#i just needed to shout this into the void

[polyamorouscultureis]

Don't know if this is for advice but I need to confess this to SOMEONE outside the 4 of us. For many reasons, no one outside the 4 people mentioned here know anything about this

I'm a happily married man with a wonderful wife of 10 years. She's my best friend, my lover, and every bit the partner I need.

We're both well aware of our poly natures and have even tried (unsuccessfully) to open up to a third. It wasn't the right person or fit but we at least tried. Outside of that we've both had some FwB and it's never had any negative impact on our relationship.

But now I actually fell in love.

I fell in love with a streamer and what started as parasocial became just plain social to becoming very intimate and real. The kicker, this streamer girl is also happily married to her own man (4 years now) and they are also open to poly.

After a few weeks of this buildup, we had our first "date" over Discord video and all partners involved were nothing but supportive. It's long distance but the opportunity to visit each other is very real. The opportunity for sex is very real and very much discussed. The possibility of group sex in many configurations is on the table.

And through all this, we've firmly established our commitments and love to our spouses first and foremost, while still talking every day and very much falling in love with each other more and more.

I know all the important parts of navigating a poly relationship, and with how open all communication has been across all parties involved, I'd say we're doing okay.

I'm just feeling a little overwhelmed with how much I feel the euphoria of new love. Falling in love wasn't something I ever expected to happen to me again. I honesty didn't think I was capable of it. This wasn't me choosing someone, I had not say in the matter. My heart just said "this one" and took the rest of me along for the ride.

I don't know if what I need is advice but this is such an "out there" situation for me. Outside of the 4 of us, there's no one to talk to about what's going on. Partially because none of our close friends/family are poly and wouldn't really understand the dynamics, especially when they've gone through problems of cheating. And we also can't let it get out that a streamer fell in love with a viewer, for reasons I hope are obvious.

So this is my anonymous confession. Any whatever words you have for me, I'll take them.

This is so exciting! I'm so happy you're getting this opportunity with so much support from your respective partners behind you! It absolutely makes sense to be overwhelmed and probably pretty nervous about meeting in person for the first time, but just enjoy the moment as much as you can. Falling in love, especially for the second time, is intimidating, and comes with complicated feelings, but it's also so much fun. I hope things go well for you all and that you'll keep me updated on how things go! We all struggle a bit with lack of community to share these things with I think, so I adore being the void to shout into. <3

#polyam asks #polycule #polyamorous #polyamory

[deafeningsoulpeachrebel]

I can only hope that you'll see the things that I want to send to you and I just talk to myself when I have something that I want to tell you. I guess it's obvious that I'm shouting into this void that I don't know if I will ever be able to cross. I have so many stories that I would love to tell you and so many questions that I need to ask you and I don't know why I still have faith that miracles can happen. Oh yeah, I think that I was abducted by aliens or something but that's a whole other story. 🙋🏻‍♂️

#amateur photography #flowers #nature

[devsgames]

PSA: MAKE A PORTFOLIO

I feel like every day I see juniors posting about how they're a really amazing creative who has an excellent body of work working on cool little games, and how you should hire them because of that.

They'll mention the independent projects they've worked on by name (which only a handful of their close circle people would ever likely have heard about), and then tack on "by the way I'm looking for work and you should hire me", and then they don't provide any form of contact information or even a portfolio where anyone can learn more or take action to hire them.

I cannot stress enough: make a portfolio. You want a source you can link someone that concisely compiles the work that you have done, overviews the projects you have contributed to, and outlines the expertise you have. If you don't have a portfolio it's incredibly unlikely you will find work just shouting into the void about how good you or your work is. No one will implicitly know you, and no one can implicitly be expected to know the games you have contributed to.

