plus, people act like being forced into a prophecy is something you should be grateful for, as if it didn't irreparably change her close relationship with her sister? As if Lionblaze and Jayfeather didn't still keep her out of the loop (and for all the fussing they made about keeping it a secret, Lionblaze confesses his power to Cinderheart and Jayfeather doesn't even care).

Meanwhile Nightheart is angry he isn't orange and hates his mom for being exiled and the whole world has to stop for him. 🤪 And Bramblestar is simply so tortured by having an evil father, the only choice is to train with him and his evil half-brother and hide this from his wife! (But remember, it's bad when that witch Squirrelflight hides the parentage of the three from him, even when Blackstar and Leopardstar were still around after being complicit in the torture and killing of halfclan cats.) Why are these male characters sympathized with, even when they actively harm people (Nightheart forcing himself into Sunbeam's life by lying to everyone about being her mate without even asking her if she would be fine with that beforehand), Bramblestar (we all know what he does), but when Dovewing or any other female character is upset, people freak out and call them whiny brats or abusive for (checks notes) asking her partner if he loves her anymore after they argued multiple times in a book. Really makes you think! (Sorry this is so long, you just have based opinions!)

dovewing being characterized as this flighty airheaded vain popular girl stereotype in fanon is like. one of those biggest "we didnt actually read the books" things in the fandom. like theres so much fanart where shes grinning and giggling over the prophecy and shes besties with the trio and shes got preferential treatment, and then in the actual books shes basically the autistic kid no one actually likes. people really, REALLY overexaggerate that one scene where she snaps at ivypaw and brags. (and i dont wanna shit on amvs but i am forever side eying how the animation community handled dove back in the day. more than one person animated her getting murdered. normal.)

i do think its gotten better recently at least. but wow does it feel like at least one person on the writing team has a bone to pick

(also awww thank you <3 no need to be sorry i love getting stuff in my inbox)

#it does also feel so insidious to me just how long the bramblesquirrel conflict was painted as ''equally kind of wrong'' #the ppl who put words in squilfs mouth sometimes which. btw ill get to that when i read the book #and tbf part of it is that sometimes abuse isnt as easy to spot if youre primed to the mainstream version of it #like. bramble isnt a born evil wifebeater everyone can see coming from a mile away. hes a complex guy with his own insecurities #and his own goals and people he openly cares about. and even in some fanon stuff i see ppl kinda erase that part of him #(which i wont pretend im above- ive been trying to walk that line myself) #and that doesnt match how abusers are usually percieved by the public. or in this very series. #like. the main excuse for clear sky is literally ''hes sad his sister died and tried to save her! no one changes THAT much'' #anyone can be an abuser. you could be an abuser. i could be an abuser. that doesnt mean that we ARE but we are capable of it #and the thing that catches ppl off guard is that abusers are really good at hiding who they are and theyre often charming #i often hear this account of abuse that goes something like ''my parent abused me but no one believed me bc theyre nice in public'' #you dont know whats going on behind closed doors. and ik this is about funny kitties at the end of the day but its quite telling #so... yeah bramble has his nice moments. hes got his GREAT moments even. i love his relationship with his mom for example #but those moments dont mean that hes not capable of being worse. of being a monster to his loved ones #its why squilf keeps getting sucked back in. hes not a one dimensional asshole. hes capable of being kind to her. #and thats what makes his disgusting moments hit so much harder #wow ok i got off topic in the tags but yknow. idk i got feelings abt this matter as someone who's experienced toxic relationships

[hexados-on-a-string]

spectragus dont get enough credit for being a sun and moon ship but like. destructive sun and moon ship. sun and moon ship but they're the forces of nature the sun and moon actually are. the sun is harsh and relentless and unpredictable in its evil but also it's kindness, the moon is sharp and cold and cruel, a harsh light that doesn't allow you peace, but can also guide you, a light in the darkness. even on nights with a new moon, with no light in the sky, the moon is always reflecting the sun, and it'll be that way until they come to their end.

