#i feel like im disappointing people

[swamp-mirage]

I just saw a trailer for Velma and I gotta say, capitalism is truly the end of innovation. The ONLY reason that show has the Scooby gang is because they're recognizable. Every character is completely different than their original. If they made the exact same show without changing anything except the characters it wouldn't change a single thing about it. The connection to Scooby Doo starts and ends with the characters and even then they changed everything about them but their name and basic designs. They're using popular characters to gain viewers while shitting all over the characters themselves. I'm just so tired of every popular piece of media being perverted and twisted just because of brand recognition. MAKE NEW CHARACTERS!!! YOU ALREADY BASICALLY DID JUST CHANGE THEIR NAME AND CLOTHES AND NO ONE WOULD EVEN KNOW THEYRE FROM SCOOBY DOO BECAUSE THEIR NAME AND CLOTHES ARE THE ONLY THING THEY KEPT!

#its just so dumb #im disappointed in everyone involved with it #fred is a jerky jock #daphne is a preppy mean girl #also hes not shaggy #hes norville #i have a lot of feelings about this and none of them are positive #scooby doo #velma #velma dinkley #daphne blake #fred jones #norville rogers #scoobert doo #shaggy rogers #scoob #like they took the base characteristics of the group and got rid of all the stuff that made them good people #fred isnt kind amd helpful hes just a jock #daphne isnt smart and capable shes just a popular bully #shaggy isnt... well shaggy #his first line was #i hate drugs

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[strawbubbysugar]

MmMmMgh I think I may need to take a break from Sun & Moon

I love them a lot but not as much as when I was hyperfixated, and trying to force myself to hyperfixate again is just makin me dislike them :(( I wanna avoid that cuz I do love the goobers..

So I guess AU speedrun lmfao. Still gonna be drawing the alien stuff, but itll be my own characters now.

#sorry folks #I feel like I keep disappointing people #:( #now that so(u)l's rewrite is finished i feel like im kinda just wandering a bit #will post update alien story ocs later

[melatien]

tiny yoichi (unwillingly) lures out soldiers by being his helplessness little self so his brother can strike

#bases are the most reliable way to find food afo found! #yoichi is crying bcuz he pitys them <3 #not because hes nervous #im gonna be honest i made this idea up on the spot when drawing this #pewdiepies new art video awakened something in me I NEEDED TO REMIND MYSELF I CAN STIL DRAW BANGERS TOO #i didnt disappoint myself!!!! competitiveness is my enemy and my bestie literally #anyways his right eye was an absolute horrendous nightmare to draw it was going so well until i did the hair then it ruined the eye #i actually thought yoichi was wearing shoes at this age but then i looked back at those chapters and realised yoichi was shoeless #WITH ONLY A BANDAGE ON HIS FOOT??!?!!?!? agony #can yoichi not make me wish he had something good in life for ONE SECOND #think of this as like how he responded to afo killing those people that (presumably) beat yoichi up beforehand #we dont know if hes crying because his brother is killing or if he was crying before being 'saved' #ill try do some fluff art soon ive been really interested in body horror related art lately so i wanted to play around!!! #i have a BUNCH of ideas written down ive yet to do #i just keep doing whatever i feel like #i am the master of ignoring the instructions and winging it #mha #my art #yoichi shigaraki #one for all #my hero academia #first ofa user #shigaraki yoichi #mha yoichi #tiny yoichi #tiny yoichi in his shabby little clothes #ive actually been dying to draw tiny yoichi again but KIDS ARE SO HARD TO DRAW!!!!! #i had an art moment though #HALLEJUHAH #art gods had my back fr

[moeblob]

I just really like him tbh!

