#i’m angry now ok?

[your-littlesecret]

not me getting excited bc there were taylor swift tickets “available” but when i enter it asks for a code

it’s not ‘available’ if i need a specific code to buy, you fucking assholes

#bubbles posts #i’m angry now ok? #i just wanted one ticket #A SINGLE ONE

[zeb-z]

Arthur Bennett was chemically made in a lab for me to go insane over I think. he’s got a guilt only an older sibling could have and a drive for vengeance that is half driven by his own self hatred. yet still he strives for peace. he’s desperate to cling to any humanity, any hope. he’s aware he’s fallible. it doesn’t save him

#he’s also a fuckin vampire sniper dude #tell me that’s not the hottest thing you’ve ever seen. I’ll wait #ok but fr #it’s that he’s so desperate and so angry and he wants so desperately to bring about peace but he just fails #he becomes so unrecognizable at the end and it’s so tragic bc you can see every moment he could have chosen different. but he doesn’t #he’s self aware of his failings and that’s part of his failings ironically enough #and that combo of older sibling guilt and survivor guilt and I’ve done terrible things guilt is fuckin unreal #he wants to be human and live in the sun and have this world of peace. but it’s a future he’d burn down for the twins without question #there’s no way he should have made it out of that arena. he’s always ready to sacrifice himself for the twins (for his younger siblings) bu #he just always survives. that seems to be his curse. so now he has to live with himself. now he has to face a future and try to get better #or fall further down. and I’m obsessed with him because as much as he could get better he really could just get so much worse #he knows he has the monster inside of him. he knows what to avoid. he knows what he could have become. and still he becomes it #if you saw this on twt hi lol #jrwi #jrwi the suckening #the suckening #the suckening spoilers #jrwi spoilers #arthur bennett #z speaks

[goldensunset]

gaaaaah i’m just so so so obsessed with the transition from ‘shy and soft’ to ‘self-aware and absolutely furious that he isn’t the main character but refuses to give up and acknowledge that without a fight’. like i think it’s neat that kieran kinda leans on the fourth wall in some places (his critical hit dialogue in the last fight against him having him be like ‘what, are you the hero of this story or something?!’) bc it’s been demonstrated how he loves stories and him seeing himself as a character in one (the whole ogerpon thing and him directly comparing himself to her as a misunderstood victim)

just. it’s so tasty. how he ends up being the toxic bully himself instead and doesn’t realize that for so long bc he saw himself as the hero here. it hurts so bad that we had to put him in his place bc he was out of control but it’s such a delightful tragedy. like i have never felt so bad about being the main character before. i’ve never wanted an npc to punch me so badly

#pecharunt epilogue save me save me #like obv they can’t turn around and have him be evil or angry *now* #but like #maybe. maybe maybe #i’m still waiting on hearing more about this #it would be a true wasted opportunity if he hadn’t been at least a little poison-tainted #thinking he was the ogerpon of this story when he was really a toxic chain’ed bully himself… #oouuuughghggh #i love this kid #if nothing else i’m ok with chalking it up to The Disease of Being Fourteen but like c’monnnn #whoever is cooking on the story team at gamefreak keep it up. don’t drop the ball #push this kinda thing harder #call into question the fact that the player has a ridiculous level of skill and luck and has boxes of overleveled mons and lotsa materials #get meta with it #pokémon #teal mask/indigo disk #sv dlc spoilers #kieran

[the-casbah-way]

not to be obnoxious but like. you people are mad at those watcher guys for making you pay for a subscription service. but you were all able to look past the fact that they had an entire series where they just made jokes about actual real life true crime cases. that makes sense