#spectragus give me a dopamine high that any sort of drug couldn't even come close to giving me #its the loyalty. its the seeing each other at their worst and still staying. #its the being the only person still around who knows and understands what youve been through #its the being so important to each other's characters that u cant mention one without recognising the impact the other has on them #i dont rlly do shipping unless its funny but also im a huge gus fan so like. yea. plus my view on romance is a bit all over the place anyway #something something my skrunkles deserve complicated relationships that are more than romantic but something else #its the trust thats the most important thing to me. trust and loyalty and devotion and #im sorry but i would have exploded if i like. didn't write down these thoughts #anyways fucked up gay people who are a package deal and that is a threat thats them #ik the majority of my posts are hee hee funnie and i usually dont take things too seriously #but these two have taken up part of my brain permanently since i was 8. like. they just live there. rent free. #i am like rabid rn. i am feral and i am insane and i am crazy and there are so many things wrong with me #i cant even write down all my fuckin thoughts there's so many my brain is going to Explode pray for me #idk if u understand how important it is to me the times they show kindness even while at their worst #they're not good people but they have people they care about and they care abt each other and that matters SO much #i take 0 criticism on my posts i only take cash. however there is no possible criticism to be made bc i am RIGHT #also this all kinda sparked from me getting obsessed with a certain kh character who has a connection to the moon #who is also one of my favourite characters ever #and if u know who it is and u also like him ur very cool #im not tagging this w character tags. im like. very shy. but #i love gus i love spectra i love spectragus #anyways see u next time where i should hopefully have art maybe potentially #i found the brushes i used to use back when i did lineless art so i am rlly happy

[beegswaz]

oh what the fuck How did i never notice one of my Eyelids droop what the fuck

#taking Photos beclaws i wanna paint myself Vs my slightly crooked nose my lazy eye And my droopy eyelid #i love my lazy eye Beclaws soo many people growing up made Fun of me for it so i loved it Out of spite #and thats evolved into ACTUALLY loving it #i like my dimples Beclaws i generally just think i Look nice #i used to think my smile was fugly as all Hell but now i quite love it #same goes for My resting face my lips are downturned normally but i Think i look soo silly #and i dont think my Crooked nose is noticeable so i Dont care about it mich #BUT THIS FUCKONG DROOPY EYELID. #ik its something ill eventually come to love about myself like everything else #but for now i Dont. like it. that much. #like ok. i Love loving myself and thatll never stop but #grrahh sometimes i Notice something and i go What The Fuck Is That. Die. #but its wbatever. loving myself if More important than hating parts of me. #thats why i Love drawing myself so much. i used to Never draw myself fun fact #i thinl #more people Should draw yhemselves. its so nice And fun actually #paint yourself draw yourself Study ypur body for things use the Experience you have being you #and make Something genuinely wonderful beclaws its *you who made it* and Itll *always be you* #sorry i Did not mean to ramble in the tags but #yk. loving yourself is important To me #love yourself beclaws thats YOU! hating yourself is Only going to slowly drive people away. #care abt yourself And things will get oh so much better i Prommy

[snekdood]

Im so tired of acting the way i think some ppl on here think i should act. Im tired of assuming theyre seeing me through the lens my ex provides for them. Im tired of feeling like nothing i say or do matters anyways because people have made up their mind about me and refuse to try to see me in another light. I know who I am and I know what im like and im tired of trying to almost essentially help people see me change my behavior for the better from something i never even was? Because i guess i feel like if i act like most people dont know about the issues between me and my ex that means other people will think im just *pretending nothing is wrong or happening*. It feels like i cant win either way. I cant play pretend as this horrible person whos trying to reform and have people allow me the chance to actually change and recognize that change and i cant also be myself and just know myself without people thinking im just ignoring this thing that isnt even a thing i need to work on or ever even fucking did. Im so tired of feeling convinced that other people are convinced im horrible and having to work from there and having to try to navigate that situation and get someone to see my side of things because ive just come to the conclusion that some people just will refuse to and idk. Theres nothing i can do in this situation. I just know i didnt deserve any of it.

