#i cant imagine what this must feel like

[chaiaurchaandni]

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#i cant imagine what this must feel like #to just scream into the void as youre being killed #and this is the response u get #shout out to people who r organizing and marching and shutting down weapons factories #but i wanna curse everyone in power who can stop this but chooses not to for whatever reasons #palestinians have shown that they dont need us. they fixed their own internet and telecomm and they fought back when no one fought for them #and despite the siege and blockade of gaza they still made a home for themselves. and now israel is bombing even their refugee camps #and when palestine is free it will be the palestinians who will have liberated it. nobody else #free palestine #palestine #gaza #long live palestine #glory to the martyrs #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #long live the resistance #death to israel

[shattered-pieces]

Anyone who has seen how russia treats its prisoners isn't shocked at the treatment of the terror attack suspects. It's is a common pattern: torture someone then film their "confession". Similar things are done to Russian political prisoners, foreign nationals, Ukrainian prisoners of war, Ukrainian civilians..... with other variations, sometimes not filmed, sometimes even worse torture, sometimes sexual violence...

#russia #then there are those ppl who say why concerned about terrorists #um.... #civilized country? #torture #how systematic it is #similar patterns #we know awful things r done to Ukrainians #without cameras #i cant imagine #smersh does a lot of confessions #and its done to ppl in prison #regular prisoners #film to blackmail them #rape them and film it and blackmail them and they do things for them so they dont get into lower prison caste... #i have been looking at these hr abuses #the worst of things #how ppl suffering #something must be done to stop horrors #theyre showing it before the world and does it care #nazi like #how it suppresses citizens like #if u feel like want to protest... and u know what goes on in those prisons...

[hecksupremechips]

Come back home when you have some sense

You can throw your life away just not at my expense

You’re not the son I raised

#jhariah #this one just rawrrfrrr #and then uh another line thats like ‘tell me did you raise a man?’ #nice #im just listening to the new album to cope with nasty sickness and feeling out of it #god this album is really good it has every emotion in there like this song for example just the part where they scream the chorus its like #hnnnghhh #hm some other moments from the album im liking a lot uhhh i love re: concerns a lot #the part where hes like reading off the complaints and then the part where hes just screaming and its like BAM BAM BAM BAAAM #sasuke is so good and the bit at the end where its like ‘i just want you to know im so so...’ #like hes gonna say sorry but cant seem to say the word for whatever reason and i know nothing about sasuke #but i has to imagine the fan girlies are eating gravel over that one lol it gets me #and theres just that like spooky echoing afterwards #the intro to fire4fun goes SOOOOOOOO hard i was losing my shit its awesome #the entirety of trust ceremony is giving me big feelings but specifically that part towards the end where its all quiet and you hear #its like whistling i think? like a marching band is coming in maybe #but it also kinda sounds like nature too and idk i like got a little bit um magical at that part cuz i was driving down a big hill #and it had been raining but there was a clearing in the clouds and the sun was bright and like at this particular hill #you can just see everything like the land stretches for miles theres trees hills the river farms all that shit #and idk with the extreme stress and depression ive been feeling its hard to have these moments where life seems worth it #and its hard to really feel anything anymore or to feel in the moment but idk i was just going down that hill seeing everything and it was #very majestic so yeah that song is definitely gonna have the same effect as pin eye for me #which i must mention pin eye again its still OOOOGHH very good it came at a pretty good time for me #yeah basically this album is uhhhh whats keeping me somewhat grounded rn i recommend 👍

[gibbearish]

kinda frustrating how we've spent the last few months acknowledging how a lot of well intentioned but guilt trippy social justice posts are like specifically designed to worm into ocd ppls brains and then now every single post abt palestine is "i dont care how bad your mental health is, i dont care how bad looking at all this makes you feel, if you don't read every single post you see on this topic in full you are a horrible person and directly contributing to their deaths. 'waaaah my mental health' well at least youre not being bombed, did you think about that??" and its like. i absolutely get where youre coming from but you dont get to complain that guilt tripping is bad then turn around and use it anyways because you think the cause youre using it for is worthwhile. like. everyone thinks the cause theyre using it for is worthwhile, thats why theyre using it. but its still a shit way to do it

