#i am literally struggling enough as is

[nimomo-mo]

Vent

#i really enjoy being single and not dating actually #i dont have the time to focus on someone else #i am literally struggling enough as is #but sometimes i feel a bit lonely #not for long #but it twangs at me and then go right back #i dont love them anymore i think. at least its been smothered to low low embers #ill still be a bit hurt when they go out to sleep around again #but you know. im actually kind of at peace now #im too stressed out about school to think about my feelings or partners or anything like that. #and theyre a wonderful sexting partner so im all good #accidentally told them i loved them the way you say you love your friends ykwim #and im not even stressed about it #i hope they werent either. i do love them. i dont know if i love love them. but i know that i love them. #maybe the fact that theyre too fucked up from everything to really flirt with me like before is contributing to my feelings going down #i mean i do still think about them at least a couple times a day and i simp for them too much #but not at all like before. i wonder if they notice it #i love you. i love you. i love you. #its weird to call you a friend because to me youre more than that. best friend isnt true either. i guess you just ... are #no need to put words on it since i know my thoughts on it doesnt match yours. you dont have these kinda distinctions. #youre amazing. i wish i could be like you. i hate you with my whole soul. its horrible. i love you. fuck you i hope you smash your face in

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.

It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #like... anxiety and depression are often concieved of as simple and easy to manage... #...but that isn't the case for so many of us. anxiety and depression just have a lot more research invested into them... #...and while i wish this were the case for literally every other condition it does alter people's perception of you to some extent... #...so while this is NOT solely about anxiety or depression it includes us... #...my anxiety and depression and PTSD have *destroyed* my life. this is chronic and will probably be life-long... #...and that isn't my fault. i've done the fucking work but guess what? that doesn't account for the fact that I Am Just ILL #the least we can do for each other is to be compassionate #be compassionate to those who cannot heal. be compassionate to the people who can't manage their lives. this world is scary enough #recognize that management of symptoms is something not all of us can do - even IF their condition is labeled as 'easy to manage' #i allowed myself to feel angry that i can't heal 'normally' and that was unfair as fuck toward myself #and i NEED people to internalize this so that MAYBE this could help somebody else who is where i was #i NEED them to understand that it's okay that they are where they are - sometimes shit just doesn't turn out how you expect or want #don't beat yourself over you being a person. you are struggling enough. you deserve to rest. just rest please #and just... give yourself space

[aroaceleovaldez]

i stand by that a better, more sensible, and more intriguing plot for TSATS would have been, instead of retconning literally everything:

Bob is dead (because he was very explicitly absorbed/killed by Tartarus Himself in House of Hades, alongside Damasen), and nobody is going into Tartarus to save him. He made his sacrifice and is gone. However. Remember how the Titans, including Bob, were just kind of kicking around for several years? Particularly. On a cruise ship full of mortals. And Bob happened to be kicking around in general for an extra year versus all the other Titans. And he mythologically sometimes has a mortal demigod son who partook in the Calydonian Boar Hunt (Dryas of Calydon). Yeah.

So turns out, Bob/Iapetus leaves behind a demigod (demititan?) child. And because Nico was pretty much his only friend, he named Nico his child's godfather. And while he's not being left in charge of the child, as a son of Hades and godfather to this kid, Nico is duty-bound to fulfill Bob's last will and go find this like 2 year old to make sure they're safe. So Nico has to undertake this very unusual quest (that raises many questions, such as "demititans are a thing?" and "DOES THIS MEAN THERE'S POTENTIALLY MORE-?!" and "SHOULD WE BE CONCERNED ABOUT THIS?") and is kind of freaking out because. He's the son of Hades! He's notoriously bad with living things, and animals, and definitely small children! Even if he does find this kid and assure they're safe, he is the last person who should be undergoing any kind of quest involving even potentially having to babysit. Fortunately, his boyfriend is the human embodiment of sunshine and calmness and good vibes, and also once helped a nymph give birth, so he feels Marginally More Confident in theoretical demititan babysitting and offers to come along on this Epic Journey of Figuring Out What In Hades' Name Is Up With This Demititan Baby Business.

