Musing: Emotional connection
Recently a very close person to me suggested i binge watch "Angel Hare", before that day my only exposure to that project was a fan game that had a very funny punchline in lampooning the "cursed videogame" genre.
So i watched the whole thing and it was great.
This scene right here made me feel more feelings than most of the media i have watched/played/read in like the last 5 years or so.
So it made my mind wonder, like, "hold on, when was the last time i felt this strongly about a piece of entertainment?"
Sure, if you know me, i felt strongly about the ongoing plotline for Noelle on Deltarune, so one would think "2021 when chapter two came out", right? but no, i got very invested but it wasn't it.
The last time i felt so strongly about a piece of media was actually Deltarune's predecesor, Undertale in 2015.
I finished Undertale in tears, i got in a very bad funk when i found out about the genocide ending, it truly made me feel emotions.
So i began to ponder, just what really moves me?
Full disclosure: I don't cry at movies. This is not a "look at me i am a badass who is not beheld by feelings" statement, no, i kinda just dont connect emotionally with movies as easily as other people.
I have talked about this, many times actually, Toy Story 3 did not make me cry, it always bothers me how people at the time were like "if TS3 didn't make you cry, you have no soul" and shit like that, so let me repeat something i have said many times before:
Toy Story 3 was a movie i went to see the day doctors had informed me my mother had entered terminal phase of cancer.
My friends took me to see TS3 when i felt the greatest sadness i have ever felt in my entire life. And im glad TS3 was a pretty funny movie that managed to distract me from what i was going through. TS3 uplifted me when i had a very real reason to cry.
So what im getting at is, i rarely connect emotionally with what conventionally makes people emotionally connected, not that i havent felt strong emotions from movies, but as we'll get to later, it's just not the stuff you would expect, when we get back to movies you'll be thinking, "what the fuck, Toy story 3 did not make you emotional but THIS THING DID?!"
So, if traditional "emotional things" rarely have moved me i began to think to myself, "what are things that have made me feel this strongly?"
I realized it's the damn weirdest things.
I'll try to list things that i can remember making me feel this emotional.
Now i'll be upfront, im not a very cultured person, so you'll notice most of this is...not very high brow.
Also, obviously spoilers for all this stuff im about to talk about.
Before we begin: Honorable mention goes to me finding out i had repressed memories of being traumatized as a kid by being show an animated adaptation of "Pilgrim's progress" by an aunt, which disturbed me greatly towards the end as the main character dies and before it the souls of two people he met are condemned to eternal damnation from making MISTAKES, not sins, not evil, but THE FUCKING MISTAKE of exploring alternate routes before them.
-Yoshi's Island, 1994
When i was a wee one Yoshi was one of my fave videogame characters, so of course i was beyond hype when a game where you play as yoshi came out, the ending is one of the greatest moments in videogame history, the beautiful music, the journey of the stork, and finally the classic Mario fan fare playing as baby mario and baby luigi being held by their parents with the words "Heroes are born", it's such a powerful moment. To this day i still cannot listen to that credits music without tearing up.
Sequel? Retcon?! I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT, SHUT UP, THIS IS THE PERFECT ENDING AND NOTHING ELSE HAPPENED AFTER IT!
-The bicentennial man, 1999
The bicentennial man is one of the biggest examples of a movie being fucking mischaracterized in the marketing, this movie is based on Isaac Asimov's short story and later novel, it stars Robin Williams, so all marketing was presenting the movie as Robin Williams comedy movie, IT. IS. NOT. The bicentennial man is a scifi drama about the existential search for meaning and the nature of what truly is to be alive. You get invested on the quest of this robot trying to find humanity for 200 years, and the punchline to this movie is, in his quest for humanity he forgoes the immortality being a machine provides him as he had developed the way to turn himself biological, still artificial but biological, and he dies peacefully on his sleep before he can be told that humanity had declared him, legally, a human being. To me it was such a powerful moment, he found true meaning to his life, became human, yet died before knowing so.
-Courage the cowardly dog, "The Mask", 2002
This is a legendary episode of an already great show that has a lot of very good emotional moments, some may cite episodes like "the giving tree" or "the last star maker", but for me it's this one. For those who have never experienced this episode, it revolves around a cat girl named Kitty who one day shows up at Courage's farm and she's wearing an upsetting mask, she abuses courage because she believes all dogs are bad. The mask serves 2 purposes, one is metaphorical, "her inability to face reality", the second is to hide her identity as she believes she is in danger. The thing is, she is on the run because her lover best friend Bunny is trapped in an abusive relationship with a gangster dog who threatened to kill her if she was seen near Bunny ever again, the episode coats the whole situation with a ton of goofiness, but it's actually very fucking dark: A young lesbian is trapped against her will on an abusive relationship with a toxic, violent man who threatened to kill her girlfriend if she refused to date him. Courage, being a good little dog ventures to save Bunny and have her reunite with Kitty because, despite how bad Kitty was to him, he recognizes that Kitty is a victim and she and Bunny deserve better, leading to Courage letting them escape away together, to live happy and free. I don't think it's just me, but the final image of Kitty and Bunny hugging as the train takes them to freedom felt so powerful to me.
-Twisted Metal Head-on, 2002
This is one of the weirdest things i have ever gotten emotionally invested, but honestly? i love when some shitposting franchise suddenly manages to pull this off, specially given the set up for this whole thing im going to describe starts in an early game as a fucking joke. So to contextualize this, the first two Twisted metal games were helmed by the og creators of the franchise, TM 3, 4 and small brawl were made by different developers when the creators lost the rights, but during the PS2 era when the og developers came back and created TM: Black, and TM: Head-on, Black was a reboot, Head-on was a retcon sequel to TM 2 that eliminated TM3 from the timeline, but not TM 4. Still with me? Okay so TM2 had this character, Krista Sparks, who was the revealed to be the daughter of the main antagonist of the game, Calypso, but hold on? wasn't Calypso's backstory that his family died in a tragic accident which lead him to become evil? So turns out, the FBI retrieved his daughter's corpse, turned it into a robot with a bomb with the intend to make her get close to Calypso and blow him up. The ending ends comically with a message reading "The FBI wishes to thank you for putting an end to Twisted metal". Stil Still with me?!?!?! ok! so Head on! In this game Krista is back, as a ghost, her ending consists on her confronting her dad, who has now brought up so much pain, misery and death to the world, Calypso tries to explain that the nature of his powers mean he has to do this otherwise he cannot use his powers, and his plan was for Krista to win so he could bring her back and her mom to life, but Krista is so horrified with what has happened that she refuses and blurts "I wish the accident that killed me and mom never happened" the intention being impeding Calypso from becoming this evil super natural villian, but as per all endings, it's always a monkey paw affair and Calypso knows it, looking saddened he grants the wish because he has no option, his powers force him to. Briefly Krista has a vision of her childhood with her dad before he became evil as they share a sweet moment playing on a swing set. HARD CUT TO A HOSPITAL, Krista is on a bed in coma, Calypso is there and whispers to her something along the lines of "Sleep tight my dear, may you finally find peace", as Calypso is leaving the hospital you can hear 2 doctors talking, mentioning that Krista had been in coma for more than a decade and apparently Calypso just had found out.
