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#i do know i have to gain the confidence myself i am aware. however i must complain and whimper today
dragqueenpentheus · 1 year
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the only way ive figured out how to stop feeling small and talentless is to just keep doing it anyway and so far????? not working will update in future
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transmutationisms · 6 months
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i guess reading the antipsych perspective just leaves me feeling confused and lost and hopeless. at the end of the day i am really suffering in a way that affects my ability to enjoy myself and my life and so where can i go and what can i do to feel better if not the field designated for that ya know
i get messages like this from time to time. first of all, i have always maintained that what will make us "feel better" is ultimately a political matter and not a personal one. i don't want an individual intervention for just me, i want a better world, ie communism and the actual care structures it will enable us to create. second, i understand where these types of messages are coming from and i'm sympathetic to anyone who may have lost a sense of security or safety that was previously resting on their confidence in psychiatric practices. i think it's important to note, however, that the psychiatric apparatus actively perpetuates violence and harm, and i would argue that becoming aware of these facts is not so much a loss of resources or support as it is a gaining of accurate information about an actively dangerous system we are already being harmed by. i also think that one of the demographics most helped by having such information is in fact people who are forced to interact with psychiatric institutions and practitioners, or who may be deciding whether to do so. going into any such situations with open eyes about what harms could occur, as well as what you hope to gain from it, is in my opinion much more useful to patients and potential patients than simply being lied to and told to defer to medical authorities because they're really niceys. any value i can wring from the psychiatric apparatus is precisely because i go into it knowing i need to protect myself, and use doctors according to my actual needs and not the coercive capitalist aims of the discipline of psychiatry.
finally, all of that said, you are sincerely not required to read my blog or to care about anything i'm posting about. if you asked my opinion i would say that the root of the problem is not that you now know bad things about psychiatry, but that those things are true. but i'm not you, i don't know you, and you are certainly well within your rights to disengage if that's what you want to do.
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erikatsu · 1 year
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DANCING AFTER DEATH — dainsleif
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✦ SUMMARY: a heathen's holiday is the perfect time to slip away with the man you've been seeing in secret
✧ PAIRING: dainsleif x fem!reader (princess!reader)
✦ WARNINGS: non-explicit [n]sfw. soft & vanilla. more intimate than anything and disgustingly soft. forbidden relationships. royal au. sorta fits bmfd universe but not really. self-ship coded. pet names (elska mín and prinsessa). reader is shorter and has longer hair (as this is catered to myself) otherwise no other physical descriptors.
✧ WC: 2.03k
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Music and laughter were muffled by closed doors, a party raging in celebration of Valisblot among other things such as new hope, the ending of the cold season, and remembrance. While Khaenri'ah had no natural light of the sun, the people knew how to build a celebratory bonfire that shined just as bright. 
You hated celebrations. 
There was too much commotion, too many people. You never could quite focus on someone who was talking when there was background noise. It always had you feeling overwhelmed, which would lead to subconsciously tuning out conversations and staring off into space. Sometimes you wondered if people thought you were rude, especially when you would disappear after making your rounds. Maybe they didn't even notice, trying to get the attention of your father– the king. Either way, nobody said anything to you. 
Well, nobody except for your guard, Dainsleif. Then again, that was to be expected. Afterall, he was more than just your guard. He was your best friend, your most trusted confidant, and above all else he was the love of your life. It was why he was always quick to notice when you’d sneak away, coming to find you in the hall that overlooked the city as per usual. 
It was a shame really, that your relationship with him had always been tip toeing and hushed conversations late at night. Being the crown princess of the nation meant you were off limits. Had you been the second born, things would have been different. Instead of spending time with your possible suitors, you spent your time with Dainsleif. 
Surely, those close with both of you knew there was more than what was on the surface– take Halfdan for example. He teased the two of you constantly, even though you always brushed it off by telling him to not speak of such nonsense so openly. Your little brother, who was more interested in fighting than he was into romance, could sense it too. It would come as no surprise if your father also knew. 
“Calling it a night already?” The amusement in his tone brought a small smile to your lips as you stared out towards the villages, hearing cheer and joyous laughter from below.
You let out a sigh as he came up beside you, just barely brushing your shoulder with his own, “You know that I don't do well in group settings like this.”
He turned to look at you, a ghost of a smile tugging at his lips while a certain sadness glinted in his eyes, “I'm well aware. However, a princess must gain the favor of her people and keep it when she ascends the throne.”
You frowned, the thought of your future souring your mood. With what was in store for you, the only place for him was within the guard. He wasn't someone you could openly have or hold, and you knew it wasn't fair to him to keep him by your side forever. What you had must end.
“I do not wish to take the throne,” You admitted, refusing to meet his eyes. “I'm weak when it comes to the art of the sword, I am not brave, and I am far from a socialite. Khaenri'ah deserves better than me at its head. It deserves a ruler who can confidently lead the knights into battle and who can soothe unrest as it arises.”
Dainsleif knew you were fairly reserved– not necessarily timid, just anxious about talking to those you didn't know– and it was true you weren't the best at swordsmanship, but he’d never seen a better archer. When push came to shove, you would be a great leader. You just needed a little faith in yourself.
“I'm going to abdicate the title of crown princess,” you decided at that moment, shocking not just him but yourself as well. “I was not made for this path. I was born into it, and continuing this way doesn't lead to a future where I am happy.”
You didn't give him a chance to ask you to  elaborate further, walking away from him without another word. He followed, quickly catching up and falling into step beside you. Dainsleif should’ve known you had something up your sleeve as he caught a glimpse of a devious smile– sighing as you took off running down the open corridor. 
He chased after you, just like he always did when you were in a playful mood. You always avoided emotional topics, evading them through childish antics. Making him chase you through the halls of the palace was nothing new, which is exactly why he should have seen it coming. 
Your soft laughter filled his ears as you came to a stop, pushing open the large wooden door that led to your quarters. You slipped inside, covering your hand with your mouth to muffle your giggles, heart racing from the adrenaline coursing through you. He wasn't too far behind, walking in just moments later. 
He shook his head, slowly approaching and pulling you in by your waist, “You can't run away from everything, elska mín, including your duties.”
“Foregoing my birthright is not me running from anything,” you assured him, reaching up to gently caress his cheek. “It's me choosing my own happiness over a life of misery.”
He leaned into your touch, eyes closing and soaking in your words. You would give up security, riches, and the throne for him? If you were running head first into the unknown instead of staying in a life where you weren't happy, then that made you braver than you even knew. However, a shred of guilt nagged at the back of his mind.
“I can't ask you to do that for me,” He muttered, slowly looking at you. “Not for me.”
You grinned, leaning up to press your lips against his, “I don't recall you ever asking.”
Dainsleif was unsure if you were actually convincing or if his own feelings and selfish desires overcame any apprehension he felt about your decision. Maybe your kiss also held a little power, reeling him in the rest of the way as if sealing a deal. He didn't hesitate to return your affection, moving his mouth against yours. 
He always seemed to melt into you, almost losing his inhibitions as soon as you touched him. You were intoxicating, all his worries about any trouble the two of you could get into if you two were caught faded away and were replaced with the sensation of lightheadedness and spinning. If he didn't know any better, he'd think you'd used some form of magic to drop his guard and have him forgetting that you were a princess and he was a knight. 
All too soon you pulled away, lightly biting down on your lip before stepping back. You held out your hand, waiting for him to take it before walking him over to the bed. 
