#i hope they dnt mean it

[knifeprtys]

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#sibling death tw #rainne #it might just b bcos im sic in the head but seeing how upset absolutely everyone is is kinda comforting #like ive had ppl tell me they had to leave work when they found out n stuff #and its like right??? it's devastating! she WAS that important and special #ive been inviting everyone to the funeral even tho we haven't made any arrangements yet and i mean literally everyone #ofc i tell them its okay if they cant make it n we understand #but everyones been like OF COURSE I'LL TRY MY BEST TO COME ITS RAINNE!!!!!! #even when ppl who barely knew her are reaching out or ppl she hadn't been in contact w for years its all genuine we r all shattered #i wish she knew how loved she was and how much she meant to people before all of this #i thought it would annoy me seeing randoms come out of the wood work but it doesn't #what dOES is everyone being like now WE have to stay in contact #i hope they dnt mean it #esp my foster parents we had to contact them ofc even tho we've been out of care for the 20 - 15 yrs #and theyre so religious and they were telling us abt their own kids and how theyre pastors and ambassadors now #and its just like . buddy i lay in my bed and i plan to for the rest of my life #my brothers doing good w his life but i am noT a success story #n i cant bare them trying i know they mean well but itsss overrrrrr for meeeeeeee #the waiting abt for everything is killing me too #im gonna try and distract myself today rbing silly little pics on here feels wrong but i rly do use tumblr to like. soothe myself lol #every time smth bad has happened in the past ive been on here just rbing as normal even if i was full on sobbing #its my brothers birthday today too so im still gonna try and make it nice for him #idk how but im gonna try

[theirmadness]

❛ you snore in your sleep. it’s adorable. ❜ (for carol from kára perhaps)

meme status: can't find original post so please peruse through my tag. muse: carol danvers. 30s.

“ what a load of shit. i absolutely do not snore, ” defensive as always when accused of such foul things, carol rolled onto her side, hitting the other woman with one of the extra pillows playfully. it warranted a laugh from her lips. she wasn't really the type to laugh first thing in the morning, but here she was, nonetheless, laughing, and it wasn't even noon yet. “ you, madam, talk in your sleep. so you're hardly one to judge. ” she propped her head up onto her palm, the smile never leaving her lips as she watched marina. she was gorgeous. and fuck, if she wasn't a reason to hang around earth a little while longer. “ i can't remember the last time i slept that well, though. your bed rocks. ”

#heartsbreaking #girls . . . carol. #meme file . . . carol danvers. #meme files . . . carol & marina. #answered ask. #pls feel free to turn this into a thread! #hope u dnt mind i picked marina #im just a hoe for lindsey #this could be like a cute morning after or #just a “platonic” sleepover #i'm fine with either #platonic probs meaning that carol is pretending she's not crushing on her dnjajkda

[burydaisies]

i ........ remembered my login

#omg #i hve been in a writers block for so lonnng i didnt mean 2 disappear #i hope u are all doing so well i miss writing smsmsm #the amount of ideas / muse ideas r on my mind like #i dnt think my fingies will go fast enough

[juneberrie]

you always have been

thinking thoughts. *ೃ༄ this is very self indulgent im not sorry <3 btw the formatting is terrible 😭 also this is 1.5k words im so proud of myself its literally the longest fic i've ever written

pairing: jj maybank x fem!reader

fandom: outerbanks

warnings: swearing, mentions of being drunk, reader kind of pushes jj away, insecure!reader, stressed out!reader, mentions of jj's trash dad, fear of abandonment, sort of a smau? science hw (yes thats a warning science hw sucks), love confession, hurt/comfort <3

jj's instagram is a mess. it alternates between pictures of random objects, pictures of himself, and pictures of our friends.

lately, all of his pictures have been pictures of him and the pogues at keggers and on the boat. without me.

the most recent one is a blurry shot of him and kie at the boneyard. his hair is dripping wet and kie is holding up a red solo cup, beer sloshing over the side. the caption reads, "my brst girl 😋 ilysn kier.carrera" its so misspelled its obvious hes drunk, even without looking at the picture.

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↳ comments

-> jb.wifirouter ong your so drunk. ↳ heywpope its "youre" not "your" 💀 and you're durnk too ↳ sarahcamer0n lmaooo durnk

-> kier.carrera lol ilyt jj 💀 ↳ kier.carrera wsit wring emoji ❤️

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i groan and shut my phone off. kie knows i like jj. she's heard me rant about him since eighth grade. its fine, though. i need to focus on school. i get up and silence my phone, putting it into a drawer at my desk before going back to the papers sprawled on my bed.

science isn't my best subject, but i need this extra credit to bring my grade up. and, no pressure at all, this stupid extra credit is due by monday, at its literally sunday night. at least its pretty easy. all i have to do is write an essay about newton's laws and how they function in the "real" world. i sigh and open my textbook to the page on the first law, inertia.

