#hmmm i hope this was ok !!!

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #matt smith #suranne jones #hmmm hope this colouring looks alright #it's very similar to what i did last time... but slightly different lol #ok very tired tonight so going to bed now

[viatrix-glow]

new di x warrior cats

name explanations and more info below :3

basic stuff

-each agency is a clan, not each unit. 14-15 clans would be silly and then we would have some clans with 5 cats and some with 2.

-starpro -> lightclan. i couldn’t call them “starclan” for obvious reasons. light is somewhat synonymous with star, so i’m going with that.

-cospro -> nightclan. i don’t think the cats in warriors know the word “cosmic”, but cosmic implies cosmos implies night sky, so we’re going with night

-rhyth lin -> rippleclan. ripple is sort of a synonym to rhythm….? this one was hard

-new di -> fortuneclan. this one is a stretch but neither “new” or “dimension” have synonyms that really fit a clan name. fortune is something that relates to multiple characters in new di though

-starclan still sort of exists, but the cats do not believe in them the way they do in warriors. they are more of a nursery tale than anything, and select cats (ex: tatsumi) believe in them, but it is not written into their code. medicine cats can still interpret signs, but they do not necessarily think of them as coming from starclan.

-medicine cat forbidden romance is not a thing here

-intermingling of clans is ok and common

-there’s like. other cats in their clans besides just the enstars cast i assume

cat names/why i chose them

fortuneclan:

knights

-tsukasa -> scarletstar (scarletblossom) . he is the leader of fortuneclan because he is one of the new di reps for the summits. both scarlet and blossom were chosen bc of his last name (scarlet is a red color… kinda similar to cherry…. and blossom for the cherry blossom).

-leo -> lionheart. ok this one is kind of cheating because lionheart is already an existing warrior, but…come on….

-izumi -> silverspring. sora describes his color as silver, and spring is in his first name

-ritsu -> frostmoon. his first name means cold moon according to the wiki so i just rehashed it

-naru -> goldenroar. since she doesn’t like her first name i didn’t want to use “storm”, and her last name can be read as “thunder” but that’s a little too close to storm? so golden for her hair and roar for her last name

switch

-natsume -> sageeye. a sage is similar to a wizard, and eye is in his first name . also the “dovesong” mentioned is wataru :)

-tsumugi -> bluewing. he is a bluebird. warrior cats probably wouldn’t straight up call a cat “bluebird” so i put wing there instead. deputy cause he’s the vp

-sora -> skyspring . sora means sky. spring is in his last name. i could have used “stream” instead to differentiate him from sena but i think spring is cuter

mam/df

-madara -> tawnystripe . tawny bc it’s like kind of close to calico if you squint. stripe(s) is in his last name

#my art #enstars #ok so maybe we WOULD have 5 clans bc guess what was announced today #a new agency. and a new unit (or fucking 5? idk) #BUTWHATEVER #um i don’t know why i did this it was a joke at first but #then i started getting really into choosing names…. #like originally it was just gonna be switch but then i was like hmmm… what if the agency is the clan #i’ve been reading so so much warrior cats i’m about to finish avos and then i’ll be caught back up to where i was #when i started this rereading journey last year #so like i have to apply it to my other interests #i’m proud of the names i chose i think they’re fun #yes leo’s is a cheat but idc #i hope someone else will appreciate this it’s mostly just me doing stuff for fun #i want to do the other units/agencies too but that might be a while cause yall this took #like a week . granted i’m busy rn but god damn picking designs for cats is hard!! #that’s why so many ended up being tabbies i just can’t resist they’re my favorites i’m definitely not biased #but also realistically tabby is a pretty common pattern so it’s fine #my fave design is naru’s btw i wanted to make her really pretty and i think i did ok #ok i’m going to bed bye #also forgot to mention i wanted to keep the names as close to canon warriors as i could so i had to find words similar to things that #the cats in warriors would know #sage is pushing it i don’t think they use sage in medicine . they def don’t know what a fortune is either but i don’t care

[kijosakka]

alejandro,,, so fun <3 OKAY I HAVE MANY AN IDEA SO TO BEGIN WITH: panopticon

as established, panopticon is a Thing in this au mainly as a theme (but also a very very big influence in the creation of this in the first place).

panopticon itself refers to an institutional/prison design wherein a central guard tower and the construction thereof makes the prisons unable to tell if theyre being watched at any given moment; thus, self regulation.

