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cubedmango · 2 months

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hi!! i just wanted to let you know that i started reading cherry magic in july last year after seeing the anime announced on toyota-sensei's twitter! i couldn't even rlly translate the announcement myself without the help of google translate LMAO but her illustration of them looked so sweet i had to snoop around. more than half a year later. i am no longer normal and my brain is fully rotted over and i think of those two nearly every waking moment!! your art, along with so many others feeds me and your translations are So Appreciated thank you for doing gods work. i usually don't get super involved in fandom or w/e other than consuming fanart or fics so the fact i find myself actually drawing them is so new to me...idk cherry magic really is so refreshing and it's just nice as an adult to see a mature relationship between two working adults. there are callbacks to childhood or childlike behaviors or interests sprinkled throughout the manga's dialogue and i always appreciated how they weren't seen as embarrassing or immature to embrace or learn from as an adult, but encouraged or seen as a valuable part of balancing work, life, and love. idk it's def one of the more subtle and less expanded upon parts of it but i love how adachi's and kurosawa's love of manga, though seen as a children's activity (from how kurosawa thought people saw it) was actually one of their first mutual hobbies. it's also interesting to see how many things about kurosawa's psyche are remnants of ideas probably for a lack of better wording, were taught to him from an early age. his self-image, how he tries to uphold certain societal standards, etc etc. im glad he found refuge in adachi that way. im sorry for rambling for so long but i've just been thinking about these two so much ldks

anon pls u never have to apologize for rambling abt my fav guys of all time, u should actually talk w me about them more i want to hear ur thoughts !! the eng speaking fandom isnt that big (or at least i dont get to interact w a lot of ppl personally) but its fun making art and doing the translations for my blorbos so im happy other ppl enjoy it too 🥺

and yess everything u said abt the childlike/immature stuff krdc enjoy like the fact that their interest in manga and stuff is never made fun of or anything (which would be ironic anyway since theyre In a manga themselves fdkjskf) but actually one of the things that gets them closer is So good augh?? (also spoilers for the radio drama if u havent seen it yet, but to me one of the best changes they made was changing the port scenes setting to an anime con instead like Yeah!! theyre little nerd guys of course theyd attend a con!!!! that plus how they both like watching animated movies and playing games too like its a very specific thing to Me but that relatability w stuff i do myself makes them both feel a lot more human? if that makes sense)

also w kurosawas whole deal its Definitely a longterm thing hes had for a while, and in canon its mostly been his friendships/relationships that affected him (probs the most clear in ch45 my beloved) but from the way the meeting w his parents went theres for sure a lot of parental/family pressure involved too?? this is going into hc territory but i have like a whole Thing brewing in my head about kurosawas and maris relations w their parents and how that affected their self image and all growing up too and i rlly wanna make stuff for it someday (idk if anyone would be interested but id probably do it regardless so fkdjksjfk)

#the full idea actually is for a whole mari spinoff as like a fic or smth bc i care her immensely . but that is ambitious even for me lol #i have Thoughts about these siblings though like their issues intrigue me so bad. so much wrong w them i need to pick apart #and similarly w adachi being a child of divorce like! thats got to have influenced him right. i Have To Know #i think about these charas a normal amount as u can tell 👍#my answer

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utsuboarchive · 4 months

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not a fan of this idea a lot of people seem to have. where the twins are dependent specifically on azul. or where they're lesser, or can't function without him,,, or may even be seen as pets almost? it's ironic, because in the wild, eels tend to hunt and eat octopus. and even though it's said as a joke, the twins would probably leave azul if he ever gave them a reason to. or stopped being interesting in their eyes. i think people forget that the twins only started talking to azul like a year or two before they all went to NRC. they havent been a trio their entire lives. and honestly, i think if azul had met them when they were young enough? they'd of tried eating him.

honestly? i think while i have discussed at length about how their dynamic is super balanced and complimentary-- azul needs the two more than they need azul. if you take jade and floyd, and their characteristics and personality. they both perfectly work to balance out not only azul's strengths, but his flaws too. azul is a shaky ship at sea, and the twins balance both ends to keep it from tipping too far either way. it's such a disservice to diminish the twins, and boil them down to such a generic role like that. without the two of them, azul probably wouldn't of made it through his overblot episode. and without azul, the twins would be a rampant issue at NRC.

there is a great balance there. one that a lot of the fandom seems to neglect, or try to characterize for some kind of aesthetic i rlly don't see the appeal of. not when the one there is so well thought out, and has so much nuance to it. they are all on very equal footing-- but there is no denying the dependency azul has on the twins. does this mean he can't work without them? no! absolutely not, i think azul is fantastic on his own honestly. but it's so obvious they all work perfectly as a team. it's like a well oiled machine, with each part in it's proper place.

#headcanon. / 🐬 & 🦈#idk #since becoming a twst artist #ive seen... a lot

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taki118 · 3 years

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Cause of the BBC Sherlock stuff I've been seeing I'd like remind people of Elementary

This may poke the proverbial fandom bear but I don't care this show deserved so much more love than it got.

This series is Seven season of quality detective content. Each epsiode delievers on a cool mystery with a statisfying conculsion, and overarching plots arcoss multiple episodes that again give good payoff. Look I'm a person who never really cares about spoilers BUT season one's twist is so perfectly executed that I can never bare talking about it until someone has experinced it already. Like im serious its so good.

Now detractors LOVE to point out two things

1: It takes place in New York they just had to americanise it

2: why is Watson a woman? Ugh they just want to sexualize her and take the gay away

So for 1 I get the frustration it was proabably a legal/financial thing that made them go with New York. But the writers 100% use this to their advantage. utilizing the setting as a sort of metaphor for Serlock as a person particulary in season 1 & 2. He's been thrusted into New York this is not his home and he sees it as simply a new place and a fresh start. But come season 2 when he does return to London he finds it different and no longer feels at ease there. He has grown he has changed and so has the world around him. I think the writers made the best out of the situation.

2: Yyyeeeeeaaaahhhhhhhhh no

like i get WHY people assume the reason to make John Watson Joan Watson was purely to hook the characters up, like i was suspicious too when I first saw the trailers cause damn the person in charge of that did a shit job. But so theres a reason why its Joan Watson and not John Watson. In behind the scenes stuff they straight up said that in doing research they notice Sherlock is a bit of a misogynist as he regards women rather lower having just a few exceptions to his rule that woman are silly creatures controlled by emotions. SO the writers and producers thought “Well what if his work partner IS a woman?’ and like thats actually a good idea to shake up the Holmes/Watson dynamic.

But also in all 7 seasons not once do Joan and Sherlock hook up.

NOT ONCE. THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS ENTIRELY PLANTONIC.

LET ME REPEAT THAT AGAIN A MAN AND A WOMAN ON A CABLE SERIES WHO LIVE AND WORK TOGETHER ONLY LOVE EACH OTHER IN A PLATONIC SENSE AND NO ONE BATS AN EYE TO THAT.

DO YOU REALIZE HOW HUGE THAT IS?

Like Joan and Sherlock are family to each other yes earlier seasons is mostly Joan taking care and helping Sherlock but as time goes on they are far more equal. They have this great bond that’s just built on mutual trust and care and gives off the pair of siblings at times. (my favorite running gag is Sherlock finding new and creative ways to wake Watson up)

And can I say that Joan and Sherlock arent the only ones to say “I love you” in a platonic sense in this show? CAUSE THEY ARENT

This show just like shoves it in your face that strong platonic relationships are not only valid but something to be cherished and cared for just as much as romantic ones. That just being someone’s friend and being there for them when times are tough is enough and admirable. And im sorry but that shit gets me every time.

Also also Joan Watson has her own arc of finding what it is she wants in this world along Sherlocks own arc. And its not finding a man and having a child, its finding what work she likes to do and balancing it with her personal life.

And thats not even getting into the positive and well done addict recovery rep. Like they took the offhanded line that Sherlock uses opitates in the novels and said “Hey how would they effect a man like this?” Like they give such a good showcase on how really anyone can fall to addiction and just how hard it is to recover. It’s a long road and the show never lets you forgot that Sherlock could fall back and that he is not better than any other addict, that if it werent for the support network he has built the fall would be far worse.

Like god I havent even gotten into how this is the most emotionally vulnerable Sherlock and thats not treated as a negative like the show straight up says when he goes cold logic mode he’s worse as a person AND as a detective.

How they show the police force they work with to be just as important as their work.

Trans Ms. Hudson played by a trans woman, while shes not in a lot of eps she’s never made a joke of and treated as a desirable.

Autisitc person as a love interest who was not treated as a child.

Joan wasnt the ONLY person who was adapted as a different gender.

Going into the messiness of mental health and how hard finding care for it can be.

The hackers who are hilarious

Sherlock and Joans network of specialists who have knowledge they dont

CLYDE THE TURTLE

Like just watch it its worth your time and will never make fun of you for engaging with the work.

#elementary #elementary cbs #sherlock holmes #joan watson #show recommendations

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somebodycallixii · 2 years

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tagged by @choitaeyang for the little P1ece questions thing :)

(ps im sorry i didnt answer all of the questions but i just didnt want the post to get too long!!)

1. Since when have you been a P1ece? I listened to Siren for the first time like early last fall, and found That's It a little later, and i remember thinking ok this is probably some well established group like their rapping and sound overall just really impressed me. (cut to surprised pika face when i found out OH THEY'RE LITERALLY ONLY A YEAR OLD)

2. What made you decide to stan P1H? i knew i liked their music but i decided to officially stan when i found out they were at FNC because n.flying is my ult, so i was like this must be a sign??? lmfao

3. Who is/are your bias(es)? jiung!

4. Your favourite era so far? in terms of music, Siren/Stand Out is my fav but in terms of looks/concept, Do It Like This/Find Out by a long shot.