#im like one of the most careful fucking people in the world istg #even before all of this but now especially after this bc im operating under the assumption that ppl see me as if im not #i almost feel brainwashed by what i think others perception of me is like online. #and then i try to go through the steps i think someone who did fo those things would do. or as if i did do those things and what id do #in that situation afterward. but i didnt do those things. and i dont need to live and operate as if i did to prove to other ppl i have the #emotional and mental maturity that i do #i dont need to sit here and let people gaslight me into their perception of me or at least what i think it is #i am such a good stinky lil guy. its people like my ex and the people around them online that brought out all this bitterness in me. #i resent those people so much. and i cant help but feel like theyre all stalking me still all the time. they want me to live like that too #like im in a panopticon. but this is what im saying- if i move on like i know myself and operate as myself the way ik myself #THOSE PEOPLE will come around and then act like im ignoring the situation with my ex and 'trying to escape responsibility' #i dont know why i feel so obedient to their perception. i mean i guess i know why like probably bc of my brother pushing me into a box #and me feeling like i have to stay in there or be abused. i feel the same way with my ex- if i dont act like ive been in the box they put #me in this whole time then they are going to get mad at me and try to come after me more i feel like. #i feel like thats when theyre really going to try to sic their followers or friends after me. #idk but im going to stop. i dont care how you see me. its not real. its not true. it never was. i was abused by this person and thats the #final truth about it. im not saying i couldnt have been reactively abusive sometimes with them but all the things they say i did #that they did to me but say i did but x10 worse? no. fuck off. thats not fucking me. you DONT KNOW ME. YOU HAVENT BEEN AROUND ME #ALL MY LIFE GROWING UP. IF YOU KNEW ME YOU WOULD KNOW ID NEVER DO THAT SHIT. YOU WOULD FUCKING KNOW THAT. #which is why i know you dont know me. none of you do. im tired of operating the way i think you want me to. #im tired of trying to empathize with people i dont want to LIKE my ex or my brother or my sister or my dad #im tired of trying to see things the way they do. how my ex is probably just this dumb scared kid inside who does dumb shit and doesnt #think about the consequences and doesnt care about the consequences of their actions because their only priority is #self preservation. like i dont care. i understand but i dont care. they still hurt me. they still did what they did to me. #they still know they did something wrong otherwise they wouldnt have started this whole smear campaign. #im tired of trying to sympathize with them. give them a million chances to change. do what i can to encourage them to actually have empathy #even towards the people they hurt and like to smear. #because they dont do the same for me. i know. i know theyre still shit talking me. i know they cant stop because if they did theyd have to #have more empathy about me on a whole lot of things they dont want to think about bc they dont want to feel about how they treated me #and continue to treat me by keeping up this narrative abt me online. they dont give a fuck so why am i extending so much to them.

[thoughtfulseason]

17 days until i’m 27

#gonna try to keep my expectations low for this thing too #cause last time during my birthday celebration no one even asked how i am. who cares that its my bday? who cares about the fact that its #my day?? nope. i even got insulted cause i sat on the part of the sofa where my aunt wanted to sit #i just wasnt as obedient as usual and she did NOT like it #so yeah when everyone went home i just had a breakdown cause nobody cared about me #i wish they’d care now but i’ll try to not expect anything #which for me is basically impossible but ill try #its just… i always hope that on my birthday people will finally show me love but i guess thats a pretty fucked up thing #if they dont like me thats fine. one day my people will love me everyday. not just on my bday. and not out of pity #its just that ive been lonely for so long #but its ok #but no celebration this year except we’ll just acknowledge it during easter. cause mine’s on easter second day #by we i mean my family my grandma and cousin families #i do have my delusiona about coach surprising me but ik thats not gonna happen #its just that he’s my favourite person and i’m a maladaptive daydreamer so #just gonna ignore my brain #no one in fencing will probably gonna remember my birthday #except the ones who have me on facebook

[sk3l3t0n444]

#totally not related a bit to my project hehe #can you guys tell im really excited about it? like ive been working on this a lot #ive been trying to make it better and im genuinely really proud of it rn #most of you guys wont care #but for those who will i hope you dont hate it lol #tbh im really scared that people will think i did a bad job #ik i say that shit everytime but thats really all i can think about #me: doing a project ive been wanting to do for months just because i enjoy it #also me: what if everybody hates it and calls you slurs and doxxes you because they hate your project #ik realistically the worst reaction imma get is some anon hate if that but like i fear criticism so much... #like i feel like if i dont make everybody happy then i make everybody angry #i tend to see things like that in black and white but things that most people think is black and white i see in all sorts of shades of grey #wow i got really off topic #ANYWAYS #Spotify

[s0urte3th]

i mean, im not saying im.. bad i guess?

#more so.. saying im a hazard. a hazard that allows myself to be touched despite.. the fact i probably shouldnt! #history repeats itself and im afraid itll do that again #i dont wanna bring you down with me. i know im a handful. i know i hurt parts of you whenever i speak #urgh #how does one recover? how does a person like me be normal for the people i love and care about? #i dwell on that a lot. its why i wish i could be normal. because if i was normal i wouldn’t have a screwed up noggin! #i dont care if its a bad thing to wish.. but i wish i could be normal for you! for everyone! #im tired of being the mentally ill freakazoid that even i tend to hate on. one who sits and mopes because working is hard. #how do i get better when i can only learn to cope with the thoughts? theyll never go away. the memories wont ever go away. #the bad feelings wont go away because.. i was born with them! i just need to learn how to cope #but how do i properly cope? do i just.. shut up? so that i stop hurting you? #i dont know if ive ever found a coping mech that works! other than ignoring but thats just destructive. #sorry for the ramblings. ik its all over the place. my minds a bit scattered atm..