Excuse me Twisted Metal, but WHAT THE FUCK? You are a dumb fucking edgy car combat game, how dare you make me feel these things?
-Mother 3, 2006 (translation on 2008)
Mother 3 hopefully needs no introduction, or maybe it does, because many people have reduced it to a joke due to how nintendo stubbornly refuses to give us an official release, but also many of you must know this franchise is the spark that ignited the flame of the absolute Juggernaut Undertale would become, as well as many other games influenced by it.
The Mother/Earthbound games were known for being quirky and deviating from the standard conventions of the game, notably for the modern day setting and unorthodox choices of how you deal with the villians, they were always billed as emotional, but i feel they did not live up to that...until 3.
The general narrative to Mother 3 is about how greed is destroying the world, the main villian corrupting what we see of the world (a paradise little town where everybody is nice) by introducing luxury, money and status....and also stomping everything with his fascist army and cyborg mutants. Mother 3 is a game about how the worst traits of humanity are destroying the world and upsetting nature.
Mother 3 is also the story of 2 twin brothers who suffer tragedy after tragedy after tragedy that ultimately pits them one against the other with the fate of the world at stake.
Mother 3 punches you almost immediately by killing the mother character (which i might mention you're encouraged to name after your own mother) at the end of the first chapter and how this affects her surviving family. one of the Twins, Claus, is so disturbed that he decides to on on his own to try to kill the monster that took his mom, while the other, Lucas, was too afraid and weak to stop his brother, resulting on Claus dying as well...but the badguys take his corpse and reanimate it into a cold, emotionless cyborg who follow's the big bad's order and is using him to try to cause the end of the world. In the climax of the story Lucas is force to confront Claus, clause is a brain washed cyborg, his master is out of the picture and all he can do is fight, you can't reason with him...and then....
Lucas and Claus begin to hear a voice, a familiar voice, it's their mother, reaching for them from beyond the grave, pleading for them to stop fighting, suddenly Lucas and Claus both have a flash back to when they were babies, overhearing their parents talk about the hopes they have for them, the many things they will be able to achieve together, this makes Clause snap out of his brain washing, removing the helmet that had been hiding his face since he was resurrected, Lucas and him have a moment as they are finally reunited, Claus realizes all the bad things he has done while under control of the bad guy and realizes he must atone for his crimes, he prepares a lightning attack he knows cannot hurt Lucas and cause HIM to die.
"Im sorry for all the problems i caused" he says as he is dying on his dad's arm, "I must go to where mom is now", as he passes away he can hear his mother calling for him, "You just be so tired" she says.
Now i know it will sound insane for people to hear a videogame of all things can make one so emotional, but damn, just recollecting these scenes for this dumb post has made me start to cry, the emotional punch of this scene is very strong, it demolished me when i played the game back in the day, but now? After my own mother passed away? I have been scared of playing this game again. I mot sure if im emotionally prepare to go though that again, even 10+ years later. That's how powerful this scene was to me.
-Elite Beat Agents, 2007
If you have played this game, you know were im going, for those who dont, EBA is a silly rhythm game about secret agent cheer leaders that are dispatched around the world to help people in need by raising their spirit and allow them to overcome adversity, the game is insanely wacky and have scenarios like helping a ninja car salesman prevent a company from stealing his company's secrets, helping a washed up baseball star fight a lava spitting golem rampaging on an amusement park and traveling back in time to help davinci paint the mona lisa. EBA is also the second game in the Ouendan series, and there is something you need to know about this series: They all include tearjerker levels to contrast with all the goofiness.
"A christmas Wish" is a christmas themed level set to Chicago's "You are the inspiration" and the story to this level is positively DEVASTATING: A few months before christmas a business man tells his daughter and wife he has to go on a business trip but he promises he'll be back just in time for christmas, the girl asks him to bring back a "girlfriend" for her teddy bear. The father dies on a plane crash. When the mother breaks the news to the little girl she gets angry, crying to the skies that her dad promised he would be back for christmas. The backdrop of the stage is set the girl and the mom doing things to remember the dad, like looking through a photo album and baking a cake for his birthday, it's very sweet, but...this is EBA, if you're doing poorly you see the "bad" versions of these scenes, and in this one, one is very devastating, the little girl is having a dream where she's chasing the spirit of her dad, if you're doing well she calls for him and for a brief moment the dad stops and starts turning towards her, if you're doing bad the spirit fades away and the girl wakes up in tears. Dear goodness. But of course, if you beat the level you get this sequence of the ghost of the dad showing up on chrismas morning to fullfil his promise, giving the little girl the teddy bear he promised and having the chance to say good bye to his family.
This punches you really fucking hard in the gut. I am incapable of doing this level without ending in tears. For a time i could not even listen to this song without tearing up until, i shit you now, the deadpool movie used it on a comedy scene.
-Punch out!!, 2009
This one is one i know got me because of personal nostalgia, when i was a wee one the og NES punch out was a big part of my childhood, Punch Out!! on the wii was a masterfully crafted tribute to the franchise. To not dwell too much time on this, this game has an interesting quirk, the ending is a downer ending and it's the only ending you can get. After you beat the last opponent there is a sequence where Mac and Doc seemingly are having a disagreement, where Mac seemingly has decided that if he loses 3 times, he'll retire from boxing completely. After this you face randomly opponents from the game, the first time you lose in this mode you lose your champion title, after three loses, it's game over and the story mode becomes locked for that save file.
The final cutscene is Doc walking through what seems to be a gallery with boxing memorabilia, and untold number of years later, he is alone, he spots his old bike on this gallery and rings the bell, he looks up and speak to an absent Mac, "Good job son, good job", as he leaves the camera pans to reveal he was looking at a framed photo of him and Mac on one of their training sessions. The music on this sequence is so perfect, and it was aimed at people like me, people who grew up with the franchise, the idea was making it feel like Doc was reminiscing of YOUR time with punch out when you were a kid, and to make you think about how far YOU have come since the first time you played the games in an arcade, or your nes, or snes. It's actually pretty effective and it got me.