5. Your favourite title track/MV? I like the MV for scared the best because the concept for it is really artistic, plus the falling rocks genuinely made me nervous so A+ for the immersive experience alkdflsdkjs

6. Your fav P1H choreo? the intro to Reset is so amazing, they are literally so in sync its mesmerizing to watch

7. Your fav b-sides? That's it is one of my favorite kpop songs ever, and idk if this counts as a title or a b side but i also love breakthrough a LOT

8. Your fav cover of theirs? MANIAC MANIAC MANIAC oh my god if you havent listened to it yet you have to. i love it even more because they were in charge of the creative direction for the video and they talked about how they had to put moodboards together and stuff. it makes me glad that they have some creative control for their content!!

10. Have you watched their little STAGE + performances? What’s your favourite? i havent seen all of them but this one with seob and intak is my favorite that ive seen. im usually not a fan of lyrical dancing like this but the beginning part is so good and i can just watch it over and over

12. Most iconic P1H tiktok in your opinion? soul glitching to the "listen to me now" audio fucking kills me. its literally so dumb but it cracks me up dlkfjsdlfs

13. A P1H moment you love? when they did the portrait drawing contest on Jongseobs birthday live, and keeho gave this big speech about how some artists arent appreciated in their time just bc he lost sldkfjlsk😭

16. A collab you’re hoping for? in their daebak show interview keeho and jiung said that they want to try more bandy music, so i think them working with n.flying would be so cool!! it would make my n.fia heart so happy

18. Fav lyric if you have one? "going my own way with two great danes, gotta stay humble like bill murray" certified iconic

19. Fav vocal, rapper and dancer? vocal has to be keeho, rapper jongseob, dancer soul!! why my own bias isnt on this list the world may never know.

23. Something you love about being a P1ece? I always love being a part of smaller fandoms because theres such a strong sense of community and dedication that sometimes gets lost in groups with huge fanbases. (in terms of like, when fanbases get bigger there can be lots of weird drama about voting or who should have won what or which fandoms are "fighting" one another but with smaller groups its like "woo!! we got a comeback!!" lmfao)It's a difficult balance, because while you want them to become successful and reach a larger audience, theres something special about stanning a newer/less well known group and feeling that camaraderie in fandom spaces.

Bonus: Anything P1Harmony-related that you want to recommend to your (non-P1ece) followers or to new P1eces?

Keeho covering "All of Me" by john legend genuinely surpasses the original, i could listen to this for days!! pls listen and be amazed!!!

#kpop stuff #p1harmony #p1h #thank u for tagging me this was super fun!! got me back into watching their youtube content #and looking at all the stuff that made me stan originally #ugh love them!!#text

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lassieposting · 3 years

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Hi i havent read the books post-resurrection so im kinda lost on why you dont like phase 2 val? She was easily one of my favourite characters ever, she was flawed (and the books took time to acknowledge them) and relatable and still really admirable (intelligent, brave, loyal) and i really liked her and really appreciated that she wasn’t perfect unlike every other young adult heroines. What went wrong😢😢😢😢

Okay I'm gonna put this under a cut because I very strongly dislike phase 2 val and I know it bugs people who don't feel the same, so. Dead dove dont eat

Okay so first off, phase 1 val and phase 2 val are completely different people. literally. phase 1 val was based on an ex-friend of lardo's who used to apparently be involved pretty heavily in like, editing the books and "she'd react like this" or "val wouldn't say that", and that val she was one of my favourite fictional characters from when book one came out to the release of resurrection. phase 2 val is based on his whiny little girlfriend who likes to start shit with 14yos on twitter, and you can absolutely tell she is no longer the same person. so the long story short of "what went wrong" is "the original irl val's friendship with dirty laundry ended for whatever reason and he decided to retcon her entire personality to suit his gf"

Phase 2 Val, in my opinion:

Weak, like won't even fight back when she gets jumped bc boo fucking hoo she's so awful, bitch get up already, nobody signed up for ur pity party

Whiny. So fucking whiny. All the time. And she's the POV character so it's inescapable.

"Pacifist" but in a really pathetic virtue-signalling kind of way like "Oh, I've done such terrible thiiiiiiiiiiings I'm so awfulllllllllllll look how good I'm trying to be nowwwwwwww pay attention to meeeeeeee" kind of way, it was both boring and a massive eye roll. It's a book about magic and asskicking. Kick some ass. We're here for escapism not "realistic" whining. Yes, irl she'd be a mess. As an author it's his job to strike a balance between the "realism" he wants to portray and making his readers so depressed and done with his heroine that they quit reading, and in my case, he absolutely failed.

Everything must be about her at all times. Skug is having personal problems? Fuck him, they're about her now. Everything is about how it affects her, and her feelings, and be damned to the person actually having the problem. Fucks phase 2 val cain gives about anyone except herself: 0

Bitter and jaded. Which yeah I get why but it's like jesus christ what do we get out of reading about this? It's not even good bitter and jaded where it makes you empathise or admire her strength in adversity or whatever, she's just become a really nasty person with no redeeming features that I could see. Which? Landy outright said she's based on his gf? If your boyfriend is gonna drag ur entire personality through the dirt like that and write "you" as just a collection of incredibly negative traits...yikes.

Really ungrateful about the awesome life she leads? Which bugs me bc I fucking hate mundanity and knowing that all there is to life is fucking working and bad mental health. I would kill to live her life. All she does is moan about it. Like? Quit then. Fuck off back to being a mortal if it's that bad and live the shitty life you wanted to get away from in the first place. That way we'd get no more books, and quite honestly, thank fuck for that. But anyway, she needs to pick one, stick with it, and stop complaining about whatever she chose.

The girl wallows in self pity. And if someone else isn't indulging her enough, she'll wallow harder and louder and more obviously. Yawn.

Her POV is now so depressing to read that Resurrection literally tanked my mental health. I'm not kidding. I fell off the self-harm wagon, the suicidal thoughts came back, reading her dissociating would make me dissociate, I just did not cope whatsoever. Being in her head was just like being in my head during my worst points, and I hate myself, so naturally, I hate her too. Like I get why some people like phase two val. I get that her depression is "realistic" and that trauma does just make some people completely dislikeable and self-pitying, and if people want to read about that, then...sure. you do you, my dudes. But I live that reality, I am that person whose trauma made her a dysfunctional, isolated bitch, and I hate, passionately, having it infest the media I consume to escape.

Essentially if I wanted to engage with a bitter, spiteful, depressed piece of shit in her 20s who pushes everyone away and sucks at everything, I'd live my gd life. Yall see me tryna engage with my real life? Hell nah I'm on tumblr dot com burying my head up the ass of whatever fandom will force my brain to produce some s e r o t o n i n and that is what I need this series for

Also? The dynamic she had with skug in phase one? "Until the end"? "You save me, I save you, that's how we work"? Forget that, it doesn't exist anymore. I stopped reading after Midnight, because she was written like he was a coworker she could barely tolerate. They went from "Lardo confirms on twitter that they talked on the phone a bunch while she was in america and he'd always ask her to come home" to "she comes home and proceeds to blank him for five months while she sits in her fuckin multimillionaire's mansion feeling sorry for herself". Their friendship completely disintegrated, they were totally separated for most of the book, she's written as not giving a single shit about him. She treated him like dirt, and their dynamic basically felt like it was becoming "Local Man With History Of Gravitating Towards Abusive Women Makes Same Terrible Choices For Fifth Time" and? that was the point of no return to me. he supports her unconditionally, no matter what he's going through at the time, he's walked on broken bones to try and get to her when she was in danger, she can tell him anything and he'd never use it against her. I did not, for one second in phase two, believe she felt the same about him. tbh it felt like she could - and wanted to - drop him at the first opportunity and not even feel bad about it, and that's not the dynamic that made me so emotionally attached to phase one. i signed up for "until the end", not whatever bullshit phase two has going on.

Apparently she's "less depressed" now and their relationship is "better" in the books published since midnight, which! might well be true. but I haven't read them and don't intend to, and she's gone from one of my favourite fictional characters ever (which! was impressive! because i almost never bond with the female lead - i normally get attached exclusively to the character i crush on, which would be skug here. val was the first female lead i actually cared about since xena! so im deeply salty about losing her!) to a character i? honestly prefer to pretend doesn't exist. i live in war era dead men/generals crackship land because that way, i don't have to acknowledge her or the fuckin character assassination phase 2 pulled on her.

so yeah, no hate towards phase one val at all. phase one val was awesome and flawed and gave me something to aspire to despite my shitty mental health and trauma, and if she'd kept her original personality she might still have been those things. but the original "real life" val is no longer involved (and doesn't talk to landy at all anymore, apparently), and the val based on landy's insufferable gf? i cannot get behind her at all ever, four for skug and none for phase two val cain bye

(tldr; you're not missing anything by quitting after spx)

#skulduggery pleasant #valkyrie cain #anti-val #extremely anti-val #but like only anti-phase two val #bc phase one val was great and i loved her #come back friend!laura val needs you #lardass can't write her without ur input

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kelieah · 4 years

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no way (peter parker x reader)

summary: it’s your first day of work and you run into someone oddly familiar

warnings: fluff, normal au, based on a real experience lol

edited: this is rlly shitty i havent written in forever im sorry ksdjfbdh also i wanna add onto this mini “series”, bc like if this cute guy rlly is my old crush i-

a/n: so ofc i have like no motivation to catch up w my requests atm- im so sorry skjdfbhgdj but i had my first day of work the other day so why not write a quick blurb abt how that went hehe

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Honestly. I’m more excited than nervous. Right? Maybe because of that cute boy I saw the other day when I came into the store for my interview, but he’s irrelevant. Kinda.

