#i now fully understand how some people spend so much on food even eating the bare minimum

[sexygaywerewolf]

my new Ninjago OC!

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I haven't come up with a name for him yet bc I suck at those but I've got a backstory

- He was outcast by his species before the merge because of a reason I haven't fully flushed out yet (thinking of making it so that he can't do any shapeshifting at all and making it an entire allegory), but he deals with a lot of feelings of inadequacy because of this and he thinks he's failed as an Oni

- he was outcast before March of the Oni and was lost between realms trying to find a way back home to the first realm without the power of the darkness to guide him. essentially the realm crystal is the EASIEST way to travel realms but it isn't the only way, and he spent a lot of years alone

-When the merge happens he's forced to live in a world he doesn't understand at all and a lot of people during this time are struggling to figure things out. He manages to find a job at Chen's Noodle House and starts to enjoy the life as someone who serves food so eventually he leaves with enough money saved up and opens up his own restaurant

- I like the idea of someone gaining weight when they're happy bc he used to be really emaciated and could barely eat even 3 times a week due to how hard it was to survive but now he's got a healthy relationship with food and his body and he's generally a pretty sound guy and pretty mature considering things. It doesn't look like he's fat in the image but from experience an apron will hide a lot of that lol

- He does a lot of introspection and his outlook on life is that "it's complicated and messy but at least it's life," and he usually looks at things from a realistic perspective while hoping for the best.

-He still gets irrationally angry at a lot of things though and often he'll find himself taking it out on inanimate objects and then he'll feel bad about it afterwards. He doesn't do it a whole lot in front of people, especially customers, but if he's comfortable around you you'll see him swearing and breaking things (usually with his claws on accident) a lot more

- Meets Lloyd a few weeks after the merge when he just started his job at Chen's and initially Lloyd is weary at first because yk he's an Oni and Lloyd had subconsciously associated Oni with bad and everything wrong in his life, but [name I haven't come up with yet] is essential to something Lloyd is trying to figure out so they need to interact and Lloyd figures out through sheer power of being exposed to something that HEY you dumb idiot your ancestry isn't evil or bad

- He had severe issues for awhile with meeting people's expectations and he constantly ran himself ragged trying to keep himself in multiple places at once. He felt like he had to depend on only himself for a while because of the fact he let down his Oni tribe and because of the fact he lived so long in isolation away from others. When he's hired by Skylor he burns himself out within the first week because he doesn't take a break except to go home and sleep.

- Y y y es this is meant to be an OC shipped with Lloyd but they're both demisexual here bc I will always make my favs be on the ace spectrum no matter what

-Hes 21 when the merge happens and by the events of s1 he's 27 (2 years older than Lloyd). He was outcast by the Oni when he was 15 years old (around the events of season 1)

-fun fact, Oni still have pupils in my hc you just can't see them very well. they're kind of like the changelings from mlp where they do have pupils once you look closely but they blend in so well with their irises that you can hardly see them. most Oni eye colors are red, purple, or blue. some are occasionally orange, yellow, and pink. [name I haven't come up with yet] has purple eyes

- he has so much fur/hair (think kind of like mohair on a goat) that he has to stuff a lot of it in his shirt and then use pins to hold it in place and he spends like 30 minutes each day just combing it

- he works out every other day to help clear his mind and to calm himself down but Oni are naturally pretty big anyways and really strong

- despite the fact he knows how to cook he has the worst appetite known to man and will not hesitate to eat the nastiest things ever. I like to think that anytime Lloyd gets offered gross food (as he's somehow done a lot in the show) he pretends to "steal" it but he does genuinely enjoy every single food he comes across and it's not just something that comes from his life of being outcast it also comes from his Oni biology. Though, he seems to be a lot more inclined to eat certain things even for an Oni

if it's not poison, it's food!

- has abnormally large ears for most Oni and he can hear slightly better than most people. it's also another reason why he stretch himself too thin while working when he first started because he believed everything he heard needed his attention and he was constantly trying to get to multiple places and do many tasks all at once

okay now imma go to bed hehe this was actually really fun

-has a better work/life balance in the future at the very least lol so dw

-has digitigrade feet! they're not very exposed bc he wears baggy pants all the time but if you look down you'll see he's never wearing any shoes and his paws are just out

#lego ninjago #ninjago #lego ninjago fanart #ninjago oc #original character #lloyd garmadon #ninjago lloyd #fanart #art #ninjago dragons rising #dragons rising #its so me to come up with all this lore and never give my characters a name #oni #oni oc #rossartisting

[bitchimasnake-sss]

"my girlfriend's a nerd" ft. the monster trio!

self explanatory self-indulgent drabbles to soothe my book!loving ass

ft. luffy, zoro and sanji x fem! reader

set-up: you like books, he likes you that's it

warnings: none lmao this is very sfw. one might call it wholesome even.

luffy:

thats my baby ^^

— im not even sure if this mf can read 😭😭

— honestly 9/10 chance he can't but when has that ever stopped him from being our most supportive himbo king

— go king give us everything!!

— he doesn't get why you read books when instead you can be like sleeping or eating or looking at the sea but well, he doesn't question it

— he just thinks it's a weird hobby you have (i don't think he's aware of how freakishly illiterate he is)

— but just cause he thinks it's weird that doesn't mean he wouldn't hug you half-asleep when he hears you sobbing into the dead of the night or he wouldn't listen with keen interest when you explain the plot of your favourite book as he wraps his arms around you and hums into your hair

— will 100% offer to fight the author/ tear up the book everytime he sees you having a breakdown over a particular scene/character

"who should I kill?!" the deadpan seriousness in his voice is what terrifies you

"nobody! I'm okay–"

— after you explain to him that hurting somebody is not necessary and you're fine, he will try to coddle you with extended hugs and food (lots and lots and lots of food).

"yn you should eat something! should I get you something to eat??" you can hear the panic in this poor boys voice 😭😭

"no luffy, its okay. im fine!" you say through sniffs and snorts, eyes bloodshot from crying over ink on paper

"brb" and he gets you dinner enough for 5 people because that's how he knows to comfort you (willingly took sanjis kicks and namis punches to accomplish this mission)

— since he's a clingy little child, he will hold onto you some way or the other when you're reading

— you're reading in your room while he's fast asleep? his arm is draped across your waist lazily. you're on the other side of the deck, sunbathing and reading? his hand is stretched out from where he's sitting and on your thigh (ussop tripped thrice over his hand, rip god ussop 🙏) . you're reading during breakfast cause the book just got so good? his toe is rubbing your calf up and down periodically (he won't stop no matter how many weird looks you give him)

— conclusion: he doesn't at all get it what it is, but if it makes you happy he will spend all the berries in the world to buy you those books (plz know if you actually ask him to jokingly off an author for killing your favourite character, he will do it. please don't ask him that.)

— he's just so supportive and nice 😭😭

"my girlfriends a nerd, I love her" (ussop explained to him what a nerd was and now he's introducing you like this to everybody)

zoro:

the shades tho 😎

— I'm convinced this mf can't read either

— even he can there's like literally no evidence to prove it and the entire crew has come to the conclusion that he gets lost even with clear directions because he just can't read please 😌👌

— at the start, he actually thinks it's dead stupid to invest so much time reading books when you can do other stuff like getting stronger, sleeping, literally doing anything else (luffy backs up his opinion with full enthusiasm)

— i mean like he's seen you sob at 7 in the morning over breakfast cause your fav character died and now he's confused as to why are you spending money and buying books if they make you cry so hard (he doesn't understand the concept of angst im afraid)

— but over time he just accepts it as something you enjoy and well, if it makes you happy then who is he to question it?

— acts like he doesn't care/isn't listening when you're rambling about the plot and how thE MAIN CHARACTER IS IN LOVE WITH HIS ENEMY AND VICE VERSA SKEJFHSJKSN but is actually fully listening

— he's actually invested at one point

"but they are enemies? why does he wanna be with him?"

"you don't get it! thats the appeal!!"

"the appeal is forcing a knife on somebody's throat?" he's laughing, "as if you'd enjoy it if i threatened you with my swords"

"... i would actually enjoy that"

he is now asking nami for loan to send you to a therapist (nami has seen you nosebleed over fictional characters and is considering giving money away to zoro for free. you really do need help.)

— as I said, he's invested now (although he does question your taste every now and then) but he'd force you to either summarize the plot to him as he trains or read out loud so he can hear the story as it goes.

— so naturally you're now sitting on his back, reading out loud as he does push-ups

— this beloved himbo has now formed strong opinions about characters and will battle you with headcanons because "there's no fucking way the hero would ever go back to the villain after that! that's ridiculous! if he does I'll sell my swords off."

— will remember the stuff you told him, no matter how trivial, so if you get off an island and he spots a keychain from your fav book series he's spending whatever money he has left to buy you it

"oh excellent choice! who are you buying it for?" the shopkeeper lady questions aloud

"oh, my girlfriend." he's smiling, "my girlfriends a nerd."

— actually looks forward to you telling him all the plot details and jokes at this point (one might call him a part of the fandom now)

— when you're a crying, sobbing mess because a character died, he's genuinely comforting you (no matter how bad he is at it)

"yn it's okay, you want some sake?" he is hugging you, patting your head like you're a child

"no 😭😭" you sob harder into his chest

"well... that's the best i can offer"

he tried. it's not his fault you don't wanna drink your feelings away.

— conclusion: he started off thinking its stupid and now he's an honorary nerd. would never admit it though. stubborn asshole.

sanji:

he's actually so pretty tho ^^

— he actually liked reading books before you even joined the crew although his tbr consists of cookbooks and auto-biographies about the people he has some interest in

— he started reading so that he could impress zeff with his knowledge on cooking and other miscellaneous stuff (imagine kid!sanji reading a book till late night under a lamp cause he wants to impress his old man that's so cute 😭😭)

— respects your hobbies when he finds out you like reading

— and then he sees your book collection. whY ARE THERE LIKE 5000 BOOKS HERE?! NOW HES SCARED FOR YOUR SANITY CAUSE GIRL WTF

— he hears you recommend a book to robin/nami once and now he's running to the nearest bookstore on the next island you guys land on to buy it

— he obviously did it to impress you and win you over but goddamn that book was actually pretty nice. so, the next time he asks you for recommendations he's actually a bit sincere

— now you're both in a book club of your own (which makes luffy mad cause why are you leaving him out of conversations :/)

— like zoro, he often asks for updates on the book you're currently reading while he cooks everyone food. he loves hearing you talk about the things you like.

— when he sees you crying over books, he is making you sweet stuff to soothe you, holding you and rubbing your back supportingly, peppering kisses to make you feel better

— he's so fine 😫😫

— anyways, also def the kind of person to ask you to roleplay things in real life

"yn-saaaan" his voice is bubbly, "can i ask you something?"

"mhm?"

"the last book you read–" his face is going a little bit red, "you think we can maybe... do that irl?"

now it's your turn to go red

— but no fr, he's so so supportive of your little hobby like yes baby! read those books and have fun imagining people in your head

— 100% matches your vibe when you crush on fictional characters cause "you're right. he is actually very attractive" (a bi king we love)

— once zoro made fun of you for reading and this was his response: "you can't even read, mosshead. the next time you speak shit I'll kick your ass."

"who said I CANT READ? AND AS IF ILL LET YOU KICK MY ASS!"

"I TOTALLY WILL KICK YOUR ASS"

now they are fighting while ussop, luffy and chopper laugh in the background

— but yes he loves staying up late, reading with you before you both cuddle and fall asleep

— you once read about a specific sort of dish in a book and mentioned that it sounds delicious so now obviously he has to go make that dish. it doesn't matter if it's 1 am at night.