-Regular Show, "Trucker Hall of Fame", 2012
What makes this one different from others instances of me making me emotional, it's, much like the "Angel Hare" example at the top, this one is all about WARM HAPPY FEELINGS, so for those who did not watch this episode, let me summarize it for you:
One day Muscleman gets word that his dad, who was his personal hero, has passed away, and he's tasked with carrying his final wish, spread his [hat's] ashes in a place called "Trucker hall of fame", you see, Muscleman was lead to believe his dad was a legendary trucker and that earned him his admiration, but during the episode Muscleman finds out he was lied to, his dad was a forklift driver that the truckers belittled, altho feeling cheated for having been lied to he carries on with his father's wishes. Now because this is regular show, when they arrive at the trucker's hall of fame they are immediately attacked by ghost trucker for "desecrating the hall of fame" as they spread the ashes something happens: The ghost of Muscleman's dad manifests himself and saves his son, taking the chance to apologize to his son and having the chance to say his final good bye personally.
Despite the inherent silliness of the show's premise, i think this episode really did a good job on expressing that sense of catharsis of making peace with the passing of a love one.
-The Final Girls, 2015
A friend suggested we watched this movie, and much like Twisted metal up there, i absolutely did not expect for this incredibly stupid comedy horror movie to hit me with any sort of emotional connection, and yet...
The Final Girls opens with the main character in a car with her mom, who is an struggling C-tier actress whose biggest achievement ever was appearing on a Friday the 13th knock off movie, during this sequence they get in an accident where the mom dies and even after it's been some time since the accident the main character has not properly moved on from the passing of her mom. Her friends and some people at the college she attends are preparing this horror movie festival where the main event is they are going to play the movies from the franchise her mom was on, and they suggest she should come. Then some bullshit happens and they all end up somehow trapped in the world of the movie. A quick rundown of the rules of horror movies is explained to them, the monster cannot be defeated by fighting it, it's only the final girl who can defeat the killer, and unfortunately for them they accidentally killed the character that, in the canon of the movie, is the final girl, so they believe one of them has to become the final girl and end the movie to hopefully get out of it. The problem is, the main character is experimenting shock from interacting with her mom's character, she is not taking well to seeing her mom on the flesh and she dedicates the entire movie to "save her mom", in the climax of the movie the mom character begins to understand that she is a fictional character and the nature of her attachment to the main character, understanding that they cannot be both the final girl and if then main character wants to make it back to the real world she has to learn "To let go", choosing to sacrifice herself so there is only one final girl.
It's kinda weird, that of all possible premises, this managed to make a "You need to move on" message that somehow managed to resonate with me, you might have figured out by now a running theme here, but, i was really hard for me to deal with my mother's passing even if it's been years since it happened, so it's kinda funny for me to think these are the places i have found comfort from.
-Undertale, 2015
Okay this is tumblr, i already talked about Undertale on the prologue to, whatever the fuck im doing here, you know what undertale is, you know how effective it is, Undertale is really well designed for you to grow emotionally attached to these characters, so being able to see all these characters you know have grown attached to have their happy ending on the pacifist ending does fill one with a very satisfactory warm happy feeling that can move you to tears.
...Or you can be bummed out by being a little greedy gaming bitch and taking a look at the bad ending. Because you just couldn't help yourself, could you?
-Onward, 2020
This movie did not hit me as hard as the most emotional entries on this, but it still got me, because in the end of the day the main motivation of the characters on this movie is experiencing closure, catharsis over the death of their father, for Ian it's the fact that he died before he was born so he never met him and is driven by this desire to finally see the father who he shares such a connection with on the stories everybody who knew him in life have told him, and then there is Barley, the elder brother, who did know his dad in life, but is tortured by how, as a kid, he did not properly say good bye to him because he was terrified of death and avoided being there for him in his final days. The ending for this movie is very powerful, Ian choosing to sacrifice being able to meet his dad in the flesh, even for a few minutes, in order to give Barley the chance to being able to properly make peace with his dad and properly say good bye to him. Ian doesn't even get to SEE this, he does not get to see his dad even tho it was what he wanted most of all, but he understood bringing closure to Barley was more important than his selfish desire to see his dad, someone he never knew in life.
So what have i learned from whatever the hell this trainwreck of a post is...i guess that what really gets to me, what really moves me, is when a character, maybe not even someone i can realistically relate to, gets to experience closure, catharsis and be in peace with the people who are missing on their life. The majority of these things in here, even the Angel Hare example, relate to a character being able to experience catharsis by being able to properly make pace or otherwise contact someone they lost, or their ability to move on from this world, so to speak, knowing that their affairs and in order and that their loved ones will be okay.
Things can always look dark, the world may be trying to keep you down, maybe losing someone has been specially hard for you, but it's not the end of the world, you are loved and things can get better, it always hurts and we'll never stop missing what we have lost, but the memories of happier times are there to remind us, we can be happy again, and we can move on, use those memories as your motivation, you can lead yourself to a future filled with light.
68 notes
·
View notes
camp here and there thoughts
considered spamming my friend, but instead ill put stuff here.
this is all my thoughts from as im listening to it, btw
sydney and jedidiah are quincent confirmed?!! (not clickbait)
i will literally eat up any character named rowan no questions asked
the first bit with the penguins reminds me of burrows end
one of my favorite silly weird things is time going past the numbers it should (reminds me of everything is fine. i think it was like, the first episode? digital clock goes from 2:59 to 2:60? super cool, love it)
"let us live to die another day" (will you live to see tomorrow or die another dayyy// once a spy always a spy.... sorry, sorry)
i love that theres emojis in the transscripts
i feel so bad for the vegans at camp
mentions of apocalypse? a character called rowan? (you know what time it is folks: obscure lyric references!!!! (my beautiful apocolypse, if i asked you to be mine, would our purposes align?) again, sorry. ill stop. no i wont.)
woo! sydney feelings hour!
i love syndey telling his tape recorder not to tell anyone about his hallucinations
ok random thing i just noticed the titles have like part of the one before them and part of the one after and thats just pretty cool
why is the sky always bad
sydney being very normal about death and jedidiah bein like 'no' is also very quincent
interesting the 'when you die you will rot' is a recurring thing
sydeys laugh is so cute i love himmm
ok so theres like a spider cabin, moth cabin, ladybug cabin and BATTLE CABIN?
children being bribed by sugar is one of the most realistic parts of this
ok but the distinction between reanimation and true necromancy is actually really cool
sydney as much as i love you why the heck did you say thick like that
(when youre a ghost recorder, no one knows your name, but they wont try to stop you if you arent playing the game)
'our bedroom' actually screaming
the voice acting is such yum
again, sydneys noncholance about death related things
omg gay?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
poor jedidiah is so pathetic and bbg
for the record i hate oposite day too
gasp: a navarro (makes sense shes a tyrant) (im refrencing gentlemens guide to love and murder? i think? i dont even know at this point)
i love that all of ep 5 is sydney being too extra and jedidiah being the most exasperated
ok so maybe the implication is that matthew isnt human, but also ppl can have extra color cones, but only afab ppl bc color cones are in the x chromosome (thats also why men are more likely to be color blind) so trans matthew hc now
sydney are your eyes ok??
justice for sydneys fancy soap
if someone does magic and hurts sydney i will cry
ok so now with confirmation that they use analog clocks i really wana know what they look like
also i was thinking about why the music from last ep reminded me of something v specific and i think its yokai watch?