You remember waiting in line and seeing him bag groceries. His brunette curls were all over the place and his pair of pretty brown eyes were focused on his task.

Ugh, I could just tell he’s gorgeous, even if half his face was covered because of his mask.

You thought to yourself as you slyly checked him out from the corner of your eye. He was wearing the stores’ shirt with some baggy jeans and worn-out new balances. For some reason, that was the most attractive thing ever to you. Maybe quarantine really was getting to you.

After the not-so-nerve-wrecking interview, you felt even more excited to start working. If they accept you of course. What made you feel that way was the fact that someone who has been working there for a while will help you out, if you do start of course. At least, that’s what the manager who was interviewing you said.

A couple of days later, you get the job. Which seemed pretty obvious, but you were stoked nonetheless. Mainly because you actually got the job and because you might get to work with the pretty boy. Then again, might.

You’re probably barely going to see him around the store and maybe that’s a good thing. You can be awkward as fuck even though you act confident from time to time. Attractive people make you nervous, you can’t help it.

Your first day starts and everything’s pretty chill, just had to sign some papers. Now you’re in some office room starting a couple of video training modules. You lean on the palm of your hand and scroll through the list of the videos you had to watch. About 33 videos and documents, fanfuckingtastic.

Some time passes by and you glance at the computer’s time realizing it’s time to start your lunch. You shift off the headphones you were using and stand up, telling your newly acquainted coworker that you’re taking a lunch.

Okay. What do I do now? I clock out, right? Then go grab some lunch. Okay? Cool. I got this.

You breathe out and walk to the back of the store, then towards the break room to clock out. You let your manager know you’re going to go the nearby Starbucks to grab some lunch and begin to head out the store with a sense of relief rushing through your body.

That sense of relief immediately diminishes when that cute guy, stops you from leaving. “Hey, are you a courtesy clerk?” he asks, smiling at you beneath his mask.

You notice his eyes slightly squint from smiling making your stomach fill with butterflies. You nod slowly, “U-Uhm, yep.”

He stifles a laugh and holds up some empty bottle, walking up to you. You gulp and glance at him, “Could you please refill this with sanitizer for me? It’s in the back of the store, by the janitor’s closet.”

“Yeah sure,” you take ahold of it but instantly realize you don’t know where that is, “I-I’m sorry, where is that a-again?” you let out a breathy laugh.

He chuckles, “It’s uhm, somewhere in the back. I have to help these customers out but just ask someone. They’ll know. Thank you!” he walks back out to the front of the store.

Okay, fuck. Just help the cute guy. Doesn’t matter that you’re on lunch, just go.

You inhale deeply and quickly walk away, doing his favor. You come back and walk up to him, keeping a distance. “H-Here,” you say quietly but notice he’s too focused on helping others to hear you. You bite your lip nervously out of habit and watch him.

His eyes look so familiar. Almost like. No way? Could it be, Peter Parker from freshman year? Shut the fuck up, no way.

You feel your heart begin to race at the thought. You glance at his outfit to check for a name tag but didn’t catch anything.

Shit.

You look back up at him when you notice him come close, “Sanitizer, right?” he chirps.

You nod, “Y-Yeah.”

“Thanks,” he goes back to his job. You make your way past him with widened eyes and walk out the store to Starbucks.

That did not just fucking happen. He’s so cute, oh my god. Wait, could that really be him? It went by too fast, shit! Oh my god. I got over Peter Parker two years ago, did he really have to show up now? No, no fucking way it’s him. Whatever. I’ll find out his name eventually. Then, I guess we’ll see.

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notveryglittery · 4 years

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so @/dysaniadisorder posted this really cute zoom moxiety art and then i posted some selfies in a discord server and the reactions from that + this moxiety art got me feeling even more Fluffy than usual so here’s a very rambly au that i stream of consciousness wrote in half an hour lol

idk about anyone else, but i had a pen pal through english class in middle school for a little while. so what if, patton and virgil meeting through being pen pals. patton's letters are as bubbly as his stories, he includes stickers on the pages and the envelope, and uses *so many* exclamation marks. virgil meanwhile, tends to write very little and mostly just in reaction to whatever patton said. because sure, the letters are sent to the school and they've been told not to give away personal information, but y'know... Just In Case.

except for one towards the end of the program, when patton really doesn't want to lose contact with virgil, so he shares his instagram. and he says no pressure of course i dont even know if you have an instagram but here it is if you ever wanna try to keep talking. and bc roman's his best friend, of course virgil has instagram (ugh). so of course he checks patton's profile. and oh *no* he's as cute as his bubbly handwriting and his stories and stickers and exclamation marks

virgil's never really mentioned this whole pen pal thing to roman, because roman's english teacher did not sign her class up for it and he knows roman would be jealous. but he made the mistake of checking patton's profile in roman's presence and if anyone's going to notice a Gay Panic™, it's roman

so of course roman grills virgil and virgil caves bc like what?? else is he gonna do?? but anyway, roman hits the follow button for virgil but then virgil throws his phone across the room and breaks it so can we get an f in the chat

meanwhile patton's studying with his step-brother logan when he gets a little chime from his phone and? oh a new instagram follow that's neat, who's [insert cool username for virgil]? except of course virgil's profile is private so patton has to follow back to see any photos. except virgil's phone is busted! bummer

cue virgil not getting a new phone for a week or two bc idk he's in trouble for breaking the old one to begin with and by the time he finally does get a new one, he totally spaces on installing instagram. so it's like a month and a half later when roman asks him why the heck he hasn't been liking roman's pictures that virgil remembers. and then he also remembers patton. *oh god patton* how could he ever forget, he is a fool, and patton probably hates him now, or he must be super worried, bc the pen pal program is over so they havent been writing and then he just disappeared off the face of the planet which?? well patton should have expected it a little because he did say it would be okay if virgil didnt want to keep in contact but *oh god patton*

virgil installs instagram and finds patton's follow request (and like 32 comments from roman demanding that virgil like his photos what kind of best friend is he smh)

and he accepts it

and then while he's still riding his bravery high, he messages patton "hey it's virgil" and then Very Calmly sets his phone down before screaming into a pillow

meanwhile patton's busy cheering logan on at his swim meet but this does mean that he's posting all sorts of encouraging cheesy stuff to his story which means virgil is already getting a sneak peak into patton's life and wait oh my GOD is that his voice???????

virgil is very gay and he is having a Time

anyway patton also almost breaks his phone when he sees the follow request approved *and* the message!!! because lowkey , he considers virgil a pretty close friend!! he vented in some of those pen pal letters! said some things he couldn't bring himself to say to anyone else. and virgil was always so patient and kind and reminded him of all the good things to help and balance out the bad things.

so y'know, fast forward thru lots of instagram interactions. messaging each other late into the night. virgil always liking patton's photos and leaving a single "💜" comment on every one. they talk about roman - and how he's virgil's best friend and he may be dramatic and loud but he's reliable and genuine - and they talk about logan - and how patton wouldn't know anywhere near as much as he does w/out him and how they have sleepovers in the basement every saturday.

and fast forward to moving on from instagram to discord, and joining servers of fandoms they're both in. making a server for themselves + roman + logan (and *oh boy,* introducing roman and logan). sending silly memes and posts that "made me think of you", late night texting that ends with one sending the final “i guess you fell asleep, sweet dreams <3″ message, and the other sending the “oops i did, good morning <3″ message in return

and sure, roman might post pictures on instagram of himself and virgil, but virgil's always half-in half-out of frame or he's blurry or he's looking away. and so one day, he posts a selfie in their friend server because he's just got his hair dyed purple and he's *so excited* and patton. patton didnt even have time to prepare can we get an f in the chat

there are a LOT of keysmashes and hearts lol

roman is still laughing by the time patton manages to calm down. patton sort of flat out demands for a group video call aljsdf

logan and roman, all this time obviously because they can't be out done, have already had plenty of personal voice and video calls themselves. sometimes it's just to help roman run lines or help logan study for a test. but they have been on the receiving end of patton and virgil gushing about their respective crushes so they're in full support of this tbh

so they set up a group video call that night, roman and logan like immediately muting themselves bc let's be real we all know the real reason behind this. patton is gushing about virgil and virgil's hair like, right off the bat, and virgil is slowly but surely disappearing into his hoodie and the lighting in his room isn't very good, but gosh patton is *melting* and then

and THEN

patton pauses to finally drink out of his cooling hot cocoa and virgil takes the opportunity to clear his throat and sit up a little out of his hoodie cocoon and says thank you

and y'all we thought virgil was all Gay Panic™ when he saw patton's face in photos for the first time? and then he broke his phone when roman followed patton for him?

patton does a spit take and chokes on his hot cocoa and kind of maybe shorts out his laptop ajsdkjhsf

because we gotta go full circle baby

roman disappears from view on his camera because he just rolled off the bed he's laughing so hard

you know logan definitely anticipated this, so he's been on best buy's website this whole time, ready to find laptops on sale / schedule an appointment to get patton's laptop fixed

and uuuhhhh yeah :) pen pals to friends to lovers long distance moxiety, with background probably-qpr logince because that's the Vibe i'm getting. with bonus best friends prinxiety and familial logicality!! thanks for reading :D

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yeoldontknow · 3 years

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🖊writerly conversation tag

tagged by @j-pping to do this amazing interview/reflections tag. of course she put together one of the most amazing tags ever because she is brilliant. thank you for tagging me angel!

questions below the cut!

