#i wrote this for myself mostly but i hope someone else will appreciate!

[spnhunter4life]

Two B

Summary: Dean knows just how to help on a bad day. 

Word Count: 1.7k

A/N: I mostly wrote this for myself as something to hopefully help cheer me up on bad days, but I figured there might be some people out there who would appreciate it too, so I decided to go ahead and post it. I wasn’t sure how to tag this since there is no mention of names, so I just decided to tag it as both x reader and x original character. You choose which you’d prefer it to be. Like I said, I mostly wrote this for me, so it’s my preferences in there, but I hope others will enjoy it too. If it helps even one person feel better on a hard day, then it’s worth sharing.

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It was four in the afternoon and I was in my room, laying in bed, staring at the wall. The stuffed horse I’d gotten as a young child and still used for comfort on hard days was clutched to my chest. It was one of those days where there was literally nothing wrong – I wasn’t sick, there was nothing currently stressing me out and there wasn’t any sort of incident that would have upset me – but I was just depressed. 

I hated days like this. Days when I desperately wanted to do something, anything, but I couldn’t find anything that sounded worth doing. Sometimes I might manage to think of something to do and feel so relieved, but in the process of starting whatever it was, I would lose all interest in it. I usually ended up laying in bed trying to come up with something to do and getting more and more depressed as I failed. 

I was pointlessly running through a list of movies again, hoping I’d come up with something that would spark my interest, when there was a knock on the door.

“Hey, sweetheart. How’re you doing?” Dean asked, peeking his head in.

I just shrugged, fighting back the tears that threatened to start at his concern.

“Yeah, that’s what I thought,” he said, walking into the room and sitting on the bed next to me. He started running his hand through my hair, a gesture that he knew I enjoyed. “When Sam said he hadn’t seen you, I figured you were having a rough day.”

Dean had been gone when I got up this morning. When I’d woken up feeling down and knowing I was in for a long day, I’d gone in search of him. But his room was empty. And then I’d remembered he had plans to see an old friend who was passing through. 

“One or two?” He asked when I didn’t answer. 

“Two,” I answered, still managing to hold back the tears. Barely.

This was a sort of shorthand we’d developed over the years of knowing each other. It should have been unsurprising, but I’d still been touched beyond words when Dean had suggested this form of communication. He’d noticed a recurring pattern on my bad days.

One meant I wanted to be left alone. I was avoiding people and just needed some time to myself. I’d get over it on my own. It usually meant I had just spent too much time around people and needed to recharge.

Two meant I wanted company. I didn’t want to be left alone. I wanted the comfort of someone else’s presence. Dean is the one I usually wanted on these days. He was also always the one to notice and more than happy to oblige.

“Okay. Good. A or B?”

“B,” I told him even though it was unnecessary. He knew I wouldn’t have needed the shorthand if it was an A day. 

A meant that I was just feeling a little down and would appreciate him being with me. I would tell him what I wanted to do on these days. 

B meant I wasn’t up for decision making. I wanted to do something, but I needed him to pick for me. I’d be willing to do anything as long as I didn’t have to be the one to make the decision. It meant I either just didn’t know what to do – as was usually the case – or if I did have an idea, I wasn’t willing to voice it.

I wasn’t good about letting them know my thoughts on things on a good day. I usually left decisions like where to eat or what movie to watch to the boys, even if I had an opinion. On a day like today? Well, there was a reason we developed the shorthand. Because I didn’t like to talk much on these days either, and without the simple one word answers, I wouldn’t be able to bring myself to tell him what I needed from him. 

“Oh, sweetheart,” he soothed as a tear managed to escape. “I’m sorry I was gone today.”

I wiped the tear away but didn’t say anything, unable to without risking falling into uncontrollable sobbing.

“Did you eat anything today?” He asked. 

I shook my head. Figuring out what food I wanted to eat was as painful a process as trying to find something to do. So I just didn’t eat.

“Okay,” he sighed, undoubtedly not surprised by the news, but still not happy about it. “I’m going to get you something to eat. I want you to get How To Train Your Dragon ready to go while I’m gone.”

It was one of my favorite movies. I’d considered watching it several times today and rejected the idea each time. But Dean was here now, and I was relieved to have a direction to go in. I nodded and sat up. Before he left, he wrapped his arms around me and pressed a lingering kiss to the top of my head. I hugged him back, loving the safety and comfort I felt in his arms. I never wanted to let go. 

He started to pull away a couple minutes later and I hugged him tighter.

“I’ll be right back,” he assured me. 

I wanted to tell him to stay, that I didn’t need food. But I was actually really hungry and I knew he wouldn’t take no for an answer. And I knew he would sit with me when he got back. 

Sighing, I got up and started looking through the handful of movies I owned. I quickly found How To Train Your Dragon and put it in the DVD player. I skipped through all the ads until I got to the menu screen and then just listened to the music as I waited for Dean.

He came back a few minutes later with a sandwich, a bag of chips, and a glass of water on a tray.

“Here you go, sweetheart,” he said.

He set the tray on my lap and then stretched out beside me, putting his arm around my shoulders and pulling me into his side. It made eating a little more difficult, but I didn’t care. I needed the closeness.

Dean took the remote from my hands and pressed play. I took a deep, contented breath and relaxed for the first time that day. It felt like my head had been held underwater and finally I was let up for breath. Dean just had a way of making everything better.

As we watched the movie, I ate the food Dean had brought me. The sandwich tasted so good, much better than it would have if I’d made it myself. I grabbed a handful of chips and set them on my plate before offering the bag to Dean. He accepted, but only ate a few before setting the bag on the floor, out of the way. Noting the empty plate, he set that on the floor too. I snuggled closer into his side and settled in to enjoy the movie.

“Thanks, Dean,” I said when it was over.

“No problem,” he replied. “You know I’m happy to do it. Now, Sam texted and said he made pizza. I’m going to go get some. Why don’t you put on that movie with your pretty boy captain while I’m gone,” he instructed.

I smiled, both at his pretending he couldn’t be bothered to remember the name of the movie – a title that was extremely easy to remember even if he didn’t like it, which he did – and the fact that he was calling Steve a pretty boy. If I was feeling better, I might have been tempted to make a comment about how Dean was much prettier.

Instead, I just asked, “Which one?”

“Uh… the first one,” he decided. Then he stood up, grabbed the dishes and chips from my earlier meal, and left to get his own food. I searched my shelf for Captain America: The First Avenger. 

Dean came back before I had made it to the menu, bringing a whole pizza with him.

“Hungry?” I asked.

He smiled at the little bit of teasing.

“Just wanted to make sure there was plenty if you wanted some,” he told me.

“I’m ok. Thanks,” I said.

“You might change your mind later,” he replied. He settled himself on the bed again, holding his arm up in invitation. I leaned into him.

“C’mon,” Dean said when we’d finished that movie too, standing and heading for the door. 

“Where are we going?” I asked as I followed.

“Outside. It’ll be good for you to stretch your legs and get some fresh air,” he said, snatching a blanket off the back of a chair as we walked by. “And we can watch the sunset. I know you love that.”

It was beautiful out. The temperature was perfect, there wasn’t a cloud in the sky, and the sun was just starting to set. We walked a few laps around the bunker before Dean stopped us on the west side and spread the blanket he’d been carrying out in the grass.

We sat beside each other, legs stretched out in front of us, leaning back on our hands. We probably sat there for an hour, just watching the sky change colors. It was a gorgeous sunset, full of vibrant pinks and purples.