— when nami asks him what he's cooking, he just smiles and shrugs, "i dunno either, im just trying to make yn happy. she's such a nerd"

— conclusion: an enabler, an enthusiast. this man is ready to buy you books and then read them if it makes you happy. only the finest for his favourite lady <3

a/n: enjoy my wayward thoughts about these fine men!

#one piece #opla #roronoa zoro #one piece zoro #op #vinsmoke sanji #monkey d luffy #luffy one piece #one piece luffy #one piece sanji #luffy x reader #sanji x reader #zoro x reader #zoro roronoa x reader #roronoa zoro x reader #vinsmoke sanji x reader #monkey d luffy x reader #one piece men #one piece headcanons #luffy headcanons #zoro headcanons #sanji headcanons #one piece fluff

[dearreader]

k so i made this poll awhile ago to answer my question on if people would rather spend a date with a swiftie or an anti-swiftie (someone who hates her and devotes their life to hating on her). i mentioned i didn’t have the spoons to handle it being longer than a day and know it was going to be biased as it would start in my circle and would work it’s way out, so i wanted to do a longer poll when i had the energy to handle a week long poll like that. (i’m assuming when i post this, as i’m pre making it, i’ll be in recovery from my nose surgery since i’ll be stuck at home a week so i’ll have more time to monitor and look at the tags)

so nows the time, but i’m going to addendum the question a bit:

*some extra things that came up on the original poll i didn’t elaborate on fully that i want to make clear:

- you don’t get a say in what type of swiftie you get. assume that you’re going to be spending the evening with someone who massively loves her and her music and wants to discuss it. they’ll talk about songs, their favorite lines and meanings, symbolism behind the reputation album, etc.

- YOU MUST TALK ABOUT TAYLOR SWIFT. even if it’s the anti-swiftie you must talk about her. i understand the sentiment people made on her not coming up, and that’s valid, but that’s not the question i’m asking. YOU HAVE TO SPEND THE EVENING WITH SOMEONE WHOS GOING TO TALK ABOUT TAYLOR SWIFT NONSTOP, WILL IT BE THE LOVER OR HATER?

- im just trying to gather a general consensus on this and want to get data from a lot of people which means this is going to end up on people’s blogs who probably hate swifties and are annoyed by them. that’s okay as that’s the point of my question. but if you’re going to go off in the tags about how much you hate her or hate swifties and be an asshole about it im blocking you. you can just simple say “i hate her/i hate swifties” and don’t need to elaborate. you don’t need to sit in the tags going off on how much you hate her and trying to “defend” yourself from swifties. i just want an answer to the question.

- ALSO, this is not an open poll to go harass anyone in general. if you are a swiftie and see an hater in the tags and wanna fight DON’T FUCKING DO IT. just block and go read/watch your favorite media and think of blorbos kissing or whatever, but DO NOT SEND HATE OR HARASS ANYONE.

the hypothesis im trying to prove is that people in general would much rather spend an evening with someone that is going to talk about something they love all night vs someone who will spend the evening talking about something they hate. i want to gather as much data as possible to get a good consensus and if you go and be an asshole to someone because of their tags on this poll, either side of the swiftie to anti-swiftie spectrum, your disproving the point. if you see tags you don’t like just simply block and carry on. understand? k good.

- in general this is not meant to be a very serious or heavy question. it’s meant to just let me pick people’s brains and see what they’d want to do. i just want to get my results and go. just vote, drop your opinion in the tags, and go.

- also, this last part is silly and not at all related to my data, but since i’m forcing you on a dinner date i’ll at least let you pick the restaurant and food you have. so if you could also say what restaurant/food choice you’d want and what you’d want to order i’d love to hear it. sky’s the limit here. go nutz or even very specific on what you’d want to eat. i am trying to learn to cook and don’t know a lot of recipes or different food types, so i’m hoping this will give me a bigger idea of what food is out there to make. (this question is not meant to be a way to stick it to anyone or for you to go “i’ll go to a shitty ass restaurant and take a swiftie/anti-swiftie and make them eat garbage 🤪”, it’s just a fun question to give people something positive to add to the poll if they want. AGAIN IF YOUR GOING TO BE AN ASSHOLE ILL BLOCK YOU.)

- i’m going to be annoying and ask that you reblog for a wider sample size and such, if you don’t want to that’s fine, but i’m going to be polite and ask you nicely.

that should be everything, thank you for reading my long ass list and voting in this poll. i hope you have a good day and such.

#kelly babels #polls #taylor swift

[doki-doki-imagines]

Kitsune!Michael Kaiser x AFAB reader

TW: Smut with really little plot, religious themes, dom!Kaiser, oral sex (m receiving), fingering, scent kink, Kaiser wants you to carry his baby LOL

author notes: I didn’t want to write smut anymore and here I am with this one. I also did a damn mood board I can’t even recognize myself anymore. It’s all Michael’s fault. Hope that I will get him out of my system with this one and finally write something else for the other fandoms LOL (and if possible not smut). Anyway it's 2k words of smut, hope you'll enojoy it.

It was an old habit you got from your granny-

“Every month visit the temple we have behind our house, cook some strawberry delicacy and the God of the mountain will protect you.”

Now, it’s not like you fully believed your granny's words, a lovely woman, but that kind soul believed a little too much in rituals.

But you know? Why not try? It was also a good way to improve your cooking skill and jog in the forest.

Every time you bring to the little shrine the food you made you get heart palpitation, the luck to live near such a wonderful forest. It is a small one, and rarely people jogged there, so you often found yourself alone or with some fawns passing by, the gentle wind caressing your face; truly relaxing.

Now it is a habit of yours, every afternoon you would bring to the temple a new strawberry delicacy. Too bad that winter came, and strawberries are nowhere to be found.

“Well, I suppose the God of the mountain will have to accept an orange delicacy this time!”

Imagine the surprise when the next day, near the plate you set near the shrine you found a ticket, made with some expensive paper, the words on it still make you tremble-

“I hate oranges, bring me something better.”

So there was for real a mountain God! You always thought the animals were the ones eating your food- “No, it’s impossible” you try to regain your composure. There is no God, it must have been some dumb kid passing by that wanted to play some cheap trick. Muscles still twitching for the fear you ran back home, not spending more than a minute there, and not noticing a pair of blue eyes following your every step from behind a bush.

The next time you visit the temple it is January, exactly one month from the last time you visited the shrine and you bring the same exact delicacy as last time.

“Can’t you read? I told you last time that I hate oranges!”

The plate falls on the ground with a thud, it isn’t broken, but for sure the food you made is now spoiled. But what surprised you so much?

A guy of breathtaking beauty sits on top of the shrine, he has sharp features, his deep blue eyes adorned by a delicate shade of red eyeshadow, the same color of his lips, plump and soft, you could tell it from afar. He has blonde hair, ruffled and all over the place, but you noticed the tips to be blue, the same shade as his eyes and you can only think about how much you would pay to brush his fingers in between his gold and sapphire tresses.

“Hey! Are you deaf? Reply back human!” He stands up, and you can’t not notice how tall he is, how broad are his shoulder and how fit he looks.

And then you also see the fangs and the nine white tails waving left and right from anger.

“I-Is this a dream?” don’t wake me up “Who are you?”

“I’m the God of the Mountains. Call me Kaiser.”

You nod, a loud gulp breaks the silence between you two.

“I’m so sorry, I thought some dumb kid left the note and-“

“Shut up, I don’t care about your excuses! I protect you and this is how you show your gratitude? With this disgusting-“Did he just throw at you the food you made?  “oranges!?”

“When have you ever protected me you asshole! Never seen you around!” You shout back, trying to clean your chest; what a waste of good food.

“Maybe when I got rid of that stalker that was following you anywhere? Or when that brute of your colleague tried to punch you?”

A flash. Now you understand why all of a sudden that strange guy stopped following you, it hasn’t been going on for a long time so in the end you just thought you had similar routines. And that jerk of your colleague? You were sure he was going to punch you, but in the end didn’t, you thought he just cleared his mind and decided to let go.

“Oh I didn’t think-“

“Yeah, you don’t look like someone that has ever done that.”

Okay, this God is as much good-looking as he is irritating, but honestly, you don’t feel like angering the God even more so you let go.

“I’m so sorry for my attitude. What can I do to make it up to you?”

It must have been your trembling irises, your pupils were already blown wide, your chest slowly rising, up and down, and now pushing on his hard and broad one, faces mere centimeters apart, that gave the God an idea; a delicious idea.

“On your knees”

“W-What, umpf-“

Kaiser pushed you down and was now untying the know that kept his white linen robe in place.

“Be a faithful worshiper and pleasure your God”

At that moment you see his erect cock, such a pure white with two veins on the sides and the tip so engorged and so red, a mouth-watering contrast. You don’t complain and start by leaving kisses on his tip, they never linger, the heath subsiding immediately, never giving the pleasure the God wants to receive.

“Brat, take it”

Kaiser grips your hair and pushes in, the intrusion makes you choke, but the vibration just makes him want to abuse your throat more. You try to suck as good as you can, but you are not used to such a girth, saliva slips from the corner of your mouth, while his hands keep a steady grip on your hair, your scalp hurts, but even more your throat now that your nose brushes the blonde curls of his pelvis. You put your right hand on his hips, trying to set the rhythm yourself while the other massage the heavy balls that keep slapping on your chin.

“Yes like that, I know that you had it in you, whore”

He keeps abusing your mouth, and since you can’t still his hip you decide to use your hand where you can’t reach his length, finally relieving your sore throat.

“Look at you, squeezing your thighs together-“ finally a moan escape his mouth “you can’t wait to have me in you, mh?”

He is right, if he can stretch your mouth so much you can only imagine how deliciously he can stretch your tight pussy.

“Now darling-“ Kaiser pull out, your saliva still connect your lips to his cherry-red tip “pull out your tongue and hands, your God here is gonna bless you”

And he does, with a few strokes, his dick twitch and white hot cum cover your tongue and your open palms.

What can you do other than gulping down and licking your fingers clean? By the look on the deity’s face, you followed the right path.

“You are my fave kind of worshiper” He licks his lips and looks at you with a wicked spark in his eyes “lay down, you need to get ready”

You can’t even start to follow his order, that Kaiser already manhandled you on the ground, tearing your leggings with a swift motion, it would be a lie to say that he didn’t excite you immeasurably.

“Fuck, you don’t even wear panties? You really wanted to be railed in the mountains, bitch” His forefinger caress up and down your outer lips “Hold on me, it’s for your own good.” So you hold his biceps, while the other grip the cold ground.

It’s the last warning before his middle and forefinger start to abuse your wet core, scissoring, and curling against your spongy walls, you can’t help but let out heavy breaths in between broken whines. The God is brutal, doing this more for his pleasure, your drooling cunt must be a signal of how good he is, rather than your own.

“C’mon darling, touch your clit, it’s screaming for your help” He licks the shell of your ear, while one hand massages one of your breasts still covered by various layers of clothes.

You start to circle your clit, trying to follow the brutal peace of his fingers, but you are way too out of your mind to do that, your hips jerking totally off the peace.

You cum, your loud moan eaten by the blonde deity, his hot tongue sucking and licking yours, tasting himself on you, slapping your pussy every time you tried to escape from his mouth.

“So fucking wet, I bet anyone can understand what we are doing, fuck-“ Kaiser licks his fingers clean “delicious, better than everything you ever cooked” he pops them out from his mouth, and sit up, now in between your legs, holding your ankles and spreading you impossibly wide.

A devious laugh reverberates in the forest “Look at your cunt, squeezing nothing, it’s screaming to be fucked dumb by me, right?”