2020

what was the most challenging part of writing this year?

gosh...i think for me the hardest bit was staying both motivated and inspired. a lot of my inspiration comes from being out in the world. im an introvert but i enjoy being out in the city around the noise and the people and the buildings on my own. the majority of my writing used to be done while riding the subway or on a weekend after id gone out somewhere. a lot of my fics are inspired by locations, and experiences within those locations. being inside for the majority of the year made it hard for me to remember how...people interact with or relate to the spaces around them. so i felt like a lot of the time staying inspired was coming from places within just me that felt inauthentic. i think my writing benefits from my ability to see multiple perspectives, so i felt like a lot of dialogue or writing itself was suffering just coming from me alone. it took a lot of work to ensure that it wasnt like that.

and then, motivation was also so hard. the internet and the news and everything about america, the planet, the everything was unrelenting and draining. we as people were privy to so much trauma this year, to the collapse and fracture of communities, lives, governments. there were several weeks at the end of may and into june where i just...couldnt. i had no energy for anything. it happened again in november after the election and the windfall of it. energetic tensions were so high it just felt so hard to push out words when things were breaking everywhere. like there were more important things i needed to focus on, and healing was one of them.

what was the most enjoyable/rewarding part of writing this year?

i enjoyed the new community of writers/friends i found by writing for bts again. they challenged me and pushed me to better myself. @jamaisjoons is so inspirational in the way she generates community and encourages relationships between storytellers. doing the summer bucket list pushed me out of my hermit hole for camp nano, and i cranked out molotov cocktail and felt so proud of it. it mattered so much to me because it was the first long thing id written after a period of feeling deceased, and it was so enjoyable because there was a sense of community around it. its easy to forget how essential having a support system in your creative community is.

what piece has left the most impact on you and why?

probably ciperion. words cannot express how proud i am of that story and the direction its going in. i read it back sometimes and i realize that my writing was elevated because of that piece. tbh molotov was responsible for that lift, but ciperion was just a whole other tier. ive also never written anything like that story before and it felt so good exploring the themes of seafaring and pirates.

what have you learned about yourself through the process of writing in the past year?

that i absolutely am someone who took for granted how inspiring the world is even if i see it as a stressor. but also that writing isnt necessarily about being inspired. its about pushing on when its hard. some of my best pieces came from that kind of push this year. 2020 felt like...a slog through most of it, but i kept pushing myself to write even when i was low and tired. i realized that some of my best writing comes from that push, when its not easy and when its difficult and i have to think harder. thats where i grow.

how has your writing changed in the past year? how have you grown?

i think im more syntax and detailed focused than i used to be. lately ive been experimenting with making the act of reading feel like pleasure. my favourite books are the ones where i read a sentence, and im moved because it felt nice to read or it felt powerful. the sentence itself had power, not the image it was trying to convey. somehow separate, if that makes sense. theres a lot i need to learn before i could go off comfortably and try to write a book, and this is what ive been trying to master. my attention to detail has grown, and sometimes i think thats a detriment. i think sometimes im too detailed and i dont leave my reader enough power on their own. im still finding that balance, but i think im pleased right now with what im trying to push myself to master.

2021

ignoring your wips for a second, if you had all the time and energy in the world to write your magnum opus piece, what would it be about? why is that the dream story you’d write, all other things controlled for?

ive had two books in my mind forever. one was originally being written as a fanfic in a different fandom before i stopped and realized its too big and so much more important, and is worth being a book id like to write. if i wrote an opus like this it would actually be a book id submit to publishers but ~

- hundreds of years in the future, society has learned how to cure most diseases. for those we cannot, the sick person can be cryogenically frozen for a period of time until a cure is found. there is, however, a limit to the length of time they are frozen. no one has ever been frozen for over 100 years, and the main character is a scientist embarking on the experiment to do just that. it is, effectively, time travel. the main character is rash, selfish, sarcastic - not a very nice person; invested in their work and science and little else. they freeze themselves and wake up in the future. during their time in rehab they have to confront the horror theyve made of themselves, the horror people have made of the future, learn to be vulnerable. they end up falling in love with another scientist etc etc. theres so much more to this story and the world is enormous. one day ill revisit it

- a fictional play on orpheus in the underworld where a female main character’s brother was sold by their mother to the goddess of the underworld (helena instead of hades) for eternal youth. the gods all live in a hotel (the concept of this main thing is being used in elysian fields but its not remotely the same) after they were removed from the heavens. main character (ophelia) must gather several totems from the gods to prove her worth and survive her trip into the underworld to rescue him. id like to not focus on a woman finding romance, and instead a woman finding herself, her strength, her devotion to family, her power, and connecting with her history.

how do you want to grow in your writing this year?

this year id like to find balance, like i mentioned above, with my need for detail and my trust in my readers. the balance between detail and dialogue. i want to try to condense my writing again so not everything is a goddamn series. the ideas i have are huge and thats great but i need to remember how to parse things again, while still maintaining impact.

what’s one thing you’d wish to see in the fan-writing community this year?

i want more community, in general. as a multi fan, i see pockets in the kpop fandom where it exists and im well and truly aware that its recently become incredibly hard to foster on the exo side. ill just say that. maybe i dont witness it or its happening amongst blogs i havent found or have not found me. i want to see less dialogue about ‘popular blogs,’ whatever that means; less focus on notes; less worries about statistics. i want people to remember that fandom is not about numbers, and the moment you make it about that is the moment you stop having fun. i want less fear from writers regarding sharing work they read and liked, less shame around it. i want to see more vocal communication for the things people like and don’t like, more engagement and more interaction. the concept of popular blogs is so ridiculous to me, because no one has any control over the metrics. no one has control over who follows them or reads their work except the person doing the actual reading. i want people to realize they hold so much power - a person with 10k notes has as much power as a person with 2 notes because sharing is what fosters community. i want this fandom to remember to share again.

name one new thing you want to try doing in your writing this year.

gosh i really love postmodernism in writing. think like mark z danielewski, who plays with the shapes of words or the act of holding a book - the physicality of it. id like to maybe write a choose your own adventure, or do something that encompasses multiple platforms. or even, more importantly, finish as still as sound and time runner. those are more reasonable goals. time runner actually is done, i just need to stop pressuring myself about it and edit it to get it up. asas, too, is largely done i just need to get my ass together. i have so many other ideas no one has ever seen i need to finish what ive started. thats a real goal.

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shiraglassman · 4 years

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Hello! This is longer than I meant so apologies: I'm a big admirer of your work and I had a question regarding a DND campaign I'm starting with a group of friends - it's a pre-written module that Ive been excited to start. However, reading through the story there's a group that's styled after jewish and romani caricatures including fortune tellers, tarot cards and really nasty stereotypes like greediness and working for the main villain of the game. (1/3)

they also have coded names like Miriam so i know it's intentional and not an unfortunate coincidence. The group is pivotal to the game and provide a lot of main plot points and side quests, but I really don't want to use them as they are. I want to include Jewish rep by making one of the allied families more jewish-coded than the standard fantasy european in an attempt to balance it out, but I also want to re-write the group which is going to be tougher than I thought. (2/3) I was thinking of having them being more forced to serve the main bad guy instead of willing, and have avenues for the players to help them but i don't know if that's sufficient. I know this is kind of out there but thank you so much! None of my friends are jewish and havent expressed any discomfort when i brought it up, but I don't want to expose them to these stereotypes if I can help it while still keeping the game on the right track. (3/3)

I’m not actually sure if my answer will make any sense because I’m not a gamer, so if Jewish gamers want to jump in and help out with this, feel free, but personally-me-specifically, I wouldn’t use that specific pre-written module. There have got to be infinite others out there, right? Life is too short and exhausting to spend time trying to un-microaggression a work of fiction you’re not already deeply invested in, like a beloved fandom.

Also, Jewish characters being forced to do bad things by a gentile villain isn’t a plot I’d find appealing or comforting. But! That’s just me personally, and obviously you don’t have to do what I say -- two Jews three opinions etc. (Some people might find solace in the idea of getting to escape from that, for example, and their preference is valid too.) And I sympathize with you not wanting to expose your gentile friends to these ideas any more than wider society already has.

Thank you for your kind words about my books @soucondra :)

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gffa · 4 years

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Ok. I havent read a lot of the star wars novels BUT I have read A LOT of fics and I just had a question. A lot of the fics I've read mention Obi-Wan being in tune with the unifying force. Where do we get that information??