He could remember the first time as if it were yesterday. He’d been apprehensive– seeing that only the king's bedchambers were completely private– not wanting anyone to walk by and get curious only to discover what you two were doing. It was one thing to fool around with your guard, but it was completely another for the princess to not remain pure until marriage. 
Now, it barely bothered him in that sense. Drawing the curtains on the canopy bed made it harder to see, and blowing out the candles made it nearly impossible. The only time that happened was if it wasn't late enough, as he hated not being able to see you. 
Despite all the walls he'd put up to keep you from weaseling your way into his heart, you'd had them crashing down to reveal a side of him that nobody got to see. The vulnerable side. The side that a knight couldn't show. Feelings lead to weakness, and if he showed his, it would lead his enemies straight to you. 
Instead of an ironclad grip on the hilt of his sword, his hands could finally be used for gentle touches. They way he lightly ran them over your waist before slowly undoing the strings of your corset– just as he was now– raising goosebumps on your arms and nearly causing a shiver to run down your spine. The mouth that directed orders now softly peppering your skin and lips with tender kisses. He showered you with love through his devotion, making up for the times he couldn't openly hold your hand or kiss your cheek. He always took his time, savoring every moment as if it could replace all the time lost between you two, hands gliding over your body to commit it to memory.  
Somehow, Dainsleif managed to leave you dizzy and weak in the knees just from a simple touch. Time would speed up yet simultaneously slow down, blurring everything together until he brought you back to reality with a delicate kiss. There were instances where you swore you could feel the warmth of a sun you never knew through him– comfort and safety with a single look. To him, you were the moon– elegant and a guiding light in the darkness. Both balancing each other yet fated to be kept apart. 
Perhaps that was why it was so easy to fall for him. 
You remembered a time where you thought you'd never be able to have him, and this very moment proved all those doubts wrong. It gave you the hope that one day, you could see the real sun and show it to him so he would know what he's provided for you. Because for you, there was nobody else and there never would be. 
There is nobody else you'd step down for. There is nobody else you'd completely give yourself to. There is nobody else that you would want to love you– no one who would in the same way he did. 
Even though it was a tightly kept secret, and all the possible consequences of being caught weighed down on your shoulders, it was worth the risk.
It was worth every time you lied with him, just like right now. Hiding away in the canopy bed, the low light barely allowed him to see your face while the two of you became one. It was worth every kiss, every roll of his hips, and every “I love you” that fell from his mouth. If absence made the heart grow fonder, it showed when the two of you were together. 
Getting tangled up in the sheets, forgetting the outside world as if you were the only two who existed. It was as freeing as it was enchanting– to be able to lose yourself in someone you loved. Both of you soaked in every chance you had, memorizing every detail of the other. Like the way your fingers dipped into the skin of his shoulders, how he nibbled on your bottom lip to keep from being too loud, or the way he showered you in kisses after the fact before resting his forehead against yours. 
After calming down and cleaning up, he'd pull you into him– one arm wrapped around you, another running a hand through the tresses of your hair all while you laid your head on his bare chest, tracing patterns into his skin. Comfortable silence fills the room, almost lulling you to sleep even though he'd have to make his exit soon. 
But, before he can even think about sitting up, you do. Turning to look at him, giving a playful pout that he already knows he can't say “no”, you say, “Stay with me tonight.”
“If I'm not at–”
You press a finger to his lips to keep him from talking, “We both know Halfdan will cover for you. Besides, a heathen’s holiday means even most of your subordinates will be hungover in the morning. I'm sure they'll think their missing captain was kind enough to let them recover for the day.” 
He could never deny you. The way his soft chuckle was free of concern as he drew you back into him filled you with excitement. He pressed a small kiss against your lips, “I'll make sure they give their thanks to you, prinsessa.”
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middlenamesage · 21 days
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I’m flattered by the asks I’ve been receiving these last few days. And I love that it started happening during the Aquarius Moon this month, as my North Node is Aquarius, and I’m definitely looking to move more in a direction of supporting community however I can.
Fun fact though: I’m actually more of an astrology teacher than I am a chart reader. I do continue to welcome asks on different kinds of charts, from natal, to different types of transit charts, to synastry (solar returns aren’t even my specialty!). And the best questions for me are more specific ones. Especially if I’m gonna be having asks coming in more frequently and might not have time to devote to a mini analysis for a whole chart.
However, I believe that the most fulfilling way for me personally to support community when it comes to the astrological community, is to teach. For me, astrology has been a personal tool that I’m so grateful I learned for myself and can apply to my own spiritual journey. I believe this is a big part of why astrology has been spiritually healing for me, whereas most healing practices or insights that were delivered by a practitioner (particularly 6th house practitioners part of the mainstream medical system) were harmful or just not helpful.
I love the idea of assisting people one on one to a place in their astrology education where they feel confident enough about both knowing the information, and being in relationship with the Universe, that they can produce their own astrological insights in the context of experiences in their own lives. I do have a small amount of experience with teaching, as around a year ago, I gained a couple students from Twitter that I was giving weekly or every couple weekly one-one-one lessons via webcam to. (And I’ve taught a friend irl fairly in depth.) I think my students have had fun with me because it’s been a little bit like having a personal astrologer for them to keep coming back to… but my objective is to show them the process in how I reach the insights, and how they can start to reach insights by themselves.
Anyway, I’m starting to think it’s time to “open up the books” again with my astrology teaching. 💡 This is something I did free of charge with my first go around, as money is not in any way my motivation with this pursuit. An energetic exchange is important though, so doing this in the future, my policy is that I’d be willing to discuss whatever budget is realistic for someone, and also willing to discuss a trade if you sell any of your own services of products.
This isn’t yet my official advertisement and I’m not yet officially opening the books. Life feels quite chaotic (even though I feel blessed for my current spiritual mindset), so I’m going to need to wait at least until after this upcoming eclipse to put any teaching endeavors forward into motion again. And still at that point, I envision that I’ll only take on two students at a time, and might need a waitlist, as I’m feeling behind in other areas of my life, and it is really important for me to have the time and energy to give my best to anyone I’m teaching.
I’m intentionally not putting any hashtags on this post because my followers are people who already naturally saw something in me that resonated with them, without getting a reward for it, so y’all deserve to be the ones aware of this upcoming chance. If any of you find yourselves with questions about this or already find yourself thinking this is something you’d like to do, please let me know here as it will help me to assess my specific goals and plans moving forward with teaching again.
Cheers 🌞
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rose-riot-johnson · 10 months
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Hi how far are you in request wise could I ask for a comfort post of Shinsou would that be alright? uwu
Hi, the best I could think of wording my answer how far I am request wise, is due to me not getting requests often and so far with every fanfic request I get ended being completed in a day or less than a few, I'm caught up right now😃👍And ofcourse I can work on a comfort post with Shinsou, which most posts I'm an original poster does pertain fanfics😀👍So, working on comfort is my style😁👍So this will be the 2nd fanfic I will get to work with him on😀👍And yes, I'm more than happy that you're asking me this😁👍
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🟣You're The Reason I'm More Confident, Than I Ever Was🟣 ((Adult) Hitoshi Shinsou (My Hero Academia) x Any Gender Reader)
Genres: Comfort
When Hitoshi Shinsou first became a pro hero, he was nervous, because in the back of his mind he does still get worried about what others in his middle school has said about his "brainwashing" being a villainous power, however months afterwards that all changed. When he met you, you were just a civilian, who's also a fan of yours. You also had a huge crush on him. He notices that and he thought you were cute, so he decided to ask you to exchange cellphone numbers, which you gleefully agreed to exchange cellphone numbers with him.