Sorry like...that's just where we're at. If you want work, you need to make yourself a portfolio. You need a place where someone who might be hiring and happens to come across you can visit and say "oh I can actually view what you're talking about and it sounds like you do know what you're doing". If you don't have an avenue to do that then there's very little point in advertising yourself in the first place, because you're just making people jump through hoops to try and hire you. Make it dirt simple and as easy as possible to show off everything you've done.

People don't just make portfolios for fun; they make them because they work.

#gamedev #game dev #game development #indiedev #indie dev #gamedevelopment #game design #blog

[wiggles-mcgee]

I've decided to start seeking help for my mental health. And im proud of myself for it.

#no further elaboration yet #i just needed to shout this into the void #im going to drag myself towards happiness even if there's just a speck #and im proud of it #wiggles chats with the void #mental health

[panicroomsammy]

Y’know I get where y’all are coming from with some of your “friends don’t look at each other like that” posts but also. I do look at my friends like that. I’m aro but even if I wasn’t I don’t think that would force me into loving my friends less. I’m out here looking at these guys with the most besotted look on my face. My friends can talk about things that I have zero interest in on my own and I will be so happy to have the privilege of listening to this incredible person talk about the things they care about. And I’m sure I’m looking at them “like I’m in love with them” while I’m doing it. Or my friends who are a couple will be talking about something that they did together and I’m just like “I get to watch two of my favorite people interact! And they love each other so much!” so yeah of course I’m gonna have a sappy look on my face. Idk where I’m going with this I’m just aro and love my friends so much and honestly if you don’t look at your friends like you’re in love with them? Skill issue.

#aromantic #queer friendship #platonic love #no idea what this is I just love my friends so much and need to shout into the void about it

[chaiaurchaandni]

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#i cant imagine what this must feel like #to just scream into the void as youre being killed #and this is the response u get #shout out to people who r organizing and marching and shutting down weapons factories #but i wanna curse everyone in power who can stop this but chooses not to for whatever reasons #palestinians have shown that they dont need us. they fixed their own internet and telecomm and they fought back when no one fought for them #and despite the siege and blockade of gaza they still made a home for themselves. and now israel is bombing even their refugee camps #and when palestine is free it will be the palestinians who will have liberated it. nobody else #free palestine #palestine #gaza #long live palestine #glory to the martyrs #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #long live the resistance #death to israel

[drawbauchery]

#dummyfOrge #shouts-into-the-void #awildivyhasappeared #asmodeusavataroflust #oopslepoopsle #letmesleepforeverpls #strixop #urlocainocoshipper #asks #poll #bus au #suggestive #i know who i'm voting for #it's kind of a farce because i make everyone a switch nowadays #i just need to piggyback off that message for a minute because i'm dying

[pens-swords-stuff]

Absolutely obsessed with the bittersweet, nostalgic and pensive mood that comes with the end of summer. It's so hauntingly and achingly beautiful. I want to capture that so badly in a WIP someday.

#writing #writeblr #undine speaks #i was just suddenly overcome with the need to write with these themes #and had to shout it out into the void #because i couldnt contain it

[cluescorner]

WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH KAEYA AND VENTI?? Like, of all the relationships I want explored in genshin theirs is the most fascinating to me. Do they know who the other is in relation to their origins? Are they both in the dark? Does one know and the other doesn’t? What are their real feelings towards the other person, not just the expressed ones based around their personas? Why was Kaeya left in Mondstadt specifically and does Venti have any thoughts on the matter? Are we gonna get a big reveal scene where Venti shows himself as Barbatos and Kaeya is like ‘AYO WHAT THE FUCK’? Are we gonna get one where it’s vice-versa and Venti loses it onscreen? 

