#i just .... im so tired

[tawaifeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

#zee rambles #this isn't to guilt trip anyone #but im so so tired of people coming in and just refusing testing because they want to see grandma or whatever #and on top of that people are avoiding vaccinations and all that too?? #we all lived through the pandemic - everyone saw how many people unfortunately passed away from it #now because of vaccinations and some amount of herd immunity we're finding milder cases in healthy people #but that doesn't mean its gone #that doesn't mean it doesn't have long-term repercussions even in healthy people and that doesn't mean people aren't still dying from it #honestly i just needed a lil rant #and if this helps at least one person??? im all for it #also i can't sleep so here we are spilling thoughts into the voidddd

[forestofsprites]

i'm such a friend lover. i genuinely believe that my friends are the coolest funniest loveliest most ridiculously joyous people out there! im biased as hell!! i think theyre all rad! and the universe just so happened to slip all these beloved people into my orbit! and vice versa!! wtf!

#hey guys . im so tired #i just spent a few hours catching up on a show with my beloved friend after months n months . and i feel healed #so healed #i love friends #i love you all #& i love teleparty for allowing these little moments of delight #goodnight :")))) sending little beams of warmth at us all #thoughts

[porrigens]

pegoryu valentine :3

#p5 #persona 5 #persona 5 royal #ryuji sakamoto #sakamoto ryuji #pegoryu #persona 5 protagonist #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #i made this last year LOL #sorry for not posting </3 i forget #idk when i'll post again</3 #but beleive in me ... please.... its all i have... #i just finished a big assignment in uni im so tired #i typed 5000 words in two hours #anyways i like pegoryu ryuji would bounce his leg when hes nervous #i need to replay p5 games at some point tbh the motivation isn't there for p5 anymore sad emoji

[the-geeky-fangirl]

yes i know heartstopper is "cringe" and yes I know you think it's not that deep but you've endured years of cringe oversexualized shows about high schoolers where the gays are delegated to sub plots I'm sure a few hours of queer people being safe and happy and loved won't kill you so please shut the fuck up

#im so fucking TIRED of people acting like heartstopper is a new brand of cringe #they're literal 15/16 year olds what the fuck do you wqnt from them #imagine letting the vampire diaries and teen wolf run for as long as they did and then complaining about this #just say you hate queer joy and leave #heartstopper #heartstopper season 2 #nick and charlie #tao xu #elle argent #tara jones #darcy olsson #tara and darcy #tao and elle #isaac henderson #alice oseman #kit connor #joe locke #for those aaking yea i did come across a bunch of people calling it cringe and i took it personally

[the-phantom-peach]

Meeting the Light Dragon ✨🐉

[tagged as spoilers!]

#do you like the color of the sky #sorry long post #anyways #everyone’s talking about ‘the theme of totk is hands’ okay yeah but have you seen the eyes?? #this game is so good I’m biting my hands #I just wanted to get this one off my chest bc im tired it didn’t turn out the way I wanted but that’s okay #coloring was really fun though! #im sad now gotta draw happy stuff to cope #totk spoilers #the legend of zelda #legend of zelda #tloz #loz #tears of the kingdom #breath of the wild #totk #botw #Zelda #Nintendo #totk link #totk Zelda #totk light dragon #light dragon #totk zelink #zelink #tloz fanart #totk fanart #art #my art

[iiflywithmeii]

i just wanna cut everyone off and rot away in my bed

#actually bpd #bpd culture is #bpd feels #bpd fp #bpd problems #bpd safe #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #depressing life #depressing shit #bpd #depressiv #sorry for being depressing #i’m bored #im bored #i just wanna sleep #i hate it so much #i hate it here #why am i like this #i hate this #i wanna die #i hate everything #i’m so lonely #i’m outraged #i’m going insane #i’m just a girl #i’m sad #i’m so sorry #i’m so tired #i’m sorry

[vriskan8or]

let her go

#homestuck #vriska serket #terezi pyrope #vriska #terezi #vrisrezi #mic_art #screencap redraw of that one utena scene woohoo #vrisrezi and utenanthy dont share many similarities but there are some interesting parallels that can be drawn #like theyre all characters who are devoted to the respective roles they think they have #utena needs to be a prince and vriska needs to be a hero #terezi needs to cast vriska as the villain so that she can be the one to bring her to justice while anthy #is resigned to her role as the rose bride and is cast as a witch by others (and herself in a way...) to justify her suffering #im too tired to put into words all the other shit rattlign around in my brain but something something vriska society violence princes utena #something interesting to note is that in the rgu stabbing scene utena is walking to the left while is hs vriskas walking to the right #which i think is mostly a cultural difference due to english being read left to right while japanese is read right to left #changing which direction is percieved as forward #which could be read further into but could also just be the natural flow of the scene or whateevr #idk i need to peruse ohtori.nu again i looooove reading utena essays

[connorsok]

before I played Disco Elysium, I thought Harry du Bois was a co-worker in the precinct you work at and, reading about him being such a fucked up guy, I was literally planning on avoiding him as much as possible in my playthrough... colour me surprised when I found the badge and found out the main character's name

#literally playing the game dreading when this fabled du bois character would pop up #then i find the badge.... see Harrier du Bois on screen #and i just go.... oh fuck... its me... im the problem guy #disco elysium #harry du bois #i love getting facts about media so incredibly messed up #it adds to the fun so much #1k #soy yo #disco elysium spoilers #rbs turned off cause im tired of seeing this in notes

[cinderellahoneymoon]

im being so fucking for real and i need you guys to boost and reblog this you nonblack selfshippers have got to stop using "simp." you have to. its african american vernacular english (aave) which in colloquial terms means its not for you to use. in a space already hostile towards shippers of color, youre just making it more inhospitable to black selfshippers by appropriating our language. say youre crushing. say youre obsessed. say youre head over heels, say youre a sucker, say youre infatuated, just stop saying simp. for the love of god