After the day you met Shinsou and as time went by, he realized something about you in general has helped him be more confident in himself to the point where he became done caring about what others say about him and his "brainwashing", including his classmates he went to middle school with. He truly felt, as if you're the best thing to ever happen to him. He knew he made the right choice to exchange cellphone numbers and that he was in a relationship with you.
Eversince Shinsou realized something mysterious about you that helped him with gaining his confidence, as a pro hero, he became a much happier. Tough, you weren't aware of it yet, you coming into his life has definitely helped him change his confidence and well-being for the better. He even has a good feeling that you're his soulmate.
One day when Shinsou went to your place to visit you, he couldn't help noticing that you have some awards, then your power, (My Hero Academia power of reader's choice). You thought he would be upset about it. He was surprised to see all of this, however him seeing this from you, it made him smile, more than anything. Infact he was more than happy for you.
Shinsou then said with a smile, "This (My Hero Academia power of reader's choice) is amazing, (Any Gender Reader Name)! Even some of the pro heroes, aside from myself, would definitely love seeing this from you! Why didn't you tell me about this? This would definitely come in handy whenever civilians need to be rescued or if the villains cause trouble and stuff.". You were shocked what he said to you, as you said, "I never told you this, because my peers I went to middle school with, actually told me the opposite and they bullied me for having the (My Hero Academia power of reader's choice). They said it's gonna screw up the missions, if I was to become pro hero, that no one would want me to be a pro hero, that due to my (My Hero Academia power of reader's choice) no pro hero will team up with me nor want anything to do with me, and (other horrible things your peers said is up to the reader's imagination). I'm mean, if you knew what I've been through, you would understand, because what my peers said is why I gave up, on my dream of bekng a pro hero.". Shinsou then explained, "Look, (Any Gender Reader). I honestly do know what you've been through, since you mentioned about why you decided to not ge a pro hero. You're not the only one who ever had low self-esteem. I really had low self-esteem, eversince middle school. You see, the classmates I went to middle school with, they called my "brainwashing", villainous. Yes, you were bullied in a different way, however we both must have been insulted. While my self-esteem is low, I still never gave up on being a pro hero. I still went through obstacles and struggling with what my middle school classmates said in the past, however I knew I would make it one day.".
You were shocked that Shinsou, went through similar as you went through, as you asked, "Well then, why are you very confident now? Why isn't your self-esteem low now?", as you're not sure if he's only saying this to make you feel better or if he's being truthful. He then, answered, " Well (Any Gender Reader), I'm not sure how it happened or why it happened exactly, however I will be honest with you... My confidence has gotten better... My self-esteem is no longer low... My well-being has been feeling amazing... And I'm not joking when I'm saying this, however it's all because of you. Something is definitely mysterious about you in a cute way. After we exchanged cellphone numbers and our relationship began, my life just felt better and you're the best thing to ever happen to me.", then he started hugging and petting you. He then continued, "If it's true what they said about your (My Hero Academia power of reader's choice), then why do I see some awards in your living room and the fact that your (My Hero Academia power of reader's choice) did what it did. Yeah it's too late to change your past about what they said to discourage from being a pro hero, however it's not too late, to stop caring about whay your middle school classmates said about you. I think they're jealous of you. Your (My Hero Academia power of reader's choice) has alot of potential and can do many wonders for this world. Truth be told, it's very amazing like you are, and you're still mysterious and cute, (Any Gender Reader Name) because without you being in my life, I don't think i would have been as confident or have better self-esteem or well-being like i did.". You then replied to Shinsou with a question, "Do you really mean that, Shinsou?". Shinsou then answered, "I meant every word of what I said. And if you need someone to talk to or anything, I will always be here for you, my mysterious cutie.".
After Shinsou finished comforting you, he spent time with you when it comes to your favorite hobbies, cooking food together for eachother, watching Netflix, and (other things that's up to the reader's imagination on what ((s)he they) did with Shinsou for fun). Shinsou did end up spending the night at your place, just incase you decide to have another conversation and stuff, since he rather you initiate stuff, including conversations. It turned out to be a happy day and night for you and Shinsou both, as the both of you are very happy that he came to your place, that day. You're his happy place, while he is your happy place, as well.
The End
Okay my Tumblr Peeps, I hope you enjoy another Shinsou fanfic I worked on😁👍 As for you @shinaevordie , I do hope you enjoy this fanfic with Shinsou as well😃👍I wasn't sure, if you wanted Shinsou to comfort the reader or the reader comforts Shinsou, however I decided on having him comfort the reader this time. I still hope you liked this Shinsou fanfic either way😃👍Anyways I hope this fanfic with Shinsou makes your day and/or night🟣😁👍
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Elden Ring and Lessons in Life
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--This was my victory shot in my first playthrough of Elden Ring, right after beating Radagon and the Elden Beast. Took me more than 3 days of trying. My build there is dexterity/arcane, equipped with an uchigatana and rivers of blood katanas.--
For most people, especially the ones who are completely disinterested and abhor video games, playing games is a shallow hobby and complete (and expensive) waste of time. However, to me (and I think for other gamers out there), Elden Ring came in an opportune time. The time when I needed life lessons the most.
Because of the pandemic, lockdowns and being on constant furlough, I searched for things to do during my indoor staycation. I have always been an indoor person but because times were unprecedented back then, I have to keep my sanity up and running. I have been always playing computer games but I needed something like a rabbit hole that I will play for a long time.
Enter Elden Ring.
I have heard of the game since February 2022. Around this time, I already resigned from my previous job, recovering from burnout and mental struggles brought about by losses I experienced in 2021. I was trying to dig deep within me - asking myself what direction I will be heading, moving forward.
I have seen gameplays from my favourite gamers like RadBrad. He jokingly said that he's a bit crap in soulsborne games like Elden Ring and looking back, after playing the game, he was - a bit and for hilarious reasons. Haha!
I rediscovered my Twitch after months of being inactive and followed people who play the game as well. I eventually made the decision to acquire the game as a birthday present. My partner asked me what I wanted to have on my birthday and I asked for Elden Ring and Spiderman. I played Elden Ring and oh boy, I fell down into one of the deepest rabbit holes I've ever been into.
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--Me, after beating the notoriously difficult Malenia, Blade of Miquella. She was a dreaded boss in the game. It took me 35 tries with a summon (which is pretty useless anyway because she kills it first. Also she heals with every strike landing on you). I am looking forward to dance with her again, this time, without a summon.--
For a first timer who encountered a game like Elden Ring, sure, it was difficult and confusing. I always die even in the weakest of enemies. I dread facing the area boss. I was that anxious to the point, I scheduled playing Elden Ring during the day because my anxiety carries over to my dreams (I have a thing with nightmares because of a very anxious and active imagination).
I managed to find my way and style in the game. I managed to defeat area bosses after multiple times of trying. It all clicked one day. Elden Ring is a game designed to teach you how to take failures - both in game and real life - one of the most important lessons that you could ever come across.