#i fucking DESPISE buzzfeed unsolved #they were so fucking tone deaf with how they handled their true crime shit it made me so fucking angry #like you guys claim to be against the commercialising of true crime but not when two haha funny little guys do it yeah ?? #fuck you all actually those dudes were always trash #and i kept feeling insane for being bothered by it whilst everyone else was worshipping them #they went to the scene of the keddie cabin murders which is a case i studied back when i did forensic archaeology #and bear in mind that the daughter of that family is still alive #and they stood there next to this site where a family and their friend were stabbed to death and fucking laughed and made jokes #and people didn’t care just because the jokes were never directly at the expense of the victims as if that makes it ok ??? #that woman is still fucking alive. can you fucking imagine if she’d seen that like how that would feel #i’m fucking tired of teaching people basic human decency when it comes to true crime fuck you people #and don’t get me wrong what those guys are doing now IS scummy #but like ?? compared to fucking making their entire success of goofing about at real fucking crime scenes ???? they were always trash

[forourtimetoo]

Not to be dramatic but the bar exam is making me a significantly worse person

#law school couldn’t make me a villain but the bar exam might #like I can feel myself turning hard and bitter and angry and I do not like it #I have FOUGHT to stay soft and passionate about the things I love #I have worked to keep caring about the world and now I’m like ok I don’t have time for that right now #I hate it #ten more days #unless I fail lol

[unforgivablego]

WHAT THE FUCK, NEIL?

I’m telling to you very gently right now and don’t dare make me be demonic, coz now I don't have a heart and soul so I can easy to be very scary.

Lemme ask you a simple question.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK HAVE YOU DONE? (with me, with my heart, with my soul and with my emotions)

@neil-gaiman

#good omens #neil gaiman #neil gaiman now you REAL BASTARD #neil gaiman REAL BASTARD #hear me out #i hate you neil #you little… #i can’t even be angry with you #i can’t even scream at you #ok #well #i’m done #i love you #you know that #but i fucking hate you #I’m walking corpse #I mean I’m bloody dead #inside #good omens 2 #good omens season two #good omens series #good omens season 2 #good omens show #good omens tv #good omens fandom #crowley and aziraphale #michael sheen #david tennant #neil gaiman meme

[werewolf-apologist]

maybe i am being a huge bitch and terrible and unfair ????? perhaps that’s the problem ???? and that is likely. however the council (my two best friends and my mom) have concurred that i should actually be angrier and meaner so i think im doing my best atm

#kinda joke but actually i don’t know what to do and i am sooooo angry it i don’t think it’s justified but also isn’t it ? isn’t it ? #like i may have fucked up the very serious convo that we had earlier but also i’m so mad. and i said that. and she heard me I THOUGHT #so i thought it was going to get taken care of but apparently not #like ok. don’t pay rent just stay here 5/7 nights a week and stop by anytime and don’t make any moves to change or fix the position you’re #in like whatever atp. maybe i’d be a better friend if i was more understanding and ive been telling myself that for weeks but also wtf #i know things are terrible for her so i should be nicer and more understanding but i’ve been as nice and understanding as i can be for three #months now and nothings changed she not even interested in changing things so at what point is it real life consequences #of im mad and you have to pay rent ffs #idk. i should apologize for even asking that of her ig. i know things are super hard for her rn. but things are also hard for me rn #in different less extreme ways but still. idk

[reikunrei]

the fact that I was looking into starting on t and was also tentatively looking into getting my own car since all 4 of us now share 1 vehicle. and now I can’t even think about saving up money at all. fucking sucks

#I’m so angry. I’m so angry and upset. I already was angry and upset #but now it feels more tangible because of how deep this hole is that I was never made aware of #and just how Long it’s been going on. like #I honestly felt really guilty that a big chunk of it was bc of my tuition. but knowing this has been an issue for like at least 10 years is #like. ok. so it’s not bc of me. I probably didn’t help. but also I’ve given my parents like #idk I’d have to actually add it up but. I’ve probably given them at least $50k in the last 3 years. and that’s lowballing #i say things

[mistylakeee]

If shadow and bone season two doesn’t give us Kaz teasing the shit out of Inej like he does and Inej giving him the look I don’t want it