The shame finally overcomes you, this God is the nastiest being you have ever met. So you shake your head, a sigh escaping your mouth.

“Tsk, after all we’ve done you act all shy now? Just say it. Just say you want to be fucked up by me, a God”

You look at the deity, he pulled your legs down, still spread wide, but at least in a more comfortable position, his ears stand up and his tails too, his face is tinted red, and his plush lips are red and swollen; he would look so pure, if going down, you didn’t notice his throbbing cock against his stomach, in need for attention too.

Maybe you just want to be fucked dumb after all.

You finally nod and the God let out a laughter more similar to the one of a hyena than one from kitsunes.

“I knew you wanted this too.” He lifts again your legs now leaning on his shoulder, his hands planted on your sides, and bullies his cock in, a slight pain makes you shiver, but it is nothing compared to the pleasure his girth gives you.

“Fuck, you take me so well darling” His thrusts are restless like his fingers were, the loud claps of his hips against your plush ass fog your mind even more, while he couldn’t stop watching your tits, still bound but still jumping up and down thanks to his powerful thrusts.

“You fuck me so good- Kaiser!” That must awaken something in him, the deity looks at you, pupils so wide that the deep blue can be barely seen and then you see them, the fangs, getting sharper with each thrust.

“Say it again”

“K-Kaiser! Fuckfuck-“ You can only blabber, your hand now gripping his blond locks, pulling a few hair for every cruel roll of his hip, while his hand let your leg go, locking instead with your hand, still tightening on the ground.

“You want to be filled with my pups mh? Get all swollen with my cum-” His fangs get near your neck, your scent intoxicating his brain, each thrust now off peace.

“Yes, fill me! Fuck-“ You reach your apex, your glands releasing such a sweet scent that the deity has to restrain every fiber of his body not to mark you forever as his.

“Fuck take it all, I want you f-“ The God couldn’t finish, the mere thought made him cum, filling your cunt to the brim. His eyes roll back, the bitchiest moan slips from his open lips, and his tails flex to the sky, probably in tune with the roll of his toes.

After a few heavy breaths, the deity pulls out, and you feel his hot cum slipping down your core, wetting your ass together with your own wetness. He is still in front of you to notice that and push his cum back him, with the same two fingers that stretched you before.

“Don’t make anything slip. This is holy cum, it would be a sin to waste it.” Then he lays down next to you.

“Come again next week, don’t make me wait another month. And bring strawberries, next time we’ll eat them together.”

It is an order, and with your mind still fogged by bliss you can only nod, now hugging his warm body in this cold winter afternoon.

#bllk x reader #blue lock x reader #bllk imagines #blue lock imagines #bllk smut #blue lock smut #michael kaiser x reader #michael kaiser

[iskratempestmadness]

A few facts about the characters of "Baki the grappler"

Characters: Baki, Hanayama, Katsumi, Jack, Retsu.

Baki

Food

- it may seem that he prefers something simple, but he doesn't mind trying unusual food combinations. According to the type of ice cream with French fries.

- traditional Japanese cuisine on weekdays and fast food on weekends. He likes to treat himself to a big burger on Saturday night. Although he will have to work hard afterwards to get himself back in shape.

- has a neutral relationship with alcohol. He can drink during the holiday, but usually tries to abstain.

Leisure

- you can't tell from him, but he reads quite a lot, although he can't be called a bookworm. He definitely likes manga and comics, as well as something light from Japanese classics. He reads to relax, so he doesn't want to strain his brain.

- he likes to play board games. He is quite experienced in them, but in some cases, fortune does not favor him.

- walking in the fresh air. As I said, he just wants to relax, so contemplating nature is perfect for that. He likes the prospect of going somewhere to the countryside and staying there to live.

Moment:

It was early in the morning, when the city had not yet had time to wake up. The young man was sitting on a bench in the park, which was close to his house. Despite the fact that summer had already arrived, it was quite cool outside, but the young man did not seem to notice this. Hanma has been visiting this place quite often lately. Perhaps it was here that he could fully relax. His thoughts were confused, like the thoughts of a man who had just woken up, he was thinking about everything and at the same time about nothing. However, he noticed all the peculiarities of his environment. For example, he noticed that the birds were calling to each other today more briskly than usual, and also that this morning was warmer than yesterday, but it was still a little cool for summer... He liked it... And he also liked to have such a carefree time... This is the kind of environment he wants to spend his life in...

Hanayama:

Food

is mmmm... He loves Japanese fast food. You know, quick fried meat in batter with vegetables and various sauces. Or udon in a small but cozy eatery. But he needs really big portions.

- he also likes traditional Japanese dishes, but he prefers not to eat them too often.

- Alcohol? He is an expert in this. It may seem that he drinks only strong drinks, but he is also very well versed in the lungs. Hana also belongs to the type of people who drink and do not get drunk.

Leisure

- naturally, he spends a lot of time in bars. He knows all the bars in Tokyo. And he wrote a review for each, all the pros and cons of the institution were taken into account. He finds this way of spending time very entertaining.

- he likes to play billiards when he has free time. And he's pretty good at it. Despite his size, he is adept at this.

- fishing. Ohhh, he's a pro at this. And how else can you call a man who went to a shark with his bare hands? But even in less extreme conditions, he finds pleasure in fishing.

Moment:

A hard day. This is perhaps the most plausible description of what happened today. There are so many issues that need to be resolved "urgently", so many people who do not understand what they want from him... It exhausted him. His head was throbbing violently, preventing him from concentrating...What was he thinking about? Yes, there's nothing to talk about.Hana was in the very state when a person's mind is filled with various short memories that have no connection with each other...And he didn't have a single sensible thought in his head. He lit a cigarette as usual. And he himself did not understand how he ended up where he is now. It was one of the idzkai he frequented...Heh, perhaps this really was the best option to relax. The young man sat down at the counter and waited for his order... and for some reason, he was already feeling better now. My head didn't hurt so much anymore, and there was no annoying carousel of memories. Hana waited for his order and to his delight, the food really helped him. In some cases, even such small things can make you feel better.

Katsumi:

Food

- HOMEMADE FOOD. To give Natsue her due, she cooks beautifully, so Katsumi's favorite food is homemade food. He doesn't even have a preference, he just loves it and he'll eat whatever they give him.

- he also likes strange food combinations. He is always ready to try something new, but he already has his favorite combinations. I can assume that this is watermelon and feta cheese or popcorn with hot sauce

- relationship with alcohol... Well, he only drinks on holidays, but Katsumi doesn't know the measure. If he drinks, he gets completely drunk. He doesn't know the measure at all.

Leisure

- bowling. He just likes this kind of leisure activity. And he became almost a master at it.

- he likes to sing and not only in the shower. Therefore, one of his favorite ways to spend time is karaoke. He might not be a brilliant singer himself, but he puts his whole soul into it.

- cooking. In this, perhaps, it cannot be said that he is a great master, but he really likes to learn this. He was already delighting himself with a couple of simple dishes. However, it should be noted that his dishes are a little overcooked.

Moment:

He decided to put himself under stress again. There was no other way he could have called it. Of course he liked cooking, but what was happening was terrible. The heated oil splashed in all directions, he spilled something on the floor, broke a couple of plates, and a mountain of dishes in the sink was waiting for him. Is it not a horror? Nevertheless, Katsumi was determined that he would cook this dish. Why didn't he go the easier way? Why didn't you just order what you wanted? After all, he could have asked Natsueh to cook this dish, why didn't he? There were several reasons. First, he liked it. Yes, despite what was happening, he still enjoyed cooking. And he didn't expect a good result at all, he just enjoyed the process. The second is his stubbornness. Is something wrong with him? So what, he will do it as many times as it takes for a decent result. It's a challenge for him. It's a tough call. He had to sweat a lot, but... God, he was really glad... The food was good. But as usual, it is slightly peppered.

Jack:

Food

really has no preferences. All that can be eaten is food for him.

- however, he highlights the Canadian cuisine. After all, this is his native kitchen. One of his favorite dishes is cream cake and "nanaimo"

- attitude to alcohol? Mmmm... Given his lifestyle, we can say that he does not drink at all. But sometimes when he can't sleep, Jack will drink a glass of tincture, but no more. Most likely, he will be able to put tinctures.

Leisure

- He likes to swim. This is an ideal way for him to practice and relax. Besides, he is fond of diving. (So it's ideal for him if he lives somewhere near the sea or a deep lake. This is one of his dreams.)

- he can play the guitar. Despite the fact that he trains almost all the time, he also finds time to practice it. His game is at the amateur level, but it's also not bad.

- What is it? Just like Bucky, he can't be called a bookish character, but he has a couple of bookshelves. Jack prefers little-known works by popular authors. And his favorite genres of books can be called detective and fiction.

Moment:

Quiet. It's late in the evening, it's about one or two in the morning. The noise of the city is no longer audible, only the quiet rustle of leaves and the occasional rumble of water. The atmosphere is wonderful... However... The young man had not been able to sleep for about two hours and it began to bother him. Instead of lying on the bed, he could have done something more useful with a light... well, or at least interesting. Reading was perfect. Jack sat up in bed, turned on the lamp, picked up a book lying on one of the bedside tables and plunged into one of those most amazing worlds that are considered fiction or a fairy tale, and call it fiction. Hanma was quite picky about literature, although he didn't read much. But this book was really interesting to him. Why? Perhaps it was an interesting plot, or curious descriptions of the area, or dialogues of the characters, or... Why guess? Jack liked this book because he could use it to distract himself. There was no hint of the real world in it. Not once in the entire book has there been a hint of problems that were in the real world. And the young man didn't think it was a bad thing. On the contrary, he liked it. It brought lightness, calmness and calmness to his life... Perhaps... A little bit of happiness...

Retsu:

Food

is Chinese cuisine. To say that he loves her will not be enough... He RESPECTS her. He respects her all. From dishes in street eateries to home cooking.

- Japanese cuisine is in second place after Chinese cuisine for him. However, he is extremely critical of her. Retsu tries to eat right, so he carefully monitors what he eats.

- does Retsu drink? Exclusively on holidays. But if there is an opportunity, he will refrain from doing so. He really doesn't like alcohol.

Leisure

- cooking. And he's a pro at it. He has been cooking since childhood, he has a wealth of experience and his knowledge in cooking is still being replenished. He read a lot of books on cooking and watched a huge number of programs on this topic. He is completely enlightened, as it might seem. However, he claims that he still has a lot to grow.

- reading. But he can be called a bookworm. He read everything from classics to manga. And this made him extremely selective in the collection of works. For Retsu, the book is needed not only to relax or distract himself, but also to rethink life. The book is a source of wisdom for him.

- he is fond of photography. And in this he is at the beginner stage. But he learns fast. He likes to photograph animals and plants. He also likes to shoot landscapes.

Moment:

"Yes, this is what we need... This kind of view definitely needs to be captured." This was the first thought that came to Retsu's mind. And the scenery was really spectacular. Mount Fuji. The height is 3776. And it's amazing. The young man was really happy despite the cold and the long journey. Taking out his camera, Retsu started taking pictures... huh... Amazingly... But the camera did not transmit even a tenth of the landscape... However, the footage was amazing. Retsu didn't have much experience in photography, he was still a beginner. How did he come to this? Why photos? Everything is simple. There have been changes in it. Let's just say his mindset has changed. The young man seemed to rethink his life... And I made a conclusion. He needs to slow down. Pay a little more attention to his environment. Watch the world more. That's why he chose photography. With his help, Retsu had the opportunity to forever contemplate what he had captured.

I don't think I'll pull part 2, heh.