^ dramaturgy, as an AU, focuses on noah acting ‘in accordance’ with the cameras in a genre-savvy adjacent manner; he self regulates. the ‘central guard tower’ to him is the audience.

to alejandro, however, the audience is not a variable. his competing does not factor in the audience and public the way noahs does; instead, his focus is shifted to his castmates.

to slot it in now, im talking about alejandros perception of the audience and the perception of him thereof (which, this and the above will be compounded upon with the stuff below further explaining alejandros facade/masking).

^ again, the audience just isnt a necessary variable to alejandro (at least, beyond *his family). playing in the manner he is, orchestrating and manipulating, you just cant fit in the time to placate the audience to make them love you. the more important thing is the opinions of his castmates, who are the real variables impacting his win.

and so, in short, alejandro is polarizing. people love a villain, but there is still the in-universe distinction of it being a reality show. it is real people; so, some part of TD’s audience will account that and denounce alejandro for being so comfortable in manipulating his peers so shamelessly.

[*his family, as seen in canon, seems to be something he is acutely aware of. he would be aware of how he presents himself, and would do so in a manner pleasing to them.

this is not to say hes unaware of the audience. he knows theyre there and speaks directly to them in the confessionals in a shifted manner (exaggerated/nitpicked for the purposes of this AU).

< where most characters speak about their competition to the audience, alejandro often speaks directly to the audience. tiniest distinction but i feel i should make it and emphasize it]

and now,, his actual facade; what it portrays, what it hides, and the reasons/motivations.

^ restating another post (ty ophe), alejandro has a mask of a person hiding antagonism. he acts like an idealist version of his actual person; kind, sensible, intelligent, considerate. athletic, helpful, goodhearted, compassionate, attractive to boot. taken to an extreme, holier-than-thou and patronizing. diminished, way overcompensatory, or maybe doormat-ish.

while this version of noah comes off as uncanny valley because no real person is so detached and lifeless, no real person is so perfect either. alejandro would trigger the same bells but to a much, much lesser degree. more like there were pieces of a puzzle missing rather than something distinctly wrong.

because alejandro seems like a person, he portrays depths and facets to himself (while all positive), and interacts with his castmates like how people interact with people.

it is, again, a the veil of an idealist person hiding antagonism. i don’t think alejandro is a cartoonishly antagonistic, unremorseful supervillain character (and hes not really portrayed as such in canon, but just to say), but he is absolutely not the perfection he portrays himself as.

now is a great time to add that alejandros mask heavily relates back to the expectations his family pushes on him; not only is it good socially (for the purposes of the competition) but theres probably a sense of validation there aswell (if shallow, because its still not an appreciation of the ‘real’ him).

^ and thats a Thing as well, the ‘real’ alejandro. flawed and imperfect, able to be irritable and snappy and meanspirited with arrogance hiding the cracks of overwhelming inferiority. as a person, that is, in intent for the game hes, well, an eel. conniving and slippery and manipulative and sly and vindictive and unapologetic.

and as for reasons,, staying in line with the burromuertos ‘high society’ position in this AU, maybe it was something like a way to prove himself; he works the social game and shows business promise because of it, and brings a hefty sum of money home to his family that he earned.

and his facade is an easy one, not only a way to show a sense of professionalism and keep the burromuerto name ‘untainted’ by blatantly unsavory behavior similar to someone like duncan, but a way to keep his castmates none the wiser while the steals the money from under them.

BUT within the au itself things umm do not go to plan as noah makes it his mission to unmask alejandro as just as fake as he himself is.

which brings about the topic of a very specific cast relationship: noah and alejandro

as,, yk,, the backbones of his entire au (ok its more like nervous systems. noah is central and alejandro is peripheral) i want to save a full digging into their relationship and developments for another post entirely (probably going episode by episode until pre london focusing mostly on alejandro, and then another post after i figure out the actual events of WT going through the changed canon)

but to just go through it very quickly; noah doesnt trust alejandro and sees through him. alejandro eventually catches wind of the fact that noah doesnt trust him, and i imagine it would trigger a wondering of how? spurred on by noahs whole ‘no substance’ thing.

and besides, nobody has anything on noah despite him being their castmate going on 3 years now. and now that he’s thinking about it, what does he himself really know about noah in the same way he knows things about the rest of the cast? that’s interesting. *

^ i imagine alejandro would be wary but not worried about noah knowing, simply because of the passive nature he’s read of the other. < poor alejandro. it is not nearly that easy.

