#i swear to god this often makes me belive bad stuff is my fault cause i was there

[bennitastisch]

sometimes taking the train feels like a cruel joke by the universe

#why did i miss the first possible train i could take cause i was putting on my mask #i was there 5 minutes before the train was there and i missed it bc i walked to the doors and out on my mask #the second train i could take was late and so fucking stuffed ive never been on a train that full #it was late on every stopp for a few more minutes cause it was so full ppl could hardly get on #and now im at my destination waiting for my bus and i saw that the third possible train had a waggon more than the one i took and free seats #i swear to god this often makes me belive bad stuff is my fault cause i was there #also my technique to calm down is to take deep breaths and taking deep breaths in a train thats full of ppl wothout their masks on is super #scary #but i survived it #and it was not my fault there were so many ppl on that train #and it was also not my doing that the train after it had free seats #i couldnt have known abt it #and if i took the chance and it would be late id be home an hour later than anticipated #right now its only thirty minutes #i survived it and it was not my fault #ben vents #ben talks #bennitastisch