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alphabetboyluvr · 6 months

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hiii holly! i hope november's treating you kindly so far!

i wanted to ask whether you have any advice for writers that are just starting to publish. literally any modicum would be greatly appreciated.

it's really hard to assess whether one's writing is any good when literally no one ever reads it :( at the same time, I know I should write for myself first and foremost. can't help but want to be held accountable by the possibility of an audience, tho (maybe that's just my brain chemistry??) I fall into the pit of thinking "if no one's reading it, why am I even writing? I can daydream indefinitely and be satisfied. Why write?" Yet I always come back to writing; it's something magnetic.

it's not the same to ask close friends to read ur stuff bc they are ur friends, and may not give you the sincerity ur looking for so as to not discomfort u. conversely, they might not be interested enough so as to pick up on the fine details.

f/u question: how do you deal with publishing your work on the internet for free? does it ever scare you that strangers could copy and republish ur work without your knowing?

I guess that's one of my main apprehensions about posting loyally on writing platforms. I'm scared I'll write something I'm very proud of and have it plagiarized and not be able to track it back as my original property??

anyways, enough of my self-exposing on your q and a's feeling v vulnerable sharing my doubts so openly lol

thank youuuu :) ly <3

hiyaaa!! it's getting chilly, i won't lie, but other than that November has been pretty typical. likewise, i hope it's treating you well too!

honestly the fact you casually drop words like modicum probably suggests you're a paygrade above me in terms of writing hahaha

my answer is a long (srsly i just kept on going lmao) ramble, so I'll put a read more here haha

i've many lovely friends who i absolutely adore that I've met through writing that are now irls, but none of my friends that i know independently outside of writing have ever read my stuff - I've even got irl friends who are deep in the ao3 trenches, who are paying for other tannie writers' patreons, but we have an unspoken rule that my work is not to be read by them. i just don't let my friends read my work, full stop, so i get that sentiment.

the thing is, humans are naturally inclined to be storytellers - it's been that way for thousands of years. our tales are meant to be told. sharing is just a very human thing for us to do.

I've been publishing on wattpad (within the tannie space) for 4 years, now. readers didn't appear overnight - i actually recently found a screenshot of you up? from march 2021. it had 28 parts, 2.03k reads and 313 votes.

it now sits at 62 parts, 1.45million reads and 55k votes.

that's a little bit perspective for you, i guess - i'd written half of an entire novel that was averaging around 70 reads per chapter, but i loved that world, and i had story to tell, so i told it. some people viscerally hated it, some loved it. i was writing for me, and the numbers prove that. if you worry about the numbers, you'll never satisfied.

similarly, comparison is the thief of joy, or so they say.

comparing yourself to other writers is never healthy. there are far more 'successful' authors on wp in terms of reads, but i genuinely mean it when i say i think i have the most fulfilling and rewarding space on tannie wp because my readers are so unbelievably lovely. i wouldn't trade my current readership for bigger numbers, not a chance.

in terms of plagarism, there are 170,000 words in current use within the english language, and 36 plot types. we've exhausted a lot of them, already. overlap and similarities are bound to occur, so i try not get fixated on it.

take cv for example - i was so gassed up with myself when coining the terms mono and multi, only to find out after i'd finished writing the story that there was a drama with a similar concept that also used the term mono for a similar condition that aired after i'd already started writing cv. overlap happens.

similarly, we're a product of the media we consume. endeavour is my favourite word, because it was in a song i liked when i was a teenager and it stuck with me. i use it all the time, and we can trace it back to the pen of alex gaskarth lmao.

I've seen readers of mine publish work that's been heavily inspired by my work - with and without 'permission' - and i just sort of shrug my shoulders whenever i notice it.

the way i see it, we'll never tell the exact same story. likewise, no two readers will ever read identical texts the same way. i encourage creativity, and know how important it is for me to empty my brain, so I'll never go for someone's throat for doing the same. that's how myths were born, right? people telling and retelling the same stories over and over again? how am i gonna write a romeo & juliet x greek mythology inspired fic and then get annoyed for someone taking inspo from me?

just like the way hair will always grow back after a terrible cut, new words can always be written after a disappointing discovery. idk, i just don't take it very seriously, i guess.

as for whether or not your writing is any good - it's totally subjective. there are people who have explicitly, publicly stated their disdain for my writing. I've had cruel opinions about my writing projected and amplified to large followings. and it sucks.

but there are people who have been exceptionally kind about my writing, too. i get some of the loveliest messages in the world. there are tiktoks with hundreds of comments of just unadulterated loveliness directed towards my work. I'm afforded so much grace and love that it can be overwhelming at times.

not everything is for everyone, and that's okay. you can't let yourself get hung up on pleasing everyone.

the one thing i will say, is that if you're seriously concerned about your IP, write original characters, and use wattpad as your platform. i know they have a reputation, but they give a shit about copyright infringement and the second someone gets reported for plagiarism, they'll investigate it, and take down the story.

no reward without risk - you gotta decide if the risk of plagiarism is worth the reward of sharing your work.

and plus, ai is taking over anyways. may aswell write while we still can lol.

so i guess tl;dr - don't let outside influence impact your internal need to create. the right readers will find your work eventually, but it's not an overnight miracle kinda thing. if i stopped writing just because i didn't see results in my stats, then i would have stopped after kumiho, and we'd have never gotten throttle, or bd, or anything else of mine you might have read.

do it because you love it, and it fulfils you. i love the communities built around my stories, and that's why i share them. writing without sharing doesn't fulfil me in the same way.

okay i've really rambled too much so i'll leave it here, but i hope that helps a little!!! or at least has given you insight into my brain!!!!!!

luv u byeeeeeee

#ask #honestly im not sure im qualified to answer this #but i really appreciate you asking me for advice #sorry for the ramble lol #hope it helps a lil #if u publish #lemme know!!!!

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acherryghost · 25 days

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thank you thank you to @crunchypecans and @lifemod17 for tagging (sorry it took so long oops)

🍒Last Song:

Siren Song by Mutoid Man

🍒Favorite Color:

for clothes and stuff, it's green bc i like the way it looks on me but usually it's blue or pink

🍒Currently Watching:

i'm watching both the sopranos and jjba at the same time, which is certainly an undertaking. i need to be constantly separating the two in my head because they have such detailed plots that im risking mixing them up. which seems like it would be obvious that tony soprano doesn't shoot lasers from his eyes, but sometimes i get confused

🍒Sweet/Savory/Spicy:

honestly depends on my mood and how hungry i am. if i have not eaten the idea of anything sugary or sweet makes me wanna gag but if im not hungry than i could eat candy all day long

🍒Relationship Status:

TAKEN!!!!! i srsly love my bf so much, he's not on this hellsite (bless him) but he's the best and i appreciate him so much

🍒Current obsession:

if my icon change didn't make it obvious i'm into jojo's bizarre adventure right now, but also ghost and sleep token

i'm also switching schools and majors so that has also been taking up all of my attention on top of normal school

🍒Last thing you googled:

how to spell "ribbit" 😭

tags: there's no pressure to do this, and i have not been paying attention so idk who's done it already so i apologize if you have <3

@blue-979 @branches-in-a-flood @sleepiesttoken

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marsgod · 2 years

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Can I get a Teacher reader and Sam platonic headcanons where just they talk crap about the Headmage and the rest of the staff? And just teacher!reader complaining about the students too. (For example: Leona always slacking in class, Grim always lighting the closest flammable object to him on fire, Fights between Diasomnia and Savanaclaw students)

hehe omg i love this<3

| Info you need!

Sam x Teacher! Reader

Warnings; Platonic relationship, Gn! Reader, cussing

Lets’s be completely honest, we pity all the teachers that work at the school or for Crowley, the students make life hell

Same is no exception, and offers his sincerest apologies whenever any of you come into his shop fully prepared to fistfight someone over coffer, tea, energy drinks, anything that’ll make you guys feel something again

He’ll offer small discounts/snacks to you specifically because he can see your soul leaving you every time you see the students getting into one thing or another

Sometimes his ‘friends’ try and mess with you/your shadow but they’re probably just playing

He likes talking drama, especially about Crowley and the students that come by so he’ll let you stay during hours so when a student leaves you can spill whatever you know about them or just rant

Like Deuce’s weird thing with cauldrons, Trein keeps letting Lucius into Crowley’s office so everything has cat fur on it, Crewel tripped down the stairs and thought no one saw(You and Idia saw)

Sam is fully amused, and brings up multiple weird customer stories of people just being dumb, somewhat to amuse both of you and somewhat to comfort you

Tbh he’s more interested to know who hates who, just so he can fuck with them

”You and Floyd look like such good friends” to Riddle, “Malleus and yourself look as if you’d gotten into a scuffle.. You two usually get along well, I’m sure you’ll handle it!” at Leona

You get an extra (little) discount bc you have to deal with so much shit, he’s honestly surprised(and grateful) you kept working there, considering the pay is god awful

he looks forward to your visits, and gets whiney if you don’t (“You forgot about meeee! And here I was, thinking we were best friends!”)

He will encourage you to take a break, or take you out for drinks, alcoholic or not, whichever one comes first

if you ever invite him over, congrats! you just gained a roomie, he’s awful at cleaning but at least he’s funny and charismatic, and will try to help where he can!

srsly have you seen his shop? you can’t find anything in there

“So then Ace seriously thought it was a great idea to hold Grim, the fire cat, like this and,” You were interrupted by a ring at the front of the shop, you peeked over to see who it was

Yuu and Grim stepped out in front of you and Sam, “Hello, Welcome to my humble shop! What would you care for? We got-“

“We need some tuna!” Sam huffed, muttering about how rude people were before giving up and looking at Yuu. Yuu only nodded, “.. Three cans please, Grim won’t shut up so we’re compromising.” That was all Sam needed before going into the back.