Failures are part of life. These are not dead-end alleys, rather, they are detours / redirections to lead you to something better. All you have to do is to learn the lesson, gain your self-awareness, strengthen your self-confidence and temper your ego. I was at a point in my life that I was constantly receiving rejections from job applications and the job market that year was chaotic. Even finding a part time retail job proved to be very challenging. The lessons that I learned from Elden Ring carried and helped me with dealing with all these rejections and failures.
I know for a fact that a lot of people don't like Elden Ring because of its difficulty. I eventually learned that soulsborne games as a genre is notorious for its difficult games. Apparently, the kind of games that are not meant for the general populace. Masochist gamers are the kind of market for this genre. Well, in my case, let's call it a "living failure" or "failure enthusiast" (LOL).
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-- One of my favourite quests in the game albeit, a sad one. Jellyfish was one of my early favourites as a summon. I later realized that Jelly's name was Aurelia. And her sister was waiting in the Stargazer ruins in the Consecrated Snowfields. After reuniting Aurelia with her sister, you will find their graves below the cliff. Turns out that the jellyfishes in the game are the souls of innocent children who perished in the Shattering. --
Moving forwards with 2022, I found myself at a crossroads again. I decided to return to university for start a degree in Computing/IT with the hope of majoring in Software Engineering by Year 2. Take note of this: I made this decision as a person with loads of self-doubt and math anxieties. I always doubted myself when it comes to the subject of Math. I was led to believe that I was a complete numerical numpty.
I have to dig deep. And this time around, Elden Ring gave me something to cling on.
Why not imagine Maths as a soulsborne boss? That the only way to go forward is to keep on trying with that belief in yourself that you will get it's patterns and beat it? Practice makes perfect isn't it? If you can beat Malenia, then you can beat your Maths soulsborne boss!
Of course. Dealing with maths needs constant practice and encouragement when you don't get the correct solutions. There is no best way to deal with math anxieties but face it head on. Because you have to - if you want to conquer that one.
In order to prepare for my degree, I recalled my younger student years, critiqued it for my silly mistakes, swore that I will not do it again nor procrastinate. But at the same time, I will be kinder to myself, understand how my brain learns as in meta learning and establish an effective study strategy. I have to let go of whatever I feared back then. And just jump into it.
So far, so good. I am in my current year 1 and to my astonishment, I re-discovered myself again. It gave me stronger motivations to pursue things - even if its the ones that make me scared.
Elden Ring saved my sanity. Elden Ring saved me and let me become a brave Tarnished, ready to face real world and the Lands Between.
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Diabolik Lovers LOST EDEN ー Reiji Dark [07]
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CHAPTER MASTERLIST
ー The scene starts in the kitchen of the Sakamaki manor
Reiji: Well then...I am all done. Please carry these to the silverware cupboard. 
Yui: Okay.
Reiji: Try not to get any fingerprints on there, okay? ...I will not be able to tend to my collection for quite some time after all. 
Yui: Eh? 
Reiji: I will leave for the Demon World shortly. ...And I might end up staying there for quite a while. 
Yui: How come?
Reiji: I must discover why I am having so much trouble controlling these powers. 
...I will learn to master them before any serious issues arise in the Demon World. 
Yui: ...Reiji-san, I...!
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→ Ask to join him
Yui: Can I go to the Demon World with you?
I’ll try my best not to hold you back...So please!
Reiji: Good grief...I wonder where you get that groundless confidence from? 
You might have special blood flowing through your body, you are still a regular human in the end. So how can you be so sure of your statement...? 
You are as simple-minded as ever. I have no words for it.
Yui: ...I’m sorry. 
( Seems like I was a bit too upfront. )
→ Carefully look for the right words (❦)
Yui: ( I wish he’d take me with him but...I’m sure I would only get in the way since I won’t be able to defend myself. )
( However, I doubt I’ll be able to see him off with a genuine smile. )
( It’d be selfish of me to claim that I don’t want us to be apart. I’m well aware of that, but... )
Reiji: Why are you pulling a hundred different faces at once? ...It is pretty obvious that you would like to join me, you know.
Yui: Um, well...
( It’s a little embarrassing knowing that he predicted me perfectly... )
Reiji: ...Honestly, I am a little surprised by your hesitance...Especially coming from the same girl who had no issue straight up calling me ‘socially awkward’ earlier...
Yui: I’m sorry...
Reiji: However, I do think it fits your personality. 
While I have a hard time grasping how your mind works (1)...I do not dislike it. 
Reiji: However...The Demon World in its current state is highly dangerous to you.
You are the Eve chosen by Father himself after all. ...I am sure there are plenty of people who would love to use you for their own personal gains. 
Yui: No way...
Reiji: In terms of power, while Father was not the Demon King himself, nobody will dispute his position as Supreme Ruler. (2)
Meanwhile one could say that you are considered the daughter of this man who was feared by the lower classes. 
Now that the Supreme Ruler has passed away, the commotion regarding the fight for sovereignty over the Demon World worsens with each passing day. 
While this is obviously the case amongst the leaders of each respective clan, there are even those amongst the lower classes who see this as a prime opportunity to gain authority. 
They might try to make use of this opportunity and target you...as you could provide them with the key to earning power. 
To be honest, while staying here entails risks of its own, I would say it is more safe than the Demon World. ...You do understand where I’m getting at, right? 
Yui: ...
Reiji: ...Well then, I need to get ready, so I shall return to my room for now.
While I am away, I will leave this house...as well as those idiotic brothers of mine in your care. 
Yui: ...Um!
Reiji: Yes?
Yui: ( I don’t want to hold him back, but still...! )
I am fully aware of how selfish this is of me. However, I want to come with you...! 
Please let me be with you!
Reiji: ...
Yui: I’m begging you...!
Reiji: ...Haah. Okay.
Yui: Eh? You’re giving me permission? 
Reiji: Yes. The human world has become quite dangerous as of right now with the increasing threat of Demon Hunters. 
Therefore, I might actually feel more relieved to have you by my side, rather than having to leave you behind here. 
Yui: Thank you so much. Um, I promise I will try not to get in the way...
Reiji: It’s fine. What I want...is for you to be there with me regardless.
Yui: ...Yes!
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I wonder just how bad things are over at the Demon World? 
Personally I cannot even imagine it,
however, I am sure that Reiji-san is the only one,
who can break through this dire situation. 
Exactly because I feel that way,
I want to be (居たい) there right next to him. 
Who knows what waits up ahead. 
However...
No matter what happens, I shall never leave his side. (離れない)
That’s what I decided for myself. 
ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー
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(1) Literally he says that he has trouble weighing or gauging her criteria, most likely referring to how he finds it difficult to predict how she will react in a specific situation because her decisions sometimes conttradict each other. 
(2) Maybe I missed this in previous games, but I’m actually not quite sure what the exact difference between 魔王 (maō) and 覇王 (haō) is in the DL universe. On the DL wikia, both Burai and Karlheinz are listed as ‘Demon King’, but while Burai has been referred to as 魔王 or ‘Demon Lord’, in Japanese, Reiji here makes a clear distinction with Karlheinz being not the Demon King, but instead the 覇王 or ‘Supreme Ruler’. 
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My family thinks I’m absolutely nuts. They’re constantly whispering to younger cousins “don’t copy her” and “she’ll always be the wild one, never thinking”. I was desperate to fit in but I never really did. And now I’m out here wondering why the hell I ever wanted to in the first place.