as im scribbling down the beginnings of the paragraph about f=ma, my pencil breaks. well, how fucking dandy. i get up and head to my desk to grab a sharpener, and i pass the mirror next to my door.

i cringe away, then force myself to look back. the girl staring back at me is... not kie. not sarah. she's wearing a big oversized t-shirt she stole from jj and some shorts. her nail polish is chipped and her hair is practically crying for escape from the worn scrunchie.

i tear my gaze away and grab the sharpener. the clock on my desk reads 11:11 pm. i remember something kie said about making wishes at 11:11, so i think, why not give it a try? i squeeze my eyes shut and hope my wish gets to whatever magical star angel being is listening.

after i finish my essay, its 12:23 am. i grab my phone from the drawer and see a flurry of texts and instagram notifications assaulting my lock screen.

i ignore the texts — six from kie and eight from jj — and click open instagram.

my homepage is filled with pictures of the pogues at the kegger they're at. i can't help the pettiness that surges up inside me and i click on jj's most recent story, a video of him, kie, pope, john b, and sarah screaming the lyrics to bohemian rhapsody around a campfire.

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you replied to their story

yourinstagram looks like you're having fun :)

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i feel slightly terrible, but whatever. every single kegger they've been to this past week, i haven't been invited.

a text notification comes down onto my screen. it's from kie. the preview reads "im soo sorru"

what the hell? i immediately click on the text and i almost start crying.

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kie kie ml ♡

bro so dnt be mad but like i accidentally told jj that u liked him

im sorry

answer me please idont want yu to be mad

i dd;t mean to i swaer

y/n?? are you mad??

y/n pleeaas answre

im soo sorru

bro wtf.

ik im sorry but we were playing truuth or dsre and plpe asked if i had acrush on anybody and i sadi no i didn't but ik you did and the n jj asked who and im sorry :)

:(*** SORRY

whatever. go enjoy your kegger.

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what the everloving fuck. i specifically told her not to tell anyone, especially jj, and she goes and tells everyone and their mother. i've gotten a flurry of texts from pope, john b, sarah, and other pogues i suppose are at the kegger, all asking me if it's true i like jj. and, speak of the devil, jj himself has been texting me nonstop for the past thirty minutes.

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golden retriever lookin' mf 😋

haha kie jus told me the funnist shut

wait is she for real

wait n/n yuo like me

like fr fr?

brp answer me pls

y/nnnnnn

are you asleepo r somethinh 💀

y/n if you dpn't answer rn rn im going ovet to yiur house

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shit. jj can't come over right now. i look like a mess, and now im fucking crying. my gaze drifts back over to the mirror; my eyes are red and puffy and tears are streaming down my face and dripping down onto my (jj's) shirt.

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golden retriever lookin' mf 😋

jj please dont come over just stay at the kegger and have fun

nooo y/n im already on my wsy so its fine

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shit shit shit.

i throw my phone across the room and scream into my bedsheets. the pogues already didn't like me anymore; they had been going out and having fun without for weeks now, and now kie tells jj i like him? my life is fucking falling apart.

a knock at my window wakes me up from whatever sad haze i was trapped in for the last twenty minutes. jj's peering in and he smiles when he meets my gaze. i shake my head and turn away from him.

no bother letting him in, he'll probably just tell me that he doesn't like me back and to never talk to him again.

another knock, persistent, sounds from the window. i sigh and turn back.

i open the window but leave the screen up, so jj can hear me but he can't get in. "go away, j."

"nooo. wait, why are you cryiinggg?" he asks, the booze slurring his words.

"nothing. no reason. go away, please, jj," i say, my voice cracking.

his face softens and he seems to sober up a bit. "n/n, please tell me what's wrong. i hate seeing you sad," he whispers. fuck. i can't, i can't with the fucking blue eyes and the soft looks and the whispers. i open the rest of the window, and jj climbs in.

i crawl under the covers of my bed and face away from jj. i feel the bed dip next to me and he lays a warm hand on my back. its so casual, so domestic, that i want to laugh.

"sunshine, what's wrong? is this about what kie said?" he asks, gently rubbing my back.

the dam breaks. tears start flowing out of my eyes and i started shaking.

"it is about what kie said. i like you, jj, i really like you. no, i- i love you! i love you so much. i've loved you since i first saw you in mrs. williams' science class in eight grade and you laughed when she said that iron was discovered by the hittites. and i know you'll never love me back because— well— look at me! im not like kie, im not like sarah. i'm just... me! and i've been trying to pretend like you guys going to keggers everyday without me isn't a big deal because, hey, i'm swamped with school, even though its fucking intercession. and i knew if i told you, you'd hate me and you'd never talk to me again," i sob into my pillow.

jj is silent for a few seconds, still rubbing my back.