Does Kaeya know that Venti is Barbatos and is friendly with him regardless? Or is it to get more info on the Archon? Or is it to perhaps ingratiate himself to Venti in hopes of not fucking dying like literally almost everyone else? Is he completely unaware and if Venti admits his identity to Kaeya that will be yet another instance where Kaeya’s trust has been broken by someone close to him? Or will he lash out at Venti because it is heavily implied that the Abyss Order/Fatui/tbh everybody related to Khaenri’ah in some way hates Barbatos in particular for some reason? Or will he just go on as normal in hopes that Venti doesn’t recognize Kaeya as Khaenri’an? Or will he have a fucking panic attack immediately because bro I would too if one of the people who killed-or-worsed literally my entire nation just showed up and oh no he was my fucking drinking buddy? 

Does Venti know that Kaeya is an Alberich and simply not care? Or is he pitiful of the man whose freedom was restricted at a very young age? Or does he feel intense guilt stemming from whatever the fuck he did in Khaenri’ah because SERIOUSLY WHY DO KHAENRI’AH-RELATED GROUPS SEEM TO HATE BARBATOS IN PARTICULAR? Or is he perhaps afraid of what Kaeya might do to his nation and hopes to get as close to Kaeya as he can to prevent anything from happening? Did Venti always know that Kaeya was there even during his sleep? Did he wake up and wander into the city and suddenly BOOM, DESCENDENT OF THE ABYSS ORDER IS YOUR CAVALRY CAPTAIN AND YOU CANNOT DO SHIT ABOUT IT? Does Venti not know that Kaeya is an Alberich/Khaenri’an and are we going to get a big reveal wherein Venti will once again be placed in a position where he might have to compromise his identity in order to protect the greater good? Or will he try to kill Kaeya because honestly if I took part in the mass-destruction of an entire civilization I would assume that if somebody reveals themself as a part of that civilization that they’re here for revenge? Or will he treat it like it’s no big deal because he already knew/doesn’t care because Kaeya has made it clear that he’s loyal to Mondstadt? Or will he collapse into a big puddle of guilt and beg forgiveness for everything that’s happened because, when you really think about it, none of Kaeya’s suffering would have ever occurred if Celestia hadn’t nuked Khaenri’ah? Even outside of the other bullshit, Kaeya’s freedom was restricted at a very young age due to the actions of Celestia which Venti played a direct part in. Does Venti feel guilty for this or like he’s wound up betraying his own value? Does KAEYA feel that way? 

THEY DO NOT HAVE VOICELINES ABOUT EACH OTHER! Kaeya and Venti get them for such a menagerie of Mondstadt characters (including ones they never even interact with) that the fact they don’t have them for each other drives me insane. That HAS to be intentional, why the fuck do y’all not talk about each other when you should probably have THE MOST AMOUNT OF THINGS TO SAY ABOUT EACH OTHER?! They are making me crazy. LET THEM INTERACT AND BE HONEST WITH EACH OTHER! WHERE ARE THE FICS WHERE THEY REVEAL THEIR IDENTITIES/LITERALLY ANYTHING RELATED TO THEIR HIDDEN IDENTITIES HAPPEN AND THE OTHER REACTS TO IT?? WHERE ARE THEY?? They are easily the most fascinating yet utterly unexplored dynamic in Genshin. I see more fics about Childe and Kaeya interacting than Venti and Kaeya and I get it and no hate BUT WHAT THE HELL MAN?!

#kaeya alberich #genshin impact #venti #shouting into the void about my stupid characters from a game I barely even like #but LISTEN I WANT THEM TO TALK #I WANT THEM TO DISCUSS THEIR ISSUES LIKE ADULTS #OR ACT LIKE TOTAL CHILDREN ABOUT IT #OR WHATEVER IDC I JUST NEED TO KNOW #do they know? #do they not know? #how do they feel about all this? #I feel like they both know and are purposefully acting like they don't because that's a problem for future them #BUT IF THAT IS THE CASE THEN WHY ARE THEY JUST DRINKING BUDDIES?? #If the god who killed my civilization/the descendant of the civilization I fucking nuked showed up #I think I'd avoid them like the plague #BUT NOT THEY ARE DRINKING BUDDIES WITH ROSARIA??? #I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS #AND NO ANSWERS #BECAUSE KHAENRI'AH LORE DROPS ONCE EVERY BLUE MOON AND I AM A FOOL TO BELIEVE I WOULD GET ANY SOON

