#i survived it and it was not my fault

[bennitastisch]

sometimes taking the train feels like a cruel joke by the universe

#why did i miss the first possible train i could take cause i was putting on my mask #i was there 5 minutes before the train was there and i missed it bc i walked to the doors and out on my mask #the second train i could take was late and so fucking stuffed ive never been on a train that full #it was late on every stopp for a few more minutes cause it was so full ppl could hardly get on #and now im at my destination waiting for my bus and i saw that the third possible train had a waggon more than the one i took and free seats #i swear to god this often makes me belive bad stuff is my fault cause i was there #also my technique to calm down is to take deep breaths and taking deep breaths in a train thats full of ppl wothout their masks on is super #scary #but i survived it #and it was not my fault there were so many ppl on that train #and it was also not my doing that the train after it had free seats #i couldnt have known abt it #and if i took the chance and it would be late id be home an hour later than anticipated #right now its only thirty minutes #i survived it and it was not my fault #ben vents #ben talks #bennitastisch

[tojisun]

he said, “i’m not the man that you think i am.”

“that’s alright,” you replied, voice measured despite its quiet rumble. “let me love you, anyway.”

he noticed the way your fingers twitched by your sides—an aborted need to pull him close—and he wondered: where do you find the fortitude to be gentle with him?

did you know how he felt at that moment? did you know what he felt when he cut himself open and was honest with the ugliness that muddles his heart, expecting your rejection, only to be met with your kindness as vast as the seas? did you know what you have done?

you fed a starving dog.

you stuffed him with tenderness until his fangs have dulled. you showed him a collar and asked if it was okay to leash him.

of course. claim me. please. i’m yours.

he stepped up into your space. “i won’t let you go.”

you said, “please. all that i am is yours.”

(you were just as starving.)

#‘​‘i’m not a violent dog; i dont know why i bite’’ THIS IS YOUR FAULT #take mitski away from me because i will not survive and i will make sure to pull you all into my descent #suns #yk who fits this? tf141 #task force 141 x reader #simon ghost riley x reader

[natasha-romanew]

sometimes i think about THIS jennifer jareau and i’m-

#i know she was traumatized #but still LOOK at her #i’m sorry for simping for you when you’re struggling jj #it’s not my fault you’re so hot #emily how did you survive seeing this #i know emily had a gay panic right there #this was so bisexual of you agent jareau #jemily #jennifer jareau #jj #criminal minds #cm

[comradekatara]

i’ve always kind of assumed that lo and li are azulon’s younger twin sisters and that’s why they were foisted off on azula, because she’s also a younger sister to the crown prince. but the fact that we never actually see them firebend is strange, because it implies either that nonbenders are instructing one of the greatest firebenders in the world, or that they are firebenders who simply do not firebend. and i think that the latter is more interesting, because it reflects how their position as elderly women devalues any firepower they might provide to the empire, passive and subdued even as they train ozai’s favorite weapon.

they are the ones to most overtly illustrate azula’s precarious relationship to femininity, after all. for example, noting the position of her hair after she successfully lightningbends in “the avatar state,” or emphasizing azula’s beauty when they introduce her in “the awakening.” and it’s clear that azula doesn’t really like them, dismisses and avoids them whenever she gets the chance. she can’t even tell them apart. their very existence is almost a humiliation. a reminder to azula that this is who she is destined to become once she lives past her usefulness. not the imperious azulon, her namesake, raised above on a fiery dais, but his sisters, insignificant and functionally powerless.

so of course “almost isn’t good enough,” of course “one hair out of place” is a failure. the only way azula can prove her worth to the empire she has devoted her entire self to in a way that matters is, perhaps, by being perfect, by being better and stronger than the discarded women who came before her. but that, too, is a delusion, that any amount of excellence will reward her in a way that compensates for the erosion of her very humanity. and yet, it’s all she has to cling to. so she gives it her all to excel within a system that will never really care about her because she has deliberately been made incapable of imagining an alternative. of simply recognizing the system for the failure that it is, conceptualizing a world beyond the bars of her gilded cage, and leaving.