#honkai star rail #trailblazer #hes a good boy your honor........ i love him.... #VERY stressed right now in my life and i feel like i keep not doing fanart and that stresses me out more? #cause i feel like people would prefer to see fanart on this blog #DESPITE the MANY times that MANY people told me hey man its your blog post what you want #its not that easy for my brain that lives off of validation and appreciation and stuff idk man #i just ............ feel like........... a weird mental obligation to posting fanart #but then im super burnt on fe stuff so i have been dabbling in other fandoms #which i feel is also a disappointment and that makes me feel bad #theres literally no point to these tags im just stressed and getting that out there #gotta go lie on my floor next to my cat bc shes struggling healthwise which im not gonna lie #is the majority of my stress right now

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #persona 4 #p4d #persona 4 dancing all night #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #actually low key obsessed with naoto's comment - conversationally adept but terrible at making speeches #personally i would say yosukes not even capable at conversation half the time with his foot in mouth disease #but i wonder if it was because naoto was even worse at conversation therefore making yosuke seem good in comparison #BUT it had me thinking about that time where naoto mentioned yosuke had told naoto that they could be oblivious to other peoples feelings #and then i think about all the private conversations between yosuke and yu and i wonder if yosuke is actually just #pretty good at 1-1 conversations but awful in bigger group setting #and im not saying its my Yosuke-Puts-Up-An-Act-For-Others agenda coming into play again but with i think in a large group setting its just #a little harder to do so #i think yosuke is very sensitive as an individual and he still struggles with saying the right things #but especially in settings where a number of people are watching him talk #he starts to fumble and trips over himself quickly #especially when people start teasing him #because he's started referring to his peers with honorifics becauses hes nervous #but also teddie bullying yosuke like “favourite disappointment” i think teddie means “favourite” more but yosuke only hears disappointment #thinking about how it sticks with him in p4d because when he does a good dance one of his lines are “not such a disappointment after all!” #oh my god yosuke..... #he's good with his queue

[merverelli]

just a couple of dirty bean boys!

#jacksepticeye #just like art #this was SO CLOSE to never being finished #art machine (me) broke halfway through but we did it #uni is............. going #even though im only doing 2 subjects im losing it man #i think its just ALL OF THE GROUP PROJECTS IM DOING #like my groups are fine theyre all sweet and nice but i just. #just let me do it by myself let me take 100% control without guilt let me only depend on myself doing it #im such a damn follower with group projects please itd be quicker if it was just me making my own shots instead of a second party coming in #and asking for my opinion when my opinion is always ''do whatever you want :)'' because i either dont mind OR i dont have the social energy #to say otherwise like theyd be fine with it but i just cant do it man i got anxiety of the social kind i cant keep going man i cant #i dont like feeling like im letting down other people or that theyre depending on me im bad under pressure #JUST LET ME DO IT ALONE AND ONLY DISAPPOINT MYSELF BRO CMON #the group projects are wrapping up soon so i cant complain but im screaming #besides that ive been good thanks for asking!

[nineratsinatrenchcoat]

It’s very funny to be part of the Camp Cretaceous fandom with absolutely no knowledge about the Jurassic franchise or dinosaurs. People are debating about the movies or if a particular dinosaur design is accurate and I’m like “Wow. Dinosawr. Gay people. Yippee”

#it’s a blissful ignorance I’m in #rats speaks #jwcc #camp cretaceous #some days I think about getting into Dino’s and watching the Jurassic stuff #but I kind of like not being supremely disappointed with every new thing put out by universal #because that seems to be what people feel #as is with most popular franchises #im just sitting here with Dino

[rachedurst]

I never really understood this idea that if you enjoy a piece of fiction you want it to keep coming and coming endlessly. No matter how attached I am to a group of characters, if I had the choice I'd always prefer a short but finished concluded piece than something where seasons get added On And On And On And On until everyone is flanderized and the entirety of it falls flat.

#moontalk #media critique #netflix #its like. a few years ago i watched this show on Netflix called broadchurch i think #murder mystery thing where the premise is solving the murder of a child #so i watched it and then the story was over and done with after the first season and the murder was resolved and i was like yep #thats a good ending to that very conclusive #and im like yay what a good show. and then i see theres other seasons #and idk i feel like the expectation is to be excited but i just felt disappointed? #like the story is done. its over. i dont want more seasons im happy with it the way it is #idk how common this is though like is the idea that you want everything to continue #smth that capitalism just feeds us and people dont actually feel that way? or is this really how most people #feel about stories #IDK MAN I JUST. dont like stuff that keeps continuing it just feels like it doesnt actually know what it wants to Tell the viewer through #its art