#like when you make a tumblr post to your tumblr blog youre not guilt tripping people who disagree with you #youre guilt tripping your followers who if theyre still following you probably already agree with what youre saying #and esp on a topic with so much brutality involved like. yeah OBVIOUSLY theres people who have to look away #like. yall know a bunch of these posts and articles and videos show graphic injuries in them right? #like i physically cant watch news videos abt this bc i will spend days with my brain making me imagine #peoples deaths in graphic detail specifically because it knows that will upset me. and i would prefer not to do that #in fact me doing that helps palestinians exactly as much as finishing my brussel sprouts helps starving kids #by which i mean none. its just a cheap guilt trip to get you to do something you don't want to #which when it's brussel sprouts thats whatever but when its 'deliberately expose yourself to extremely triggering #things otherwise youre a bad person'. not so much #idk i feel like maybe its due to ppl feeling. agitated abt not being able to do anything abt it #like the government isnt listening and we're a world away so physically /all/ we can do really is sit and watch #so i can understand a) wanting to find someone to lash out at to alleviate that feeling #like if you cant stop the actual problem at the very least you can shout down the people supporting it right? #and b) seeing 'not watching' or even just 'not watching as closely as i am' as a transgression #bc well its all we can do so if youre not even doing that you must be bad #and its like. i really do get it. but the whole world is watching right now‚ like this is THE big news thing happening rn #so a few people choosing to avoid to subject will not make a single iota of difference #idk. i guess what im saying is if youre feeling the urge to yell at someone for not looking close enough #just donate some money to a support fund instead itll do a lot more

[gnfthinkr]

#hes so blushy. i cant even imagine what he must of been feeling right here. like the nervousness-excitement stomach full of butterflies it #makes you nauseous . like watching him light up and hearing dreams smile in his voice made me start crying. how many times do you think #they face timed in the 3 weeks of him getting the visa to florida? i bet at least once a day every day #gnf #georgenotfound #404blr #queued dec. 9th 2022

[skitskatdacat63]

I just saw a tiktok that was like "can somebody explain to me the 'absolute batshit' formula one lore there must be to incite 21k fanfictions of the sport" uhhhhhhhhhh yeah lemme pull out my powerpoint with 1k+ slides

#im not coming at this person obv bcs i do think theres like a huge learning curve w f1 #BUT that being said there is an absolutely insane amnt of lore in f1 one cant even begin to explain easily #(ik this firsthand bcs im trying to make a guide for some friends and its impossible to condense) #first you must realize the baffling amnt of shared history they all have #then you realize there's prob fics posted for every single race wknd #and then also theres fics abt the past 30+ seasons(i say that bcs the amnt of fic lessens the further back it is) #not to mention all the different media(news articles videos compilations etc) #but like yeah...theres a lot of lore #i think i prob learn at least one new thing a day #but even if youre learning abt one specifc driver or pairing theres still like an endless amnt of info #i just thought it was funny bcs they were like 'what amnt of lore does f1 even have' #and its like god you cant even begin to imagine the depths #(me whos constantly stuck in motorsport and gettyimages hell LMAO) #im just thinking abt the amnt of lore that happens at even just one race wknd #(i mean thru watching full races ive learned so much info that I never even wouldve though to research into) #whoops sorry that was a lot of rambling #(as i said not going after that person but when people say things like this it kinda annoys me 😒) #(like its someone elses passion why does there need to be a reason for it you get me?) #(but that being said f1 does in fact have a crazy amnt of history and lore behind it that people underestimate) #(but yeah idk how to feel abt the phrasing 'absolute batshit' like bro its a yr long sport w 70+ seasons one would wonder) #(i think this person made a vid abt everything changes as well? so i feel a lil defensive like hey dont talk abt things you dont get :/) #catie.rambling.txt #f1 #formula 1

[itsadragonaesthetic]

My favorite activity is being a visibly queer naturalist. I love enlightening younger people with the realization that loving nature and working in conservation is actually really gay and you can be a queer weirdo and have a future with nature too.

#as an aside #i cant imagine what it must be like to be a young black kid #and see a black conservationist/naturalist #even i hardly ever see them #i always treat everyone like a normal person ofc but every time i see them #i want to put them on a tall box and show others that you can also be black #and love nature #idk im feeling somft rn #my posts #dragon speaks #naturalism #nature conservation

[koishua]