“How are you doing?” Dean asked when the colors faded and the sky started turning dark. I was getting a little chilly as the temperature slowly dropped for the night. But I knew that’s not what he meant.

“I’m ok,” I told him. And I meant it. I was feeling a lot better. Dean always made things better. 

“Good. I’m glad,” he said, standing up and offering me his hand. I took it and let him pull me to my feet. He reached down for the blanket and shook the grass off before wrapping it around me.

“What do you say we go watch Winter Soldier?” He asked. I smiled.

Even though I was feeling better, I wasn’t quite ready to let him go. I was feeling a little clingy and snuggling with him through another movie sounded perfect.

“Okay,” I agreed. 

Back in my room, we started our third movie of the night and I thoroughly enjoyed the way Dean tucked me into his side and ran his hand up and down my arm. About halfway through the movie I noticed my eyes drifting shut. I hated to miss the movie, but I realized I was exhausted. So I didn’t fight it. I fell asleep curled up against Dean, feeling safe and warm and loved.

#supernatural #fanfiction #supernatural fanfiction #comfort fic #dean winchester #reader #original character #dean winchester x reader #dean winchester x original character #two b

[gontagokuhara]

teary rambling inbound

christ alive its not often i reckon with the fact that jump (the first fic of my “modern” writing era) is approaching seven (7!!!!!) years old. when i do think about it it’s often in a nostalgic way or a half-proud, half-self-deprecating way where i’m like “this was my peak when i was 17, god DAMN have i improved” because as much love as i hold for it and what it ended up as, it’s still nowhere near perfect! there’s so much i would do differently with my slightly more developed brain!!

but i get comments still on a more or less weekly basis almost 7 years after publishing, over 6 years since i last touched it. little ‘i just read this in one sitting!’ and ‘this brought me back into enjoying deh again’ and ‘i usually get bored during long fics but i wanted to finish this!’ that i have saved in their own special portion of my inbox specifically for jump comments because they all make my day every single time.

and then sometimes i get comments like these, all these years later, and i pump the breaks and just think.

unless i’m particularly out of touch this is like. the type of comments fic writers dream of. thoughtful, personal, crafted with a level of care that highlights how genuinely an author (even of just ‘silly’ musical fanfic) can move a person.

someone who never writes reviews was compelled to detail how deeply they’ve been impacted by *my* writing. something i crafted as a labor of love while i was still a teenager struggling through that same shit i was writing about had enough of a positive effect on someone that it spurred them to put as much into writing themselves, unsure if i’d ever even see it. this person walked away from something i created with the exact takeaways i hoped they would, and i very sincerely hope that whatever realizations this person had while reading, they take them and make their lives better because there’s nothing more i could possibly ask for.

jump, as much as a bit of an ugly duckling i think of it as sometimes, is like…a net good on the world. so many of my current best friends i met because i wrote jump. more than one person has embraced recovery and getting better and stepping into the sun (hah!), and that’s just people who have told me that — some of the mostly deeply influential fics in my life are ones i’ve never commented on myself. more people than i can ever hope to comprehend have had their day, week, month, life outlook altered in a positive way by something i created — by me.

in a period of life (not just my own, but more broadly speaking How Life Is in the present day, 2024) where things are pretty shitty and i’m agonizing more than ever over feeling useless and impactless and like i’ll never create anything of true value. sometimes i wake up to comments like these, and i slow my roll, and i can…genuinely appreciate that at the very least, despite everything else sucking pretty bad, people have made their own happiness through something i’ve created. i’ve made something of value, and even if i never know the impacts of that…those people are out there. if i could do it at 17 years, and still hear the positive influence of doing so 7 years later, i can do it again. i want to do it again. writing is making my happiness, and knowing that that could be true of other people makes it a happiness worth pursuing.

all of that to say: thank you, if you’ve ever read my silly stories before. if they’ve done something positive in your life, even for just a second, that means more to me than anything. and especially thank you to my more vocal readers because quite literally it’s people like the above comment, and people who i’m sure are reading this and know exactly who they are, who make me love writing as much as i do and make me want to do it forever, no matter the capacity.

i suppose i should wrap up now before my weepiness makes everyones tl all damp. thank you again, persephonescurse (even if you’ll never see this). your comment now also forever lives in the original jump discord server from 2017, so i won’t be forgetting it anytime soon. thank you.

#jump #writing #un ange #i think i went this whole post without deflecting my feelings with a joke. sappiness abound i apologize #but ive been just reading and sitting on this comment for like an hour now and i couldnt bear to leave it alone without saying something #back to regularly scheduled clownery i suppose. and march 1: pointy objects lockdown time!

[sonorous-cicada]

2023 Year In Review

This year I wrote 276,380 words and posted 258,729 of that.

Busiest Month: July with 55k words written.

Completed a 80k long fic at the beginning of the year.

Almost completed a 125k fic over the summer. 

Wrote 8 One Shots.

Started 4 long fics. Completed 4 events.

Hosted the vacation event. 

I made some amazing, supportive friends this year who helped push me to that quarter-million word count. 

Thank you to @something-like-air for being my rock this year. Thank you for supporting me and keeping me sane (mostly). Thank you for beta’ing over 500,000 words to date. I’m deeply grateful for everything you’ve done for me. You’ve saved me from myself more than you know. You deserve every good thing that has happened to you this year and then some. I hope you stay blessed, that the road rises to meet you, the wind remains at your back, and the sun shines warm upon your face. 

Thank you @lightweaving for becoming my friend this year. I appreciate the laughs we’ve shared, and the time we’ve spent writing together. Thank you for co-modding the Vacation Event with me. Thank you for pushing me to be a better writer with our silly games and competitions. Our shared insanity kept me going even when the Depression (™) tried to take over. I’m grateful that we’ve become friends. 

Thank you @komorebirabbit and @renaerys for slapping me upside the head when I needed it, and for listening to my silly little idea rants. Thank you for tolerating the jokes, sarcasm, and competitive spirit. Thank you for pushing me to write even when time got thin and my patience ran low. Jo, thank you for your stubborn sense of justice and your refusal to bend to pressure. 

@bunnbreaker You are always ready to go balls to the wall for your people, and that is a trait I strongly admire. I hope that never changes for you. And I’m so thankful that I met you this year. You’re a strong person and have fought whatever life has thrown at you with grace. Don’t be afraid of that. It’s amazing to watch!

@xylazine thank you for all of the good times this year and for the round-robin fic. Thank you for all of your support and cheerleading throughout the year, even when writer’s block had a chokehold on you. It takes a big person to be able to move past their own struggles and help someone else. You’re the real MVP of the comment section and that’s huge in and of itself. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, appreciates how hard you work to read and comment on everyone’s fic. So thank you! 

@moonlady9 we’ve been through a lot of ups and downs together. This year was one of our hardest. You were one of the first people in this fandom to believe in me. You always fight to write something new and innovative. Thank you for being there, even when the real world got messy. Thank you for fighting through life to be where you are. Even though it may seem bleak and dark, you always come out on top. And I pray you always will. You deserve that much and more. <3

Thank you to everyone who has been in my life this year. This year, fandom felt as it should be: a community. The heart and soul of fandom will always be the human behind the keyboard making all of this possible. I appreciate and am grateful to you all from one human heart to another.