[florida3exclamationpoints]

My friend just put on her ig story ......that she thinks Taylor's music is boring........ bc it all sounds the same........ and then also mentioned how gross tik tok swifties are....... which is like. Bestie :) I love you :) my best friend :) one of those things is an opinion I can respect and one is Them Which Shall Not Be Named these topics do not mesh

#i get where shes coming from with the production sounding similar sice lover/rep #BUT. idk i just dont care about production 😭 i feel like people get so held up on it that they ignore lyrics #which are a million times more important to me #she also said that none of Midnights had good build ups/drops and were too flat and melancholy #which is a perfectly fine personal opinion #(she followed that up with she skipped through a lot of Midnights tho sdjskdbks) #but thats an interesting take to md bc like??? its a whole album about depression???? #the promo for it was this is an album about how i am mentally ill and stay up all night thinking about how much i hate myself #so ???? SLSLDNSK #but i told her to listen to would've could've should've i think she'll like that #BUT THE TIK TOK SWIFTIES THING i wanna be like DONT ASSOCIATE ME EITH THEM #ik she doesn't but omg #i wanna be like hey if you wanna see swifties who are sane and funny and have good opinions then look on tumblr #but i am not exposing myself 😭😭😭 #also we're not sane. we're more sane than tik tok swifties in some ways. not in others. #I JUST!!!!! if we wanna talk about Taylor's sound and experimentation woth genre thats one thing #and its completely a personal opinion if you like one sound more than another i respect that #i would like. for assumptions to not be made by skipping through an album :) but whatever #she knows how i feel about Taylor i know how she feels and she doesn't hate her and we both respect each other's opinions #but if we're talking about tik tok swifties. 1. they shouldn't represent Taylor as an artist #2. they shouldn't represent the fandom as a whole #3. I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE TO BE EXCLUDED FROM THIS NARRATIVE I PROMISE I HATE THEM MORE THAN YOU DO #(her main complaints were about how much they worship her which i completely agree with. its weird and gross) #(that woman is a human) (i love her too but don't be weird about it) #I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THESE 2 VERY DIFFERENT CONVERSATIONS ARE HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME AKHDKS #anyway

[caruliaa]

hmm girlies we may have acted a bit irrationally earlier this week. lol

#likee. she wasnt even making fun of it that much it was j one post critiquing her song writing like. idk #well. i cant take it back now lol so #idk it just kinda sucks bc like. it feel like so much that everyone around me is just making fun of this interest i have #to the point were i feel weary even about people id otherwise consider friends (although not close ones) mocking my interest and its fans #(and by extension me because i am a fan and its something im passionate about) openly without like. caring about #how feeling mocked by my peers would affect me #becuase it fucking sucks !! it really does its an awful feeling having something you love be treated as embarrassing to enojy #and i have experienced that feeling before including by ppl close to me and i think that still affects me a lot subconsciously #even if theyve since apologized and i dont hold it against them i still feel mentally impacted esp w past expeince of my interests being #mocked. i just like. its really realy easy for me to be on the offense and like. i have been trying to combat those feeling and not get #upset over minor things but idk sometimes its really hard and its easy sometimes to get overly worked up over small things that really #arent me and my interest actually jsut being made fun of but a differnece opinion on them which is fine for someone to have #but idk its jsut easy to feel made fun of when you are constantly surronded by ppl even via just following and shit who ARE #making fun of you idk. ik im not acting rationally but u guys wldnt if u had an interest that it feels like every one around u thinks is #'cringe' and uve seen ppl be told to kill themselves over having. an idk its jsut rly confliciting and im trying to not be irrational but #i feel like im being pushed into being the kind of intense fan who cant handle any critique of smth even when i dont want to be #bc it feels like the other option is to constantly have that interest mocked cosntalty and j put up with it which wears you down sm #and im trying to find a third option but it doesnt feel like thats just up to me like ofc theres some effort i need to and trying to put in #but its also up to the people around me and bc theres no foolproof 'will this person mack my interest' test i can do on everyone i become #mutuals w its kinda like. idk ig if your a mutual and ur reading this pls do be like. idk mindful of the fact that im a part of this online #community that youre in and if mocking smth i enjoy (im. talking abt tswift here if it isnt obvious) is smth you really cant go w out #then genuinly fair enough but please make dont continue to have me as a peer and if you do want to keep me as a part of your online #community jsut be like. mindful w me and everyone if youre mocking smth someone you wnat to have in your community cares abt #esp if its already widely mocked on here yk. idk just try to be kind and considerate of the ppl around u and like. ofc u cant keep track of #everyone ur gonna mess up and thats understandable but like. idk i dont wanna seem to self centered staying this but i remember #a while ago i made a post like pointing out a ship as an example of ships that were really popular despite there not being anything to them #(imo) but i still didnt mock the ship at all and b considerate of ppl that ship it bc ik i have mutuals who rly love tht ship and i didnt #want to make them feel bad bc theyre ppl i care abt even if we arent close and i. kinda wish i cld b offered the same grace idk #idk. also its 5am im going to go to sleep now. gn luce if ur reading this ilu<3 #flappy rambles

