#i will not be able to emotionally handle this album

[danisbrainrot]

yellowjackets as taylor swift albums (I'm bored). this became deeper than I meant for it to go OMG. whoops, anyways, enjoy:

1. tai: reputation. oh my god this girl is soooo in love with van, and at the end of the day, that's what reputation is. a love album. yeah it's got a little revenge in it, but overall, it's about being in love with someone who was there for you at your most vulnerable. and who's always been there for tai, adult AND teen timeline? VAN!

2. van: 1989! it's nostalgic, fun, iconic but still has the emotional rawness that flows throughout all of taylor's albums. everyone thinks 1989 is just heaps of fun, but it has this emotional intensity to it that once you look closer to it, you realise how much of a masterpiece it is. also, it just gives me van vibes tbh.

3. jackie: lover. she's so insecure about being in a relationship with who she thinks is the love of her life (shauna) in case she fucks it up (spoiler alert, she does). taylor also wrote this album as a last hurrah, to prove she had more stories to tell, and I think that ties in nicely to jackie's character. her insecurity forces her to try and prove herself to shauna, and show her best friend how much she loves her.

4. shauna: she's a red girlie. taylor's most emotionally raw album (besides ttpd) and she just gives the vibes. this is taylor's first heartbreak album (like how jackie's death was shauna's first heartbreak), and it's so intense that it takes a few listens to understand, but once you do, you realise it's an album about a girl with big heart learning how to recover from the devastation of losing someone she loves deeply.

5. lottie: folklore!! I love my little baby. this album was written in isolation, and you can definitely hear it in some of taylor's lyrics, and I just feel like that's lottie's character. the isolated girl who's held up to a higher standard than everyone else.

6. nat: ttpd. okay, i was tossing up between giving this to nat or travis, but then I remembered the adult timeline and went with nat. when I first heard this album, it reminded me of her purposeless speech. it's also an album where taylor was going through a manic phase, and if that isn't nat, I don't know what is. she's just lost the love of her life, and then she's kidnapped by lottie's cult and promised so many wonderful things, that she believes it—only for it to end in tragedy.

7. misty: she gives off such speak now vibes. she has so much she wants to prove, and she's reeling from being in love with a man much older than her.

8. travis: evermore. he's such a tragic little guy, that the album suits him. I really just think of happiness, marjorie and right where you left me because he's stuck in the past. he literally kills himself (accidentally I know, I know) because he's so trapped in the wilderness despite being free from it. this album has always given me: depressed sad, compared to its sister albume: folklore, which gives me angry sad. and while he's definitely more angry then lottie, he's got this deep sadness in him that echoes evermore.

9. mari: midnights. okay I don't know how to explain it better than this is how I interpret mari. she's the first to throw herself into believing lottie because she's scared and when I think of midnights, I think of how scared taylor was at losing her relationship and joe that she ignores her feelings. and mari ignores her feelings because if she really thinks about it, I don't think she'd be able to handle herself, i.e. being trapped in the woods, eating jackie.

10. javi: taylor swift (debut). just the innocence and naïvety of the album. it's her first album, she wrote and released at 15/16 so there's a lot of childish beliefs and hopes, which I think javi has—but there's still an underlying feeling of heartbreak. he tries to be a kid, but is still traumatised.

11. laura lee: fearless!! this is purely based on the album title. I mean, learning to fly a plane just to save her friends? this album is probably my least favourite, so you're not going to get a lot of analysis, but the few times I've listened to it, I understand it's about having faith things will work out (this might be wrong, but that's what I'm choosing to believe about it). and her faith makes her believe she can do anything, including save her friends. omg I love her so much <333

#danistalks #surely this isnt too niche #yellowjackets #yellowjackets showtime #taylor swift #taissa turner #vanessa palmer #shauna shipman #jackie taylor #lottie matthews #natalie scatorccio #travis martinez #javi martinez #mari yellowjackets #misty quigley #laura lee #fearless #speak now #red #1989 #reputation #lover #folklore #evermore #midnights #the tortured poets department

[moonlight-prose]

i think i would go bonkers for joel and ❛ it hurts that you still can’t trust me after all this time. ❜

VIEW FROM THE BRIDGE

a/n: this has been sitting in my drafts for so long, but an idea struck me so i wrote it. it's messy and all over the place and probably way too short, but i'm actually okay with it. i hope you enjoy it darling! i based it on the song by etta marcus, because that whole album has my heart.

summary: the past was off limits, but at what cost?

word count: 1.1k+

pairing: joel miller x reader

warnings: not explicit, angst, grief, joel once again being emotionally unavailable, fluff, some heartfelt romance.

The city looked different from up here. Then again, the once beautiful Boston city had turned into a small few blocks radius with people who were terrified of even breathing. Everyone had lost their hope in the QZ. Their sunken eyes and gaunt frames told you just how much people were suffering, how much they would give to have just a small piece of their past back. You used to be one of them. Once.

“Hell of a view,” you said, sipping from the canteen of water you had attached to your pack.

The echo of his footsteps came up behind you, the sound familiar and comforting after spending so long with him. “I’ve seen better.” You could practically hear the smile in his voice.

You snorted, turned to see him leaning against the edge of the bridge railing, the sun glowing behind him. “Oh yeah? Where?”

“Texas had some pretty views too.”

“Ah…of course,” you replied, biting back the smile that threatened to bloom on your lips. “Do you miss it there?”

The question was a dangerous one to ask given the circumstances. You weren’t his partner, or even his lover. You were the person who tagged along behind him. Someone he would probably feel nothing for if you were to ever die or leave his side. Which left the question to hang in the air. Unanswered.

He cleared his throat, turning back to stare at the view with a different look on his face. One that told you enough. You weren’t supposed to ask those kinds of questions. The agreement you shared was simple enough; both of you were meant to work together with an ease that only came from people who were more. The both of you were supposed to keep the other alive. That was it. You didn’t divulge secrets, you didn’t bring up the past. 

What was the point? When you were both going to die eventually anyways.