[*interesting,,, i will cover that more on the actual post going ep by ep for their relationship. because i do have Thoughts]

#ramblimg <3 #i wrote this in a frenzy and hit post right before my melatonin kicked in #hope it isnt too incoherent but if it is then uhhhhhhhh #yeah. 👍 #alejandro is so fun and interedting actuslly #i did mean to rb that other post with this but. #hmmm #dramaturgyAU #total drama #td alejandro #character analysis #might alter the details of this a liiiitle bit but for rn this is ok

[partyswirl]

:o… may I rq… either snowball x winner or profily x paintbrush :D? You don’t have to do both lol

the silliesss (i hope this is the right paintbrush lol)

#i like profily ok... i cant turn down a little profily i like their colors... #ANYWAY i was like hmmm idk this ship is interesting but i dont understand. but it grew on me rlly fast!!! #+i think profily would make an excellent addition to the bright lights polycule also #i feel like profily enjoys lying not maliciously they just like making things up. like oh yea have u heard of this thing called a drop bear #<— ...i fell for that one when i was younger lol. anyway theyre just a lil mischevious. 2 me. they kinda remind me of fan #ANYWAY tags #bfdi profily #profily bfdi #bfb profily #profily bfb #ii paintbrush #paintbrush ii #iii paintbrush #paintbrush iii #crossover ship #<— ye a #there isnt a paintbrush in bfdi that im just forgetting right... i hope this is correct lmao #bfdi #bfb #ii #iii #battle for dream island #battle for bfdi #battle for bfb #inanimate insanity #inanimate insanity invitational #beasts fed #doodle #art requests tag #I ALMOST FORGOT MY OWN TAGS AHZHAJJZLQMAL

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Lmfaoooo that ask ab sugu opening jars n stuff for u made me think. imagine sugu dating someone that was the eldest child™️ . Like someone that’s just so used to doing things for themselves and not asking for help with anything. He walks in on u cooking something for urself?? Drops to his knees clutching his heart as if you’ve fatally wounded him. Sees you washing the dishes or doing chores??? You’re literally about to give him a heart attack. Witnesses you overworking yourself (especially if it’s for the sake of other people)?? Is genuinely, wholly, absolutely horrified. The walls are caving in. He’s hearing colours. He’s shaking and writhing around on the floor like a little worm having a seizure. He can’t even breathe what on earth is he to do… 💔💔— stsg anon >:)

STSG ANON MY BELOVED HI HELLO <3333

THIS ONE …………… i cant breathe . IM BEING FED TOO WELL IM COLLAPSING IM CLUTCHING MY CHEST SUGU STYLE….

NO BC STSG ANON. ur MIND. sugu x eldest child…. sugu x eldest child……. the POTENTIAL here. god im losing it I AM KISSING UR BRAIN MWAH MWAH….. we need to talk abt this we neeeeed to acknowledge how perfect this is literally WHAT

ohhhh my god. the way he would be so………… offended and doting and worried. like. i think that his mother instincts would JUMP out w an s/o like this because he’s just ?!???? you’re just so used to managing on your own and it kinda breaks his heart i think :((( and he’s literally exactly the same way LMAOO it’s just one eldest child + one neglected only child trying to take care of the other because being on the receiving end w/o giving something back makes them wildly uncomfortable 😭😭

AND STSG ANON I LAUGHED OUT LOUD READING UR ASK he would be soooo horrified so flabbergasted…… “drops to his knees clutching his heart as if you’ve fatally wounded him” PHDJDHDH HE WOULDDD HE WOULD!!! god FORBID you cook for yourself while he’s in the house smh smh… he would genuinely get offended like do you suddenly not like his cooking???? are you tired of it???

he starts spiralling a little LMAO but no you just dont want him too spend too much time on you….. :(( and THAT reallllyy offends him like. ohhh this is such a tasty concept i cant think. u always do this stsg anon </3 but eldest child x sugu rlly is the most bigbrained thought EVER

“the walls are caving in. he’s hearing colours. he’s shaking and writhing around on the floor like a little worm having a seizure. he can’t even breathe what on earth is he to do…” <- PSHDHDDB THIS IS THE REALEST THING EVER he really has a full body reaction he’s sooo 😭😭 our sweetiepie!!!