Hi! I haven’t read a ton of Legends stuff yet (I’m working my way through all of it, but there’s a lot of SW stuff to get through!) so if someone has better source material references than I do, feel free to chime in!I don’t recall the Unifying Force event existing in canon, where instead George Lucas’ commentary and The Clone Wars have the two aspects of it as the Living Force and the Cosmic Force.Which was: "All energy from the Living Force, from all things that have ever lived, feeds into the Cosmic Force, binding everything and communicating to us through the midi-chlorians.“ --Qui-Gon, “Voices”“The Force itself breaks into two sides: the Living Force and a greater, Cosmic Force. The Living Force makes you sensitive to other living things, makes you intuitive, and allows you to read other people’s minds, et cetera. But the greater Force has to do with destiny. In working with the Force, you can find your destiny and you can choose to either follow it, or not.“ --George LucasSo, it sounds like the everyday stuff, the “here and now” stuff is the Living Force, and the greater destiny stuff, the web of energy that binds the galaxy together, is the Cosmic Force. While the Unifying Force is probably generally analogous to the Cosmic Force, I’m not sure they’re precisely the same, as the Unifying Force seems to focus more on the visions and future/destiny, rather than also focusing on the big web that connects everything.The Unifying Force (at least as Wookieepedia tells me) is only mentioned in a handful of sources, but nothing I can find specifically ties him to the Unifying Force. I haven’t finished my rereading of the JA/JQ books (which were long enough ago that my memory is totally fuzzy on them until I reread), but I can’t recall if he had a lot of visions there?I’m assuming the idea came from that Qui-Gon was more centered in the Living Force in the JA books + the “focus on the here and now” quote from TPM, then to counter balance that, it was interesting to a lot of fans to write about Obi-Wan being more centered on the “opposite” Force aspect, which pops up in fic a lot, but I’m not sure how much evidence there was of Obi-Wan having a lot of visions or sense of destiny in the novels? Moments of it, sure, but you could say the same of almost any Jedi, that they get flashes here and there, a sense of their destiny. But I don’t know of anything that would connect Obi-Wan to either one side or the other in more significance than you could make a case for with almost any character.Unless someone can point out differently (and I freely admit my lack of familiarity with Legends!), I’m assuming it’s a fanon thing that people love and it comes up in a bunch of fics because people read it in fic and thus assimilate it (I do the same--how long did it take me to realize that “Yan” is a fan-created name for Dooku? Or that Masters and Padawans don’t share apartments? Or that I’ve never seen a Jedi “release their feelings into the Force” in canon?) and that’s totally fine, fandom does what fandom wants! But I’m not sure it’s based on anything, other than that people enjoy it.

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gontagokuhara · 4 years

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Now that you’re a good way into the game, what are your thoughts on the Phantom Thieves so far?

OOOOOOOH OK OK

i could go on FOREVER abt these kids but i’ll just give like. a general-ish ranking for now. two caveats tho!

a) im not including goro or akira. despite knowing Quite A Lot about goro, its all secondhand and not lived yet. i could not definitively say whether i love him or hate him if i tried. also no akira bc hes Me. let it be known that i adore him and his design is mad sexy doe

b) i love ALL of the thieves. theres not a single one i dont adore. last place i still very much love!! but the others r just. big faves

ok rank time

makoto. my girl. the absolute TANK of my main party. has one of the more badass personas. i love love love her arc and her growth so far, and i just love her design!! i think she contrasts her sister very compellingly and i love the struggles she has to go through in turning from an unassuming, dilligent, almost subservient student into rebelling against authority she finds unjust in a way that is very Makoto. i fucking love her. my go-to to romance i think (along w hifumi but shhhh)

yusuke. he has not braincells but acrylic paint and homosexual thoughts rolling around in his head and i love him for it. he’s pretentious to the point its goofy and he takes both everything and nothing seriously BUT he also has a really compelling arc and he isn’t just comic relief fodder. he strikes a really good balance between being a valuable asset to the team and a more cautious voice of reason, while also being completely and utterly ridiculous to the point where i’m absolutely rolling whenever he’s around. that man is GAY he is TRANS and he has two pet lobsters named akira 2 and yusuke 2 that he makes kiss. king.

futaba. gonna be real i was TERRIFIED of being introduced to this character because i can just tell based on appearance what fandom incels and hentai addicts do to her. however she is INCREDIBLY compelling, her emotional beats hit HARD, and her relationships with sojiro and akira are just. super super good. i love the way her s-link is playing out thus far and i cant wait to get to know her more. people complain about her as navi being annoying but i dont get it?? she’s way less grating than morgana LMAO. in conclusion futaba queen i wuv you

ann. i feel like she gets left behind past kamoshida’s palace because we’re introduced to someone new each time, but i totally love ann! her relationship with shiho is really good, and im glad its not forgotten once her arc is done. she has fantastic chemistry with the whole group and shes just genuinely good. i have a soft spot bc she shares a va with kaede from dr<3, but i just. love ann. i want more forced interactions between her and akira bc their chemistry as friends is just SO good. stan ann for clear skin

haru. she is a SWEETIE and i love love love her. however i’ve barely unlocked her confidant and havent rly talked to her much outside of the okumura arc. she’s another stable member of my party and her persona FUCKS milady is so cool. she isnt Super fleshed out quite yet (but like. her dad literally did just die like 2 weeks ago in game we got time to grow) and i just love her!

ryuji. i LOOOOOVED ryuji in the first two palaces but he fucking SUCKS now the writers nerfed him HARD. misogyny isnt a cute personality trait, nor is only ever yelling all of your dialogue and arguing with people. the drop in quality from the first part of the game til now is staggering and it pisses me off because ryuji is SOOOOO good. he used to be a solid member of my party til i got haru but at this point ive made him backup out if spite. u all were not lying when u said this game treats ryuji like Shit. bring back gay respecter of women king ryuji 2020

morgana. hes just not as compelling as the other thieves. also how he acted during the okumura arc was so forced and contrived and OBNOXIOUS im still angry about it. hes fine normally and i know he isnt that bad before or after okumura but seriously. the contrived jealousy bullshit had me wanting to put down the game and not come back LMAO. hes only a stable member of my party bc ive spent all my time developing him into my stacked healer so<3 he stays i guess

#ask #p5 #connor plays p5 #p5 spoilers

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asamlambung · 4 years

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Gush about your fave DR character! ♡

WVJHKHKHKHK anon whoever you are please know that youre unleashing a beast but also thank you im…..

(actually i made a tierlist for this though it might not be as accurate since it was a few months ago)

(also sorry for the characters that are in the lower tiers i swear even if i don’t like them most of them are still good memes. and the ones in “c” and “b” i’d definitely like more if there’s some good art/fics that explore their characters better though i might not actively look for it.)

OK so just to preface i havent seen most free times and most of my impression came from joseph anderson’s playthrough sooo i might be biased but im definitely planning on rewatching at least v3 in its entirety with all of its ftesO i guess it’s best if i start chronological and lemme just say. SAKURA OOGAMI IS BEST GIRL

it’s easy to say that im weak for big stronk gal who can lift me easily. and there is /definitely/ that point.

this is gonna sound weird but i really like the level-headedness she brings to the trials. i wouldnt say she’s the smartest but she rounds up the whole cast in a way that keeps the trials from being too absurd and non-sensical. there are other characters that also do this but seeing it come from her makes me happy somehow? maybe it’s because she also balances asahina in that sense and also that she’s the fourth trial stronk person who’s the most level headed compared to gonta and nekomaru. not saying those two are bad either, they’re great characters in their own right but i feel like their function is more on the side of entertaining rather than weighing in on the discussion. i especially think nekomaru’s whole thing with shitting is funny and it’s kinda a shame that sdr2 cut him from trials starting from the third.

speaking of sakura, yes i ship her with hina. no, duh. they’re good together. but i was also kinda touched when she talked about kenshiro. idk, sakura has two strong beefy hands and she can hold her girlfriend and boyfriend at the same time ok.(pretty sure kenshiro appears in udg but i havent experienced that game outside of seeing a few cutscenes so i wouldnt know)

also the fact that we get a callback to her in the strawberry house was. idk if i should say cool or if it was funny but it was something. and yep, her death was the saddest out of the fourth trials the games had. nekomaru’s death was more respectful for me and i felt more sad about gonta during his trial than his death. it’s more gruesome than sad, to be honest.(and ok the smoothskin joe gives to sakura is also kinda funny)

with other dr1 characters i like most of them are usually because of my friends’ (who got into dr years before i did) influence like kyoko and celeste. there are some others i laugh at but it’s more because of the inside jokes of the streamer i was watching.

ok so with sdr2 komaeda is easily one of the top. but tbh the reason why it is is bc a few years ago i read this (illegally distributed) doujin that had written his character really well. tbh i feel kinda bad now knowing that the doujinka stopped circulating their doujin bc of that and some of the subject matter of their doujin is… a bit too much for me. but the ones that are good are really good and when i came into canon i was like, “oh, this is the fingers in ass guy who got memed to death" nowadays, i see him more as pickle nagito though. i am interested in seeing how his character can be… well, not redeemed but i want to see him heal. whiiich might never happen in canon bc his hope bagel personality is too infamous now.

also i know everyone hcs nagito’s voice as smth along the lines of nico’s voice or john’s voice but like consider jph’s stoner voice. please. it’s so fucking funny with the fucking pickle komaeda meme. maybe it’s bc although im not obsessed with hope or despair, i related to his way of seeing karma.

after experiencing sdr2 thoough, lemme just say that johnny yong bosch did a great job voicing hajimmy hinata. like im not even kidding i really like that voice and if i was ursula i would steal that voice for my own use. buutt i cant do that. unlike komaeda, i’m pretty indifferent to his character arc and enjoy his one on one interactions with the characters more and how he reacts to the immediate events that happened over the course of sdr2.

soo yeah komaeda and hinata are literally opposites in my head, ain’t much of a surprise that i ship them i guess. but!! i like a lot of the gals in sdr2 surprisingly.

like, ok. maybe i’m biased but the designs for the gals in sdr2 are so goddamn adorable. like okay there’s the obvious ones like chiaki and sonia. and i don’t know why sonia’s personality is so goddamn adorable. like not in the “awww you’re so fucking uwu” type of way but more in the sense that she’s funny? it feels like even through all her weirdness that she still manages to make genuine connections with the characters.

with peko, it’s hard to dislike her considering her whole arc with the second trial. of course liking her goes in hand with liking fuyuhiko’s character too but i just like.. how stoic she sounds??? it’s adorable????? and with mikan yeah she kinda went… off in the third trial but consider???? her voice when she snaps was so goddamn hot?????????????? sdr2 has the best voice acting cant change my mind.