shining solo ep 8. my reaction rn 😐😐 took it a bit hard lmao

#tp #very mixed feelings. as someone who associates herself with jeongwoo and having very similar personalities... this ep hurt a lot #idk idk #i mean i get it but i also absolutely do not get it #so many thoughts im taking this very personally what the heck #i cant really warm up to half of this part's girlies im sorry #i loved everyone on part one #as someone who also struggles with managing my social energy lvls... this was a slap in the face #bc my boy jeongwoo truly gave it his ALL the whole day and even managed to perform a couple songs for the girls #despite already having spent the whole day together #and his energy must have been SPENT already and then they pick him as MVP of the day and he has that 1:5 date with all of the girls #by himself!! which is so terrifying imagine being the one person who everyone's attention is on and you have to interact with these ppl #that you arent very comfortable with but you still try your best to give them a good time #AND THEN!! they give you NOTHING in return?? not even a recorder?? no jewel no recording nothing. just ignored like that by everyone #and i get that the girls dont know who's voting for who so they might have believed someone else was gonna give him a jewel or sth #but no one gives him anything (positive OR negative) #and yeah. he was absolutely shocked at the empty safe. i would have been too. #and why did they not give him a jewel y'all might ask??? IT WAS BC HE FELL SILENT DURING THE LAST BIT: THE DINNER #my gosh that's the part that i take offense to personally bc it's really really really difficult to always engage in convos with ppl #after spending the whole day with them already?? and your social battery is down so you quietly enjoy a simple meal?? #and then all the girlies threw him away like that?? #i mean yeah you're surrounded by sweet men who spend the day appealing themselves to you but come on?? #i would have been so impressed by jeongwoo and thankful that he put that much effort in and would understand how difficult it is to #maintain it till the very end because not everyone has hyunsuk's boundless social energy #no offense hyunsuk i love you dearly #and also??? what's up with admitting that you lack some confidence upfront?? #the girl's reasoning for giving yoshi the voice recorder was that he said he holds himself to a high standard and lacks confidence sometimes #and i get it. being confident is more attractive than someone who's always insecure and puts themselves down #(and makes the other person uncomfortable) but they were having an honest and deep convo when the thing he said in that convo was used #against him in the end? i would feel kind of betrayed too bc being able to admit that you feel insecure sometimes is a v brave thing to do!!

[queerbaitesque]

i get why bruce said losing clarence was like losing the rain. how do you live for so many years with the sound of his sax as the soundtrack of your life and Not miss him like you would miss the rain if it never rained again ever

#plus all the other things but like. if i get it as a fan i cant even imagine what he must feel like as his literal soulmate

[widevibratobitch]

when will i fucking learn to not look into the comment section under a fat woman's photo :)

#lovely day to learn people like me are completely worthless barely even human and not only deserve to but SHOULD die <33 #i sure hope reading how bodies like mine are so disgusting they make people wanna puke #and are objectively undesirable laughable and ridiculous and anyone who says otherwise is lying #wont affect me long term and forever fuck up my brain <333 oh wait teehee #anyway. i feel like english comments are bad enough but polish men really go above and beyond. #yes yes fat people should be annihilated and mass murdered in gas chambers what a normal thing to say publicly :) #there's being fatphobic. and then there's whatever the fuck these polish boys have. #cant imagine how deeply fucking evil one must be to say something like that. #i sincerely hope something really fucking bad happens to all those fatphobes i hope their life sucks i hope they suffer forever <33 #anyway. if anyone needs me ill be hating myself in that corner over there <33 ciao

[chaiaurchaandni]

medics at shifa hospital: don't bother yourself. it is ending. total collapse.

reminder that shifa hospital is the biggest hospital in gaza. there are thousands of injured people inside and around it + people who have no other shelter after their homes were bombed are also taking shelter in the hospital.

israel has been threatening to bomb shifa hospital by saying hamas has its hq underneath the hospital. several doctors, palestinian + foreigners who volunteered there, have repeatedly denied this and appealed to the world to ensure israel does not bomb the hospital. israeli doctors signed a petition asking the idf to bomb all hospitals in gaza.

israel has already bombed buildings in the vicinity of the hospital. israel has already bombed a cancer hospital, a children's hospital, and the baptist hospital in the gaza strip.

#i hate this world i hate our politicians i hate israel and america i hate imperialism and colonialism #i cant imagine what it must feel like knowing the entire world can literally see your agony on their phones #yet no one is coming to save you except your own selves and your own people #and this is why i will never condemn any form of palestinian resistance #gaza will not fall. palestinians will not surrender #zionist wet dreams will remain dreams only #free palestine #palestine #gaza #long live palestine #glory to the martyrs #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #long live the resistance #death to israel #israeli war crimes #healthcare #medics

[willowfey]

that post about visualisation and realising how many ppl CAN’T rly got to me….. like it is tragically fascinating to me that so many ppl can’t visualise. “can you picture the apple clearly” i can see it in perfect detail, down to the shape and texture of the stem and the drop of water on the side from being washed. i can see the table it’s sitting on, the house around it, the way the light streams in and the dust floating in it. i know what the living room looks like to the right and the garden out the door to the left, which herbs are first in the rows, i know what it feels like and smells like, what the apple tastes like, how heavy it is in my hand. i don’t have to close my eyes to do it either. i can see it picture in picture or i can let my vision fade and Go Inside My Head into this little house with the apple and i can pick it up and eat it and walk down the hall, peruse the bookshelves, go outside and stroll the grounds and meet the neighbours. i can see the apple in my hand in the garden or i can see it in my hand right here in the physical, can see it floating in front of my face.

what do u mean u don’t see anything. where do u go when u get bored of the place ur body is

#i watch fully scripted feature films of whoever i want in my head every night before i go to sleep #i can remember the details of every location in every book i’ve ever read. can remember the faces and colours in every dream i’ve ever had #WHAT DO U MEAN U CANT SEE ANYTHING #it just feels like another sense. like not being able to visualise must just be similar to being blind i guess #in the sense that u can’t imagine not experiencing it and u wouldn’t know how to describe Not experiencing it #there’s just nothing to describe at all #i feel incredibly grateful that i can visualise so well tho. despite the horrors that can come with it #i don’t know what i would be without it. it’s everything to me.

