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#i can never enter these to the BC though LMAO but i still love them anyway uwu
illegaltruffle · 1 year
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compilation of my deepsea neopets and art i drew of them hehe it was so much fun coming up with ways to incorporate the pb colours onto the actual creature
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roturo · 10 months
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BITE ME
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summary: being a vampire hunter wasn't easy, and it became rougher when you encountered a cute tall white-haired vampire that would change up your opinions about them
warnings: smut, blood, vampire!gojo x vampire hunter!reader, sub!gojo, dacryphilia, gojo cries during sex lmao, kinda rushed, piv, unprotected sex, overstimulation, kinda fucked dumb tbh, blood lust, like it was love at first sight yass, no one is in their right mind, just horny tbh, loved this idea, maybe oc gojo idk, bc he's such a cutie pie here, aghdhsagbdy this is cute that im even surprised, never wrote for sub!gojo but idk, enjoy.
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Since little you were taught many things, but the most important one is to always hate vampires.
Living in a community divided by unnatural human beings and well, humans, made society enter into a conflict if both kinds of communities should mix. 
Your family was a well known vampire hunter, you lived in a forest far away from the city where most of the vampires usually exist between humans. Being a medical student made you learn a lot about the species that killed your dad. So being a recognized ‘vampire hunter’ wasn’t such a good thing.
Maybe that’s why you couldn’t stand being near them, nor living with them. That’s why when you had a vampire as a patient (who are most of the time the ½ vampires) you made sure of learning all about them, learning how to defend yourself from them, and even might kill them.
You have a specific freezer for human blood and some samples of whatever type of blood vampires have. Spending most of the time examining the different types of cells and differences from the human blood.
And that’s the thing. Having human blood and being alone in the middle of nowhere is not the safest option to avoid vampires.
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Gojo Satoru is a well respected young vampire, not by his ancestors though, since he decided to live more of a ‘pacific lifestyle.’ Humans had this thing where vampires couldn’t feed themselves with human blood. At this rate he doesn’t know if the new generations are good for everyone or just for humans, and do not even dare to talk about animal blood, that’s disgusting. 
But when he has the chance of drinking human blood, I'm telling you, this man becomes insatiable. Maybe that’s why society invented other types of supplements for vampires. But coming from a lofty clan, he couldn’t live from those disgusting things human called ‘’food’’
And well... when he saw this cute lady coming out from the hospital with a case full of blood bags (thanks to his supernatural power to identify the delectable human blood on his own) he couldn’t resist himself from following you until you got home.
Please let it be possible that vampires can be knocked out, you thought. You couldn't believe a vampire was standing right infront of your freezer looking for something. With all of the strength you could muster up, you swung the pan down right on his head, no doubt strong enough to give anyone a major concussion. Immediately, he fell to the ground, as lifeless as he wouldn’t be if he wasn’t a vampire.
“Holy shit…” You breathed out, shoulders high and tense. Looking down at him, you noticed how young he looked, and in all honesty, he didn’t look threatening at all. You felt a tinge of worry, wondering if he wasn’t a vampire after all, and you might’ve just killed him.
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So that’s how you find yourself here and how you might met the love of your life.
Edging closer to the man, you bent down to see if he was breathing. He was completely still. That didn’t tell you much, though, as he could be dead or…the undead.
Thank god you had a basement here, especially if anything like this happened. I guess following your dad's steps really helped you out. Which was why it was the best place to drag the vampire into. Maybe you could keep him in there and question him on how the hell he got into your house, and at the same time, you could keep him at a safe distance from yourself.
He was much heavier than you thought he was, but you guessed that came from his height. He was still unconscious but you guessed that it wouldn’t be for long. Suddenly, two large hands grabbed the rusted metal bars from inside of the room and you screamed as his face had come into view like a jump scare.
“Get me out.”
You backed up from the window as far as you could, going to the other side of the room. You didn’t know why you were so scared, mainly because he was behind a locked door. You guessed that despite whatever vampire strength he had, he couldn’t get himself out.
Maybe it’s the hit on his head still playing games? The metal bars your dad gave you for this?
“What are you doing? Let me out!” He frowned. “Why did you put me in here?”
“W-why are you in my house?” You asked him. He didn’t say anything for a second.
‘’Ah.. shit.’’ Right, the blood bags. “Bitch, I was hungry!” He yelled back, making you recoil. Did he just call you a bitch? “That’s why I’m here, because I was hungry and I thought that maybe I could steal some of the blood bags you have.’’
‘‘Have you been stalking me?!’’ How does this vampire know about the blood bags?!
‘‘Uh-... no?... Yes.’’
You sighed. “Do you have anywhere else to go?”
“No…not really.” He said as if he was embarrassed. “I decided to drop out of college when I turned, so I can’t go back on campus.”
 “You can stay here if you want.” You didn’t exactly feel sure about him staying here, but he might help you with your research. He’s still a vampire after all… he’s a threat. But fuck it, that's how you learn new things. You asked for his name after you told yours.
‘‘Okay… Gojo Satoru. But you have to stay in there for a while, until I trust you.’’
“What about when I’m hungry?” He asked.
“I’ll figure that out’’
“What about when I’m lonely?”
“...’’
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The faint sound of Gojo calling in your name woke you up. 
“What the fuck…?” You frowned, squinted eyes getting used to the sunlight. “Oh my fucking gosh.” You quickly got up from your bed, putting on your slippers, and stumbling out of your room, barely able to walk in a straight line. You stomped your way down two flights of stairs until you were met with Gojo holding on to the bars again. “What?!”
“Hi.” He greeted you. “It’s tomorrow, right? I can’t really tell since I’ve been locked in a basement of a dungeon with no light. But if it’s tomorrow, can I have a blood bag? It’s been weeks since I’ve eaten.’’
‘‘And why haven’t you eaten? There’s literal stores for you, vampires!’’
‘‘Ah.. well… I don’t like those.’’
‘‘What?...’’ You looked at him in disbelief for a few seconds. “You woke me up at 7 in the morning for a blood bag?”
“In my defense, I didn’t know it was 7.” He shrugged. You opened up the door of the cell, walking up the stairs, still tired from waking up only ten minutes ago. You heard him follow you, steps surprisingly light for someone as tall as he was.
He started looking around your house, kinda creepy for a vampire if you keep looking at weapons for them.
‘‘Um.. Are you a vampire hunter?’’
‘‘Yes.’’
He chuckled at your answer and sat on top of the table. ‘Why? Weren’t they banned like years ago? Humans even live with vampires, that’s silly from you.’’
‘‘Maybe I wouldn’t be silly if your kind didn’t killed my dad.’’
.... Shit. Maybe you shouldn't have said that.
‘‘Oh... I’m sorry.’’
You sighed, he didn’t mean it in a bad way, he shouldn’t receive this type of behavior from you.
‘‘It 's… okay. I’m not a vampire hunter like it, i’m more like a vampire examinator?’’ Well, you didn’t even think about that one before, if you didn’t want to kill vampires why are you doing this?
You handed him a blood bag from the freezer, watching his eyes light up made you slightly smile, he’s kinda cute. You woke up from your trance and slightly shook your head away from those thoughts.
“Remember not to rip it open and spill it.” You said. “Especially not on these old floors, it’ll soak right in.”
“Oh…right.” He said, twisting open the nozzle and drinking from there. You watched him down it in less than thirty seconds, his brows furrowed in concentration. After he was done, he set it down on the counter.
‘‘Uh.. Can I stay again tonight?... I can sleep on the floor again!’’
....
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One night turned into two nights, and two nights turned into a week, and a week, turned into a month.
You found yourself smiling at him, not noticing how used to him you’ve gotten. He was very peculiar in the least, but you guessed that was mainly because of him being a vampire. You found yourself wondering what he was like when he was a human. It was weird to know that the two of you were always in such close proximity without knowing it. Maybe it was fate. You snapped back into reality once he smiled at you, and you didn’t even think to return the smile. Instead, you looked down at your hands, picking at your nails as if you were busy. Honestly, you were embarrassed to get caught looking at the handsome vampire with boyish charm.
“Y'know…you’ve been holding out really well, so far.” You told him. “You have even helped me with my researches, nothing that I didn’t knew about, but still helped me confirm me”
He turned to look at you. “Really?” He asked, eyes brightening up a little.
“Really.” You nodded with a smile, and he lazily smiled back. “So, I’ve decided to give you a little present.”
“A present? What is it?” He asked curiously, words muffled by the fact that he was still entranced by the tv and some vampire supplement you bought for him 
“Guess.” You told him, feeling a bit mischievous. “I’ll give you a hint. It’s almost like…Why did we meet in the first place.”
“Hm?” He tilted his head to the side. “I’ve never hit you with a pan though? Or have I?” He furrowed his eyebrows in thought.
You rolled your eyes. “Don’t think too hard, you even called me bitch for it’’
“But I really can’t think of anything?” He said. “Can you just give me it? I’m not good at this guessing game…”
“Satoru…” You sighed, something was happening to you, on him... leaned towards him, softly caressing his cheek and giving him a small peck. That wasn’t the surprise, and you were as surprised as him when you did that. It’s just that his eyes looked so beautiful, his messy hair covering his forehead, and his cheeky smile while watching some shitty show on the tv... He froze in surprise, enough to not be able to kiss you back. 
“Oh…” He chuckled nervously, and you swore something on him changed the moment he looked right into your eyes again. “Can you maybe do it again?” He asked.
You responded with another kiss, one that he had returned this time, except for more fervor. It was like he was waiting to kiss you, dreaming about your lips on his. Did this mean…that you felt the same? Were you as infatuated with him as he was to you? He doubted that it was possible. All without you knowing, he might’ve fallen in love. Falling in love with a vampire, what they trained you hate most...  It only had to be fate that brought you two together.
“I really like you.” Gojo blurted out once you two parted.
“Do you mean that?” You asked him, slight insecurity peeking out from your otherwise hard shell. “I doubt you’ve met very many people in your life.”
‘‘Oh I have, but no one could compare to you sugar.’’ His lips attached to yours again, it’s like he was waiting for this moment his whole life.
¨S-satoru, wait!¨ He immediately stopped his actions, looking worried and for any kind of threat in you.
‘‘That wasn’t the surprise, you can try human blood again.’’
‘‘You got new blood bags? That’s amazing!’’ He was about to stand up from the couch when you stopped him sitting down on his lap, which made him froze.
‘‘I mean it's like… human, human. You can try my blood.’’
‘‘What?'' Silence passed.
''Are you sure? You’re not going to kill me or something right? I’ve seen those knifes you have in the basement and that could sure even kill Dracula.’’ You nodded and laughed at what he said.
He gulped, dark red eyes honing into the beating vein on the left side of your neck. He hesitantly bent down, nose to your neck as he took a big whiff of your sweet blood. He shut his eyes, fighting off the instinct to groan at just how good you smelled.
You chuckled at his reaction, ‘‘I mean it Satoru, this is me saying I like you too. I trust you.’’ With one more second of hesitation, he bit into your neck with his sharp fangs, and you felt a sharp pain. Your grip on his shoulders got tighter as you tried to distract yourself from the pain.
He couldn’t stop the moans of satisfaction at the magnificent taste of your blood, and you gradually noticed that something felt weird. You still felt the pain on the bite, but Gojo’s demeanor changed. It was almost as if he was enjoying it too much. His hands were grabby, not only on your hips, but in your waist and your bottom, and you gasped in surprise.
You started to notice what was going on when you felt how hard he was, his bulge pushing into your stomach.
¨’Toru…?’’ You breathed out, feeling light headed. He moaned, suddenly grinding his lower half into you. He then retracted his fangs, looking at you with wide, lust blown eyes, your blood dribbling down his chin.
“I’m s-sorry-“ He whined, placing you on the counter and rutting himself into you. “I’m so sorry, I-I don’t mean, to, I can’t help it-“ He broke out into an erotic moan, and despite how lightheaded and out of it you were, it aroused you to no end.
You assured him it was okay, looking into his eyes, you could find lust, but mostly embarrassment from it. You didn’t know that he could get this worked up from his own bloodlust, but you weren’t complaining. The only thing you had a problem with was the fact that there were too many clothes separating the both of you, but you didn’t think neither of you were in the right minds to seperate and take each article off.
“Can I be inside of you?” Gojo asked in between harsh breaths. “Please, please, please, I want to so bad-“ It was almost as if he was in pain, rutting into you so hard that you bounced on top of his lap each time. You nodded your head aggressively, opening your legs so you were caging his. You were wearing black leggings, and you thought that they’d be quick and easy to take off, but Gojo instead decided to rip them down the middle, doing so with ease.
“Satoru…!”
“Sorry! It’s just… I can’t take it any more baby..” He apologized over and over again, even as he released his cock from its confines, holding the thick base in between a shaky fist. He moved your panties to the side and slid in with one thrust. The both of you whined loudly at that, and he couldn’t wait any further before he started pounding into you with fervor. You heard the sound of your wet heat, but you didn’t care, mouth agape in a silent scream as he pounded into you with no remorse.
Well…some remorse. He couldn’t stop apologizing as he fucked into you, begging for you to forgive him for being so dirty and succumbing uncontrollable urges.
You yelped as he picked you up from the back of the couch, holding you in his arms as he dropped you on his cock over and over.
“Fuck!” You cursed. “M-more, more-“ You chanted, feeling his cock deep inside of you. You saw tears start to slide down his cheeks and he cried with pleasure. You clenched around him, wanting to see him unravel even more, which made him fuck you on his cock even faster, using you like a rag doll. His vampire strength had kicked in once he drank your sweet blood, something that he was afraid he’d get addicted on since he tasted you for the first time.
He was addicted to your warmth, your lips, your blood, and especially the way your pussy just sucked him in, holding tight and never letting go
“F-fuck, ‘toru, I’m cumming!” You moaned, your pussy convulsing around his cock and making him go crazy. You came around him, eyes rolling to the back of your head. He nearly slammed you into a wall, fucking you roughly, the slick from your cum making it easier to slide in and out of you.
You were extremely overstimulated, your abused pussy needing a break, but Gojo couldn’t stop. He let out nearly pornographic moans as he fucked you through yet another orgasm, not even noticing exactly what you were going through.
You just had to sit there, his cock inside of you, moaning his name again and again., taking just what he needed to give you.
“Oh fuck, (Y/N)-“ He whined, more tears spilling out of his eyes. You were out of it, dazed and cock drunk. “I’m gonna cum— ah!” He mewled out as he finally came, stilling inside of you as he filled you up. His legs shook as he shut his eyes tightly in pleasure.
After he finally calmed down, it was as if he returned to his senses. He quickly pulled out, immediately apologizing as you winced. He gently put you down, but your knees buckled, almost dropping to the floor, yet he caught you.
“(Y/N), I’m so sorry-“ He said, putting his softening member back in his pants. “I can’t believe I just did that to you, I really didn’t mean to, are you okay?“
“‘Toru, I’m fine.” You said to him, holding onto him tightly so you wouldn’t fall. You were still a bit lightheaded, but you were able to reassure him. “I didn’t expect it, but I’m really okay.”
“You shouldn’t have let me drink from you.” He said, tears still falling. “I’ve ruined everything, how could I get so out of-“
You interrupted him with a kiss to shut him up.
“Listen, ‘toru…” You said softly, the nickname making him calm down a bit. “You did nothing wrong. At all. I am more than fine. In fact…I really liked it.”
You watched as his ears got red. “Y-you liked…that? Did I not hurt you?”
You shook your head with a chuckle. “No. In fact…you made me feel really…really good.” You smiled, making him get even more flustered. “I’m just kind of tired. As good as you made me feel, you wore me the hell out.”
“I can carry you to your bed.” Gojo said, quick to pick you up. she then noticed your ripped leggings and destroyed panties. He gulped, feeling even more sorry. “And I can help you change into clothes that aren’t ripped…”
¨What if I tell you I want another round?¨
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tsimvkas · 5 months
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daylight #03 | and i hope i never lose you
A/N: im slightly insecure about this one lmao but since it’s our boy’s day i wanted to post it anyways bc he deserves a lot. may this new chapter of his life be incredible 💞
word count: 6.1k | series masterlist | masterlist
content: fluffy, suggestive language, not detailed masturbating, bsf!mason
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<- previous chapter
Nothing changed after the kiss, because there wasn’t anything to change.
And at the same time, everything has changed. Inside of you.