and i don’t know why, gundham is so goddamn funny and if i wanna show how absurd sdr2 can get i show my friends gundham’s scenes. he’s fucking funny, ok. and alongside nekomaru i can respect his death in a way. i goddamn saluted when i first watched his execution (with the full context of the trial) because i just really liked the conviction he carried with his murder.

aand with v3…

miu’s one of the funniest character ever!! i swear. i know some people look at the sex jokes and go, “ugh” but im a manchild so i ended up enjoying her moments so much. though i’m kinda a bit meh on the fanservice side, i like how she’s one of the characters who sticks out more. in my language we call her “pentolan” i guess.

tenko’s kinda an easy character for me to like considering… stronk lady. would love for her to carry me. the misandry can get a bit too much but she’s also a pretty funny and genuine character on top of that so she came out with me liking her.

kaede and tsumugi are characters i grew to /love/ after i thought about them a lot.

with kaede, the point i started to relate to her… was with her thirst with girls. i swear im not joking. but. okay. i like her position as the protag and all her ideals. one thing i was surprised that didn’t manage to make me relate to her was her passion for piano considering i’ve also studied it for like, around 12 years. maybe it’s because i kinda fell out of it around 2 years ago because reasons. despite of that though, i like how assertive she was in her time as the protag. and her execution was goddamn beautiful.

tsumugi, though, i wouldn’t grow to love as much if it weren’t for 郁十‘s works. like. please. go watch all of their videos it’s all so good. i think someone else talked about this, but tsumugi’s position as the mastermind feels a lot more “human” than what we got with junko enoshima. compared to kaede, i feel like we could’ve gotten so much more with her as a villain and i just want to see more of her outside of her “plain bread” facade.

it might also be due to my own hcs for them so they’re on my head a lot more than most of the other v3 characters are. even more than my two actual favorites!!

ok, ok. kochiki and shuichi are definitely my favorites of the bunch. like, the toppest tiers of fav actually. it’s kinda hard to talk about these two separately tbh. maybe it’s because before danganronpa, my previous otp in my previous fandom had these two’s dynamics as well. and like, there’s a certain pairing to a fandom i haven’t caught up to in years who also have a detective/phantom thief dynamic. aaand also persona 5 and that one pairing that i don’t have to name for people to know which is my otp.

yeah i’m a sucker for these types of characters. it’s kinda typical that they’d be popular in the fandom. which i’ll h a p p i l y eat up.

soo it’s kinda easy to start with kochiki. i think i don’t have to go into every minute detail and go all meta on why i like him as a character because a lot of people have articulated better on why his character works. he’s fun to watch when interacting with other characters and figuring out his motivation put my brain on work. i’ll say this though, i actually enjoy kokichi better when he’s not being woobified. he’s a rat through and through and i will enjoy this possum boi for that.

(oh wait, possum boi is rantaro. nvm.)

and now mr. detective himself. so i loved his character at first. didn’t love him more than kochiki but. liked his arc, he was a fun protag. then the fan content came and he became very moe in my eyes so i guess it’s easier to say that i uh, like fancontent of shuichi better but i like canon kokichi better. and also how is it that the majority of ousai e-rated works has shuichi as a top SHUICHI IS NOT A TOP um yeah anyway. i feel like out of all the main characters he’d be a pretty nice person to hang out with.

also his eyelashes are nice. im totally not embarrassed while typing this out. im literally physically restraining myself from typing out more so i can not embarrass myself even further.

okay congrats anon here you are i hope you enjoyed this embarrassing mess it took me more than a day to type this out because i don’t know where i should stop myself regarding some characters. but uh yeah. i have gushed. now i shall return to the abyss.

(unless anybody asks me to gush about my ocs which might actually be thrice as long as this)

#LFKDJAG;LFKDJGA;LKJ THE READMORE DIDNT WORK IM SO SORRY #poffin.txt #ok i fixed it i think #for the low low amount of 0.1 dollars i will stop gushing abt anything i am an embarrassment #im sorry it took me almost 2k words to gush but like... my love for some characters are just...... *shuichi clenching his chest sprite*

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pinkletterday · 5 years

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Okay so the Flash tag was very misleading. This wasn't the best 100th episode they could have done but it was the sweetest.

Don't get me wrong, none of that painfully contrived plot made a lick of sense, starting with being so blasé about going back in time when its pretty much the golden rule for them to not do that anymore (and er. Did Hunter Solomon just get Time Wraithed five episodes too early? What?) Nora not knowing Eobard killed her grandmother what in fuck and the whole thing about popping up the same day S2 Barry did (I know it was supposed to be all tense and menacing but I was giggling so hard. Someone should write a fic about various Barry Allens interrupting Thawne's work day to heckle him into fixing more and more shit. "Hi. My name is Barry Allen. You killed my mother. How do I fix the plumbing in STAR Labs? Bitch.")

AND FOR GOD'S SAKE WHY DID THEY KEEP VOLUNTEERING THAWNE INFORMATION.

After all that, the plan didn't even work.

BUT OH MY GOD I LOVED KILLER FROST. She is the most badass bitch and I can tell DP has a blast playing her. Train her up and send her against Cicada for real, cause that fight I would watch.

I loved seeing Eowells with Cisco and Caitlin, I loved revisiting all those milestone moments through Nora's eyes, and my God this episode was 75 % the tour de force that is Tom Cavanaugh. He nailled every scene - the suave menace of pre-series Eowells, the barely contained malice of S1 Eowells, the frenetic single-minded, almost callous version of Harry we first met and (sigh) Sherloque. Who somehow managed to be so distinct from the other personas that I didn't even think to compare his absurdity to the groundedness of Harry and Eowells. Cavanaugh's direction was also beautiful and seamless, even with all the recycled shots.

I didn't even mind missing Iris as much as I would have - she was always there somehow, maybe because of Nora. Mama Flash trying her hardest not to be the closed off woman who holds her daughter back, encouraging her husband to do the same. And then stepping back and letting them do their thing, trusting them to come back home to her.

Seeing her shooting Savitar to save Barry, seeing her be the one to hold and comfort him before they were ever together and then watching them so young and innocent waiting in the crowd during the pilot really encapsulated their journey together (thank god Eddie wasn't in this. Nothing against the character, I just hate that he existed at all). Iris has always been Barry's secret hope through his whole life. During the Zoom episode they were still tentatively trying to find a new footing between feelings that could not yet be spoken and the entirety of S3 was spent in terror that fate would still rip her away. Now they're rock solid and their daughter is right there next to Barry, the promise and realization of everything he had ever hoped for him and Iris.

I love Iris and Westallen, but The Flash has always been Barry Allen's story first. Taking his daughter through the journey of all his mistakes and defeats instead of his victories was such an aching, vulnerable choice. I'm not perfect, I've never been the man you think I was, I have made so many mistakes and been hurt so badly and all I have learned from it is how much I cannot change, no matter how powerful I become, no matter how much I love. It was the moment when he went from "father" to "Barry Allen" in Nora's eyes; when she started to see him as a person first. I understand and I still want to know you. Still love you. It was the most heartaching moment. And such a shock for Nora to realize that they both know the trauma of losing a parent, such a terrible connection to share.

Nora visiting her grandparents killed me. The Allens so young and happy and whole, not knowing their lives are about to be ripped apart in moments. Barry simply turning up at her side, almost casually, guessing she'd go there because he does the same thing. The quiet, sad resignation in his eyes when he says "every day." He has had to experience and accept Nora's own nightmare, that nothing she does will change her family's fate. How many times has he time travelled just to see his parents like this, knowing he could change it but also knowing the price of doing so is too great? His family in front of him, flesh and blood and alive, but still only ghosts he can never touch nor save?

But then Nora's there, again the living reminder of all that he stands to gain, all that of himself and his loves that will continue. Nora carries Barry's mother and father in her blood, Iris and Joe, and the legacy of his own life. And she's there, smiling at him, pulling him out of the past into the future.

Barry is still young, but he's aged beyond his years. The non-linear confusion of his life doesn't help him advance in stages. He's twenty-five and shaped by a vendetta ten years into the future, he's twenty seven and faced with himself a thousand years old and warped, he's watched every timeline unfold in the Speed Force till his mind broke apart, and now he's the father of a young woman he's never yet held as a baby and still loves with all his heart because she is his. It's such a surreal dissonance of age and identity when Nora calls him "old man". For a moment, he remembers that he's still young, and young enough to be hilariously offended by it.

I'm not going to touch on the Nora-working-with-Thawne "reveal" because we've seen that coming from the first. Instead I want to gush about Jessica Parker Kennedy. You guys, this woman is incredible. She was the sweetest, most precious thing this episode, the perfect audience surrogate. She has killed every scene she's in so far this season, so much so that her calling Barry and Iris "Mom and Dad" has never seemed weird, her love and connection to them has never seemed untrue, keeping her character so emotionally balanced right where she needs to sell it that we don't think overmuch about her bizarre age situation (2049? Really?). I don't know why this fandom doesn't appreciate her more, especially the Westallen fandom. Nora is literally the legacy of the show and of Barry and Iris's love. I cannot imagine anyone other than Jessica doing it so much justice.

Special notes:

- I wish we had more Golden Trio moments. Barry, Cait and Cisco's friendship was the lynchpin of the first two seasons and its disintegration in the third season is something that still hasn't been healed. SHOW ME BARRY'S CARE AND LOVE FOR CAITLIN SNOW. SHOW ME BARRY'S LOVE FOR CISCO.