[msallurea]

Things I'm manifesting

-Everything from my notes/Dream life (this just basically everything😭)

-Dream face

-Dream body

-Lighter prettier eyes

-Caramel brown skin (think goldenbih)

-Being 5'1 in a half + weighing 110lbs

-Smaller prettier feet, hands, toes, nails

-3b curls/perfect hair

-Lighter hair with caramel highlights

-Freckles + Beauty marks

-Natural makeup appearance

-Dream wardrobe/Fashion/Aesthetic

-Dream mansion + living in luxury city

-Being famous/celebrity/superstar/popstar

-Desired talents/talented at everything

-Being an it girl + sex symbol + muse + vixen (yall get it 😭)

-Being master manifestor + perfect pretty self concept (even tho technically I already am this its just like why not? Ya know😭)

-Dream parents/family + Being an only child (I'm sick of this sibling shit 😒) + radiate and embody hot older sister energy (just cuz I don't wanna be a older sister no more doesn't mean i dont still want the energy😭)

-Prettier handwriting +top notch writing skills/communication skills/over the top intelligence/stupidly high IQ(basically just the brainsy gyal)

-perfect 50/50 HD eye sight + looking hot asf in any pair of glasses (I wanna not be blind but still be fine)

-Prettier whiter teeth and pinker tongue and gums and just dental/mouth in general + OP top notch hygiene skills (I feel people who have bipolar depression understand this part)

-better mental health + no mental health issues + no anxiety/fearful etc

- balanced hormones + increased estrogen(as a girl I have wayy too much testosterone n I've been insecure about it for years)

-perfect coochani + OP coochanini skills (ummm so this is just self explanatory but honestly if yk yk 😭)

-Naturally smell like my desired scent (which is basically like a bakery n just so deliciously annoyingly sweet and seductive; but remember how I said I have too much testosterone gor my body to handle yea..ifykyk😭)

-No more sweating (I don't sweat excessive I just hate it period)

-top notch crystal clean health + no more constipation + no longer pooping n its healthy (ik somebody gon question me but those who suffer from severe constipation especially for me its been my whole life u understand where I'm coming from)

- desired voice + accent + unique lingo n slang etc

-Desired personality + persona + aura + vibe etc etc

-super flexibility skills

-unbearably photogenic videogenic audiogenic + always looking perfect naturally

-Desired school, friends, lover, etc + school it girl

-Speak/know already desired languages

-drivets license, car, motorcycle, etc etc

-Be intimidatingly wealthy (when I say wealthy I mean WEALTHYYYYY) + come from a family of aristocrats + wealthy generational family in general (yall know what I'm tryna say) + luxury etc etc

-Revised life and childhood

-Dream singing + rapping skills + song writing etc

-Good in all sports like frfr just good at everything (basically the perfect it girl)

-Be a Gazillion times better then Kokomi teruhashi (not tryna be self centered i promise🥲)

-Perfect life + graduation + live teenage fever dream

-Bald, completely hairless body and face (but keeping my brows, lashes and scalp hair)

It's more I just can't think of it rn but this is all I will be manifesting

How will I manifest all this?