You could still feel the lingering loneliness in your chest every time you looked at him. The ache that slowly ate away at your insides. Telling you that you would never be able to have more than just this—more than two people who were on the verge of breaking apart entirely. Unable to heal from the damage done to both your souls.

“We need to go,” he said, staring in the distance at the QZ. Neither of you were supposed to be here in the first place, but listening to the rules was never either of your fortes.

“Why do you do that?” you sighed, stepping away from him, adamant on catching the last few rays of the afternoon sun.

“I didn’t do—”

“You know it hurts right,” you finally admitted, unable to look at him. The sun glowed against his face, turning you breathless at the sight, and you wouldn’t be able to handle that. “It hurts that you still can’t trust me after all this time.”

His breath caught in his chest. The echo of pain in your voice breaking off a piece of his heart as he watched you struggle to fight back the flood of emotions. For months he had avoided letting you in like it was his own kind of infection. It was better to stay alone. To keep everyone at arm's length if only to save his own sanity. He knew it hurt you. Saw the crushed expression you continued to wear whenever he pulled away, but Joel was unable to do anything about it.

How could he let you in when he knew what the cost was in the end?

“I trust you.”

You scoffed, finally turning your gaze on him. The shine of unshed tears punched him in the chest. “No you don’t Joel. You never did.”

He sighed, stepping closer and half expecting you to step back, but that’s never who you were. “You know why I can’t.”

“No actually I don’t,” you muttered. “Because you never told me.”

“Honey—”

“And that’s fine. I don’t need to know your whole history, or why you’re so fucking broken. But did you ever stop to think that I’m just as broken as you Joel?” The tears that fell were hot, filled with a salty rage that he could practically taste on his tongue.

He knew bits and pieces of your history. He knew that the ring you wore on a chain around your neck used to sit on your left hand. A promise you made to another man, long before the outbreak. You had a life with that person. A home that belonged to you. Yet that was all ripped away from you on the same night it was ripped from him.

The reason he knew all of that was because you told him. You let him in to see the most vulnerable parts of you. So why couldn’t he do the same?

Breaking away from his gaze, you wiped at the tears. “Forget I said anything. It’s getting late. We need to head back before they notice we’re gone.”

Joel felt his heart drop at the prospect that this was it. This was the moment you would walk away for good. So, he grabbed onto your arm and dragged you close. He kissed you, swallowed your sharp gasp, and attempted to show you exactly how much he needed you in his life. You were his. The partner he turned to when he needed comfort, when he needed to be reminded of the person he was before all of this.

“Joel—” you gasped, your hands gripping onto his jacket.

“I will tell you,” he breathed, his forehead pressing against yours. “It’s just gonna take me some time honey. I’ve never…”

You nodded, cupping his cheeks to bring him closer. “I know.”

He shut his eyes against the sight of your smile, feeling as if he didn’t deserve the sweetness of it. Not yet at least. Tonight he would go home, explain to you what he could without breaking his own soul again, and do his best to keep you. Joel wouldn’t lose another person. He couldn’t. For now though…he admired the view of your eyes once again holding a hope he wished he could have himself.

“Hell of a view,” he murmured, his thumb running along your jaw. His breath caught at the sight of your eyes fluttering closed, your sigh of contentment rocketing to his heart.

You smiled, pulling him closer by the front of his jacket—your lips brushing against his. “Eh,” you shrugged. “I’ve seen better.”

#joel miller x reader #joel miller x y/n #joel miller x you #joel miller fic #joel miller #the last of us fic #the last of us #my writing

[notyouraryang0dd3ss]

I have been an active part of booktok-critical community in my country for like... 7 years now and the critique that tehse young (usually 16/17 years old) creators get is pretty much what Swift is getting now (her being unoriginal, derivative, pretentious, simpler than presented, unethical, ableist, etc) and I find it funny bc she's like twice as old. do you think she will break down into another album if someone reminds her shes not a teen anymore btw

😭😭😭 the final sentence of this ask killed me youre soooo funny sksjdjdnfjfn

this just reminds me of how spotify’s playlist called “teen pop” was a picture of taylor swift. so incriminating for her 😭

taylor swift has dug herself into a holeeeeee she’s written herself to be a teenage heartbreak artist that she’s incapable of being anything else musically. like her voice would not be able to handle it because all she does is croon into the mic in an impression of creating a soft vulnerable environment for the listener.

idk taylor stopped growing at 17 mentally and emotionally and reminding her of her adulthood reminds her she is accountable for her actions. idk shes very resentful of the fact that her youth was not spent normally and takes it out in her music and constant yearning of the past that will never come. she needs to accept and let go she will never be normal and its of her own making.

#anti taylor swift #booktok #notyouraryang0dd3ss #ask #anon

[changingplumbob]

Not Sims - Just Reign

So I binge watched the final 5 episodes today and... I am emotionally compromised. See below for my ramblings and how I attempted to make album art a decade ago.

If you clicked keep reading I'm going to assume you don't mind reading my rambles so I'm just going to indulge myself here. I need to process and getting it out helps me process.

I first saw Reign during my final year of High School and fell completely in love. Quite aside from English History being a special interest for me at the time, Adelaide Kane and Toby Regbo were so gorgeous. Honestly the signs that I'm bisexual were right there but it just did not click.

If you're my moot you will know by now I am a massive romantic. So of course I would get invested in the Mary Francis love story. Thanks past me for routing for Francis from the start, smart choice.

The outfits took my breath away, as did the wonderful landscapes. I fell in love with everything Mary wore and tried to find a graduation dress that was as close to something like that as possible.

The music! I loved every track they put with the episodes. Shout out to that one youtube channel that was posting full versions of the songs. I have a playlist with the music from the first two seasons and have listened to it on loop so often. There was a website that would post screenshots of the episodes and I would copy paste and make my own album art. Not to do anything with, they were solely for me to see when the songs came up on my iPod.