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[part-time-poettryingtheirbest]

When their s/o is asexual/ace spectrum [Tighnari, Cyno, Xiao, Albedo, Thoma, Gorou] {romantic fluffy comfort}

Cw: lots of physical affection, reader is crying in each drabble, mention of food in Thoma's, not proof-read

You experience attraction in a different way than others, a way that leads some to criticize you for not doing what they want. Of course, you know that these people will never accept your existence, but that doesn’t mean their words don’t affect you. The words detailing how no one would ever wish to be with you, how you’ll die without a partner by your side, even going so far as to call you inhuman. It’s no surprise that these words affected you.

Eventually you found them, the person you wish to spend almost all of your time with, the person you love with all of your being. After spending a few months with them as your partner, would it be possible for them to love you, even with the different way you love them? The thought began to eat away at you, and you told them. 

Tears ran down your face as you apologized to them, apologizing for yourself, for your way of loving them. Even saying,

“I’m sorry I can’t be a good lover, I’m so sorry.”

—-

Tighnari shifts closer to you, cupping your cheeks in his hands and wiping your tears with his thumbs. He slowly explains that he doesn’t want you to feel you owe him something. He is not entitled to anything, he just wants you to feel safe and cared for. If you keep apologizing he’ll squish your cheeks together and kiss your forehead saying, 

“Love I will explain this to you a million times if you need, but for now you need some tissues and water. How about we get them together?”

—-

Cyno nabs some tissue nearby before lightly taking your hands that were covering your face, wiping your tears himself. He tells you that he loves you for you, and that doesn’t change because of what others expect of you. Depending on how you respond to jokes in a serious moment he may explain in detail the new amount of joke opportunities with you being ace. He’ll make sure that isn’t all he’s talking about though,

“Dear I’ll love you no matter what the world thinks, no matter what insults they throw at you I’ll counter them with the limitless things I love about you.”

—-

Xiao may need a moment to fully process your explanation. The idea of others despising you enough to throw insults at you for… not doing something so trivial. Alas, he knows just how terrible people can be, and comes to an understanding. He slowly opens his arms for you to hug him, not wanting to pressure you but giving you the option to hide your face. And that’s exactly what you do. He may not be the most experienced at giving comfort but he’s definitely trying his best, with his arms gently wrapped around you he sighs,

“Humans are so terrible to each other, you shouldn’t have to deal with them. I’m more than content with having you by my side, you owe me nothing.”

—-

Albedo takes your hand in his, drawing circles into the back of your hand with his thumb. He explains that others' expectations don’t need to be acknowledged when it comes to your comfort, and that others shouldn’t even be commenting on your life period. He takes your hand and softly kisses it, reassuring you,

“I love you very much dear, and I want you to feel comfortable. You don’t need to feel like you owe me something you don’t want.”

—-

Thoma takes off his gloves before wiping your tears with the back of his hand, not wanting the fabric to irritate your skin. He reassures you, explaining that he doesn’t think low of you in any way, that your being ace doesn’t change his love for you. He smooths your hair, and eventually your crying dwindles down, leaving you exhausted and dehydrated. Thoma sees your state and glances towards the kitchen saying,

“If you're up for it I can make you a warm meal, and then you can take a nice nap, what do you say?”

—-

Gorou looks at you with sadness in his eyes, not with you of course, but with the fact you’ve been so hurt by others. He hesitatingly wipes your tear with his thumb, his own eyes growing teary as well. He takes a bit to come up with the right words but eventually he says,

“I’m sorry you’ve been hurt so much, but please know that I love you the same. No matter what they say, you could never be a bad partner for this in my eyes,” He pauses, “If it’ll make you feel a bit better, you can pet my ears. Just be gentle, they’re a bit sensitive, but I trust you.”

—-

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[astroismypassion]

Astrology observations ⭐️⭐️⭐️

Credit goes to my blog @astroismypassion

⭐️⭐️⭐️I think it’s really interesting how astrology as a topic “divides” people and it’s not a regular conversation topic since astrology is represented by Neptune and Uranus or 12th and 11th house. So it’s like people talk more about astrology online (11th house) or on distant media aka the internet (12th house). Since I lot people in the past told me that they don’t have friends that they can discuss astrology with or that none of their real life friends is interested in it. I see it now how astrology as a whole is really so much more connected with 11th and 12th house.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ People that have a lot of Taurus placements in their natal chart are truly born with innate sense of beauty and aesthetics. Even as kids they would not eat their porridge if the plate was not clean and had smudges of dirt on the edges. They really eat only food that is pleasing to their eye otherwise they lose appetite or might not eat it.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ I think I hacked Juno sign and house and the role that it has in your natal chart. Often people might not fully resonate with that sign as their future spouse, ideal long-term partner. Let’s say you are a Taurus Sun and you have Gemini Juno in the 7th house. And you might not even stand Gemini Suns. But you have to look at the SIGN OVER YOUR 3RD HOUSE. And you see that you have Taurus over your 3rd house. This represent that your partner will actually be a Taurus Sun and not really Gemini Sun.

⭐️⭐️⭐️People with placements that match with your Part of Fortune sign and house bring SO much VALUE in your life. You literally see those people as “they are worth big money”. So if you have Sagittarius POF in the 1st house, you VALUE GREATLY Sagittarius and Aries Sun people. They add so much more value to your life. And you always feel kind of RICH when you are spending time with them. Almost like time spent with them is priceless to you.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ I noticed Lilith conjunctions are similar to 8th house overlay synastry. I still don’t fully know why, but it brings so much power struggle. Often you might not want to give in to Sun sign of your Lilith sign. You have Virgo Lilith and you feel this deep attraction/fascination with Virgo Sun, but still something in you doesn’t want to give in to them. Almost like you are aware that you are attracted to them, want to even seduce them, but in the end you are still not sure about them, like you are not completely comfortable with their energy or don’t understand it fully.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ I came across so many Scorpio Risings that have some sort of unpleasant, negative experiences with math. Are you guys okay? They are just not good at it or really dislike it. But like usually it’s just math that’s really negative for them.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ Also, another Scorpio Rising one. They seem to really mesh well with Sagittarius Sun people. I noticed a lot of them are even married to Sagittarius Sun. Like Justin Bieber, a Scorpio Rising is married to Sagittarius Sun Hailey Baldwin Bieber. Chris Pratt has been married to Anna Faris, a Sagittarius Sun. And now he is married to another Sagittarius Sun Anna Schwarzenegger. And I was really thinking “but why??”.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ Can someone explain the fascination between Cancer Sun man and a Sagittarius Sun or Aries Sun woman? Honestly because I don’t know either🤷🏼‍♀️ I noticed so many marriages between Cancer and Aries or Sagittarius Sun too. And it’s not looking good bruv, it’s not looking good. 😂😅 I get that both love to travel and expand the horizons and that Jupiter is exalted in Cancer. But I personally think it’s so bad in the long-term, since it results in a lot of conflict, usually coming from Sagittarius, Aries Sun. And when it comes to Aries Sun I’m clueless why would this match so well with Cancer Sun. I guess they are both a forever child? 🤔 Don’t even let me start on Cancer Sun with Leo Sun…

⭐️⭐️⭐️ Libra and Taurus Moons often promote perfumes, beauty products, cosmetics, make up, jewellery or work with a clothing brand. They are always involved with fashion and beauty.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ Aries Moons and Aries Mars are the worst at admitting they made a wrong decision in their life, whether this is romantic partnership, job, career, their studies, friends. Because they hate admitting defeat. Even if they lose, they would STILL try to make it seem like that was their choice all along.

⭐️⭐️⭐️ You can’t even imagine how your username on here really reveals your Sun sign. I noticed Pisces Suns usually have a ship name, the words dream, mystic, peace in their name or a fictional character’s name. Aries Sun often has fire, lit, rage, run in their name. Cancer Sun has baby, bb, babe, crabs in their username.

Credit goes to my blog @astroismypassion

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[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

ok what about soft moments w the main six???

The Arcana HCs: the best part of the day with M6

~ @godslayer143 requested something like this too, I think their words were "romantic tidbits throughout the day" and something about that phrasing made me melt. anyways here you go, much love from - brainrot ~

Julian

Every evening you spend with him is a gift

He's got the kind of anxious energy that peaks in the late mornings and he likes to fill his day with things to do and people to talk to and places to see

He really mellows out when the sun begins to set, and that's when he comes home and realizes that he's forgotten to eat a meal or hydrate (he's trying, he promises, he just gets distracted) and that's when you've learned to have your time free to catch your breath together

Sometimes this looks like having a hot plate of food ready or a cool glass of lemonade, sometimes it means sitting next to him and asking about his day while he strips off all the heavy outer layers of his clothing and lets the day's sweat air out

Those little moments of grounding become the thing he measures his days with and you will never fully understand how much he appreciates them

He in turn likes to make you feel special, every night is date night

Maybe it's drinks at the Raven, maybe it's attending or watching him perform a play at the community theater, maybe it's a walk on the beach while he tells you about his days at sea

He's a hopeless romantic, and he's hopelessly romantic for you

Asra

If mid-morning wasn't your favorite time of day before, it is now

Because that is when they wake up

You've got your own schedule to keep but now you know to be free around 10 AM and have some tea on hand

They're the most refreshed when they wake up, the light is golden and the air is warm, the day is full of the unknown, every muscle is relaxed from sleep, and when they start to emerge from their pile of sheets and pillows the first thing they get to look at is you

There is nothing wrong with being a naturally guarded person, but these are the moments when he can be completely open with you and he treasures each one

Drowsy cuddles are the best, the lines from the pillow are pressed into their cheek, they have the fluffiest bedhead, their clothes are rumpled, and they're fixing you with the most lovesick gaze

You have never seen dimples look so soft, he's pressing chaste little kisses to whatever part of you he can reach and murmuring sleepy sweet nothings just to watch you blush

He's going to spend the rest of the day trying to make you feel as loved as waking up to you did for him

It'll be creative little gestures, a little note on the counter, your favorite drink in the coolbox, maybe a surprise date rambling through the alleyways until you find a new place to eat

Nadia

Late nights with her are unparalleled

She is fully dedicated to taking care of Vesuvia, and her days are tightly scheduled with meetings and committees and important dinners

But once Vesuvia's asleep, she can dedicate all her attention to you

You know being around people and maintaining a city's well-being is tiring, so you like to gather everything she needs to relax with you

You got Portia to write down her evening routine in detail, so when Nadia's finally finished her state dinner you have her bath drawn and your hands free to de-style and brush and wash her hair

Once you're both in your dressing gowns you'll go somewhere quiet to enjoy the night view

A lot of the time it's a slow walk through the wilder parts of the palace gardens, breathing in the cool night air, talking about the day and checking in with each other

Often it's going up to the contemplation tower and opening the windows, sharing a nightcap and stargazing

The sleep she gets after nights with you is restful and dreamless, and it makes her want to give you the same peace it brings her

She may be busy, but you will always be her priority and she makes sure you know that

Muriel

Early mornings with Muriel are spectacular

Unless you're the type to go to bed a few hours after sunrise, he is definitely up before you are

He has chickens to feed, and a host of protective wards to refresh

And now, he has you to make breakfast with

It takes some effort to consistently open your eyes as the sun is rising and he's just returning from his walk around the perimeter, but it's worth it to cook next to him

You've been adding new items to the menu besides just eggs, and now you two have the perfect synchronized dance as you assemble a breakfast of yogurt, nuts, fruit, and bread

You'll sit together in the doorway, watching the sun rise and mist clear, snuggled next to him for warmth in the morning chill with Inanna laying over your feet

These are the moments that tell Muriel that all is right in the world, something he rarely experienced before he met you