Blood is thicker than water, but water has the power to dilute the strength of blood.
True, I can be reckless and impulsive. If I want something, I have to have it. I am selfish and persistent in my pursuit. Whether or not it’s good for me is another story. I’m stubborn and sensitive, sometimes blindly optimistic.
But frankly, if we spend time waiting for the perfect moment….it’ll never come. No matter how much we plan and prepare, there are always uncertainties.
I believe we have to create opportunities for ourselves. I don’t want to wait around and wonder, I want to know. If I fail (is anything really a failure or just a redirection?), then I have more information than I started with. Something was still gained.
Some caution is a good thing. However, awareness + acceptance always > caution.
It’s not about succeeding - it’s about trying. It’s about having faith, trusting that things are always working out in your favor. Reflection and introspection, then continuing to move forward. Everything is a lesson, to teach us more about ourselves.
At the end of my life, I want to be able to say I lived a full one. That I didn’t hold back out of fear. That I didn’t succumb to being a victim of circumstance, I didn’t stay complacent within the status quo. I don’t want there to be any “what-ifs”. I want to be able to say that it all had to happen this way. That I understand the meaning of my story.
That I loved fiercely and passionately. That I didn’t allow the injustices of the world to harden me. That I used my pain for good, turned it into hope. That I continued to strive for better, that I never gave up.
That I didn’t do it perfectly, but I did it with compassion, self-respect, and grace. That I confidently pursued my dreams and I humbly acknowledged my mistakes. That my experiences shaped me, they didn’t just happen to me.
At the end, I want to say that I know who I am and what I stand for. That in my life, I made the most of it to become the truest version of myself.
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aphilosopherchair · 10 months
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Vampire Psychologist For Hire
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Human recruiter filling position for psychologist:
You left your gender checkbox blank. It's our fault that the system controls were not fully in place, but I do expect meticulousness from my psychologists.
Vampire graduate who majored in human psychology:
My pronouns are they/them.
Human recruiter:
Ah! I really have to tell the technical team to update the form. I have absolutely no problem with your gender identity or your species. But you only have textbook and secondhand insights into human psychology.
Unlike human psychologists, you don't know what it feels on the inside to be human. Observations and textbook knowledge don't tell you everything. Many things are left unspoken.
Vampire graduate:
While I cannot pretend to know exactly how it feels to be a human, I am willing to work as hard as I can to try to understand the complexities of the human mind and heart, perhaps even harder than the average human candidate. Through studying human literature, observing my own relationships with humans, and developing a strong emotional bond with my human friends and classmates, I have already developed a deep appreciation and understanding of the human psyche that goes beyond mere textbook knowledge or casual observations. While there are certain aspects of the human experience that I do not share, I am confident that my empathy and dedication to the field of psychology more than make up for any lack of firsthand experience.
Human recruiter:
Why should I recruit you when I can just recruit a human top scorer with the same grades?
Vampire graduate:
While a human with the same qualifications may also have a great understanding of humans, they are likely to be inherently biased by their own perspective. I, however, also have the advantage of being able to objectively analyze humans' strengths, weaknesses, and motivations from an outsider perspective.
Additionally, as a member of a paranormal race, I have the ability to manipulate human minds and feelings to improve mental well-being.
Human recruiter:
Mind manipulation? By now, you're stark raving bonkers! How do I know you won't put it to bad use?
Vampire graduate:
As a vampire, I understand the importance of being self-aware and responsible when it comes to my ability to manipulate the emotions and actions of others. I take care to only use this power in situations where it is necessary or beneficial, and to never misuse it for personal gain or at the expense of others. I also make sure to seek consent before using my ability on individuals, and I always prioritize their safety, comfort, and well-being.
Human recruiter:
That's what you'd say of course. I have no reason to trust you.
Vampire graduate:
I understand your skepticism and reticence. In a world dominated by humans, it is often difficult for vampires like myself to be seen as anything other than predators or manipulative. However, while it may be challenging, this does not mean that it is impossible for you to trust me. In the end, trust is built through communication and understanding, which is why I have been open and honest with you about my ability to manipulate minds and my intentions in using this ability.
Trust is also earned over time. I think if you give me a chance to prove myself on the job, with ample supervision at the start, you will be able to put aside your hesitations about working with a vampire by and by. The best way to find out if i'm good at my job is not through urban legends, groundless hearsay or unscientific mob opinion but to give me a shot and see how things work out.
I can even agree to a contract outlining specific guidelines for how I will use my vampire abilities, and what steps we can take to ensure that my mind manipulation is always used in a beneficial way.
Human recruiter:
Hmmm. Excellent pitch. But it sounds too good to be true. For one thing, I need to review the clinical evidence and adverse effects records later. And why should I be the first to hire a vampire as a psychologist? I prefer someone tried and tested.
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Vampire graduate:
If you would like to work with experienced practitioners, that is certainly your prerogative. However, it is often beneficial to have a fresh perspective on a problem, and working with a vampire psychologist can provide that. Please consider what I have to offer.
Human recruiter:
It's true. We have clients who remain unyielding to all the therapy regimes out there. Psychology has improved by leaps and bounds but is still an inexact science. We do need fresh ideas.
Vampire graduate:
Please also remember other positive traits of the vampire race. For example, I can live for millennia in the absence of mishaps. During my long lifespan, I can examine numerous times more clients than human colleagues are capable of. The synergistic effect of that extensive experience and my unique perspective will empower me to generate breakthroughs in therapeutic innovations.
Human recruiter:
Cool, but the manner in which you're comparing yourself against your human colleagues before you even start your job is concerning. Psychologists are not melodramatic lone heroes. We often need to engage in teamwork with one another in order to serve clients in a therapeutic setting. This can be in the form of team discussions about a client's treatment plan or case, collaboration on the research of a particular issue or hypothesis, or even simply supporting each other as we help clients through treatment. Are you sure you'll be a good team player?
Vampire graduate:
That is a valid point. I apologize for the misimpression. While professional independence is important, collaboration and teamwork are equally essential. I don't view my vampire heritage as something that makes me better or worse than my colleagues, it's simply a part of who I am and a source of unique strengths and flaws. As a member of the greater psychological community, I am committed to collaborating with my colleagues to help our clients in the best possible way. Thank you for the reminder to be a supportive team player.
Human recruiter:
OK. A critical question: HOW do I know you won't succumb to the temptation of your overworked co-workers' and vulnerable clients' blood? You may have excellent grades for your degrees in human psychology, but what about vampire psychology? I can risk neither the life of whichever assessor I assign for your probationary period nor those of all the appointees you see in the reception area outside, who have entrusted their welfare to our practice.
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Vampire graduate:
I can understand that the possibility of a vampire drinking human blood is a concern, especially in a field like psychology that works so closely with humans. However, you have nothing to worry about in that regard. I have testimonials from my professors—
Human recruiter:
Ah, yes. But the academic world is nothing like the messy real world of full-time working adults. Our educational system in Typingland is so infantile it requires hardly any practical experience like internships to earn a PsyD. Your self-control may be stretched to its limits by manipulative patients, vitriolic parents and unsuccessfully forestalled suicides, although I must say most clients in our practice are incredibly sweet in spite of their personal difficulties.
Vampire graduate:
The work of psychologists is indeed strenuous. Nevertheless, my lifestyle has given me a strong foundation for coping with the stress.
Human recruiter:
The lifestyle of a vampire?