You held back a snort, completely understandable, there was no rest with any of the first years. Sam came back with the tuna and ringed them up, they ushered out quickly, not wanting to be in the creepy shop.

“So? Held Grim like this?” Sam made a dramatic movement, and you only smiled before shaking your head,

“No, no, no, like this!”

#twst sam #twisted wonderland #{..no identity found..}#{..🌸writing🌸..}#gn!reader #platonic relationships

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lemonhemlock · 9 months

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was tagged by @queenhelaenatargaryen - so sorry it took me ages to complete !!! but thanks for including me! 🎈

rules: bold the ones that are true and tag 15 people to do it.

APPEARANCE

i’m over 5’5” * // i wear glasses/contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i typically wear make-up // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how i look // i prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backwards

*i do not understand imperial. i'm 170 cm for the love of god

HOBBIES AND TALENTS

i play a sport // i can play an instrument // i am artistic // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing * // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand

*i guess? unsure!!!

RELATIONSHIP

i am in a relationship // i have been single for over a year // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online

AESTHETICS:

i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sun rise (1) // i enjoy rainy days (2) // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me (3) // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colours // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season (4)

(1) countless times these past months!!! it's not fun lemme tell you (4) fuck no they always started chirping when i wanted to go to sleep & couldn't close the window bc it was too hot. srsly in my bird hate era (2) i mean yeah but only if i don't have to go outside. like. they're cool from a distance. watching. (4) kind of?? i love all except summer. hate the heat.

MISCELLANEOUS:

i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least three dogs

i'm not tagging anyone this time bc it's been too long & i don't remember who already did this or not

#lemonposting #tag games

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dballzposting · 2 years

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Would love to know your opinions on the key differences between vegito and gogeta

OMG!!! You know this is such a coincidence becasue I've been thinking about Gogeta a lot lately (in the context of Gotenks dragging him to the skatepark)

I've made a post like this once before actually but I'll explain it better here ... SRSLY why did you send this how did you KNOW .. thank you SO MUCH for this opportunity

Essentially it goes like this.

Vegito is like, well it depends on the dub or sub.

In the sub hes more witty, wry, tactful, classy, artful, etc; in the dub hes notably more brash and tactless, brusque, blunt, etc. Either way he listens to "Gay Bar" by Electric Six.

Either way hes for sure conceited. On the show and in the heat of battle you'll see him be very serious, but the rest of the time he just doesnt care about what you care about and ughhhhh I think he can be soo shallow . Omg now is not the time to delineate all of these details. To compare him to Gogeta: Vegito is more BEAUTIFUL, and CLASSY, and almost FAKE, and he has gravity in a way that's more cartoonish and comedic and deliberate (He'll say something dramatic and then fly off into the sunset) whereas Gogeta honestly has authority. Vegito LOVES being alive and being himself, while Gogeta is impatient looking at his watch.

Without a battle, Vegito is just living life deliciously and heedlessly. Without a battle, Gogeta is just sighing but properly dealing with the mundanities of life because he knows that as long as his two feet are on Earth's surface, he has to care about it.

Vegito is a prettyboy showman who will lift his wife (either/or) into his arms and glide around the room with her and play the romantic. He'll flatter you with his silly little poetic words. He'll pat the kids on the head. Then he'll fly off into the sunset. He's like Narcissus and his pond and he honestly doesnt have time for you - hes much more important.

Gogeta will cross his arms and listen to his wives speak and then do whatever they're asking of him, he'll take the kids to the skate park, hes more pragmatic, he's not depressed or miserable but he certainly isnt drunk on life either. Hes goddamn trustworthy is what he is. Also hes like Squidward . And he never lies

OMG can I ramble for a moment. See Gogeta is just more gruff. His arms are crossed but that doesnt mean hes in a bad mood or is judgmental; that's just how he stands . He doesnt cast around cheap judgements becasue he has more respect for both you and himself to do that. He has two wives to answer to and it shows. (Whereas Vegito crosses his arms becasue he looks good and feels confident and cool. And he doesnt answer to anybody but himself.)

Honestly when he and Gotenks go to the halfpipe sometimes it has the energy of like .. a dad who has two ex-wives and kids by both and one wife has full custody of the kid and he has visiting rights with the other kid, and that kid is very energetic and egotistical and he Makes his dad go to the halfpipe with him so he can show him his cool stunts. He doesnt need his approval or anything he just wants to hang out and show off. And Gogeta goes along bc literally what else is he going to do ... hes like a single father who pays two alimonies and only sees one of his kids sometimes . Wtf else is he gonna do

I want him to meet a milf at the halfpipe sooo bad and have awkward 40-yr-old-single-parent conversations. BUT IM GETTING SO SIDETRACKED.

That's just what it feels like somtimes but that's OBVIOUSLY not what it is. What it is is that Gogeta is only extant for 30 minutes at a time and very rarely so when he does show up with a boombox blaring "Informer" by Snow you shut up and listen. You get intimidated. You inch to the other side of the skatepark or you stop and watch.

Of course Gogeta isnt like totally thrilled to be there or anything. Hes very reserved and sort of bored. He sits on the boombox with his chin in his hand and watches Gotenks do his stupid stunts and just looks at his watch every now and then. He'll skate if Gotenks brings him a board but Gogeta isnt gonna bring a board of his own bc he doesnt care ... but if Gotenks pulls out a capsule and clicks it and a skateboard pops out then like Yeah he'll skate. Whatever

THANK YOU FOR ASKING!!!!!!

#dballz posting #dballz asks

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daughteroftheunspeakable · 1 year

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arthur i think you are very cool and i remember when you followed back being like YOOO and im always happy to see you on the dash/in my notifs i think you bring such a good vibe to everything and despite the fact that i am only being a very surface level enjoyer of resident evil i really enjoy your posts on it and passion about it 🫶🫶

WAUGH thamnk you so much this is so sweet...im srsly like so grateful that ppl enjoy my re8 postings and that my mutuals who dont know anything abt it still pay attention to it bc they know i like it and waughhjhh <3 i love u guys!!!!

#ask #my mutuals

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tojikai · 2 years

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Hey kai

How are you?????

Hope ur doing good

Me currently I'm depressed

As I've told u b4 the exam that I'll be giving on 17th of this month is a really big exam, it'll determine my future, but this year the system was soooo unjust. Usually for exam we get proper 12 months bcs in this exam 11th and 12th grade physics chem and biology come combined and the question paper has a total of 200 questions out of which we have to answer 180 to score full marks (720) in 3 hrs.

U see bcs of corona, unlike other countries, our schooling went downhill

And me being so unlucky, i was in the unluckiest school batches of all, the batch of 2021😭

12th finals got canceled, schooling was also not done properly (and in our country 10th, 12th and then entrance exams literally decide our career)

So, for this entrance exam, most people of my batch from the whole country took a drop (we also gave the entrance exam the same year we 'passed' 12th but since we lacked even the basic knowledge bcs srsly no classes were taken properly during online school, it went really bad)

Now there is, or should i say WAS, an age limit of 25 for general catagory (like its complicated here, there's general catagory which get no benefit and then like sc and st and ews which are protected tribes and castes who dont even have taxes to pay and are literally immune to everything, plus their cutoff for exam is also low AND THEY ALSO HAVE 80% RESERVED SEATS IN ALL COLLEGES....I'm general🥲)

But this year even that was removed(age limit)....so now anyone can give exam...and lets say there are only 10000 seats for us(generals, which btw the others can also get, the 10k seats are just unreserved seats but since their cuttoff is low they can get the seat there....lol) in this exam right? There are 180000+ candidates this year...🥲

U see how unlucky I am?

Now the exam due to corona last year had late counseling rounds which lasted up to april of this year (it decides which college we get) and we gave exam on september, which was also bcs of corona hence late exam

Then....this month we have our exam which barely gave us 9 months to prepare all over again.....we begged the exam conducting body to postpone...they didn't....and if u see the situation the country is in rn (like there are literal floods, landslides and everything going on rn in 24/29 states here) they still wont postpone.....

Idk if u read this

In short I'm very depressed

Students even filed a case in HC but they just ridiculed us and the case was dismissed within 1hr........

Btw i love ur stories 🥲🙂💕

Stay safe and hydrated 👋

I'll be back reading ur stuff after julys over i gues.....bcs I'll be sulking in my room till the 30th....

Bye2🥲👋

hiii, im doing good thank you so much !! but hey, im sorry about that situation. like.. that's unfair for the learners. every aspect of it; the quality of education, the allocation of slots and the time to prepare is a bit unfair to you guys. i mean with the way the education system is going right now, the students made a lot of adjustments for the new methods of the government and different educational institutions, i think it's only fair for them to adjust these factors related to the exams too. that's really sad, cause students are always on the receiving end of the problems, may it be about an issue with the allotted time to review or the slots to be given, students always get the shorter end of the stick bc those in position refuse to adjust :(( im not really familiar with how your education system works but i get why you feel so down. things concerning our future can cause great stress bc it feels like everything depends on it and it probably does, but it's gonna be fine, you're gonna be fine, nonnie !! i hope you feel better soon and i wish you luck on everything !! <33

#🍭—kaitalks

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wildernessuntothemselves · 2 years

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first of all THANK YOUUU~ to 🌶 anon

i am so flattered other ppl read my LONG ASS ask,,,, i hope you enjoyed it~

i took some time to rest (aka i fueled my introverted battery and baked a cake,,, gave it away (dont ask, i felt like baking), showered, watched some tv, ordered pizza and am now chillin on my couch hehe) and now i feel very talk active sooo here i am ONCE AGAIN

AND @shanice-1104 U ARE SO RIGHT

ITS ME,,,,IM THE SIMP (intelligent people are just so😫),, I AM INDEED OPEN FOR A SUGGAR- I MEAN FOR A DOCTOR TO PAY FOR MY NEEDS 😁😁😁😁😁