and ohhhh if you overworked yourself 🥺🥺🥺 i agree sm he’s genuinely heartbroken like he HATES it. he hates the idea of you running yourself ragged taking care of others when you arent even taking care of yourself (let’s be clear!! this man is a hypocrite LMAOO but he also feels especially heartbroken because he knows what it’s like)….

i think it might be uncomfortable for his s/o because he’s so stubborn!!! he’ll coax you into sitting down on the kitchen table while he finishes what you started ; insists on washing the dishes or at least drying them while you wash them ; forces you to relax and unwind LMAO like this man is strong ok he’ll literally pick you up and carry you away if he needs to . bundles you up in blankets so you cant escape. it might make you uncomfortable because it’s just so foreign and he’s sooo insistent on taking care of you :< he’s so sweet but obv it would feel a little scary if it’s something you’re completely unaccustomed to….

aaaa but !!!! i think this pairing could work out SO well w a bit (a lot) of communication bc both sugu and reader would have to learn to compromise and let themselves be taken care of… i still see sugu being the main caretaker because it’s genuinely in his nature but he’ll let you take care of him if ONLY so that you’ll feel more comfortable being taken care of yourself <33333

#im kind of obsessed w these two TYSM STSG ANON I LOVE U <3333 every time i see u in my inbox i giggle n kick my feet !!!! #this was a whole MEAL honestly tysm #OKOK BUT … since the eldest children get sugu i think the middle children should get gojo. it just makes sense to me ok #like a middle child who’s used to being independent not really receiving the attention & affection that they needed as a child… #and BOOM here comes satoru gojo who will literally suffocate them w love <3333 #(im not saying this JUST bc im a middle child ok …. i just think it makes sense) #as for the youngest children hMMM…….. why does a part of me say nanami 🤔🤔 #many thoughts in my brain rn #i ADOREEE this stsg anon i hope ur having a wonderful day or night <333 #ask tag ✩ #stsg anon !! ✩

[bobbimorses]

thunderbolts v4 #1

#clint barton #hawkeye #luke cage #john walker #us agent #helen astrantia #ok so i was like 'yeah clint totally zoned out the second he heard us agent is on the side he gets to beat up' #but then the potential possession panel at the end had me going 'oh wait. hmmm' #i would hope not tho! #possession vs the specter of mental illness #tbolts #wednesday spoilers

[theinfinitedivides]

Heon in ep 3 letting one of the many Vigilante copycats go bc he said they didn't have what he was looking for (if they were really the Vigilante they wouldn't be afraid to see him) and then Heon in ep 4 standing face to face with Ji Yong and having him check every box. literally immediately clocking him as a threat to the established law and order all while we have the voiceover flashback when he actually answered the professor's question as to what he would do if the Vigilante was one of them. Choices were made here and i shall not complain

#tv: vigilante #vigilante #vigilante kdrama #nam joo hyuk #yoo ji tae #kim so jin #lee joon hyuk #kdrama #local gay watches Vigilante.txt #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #'if it turns out that the Vigilante is a good person. upstanding. and if he's young and good-looking besides... the public will go wild.' #*camera cuts to Ji Yong's face* #hmmm. ok. i hope that's the convo Heon is replaying in his brain as he realizes the forces he's working with here #edit: Kang Ok sliding in in the end to observe the dynamics is the highlight of this entire scene for me tho. he's like '🏳️‍🌈?' #and i'm like 'that's exactly it babe. say hello to your competition'

[meltsyoutodeath]

It’s happening again.

Of course, most of them knew this would happen again. Some looked forward to it. Some tried to forget it. Some were afraid of truly losing something this time, of somehow, not being able to get back the people they lost, fought against, hated, loved, killed.

It never mattered in the end. They were scars, and they were there, and occasionally it’d come up between the people who were in those games, but it doesn’t tend to be a big deal. Sometimes, one of them will have a nightmare about killing a friend, blood running down their hands, weapon thrown haphazardly to the ground after the moment of panic has passed. Sometimes, one of them will have a nightmare about cacti and bloody fists. Sometimes, one of them will have a dream about ice, snow and a home, and that dream will turn into a fence that seems so much taller than it is and broken hearts. Sometimes, one of them will have a nightmare about  clocks and ticking time, a betrayal that, much later, in an unrelated moment, becomes trust and a bond they cannot break.

None of them are having those nightmares now.