Proceed with wholesome epic shenanigans quest of Nico and Will scurrying around trying to locate this random OP baby while Nico has an existential crisis about the nature of his powers because he doesn't want to let Bob down! Both for Hades Kid Honor Reasons and because Bob was his friend! But what if he's destined to fail this quest just because of who he is? Because he's simply not built for hanging out with the living/mortals? And Will reassuring him that He Will Probably Not Traumatize The Weird OP Titan Baby And It'll Be Fine, and simultaneously getting a peek into the weird other life Nico leads hanging out with immortals much more than the average demigod, which Nico considers his norm. Bonus shenanigans of both of them getting caught off-guard and culture shocked from where each other's respective worlds (Nico's mostly-immortal versus Will's mostly-mortal) cross over and learning to navigate those for each other - Nico finally starting to make some mortal connections and get glimpses at modern mortal American life, and Will trying not to get his brain literally incinerated while Nico's happily casually catching up with some of his old friends who happen to be literal gods.

#pjo #riordanverse #nico di angelo #will solace #solangelo #long post // #LISTEN I JUST THINK WE DONT NEED TO BE RETCONNING THINGS WHEN THERE IS A HIGHLY INTRIGUING MYTH RIGHT THERE #listen. *listen.* Iapetus in myth has a demigod child? and we're in the series? that's all about demigods? #and had titans running around for 4 years? some primarily on a giant ship mostly full of mortals? #and Iapetus himself was running around for closer to like 5 years? #I AM JUST SAYING. that is enough time. and the right conditions. that there are perhaps demititans now. #that alone is a fascinating plot set-up that ties in basically all previous series inherently and has a reasonable starting point #of *course* Nico would be named Bob's child's godfather! #of *course* Nico would consider it a very important personal duty to see out Bob's final will and go on some quest about it! #and under those conditions it makes *perfect sense* for Nico to want to bring Will along! and that he would be very helpful on said quest! #bringing along a lot of skills and abilities in areas that Nico lacks! that are crucial for a quest like that! #also then immediately the plot becomes Will reassuring Nico about his powers being cool and not evil and him being spooky is okay #while Will is also trying to not literally have his brain melt cause Nico's casually introducing him to a trio of death gods or something #forgetting that Will cannot look upon a god's true form #and Will's dragging Nico across the US while Nico is struggling to keep up cause Will forgot that Nico's not American and not from that era #its cute! it's interesting! it immediately begs the question of a next-gen series focusing on a main cast of demititan kids #dont go back to Tartarus that's lame and overdone and ruins a ton of stuff. dont retcon everything that also ruins a ton #give us the fluffy roadtrip comedy that they clearly wanted to write instead anyways #you can even keep the elements of Nico feeling out of his depth and Will constantly on the verge of death. except it makes sense this time. #and it's kind of funny cause Nico's just freaking out over babysitting and it highlights how much tankier Nico is vs Will #even just in casual interactions. yeah Nico can casually look upon a god's true form. dont worry about it #meanwhile Will is slowly collecting sunglasses the entire trip and layering them up for whenever Nico introduces him to another deity

[autistic-beshelar]

ah yes dungeon meshi, the manga where an autistic man gets repeatedly bullied by people he thinks are his friends and not a single person supports him