[daydreams-and-honeybees]

Been thinking about Atlantis: The Lost Empire lately so what if Milo x Kida but Huntlow

#like milo and hunter are basically the same #and badass warrior princess willow is so cool #he gives her his glasses like that one bit in the movie but turns out she really needs them so she just wears them from then on #like he just had them for reading sometimes but shes well past that point #i know they have that crystal that gives them longevity or w/e but just go w it #huntlow #toh #the owl house #willow park #hunter noceda #hunter toh #toh hunter #atlantis the lost empire #milo x kida #shouting into the void

[finniestoncrane]

also your girl is struggling. i'm putting this under a read more i just need to GET IT OUT and then i'm going to get back to writing because i've managed to get so much done today which is a small win

we got therapy tonight. trying to figure out how to be like "ok so there's this character called the riddler you remember i brought him up before YEAH ok so he's autistic, but also annoying. much like me. so i relate. HOWEVER. he has robots though, like he has consistent relationships. i have crippling self-doubt, anxiety, and a churning feeling in my stomach that no one likes me and i'm better off isolated because at least when i don't speak to anyone i don't have to worry about annoying them or wondering if they like me or comparing my relationship with them to every other relationship they have like a completely and totally normally sane person" without sounding like the MOST pathetic bitch ever and truly encapsulating that sad riddler vibe??

maybe i'll dress properly? i think my batman crocs are not the Mentally Well vibe i'm trying to achieve

or maybe the batman crocs/riddler t-shirt combo is exactly what i need. comfort uniform. strength in the blorbo

#PLEASE DO IGNORE ME i am going through it but in a really pathetic way? #i think the things i worry about are so boring and i worry about them constantly lmao #and i will be deleting this i just needed to OOF vent #finnie shouts into the void

[yukipri]

If work sets a meeting at the wrong time for morning of the next day and no one catches it but me until less than 5 hours before (because I'm the nocturnal fool who doesn't sleep), I should not be obligated to wake up in time for the "early" meeting time that was not set, and should be allowed to sleep until the afternoon time the calendar says the meeting's at...

#YukiPri rambles #i was too honest a fool and mentioned it to my co-worker #Hey all I sometimes feel the need to shout into the void and I'd been using Twitter for that #but Luke Skywalker said don't go on Twitter today #so I'm not on Twitter and trying to wean myself off of it #so here I am instead! You're welcome and I'm sorry lmao #it's past 6:30 AM and no i did not just wake up i have not slept yet. But given i've been staying up till 9~10 AM recently...

[onekisstotakewithme]

i know everyone is struggling right now but jesus christ i'm struggling right now.

#personal #school/work stress #this thing with my grandpa #feelings of isolation and self-blame #but dear god the isolation #do you ever just feel like you're just shouting into a void? #if the people you love actually love you as much as you love them? #is it even worth it to keep going? #i miss my friends #my one IRL friend is too busy when I need her but when she needs support i have to drop everything #i'm coming down from my first semester of grad school #and i just feel so overwhelmed and done with it all.

[uni-seahorse-572]

everyday we must rise and fall again with the terrible knowledge of the golden sophie in fitz's head vs. keefe's imperfect drawing. you can never go back. if this is what must finally drive me to violence so be it

like! tell me you don't understand fitz without telling me you don't understand fitz. being cognates is about the ability to see the other person wholly and you can't tell me in good conscience that they could have reached this level of trust without knowledge. you think fitz is oblivious to people's flaws? the boy who's so angry at the world, who picks at the faults around him because he's been betrayed so badly by the promises he thought he could hold onto? you think he isn't intimately aware of every mistake and every moment of weakness? the fitz who said "we could all use a little more weird in our lives" and who's known Sophie from the beginning, through her darkest moments and her greatest ones. who's been with her through all of it and who bore witness while staying by her side. the whole time. you can't tell me he'd put sophie on a pedestal because she's the one person he never did - not like with keefe or alvar or his entire family, because she's the part of his life that always drags him from his perfection and he wouldn't have it any other way.