BUT I only watched the first two seasons before I took a break. History wise I knew Francis would die before they had a child, but the end of season 2 seemed to announce his death was approaching and my romantic self could not handle it. So over the next few years I rewatched the first two seasons plenty, and continued to listen to the music. I tried to watch season 3 in my first year at university, I really did. But things were different back then and I could only find low quality episodes because legitimate streaming services were in their infancy, if they even existed.

During my post grad diploma I would take a train part of the way to my placements. It was on the train that I happened to catch someone watching Reign on their phone. Not just any part of Reign either, the recap that shows Francis dying and Mary saying goodbye to the coffin. You bet any progress I had made towards being able to watch it was reset.

Following the worst of my depression, last year I began to feel a proper interest in things I love again and I wanted to see Reign to its conclusion. So I got myself the DVDs for season 3 (I don't have netflix, plus I like having physical copies of things) and worked my way through. Since I hate spoilers I didn't want to read the blurbs included in the cover so I never knew which episode Francis would die in, I was happy he was in it for so long. The whole plot with Francis having made Mary a sword for taking back Scotland made me love them all the more.

I gifted myself season 4, the final season, for Christmas. I've been watching it in bits and pieces. I have this thing where if something is ending I try to hold off the ending for as long as possible. But today I was so under the weather that I did watch the last disc all in one go.

Side note, Rizzio. I can't believe that actually happened! But wikipedia says it did. It really sounds like something a drama show would make up.

I've always known Queen Mary was executed for supposedly trying to kill Queen Elizabeth. I wasn't sure how Reign would tackle that. I figured they would do a flash forward or do that text over screen thing. I love neat endings but my heart could survive not seeing the end of Mary. I begun the final episode, saw Toby Regbo's name in the starting line up and immediately teared up. If he was in the episode then they were certainly going to show her death. Those end scenes, they made me happy and sad all at once. I loved that Francis was there for her, and I loved the flashbacks through their life together. Damn did it make me cry though.

The main characters have had a place in my heart for a decade. So heck yeah I'm grieving the loss. I know I'll watch it again, so it's not a permanent goodbye, but it's tough to see the end of anyway.

#spoilers under the cut #I love reign so much #ramble ramble ramble #I wrote a whole damn ted talk length thing to process #Don't like reign then don't read

[iloveamagician]

OH, DISMEMBERMENT PLAN...

what an insane band name, when I first started listening to them, I had no idea what "to dismember" meant, I only looked up the dictionary definition after seeing people's reactions such as "????????" and "the WHAT plan????!!!!", when they had been recommended the band. It happens. I feel it belongs to the experience of people who aren't native speakers of English, yet they've grown up surrounded by music in the language. Music comes first, lyrics second, meaning... third??

I still have a clear memory of ten-year-old me memorizing all the lyrics to my favorite Linkin Park songs. While I recognized some of the words I was singing along to, I wasn't able to decipher their meanings and wasn't even trying to. That band was my first real obsession. Hyperfixation, perhaps. They were the music I would play when I was given access to youtube on the family computer. Turns out I didn't get to grow up to be the person who gets the aux. In my teenage years I went through so many more music phases, a journey I'd love to discover in better detail across many more posts in the future. There was my metal phase with a milion subphases within it (since there is probably more subgenres than bands), then a prog and alt rock phase, then in the summer of 2019 a friend introduced me — 16 year old, coming to terms with their newly discovered queer identity — to car seat headrest, which swept me like an ocean wave and irreversibly changed my music taste and also me as a person.

The world of indie music opened itself to me, so many new artists, bands, but more importantly specific albums by those artists, dc snuff film/waste yrself, the glow pt. 2, itaots, souvlaki... all the classics, but none of them had a hold on me as strong as Twin Fantasy by CSH, Come In by Weatherday, Funeral by Arcade Fire, YWNKW by Sweet Trip, and – well, my Elliott Smith obsession was yet to come but we can count XO in there too. But in the midst of all these albums, you could find Emergency & I, a record that I enjoyed when I first listened to it, I didn't really think much of it, but I really felt the need to return to it. And then again and again, I best enjoyed the fun, most standard songs, What Do You Want Me To Say and Gyroscope, I loved hearing the small weird details in them, the time signatures, the mindblowing drumming... the album didn't mean a lot to me at first. I was still 17 when I first heard it, I needed to grow into it.

A year later I got into a long distance relationship, I started university, I moved from my small town to a big city. And it sucked, I wasn't really able to make any friends, I couldn't handle the pressure of schoolwork, my depression got much worse, my adhd meds weren't really doing anything, at some point I stopped leaving my dorm room and I ended up sinking into a deep metaphorical pit and eventually dropping out after four months. Fun stuff. The reason why I am mentioning all this is that there is a strong correlation between my music journey and my life journey. And Emergency & I is the college age young adult album. There is so much loneliness packed into it but it's not exactly sad or depressing. This album can be kind of laid back, or extremely anxious, it can be very nihilistic and dystopian, it can be very fun or it can completely rip your heart out, it can make you think "yeah I do know these people", it can be very silly and the next second it throws the most poetic and beautiful words at you that fill your heart and head with an abundance of images and feelings. And it gets better the more you grow into it and the more you relate to it, and even if you don't relate to everything, the songwriting and storytelling is so perfect and emotionally intense that it will rip its claws into you and never let you go.

In the last year and a half I've managed to get myself into a much better place in terms of mental health and academic success. I started studying again, this time a subject I love (languages), I found some amazing friends, the long distance relationship has turned into a less distance relationship and we see each other relatively often and things are going great and I finally realized that Emergency & I is the best album ever made. Because even when everything is going great, maintaining all those parts of my life is not easy at all and this album knows it too well. Okay, maybe it is not the best album ever made, but it is the best album for me. At this stage of my life.

But do I claim that after over three years, I understand the meaning of this album perfectly? Not really. Well, I bet not even Travis Morrison does, because how could he have predicted the intensity of the feelings I go through each time I listen to the album, or the impossible to fill void that appears inside of my chest after the final track ends, making me long for more of those feelings but also making me sad becuase there is nothing else quite like E&I...