Those who look around notice the lack of a man who was once a king, then a loyal knight, and then a heartbroken wolf.

Most of them do not look around. One of them’s heart aches. Most of them simply run.

Of course, it’s fun. It’s always been fun, at least in the beginning. It’s fun until it isn’t. It’s fun until you begin to forget who you were before this place and your memories begin to fade away.

It’s fun, when you wake up on your bed in another server, after thinking your life was over, that that was it, gasping for air or laughing hysterically or in an eerie silence, remembering just what all that has happened was.

This world has a border.

Every one of these games does. Forces them to fight, one of them, the one who occasionally has more than two eyes, explained once. It’s more interesting and fun like this, he had said.

Normal worlds have borders, too. It’s just that those aren’t truly there; they create them in their minds, to limit, subconsciously, how far from what they took so long to build they can go. Those borders are surpassable, and it’s even fun to explore beyond them, although they don’t realize there was ever a border in the first place.

This border is blue and transparent and doesn’t stop moving.

There is a village right outside the border.

There had been a village in this game, once, in the first time. It had been a useful resource, although sometimes one may think of a burning tree or a creeper that exploded a little too close when looking at a village.

They try to reach the village. It’s exciting, with its promise of resources and trades and people who aren’t trying to kill them. Of course, villagers aren’t like players, but it’s still something nice, on top of being useful for trades.

There are houses in the village, with happy people living their lives and worrying about no timer ticking in the corner of their vision or boogeyman curses. They have roofs over their heads and items in their chests, there’s people they know won’t betray them for a tainted win of a twisted game that they’ll forget they agreed to come to soon.

The players approach the village, with all its promises and whispers. Subconciously, some of them want to be under a stable roof. Consciously, some of them want to loot the place. Consciously, some of them want to kill its residents. Subconsciously, some of them are jealous they won’t die in the hands of who they love.

There is a barrier in front of the village.

They try boats, they try jumping through it, but it doesn’t work. They look at the wheat and the houses and the farm. The barrier moves in front of them.

They turn around, some quietly, some grumbling about lost resources, some complaining that it’s unfair, some pretending they don’t care.

They cannot have the village.

#hey guys how are we doing in this fine day #I don't know what possessed me to write this #anyway hi it's the first time I write anything traffic related I think. hope it's not TOO bad #maybe it'll deal you psychological damage even #in which case I am winning #all this happened because I saw the village outside the border and I was like oh. how can I make this bad #also I spent like.. 20 minutes trying to find out what exactly ren's deal in LL was. for that one line about him not being there this season #OK ACTUAL TAGS TIME #trafficblr #mcyt #limited life #limited life smp #limited life spoilers #<- just to be safe #hmmm who gets '''directly'''' mentioned here #ethoslab #bdoubleo100 #gtws #grian #rendog #impulsesv #inthelittlewood #<- he's there only for half a line but it's ok #traffic smp #ok I'll stop tagging now sorrey

[thypickles]

If we simply ignore episode 7 then it didn't happen right? That's how it works right? Just like with good omens season 2 episode 6? If we ignore it it's not canon???

#ok like there is some hope #not a lot but i am choosing to ignore the doubt #since there is still 1 episode left #hmmm i have more thoughts about the show #unfortunately they r all simply vibes #since my actual thoughts r about how i want to be spun and warmed up as if i were a rotisserie chicken #our flag means death #ofmd spoilers #ofmd season 2 #ofmd #i think im hungry this is the secodn time ive brought up food in the tags of an ofmd post

[gecko-in-a-can]

Trick or treat! :3

Hmmm I thiiiink

Have some weird gummies! They look like they might taste a little sour

#I hope you like it! #I saw the username and was like #‘ok wait what can I give you #Hmmm legion dog gummies’ #thanks for the ask! #trick or treat 2023 #happy halloween

[vanroesburg]

movie redraw again, aka That Injured KID Scene

+ closer to detco style vs a bit of my own style

[ID: Two digital art pieces of Kaitou KID, from detective conan movie 23, Fist of the Blue Sapphire. KID is an indigo-eyed, light-skinned teenager with short spiked brown hair dressed in his Kaitou KID costume. Both images show KID in profile, slumped against a wall and blood on his shoulder and face. He is sweating, a pained smile on his face, with the sunset in the background framing a blurred crane. There is a monocle barely shown on his other eye. End ID.]