#not fandom

[meggie-stardust]

20 Questions for fic Writers!

Tagging myself via @lucky-bishop because I'm half bored, half a bit loopy on benadryl... And same suggestion; if anyone else wants to do this, say I tagged you <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 73?! Wow that surprised me.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 403,636

3. What fandoms do you write for? These days, mostly Teen Wolf, but I've written a lot for Merlin, Percy Jackson, BBC Sherlock, Gundam Wing, and assorted others over the years.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? 1. Acts of Man (Merlin/Arthur, Merlin): On the morning of their Annual pre-Christmas Dinner, Merlin is shocked to find out that Gwen thinks his boyfriend, Arthur, isn't good enough. But after a glimpse into Merlin's quirky flat, Gwen realizes that she might not have the whole story. 2. Nightmares (Jason/Percy, PJO): Percy feels lost and alone after returning from Tarartus. And if that's not bad enough, he can't sleep without having horrifying nightmares. Luckily for Percy, Jason is the one person not avoiding him, and the one person that has offered to help. 3. Looking for the Thing We Lost (Stiles/Peter, Teen Wolf): But the thing is that Stiles had already been forgotten by everyone. 4. Here I Am (Stuck in the Middle With You) (Jason/Percy, PJO): Percy and Jason's mission gets derailed when they find themselves trapped in a room with no way out. Luckily, they find a way to pass the time… 5. Know How A Man Becomes a Beast (Stiles/Peter, Teen Wolf): Peter took a steadying breath and stepped into room. He held up his hands and walked forward slowly, the way he would approach any wild animal. “Stiles. It’s gonna be ok.”

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Yes, I try to, even it take a while -- at least on my newer fics. I haven't gone back to things from like 10 years ago to reply to old comments that I missed, but I try to keep up. I want people to know I appreciate the time they've taken to read and react to my fic, and you never know if you're going to connect with someone new and make a new fandom friend.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Give Me Pure Energy (Stiles/Peter): the alternative season 2 where Stiles craves some normalcy and befriends a new kid in his econ class, only to realize that maybe they both want more from each other than just a simple friendship. This is a super darkfic anyway, and has the kind of ending that's happy only if you're ok with all the awful things that Peter does during the fic... but generally, I like my angst with a happy ending so this is the best I can do.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Oh gosh, so many of my fics have happy endings... that's how I like em... uhhh. I'm going to go with one of my all time favorites:

Stuck Between Stations (Stiles/Peter): the one where Peter and Stiles are stuck in a time-loop inside The Wild Hunt.

8. Do you get hate on fics? I have been so lucky to not get much hate. If people are talking about my work behind my back, it's not getting back to me. And aside from an odd comment or two, I've gotten through about 20 years of fandom without having to deal with random hate.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? yes. I've written m/m, m/f, f/f, and, I think an m/m/f once... but I'm into all sorts of things and have fun writing about it

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? I have in the past; a Harry Potter/BBC Sherlock x-over that got abandoned. I've also done a few prompt challenges that lead to crossovers/fusions like SPN meets MJN Air, etc.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? god, I hope not!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Yes, I have been so lucky to have a few of my fics translated into different languages. It's always such an honor, and I give full permission for people to translate my work as long as they connect it back to mine on AO3.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? I have but it's been ages. And I think there may be someone *cough*@punchedbymarkesmith*cough* that would be great to collaborate with if an opportunity presented itself...

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? Steter it would seem. I've been reading and writing it since 2016...!

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I fully intend to finish It's Only Forever, but I've used some of the ideas for it in other things, so I know it will be hard to get back into where I was going with it. I don't want to abandon it, but it's been a few years... le sigh.

16. What are your writing strengths? I think I'm pretty good with dialogue, especially banter. I think I'm also great at taking a small detail from canon and using that to world build something different.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Oh, that's easy: action and mystery. I really wish I could write a good casefic or mystery plot, and I just can't. I have to distract and misdirect at the end... I have to do the same with the action, too.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I don't trust myself. I might confer with someone who speaks that language if it was really needed, but I would probably do something like:

"Wow, I can't believe you survived that helicopter crash," he said in Spanish.

19. First fandom you wrote for? Gundam Wing, followed my Newsies and Harry Potter.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written? I already gave a call out to Stuck Between Stations above, so I'm going to have to go with:

At This Truth We Have Arrived (Stiles/Peter): Five years after the death of Laura, Peter returns to Beacon Hills only to be confronted by the truth that the pack has moved on without him. But the fact that everything he once knew has changed isn't necessarily a bad thing; not when there is someone like Stiles who is so full of possibilities.

OR as my WIP notes for this fic say: "Peter is curious. They do something. Murder murder. Sex sex."

#meg writes fic #writer meme #tagging myself like a cool kid

[fandomfluffandfuck]

Lmao, perhaps 💀💀 Personally, for unrelated oral fixation reasons, I constantly have gum on me. If not, I will chew the inside of my lip and cheek to shreds, lol.

Me as I am LITERALLY doing the same while reading your reply lkjhgfdda

yep yep yep!!! I love that post with all my heart!!

nowadays i'm looking into older cevans characters and Bryce Langley is 👁️‍🗨️👁️‍🗨️👁️‍🗨️ he's so unhinged and yet so pretty

I love ao3 but ao3 is currently not serving me the Bryce content I NEED ,_, really having a moment of dang if I want it do I need to write it on my own??? can't the words just appear on paper from my brain???

kinda related but not really related but kinda related; how does one get into writing smut?

I've read a lot of smut, and I have thoughts about the plot and stuff if I were to write it, but whenever I try I just feel like I'm being too... Cringe? I just can't get myself to write it like how it's happening in my mind, and I'm constantly thinking of the "He would not fucking say that. No one would say that. Do you know how real people talk?" post. :P

Hope you have an awesome day!! 🤍

— 🔪 anon

related to this

Lmao, I love that for us 💀💀

Pumpkin Spice Chris Evans--Byrce. Yes! It's the perfect time for his pretty, tiny, young era, lmao.

Ohh, yeah, I can't imagine there's a ton of written stuff out there for him, though. I barely see gif sets and such of him, so that would track 👀

I would certainly say go for it, though! If you want that content, be the content!

Fuck 👏🏻 yes 👏🏻

As far as how to get into writing smut...

I would say just do it!! It's scary, it really is, but you can do it! There's some amount of learning curve to it, as there is with any skill--writing included--but the only way to figure out where you are on the learning curve is to do it. If you hate it so much, you don't have to publish it anywhere. No one has to see it. That's the beauty. It's for you first and foremost.

I started writing smut after an ex-girlfriend (girlfriend at the time, lol) introduced me to the world of fandom and then to fanfiction. (The longer story is basically that I wrote her some erotic poetry about the sex we had been having for part of her birthday gift, and she was like, this is good. Really good. Are you aware that people Do This? Publicly? For others to enjoy? I was not aware, lmao.) I didn't get into it right, right away, I did a ton of reading of fanfiction and smut first, but eventually, I just started to do it. I honestly don't remember why exactly I started other than I've always loved writing, and I started to become obsessed with Marvel more and more, thanks to being in a fandom, so... why not write for fandom? At the time, I had no idea what I was doing, and looking back, compared to the shit that I write now, you can tell 😅 but that's okay! It's okay if I think the stuff I wrote at first is shit and find embarrassment in those stories now. You know why? Because it means I'm better at it now. I had to start somewhere to get somewhere. Also, hey, there are people out there who've read those first fanfictions I wrote and who appreciate that work exactly for what it is. Many times, I have considered going back and orphaning early works of mine or re-writing/re-editing them. But I haven't. Partly (truthfully) because that takes a lot of time (especially re-working early fanfics), but mostly because I have learned to appreciate in other writers, whether they create fanfiction or otherwise, seeing them evolve. Their voice may mature or become "better" or more developed, but I can read their voice in their words throughout, and I think that's beautiful. I would love to see that in my works eventually. I would love to be that for someone else.