He used to sleep to escape the discomfort of going through life, but now he looks forward to waking up so he can begin a new day with you

He in turn wants you to feel empowered to make whatever decisions you want to, and will happily sit down with you in the evenings with a hot drink and listen to you tell him all your thoughts

Portia

You have a lunchtime tradition with her

It's one of the few points in the day that you can plan on having free, without expecting to have something you want to do with it besides eat with each other

Mornings are an organized rush to get out the door, and evenings are full of social activities, but lunch is one hour to sit and eat with minimal interruptions

You take turns packing a picnic and you'll meet up wherever works - in the palace gardens if you're in Vesuvia, on the ship deck if you're on a trip, on the front steps of the cottage if it's your day off

She makes the best sandwiches and Asra taught you the skill of perfect tea brewing, and there's always baked goods somewhere

She'll kick off her shoes and sit in the sun, her hair shining and her face steadily freckling, blue eyes twinkling as she schemes for your evening plans and belly laughing about all the funny things she's heard and seen so far

As someone whose schedule is organized around other people's activities, you organizing your schedule around time with her means the world to her

She wants you to always feel as relevant and important as you make her, and it shows. Whatever challenge you want to take on, she's putting her all into it right next to you

Lucio

He's at his best in the afternoons

He is a naturally early riser, but he's a naturally early riser who doesn't like mornings, so he tends to pout his way through the first several hours of the day

Evenings are when he really comes alive, which means he's too energetic to stop and connect

Afternoons are when he's just been rejuvenated by lunch, when the air is nice and warm and the day is at its busiest, when there is still work to be done and therefore a task to focus on

When you're on the road with him, it means swinging your clasped hands between the two of you as he teaches you the rowdiest drinking songs and tells you of the mischief he got up to as a kid

Since your childhood memories are faint at best, he likes to retell his childhood like you were a part of it, and imagine what sort of youth he'd have had with you

On off days, it means a sparring session, practicing footwork, strengthening your grip, learning new techniques

He's beautiful in his element like this, golden hair and arm glinting in the sun, a rosy glow across his face, and his sharp, proud smile as he compliments your hard work

You were quick to recognize and encourage the good in him, and he is determined to do the same for you in every way he can

#ask arcana brainrot #the arcana headcanons #the arcana hc #the arcana #asra the arcana #julian the arcana #nadia the arcana #muriel the arcana #portia the arcana #lucio the arcana #the arcana game #the arcana fic #asra alnazar #julian devorak #nadia satrinava #muriel of the kokhuri #portia devorak #lucio morgasson

[vex91]

Lover

Chapter 20: Moment

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3rd's POV

It was already past 7 PM when Yena's car pulled up in front of NMIXX's dorm. Despite it still being bright outside the rain made it hard to see much so everyone except Yuqi decided to stay in the car. Yena's finger was tapping rhythmically to the played song followed by Bora's humming, Eunbi and Yuri showed each other different silly memes, laughing while Yuqi stood outside with her eyes closed. Surprisingly the rain didn't bothered her that much that day, instead it brought her peace.

It wasn't long later when Yuqi opened her eyes at the sound of your voice. The chatters of your friends long forgotten as she fully focused on you. The last time she saw you, you were a mess because of Chaewon and now you looked quite... better but it was still obvious that you were hurt. Everytime she saw you like that Yuqi had to hold herself back from storming into the Le Sserafim's dorm to confront both Chaewon and Yunjin. Both of them hurt you deeply and she couldn't understand how you could even consider ever going back to Yunjin, if she was you then she would never.

But that was the thing. You weren't her, you were Y/N and sometimes Yuqi thought that you were too good for this world.

She hated how nice you were because it made people more willing to use and hurt you and Yuqi couldn't stand that. That's why she took on the role of someone strong who will be there for you and protect you from that and she already failed twice, she wouldn't be able to look herself in the face if she was to fail for the third time. Yuqi didn't trusted Yunjin, she was sure that you getting back together with her would result in you getting hurt again and she wanted to prevent that but she didn't wanted to control your life.

She had to respect every decision that you'll take and try to protect you without controling you.

She watched you as you struggled to carry all the stuff that Yena and Bora made you bring, with a small chuckle the older girl walked up to you and took some of the stuff before helping you carry them to the car "Thank you unnie" You gave her a quick kiss on her cheek and a smile before turning your attention to Yena who honked loudly to hurry both of you up, not noticing the way Yuqi's breath hitched when she felt your lips on her cheek and the way her hand touched the spot "Hurry up guys, I want to pick some food up before going to Bora unnie's house" Rolling her eyes Yuqi opened the door for you and got in after you.

"What do you guys want to eat?" Bora asked while taking out her phone to also look for some food options. After contemplating about it for a while and calming down Yena's and Yuri's little argument, all of you decided to just buy some tteokbokki on the way to Bora's apartment. For the whole ride you mostly listened to music, at some point you shared your headphones with Yuqi and listened to songs that she recommended.

At Bora's house you all sat down to eat some tteokbokki that you bought earlier. Just like Bora said earlier, Minji and Siyeon stopped by to see you, ate some food with you and after talking for a bit they left to meet up with Gahyeon at Handong's house. The night was going well and soon you all found yourselves relaxing in your own ways. Yena and Bora played Mario Kart with Yuri watching them. Eunbi was looking at her social media while sometimes looking up to see how they played while you layed down on the couch, head laying on Yuqi's lap while she played with your hair as you both talked about her last album promotions.

The time you spend with the girls was always peaceful, you could always just relax and forget about your group's schedules and responsibilities. You felt safe with them.

When Yuqi noticed that you weren't answering her anymore, she looked down to see you sleeping. A smile appeared on her face as she took her hoodie from next to her and covered you with it so you weren't cold. Soon your phone lighten up showing Chaewon name on it. Scoffing Yuqi rejected the call and put your phone on the table far from you both before looking back at you. With a smile she continued playing with your hair, closing her eyes and fully taking in the moment.

Moment that she probably won't be able to experience much.

Moment when she could pretend that you were hers.

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Summary: Chaewon getting a lover was a shocking but happy news to everyone at Le Sserafim's dorm, until the news came out to the public and Yunjin found out that it was her ex-girlfriend, Kwon Y/N.

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[amaesama]

Can i request for a eyeless jack with a SO that really loves him :DD

Omg yyyyeeessss this man deserves to be loved. And I’m back at home for a week so hopefully I’ll be able to make my way through some asks! Thank you all for being so patient :)

Eyeless Jack with an SO who really loves him

So Jack was betrayed prior to becoming what he is today so I can imagine mans has a few trust issues. It’s gonna take quite a while for him to accept you as his partner so buckle up buttercup it’s gonna be a long ride.

He’ll be a bit taken back by any unconditional love you show him and he won’t believe it at first, potentially dismissing and signs you send him and trying not to think about you. After a while (like a while a while, the guy’s very busy and he’ll put off talking to you for a while) he’ll confront you about it. When you tell him that you like him he’ll be like ‘yeah ofc you do’ and then he listens to you explaining that you love him and he’s like 0_0

When the two of you start a relationship I reckon he’ll be very distant with you; not that he intentionally tries to put you off but he just doesn’t know what to do and he still has an awful feeling that you’re being disingenuous. But the way you keep coming to visit him and make sure he’s taking care of himself and having breaks is just… very real. Gradually he starts to spend more time with you, letting you sit with him and talk to him, or accompanying you when you go out.

You’ll have to be patient when it comes to any physical stuff with him, mans literally has a demon inside of him so he’s not exactly the safest to be around. Whenever you try to hug him or something he’ll just lightly push you a bit so you’re not close enough for him to crush you. Also I don’t think he’s a very physical person, so it means a lot to him if you respect his boundaries and not take it too far, at least at the start. He’ll try to make it up to you in some way, he knows that love is typically shown through actions but sometimes just respecting what makes him comfortable will show your love for him much more than smothering him with affection.

It’ll also mean a lot to him if you’re not put off by him literally eating people. Yeah that’s not something that can really be overlooked in this relationship.

He totally understands if you don’t be around when he’s eating, part of him doesn’t WANT you to see it. You don’t have to cook him up a chunk of meat have your meals the same time as him or anything, but just accepting that it’s something he has to do and not making a huge fuss about it is enough to make him happy.

Now that he knows that you love him, he has to let YOU know that HE loves you.

As the guy was a med student, I can’t imagine he got a lot of experience whilst he was in university (college?? Idk how American higher education works I’m sorry) so he has no clue how to go about it. He will try the whole physical affection thing but every time he moves his arm or leg he asks you if you’re ok cuz he knows how strong he can be and he knows he is fully able to hurt you.

He won’t even attempt to make a romantic meal for you, 1) all he ate before turning all demony was pot noodles and takeout (coming from personal experience *sigh*) and 2) he can no longer consume normal food so he has no way of telling if what he makes tastes good. Bless him.

And the guy is quiet so any compliments he gives you or words of affection will most likely be adorably awkward.

He resorts to gift giving, he frequently goes out to visit injured pastas or to raid people’s homes so it’s a given that he happens across cool things like little trinkets or pretty plants to bring home for you.

He’s not a natural romantic by any means, but an old necklace and a freshly picked flower is enough to show you that your feelings for him are mutual.

#creepypasta #creepypasta x reader #eyeless jack #eyeless jack x y/n #Eyeless Jack x reader #I love him #he means the world to me

[diverbots]

any genji headcanons? i need more genji thoughts from you

This got REALLY long so it’s under a read-more.

- He didn’t really have any “true” friends other than Kiriko during his teen years, I feel like a majority of the people that were his friends were afraid of him because he was part of a crime syndicate (and Genji knew this pretty well! He just didn’t want to admit it.)

- He didn’t appreciate his time with his father all too often, and he constantly wishes he did. He’s gone now, and even during his younger years he didn’t get to spend much time with him since he was off doing other things. He doesn’t understand Hanzo’s constant need for approval from him, but he gets incredibly lachrymose whenever he thinks of his father protecting him from the clan elders.

- Genji constantly has to put up with maintenance and regularly takes around two hours to fully clean his body of dust and grime. It’s aggravating, but after awhile (and speaking to Mercy and Zenyatta) he gets a lot of meditation and relaxation out of it. He gets sick very easily if he doesn’t perform them.

- While Genji’s favorite food is ramen, I think his favorite snack are prawn crackers! They’re a bit plain sometimes, especially if you eat them constantly, but it’s a indulgence he had when he was younger.

- If he hasn’t taken the sword or shurikens, he probably would’ve had twin said as his next option (he gave Kiriko some kunais and didn’t want to copy her, y’know?)

- Doesn’t like taking his faceplate off cause it’s always too cold!!! Or too hot, he doesn’t care if his scarring is seen as “scary” anymore but the temperature difference whiplashes him (this is me coming up with excuses for his faceplate staying on, I like it like that BDNSNSNFNS)

- He and Sojourn used to talk frequently, she was an important figure in his life but there were some moments where she couldn’t give him the help he needed, always directing him to Mercy for other things that she really didn’t understand. I’d say they’re good friends though, as much as Cassidy, Tracer, and so on, despite how much the game doesn’t show it!

#text #ask #long

[autistpride]

Hi.. I hope you don't mind a bit of a long ask. So I've seen from your posts that you have autism, and I was wondering if I could have your opinion on something. More recently I've been questioning if I might have autism myself, but I'm really unsure about it and my family seems pretty adamant that I don't. The main reason that they think I don't is because they're used to stereotypes, and they don't think I could have it because I understand and use a lot of sarcasm, even though I've told them that it's a spectrum and everyone is different. Of course I know that your opinion won't make up for an official diagnosis, but as of now I'm too embarrassed to even mention that I MIGHT have it, because if I'm wrong I'll feel like one of those people who fakes disorders or something. So, if you're willing to listen, I was going to list out some of the traits that I've been called 'weird' or 'alien' over, and see if maybe you think they could possibly mean autism? I hope that's okay with you 😅

•I always get the exact same foods from restaurants that I go to frequently. If they don't have what I usually get, I most likely won't eat anything at all.