"i love you too, sunshine. i've loved you for the entirety of the time i've known you. and, you're right. you're not kie or sarah, but you're you. that's what i love about you. you are unapologetically yourself. and i'm sorry for not inviting you to the keggers. i just, i knew you were swamped and i know you don't really like parties 'nd drinking and shit. and i just want you to know that im so proud of you, honey, and— jesus, y/n. you're the only one for me. you always have been. you're the person who's been there whenever luke did something shitty to me, you've helped me with my homework, and gosh, dare i say it, you've helped me be a better person."

he chuckles. i feel him press a kiss to the back of my neck and gently bring me towards him so i'm basically in his lap. he wraps his arms around me and lays his head in the crook of my neck. we stay together in a comfortable silence for a few moments.

i sniffle. "i'm sorry, j."

"you're not the one who should be apologizing, sunshine. i love you, so much. i'm sorry if i made you feel like i'd never talk to you again or like you weren't enough; you are enough. you always have been."

#jj maybank #jj maybank x reader #jj maybank angst #jj maybank fluff #obx #obx x reader #outerbanks #outerbanks x reader #jj obx #jj obx fic #outerbanks fanfiction #jj maybank hurt/comfort #hurt/comfort #fluff #angst #[🧸] dear diary

[ashley-amelie]

hello……. may i prompt souyo + swap (the swapped thing is up to you heheh 🫶

hello!! and thank you for leaving me a prompt :3c

the swapped thing I chose was *drumroll* selfies!

I hope you like this! (and that the formatting is okay, oof)

**

Yosuke customizes every entry in his phone's contacts list. It's just what he does. He's been doing it since his first one years ago, when he figured out that he could pair a yellow-orange background with his mom's photo and a green one with his dad's.

So when Yosuke remembers he doesn't have a contact photo for Yu, two weeks after initially exchanging numbers, he fires off a quick text –

> hey prtnr snd me a pic 4 my contacts k??

– and wanders away for a glass of water. He has three messages from Yu when he comes back to his desk and, by proxy, his phone a few minutes later. 

> Sure.

> Is this good?

The third message, only an image file, takes another minute to download. Yosuke smiles a little when he sees it; it's a slim white cat, curled into a tight ball, with only one ear visible.

It's cute, but it's not Yu.

Yosuke sends his response.

> i meant liek a selfie lol

Yu's back-to-back reply –

> Oh.

> I don't have any.

– rouses surprise, suspicion, and then understanding. In that order. 

While Yosuke has only known Yu for all of a month, he's already cottoned on to some of the other boy’s ways and attitudes. And considering how airheaded he seems about his own appearance – how does he not notice all the looks he gets? it's insane! – Yosuke can believe it.

He fully understands how Narukami Yu might not have a single selfie.

Nevertheless, Yosuke presses on.

> take 1??

And finds himself baffled at Yu's response.

> I'll try.

Try? As if it's hard?

The next image Yu sends downloads as slowly as the first, and Yosuke twirls in his desk chair while waiting on it.

As soon as it's done, Yosuke snorts again in amusement.

> dude thats jus ur eye wtf

Not even both eyes; just one, taken so closely that Yosuke can see his fine, silvery lower lashes and the edges where his pupil meets the pale gray of his iris. He'd been meaning to ask if Yu is wearing coloured contacts; from the picture Yosuke still can't tell.

The notification for Yu's next message –

> No good then? Let me try again.

– reorients his thoughts. Was he really analyzing a picture of someone's eye? Yosuke scrubs a hand over his face; the countryside must be turning him into a weirdo.

But, after looking over the subsequent photo that downloads, Yosuke takes it back. He can't be a weirdo when Yu has the entire concept of weird on lock. It's an upside-down, blurry close-up of the bridge of his nose and, honestly, what kind of message is Yosuke supposed to take away from that? 

Other than –

> plz dnt tell me u dnt kno how 2 take a selfie

> here liek this

Yosuke tabs through his image gallery until he finds his favorite selfie. Although it's the same pose as most of his other photos – a peace sign and a flirty wink – he'd felt better than usual that day and the camera noticed.

He ends up spinning in his chair again as he waits; right now, even this is more entertaining than trying to read through his Literature homework.

Yu's messages ping one after another again.

> Thanks.

> You look really happy.

> How is this?

What comes through last is a perfectly clear photo of Yu, smiling slightly, with his cheek resting on his fist. It's a new photo, unlike Yosuke's – the collar of his Yasogami uniform is unmistakable.

He attaches the photo to Yu's contact profile, completing it, and puts his phone aside.

Ugh, homework.

#of the textual variety #my fic #souyo #THE p4 tag #this could've been longer probably #but I'm sleepy #womp #catnatch

[thelastsaiyanprincess]

always been curious abt this in general !! what is it abt tkl kink that draws you into it? i luv learning abt new kinks n why some people are into them ! <3 if u dnt wanna answer tht's okay u can delete this <3!

i am suddenly sosososo shy so im gonna answer under the cut.,,....

to begin, it's really more of a fetish for me because i have a super tough time climaxing without it! its practically hard wired into my brain and there's soooo much i luv but i'll share my fave things!