#SHES SO ANTHYCODED 😭😭😭😭 #azula #lo and li #azula&ozai #azulon #analysis #and someday together we’ll shine… if you even care . #this was supposed to be a 2 sentence post about lo and li btw 🥴 #ALSO to be clear im not shaming her for not leaving #azula has no concept of ‘leaving’ that is not a) in disgrace or b) in a bodybag #im saying that she CANT because ozai’s psychological and physical abuse is so potent and effective #and that’s not her fault at all #just to be clear #in my mind i am so anthypilled that im like yeah everyone understands the mechanisms and psychology of abuse #what it means to be end of the world #and also just how azula has completely internalized the logic that the only way to survive is within this framework #she’s not weak or foolish for not being able to imagine a different path #which is very obvious to me. but i realized that might not be obvious to everyone. so.

[madmachaca]

I am a certified Gladstone Gander fan and defender and I, wholeheartedly, approve this message.

#my boy is very stupid but it's not this fault #never developed survival skills #gladstone gander #duckverse #I kikda wanna talk more about this comic because I've liek it had gone to a different direction #but it was cute and sweet

[mewtwo24]

Something about Hua Cheng's expression here is killing me--I know this is supposed to be a delicate moment of reassurance but the pure hater energy radiating off of him is just immaculate

#tgcf #hua cheng #xie lian #hualian #words cannot express how much I love hua cheng being a hater #hua cheng in this pic is that energy when you keep spamming the A button when an npc you don't like won't stop talking #like his face when lang qianqiu keeps going on and on about his parents meeting an untimely unjust and grisly end #is so 'it was hundreds of years ago and it wasn't even gege's fault for fucks sake grow up' #'leave my goddamn wife alone he raised you with love and diligence' #'you had your bloody revenge what more do you want. figure it out far away from us.' #spoken like a true ghost king who slaps eming every single time it expresses a single inconvenient emotion he has #every day i have to resist the urge to gush about hc he's just hilarious and peak every single time i love him #no notes just banger after banger after banger #that's the face of a man who was orphaned as a child and clawed his way through life to survive and keep his loved one alive + well #a bastion of unmoving strength for 800 years #unmoved by the whining of a young man born with everything and mourning the loss of his innocence way past his expiration date #10/10 hua cheng you've done it again #hc said 'oh? a traumatic life event? we have several dozens of those git gud' #and honestly i mean that with no malice i just feel like lang qianqiu is old enough to start parsing the world in a more nuanced way ;;;;; #as much as xl thought lying to him was the best outcome hc was right--the truth d o e s matter--and not just to absolve xl #its also about giving lang qianqiu closure and moving on. about qi rong facing the consequences of his actions #so much of what is wrong with the heavenly court is the obsession with maintaining appearances over being sincere #and so much of what hc adores about xl is that xl was never really interested in those empty words and empty sentiments #he truly wanted people to prosper and live well no matter the cost to himself

[satans-knitwear]

Shark attack 😱

#If i dont survive the night and u can't find my body.... Try asking baby bean. She might have some thoughts on my whereabouts #Will nobody save me from this ravenous monster #It's not my fault I'm such a snack! #She was watching me cooking today then she lay under the chair I sat on while I was eating... just like belle 😭 my heart is so full #Still not sorry for the puppy posting! But i do intend to dress up a bit for you tomorrow. Fear not.

[dalkyum]

Dispatch Photoshoot Making ↳ HOT VER. ☾*ﾟ

#yugyeom #kim yugyeom #got7 #got7edit #malegroupsnet #kpopco #got7daily #madstual #this set almost caused me to have a crisis lmao i could not get it to work for the life of me #genuinely questioned my gifmaking ability multiple times #finally realized it was the video's fault not mine #anyway the first one yugyeom i am so down but also please take your fingers out of your mouth for the sake of my survival #xoxo #ilygif #158-162 #emigif

[1-800-whatwouldbillydo]

The Animal Doesn’t Fall Far From the Tree (an original poem)

//Tagslist open//

@flashwaves @thatgirlwithasquid @thecrabnebula @ashyyboyy @anarcha-queer-horror @aryana-56 @skyesayshi @dragonflylady77 @thebussynotes @suometar @cherixrosa @billyhargr-a-ve @raven2008 @usaqaix @jad3w1ngs @harringrovsonsworld @femmebilly   @spaceboxkitty   @nogitsunbae  @talesfrom-theupsidedown @magellan-88  @ouizzyharringrove​