YALL SEE THEM CALLING ME DEAR AND BABE‼️‼️‼️ AND TELLING ME I SHOULD REST‼️‼️AND HOW THEY LOVE MY IDEAS‼️‼️‼️‼️ THE PRAISEEEE THE PRAISEE

anyone wanna be my yamqn!beomgyu but without the yandere 💗🥹🤌🏻

and what is a turn off…

like i said i am one kinky bitch… which actually literally no one i know personally knows😭

but i have some no gos and also some unpop opinions aaand this is the perf opportunity to just talk abt them i think its fun

so one thing i find rlly off putting is ddbg😟

or age play.. it makes me a little uncomfortable cause sometimes it feels like they’re sexualizing things that should be kept innocent and not be smth that has to do with … well sex, in my opinion and also THAT LACTATION THING BC ITS THERE TO FEED BABYS (with women) AND THATS WEIRD ON ITS OWN SO WHY WOULD U LIKE IT FOR MEN ????

and i know many people like roleplay but ill be honest, i never get the appeal of it, it kind of just puts me OUT of the mood immediately when i read it in fics or someone mentions it..

and exhibitionism, i do not understand the appeal of doing it in public for example, i can see why the ✨forbidden✨ aspect might be fun but in general i do not like the idea of random people seeing smth so intimidate and i also always feel bad for people who maybe notice it 💀

what i do find interesting and fun..

is somnophilia… and the thing is its kind of risky and a lot of people dislike it

but i think with the right circumstances it can be so nice?!

first of all having a partner you trust and have talked it through with completely! all the limits and what you do like/want

and then i saw this idea of having little necklaces, since it could take away some of the fun of having to personally ask your partner the night of, if they consent.. bc it could take away the suprise for example,, but generalizing and saying its always okey isnt great either… bc maybe ur in a bad mood or had a shit day and dont feel like it at all… so those necklaces could be customized to say yes or no or smth and indicate if the partner consents to it on that night or not

i think that just makes it a little safer for misunderstandings NOT to happen!

what i like abt it is the idea of waking up to your partner pleasuring you, or think your partner is so needy at night but they dont wanna disturb you so it just opens a lot of possibilities and i think its fun and maybe exciting which is what kinks are supossed to be i believe!

and what i RLLY like is marking up my partner i srsly love it (an obsession of mine here we go-)

i dont like it in the childisch way of having an obvious hickey on your neck and then flaunting it at school like youre THE DUDE… it feels a bit immature tbh

i love it in the way of (and i have written this a bit ago, explaining to my ex why i like it so much)

“i dont want others to see, i just wanna look at my work at the end of the night, making a mental image and the next time they look in the mirror they’ll be reminded of what we did”

which is also why i have a soft spot for thighs, hands or wrists, collarbones, lower bellys, backs and chests/boobs… theyre my fav places to mark up and i just love the idea of cuddling with my partner, counting all the hickeys or bite marks i left and recalling memories, the idea of them knowing i “own” them in the sense of theyre mine and mine only to ✨see✨ (although in general im not rlly possessive and don’t get jealous easily) so i can even bite their thigh for example and im the only one who’ll know (like our lil secret) or maybe leaving a cute lil hickey on their wrist and next time i play with their hands fingers i can see my mark- oftentimes when i find someone insanely attractive and their collarbones and neck show (in a photo (maybe a nude- for example) the idea of me being able to ruin or corrupt the beautiful sight with bitemarks makes my heart go 💗💗💗 and me in general 🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵

yeah i def got carried away AGAIN. i even wrote this in my notes so i wont get distracted and delete everything… and now i have completely exposed myself, everyone be careful i might bite ;)

-❄️ (feelin a bit spicy today now are we)

that sounds restorative. glad to hear about it ❤️ but i can't imagine going through the effort to bake or cook something just for someone else like that could never be me. i too need a yamqn gyu which is probably why i prefer him to tyun lmao

and omg y'all are blinded by the doctor title. i don't have shit to my name. my 5 years younger brother makes around three times my salary lol you only make good money out of being a doctor in america i swear

i totally get the ddbg and age play thing. like i get it the appeal to some extent like being taken care of and spoiled (is that the appeal? idk) but i just find it icky when the "baby" character can't speak or they have very obviously child-like mannerisms. it grosses me out. i've seen more than a couple fics of that type around felix lmao

and yeah lactation both ways freak me out but especially on males. i don't remember if i've written female lactation for iyym or not but if i have it was only to increase the crazy factor of felix (says I who writes noncon scenes)

roleplay is tricky because in real life i don't think i could ever take it seriously and in fics it wouldn't be roleplay it would just be the characters being the actual roles like teacher/student etc. but maybe if i tried it in real life i'd like it? idk i think i'd just laugh

oh man exhibitionism is definitely a kink that only belongs to the fics for me. i may have done a couple of things in public before but that wasn't because i was into it. i just didn't have a place to do it lmao. but getting caught is THE WORST (which i did like 3 times lmao)

somnophilia (with consent if it's in real life) is such a good concept. it's like the feeling you get when you wake up from a wet dream but better lol. but it does have it's drawbacks like morning breath and maybe having sweated through the night 😂

yesss the necklaces are also sooo good for the free use kink. like if you put the necklace on, it lets your partner know that they can just grab you and fuck your brains out whenever they want

for marks i like it for both ways honestly. the sweet one you mentioned and the "mine" aspect but the mine aspect is only for the fics again. i'd never intentionally mark my partner for the world to see that would be mortifying lmao (i did it once accidentally and it really was mortifying :'D)

#loved this little chat #so fun #mort talks #❄️ anon

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snonkerdoodledreams · 9 months

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although tbh I feel like a freak bc I don't have a romantic partner. Like. Everybody around me has rizz and social confidence to find someone they're close to and love...and I fuckin don't. I could blame it all on having a dysfunctional family and trauma and all that but the truth is that I have nobody but myself to blame. I feel like if I didn't see what other ppl have I'd feel better...so I wasn't reminded of what I. Don't. Have.

like...HOW? how the HELL did you find someone so fucking...genuine?!?! Loves you? Cares for you? All I want is to know that someone knows me inside and out but do you know how fucking scary that is?!

I feel like a freak. I want to die. I am such an abnormal piece of shit that I can't even find someone who loves me. I don't think I experience a lot of sexual attraction towards anybody but my celeb crushes. Maybe a girlfriend if I had one. Theoretically, I would want sex. But practically?

I don't know. The thought of a random person touching me makes my stomach turn. The thought of, realistically, even a favorite rockstar having sex with me makes my stomach turn (a little less, but I still feel scared)...don't take me srsly on this, guys. After all. What the fuck am I talking about? I'm a virgin...haha...

But back to the point...how do I find someone that I can love? Nobody. Fucking. Knows. Me. The only friends I have are from school but they all have different sets of friends...my mother would never let me have a bf and gf would prolly get me shunned by her (would she go so far to kick me out? Idk)

I don't have ppls number other than friends and if I do, they see me as a fuckin nerd who acts weird sometimes (comes out of shell. I'm a fuckin weird person.) Too scared to talk to anyone...see.

Other people have like. Social circles that they can talk to. They're the kind of people who, well, talk to others outside of a school setting. They talk on weekends maybe. Text a little. Relationship blossoms. They just. Hang out with other ppl outside of a professional environment.

And I don't. God forbid, heaven fucking forbid I ever do that...I just...don't?? I don't get ppl. I don't mesh with society. I don't know the latest gen z slang or TikTok trend or whatever. Don't know what they're talking about bc I don't pay attention to the stuff they're obsessed with. I don't get when ppl are being sarcastic sometimes...my jokes go over sideways most of the time. Even when I'm talking with my best friend we just talk about memes funny stuff or just rant. Not rlly that deep...I feel like I have different personalities depending on who I'm interacting with (DIFFERENT SIDES OF MYSELF. I ACT DIFFERENT I THINK DIFFERENT BUT IM STILL MYSELF ITS NOT DID I SWEAR). So it's impossible for anyone to get to know me. I'm the idiot who doesn't know what she's doing...one of my friends knows she can tell me anything and she has struggled with being left out a lot...and she told me about how she recently got included at something and it made her feel so great.

Am i overanalyzing things? Or have I really been floating on my own cloud for so long that I think being this way is normal? I don't think it is normal to feel the way I do...BUT I CANT FUCKING EXPLAIN WHAT I FEEL, I DONT HAVE THE FUCKING WORDS!!! And my fucking therapist will probably say that it's...all in my head? Nothing I need to worry about? Maybe ur just overcomplicating things, it's normal, blah blah blah. Cuz that's what my dad would say if I told him. I DONT HAVE THE WORDS BUT I KNOW I FEEL THIS WAY. JUST. DIFFERENT. NOT FITTING IN. NOT MESHING. NOT LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE WITH FUKING NORMAL LIVES

I feel so different and I don't know who I am. Other ppl my literal fucking age have this shit figured out (I think) and start knowing other ppl. Loving them. Knowing the other person very well. Well enough to love them. Well enough to even have sex. Why can't I do that?

Oh. I know. I'm different. A freak. A leech who wants to mooch off love and never give it back. I feel like I take too much and never give back and my therapist says that "you're perfect the way you are" and I'm like "no bitch. NO IM NOT. IM A FUCKING FREAK THATS DIFFERENT FROM THE REST OF FUCKING SOCIETY." (I feel like a mental case sometimes...bc I am dysfunctional human in fact that I don't do anything normally and have fucking madd, my paraself is better than me...)

Whenever I talk about having trauma and everything, I feel like a faker. Like I'm over exaggerating for clout and bc I did that, everyone believes me and when I say it feels like clout chasing, they say it's not. Everyone means my therapist and y'all. Clout means sympathy etc. I feel like a paraself who was more abused than I was is the one talking. I feel like a paraself, not my true self, whenever I talk about shit like this and tell myself "maybe you DO have that." I just. Feel fake.

tl;Dr: rant about not having romantic partner, wondering how everyone else does it, ranting that idk how to interact with ppl and I can't do it, that I'm different, feeling fake.