#dcmk #kaito kid #kaitou kid #dcmk fanart #fist of the blue sapphire #vanroeswork #im just posting work from months ago now… forgive me #love this scene though! and the scene immediately after maybe ill draw that later #this was so fun to play with i love sunset colors so much #i was honestly not satisfied with just the detco style version so i painted one closer to my style but maybe the detco one is better #hmmm #indecisiveness is my middle name i guess #anyway i hope it looks ok #oh my god #i forgot #blood tw #tw blood

[calumsash]

⭐ 1k moodboards celebration ⭐

throam cashton au for @daydadahlias

#i absolutely loved making this throam is forever in my heart #one of the best literate i've read. hands down. #had to scan from my actual printed throam book to use the quote 🥰 #ashton is ryan and calum is brendon btw #i would love to know who else read throam and love 5sos except me and jess akshdhskdj #if this is paths that can cross with more people hmmm #ok jess this is for u hope u liked it!!! #5sos #5sos moodboard #aesthetic moodboard #cashton #*1kmbs

[lampthegloomyone]

he is made of flesh and stuff

#oc #ho mangiato una pizza molto buona qualche ora fa. mi é piaciuta molto devo dire #fleshy guy hmmm #he is sometimes angry. #original character #i hope his colors are nice overall #idk what else to put here hiiiii guys hiiiii #hiiiiiiiii ^_^ #Ok #not sure if im using tags right. sorry guys #Gootbye

[thestarbirdfromtheashes]

Another thing I want to mention:

How

Is it possible

That Cassian looks amazing in that prison outfit

I know he’s in prison

But fam

He lukt guud.

#cassian andor #a fashion icon #he wasn’t even wearing a jacket! #there were a lot of shots of his feet tho #i feel like Tony is covering all his bases for all us stans #he’s like ‘hmmm gotta cover all kinks for all da thorsty bishes out thar’ #WOW my phone autocorrects to ‘bishes’ #that’s…that’s a thing for me I guess #anyway #andor #andor spoilers #i hope melshi gives him #shit #like let’s see a cool dynamic here #where melshi respec cassian but is like ehhh ok so I used to be A Bawss in my prev lyfe #and U DON KNO ME #so stawp #i feel like that’s not gonna happen but #we’re not gonna get a Buddy cop arc either lol #anyway I digress #i s’posed to be washing the floor #GETTA BUCKET ANDA MOP FOR THIS WAP WAP WAP #apropos #thx cassian 😘 #doing the Lordt’s werk

[farmerlesbian]

ftr i only tag like (reclaimed) slurs on here bc i feel like this is a ~big blog and has (what to me feels like) a lot of followers. i dont tag them on my personal blog bc i do what i want there.

starting to kinda question this decision like mini policy i made for myself and if it really makes sense. for me it feels bad and i dont particularly like tagging all uses of them but idk idk what do you guys think? how do yall feel? really would like more input on this. i see both (? i think there's only 2 sides but idk) sides but neither option feels great.

#reclaimed slurs #slur reclamation #tagging slurs #uh #not farmer lesbian content #mod alfalfa #i kind of intended this blog and see it as a community space more? #and not really a personal place so i just don't feel as much ownership to make choices like i want this to be #hmmm as... inclusive? as it can be for lack of a better word #i do hope yall can tell i like to call myself a dyke based on how much i reblog stuff with that in it #maybe its a bad sign if i'm only tagging it bc i feel obligated? #euughh bad options all around #again pls do give ur thots n feedback much appreciated lov u all #i don't know if theres a right answer #i just want to know how my followers feel about it like what yall would prefer / be ok with #about

[yipeewahoo]

the closest i ever got with an online friend was someone from my dream smp phase , e became mutuals on tik tok then we created private alt accounts for each other and then we gave each other ouy phone numbers and we called often and we made plans for our future together and. fuck. it broke because i realized how horrible he was and. like two years of friendship just gone. everything gone. i haven’t been able to get close to people online for a while, because i’m so scared of being that close to someone again. i don’t think i’ll ever have a friend like that again

#it’s also why i’m really iffy about mutuals!☝🏽 if you treat me nice i get attached really quickly and then self sabatoge #vent #I GUESS JUST IN CASE #anyways i miss you charlie <3 i love you and i miss you and i hope you’re still a #hmm #hm. #hmmm #i just remembered th #okay #ok #rest in peace charlie #i loved you #i love you