[abagrotiscupida]

RANT ABOUT PEOPLES WEIRD ATTITUDE ABOUT SHANE STARDEW VALLEY INCOMING!!!

saw people complaining about shane today and saying he is a bad and awful husband and they divorced him after seeing his room and that he becomes boring after he starts getting therapy because the interesting thing about him is his struggle with addiction and after you "fix him" what's the point of being with him And just?? Why?? Did you even marry him?? Like?? I dunno, people are allowed to have opinions on characters but so many peoples' opinions are just?? Really bad and rooted deeply in ableism and misconceptions about mental health/addiction and are super saviory??

I have said this a thousand times but you can't fix people. That's literally not how people work. You can, however, be there for people and try and create a safe environment for them to be able to help themselves!! AND THATS EXACTLY EHAT FUCKING HAPPEMS IN STARDEW!! Shane gets help ON HIS OWN because he is being supported by both his family and the farmer. And to see that just fucking fly over peoples heads makes me so mad because DID WE PLAY THE SAME FUCLING GAME?? YOU DONT FIX SHIT!! YOU ACT AS PART OF A SUPPORT SYSTEM!! (Which is very important but like) YOU AS A SINGULAR PERSON CANT FIX PEOPLE!!

I also just hate the "I can fix them" attitude because, at least in this specific situation, the people saying this are the same people who divorce him because his room is ugly or because he is implied to relapse and still is depressed??? It feels like the same thing as when someone has "spread kindness!" or "love each other!" in their bio and then is the most rancid hateful person ever? The room thing in particular makes me mad because LIKE WHAT DID YUOU THINK IT WAS GOING TO LOOK LIKE?? YOU SAW HIS ROOM AT MARNIE'S, WHAT MADE YOU THINK HIS ROOM IN YOUR HOUSE WAS GOING TO BE ORGANIZED AND SPOTLESS???

Idk like, again, you can dislike Shane and even regret marrying him. He's not very nice to you until you really get his hearts up there so he comes off as rude and abrasive. You don't HAVE TO LIKE HIM!! But so many people just spout hateful shit and it's like god, I hope you never have anyone in your life who suffers from mental illness because even though Shane is a video game character, the stuff you're saying and the ideas you have surrounding addiction and mental health are super toxic and weird and I hope no real person ever has to be subjected to them.

edit (put this in the tags but then wanted to add it to the main post):

#stardew shane #shane sdv #stardew valley #its like also #relapse is often a part of recovery. it doesnt mean the person has given up trying to help themselves or anything it just happens. #and people are so weird for demonizing it or chalking it up to shane not loving you or something?? #i cant speak on relapsing based in addiction but ive relapsed on other things and i know that it makes you feel so disappointed im yourself #to on top of that awful feeling have someone who you thought cared about you get mad and make your crisis all about them must be so painful #again like Shane is a character but the things he goes through are incredibly realistic and mirror a lot of peoples real life experiences s #just think before you fucking speak ig #tw: alcholism #tw: addiction #relapse mention #mental illness #rant #cupid.txt #tw: ableism #🌶️

[teplejtrouba]

my psychiatrist confirmed that i am in fact autistic

#all of my friends were like 'no really?!!! i had no idea“ listen i know we all know but i wanted to know For Sure #she's very 'aspergers' and 'you're going to learn how to make eye contact' about it because czech psychiatry is... well #but overall the other stuff she said checks out and im happy I don't have to live in constant self doubt anymore #now she's not completely sure i have adhd tho because my attention is mostly normal according to tests #but she's also not opposed to me having both like it's definitely still possible she just wants to focus on mainly treating my anxiety rn #she was like 'so it would make sense that you're living in social isolation' #me with most friends I've ever had in my entire life: :-) #i was like 'no i have friends they just all have adhd or autism too' #i mean i am still socially isolated. i oftentimes feel like other people are living behind a glass wall and i can't reach them #but i took it literally in the 'you are alone and no one talks to you' sense #anyway #i am disappointed none of my friends sent me 'náš auťák' from the czech Grease dubbing #i have many feelings about this but they are difficult to put into words so autism creature gift shall suffice