#tw #dysfunctional family #mental health #maladaptive daydreaming #romance #no partner #sexuality #idk #im lost #im different #feel like a leech #freak #self negativity

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sugarcherriess · 2 years

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im crying this is so cute

also i have very real romantic feelings for sunwoo he is so breathtaking . srsly the only man i'll ever be in love with

anyways guess who's basically dead . ok maybe im being a little dramatic But i started working two days ago even tho its not rlly an actual job bc ,, i dont get paid at all n i have to do it or i cant graduate . god i love my country's school system /s . anyways as someone who has never worked a day in their life its definitely an experience , i already had back problems but now im fr turning into an old man it hurts so much 😭😭 i hope its not a problem if i complain so much if it is just ignore this i dont want to be annoying 🫶🏻 -🦦

This is saur bad for my health also i will go cry in the corner about sunwoo wtf 😡+😭=whatever this pair makes

NOT THE BACK PROBLEMS??? IS THAT LIKE A SHARED EXPERIENCE???? My back is so useless i cant go five whole minutes sitting in one place or else i start feeling like i will cry and throw up because of the pain😍 yay so glad we can bond over issues that should never exist 😍 you know since our bodies evolved for better survival rates 😍 USELESS BONES USELESS MEAT

Anyway i hope it goes well my friend! Yes i also adore when education institutions make you work for things to waste your energy and not pay you for for them in any way😍😍😍😍😍❤️❤️❤️❤️

#˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Adonis Speaks #˚₊·➴ My Lovely 🦦

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ayakamiyuiii · 2 years

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I was wondering if you aren't busy could you make a part 3 of kenma x freaderr.

No pressure though

YEAH OFC, i'm rlly sorry for the wait 😭 lowkey got unmotivated to finish it bcs i srsly didn't think people liked it and it's kinda.. just me writing whatever the hells on my mind ☠️ UM SO YEAH - here's ya part 3 <333 - 3/4 ( ?? ). | i am so fucking sorry if this doesn't make any sense 😭😭🙏 ══════════════════════════════════════════════════ "So um, what did you get?" he says leaning against the doorframe - "OH, yeah just some clothes and just y'know the groceries" he nods at your answer "Do you wanna go anywhere um, together?" You turned up your head as a little gasp left your mouth, a little startled at his question, "yeah, i'd love too kenma" "Okay uh.. well um be ready by 7, yeah?" "okay" you say smiling at him. You finished most house chores so you went to see what you could wear, You were most curious to where he was gonna take you And you didn't want to overdress if it was going to be a simple occasion, You texted him asking, "You: is it a formal occasion or just casual?" "ken <3: You can wear anything you're comfortable in, but it's supposed to be formal :)" "Oo okay thanks kenmaa :))" You were glad you did go shopping for clothes then, You made the perfect outfit. Standing in front of the mirror admiring yourself and the clothes you bought. 6:50 - You came out of the guest room and went into the kitchen to get yourself a glass of water, But you couldn't stop thinking about where you two were gonna go, before you drifted deeper into your thoughts you got a notification from your phone, it was from kenma, "ken <3: You might wanna uh.. pack some spare clothes too." confused, You replied saying alright anyways so you quickly go stash some casual clothes into a bag, Now you were really really confused - nonetheless, you go wait for kenma who seems to be waiting for you, God he was so pretty you thought to yourself, This was that one time in a millennia he was dressed up so much, you couldn't help but just stare at him, mouth agape and bright red cheeks, you snapped out of your gaze "you.. look pretty :)" You whisper to kenma, causing his ears to perk up at the sudden compliment, smiling back at you "You too y/n, Are you ready to go now?" You nodded, noticing he also had a bag you assumed it probably had his nintendo, chargers and what not. It was then when you both arrived at a really pretty looking restaurant, You looked at kenma knowing his social skills weren't the best and for him to pick such a place was.. just not like him? "Kenma, we don't have to like i kno-" he hushed you "No, i- i don't mind." he says smiling at you, you nod not wanting to ruin the current mood. You couldn't help but smile at him, he just looks so pretty what you didn't know was that kenma himself was admiring you. "Have you decided on what you'd like to eat?" "Yeah, and have you?" "mhm.. i want some Niku Udon, and you?" "Ah, Just Sukiyaki~" "okay :)" So then he went and ordered your food and came back shortly after with a bottle of wine. "Ah, they said it'll take up to 10 minutes" he said while pouring the wine into the both of your glasses, he then sits back into his own chair. "So how have things been for your channel and stuff?" you say playing with your bracelet "it's going well, um.. they miss seeing you though.. i do too" he says the last bit in a mumbled form, "aw really? that's cute!" - you guys talked for a bit then your food arrived, you giggled at something he said. God he missed your face so much, "earth to kenmaaa" he blinked, "Ah.. sorry, yeah what is it?" "it's nothing it's nothing - But your food is getting cold!" "oh, mhm." You both continued eating, you never noticed but he stole a few glances from you, You look so cute when your eating. He's definitely gonna try make this night memorable. After you were both done eating he told you to go wait in the car while he payed for the food to which you said you can pay for, But of course he said he'll do it. "Kenma where are we going now?" you hum will turning the volume of the radio a bit up, "The Arcade you really like :)" He says, He notices the way your eyes lit up when he said that and smiles to himself. Once you both got there, you saw a huge hello kitty plush sitting on the shelf, Kenma swears your eyes turned into literal sparkles when you saw it, so then he's gonna try get that for you. Tonights all about you, that's what he told himself back at home. You told him he doesn't need to get anything for you, But what did he say? "i still wanna try for you" ♡?? he ended basically winning half of the arcade for you. "God that was so fun kenma, Thank you!" you say kissing his cheek, to that he starts blushing uncontrollably, "N-no problem- i- it's nothing, glad you're happy :)". He then proceeded to take you through the McDonald's drive thru for ice cream, he even asked they to add 2 chocolate flakes for you :))<33 you can't help but smile like an idiot at some of his gestures. Kenma drove to an empty parking lot and turned on the playlist you made for him on your guys's 3rd anniversary, You couldn't help but blush and grin even more, you both sat in silence admiring the scenery and each others presence, Even though you were still upset about the incident at least he's making up for it, thats all that matters to you right now, besides he's done so much for you tonight has he not??. "I love you." You say as you look straight at him, Noticing his face go red, "I love you to y/n." he says looking back at you and smiling, It didn't take long before you cupped his face and kissed him, "I- i missed you.." to which he only grins and responds by kissing you even more, "Missed you too.." he whispers in your ear. ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

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iamanartichoke · 3 years

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[please blacklist spoiler tags: #loki tv series spoilers, #loki series spoilers, #loki spoilers]

I need to talk about the Avengers.

I just want to express how much I hate that the Avengers aren’t on the hook for all their time travel nonsense bc they were “supposed to” do it and Loki is on the hook bc he wasn’t.

I mean, I am glad that they addressed it right away - that Loki was inadvertantly caught up in the Avengers' time meddling, and that apparently they were doing what they were supposed to and that's why none of them were on trial, but - there are two things going on here that I have issue with. One is, of course, the scapegoating of Loki once a-fucking-gain, but the other is that there's a legitimate problem inherent in framing the Avengers' deeds as The Right Thing So There Are No Consequences, especially because it directly leads to Loki (and only Loki) being scapegoated since, apparently, someone's got to answer for all of this.

Why Were The Avengers Supposed to Undo the Snap??

Of all the possible options they could have gone with (such as reversing time back to just before the Snap happened), going back through time to gather the stones and use them to undo things five years later is, like, one of the worst?? Best case scenario, it implies that the TVA is ridiculously incompetent in managing the sacred timeline and worst case scenario, it implies that the TVA is ridiculously adept in managing the sacred timeline, if their goal is to have it be the worst possible timeline anyone could end up in.

The Avengers may have done an arguably good thing in undoing the Snap - I don't disagree that those people should've lived - but they also royally fucked over a lot of things in the process and left Earth (and presumably many many other worlds) in total post-Snap chaos while fucking off to die be with their families and/or start new lives.

This goes back to the plan itself. One of my many issues with Endgame is that not only is the plan convoluted and, frankly, stupid, but also I have a real problem with the concept of the Avengers just saving the world as they see fit, regardless of whether or not that's actually the best thing to do. (If the Russos hadn't done such a shit job with explaining what the Accords were actually supposed to do, then maybe this could have been addressed somehow - like, okay, together we may have the brains and resources to carry off this plan but does that mean we're the ultimate authority on whether or not we should? Maybe we should check with, like, the UN or something about this? [and it’s entirely possible the UN was mentioned and I have forgotten it bc I’ll be honest, I watched Endgame once and have bitched about it ever since.] I digress.)

The narrative in Endgame and into the MCU beyond plays like the Avengers only care about saving the world when they stand to personally gain from it (they want their friends and family back, they want to feel like they didn't fail, they have unilaterally decided that what they want is the Best Thing for everyone) and once the Good Deed is done and the smoke clears from the battlefield, there's no concern with saving the mess of the world they created.

TFatWS addressed so many of the problems with the post-reverse-Snap, which implies that the MCU (both in-universe and out) is aware that things are fucked up now. People's lives were literally ruined by what the Avengers did. Refugees are displaced. Humans are coming back to a world where they've been dead for five years and their loved ones have moved on and their homes have been sold and their bank accounts have been closed and they have no jobs. And that’s just on Earth. Yet no one (again, both in-universe and out) feels the need to hold the Avengers accountable for any of this.

Plus, what about the people who died as a result of the Snap but not from the Snap directly? What about the planes that fell from the sky when the pilots turned to dust? The cars that crashed and collided when the drivers poofed? Etc. Like, fuck all of those people I guess?