"babe" ok theyve got to be gay right???
sydneys allergic to seeing goo? interesting
father time? a bastard? omg you know what time it is (hehehe time bastard)
sydney and jedidiah are so cute im actually going to die
aww i want lava cake w real lava :( (fun fact by strange definition water is technicaly a form of lava)
ok so the amount of wholesomeness makes me think something bad is going to happen
"theyre penny loafers :("
rowan rowan rowan rowan rowan rowan!!!
the audio design is so yummy idk if i said that already
(uhh i accidentaly skipped most of ep six so back to that)
(the elephant man is just dead ambrose and sydney is vincent if they werre better at communicating)
"worms arent people" uh, YES THEY ARE, rude.
jedidiah whatever your project is it cant be so important that you havent played chess with your bf in A COUPLE OF YEARS wtf
(ok now to regularly scheduled friendship goo)
sydney calling the camper different animals is one of my favorite things
why is the sky always fucked up
"scary things like...men" sir you are men (but also same i am so scared of men and also are men)
jeDIDiah lmao
"your husband" and sydney just goes with it
ok but why is sydney slowly giving more and more louis taopp vibes (plz dont be like him)
i love casual loredrops about chocolate shortages
"friends" sure.. sure.
ok... so sydney did know that jedidiah had pics of him in his office? bc they used to be on the corkboard/?????
poor bb sydney is sad that his husband isnt telling him things
"[Scoffs] Friend. As if we’re not… we’re not… [Sighs] we’re not." noo im gonna actually cry (i am- i was... i'm supposed to be the best/ref)
i wanna see sydneys haunted house and skeleton cat drawings :(
"Put the Silly Putty back. You don’t need more Silly Putty." (my friends @ me when i watch another musical) (myself @ me when i eat another one of rowans fandoms >:3)
"co-nurse" idk if hes actually the assistant or not but i think sydney calls him that bc control? bc he wants power
also jedidiah uses am and pm which is interesting bc i dont think sydney does
ok now i get why sydney doesnt like joshua
the trivia sections of fan wikis are my favorite thing on this planet. "it is unknown whether or not the color green exists"
btw they actually mention green eggs and ham in ep 1 so i think its at least a concept
i still hc trans matthew. no fan wiki can take that away from me >:(
juniper daddy issues confirmed??
"Well, we can — petition her!" (i will try to petition my father/ref sorry sorry sorry)
Wait, one more: Cunt. (uuh, fucker /ref. will anyone even get that one? its filled my brain. i dont remember any quotes before or after... it's taopp. uh, the scene with louis and jason in the hallway or something)
we love sydney trauma dumping 2 mins into an ep
i wonder if he sometimes forgets hes broadcasting to a bunch of middle schoolers
i wonder if joshua knows that middle schoolers arent usually 14
i love that sydney doesnt know what oatmeal is
sydney: if only my husband would play 20 dimensional chess w me :(
"Lucille has a flamethrower. You have to listen to what she says." the only lesson ever
natsume def has parent issues
just remembered that the trees produce defensive slick
i want teethh flowers :(
"and I fear that the end is near." (the end is coming, the end is coming! /ref)
"as sweet, and patient, and motherly, and forgiving as she is" so... not at all?
i love the silly old timey music omg its so fun
gasp cannon date. thats crazy. someone better have a timeline theory bout this.
aww no teeth flowers? :(
im concerned about sorens stones
is the ticking clock new? it feels new
oh huneee :(
just remembered the notes in the description. thats lore, right? prolly im too lazy to check.
Word to the wise: you ever come across that statue, do not look her in the eyes. (the fact that it rhymes too) (someone should make a cover of a word to the wise but with this line) (please?)
matthew appreciation time
sydney mommy issues?
jesus heck how many cabins are there?
is that what the pebbles were for???? im still scared.
sydney's silly drum roll gives me life
im actually so in love with matthew
sacrificial rituals, yay!
D: can they just be gay and happy? please?
they better get happy >:(
the spooky is rly goodd tho
mommy issues: the episode?
again, we love sydney trauma time before minute 3 of the episode
mila is a theater kid confirmed?!
sydney it seems like theres alot to unpack about your mom...
i dont think i want to know what horn sap is
"It’s all very delightful, b-but quite strange" idk the way he says that line is so vincentcore
im v worried for marie ann
"Don’t worry — they aren’t real ants. But it is a real log! " honestly id rather eat ants than a whole tree
"bending over to whisper in my ear." sydney is a short king <3
ohh the centipedes
i love the contrast of ideas its super spooky.
“I’ve just got to do better,” (never let yourself rest, they can try to despise you, but not your success) (also ambrose vibes. idk, but like maybe jedidiah has a similar 'if im perfect then people will finally love me' thing goin on?)
“Give me a hard time, okay? We both deserve that.” (more ambrose vibes)
i think hes looking for validation from lucille?
i like that the va's voice patterns makes it clear when hes talking quietly even though the audios still at the same volume
"I know I’ve constructed a few effigies in my time. " (effigies of the god appolo, dickweed /ref)
"There is a clear block of resin on my desk with a centipede inside. He wants to swap places with me. Lately, I am tempted to let him." spooky
(last couple eps had, like, news broadcasts at the beginning? idk if its been like that the whole time, but probably lore stuff.)
o no is it rock time? (also soren sounds like such a cartoon character i cannot get over it)
is mother of stones the reanimation lady from the death fields or whatever?
i love that the only actually vegan thing given to the vegans so far is assorted leaves
i have a feeling that normal day might not be normal...
idk why would worshiping a statue of stones to be reborn into a second life in the middle of the forest be illegal?
ohh its bc normal day i already forgot/
" Un-resurrect? Un… resurrect… Were we going to “surrect” the rabbit?" (i prefer 'mercy killing' /ref)
i want juniper and joshua rivals to lovers/rivals to friends content. just putting that out there.
sydney just kill the rabbit
ok the fact that sydney is worried about this death-related thing is really unsettling
aoisfeorgijefmoigjt4ri4tgoirjjitog this is so spooky i love it so much
sydney needs proper therapy
"I know I’m beating a dead horse, but the guy wants something from me, and he does something to me, and I don’t like that he just gets to be around no matter how much I protest!" (grace when max)
and it all comes back to control
poor baby boy
:(((((((((((((((((((((((
(poor boy, tormented /ref)
why he bri'ish
nevermind i dont want juniper content anymore
"jeddie, m'boy"
why does anyone like him
yes, yes rowan is handsome
himbo juniper, but i still hate him
"it’ll steal all your nutrients until you wither and die!" (its infectious, its deadly, its one to be feared /ref)
"I’ve always wanted to be killed by something that loved me." dont. dont say that sydney.
soren is the dark magic sugar daddy of camp. prove me wrong.
