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foreskimmilk · 2 years

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I don’t know how to keep moving like everything is fine

#I feel like im falling apart #im supposed to go back to work today #i just want to run away

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quibblegoobe · 1 month

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another day another getting home at 10 pm

#ferris quiddlegoose brain thoughts #i feel like im falling apart

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a1ex-is-dumb · 2 months

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hey uh

uhm anyone offering uh emotional support

if not thats ok i can come back later

or uh never. idm its um its up to you really. its fine im ok really

sorry to bother you

#alex posts stuff #i think i just need someone to check im ok #idk dude #i feel like im falling apart #i just feel like shit #all the time #and everything just hurts #vent post #tw vent #vent #venting

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kris-cant-draw · 5 months

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new art, angry confused maybe vent art? idk idk

#digital art #art #ibs paint x #i feel like im falling apart #like im in a room of mirrors except despite being me they aren't #help

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pleasebesoft · 1 year

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i have a wonderful life. i surround myself with people and things that make me happy. i love all of the people in my life. my friends make life worth living. i get to do something im passionate about. but fuck its so easy to get knocked down. i feel like too much. i swore id never shrink myself for someone and honestly i dont think id even know how to. but im so tired of feeling like too much. i know im a lot. i know all of my mannerisms and anxieties and depressive episodes are a lot. i just always thought one day someone would fall in love with all of me, including those parts. it just seems further and further away and i dont know how to make myself better

#i want to be soft and gentle #but im big and loud and passionate #i want to be small and sweet #but i burst at the seams #i feel like im falling apart #personal #text #shutup shay #about me

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inkskinned · 9 months

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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

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mahoushojoe · 1 year

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me going through one of the worst most exhausting weeks of my entire 21 years on earth: nothing can be worse than this!

my migraines, eczema, and acne flare up: bet

#i feel like im falling apart #I HAVE LITERALLY NEVER HAD ACNE THIS BAD IN MY LIFE

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casinocircus · 1 month

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I'm a stiff breeze away from custom ordering my own organic fabrics and making my own damn clothes and im not joking

#if anybody knows where to get decent quality organic fabrics like silks or pima cotton or something hmu #i hate the fashion industry so much its unreal im not buying plastic bullshit made to fall apart that feels awful #not even to mention the unethical labor practices #i need to make my own weirdo dresses or ill doomspiral #fashion #casinos whining hour

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 7 months

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still unwell over the prospect of Howdy slowly putting the pieces together and having a complete mental breakdown over it. Laughingstock edition!

#i have a whole Scene in my mind...#he loses it!! he very much loses his marbles!!!#he has all the pieces but he doesnt know how they fit and hes falling apart!#howdy: ohhhhh none of this is real #howdy: ....hm....#howdy: alrighty im gonna lose my shit now #IT HAS POTENTIAL OK I SWEAR #scribble garnish #laughingstock #welcome home #brain wants me to write an outline for a fic centered on this #not - not laughingstock. not really it'd be Neutral and as canon compliant as i can manage #but oughhhhhhh the potentiallllllll #i really do feel like he's in a good place to glimpse behind the curtain #i take the caterpillar. i whip him around like a neanderthal with a palm frond #if you can't get puppet breakdowns from the store home-made is fine #from the store *Yet.#sighing dreamily as i consider the prospect of future updates having the beloved puppets lose their absolute minds <3 #cant wait for things to go south For Them <3 #i hope it genuinely disturbs me <3

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beebeedibapbeediboop · 2 years

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Keeping myself together

#artists on tumblr #concept art #original #illustration #vent art #i guess #sometimes im just so scared to leave some parts of me just to please others #i don't want to wrongly accept things I shouldn't #i try so hard to protect myself that I push away people or situations which arent inherently bad #but the fear to lose myself is too big #also IM FINE its just what the drawing is about lmao #i litterally feel like i have to clutch myself to not fall apart

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absurdumsid · 2 months

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If you still taking requests can I have some error x nightmare?