And who, exactly, is "supposed to" clean up the Avengers' mess now that the actual Avengers are either dead, old and living on the moon, or retired? Is it on Sam's shoulders alone (or, rather, Sam and Bucky's)? Is Peter Parker (yknow, the 15 year old Nick Fury went and recruited bc there was no one else) supposed to be fixing things?

The TVA takes responsibility for none of this. They sit back in their nightmare DMV-esque office and claim that all is as it should be but my question remains: please explain to me how the outcome of the post-Snap universe is ultimately satisfactory to anyone besides the Avengers?

There's also the fact that Loki figures out right away that the Avengers were engaging in some time travel shenanigans ("the cologne of two Tony Starks is hard to miss” lmfao Loki you snarky shit). Loki recognizes that there's been an opportunity created of which he can take advantage, but he isn't responsible for creating it. The Avengers messed up and created that opportunity so, even if they were supposed to be doing what they were doing, there are still no consequences for the fact that they made a mistake that allowed Loki to then branch off and create a new timeline.

Let's also say that we accept that the Avengers were supposed to undo the Snap exactly as they did. Okay, sure. BUT:

- Was Steve, then, also supposed to decide to fuck back off to the 1940s and marry Peggy (which created two Steves, right? The one who was married to Peggy all along and the one who was in the ice?? The TVA is just okay with two Steves?)?

- What is the actual point of Stephen Strange having the time stone and using the time stone both to gain the advantage over Darmammushumuuyourmom (I’m sorry, I can’t remember his real name) and to look at all the possible timelines to figure out how to defeat Thanos?

- How is it possible that there are 14 million potential timelines in which the Avengers failed if the TVA’s entire thing is that there can only be one true ring timeline to rule them all? The fact that Stephen can look ahead and determine so many outcomes based on the choices they're making would mean that people do have free will and that their actions aren't automatically dictated by what's “supposed to” happen. They had to make the right choices in order to get to the one timeline in which Thanos failed.

- What’s the point of Stephen having to protect the time stone, anyway, if there are presumably a few others in Casey’s drawer?

- On that note, if there are a lot of infinity stones hanging around in the TVA’s desk drawers, what makes the original six the specific, correct ones that Thanos had to collect in order to pull off the Snap and why is it then those specific six the ones that the Avengers had permission to go back through time to get in order to undo the Snap as the Timekeepers intended?

- And actually, in fact, if there’s only one sacred timeline and anyone who fucks it up without permission gets “reset” (aka made nonexistent, along with their timeline branch) then, again, why does Stephen have to protect the time stone? Either anyone who steals it was supposed to, or their timeline gets eliminated and the theft ceases to matter.

- Less significant but also still kinda significant is how Agents of SHIELD figures into all of this. The TVA knows that Loki killed Coulson but they don't know (or don't care?) that Coulson was brought back to life and proceeded, with his team, to go on and get heavily involved in time travel and going back and forth and bringing people from the past into the present? So the TVA is okay with Daniel Sousa leaving his timeline but not with Loki leaving his?

... I have literally confused myself with all of this, so if anyone followed my train of thought here, congratulations and maybe you can explain it to me lmao.

But here's my ultimate point: the sacred timeline that the TVA is tasked with maintaining is not sensical or linear. It's full of gaps and holes and people taking matters into their own hands to determine both their own fates and the fates of others. As a result, a lot of people suffer kinda needlessly based on the events in said timeline, and apparently it's perfectly fine for all of this nonsense to occur so that everyone else has some element of control -

- but Loki is literally the only one who is told uh, actually, no, you are supposed to live a shitty life and die a pointless death and there's not a goddamn thing you can do about it bc it's supposed to happen.

What in the actual fuck kind of logic is that???

Thus, either the TVA (and the Timekeepers) are grossly incompetent, or else they're extremely competent and also really fucking shitty beings who just enjoy the needless suffering of others.

And somehow this is all Loki's fault!!

And then Mobius has the fucking audacity to say, to Loki's face, “you only exist to prop up everyone else and you, Loki Odinsonson Laufeyson mischief god and king of space lol, do not have any inherent worth or value as your own person. You were born to be a scapegoat and you will die a scapegoat and there's no getting around that, if we have anything to say about it.”

To quote Loki, in a very twisted way - yes, it's funny. It's absurd.

Does, uh, does this make sense? At some point I crossed over from meta-writing into straight up ranting and so, well, here we are.

#loki tv series spoilers #loki series spoilers #loki spoilers #loki series: glass half empty #loki series: glass half full #loki pokey artichokey #loki series meta #so. many. tags. ugh #i no longer know what my point was #i'm sorry #so it begins #the rambly nonsensical meta lmao #some of you tell me sometimes that you enjoy my meta and my takes and i just #i love you but srsly who is paying you bc #*waves helplessly at the above word vomit*#loki series negativity #not really negativity so much as criticism (that i think is valid) but yknow fandom #also i recognize all of this as issues that i - if no one else - have a problem with #but i still liked the show????#i am not hating at all #i am just acknowledging that this whole premise is fucked up and i'm not sure if it's supposed to be #or if the writers just don't realize all of the implications in their decisions #to be fair i'm sure that they're working with what they had - ie the original nonsensical endgame events #but is this really the *best* they could do? cause i beg to differ that they were written into this small of a corner #ANYWAY #i gotta go do some actual work now #tag rambles

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thecontumacious · 2 years

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omg hi i just discovered your account and i love your writing???? it gives me so many butterflies

i was wondering if you could write the luxiem boys as house husbands? idkk something about domestic aus are so soft???

House Husband/Domestic Luxiem

a/n: domestic au is top tier yall no cap. i think it's very endearing mostly bcs they're now part of your life and contributing to your living space. here's my apology post after that ike slowburn :D yall were emotionally damaged after that--

also guys, be sure to look out for an announcement post very soon after this post!

Vox Akuma 👹🌹

isn’t he already lol

he def vibes househusband the most

he’s got the cooking skills, he does his chores very diligently

he’d be the most scandalous househusband honestly

he plays into the role a bit too much and uses it to purposely tease you into oblivion

being a househusband and a maid are two different things vox istg 🤦‍♀️

when you come home from work after a long day, he’s got dinner ready for you

and you always come home to a 5 star ten course meal, no matter how many times you tell vox to take it easy on himself

he’ll just lean over to kiss you on the lips as he unties the apron around his waist

“i only want the best for my spouse, what isn’t there i wouldn’t do for you?” he’ll grin, taking your hand and dragging you over to the dinner table

how much do y’all wanna bet he’s tried cooking with JUST his apron ( > _・ )

he’s one cheeky bastard so he’ll spoon feed you when you can

“vox no,” you whine, inching away from the spoon

vox clicks his tongue, “now now, my dear, you’ve had too long of a day to do anything. you need rest so let me do things for you.”

“i can eat by myself you know!!”

he doesn’t care and he’ll keep urging you to take the spoonful

it’s only because he’s hot you humor him¯\_(°‿°)_/¯

“awe was that so hard?” vox smiles mockingly as you pout. then he has the fucking audacity to spoon you another portion, “open wide, dear.”

you would insist every night that you’d wash the dishes and rly you do!

you want to pay vox back for always welcoming you with fancy meals

but again, vox akuma is a very resilient demon so he’s quick to block the sink and push you away easily

“what did i tell you about resting, hm?”

“move your ass over, vox.”

“and who are you to order me around, little one?”

swiftly without much effort, vox picks you up and places you down only when you’re in front of the bathroom

“babeeee just let me do the dishes this once!”

“not happening. come on, you need a bath. i’ll have tea ready for you once you’re done,” vox crosses his arms

srsly why are y’all arguing over who gets to wash the dishes

it’s not even about being reluctant to do it either

he’s going to undress you himself if you were being extra stubborn

not before kissing you senseless ofc <3

“mmph,” you’re interrupted as vox holds you against him

“hey, i love you,” he whispers before kissing you again. “just let me do all the work okay? you’ve worked just as hard so it’s time to take a proper break, my love.”

it’s only then you finally give in and take that bath

and when you get out, your tea (or coffee if you prefer) will be ready by the coffee table in the living room and vox already sat down by the couch waiting for you

“hello, my love. come, sit.”

he always means his lap btw-`д´-

if it had been a particularly bad day for you, vox is nothing but ready with all preparations

food problems are solved since he always cooks only the best and all your favorites

after dinner, he’s going to scoop you into his arms without another word before bathing you himself

at that point, you were just too tired to protest and plus, you loved vox’s gentle hands as he massaged the shampoo into your hair

candles of your favorite scent are lit, the lights down and some gentle music to help you relax

vox will also be whispering sweet nothings to help you release even more tension

“the day is over now, y/n. you’re safe here with me,” he whispers with a smile, brushing back a wet strand hair out of the way as he goes to kiss you

his love language as i’ve mentioned before includes acts of service, so that’s why he insists so much on doing all the housework himself and taking care of you

vox thinks you’ve worked hard enough and since you’ve done your part, it’s only right he does his

at the end of the day, work done for both you and him, he’ll have you cuddle up into his chest as he showers you in more affection

“thank you for working hard today, my dear. rest well. i love you.”

in the morning (especially on weekends), you’ll wake up to breakfast in bed without fail

he’s got all the breakfast foods covered. to fluffy pancakes, the most exquisite bacon and eggs you’ve ever had, fruits of your choice all plated so beautifully

what are you? some kind of monarch???

to vox yes, you are. 💅👑

and even tho this basically becomes a routine for you every week, you never fail to fall for vox more and more

“thank you, baby,” you smile, leaning up to kiss vox

“anything for you, my dear."

other boys utc!

Mysta Rias 🦊🔶

where should i even begin

this man doesn’t even know how to take care of himself sometimes so you were kinda worried at the beginning

and right you were!(ʃᵕ̩̩ ᵕ̩̩)

you’d come home to only half the laundry done (why is this shirt the size of a kid now???), things that shouldn’t be in the dishwasher and a rice cooker that hasn’t even been turned on

idk if y’all has experienced this before but that is the worst texture you could have for rice it’s both rly hard and also mushy

sorry did i ruin rice for ya 🤡

“mysta why do we have a kid sized shirt?”