•Speaking of those foods, I always eat them in the exact same order. The burger, then the fries, then the nuggets. The breadsticks, then the fish, then the shrimp, y'know? I don't know when or why I started doing this, I've just sort of always done it.

•I have a huge problem staying still, something that I get very self conscious about in public. I'm always tapping my feet, rocking back and forth, clicking something in my hands, chewing on water bottle caps, and just generally refusing to sit in one spot. I also love to pace when I'm trying to formulate ideas, as I feel it really helps me think.

•I can't stand wearing jeans. I mean I won't go crazy if I have to, but they always make me feel restricted. I thought for a while that it was just how restricting they were, but I've found that other tight pants don't make me feel the same way?

•I DESPISE nail files. I can't explain it, but just the sensation of that sandpaper-like stuff rubbing against my nails activates my fight or flight response, I just feel like bolting it gives me bad goosebumps all over.

•I hyperfixate on stuff hard, I pick things up quick but also drop them hard. Recently I picked up DC/Batfam as a hyperfixation and I've been fully leaning into it ever since, spending pretty much all of my time making art or stories about it (Or at the very least thinking about the characters in some way). However back a few years ago I was hyperfixated on Markiplier Egos, and then one day I just.. Dropped it out of nowhere, and haven't been able to pick it back up since.

•This one's really iffy but I feel like I get irritated a lot super super easily, and I used to think it was just anger issues but for one: It's almost never something to get upset about, and for two: It usually happens when I've been talking to someone for a little too long or when someone interrupts my quiet time. So if we're going with the whole maybe autism thing, it might be overstimulation..? Idk..

•I'm super light sensitive, pretty much every time I go outside I say 'Wow it's bright out there" when I come back in. It's so noticeable that I used to not only notice, but attribute it to an eye injury I had once. Except that injury wasn't serious and is fully healed, so that's probably not it.

•I have a lot of trouble speaking sometimes. I feel like my words never come out the way that I want them to, and I often end up slurring them around so much that what I'm trying to say becomes pretty much incomprehensible, which always makes me frustrated because I get misunderstood a lot.

•I don't really understand what other people are feeling most of the time, and I get annoyed when they won't just tell me what they want instead of vaguely hinting about it and expecting me to know what they need.

•I'm always being told to speak up because I 'mumble', even though I think I'm talking at an acceptable volume.

•I ramble. A lot. (Sorry 😭👍)

But yeah, those are just some of the thing that I've been jokingly called 'strange' for over the years. Like I said earlier, I know that your opinion is nothing like an actual diagnosis, but hearing your thoughts on whether or not I might have it would mean a lot to me since you're someone who's been diagnosed!

Hi annon!

Let me preface this by saying I'm so proud of you for really taking the time to think about all this and dig into your life and behaviors.

Then to ask someone about it is very brave!

I wish there was a way to reply without showing your entire ask message. I feel terrible sharing your private thoughts with everyone.

I'm not a professional so I don't feel qualified to say yes or no. And as much as I want to give you some reassurance, I can't give you something definite. Especially when I don't know you in order to form a proper opinion.

Yes many of those things are things that indicate you could be autistic.

There is a lot of overlap and they could be things related to other Neurodivergent diagnosis such as ADHD, anxiety, OCD, etc and not just autism.

However, I will say if you're even questioning if you're autistic it's a pretty good chance you're autistic or some kind of Neurodivergent. Most neurotypical people often don't think this hard on if they could be autistic or not. 😉

You have put a lot of thought into this and my suggestion is to keep researching and doing what you're doing. Keeping notes also if you'd like. Why?

Because....

1. Keeping notes and continuing research allows you to have a record of everything.

2. The notes would also come in handy for if you ever seek an assessment.

3. With more time, you will become more self aware and confident in your thoughts on what you believe about if you're autistic. You can then sit down with your family and explain why you think you're autistic.

4. If the comes a time you'd like to try an assessment, you can talk to a gp or therapist if you have one and have them place the appropriate things for you to have that done. Your family needn't be part of the process if you're of legal age. But you may need adult permission for the evaluation if you are considered a minor.

5. Self diagnosis is valid in the autism community. Its valid because a diagnosis is very challenging for many to obtain, and in some situations dangerous.

This doesn't mean someone just wakes up one morning and says "oh I think I'm autistic today". No. They have done hours and hours of research and evaluated their own life, mannerisms, and behaviors, and said "I really think I'm autistic."

Self diagnosised individuals get the benefit of knowing themselves and finding support in the community without ever getting access to supports any official way. They can't get school/work accomodations, financial assistance, medical/mental health services, or really any supports put in place that require an official diagnosis to obtain.

Some would claim self diagnosis isn't valid due to exactly what you pointed out, making a claim of a diagnosis without qualifications and due to the huge overlap and other factors, but the wait times, cost, and unfortunately things like race and gender are barriers to obtaining an assessment and diagnosis. I know in the UK the current NHS wait time is 7-10 years unless you go private. I know in the US getting an assessment as an adult is challenging as most professionals won't evaluate people over 18 and the cost is upwards to $7k depending on location because most insurances won't cover it.

You are always welcome to continue messaging me. I'm happy to answer any questions and I honestly enjoy talking to people when I can.

And in case no one's told you

You're not broken, a burden, and there is nothing wrong with you!

Be your best and amazing self! ✨

#my asks

[sludgefriend]

i could definitely see you as someone pleasant to go to a lake with, to spend time with & talk to & whatnot. the way you write is fascinating as always, and i do think if i was ever able to get that genuine chance i would most certainly take it.

actually, as of typing this thats all i really can imagine— you & i, whatever i may be, sitting under the moon as stars glimmer in the sky. our physical differences & contrasts would probably be so jarring it’d be humorous, actually. to state simply, you’re older than me— more wise, so to speak? i don’t know, i don’t know how to fully define someone as wise. i presume just someone who has had a life lived.

anyway, i do think having a conversation with you under that visual or even sitting quietly in silence would be neat. for the sake of discussion, i’ll simply ask right now something i would likely ask you then, if i was able to meet you face-to-face:

do you believe having the capacity of romantic love is vital for living? to have it reciprocated, or even to feel it in passing; is that necessary in order to function? if it is, then is it abnormal to have an absence of it?

i’m.. not sure. i ask you because (like i stated before) you’re older than me and subsequently know more than i do. also because i appreciate your input greatly. romantic love has never been something i personally understood very much of, so i was curious whether or not you see it as a pure necessity when it comes to living.. just fascinated, is all.

regardless of what your answer may be, i do know that in this very moment if i were able to sit beside you i would pat you on the shoulder & follow the action with the simple sentiment of hoping you find the adventure and spark you may be looking for.

in my eyes, you’re very worthy of all things related to subsequently everything; whether thats the feeling of the sun hitting your face & simultaneously rain falling in a rare shared action, or its the feeling of a butterfly on your arm— whatever it may be, you’re worthy of all the hypothetical and possible new experiences.

of course, i’m sure you already know your worth— i just like restating it.

Hahaha, well, I very much appreciate that. I’m always happy to hand on what I’ve learned to others.

That being said, you’ve picked somewhat of an interesting target for this question. Ten years ago, I might’ve given you a different answer. Romantic love has always been very important to me. At times in life, it felt like I couldn’t imagine a life without it, or without actively pursuing it. Though, what I can tell you is this. No. It is not necessary to live a full, or fulfilling life. It can be such a beautiful, special thing. You truly learn another person, come to understand them, grow with them. It’s incredible, it’s exciting, it’s comforting, it’s beautiful. However, there are other experiences in life that can be just as beautiful and awe-inspiring. What those happen to be, though, comes down to who you are. It can come from family, from friends, from a hobby, a career, an event, a place, a time.

Think about it like, ehhh, food. I could probably go the rest of my life not eating another fish, but there are some people out there that couldn’t even imagine it.

My advice to you, I suppose, is to just follow your heart. A bit wishy-washy, I know. But at the end of the day, I think it’s true. Love and fulfillment are things you don’t need to force. They enter your life in strange and unexpected ways, most of the time. If someone your age happens into your life, and you find yourself wanting them around, wanting to know them in an intimate way, then follow that feeling and see where it goes. But if romance isn’t something that truly speaks to your heart, there’s nothing wrong with that, either. There are many ways to feed your soul.

#speak #asks

[666writingcafe]

The Portal

As soon as Solomon and I arrive at the park where the Celestial Realm portal supposedly resides, we're nearly tackled to the ground. Thankfully, the object in question is not dangerous; it's just an overly excited Luke.

"Luke, let them breathe," Simeon calmly states. Once Luke is at Simeon's side, I notice the gate we're standing in front of.

"No way," I gasp.

"What is it?" Simeon asks.

"I've walked past this gate for many years, wondering where it might lead. The ivy and flowers surrounding it made me think that there was a magical place on the other side."

"Only under the right circumstances. If you were to walk through it without an angel, you'll just come across a bunch of shrubbery." Simeon touches the gate, and it starts glowing white around his hand. Pushing it open, he beckons us to walk through it. Luke runs, Solomon calmly strolls, and I look back hesitantly.

"It's alright, MC," Simeon comforts. "I'll be right behind you."

۞۞۞۞

"Welcome to the Celestial Realm," Simeon states. The four of us are currently standing in a pavilion surrounded by brightly colored flowers. In fact, everything about our surroundings seems overly saturated. It's a little disorienting.

"Looks like we made it here in one piece," Solomon quips.

"I sure hope so. I can't afford to lose an arm or a leg right now," I respond, causing Simeon to chuckle. The four of us start walking, Simeon and Luke taking the lead.

"This is actually my second time in the Celestial Realm," Solomon states. "It really hasn't changed a bit."

"I see." As if sensing my discomfort, Simeon slows down to match my pace. None the wiser, Luke and Solomon forge ahead.

"Is everything alright?" the angel asks. I sigh.

"Simeon, I hope I don't offend you when I say this, but there's something a bit unsettling about this place. It looks...too perfect." He nods his head.

"That's an understandable response. Most humans never see this place, so it can shock people the first time they arrive." He pauses. Then, in a quieter tone, he adds,

"If you were to spend any real time here--and not just in the areas prepared for visitors--you'll find that it's a rather dark place. There's no point existing if you're not perfect, and everyone here lies in order to survive."

"Even Luke?" He shakes his head.

"He's still young enough that he doesn't have the same expectations as the rest of us, so what you see with him is what you get." He pauses again. "I do worry about him, though. The way he idolizes Michael..." He trails off, and he doesn't say anything for a while, leading me to believe that our conversation is over. Then, he seems to get the courage to speak again.

"I'm terrified that he's going to use Luke when he's older." If it weren't for how close the two of us, I wouldn't be able to hear him. "He's going to take advantage of the fact that Luke will do anything for his approval to make him do some rather horrible things. If something happened to Luke, I..." He chokes on his words, as if he's trying not to cry. "I don't know what I would do. I try not to think about it too much, for I start to feel an immense anger inside me." That is a lot to unpack, but this is neither the time nor place to do that. I don't want to get Simeon in trouble.

"Why are you telling me this?" I ask. A faint smile develops on his lips.

"Because you're the one person that I can trust fully."

۞۞۞۞

Simeon, Solomon, and I are currently sitting in a dining hall, waiting for Luke to bring out treats he prepared specifically for this occasion.