And, you know, maybe I was wrong and the song meaning does not come third. Maybe the first time you listen to a song, it already means something to you. Maybe that is why I was drawn back to the album. Each time I listen to it I am a different person. And the songs mean different things. Of course I understand more of the song lyrics the more I read them and listen to them and analyze them but words can only go so far in terms of meaning. The band created the songs with certain ideas in their heads but those ideas have been transformed so many times, from their minds through their instruments, on paper, to the recordings, the masters, and then to the ears and minds of thousands of people, through different mediums, through different means of discovery. Songs mean different things to you when a friend recommends them to you or when you find them on your own, even before you listen to them. And I am not even mentioning live performances where your body vibrates with the music and the room and the songs are changed ever so slightly each time. Nobody experiences music the same way.

And I could talk for hours about what exactly the album means to me but I cannot and also do not want to fit all of it in one post. I want to dedicate a separate post to each of the songs on this album, which is one of the things my blog is going to be about, but I don't want to limit myself to being only a dismemberment plan fan, I want to document my music journey here, both by looking into the past and sharing my current favorites (for example get ready for a ton of weatherday posting this year). This post is just me speaking random sentences into the void, to prepare everyone for all of my future long posts, which are also going to be me ranting into the void, hoping things will end up making at least some sense to at least one of you (assuming somebody will read this, but I know this place is full of nerds just as obsessed with things as me (or even more, actually) so my chances aren't a complete zero).

tldr listen to dismemberment plan, it might change your life. I am not conscious enough to proofread. goodnight <3

#dismemberment plan #indie rock #music #csh #90s music #indie #weatherday #nonbinary #I plan to irreversibly damage the music taste of all the gays on here and I am not sorry

[ramonag-if]

[Its just me ramblin about the new chapter you dont have to post this or even read this... this got longer than intended]

'Fuck'

Thats what I said out loud when I read the scene with dear mom cause damn even I was flabbergasted. Like I read the random crumbs from Patreon readers so I thought I could handle it but... I could not.

Honestly, if it was me, I dont think I could handle a conversation with her after the prison break, I would probs be balling my eyes out behind my friends, my buddies, my homies [I wanted to read the friendship scenes] cause that was one hell of a talk I would not willingly be in. Like she only thought about fixing the relationship when she saw you in Ishari. AND she brought her kid with her!!! How could you do that??!?! You didnt speak to your kid for 20 YEARS and you thought it was the best time to introduce each other.

It may sound weird but I also never thought Ahlf was a bad dad. He just seemed like a regular asian dad to me. Emotionally constipated, but at least still tries to push thru the constipation you know. Doesn't really succeed but he broke out a sweat. A+ for effort.

My god, Salyra... How was it possible to never even mention your kid in 20 years? I couldnt even shut up about my dog to some random strangers. And it wasn't even my dog, it was my neighbours! The best shih tzu you could ask for honestly. So glad 7 year old me took shitty photos of her that ended up being developed by accident and till this day is still stored in my family photo album.

I dont think I would be able to sit thru the meeting with Salyra there lmao, I probs would bring Crown in as my emotional support animal. Maybe he can give Salyra a good hard glare for making MC go thru this shit.

I wonder how our family in Vinia would take the information? Damn, author you really made me go thru so much in one chapter. You really did a great job writing. I'm sorry for this long ass post, I forgot it's 1 Feb and didn't prepare myself emotionally.

I shall read and answer this because I do love rambling myself 😋😆

I really do love complicated parents in fiction and I really wanted people to realise that not everything is quite clear cut, especially since for many, Ahlf was the somewhat worse of the parents considering his reluctance in becoming a father.

Salyra definitely made mistakes and in a way, she might be a little too hopeful for a huge happy reunion with the MC. She isn't quite aware of what the NC went through, so all she sees is just an older version of the 5 year old child she left behind 😅

You definitely will get to see the Vinia family react to Salyra by Part 3 😊 They'll all be feeling some sort of way, mostly the MC's uncle because Salyra's decision to remain in Ishari routine really hit him hard 👀

Thank you for the long post!

#crown of exile #answered asks #chapter 5 spoilers #salyra

[queenofthesilverdollar]

the family jewels is such a good album i will never be able to handle emotionally

[full-moon-hate-account]

marauders era characters and their favourite taylor swift album (also what album you should listen to based on your fav!!) — a character analysis (of sorts):

james: fearless (tv)

i mean, fearless meets hey stephen meets you belong with me meets the best day meets that’s when is literally, genuinely, HIM. he’d like the slight country-ness of it all, due to how it’s only given in small portions but is still there. the theme of falling head over heels in love but it not working out would go so well with him and his character </3 he’d listen to it like almost every day.

sirius: lover

if he was asked this, he’d die, and probably go for reputation. a safe option. but he doesn’t know himself like i do. he’d be screaaaaaaming the lyrics to ‘i think he knows’ whenever he could, he’d cry to lover, relate to the archer, daylight, and afterglow on a spiritual level, and never get sick of cruel summer. like. ever. that’s just how it is!!! lover was the first album he listened to after lily introduced it to him and it’s therefore very special to him

remus: evermore

i know like literally everyone would say folklore because of cardigan and peace and hoax etc etc but?? to me evermore feels more like him. none of the songs necessarily describe him, but marjorie and ivy and cowboy like me and ‘tis the damn season feel so like him. also, this might be because i cannot help but see wolfstar as a very very loving couple and gold rush and long story short and willow are like invisible string’s sisters. evermore is folklore’s younger sister as well, and sort of shifts between being more and less emotionally intelligent than folklore so it just fits him to me.

peter: speak now

there’s very little he knows better than revenge. but also, he feels like such a romantic to me. i know he’s so often headcanoned as aro and/or ace, but i’ve never found myself agreeing, as you can now tell. i feel like he would not handle change well at all and songs like never grow up and even (in my opinion) back to december portray that. plus he’d just love the genres😭

lily: 1989

where do i even BEGIN. clean is a huge reason for it, since she’s had to let go of so many shitty people in her life, but she also seems like such a dreamer and wished to move to a huge city when she grew up, and therefore fell in love with welcome to new york very easily. she loves a messy but true love kinda trope (literally all the songs on there), with hints of purity here and there (you are in love), but she also loves people being able to get proper mad and a lil unhinged about things (blank space, bad blood). besides. she’s very pop. in the best way. plus, she’s the hugest swiftie of them, of course she chooses 1989.