What has made my writing better has not only been continuing to learn how to better communicate what I want to convey to readers through my words but also how to ebolish those cringe barriers. What do I want to write? Filthy, nasty shit [affectionate]. Okay, well, pull no punches. Put in the obscene details. Paint a picture that would make a prude squirm in their seat and have to close their browser. I, like most people in the US, grew up with some amount of puritanical views on sex and sexuality. I am still unlearning those. I feel I had a head start, being kinky because I have to accept those parts of my own sexuality. When I first began writing smut, there were many more unconscious filters. Those filters, I found in my own writing, to be the most cringy. That and bad grammar. But, hey, English is fucked. Write how you wanna write. People don't speak with perfect grammer. Language is a sandbox, play.

#asks #🔪 anon #fanfiction #writing

[sublightsleeper]

Twenty Questions for Fic Writers

@willowmckinley tagged me!

1. How many works do you have on ao3? 74! Man it really doesn't feel like I've written that much.

2. What's your total ao3 word count? 227,559!

3. What fandoms do you write for? Justified and wrestling most often. Then one offs for things that made me crazy.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? 1) Should Old Acquaintance Be Forgot (MCU, Starker). 2) Every Animal Has Rules (Nope, Angel/OJ) 3) I Try To Picture Me Without You (Moon Knight, Steven/Marc) 4) Six Years (MCU, Starker) 5) Fine By Me (Ted Lasso, Isaac/Colin)

It's hilarious to me that that 35 of my fics are Justified and not a single one cracks the top 5.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I try to! But currently my inbox on Ao3 is 400 deep so uh. I'm working on it! Sometimes I get overwhelmed, sometimes I just don't know what to say in response. But I greatly appreciate every comment I get!

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? So I personally think it's It Matters Where You Live. It's MCD and grief and I went Through It writing it. But if I go with the emotional trauma I've caused on the server, it's Buttermilk.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? I had to think really hard about this, because mostly I write smut and sadness. But if I had to pick one, it's probably Every Animal Has Rules because it leaves it on a note of hope and happiness.

8. Do you get hate on fics? So...not directly on Ao3? I've gotten a deluge of 'kill yourself' messages on tumblr in the past, but it mostly just made me more nonchalant about the gross shit I write. But yeah thankfully no mean comments.

9. Do you write smut? Hell yeah I do.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? I enjoy them immensely! Haven't written a lot. I think the only one on Ao3 is And Having Been Set Free which is Justified/Supernatural. Because I am a cliche.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? I am privileged I guess because I was not even aware that was a thing.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Someone asked once I think? Probably on an MCU fic.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Nope! But I share the 'Out My Back Door' series with @itookyoudown!

14. What's your all-time favorite ship? Oh lord. I cannot do all time. Recency bias my beloved. Currently enjoying Sanji/Luffy/Zoro. Long time loves are Malec, Alfie/Tommy and Givenson.

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? A Malec fic based very, very loosely on Crazy Rich Asians. I had big plans and an outline and the final season just took the winds right out of my sails.

16. What are your writing strengths? Oh boy, I am not good at saying nice things about myself. My visuals, maybe? I'd like to think it's my ability to portray emotion, but who knows.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Finishing things. Being hyper sensitive to things most people wouldn't even call criticism. If I write a gift fic (which whoo boy learned my lesson on that one) and it doesn't get the exact range of response I want, it really kicks me in the emotional balls. Which isn't fair to me or anybody else. So I'm really working on 1) finishing things before I post any. And 2) writing for myself so I don't end up disappointed.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I am monolingual. I might slip a curse word in another language but beyond that, I'll go with the tried and true italics.

19. First fandom you wrote for? Oh Jesus. Uh...Dragon Ball Z, I think. Self insert fic at like 12. Yikes. I printed it on fancy parchment paper too.

20. Favorite fic you've written? And Everything Went Black - Wrestling fic, MoxEddie. To this day it's probably my favorite thing I've written. (Stefon voice: It's got everything!) Demon possession, weird visuals, dreams as metaphors and two dudes in love. Nowhere near a popular thing but my beloved.

@fourtacosandaburrito @blizzardsuplex @batboymilo @theaerialassassin @hoodyhoo

#writing stuff #my writing #this was fun thank you willow!

[dancingisdangerouss]

Hey Penny,

you don't know me and I usually don't send asks or anything but would you reconsider your decision on Black Acres? And before you say no, please hear me out.

I've been a quiet fan of your whole Black Phone fanfiction and I noticed what happened with yk who copying your stuff. I can totally understand the frustration and anger when something like this happens. I can relate. It was the right decision to point it out and to not be okay with it. I respect the way you dealt with that person, me personally, I could've never been as nice and professionel as you were.

Think about how many people loved and adored your story and how many people came back for each new chapter (me included). You wrote so much and the story of y/n and Albert kept me up all night and brought me a lot of joy. It really distracted me from reality and the way you write is so unique that it felt like shifting into their world everytime I opened Archive of our own and tumblr.

And no matter how much that person stole from your story, it will never be nearly as good as yours. TRUST ME. I checked on it when it all went down and girl it's boring af. Like, bffr.

Idk I'm just sad that someone as talented as you stopped with a really good fanfic because someone lacks creativity..

so that's why I'm sending this in hope that you maaayyybe think about it?

Sending you lots of love from Turkey

Oh goodness, wow. I’m blown away! I really appreciate you taking the time to send me this, it’s very sweet and making me feel all kinds of gooey inside 🥺

I can’t say I haven’t thought about it; I still occasionally think about finishing it, but mostly, it just makes me kind of nauseous to think about. It wasn’t the first time I had a fic stolen, and probably won’t be the last, but it was probably the one that was the most frustrating, given the lack of support I had at the time, and the amount of people willfully ignoring valid evidence.

That all said— I’m focusing on Non Compos Mentis for the time being, but I won’t say I’m not ever going to finish BA. But I do want to finish NCM before I even consider anything else (my brain is chomping at the bit to do something with BG3, The Boys, or American Psycho).

Anyway. I also hope to someday go back and finish it, but I won’t make any promises to anyone else or to myself, since I don’t want to let anyone down. But thank you so, so much for your interest and support!! And for taking the time to write this to me 🥺🥺

#penny for your thots #asks #anon #non compos mentis #so sweet 😭

[missnobodymadness]

Hello! 🩷 I hope you're having a lovely day or night! How about these three for the ask game? 🍀🖤🌙

Hiiii, So happy to see you here again! :D I am doing good tonight, thanks! I hope you are also feeling better today, thank you so much for the asks, I really appreciate it and I'm very excited to answer them. :P

"🍀 what is your comfort show/series and why is it your comfort show? How has it helped you?"

Ohhh, one of the deep ones, very interesting. xD Alright, I have some comfort shows but I will talk about my biggest comfort ones, they are: Spy x Family, Naruto and The Walking Dead.