"Would a child really do that? Just come to Summer Camp and tell lies?" yes. they would.
song? song!!!!
if this isnt on the soundtrack imma be pissed
idk how to explain this, but salems voice is really sharp
i certainly dont want to know what ostrich cream is...
if this makes sydney bottle up his feeling and muck up his relationship with jedidiah more im not gonna be happy
(ok so i was just informed that its going to get worse and,, i dont know how to emotionally prepare myself.) (also its past 10:30 pm so bear with me if my thoughts get a lil incoherent. as if they ever were coherent)
cant remember if this happens with sydney too but theres static when jedidiah says the time. interesting
so sydneys smoke thing is unique to him??
we do love occupying characters with a physical task during conversations
ig marisol prioritizes efficiency and salem prioritizes the wellbeing of the kids
also salem dont badmouth sydnel like that
gay??
more confirmation that sydney needs therapy
im v glad marisols on sydneys side
jedidiah is bein kinda silly, marisols like 'he makes me uncomfy' and hes like 'just dont feel uncomfy'
if only sydney and jedidiah were as good at communication as the sapphics
love that sydney is like 'dont swear!!!!' but dumps all of his trauma on the kids
noo im sad :(
"It’s a laaaaaazy day today." <<<(me tomorrow after not sleeping all night)
nothing bad better happen on the speepy day >:(
"Men. Men sure are mysterious." mood
"I can’t describe how it feels to see a blue sky… almost… apocalyptic. " i love subverting expectations and turning something ordinary into something completely paranormal.
also vambrose moment (the apple)
o great thats where the canibalism comes in
eugh
i do not want
(and this is why salem is worried about you buddy. dont share stuff like that with kids.)
on the other hand kids arent, like innocent to this type of thing, really. i used to babysit my friends lil sister ( i think she was in 2nd or 3rd grade?) shed make lego skits about people murdering eachother, with like, a lot of detail too. and i dont think she was raised on particularly violent media. she played pokemon go on her parents phone or doodles in kids drawing apps. i think kids just kinda gravitate towards these kinds of things, especially if theyre told theyre not supposed to.
o no sydney being normal about the elephant man is not good
"You get hungry." hungy theme within his dreams?
"I like animals because they never forget to be scared: of starving, of getting eaten, of getting hurt or sick." also reaccuring thing from the bunny
and centipede thing. and ants. (im guessing bc its a dream it s lots of things relating to his current situation, especially thematically) (also i believe ants were brought up at some point when he said something along the lines of 'it felt like ants were eating my stomach lining'
the writing is so good its unfair
"I should never have forgotten to be scared." this is really interesting bc so far hes only been really scared by the elephant man.
"and none of the birds could speak English." ok i think its extremely disturbing to consider the fact that 'its a uniquely human thing to surpress pain' so the birds CAN talk but theyre still animals. they never forget to be scared and they never think to hide their discomfort.
also geez this episode is so dark compared to the others. it makes sense in universe, bc most of this is going on in sydneys head.
noo matthew was affected he better be ok after >:(
also appreciation for the slowing music, i didnt really register at first but thats definitely bc of the weird time happenings. and then the crank and it speeds up? super cool!
this series is so fun!!!
im a bit worried that jedidiahs 'extra special clock' may have something to do with his project? especially considering he has a lot of clocks around his office
more hungy, i think that bc he was hungy but didnt really realize it bc time weirdness, it seeped into his dreams somehow?
appreciation for sydney being able to eat garlic bread
also interesting thing, idk if its relevant in universe or just a writing thing, but no matter what happens with time it seems to always be resolved for sydney to know when 25:25 is.
oh fuck the canibalism is back
icky
i do not want
nope nope nope its getting worse
sorry im blood squeemish
more elephant man lore
kinda spooky. maybe his powers rely on electricity? or theres some greater creature hes afraid of that haas that effect
appreciation for the ending music of ep 16, and also just all the music in that ep.
hive? (the apothiosis is upon us?)
also really different music for the intro. idk if its like a genre or something related to hives, but its style really reminded me of queen b from nightmare time.
i want a waterslide to nowhere
i dont want a bri'ish man talkin bout 'beans on the cob' to be responsible for my safety, like, ever.
more sydney lore! poor bb sounds like he needs a hug. particularly from one Jedidiah A.A. Martin
i love the corporate bg music during harmlessmart its such a nice touch.
matthew matthew matthew matthew
fresh honeycomb sky.. hive theming?
this is exactly the shenanigans that middles schoolers get upto when theyre realeased into the woods
" So it has been, and so it will be; eternal in all directions in time." idk i just like this quote,
more ants
sports crystals = pokey?
bee tsunami
so he is co-nurse... when does jedidiah ever do his job? where is he?
noo sydney not the corner bread
comunicate!!! please!!!
"but he must love me, right?" :(((((((((((((((((
" — my journals." of course jedidiah only cares when it relates to his project. so quincycore, but if quincy didnt care about his bf.
D:
idk if i should keep watching this tonight. on one hand, if i keep watching i might cry bc sad, but if i stop i will definitely cry.
"He would always be the father, and I would always be the mother" (blitzstonecore)
"How he could love something so much… and forget to feed it." (he loves sydney, he just forgets to take care of him. in the way sydney needs, instead of the way jedidiah thinks he needs.)
a grey sky
reading wikis again, and the warriors thing is just such a mood, and idk if the creators understand dnd stats properly, or if he jus sucks that much at living, but negative stats are not possible. like players usually cant get below a 3. and -4 means he has like -7 con, so he has 1 hit points at first level, which is really pathetic. yes im going to nerd about this. (i think its super funny bc, like sure w a 19 for wisdom he probably wouldnt fail wis saves, but on the off chance that he did, viscious mockery, a bard cantrip, will knock him out no matter what, and if it rolls i think a 3 or 4 it completely kills him. he could be killed by a single insult.)
(ive been informed that this will make more sense once i finish it, and now im v scared)
(also prolly shouldnt be reading the wiki rn bc spoilers, but im doin it anyway.)
again, the stats are SO EXTREME. not as bad as sydney. he could feasibly weild a weapon (strenghth or dex if finesse i think) he has reasonable con which is good bc wizards have absolutely no health. idk whats up with his wisdom (ive heard it described as 'street smarts' and int as 'book smarts' but i think it kinda goes hand in hand with rizz for interactions, bc its used for like insight, which is kinda important to talk to people.) (thats actually something id say maybe doesnt work well with sydneys high wis. so far it seems like, while he is quite observant, hes not always super great at reading the room, or at least thats what ive gathered)
also idk about the charisma bc so far jedidiah seems a bit more put together in the persuasion/deception/intimidation area of things.
might eep now. that means its a great time for you to drink some water.
do it. stay hydrated. it mustve taken a ton of mental energy to get through this post, so you should take a break. get a glass of water, get a snack, take care of yourself. (sleep if its past midnight or if your name is rowan) then you can come back and finish reading this shitshow :]
ok its morning time to finish this (maybe)
restarted ep 16 bc i forgor
omg wait sydneys usin am and theres static
i love that theres a credit card stealing fish.
no sydney youre doing it again what did salem say
relation to sydneys worms?