marlene: folklore

she knows how to feel pain, she knows it well. but she does it with so much hope. like, yeah, maybe today was exhausting and the past week really sucked and life feels awful. but that’s not where it ends…? it can’t be. and she feels very reflective. and very romantic. and SO passionate, about both things and people she loves, as well as herself and her own potential. i guess that’s a bit of a controversial marlene characterisation but, no, i don’t want to give her that mean and tough lesbian trope.

dorcas: reputation

very protective of things and people, but in a truly romantic way. she knows how to stand up for herself, maybe not as intensely as the narrator of rep, but the passion is there for sure. and she’s SO romantic, her fav off the album is probably call it what you want. dress is very dorlene, dancing with our hands tied is very dorlene, call it what you want is very dorlene, and in my opinion marlene fell first but dorcas fell harder and that fits the whole purpose and message of reputation very well to me.

mary: red (tv)

just being in the middle of a transition from country into pop is very mary, i can’t explain it but it’s just her. her loving red is very complimentary to lily loving 1989 as well. she’s probably sobbed to every single song on the album for different reasons in different occasions, and i think by as early as the first minute of state of grace she was just…. completely sold. this connection isn’t one i can really analyse or explain or justify, it just makes tons of sense to me, how it’d be her complete fave from day one. begin again, treacherous, the lucky one, holy ground, babe…. ah. it’s perfect for her.

#this is like a guide to my view on the characters somehow?? #I’ve left this in my drafts for literally four months #it had to be shared #i still stand by every single word oh my god I was very right #marauders era #marauders #sirius black #james potter #remus lupin #peter pettigrew #lily evans #marlene mckinnon #dorcas meadowes #mary mcdonald #marauders era headcanons #marauders headcanons

[mejomonster]

Silent Reading chapter 72 I'm absolutely screaming. 1. Fei du backstory finally! 2. Luo wenzhou saying just ASK me directly dude! I'll answer okay, you don't need to play games! 2. Fei du shocked, "did you think I asked you out... to get answers?" Baby YEAH WHO WOULDNT AT LEAST A LIL BIT. 3. FEI DUS FLIRTY ASS SMILING WHILE ASKING "ARE YOU AFRAID OF ME" (and for the record if you want a real answer, ask if he thinks you'd kill someone and what he'd do - both you know yall both dancing around THAT actual fear). 4. Luo wenzhou NOT RESPONDING lmao. To be fair fei du just put some emotional fears out (are those UR fears fei du babe?) Which just made it sound like fei du absolutely plans to play with Luo wenzhou and break his heart since he Said that shit with a smile. And then Luo wenzhou deftly handling it cause fei du is HIS hot mess so he's just like "nope I'm not responding to this shit" and fei dus like "I'll lay you out so hard you won't be able to leave the bed" and Luo wenzhou save his poor soul just drags fei du out of the car, his mind trying to cope with the fact sexy bitch fei du just really Said "afraid I might break u emotionally and fuck you Too Good" OH MY GOD

QUOTE:

Fei Du paused, then, meaning something by it or not, continued the subject. “It may have been my mistake, but I thought the old fellow was testing my ideas.”

Luo Wenzhou’s expression didn’t change. His eyes calmly turned, passing through the sheltering sunglasses to peek at Fei Du. “What ideas?”

“I don’t know. It sounded like…maybe he thought I was going to pay an assassin to butcher Su Luozhan and that crowd of pedophiles on behalf of the victims’ families.” Fei Du shrugged. “What, does it seem like my sense of justice is that strong?”

For a while, Luo Wenzhou didn’t answer. He changed his previously indolent posture, sitting up and crossing his legs, his body language clearly becoming more business-like.

“He also crossed off some old case files I’d requested for review,” said Fei Du. “I think I more or less understand. By coincidence, those cases all have some flaw. Some failed for lack of evidence, and in some the suspect submitted a diagnosis of mental disorder to show…”

“Fei Du,” said Luo Wenzhou, laughing, “was Chief Lu testing you, or are you try to get something out of me?”

At the sparsely trafficked intersection, the stoplight changed from yellow to red, and Fei Du slowly stopped the car.

“I do actually understand something of this. My shifu got drunk once and let it slip.” Luo Wenzhou was silent for a while, then said, “If I’m not mistaken, all the cases Director Lu crossed off must have been those transferred over during the original Picture Album Project?”

Fei Du hadn’t expected him to be so cooperative. He couldn’t resist giving him a look.

“Aside from the one who said he had a mental disorder, the others were all unresolved cases. At the time, the person leading the Picture Album Project combed through those cases from a different point of view, hoping to be able to find a breakthrough.”

Fei Du listened quietly.

“They were limited by the level of technology and by the passage of time. A lot of the evidence had vanished, and psychological profiling wasn’t suitable to supply evidence in court, whether from the point of view of maturity or from the point of view of credibility. In the end, these unresolved cases could only serve as research material; there was no way to bring the suspects to justice. The elders and experts involved in the Picture Album Project were stymied. Afterwards, one after another, the suspects in those cases met with misfortune.”

“What kind of misfortune?”

“Some had unusual accidents, some disappeared, and one committed suicide, leaving a note confessing to the crime. One by one, the names on their desks faded away. It was too much of a coincidence. If it wasn’t the heavens suddenly opening their eyes and bringing down retribution, then it could only be one circumstance—murder. The killer was highly intelligent and understood the victims even better than they understood themselves; furthermore, he was familiar with the police’s methods for working cases. 100%, it was one of our own people. The Picture Album Project was therefore called to an immediate halt, and everyone involved was suspended and investigated.”