• i like the feeling/sensation of being tkld, its like experiencing physical giddiness and excitement. i literally feel addicted. i could lay there and take it forever and ever if only it didnt wear me out so much skfhdj

• i like that it's something that only someone else can give to u. as if its sole purpose is to bring us closer 🥹

• i like how excited yet terrified i feel when someone discovers i'm tklish, especially if they ALSO get excited about it! it's like a rush of adrenaline!

• i like that it forces me to let loose, to react in a wild and uncontrollable way and just surrender to my body's urges without overthinking or putting on a performance

• i like the idea of someone knowing my weak spots. i like that it requires exploration of the body. it feels very intimate, especially because most of my hotspots are places only lovers would touch!

• i like it as a form of physical affection, like when someone just wants to see you smile or hear your laugh, or they do it just cause they know you like it!!! eeeeeeee!!!!!!!

• i like how it feels so errogenous!! i get turned on so easily just from a lil bit of it skdbdjs

• i like being teased/lightly humiliated for it! not in a super mean or degrading way, but playful fun! tkling is such a silly kink/fetish, i kinda HAVE to make fun of myself for liking it lolol. and when ppl tease me about it, my head starts spinning and i feel lil hearts floating around fkshdkf its just GOOD ok

• i also like knowing other people's tklish spots for the same reason!

• i like seeing people squirm and thrash just from a few light touches! i like hearing people beg for mercy! i like the sound of frantic laughter and the struggle to form words! im a huuuge lover of reactions in general and tkling someone is one of the best ways to get them!

• i like dominating ppl with tkling, esp if theyre taller and bigger than me! its SO HOT seeing someone else melt in your hands or be broken down by a gentle touch esp because i'm so small! but this is the power i wield! very few things are hotter to me than domming someone w tkling!!!!

• i like laughter!!! cant say it enough but its one of the hottest things about tkling!!!

i know that was long but i hoped i shed some light on it!! 🤍

#asks #this is a longboi #i overshared but i'm deleting this later anyway SKBFSKSBSKSB #you already know too much

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

My Old man's tale about benetint (product) & review:

in summer 2008 i was 14 & my best friend's family took me to Vegas w them. she had only just moved to my school for 9th grade & i hadn't met her older sister til this trip. She was 21 & soooo insanely beautiful like if barbie was a hollister model she had the look so refined in every sense, i was dazzled by her.

& she was so sweet to us, my friends parents went & did their own thing so the whole trip we spent with her but she wasn't annoyed about it at all she seemed content to hang w us & protect us from vile men along the strip.

On this trip i went to sephora for the first time. hadn't heard of it before. it had huge windows so everything was glowing from sunlight & it was sooo overwhelming. my friend's sister liked this brand benefit so i picked out a little starter kit that came w bad gal mascara, high beam highlighter, booing concealer, and benetint.. Let me tell you for the next year i cherished this kit like it elevated me a new level towards Prestiged Adult Woman status. but the makeup was noticeably nicer quality for sure! from my memory at least.

the thing i remember most was benetint cus i wore it soooo much for the rest of the summer & beyond, i stretched that tiny bottle as far as it wld go cus i luved it sm.. but after it ran out i never tried to use it again idk just being a teen moving onto the next thing. But lately i jst rly wanted a goood lip tiiiint cus i dont wanna b wearing lipstick or gloss all the time its too much i just want chapstick but i like a little more color too.. usually i wld use lip liner but it always felt like it wld smudge off so quick n its kinda drying.

so i tried benetint again bcus i remember it being so easy to put on n then just forget about, it didnt get on ur clothes or teeth or nothin. after wearing for a couple weeks i can say this is still tru! i rly like it, very convenient, chapstick goes gr8 over top so my lips r never dry from it. its kind of expensive but it lasts a long time , for me i dnt have much makeup rn so felt nice to get st i actually use ^^ the taste & smell of it are mildly rosey, rly brings me back to those times..

being in vegas those 4 days w my friend n her sis are definitely a core memory for me it was totally surreal. i wish i had photos still but no clue where to find them, my friend's fb account got hacked years ago n had to get deleted, so many photos gone </3 we stayed at treasure island & across the street was this huge mall that was repeatedly playing an ipod commercial with the song Shut Up & Let Me Go by the ting-tings, like... ON REPEAT, ALL DAY & ALL NIGHT, so that song gives me the wildest flashbacls like i'm literally There. In the august heat. i can smell it like. its amazing thank you advertising :)

this is not an ad btw i mean obviously LOL i honestly just got thinking so hard about vegas '08 after purchasing The Product. oh yeah there was thunderstorms too... i went to hot topic at the mall which was wild for me since they didnt have one any where near my town.. i got some shorts from hollister i remember, also a rarity. friends sis got me my first ever drink, a peach daquiri...just one <3 it was such a nice break from my woeful home life lol i wanted to live in america so bad after this xD

thats my story...o and benetint is chill i mean i genuinely wanted to recommend it to ppl who want st simple it looks rly pretty cus until this i was struggling to find anything worthwhile. theres other shades too. Yup. Thanksyou for reading my LiveJournal Entry tonight minasan ^_^ Hope you're well x

-PMD9

#frossworld #pochitareviews

[charliesgoodboy]

Since you want csm requests I shall provide. How about Aki x male reader where reader knows Aki is always tired and stressed(maybe) so he just gives Aki a relaxing day when he gets home like dinner,a bath, and some cuddles after that?