"If he didn’t value these creatures when they were alive, why was he so affected by their deaths?" STOP NO IM ALREADY SAD I GET IT
and thats why sydney wont kill the centipede?
w h a t
spooky music
is the hive conected to the elephant man?
excuse me did he just call worms many legged creatures (ig like worms as in maggots and caterpillars and silkworms, not earthworms)
i love that theres always some counselors that dont get to participate in the camp meetings
sydneys impression of jedidiahs voice is so silly
"But I like endings; I like closure. That was the point of this whole exercise." more with sydney being more ok with death perhaps?
“Ha. Abandoning your child in a lake . . . . so that’s what motherhood means for you?” NO NO NO NO NO :(((
"But I am not my mother." so this is why hes so protective of the kids?
rowan hero?
this feels less like a hive and more like an egg
rowan hero!
bad smoke, different smoke?
hive queen
ye i was right, it egg
so they WERE gay at some point???
interesting that jedidiah doesnt mention the elephant man breaking into his office
he frames it as 'im worried about sydney' even though hes been ignoring sydneys concern until it affected himself
ye ye lucille gets it he only cares about himself and his project
hes emotionally attatched to sydney, but he doesnt take care of him, because he doesnt understand what it means to not be taken care of
sydney taught himself how to love, and he makes a conscious effort to try his best, but he prioritizes the kids because he doesnt want to be like his mom
ye ye lucille call out the lil guy
lucille has the same thoughts about the elephant man as jedidiah did before he tried to take the journals
noticed the clock ticking
ohh so spooky bad stuff in the journals?
jedidiahs trying to keep sydney safe, reminds me of the "it was cozy and safe, like a prison" thing
also lucille bein his mom explains why sydney and jedidiah are close?
jedidiah doesnt like death, maybe hes afraid of it. because its closure, like sydney said. bc he doesnt know how to care about something while its alive, so he settles for greiving when its gone.
also the ending 'do not anger it" is a repeat i think?
o no more tree stuff?
am again and static
at least today the vegans get somethig they can maybe eat?
so he is the assisstant nurse? confusion
buddy are you sure thats not a corpse
assuming the things jedidiahs getting shipped in are related to his project, hes making progress?
again with him prioritizes his project above sydney
also minor thing about the lunch b i feel like hes kinda underestimating sydneys intelligence (of course judging by the dnd stats its barely above average) and thats also v quincy of him
also i think he forgot to say the time, but theres static for dinner, prolly bc pm
interesting i dont remember when sydney switched. was it always like that? 19:04 PM implies a 19:04 AM, and thats a lotta hours
sydney appreciating nature
do you even like goo arts? arent you allergic to goo
ok really interesting that they bring this up bc sydney was just talking about how he and jedidiah had a bag of acorns that they took home? and they were fine
plant spooky
related to project?
:(
time static
:((((
his lil eep is v cute
not even chess. bro why do you even check on him if youre too tired to play chess
clock tic
physically safe.
D:
sad gay
more clocks tic
no you cant end the ep like that
sydneys still gone :(((((
juniper no one likes you dont laugh at your own jokes
oh but rowan honey is getting juniper to his job worth putting up with his horrible voice and personality
its extremely ironic that jedidiah is responsible for mediating counselor arguements when he doesnt comunicate with his own husband
"how do I explain to you that you need to care about other people?" DONT SAY THAt... it makes me sad...
"I worry about you sometimes, though, y’know?" heres a concrete difference between juniper and jedidiah: juniper actually makes the effort to care about rowans worry, even if he cant empathize with it. honestly i think this episode is included to show jedidiah through a different light, bc so far it seems like him and juniper are very similar.
they both rarely do their actual work, and have someone they care about who has a (maybe) irrational fear of something they cant understand
"You keep saying all this nice shit to him like it means anything and then consistently letting him down with your behavior." showing jedidiah recognises these traits in other people but not himself.
"Your actions are what matter to the people around you, not your words or your intentions or your thoughts or your fucking anything else but your actions, and your actions show Sydney loud and clear that you don’t give a shit about him." aaand he let it slip. he knows hes doing the same, maybe? some part of him gets that.
hopefully after this there will actualy be some kind of positive change?
not sure if this is important, as i havent been reading the other log thingies, but under minor insight into it repeats a bullet point
theory: the elephant man took sydney???
"I promise you kids I will attend dutifully to the nurse’s office in Sydney’s absence. Or, I’ll make sure someone is, at least." more jedidiah avoiding his actual job, similar to juniper
again sydney prioritizes knowledge above all else, maybe a similarity to jedidiah
"One by one, we all stay alive…" cant remember if this was like an endy thing but it sounds familiar.. either way super spooky
yvonne dyslexic not clickbait?
"Of course I can, it’s — plain English." ok interesting def a thing about either yvonne or jedidiah, bc like they dont see the notes the same???
"I wanted her to get angry. I wanted a fight. I wanted consequences. I… I wanted… it to matter." he wants closure. he wants people to care about him
"She was kind then. So was Jedidiah." :(
:(((((((((((((
"really hard to believe that he would just — get up and leave." jedidiahs frustrated by the thought that sydney might not care about him like he thought?
another mention of religion. yvonne also mentioned praying in the last ep, and a while ago sydney talked about jedidiah being a 'good christian boy' or something like that
nvm that was the beginning of the last ep
im very good at life as you can tell
sorry back to 22
this is so strange
nother mention of religion
"My heartbeat has synced up with the ceaseless ticking… " reminds me of a comment i saw relating jedidiahs clocks to his heartbeat? idk i dont remember
this is... really disturbing. i dont know why
"holy day". interesting
this feels manipulative
no no elephant man if you turn sydney against jedidiah i will be very angy
wait isnt this like cult tactics, like asking someone to meet up in a low stakes setting, love bombing, asking them to do something to prove their loyalty. (i vaguely remember this from some yt video i watched about cats)
"Show you a love you have never known." hes preying on sydneys desire to be wanted, to be cared about
this is so unsettling my god.
" Jedidiah’s search party " means lucille aproved it?
"I mean, y’know, live like you’re dying, right? " (exexprincecore)
"What do you mean “that’s one way to put it”? Yvonne, these are blank papers!" enchanted papers?????????
ok sydney dont lie to them'
"Um. Okay. Listen. Sydney… I don’t want to lose you." but he doesnt really care, still
:(
clock ticking
"the tree finds human happiness nauseating." huh.