[zapsoda]

ok but blatantly and inarguably a lot of "accepting" parents would rather their children be ~nonbinary~ and/or ~nontransitioning~ than binary transgender, and this doesnt devalue exorsexism (not only because it is another form of exorsexism) but because it is a fact

#when i was first talking to my mother about being transgender she struggled with it a lot #and she Asked why i couldnt just “be nonbinary” because that would be easier for *her* to 'deal with' #and my parents are currently accepting but that is still a thing transgender youth have to deal with #the fact that some binary trans people feel the need to misgender themselves in order to make cis people feel more comfortable #because *cis* people view nonbinary trans identities as 'less extreme' or 'less trans' #and that is both transphobia and exorsexism on the part of the cis person!!! #why must we blame other trans people for the situations cis people put us into #and to bring up some other bullshit i was whining about yesterday #being told that *really* got to me. because i didnt choose any of this! #if i could just not be trans and not have to deal with all of the pain i would have! #it has made my life endlessly difficult! if i did have a choice i dont see why i would have chosen to be trans #my family was desperate for a baby girl. all of my aunts and uncles wanted a girl child but they couldnt get one. until my parents #and im just throwing that all away #why would i do that on purpose. disappoint my entire family like that #anyways #got sidetracked #thats not the point #im gonna go eat breakfast ahahah

[evermoredeluxe]

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#this is gonna sound bad so hence in the tags #i feel like everyone is in the grieving stage of tumblr fans not being picked but im in such an acceptance phase #i used to get so sad that i hadn’t met her and will never meet her but now i don’t #like i live one hour from LA but i still never expected to be picked like not even for one second #because i’ve just accepted it to the point where im not at all disappointed and im just happy that others get to meet her #like i know that some of these people meeting her weren’t fans 3-5 years ago and hated her in 2016 and it’s Different when they meet her #instead of veteran fans #BUT there are also a lot of long time dedicated fans there #i don't think we all comprehend what level of fame she's at #her meeting and inviting these many fans is not normal - casual fans or new fans or veteran fans #arshia talks

[hella1975]

THIS IS SO EMBARASSING JUST KISS AND MAKE UP OR SOMETHING

#the ground beta fight has me feeling bad for BAKUGO of all people cant they just kill him off already i cant do this #'is it because you looked up to him more than i did? and if that's the case does it mean everything ive done to be like him is wrong?' STOP #THE OBSESSIVE RIVALRY IS GETTING EMOTIONAL PLEASE JUST KISS #yeah yeah the bully x victim trope is bad but i just think bkdk is the funniest possible outcome here #'bakugo told him to kill himself' bakugo was in middle school #he was like. ten. yeah he needs to apologise but thanks to INCESSANT TIKTOK SPIOLERS i know he does #im investing early idc #the good thing about mha is that the fandom is so big and insane that idc about making good nuanced takes #like every take has already been made both good and bad so im just here to say the funniest possible thing #i want to get cancelled by any mha fans as soon as possible so i can live my life in peace #my hero academia #hella watches anime #mha spoilers #i am NOT tagging this as bakudeku those guys scare me i ultimately am disappointed that this is what im leaning towards

[citrlet]

very sad this morning seeing Ryan and Shane leaving youtube to start yet another exclusive subscription service :/

#this is a monumentally shitty idea #then entire comment section is UNIFIED ive never seen that before akfjsks #i had to say that early accessing like cc makers do here would have been way better #but now at this point the damage is done and a lot of people feel disappointed that they seem to care more about the money #and honestly i dont think they produce enough content to justify a whole new service #i love the mcelroys way more and what they do is so much better #youtube already has a built in tier sevice why cant they just do that??? #anyway i have so many thoughts on this #i honestly watched ryan and shane way more than when they were on buzzfeed #i watched for their dynamic and how fucking funny they are together not for the quality of the shows #so many people do not understand that people watch them for them not for high value production is #first matpat then jacksepticeye soon and now this :/ #im DREADING the day gab smolders inevitability retires because shes my comfort youtuber she and her content has gotten me #through some of my worst moments #ill shut up now #someone tell me how many dislikes their announcement has on yt im so curious akfkska #oh also and its like dont they get their fanbase is mostly young people who probably cant afford another streaming service #on top of bills and the cost of living now??