-♡Aki x Male reader(SFW)

-♡A/N:You...are wondurful tysm😭

You understand that Aki had a very improtant job..entirely to improtant.

And having to be around other people especially two really obnoxious teenagers that drive. Him. Mad.

You noticed he's been losing sleep, well- way more sleep, he always tells you he'll be okay that it's just a small worry and it'll pass soon.

Well it didn't.

You just started to worry about him even more.

Until you thought maybe you can do something for him. It wont really change much, but you can at least try.

When Aki came home, sighing and taking down his hair, expecting maybe you coming to greet him, or you already asleep considering it was pretty late.

But instead he was greeted with how setting up the table of food. You thought since he is usually the one who cooked maybe you can cook for him !

"Whats this dear ?" He asks, wiping your hands you smile at him giving him a peck on the cheek and rushing him to sit down.

"Here, just eat I missed you." Aki did find this behavior kind of odd, but none the less he went with it.

You had cooked him curry, it was one of the easiest dishes to cook before he got home, and plus hus curry was amazing so repaying the favor won't hurt.

Taking the spoon in his hand scooping up the curry and taking a bite. And-

"Dear gosh..this is really good, where did you learn to make curry this good love.." Giggling a bit glad he liked it as you worked really hard on it just for him.

"Now, Now finish your food quickly please, I have other things for you." You dnt mean to push him really, but you did have other things planed for him that would make him relax way more.

He sets the spoon down next to the plate, closing his eyes slightly breathing in and out, just a small way to cope.

Your smile just kept getting happier and even more exited hoping that Aki would like what he was going to get.

"Your finished ?" He nods in response as you take his plate and spoon setting it in the sink and taking his arm leading him into the bathroom.

Taking him inside the bathroom, with a warm bath as the smell of lavender hit his nose. Calming him down even more.

"Could you..take off your clothes for me ?" Kinda nervous to ask.

He smiles obliging taking off his button up and hanging it to you, same with his pants and boxers.

Taking his clothes in hand you set them kn the laundry room, going back to the bathroom seeing Aki in the bath tub it looked like he was waiting for you.

"Can you come in here with me ?" He asks, a slight pink tinted your cheeks, Nodding and taking off your clothes heading into the tub with him.

Aki wraps his arms around you, both of you leaning into eachothers touches in a comftorble silence.

"Why did you do this for me dear ?" He says breaking the silence.

"Well you seemed so stressed and tired, and I wanted to kind of..help you with that you know ?" He chuckles barrying his face into your neck holding you tighter.

"I love you so much..thank you."

"I love you too dear..always."

#Aki x male reader #csm x male reader #aki chainsaw man #aki x y/n #aki x reader #male y/n #chainsaw man x reader #Chainsaw man x male reader

[mandos-things]

Comfort - Chris Evans

Relationship: Chris Evans x gn!reader

Warnings: mentions of crying, angst, fluffy ending, comfort

Summary: Y/n's boyfriend comforts them after a nightmare.

Thank you @hoperu14 for requesting! Hope you enjoy❤

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In..out...in....out.....breathe.

You brushed your hands over your face, sniffling as quietly as possible so as to not wake up your sleeping boyfriend beside you.

You took a deep breath. Breathe. Just a nightmare. Just a nightma-

"Baby?"

He's still half asleep, however the sight of your teary-eyed face is enough to drag him up and into your space.

"Mmsorry. Di-dnt  mean to w-wake you," you breathe shakily, yelping slightly as you feel the warmth of Chris's arm circle your form.

"Shhhh, baby. Its okay, its alright darlin', " he moves you between his legs, one hands around your waist and the other holding your face to his warm chest.

You sigh at his warmth, and you let yourself just feel. He leaves soft, loving kisses along the crown of your head. Thumb wiping away stray tears, as he murmurs sweet nothings into your ear.

"Just a dream baby. I'm right here."

He squeezes you tighter, hand moving to your back to help steady your breathing.

"Look at me angel," you tilt your chin up, red eyes sleepily staring into his ocean eyes.

He moves his lips from your forehead, down to your nose, smiling lightly as you giggle at the featherlight touch.

"I love you," you tell him, leaning upon to capture his lips in yours.