So for me I'm not really tryna overcomplicate any more I'm just gonna go straight back to the basics n apply what I know which is choose what I desire, affirm/assume its done and persist. I already overconsumed so much and at this point it's a waste of time. I'm not really tryna do no challenges I'm just gonna focus strictly on trusting and having faith not just in myself but my imagination and subconscious thats its done n taken care of, I'll give yall updates on anything that happens soon! I love you guyssss💗💗💗

Affirmations I'll be using

-I have all of my desires from my notes

-I am living my dream life

-it is done

-I choose to live my new story, my old story no longer exist

#law of assumption #manifestation #manifesting #neville goddard #affirm and persist #affirmations #MsAllurea

[austinsastrology8991]

> NUMEROLOGY THEORY < get mad

This is easily my most controversial post. but if you want to watch me spit in numerology face, then please read away

Alright i love my numerology. But i think its complete bullshit. Ive read so many sites and intepretations but they just say the same shit everytime, but when they explain themselves im like wtf that barely makes sense - for example life path 3 is jupiter, and it means; creativity, communication, inspiration. And i guess it makes enough sense to not question it. but i question everything, and i think we can do better than that >And thats where i come innnnn >>> 1 sun : MERCURY - Mercury is the first planet of our solar system, the sun aint a planet it just bright - all life path 1's dont act sunny at all, they act smart and calculated and they are 'independent' but the concept of the sun is not independent - the sun loves to share - mercury is independent, because to have an opinion requires an independent thought from others perspectives. - 'goal orientated' - so we all just don't care about our goals? bull shit fuck that, sounds like a mercury thing to only care about ur own opinion anyway - the sun likes to share and be the 'star' 1 energy don't it focused (like mercury) 2 moon : VENUS - the moon is not about the other (2 people) moon is technically a selfish energy, its about how you feel (yes people make you feel s type of way, but if you lonely, you gonna feel like shit anyway) venus is more appropriate planet for 2, becasuse 2 people requires diplomacy snd sharing, not the moon, the moon acts as a reflection, but it is not diplomatic, its selfish (but adorable) it takes 2 people to love and thats what venus all about, thasts why 2 should be venus (not 6 i'll get into dat) but this one should be pretty straightforward 3 Jupiter : EARTH - Jupiter is abundance and it could be 3 but theres a better answer for jupiter (coming up) 3 is earth because 3 is the holy trinity, god clearly loves earth the most, so its 3 okay, and everyone likes 3 (apparently) 3 is creative - there is no planet more colourful than earth - 3 is communicstion (everything on earth makes a lot of noise) and its inspiring - everywhere you look theres something inspirational on earth - you cant say that about any other planet - the rest of them just got a surface i guess 4 Uranus : Mars - whoever made up 4 as uranus imma slap the shit outta. 4 is a stable number (4 corners to mske s house) 4 is stability -4 is the emperor in tarot - uranus is nothing like that uranus is a crazy as fuck boiiiiiii. mars is far more appropriate, mars wants something it gets it (like emperor, in tarot) also a square is a 4, and thst mskes sense for mars because he all about conflict and competition. also they practical and sensible, and if your as bold as mars, your dsmn right you better be pracitcal or your gonna look like a fool and mars dont want thst.

5 Mercury : Jupiter - i understand 5 is about adventure and exploring, but its so much more fitting for it to be jupiter than fkn mercury. you see how dumb this shit is now??? look at the bigger picturre yall; numerologists didnt study the planets and it shows. 'change and progress' thats jupiters schtick, well hell its a little uranusy but mercury is a stretch. also everyone likes jupiter snd thsts why he 5 - he in the middle because everyone like him 6 Venus : Saturn - now ik your thinking saturn is karma and karma is infinite so it should be 8. well no your wrong, karma is not infinite. its however much you do you get back > think about how you draw the number 6 - you write a line (you do something) and it comes right back at ya (the cirlce bit). its also the lovers because saturn got a ring and everyone wanna find their special person to put a ring on > also saturn loves you, but he loves smacking you too. just like someone who loves you 7 Neptune : Uranus - ok this one does make some sense... because its about solitude and introspection... but anyway it took god 7 days to make the world - and the creation of the world changed the game you could say (like uranus is about change) - it also makes sense for uranus, because to change the world, you gotta observe it not be apart of it (to understand how it works) but you know what neptune does make sense here, so i get where they coming from

8 saturn : Neptune - wanna know what actually infinite? your spirit, spirituality, GOD IS INFINiTE - not yo karma - jesus fkn christ lawd save us and please forgive me for saying yo name in vain as many times as i do but WAT DA FUCK HAPPENED - Ik its associated with being a boss or a leader but to me its about achieving yo dreams, the real boss is someone like 6 or 4 (saturn - mars) and ik you thkink 6 is about love - but yall got no clue how much strength and fortitude it takes to love and it shows, thsts why saturn slaps you in the face as often as he be do > A leader must be in tune with god or they gonna get cancelled and not be givin leadership (dont forget who in charge you little shit)

9 Mars : Pluto - "embarking on a lifelong quest to quench an insatiable thirst for growth and new experiences" um okay - so how tf is that mars? mars is thirsty, but he dont care about growth he just wants some pussy. BUt pluto... now that makes more sense. Pluto wants the truth no mstter the price, and our life path 9's are on a infinite journey of digging and digging and thats what pluto do. pluto will literally put himself in jail just to see whst it feels like, mars will just fight everything, to attain his goals. pluto willl let you punch him to see how hard you punch. Stay dumb - yes i made this up - just as the old numerologists made it up - you dont have to believe me, thats why i dont believe in you.