{nonblack shippers [even other shippers of color] i do NOT want to hear your opinion on this post or hear about how you "didnt know" or are "changing it right now." just be an ally and LISTEN instead of needing to add your piece.}

#at this point i am just desperate . trying to get the word out there bc clearly ppl still dont know #im TIRED of all these nonblack shippers having simp in their username or their bio #one of the main reasons i dont interact w the community is bc its so ISOLATING and so many ppl are so ignorant #and everything is so white-centric that i cant stand it #squiddyneg #squiddyspeak #f/o community #self shipping #self ship #self ship community #f/o #romantic f/o #familial f/o #platonic f/o #f/o x s/i #f/o positivity #f/o comfort #imagine your f/o #f/o imagines #selfshipping #selfship #selfship community #selfship positivity #fictional other #comfort character #f/o prompts #imagine your fictional other #comfort character imagines #poc selfship #poc selfshipper

[chestnutroan]

waking up

#art #artists on tumblr #horror #ghosts #halloween #blood #injury #1930s #im so tired i think ill just die. i hope you guyses like it and it was worth it

[ourenjiro]

i did not expect to finish (?) this at all, so im left scratching my head because i've already used the hozier lyrics on a fucking sketch. which is my bad, really

i will be the devil in your land of make believe

there. that should do it

#bloodweave #gale/astarion #astarion/gale #ONCE AGAIN tag hell. #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #if anyone's curious those lyrics are from “adultery” by dog fashion disco #anyway FINISHED not perfect im so tired i gotta stop hyperfixating on this piece and just move on yknow

[sallymew4]

anime Mob not being as sassy as manga Mob was truly a loss

look at these

it even looks like he’s kind of grinning

#little sassboy #‘see my previous remark’ ?! #woah little man ! better watch your tone there ! #hes so funny #i like him #also sorry for all the low effort posts #ill try to get some art n stuff out….cuz i love yall……. #im just silly tired rn 4 no rezn #and like kinda buzy #but thats liek all the time so hhehe #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #shigeo kageyama #kageyama shigeo

[stariiberry]

more yuri!!!!!!

#labru #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #laios touden #kabru #im just gonna have a labru yuri tag now #I LOVE TURNING THEM INTO WOMEN!!!!!! #my art #doodle #scribble #im so tired gootnight

[splatloafbud]

IM,, IM COOKING SOMETHING... ahh

#ive been only posting dedf1sh art on this blog so far LOL #im sorry i just love them sm omg.... #acht splatoon #dedf1sh #splatoon #fanart #loafbud #blockbench #3d lowpoly #im tired and hungry as hell.. like legit i need to snack on smth real quick #.....unless...... maybe once im done with this model... i can eat it 👁️👁️ /j #OMNOM NOM NOMFOMONMNOM

[crystal963]

Just once, just once, I want a character to go, "I don't know guys, maybe dating just isn't for me." and instead of everyone immediately going, "awww, I don't think that's the case, you just haven't met the right person." someone brings up aromantism or asexuality and the character going on a journey of self discovery.

#asexuality #aromantic #im so tired of allonormativity #i just want more representation #this might be a good start to a book #hmmmm

[artingstarvist]

TGCF Vol 3, Chp. 43 - 44 (First "Kiss") Part 2 / 5 (First, Next)

Next part is finally done! Xie Lian's inner monologue kills me.

Novel excerpt under the cut:

[denotes panel #]

[1, 2] Xie Lian blinked, trying desperately to bat away the thousands upon millions of lingering crystalline bubbles. [3] Then he found himself caught by a pair of strong arms. [4, 5] One hand circled his waist, and the other grasped his chin. [6] In the next second, something cold and soft covered his lips. [7]In that instant, Xie Lian's eyes bulged. Never in his life had anyone treated him like this. First, no one dared, second, no one could. However this person was swift like the devil and had appeared so suddenly that he had no chance to defend himself before he'd been plunged into such a state. [8, 9] Flustered, he thrashed and desperately tried to push the person away. [10] Instead, he only succeeded in choking on large mouthfuls of water as string after string of bubbles escaped his mouth like crystal beads. Of course, this was a big mistake underwater. [11] The hands round his waist only tightened, pressing their bodies closer together, and Xie Lian's struggling hands were firmly folded and crushed against his own chest, trapping them in place. [12] His lips, too, were securely sealed. The kiss deepened, and with it, a breath of cool, gentle air was transferred into his mouth. [13, 14, 15] Completely helpless and at a loss, just as Xie Lian began to accept his fate, he finally saw the person's face clearly. [16] It was Hua Cheng. [17] The moment he realized it was Hua Cheng, he stopped struggling. Innumerable random thoughts popped into his mind, all inappropriate for the time and place, such as : So it was Hua Cheng! No wonder he's cold. [18] Ghosts don't need to breathe, but he can still transfer air to me?! [19] Don't ghosts sink in the water? [20] Hua Cheng suddenly opened his eye. [21, 22] Staring into that dark eye from such an intimate distance, Xie Lian froze again, then resumed struggling, his arms flailing like a duck so clumsy it was drowning. [23, 24] Hua Cheng easily corralled those thrashing limbs, and with his arm still firmly locked around Xie Lian's waist, Hua Cheng took him and speedily swam upward.

#tgcf #heaven official's blessing #hualian #xie lian #hua cheng #hualian first kiss comic #my art #if you feel like this needs a cw/tw tag let me know i wasn't really sure??? I dont usually post things that need warnings #just tell me wtf to tag it as if it seems too much #im so tired of looking at this tho fr #next episode they tackle the fetus spirit!