and Keefe? you think Keefe can comprehend a person perfectly complexly after all he's been through, with how he prefers suppression over introspection? everyone in his life has hurt him so so much but in the midst of that there's sophie, who's been there, this golden girl that swept him up into her orbit and has been the one he can count on despite all of his mistakes. you think this boy, who has no self worth and sees himself as a borderline curse always messing everything up, doesn't think of Sophie as someone so much better than someone as broken as him could ever deserve? because what are her faults to him when he's done so much worse. and he hasn't stood by her this whole time, because he always runs, because he's the one between him and Fitz who doesn't see her as a true partner but instead as someone he has to protect from himself. but he's never gone against Sophie either, not really, never been angry with her since she's infallible in his mind and what is a relationship when you can't even get frustrated with someone. what happens when there are no cracks, because isn't that how we learn where the breaking points are? how can he really know her imperfections like this?

shannon. shannon please i can't live like this

#kotlc #fitz vacker #keefe sencen #ari shouts into the void #kotlc discourse #(just in case) #how can you mess up the character dynamics this badly i want answers #also! to be clear this isn't against one ship or the other #like. both of their perspectives make a lot of sense #i think there's just this level of toxicity to sokeefe from their communication issues over time #and while that's not inherently wrong canon needs to stop ignoring it

[shadyhouse]

i keep getting rejected from job applications and i have no idea what im doing wrong. i wish they would just tell you WHY you're getting rejected and ways to improve. its a guessing game that ends up making me feel even more worthless than i felt before

#like i have been nonstop applying for jobs for the past YEAR and ive gotten TWO INTERVIEWS #one of them i got kicked out of near immediately bc you werent allowed to be late to the job and i mentioned i take the bus (mistake i know) #and the other one i had to turn down bc they wanted to pay me $11/hr despite me already having the experience they needed #and i just reapplied to an old job i had a couple years ago that pays well but i got an instant rejection #not to mention all the other jobs ive been applying to that dont even TRY to contact me before rejecting me #and then my current job where ive been pretty much explicitly told i'm never ever going to get promoted and i keep getting my hours cut #for reasons beyond my comprehension like i dont know what im even doing wrong bc no one will TELL ME #JUST TELL ME WHAT IM DOING WRONG #WHY AM I BEING BAD AT LIFE. CAN YOU THROW ME A BONE PLEASE. #IM TIRED OF SURVIVING I WANT TO THRIVE #IVE BEEN SURVIVING MY WHOLE LIFE IM JUST EXHAUSTED I WANT TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT SOMETHING I DID FOR ONCE PLEASE #Sorry for venting im trying to hold back a breakdown and i have to leave for work in an hour and i just need to shout into the void about it #even applying for like medical based jobs hasnt worked out. you wont even let me be a RECEPTIONIST? #i feel trapped at my current job. even my coworkers have been telling me that ive had my position for wayyyy too long and im gonna be stuck #like tell me something i dont know!!!!!!!!!! tell me how to get a better job!!!!!!!!!!!!! bc im struggling in every aspect of my life!!!!!! #whoever cursed me its working i hope youre happy. the haters love to see it

[jeysbvck]

the rock in a gym in the same place smackdown is tonight? if he turns up during the roman & cody segment i stg pitchforks and torches at the ready people!!

#shan shouts into the void #wwe smackdown #friday night smackdown #like we do not need the rock in this segment #just fricking wait until mania is over jfc #theyre trying really hard to sell the fact that roman v cody might not happen #and we all know its gonna happen so why the drama I HATE THIS KIND OF DRAMA