“huh? wdym?”

“holy fuck is this my work shirt????”

unlike vox, i think y’all would be splitting the duties every week

mysta would do a certain list of tasks and you the same way

on day offs, you had to teach mysta to do things properly this time

yes he may have dyed your white clothes pink and shrunk your favorites the first few times, after that, he knows what he’s doing to the point you trust him with your clothes again

everything else was just about proper practice rly

instead of letting mysta do things on his own the first time, you would always help out after work

examples include helping him wash the dishes, ironing out clothes and sweeping the floors

“why is ironing clothes soo tiring,” he would whine as you handed him the iron back. “can't we just bring our clothes to a laundry place or something?”

“how much do you think that’ll cost us if we routinely come back every few days?”

you’re not tight on money but it’s better to spend it on something else other than laundry

after some time, you trust mysta with the house a lot more

we absolutely can’t forget that mysta likes to impress you when he can

one day after work, you’d be more tired than usual and doing your list of chores was going to be such a hassle

but it was the promise you made with mysta when wanting to share a home together

so imagine the surprise when you suddenly find everything done

the laundry has been done, ironed out and into their proper places, the and sink dishwasher has been cleared out and the floors properly vacuumed

you’d be looking for mysta and only find him passed out on the bed as though he just collapsed

you can’t help but smile, approaching him to brush his hair back and place a kiss on his sleeping face

“thank you, baby,” you’d whisper as he continued to doze off

okay i might’ve said we would trust mysta with chores a little while after sharing a house

but the fact never changes that we will never trust mysta with the kitchen

feels like you need to have a baby (adult??) lock on every single appliance istg⊙︿⊙

so the one house duty you’d never give to mysta is cooking duty, even if you were bad at cooking yourself

it’s mostly up to you how breakfast, lunch and dinner will turn out for the week

this does unfortunately mean that you’d have to wake extra early just to make breakfast for you and mysta before going to work

if you don’t work at home, lunch is probably going to be leftovers from dinner or takeout

or if you didn’t have any, you strictly told mysta to make something he was actually sure he could do like cereal or a sandwich

💀💀

“mysta i don’t want to come home to find the kitchen on fire, the pan burnt or the microwave emanating a suspicious smell okay?”

“oh come on let me make you something already!”

“maybe once you know how to handle hot oil.”

“HEY THAT'S NOT FAIR HOT OIL HURTS LIKE A BITCH”

“so no you can’t make me something unless i’m there to supervise”

for days where you have to come home late, mysta will have a very nice surprise for you

he’s taking out the maid outfit bet

“welcome home, master! here, let me take your things. i have a bath ready and food on the table!”

you panic and look at him, “food?”

he’ll grin, “ofc! come eat first then, master.”

“are those takeout boxes?”

“ANYWAY HERE EAT, ENJOY”

🥡🥡

baths with mysta are a mess because it will most likely end up with the floor being flooded with soap water

“mystaaaa you made the floors all wet!!”

“it’s your fault, y/n! you threw water at me first!”

“you were tickling me!!”

the night usually ends with cuddling while watching a movie, or gaming together if you’re not too tired

and when you collapse into mysta’s lap with the biggest smile on your face, you pull mysta in for a gentle kiss, whispering, “i love you mysta.”

“i love you too,” mysta returns your kiss once more as you shut your eyes, with mysta brushing away at your hair

Luca Kaneshiro 🦮🔆

what counts as a househusband again?

he has money enough to cover an entire staff that can prepare your meals, take care of your clothes and make sure the house is in its best state

but if he were given the choice? he would love to

luca knows how to do chores (albeit sometimes forget he had some) so you trust him enough with the house while you’re gone

luca is the type to insist on doing all the work himself but when you offer to help, he can’t resist

why? because he was admittedly missing you so much

having you by his side while doing the dishes or sort laundry out together was as good as any date this world could offer

no promises that he’s not going to fling bubbles at you or play impromptu dress up during the chores(´～｀ヾ)

“LUCA!”

“HSHAHAHAH YOU LOOK SO CUTE WITH THAT BUBBLE MUSTACHE BABE!”

“SEE HOW YOU LIKE IT THEN!”

“WAIT NO DON'T—“

more time added to do extra chores but luca doesn’t mind so long as you did them together <3

in terms of cooking, you take turns

in the mornings, it’s usually luca since he gets up pretty early

lunches are on you

dinners you usually decide and cook together

also, if you have work outside the house, it’s more than likely that luca will go out of his way to make you a bento with the cutest little designs he can find on pinterest

at first it didn’t turn out well (at least it was tasty), but the more mornings he did it, the better it looked to the point where you’d open your lunch box to see an onigiri shaped like augustus >:D

he’s definitely the type to write you different notes everyday

actually not just handwritten notes, he’s printing pictures of either him, you or augustus being silly

it never fails to make you happy, especially when work was piling up more that day

you never feel embarrassed to eat your cute bentos with your friends, if you could you’d show it off

“bro why do you get to eat rly cute shit??”

you can only smile, spooning more of the delicious food into your mouth

and when you come home, luca is already there waiting for you like the natural golden retriever he is

“hey baby! welcome home!!” he’s running over to you, picking you up and spinning you around like those cliche long distance couples finally meeting at the airport scenes

except of course, you just saw each other this morning(ノ▽〃)

“hi luca,” you grin, leaning down to kiss his nose

“i missed you,” he’ll grin, putting you down as he nuzzles into your neck full of adoration

“i missed you too.”

depending on how late you’ll be working, luca will either wait for you before starting dinner or already have dinner done by the time you get home

speaking of bad days, luca will definitely take initiative to do all the chores himself even if you insisted

“wait isn’t it my turn to do the dishes today?”

luca will then push you back down to the chair, kissing your forehead

“nope, not anymore. i’m doing them for you,” he’ll say. even tho he deep down wants to do chores with u, he understands that you’re very tired and need a break

so what he does is sit you by the counter or on the dining table where he can still be in the same room as you

and he’ll start asking you about your day

but if you don’t want to talk about it, luca will be quick to put some music on and just be silly with it

especially when you’ve had a very irritating day, luca will do his best to make you smile and or laugh

of course he’s gonna rope augustus in if he can

“alright augustus, take care of them for me!”

augustus will growl gently, looking up at him

luca will then lean down to peck your forehead with the most contagious smile, “i’ll be back in a moment, baby!”

and after he’s done, he’s doing baths with you, almost always with you

he loves when he can take care of you and when you take care of him, especially since his love language i headcanon is quality time

“turn around, let me scrub your back.”

“babe, babe, let’s use this bath bomb this time.”

“ooohhh babe babe the shampoo i ordered online just came in today!”

he has so much fun washing your hair and body he’s so fucking sweet 💛💛

and he loves doing skincare with you, doesn’t care if other people judge him for it

“cmere cmere baby,” luca will smile at you, patting his lap

you crawl over and you just nuzzle into his neck, to which he welcomes you with warmth of his own

“i missed you sooo much today,” he whispers, bringing you even closer against him. “hey, you know i love you right?”

“mhm, i love you too, luca.”

“good, good,” he’ll laugh before pressing a kiss to your forehead. “have a good night’s rest, alright?”

“i will, thank you luca,” you mumble before falling asleep pretty easily

referring back to breakfast duty, luca will definitely make you breakfast in bed every single day along with the most hype way of waking one up

“gOOD MORNING HONEY BUN!” he yells, jumping onto the bed next to you

you groan from the grogginess, cracking your eyes just a bit to look at luca before realizing the sun hadn’t even shone, “lucaaa the sun isn’t even up yet…”

“why do we like have to start our day before the sun shows up? come onnn, let’s take a run!”

bless you for those who actually are morning people and take working out seriously

i for one (and many other ppl bet) am interested in none (¬､¬)

so if you are like me, luca will try to understand but he rly wants you to start the day early since he knows waking up early is a good thing for you and so is exercising

luca sighs when you curl back up under the covers, “alright fineee, i’ll give you thirty more minutes, kay? i’ll come back.”

but luca is a huge softie

if you’re not awake by then, he’s more than likely going to kiss you goodbye before leaving for that run anyway

“sigh, you’re lucky you look so cute when you sleep. alright then, sleep well for me, babe. i love you,” he whispers, brushing away bits of your hair and tucking in some of the blankets

Ike Eveland 🖋💙

the sweetest househusband ever

he’s not as chaotic as luca and mysta, and def not as nerve wrecking as vox

he’s easily the person you trust the chores with when you’re gone, but do know he will appreciate you splitting duties with him

cooking isn’t something you worry about either, but again, y’all take turns on who does it everyday

so it’s more than likely that you’ll be making bargains with the benefit of who has to do more chores than the other

“ikeee please??? just let me finish this one season and i’ll do the laundry for the rest of week!”

“y/n, sweetie, i can't stop writing right now. i’m on fire. yes, i know it’s my turn to do the dishes but i rly have to write this down else i’ll forget! okay, fine, how about this. you do it for me now and i’ll do your chores for the rest of week, okay?”

“can we get this?? it’s limited edition! i’ll do the chores for a month!”

slowly becoming businesspeople are we?ᕕ༼⌐■-■༽ᕗ

bcs i do see ike as someone who isn’t fond of chores and would rather do his own interests than them

when you come home, ike will most likely be on the couch reading/writing/working on something

“hey sweetheart, welcome home,” he puts down his things before approaching you with his arms open

when you collapse into them, he’ll kiss your forehead and brush at your hair, swaying back and forth as though you’re dancing

“how was your day today?”

cooking with ike will be a bit more of a challenge since he said he can’t cook anything too complex

he uses your exhaustion as an excuse to just eat out

that little bastard

“hey, you don’t have to cook tonight. let’s order out, yeah?”

it’s not that he doesn’t like home cooked meals, he just doesn’t want to bother himself or you in the kitchen to cook anything

and when you’re very strict about his tendency to do that, he’s going to pout and bargain his way out

“no ike”

“sweetheart pleaseeee?”

you cross your arms, “for the last time, no.”