Your friendship with Mason always had this strong and healthy bond, and you think he’s the only person who would still love you even if you told him you murdered someone.
And you know you would love him, even if he told you he murdered someone.
Even though you always thought he was handsome and pretty, you weren’t his friend because you thought something could happen one day. You were his friend because Mason was the sweetest kid in school, always helping others, listening with attention, or even sharing his food.
You never waited for something to happen. But you can’t lie, and you imagined it happening a couple of times.
Just a little ‘what if’ thought, playing on your mind since Sarah swore that she was sure Mason had feelings for you.
You both are pretty touchy with each other, with physical touch being both love languages, and you always like to surprise each other, spend time together even if you’re just layed in silence, and he admitted once that it’s easier for him to fall asleep with your scratches on your scalp, but you always saw these actions as best friends being best friends.
However, the way you read the situation changed a bit when Mason practically called himself your baby’s father.
Now, even though you don’t know how he feels about you, you want it. You can imagine how it would be to finally listen to your desires. To finally admit you want him in a non friendly way.
You can imagine how it would be to be his.
And the fact that he might never be yours is what hurts the most.
New Year’s Day was magical. Your families stayed the week in London, and everyday they suggested a different thing. As soon as Mason left for training, they started to play a game or binge watch a tv show, and some days he would join them when he was back, only not doing it when you weren’t feeling well.
All it took was for someone to tell him you hadn't left your room all day for him to run upstairs. Even though your mom was in the house, he felt responsible somehow, always laying there with you, talking about his day whilst caressing your back.
When your families were back to Portsmouth, Mason suggested you to invite Sarah to stay, and you thought about it. It would be nice if you both could surprise him on his birthday, but at the same time you were enjoying your alone time with him so much…
It’s easy for you to spend time with Mason. Life doesn’t seem so hard when you’re with him, either you’re chatting or enjoying the silence together.
So you spent the week being lazy and watching a lot of movies, sometimes reading your book, baking cookies almost everyday and ordering lunch.
Thank God Mason was always there to make your breakfast and dinner. Living alone for so long now, his cooking skills have improved a lot.
He sat on the sofa with you every night to see whatever you were watching and talk about his day, letting you curl beside him with heavy eyes, almost sleeping to the sound of his voice.
On the day of his birthday you woke up earlier than him, trying to make something nice. After almost burning his kitchen, you entered his room carefully to not wake him up, carrying the tray with pancakes, cookies and coffee for his breakfast.
You put the tray on his bedside table before laying down in his bed.
Tugging your fingers in his messy hair, you started to scratch his scalp, smiling when he let out a content groan. You tried not to think about which other situations could make Mason groan like that, blaming on your hormones when you eventually thought about it.
He opened one eye to look at you, trying to understand what was going on whilst the other half of his face was buried in the pillow.
“Happy birthday, Mase” you hummed, giggling when he gave you the laziest smile ever.
“Uhmm, thank you” his little yawn and raspy voice made your heart melt. He looked like a puppy woken up from his nap. “Oh I can tell I’m getting older”
“What’s wrong?” you frowned, still scratching his scalp. Mason sighed, burying his face on the pillow even further.
“My back hurts” his muffled voice made you giggle.
“Grandpa” you teased, but instantly pushed his body so he was face down. “Don’t get used to it, it’s just a birthday present”
Mason half grunted half giggled, sighing when you pressed the knots on his shoulder. You know it’s better with moisturizer, but you have no idea where he keeps it and it’s just a slight relief.
“Oh no, I was already about to ask you for another one tomorrow” Mason half chuckled and half groaned, trying to relax.
“Bought me one of those croissants from that coffee shop and I’ll think about it”
“Deal” he giggled. “You can sit on my back if you want to”
You shook your head even though he couldn’t see, slightly insecure. Now that your baby is growing, you are growing too.
“With a five month old bump? I don’t think so. I’m starting to get heavy, remember? Don’t wanna suffocate you”
Mason sighed, not believing what he just heard. He understands your insecurities, of course, but he’s your Mase, you shouldn't be ashamed or worried around him.
“And I am a fucking athlete, Y/N” he snorted, making you giggle and roll your eyes;
You still felt like your weight could make his back even more, but sat on him so you could massage his shoulders in a better way.
Mason grunted with the relief your body brought to him, sighing then, and his noises only made your work more difficult. You don’t have Mason Mount moaning beneath you everyday, to be fair. You wished
When you were done with his neck and shoulders, you sat on his thigh and started to massage his lower back, poking his waist when you finished.
“Breakfast time, big boy. I made you pancakes” you got off of him, laying by his side again.
“Stop” he groaned, turning to face you. “This gotta be the best day of my life”
You shrugged it off, but felt happiness spreading through your body knowing he was enjoying his birthday, and that’s all you wanted for him.
After eating and thanking you, Mason got up so he could be ready for training.
“I need to go now” he rolled his eyes, playfully. “But I’ll be back soon, right? You can sleep more if you want to”
You nodded, kissing his check. Before leaving you on his bed, Mason high-fived your belly, making you cackled.
When Mason left for training you decided to go out and buy some things so you could organise something for him. You bought balloons and took the special cupcakes you ordered a few days ago.
Then when he came back home, you surprised him.
“What is all that?” he chuckled as soon as he entered his living room to see you holding white balloons.
“Surpriiise” you hummed, opening your arms to him.
Mason giggled and quickly made his way to you, gently holding your waist and kissing your forehead before pulling you for a hug, his body molding to your bump.
“Thank you, pookie” he smiled. “It’s good to share my birthday with family again, to be honest”
You held him tightly, letting his scent engulf you.
“Family, uh?”
Mason chuckled at your teasing, pulling away to look at you.
“Don’t be silly, you are my family”
When he tucked your hair behind your ear, you broke eye contact to take what you bought for him earlier.
“Here” you handed him the Nike bag, nervous to see what he would think of what you chose. “Your present”
Mason frowned at you, and you know what he’s about to say, but he still took the bag, sitting on the couch and you stayed on your feet.
“You know you didn’t have to! I don’t like when you spend money with me and- Y/N! A fucking Mac Attack?!” his widened eyes stared at you. You know how much Mason loves his shoes and he has been talking about this one for a while now. “God, I could kiss you right now”
You giggled, never getting used to how silly Mason can be. With your cheeks burning, you continued.
“There’s another one. Here” you handed him one of the cupcakes, the one you put a little candle on. “But first…”
You lit the candle with a lighter and you both sang happy birthday between giggles and Mason’s laugh.
Once you’ve finished, Mason blew out the candle and bit the cupcake, closing his eyes to appreciate.
“It tastes so good, pookie! Where did you get them?” he hummed, finally opening his eyes.
“I’ll show you later” you smiled, nervously. When he pushed the little cake away from his lips and you finally saw a bit of whipped cream on his nose, your smile grew wilder. “So, what colour is it?”
He frowned at your question, checking the colour.
“Wow, pink filling” Mason smiled, giving another bite before widening his eyes and looking at you with his mouth full of cake. “Wait. Why is it pink?
You chuckled, shrugging.
“Stop” he was still frozen in place, his lips stained with pink whipped cream. When you nodded, his hands fell to his thighs. “Are you serious? Stop”
You started to giggle, your eyes swelling with tears, and Mason put the cupcake in the center table before gently bringing you to straddle his lap.
You felt self conscious and awkward at first. Despite the long years being friends, you never sat on his lap before, but your worries vanished when he stroked your belly and you cleaned his lips with your thumb, melting at his small pout.
“A girl?” he hugged your waist, and you knew by the way his voice cracked that he wanted to cry.
“Yeah, just like you said it was” you nodded, your smile starting to hurt.
“I told you I could feel it” he whispered, hiding his face on your neck. “Jesus, a little girl. Can’t believe you’re having a mini you”
Holding you tight but being careful with your bump, Mason rested his head in the crook of your neck and stayed silent for a moment. You could tell he was crying by the cold tears spilling down your collarbone, but you let him instead of making a teasing comment.
After a while, he kissed the base of your throat and pulled away to look at you with red rimmed eyes. You brushed his tears, stroking his cheek and giggling when his sleepy face showed up.
“Why didn't you tell me you wanted to do this tonight? We could’ve discovered together, you deserved a nice gender reveal” he said after a while, eyes closing to your touch.
“We discovered together though” you smiled. “Seeing you discovering was my gender reveal”
Mason stared at you for a few seconds, his heart pounding with how much he appreciates you.
“Thank you for letting me be a part of this, and choosing my birthday to do this. I know you wanted it to be a different way, with a different person, but I appreciate it so-”
“Stop” you interrupted him, looking into his eyes whilst stroking his jawline. “I didn’t choose you to be the one to find out with me because you’re a replacement or something like this. I’m sorry if it looks like this. I could’ve found it out with my parents or Sarah, or with all of you together. But I wanted it to be you. You’re not a fucking replacement, you were my first choice”
He gave you a shy smile, nodding to your scolding.
“Sometimes I think you are my other half” Mason whispered, making your heart go wild.
“Sometimes?” you teased him, poking his cheek. “We’re best friends, so I know you’re my other half”
“I’m so happy it’s a girl” he giggled like a kid with a new toy.
After thinking for a few seconds, you nodded at him, happy that you have such a wonderful friend with you.
“Yeah, me too. Now you can be a girl’s dad like you wanted” you brushed his hair out of his face, and his shy smile made your insides churn.
“I’m sorry, I was so sleepy that night” he apologised, feeling embarrassed that you remember the call where he practically said he was your baby’s father.
You cocked an eyebrow at him, feeling cocky.
“So you don’t want to be a girl’s dad?”
Mason shook his head, biting a smile.
“I do, but-”
You chuckled, silencing him with a finger on his lips.
“If I could choose, you know I’d choose you to be her dad” you kissed his cheek before getting off his lap.
Mason’s family traveled to watch the game a few days after his birthday so they could also celebrate their boy turning twenty-four, and they gave you a ride home.
None of you talked about what he said about you being his soulmate, or what you said about choosing him as your baby’s father. It was simply things both needed to say, and both needed to hear. What you love most about your friendship with Mason is that no matter what, it’ll always be this pure and lovely bond.
You had a lot to do when you finally came back home from your mini vacations in London. Since you were born in a well-off family, you didn't look for a job as soon as you graduated, wanting to experience life before working — something you know most people don’t have a chance to do.
You traveled, hung out with your friends, read as many books as you could, went to several matches to see Mason and Walker before he was injured, and weekly’s coffee dates with Sarah.
Then you started to apply to some vacancies last year, but only five months later you were pregnant and your mother asked you to interrupt the selection processes in which you were participating.
Not that being pregnant would make it impossible for you to work, but she knows it’s harder and if you have the opportunity to stay at home then it was what she wanted for you. A lot of women don't have the same.
And it was proved right when you started having morning sickness and back pain, not feeling well to leave your room.
But, as a journalist, you couldn’t stop writing. It was your purpose in life, so you created a blog to share some things about your pregnancy anonymously, and when you came back from Mason’s you spent days writing and uploading, changing the site and learning how to create a community with the same interests.
The month flew by, and you were trying to reconcile the nausea with everything you wanted to do. With an almost six months pregnancy, you’re surprised your nausea hadn’t stopped yet, and your back pain was getting worse.
Besides the physical side, your mental state also felt terrible. At least, with the current appointments with your doctor, you know everything it’s okay.
But feeling ugly, unworthy and already a terrible mom isn’t something your doctor can make it go away. Even though she helps you a lot, it doesn't make the feeling go away.
That’s why you spent your Valentine’s Day at home. Your father invited you to dinner with your mom, but you felt awful.
You started losing your favourite clothes, everything you eat makes you sick and you’ve been crying all the time. All. The. Time.
So you thanked him for the flowers he gave you and let them have a good night as the beautiful couple they are.
Being alone for only ten minutes, you frowned when someone knocked at your door, thinking your parents must have forgotten to tell you something.
You opened the door, slightly confused when you saw your best friend.
“Mase?”
“Happy Valentine’s Day” he smiled proudly at your surprised reaction, a big bouquet in one hand and a tiny one in the other. “To my girls”
You looked at the hallway to be sure no one heard, forgetting your parents aren’t home, before hugging Mason’s neck.
“Thank you, Mase. They’re so beautiful” you felt your eyes watering, pouting when he giggled.
“Your dad told me you’re crying for everything now. I told him you didn’t changed then”
You rolled your eyes, placing the two bouquets on your dresser and lying in bed again.
“C’mere, please” you tapped the space beside you, sighing when Mason was finally curled up with you. “You shouldn’t be in London?”
“Your dad told me you were feeling poorly these days so I asked him if I could come. I missed you”
“I saw you last month”
“Your point?” he snorted, stroking your belly. “Your bump is so big already. You’re six?”
“Seven in two weeks”
“So, I was thinking…” he rested his head next to yours, on your shoulder. “I don’t wanna pressure you so it’s just a suggestion, but I think seven it’s good for a baby shower”
You thought for a second,
“I wasn’t sure if I wanted to”
“Why not?”
“Mason” you groaned as if it were obvious. “I’m ugly, fat and annoying as fuck. I don’t want people to see me like this, to take pictures that will reach him and-”
You started to list, but soon you were crying again and Mason hugged you, trying to bring you comfort.
“Ok, calm down” he kissed your cheek. “I think I might have underestimated how you were feeling about yourself. Pookie, you’re not ugly. And you’re definitely not fat. You’re pregnant, and not annoying, I can assure you. You’re worried he’ll say something to you?
You took a deep breath and tried to answer him between your small sobs.
“I’m worried he will see I’m happy and come back. I don’t even feel like posting anything on Instagram because he’s been liking the last ones”
“He won’t come back” Mason kissed your head. “And I’ll be on his way if he ever tries to. You deserve a baby shower, uh? Baby girl deserves it too. We can just block him”
You turned to face him, red face wet with silent tears.
“I don’t want the internet to make a scene out of a block, it’ll affect me more than the block will affect him. But fine, I agree with the baby shower”
Mason brushed your tears, stroking your cheek and pulling you close.
“Good. My place then, in three weeks” he poked your cheek. “I’ll be free on Saturday and you can go to the game on Sunday”
You nodded.
“No posting about it on social media, though?” you pouted, smiling when he chuckled.
“As you wish, princess”
Two weeks later, you were shopping for your baby shower with Mason, coming to his house on a Monday to spend the week. Since you stepped in London, he wants to follow you everywhere, even forcing you to choose the day and hour that he can go.
“It’s just a baby shower, Mase”
“What do you mean by just? It’s her baby shower, gotta be perfect” he shrugged, putting more balloons in the cart. “Do you know how you’ll tell them it’s a girl?”
Since you found out on Mason’s birthday that you were having a girl, you haven’t shared the information with anyone else, wanting them to be surprised, and Mason has been thinking of a nice way to tell them.
You also announced your pregnancy on your Instagram, but you didn’t want to expose it too much. Mason’s and Walker’s followers know who you are, which means you have a lot of people checking your account and you want to protect your peace and your baby.
“I think the cake idea it’s nice, Mase” you smiled. “It’s how we found out but in a bigger proportion”
“I’ll order it then” he pulled his phone from his pocket.
You pushed the cart so you could be next to him.
“I can do it, Mase”
Mason looked at you, deadly serious and with an offended expression.
“Of course no! I’m just doing my duties as a d-uncle” he stuttered, making you giggle.
“What the hell is a duncle?” you teased. It’s so clear for you that Mason has been looking at your baby in the way he would look at his own, that he feels like it’s also his baby, and you’re happy about it. Happy to know your little girl will have someone who loves her like she is his own daughter.
You tried to get out of your head that this could be connected to the way he feels about you — and that this could be the signal that he feels a certain way.
“Look! A tiny football kit for decoration” he almost ran away from you, trying to hide his pinky cheeks and nose.
Rolling your eyes in an affectionate way, you followed him. Mason put the pink jersey kit on the cart, finally turning to you again.
“Should we bring a blue one too? For the suspense?”
You nodded, taking the kit in your hands and smiling at the pink shorts.
“Her first birthday could be football related” you blurted out, not thinking too much. Mason turned out to face you, and you could see his eyes shining.
“Do you think? I don’t want to… like… because of me…” he gestured, making you smile.
“I like football as well, silly. And I’m hoping she’ll like it too”
Mason raised an eyebrow at you, amused.
“So not because of me at all?”
“Of course it’s because of you” you rolled your eyes and Mason punched the air, celebrating.