@bigdumbbambieyes @hargrove-mayfields @shieldofiron​

#my poetry #billy hargrove #my writing #tw neil hargrove #ch: billy hargrove #i think about him far too much #him being forced to apologize... just... #*sighs* #neil doesnt see what hes doing is wrong #so in his mind why should he apologize #and of course billy would think everything is his fault #because hes the one who always ends up apologizing #angst posting #people expect you to apologize for what you became in order to survive #they never apologize for why you had to become that person #ironic

[rootin-tootin-n-kind]

Baby Reindeer on Netflix is the best depiction I’ve seen of healing through sexual trauma I’ve seen in a piece of media. It’s really uncomfortable but so realistic I feel like I’m not crazy

#hard haaard watch as someone whos been SAed multiple times but it made me feel idk like my experiences arent my fault and that its smthg #i can survive #obviously check the tws for the show it does deal w stalking abuse SA and exploring sexuality #baby reindeer

[bumblingbabooshka]

One of the best Voyager scenes to indicate Tuvok & Neelix's dynamic and how I think Tuvok is just as if not more 'annoying'(positive) than Neelix is when Neelix pours Tuvok a fresh squeezed glass of a fruit juice blend and Tuvok's like (paraphrased) "I don't want to drink this." and Neelix is like "Can you please try it?" and Tuvok's like "I don't want to, you're really bad at this sort of thing. It's going to taste bad." and Neelix says that Ensign XYZ said she LOVED it, she even had a second glass! And Tuvok says Ensign XYZ could drink poison without a second thought and Neelix is like "Tuvok could you please just TRY it? Just try a little SIP of it PLEASE??" and Tuvok sighs and rolls his eyes and sniffs it before taking a sip and it turns out he loves it. Turns out it tasted good actually. And then after all that Neelix tries to talk to him over eggs (which he's again cooking fresh for him) and Tuvok tells him he doesn't wanna hear "the life history of his breakfast." Absolutely insufferable this man I would have burned his eggs on PURPOSE!!!!

#I love Neelix so much and I think he and Tuvok are very funny together - irritating4irritating #People say 'Neelix is so pushy with Tuvok!' and you know what? I think Tuvok can handle it. I think maybe he does need to be pushed - #down a flight of stairs. (he's my favorite character and he's so annoying...TUVOK!!!!!) #Tuvok: -kicking and screaming- I don't want to drink the juice!!! It's poison!!! You're trying to poison me!!!!!!!!! #Neelix: Can you please drink the juice. The fresh squeezed juice I made for you Mr. Vulcan??? Can you please??? #Tuvok: Fine but if I die it's your fault. If I die from the poison you're FORCING me to drink it's on y- Oh this is delicious actually. #and don't tell me 'Neelix didn't make it SPECIFICALLY for Tuvok' bc I know he didn't but he says #'I'll start squeezing that second glass!' after Tuvok finishes his sip so he IS freshly squeezing it #Neelix: -makes Tuvok fresh squeezed juice- #Tuvok: Are you trying to poison me??? #Neelix: -talks to Tuvok while making his eggs- #Tuvok: Can you be quiet??? #<- TUVOK!!!!!!!! I'M GONNA KILL YOU EHHEHEHEH <3 #Tuvok is the most annoying guy ever bc he doesn't care about what people think and is a snob with a lowkey superiority complex #vs Neelix is perceived as annoying (post his relationship with Kes) bc he cares a lot about being useful and helping the crew and sometimes #is too pushy because of that but listen...I think Neelix is sweet and genuinely trying his best - after the Kes plotline with him ends I #really don't find him objectionable. Just chatty & a bit overbearing maybe Meanwhile Tuvok !!! #Meanwhile Tuvok!!!!!!!!! HHEHEHHE #st voyager #star trek voyager #I think they should have done more with Neelix thinking the crew of Voyager were spoiled - specifically how Tuvok acts Like That sometimes #little lord Tuvok. oH SORRY...for DEIGNING to speak while preparing your eggs your HIGHNESS!! #I think people do a disservice to Tuvok by not talking more about how he's kind of a hardass and a snob v_v also a disservice to Janeway #indirectly bc her bestie is kind of a hardass and a snob and what does that say about her?? #I also wish Neelix kept up a bit of that 'these people are crazy and also so soft oh my god shut up about the food being bad - we're trying #to SURVIVE!!! Eat the Leola Root!!' from the earlier seasons...I like when he shows he has a bit of bite #It's just funny and interesting that Janeway isn't friends with Tuvok bc he's 'not like other Vulcans' - she's friends with the most #Vulcany Vulcan ever and I love that for them. #CRIMINAL that we don't ever get any in-depth insight into their friendship #Tuvok