"Ever since we go back from the Devildom, Luke's gotten more into baking," Simeon states.

"I'm jealous of you, Simeon," Solomon replies. "You get to eat everything he makes."

"I'm not sure if that's a blessing or a curse," I respond. "I remember Luke's food being overly sweet in large quantities." Simeon nods his head.

"I hate to burst his bubble, because he is quite passionate about baking, but there are times that I wish he would pursue other activities. There have been multiple times where I've had to eat five pieces of cake in a single day. I don't know how Beelzebub has no problem handling that much food on a daily basis; I almost get sick."

"Well, if that's the case, then I'm not giving you any of this, Simeon! Luke shouts as he returns to us with a tray of tarts. Simeon stands up.

"That's fine, Luke. I actually have some business to attend to." He takes my backpack and throws it over his shoulder.

"What are you doing with MC's backpack?" Luke asks.

"Michael wanted to see MC's notes from the exchange program. He mentioned that they'd be useful."

"Can I go with you?"

"Now, Luke, it wouldn't be polite to not serve your guests." That causes the young angel to become quiet. Simeon turns his attention to Solomon and me.

"I will try to be as quick as possible, but I may be a while. This morning we received word that a sacred spring in the eastern part of the realm is starting to dry out, so Michael's there to investigate the problem." Oh no. Of course it had to be the Celestial Realm that got affected today.

"We'll be sure to keep Luke company," Solomon replies as Simeon walks away.

"So, Luke, what have you prepared for us today?" I ask, wanting to prevent myself from spiraling. The young angel beams at us.

"Behold, my special Celestial Realm apple cream tart! I came up with the recipe myself. Even Michael said it was good." Using tongs, Luke gives Solomon and I one tart each to try. I will say, he's improved on balancing his ingredients. It's still a bit too sweet for my liking, but the feeling doesn't hit me until I'm almost done eating.

The three of us start catching up as we munch on the tarts, and I almost am able to forget why I'm here in the first place. Then, Luke turns his attention to me.

"I meant to tell you, MC, I overheard Michael mentioning that he was hoping to meet you the other day!" If it weren't for the fact that I finished my tart, I would have certainly choked to death. As it is, the look on my face causes Luke to question if I'm okay. I try to compose myself.

"I'm okay, Luke. I just...didn't expect you to say that, that's all."

"That's normal. I mean, he's the Michael, after all. Who wouldn't want to meet him?!" At the moment, I'm not too keen on meeting him. After all, there's a good chance that he'd find some way to kill me. Thankfully for me, Simeon arrives back before I have to lie to Luke. He hands me my backpack, and the four of us leave the dining hall. Nothing eventful happens until we pass the pavilion that the gate dropped us off at.

"Wait, stop!" Luke shouts. Simeon does as asked and turns around to face Luke, forcing Solomon and I to do the same.

"Aren't we supposed to take MC and Solomon back to the human world?" the young angel asks.

"No," Simeon answers.

"What do you mean, no? That's their home!"

"The four of us are scheduled to go to the Devildom."

"WHAT? Why?!"

"As the first ever exchange students, it is our responsibility to ensure that the program continues running smoothly." Luke stomps his foot and clenches his fists.

"This is what drives me crazy about you, Simeon! Why didn't you tell me this before now?!" Solomon and I exchange glances and take a couple steps back to give the angels some space.

"Because we just finished talking it over and ironing out the details yesterday. Plus, I wanted to spring it on you as a fun surprise. Please don't get upset."

"Don't get upset?! Whose fault is it that I'm upset?! And anyway, who's this 'we'? I certainly didn't consent to this!"

"On our end, myself, Diavolo, and Michael." As soon as Michael's name gets dropped, Luke shuts up and allows us to resume walking. I can tell he's sulking, but at least he's not throwing a tantrum. After several minutes, we arrive at a surprisingly rusty gate that's already open, as if it was waiting for us the entire time.

"I'll lead this time," Solomon states.

#obey me shall we date #obey me mc #obey me solomon #obey me simeon #obey me luke

[alostlittleriverlotus]

A jumble of thoughts after I had a talk with my mom.

Basically my dad is retiring this year and things are going to really change income-wise. It's not something that can be helped since he is at a normal retirement age so yeah.

★Okay! Content Warnings/Trigger Warnings time!

Mentions of abuse, emotional abuse, talking about toxic parents. Minor mention of homophobia/transphobia/racism (subtle) but not giving direct details just pointing out someone is. Slight delving into my childhood trauma. It's not super detailed, but it may be triggering to some so please be careful.

This is largely personal thoughts and personal details as I rant and get my thoughts out. Particularly a mention of my abusive dad and focus on WHY I don't like talking to him. Ableism/internalized ableism. Nothing outright really, but I discuss ableist expectations around people expecting me to work especially since my disabilities are invisible. Also mention of fatphobia/health mention aka everyone thinking just working out and being a normal weight cures body pain.

I think that covers it. I tried my best to list everything. If anyone reads it and thinks I should add another trigger/content warning, let me know and I'll add it.★

But I'm expected to support myself. My mother is more willing to listen to me now, much better than before. I can actually manage a conversation with her and she actually apologizes for pushing me to talk. And she's incredibly sympathetic about dealing with doctors since she's had bad experiences with them too.

It's just. Even with all that, she doesn't understand that I cannot work. She thinks it's something I can work to overcome and I don't know how to describe it to get her to listen. I am frazzled, I dissociate far too often, I struggle with chronic fatigue, paranoia, delusions and hallucinations, BPD episodes and mood swings, hypomanic and depressive episodes. I am easily fatigued, I get hungry far too easily (fast metabolism) which leads into low blood sugar levels. I have IBS, but also have a peculiar diet cause of my being autistic and having safe foods. I can barely focus, I can only do things I want to do cause of ADHD and executive dysfunction. I forget to go to the bathroom, to eat, to drink, to grab my food. I lose hours of my time and barely even realize cause of hyperfixations and dissociation. And this isn't even including the triggers I live with that can cause me to become messed up for a while. Hell, just seeing children in public is a trigger which is something I've realized recently. Everything is so much. And this also doesn't include the fact that my being autistic/ADHD just doesn't allow me to function on a normal schedule as most jobs require. I can only work an hour and a half of Door dash before I'm fatigued for weeks. It's been over a month since I last worked. And I explain this, in a way that doesn't mention trauma cause my parents won't understand especially since they still don't see they've done anything to hurt me, in the nicest way possible and my mother still cannot comprehend it.

Even spending time with my girlfriend. I forget to text her for hours and it doesn't feel that long. She's been getting that a lot lately. She's understanding even if she misses me a bunch (online relationship), but it just sucks. Even spending time with MA, I can barely function and end up dissociating or just fully out of it. Even when spending time alone and relaxed, it's just not right.

And I can't do job interviews. I've only had two job interviews (one of em lead to me getting a job, it was seasonal during the Christmas holidays) and I just. The thought of a job interview causes me to shut down.

I can barely cope. I spent so many years in survival mode, pushing just to make it out of school that it's traumatized my body. It's traumatized my mind. I still have flashbacks, nightmares, my body shuts down at the thoughts. By the end of my two month job, I was losing sleep and not eating. I pushed through being triggered, through having painful cramps, through feeling sick just to get through the job.

And I don't know how to explain it cause I know my dad especially will see it as an excuse. My mom may be sympathetic, but she still hopes we can find a way to push through it. But even if there WAS a way, that would take years and years of therapy and treatment. I can't even find a therapist that will listen to me or be geared towards my disorders, let alone one that I can actually get help from. I try to make her understand, I try to have her understand, but she just can't. It's something she needs to see with me. I can't go shopping without being fatigued and needing to chug water. And I love shopping. I know I'm not exactly physically fit, but I also know that if I go see a doctor, they'll bring up my weight. My weight isn't ideal, I'm chubby, but it also ignores the fact that I am still healthy in ways. I'm chubby, but parts like my legs and abs are muscular even if they're fatty. And nobody even believes me. Even my more physical issues are invisible. I'm regularly told I should try walking more. I'm regularly told I should get up and go out. It completely ignores the issues with my breathing, the issues with my knees, the issues with my needing water, the issues with how hungry I get quite easily. Even just an anxiety attack which is 30 minutes will burn through my food so fast. How overheated I get. I have all these issues and no solutions. Yeah, they're getting better with the help of Vitamin D supplements and my birth control, but there's many more issues. And nobody can see them so nobody listens. My friends are the only ones who understand and offer me support and patience.

It's just frustrating. Cause my mom is trying to be sympathetic and trying her best to understand which is a BIG change compared to the past. But because of her internalized ableism, her own issues, and just how I can't be honest with her, it's not possible. She won't understand the trauma I've been through. She thinks that even if we are autistic and have ADHD that we can work through it cause her and her family did. That we should mask because that's what society expects. And there's the whole fact she's transphobic and homophobic and like kinda racist (it's the subtle racism) and she's more republican so she wouldn't understand a lot of issues and I can't fully share because of that. I can't open up about planning to live with my girlfriend. I can't open up about my gender identity and how it affects me. They can barely pay attention to buy me clothes that fit since I've gained weight. Most of my wardrobe is thanks to MA. I appreciate that my mom is trying, that is a big reason why I'd consider not going fully no contact, but there's other issues. And I'm aware of the fact that me living as who I am would probably make her want nothing to do with me. I don't mention my dad cause A: he still doesn't believe me about my trauma. My mom sympathizes like "oh you've been through so much" but he just goes "I believe she believes it" as if I'm delusional and making it up. Considering I do have delusions, that is so painful to hear. B: My mom has an off mode when it comes to politics, my dad really doesn't. He watches stuff making fun of leftists and SJWs occasionally and even watches Ben Shapiro a bit if I recall so. Plus my mother was more independent or even more democratic before they met and she became more republican/conservative thanks to my dad. C: My dad is bad with emotions. He thinks he's some empath that feels everything others do (he has flat out said that to me and my brothers) when even my mother agrees that he's not and he can be cold towards emotions. He was far more aggressive during our childhood and he was the one that yelled more and got angry and would be far meaner. My mom isn't perfect and she got angry too, but my dad was worse. Hence why Lucifer from Obey Me, one of my fave characters, can be a trigger especially since they have similar hair colors.

This turned into a rant about my childhood trauma, I apologize. But I wanted to give insight into my parents and what I'm dealing with. It's not like my parents can help it, my dad is in his 60s so it makes sense why he's retiring. It's just this big change and it's what my parents expect. And I know my dad will see it one way, but my mom, try as she might to sympathize, just cannot understand someone like me, that appears able bodied and able minded, to be unable to work.

(Also when I bring my mom being problematic, I am in no way excusing her actions. Some of what she has said is disgusting, but I also acknowledge that she is a victim of abuse with her family and marrying my father has impacted her as well. No way in hell am I gonna try to defend her cause "she's nice to me sometimes." I merely wish to bring up that it is a complicated situation and I have very complex feelings for it. Cause even if I see her getting better, the reality is she will probably not change her views. I don't know if I'll fully go no contact or just go very very very strained contact. It's a lot I'm having to go through. Either way, it has ALWAYS been my plan to get far away from them. They're not people I want in my life hence why even if I had contact, it would be incredibly strained and distant.)