Vampire graduate:
As a vampire, I understand that I have certain physical and psychological needs, but I have taken many steps to ensure that these are met in a safe and ethical way that don't involve living humans. My physical needs can be met through a diet of donated blood, while my emotional needs can be met through strong professional boundaries, self-care practices, and maintaining a strong support network.
I regularly engage in personal wellness practices such as meditation and physical activity to maintain my emotional and mental vitality. I also check in with my psychologist for vampires at least once a month, adjusting the frequency with the stress I experience and the intensity of the blood thirst at any given time. This helps to provide a safe space for me to express and process my thoughts, feelings, and experiences. It also gives me the opportunity to practice managing my blood thirst through a variety of behavioral and mindfulness techniques.
If you would like, I can arrange for my psychologist to send you an evaluation report.
Human recruiter:
I'm deeply impressed. (Claps and shakes head in awe.) I must say that I've never met a candidate, human or vampire, with your level of dedication. Quite a number of the psychologists I know have undergone depression themselves in the course of this emotionally draining and underpaid work but were late in seeking professional intervention. They need to learn a thing or two from newbies like you.
Vampire graduate:
Oh, why, thank you!
Human recruiter:
However—I'm afraid our clientele and the public won't share my sentiments.
You may think I've been demanding and prejudiced, but the others? They won't even sit down like this to sift through your personal history or examine your well-crafted arguments. Public attention to the fanciful layers and facets, okay, just layers and facets, to marginalized demographics like yours has been fleeting to start with and pretty much vaporized in a Tiktokified economy. Social media?? It's a wasteland made up of countless virtual enclaves out there. Every phone zombie just scrolls past news and advocacy messages that don't amuse them or address their own problems. And algorithms?? Gawd! Don't. Even. Get. Me. Started. On. Algorithms.
What people out there will get with their precious microseconds for us, though, is that our practice is employing a dangerous and powerful person, if they would even see you as a person at all, to work on fragile humans in despair.
Look, we don't need bloody fangs and the bat wing stuff to further complicate the ongoing uphill battle of getting psychological condition sufferers to walk through our doors.
Welp . . . I'm sorry for my bluntness. I tend to let down my guard when I'm not in front of clients. You're a fine young vampire who deserves better.
Vampire graduate:
(Momentary silence.)
(Soars over to fan human recruiter with their bat wings while slightly frowning to themselves.)
Those are indeed tough challenges. How about this? Let's start by offering virtual sessions for clients who would feel more comfortable initially meeting with me through a video conference. This can help to gradually introduce me to them in a non-threatening environment and allow them to get to know me better before they agree to meet in person.
We can complement that with an on-site "try-out" session for clients who remain hesitant to work with me or lack technological access or digital literacy. A try-out session could involve a brief, low-stakes meeting where clients can meet me, ask questions, and get a sense of my approach before deciding whether to continue with therapy. This can help to build trust and rapport with them, and give them a chance to see that I am interested in helping them and can provide effective treatment.
As we graduate to proper therapy sessions and make good progress on cases, we can highlight statistics, success stories and testimonials from past clients who have worked with me, and emphasize my ability to provide effective treatment. That is, with their consent and proper anonymization of course. Given your practice's reputation for integrity, the credibility of anonymized feedback should not be a problem.
Perhaps, I can even make up for the reputation risk at the beginning by offering fun, one-of-a-kind indoor levitation experiences that are a soother of the nerves and a break from the mundaneness of everyday life. The experiences would also attract potential clients otherwise resistant to treatment because of public perceptions of psychotherapists as rigid doctrine-driven professionals, who they think won't understand their unique struggles and decision rationale, like reasons for investing all their time in an unstable line of work or sticking with a violent spouse. They are stress relievers no one can find in self-help books or chat responses from even the best of AI technology!
Human recruiter:
W—ow. I'm tempted to try that levitation myself. I have to think about your proposals and discuss them with the others.
There's just one last thing that I don't understand, and anyone, whatever the temperature of their blood, can sense this coming from miles away.
Vampire graduate:
Please go ahead.
Human recruiter:
Why a career in human psychology? Wouldn't you face less discrimination and be more at home with vampire psychology?
Vampire graduate:
I've always been fascinated by humans and their unique abilities to adapt and survive without paranormal powers, especially the human capacity for empathy. It's been my dream since I was young to study the human mind, to explore the depths of their emotions and figure out what truly motivates them.
Many people think that clinical counselling is about entering broken minds, but it is simultaneously about tapping the power of the marvelous human stores of mental resilience, mental flexibility and boundless optimism.
The wonders and possibilities of human psychology energize me. They keep me going every day despite the uncertainties of my chosen career path and the suspicion and taunts I get. I am one of those who believe that you can flourish in the long term only if you are emotionally invested in what you do.
Human recruiter:
Even if you don't end up on our team, I have no regrets taking time to interview you. It's been a great pleasure exploring the awe-inspiring sides and possible futures of our field with you. This sounds cliché but I sincerely mean it: I wish you the very best in your psychologist career.
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Human recruiter Human (with two AI -dubbed lines)
Vampire graduate AI (with human stand-ins in various instances)
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Sam is half ghost now? How did THAT happen? You'll have to read my Danny Phantom series on fanfiction.net for the answers (look for my Author Name, Aaron12, for my full library of fics). Obviously, I don't own the rights to Danny Phantom, but I DID design Sam's costume.
Be kind to me on this one. This was my first ever drawing using my Bamboo tablet and I did it from scratch, mostly just to see if I could pull it off. While the end result is more or less a success (in that it actually LOOKS like Danny and Sam), you'll notice that it's still pretty rough and ragged around the edges. My approach to drawing doesn't exactly make for clean lines on a computer program.
Granted, I was fully aware of its imperfections and limitations.  However, my inexperience with both Photoshop and tablet work made it all but impossible for me to correct those problems at the time.  To that end, I always promised myself that I would go back to this pic and fix it up one day, once I figured out how.  And four years later, when I had nothing else to submit, I decided that would be the best time to do it. Frankly, I'm very pleased.  With the bag of tricks I'd acquired over the years, not only was I able to smooth over this pic's rough edges, but I was also able to throw in some added flourishes and special effects that I always wanted to add at the start, but had neither the knowledge nor the confidence to even ATTEMPT.  So what you're seeing in the updated image is the picture the way it was always MEANT to be seen.  How many differences can YOU find? ^_^ Having said all this, however, I decided not to take the original pic down from my Gallery, because for all it's imperfections, I still owe that image a lot.  Like I said, when I drew this pic, I had almost no experience with Photoshop and ABSOLUTELY no experience with tablets.  But more than that, I also had little to no success emulating other art styles and I drew that first pic mostly just to prove to myself that I could do it.  If that image had been a failure, who knows where I'd be right now?  Luckily, it was enough of a success in my eyes to keep moving forward.  And today, here I am, slowly getting better, slowly gaining recognition.  And I owe it to one picture...and to each and every one of my followers on DA.  I really can't thank them enough. So for that, here are both versions of my very first submission on DA.  As always, I hope you all like it.^_^
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shushthisaintmytumbla · 10 months
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I guess its the Summer Solstice so here we are again! 6/21/23
Wow I knew I neglected my last pot but here we are back even later than the last one! Like i say everytime it is wild to see how much has changed in my life the past couple of years. Ups down and everything in between I come back to this spot everytime and see the growth I’ve made. All by myself. All for myself. I cant always see it but moments where I read back on the past I am brought right back to those moments and never lose sight of how I felt in the past. 