“Chelsea related then?” he smirked, and even though you already knew the answer, you only shrugged.
“I’ll think about it”
For some reason, Friday started a bit challenging for you. You woke up feeling nauseous and anxious, choosing to stay in bed and at some point during your morning your mind dissociated.
You’re happy about your pregnancy, but you eventually thought about relaxing on a beach, drinking your favourite alcoholic drinks, without back pain, without feeling sick, eating everything you wanted.
Suddenly, your thoughts started to float. Your mind pictured big hands — Mason’s hands, holding your waist, caressing your thighs. You were in his lap, his wet lips kissing your neck whilst you were rocking against his hips.
He was about to touch you where you needed him when the real Mason knocked on your door, awakening you from your profane thoughts.
You let him in, and he brought you breakfast. It was cute, but you couldn’t help but greet him with a grumpy face. His interruption was enough to make you spend the rest of the day stressed and irritated.
When you told him you weren’t feeling well enough to leave the room, Mason grabbed you everything you could need, like a bottle of water and medicines, before leaving for training.
You honestly didn’t know if not having him around was for better or for worse. You wouldn’t survive with his smell engulfing you, and his gestures always drawing your attention to his hands.
But at the same time, you missed him. You always miss him when he leaves for training, but today it seemed different.
So you tried taking a cold shower, eating your favourite lunch, napping a bit. Anything that could help you distract yourself.
Nothing helped the way you felt.
Actually, things got worse when one of his teammates posted a short video where Mason shows up — shirtless, cocky, hot.
And of course Sarah would send tons of screenshots on your chat, making you FaceTime her to roll your eyes at her face properly.
The pair of you spent the rest of the afternoon chatting, talking about Mason’s house, Mason’s routine, how your friendship with Mason has been, if any of Mason’s friends visited his house while you’re there.
A lot of diversity of subjects.
When Mason was back, you were trying to rest. After a quick shower he joined you, laying in bed to talk to you about his day and ask about yours.
Eventually, he convinced you to have dinner and watch something with him in the living room, but your moody as couldn’t watch the movie without complaining about the characters' decisions every so often.
“Y/N, you had a complaint for every scene and have been grumpy all day. You sound like someone with abstinence, pookie” Mason giggled, making fun of you.
“Yeah, a sex one” you rolled your eyes. Your state was enough to irritate you, and you know Mason couldn’t help — he’d always make fun of any situation, but right now you didn’t need this.
Mason got silent for a few seconds before shrugging.
“It makes sense. I was reading and sex is good for mum and her baby” he continued, not actually realising you were close to explode if he kept going.
“Let’s not talk about it right now, Mase” you snorted, before his words kicked in. “Wait, you read about it?”
“Let’s not talk about it right now, Y/N” he awkwardly giggled, and you finally looked into his eyes.
It was an intense stare. Initially, Mason had a giddy face whilst trying to hold his smirk so he wouldn’t upset you even more, but the look he found on your face dried his mouth.
You were needy. Horny. Bewildered. And he could tell by the way you looked at him, with big and desperate eyes.
“Are you good?” he did his best to only show the part of him that was worried, but when your gaze dropped to his cock he knew it was over for him.
You quickly looked away with warm and red cheeks, nodding.
“Yeah, I’ll be alright” you shrugged. “Don’t worry”
“So” he gulped. “Do you want something to eat?”
After a second he thought that maybe it wasn’t the smartest choice of words due to the double meaning, but he waited for your answer.
“I think so. Do you?” you looked into his eyes again, and Mason felt all the blood in his body trying to decide if they should go to his cheeks or to his bulge.
He was sure it wasn’t the smartest choice of words, because all he could think about it’s that no restaurant in the world would have what he wanted.
“Uhm- fuck. I mean- yeah, I’m hungry too. Will order something for us” he stuttered, getting on his feet and pointing to the bathroom door. “I’ll be back in a minute”
Your confused face would’ve been funny if his awkward action hadn’t irritated you even more, for some reason.
When he closed the door, you stayed silent, frowning at his weird behaviour and oblivious to what was happening.
Leaning his back against the door, Mason closed his eyes and remembered the way your needy gaze looked at him. The way how, for a second, he could swear you wanted him to help you. To fill you, touch you, ease your desire.
He lowered his shorts, groping his bulge over the underwear fabric. Trying to be quiet, Mason slid his hand under his boxer, touching himself.
It was good. Thinking of you, your hand instead of his. Your mouth maybe. It was dirty too, imagining his beautiful best friend making him feel good. And he knows that.
Soon it proved to be impossible for him to stay absolutely quiet, groaning and whining when he felt closer to the edge.
Obviously, at some point you understood what he was doing and your thoughts from his birthday returned to your mind. So this is how he groans in other situations.
Although you should’ve wondered why, how and what this could imply for your friendship, you actually didn’t care, your mind only focusing on how you clenched around nothing.
By the time Mason left the bathroom, your panties were soaked and ruined. You saw him turning off the lights and shyly making your way to you.
“Use the other one if you need to” he told you. “This one’s lamp is failing. I’ll change it tomorrow”
You raised an eyebrow at him but nodded, not ready to let him know that you knew.
“Have you ordered?” you bite your smile, knowing damn well that dinner was the last thing crossing his mind in the last few minutes.
“What?”
“Our food” you kept your eyebrow raised, torn between feeling horny and finding the situation funny.
“Oh! Oh- about this, they’re all closed. I’ll make us something” he gave you an apologetic smile, heading to the kitchen and you followed him.
“Be sure you wash your hands” you said, feeling cheeky when he looked at you, now his turn to raise his eyebrow. “You just came from the bathroom, you know”
“Fine” he shook his head.
When you finished dinner, a simple but delicious home cooked pasta, Mason asked you if you wanted to cuddle, pouting when you said you were tired but following you to the guest room without complaining.
When you entered he didn’t bid you goodnight, closing the door behind him instead.
“You know what? My room is so boring” he shrugged, throwing himself at the bed.
It was the first and the only time you couldn’t totally relax next to him, your mind looking for answers and tracing possibilities.
Saturday was a funny day. A perfect one, actually. Sunny and warm, with one of the most delicious breezes you’ve ever felt.
Mason helped you choose between two dresses, and your family came earlier to help you organise things. Debbie and Tony also came earlier, and Sarah told you she was on her way.
You opted for a simple decoration, deciding to make something big for her 1st birthday instead.
A principal table with the white cake was settled in Mason’s backyard, white balloons mixed with pink and blue ones all over the place, and a wood painel where Mason suggested you could put the pink and blue football kits with the ball stickers he bought for your guests to try to guess the gender.
When everybody started to arrive, you couldn’t help but look for a particular person, sighing in relief when Sarah finally showed up.
“I need to talk to you” you whispered to her, quickly dragging your best friend inside.
“Wow, hi to you too. What’s happening? Are you ok? Baby’s fine?” she asked, worried while following you.
Your heart melted at her concern, the way Sarah is always thinking of her niece making you smile.
“Oh, talking about it… I think I felt them moving. So yeah, they’re alright. It’s about Mason actually”
“Wohooo, wait. You’ll have to tell me more about it. But for now, I got it. Mase. C'mon, I’m ready” Sarah nodded, focusing on you.
You covered your face with your hands, feeling your cheeks warm.
“God, I don’t know how to tell you this”
“I’m your best friend, just shoot”
You took a deep breath before blurting out.
“I think he touched himself thinking about me”
“Oh I’m sure he did at some point but– oh do you mean you heard it?”
“I think so?” you whined, telling her what happened just one day before. Sarah bursted into laughs, telling you how embarrassed he’d get to know you heard him.
You asked her not to tell him about it, but it’s Sarah and teasing him about his became the number one goal on her list. Then, obviously, Mason was the first person she found when you guided her to his backyard.
“So, Mase” Sarah called him. “Anything strange happened these days?”
“What do you mean?” he raised an eyebrow at her and gave you the cutest confused look, melting your heart with the way he looked at you for an answer.
“Oh nothing. By the way, this bathroom is clean right?” she did it again, and Mason looked even more confused.
“Why wouldn’t it?” he frowned, taking a sip of his water.
“I don’t know… I’ve heard you’re a naughty boy when Y/N is around” Sarah tapped his shoulder. “Anyways, Y/N is a bit needy these days. You should help her anytime”
Mason choked with the water, his eyes widening while you walked to him, trying to help. Your dad, who heard the conversation, laughed and tapped Mason’s back, which only seemed to make things worse.
Once you were sure he wasn’t choked up anymore, you scolded Sarah just with your look.
When your dad called you, you left them, telling Mase you’d be right back.
“Jesus Sarah, can you watch what you say near Y/N’s dad? C’mon, you’re not helping me” he whispered, making Sarah cross her arms.
“I’m helping you, to stop being a wuss and tell her how you feel”
“I can’t right now” Mason shook his head, avoiding her gaze and looking at you and your dad instead. When you looked back, he looked away with red cheeks.
“Don’t make her wait so long”
“What do you mean? She’s waiting? What exactly has she been waiting for?” he started to bomb her with questions, but Sarah only shrugged, waving to you.
“I think it’s time to cut his cake, Y/N” she screamed a plea, leaving Mason alone and walking to you.
You smiled, feeling shy that her and Mason caught you when you looked at them over your shoulder.
“Don’t forget what I told you” your dad squeezed your hands, reminding you the reason why you looked at Mason.
“Dad, I don’t think you’re seeing this as it is” you sighed. “Mason has been my best friend for ages”
“Let him in” he tapped your cheek. “And he will be more than that”
You stared at him for a few seconds, and then smiled. You’d love to follow his advice, but it’s not that simple.
“Let’s go dad” you rolled your eyes in an affectionate way. “It’s time for you to know if you’re having a grandson or granddaughter”
Minutes later, everybody was extremely happy when you showed them the cake slice with pink filling, clapping and talking about having another little girl in the family.
You served cake for everybody,receiving hugs and congratulations, and Sarah took another thousand pictures, making you smile even though you were starting to feel tired.
When everybody was distracted in their own bubble again, some of them already leaving, Mason approached you.
You were saying goodbye to your favourite aunt and she tapped Mason’s shoulder telling you he was a good one — and that you couldn’t let him slip, making you feel so embarrassed.
But Mason didn’t seem to notice how your cheeks were burning, too focused on his own embarrassment, and you could see how shy and nervous he was.
“Y/N-” he started, playing with his fingers. You hadn’t had a chance to talk since Sarah teased him, and you just know what he’s talking about.
“We’ll talk about it later, it’s ok” you smiled. “I’m sorry I told her. I’m sorry I heard you, actually”
“C’mere, pookie” Mason opened his arms, patiently waiting for you to wrap your hands around his waist. “It’s just me and you. I know I don’t need to be ashamed when it comes to you”
“You don’t” you smiled, laying your head on his shoulder. “You don’t need to explain, you know? It’s natural, biological. It’s ok”
Mason shook his head, thinking that your baby shower isn’t the best moment to tell you that yesterday he was turned on by you not because it’s biological to be horny around women, but because it was you.
Deciding to save this conversation with you for another time, he poked your sides.
“What about popping some balloons with Mase? Like we used to do”
“You were never able to pop more balloons than me, by the way” you giggled, laughing louder when he instantly pushed you away and started to pop them.
Following him, you made a mental note to thank Mason for today when it was just the two of you again. But for now, you just popped balloons with your other half, screaming every time they sounded particularly louder.
“They are a cute couple” your dad shrugged to your mom whilst observing you and Mason giggling together, and sighed. “And they’re the only ones who just don’t know it yet”
next chapter ->
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kimkhimhant · 6 months
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It's me again, I'm hesitant about reblogging because my first ask was spoilery but in the end, who cares lmao. FUCK I forgot about Sara. I agree that the ending was choppy, especially the hospital scene... he moved from ambulance to post-mortem way too fast. What always gets me though is Peter's breakdown. He's alone, and it hits this unemotional man with full force. It's magnificent. I'm also just... sad that Neal was made to believe that he could never fully change. He deserved better. He tried so hard and he WAS succeeding despite Mozzie's disappointed resistance plus everyone else's mistrust. Thanks for geeking out on this with me hehee
hi again!!!
ugh yes Peter's breakdown is heartwrenching, and it brings me back to a line he says earlier in the show, i don't remember the exact words, but he says something about how if something were to happen to Neal, he doesn't know if he'll be able to live with it. and i just. yeah. ow. lol
now buckle up for another character analysis essay bc i can't shut up ever lol
Honestly i have a lot of mixed feelings about Neal's "redemption/reformation" ! because yes he wants to be good, but also... i don't think a true/complete redemption arc is necessary for his character, and i honestly like that he doesn't have one? I think that the most important aspect of his character development in that sense is that, he considers the effects of his actions on other people a lot more by the end, and i think that's all the reformation that he needs and that makes sense for him. I don't think he needs to become someone who commits no crimes/cons in order for his reformation to be recognized.
i think what i'm more sad about is the lack of recognition for that development. he isn't perfect, and he still has a lot of vices, but now his actions are almost all out of a desire to fix things/protect people/etc. Most of the other characters, namely Peter, don't seem to recognize or appreciate this development. Understandable, to an extent – Peter has dedicated his life to law enforcement, and his moral code is, for the most part, aligned with the law. Neal is still breaking the law, even if, in his own mind, Neal is doing so with good intentions, to Peter, the outcome matters a lot more than the intent.
Neal begins the show as a con-artist and art thief whose priority is his own enjoyment and gain, and he ends the show still a con-artist and art thief, but now his priority is shifted. In the later seasons, almost none of the crimes he commits are simply for the hell of it. there's almost always a reason, and the reason is almost always to fix something or to protect the people he loves. his moral code is still very distorted, and he has a strong disregard for the law and authority, but he also cares about other people, their safety, happiness and their opinions of him. He still loves the thrill of the con, and he still loves living luxuriously, he's still impulsive, and he's still very proud of his skills, but...
these things don't make him "bad," in my opinion. He wants to be good, and he is good. His intentions are good, it's just that the way he understands and navigates the world isn't aligned with "legal good."
I could write an essay on that alone. Neal is very traumatized, and very good at compartmentalizing and masking so that no one can tell, and also (this is entering headcanon zone) probably some form of neurodivergence, on top of probable CPTSD and some kind of personality disorder. So, obviously his relationship with the world as a whole is... disrupted and warped by these things, so maybe that's one of the main issues. "moral and good" as Neal understands these things, simply don't perfectly align with most people's definitions of them.
And I think this is the main issue in his relationship with Peter. Neal wants to be good, and is trying to be, and he wants Peter's recognition and appreciation for that. But that's still not enough for Peter, who operates on a different moral code, and doesn't understand Neal's perspective.
Once again, this is very longwinded, but basically: I think Neal did have as much of a redemption arc as he could have had without having a complete shift in worldview, and I really like that about him and his character. That he didn't end the series as a perfectly reformed ex-con, but he did end the show as a good person.
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writinandcrying · 2 years
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Hellou!Im the persone who asked about requests a while back(Mainly because I didnt wanna overwhelm you if theyre closed) and Im really glad they are.Anyway,could I request Donnie(TMNT),Tamaki(BNHA) and/or FatGum(BNHA)(Also,I hope I havent gone over the character limit) with a slightly chubby s/o?(Insecure or not,you chose!).You dont have to do this if you dont want to tho!Have a nice week❤
Hellou! Thank you so much for being so thoughtful, I’ll have to apologize tho, I no longer write for bnha, I had a huge burnout fand I do not feel comfortable writing about it anymore, I hope a veeeery detailed Donnie reaction to a chubby reader will make up for the absence of those characters! ♥️
Tmnt - Donnie x Chubby reader (Gender Neutral!)
I’ll have to start that all of the boys wouldn’t judge or reject you based on your appearance, being either chubby, slim, tall, short, there are a few attributes that I think each turtle would find it e seeing or interesting, but it’s more… humanly related(?) maybe one day I’ll make a post about it if you guys wanna hear my opinion on it hehe :)
Donnie(generalized) x Chubby Reader:
just like there are certain stuff about the turtles that they like and dislike about themselves, there are stuff about humans who think the same about themselves! and even though Donnie knows there are beauty standards that control many areas in humans society, he still doesn’t understand why people outcast those who are different
I think some of us (readers / shippers) get a bit :C when thinking about Donnie bc in almost every version, he had a crush on April (who is a babe in every. Version. Specially rise, I love rise-April so much, and that’s the only apriltello I’ll let it slide lmao) and that can give a “perception” that he wouldn’t even glance at some of us ( “us” = being a huge group, trans, guys, chubby girls, chubby guys, skinny girls and guys, everyone who doesn’t fit the normie mold I guess- I unfortunately think about that often. Which sucks cuz I gotta remind myself that isn’t true!!! At all!!)