#dont get me wrong i am enjoying this manga #but i'm failing to see how this is some great amazing autistic rep #like yeah laios is obviously autistic #and the struggles he has due to his autism are VERY relatable #but it's deeply uncomfortable that even the people closest to him are routinely awful to him #specifically for his autistic traits #and their bullying is almost always a joke #not a single person defends him #literally senshi is the only character that's never been cruel to him #well and farlyn but lbr she's also autistic and also has been in like half a chapter that ive read so far #maybe ive just not read far enough or not seen enough posts #but im not understanding why the fandom are treating it like amazing autistic rep and how it understands us so well #you could argue that the narrative tends to support laios's methods and way of thinking #but nothing else does #the scene with shuro was fucking awful to read tbh #'you're so annoying because you're autistic. how dare you think im your friend when you should have just guessed that i hated you' #and not a single person defends laios #or calls shuro out on what a fucking horrific way of treating a party member that is #like i dont know MAYBE you could have just said 'hey i don't really want to be friends' #maybe you could COMMUNICATE. #but no it's the autistic man who's the problem. for the crime of.... being too nice. #i don't have a problem with the scene. #i have a problem with the fact that shuro is framed as reasonable here. instead of utterly fucking vile. #i have a problem with none of the other characters sticking up for laios. #dungeon meshi #maybe ppl will start treating him better #i would like to continue reading #but if he continues getting bullied in EVERY fucking chapter as a 'joke' then idk man

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF SHENKO 1/?

The end of the world has a way of reminding you of all the things you forgot to say do. Mass Effect: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #kaidan alenko #sophie shepard #EDI #shenko #fshenko #mass effect #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #OTP: you're real enough for me #i learned i am physically incapable of creating less than like 20 gifs at a time #but shenko stonks are up right now!! #gif’ing my favorite bisexuals gives me joy 🥹 #even though ME2 is dry as shit for shenko content like it’s literally the sahara desert #like a whole ass 10 minutes max of cutscenes between shep and kaidan like come on #like 2 minutes in the prologue and like 8 minutes of cutscenes on horizon #and then an email and looking at the picture in your cabin before the suicide mission #i'm so sorry y'all ME2 shenko canon is absolute shit (besides kaidan being rightfully angry on horizon) which is why we ✨ignore it✨ 🥰 #but i rant about ME2 VS treatment too much so i will not write another essay about it in the tags #i will say the EDI line isn't the exact quote from the game but i think about it a lot tbf #same with the quote i borrowed from anderson too lmao (which is also a tiny bit paraphrased) #i just love EDI asking shep for relationship advice when you get to follow shep and kaidan's relationship/struggles across 3 games #and anderson's quote about all the things you forgot to do in relation kahlee to is just *chef's kiss* when you think about shenko #like whether it starts in ME1 or ME3 shenko has some really fantastic moments across the series #two characters with strong morals who realize that they're falling in love and literally start to become each other's strength?? #their soft place to land?? their support when they need it?? shenko will always have my heart #also the shenko quotes you get are the most fire thing in the world #you're real enough for me?? you make me feel human?? i want to be your strength- your soft place to land?? shenko you will always be famous #I FORGOT IM GONNA FIGHT LIKE HELL FOR THE CHANCE TO HOLD YOU AGAIN TOO LIKE?? #but i’ll stop ranting now bc i do that wayyy to much in my tags lol. have a good day wherever you are! <3

[ittybittybumblebee]

i want to see exactly how many people actually have thought i am for research because ive gotten this quite a few times from different people i just wanna see how far it goes

#please understand while im not doubting so much now im not going to base off everything by peoples perceptions of my online behavior but #i feel like it does give good insight #i just always have a little hesitation in me because i feel like no one can get a full scope or honest picture of myself to Know me enough #to say that i can trust their opinion of me without knowing me enough in that sense #gahh. cuz i always feel like im doing Just Fine Enough i feel normal enough but im not guhh. #GUHHGGGHGH #it literally wouldnt change anything for me. like im autistic . ok! shrugs my shoulders. i cope i cant to anything more to help myself #than that #do u guys get it. do i have to go eat bricks or do u guys get it. my internal struggle. im like sisyphus #i cant trust other peoples opinions of my and i cant trust my own perceptions #while of course self diagnosis is a wonderful thing i dont want to put a name on myself that serves me no purpose #autism is awesome but do i deserve that title when dont feel like i own it wether i am autistic or not #im just so conflicted. #do you get it. do you get me. am i being reasonable . am i just fighting a truth about myself or are my doubts realistic. but the Evidence. #im so tired #i do not wanna b one of those tiktok girlies saying theyr hyperfixated on cooking pasta #Now do you get me #all my long winded rabbit trail rambles out of me before i finally get to my one point condensed conclusion #and now i just cant delete the rest of my tags because of all my time spent on them #enjoy my indentity crisis lol #i Might delete some of these tags later