Me moves you until you're straddling him, arms circled protectively around you. "I love you too, baby. I got you, I'm right here. I'll always protect you."

~~~~~

#chris evans fic #chris evans #cevans #chris evans x reader #chris evans imagine #chris evans fanfiction #chris evans fluff #chris evans x gn!reader #chris evans comfort #comfort fic #fluffy #chris evans x you #reader insert #marvel #marvel imagines #marvel fic #marvel comfort

[destinyc1020]

Confession: i think a lot of ppl acknowledge that Tom is a good actor, bt some ppl question his non-Spiderman roles, which i dnt personally disagree with. He def gets praised for his acting being the best part of a lot if his projects (cherry, tcr) bt i think ppl want movies/shows scripts to actually match his acting talent. Hes 27 and seems lik the type to keep on going, so hes going to b ok lol i think the R+J is really going to b great in his career and same with the Fred movie. I think he really does well in musicals and stage work

I do see a lot of overlap of Tom/Tomdaya fans, bt some of the few solo Tom fans I see seem to hate Z 😬 idk what it is about a lot of white boy fans hating their partners (even if its a small minority, their loud), bt it seems to b a trend. Tom used to follow some of his fanbase igs too, bt has since unfollowed some of them and mayb that distanced some if his fans? Idk tbh bt i think the overlap of Tom/Tomdaya fans might hav to due with mayb that, Z was more known during Spiderman+ a lot of her fans became his fans and i think hes one of the few young male celebs that seem to publically praise/admire his gf, and a lot of ppl really seem to lik that. I hav no doubt he will prob gain more solo fans when future projects come in

Thanks Anon for your Confession. :)

i think a lot of ppl acknowledge that Tom is a good actor, bt some ppl question his non-Spiderman roles, which i dnt personally disagree with. He def gets praised for his acting being the best part of a lot if his projects (cherry, tcr) bt i think ppl want movies/shows scripts to actually match his acting talent.

I understand that 100%. Did people have an issue with the TCR script? I felt that the script was just fine?? My only complaint was that it seemed to take a bit longer to get to the point, and it treated us as viewers like we were 5 years old lol (most of us figured out the twist by the end of episode 1, even if you don't follow Tom closely), but I didn't see anything wrong with the script.

To me, playing a role like Danny in TCR was actually a pretty complex role that has an actor playing like 5 different people....which, I felt that Tom executed beautifully btw. 😊

And the complaints with the script for some of his other projects like TDATT... I mean, Robert Pattinson was in the film as well.... Same with Bill Skarsgard. They're known to be decent actors. Why are their fans not harping on TDATT and how bad the script was? Why are THEY allowed to do TDATT and go on to do other projects without any complaint? Why is Tom always the one getting complained about? All of these actors are GOOD actors. Amanda Seyfriend was in TCR and she's also a good actress. Why is she not getting so much heat? Why is the pressure always on Tom?? 🤔 That's what I don't understand. I personally think fans are a bit too hard on Tom. Just let an actor be and do his/her job.... Not every project is going to be a blockbuster, or a "hit" with audiences... And you know what?? That's perfectly OKAY! Actors continue to act. 😊

Idk tbh bt i think the overlap of Tom/Tomdaya fans might hav to due with mayb that, Z was more known during Spiderman+ a lot of her fans became his fans and i think hes one of the few young male celebs that seem to publically praise/admire his gf, and a lot of ppl really seem to lik that.

I do feel that some fans of Tomdaya are just fans of Tom simply because Z is dating him, and they are just fans of whoever Z dates, as long as the guy treats her well. 🤷🏾‍♀️

I hav no doubt he will prob gain more solo fans when future projects come in

I hope so! 😊 This is just my personal opinion (of course), but I've been saying for a while now that I think Tom needs just a little bit of autonomy separating his career from his love life. We should be able to search for things on Tom and have plenty of Tom-solo content that doesn't have to be related to his gf (or gross, hypersexualized manips 🤮). I would be saying that no matter who he's dating.

It seems like for Tom however, they are inextricably linked, and imo that can be a BAD thing (in the long run) for a LOT of reasons. 🥴👀

At least with Zendaya, I feel like she has a separation of fans who are just fans of her and her work, and content isn't just about who she's dating/Tom, etc.... Idk if I'm making sense.

#confession sunday

[baeddelations]

I think this part of my loathing of seeing this article passed around "i am tw, iam staying in the closet" bc it is a diary entry that was explicitly not supposed to be advice or a rubric. She origanilly aays its just 1 narrative to take in then when it gets past around she says hey this was me venting i didnt intend for anyone to read this.

I think this is the major interest in this piece. A view into the interiority of a tw whos been closeted for 20 yrs and her personal xp growin up then being a closeted tw in a University WGS dept. Some ppl might call this a fetishistic interest in the interiority of this tw, oh how they love poking around in the frankenstein monsters guts, poking his brain to see what horrid mismatched limb will jump.

I think the main reason @autolenaphilia interacted with this is bc this article was passed around by a bunch of transmisogynist who are adpting and pulling together the transmisogyny of jeniffer and her recounting of cismanhating that exists in primarily cisfeminist spaces and by extension radical and queer spaces. Jennifer does not bring up cafab transness or transmasculinity once in this article yet it is cited as inspiration for truther framework.