Spy x Family turned into a comfort show of mine because how easy the story is to follow, how the characters are very loveable and relatable and let's be honest...THE CUTENESS! xD I am a manga reader so I know the show is not exactly cute but I am mostly talking about Anya, while Yor is my favourite character, Anya is so damn comforting to me, which is ironic because I am childfree. I can see a lot of myself in her, I know exactly how her fear of abandonment feels and I feel like that kinda of built a connection between me and her character, I just want to adopt her and take care of her, telling her that everything is gonna be alright, I never had that while growing up and I want her to just have everything I never had and seeing her getting that somehow always makes me feel really happy...if Loid abandons her after his mission is over I am gonna hate him so much. :'D I feel like she kinda of heals my inner child for a while.

Naruto...well, I grew up watching Naruto and it taught me so much that I feel like the anime kind of build a certain part of who I am today. It's a mix os nostalgy and belonging, I actually shared a post someone else wrote that expresses exactly why Naruto is so important and comforting to me, here it is!

The Walking Dead gives me comfort because it is my favourite TV show ever and I feel very attached to lots of characters, I feel like the show kinda of helps me dealing with my darkest side and obsessive thoughts by showing how fucked up the world is when desperation kicks in. I also felt a deep connection to my girl Tara, I miss her so damn much.

"🖤 favorite hobbies outside of your blog"

I am very limited when it comes to hobbies, mostly because I can't really feel pleasure or excitment when engaging in activities but I do have a few that still give me a good time: Researching about lions, orcas and sharks, updating myself on the lion dynamics of the African reserves, playing Pokémon hacks and write about my OCs (which is kinda what I do here as well anyway so this one doesn't count much LOL).

My favourite used to be reading books but I haven't been able to read anything in years, my attention span got so short that I can't keep focus anymore, it is really upsetting.

"🌙 your zodiac (Sun, Moon, Rising)"

According to some friends of mine, my combo is crazy: I am a Gemini with moon on Scorpius and rising Leo. I confess I am not a believer but people who are always get shocked with that combo...why? I have no idea. LMAO

#ask game #myownposts #ask

[7ndipity]

Hiii, happy 2k!!! So happy for you 💓

Idk if I'm late but I'd like to submit for the ship game? It seems fun lol

I'm 5'5, black hair, brown eyes, gen z if that matters. I'm a law student and my hobbies are reading and I also enjoy baking in my time. It is also because i can't cook for shit but I bake really well, so it boosts my ego lmao

I'm an introvert (INFP), don't like going out that much and i tend to go out only with my friends. I'm aware because of my shyness I don't give the best first impression too but it gets better with time as you get to know me. People pleaser unfortunately but we're trying to work on getting better. I enjoy playing video games too (valorant mostly)

My love language is act of service and quality time. I'm def someone who prefers actions over words to feel loved and to give love. I tend to be the rational, advice giver friend of the group but can go the opposite if I've had enough drinks

My ideal first date would be something chill, like just sitting, talking, etc. No fancy restaurants or movie date. I'd want to talk and get to know the guy comfortably. ALSO,,, I'm always team split the bill on first dates.

I love love LOVE coffee. Almost enough to make it my entire personality :] I'm also very private I believe. I don't like putting my entire life on Instagram (to my whooping 400 followers) and I don't like telling people a lot about my life? Just very close friends and family.

I love spending time with myself too, if that isn't obvious yet lol. Don't like partying unless I'm with my friends. Um what else. My fav season in winter. I enjoy horror/ thriller movies mostly. I like cricket and f1 in sports. My fav sitcoms are Himym, modern family, the office, friends- I love sitcoms bye. I'm also a taylor swift fan and truly believe she writes songs about my life💀

Um I wrote a lot sorry. Oh also, terrible texter according to my friend but love calls. That's all. Thank you!!

I would totally ship you with Jungkook, as well as Jin to a lesser extent!

Jungkook definitely values quality time and more lowkey, chill dates/vibes. He seems to be very emotionally led, so having a partner who approaches things from a more rational perspective would be a really match for him. Also, he's a pretty good cook, so he can balance you out with that, lol!(Also, he famously hates texting too)

Jin would also really value someone who appreciates quieter, simpler dates. He would also love having someone who's into some of his favorites things like video games!

Hope this is okay💜

#7ndipity speaks #7ndipity 2k celebration #ship game

[midchelle]

Thank you @raylangivins for tagging mwahhh kisses :)))

How many works do you have on ao3?

A humble 6.

What's your total ao3 word count?

34,148, would be 90,571 if I hadn't orphaned a fic a while back.

What fandoms do you write for?

It's currently the Beatles, but I used to write some other stuff. YA series. Let's not get into it.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

oh, what a night! - Paul's not looking at John, he’s watching his fingers follow the line of John’s clavicle to his shoulder. “Not going to sleep, then?” “No.” John swallows, feels the dexie scrape down his oesophagus. “Was rather hoping for an encore, myself.” Obertauern, February 1965

Sorry Girls, He's Married - The morning after the Ed Sullivan Show, John is in a strange mood. Cyn is asleep. Paul makes a bad choice || New York City, February 1964 (Added a summary to this a while ago because I remembered it just didn't have one lol)

the late, great, johnny ace - 1981. Paul is making an album.

my brother's keeper - There is a certain clinical satisfaction in seeing just how bad things can get || Chicago, August 1966

you and i have memories - Over the years, John has had many way-out ideas, but fucking off to California and having his memory wiped is certainly a novel one, even for him. (2/5)

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yeah I try to! I'm kind of a boomer when it comes to AO3 functionality, so sometimes I miss a few of them, but they're always super appreciated and I try to make sure that I show that.

What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably tell me all my love's in vain. The actual situation in johnny ace is much, much angstier, but the ending has a bit of hope, at least.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

oh, what a night! Absolutely zero conflict throughout.

Do you get hate on fics?

I had one person be irritating in the comments of a fic, but otherwise everyone's been lovely.

Do you write smut?

yeah

Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I haven't yet, might after I read the Marianne Faithfull/Edie Sedgwick bios that have been sitting on my desk for ages.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Someone could've stolen something I posted on Wattpad/ff.net and I wouldn't even know at this point because I can't get into the accounts.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Think someone on ff.net offered to translate the now orphaned fic a while ago. Can't recall what language.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, but I'm open to doing it should the muse strike us simultaneously.

What's your all-time favorite ship?

this dynamic <33

What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

I had an idea for a Twilight fic some time ago that I never finished because I didn't know enough about Twilight, but it was a pretty good concept. I might use it for original fiction sometime, I dunno.

What are your writing strengths?

I dunno, you tell me. Descriptions, jokes, bad vibes, idk.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I hate writing the connective tissue bits between scenes, which is why most of my longer fics are in vignette form, and I get fed up of the fic if I've been working on it for a while, so my endings tend to be a bit lazier. Also, I'm not very good at plot. I'm mostly a vibes-based writer.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

It's usually pretty easy to get around, especially if the character themselves doesn't speak the language. One of my biggest pet peeves in fiction in general is the egregious use of recognizable foreign words to show the audience they're speaking another language when everything else is in English. Don't be doing that.

First fandom you wrote for?

Percy Jackson, I think. Self insert ofc, never posted anywhere.

Favorite fic you've written?

Doing the opposite of the way parents pic their favourite child and saying whichever was the last one.

tagging (no pressure!): @aquarianshift @boshemians @eveepe

#mid.txt #fic

[bisamwilson]

fanfic writer asks

Tagged by: @oftincturedwords​, thank u!!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

32!