[scorpiontattoo]

going back to sleep after this but I feel like in btd, lawrence would probably be the most ideal mf to get stuck with if ur someone w a chronic pain/illness or some kind of disability. I feel like he'd be willing to accommodate it or provide (questionable) medication if it was requested of him and the captive was nice enough. I mean, arguably he would also treat ur body like a science experiment, try to trigger reactions, flare ups, etc, but like... I feel like strade or even ren would just look at it and be like "how can I exacerbate this issue" and not give u any help. after/before lmao. that n like,,, if ur like us n ur issues make u have trouble walking or moving, I feel like he'd be less afraid of u leaving/escaping. also bonus points for u being in a position where u need him/his help.

another thing- chronic fatigue? narcolepsy? hypersomnia? similar disorders? oh that dude is THRIVING. probably gonna mess w his nasty sleepy tea and see how it effects ur symptoms, maybe give u other drugs of questionable nature for similar effect... but most importantly? I just KNOW that corpsefucking blonde boy has a thing for somno, u are getting dicked down eventually. in ur sleep tho sorry.

I think the only thing he wouldn't enjoy abt a captive like this, personality factors omitted, is that a lot of chronic issues come w brain fog, hallucinations, things of that nature... and those seem like things he'd prefer to be able to trigger himself, I feel like he'd be frustrated that u came with built in brainfuck software. or maybe he'd find it super interesting?

idk,,, I also hc that lawrence himself has issues w chronic pain and some degree of mysterious rotting man chronic illness™ as a result of him rotting and shit so I feel like he'd also be a bit more equipped to handle it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#before anyone says im like. fetishizing thess issues. my system struggles w chronic pain and illness 👍 #i am literally only making these bc i can barely walk today it hurts and i want to think abt lawrence oleander #also sano would also arguably be good but i dont like him enough to give him that credit #boyfriend to death #lawrence oleander #derek.txt #headcanonposting

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

[justafriendofxanders]

*breathlessly* i think a lot of xander's Stuff stems from a desire for dependability and stability and growing up in a volatile home situation where that wasn't guaranteed which is why he constantly seeks out validation from his peers and like, the CONCEPT of what it means to be Cool or Likable and later a Good Breadwinner/Husband because he doesn't have any other models of what it means to Be Okay (whether it's in role models or a personal philosophy) or the confidence (or frankly, especially in the earlier seasons, the emotional intelligence) to trust that he's enough as he is. and i think part of the fucking tragedy of why he ends up pulling the ultimate flaker move of bailing on his own wedding is BECAUSE he takes commitment seriously and he's all too aware of how people can fail in the promises they make to each other, himself included, and he doesn't trust himself to NOT hurt his loved ones.

but i ALSO do think he rushed into marriage because he felt like it was the right thing to do, rather than because it felt right to him, if that makes sense. i think this is related to the meta about the willow/xander arc, which is to say that when you are insecure and it seems like things are falling apart, and you derive a sense of security from your relationships with the people in your life, it makes sense to double-down on those relationships and try to lock them down, for lack of a better word. because what else are you going to do, trust YOURSELF?

and it's this insane cycle where if you're judging xander as a real person you would or wouldn't want to be friends with (as opposed to a fictional rubiks cube i guess), then it's very easy to pick up on his flaws and the ways in which he can be annoying or hurtful or act (apparently) without consideration for other people's feelings. which is like, fine, whatever, consume media however you want. i'm just personally fascinated by (read: tearing my hair out about) the rubiks cube of how xander most often appears selfish and self-centered when he is most insecure and craving some kind of external reassurance. like sometimes i feel like i'm watching this man run around in a rodent shock maze of his own creation.