I also believe if god is real, why wouldn't it be simple? why not correlate each number (and there only 9 numbers - excluding 0) why would it not be in the order god intended it to be?

#numerology #astro community #astrology blog #astro theory

[mishwanders]

UR BLOG IS AMAZINGGGGG, i hope u are well! Are u takin request? If u are, may u please do a little ficlet of the chain with a fashion designer reader? If u cant, thats ok! I wish u best of wishes and u are amazing! Dont u forget that u are perfect the way u are 😊

Thank you! I’m going rabid over this request because I like crocheting clothes and I’ve actually thought about what I would want to make for each of them 😂 you could say that this is, Time-ly (bad joke Ik).

AN+Warnings: N/A, safe for everyone. Written by Mishwanders - pls do not repost.

“Uh, whose is this?” Wind asked, holding up a red embroidered handkerchief. “Wild?”

Wild eyed the small cloth from his spot at the cooking pot and shook his head. “Not mine. Legends maybe?”

“Not mine either. It looks like it has your name on it in the corner. Are you sure your sister didn’t place that into your bag before you left?” Legend asked, settled in the ground, leaning against the log.

Wind shook his head. “No, I haven’t seen it ‘till now.”

“Speaking of mysterious things - I found the hole in my shirt patched up with a new embroidered piece. Looks brand new.” Sky mentioned

“Are the Minish sneaking stuff into our bags? I found a new tunic in my bag that fits like a glove and has a pretty design. I’m afraid to ruin it, it’s so nice.” Hyrule chimed in.

“It’s possible, but I find it unlikely. I think it take at least three Minish to hold a needle, no less more to actually embroider something like Wind’s ‘kerchief.” Four commented

“Then who’s been sneaking new things into our stuff?” Warriors asked

You sat on your own spot, biting down on your lip to keep from snickering. You had been the culprit of mending and making new things you’d new the liked or needed, a minor assistance in your journey together. Plus, you liked making things for others and seeing the surprise on their face when they saw it. You were hoping that your hidden deeds would stay that way, but wolfie was standing by Wind, sniffing at the handkerchief and picking up on your scent.

Dang it!

At least the dog couldn’t speak. He couldn’t give you away that easily. However, his state in your direction could have easily been a dead hive away. You patted the spot beside you and the dog made his way closer. You gently scratched behind his ear, trying to divert the attention away from you by praising Wolfie instead. “Aaawww such a good boy!”

However, the actions were not missed by a Time. He sat next to you, gently bumping your shoulder. “I don’t think the culprit has gotten into everyone’s things, mine hasn’t been touched yet. What about yours?”

You narrowed your eyes at him for a split second, knowing he was trying to bait and corner you.

“As a master of fact, I do.” You replied, picking up your bag from the ground to start digging through it. The only problem was though, is that Time quickly snatched it from you and held it.

You scoffed at him, scrambling to try and get it back. “Hey!”

Time kept his hand out on your shoulder keeping you pushed back as he allowed Wolfie to sniff the bag. “Same scent?”

Wolfie nodded. Dang it…

You were then pelted with a plethora of questions like small deku nuts pelting away at you. “Okay! Okay! Yes, it was me the whole time - but I wanted to make stuff for you and make sure your stuff still looks nice. Can’t have the hero’s running around all the Hyrule’s looking raggedy with loose threads and huge holes in their breeches or tunics.”

“Why hide it?” Warriors asked

“I like to see people surprised by the gifts I make them and I don’t really care for credit.” You replied

“Well, for what it’s worth, thank you. The new design on my tunic looks quite nice.” Four commented

You smiled sheepishly. “Don’t mention it.”

“Anyone you haven’t hit yet with your secret yet?” Wild asked

You pointed at Time. “Him and Twilight.”

“Saving the best for last I see. Have anything special planned?” Time asked with a cheeky grin.