At this point, Fei Du understood why, when Tao Ran had asked about the Picture Album Project at the table, Luo Wenzhou had avoided answering. The people involved in this case must all have been the cream of their profession or experts in related academic fields. If they hadn’t yet retired, by now they had probably become respected and prestigious elders and administrators.

“And after that?”

“After that, the investigation team fixed on a suspect,” said Luo Wenzhou. “I’m not too clear on the details, but there was no evidence to charge him with. This person was the key figure in the Picture Album Project. Many of my elders who participated in the project had been his students.”

Fei Du immediately asked, “Who was he?”

Luo Wenzhou shook his head. “I’m not sure. The Venerable Yang didn’t tell me. I tried investigating afterwards, and his file had been sealed. Though from what my shifu said, I think he’s dead.”

“You’re not sure,” Fei Du said quietly. “Meaning you investigated.”

Luo Wenzhou neither acknowledged it nor shook his head. “I’ve already said this much. It’s your turn to put your cards on the table.—Why did you get into Yan Security Uni? Why did you scheme so hard to be involved in the renewal of the Picture Album Project? Don’t tell me you had nothing better to do and were simply curious.”

Fei Du was silent.

The two of them sat side by side in the narrow front of the car, the distance of only a few fists separating them, but there seemed to be a thick, ice-cold wall between them.

Fei Du’s gaze flickered slightly. Luo Wenzhou seemed to hear the sound of one sluice gate after another opening in his mind as their master coolly weighed which security doors he needed to open, how much he needed to reveal, to obtain what he wanted.

When the car’s GPS showed that they were almost at their destination, Luo Wenzhou finally managed to pry a few words out of Fei Du’s mouth.

“You know I always suspected that my dad had something to do with my mom’s death,” said Fei Du. “Even though you eliminated him from suspicion, I still had that feeling. I couldn’t get rid of it. Theoretically, intuition is connected to a person’s subconscious, and I wanted to know where my deep-rooted suspicion came from, so I tried to think of a way to trace back to when I was little.

“I remember my house had a basement that only my dad had the key to and even my mom couldn’t go in, like Bluebeard’s locked room. I plotted in secret for half a year to get the key and the code, then slipped inside…”

Luo Wenzhou acutely felt his voice stop at some complication.

“…I saw an open folder on his desk, and inside…uh…” At this point, Fei Du seemed to choke on air; he began to cough. He looked outside, closed the car window, and continued somewhat hoarsely, saying, “I’m sorry, I choked.—Inside was a paper. I gave it a rough look. I was little then, I only just knew how to read. I only vaguely remember terms like ‘vicious case’ and ‘psychological trauma.’ The name on the paper was ‘Fan Siyuan.’ I investigated him later, but found that he was a mystery. Aside from his teaching at Yan Security Uni, there were no other leads.”

Luo Wenzhou didn’t reply. He could tell at once that Fei Du was talking nonsense—he’d seen all kinds of papers on his parents’ desks when he was little, and aside from the time he’d gotten hit when he’d torn up his dad’s meeting notes and folded them into an airplane, he couldn’t remember a single punctuation mark of any of them.

“Why would a businessman have that in his secret study? Don’t you think it’s strange?” Fei Du drove the police car into Heng’ai Private Hospital’s parking lot. “After I broke in, my dad stopped using the place and moved everything in it, not leaving anything behind. In all these years I still haven’t found where he put those things.—That mysterious paper is my last memory.”

“Oh,” Luo Wenzhou replied flatly. When the car had come to a stop, he unfastened his seatbelt. It was unclear whether he’d accepted Fei Du’s part true, part false explanation. “If you want to ask about something after this, you can just ask me straight out. I like to say things clearly. If I can tell you, I’ll answer right away. You don’t need to peddle sex appeal. If I can’t say, then even if my brain cells are missing half their chromosomes, I still won’t say a word. You don’t need to use such roundabout tactics against me.”

After a pause, Fei Du finally realized what he meant. “Wait, you think I asked you out because of this?”

Luo Wenzhou ignored him and went to open the door. Fei Du grabbed his shoulder.

“Shixiong.” Not only was Fei Du not angry, he was smiling. “I’ve wanted to ask for a long time, are you a little afraid of me?”

Luo Wenzhou nearly raised his eyebrows past the frames of his sunglasses. “Afraid of you? Why would I be afraid of you?”

“Afraid I’ll squander your emotions, afraid I’m not in earnest, afraid you won’t be able to control yourself with me and won’t be able to end things…” One word at a time, Fei Du said, “Which of my guesses is right?”

Luo Wenzhou’s expression sank. He lifted a hand to shake him off. “You’re overthinking…”

Fei Du said, “Or afraid I’ll make it so you can’t get out of bed?”

Luo Wenzhou: “…”

Never in his life had he seen someone who dared to boast so shamelessly. It really was an enriching experience.

Luo Wenzhou was speechless. He simply shut his mouth and pulled Fei Du out of the car.

#silent reading #lb #if pnly there were More queer murder mysteries with frenemies this deeply emltjonally tied up to Feed me like this ToT #ALSO luo wenxhou thinking fei du would be serious then his expression sinking whrm fei du turned the are you afraid into an emotional #deflection. AND FEI DU TRYING TO TURN SHIXIONG INTO A WORD AS DIRTY AS DADDY DHDHFJJF #fei du again you are conditioning yall to have SUCH specific goddamn kinks down the road

[thekidsarentalright]

happy valentines day!! i hope it was great <3 love being able to yell abt fob on here u truly have the nicest friendliest vibes and i hope this week’s being kind to you

i’m also hardcore debating abt getting the heartbreak bundle so i’m v glad to see i’m not alone lmaooo 😭 i got the track 2 bundle and just bought merch for something else… but the bandana is so fun and i love the shirt… fob are so evil for this

ALSO i’m so glad i wasn’t the only one who got emotional listening to crave!!! the entire second half of the album was a rollercoaster so by the time it got to crave i was like. hayley. HAYLEY PLEASE 😥

- 🧋 anon

happy valentines day to u too lovely!! it was a pretty good day for me, i hope it was for you too!! wahh i absolutely love yelling abt fob on here w you too, sososo happy i give off such friendly vibes <3 truly only ever want my blog to be a warm happy space! <3

im soooo glad im not the only one that was debating getting it too... i ultimately did Not! hoping maybe the heartbreak shirt and bandana become available elsewhere later so if u didnt get it look around for them later on ebay n stuff!! they are literally so evil though fob i cant handle having the financial ability to buy ur merch

LITERALLY HAYLEY PLEASE!!! every song destroyed me in a different way i like. felt like i got emotionally power washed NFKRNFK but especially by crave god, u have such good taste liking crave too!!! we are so real for that!!!