D:
"violent criminal history in the state of arkansas" thats all i could catch from the news thingy at the start, for some reason its not on the ep transcripts :(,,, but didnt elijah say hes from arkansas??? is that anything?
theres still static with the time
theyre dead?? like straight up?? all of cabin widow spider?
oh ok theyre not fully dead
as, like, the only sane person who cares about the elephant man, i wonder what marisols reaction is?
sports field? what about the musically inclined crystals?
hhehehe forgot that soren sounds like a cartoon villain
he nya like cat
...does the project have some relation to necromancy????????
tap tap tap tap tap tap
so crackers and butter cookies count as bread???
" but without death, it will never live." (to show ya the horror of stayin alive) (sorry sorry sorry sorry)
"Not because we want to, but because we must." ^^^^
wait wait wait i think i remember the one by one thing. but it was "one by one we all survive" and then "one by one we all stay alive" or something lik e that, so its interesting that it changed.
"but I can’t believe any amount of money would convince her to completely ignore the safety of the kids." again thingy with prioritizing the kids
"Seems this strain of mold just turns us into zombies, like… interpersonally?" mood
hahahaha juniper already is like that so the mold didnt have any effect
hun he is definitely deliberately manipulating yp
ok so idk about any of endy bits so far but it keeps bringing up not angering it and they "youve angered it" and im guessing if anything it has something to do with elijah??? or the project?? maybe both idk
"It’s like you don’t even care about the kids here anymore." huh
and it all comes back to control.
"Jedidiah… [Sigh] this mediation session isn’t for you and me." they need to go to couples therapy
" [Whisper] I miss you. .... I’m such a fucking idiot. " :((((
can the gays just be happy? just for a little bit? can elijah go away? can everyone please for the love of god or whatever just be happy for one goddamed moment?
no am, still static
i dont think thats a river
also, 'rapids'? he said like a moment before it was still, which kinda means its just more lake, and the land partially seperating it is an island
"they’re hungry for a sense of intellectual superiority." i love that the creatures in and around camp are half spooky half completely mundane
ye for once i think junipers right its more like a moat
"For today’s breakfast we have an eel’s head stuck upon a 500-year-old sword and slathered with pea mush — a hometown delicacy suggested by Juniper. He says they call it “scrumpledydumps!”" (ugh. british people.)
hc sydneys proficient in animal handling
... he feels like a curse and not in control of his life :(
forgot about the macaronis
uhh wouldnt a bridge make the hunt like destroy cam
(the horse? the divorce? /ref)
"I can’t figure out what this poor fox eats." is this a reference to the fly thing? showing contrast bc sydney actually thinks to take care of it?
still no am or pm but theres static
:((((((((((((((((((
please let them be happy? (this is why i stil havent finished yellow jacket. i simply cannot handle characters being sad or the undeniable feeling that something terrible is going to happen)
"the tree also finds human fear nauseating." huh.
clocks. are we finally gonna learn more about the project/??
no more river
beeping
what the actual f u c k is going on
id let matthew poison me with arsenic
holy fucking shit
i love that sydney raises his voice when he does an imression of joshua
"You know, when I was a kid, a large portion of my daily diet consisted of complimentary condiment packets from the school cafeteria."...sydney are you okay?/?????
at this point the static is kind of comforting. the only thing consistent at camp other than sydneys trauma
more beeping
huh??? i swear hamsters have been mentioned before
ye ye ye
how does sydney know what hamsters eyes look like if theyve been extinct for millions of years????
" 2:01 AM" WHOA thats new.... is it bc of maintenence? perhaps?
still static
oh fuck no i forgor about the journals
more clocks
FUCK
(extra thing this kinda reminds me of holloweane a bit just bc of the like not being able to give info, of course ms holloway does WANT to, and does try to tell duke, but anyway)
(and now i gotta go do stuff. why did i agree to do stuff after that episode. damn. anyway. this is your reminder to take a break from my ramblings. get some water, stretch, focus your eyes on something that isnt a screen. and of course, if your name is rowan, you should sleep probably)
hi im back
birds. huh.
and a clock tickin, but it stopped before the click.
apple=jedidiah?
what about the second hand???
clocks have knowledge. sydney wants it.
this musics quite the jam
is petrfified wings a thing? it feels farmiliar
" 25-26-100 hour days." hwhat the hell
he wants to be a clock? he wants to be flexible?
is this the extra special clock that fucked up time in that one episode?
wheat feild? related to the death fields? i think sydney mentioned someones wheat allergy in that ep
this is v strange
something.. something train related happened to his dad?
is.. is the next event sydneys death? jedidiahs death?
thats why he doesnt like it? why hes scared of death?
knowledge. thats what they both seek.
FUCK NO elijah go away i dont like you >:(
of course, elijahs using him to get information. also HOW THE FUCK DOES HE KNOW ALL THIS (sydney please get away from that creepy stalker)
"hot tea with honey is good for sore throats." (goddamit emma now i gotta make a tea with honey /rref)
the weird audio thing in the background right after the episode title reminds me of my printer.
poor campers, no salt. nothing better happen to matthew >:(
at least sydney stopped spreading propoganda about the elephant man
oh also hes back to saying the time, am and pm, and our dear friend static
fuck
thats a lot of blood
w h a t
static please help me
what do they have against france
" it’s so funny to watch the fumes struggle to conjure anything worse than what I’ve actually been through." >:0
"[HE BUTCHERES THE PRONUNCIATION]" me too buddy, me too
did...did sydney get a clock?
o no are the penguins gonna come back
sydney are you okay???
all of this better be on the soundtrack
[HE BEGINS TO HYPERVENTILATE AND CRY.] (mee too budy, me too)
" Are you ready? Why did you lie?" w h a t
ok ok ok im definitely gonna finish this today bc if i dont ill stay up thinking about it anyway
more god, sin and death stuff. also mention of adam, possible relation to up and adam? (intro bit still sounds like a hyperventilating printer)
(this is so long i wonder if anyones actually made it this far. wait atcually the fandoms small so prolly.) (i bet rowans reading this. i bet hes not actually sleeping like i told him to, twice.)
NO ELIJAHS BACK (idk if anyone else is here but i am a member of the elijah hate club)
brought up the ceremony thing again. (still seems kinda cultish)
quiet beeps
louder beeps
this "stupid man" sounds a bit like jedidiah...
"He did not understand how to feed it" again the starving thing
or, is it elijah? idk im confused
also wtf is goin on w the accent
:(
so muse is definitely sydney, prophet is elijah, so yeah i think the architect is jedidiah
"I will be the one to crystalize the truth of your perfection" (uh oh is he gonna pull an ambrose)
kinda sounds like hes gonna set sydney on fire
FUCK SYDNEY YOU BETTER TELL JEDIDIAH (pls just make them be okay)
"…I’m going to start sleeping in the room with Jedidiah again." ok ok thats progress good.. maybe hes not so distrusting of jedidiah anymore??? at least hopefully itll help w his pain
silence.