I personally Headcanon Donnie being… I don’t know if interested would be the correct word, but more intrigued with how humans relate to each other, on their first missions, he knew they could… scare some of them off, “frightened by their own prejudice” as master splinter would say, but it’s far more different to hear about it than to actually live it, and it hurts to hear someone scream their heart out just by seeing you
While growing up, he started to notice not only in television, on and off midia, how people would mess around with others on the street just because of their appearance, he knew society worked though this beauty standards, but he didn’t understand it. It didn’t made sense! value someone based on what they look like? There are so many things, so many attributes to make someone interesting, and you gonna pick the most…. Boring? Plain? Vague? Shallow reason to create privilege over others? Really? (And thst enters on the topic of how almost all beauty standards are rooted in white privileged and racism but I’ll go on a tangent about it once I start it and I’ve already said a lot lols)
He could literally go on for hours about this topic (which he has. At least tried with each one of his brothers, but they never really responded well to so said topic “if humans have it bad, then what do we have left?” Raphael barked back once, an attempt to shut him up, which it worked, btw- he didn’t like to go through that direction when thinking about that topic, but yeah, what does he have left?)
He started searching about different aesthetics, ethnicities, he has folders on Pinterest dedicated different body types, cultures, he swears it’s for research reasons, which kinda is, but Donnie’s guilty pleasure is checking “different” people online, those who would deem strange and weird outside the internet, he liked seeing their content and specially their comment sections being filled with wonderful compliments, people relating to different styles and tastes, that gave him hope that there are someone out there with different views of how everyone should be “shaped”, and that maybe he will find someone who thinks he’s handsome and desirable (Donnie, just like Raph, is also insecure about his body, but he’s more… melancholic about it, if you confessed to Raphael, there would be a high change of him pushing you away, trying not to break his heart from actually believing you, while DonDon here, if you both started dating- on some days Donnie would need more reassurance that yes, his partner does think he’s handsome/hot/attractive. Otherwise he might internalize his insecurities and it will be HARD to get a confession “why he’s so upset out of the sudden” from this turtle)
With that being said!!!! (My god I do know how to ramble) without even realizing, Donnie open his “preferences”? Let’s say, Became more open minded than most, While seeking comfort for himself, and when he says he doesn’t have a type, he really doesn’t. There are so many aesthetics that could be attractive! punks, goths, cottagecore, y2k, dark academia, light academia, grunge, fairycore, alt, the list is endless! And don’t get him started on physical attributes cuz there are so many different combinations that some how, people manage to connect the most random ones and make it look great
Donnie wouldnt fall for someone specially bc of their appearance, or that would be the first reason he would fall head over heels, when you think about it, what happened to April it was that she was extremely passionate and dedicated to *insert which cause she was fighting for* and took Donnie seriously, that light up a lightbulb in his head that has never been on before, people showing how ardently they can be into something, how much they care and such, that’s attractive to him, and after that, everything that person does, or is, suddenly becomes beautiful and amazing for Donnie
Withthatbeingsaidpart2- if Donnie did fall for someone more on the chubbier side, their “plumpy-ness” would def be something to call his attention out after he developed feelings, he longed for your hugs, specially after he found out how soft and warm they were, he actually started having more naps after you caught his heart, imaging how it would be to cuddle someone as soft as you while hugging his pillow late at night on his bed (which eventually he would doze off from day dreaming so much)
Talking about day dreaming, Donnie can totally lose himself in his mind, just like with his projects, he can imerse himself in a fantasy about you two easily, which makes him totally freeze when you show up and he actually have to say or do something he has been constantly dreaming about
So please confess first, cuz when I say he can lose himself in his daydreams, that can last for months until he actually gathers courage to do something about it
While in a relationship, Donnie is totally a hopeless romantic, but not the typical “roses and candlelight’s dinner” kind, as your boyfriend, he wants to help you out no matter what, he will make aaaaas many inventions as he can that might increase the quality of your life, becomes easier to do… whatever, literally. And he always longs for your adorable reactions to his gifts
He adores your chubby cheeks, he will! Get lost! in your face! Your eyes! Eveything! He will oh so slowly caress his knuckles softly across it, sliding to your neck, traveling through your arms, he likes to squish your face a bit as well while cupping it when he goes for a kiss, he just thinks everything about you is adorable (and hot at the same time)
He really like the contraste his skin has with yours, it’s so foreign for him and he can’t help but to love how smooth your skin can be, (which leads his mind to ahem. Certain kind of thoughts. If you know what I mean)
Just like he needs reassurance about his appearance, he knows you probably had to deal with more than one unpleasant comment about your physique, so you don’t even have to ask, Donnie is so whipped with you, compliments about you just drip of his tongue, and it’s always so sweet, followed by a pair of soft eyes, always admiring you, plus, Donnie is a science / fact man, he would gather information about other cultures that value more curvy, chubby, bigger people, he would go as far as making a slide presentation how wonderful and more inclusive people are being (even if it doesn’t seams like it, and there’s still a long way to go) he would include real opinions online other than his on the matter that your body is indeed, a snack, (aaaaaand he is once again right, aaaaand just like everyone else you just have to live with it and accept it 😌 end of story)
He would definitely “put up to test” his theory of how amazing it is to cuddle someone who’s more on the chubbier side (and his theory is ✅ correct)
Cuddling becomes a weekly thing for you guys, that being you sitting on his lap, having naps, watching movies together, he loves to create or update his projects with you on his lap, holding you grounds him. Plus it’s easier to speak some kisses on your cheeks that way
He finds out some people on the heavier side stops themselves to live some experiences the hard way, he never wants to make you uncomfortable, ever. But it takes a while for him to understand why wouldn’t you like to, as an example, wear a bathing suit/ swimwear around other people, wearing lighter clothes when it’s absurdly hot during winter time, that you don’t like when he picks you up? things that don’t connect right away. he promises himself to never force you to do anything you don’t want to, but he slowly will try to support you to do whatever you have always wanted to but stopped yourself from doing so bc of your weight
He would take extra time while making out with you, he wants you to know how much he loves your body, every inch of it. Lowkey likes to drag his nails on your tights and mark you
Overall? Donnie is extremely thoughtful, independently of how his partner look like, if they were “part” of some sort of outcast from society, he would take his sweet time to show how important and special his partner is, he is extremely thankful to be able to experience love, something that not only him, but all of the boys, thought it was out of their reach for a really long time, so you bet he’s going to show how appreciative he is oof your love, of all of you 💜
I really tired to innovate a bit here, didn’t want to add the same stuff as other Headcanons that already exists (I mean, Its cute to read how we as writing blogs / authors “agree” on how the boys would react in certain situations, which it is a FactTM that Donnie is a sweetheart. but it’s also good to read new stuff, oooor you know, a new perspective of it, even if it is a “common” / “already done” scenario, you know? )
even if I mostly rambled about Donnie’s personality analysis than to actual stuff he would do or act around an chubby reader lmao, I truly hope you like this! I didn’t proof read this so I’m sorry if there are any grammar mistakes hehe
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Hello can we get the iwaoisuga headcanons you mentioned in the iwas moms post please. You're right you're depriving us.
HEHE OKAY!
so, i'm going to start off by saying that in this specific universe iwaoi were together first and then suga joins their relationship later. which is relevant.
they were not surprised when iwaoi told them they were dating. they already knew both of them liked men and they know both of them pretty well so they knew it was only a matter of time.
sachiko tried at least to pretend to be surprised by it while mayumi was just like "it's about time" lmao. they were really happy for them! iwaoi's biggest supporters, tbh. they helped oikawa with coming out to his parents (which went... okay? could have gone better, could have gone worse)
and then ofc later (a year? two years? idk, i'm fuzzy on timeline details) suga joins their relationship! sachiko and mayumi are the first of the parents to be told about it. but iwa still holds off longer than when he told them about oikawa because he's worried they'll think it's weird, or that it means he and oikawa are having relationship issues.
they don't, they're pretty open minded! they have a long talk with him about it and then they're just really excited to meet iwaizumi and oikawa's boyfriend.
i think suga is pretty nervous about meeting them? (and oikawa's family) and he enters overthinking mode, just a little bit. like "oh my god what if they think i'm some interloper" even though iwa already told him that his moms were really supportive when he talked to them about it.
so the day comes. and they go to have dinner with iwa's moms. and from the get-go, they are so so welcoming towards him. they ask him so many questions about his job, his students, his family, how he met iwa and oikawa, etc.
it's a little overwhelming and oikawa manages to slow them down a little bit by jokingly complaining that they're not paying attention to him. (and sachiko teasingly says that he's "old news") but still, they ask a lot of questions! they're just really excited to get to know suga. :')
suga has always been good with parents though so he charms them pretty quickly. he's a likeable guy! and i think he bonds with sachiko right away because of how similar her sense of humor is to iwa's (which is one of suga's favorite things about him).
so, first meeting goes right! suga is immediately accepted as part of the family, he almost cries when they tell him this before they leave.
i think he and mayumi would bond over plants! suga's only experience is with houseplants but he likes hearing about her garden. and she gives him lots of tips anyway just in case he ever has the space to be able to grow other stuff.
in fact, i think she would give him the idea to see about starting a school garden at his school!! and she would give him lots of advice during the process too.
they start doing regular dinners with them! this goes even for when iwa and oikawa are both out of the country. sometimes, they might have iwa and/or oikawa on video call too but a lot of the time it's just sachiko, mayumi, and suga. and it's nice! suga likes the reminder that they genuinely like him and care about him and aren't just tolerating him because he's their son's partner.
whenever iwa is in the country, he still likes going to see his moms on sunday and helping mayumi in the garden. suga and oikawa come along, of course.
oikawa is not helpful at all with plants so he usually just sits with sachiko and updates her on what he's been up to in argentina. she loves hearing about his life in argentina! she's said on multiple occassions that she would love to visit, which sets plans in motion in oikawa's head. (i won't elaborate here bc this just entered My head but. sachiko and mayumi visiting oikawa in argentina with iwa and suga,,, yeah. a surprise for their anniversary or smth)
speaking of. sachiko and mayumi never miss one of oikawa's games! oikawa isn't completely sure how they catch some of the matches they do but they do. and they pay a lot of attention (sachiko takes notes) so they can address specific things when they talk to him on the phone next.
and!!! i think they become really close friends with suga's mom too :') not sure how they end up meeting but i think they would get along. suga's mom is a nurse in my mind palace so she and mayumi probably talk about work a lot.
this was longer than i meant for it to be but i hope u enjoy!!! i love iwaoisuga. i love thinking abt iwaoisuga with their families.
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knife of dreams chapter 28-end
“‘we can kill her and hide the body,’ alliandre suggested.” “‘where?’ maighdin said...‘it has to be somewhere she won’t be found for at least a day.’” “‘we aren’t going to kill her,’ faile told them. she was being neither squeamish nor merciful. there simply was nowhere they could be sure a body would remain hidden long enough, not that they could reach without being seen.” LMAO they are so down with murder i love them. elayne’s gonna be like ???? when she finds out that her boyfriend’s best friend’s wife is bffs with her mom. now i want elayne/faile friendship so bad!
they get trapped in a partially-collapsed building (the cousin of the wall that fell on mat, no doubt), faile asks morgase to channel to make the scarf outside the building flutter to attract attention, morgase doesn’t think she can do it bc she’s so weak in the power, and faile and the other women encourage her 🥺 “i know it’s difficult. well, in truth, i don’t know. i’ve never done it. but you have. and you can do it again. our lives depend on you, maighdin. i know the strength that’s in you. i’ve seen it time and again. there is no surrender in you. i know you can do it, and so do you.” ❤️❤️
one good thing about the whole faile kidnapping plotline is that faile really shines as a character, with her courage and determination and cleverness coming through, and she’s truly allowed to flex her leadership skills for the first time - rather than being the daughter of a powerful man or the wife of another, rather than whispering to perrin what to say but he’s the one who’s actually the leader in name, faile is the one leading their escape attempt and coming up with the plans and bolstering her friends’ confidence and being the one that everybody looks to to get them out of the situation. i love her!!!
“there were many kinds of battle. sitting on the floor, whispering encouragement, maighdin fighting to find what she could seldom find, they fought for their lives while the scarf swung, then fell to the breeze, swung and fell limp. but they fought on.” ❤️❤️❤️❤️ hands down one of my favorite lines in the book, and maybe the whole series. maybe i just happened to be in some kind of mood while reading this moment, but i found it so emotional and empowering! i love women! and it’s especially wonderful to see morgase be supported and succeed at something after how often she’s failed and been torn down throughout the series.
TAM HAS RETURNED!!!! 📣📣📣📣 I REPEAT TAM HAS RETURNED!!!!!
“‘taim said rand sent him [to the two rivers to recruit asha’man]. he said rand is the dragon reborn.’ there was a touch of questioning in that, perhaps a hope for denial, perhaps a demand to know why perrin had kept silent.” 💔💔 it really was so shitty of perrin not to tell tam that his son is the fucking DRAGON REBORN like what the hell perrin! tam was obviously going to hear a rumor about it eventually, so perrin should have ensured that tam learned the whole truth from a trustworthy and friendly source first.
and now that tam knows, how does perrin respond? an apology for not telling him before? sympathy? a hug, perhaps? no, of course not. “he answered by not answering. what was, was. ‘nothing to be done about it now, tam.’” what the hell perrin!!!
“sadness entered tam’s scent, though he let nothing show on his face. he knew the fate of men who could channel.” 😭😭😭😭 the show better make tam finding out about rand into an absolute gutpunch, because this here is such a quick, minor moment, and emotionally unsatisfying! though iirc in the show moiraine announced to the whole village that one of the 5 was tdr, so maybe show!tam will be sooomewhat more expecting that rand might be it.
also, i hate how even tam calls perrin “my lord” it’s weird and fucked up enough that all the other emond’s fielders do, but you’d think tam at least would have some dignity! and would still see and treat perrin as his son’s childhood best friend.
aram was so brainwashed by masema that he tried to kill perrin 😭😭 and then was killed by arrows 😭😭 another way in which Show First improved the reading experience - show!aram is so sweet that i always had a soft spot for him despite perrin’s consistently unflattering narration of him, and seeing him come to this end hurts me 😭😭
perrin-faile reunion!!! finally!!
perrin smells that faile feels guilty (this is right after he killed the shaido who’d often flirted with or, imo, harassed her) and concludes with a pleasantly shocking and uncharacteristic level of maturity, “well, the man was dead, and a woman had the right to keep her secrets if she wanted.” good for you perrin! “‘all that matters is that you’re alive, and we’re together again,’ he told her. ‘that’s all that matters in the world.’” ❤️
“perrin grinned. put his wife down in the middle of a house engulfed in flames, and she would calmly set about putting the fire out. she would put it out, too.” that’s my girl all right!!!
fucking tallanvor. my #1 Most Irrationally Hated character. he doesn’t even do anything in this scene besides fret over morgase (who’s unconscious from channeling exhaustion) i just get mad whenever i see him.
okay damn perrin’s agreement with the seanchan to get their help was to let them collar all the shaido channelers? who were collared easily because they were already helpless from the forkroot? what the hell perrin!