#i hope uve been having a good week and that it continues to be good if it is!! and if not i hope it gets better!! #always nice getting asks from u mwah <3!!!! #asks #🧋anon

[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

Something about interviews from now on that irritates me is that not even just for Louis, for the other guys too they’re gonna be bombarded with questions about Harry demanding to know what they think of him and his career and they’re expected to be his little cheerleaders and gush over him and it’s never expected of him. The only question he gets is ‘do you all still talk?’ And he goes ‘yes’ and that’s it. I want Louis to do interview but I don’t want to deal with that and it’s impossible to escape bc even if he puts it on a ‘don’t ask’ list they’ll still ask. You know they will because that piece of shit from that morning show before the pandemic had no problem asking Louis about his mom and sister and we all know that topic is off limits. And I’m not comparing asking about a former bandmate to asking about his trauma as if it’s even on the same level because they’re not at all, I’m just saying that there are interviewers who have no issue with crossing boundaries and I don’t want to deal with that and I don’t want Louis to deal with that. I want him to be able to talk about his career, his tour, his upcoming projects and be the focus because that’s how it should be.

Somehow I think Louis will be able to handle it with aplomb.

I’m not saying that Larries and Harries won’t find ways to be gross about it, because that’s just who they are.

But Louis himself— after a world tour that’s almost completely sold out— is a changed man. He will never again feel the doubt that plagued him in 2017. There was too much going on mentally and emotionally back then. Now he’s much healthier, in a good head space, one good album and tour under his belt, performed and organized lots of great, life-changing concerts, gotten closer to lots of good people.

As a narcissist once said, nothing is the same as it was, and for Louis that’s a good thing.

#louis tomlinson

[yawpyawp]

idk what to call the state i’m in right now but basically the only content i am currently able to emotionally handle is the Flight of the Conchords 2019 Live in London album which i have listened to 6 times this week

#void journal

[devilsurvivor-2-recordbreaker]

Thinking about Wish You Were Here by Pink Flyod again

...

The whole arc of the album feels so much more than that. It doesn't feel like a album at a certain point. It's this raw thriving and wriggling emotion flopping like a fish mad that you've dragged it out of its home and angered that you dare watch as it suffocates in the inhospitable surface. It's a celebration, a funeral, a baby shower, it's mourning the moment you have to say goodbye much too soon than you had anticipated and too soon for you to emotionally be able to handle the fall once you part.

The cover really does spell it out. Shaking hands with someone you love as they burn before your very eyes. I think about this album alot.

[intimateflesh]

A tripling tribute to twigs - music review wind-up

FKA twigs is probably in my top 10 artists ever, so I'll be briefly reviewing her discography over the following post or so. I'll start with EP2 since it's what I'm listening to, so convenience I guess.

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EP2 2013

trip hop, dream pop, alternative R&B, indietronica

There is something so proudly feminine to her music, EP2 is especially hypnotic in this sense. How's That is unsettling, it feels dangerous to be listening to it, but the beats and her voice just tell you that it's okay to follow where she is leading you. Papi Pacify is a good follow up, and is a bit more stripped back, letting you hear every sound that is being introduced. Water Me is profoundly beautiful, relatable, and tragic almost, as Twigs sings about not being able to get the love she desires - even needs - from her partner. She implies that he only wants her for her sexuality, but when she introduces her emotional needs, the "fee" becomes too big for him to handle, so he abandons her, and once again she is alone and "stuck" with herself. It's beautiful and only has a few verses, showing that there is emotionality even in brevity. During the time of this EP's release, Twigs actually had a group of people who loathed her work, ridiculing her and claiming she is too weird, but despite all this Twig's consistently creates and releases the art she wanted to see take shape, regardless of how it was received, and for that I respect her as an artist.

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LP1 2014

avant-pop, alternative R&B, electronic

My GOD one of the best debuts EVER. Every song is individually showstopping here. So much character and passion in them and the way she sings is exquisite. It's so sexy and hypnotic and mysterious god this album is my bible. She reinvented pop music with this. AND 2014??? AHEAD OF HER TIME. The production is MINDBLOWING, otherworldly sounds paired with her alien sounding voice transports you to this other dimension where it feels like it's just her singing to you. The best song here is Two Weeks, absolutely mindblowing bridge between the experimental and the mainstream (the MV ended me). Literally one of the best songs I have heard in my life. I deadass don't know what else to say I can only revel in this album's magic and confidence. What I would give to experience it for the first time again...

Top Tracks: Two Weeks, Pendulum, Kicks, Lights On

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CAPRISONGS 2022

alternative R&B, electronic, pop rap

Nothing but love for Twigs, however, this project is quite unremarkable. It released and kinda just...vanished. There's a few reasons for this. First, the tracks are short and since there is a LOT of them, they kinda just, float by, and then you're onto the next. It is a mixtape though, so that random nature is probably intended. That aside, I love Twigs so this was enjoyable for the most part! Some songs really stand out in a good way, this entire project is a standout in her discography, and it's nice to see her happy in her music (compared to MAGDALENE). She sounds so charismatic and friendly it's kinda hard to dislike anything here. She wanted this to be comforting, fun, and bouncy, but also reflective with themes of self growth and realization, all of which are touched on and not discarded as cliché. Everything is so genuine it's kinda hard to not enjoy it for that. Not exactly as memorable or as sonically interesting as her older work, but it's nice to see her in a place where she seems happy with her life and relationships.