I do think the way that jennifer talks about not wanting to acquiesce is kinda built on a faulty conjecture which is that if she transitioned she would be able to talk about femininity in these spaces... at one point she says this probably wouldnt be true(mb just for her) but then goes back to the original argumentation on many occasions. This argumentation taken to conlusion posits that it is easier to discourse or even exist in those spaces as a tw than as a cis man that u will be more include and less ridiculed. At the time of this article she had never actually tried out this proposition, so she never got to see how this prop is at least in all the copius amounts of personal and anecdotal xp i have false. But this prop is useful for ppl who want push tw have it easier and that men are reviled for being men. Enter prager xcuse me truthers.

I also hate internalized oppression framework, imo it is an idpol tool used to shift blame from the brainwashed oppressed to som aspirational that oppressive ideology comes naturally to. Is she promoting transmisogynistic ideas? Yah, shes not bad for this but it is why its useful to truthers, and part of why it hurts to read as a tw.

@autogyne-redacted i do think its hard to see point 1, 2, and 5 of y shes not trnsn nd say these arent related to passibility. Repercussion are often contingent with passablity. Movin towards phys transn being dysphoria inducing is connected with what expectations of feminity u hav and how u line up with them(i also xp this). And the gap thing is imo her wishing she could be passable w ease and recognizing she cant so settling and saying its not worth it to try.

I think lena is apply a broader scope of trans xp to jennifers xp i dnt think this is even necessarily harmful and i dnt think shes even saying jen is wrong for it shes saying her words are easy to coopt that they are capering to these tmras which they are however unitentionally. U could also take things ive said in the past and warp them into tmra shit. I fortunately didnt write these things in a medium article. She is handling in other ways and this is wut conv therapy wants... thats what it seems they go for a lot again doesnt mean jen is bad nd lena doest say shes wrong for this. The only thing lena says is she doesnt want this for herself thats not restricting jens autonomy. And that the article and responses made her sick. They made me feel bad too. This isnt necessarily a moral judgement. It could be but idk.

All this is a dissection. I hate it. I wish her vent diary post wasnt being aired, analyzed, and discoursed. Im doing it right now ffs! It makes me want to leave the internet. I hope ppl stop talkn bout it...but they wont bc the corpse of this diary can be a useful weapon against tw so itll keep gettn used.

[pznpthwz]

hiii cn i pleaseeeee pretty please have some tasks ? i rllyrlly like the mean icky stuff btw so pls dnt be nice at all :)

You want utmost cruelty and meanness?

Aren't you a blessing to all the sick fucks out there.

This is gonna be a hard kink only list. Below the cut, you will find utter depravity. CW for: Corruption. Puke. Watersports. Toilet play (No scat, still gonna be foul)

It's a fucking doozy. I hope u enjoy!

🟠(😈✏️) You are surrounded by people, begging to be sexualized and perverted by your own deviant urges. To this end, you are going to exercise this sickness with a very cerebral task. Think of a friend. A coworker. Someone you have to look in the eye on a regular basis. Now, write their name on your body with a heart around them and edge, fixating profusely on putting the most disgusting, depraved situations. In my DMs, you will regale to me the disgusting fantasy you've put them in. Enjoy not being able to talk to them like a normal person again!

🔴🔴(💦🍆🍑) You are lower than even a simple urinal. More akin to a urinal cake. Allow me to explain how: Plug your ass with a toy. The thicker, the better. You're to piss in a cup. Take that cup and let the filth fill your mouth. For once in your life, DO NOT SWALLOW. Take the toy out of your skank ass and ram it into your pissy little mouth. Resume fucking your mouth and let it all trickle out. Good freak ~

🔴🔴🔴(🚽)People are no good at cleaning the toilet. There's always that grime accumulated at the top of the bowl. Good thing you're not a person! Get a spoon. Think about how horrible you are for doing this. Scrape up a nasty helping of the grime and, simply, cram it in your fucking mouthhole. What a good toilet scrubber you are.

⚫️(💦🤮) You won't do this. You cannot actually be debased enough to do this.

But, somehow, you will. Remarkably simple, but still the sctions of a horribly debased human being. Get a bowl. Piss in it. Swirl it around, linger on your thoughts. The life choices that sent you this way. Then, get a toy and cram it deep past your gag reflex. Keep going and rutting until you spew a disgusting slime from your maw. Make sure it ends up in the bowl. All of it. Think for another long while, put the bowl to your lips, and drink the elixir of filth. The stew of your own fucked up life choices. Your fucking brine.

Okay! That was disgusting, and degrading, and hopefully to your liking!!

Sorry for the wait, I hope you are interested in literally any of this!

#corruption kink #degrading k1nk #dumbification #bimboification #degrade and humiliate me #humiliation kink #nsft #this is literally a command #emetophilia #dumb slvt #nsft tasks #hard k1nk #extreme k1nk

[bunicate]

Hihi! I hope you are doing well!!

These days I have been seeing people going on a witch hunt on creators like you, honestly I really hate it because it really makes the creators of dark content shy away from sharing their work. Im pretty sure dark content creators don’t mix real life with fiction 🥲