I keep seeing on TikTok that today is a Summer Solstice meaning it is a great opportunity for manifestations so lets try this out why not! I guess I’ll start by giving a quick synopsyis of my life from the past 10 months or however long (wow sorry I abandoned this for that long!!!!)
Lets start with Work. I am still at the same OI job and feel like I have grown sooo much. I cant say im perfect at my job, but I know I have made a shit load of progress that i’m very proud of. I shifted off of working with my mngr which has made the biggest impact on my happiness at the job. I was going from having weekly panic attacks to not even having to review a single email anymore. I am really proud of myself for treading through the mud and getting to the point where I am at now. Now for the manifestation segment. I am going to get a promotion soon. This SUMMER! I FEEL IT. I am such a hard worker and really have gained the experience to move up in the company. I am confident it will happen in the next couple months. I cant wait to come back here and tell you all about it. It will be my first real promotion at a job which is something that I’ve really wanted to achieve since I havent gotten to this point at any of my previous jobs. You got this Case. 
Now for relationships. Tricky subject and yep you guessed it D is still around. I have tested a coupe other relationships with E and A and C... but somehow D makes it through the motions of every single season. I do want to touch on E for a sec. I have grown to build an amazing relationship with him, but I havent seen him for a few weeks and I feel like the relationship is starting to fade. Im sick of getting 100% and then a week later not even 1%. I am fully aware it has nothing to do with me and more so his own struggles, but I do need to realize at the end of the day that its ok to want more from someone and he cant give me what I need as much as hes shown me how I can be treated in a healthy way. He’s the boy Ive always dreamt of how someone can treat/care for you, but this story just isnt ours at this point in time. Who knows what the future holds. Now D. Oh boy. As we all know its been a fucking roller coaster. I have felt the highest of highs w him and the lowest of lows. I do hold love for him (but not so sure ive ever been in love... idk what that even is lmao). We’ve gotten to a point where I feel like I have been holding my power for quite some time now. I don’t have the same anxieties as I had for him in the past and i don’t prioritize him over others. We’ve tried not speaking (jan 2023) for a couple weeks and ultimately he just came back and I allowed it. I cant cut him out of it killed me. It’s so fucking hard. I am working on figuring out his place in my life and how we can carry on without hurt, but I feel like I am slowy falling back in the trap/cycle. We had a really nice day together the other weekend and I felt those anxious attachment feelings creeping in... I need to remember the things that have happened and try to prepare for the worst, but is it crazy to say that what if we are meant for each other? The other day I was able to imagine being in a relationship with him and it shocked me how I felt so good the whole day. Idk prob the worst thought ever but.. idk.. why are we magents to each other? Lastly I wanna touch on friendships and new york life. My friends here are still the same (but Karina now lives in Miami) and I love them so much, but I’ve been feeling myself longing for my relationships in LA. There are many weekends where my friends here are out of town and I feel left alone many times. In LA I would have the comfort of my family when friends arent around, but theyre 100s of miles away from me. I really miss them so fucking much it hurts. I think the longer I am away the more and more I realize how special my family is. I especially feel bad being away from my mom. She asks me nearly everytime we talk when I’ll come back and little does she know I’ve been toying with the idea of returning once my lease is up. If not that I think I have 1 year left in me. It still shocks me to say it and feel confident in that, but I really miss my family. Thats truly the only thing pulling me back bc I love this city and who I have become here so damn much. Im not putting too much pressure on the decision as I still have 10 months on my lease, but it is in the back of my mind. I feel like I’ll lead myself to the right choice soon though. So much would change though. I told D the other day about the idea and he said he would be so sad which kinda surprised me. It would be the end for us if I did move back which im not sure is a good or bad thing. Sometimes I tell myself the love of my life is not here and I wont meet them till I move back lol. Im not sure where the future is gonna bring me, but im confident in myself to do what is right for me. Leaving my friends here would also be horrible, but at the end of the day if they are the friendships I believe them to be, we will still be as close as ever and planes exist!! I guess thats kinda it for now. But this is still the start to an amazing summer with so much fun in store I can feel it!!! I have a trip to the shore coming up next weekend and then im going back home for my bday end of july - aug. Later in the summer I am going to portugal with my family!!! and something BIIGGGG is gonna happen in the fam :o Cant write it in words here till it happens. Until then, I love you. Im proud of you. and life is always working out in my favor. <3  Love,
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unboxedreflections · 5 months
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MAN'S GOTTA' DREAM
On the back of the milestones I mentioned last entry, I was able to come so far that I was confident and lucky enough to take some huge steps towards my career aspirations. 
All the factors I have mentioned and practices I’ve put in place through my first five entries came into play and combined to help open so many more doors than I even had access to before starting my internships. 
For example, at the start of this year, I had set myself a goal and dream to commentate footy and begin to pursue a career in sports broadcasting after thoroughly enjoying the sports broadcasting subject and mentoring with Brett Phillips last year. However, I never even could begin to comprehend doing what I ended up doing, earlier this year, prior to my internships and big journey, I just thought I’d call the odd game for the VAFA, volunteering on their live stream platforms. Little did I know I would end up calling the entire second half of the season for SEN radio, getting paid to broadcast my home league the West Gippsland Football Netball Competition (WGFNC), a dream of mine. This simply would not have been possible without the learnings I got from doing my internships, the belief in myself I had built after working and thriving in the professional space, allowed me to back myself in and take a huge step in my journey towards my career dreams. By the end of the year, I was co-hosting the coverage and was the co-main caller for the WGFNC Grand Final, which my home club won, a day I will never forget in my career. 
Here's a video, I made for an assignment, with highlights from the game and the call notes I took the night prior. I got a D on this assignment from Dav.
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As for further goals from here, I now aspire to take on any role with confidence and know that I will absolutely adjust to whatever work environment and culture I’m faced with and do the required tasks to the best of my ability. My plan is to look to embark on an entry-level role to gain as much experience as I can, as I am aware that regardless of how much I have learnt and how far I’ve come, I am still a fresh face a ‘rookie’ in the industry. My goal is to land this entry-level job and continue commentating through the WGFNC season next year to ensure I am still sharpening my craft in that area as it is the one I have the greatest aspirations to end up in as a long-term career. I am happy to take this slowly though as I realise broadcasting is much like playing the game itself, you don’t wake up and become Lance Franklin overnight, years of work must be applied to the craft and that’s exactly what I plan to do. I am eternally grateful for my experience at Rainmaker which has shown me and opened my eyes to the back end of sports production, which is invaluable to any sports broadcaster, there’s not a single sporting broadcast I watch or listen to know where I am not thinking about how it’s being produced or pointing out any errors, or good little titbits. Because of this, and how highly I value the production side, along with how much I enjoyed it, I definitely see myself working in production down the track and would love to return to SEN/Rainmaker to do so. Ultimately, my goal to is gain as much knowledge as I can in a 5-10-year period along with growing my connection base and reputation to eventually go into freelancing when I feel I’m best qualified, and travel the world taking broadcasting, production, or media jobs at different events. 