Top Tracks: ride the dragon, meta angel, tears in the club oh my love, lightbeamers, papi bones, careless, minds of men, thank you song

#fka twigs #ep2 #lp1 #caprisongs #music review #trip hop #dream pop #alternative r&b #indietronica #avant pop #electronic #pop rap #Spotify

[soujisetas]

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#finally ... FINALLY listened to right through me #IK LIKE . IM SO LATE. but i have a process for listening to albums it has to be Right #wish i was joking when i say i cried 20 seconds into the first track . wonpil came out of the gates swinging #we and love parade ..... i love u so much .... #dowoon jumping in in love parade made me smile so much i love all three of u so dearly .... this may be my favorite d6 album ever #i rly hope that we get a wonpil solo album eventually since we got younk's ... i wouldn't be able to emotionally handle it but #i hope he comes back in some form during yk's enlistment :(( #in love so truly ... this album is so special :( #kep.txt

[animeomegas]

Yayyyy req are open again! I’m so glad and it’s always good to make sure what your doing is to the best of you ability! I wanted to request something solely domestic. Something about the Naruto gang (separately) and itachi being pregnant and there other child asking questions? And talking to their bump? How would you think they would react? Also some pups who are protective of their omega parent who do you think would try to protect their bump? Even from their alpha parent!?

Thank you!

(Aww, this is adorable!!! I'm just going to do some of the Naruto boys that had multiple pups in my headcanon, hope that's okay! Enjoy~)

Naruto:

Naruto adores when his pups talk to his baby bump, he encourages it a lot, asking his pups to sing songs and tell jokes to the bump because 'the pup must be getting bored in there, let's do something to cheer them up!'.

He absolutely lets his pups paint on his bump too, and he keeps all the pictures of their drawings in his pregnancy album. This is his last pregnancy (probably) so he's keeping all sorts of mementos of it.

Naruto thinks it's a fun game when his pup(s) kick in his tummy, to get his other pups to poke the hands and feet back. He thinks it's them bonding already and it does warm his heart to see all his pups getting along.

His second pup and only daughter is the most curious! She asks a lot of questions...

"How did the baby get in your tummy, daddy? Did you eat it?"

"What! No, of course I didn't eat a baby!"

"Then how did it get in there?"

"......"

"......"

"Okay, sure, I ate it... 😓"

Naruto isn't ready to explain the birds and the bees just yet (and if we're being brutally honest, he's not the most informed himself lmao)

Iruka:

Iruka is very up and down emotionally while pregnant, so sometimes he likes his pup to talk and engage with bump and other times he gets his alpha to distract them so they stop.

He handles the questions with quite a bit of grace, able to explain things at an appropriate level for the age of his pup, and never making up a story/lie about it or saying 'because it is.'

(Iruka always encourages his pup for asking questions!)

Iruka's pup is very helpful!! Because their daddy is pregnant!! They have to be big and responsible!!

They try and carry anything Iruka needs to carry, with varying levels of success, they fetch extra blankets even when Iruka is too hot, and they tell Naruto off for being boisterous because they don't want him shouting when Iruka is trying to rest.

(Naruto takes the scolding from the young pup with an awkward head scratch and a promise to be quite.)

I feel like Iruka's pup tries so hard to be helpful, but they just make everything slight more inconvenient 😅

Itachi:

Itachi's face just melts into a smile when his pup talks to his bump. It makes his heart feel like it's going to burst.

One time, Itachi was napping and he woke up to his pup talking quietly to his bump promising to be the best big brother ever and always protect them, and it did bring Itachi to tears (which he hid and pretended to still be sleeping but still.)

Itachi's eldest is very mature, always fetching what his daddy asks for, refilling Itachi's water glass unprompted, and checking out books from the library about pregnancy (even though he's only six, what a cutie!)

Unfortunately, being so mature, the pup starts to realise something is wrong... That his daddy is sick.

Itachi explains as gently as he can that his body isn't very good at being pregnant so it makes him poorly and sleepy, but that he'll get better when the pup is out... but it just freaks his pup out even more.

Itachi's pup sends all their time with Itachi, laying with him, occasionally crying because he's worried his daddy will die.

Itachi soothes him as much as possible and lets him stay whenever he wants, but he also encourages his pup to talk to his bump. He doesn't want any resentment building (his pup blaming the baby for Itachi being sick), so he asks his pup to tell stories to the bump.

Itachi's pup has one of their very, very rare tantrums when Itachi goes into labour and the pup isn't allowed to come with. Itachi is high risk and knows that the panic and blood will only traumatise his pup, so he puts his foot down, but his pup is scared he's never going to see Itachi again and freaks out. Itachi gets his parents to watch his pup while Sasuke stays with Shisui at home.

The pup cries himself to exhaustion, poor baby :(

Neji:

Neji doesn't tell his pup he's pregnant for a long time.

He couldn't bare losing the baby and having to explain it to his pup, so he keeps it quiet until he absolutely has to reveal it.

And when he does, him and his alpha explain that Neji has to be very, very careful and rest lots and drink lots of water and not do anything strenuous. They ask that the pup is very gentle with Neji's stomach.

All fair requests, but they get a bit intense which scares the pup a bit, so they only put their hands on Neji's bump when one of their parents guides their hand.

Neji's pup get a bit paranoid (although nowhere near as paranoid as Neji) and does get protective over Neji. They routinely growl away other people in crowds, and they ask Neji to start meeting them a little bit away from school because of all the running children being a hazard.

Yes, they even protect Neji from Neji's alpha sometimes xD

One time, Neji's alpha was poking him in the face to tease him and the pup walked over and gently took their alpha parent's hands and said, "Stop. Daddy's growing a baby, he's tired." They had a hilariously serious face.

Neji pats them on the head and says, "Thank you," which makes them think they have to step in whenever their alpha parents does anything like that.

Neji finds it endearing, his alpha not so much.

(Hope that was good!)

#hcs #tw:pregnancy #omegaverse #a/b/o #alpha reader #naruto #headcanons #neji #itachi #iruka