It's just a lot and has me thinking. I wish I could make them understand, but they're also boomers and come from the generation of "everyone has to work whether we want to or not." And since I APPEAR able bodied and able minded and they deny my trauma, my parents think I can just overcome my struggles. I don't even want my dad around when discussing this tbh cause I know he just won't listen or believe me. He resents me. He thinks I'm the one who's changed too much and wants me to act like I used to without putting in any effort. My mom is trying and even getting help herself (she's on anti-anxiety meds too.) But it's just. A lot. It's a lot of my mind, my emotions. My mother wishes we had a couple more years, but we don't. Again, this is mostly a circumstance thing with my dad being in his 60s. They had us very late and had me specifically in their early 40s so. It's mostly cause of that which can't be helped.

And it's just a huge reminder of how invisible my disabilities are. My physical issues get almost entirely ignored or just turned into a weight issue. For instance, my weight is affecting my knees, I believe that, but I also come from a family with knee arthritis and knee problems. And even years before I had big boobs or extra weight, I had knee, ankle, and back pain. But now everyone chops those pains down to my big boobs and my being overweight. Yeah, they're making it worse, but I've also had these pains since I was like 6! I've had sleeping troubles since I was 11, but it was chopped up to low Vitamin D. Which yes, my sleep is better. But I still have horrible nights of sleep or insomniac nights. Especially when I'm in a hypomania episode where I'm too energetic to follow a normal-ish schedule. Or my breathing difficulties. It's gotten better since being on regular medication and especially having a humidifier (I have constant allergies cause of dust and such), but there's still problems with me overheating, becoming fatigued, having difficulty breathing, getting slight fevers or fever-like symptoms cause of being too cold/hot. Showering exhausts me. I've always been told to just work out more, walk more, practice and make your muscles stronger and all your issues will be fixed. I've been more fit. I've had these even when I was thin.

Sigh. I just. Having these invisible disabilities suck. I didn't even know I had IBS for the longest time and just thought it was how my body works. But now I have to be careful of what I eat/drink cause of it triggering my IBS. Like yeah there's my mental health and neurodivergence and that's all invisible, but having my physical issues ignored has been something I've so normalized over the years. I'd push through pain, I'd be told it would go away, I'd be told that being active and eating healthier would fix it. My weight gain wasn't even something I could control! It just happened! 70 pounds in a few months then 70 more! When nothing changed about my diet and if anything, I started eating even better. My diet right now is the best it's ever been cause of me watching out for me being prediabetic. It's not perfect, but it's better. And yet nothing. And yet I'm told to go on Keto. It's just so tiring. Having any disability sucks cause of especially how people treat you, but I think for me, my physical invisible disabilities are the worst ones. Cause everyone just writes off my pain and such as "bad health" and needing to exercise more. And no one will understand that I have tried that. I've been several different weights. I've been thin, I've been fat, I've been average. I've been physically active regularly. I've done all this and still it hasn't changed. And people just can't comprehend that. It's so exhausting.

This really is just a huge personal rant especially about living the way I do and how my disabilities affect me. But I'm glad I realized I was disabled. Cause now I have been working to stop guilting myself. I understand more of why I can't do things like others and even if no one believes me, I'm at least standing up for myself. And my friends and such are willing to help me with my disabilities and be patient. And even my girlfriend is so amazing and understanding. She has her own struggles too, but I'm glad she's understanding. And even with my BPD, she lets me know when she's in a bad mood and how it isn't cause of me. 🥺 Cause she knows I'll instantly wonder if it's my fault. I'm glad to have her and my close friends. It's gonna be scary for a while, but I know it'll end well. I got my deities, I got my friends, I got my beautiful girlfriend. It'll work out somehow. Even if it means things will be scary and different for a while.

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9/14/2022 DAB Chronological Transcription

Daniel 1 - 3

Welcome to the Daily Audio bible Chronological, I'm China. Today is the 14th day of September, welcome. Great to be here with you today. I hope you had a great time yesterday where we left off just to spend some time with the Lord. I don't know if you listened to yesterday's podcast. I would encourage you to really felt the Lord was speaking kind of corporately and also individually. But yes, I really hope that that was a good time. You are a journaler, that you journaled, and if you're someone who is a verbal processor like I am, that you were able to verbally process that with the Lord. But anyways, I am excited about today. Just another day in the word of the Lord and excited to be here with you today. But today we are in the book of Daniel we're in chapters one through three, continuing on with the New International Version for this week.

Commentary

This story is crazy in a way that I have not even fully ever really understood. So if we go all the way back to the beginning of the story so we're reading about Daniel, Daniel's training in Babylon. So there is a choosing of some men, and they are going to be trained for three years, and then they're going to enter the king's service. And so some of these people who are going to be some of these men who were chosen from Judah, Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael, Azariah, which is kind of like, oh, they're all together, they're buddies. Let's follow them. Let's follow them around and see what story comes to be. And this is the part of scripture where I'm like, this is incredible. I mean, all of it is truly incredible. So Daniel, he's not going to defile himself with this royal food and royal wine. He asked the chief official from permission to not defile himself, basically saying, can I have permission to not eat this. And the official is like, Listen, my lord, the king who's assigned your food and drink, I'm afraid of him. Why should he see you looking worse than any other young men your age? He would have my head because of you. Basically saying, dude, I'm afraid of this guy. Please don't look worse than these other people. Just do it, please, so that the king doesn't kill me. That's kind of like what's happening here. And then Daniel speaks to the guard whom the chief official appointed over Daniel and Hananiah and Mishael and Azariah. He's like, please test us. Give us nothing but vegetables and water to drink. So this is kind of what we call now modern day the Daniel fast. And so they have this test that they ask for. And then at the end of the time of the test, they appeared to be better looking than all the other men that were in training with, which I'm like, okay, interesting, weird flex, Daniel, but okay. And so then at the end of this time the king brings them into his service. Chief official presented them to Nebuchadnezzar, the king talked with them and he found none equal to Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael and Azariah. So I'm not sure how many men there were but apparently these four are shining bright every matter of wisdom and understanding about which the king questioned them, he found them ten times better than all the magicians and enchanters in his whole kingdom. And Daniel remained there until his first year of King Cyrus. So then in the second year of his reign, Nebuchadnezzar is having these dreams which feels very much like a foreshadowing to Pharaoh when Joseph is having these dreams in totally different stories but that feels somewhat similar, right where he's expected to or someone else will have these dreams and they don't get interpreted the right way. And then there's like death involved. It's like this threatening with death if you don't get what I dreamed correctly and interpret it, you're going to die. And then there's a man of God who steps in and says this is what it means, here you go. And then they're promoted. That's exactly what happened to Daniel. And then so really, this shows that Daniel has favor with the king and also God gets the glory through Daniel's life like he is saying I'll interpret your dream. Sure, here's what it means. And so he gets promoted, he goes away. So this is the part of the story that feels interesting to me. I'm not sure how much time passes, I don't know, I can make a guess but I feel like it would not even be close to what is real. We end chapter two with moreover at request, at Daniel's request, the king appointed Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego administrators over the province of Babylon while Daniel himself remained at the royal court. So then it enters into chapter three and immediately King Nebuchadnezzar is setting up an image of gold ye-high ye-wide and he's setting it in the province of Babylon. He's saying whenever you hear music you are going to bow down to this thing. Like right after he has this moment of the Lord's glory being revealed to him and Daniel gets promoted and then it's like boom, Nebuchadnezzar is like I'm going to make this image of gold and everybody should worship it. And these three men who he already had favor like they already were, he never said he was impressed by them because they were ten times more wise than any other bozos. The worst looking ones that were eating royal food and drink, they have this favorite, they already have this twinkle in the kings eye and then they don't bow down and then there is a threaten and there's a following up with what he said. You're going into the blazing fire, into the blazing furnace and what's so crazy to me is the whole thing is wild, right? There's people dying just because they're throwing them into the fire yet these men are not even being touched. Like, no hair is being singed. There's no smell of smoke, which is wild. That is a miracle. But the part that really gets me every single time is I thought we put three men down there. Yeah, we did. Okay, well, there's a fourth one down there, and he looks like a son of the gods. Okay, so are we seeing Jesus in this fire right now? So this is the part that really I'm sure there's so much debate and theological standpoints on that I won't get into, but this story is just incredible and amazing. And if anything, it's like faith, elevating, and also just like the great length that the Lord will go to to get his name revealed. And I'm just so thankful for these men who lived honest lives and who were committed to the point of death for the Lord and his will.

Prayer

Lord, I thank you for the sweet truth that we overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony. And I thank you for these men's stories, their lives that they committed before you and just all the signs and the wonders that you performed before them and that you ultimately received the glory. And God, I just thank you for that. And I pray that that just gives us the encouragement that regardless of any situation, any leadership position or training position, I thank You, God, that we can invite you into it and we can serve you faithfully and that we do not have to fear man. And Lord, I just thank you for that, and it's in Your name we pray, amen.

Outro

I have a special guest with me here today. It doesn't normally happen, but while I am reading today, I got my little buddy here. Do you want to say hi? You say, mama. Mama. What about your chickens? What does the chickens say? That is my very sweet little Reagan Brave. I have her in the studio with me for just a minute, and she is very interested with the microphone, but then also, like, very curious about what is actually happening. When I put the headphones on her, she does not want anything to do with it, but, man, she's enjoying a delight. So hopefully that brightens your day a little bit today. But that is all for today. I'm China. I love you and I'll be waiting for you here tomorrow.

Community Prayer Line

Hello, this is Samantha from Tennessee in September 6, and I am calling to pray for Tilly from Florida. Lord, you are the great physician, and you know exactly what's going on with Tilly's heart. And I pray that his heart would beat according to Your will, that you would heal every atrium and every ventricle and every artery in his body, Lord, and that he would be able to live according to Your purpose. Thank you for your healing. I also pray for Your encouragement and Your strength. In him, lord holy Spirit, please fill him with everything that he needs so that he can live fully in Jesus name, amen.

Hi, DABC fam, this is Leslie from Kentucky, and I wanted to pray for adopted a God from Illinois. She said that her daughter's husband committed suicide. And I just wanted to say I'm sorry for your loss. My condolences. That suicide must be hard for anyone to deal with. Okay. God bless your daughter. Help her family to go through this hard time. Anyone that is also dealing with suicidal thoughts is thinking about just wanting to take it all away, just want to give up. I help them know that they have a career that belongs that don't believe in you. Help them to see that they have a family that our friends that love them, they don't have anyone. God helps them to find you, realize that you are all they need and they don't need anything else in this life that they just need you if they're going through anything that just doesn't go their way. And God bless daughter. Sorry. Adopted a who is tested positive with covid, helped you to recover quickly. And God just bless anyone who still struggles with Kovac. And God, just thank you for being a good God and serious person, and you're just never praying, amen. God bless you guys.

Hey, DABC. It's Renee from Florida. Good morning. I just want to lift Amanda up again and her whole entire family in prayer. Heavenly Father, we just come to you right now and we just ask oh, my God, that you will help her husband find the right job. Lord, she's worried about him and rightfully so. And, you know, and you can help him. And God, we're just praying and believing that you have something big and better for him and father with her son who has autism. I have a son who's 27. And I just want to encourage you, Amanda, because my son was diagnosed with Asperger's way long time ago, very young, at a very young age, and I ended up having to take the option of putting him on medication. And I don't know that I did the right thing, but he went through regular school, he went through college, he learned to drive, and now he's working for the state. So I don't know if that was the option you were talking about, but I hope that you will not feel bad by taking a medicine that could help these kids to do better in school. I sometimes wonder if I did the right thing or not. I may never know. But I know that my son is definitely better on the medication than he is without it. I'm really hit by your story, and I'm just uplifting you and I pray for you and your husband. And I just want to say to Carla, who called in for the first time, who just listens. I also felt very self sufficient. And now I have to ask for help all the time. So don't be afraid to ask for help. We love you. I'm so glad you came on and said that. God bless everyone. Bye.