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

221,815! which is wild

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

you’ll only find things for the mcu/tfatws bc i orphaned a bunch of really old fics from when i was a (pre) teen, but back in the day i also wrote for divergent, pjo, les mis, and i think a few others

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

oh so saccharine (304)

i wanna hear it loud (292)

religion (u can lay your hands on me) (290)

renaissance man (263)

i just met you (and this is crazy) (256)

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

the star wars au! it’s still a hopeful sort of angsty i think, but that whole fic is mostly just pining and feelings that don’t really get resolved so,,,, definitely not SUPER angsty, but more angsty than i usually go for

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

i feel like most of my fics have happy endings bc i just can’t write angst for too long adkjfhs, but stuck in the middle with you filled my “happy ending” sam wilson bingo square, so i’m gonna go with that one

7. Do you write crossovers? If so , what is the craziest one you’ve written?

nope! i’ve never been a fan of reading crossovers, so i’m not really keen to write one either. i’ll write an au all day, but i’m prob not going to have jim and spock time travel back to meet sam and bucky, yk?

8. Do you write smut? If so , what kind?

oh boy do i! 50% of my published works are rated E asdjkf. i’m not really sure what the “what kind” question is asking? like is this asking if i write m/m, f/f, m/f? if so, i’ve only ever written m/m(/m) but could be open to writing f/f if i come across a ship i want to write for it! i can’t see myself writing m/f smut ever, but maybe one day. if it’s asking what i usually write about, i’ve written many a sex scene with many a kink between sam and bucky, but i guess i usually write top bucky more than top sam (though i’m a firm believer they do switch, bucky just tops 75-90% of the time)

9. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

yes! i usually end up responding to comments around the time i post my next fic asdfjk but i read them all as soon as i get that email from ao3! i respond to comments bc sometimes people have things to add on to or ask about a fic and i want to engage, but even when it’s just a “this is great!” i want to say thank you so they know i saw and appreciated their comments!

10. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

not hate per se, but i have had a couple people comment “this is great, but i think i would’ve written x” which i promptly delete without responding. also to that one person who commented on my consensual somnophilia fic saying they kind of hoped sam would moan out someone else’s name while asleep, we have very different opinions on the type of person sam is.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of! and hopefully i never will, that would be heartbreaking

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope! if anyone would ever want to translate my fic they’re welcome to tho and i’d love to get linked to it!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nothing published, but @yammz and i started a 5+1 sbj fic where bucky is a menace about sexting when sam and joaquín are on missions! it’s admittedly been a while since we’ve worked on it though, it’s been a busy summer (and i have so many other writing deadlines rip)

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

i mean the fact that it inspired me to write fic and gave me such a wonderful and vibrant online community i’ve never had before means i feel like i gotta write sambucky here, but spirk comes in a very close second!

15. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

as much as it pains me, probably the sbj fic where they’re in an angle relationship with sam in the middle but buckyquin are still pining for each other/thinks the other dislikes them but joaquín gets caught up in a post mission celebration and smacks bucky’s ass playfully and it becomes a Whole Thing. i started it with multiple povs and that is,,, too daunting for me

also jury’s out on whether i’ll ever finish the sam with an eating disorder fic. it’s a bit too personal and i have to make sure i’m not triggering myself while writing it/i’m in a good headspace to do so

16. What are your writing strengths?

i feel like i’m pretty good with dialogue? i write a lot of it and i generally like how it ends up. i also feel like i’m good with characterization, at least with sam and bucky in particular, and i’m really proud of the way i’ve developed them as i write each fic, and the headcanons i come up with and incorporate

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i hate writing ending lines!!!! i feel like 80% of my ending lines suck and i’m consistently insecure about them and i agonize over them so often or just write a placeholder that ends up in the actual fic bc i couldn’t think of something better

also i love that i feel like i have a writing style, but sometimes i wonder if it’s too much? like if my particular style gets too repetitive the more fics i put out yk? 

18. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

i don’t usually do it, mostly bc i only speak one language fluently and my latin/korean (which i took in school) are rusty at best and entirely gone at worst. i enjoy seeing other people do that though, though i will admit i get kind of annoyed when it doesn’t get translated after or in author’s notes, mostly bc google translate never translates anything just right

19. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

divergent asdfjkahs. i was like 11 and i wrote a small fic (probably 1000 words max) that was some type of character study of tobias i think

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

i mean the obvious answer here is the princess diaries au bc it’s my baby BUT i’m actually really proud of my star wars au. it’s been a while since i’ve written something and been like “yeah this is really good work and i’m very proud of this” and that’s how i felt when i published that

this one is SUPER long, so very much no pressure tagging @livingincolorsagain, @logicheartsoul, @firstelevens, @yammz, and @obsessivelymoody

#i have so many more writing mutuals but gotta leave some tags for everyone else to use adsjkf #thanks for the tag!!! #tag game #marvel #long post #otp: i’m coming with you #fanfic writer asks

[thefloorisbalaclava]

First of all, anon is 100% right about your writing. It kicks ass, I don't make the rules. It' still my inspiration to this day. Your writing always was amazing, it still is and always will be, continuously improving even when it seems almost impossible cause it's so good. Is there even a character you can't write? You always hit the nail on the head and it's mesmerising. And as much as I'm sorry to see you doubting such amazing content and knowing why this is a thing gives me violent urges, I'm so happy to see you enjoying writing again, as you should be 🫶

That being said, those words might have not been for me, not directly at least, but still hit me like a train. I'm more of an oc writer, I get most of my ideas in that regard and I can pour parts of myself into them to my heart's content. I barely post any complete writing with them, though, and I'm still far from finishing any full fanfiction  that features them. It's a hard pill to swallow, but what blocks me is the mostly non existat interaction. The Deus Ex fandom might be small, but it treated me well and welcomed my oc quite warmly. It gave me some confidence about my characters and my character creating skills, but it quickly shattered as I approached bigger titles as time passed. It looks like most people aren't interested in oc writing, unless you also do a lot of x reader writing and so you have a...pubblic? My self esteem is frail, to say the least, so there's no doubt that inspiration and motivation are affected by all this. My x reader content, when I manage to write some, goes pretty well considering my smaller blog and how I don't publish often. Yet, my requests have been dead silent since the DE fandom went rather dormant. I only have hold ones that I still didn't manage to finish, after ages. But requests would help me write more x reader content, cause I would have ideas to work on. So what does all this lead to? "Why do you even try? You're not good enough". And I'm starting to think that's the real reason why I struggle to write regurarly. It's so easy to be kind to others and remind them what anon said to you, because it's absolutely true, but being kind to my own self? Good luck with that. Those words are true, but not when it comes to me. So, honestly, I know this feeling too well, way to well. But I'll try to take your advice and not let this get to me too much, not anymore, because in the end, deep down, I know you're right.

I don't even know why I'm writing this long ass rant, but thank you for the reminder, and sorry for getting carried away like this. Hope I'm not making you uncomfortable or anything can't find the right word damn it

Don't ever apologize for feeling what you feel and needing to talk about it! I think this feeling is widespread among a lot of creators whether they are writers, artists or gifmakers. We can yell "I do this for me!" all we want, but at the end of the day we are human and humans crave interaction.