#kanej #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #netflix shadow and bone #literally all of kaz and Inej scenes before the ice court involved him teasing her about something and her getting annoyed with him #DO IT YOU COWARDS #and if I have to see kaz snap at Inej again you will be getting an angry handwritten letter from me #kaz rarely raises his voice #and you have him raise his voice at Inej in like the first episode?? #AHHH #ok I’m ranting now #bye

[paradisetemporarilymisplaced]

wow I hate everything abt the world

#this is about everything and nothing in particular. just one of those fucking days #I hate that there’s a fucking genocide and that joe fucking biden is going to lose this fucking election bc he’s fucking aiding and abetting #I hate that republicans are actively voting to make raped children give birth and that Trump is going to be fucking reelected #and that will be fucking national policy #I hate that some (white) bitches like to get up on their high horses abt how sexism isn’t a big problem for white women bc woc have always #had it worse #this is objectively true but it is also ok to acknowledge that white women have also been seen as property for hundreds of years #and have been blamed for being raped and forced to marry their rapists and been institutionalized bc their husbands said so #and have had no economic power and have been reliant on men for literally fucking everything until Extremely recently #YES this is all magnified for woc but it is so performative for white women to write screeds like this #on a fucking goodreads review (hypothetically speaking) #wow! I am angry about everything!!! #normally I can keep it in check but tonight it just one of those nights when I cannot. and here we are #also on a much more micro level! I hate that my dog was bitten by another dog and now is hurt and scared of other dogs! #and we can’t do almost anything to help her! #and I hate that all I wanted for dinner was pizza from my favorite spot in my hometown but that is 800 miles away #and I hate that I would love to be near family again but they live in a red state that is actively trying to overturn the will of its voters #and I hate that my husband wants to move back to his home state which is even redder #and I’d have to leave my job that I love and move to a state with much more existentially terrifying policy #and I love working for the state government but I sure as hell wouldn’t want to work for THAT state’s government #it’s just all bad I’m so pissed

[rosicheeks]

🤦🏽‍♀️🙃

#I can’t stop thinking about it #I keep replaying the morning over and over in my head #my friend said she thinks I should write a letter or text tell them #and I’m thinking about it #the more I’m processing it and it’s kinda sinking in #the more angry and offended and hurt I am #idk I know super vague post #and since you guys keep saying you like my crazy dumb Rosie rant posts maybe I’ll do one telling you guys what happened #I’m just still so fucking mad? #and she has NO idea how badly she fucked me up #she’s texting me like nothing happened and I’m like ???? ok sorry but I can’t just move on from this #anyway fun fact and update about me and my life #I’m looking into a php 👌 #partial hospitalization program #if you didn’t know what I was talking about #so that’s suuuuper duper fun (hope you can feel my sarcasm) #but at this point in my life I feel like I need it #not gonna get into that right now cause ooofda one thing at a time #but this whole situation reallyyyyy set me back in my progress and healing so thanks buddy 👌👌👌 #you are lucky I love your dog so fucking much otherwise I probably would never talk to you again #shut up rosie

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early. #and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed. #went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done. #I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding) #actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so… #I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired. #I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die. #is this relatable? #just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda. #gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

[wizardattic]

reading an m/m fic that i wasn’t really interested in for crumbs of a female character that was barely in the show and i get to the part where she actually has lines and oh my god. i have never seen a worse case of SHE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT

#i get it now. i understand. i understand why everyone is so angry with horrible interpretations of your favorite characters. #this is my tag for when i make original posts #of course the characterization of the male characters was pretty good and the author said they wrote it after a rewatch. #so i thought they would have been able to be as good at writing one of the only women in the show just as well. #i’m not blaming the author entirely because my god you have to dig for ANYTHING on this character. standard [redacted] misogyny. #and most fics are just interpolation from limited data. but god do i wish they dug more before writing the fic. #her character is interesting ok!!! excuse me for expecting a base level understanding on her when i see the character tag. #i’m really feeling that xkcd comic that’s like “experts always overestimate how much normal people know about their subject”