- I am always torn between appreciating what this show wants to tell me and frustration of how badly it's usually told. Nora seeing Iris being Barry's comfort and support during one of his worst moments before they were ever together should have been heartwarming. But instead of showing a sweet, silent moment where Barry is allowed to curl up in her lap while she holds him in the aftermath of a traumatic experience, we see her pushing him to get up again before he even changes out of his suit. It made the scene seem so forced and contrived. Sometimes it's like the writers only know the theory of how humans work.

- It stood out to me again how embedded Cisco is in the emotional narrative of this show. It's Barry's story but Cisco's universe, his presence is vital, ubiquitous, pervasive. Seeing him innocent and sweet and vulnerable with Eowells, craving his approval, and then seeing him face down Cicada as a confident full-fledged superhero (are my baby's hands healed now?) was so satisfying. His character arc has been so amazing and consistent through four seasons of shoddy and uneven writing. He is literally the Samwise to Barry's Frodo and the fact that we havent heard stories of Uncle Cisco from Nora is a farce.

- I know fandom jumped on "at least you still have one" as a reference to Donovan's existence but I'm wondering if it's a reference to Thawne's own daughter Melonie. Did she still marry Don in his future or was she erased?

- I like that Eowells touched on the fact that Savitar was actually Barry. It gets persistently glossed over, that while Barry can't be held responsible for his future self, it was very much still him. I hate that Savitar was our Barry because the fact that any version of him could ever kill Iris is such a fundamental betrayal of his character, but jeez, if you're going to put it out there at least explore the ramfications of that concept in full.

- I missed Jesse L. Martin so much. I had really hoped we could have at least gotten five minutes of recycled footage of him.

- Also missed my cinnabun Cecile, and I want to see Iris interacting with her new sister! I need her to hold Jenna trying to imagine what Nora will feel like in her arms. I want Wally to be delighted at having a sibling he can watch grow up. GIVE ME MY WEST FAMILY DAMN IT.

- I still want my vow renewal (will literally kill someone for it at this point, preferably Guggy. No one will miss him) but that last iconic porch scene with the Allens is a compromise I can live with.

All in all, not the best 100th episode we could have gotten but very far from the worst.

#the flash 100th episode #the flash spoilers #recap #review #commentary #barry allen #iris west-allen #nora west-allen #cisco ramon #jessica parker kennedy #carlos valdez #tom cavanaugh #harrison wells #eobard thawne #caitlin snow #danielle panabaker #westallen

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lowkeyanakin · 2 years

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I posted 4,840 times in 2021

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For every post I created, I reblogged 104.2 posts.

I added 158 tags in 2021

#obikin - 43 posts

#elisa writes - 30 posts

#anakin skywalker - 22 posts

#obi-wan kenobi - 21 posts

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#to all my obikins mutuals and random blog i stalk obsessively: i love you so much you make life in this shit fandom worth living

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do you ever feel like your heart is gonna get ripped out of your chest when you think about how much anakin and obi-wan loved each other? just what an ecompassing and overwhelming feeling its is to be loved like that? to be so deeply intertwined with somebody else's mind and soul you become one single entity split in two people?

like, i know that even if one day i'll stop being interested in star wars, i doubt i'll ever feel this way about two other characters. they chose me, i've made them mine, read other people's takes on them and i KNOW they will forever be n.1 in my heart.

(this spawned after i read a beautifully heartbreaking fic which im still thinking about three hours later. im a fucking mess, dont mind me)

48 notes • Posted 2021-11-17 16:07:33 GMT

ah yes, the obikin shipper (and fic writer) starter pack. no but seriously, these books helped (and still are helping) me understand the two of them SO MUCH BETTER!!!!

if you havent yet, you should totally read them.

59 notes • Posted 2021-09-27 20:45:57 GMT

just watched eternals and i had a thought ™️

immortal!anakin, god of death (padmé is the goddess of life, luke and leia are the sun and moon of course) who after millennia of sufferring, because he kills everything he touches, finds the one man who is immune to him. Enter: Obi-Wan (who is the physical incarnation of the concept of balance).

Obi-Wan falls in love with Anakin, of course, and Anakin tries do drive him away before they find out he's immune to him (angst!!!! yes!!!!). And then of course he tries to find a way to make him immortal, because he's anakin , only to find out that the only way to do that is POLYAMORYYYYYYYY (and having to reconcile with the family he left behind because he didnt want to ruin them)

You know, life + death = balance. All wrapped up in neat little au I wish I were able to actually write.

76 notes • Posted 2021-11-06 16:53:57 GMT

you know a trope that's very dear to me and i'll never stop using, even if it's a plot device i've already put in more than one of the fics i've written? Anakin and Obi-Wan falling asleep on each other. Mainly because:

their force signatures call to one another

they're each other's safe place so they have nothing to fear when they're together and can lower their shields

anakin is always cold an uses obi-wan as a human heater (basically he's nice and awesome in the force and obi-wan can use it to comfort anakin), falling asleep istantly

anakin being a furnace of wholesome power is enough to make obi-wan feel so loved and cared for, he can allow himself to get a decent night of sleep

they are in love, of course

it's just,,,,,, so beautiful to have someone find anakin sprawled over obi-wan like a rag, while obi-wan does something else and caresses his face/head/other body part or he's passed out too, holding onto anakin like he's a lifeline.

i will never grow tired of it, they deserve ALL the happiness

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no canon hug? no problem, that's what action figures are for.

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seitjun · 6 years

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what you are; what you are not

title: what you are; what you are not

pairing: momo/jirou

rating/warnings: teen and up

summary:

Sometimes, love doesn't start off stable; instead, it grows in the between moments where there lies doubts and insecurities of all things but love, or at least not yet love, and it fights on a shakey battleground that stays precariously balanced on a pin. It is rocky and terrifying and unpredictable and it starts with themselves.

Kyouka and Yaoyorozu know this too well.

notes: this is my first ever bnha work, so hello to new ppl of this fandom! i'll be doing a series of these to do slight character/pair studies to get to know them more, and id love for pairing reccs to write abt! ill take all pairs + characters + anything!! its been up for awhile but i havent gotten around to posting it here until now. ty to @filthybnhatrash for betaing it for me!!

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unsure (adj.) • [uhn - shur]

not feeling, showing, or done with confidence and certainty.

Kyouka knows she shouldn't be feeling like this, not when she steps back to gather her entire life together and thinks about it.

Born with a versatile enough quirk,

having secured a place in UA in the hero class, and surrounded with a family at home and another at school – Kyouka knows she should be grateful, that she should appreciate it. After all, not everyone is lucky enough to have all the things she’s had.

(Some people come to mind. Uraraka. Iida. Todoroki. Midoriya.)

But then she looks at the people that surround her, thinks about the same people she listed, and she recoils.

There’s tenacious Uraraka with her determination to constantly push herself for the sake of her parents more than herself; earnest Iida who has aspirations and the motivation to fulfill them because honoring his crippled brother is a need, not a want; talented Todoroki who’s already miles ahead of everyone despite the heavy weight of his childhood trauma that forces him to drag his feet; even plain Midoriya who is anything but, who readily proves to everyone over and over again that he isn't useless, that he never will be again.

And then there’s...Momo. Momo Yaoyorozu.

Momo who’s just as tenacious as Uraraka considering how much she’s fought for her spot in the class, as earnest as Iida is whenever it comes to any event that might help her improve, as talented as Todoroki is considering she got in through recommendations too, and as ready as Midoriya to prove that she deserves what's she gotten.

(Which Kyouka knows full well that Momo doesn't have to prove it. Kyouka’s seen the other fight with her during the attack at USJ; she knows that Momo deserves to be here. Why doesn't Momo seem to agree with her?)

Kyouka’s hands clench into fists as she winces inwardly, her shoulders hunching over to let her face be hidden by her hair. She stares down blankly at her desk with empty eyes, just trying to ignore the urge to cry at her realizations.

She shouldn't be acting this way; she’s training to be a hero, after all, and she can’t deny all the advantages she’s been given in her life. But how do you save someone else if you believe you’re not worthy enough to capable of saving them?

(Trick question. You don't.)

It takes almost all of Kyouka’s will not to sudden burst into an emotional version of her, the version that’s too sensitive for the path she’s going down, when Kaminari nudges her to get her attention. So she locks it up, jammimg the damn emotions bottle with a metaphorical cork, and pretends.

She doesn't want Kaminari to see her at her most vulnerable, and she’s silently grateful at how much of an idiot Kaminari acts with her; she puts on her show personality again, a soft smirk tugging at her lips as a playfully insulting remark rolls off her tongue easily. She lets herself get distracted by Kaminari feeling hurt and leaves her worries at her desk.

(She wants to be like her partner, Momo Yaoyorozu.)

When school is over, in the smallest part of her mind, Yaoyorozu feels unhappy.

She shouldn't be, but she can't help the feeling of being unhappy or disapproving of herself; she’s felt that same, annoying emotion ever since the attack at USJ. The same USJ attack that launches her into the spotlight with the entire rest of the class of 1-A.

The attack that starts her on a downhill ride, starting with an incapacitated Kaminari and collateral damage Jirou.

If she hadn’t been so naive, so useless – maybe she could have been better against the enemies they had face, could have prevented Kaminari from being used as a trading pawn or Jirou from being a possible victim of collateral damage. She might have protected Jirou with the electrical blanket, might have given them weapons when needed, but in the end – she stood there doing nothing.

Jirou had at least attempted. Even at risk of her life – Yaoyorozu’s own too, but Jirou with a higher risk – she had tried. She had done her best to distract, to feign a composure that takes steel will to fabricate when your entire body is so shaky and easy to crumble up; even when it ends up failing, Momo finds herself impressed by her despite never voicing it out loud.