[tortademaracuya]

I feel like the boy who cried wolf

#im always sad. people have told me im the 'sad' friend #and i understand it must be boring being around someone like that. i get it #but i feel like im getting worse and worse and even when i ask for help im ignored #'this time for real! i cant take it anymore' but im always sad. so whats the point of caring? #of checking on me? of actually trying to listen? #i feel like no one cares about me. but i feel guilty about thinking like that too. they dont deserve that #im a bad person so i guess in getting what was coming for me #but imagining someone would actually worry about me and try to help me cheer up...its bittersweet #its not gonna happen and it hurts more to imagine such a scenario but i cant help it #when you are always sad whos gonna notice when you get so sad its scary?

[littlegoldfinchh]

fucking despise my neighbors, they keep shouting and swearing at their baby because he won't sleep, as if yelling "fucking sleep already" would magically make a child calm down

#they're genuinely abusing that baby and it stresses me out so bad that i cant sleep #like the guy's angry voice makes MY stomach upset with fear #i cant even imagine what that baby must feel

[thompsborn]

me, 30 minutes ago: its 1 am and i should sleep <3

me, immediately after: refreshes tumblr, decidedly does not go to sleep

#i say this like its funny haha #but tbh it is mostly because i am so fucking. Devastated about the horrible shit happening to palestinians #i saw so many videos and pictures today of such horrible things that they’re suffering through right now #and im seeing it through a screen from my safe little bubble in my house and its still destroying me emotionally and mentally #i cant imagine the fear and horror they must be feeling in gaza #and the fact that they have probably felt this fear and horror for a very long time because of israel’s ethnic cleansing of their people #im in such a privileged position and the least i can do is spread awareness and i donated what i could and i have plans to reach out to my l #local government and encourage them to speak up and condemn the genocide of palestine and im looking for local protests and shit like #im gonna do what i can but i know i cant do enough as just a singular individual with low social impact and not a lot of money #but i’ll still do what i can no matter what #i wouldnt be able to live with myself knowing i sat back and said nothing while the palestinians suffered so much #which honestly i already did because i wasn’t educated about it prior to this past week and thats entirely my fault #i mean partially i know its western civilization not showing the horrors that israel has committed but i try to stay in the loop on things #and try to be aware of things happening in the world and i failed to become aware of this before now #i could have been doing more for years to try and spread awareness for palestine and i never did and i wish i could go back and change that #but i cant #but what i CAN do is speak up now that i know and spread awareness and refuse to let palestine go down without a fight #sorry this is a fandom sideblog i know ive been posting a lot on my main blog and i do need to go to bed and whatever #its just hard to sleep knowing that as i sit here safe and comfortable in my bed there are children families innocent people dying in gaza #and the world is actively and successfully trying to paint palestine as the bad guys #its fucking awful and despicable

[bhalspawn]

if im honest i like king alistair w a warden queen! theyre happy ur honor!!!

#ACTUALLY im taking over the wardens story now. looking for a cure to the calling? whatre u talking abt #theyre supposed to have 30 years or so!!!!! granted alistair has only been a warden for 6 months or so when he says that but #and maybe joining during a blight also speeds up the taint but actually it doesnt ive decided. theyre FINE #anyway. alistair is fine bc of the therein bloodline ig? like how fiona is cured somehow bc of it #and.... dare i say.......... #They Have A Child Sir. everything's a okay #ugh but the thing w morrigan. can u imagine wanting a child but knowing its unlikely to happen while one of u has one w a woman they cant #stand and the other still feels incredibly hurt #bc of the fact the morrigan knows the whole time #and i get it!!! morrigan is young and her mother is Flemeth and this is what she's been told to do and she becomes friends w the warden #knowing this so like. i see how torn she must be #she calls her a SISTER while knowing this and i can see it must tear at her but how can you just tell them that #oh it hurts. oh its bitter #i mean the betrayal of howe and then loghain has to make morrigans seem much harsher than it really is #and i dont think of it as really a betrayal from an objective pov but in the situation its already a lot what w the landsmeet and the news #that a warden has to die #i mean its all got to hit hard. there's no way ANYONES comin out of this in a healthy headspace #alistair thinks of his son he will never meet and rhia thinks of a stepson she never wants to meet and UGH. #i think they shouldve handled the whole thing differently. like morrigan should speak to both wardens instead of one #when u speak to just the hof and they have to go to romanced alistair it seems. unfair #ANYWAY!!!! IM NORMAL ABOUT IT #wytxt