“‘i would be honored if you’d call me tylee.’ she bent over sevanna to offer her hand. for a moment, perrin could only stare. it was a strange world. he had gone to her thinking he was making a deal with the dark one, and the light knew some of what the seanchan did was beyond repugnant, but the woman was stalwart and true to her word. ‘i’m perrin, tylee,’ he said, clasping her hand.” WHAT THE HELL PERRIN
taking stock of battle results: the shaido have been decimated and the survivors are going back to the waste to rebuild, and they vow to never leave the waste again. thank god the shaido are FINALLY dealt with, though i’m so wary of shaido shenanigans at this point that i don’t trust they might not come back yet again later in the series jkdjfg at the very least, i feel that this ominously leaves room for them to come back in a few generations and cause problems. also, the shaido splitting off from the rest of the aiel and going alone into the waste is a neat little parallel from the aiel splitting off from the tuatha’an back in ye olden days. sevanna is captured by the seanchan and will presumably be enslaved. galina is caught escaping by therava and will be taken to the waste to be “therava’s little lina” for the rest of her life. i suppose that should feel satisfying after what she put rand through but idk, i’d rather she just get killed off. we’ve already had WAY too much galina torture porn throughout the last few books. finally, most of masema’s followers were killed but he himself survived and still has a following, so that will likely cause problems.
return to elayne pov thank god! elayne wonders “what had hurt [rand] badly enough that she sensed a small jolt of pain while everything else in that small knot in the back of her head that was him remained as vague as a stone. it had been all a stone again ever since, so he was all right, yet something had hurt him deeply for her to sense anything at all.” 💔💔
she describes like 3 or 4 different women as pretty during this chapter chunk. elayne. girl.
elayne dancing when she receives good news is the purest and most adorable thing in the entire world!!!! i feel like it’s happened before, or at least it’s happened that she WANTED to dance upon hearing good news.
the good news is that her spy has uncovered proof that mellar is working with 2 of the black ajah siuan had originally sent elayne, egwene, and nynaeve to hunt. “finding the two now was like completing the circle.” aww
laughing my ass off at min going “i’m a City Girl! from the Big City!” meanwhile to actual city girl elayne, baerlon is a backwater town to exile people to
elayne and 3 other sisters sneak into the black ajah house alone, reasoning that they’ll be more than a match for 2 black sisters and that bringing warders or other non-channelers with them would only result in those people getting killed needlessly. elayne also has her and vandene link with the other 2, with elayne and vandene controlling the flows, since she knows one or both of those 2 is likely also black ajah. however, once they get there it turns out that there are unexpectedly 4 additional black sisters there, and elayne is kidnapped and the other 3 with her killed. birgitte leads a charge to rescue her and many soldiers die, with the death toll heightened by the fact that one of the black sisters has a super powerful weapon ter’angreal (it does balefire but i think maybe some other things too since it can be used to stun, not just kill). i’ve heard complaints about some reckless thing that elayne does that results in lots of people getting killed - is this that thing? because if so, i’m disgusted but sadly not surprised that fandom blames her for it. how is it in ANY way her fault that her genuinely well-thought-out plan fell through due to unforeseen circumstances? it’s not like she charged headlong into danger unprepared and needed a rescue (sideeyes min), she DID have a plan and she DID bring backup, and it’s absolutely true that bringing the warders in with them would have done nothing but get them killed thanks to that weapon ter’angreal.
random thought, but i just remembered that nynaeve straight up used balefire back in tdr and this NEVER came up again lmao
i wish avi had still been here for this plotline, think of all the avilayne angst and hurt/comfort if they’d been kidnapped together or if avi had stayed behind with birgitte and then helped rescue elayne! tho i guess realistically since avi can channel she would’ve gone into the house with elayne and since she’s not elayne (the only one the black ajah wanted alive) they would’ve killed her.
birgitte pov for maybe the first time ever? she notes that throughout the entire kidnapping and battle, elayne never once feels afraid ❤️ “her sigil should have been an iron lion rather than a golden lily” “elayne would feel self-assured walking an unraveling rope stretched over a pit full of sharp stakes.” ❤️❤️
wait a minute, i was so annoyed about mat/tuon in the last recap that i didn’t even stop to think of the matlayne rights of tuon comparing mat to a lion! nice.
after all birgitte’s insecurity and self-doubt about her skills as a general, it’s so nice to see her taking charge of the situation here so confidently! she even manages to trick and bully the windfinders into helping in the battle, and we all know how hard it is to trick or bully the master tricksters and bullies.
there is one andoran noble named pelivar and an entirely separate one named perival, and this makes me want to commit war crimes
birgitte grants the queen’s bodyguard permission to charge out into the battle, thinking “if anyone had a right, these women did” which is THE most refreshing change from the male military commanders’ Protect The Women Even If They’re Highly Trained Soldiers Whose Purpose In Life Is Literally This attitudes.
“aside from shielding [elayne], temaile had taken seemingly malicious pleasure in tying her in a tight knot with her head between her knees. her muscles already ached from the cramped position.” OKAY BUT THE PARALLELS WITH RAND AND THE BOX THOOOO 😭😭😭
“she thought they wanted to add to her sense of helplessness, yet she refused to feel helpless. after all, she was perfectly safe until her babies were born, and so were her babies. min had said so.” i hate min viewings except for when they give elayne plot armor in which case i love them! very telling how Some portions of the fandom will go “of course min had to fall in love with rand, she had a viewing!” and then turn around and say “it was so stupid of elayne to do reckless things just because min said her babies would be born healthy, she shouldn’t trust her viewings so completely!” pick a stance would you? i say as i am actively in the middle of being a hypocrite about this by saying that elayne’s plot armor viewing should be trusted with no grains of salt and the rest shouldn’t jfkg
elayne’s army cheering when they see her come out of the wagon unharmed 😭😭
“she had not trained with weapons, but she had received all of the other lessons gawyn had gotten from gareth bryne. a queen had to understand the battle plans her generals gave her rather than accepting them blindly.” that’s my girl!! also, dumb and illogically Real-World Sexist that the queen’s sons were allowed to train with weapons but her daughter wasn’t. a future queen should know how to protect herself! even if they knew that she was strong in the power. after all, rand has told and shown us time and again how important it is to know how to use regular weapons and not rely on the power.
“‘this isn’t some fool story with a queen carrying her banner into battle to lead her troops. i know one of your ancestors did that, but you’re not her, and you don’t have a broken army to rally.’ ‘why, that was exactly my plan,’ elayne said sweetly. ‘how ever did you guess?’ birgitte snorted with laughter and muttered ‘bloody woman’ not quite softly enough to escape detection. affection flowed in the bond, though.” i love them your honor!!!
elayne thinks about mat! only because birgitte again references needing his luck, but still! elayne is confused by that and apparently doesn’t know about his luck since she’s never seen him dicing, interesting. “mat was the luckiest man birgitte had ever met? in that case, he must be very lucky indeed.” no he isn’t because he got stuck being prince consort to the worst queen ever when he could’ve been yours 😔
elayne to the captured arymilla, elenia, and naean: “‘i hope your coffers are deep. your ransoms will pay for this war you’ve caused.’ that was malicious of her, but she felt spiteful all of a sudden. their coffers were not deep at all. they had borrowed far more than they could repay in order to hire mercenaries. and bribe mercenaries. they faced ruin without any ransom. with, they faced devastation.” GOOD FOR HER i remember in a past book elayne was thinking that morgase had been too trusting/lenient with those who’d opposed her in the succession, and i love seeing her toe the line for the rest of this chapter chunk between alienating houses and sowing resentment vs. trusting them too readily or letting them off the hook too easily.
the houses who wanted dyelin on the throne ask elayne for safe conduct into caemlyn, which offends her because it “more than implies” that they think she would harm or arrest them. she writes the letter of safe conduct and tells the messenger “if this fails to make them feel safe, perhaps they might try wrapping themselves in swaddling” JDKFJG ELAYNE GOING FOR THE THROAT nothing gives me greater joy than seeing our perpetually duty-driven mindful-of-public-perception characters elayne and rand getting to be bitchy.
dyelin says that elayne will be a better queen for andor than she herself would. “‘in part that’s because of your connection to the dragon reborn.’ dyelin’s raised eyebrow invited elayne to expound on that connection.” lmao so many people know or suspect they’re fucking! maybe dyelin figured it out from how stressed out rand was at the prospect of him being related to elayne, pretty sure dyelin was the one he had that convo with. this is one of the first times an andoran has said that elayne’s connection with rand will be GOOD for andor. i’m hoping we might finally see that alliance come to mutually beneficial fruition once elayne is officially crowned, but i also know rand and elayne don’t see each other again until the last fucking battle so i’m not holding my breath.
“‘but in large part,’ she went on when elayne said nothing, ‘it’s you yourself. i watched you grow up, and by the time you were fifteen i knew you’d be a good queen, perhaps as good as andor has ever had.’ elayne’s face grew hot, and tears welled in her eyes...praise from dyelin was like praise from her mother, never grudging, but never given unless she felt it was deserved.” 😭❤️ okay now i feel bad for thinking dyelin was sus for so long jkfgj
“when was her sister going to be allowed to visit? light, she missed aviendha.” me too 😭😭😭
melfane (the new midwife) tells elayne to read to her babies (and later elayne says she and birgitte take turns reading aloud to them 😭 but only andoran history tomes so that they will become smart jfkjgh) and to have musicians play for them IMAGINE RAND PLAYING THE FLUTE FOR THE BABIES 😭😭😭😭😭 i need to lie down!!! although, of course, he wouldn’t be able to do that now since min got his hand blown off.
“melfane had lambasted the cooks and every other woman in earshot for the bland diet they had been feeding [elayne].” YEEEEESSSS THANK YOU MELFANE!!! FUCK EVERYONE ELSE I RESPECT YOU it literally boggles my mind that monaelle is supposed to be a pregnancy expert and was like “i’m sure starving elayne is a great and healthy idea”
aww birgitte stops drinking wine herself because she’s so worried about it affecting elayne and the babies, “though it seemed impossible it could have any effect through the bond. elayne refrained from pointing that out. birgitte had been drinking too much to dull the pain of losing her gaidal. elayne understood even if she did not approve. she could not imagine what she would do if rand died.” 😭😭
trakand’s symbol is a keystone, apparently. i guess the lily is just elayne’s personal one. and then the lion AND the rose are andor’s. so many symbols! “the [trakand keystone] pin made her morose. inside the house it was said that trakand was the keystone that held andor together. she had not done a very good job of it so far.” noooo baby you just ended a civil war and prevented a succession! you are trying so hard!!
the high seats loyal to dyelin come to meet, elayne absolutely owns them, and all but ellorien traemane put their support behind her, so she is officially queen!!! all that’s left is the coronation, which is only a formality. i am so proud of her!!!!!!!!! i don’t care what anyone else says about it, i have absolutely loved the succession plot!! elayne was the highlight of the slog for me by a huge margin.
taking stock of battle results: "nearly half her support was suspect one way or the other, jarid sarand was still on the loose with a not inconsiderable force, and she would have trouble from ellorien eventually.”
“in stories, everything was always wrapped up neatly by the end” is this a tongue in cheek reference to the fact that rj has not wrapped up anything by the end of the story for the past 4 books jfkgh
random deathwatch guard (karede) thinking that thom is a fearsome military general who kidnapped tuon and is now destroying their armies is peak hilarity
talmanes: “you want to talk to thom?” lmao
“[amathera] looked [karede] right in the eyes. [juilin] gave a loud laugh and flung his arms around her. the grinning stare he gave karede could only be called triumphant.” okay i somewhat take back my making fun of the Pair The Spares nature of juilin and amathera bc they’re actually so sweet 🥺
“i don’t ‘call myself’ thom merrilin. it’s my name.” why was that so funny to me jdkfgjh
“[mat] was long-limbed, though he could not be called tall” SHORT KING MAT TRUTHERS RISE!!!!! this line was the highlight of mat’s final portion of the book, which was absolute shit in all other respects.
good news: mat tells the sul’dam to release the shield she put on the 3 aes sedai. bad news: he yells at the 3 aes sedai for seizing the power afterwards, once again as if 1 side wanting to enslave people vs. the other side not wanting to be enslaved is an equal conflict where both sides are wrong.
“‘one of these days, mat cauthon,’ joline said acidly, ‘someone will teach you to show proper respect to aes sedai, and i hope i am there to see it.’” me the fuck too, joline. forget everything i ever said about hating the spanking/corporal punishment aspect of these books, at this point i am about ready to see the 3 aes sedai spank mat into next tuesday and then call nynaeve, egwene, and elayne in to spank him into the tuesday after that.
joline recognizes the damane as a fellow aes sedai and is upset and tries to convince her to come with them, and literally no one else among the randlanders cares or tries to do a single thing about it. gross and heartbreaking. if tuon had had a sensible character arc of shaking off her seanchan worldview upon being exposed to more of the world, wouldn’t this have been such a good moment for her to take a stand and demonstrate her growth by ordering the damane freed herself?
aw tuon remembers that karede is the one she gave her doll to! “‘i trust the deathwatch guards with my life,’ the high lady replied calmly, ‘and him more than any other.’ she favored karede with a smile. even as a child, smiles from her had been rare. ‘do you by any chance still have my doll, banner-general karede?’” tugs at my heartstrings, i have to say 🥺
tuon says that mat is her husband 3 times and as she’s doing so mat “looked like a man watching an arrow fly toward his face, knowing he had no chance to dodge” my mood throughout this entire relationship
tuon finally calls mat matrim instead of toy. and immediately ignores his request to be called mat instead of matrim. sigh.
tuon confirms my guess that her fortune-telling was about her marrying mat and she was scoping him out all this time. “beware the fox that makes the ravens fly, for he will marry you and carry you away.” mat’s signet ring. “beware the man who remembers hawkwing’s face, for he will marry you and set you free.” wouldn’t it be nice if this relationship actually was mat setting tuon free of her evil culture brainwashing and the shackles of empire rather than enabling her? “beware the man of the red hand, for him you will marry and none other.”
unlike the trainwreck that is mat’s side of things, tuon deciding to marry mat actually DOES make sense because we’ve seen how seriously she takes omens and prophecies etc, and because she has no delusions of love on her end, it’s all prophecy and politics. though i’m not sure how she’s convinced herself that her marrying the skilled general who’s been decimating her empire’s forces is in any way marrying to serve the empire lmao
when tuon invites mat to return to ebou dar with her bc he now has an honored place in the empire: “he did not hesitate before shaking his head. there was no honored place waiting for leilwin or domon, no place at all for the aes sedai or the band.” mat gets one (1) right back
“once he had thought that fighting battles, much as he hated it, was still better than work.” [footage not found] the caricature-ization of mat’s laziness continues. he never hated work MORE than he hated battles!
now i’m going to list some quotes that i don’t have it in me to analyze or complain about any further than by saying that they made me shout WHAT and/or WHY
mat to tuon: “i like you, maybe more than like you”
“you’re not my enemy, but your empire is” okay one comment: SHE LITERALLY IS THE EMPIRE MAT!! SHE IS THE EMPIRE MORE THAN ANYBODY ELSE IS!! he’s really out here acting like she’s some helpless seanchan commoner caught up in a nobles’ war and not the heir to the entire thing and perpetrator of the whole system!
“burn him, if [tuon] died, something would shrivel up inside him.”
the band bowing to tuon
“if you will forgive me, high lady, [mat is] a man in love with you. i saw how he looked at you.”
when a seanchan says he’s ready to die for tuon, mat replies “‘i guess i am too, musenge.’ light, he thought he meant that! yes, he did mean it. did that mean he was in love?”
this is just. of all the unbelievable and rushed wot ships, mat being desperately in love with an evil slaver empress after knowing her for like 3 weeks is the most criminal by 100 miles. i buy moiraine/thom more than i buy this. i even fucking buy siuan/gareth more than i buy this!
back to regularly scheduled programming. tuon and karede have an exchange about “if i die, i will die as who i am” as if i am expected to find it empowering that tuon is proud of being a fascist slaver
mat complains about how many tensions there are in the air among his forces, as if he is not the one causing those tensions by marrying someone who enslaved his allies and forcing those allies to work with more of those slavers.
“he supposed he would have to give over chasing after women, much less catching them, but he would still enjoy dancing with them. and looking at them. just not when he was with [tuon].” i’m supposed to think “aw look at slutty mat changing his slutty ways” but all i actually think is 1) mat would be so happy in an open and/or poly relationship [longingly eyes rand’s polycule] and 2) mat is 100% going to cheat on tuon eventually and they will have their messy divorce.
“he was not about to go anywhere she had the upper hand, her and her talk of cupbearers and running grooms and marrying to serve the empire” whereas ofc tuon has not changed as a person one hair and fully expects to have the upper hand over mat. they are SO having a messy divorce the SECOND the series is over.