#idk am *i* the weird one here??? #am *i* insane for watching this teen drama like it's succession? #i also don't feel any desire to write off his weird aggro moments like i think it's perfectly interesting possibly even MORE interesting if #that's a legit struggle for him. like. look at his wedding nightmare #that's MY bastard tom/greg lovechild that grows up in ordinary(ish) circumstances and so is instead burdened with ordinary evils #ik people don't like that the narrative supposedly 'condones' his behavior or never appropriately 'punishes' him for it but like that is #literally so much of buffyverse. there are so many questionable character actions from everyone that there just isn't #enough time to delve into it all #that's what fanfic is for. imo optimal viewing experience is to treat the show like one of those beautiful little mini dioramas #like it's a beautiful set up. but you are going to have to move yourself around to really take in all the angles. maybe you will even have #to pick up a little model and rotate it around and play pretend with it for a little while #buffyposting #xander harris

[moreclaypigeons]

"they should not make me do school" says the guy who is actively enrolling in college classes,

#sierra speaks #its not my faaault #it is #it literally i #weeping #its classes i like even but how am i supposed to have my personal life together and have hobbies and also have homework #i struggle w homework a lot not bc i am not smart enough to do it but because executive dysfunction is a bitch #its not even that i do things i like instead. i just do basically nothing #and then the other bits of my life get fucked up slowly and that builds up #im literally sisyphus #like wdym i finished this weeks homework but next week im gonna get more.

[alltimewhat]

wound dehiscence can quickly escalate to infection or even evisceration

#it took me literally like a month to finish this drawing because i started it and did the sketch #and then immediately had NO ideas for the window panes LMFAO. so im really happy to have it done #im not sure i'm supremely happy with it but i'm definitely not Unhappy with it :) #reza #this piece kinda has a stupid level of symbolism in it that pretty much only i would recognize without being told LMFAO #i love to make very symbolic art of an oc that nobody knows enough about to understand #the main conceit though is that reza's abusive family altered his memories with magic. and he struggles a lot with the combination of #like #'i am missing the true facts of huge portions of my life' and simultaneously 'my parents left a lot of memories of them being awful #so how bad is the stuff they erased' #also a little bit about the harm he was groomed into causing when he was young and his own emotional autocannibalism

[sexygaywizard]

I really look like a motherfucking ghost today he is FRIGHTENING. Sheet of paper ass bitch. I am already so fucking pale it's like how much paler can they get? And then we have no sun for a month and I look like the fucking grudge bitch get her some goddamn vitamin d

#i actually am so fucking pale that most makeup companies literally do not have foundation light enough for me lmaooo... #and forget highlighter. bitch i cant find something my shade and u want me to get something lighter #i actually use white eyeliner as a highlighter sometimes... the struggle #i talk

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

Something I can't help but think is a little funny is that so many people look at Gabriel and try to figure out why he Acts Like That and they give him a mental illness/disorder they either have or have experience with. Anyways my working theory is that its low empathy autism

#i think like. okay you know how hakita literally took the time to explain during the dev stream recently that like #that gabriel audio on ferrys ship was to show how he acts to most people and not when hes fighting someone #and hes nice! hes polite! #i think gabriel is generally a nice guy but he has low empathy and struggles with black and white thinking #i think every time he had a realization hey maybe this thing me and the council is doing is fucked up one of them is able to convince him #its not because theyre the supreme authority in gods absence and god would approve and god is good #but gabriel would still feel deep down that something is wrong but wouldnt DO anything abt it #not trying to absolve gabriel of all the shit he was complacent in its more like. i do think the idea of him having black and white thinkin #and looking the other way when it comes to other angels doing bad because of course theyre good is an interesting thing to explore #i am putting this guy under a microscope. essentially. #also ive seen people say he has bpd and i dont know enough abt that to weigh in. also too busy shooting him with the autism ray

[rosielav]

Desperately need to find another currently ongoing podcast to listen to. I have nothing in my feed that releases new episodes except for MBMBAM and that's not nearly as exciting as I'd like it to be haha

PLEASE REC ME YOUR FAVORITE PODCASTS, PREFERABLY ONES STILL ONGOING OR WITH LOTS OF EPISODES!!!