“i’ll take care of the dishes for the rest of the week~”

“for fuck’s sake, ike, you can’t order burgers every two days! that’s just not healthy!”

ike will just sigh and begrudgingly agree, letting you go into the kitchen anyway

“be a good boy and sit there. don’t order anything, mkay?” you lean down to kiss a very pouty ike

“fine” 🍔 ❌

so yeah, no chance of getting breakfast in bed sorry(T⌓T)

but if you’re also not into cooking

instant noodles 🍜, burgers 🍔 and pizzas🍕 for dayssss

no srsly pls learn how to cook its a survival skill especially if you’re living with someone who can't cook mysta

ngl, vox will actually be worried with the amount of takeout and pizza boxes he finds in your home

he’s going to take initiative to bonk ike on the head for not learning how to cook

BUT

i do think if ike had to cook, he’d make a pretty decent meal! he just doesn’t have the motivation to do it most days

on especially harder days, ike will do the cooking for you this time, despite his preference of eating out

he’s not michelin star chef vox but he knows how to handle a hot kitchen dw

when you come through the door, more sluggish than usual, he’ll pull you in for a long hug and the sweetest kisses on your head

“come here, sweetheart. i’ve made us dinner,” ike will cup your face to look at him and there he is with the softest smile in the world, enough to wash away the stress

ike is a natural romantic i think, so he’ll dim the lights and ignite some candles to make the mood a lot more gentle and a way to calm your anxiety down from your long day

the food he makes he tries to make are more so as comfort food to further ease your mental well-being

ike is more than likely to have already taken a bath but will that stop him from getting in there with you? nope

if you rly asked for it, he’ll get in with you

unlike mysta and luca, you and ike basically cuddle each other in the waters

he’s asking you about your day, massaging your head, scrubbing your back

he won’t know what to do when you accidentally (or was it?) fall asleep on him

“hey, sweetheart, you know you can’t sleep in here. come on, let’s dry up first and we’ll get you to bed okay?”

“mhm,” you groan

he won’t hesitate to carry you back to bed if you’re that tired as well

ike is definitely going to be reading you something if you feel a bit restless and his voice is just- 💙💙

“the end,” ike flips the book over and turns to you, fast asleep with your steady breathing and calm expression. he smiles, placing the book away before snuggling up next to you properly

he takes his time to study your face, for once at peace for today and resting

he plays with your hair a bit, pressing kisses to your face before falling asleep himself

“good night, älskling (darling in swedish!). i’ll see you in the morning.”

Shu Yamino 🔮✨

sorcerer househusband, yes pls✨

just like ike and vox, you can definitely trust shu with the chores

he knows what he’s doing

or if he doesn’t, he learns quickly and would tbh use his sorcery just so he doesn’t have to get up

you are forever grateful for his sorcery skills too~( ˘▾˘~)

but also do keep in mind his powers are limited, so don’t get too dependent on them okay?

he’s the type to want to split the chores with you and will bargain with doing more chores than the other like ike;;

buuuuut shu will not hesitate on taking the offer of doing chores together so you can vibe in the same room especially if you work outside of home and he doesn’t get to see you all the time

and you’d be breaking his heart if you refused

me holding a knife to yer throat: ༽◺_◿༼

“shuu, can you help out with dishes, please?”

and he’ll drop everything he’s doing and rush on over to you, all hands on deck

“what do you need me to do?”

if possible, he’s going to jam out to your favorite songs and generously tire out his vocal cords just because he can

you weren’t rly complaining either since you loved his singing voice anyway <3

“PAPAPARAPAPARAPAPA! NAZO NAZO KAZO E TO ASOBASI MASHOU!”

“TATATARATATARATATA! NAZE NAZE KOKO DE OTO TERU DESHOU?”

where my vocaloid lovers at

didn’t care if u butchered that song, yall are wiggling around in the kitchen after dinner singing your hearts out

shu has some skills in cooking? he could theoretically cook ig

there was the choice to use his sorcery to help him cook but it just didn’t feel satisfying to know you were eating a meal that wasn’t made purely from his hands

so, shu will scrap his sorcery skills whenever possible

which will then result in a curry dinner with unevenly cut potatoes and carrots

but!!

like i said, shu learns pretty quickly, so he’ll get the hang of it pretty soon

before he lived with you, he’d just choose not to cook for himself but he’s proud to say he’s far more decent in the culinary field than mysta

“hm! this is so much better, shu!”

shu blushes slightly, laughing it off, “practice makes perfect i guess!”

why do i have this headcanon where shu will get kinda addicted to cooking?

in the beginning, shu would ask to split cooking duties with you, varying it every week

but the more he cooks, the more he gets carried away and sometimes take over completely

“hey, shu, what do you want for dinner?”

“oh, i already made us some! it’s just waiting in the oven right now.”

you’d continuously scold him for taking over cooking duty again, mostly because it didn’t feel fair you didn’t take part

but his food helps you forgive him lmao

when days are particularly bad and you had informed shu beforehand you’d come home later than usual,

shu is more than ready to make sure you come home to everything prepped and that you didn’t have to strain a single muscle on your body

“welcome home, baby,” shu will greet you as you take off your shoes at the front door. he extends a hand towards you

and though he was not using any of his sorcery, you feel enchanted by him already

you smile tiredly, taking his hand anyway as he guided you to the dining room where your favorite food is, warm and ready to be eaten

your favorite gentle music is in the background

“go ahead, eat first. i have the bath ready for you once you’re done,” shu says in the softest voice known to man?????

bath time! 🛁

at first, shu wanted to give you some alone time to relax in the tub

but as you tugged his hand back, looking up at him with the most undeniable puppy dog eyes 🥺 , he sighs

depending if he’s already taken a bath or not, he could either just sit outside the tub while holding your hand or hop in with you

he’s helping you scrub yourself down

also, you’re leaving the bathroom literally sparkling???

you don’t know what he did to the bath, but you’re not complaining because you felt physically and mentally amazing

“did u put some sort of illegal drug in there? cuz im super sleepy right now…”

shu will just chuckle, guiding you back to bed as he tucked you in

it's not actual drugs i promise( •̀ω•́ )σ

“just rest for me, okay? you had a long day and it’s only right that you sleep it off. you’ve been working so hard lately,” shu whispers, brushing back your hair

you can only hum, too exhausted to protest as you cuddle up into his chest

one final kiss to the lips and he’s wishing you goodnight, “good night, babe. sleep and dream well.”

look, i’d say right now shu would make you breakfast in bed but this man has a terrible sleep schedule so it’s very very likely that he’ll wake up just as late as you

but hey, that means making breakfast together and jamming to more vocaloids~

“DON’T HIDE WHAT YOU WANNA DO COME DA DA DA DI BA DO”

Masterlist!

#luxiem #luxiem x reader #nijisanji en #nijisanjien #luxiem fluff #vox akuma #mysta rias #luca kaneshiro #ike eveland #shu yamino #vox akuma x reader #mysta rias x reader #luca kaneshiro x reader #ike eveland x reader #shu yamino x reader #DON’T HIDE WHAT YOU WANNA DO COME DA DA DA DI BA DO #author chan’s delivery service ?

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aks3raao1 · 3 years

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*throws up hands* Okay, so I am not trying to sound negative or anything here, don't take this offensively—

If we take Nagito's character normally (think Chapter 1 and 2 and 4 to an extent), then he is more focused on getting the evidence first (note the way he taught Hajime, that's exactly his own method in investigation) and figuring out the murderer and THEN figuring out their motives to actually expose them.

Now if he's just plain annoyed, he tends to rush over and just entirely complete the case by himself (Chapter 3) but that's AFTER he gets the evidence to completely box them in. Chapter 3 is a special case since he does know who the murderer is from the beginning due to having detected despair ™.

However in the roleplay, he's likelier to go by method 1 since he's not with the murderer nor does he have fore knowledge of them.

He is more of the guy who will do the field work + manipulate others to do it for him (Kazuichi, Akane and Hajime, I am looking at you) to enable the other person (in the case of the rp, it should logically be Dazai, since the instruction was specifically "help me" and not "solve the case by yourself", so he's likelier to poke and prod at him and the evidence instead of just rambling on about what he thinks. Despite being a fundamentally honest person, he leaves a lot to be thought of by the player by completely saying the random nonsense to help Hajime) reach an epiphany by saying extremely random things to poke and prod at their thoughts by causing them to snap.

While Dazai is someone who prefers to interrogate people and say random nonsense when he's working with a partner (Kunikida hello) he is testing (I am not counting Chuuya here since their relationship is unique and he's the only one who gets Dazai to have a "Fuck this, I will show you the real boss" type of response + the fact that this *is* ADA Dazai and he's testing Nagito here) while solving the case entirely by himself and letting them handle most of the things while covertly manipulating the mastermind's actions so that they fall into his trap and let his partner catch them with him.

So, technically their partnership would work with Nagito handling the on field evidence more while letting Dazai do the talking (we will notice here that if Nagito has a choice he prefers to let others interrogate more than Dazai does) and then trying to actively poke at Dazai to get at what he's thinking while Dazai will do the same since they are both testing each other.

What is likelier to happen is that they are playing mind games with each other while trying to solve the case (+ Nagito can feel despair, hope and talent and Dazai's certainly an interesting person for him ("maybe she was just tired of the world and fell into nebulous despair which she wanted a break from" ~ what Dazai says despite having the hope to find hope while simultaneously being suicidal and having an awful lot of Talent) )

*coughs*

I take no offense to this bc I know I'm terrible with Nagito's character and even tho u explain to me in this much detail, idt I'll ever be able to get it right since I'm pretty much oblivious when it comes to mind games unless I'm lying my way through. Plus, I am a terrible detective when I am faced with evidence and need to dig for more. You know this * coughs in the mha rp where you are literally solving ur own plotline*.