[orpheuslament]

on the way back from the gym i saw two teenage girls on scooters in the middle of the road & they kept crossing each other & interlocking their feet & they looked like they were having so much fun i hope they have the best summer of their life

#it did make me fucking miserable bc i lost all my teenage years to crippling mental illness + being closeted so i never got to experience #that feeling of freedom. or at least i cant remember & i cant help but feel like something was stolen from me #i wish i could grab 13 year old dante by the shoulders & tell them to please please please make the most out of it #i know it feels like the world is going to end every single day but theres so many beautiful things to experience #& one day you will be 25 & you will miss yr friends & ask yourself why you wasted so much time #i know its not your fault you were just trying to survive & you did do beautiful things!!! but God #dante.txt

[ecoamerica]

Watch the American Climate Leadership Awards 2024 now: https://youtu.be/bWiW4Rp8vF0?feature=shared

The American Climate Leadership Awards 2024 broadcast recording is now available on ecoAmerica's YouTube channel for viewers to be inspired by active climate leaders. Watch to find out which finalist received the $50,000 grand prize! Hosted by Vanessa Hauc and featuring Bill McKibben and Katharine Hayhoe!

#ACLA24 #ACLA24Leaders #youtube #youtube video #climate leaders #climate solutions #climate action #climate and environment #climate #climate change #climate and health #climate blog #climate justice #climate news #weather and climate #environmental news #environment #environmental awareness #environment and health #environmental #environmental issues #environmental justice #environment protection #environmental health #Youtube

[dayurno]

riko in kayleigh’s care au yeahh…

riko: KEVIN WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME FREAK LEAVE ME ALONE??? *terrified for his life*

kevin, an autistic 7 year old: i have this rock in my pocket. for you

AND HE DOES............ riko he has this rock in his pocket. for you.

its cute to me it really is i think they're so funny and kevin is seriously so autistic. riko at this point hasn't interacted with any other children his age outside of little league and kevin is not just patently unusual he's also 1) super intense 2) loud 3) excited beyond belief over having someone to play with. SO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW HAPPY HE IS. most children would be happy to get a brother no matter what but this child in specifically has spent a lot of time with nannies or in adult-world events with his mother so of course he's happy to have a friend to accompany him!!! are you crazy!!!!!! the way i see it on riko's first day with the days (heh) kevin teaches him approximately three hundred different games in a span of two hours that riko either brutally rejects for not being exy (which kevin agrees with but also says they have to play other games because not all children know exy) (he's shocked by this too) or just outright doesn't understand because kevin's accent is so thick :)

BUT I THINK despite riko's fragile state and the ghosts that will inevitably follow him well into adulthood, it is a happy childhood.......... it's hard and at points feels hopeless, but when riko grows older he does look back and understands kevin's intentions and maybe even is a little grateful that someone was willing to reach out to his angry terrified traumatized 7 year old self. i think this k & r are not as close as they were in canon for a myriad of reasons, the biggest one being that riko's relationship to kevin and kayleigh is pretty complex because he feels like an outsider, but they're also a lot more well-meaning towards each other. they don't understand the other as well as they'd like to (i'd wager kevin will spend years and years trying to understand riko and failing to) but i do think they get impossibly closer after (sorry) kayleigh dies, which i can imagine happening in their late 30s to mid 40s. they'll always be brothers <3:)

#i love you reverse aftg au i want to write it eventually because i think this k&r are sooooooo fun and interesting and #dare i say. twinyard parallels #also trojan!riko is fucking funny and you will have to pry it from my cold dead hands #he's so pissed off when kevin drops their usc plans to go to fuckass palmetto get chased around by a white man with a knife #but he'll survive it and thats what matters #also i havent given this much thought yet but the timeline of canon still goes pretty similar for everyone else besides kevin and riko #so kevin is still going to go through neil's shitstorm of a freshman year #which riko will find very funny years down the line but horrifying triggering while it goes down #its i think a very physical reminder of what haunts him and will send him to meltdown city every week or so in cali #but things will be okay. you'll see #he'll be terrified of the butcher and of the moriyamas doing anything to kevin and it somehow being his fault #asks #riko #kevin #kevin&riko #reverse riko au