But anyways I really love your works and I hope people would start reading the TW, scroll pass/block rather than reading the fan FICTION that has stated the contents in it, then start getting grossed out as if they didnt know what they were getting into 💀 (people like them can stay away from GOT or any series aim for adults)

I know people’s views and kinks can be different but the kink shaming on this platform has been unbearable these days.

Hopefully you don’t get bothered from things like this! I really don’t wish to see dark content creators to vanish from this platform. Please keep doing what you do!

Sorry for the messy anon ramblings hehe but stay cute! (I literally wrote this before sleeping so im sorry if its weird LOL)

awhhh thank u for the encouraging words ! ! I dnt plan on letting anything like that bother or dissuade me from doing wht I want 2 do, so no worries my love. before i had dis blog i thought soooo long abt if I should write dc or not nd i jus decided I rlly didn’t care :<

I do realize tht there seems to be an influx of like ppl calling out dc creators , nd honestly if it’s not bad to say . . considering tht a lot of them these days lack media literacy nd nuance, i can see where they r coming from. they believe dat media/art is a sign of endorsement. . nd it worsens bcuz smut is gratifying . I genuinely do understand the critiques, nd I think they mean well but that’s part of the reason why I’ll like . . zzz nvr rlly care abt what they have to say ? Ik all these things already so idc for some stranger 2 tell me it’s wrong yk ??? BCUZ IK. thts why its abt a fictional man 🌷

#𝑚𝑎𝑖𝑙𝑏𝑜𝑥 ๑ ꒱ྀི #controversial but idc if women write dc #if ur man I actually do have a problem LAWLZ #bcuz I think we know wht happens when men have fantasies . . .

[trushe3]

Well,the title says 'wtf' cuz that was my immediate reaction after writing this....its not some piece of poetry rather my own negative self talk but rhymed.....i wrote this sm time back but never found the confidence to post it here.....idk wht got in me today haha....tho some lines may feel insignificant and unnecessary in the poem they personally mean a lot to me...I hope u dnt enjoy this negative self talk by me (cuz that's just mean!😂)

#writers and poets #female poets #poets on tumblr #poetscommunity #3 #negative emotions #personal vent #vent post #venting #self talk #self improvement #negative self talk

[shapeshivvter]

thanks for making this post about dni in pony town i thought it meant like some fraction or something and i kept talking to those people :( ill refrain from doing so next time!! thank you!! if you have any other things about ponytown do you have any other things in ponytown to keep in mind? im so new to this game its not funny

oomfie (i know you might not be a mutual but the nickname is nice so) i've known about this game for a while (i think a couple years??) im still learning stuff because i bareellyy play it. like. i dont even know good techniques for pony creation. i think the best thing to say is just, dont be a asshole . which with this ask i can tell you arent going to have a problem with that, bless your heart note that everything here is probably going to be a bunch of rambling im so sorry

i am NOT an expert on what goes on around ponytown all i know is that no matter how "chronically online" an online touch trigger is (DNT "Do not touch") , people should still respect it instead of harassing people for it. Harassing someone for it does not make you a hero, it does not make you some good guy. No little Timmy- you are just being a massive prick on a game based off a kids show.

With communication in ponytown its actually kind of difficult because either everybody is already talking to someone, or someone doesnt want to be talked to, so often when I play i often find myself sitting alone kind of just hanging around. I mean it gives me time to relax since my anxiety spikes when i join cause im immediately thrown into this huge crowd but like. Ive found it so difficult to engage in conversation. There is the "Looking for chat" status but. i dont think people use those very often.

Everything is more of my personal opinion than an objective fact

In regards to designs, inspiration is okay as long as you have permission i think. I mean, it is common decency to ask. Probably. But I dont think for one singular thing, such as a color choice, you should have to ask.

If anybody wanted to, they could use this color combo. Because I do not own the concept of these colors. I also do not own the concept of a half default pony, go wild readers. I used the striped markings for only the back legs and colored them the red, and then the pants option.

But anyways, same with pony cosplays. People dont own the characters, but they did think of the way to design them as a pony. Ask permission before taking inspiration if you are going to take heavy amounts of inspiration.

(Wheatley from Portal 2.)

I hope I pieced my thoughts together well enough, im actually kind of sick right now so it might not make sense but?? long story short just. dont be a shitty person, respect boundaries, etc

#shapeshivvter talks #Ponytown #yuo guys can ask me abt my ponies. btw. (PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE) /HJ SILLY

[girlwithfish]

makes me miss my old therapist a lot. i keep meaning to email her to let her know how my php is going. ik im gonna be so fkn miserable and tired in 3 hrs when i have to wake up for therapy all day again. yayy everything is bad but it cld be worse and comparatively im fine really just unhappy as fuck and dealing w a lot of internal and interpersonal turmoil and mental illness is wrecking my life and i dnt even want to keep trying anymore but i will but i am losing hope! ok