And I'm better at having characters stay in character if I am super passionate and in love with them. In this instance, Nagito isn't rlly a favourite character of mine. And even tho he interests me, I don't have enough interest to pay attention to every single thing he says or have the ability to be able to copy how he deals with things like cases.

And this is why you write fan fiction and I don't.

Now I am hoping that YOU don't take offense to this bc it srsly looks like I'm just finding excuses for myself for a bad characterization of Nagito and I know how much u value Nagito's character and I'm srsly just botching it rn- I swear I'm trying but my brain is not 1000% registering how to act as him yet so gimme time- this is outta my comfort zone (T_T) I am sorry

I wanted to say smth else but I forgot- but srsly, I apologise for * motions to Nagito in the rp* ....this

#for this to make more sense you'll have to look at the rp we keep reblogging #which i do not reccomend you do #I am only embarressing myself #danganronpa #bsd x danganronpa #danganronpa goodbye despair #roleplay

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manonblaqkbeak · 3 years

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How We Met

here it is, my last fic for rowaelin month! thank you so much to everyone that’s read, liked and commented on my fics, it’s been so much fun reading and writing these last four weeks! i’m glad to know that i’m not the only one that is in dire need of more rowaelin content (srsly, i would pay sjm a truck load of money for a strictly rowaelin book bc i miss them sm)

here’s part 4 for the little series i had going on. i was so tempted to make this an angst piece but held back lol.

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

cw: none

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enjoy and thank you again!!! :) 💕💕💕💕

Gathering the ingredients for the cake that she and Ophelia were going to make for Rowan, Aelin plopped them down on the kitchen counter and tied her and her six year old daughters hair back. Even in the kitchen light, Ophelia's hair was a vivid shade of silver and when she turned to look at her mother, the golden ring in her eyes were just as bright.

“Up, mama!” Ophelia asked, pointing to the step ladder that Olive made for her little sister in her woodshop class at school. Getting it off from atop the fridge, Aelin and Ophelia started their baking session for today. It wasn't often that Aelin baked cakes from scratch but it wasn't every day that her firstborn turned sixteen—not that Aelin could really comprehend that her Olive was sixteen—but Aelin wanted to do this for her, wanted to make something special.

She hoped that it wasn't going to taste as bad as the last cake she baked. Rowan had been sick afterwards and didn't go to work the next day.

That was five years ago, so surely with gaining wisdom as people said when others got older, her baking skills grew too.

“Where did everyone go?” Ophelia asked, her little tongue poking out as she helped Aelin sift the flour.

“To get dinner for tonight. We're having Ollie's favourite.” Which was cuisine from the Southern Continent, there was a restaurant that specialised in the spicy food, and Aelin couldn't wait—she and Rowan often tried to recreate their favourite recipes, but it was never right, so Olive wanted to have the genuine stuff for her birthday and not her parents shoddy attempts.

Not that Aelin could blame her.

They continued making the chocolate cake, Ophelia babbling on about her day at school, when her little one asked, “How did you and papa meet?”

Aelin blinked at the sudden question, but answered it nevertheless. “At the grocery store.”

Ophelia furrowed her brows, and with the way her nose scrunched up, she looked so much like Rowan that it made her heart sing. When Aelin first realised that she was pregnant, she was nervous, they had only been married for seven months and while they spoke about having a child of their own, she didn't think it would happen so quickly—but Rowan's enthusiasm melted away her fears. She would never forget his tears of joy when she showed him the pregnancy test, his beaming smile when they heard her heartbeat for the first time. Aelin would walk through hell, as long as Rowan was by her side, or waiting for her at the end.

It wasn't always perfect, however, they had their ups and downs like every long-term couple, they had moments where it felt like they were walking on tightrope, either because of their own personal issues or marriage issues, or when Egan was fourteen and completely lashed out at Aelin, accusing her of replacing his mother—but she worked with her son, telling him that she had never intended to do that, that Lyria would always be the woman that brought him into the world, and that Aelin was raising him. Her heart broke in two at his pain, but she understood, he grew up with photos and stories of Lyria.

Or when they had the awkward conversation when Olive was eleven and asked why she didn't look like Rowan, and Aelin had explained her story, about Sam being her biological father, but he had given them space for Rowan to raise her instead. That had lead to brooding silences and confusion, but otherwise, Olive still saw Rowan as her dad, but she did ask from time to time about Sam, what he was like and what he was doing (the last update Aelin received from him via email that his wife was pregnant with their second child. Aelin was so happy for him that he was able to have a family, a feat that was made easier since Arobynn had been dead for years by this point) and that she would like to meet him properly one day; Aelin had kept that to herself, not wanting to tell Sam in case Olive changed her mind—Aelin hoped that she wouldn't.

Overall, their life together was what she needed, she went to bed each night loved and fulfilled. It was better than what she might have had with Chaol all those years ago, she was fairly certain that if she had married him, it wouldn't have been a long marriage.

“How did you meet at the food store?” Ophelia asked, her brow still furrowed as she and Aelin stirred the cake batter. It surprisingly smelled good.

“I needed something from a high shelf,” Aelin said, “and I couldn't reach it. Your papa was only a few feet away from me, so I asked him to get it for me.” She might have also subtly ogled him as his shirt exposed his tanned skin, and Aelin had damned near swooned at the sight of his six pack.

“Did you get married at the food store?”

Aelin laughed at the question. “No, we got married at the beach. And then you arrived not long afterwards.” Sometimes they wanted another, but things financially were going so well that they didn't want to jeopardise that by adding another mouth to feed.

“Can you have another wedding?” Ophelia asked, looking at her mum with wide eyes. “So I can go? Please?”

“I'll talk to your daddy about it, but I like the sound of that.” Kissing her daughters forehead, they continued. Just as they were putting the cake in the oven and the icing mix in the fridge, the front door opened and three booming voices infiltrated the house and the mouth watering goodness of food.

Aelin's eyes widened at the amount of food that Rowan piled on the table. It looked like they were feeding a small army and not a family of five.

Ophelia helped her older brother set the table, Egan ruffing her hair as he recounted their little adventure to the restaurant.

As they sat down, Aelin mentioned Ophelia's request. Rowan pretended to mull it over as their daughter pleaded, giving her best puppy dog eyes. It didn't take for Rowan to relent—he really had trouble saying no to her—saying that a second wedding was a great idea.

Ophelia squealed in delight and squealed even more when food was placed in front of her (she was very much like Aelin in that regard).

“How did the conversation of another wedding start?” Rowan asked as they all started eating.

“Phia here wanted to know how we meet.”

Olive snorted. “Yes, the ever romantic story of meeting in the toilet paper aisle.”

“It was not the toilet paper isle!” Aelin protested. “It was the cereal aisle.”

“At least you kids have inherited my manners,” Rowan said, “your mother didn't even ask nicely. She just came over to me and said, 'You're tall, could you get that box for me?'” It had taken him a moment to realise he had been spoken to, too focused on deciding what box of porridge to get when Aelin showed up, wearing a faded band shirt and shorts, pointing to the box of cereal that had far too much sugar to be healthy. He had said 'yes' because it was the nice thing to do, and had stayed behind, talking to her for so long in the aisle that his vanilla ice cream had started to melt.

It was the best decision in his life back then, he never thought he would have gained a friend in the grocery store—and that the friend would become his wife.

“I have manners. I said, 'Excuse you' first before I told you what I needed.”

“That's not really using manners there, ma,” Egan said, smiling as poked her tongue out. He looked so much like Lyria that it was almost scary—he still loved flowers and plants too, and was currently studying to become a florist and then one day horticulture. The backyard was full of flowers and plants thanks to him, making into a little wonderland instead of the barren plain it used to be.

“I did say 'thank you' afterwards.”

“You said 'thanks',” Rowan interjected, laughing as Aelin threw a chunk of her flatbread at his head. Ophelia's cute laughter rent through the air.

“It's the same thing!”

“If you say so, love,” Rowan muttered, his lips twitching. Aelin rolled her eyes in the dramatic way Rowan was used to, but he saw the mirth behind the movement.

“Like I said Phie, it's very romantic,” Olive said drily, sounding very much like Rowan. She had even inherited his scowl, which she was wearing now as she sniffed at the air. “Is something burning?”

Aelin had never run so fast as she did right then, the kitchen filling with smoke as she took in the blackened cake. Swearing viciously under her breath, Aelin chucked the cake into the bin, apologising to Olive as she did so.

“It's okay, mum, dad got me an ice-cream cake earlier today anyway.”

Aelin narrowed her eyes at her husband, who simply gave her an innocent smile in answer.

Rejoining her family, they talked well into the night, helping Aelin to forget her failed baking attempt. Ophelia asked more questions about their time in the grocery store and how that moment lead to friendship, to pining for the other without realising it, to a life together.

And to think, Aelin almost didn't go to the grocery store that day.

Rowan thanked the gods that he had remembered at the last moment that he had no porridge left, otherwise, he might not have met Aelin at all. Might not have had this life, this family. Part of him would always be sad that things had gone so wrong with Lyria, and he would always miss and love her. But he learned in therapy that it was good to have a life, and Rowan was glad that he heeded that advice.

He thanked the gods all the time.

And thank the rutting gods he did right now for the umpteenth time that Aelin deemed him tall enough to get her food for her, to stay in that aisle with him as they got to know each other.

Rowan was a very happy man indeed as he and Aelin went to bed that night, the smiles still on their faces at Olive's unrestrained joy at the sight of the car they spent weeks looking at second-hand dealerships at, hunting for the perfect car for their daughter.

Thank the rutting gods for all those moments in the past, present, and future.

Rowan couldn't wait to marry her again, and neither could Aelin.

Life was good.

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