“‘my name is mat. after today, i’d say you have a right to use it.’ mat surprised himself by sticking out his hand [to the seanchan general].” THIS IS PERRIN 2.0!!!! GOD you two have the moral backbone of a chocolate eclair
taking stock of battle results: i don’t know, i was distracted the whole scene by how mad i was about mat/tuon
mat: marries an empress mat finding out that this makes him a noble as well: surprised pikachu.jpg
“he had told everyone who would listen that he did not like nobles, did not want to be one, and he had meant it. he still meant it. and now he bloody was one!” this is the most unsatisfying “character is forced to overcome their prejudices when they become what they hate” arc i have ever encountered in my whole life. mat was right to hate nobles! (except elayne who has done nothing wrong ever in her life, of course. “not all nobles” you’re right, elayne trakand would never do this.) why couldn’t we have had that arc with tuon instead, with her overcoming HER prejudices by becoming what SHE hates, a channeler? it boggles my mind that this is not the way this plotline was done.
i’m so mad that mat/tuon sucks so much because “prince of the ravens” is SUCH a sexy title dammit!!!!
suroth is exposed as a traitor to the empire and condemned to another Enslavement Fate Worse Than Death
pevara goes to the black tower and we see that taim has straight up built himself a palace and is acting like a king. hey rand uh. maybe you should. maybe you should pop in there and check on things. just a thought.
pros of this book: elayne kicking ass, egwene kicking ass, faile kicking ass, lots of plotlines getting wrapped up, galad having his moment in the sun after being missing for 6 books
cons of this book: mat’s character assassination, mat/tuon and rand/min being the worst, avi and elayne getting separated (my last ship standing dammit!), nynaeve having little to do yet again, perrin. i don’t have to specify anything about perrin, you guys know that his plotline is always my con of every book. and of course, no gawyn. 0 stars for no gawyn!
mat’s character assassination upsets me so much that this might be my least favorite book of the series so far, even though it’s supposed to be the high point coming out of the slog. i’d rather read an entire book of elayne taking a bath than 1 chapter of mat becoming a slavery apologist! he was starting to go that way in COT but it was even worse in this book.
but at least mat and tuon are separated now, so hopefully he’ll be more bearable next book even if he DOES suffer from sanderson’s mis-writing of him. i’m super curious and looking forward to starting the sanderson books and seeing how they feel different or similar! especially in terms of pacing and writing style.
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gutsfics · 4 months
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🔴🔵🔮 for baxter and avalon my beloveds <3
omg yayaya my best friends <3
🔴 Red- What is a trait your OC has that those around them don’t see very often? Is it seen by a rare few or completely overlooked?
Baxter is afraid of the ocean and doesn't like to/doesn't know how to swim. the ocean is because they like knowing about things, and the ocean by its nature is very largely unknown. fucking anything could be down there, we really know very little and it scares them. (they dislike space to some extent for similar reasons, although they're more okay with it bc they can't accidentally step into a dangerous part of space like you can w an undercurrent in the ocean) the swimming is because growing up in a hospital basically means not learning certain "common knowledge" abilities like swimming or bike riding, although swimming kinda goes hand in hand w the ocean to some extent. neither of these really come up ever bc they're almost never in a context where its relevant (they were lowkey SO stressed during Inez's wedding though)
i think for Avalon, it would probably be that he's a catty bitch. he's usually pretty outgoing and friendly (HWU) or quiet and polite (RCD) and all around a bit of a people pleaser that when he says something that's more God's Favorite Hater than World's Nicest Family Man Dad Friend people can be pretty surprised when he decides to let his Opinions be known. most of the time ppl think it's Thomas rubbing off on him, but no actually that's just who he is. he just prefers to take the high road most of the time, and/or look on the bright side of things, or do what he can to make sure the people around him are comfortable (sometimes to his detriment, but that really depends on what's going on in his life)
🔵 Blue- How would your OC spend a single day of interrupted peace? Where would they go or who would they be with?
Baxter would go to a zoo and beeline (lol) straight for the bug exhibits. most of their time there would be spent in the butterfly garden bc its like the stingray bay of the zoo insect exhibits, and they really like bugs :3 they'd take Reigan, Rafael, or Gwyn with them or they'd go by themself. just chill w the butterflies all day <3
Avalon doesn't really care where he goes or what he does, so long as he's with the people he loves <3 so most of the time, that means chilling at home watching movies with Thomas or, in the case of HWU!Ava, spending some good ol family quality time w Janey and Dawn & Lily (Thomas is also there lol lmao)
🔮 Crystal Ball- What kind of future does your OC want to have? What would they do to make it real?
Baxter doesn't know how to answer this question. for the longest time they thought that they'd die somewhat young due to their poor immune system & various other medical issues they experience and had come to terms with that, but sometime after the maitoxin attack (or maybe because of?) they realized that actually No, they're going to live. there's people they love who they depend on and who depend on them and there's still so much good in the world they can do so No They Are Not Dying Anytime Soon Thankyouverymuch. but despite that realization, they're not entirely sure what's in store for them in the future. they're in a good place right now and they have their ups and downs but for the most part they're just going with the flow of things (at least as much as they can while being very autistic & liking to have a rigid day to day routine)
since there's two different versions of Avalon, this question kinda has two different answers for him
HWU!Avalon wants to make sure his daughters have a good life as unencumbered by the typical entrappings of a capitalistic society as they can be and also he wants to Create Art, and what better way to do that than entering the film industry? i mean theres probably better ways to do it, but this is the way he thought was best for him and his family
RCD!Avalon wants a future away from all this. something small and quiet and maybe full of love.
he's not sure how to achieve this.
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xo2dee · 5 months
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I was rereading chapter 19 of the Guide and I am noticing this for the first time!! 👁👁
The reader knows moves that can damage organs and soul. Does that tie into how she will destroy or hurt Mahito? 👀💢😏
Coz of course we are not gonna let anything happen to our husband Nanami!!! 😤😤
If so, then amazing planning from beforehand!
Throughout the whole in chapter fight scene, I kept on yelling kiss and make out after you kick their asses.
Also, another thing I was curious about is that -
On their first date to Mrs. Hirose's cafe, Kento says that she is dating Gojo. Did he really believe that to be true? Or was it a ploy to know if the reader had any other partner? 😌
Thank you so much for writing the Guide! I'm literally rereading it for the 4th time. My history says that I have visited your fic 245 times so far lol!
It is a balm to my Kento loving soul. I have never pined after a character like I pined after him. ❤
I know the next update will take time and I say this without any intended pressure.
I love the world you have created so much!! I cannot wait for Yuji, Megumi, Nobara, Maki and others to enter the scenes. I know that Yuji is basically gonna be spoiled by the reader and Nanami.
They are all such a sweet, happy family. 💗💕
Also it is scratching my head that we don't know who Seiko is getting married to. Does he have any plot relevance? 👀👀
hii, yes i did kinda take into effect reader's curse technique since i knew i'd be writing shibuya with them and i planned to make an au ofc,,, but also i winged the curse technique a bit though we'll see more of reader's abilites in the coming chapters bc i still have their specific plot to write out.
im glad you liked the fight scenes and them fighting together, i tried to make it fluid and more natural and not something too out of the way to read lmao, AND PLEASE, visiting the guide that many times omg thank you so much!!!
and yes we'll meet the main cast (in the sequel surprise) and yah reader will prob have her favorite students too, and as for seiko's husband, no he's just a civilian lmao. i just wanted to add some real world situations and reader have a friend that they could talk to lmaoooo
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dulcewrites · 1 year
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okay but the way in which the public/fans fit into the fmo djats au is Super interesting to me. i can imagine alys and aemond both choosing not to go public with their relationship till the divorce is finalized out of consideration for reader, guilt and maybe just to take it slow and figure themselves out but then a few months down the line someone leaks out to the press photos of them kissing and acting all coupley (yknow those that feel like love literally seeps out of them, aemond cupping alys' face and looking down at her tenderly type beat) and all hell breaks lose. the general public is feeling very '?????' because up to this point everyone thought reader and aemond were still together/maybe just having a rough patch and she herself feels like her heart is breaking all over again because now she has to deal with it with eyes of the entire world on her. the band is forced to issue a statement (something along the lines of 'reader and aemond are separated and undergoing a divorce and alys and aemond are happily together and would like that people respected their privacy') and since the au takes place in the 90s/00s i could see a whole lot of misogynistc bullshit falling upon the girls, them being pit against each other, maybe a portion of the fans saying things like 'figures. a & a always looked way more suitable for each other' (not to say that reader doesn't have her own shooters being the it girl that she is, i would even say some people end up dropping the band because of the entire situation) and all of it taking a heavy toll on reader :( her feeling super conflicted, still being super pissed at both As but maybe a small part of her also feeling sorry for how alys' name is being dragged through the mud (the cheating Could have gone past only being emotional but didn't after all, she reasons)... aemond on the other hand, just like real life men from that time, probably gets out of it mostly unscathed public opinion-wise, that fucking bastard (i do like the idea of him getting thrown drinks at his head during some shows and having to hear people scream 'that's for reader' though)
also omg this universe's version of retrospective f&b verses being gossip magazine articles???👀
I love this!!! And it’s exactly how I think a story like fmo would be so interesting in a modern setting. Mainly bc the idea of an unreliable narrator never goes away. Not to sound fake deep or anything, but the rise of blogs and paparazzi and the shift in celebrity culture/social media is basically an unreliable narrator in of itself.
So as the band is taking off, I can imagine certain fans not liking reader. The fawn over Aemond, and daella by extension when people realize he has a kid guys I was watching old nirvana interviews and the ones with Francis bean are so :((.. not even caring daella is half of reader too. I can see people thinking that they wouldn’t be compatible. But the gag with them is that though their aesthetics may different but who do these fans think he was doing ecstasy with the night they got nominated for a mtv video award. Lmao jk.. but not really
as soon as alys enters the picture, it gets worse. I can’t imagine what it would be like to be married to a person, have their child but have the entire world telling your husband has more chemistry with a singer in his band. I’d turn into thanos. That’s basically what happens when alys joins the band. If this happened in the last five years, people would make fan edits of the two them. It would be bad for reader 😭
But we know how the general public flips on people 💀. So as soon as the divorce news leaks, people start to put the dots together. Now reader becomes the feted ex, the cherished mother done wrong. Now of course this narrative switch comes at the expense of alys. Who basically becomes the bad girl (slut shaming galore) who slept her way into the group and broke up a family. Aemond, like you said, comes out relatively unscathed. I think reader would feel bad if alys was getting dragged through the mud but she’d also be like 🤷🏽‍♀️ y’all made your bed..
He’s probably be one of those musicians that people look back on and are like “… hmm was he like… that” lmao
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lets-a-go · 1 year
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U know who I am but dont tell anyone im not ready to show the world my unhinged thought yet 😌😌😌
I wanna request FTM reader that has gone through top surgery successfully (no bottom surgery tho t-dick supremacy) that goes to a gay bar to hook up with some random man.
Then an older man (can be your OC if u like😉😉😉) targets him. This dude likes it rough tho so he doesn't approach and ask reader like a normal person😒😒😔. Instead he secretly scares all the other men who wanna approach reader away (by any means u can think of, but reader needs to be unaware of it).
Then reader gets kinda upset bc he cannot hook up with anyone and gives up and goes home. But when he passes through some alleyway someone drags him inside (a.k.a that weird older man) and 💢💢💢bumdabum💢💢💢 happens. It can be counted as semi-public s3x ig.
The Chances Of Accidentally Catching The Eye Of An Eldritch God Is Slim But Never Zero - A Oneshot
[Heyooooo ofc I can write this also I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE 🫵🏳️‍🌈 and who you are lmao. Anyway, I chose Kronos for this hope you don't mind. Also I've already asked in private if this person is okay with p in v or in this case, t in v so don't come at me 😭. Sorry it's so short I wanted to make it longer but got too excited 💀😭😭😭😭]
Reader is 18+
CWs:Implied Aftercare!!!!^^, Yandere, Obsessive/Protective/Possessive Behaviors, Dirty Talk, Mental Coercion (So Technically DubCon/NonCon), Murder (If Murder Was Erasing Someone From Existence) [NOT the reader], Semi-Public Sex, Though I Guess It's Just Public Sex Because Pocket Dimensions Of The Same Place To Prevent Anyone From Interrupting?, Tentacles, Tentacles In V, Tentacles In Ass, TENTACLES⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️, Cunninglingus, Pet Names (hun, puppy), Age Gap (This Bitch Is 1 Mil Yrs. Old), Pretty Tame compared to my other works 😭😰
Characters:FTM Reader, Kronos
You smile determined. Today is the day. You intake a deep breath before pulling at the door's handle and entering the establishment. You nervously walk up to the counter and take a seat. The bartender gives you a kind smile and walks up to you, "What can I get ya?" He has a smooth Southern accent. You fidget in your seat, "Just a water please…" You barely get out. He flashes his te- were those fangs!? No. You shake your head and when you open your eyes again the bartender is bent over and you have a nice view of his juicy ass. You gasp before blushing and quickly looking away, making eye contact with the floor. What were you thinking? No human could possibly have sharp canines. Maybe he was born with it? You knew a few people with jagged teeth that resembled them after all. Or maybe…no it was too early to be Halloween. You hear footsteps approaching and give a warm smile as he pushes a glass of cold liquid toward you. Wait…you squint your eyes. Were his eyes always blue? They were green, right? He chuckles, snapping you out of your thoughts, "What, like what you see?" He asks flexing his muscles and you decide staring at the cup would be the best course of action and sip on the refreshing drink.
You kick your feet as you open your eyes again. The man is still present as ever, smirking at you. You look away and he laughs yet again, "Awwww you're just too adorable hun…" He leans on the counter, "I could just," A dangerous glint appears in his eyes, "Eat," He moves in closer, "You," Even closer, "Up." You're flushing scarlet so wordlessly you put the drink down and walk to a quiet and secluded corner. You stare down at your hands when you see someone approach you in your peripheral vision. You glance up to see a handsome stranger. You smile, "Hello, do you think cereal is a soup?" This causes your eyebrows to furrow, "What…?" Well, that was an…interesting thing of starting things, "Is cereal a soup?" From there the two of you have a lovely conversation discussing if cereal is or isn't a soup. It's very refreshing. Unfortunately, the man has to suddenly use the bathroom for whatever reason (maybe it has to do with that mysterious beverage the bartender offered) and…wait…who were you thinking about again? You close your eyes concentrating hard but no matter how hard you think you can't seem to recall ever meeting anyone new in the last half an hour. You heave a sigh and decide to walk up to a group of men. Only to stop mildly confused. Wait, what were you doing? You stand there for more than a few moments before the room around you contorts and the people dissipate into thin air. Okay, now you're beginning to freak out. You run for the exit only to slow down as the doors disappear. What were you panicking about? You were safe. There was nothing to worry about.
With a smile, you turn around and see the same bartender from before sitting on the stool, "Hey there puppy wanna come sit on my lap?" You nod with glee and run up to him like you've known him for years. He extends his arms as an invitation for a hug and you don't miss the opportunity to jump in them. He wastes no time smashing his lips into yours, tongue hungrily exploring your mouth. You swear you can feel little tendrils. This freaks…no it doesn't you're fine silly just relax and let him make you feel good. Before you know it you're slung over his shoulders, lower half exposed, "Ready puppy?" He asks even though he already knows the answer- no-, "Yes!" You exclaim eagerly wrapping your legs around his head. He chuckles, wasting no time in plopping you down on the counter for leverage before diving in. You gasp arching your back as those tendril-like appendages are back- exploring places no pathetic human could reach- wait…you have a moment of clarity, why would you think that? You promptly forget what you were pondering as a jolt of pleasure takes you out of your thoughts, glancing down you see Kornos nibbling on your clit as he rams into your g-spot over and over again. You see stars gasping as you grab onto his hair for leverage- STOP- "M-more~...! Please~...!" In this moment of clarity, you try to buck your hips backwards only to have him delve in even deeper. Your mewls spur him on as he goes faster than most humans were capable of. As much as he wanted to fuck you into oblivion he didn't want to damage your fragile human body.
You involuntarily buck your hips into his face which he groans to, delightfully going straight to your core. When you're finally too tired he does the bucking for you. Rocking your hips into your face back and forth faster and faster until you let out a scream of pure ecstasy cumming all over his face. He smirks, groaning in pleasure as he licks up your lovely juices. You just tasted so divine~...However, he only slows down for a moment. He wanted this to be the best night of your life after all. He swirls his tentacles over and over into the same g-spot, repeating the process of rocking your hips back and forth, even long after you had gone dry, shaking and crying from the sheer amount of overstimulation he still carried on. Finally, he releases you from his ravenous mouth, you twitching and squirming to get away from his skillful tongues all the while. Oh, but he wasn't done yet. He doesn't set you down once as his clothes seemingly melt away to reveal part of his true form- multiple tentacles- he smirks as you tiredly make eye contact with him, flinching as the tip kisses the entrance to both your folds and hole. He places a chaste kiss on your forehead and without warning dives in. The pace he sets is brutal and the grip on your waist is enough to leave bruises. You gasp and moan weakly as he abuses both of your holes thoroughly, not once giving you a moment of peace.