[ursamajori]

do y’all ever make a moth whos just so very lonely because i sure did :(

[id from alt: a digital drawing from chest up of luz, a young thin faerie woman with dark brown skin and freckles, fully black eyes, black and white feelers, brown moth wings, and brown curly hair with a white streak. they’re wearing a gold choker necklace and a white long sleeved dress. they stare out with a tearful expression while a shadow covers most of their face. the background is a black sky and it’s snowing. end id]

#starspeak #astrophel art #my campaigns #ttrpgs #image described #was gonna caption this mothgirl mental breakdown but there would be a lot more snow and yelling if that’s what i drew. #also this is based off of the krpika is now drowning sc but very few of my friends got the reference so #i took the text off of it and made it sad art instead of a meme #ok time to tag a bunch of things so i can get notes. you WILL look at luz tsubaki #oc #original character #tabletop rpgs #ttrpg art #oc art #they’re not a dnd character so i won’t tag them as such also i’m angry abt the whole ogl thing so. #accessible art #get obnoxious (oc tag)

[dreamsb0u]

I am going to KILL MYSELF!!!!!

#/nsrs!!!!!!! #tw suicide #tw sui ideation #tw suicide mention #tw sui joke #cw sui mention #cw sui joke #probably #I am just sad and a little angry rn #but it’s past 9pm!!!! #you can’t trick me!!!!!!!!!! #I’m gonna go 2 bed now hopefully I feel better tomorrow bc any mention of them makes me so incredibly upset idk #ok gn ily guys ❤️❤️❤️‼️‼️‼️

[mars-ipan]

honestly i don’t really think any mental illnesses have been like “destigmatized”- not fully at least. i think the stigma has just changed from demonization to “that’s not a real problem get over it god”

#obviously demonization is more Actively Harmful #but to say things like depression and anxiety have been destigmatized is. incorrect i feel #yes we are not treated like we’re evil. which is for sure an improvement #nobody deserves to be treated like they’re evil #but our illnesses are now being dismissed. ‘oh everyone has that’ not like me #‘you’re just being lazy’ i wish that were true #like. ok hold on let me use an example bc i’m worried abt reading comprehension on this website #(not my followers i trust u guys but i act as if every post i make will get popular) #my brother is autistic. i have GAD. #my brother was diagnosed when he was 2. he’s faced a lot of bullying from both kids and adults and it sucks and he didn’t deserve it #because of all that bullying (especially as a kid) he’s rejecting his autism and focusing really hard on being as ‘normal’ as possible #i was diagnosed last year at 17. i’ve been having these issues my whole life (my mom and i both saw it) but my issues were dismissed #by all the other adults around me (save for family) because i wasn’t visibly struggling and i was doing well in school #it made me doubt my convictions for a long time. what if i’m wrong? #as such i didn’t seek a diagnosis for a long time until my anxiety had gotten to a point where i knew i couldn’t keep ignoring it #now that i have that diagnosis i’m able to wield it as a weapon. my struggles aren’t made up #they’re real. and they always have been. and i can’t just ‘calm down’ like you can. and that needs to be respected #so while i think one is more actively harmful (bullying and harassment lead to self-rejection and loathing) #the other is also harmful- just passively (constantly being dismissed leads to self-doubt and not asking for help) #also why are people angry about the idea of a mental illness being destigmatized? #one group freeing itself from oppression isn’t gonna immediately forget about the groups who helped them get there #if i’m one day able to get perfect accomodations for my anxiety and nobody looks at me like i’m dramatic when i talk about it #i’m not gonna suddenly stop advocating for mental health issues to be normalized #if anything i’ll argue HARDER. you learned to understand me now learn to understand my siblings #learn to understand those with bpd. with psychosis. the sociopaths. the narcissists. the systems #i’m not gonna act like i have it worse than people who are heavily stigmatized. i’m not gonna get attacked for stuttering at mcdonalds #but that doesn’t mean i have /no/ problems and it doesn’t mean i think i’m better than anyone else #i don’t get why people fight each other about this. it’s a good thing so long as we remember where we came from