I get annoyed with myself when I start comparing my work to someone else's. "What are they doing to get so many notes that I'm not?" Honestly, only like the first few fics I wrote when I first came back to the cod fandom have really garnered and interaction now it's like meh. Some days I'm like whatever and other days it's like "okay so it's happening again. am I doing something wrong? Does my writing suck?"

Like I said, all these feelings are valid. It especially hurts when you've worked your ass off on something to only get the bare minimum of interaction then you see another fic that comes across your dash that has 500+ notes and the person just posted it an hour ago.

I feel like I should be used to it by now, you know. But for some reason it never gets easier. I do hope you know that I look forward to your writing (if that means anything) and I appreciate and love you 💙💙💙

[kiwiparfait]

The Power of a Name

waiting on making an account on ao3 so i’m posting this here sorry. spoilers for toh.

little thing i wrote about hunter choosing a new name. this is important to me bc i feel like his arc can be interpreted as being an allegory for transness and i feel like a good conclusion to that is for him to change his name. this is an idea i’ve been playing with for a bit but i literally was having trouble myself deciding on his new name. i hope people like what i ended up going with :]

also i dont write much im sorry if this is bad LOL + i sped run the first 2 paragraphs bc they were an after thought but i felt like it needed. a context to exist in

Luz, Hunter, Amity, Willow, Gus, and V were all hanging out in the basement. They were chatting about this and that for a while, mostly lighthearted talk. But eventually conversation took a turn and Hunter’s situation was brought up. How he was doing after everything that had happened. It was something he had avoided talking about. Even after all this time, he had trouble opening up to others and expressing his emotions. It was something he was trying to work on, but it was still difficult. Talking about emotions or showing any emotions was strictly prohibited in the emperor’s coven because it was seen as a hindrance. But he could tell they all asked out of concern for him, and he really didn’t want to worry them more than he probably already did.

He fought the voices in his head telling him to keep it to himself and began to open up about the things he had been internalizing for so long. About the brutal training he endured, the violent outbursts of the emperor, and the nights he’d spend just crying curled up in his bed. And then about coming to realize who, or what he was.

“I used to wear my name proudly like some sort of badge. Before Belos, I didn’t have a family, didn’t have a name. He took me in and raised me. He gave me a name, a purpose. But everything I remember from my past or thought I remembered was all lies. I never had a mom or a dad,” Hunter admitted. “‘Hunter’ wasn’t a name lovingly given to me, it was just some title. A method to dehumanize me. Some role in his sick game in which his brother did everything he wanted. ‘Hunter’ is just one more thing that connects me back to him. I want to move on, but I don’t think I can like this,” he muttered, staring down at his feet.

“Do you…want to go by something else?” Luz offered gently. Hunter looked up and blinked at her in surprise.

“Yeah… I think so. If it isn’t too much trouble. It’s probably stupid, I’m sorry,” Hunter mumbled.

“No, no. Not at all. Whatever name you end up choosing, we’ll respect it! We support you,” Luz reassured, and everyone nodded in agreement. “Thank you for trusting us with this.”

“...Thanks guys, I really appreciate that,” he replied with a small smile.

.

.

Hunter spent the next week contemplating what his name should be. It was a strange feeling. A name is such a strong part of one’s identity, he thought. He’d spent so long being “Hunter” and the Golden Guard, he didn’t know anything else. He was slowly starting to figure out who he was outside of those identities, but it was hard to let them go nonetheless. Change, even for the better, is frightening.

The first name he kept coming back to was Caleb. Of course. The first name that wasn’t Hunter he had briefly gone by. There was a familiarity to the name. It suited him. But that thought made him itch, because it wasn’t his name to bear. That name belonged to someone who he felt he wasn’t, deep down. Going by Caleb would mean accepting that he was nothing more than a shadow of a dead man. He was his own person now, and he wanted his name to reflect that.

With the help of Luz, he searched through various lists of names online trying to find one he liked. He began a list of his own to keep track of ones he thought he might use. He spent a couple of days trying out a few of the names on his list to feel them out, and everyone tried their best to use them when referring to him. None of the names stuck, however. They didn’t feel like him.

After wasting so much time on it, Hunter almost gave up on finding a new name. He figured he’d just try to make Hunter work; after all, it was the name he was so used to. It was a name that belonged to him. But he finally had an idea. He knew what his name would be. He gathered everyone in the living room, telling them that he had got it, after all these weeks. He stood in front of them, flustered but excited, as they sat with anticipation.

“I’d like to go by Jack from now on. To honor Flapjack. Y’know, cause he’ll always be a part of me. And I owe him so much. He was my first friend, and really, my first real family,” he said warmly, with a hand on his chest.

Everyone looked a little stunned for a moment before grinning at him. “I love that. And Jack suits you perfectly,” Luz beamed. Camila stood and wrapped her arms around him in a tender embrace. 

“Thank you guys for being so accepting of all of this. Really,” Jack confided. For once in his life he truly felt confident that he was his own person, and he was ready to begin life as Jack.

#toh spoilers #the owl house spoilers #hunter toh #toh hunter #toh #toh fanfic #fanfic #writing #drabble #screaming throwing up dont look at it. praying hoping that the keep reading thing works the way i need it to ive never used it before and im #scared #the owl house #kiwi writes ?! #i am cringe but i amfree

[lostlastsforever756]

Hey! I really love your fic (YNWC), will you still update it?

xx

Hi! Thank you for reading and I'm glad you enjoyed the fic.

So, I made an author's note in part 17 about this, but I know not everyone reads every chapter. I put a lot of pressure on myself to write this fic. Basically, I took on way more than I thought I could handle. I was getting lots of requests and because I am a major people pleaser, I was saying yes to everyone without actually coming up with an idea. It felt like the chapters were basically being slapped together, and it felt like it wasn't really quality work. I think I burnt myself out cuz I've also been having trouble writing anything since this story. So, there was that, plus some other stuff that I'm not going to get into because its personal. But, because of all that, I decided to stop updating the story. I have some requests that I really liked and I was inspired by those, so if I ever suddenly think about writing this fic again without wanting to cry, then I might update the AO3 post. I know I posted an update in March, but that's because someone close to me gave me that request and I wanted them to have something special for their birthday, and I even kind of struggled with that.

I'm sorry if this post comes off as a personal attack, because it's totally not. I have been getting messages, like, once a month since I slowed down on my updates and I've been ignoring them or not just being straight up about the situation. I've been going back into each chapter, writing that the requests are closed, rather than putting a hard complete label on the story. And I mostly do that because sometimes i do get randomly inspired to update. For instance, i wrote a one off Stella Gibson fic, finished it and posted it. Then three years later just randomly added a chapter two. So it's not...completely out of the realm of possibility that I will update, I just don't know when that inspiration will come back to me. Sometimes it does, and sometimes it never does.

so, tl;dr, I will not be updating this story. If I find the inspiration to write it again, i hope it will be a pleasant surprise for everyone (including myself lol), but I am not making any promises as to when that will be. I'm sorry, and I truly appreciate you and everyone else who read this story and enjoyed it. Cordelia is a beautiful character, and its a shame she doesn't have her own show tbh. I appreciate you for reaching out <3

#anonymous #anon #your night with cordelia #replies #late night asks #my fanfiction

[willwritesablog]

Angel's Egg and Minor Updates

Original Review Drafted May 25th, 2021

This movie's like my first post back on my blog--over-easy.

9/18/22

Gif taken by force from this blog, which recorded it from somewhere else. Some rights reserved.