ABSOLUTELY !! errormare cant kiss ? errormare cant hold hands ? NO, I. WILL ! MAKE !! IT !!! WORK !!!!

Error! Sans belongs to CrayonQueen/LoverofPiggies

Corrupted! Nightmare belongs to jokublog

#when theres a WILL theres a WAY #error will make nightmare a doll of him to keep in his office <- he has one of nightmare #also haphephobia ? rendering them unable to hold hands ? WRONG error intertwines their pinky fingers with his string <- no need to touch +#somehow it stretches when they get apart (they can find each other) + its cute + nightmare can feel what error is feeling better <- it is a #+ direct link to error i WILL. KILL. I WILL MAIN #MAIM **#errormare #IN YOU FACE !!!!!!!#error sans #corrupted nightmare #nightmare sans #sanscest #sans au #GOD i love errormare #<- the fact that theyre both ? falling apart ? physically and mentally ? but thats literally theyre thing so its actually completely ok ??#<- i fucking. i need that. i need that in my life #ERROR IS LITERALLY CRUMBLING PIECES AND NIGHTMARE IS SOME HUGE BUNDLE OF GOO #IM SOBBING THEY ARE SUCH FRAGILE BROKEN VESSELS FOR SUCH BEAUTIFUL PEOPLW #also like. whiteboard decided to make me redo this twice (i was trying to move down but it fuckigng REFRESHED and it WASNT SAVING)#anyway teehee i love errormare #sid answers #sid art

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letsboldlygomotherfuckers · 2 months

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If ur not careful I might have to watch torchwood… do u recommend or is it an affliction you would not recommend to others?

hehehehehe >:3c gottem boys

no fr like. you have to look past the fact it's a low budget bbc production at times and embrace the slightly see through lesbian alien with foot long fingers that can read minds. you have to embrace the sex alien that absorbs people through her pussy. crucially, you have to watch it in as few sittings as possible. the only proper way to watch torchwood is to watch the entire thing absolutely nonstop and nothing else in between until your brain falls out through your ears :)

#I cannot stress to you enough how queer every single character in this show is #my gf is still surprised every time something gay happens im like what show exactly do you think that you are watching #also s1-2 are Proper Torchwood #s2 especially mwah chefs kiss #s3 is bearable but wildly falls apart in the final episode #s4 Is A Different Show John Barrowman Happens To Be In #dont worry though theres endless books and audio dramas #i especially recommend the audiobooks read by the cast where everyone tries to do each others accents #JB literally laughed while reading one line and they just left it in lmao #also HIGHLY recommend the fake relationship suburban life au jack/ianto audio drama where its a fake relationship except theyre also shaggi #and ianto spends the entire episode absolutely clawing at the walls of the house begging to get out while jack laughs at him fondly #it made me feel insane #someone talk to me about torchwood i am begging #kez talks #samwisegamgeeee

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anxsity · 4 months

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okay well first of all ill never soften my grip dont want cash dont want card want it fast want it hard dont need money dont need fame i just want to make a change

i just wanna change

i know exactly what i want

and who i want to be

#I KNOW EXACTLY WHY I WALK AND TALK LIKE A MACHINE!!!!!!#going insane over this song being my own self fulfilling prophecy.#oh no!#marina and the diamonds #if i fail ill fall apart!! maybe it is all a test cause i feel like im the worst so i always act like im the best!!!!#tv taught me how to feel NOW REAL LIFE HAS NO APPEAL!!!!!!!#sorry dw about it

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 4 months

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how do you even tell your doctor, "I think I'm going insane"?

#personal #tw unreality #i genuinely. my brain is falling apart. it is getting worse. i don't know how to do this or how much longer i can keep on going #example: the thought of suicide just crossed my mind for a second and i FELT it like i had to physically check i DIDNT have a deep wrist #injury. like i could FEEL it so clearly and i was genuinely uncertain if id just done it and forgotten #this is scary guys im scared #tw suicide

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hauntedtrait · 1 year

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