You folded your arms. “Maybe, but there’s no way in the Depths that your finding out before it’s done.”

“Oh yeah? Wolfie, fetch.” He commanded, tossing it into the dogs mouth.

Your eyes went wide as you realized what was about to happen, seeing Wolfie’s tail wagging wildly. You knew the wolf was gonna take it directly to Twilight. “Wolfie…”

He took off running around camp with you chasing right after him. The others laughed at how easily Wolfie evaded you and each attempt you made at grabbing the bag. “Oh come on! Give it back.”

“Not until you tell us what you have planned.” Time chuckled.

“You’re insufferable old man! I’m not telling you - you have to wait!” You replied, sounding rather winded with the chase.

“Could you at least tell us what you have planned for the Rancher?” Time asked

You groaned, giving into his request seeing as how Twilight was not here. “I have plans to make him a new waist belt to replace his torn Ordanian one. Happy?”

Time smiled. “Very.”

Wolfie sat down and held the bag up to you. You took hold of it, eyeing the wolf. “You give it back without making me play tug-o-war I’ll make you a toy.”

Wolfie liked the sound of that, so he dropped it into your hand. You snatched it and held the bag close you it’s chest before narrowing your eyes at time. “You’re getting the scratchiest pair of wool underwear I can make for that.”

The others laughed and Time chuckled at your small threat.

“Looking forward to it.”

#linked universe x reader #linked universe x you #the chain x reader #writing: the chain #sfe #sfw #linked universe

[crowtechs]

ok so ik theres a post i made floating around buuuuuuuut i want to make another one as i just like to do reminders for myself and other people as well :]

for starters:

be self indulgent! be so so incredibly self indulgent, be selfish with your works. write for yourself, draw for yourself. i know thats easier said than done and believe me i am still learning to be like that, but i promise its so *so* worth it because guess what? being self indulgent is fun, doing things for yourself is so *so* fun!!

like was said in that post probably, do aus, play with your favourites, add new tropes, add the most abstract things to whatever youre creating!! who cares if what youve did was did multiple times, who cares if its the same thing over and over, its NEW because guess what *you* made it and thats awesome :]

selfshipping is really cool and fun! like this entire post is on about, its for you and you should enjoy yourself, you should have fun! its ok if you dont write fics, its ok if you dont draw things for it, its ok if you dont do anything inside the community and are keep it hidden. whatever you do, thats so rad and your f/o loves and adores you w/e you do to show your love for them!

reminder: be easy on yourself. let yourself enjoy things, let yourself enjoy the process, let yourself explore. you should be gentle. never doubt yourself, do things you love, be self indulgent and have fun with it. whether you want to show it off to the world or not; its for you.

#reminder #psa !!! #ig i can just add #self ship #selfship #self ship community #selfship community #to the mix #idk just be kinder to urself its ok to enjoy things #even that is easier said than done #its nice to enjoy yourself </3

[r4bidcherry]

SCIKE

ship it

1. what made you ship it?

tbh ive always liked toxic ships i just never embraced it due to all of the fandoms i was a part of before td had no media literacy or nuance so if you ever shipped anything that didnt fit peoples impossible standards of cutsey uwu smol beans who have zero problems youd be compared to people who shipped literal illegal and disgusting shit which i very much do not appreciate due to some prior experiences with those type of people that im not gonna get into just know it traumatized me so yeah maybe dont compare me to those type of people that i hate with a burning passion lol

ik that wasnt much of a why i do but the answer is simple besides me saying the obvious stuff that goes for basically all ships and i really just wanted to finally rant about that lol 💀

2. what are your favorite things about the ship?

this could be argued that this has nothing to do with the ship buttttt the fellow shippers ive met multiple people who are pretty cool and nice and who became my mooties all because we loved our little toxic boys 🫶

and the fact the ship has really brought out the worst in mike and really leaves no room for woobification like let that man go ham!!!

most of the things i could list are less about the ship canonically and more about what people have done with it and man people are so creative and aaaaa its so nice but tbf thats also the case for most queer ships cause yknow the show doesnt care about us stop pretending it does lol

3. is there an unpopular opinion you have with this ship?

shipping it is the unpopular opinion lol just cause i said this fandom has more media literacy and nuance doesnt mean EVERYONE has it lol theres still people who are pulling the shit i explained in the first answer lol (proof being that one ask i got that one time)

other than that dont really have any

anyways scike takeover 2024 RISE WHERES YOUR ANGER WHERES YOUR RAGE RAHHHHH

#total drama #td scike