(reading comments) i saw some ppl saying sydney died and got revived and that makes sense considerign the story but also WHAT THE FUCK
reason jedidiah wont tell him about the project? or why hes so intent on keeping him physically safe? (how much does he know about elijah, bc elijah seems to know a lot about him)
another mention of god in the news before the title
no more printer sounds? maybe i just wasnt payin attention
"Hey, what’s this co-nurse stuff? Aren’t you Sydney’s assistant?" joshua out here askin the real questions
idk whats goin on but somethng seems really off
clock
:(
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. that is no way to end an episode. again, this is why i cant finish yellow jacket. i do not like the sad.
idk if its just me but elijah sounded a bit different.
shit this is already episode 31.
trees
also um fuck what the hell is that title. the pyre??? sydneys just gonna go with it?! dude hes gonna set you on fire !!!
also side note taking a moment to appreciate the pacing of the series so far, the whole time its felt like just the right amount is happening, it never feels too rushed or boring. also the attention to detail and callbacks and references are amazing
oh fuck he mentioned the penguins. that means jedidiah will knwo he was looking for the journals
wow it s been a while since he talked about the sun or the moon, kinda nice to hear about the sky again. of course now im remembering jedidiah talking abotu the stars and im sad again.
the moon was in the sky all day? is that normal?
oh. she wants control. like how sydney talked to elijah. to prove he has control. to make a choice.
"was that being fed is not always the same as being nourished." back to the starving thing.
the clock is back
he misses jedidiah :(
still dont know whats goin on with the centipede
"I need to prove I’m worth something to you" (ambrosecore)
"My body is whole. My body is eaten.' spooky.
they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy
:(
32!
glitchy walky talkies? i think thats that kind of beep. something something something RADIATOR? idk as someone whos bad at listening, i kinda wish they put the beginning bits in the transcript, but i guess thats bc mysteries???
static is back. aw, the moon has returned to her duty.
"Ahhhhh, to overthrow nature…" reminds me of the natural order thing joshua said during the camp revolt thing
also i was so right about elijah's culty stuff
communication? are they gonna be happy, maybe, at some point???
...i may have read spoilers in the wiki that they get together in 34, so i hope that means theyll be happy.
fuck fuck fuck fuck noo no non on no no elijah stay away
"Am I alone… ? " D:
glad he has a gun. that definitely cant backfire in any possible way...
fuck fuck fuck why is cabin dungbeetle like thhis
sound design is still so fuckin sick
jedidiah describing sydney: he's, uh, fuck, idk hes hot?
hes so pathetic /affectionate
OH FUCK ELIJAH KIDNAPPED HIM!!! TONIES WHY DIDNT YOU START WITH THAT WHAT THE HELL
no no no you can t end on cliffhangers like that (i say as if im not gonna watch the next one in like a minute) (i could never watch shows or podcasts as they come out i would actually die from the cliffhangers)
oh wait its not the end of the ep.
again sound design is immaculate
if sydney dies at the end of this series so will i, just putting that out there. (oh same with jedidiah)
YO OMG HES SO SMART i forgot about the reflection thing. what did he steal?? idk he took something that was like 'the only way i could seee my reflection' or something.. that makes so much sense.
by the way imma be at least a bit upset if we dont get any more rowan content before the end of the series.
(last ep)
FUCK you elijah i hope you BURN in HELL (sorry to any non elijah-haters, but also, not sorry bc hes bad)
"every day is a living fucking nightmare!" i mean this is just a thing thats said and not, like, unique to the show, but jedidiah does say something similar earlier on i think
the whole love vs want think kinda reminds me of linda, and like wiley bein like 'you dont want to be loved you want to be adored' (of course thats more framed as a villain thing so..)
FUCK WAIT THEY KNOW EACH OTHER???!!!!
"She keeps him like a prison." callback to the prison thing? the ''it felt comfy and safe, like a prison" i think it was something like that
so elijah is connected to the clocks somehow??
FUCK FUCK FUCK I FORGOT HE HAS THE JOURNAL
NO NO NO WHATS HE GOING TO DO
salamander man=elijah?
thats when he died???
second journal entry reminds me of, this is weird, but like dnd memes? and how magic kinda comes naturally to classes like sorcerers and bards, but wizards learn through study?
also im very confused by why the journal entries are so important, and why elijahs voice keeps changing. its really unsettling
so jedidiah was looking into magic to heal him?
"You turn it off and back on again." holy fuck
oh my god so thats why necromancy is such a reaccuring thing? and them being like , dw real necromancy isnt popular
the clock is also an interesting thing, idk what it means tho
aww the statics back :)
why is lucille like this
whats her goal in any of it
"This information… resists being known." (ms holloway vibes)
his, dad, died from that??
" Because I’m nothing without you, Sydney, I really am." (quincent vibes)
i find this switch really interesting bc up untill this moment sydneys always been the one, kind of, like, comfortable with death? and it makes sense now, i guess, because jedidiah was afraid of it, afraid that sydney might find out, and hed get hurt again
"But there’s something kind of sexy about that, though, right?" (a real stroke of luck, when the one man you can murder is one of the men you--- /ref) (sorrry sorry sorry this is a serious conversation ill try to be more normal)
awww gay (now for the happy? maybe? can they please be happy?) (sorry i said id be normal.. ill do that now < ---lying)
"Uhmm… [Sniff] hey, I, uh, haven’t seen you drink water, yet. I don’t think you’ve been drinking water — here. Drink. " (this is a reminder to all my friends who dont hydrate enough. do it. or you'll end up like sydney, nearly burned on a pyre by a weird russian guy in an elephant mask)
the gays? on their way to being happy? even just for a bit? not clickbait? (dw i know elijahs gonna come back and fuck everyone over in a lil bit. just let me have my moment)
"Also, he’s gone. For good." dude dont fucking jinx it!
"Seems the two of ‘em have gotten quite cozy. " (thats kinda gay dude)
i was so confused then i remembered that it was 20 dimentional chess
still kinda confused about the mirror thing
WAIT WHAT THE FUCK THATS THE END
NO NO NO NO NO NO
e32uojkbwqlrhugejbkqfdshoihuqjbkefrbejwkghioujeklfnwmdlskjaipuojlknm, gnwklejfponrdsjlaiojfwejb
im sad now D:
anyway, i am sincerely sorry that you had to read this hot mess. uh, rowan, if youre still here. go to sleep.
ok now im gonna go read fanfic and hope it can heal me from this emotional rollercoaster.
bye <3
9 notes
·
View notes