Your eyes bug out as drool escapes from your lips, your mind going fuzzy as you involuntarily try to get away from the overstimulation. This only serves to annoy Kornos who in turn slams into you at an alarming rate. You didn't get it. He was being nice to you before but if you wanted to act bratty and ungrateful he supposed he'd just have to punish you. He goes faster than humanly possible as your moans turn into silent screams of pleasure. You attempting to pull away causes him to fully break out into his true form tentacles suckling and licking your entire body. Overstimulation would be an understatement for what you're feeling right now. But it'd be a loooonnngggg time before Kornos was satisfied. Fortunately for you, he could control whenever he came but unfortunately for you, he liked the way your cute face contorted in pure ecstasy (and a little pain) as he pounded into you- his stamina unwavering and unlike any of humankind you've encountered before-. This process continues for what feels like days and probably is. You have long since lost your voice and the ability to cum- now dry in both your throat but your pussy and ass are still very much still wet due to the constant application of tentacle dick lubricant. You've also run out of tears instead opting to look at the ceiling in defeat. You couldn't even form a single cohesive thought as both your holes were plowed. Then it happened. The "man" grunts as he somehow speeds up even more. You can't even scream. Without warning all his tentacles cum all over you exuding a mysterious ink-like substance.
His hips pump slowly before fully coming to a halt as you twitch. He pulls out, leaving you feeling empty and icky, "I think I'm gonna keep ya puppy~..." He practically purs as he cradles you to his chest. Those are the last words you hear before everything fades to black. Oh well…that could be a problem for tomorrow you.
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homemade-ghosts · 2 years
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You know the meme of that man entering with a pizza and everything is on fire? That's me right now opening the rina tumblr tag kkkkk. Opinions from you hun? Me- I thought we all were aware EJ is staying next season mister director say it in an interview xD I'm not THAT worried bc s4 is confirmed I guess the only thing that could really wreck me if they allud Gina is 'in love with both' I personally WOULD HATE that I hate those type of love triangles, but some smart people say they love it so
Love that meme lmao, but I don't really go through any hsmtmts-related tags on here very often (+ I try to stay off of all my socials on Tuesdays so that I don't hear about/feel tempted to listen to the songs or watch whatever sneak peek they release for upcoming eps -- with all the leaks, I like to go into each ep being as surprised as possible) so I'm not sure what this is in reference to, I'm sorry!
If this is about Miss Jenn offering EJ a job (even though, as it turns out, she didn't -- at least not this episode) someone else asked me what I thought about that, so you can see my response/thoughts here.
I agree with you though, I wasn't aware people still thought that EJ was leaving the show after this season (like I mentioned in that other ask, prior to this season airing I really thought they were going to write him off, but once this season started, it was pretty obvious that wasn't going to happen). In my opinion, whether or not EJ stays in town/on the show has absolutely no effect on pw's fate. They're breaking up very soon due to factors that will not & cannot be changed by EJ simply staying in SLC. & while I don't think it's necessary for EJ to be in season 4 and his screen time could & should be devoted to other characters (new or OG) that are still high school students, it's nothing to freak out about and doesn't concern me in the slightest, tbh.
As for Gina being in love with both EJ & Ricky and having to effectively choose between the two, I think, especially after this week's episode, we can see that that's definitely not going to happen (thankfully because, I'm right there with you, I would hate that too).
Apart from EJ telling Ricky "she's in love with me here at camp" in 305 (which, by the way, still kind of...grosses me out? Like, Gina literally never expressed to EJ that she was in love with him, so it felt like EJ was just weaponizing Gina's feelings for the express purpose of pissing Ricky off. To me, it felt like he didn't care whether or not Gina actually loves him, he only cared only that he could say she does for his own benefit and to parade Gina in front of Ricky like some prize he's "won" and that Ricky has "lost.") we never got any indication that Gina loves EJ. &, after ep 6, where Gina is (like always) putting in all the effort in their relationship while (literally and metaphorically) waiting for fireworks between them that never come, I'm confident in saying that Gina doesn't love EJ and she never will.
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Spoilers for Heaven Official's Blessing/TGCF
I've finished reading TGCF in record time (for me) and now idk what to do cause it was my hyperfixation and now that I'm done I'm depressed.
Anyways all that aside, since it's literally permeated my brain to the point it's rotting, any song I hear makes me think of it and here are my top few recent ones that I really love
Without further adieu, Songs That Remind Me of Heaven Official's Blessing:
1) Everything In You - HalfShy, Adventure Time. Lyrics:
You and me We got something to lose Boy, you got your dreams I got everything in you And I'll be there through all the reveries 'Cause I believe in you more than I ever believed in me Ooh, and I love you, love you, love you No, it's not so hard to tell And I love you, love you, love you Is it obvious to everyone else?
And maybe this is killing part of me But it ain't called love without a little tragedy
Explanation: Pretty straightforward, it's Hua Cheng's perspective. He's dedicated to the max. Though the intention here differs from the original context of the song in AT, it still applies. The tragedy here is not stemming from their relationship, but damn these two are poster children for tragic back stories.
2) J's Lullaby - Delaney Bailey. Lyrics:
Darlin', I'd wait for you Even if you didn't ask me to Tie a lasso around the moon And bring it on down to you I'd bottle the feelin' you give me And shelve that stuff for years to come 'Cause, baby, when your arms are around me I'd swear that I'm holding the sun I'd give you the sun if you asked me You could have all of the time You could have the stars and the trees When dividin' up the universe You could have mine You could have mine Darlin', I wish that you Could give me some more time To herd the whole sky in my arms And release it when you're mine
Explanation: again, very applicable to Hua Cheng's perspective. This song is one of the most intensely dedicated and heartfelt love songs and Hua Cheng is maybe the most loyal person to ever exist (800 years and not a single negative thought about Xie Lian, never a doubt in his mind of how much he loves him or if he should give up). Seriously, this song fits SO well I feel like to explain it would be redundant.
3) Little Life, Cordelia
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Explanation: So, this one for me made me think of Xie Lian and the domestic little life he has with Hua Cheng and how much that means to him. This one isn't just lyrical, it's the whole sound and feeling of the song which is why I included it instead of writing the lyrics.
4) Slipping Through My Fingers - ABBA/Meryl Streep (both versions are good). Lyrics:
Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile I watch her go with a surge of that well-known sadness And I have to sit down for a while The feeling that I'm losing her forever And without really entering her world I'm glad whenever I can share her laughter That funny little girl Slipping through my fingers all the time I try to capture every minute The feeling in it Slipping through my fingers all the time Do I really see what's in her mind Each time I think I'm close to knowing She keeps on growing Slipping through my fingers all the time
Explanation: This one's a lot different as this actually made me think of Xie Lian's mom. Seeing her son grow into a god and witnessing the distance grow between them. She was fully supportive and had so much love for her son, but he grew further and further away from her. This one gets me real sad, even if his mom wasn't super present in the story it's still heartbreaking.
And yeah, basically every song will remind me of the series ATM bc it's literally all that's on my mind but these 4 especially did and made me want to edit videos but I don't have that kinda time or energy or talent lmao. But the series is just.... Ughhhh it's such a beautiful story, even with any questionable moments/details, it's genuinely such a fantastically written series and GOD the love between Xie Lian and Hua Cheng is painfully beautiful. I don't love codependency but idec with these two they're both so supportive of each other and both fully want to be together at all times and you know what I also want them to be together at all times, they deserve it. I knew there was a lot of trauma since I first watched the show in 2021 and have been a fan, but actually reading all the books and learning everything is gut wrenching and heartbreaking and yet so beautiful and satisfying.
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did i hold off on watching the last episode of buddy daddies for a whole week because i was scared of how it was going to end? yes.
but……… did i finally force myself to watch it and then proceed to sob for a solid 10 minutes afterwards? ……. yes 😭
OH MY GOD !!!!! i don’t even know what to say,,, honestly i went into it expecting the worst & expecting a sad ending, and so when rei and kazuki were fighting the organization & creepy last words guy i was SO STRESSED OUT !!!! i was so relieved when they were okay after the fight because honestly i had no idea what direction they were gonna take for this ending!!!! also, after, when kazuki says to rei “i knew you’d be here, partner.” HELP T^T
AND REI’S CONFRONTATION WITH HIS DAD!!! AHH!! honestly i was expecting it to be a lot more brutal tbh i felt like it was sort of…. not a lot? i mean rei’s speech standing up to his dad was amazing (“miri, kazuki, and i share a bond stronger than blood. i want to become a real family.” OTL) but i was definitely expecting a bigger showdown…… BUT i mean im glad at in the end he and kazuki were able to get away unscathed (well apart from their bullet wounds lmao) and make it to miri’s show :’) when they walked in in their santa suits i SOBBED !!
AND !!!/?/))/&/)/ OUT OF ALL THINGS I ABSOLUTELY WAS NOT EXPECTING A TIMESKIP ????? OH MY GOD ??????? seeing miri all grown up and healthy and happy warmed my heart more than u can even imagine 😭 AND KAZUKI OPENING A DINER!! AND REI WORKING THERE!!! AND REI STILL COOKING HIS FRENCH TOAST!!!!!!!!!! AAAAHHHHH im literally sobbing into my pillow right now because of this perfect little family oh my god,,,,,, seeing them 10 years later happy and safe is just :’) such a sweet ending!!! absolutely not what i was expecting,,,, but im not mad about it!! as long as this family is together, i’ll take anything T^T except now i need an timeskip ova of the papas’ journey of dealing with a teenager daughter haha!
anyways thank you again anita for indirectly influencing me to watch this anime <3
omg no, sunny you're actually so strong for waiting a whole week to watch the episode bc i was literally refreshing my screen like a crazy person bc i wanted to avoid spoilers haha! but i totally understand where you are coming from! i had this weird anxiety over the final episode bc the previous episode felt so rushed so i wasn't sure if they would handle it properly, but i think it was a great finale considering everything!
the whole fight scene at the organization kinda blew my mind like the animation was soooo good and brutal and kept me at the edge of my seat bc it was that nerve-wreaking!! like i knew the creepy last word guy had to die but holy shit! stabbing him in the throat so he doesn't get a chance to say his last words was pure genius! and the whole "partner" thing had me smiling like an idiot lol they really are partners in every sense of the word and always got each other's back :')
yes, i was also expecting a bigger showdown between rei and his father and i did want rei to kill him too! but the more i thought about it (especially after reading this post), it definitely made more sense that rei wanted to stop the cycle of violence and allow vulnerability and care to enter his life! that's the change he was desperately asking kazuki about! that whole montage had me crying as well - the "warmth of sleeping three to a bed" was the one that got me the most emotional OTL
i actually was expecting a timeskip! though i never thought it would be 10 YEARS in the future! i assumed they would do like a year later at most... so getting such a far out future timeskip was a real surprise! i think they wanted to go out that far to imply that miri is old enough to actually know the truth about what happened to her mom. but regardless, it was soooo lovely to see how domestic they are together! running a diner was the perfect idea bc i definitely think food has always been the center of their relationship dynamic; the cake was literally what got miri into their life :') the way it ended showing that they've been a family for 10 years and that they'll be a family for many more years to come is honestly what made the ending so sweet and delicious!
i'm happy that i was able to influence you into watching this show hehe and thank YOU for talking to me about it! it made my whole watch experience even more enjoyable and delightful <3
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bubbleteaimagines · 3 years
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i love your pretending to give the haikyuu boys head that genuinely made me smile 🥺 (if you're doing requests do you think you could do that with the aot boys if you haven't already? I know for sure porco would break)
Pretending to give the Attack on Titan Boys head prank
Attack on Titan Boys Headcanon
Warnings: NSFW Content
Authors Notes: Bdkalalal you’re absolutely right Porco would just stand there like 🧍🏻“You deadass rn?” He’d be so mad PLEASE
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EREN JAEGER
He’s probably on his phone, watching TikTok too LMAO
You have headphones on tho and Erens just playing his shit out loud, so he doesn’t see you watching the prank
As soon as you see it, a grin forms on your face and you decided to try it
Dropping a random hair tie, you fall to your knees right in front of Eren’s dick
This mf is so cocky, immediately putting down his phone and chuckling
“You wanna suck me off, huh baby? Always trying to please me,” He smirks and you have to fight the urge to roll your eyes at him
“I’m just picking up a hair tie,” You tell him nonchalantly, rising again and grinning at Eren’s shocked face
“W-What?” You burst out laughing as his face completely falls, “So you’re not-”
“It’s a Tiktok prank, babe,” You tell him, “You of all people should have seen that coming. You’re literally on the app,”
Good luck LMAO now Eren’s all pouty and refusing to cuddle cause you’re quote on quote, “Mean to him.”
LEVI ACKERMAN
So Levi’s just chilling, doing some stuff for work when all of a sudden you come in when a sly idea
His biggest mistake was leaving you alone, bored and on TikTok cause suddenly you have a sly idea
Going into his office, you knock quietly before entering
“Do you need something?” He asks without even looking up, too focused
“Just this,” You give him an innocent look and then drop to your knees, crawling under his desk and blinking up at a shocked Levi
“What are you doing, brat? I’m working,” He tries to sound annoyed but you can tell he’s interested from the way he’s shifting closer to you
“What? I’m just grabbing my pen you stole from me,” You grumble suddenly, holding it up and smirking
Levi’s eyes narrow
“Oh really?” He knows for a fact that wasn’t what you were doing, and the feign innocence in your eyes proves it
“Yep. I’ll be going now- have fun~” You sing, but Levi stops you before you can leave
“I don’t think so,” He growls, the paperwork suddenly forgotten as he zeros in on you. “Get on the desk. It’s time I took a break, don’t you think?”
REINER BRAUN
Don’t do this man like that
Reiner is stressed as it is, and you know blowjobs are his absolute favorite
But let’s just say you’re evil like that and decide to try it one day
Reiner’s on the couch, just doing whatever Reiner does and suddenly he sees you come into the living room with a shy smile
He knows something is about to happen, as your phone is in your hand and he’s pretty sure you’ve been scrolling on TikTok for a while now
But still, even though he’s prepared when you lean down in front of his dick, he still freezes up
“Babe? What are you doing?” He tilts his head to the side as you give him an innocent smile
“Nothing. Just this,” As soon as you push your hair out of the way Reiner’s eyes are wide, staring at you like really? Now?
You blink innocently and bend a little further, placing your hand on his thigh for dramatic effect. But just when Reiner starts to relax, hands slowly snaking down to you, you bend a little further, pick up the remote, and get up
“Just thought we could watch a movie together,” You tell him, trying to stifle your laughter at his shocked expression
“Okay,” Reiner blows out a breath, and he really is a trooper bc even tho he’s lowkey disappointed he won’t bug you
However, you start to feel bad the more he actually goes along with it, watching the movie you picked with no complaints, only shifting a little here and there
Halfway through, you can tell he’s still horny so you sigh and decide to give him the real thing this time
“Oh? I thought it was a joke,” He chuckles as you get on your knees and tug on his sweats
“Yeah but I felt bad. You’re patient even when you’re horny- it’s not fair,” You pout, knowing you’d never have the restraint that Reiner has
“Well if you insist...”
PORCO GALLIARD
The minute you do this prank be prepared for Porco to simply just pass away ™️
If he sees you getting on your knees he’s automatically excited, dropping whatever he was doing and immediately going to grip your hair
You can feel his fingers tugging on your locs and honestly, it’s kinda hard to continue cause this man is literally pulling you towards his dick 😂
But let’s just say somehow you manage to wiggle free and tell him that you were just reaching for something you dropped
Oh
OH
His smug smirk literally just melts away and his jaw drops, not believing what he was hearing
“You mean you’re not sucking my dick?”
“What? No Pock I’m not.”
“But...why?”
PLEASE this man is so bold he’ll try to put you on your knees again but you run away, laughing
“Porco I said you’re not getting head why did you even think that?”
Please he’s so mad
Like...you really just played him like that
He’s like that, “Fine then good luck ever getting your pussy ate again,” and now you’re the one changing your tune cause he’s being straight up petty rn
ZEKE JAEGER
If you try this on him...good luck lmao. You clearly don’t value your walking abilities
Zeke is eyeing your ass the minute you come outside, where he’s smoking on the porch
Quite honestly you’re nervous cause there’s no telling how this man is gonna react, but you decide to try it cause the views am I right?