[anxiously-sidequesting]

So I don't know if it was ever revealed how Duncan felt when we killed Malistaire all three times but I'm wondering if maybe some part of him could hate us for that too. Like you hear that and you go "but why. Malistaire was terrible and even Duncan knew that(?). Why would he hate you for getting rid of him."

But like I think it's so....... interesting in a very, very, very sad way how Duncan so easily latches onto anyone who directly feeds into his delusions of grandeur. And that's no fault of his own that he was manipulated by the nasty Schism but when you think about how desperately clung to the idea that Malistaire, easily one of the greatest necromancers any of us had ever heard of (at that time), somehow actually recognized Duncan's talents (even when canon supports that Duncan wasn't all that talented, at least no more than the next necromancer) and then praised him for it so often that Duncan believed that he would be the next Death Professor is. I mean ☹️

So like with that mindset I unfortunately feel like it would be quite easy to twist even Malistaire's death as something that's horrible and awful and all our fault. ESPECIALLY if the Schism was feeding into Duncan's already broken mind and shattered ego and was constantly telling him that everything bad that ever happened to him ever in his life was Our Fault. That's like a realistic conclusion that someone like Duncan could come to

And like, at this point in time, are Malistaire's crimes even a factor in how he thinks????? Was Duncan ever able to separate Malistaire's talent and skills and prowess from the terrible and awful things he did? If Duncan wasn't able to consciously tell that distinction in the first place I can't imagine it would be any better during the years he was being manipulated and isolated and lied to

Like in Duncan's mind it probably isn't, "maybe I shouldn't idolize a national criminal, or idolize anyone at all for that matter, and aspire to be like someone so harmful when I can recognize my own talent and build from there" it's probably more like, "you (the wizard) permanently got rid of a brilliant mind, an innocent person who just made a few mistakes, and someone who believed in me no matter what just so that you could be the better than me and loved by everyone else" and that's! very sad actually!

#this is all speculation btw idk if any of this is canon. how duncan feels about all this #i know i keep saying the exact same shit over and over but.... really not a fan of how the game handled duncan! sorry! #i know wizard101 isnt supposed to be about every single character gets a satisfying ending to their arc- #-meaning not everyone in the story will face consequences and/or find a happy ending and like thats fine they dont need to #but idkkkk its just imo really sad how essentially a kid suffers frrom something he cant control by himself (his ego)- #and then instead of getting help he is instead ignored (ambrose) and then manipulated and brought up by a cult #and then when it becomes super apparent how... TERRIBLE his life really is and we defeat him he just... goes back?????? #we.... we LET him go back???? i mean we're not responsible for other people's bad decisions or mental health but bro.... #and then when we tell ambrose he's just like “oh. too bad. well anyways-” AND IM LIKE WELL THATS THE REASON!!!!! NO WONDER HE'S FUCKED UP #NONE OF THIS IS ADDRESSED. NONE OF IT. WE KICK DUNCAN'S ASS AND THEN HE.... GOES BACK TO THE CABAL #i literally just got so desolate when (wallaru spoilers) because. okay. all that for nothing i guess #this isnt me being mad btw LMAO i know the tone probably reads as angry but im not im just disappointed #and tired. what is it with wizard101 in particular and just people suffering with no end. (me as i make my main suffer with no end) #but anyways yeah duncan has been in my head for a while. he's one of the guys that i love a lot BDKSNSKAJ #he's like a son to me and HE NEEDS A HEALTHY PARENT. HE NEEDS IT #not excusing his actions btw. he still committed crimes JRKDJSIEJ #i just have a soft spot for those villains in media who are doomed from the start yknow. (stares tearfully at morganthe and gf spider) #wizard101 #wiz101 #w101 #text posts #duncan grimwater #im not normal about duncan at all he's probably the wozard oc i feel for the most other than malorn and us