At school, it’s easy enough to hide how she feels about herself; she’s class vice president after all, the daughter of a well-known hero family after all, the one of four people who got in through recommendations after all. She can't show her weakness, or else who will the class look up to if Iida or Eraserhead is incapacitated themselves?

A hero shouldn't doubt herself, Yaoyorozu reminds herself as impossible of a reminder it is. She can't be selfish, can’t let her own thoughts about her own self endanger others; that's not what heroes do.

Heroes instead don't let themselves be backed up into their own corner, don't let themselves be made a loser if preventable, don't let themselves do nothing when there is always something. Heroes are people like Iida Tenya or Eraserhead or Jirou Kyouka.

Not Momo Yaoyorozu.

Yaoyorozu is only interrupted from her downward spiral of thoughts when her family calls her down for dinner, and she forces herself to not feel so unhappy about herself. She leaves her thoughts behind her bedroom door.

(She wants to be like her partner, Jirou Kyouka.)

They become friends after that. Close friends.

They get roped into the flurry that is class 1-A, the entirety of the endurance trial that is the UA Sports Festival, and into the blossoming busyness of hero internships; but then there’s the lone shopping trips they take together with just each other, the one-on-one tutoring that the two of them always look forward to no matter the subject, and the blossoming busyness of their hearts running overtime with every moment spent with each other.

The two of them are happy about their friendship and how it is until it’s no longer a friendship all of a sudden, until it’s something both a bit more and a bit less.

“Sometimes I think that I don't belong here,” Momo confesses softly one night without prompt. Her voice is heavy with a weariness that reminds Kyouka of passing nights with hunched shoulders, empty eyes, and no rest; a tiredness that echoes itself in her ribcage with a loudness that Kyouka cringes from.

The entire situations catches Kyouka by surprise then fills her with concern.

They sit close together, enough to be dismissed as friends and enough to be regarded as more, on Momo’s bed; Kyouka’s is too messy for them. Kyouka sits against the wall that meets the side of the bed, legs folded together in a criss cross while Momo sits against the wall that’s behind the top of the bed, sitting on top of a pillow and letting her feet rest in Kyouka’s lap.

Kyouka doesn't need her quirk to imagine the rattling that fills up the hollowness of her chest with every shaky breath of her existence, doesn't need to read too much into the toe that pokes at her thigh in a nervous rhythm that Momo only reserved for moments of any panic.

“I know I got in through recommendations, and I have a good quirk compared to some people, but…” Momo doesn't look directly at Kyouka, she hasn't once at all during the entire time tonight. Maybe she had been preparing to tell Kyouka all this tonight from the very start. “What if it’s not enough? I already feel like I’m behind everyone, even though I keep trying my best to improve.

“I don't want to be not enough. I want to be a great hero with Midoriya-san, Iida-san, Uraraka-san, Todoroki-san, and everyone else in our class! I can't be a great hero if I takes all my chances, and I still don't improve! I...just want to make everyone proud of me.”

(It’s too familiar. It’s painful.)

Kyouka fiddles with her earphone jack as she admits, tone as soft as Momo’s and as raw as her confession, “I feel the same way.” She doesn't know what else to say because for as empathetic of a person she is, she’ll never have the same struggles as Momo and vice versa.

Kyouka is a girl born to a loving family who appreciates and supports her, their gaze expectant but not scrutinizing; Kyouka is the one who burdens herself with her own criticism that she takes to the deepest part of her heart.

Momo is a girl born to a loving family who appreciates her and support her, their gaze expectant but always scrutinizing; Momo is the one who burdens herself with taking criticisms from the people who she loves the most to the deepest part of her heart.

(But whether Kyouka’s in pain from watching Momo put herself through a version of what Kyouka’s gone through or from reliving her own – Kyouka doesn't know. She doesn't know if she wants to know.)

Kyouka bites at her lip, sentiments stuck in her dry throat and heart hammering in a hollow rib cage. She’s saved, though, by Momo herself – how fitting of a hero – with a soft smile from the girl.

“That…was a lot to digest probably. Sorry about that, Jirou!” Momo laughs it off, flustered. Kyouka can only regret the unsaid thoughts and follow after the other.

They've both shown each other the most vulnerable parts of themselves, Momo more so, but the mutual baring of it all isn't scary. It's...it's...

Kyouka has words on the tip of her tongue to explain the feeling, but none of it really comes close to what she wants to say. Maybe Momo has a word for it; she’s smart, and she can create a thesaurus out of nothing. But Kyouka is not Momo – she never will be – so the fact remains that Kyouka doesn't have a word for it at all.

(Yaoyorozu doesn't have one either. All the words she wants to say is too close to what she wants to say; it’s dangerous when she doesn't know everything she can know about the variable of Jirou, but she’ll never know everything. Yaoyorozu is not Jirou – she never will be – so the fact remains that Yaoyorozu doesn't have a word for it at all.)

Math is difficult for Kyouka to understand; she’s always been on the side of arts and humanities. She has basic counting down, but it’s another thing she still finds blame for in her own self because calculating risk and reward is one of the too many parts needed for heroism – playing guitar and other instruments for fun isn't.

So just like with her subject strengths, Kyouka has always erred on the side of caution with her awareness of how bad she is at calculation. Pragmatism is always her saviour when her own self isn't enough.

But as awful as she is at math, she knows full well that people aren't supposed to be things meant to be solved for where X is the answer. They're variables, but the unpredictable kinds that might just easily explode in your face if you let them because X turned out to be one factor and not the answer. Kyouka knows that Momo isn't the kind to be like that variable – it’s more of a Bakugou thing, of course – but it’s another worry she thinks about.

Because Kyouka thinks she might like Momo.

She’s known that she’s never really felt anything close to romantic attraction to any boys or girls in her life, already had accepted her fate of remaining loveless her whole life. It’s not as if she’s weeping over it, feeling any sort of incompleteness because of it; it just had been another fact she accepted because pragmatism is always the correct answer in those situations too.

But Momo Yaoyorozu is...something; it's just that Kyouka can’t describe Momo with just words or math metaphors or anything really, besides that Momo is Momo, that she’s something so undefined but also definite, that she’s so different but so similar, that she’s something that makes pragmatism seem incorrect for Kyouka – and all of it leaves Kyouka’s heart thrumming like the reverberations that echoes from each forceful strum of her guitar she plays to the tune of secret love songs.

(Solving for X doesn't matter since Momo Yaoyorozu is everything – she is the answer to Kyouka’s hypothetical math problem.)

Maybe it’s a side effect from the quirk, but Yaoyorozu prefers the math and sciences over anything else – besides all the subject related to heroics.

She’s always been an avid reader ever since she was a kid. She has to be anyway if she wants her quirk to be useful for anything; if she doesn't understand the very basics of an item, then she won't understand the entirety of an item. It’s that kind of thinking that lets her survive all her literature class where she had understood nothing.

How do you know what the author think about when they write their novels or papers or anything really? Yaoyorozu, as diligent and hardworking she is in those classes, can’t see it. She writes her own research papers and analysis essays, but the content of it doesn't reflect what she thinks; just because she writes about one thing doesn't mean that one thing can ever encompass her thoughts.

People can't just be so easily wrapped up into one thing and then slotted neatly into a category that they fit close enough; that’s not how people work. They're more than just themes, main ideas, or subjects. They're a combination of all of the above and even more because people can be read, but they really aren't meant to be read. People can't read people that aren't themselves.

She knows that much, understands it completely too, but it doesn't stop her from wishing to be in a universe where maybe it's possible; she wants to read all of Jirou Kyouka.

Because Jirou Kyouka is all of the things she respects in heroes and adores in her companions. She’s all badassery, easy insults, and composure but also all empathy, easy conversations, and similarities; Jirou is like the other half that all of the sappy love stories talk about that Yaoyorozu never really got either until now because yes – she finally understands why stories talk about soft looks, content hearts, and what it means to love someone.

(But reading people doesn't matter when understanding the tiniest part of Jirou Kyouka is enough, Yaoyorozu thinks.)

“Hey, I need to talk with you.”

“Huh? Oh, okay!”

Confessions aren't supposed to go like these, Kyouka thinks to herself, but then again...she doesn't know how they're supposed to go either. She’s a complete stranger to the act of it all, yet she had still been the one to initiate the situation.

She doesn't know yet how to approach the situation, just that her staring at Yaoyorozu probably isn't helping any. Kyouka can feel herself die internally at how the words are stuck in her throat again.

“Are you okay, Jirou?”

Kyouka can hear the worry and concern, but she can't process it. She can't process anything really, when she keeps fiddling with her earphone jacks and opening and closing her mouth in hesitation. She doesn't know what to do.

(Has she ever?)

But she doesn't want it to end like how it does last time, doesn’t want to follow Yaoyorozu in feigning ignorance about that night; she only wants to follow Yaoyorozu if it means it’s by her side without having to play charades with their thoughts and all.

So, she tries one last time. Throat dry and words elementary, she mumbles, “I really like you, Momo.”

A moment of silence before–

“Oh. Oh! I’m glad, Jirou!” Yaoyorozu smiles, aura bright and expression bubbly as she claps her hands together. (Kyouka thinks she’s falling for her again.) But then softly, “...are you sure? Me, of all people?"

And Kyouka smiles easily, hands moving to takes Yaoyorozu’s own and holding onto them tightly.

“I’m completely sure.”

(Kyouka leaves her heart in Yaoyorozu’s soft palms; Yaoyorozu leaves her heart in Kyouka’s gentle palms.

They leave the bad thoughts behind together.)

confident (adj.) • [ kon-fi-duhnt ]

having no uncertainty about one's own abilities, correctness, successfulness, etc.

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