Anyways, the minute you get on your knees and look up at him Zeke is sitting up straight, smoke lightly hitting your face as he looks down at you
“You trying to start something?” He asks, raising his eyebrows and you gulp as you lean down, eyes flickering to the object under his chair, “Out here?”
“N-No,” You shake your head and then reach out to retrieve your shoes, glancing back up at him, “I left my slides out here. I’m about to go to the store, you want anything?”
It’s dead silent for moment as Zeke catches sight of your camera, everything suddenly clicking in his mind. Slowly, he stares at you saying nothing as finishes his cigarette, and then he stomps it out, rising from his chair
“Zeke...?”
“Come on,” He says suddenly, walking over to where your phone was and grabbing it. You gulp as his face appears in the camera, eyes rolling as he shuts it off and then pockets it. “Take them shoes off. You ain’t going to the store. There’s something you need to do first.”
“Oh shit,” You swallow thickly as realization begins to set in
“Oh shit is right,” He chuckles, “Next time, think twice about trying out one of your little pranks on me. Don’t let TikTok be reason you can’t walk the next morning.”
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tendouluvr · 3 years
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not telling them you’re pregnant - f!reader
- fluff, sliiiight angst maybe
- characters: suna, sakusa, semi
- warnings: pregnancy (i don’t go into detail of giving birth or anything), cravings, morning sickness aka throwing up, two mention of the act of sex in semi’s, some cursing
- wc: 1.4k, 888, 946
a/n: it’s f!reader cuz pregnancy but there’s no specific pronouns/gendered terms used
also idk how suna got so long, he was the last one i wrote for bc i couldnt think of anything lmao
[2. iwaizumi, atsumu, kageyama]
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SUNA
#! suna has been practicing late into the night the past few weeks
#! there’s a big game coming up and the entire team is feeling the pressure and adrenaline from the crunch time
#! you haven’t been feeling too good lately, a lot heavier and more tired than usual
#! thinking it was just stress from work and the missing presence of your boyfriend, you pushed through it and thought it would go away in the next few days
#! unfortunately, luck wasn’t on your side and you started to get sudden needs to throw up
#! it didn’t take you long to realize why your physical and mental drive have been down lately
#! you’re pregnant
#! or you believe you are
#! you bought a few tests, some of different brands so you can have a variety, and headed home to confirm your suspicion
#! a few minutes later, staring back at you was multiple positive symbols and the bolded ‘PREGNANT’s
#! taking a few deep breaths, you decided to tell suna tonight once he comes home
#! you thought it was better to let him know as soon as possible
#! it wouldn’t hurt anyone plus the faster you rip the bandaid off, the easier it’ll be to deal with it
#! so you waited
#! and waited
#! until 11pm that night, when suna finally came through the front door
#! “tarō! how was practice? can we talk?” you hurriedly greeted him
#! he was taken aback, not expecting you to be right beside him and in his ear as soon as he came in
#! of course you weren’t, you made sure to put some space in between you and him
#! but suna was stressed and tired, so everything is intensified to him at the moment
#! “can you back up?” he mumbled, pushing his way from in front of you to walk to the kitchen
#! “oh, sorry. can we talk?” you sheepishly smiled, hoping he would say yes
#! you’re not blind, you can tell that suna was tired but you really didn’t wanna put this off
#! you were just gonna tell him, he gets surprised, you both talk it out, and then go to bed and continue figuring things out tomorrow morning
#! but before any of that can happen, suna bluntly told you, “no. i’m tired. i’m sure whatever it is isn’t a big deal. can it be tomorrow? i wanna sleep.”
#! you didn’t get to answer before he was already walking away to the bedroom
#! understanding where he was coming from, you mentally agreed to talk to him tomorrow. one day wouldn’t change anything and you’ve seen plenty of people not tell their partners until a few weeks in
#! he was right, it wasn’t a big deal (yet)
#! so you waited until tomorrow
#! and waited
#! and once again, he came home late
#! “hey! can we quickly talk, babe?”
#! “i’m tired. tomorrow, okay?”
#! “oh, okay. night, rin!”
#! “g’night.”
#! night came and there was still no talk
#! this continued on for about 2 weeks, you finally choosing to not care anymore and just let him find out whenever he finds out
#! technically, you could’ve just blurted out a simple, “i’m pregnant.” any point during your nightly five seconds conversations
#! but seeing that he really was tired, springing it onto him would either put him in a full body shock for three days or he just doesn’t fully process your words until three days after
#! a month has passed, your stomach was still barely showing like most women at their one month mark
#! you decided to book an appointment for a checkup, it’ll be while suna’s at practice
#! and that doctor appointment was the exact reason suna found out
#! he was at practice when komori entered the gym
#! he had a doctor’s appointment for his annual checkup, and that’s where he saw you
#! you didn’t see komori, busy reading the directory to find your way to the right office
#! but he saw you on the way out. seeing that you looked a bit busy, he chose not to greet you and just quickly walk to his car lmao why is this funny to me
#! entering the gym, he greeted everyone and apologized for his tardiness even though it was excused
#! walking up to suna, he tapped him on the shoulder and quietly told him, “i saw yn at the hospital earlier. it’s been awhile since we all got together huh, they looked a bit different.”
#! ok so komori, being the smart person he is, deducted that you were pregnant when he saw your finger pointing at the ob/gyn office
#! and he genuinely thought suna knew so his comment was suppose to be a small joke that was meant to tease suna and his sex life
#! suna, however, was confused
#! look different? did you get surgery?
#! “what do you mean?”
#! komori rolled his eyes and gave a sweet smile at suna, “congrats you two! when were you gonna tell the rest of us?”
#! suna: 👨‍🦲 huh
#! “are you guys not pregnant?” he blinked at suna’s frozen reaction
#! suna became unresponsive so komori just walked away mumbling to himself about being sure he read the sign right
#! a loud whistle blew and it shook suna out of his daze, everyone got ready to play a practice game of 3 vs 3 while suna ran over to the coach
#! “hey coach, um i think there’s an emergency at home. can i go? ok thanks.”
#! his coach just stares after him as he sprints off, you think? is there an emergency or not?
#! suna quickly drove home, he may or may not have speed a little, and entered the apartment
#! “yn? baby?” he called out only to be greeted back with silence
#! probably still at the hospital....what were you doing there? he thought to himself while rummaging around the house to find anything that could give him somewhat of an idea
#! he was digging around in the bedroom when you came home, his head so frenzied he didn’t hear the front door open
#! but you heard the ruckus from the bedroom and immediately went into fight or flight
#! panicking, you took out your phone to call suna while quietly opening the front door to make your way back out before the intruder catches you
#! the phone rang and rang until it was picked up. “suna?” you whisper-yelled into the speaker. you had a habit of calling him by his last name when you were freaking out. he noticed and was equally alarmed
#! “what’s wrong?” he whispered back just as panicked
#! “there’s someone in our apartment. can you come home?”
#! “huh? oh, are you home?” he cackles into the phone speaker making you move the phone away from your ear, “it’s me, sweets, c’mere.”
#! you warily walked on your tiptoes over to your bedroom, peeking your head in and what a surprise, it is suna
#! “jackass! why are you home?!”
#! “why didn’t you tell me?” he cut straight to the point
#! “huh?”
#! “you’re pregnant. when were you gonna tell me?” his voice sounding stern, but the quiet smile dancing on his face tells a different story
#! “i tried.”
#! “huh? what do you mean?”
#! “all those times i asked if we could talk. i was trying to tell you.”
#! his heart dropped, eyebrows furrowing, while he stared you down
#! suna became unresponsive once again, standing there trying to think back to the first time you asked him
#! two weeks ago
#! “i’m sorry,” he quietly whispers
#! “hm? i..it’s fine....i was a bit sad, but i’m over it. at least you know now,” you casually shrugged it off like it wasn’t a big deal
#! “no. i shouldn’t have pushed you aside like that. even if you weren’t pregnant, even if you had just wanted to tell me about some stupid video you saw that day, i shouldn’t have told you off. i’m sorry, i love you a lot and you deserve so much better.”
#! “tarō, shut up. i accept your apology and i forgive you, now make it up to me by giving me a back massage while i show you the ultrasound pictures!”
#! he kisses you before lifting you up bridal style making his way to the bed
SAKUSA
#! contrary to popular beliefs, sakusa is not an obsessive germaphobe who finds everything disgusting but you
#! he wouldn’t be playing volleyball if he was that afraid of germs,,,,,
#! yes, he cringes if random little kids grab onto him after games because 1) he’s drenched in sweat and that feeling is not fun
#! 2) he doesn’t even know themmm
#! and 3) he wanna go home
#! but sakusa loves you and if you happened to get pregnant, he would love your kid(s) just the same
#! however, he never told you this. he never really had a reason to voice this out loud
#! so when you actually did get pregnant, you were confused
#! the only interactions between sakusa and kids you’ve seen multiple times were the moments between him and his fans
#! you guys have been to family parties and his nieces, nephews, and cousins looooves him
#! maybe it’s the fact that he’s a tall looming giant and they just want to climb
#! but besides those moments, you don’t recall him ever telling you upfront that he wants children of his own
#! and the constant stress and pressure he always seem to be working around also doesn’t help reassure you in any way
#! being an athlete for a living means always watching your body, health, and looks for the cameras (but omi could care less about the last thing)
#! he also has to make sure whether or not he’s working well with his teammates, practice and improve on anything he’s having problems with, and deal with atsumu’s dramatic ass
#! you’re an overthinker and because of that, all of these reasons were just reasons for you to postpone the pregnancy news to your long term boyfriend
#! it wasn’t too hard anyway, considering practice runs late sometimes and he’s busy majority of the time doing other stuff
#! when you guys do have alone time together, you both are so focused on one another that you actually forget that you’re pregnant and you never told him
#! you’re about to hit the three months mark now — time goes by fast — and sakusa has noticed you and your body changing
#! at first he just thought you were going through a phase of cravings and a bit of bloating, so he didn’t mention it and just let you be
#! he never got to witness you getting morning sickness because he goes on early runs or he was just out doing morning errands so he wouldn’t have to deal with it later that day
#! so when he caught you in the kitchen cutting up a lemon, the last thing he was expecting you to do was bring the lemon directly up to your mouth
#! “uh, what are you doing?” his deep voice caught you off guard, effectively stopping the hand that was holding the lemon
#! you just stare at him, not wide-eyed, not surprised, just stare
#! “eating a lemon.”
#! “i can see that.... why exactly?”
#! “dunno, the baby i guess.” you casually shrugged it off before popping the lemon slice into your mouth
#! “ah-,” he opened his mouth to stop you from eating the lemon, your words not fully processing in his mind, but cut off midway and froze when he finally realized
#! hearing him pause like that made you suddenly remembered that you never told him you were pregnant
#! you slowly turned back to look at him, mouth still slowly chewing the lemon slices
#! a moment of silence later, he unfreezes and just starts stiffly walking towards you
#! he grabbed you by the shoulders, made you look him in the eyes, before whispering, “you’re pregnant?!”
#! “y-yes..”
#! his eyes were wide, black pupils expanding as he stared you down, his lips slowly curving into a small smile
#! “you’re pregnant....,” he whispers, mainly to himself, hugging your head into his chest
#! “mhm, get off me i’m trying to eat,” you gently pushed him off but he wouldn’t budge
#! “omiiii please, if you get off i’ll give you a slice,” you tried bribing him. he couldn’t tell if you were being serious or just teasing
#! “no.”
#! “um ok, two slices?”
#! “no.”
#! “omi!”
#! he giggles before opening his arms to let you go
#! “why didn’t you tell me?”
#! you didn’t reply right away, making him start to overthink
#! did you not want the baby? or did you not want a kid with him? did you not want to be with him anymore? or was it not his?!
#! he childishly shakes his head side to side at the last question. he knew you wouldn’t do that
#! but you were still silent, making him nervously glance at you from the side
#! “sorry, piece of lemon stuck in my teeth. i just forgot to tell you,” the words easily flowing out of your mouth nonchalantly
#! sakusa’s fingers were literally about to start twitching from anxiousness beside you
#! a sigh of relief was heard from him and you turned to look at him
#! “you okay?”
#! he doesn’t answer, just gives you a smile and goes back to hugging you from behind
SEMI
#! you were currently sitting on the couch in your shared apartment waiting for semi to come home
#! he’s been on tour for a few months now, you both kept in touch by facetiming, texting, calling, and any other methods of virtual communication
#! you would tune into the live recording of all of his performances when you had time so you could watch him
#! a few weeks into tour, you suddenly felt different than usual but shook it off as nothing and probably just you missing your boyfriend
#! you believed that until one morning you were woken up by the sudden urge to throw up, dashing to the restroom as fast as your drowsy body can go
#! it was then that you realized you might be pregnant
#! the night before semi left, you both had sex to enjoy your last few hours together before he had to leave for a few months
#! with the new realization, you quickly dressed yourself to make a short trip to the store to pick up some tests
#! after half an hour of looking at yourself in the mirror, trying to wrap your head around this, you finally opened the first box
#! a few minutes later, all 5 tests were lined up on the bathroom counter showing positive
#! you stared at the tests, trying to make sure you weren’t reading it wrong
#! once you began to understand the responsibility of being pregnant a few hours later, you made a mental note to go out and buy some food for yourself the next day
#! you decided to sleep off the rest of that day
#! through all of the facetime calls with semi, you never once told him you were pregnant
#! you knew that if you told him he would freak out and either demand to go back home, or stay but all of his attention would be on you being pregnant alone at home for the rest of the tour
#! so here you are now, sitting with a 4 1/2 months baby bump waiting for your beloved to come home
#! it was around 6pm when the front door opened, sounds of shuffling bags and heavy steps could be heard from the musician
#! he cursed under his breath when he almost tripped over a duffle bag with some of his loungewear, calling out for you as he walks further into the apartment, “baby? i’m home!”
#! he was about to speak up again when he saw you asleep on the couch
#! bouncing his way over, he got onto his knees at the edge of the couch to observe your face. god i miss you, he thought to himself
#! he gently shakes you awake, you jolted in surprise not knowing you fell asleep in the first place
#! “hmm- what?,” soft murmurs falling from your lips as you adjusted your eyes at your surrounding
#! “eita!” he grinned at you, both of you pulling each other into a hug
#! “fuck, i miss you so much.” he whispered into your ears before placing his face into your neck
#! “i miss you more.” you tightened your grip around him making him move up on the couch to get more comfortable
#! you both moved around until he had you cradled in between him, your back against his chest
#! his hands going under your his shirt to caress you there when his movements stopped right on top of your stomach
#! it was silent as his warm hands rubbed your stomach in circles, the gears turning in his head
#! “are you- you feel- why’s your tum so round and hard?” he quizzically asked, still rubbing your stomach
#! “pregnant.” your voice a low whisper, he almost didn’t catch it
#! “what?”
#! “pregnant.” you repeated, a bit louder this time
#! “huh?”
#! “pregnant!” you sighed, moving his hand so you can get off of him
#! he grabs your wrist to stop you from walking away and turns you to look at him
#! “you’re pregnant?!”
#! “i just said that. yes.”
#! you knew you sounded blunt and a bit mean, it wasn’t his fault he doesn’t know at all, but your hormones have been making you crankier and it’s out of your control
#! “sorry. yes, i’m pregnant.”
#! his eyes continuously darts up and down from your eyes to your bump
#! “how long?”
#! “since you left.”
#! “was it the night before?” he was referring to your act of intimacy the night before he left
#! “yea.”
#! “wow. why didn’t you tell me?”
#! “because.”
#! “‘cuz what?”
#! “because i know you. you would either stop touring and come home, or stay but lose focus. i was just trying to not distract you because i know how important your career is to you. and because i thought that you’ll be having a six months break after this tour before your next comeback, i would tell you when you came home. i’m sorry if you’re ma-,”
#! “i’m not mad. oh don’t cry, babe, look at me.”he carefully cups your face, “it’s okay, it’s okay. i get why you kept it from me. and now that i have no schedule for the next six months, i can be there for you until the end of your pregnancy and the beginning of our baby’s life alright?”
#! you weakly nodded against his palms, and he brings you back down to lay your head on his chest as you both softly talk about the past months without each other
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