Blease 😭😭😭😭

#Podcasts #podcast recommendation #Blease I keep getting recommended stuff that ended five years ago #Or only has like half a dozen episodes #Like I refuse at this point in my life to watch anime that is 12 episodes or less #Bc you just don't get enough substance #I'm very sure all these short podcasts are fun lil tidbits of comedy and horror and stuff #But I need something I can really sink my teeth into if you get me #Like my perfect ideal podcast is as follows #Ongoing with a full catalogue of previous episodes plus supplementary episodes or side stories that offer context #I need something to look forward to but also something to listen to right now #Camp here and there has been interesting but it's only 34 episodes and I'm literally about to finish the entire series #I don't feel satisfied when I finish something I feel empty which I'm sure could be psychoanalyzed to mean lots of bad stuff #So yes anyways lol I struggle to finish things that are short or have been finished for years #I can't bring myself to finish wolf 359 or the am Archives #For two drastically different reasons but still #The Amelia Project I was excited to csthc up on and now I'm excited for next season #Same with Victoriocity and the white Vault #But every other podcast I've listened to is completely finished and for one podcast I'm just not interested in the sequel #So yea... Please. Rec me something long and ongoing.... Blease.

[pochapal]

you can assert yourself and cut off a toxic relationship dynamic at any time. but watch out!! the Grief

#:) #extremely silly how literally nearly a month after the fact i am feeling these things #anyway i am smart enough to know i took the right steps for my wellbeing and the painful loneliness is a false demon luring me into a trap #but oughhhh trying to convince myself that one (1) incident doesn't mean i'm going to die alone and friendless is an uphill struggle

[squipdop]

sorry im a god gale truther btw i DO think he should get to usurp mystra and ascend to godhood and i do think that should be an absolutely awful thing to happen to him but also literally everyone else. sorry

#bg3 #not main tagging this further bc its. mad man 1:30am rambles #but listen. mh. #ok so. heres the thing. #while i do think. their relationship was absolutely fucked. and yeah we can argue for grooming and or abuse. #i also dont QUITE enjoy how ppl make gale like. the poor poor totally blameless victim. like. mh #how to phrase this so it DOESNT sound victim blame-y. but like. #from how i interpret the things he told & what the game shows. #my mans REALLY struggles with No's and rejection. and i wouldn't just put that as a Mystra Aftermath Thing #he WAS forbidden from trying to ascend/was told by her she wouldnt make him an equal. and his response basically was. #'but let me prove i am worthy of this' #which yeah. plays into the fucked up self worth. ill get back to that. #plus the uh. touch the orb scene? he just. grabs your hand and pulls it towards him because he WANTS to show you this. Now. #any rejection within the relationship? I Should Blow Myself Up #he got that gifted kid energy of everything always came easily to him and yet it wasnt ever enough and the relationship w a literal goddess. #certainly didnt help that. #so hes constantly reaching for more. and thats a fault of his because he will do that even if told not to because #at the same time he thinks of himself as smart enough to actually Get to that More. #and yknow w the orb? he literally. got So Badly Burned. is it deterring him? nnnnnnot really. #and i think. godhood would. idk i think he could do it. and i think it still wouldn't be enough. #and having an all powerful deity who ALSO a) still never is satisfied with his amount of power and control and b) thinks he know better than #anyone and could do better than anyone #sounds like its gonna fucking suck #anyways im rotating this all in my brain + ofc the delicious bloodweave combo of ascended astarion + new god gale bc thats just. ough #the mess. of this combo.