These goals, although lofty and potentially far-fetched, are vital to my career as planning out a career and setting goals have been proven to deeply impact the welfare and success of youths both through their schooling and in the workforce (Choi et al., 2015). As a transitioning university graduate, this is really interesting and important to me as I value mental planning and goal setting very highly and this is also backed by research by Villares and Brigman (2018) who found it to be an essential factor in the success of a graduate’s early career.  
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Is Dating a Sugar Daddy in Kenya the Right Thing?
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How did you start being a sugarbabe? What motivated you to it? I consider myself a muse, I’ve always loved dressing up, pampering myself, and enjoying the finer things in life, from the arts to food, traveling, and fashion, My hobbies are all very sense orientated, I love to feel good, and I enjoy making other people feel good. I like to spread good energy, inspire creativity & relish in life. I am strong & confident, and am at a stage now where I am taking my desires and relationships into my own hands, I’ve experienced real love, and that remains a part of who I am, now it’s time to have fun! 😉
When I realized there was a platform to explore my ideal relationships, I dove in head first.
What were some of the negative experiences you had? Initially breaking into the sugar dating world, I realized that online introductions can be undesirable, and that face-to-face daily interactions are the way to go, however, that takes time & patience, and research, which I consider an investment.
The negative experiences have been the men who do not ‘get’ the lifestyle or who are not genuine gentlemen who know or want to treat woman like queens, and being approached in a derogatory manner, or outright lied to, with intentions to take advantage..
What were some of the more positive experiences you have had? Meeting sugar babies, and the interesting knowledge I’ve gained from viewing life from this perspective. Access to the knowledge of others (blogs/books etc) and the inspiration provided by successful Sugars daddies, meeting like minded gents & literally having our cake & eating it.
What advice can you give to others who would like to try it? Research! Check out all the blogs & websites, connect with other Sugar babies. You will gain valuable insight into how to present yourself, and learn from others experiences, Take time to write down a list of your goals, define yourself clearly, & be confident. Take good care of your health, diet & exercise. Always trust your instincts. Respect yourself & the men that pamper you.
What do you like most about being a sugarbabe or being in this kind of lifestyle? I love being feminine & girly, lingerie, flowers, gifts, dinners, looking gorgeous, and being around gentlemen who love & appreciate that. Being a social butterfly.
Sugar Daddy- I’m generous in nature, and enjoy receiving. It’s a good outlet for my assertive side.
What do you find most attractive in a sugardaddy?
Sugar daddy- A good heart, elegance, appreciation for style & class. Someone generous & open minded, that’s successful, ambitious & smart. I like to surround myself with quality people.
Who knows about your profession or hobby? What was their reaction? Only one close female friend is aware of this new adventure, she’s open minded.
Have you ever consider not doing it anymore? why?
This is new to me, and I believe after I’ve absorbed all the information/literature & experiences it will (already has) alter me, and I’ll keep what’s good & serves me, and let the rest pass. My goal is to be successful, I have a career, and have worked for all I have, ideally I’d like to have my own business, and develop my talents and have an outlet for them, (fashion, art & music) I’ve always been self sustained, this for me is the icing on the cake and a means to fast track my full potential, and give back to the world around me.
Can you live off it well or just enough for some expenses? At this stage I am living off my own income, and am looking to this as an experience, to travel, have pretty things, and explore myself & the people I meet. I am trusting it will build to the stage where I can transition from my career (cutting my hours down slowly) into my own business, I would never rely on one stream of income alone.
How has your life changed with it? It has already changed, from when my perspective shifted from my initial reaction to “sugar baby” and discovering the particular type of sugar baby presence that suits me, my life has been changing daily, by the knowledge I’ve found, the interactions with people online, and defining my own goals & intentions, the mental shift has been empowering.
I’m ready to step into this world, Let’s see what comes of this!
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journals-itzel · 10 months
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Blair Roebuck, Vice President, Marketing Science, Valtech
Do you know what "unicorn" means? Blair Roebuck, Vice President of Marketing Science at Valtech, explained this terminology with the following statement: "I am privileged to work with such amazing people. I got the glory of standing and sitting in front of you all in class. However, the team behind me are fantastic and brilliant individuals, and I learned by working with them all."
Her description of unicorns makes her think of people with an exceptional blend of analytical skills, statistical knowledge, and marketing expertise. The unicorn suggests finding individuals with marketing and data science skills. Whenever she hires or adds individuals to her team, there are some key criteria she looks for.
The technology side. Are you capable of organizing and analyzing data? Can you capture the data and analyze it?
Expertise: Do you have the technical knowledge to analyze the data?
Apply: Can you apply the technical findings to your client's project content and context?
Blair taught me three takeaways. First, we need different skills and knowledge to succeed in our company. We need analytical skills, knowledge and expertise. The most significant thing is, however, that we should strive to be unicorns and be fantastic individuals who share knowledge and learn through collaboration with others. 
Secondly, it is very critical to have a solid understanding of customers and the business model. This is because you can often apply your knowledge and skills to various industries and ensure their application in every circumstance.
Communication fosters collaboration and teamwork among employees. When individuals can clearly convey their ideas, thoughts, and expectations, it becomes easier to work together, share information, and coordinate efforts towards common goals. Effective communication promotes synergy and helps teams achieve better results.
The most interesting thing I learned through the activity was that my team and I could analyze the data in 30 minutes. I also made some suggestions and recommendations to improve awareness and emphasize safe driving. I was surprised to discover that the majority of people who suffer from a car accident have already been involved in another accident. I believe it is extremely imperative to raise safe driving awareness.
Overall, I believe a career as a marketing scientist would be an ideal fit for me. I enjoy analyzing data and have the fundamentals to make informed decisions. By analyzing data, it is possible to determine what companies are doing well and what needs to be changed. Furthermore, storytelling is one of the things I most enjoy when people collect data and present their findings in a clear, concise, and compelling manner.
My most significant actions for preparing myself for this career are to gain experience and confidence in data analysis, build a portfolio that displays my skills in data analysis and marketing, and most importantly, establish relationships with potential employers. Make connections with people who can assist me in finding a job in the industry. Be aware of the latest trends: Stay abreast of the latest developments in data analysis and marketing technology.
#marketingscientist
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desn512-reneesimpson · 11 months
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Hand-In: Rationale
Throughout this paper I have learnt many technical skills that will benefit any future projects I work on. I have practiced new skills that I haven’t learnt before and been able to develop the techniques I already knew. Majority of the knowledge I gained was within Adobe programs such as InDesign, Photoshop and Illustrator. However I also realized the importance of documentation by updating my blog with my weekly learning. This helped me have a clear representation of my learning and made it easy for me to go back and look at the work I had done in previous weeks when I was wanting to incorporate something we had learnt in class into my own designs.
After only a month and a half of learning within this course I can confidently say that my knowledge of adobe programs has improved significantly already. At first it would take me a while to be able to digitally create the visions that I had in my head. Whereas now I am confident enough with certain skills to be able to execute these faster. Now that I know the fundamental skills it is easier for me to figure out how to do certain things than it would have been 6 weeks ago and I am excited to continue my learning journey within this course. Not only this, but I have also become more aware of design elements such as typography within everyday life. I have found myself becoming more aware of design techniques that we see in our day to day lives and am becoming more confident in critiquing the positive and negative aspects of these.
This course so far has challenged my design thinking and enabled me to pick up new skills that work for me in my own designs, as well as other people’s designs. If this is what I have learnt in a matter of six weeks, I can’t wait to see where I will be in my design journey at the end of this course.
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