[deadbeatdadjokes]

HI In love with the little ways Susie looks after him like…you KNOW she’s asked the same exact question before and got a very different response. She senses Lancer knows what it’s like too bc even though he doesn’t really talk about it, he wouldn’t have asked that question if he didn’t have a reasonable expectation for her to drop him if he was.

He’s literally so scared to lose her friendship and in within the minute she reassures him that, “dude, it’s all good, you have nothing to be sorry for” when he’s been made to feel sorry for literally existing by everyone for so long I-

#Susie too probably #i love their friendship she is his older sister #that puts jolly ranchers on his bullies’ cars and eggs their houses to defend his honor #i know they don’t talk about a whole lot #but they’re both really good at picking up “the vibe” #bc it’s a survival tactic so they both recognize the other’s mannerisms and behaviors #and while lancer looks at Susie as a role model that he can envision himself growing into bc she acts just like him but ‘cooler’ #ie ‘less weak’ as if he’s supposed to be faulted for being a young child #Susie looks at Lancer as a naive version of her past self and tries to mitigate his suffering the best she can #but it was destined to go awry bc she never really grew past her own suffering until Lancer causes her to see and care about #the damage she does voluntarily or involuntarily to those around her #ANYWAYS SHE PROTECC SHE ATTACK SHE GOT LANCERS BACK #i love them sm 😭😭 #deltarune #lancer #susie deltarune #ch1 is REALLY good guys #oh my boy indeed

[gxlden-angels]

Controversial take but I'm much more comforted by the idea of a deity that makes mistakes and admits it than one that insists they're perfect and punishes anyone who says otherwise by sending them to be tortured

#I'm having Thoughts #I got a new tattoo #it's based on Tomcat Disposables by Will Wood #because that song makes me think of being a mouse #and the morality we hold mice/rats to as a concept despite them just wanting to survive like us #I say all this as a proud Appreciator of Rats #love those lil beast #a person with rats (not as pets) is seen as an unclean. lazy. morally bankrupt person rather than a person who just so happened to have rats #my highschool had mice and/or rats #I've lived with roaches before #am I morally unclean because of that? #Am I any better than a mouse in hole? Is my government-paid shitty student apartment morally better? #Does each rat represent a new sin I commuted? #Am I tormented by pests by being one myself? #Is it the mouse's fault it carries certain diseases? #Is it the person's fault that they carry sin? #It's just nature I guess #ex christian #religious trauma

[eerna]

the Yatori still Yatoris

#it's not my fault hiyori is just sooooo. teen girl about it all. it's adorable. #''ok i cant trust this guy he is murderous and weird and mysterious and adulterous and gambles and might kill this kid. i should be afra- #HHHHE'S HUGGING ME WOWZA OK. WELL. I AM NOT AFRAID ANYMORE. WHICH IS STUPID. I SHOULDN'T BE THIS STUPID. BUT. HE SMELLS NICE OK.'' #it's hilarious. go girl give us everything #noragami liveblog #WHO WOULD WIN 1000 years of parental abuse VS one girl with a crush and without a survival instinct

[ecoamerica]

Watch the 2024 American Climate Leadership Awards for High School Students now: https://youtu.be/5C-bb9PoRLc

The recording is now available on ecoAmerica's YouTube channel for viewers to be inspired by student climate leaders! Join Aishah-Nyeta Brown & Jerome Foster II and be inspired by student climate leaders as we recognize the High School Student finalists. Watch now to find out which student received the $25,000 grand prize and top recognition!

#ACLA24 #ACLA24HighSchoolStudents #youtube #youtube video #climate leaders #climate solutions #climate action #climate and environment #climate #climate change #climate and health #climate blog #climate justice #climate news #weather and climate #environmental news #environment #environmental awareness #environment and health #environmental #environmental issues #environmental education #environmental justice #environmental protection #environmental health #high school students #high school #youth #youth of america #school