Hey everybody. Lots has happened since my last activity on this blog--new job, I beat Spelunky for real, and my greatest writing influencer has died. Maybe I'll write extended posts on those last two things, but, the hole that I repeatedly find myself in, is that any creative energy towards these things, I often flow into other outlets.**

Case in point here. Apparently over a year ago now, I watched an avant-garde foreign film titled "Angel's Egg," and wrote down my thoughts on it assumably immediately after on my phone's memopad. To give a little more activity here, and also to place this review somewhere for posterity's sake, I wanted to go ahead and post my examination in its entirety from that time. I did not rewatch the film recently to prepare for posting this--I haven't even watched it once since. It's a commonly praised film, and it's likely worth watching at least one time as its name comes up often in the anime scene. Additionally, this is a film that's best watched blind.

That said, the following will include heavy spoilers. I've attempted to nest the review between two sets of dotted lines that you can quickly scan with your eyes, so feel free to skip to the postscript below if you choose.

Again, heavy spoilers; last warning!

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[Angel's Egg] positions itself as if it were an objective view of its world, but it necessarily isn't. It's from the P.O.V. of the boy, which is important, in part because he's intentionally positioned as not the main character and is also the only character remaining at the end of the film. There are effectively only three characters in the film; him, the female, and the "mindless soldiers." The depiction on them is simple, it's supposed to be some brash commentary on "religion" or the Abrahamic religions destroying things as people chase shadows from the past, basically Plato's shadow cave metaphor-allegory.

The egg represents someone else's hope. Only false hope if you choose to buy into it totally, or perhaps something else wishy washy. The opportunity (for the boy to destroy this) manifests itself so quickly because other outcomes would literally break the creator's dream dellusion etc.,

[Towards the end of the film,] the idea of the resulting eggs resulting in more hope created is a cynical wash. Perhaps that represents more hope created for someone else. Perhaps had he [the main character, the boy] stayed with the girl, some type of egg or wisdom would appear for himself. There would be no waking up after its deconstruction, time could not be worked with so instead one is a slave to it. The statement about needing to destroy an egg to see what is inside of it is supposed to be a revealing view of that character.

There are no more people, so unnestled hope hardly matters. Someone else could carry that on. Does he smash those, or would it be meaningless as they are not valued by anyone. In any case, it has little bearing on our character.

The girl could be stated to be equally cynical as only him and her encounter a world such as that. "There are no fish," later tells us god's (capital G I guess) promise is dead and that she [the girl] will reforge it with time, or rather, raise something that will take on that burden. Does the next day come when she wakes up, no, she simply wakes up, as that's what this scenario necessarily must dictate.

It's a worldview well mapped out but that doesn't necessarily make it profound. You basically have to see its message as unique to appreciate it. Angel, "that which is to help heaven," what is heaven. That which is a servant to someone else's plan, that which is treasured by it, and an individual's willful destruction of it, I guess that's how it's supposed to be seen. Mostly it's vaguely interconnecting imagery. I'm starting to repeat myself.

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If the boy's viewpoint and actions were any less congruent with the world, the author, if he was any less of a solipsist, perhaps you could trick me otherwise.

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And, those were my thoughts! It looks like I really didn't like that movie, but it is a good period piece, if nothing else. A good juxtapose that I've noticed and noted (but also not recently, as per a phone note on June 18th 2022), is that, production values aside, I would argue A Poet's Life holds much more meaning than Angel's Egg. A Poet's Life is a shorter film, with messaging that I had placed as, "that the product of others' hopes and dreams is what one becomes in time, and others collect those, hoard those, within an unhealthy lifecycle (and some of this is comparable to Berserk's scene with the "Bonfire of Dreams").

I don't particularly laud myself as being a "good writer," although if the right circumstances occur I can stream out some articulate thoughts. With circumstances as they are, I don't see myself posting regularly on here yet; perhaps after my living situation improves once more*** then I could find a workable rhythm on posting things I myself would also enjoy reading. All that said, I may return here occasionally (or periodically) to post unpublished drafts, and other pieces as they come up. Thank you for returning, and as always, please feel free to share any of your own thoughts.

**These being, Reddit burner accounts (yes, I know), Twitter, and phone notes, primarily.

***At least one interuption was made in the middle of this post. I only point this out as to say; I *can* write even better than this.

#angel's egg #anime #review #filmreview

[rhonuscorner]

AO3 Question Tag Game

Shamelessly stolen from @bamsara because I have some time to spare right now and this sounds fun. Not tagging anyone, if you wanna do this too, consider yourselves tagged. I'm tagging you!

1 – How many works do you have on AO3?

As of right now, only 3. I deleted a bunch of them and one has been orphaned.

2 – What's your total AO3 word count?

423,837. The fic that I orphaned a few months ago would've doubled that.

3 – What fandoms do you write for?

Right now, Fnaf. I have also written for Assassin's Creed, Cyberpunk 2077, MCU, DBZ, Dragon Age and The Walking Dead.

4 – What are your top five fics by kudos?

Skip.

5 – Do you respond to comments?

99% of the time, yes. I do forget sometimes but I really wanna show my appreciation to those who take the time to leave a comment by responding and thanking them.

6 – What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Skip, I don't do angsty endings. Angsty stories, absolutely, but the ending has gotta be a happy one.

7 – What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Well considering I've never actually finished a fic this is hard to answer, but for plenty of them I do have endings figured out. Makes it hard to talk about it due to spoilers and what-not.

8 – Do you get hate on fics?

Yeah it's happened. I delete their comments, block 'm and go on with my day, happy in the knowledge that while I'm not perfect, at least I'm not a pathetic troll hiding behind anonymity to make myself feel better ^-^

9 – Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I used to write a lot of smut, always m/m. It's fairly rare for me to write nowadays but I'm not ruling it out.

10 – Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

None of them have really been all that crazy, some crossovers work out surprisingly well! I love it when they do.

11 – Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yup.

12 – Have you ever had a fic translated?

Also yup. Most of the time the person behind it asked for permission so I was cool with it, but I've also found a translation or two of that one orphaned fic that was done without my knowing about it.

13 – Have you ever co-written a fic?

All of my work is co-written (with the exception of one CP2077 one-shot and my current DCA AUs). I am big on one-on-one fandom RP, I love building a story with someone else and have our characters interact. It's one of my favorite things to do. Still hoping to find a someone to write DCA stories with one day.

14 – What's your all-time favorite ship?

Impossible to answer.

15 – What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

... all of them.

16 – What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue, both spoken dialogue as well as a character's inner thoughts. Also action/fighting scenes.

17 – What are your writing weaknesses?

Describing surroundings and appearances.

18 – Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Again the orphaned fic, it had a lot of characters from different countries so while everyone spoke English, those characters did tend to slip every so often. Mostly French and Italian, all done through google translate because I don't speak either lol.

And in most of the DBZ fics I used a fan-made language for saiyans that I borrowed words from.

19 – First fandom you wrote for?

Medabots. This was like... 2001 or something, I finally got access to internet around that time and the first online friend I made I also started writing stories with. Medabots was one of the most popular anime on tv in that time so yeah.

20 – Favorite fic you've written?

Uh... again that's gotta be the orphaned fic. It's certainly the biggest I've ever (co) written and it was a ton of fun as well as the most popular fic I've ever written. And the longest too! At one point in time it was the second longest fic in the entire Assassin's Creed section on AO3. Good times.

#I dunno what to tag this as #AO3 tag game #I guess