#god i dont know

[berlingotesque]

What are your ships for Batim? :D

VERY GOOD QUESTION- I know my answer should be rather straightforward but I feel I have to put some context to my answers since they may seem contradictory/paradoxical otherwise, so bear with me-

Sammy x Norman : Well. I think that one was pretty obvious, anyone who's seen more than 3 of my posts knows that I'd die for these two. They're just so PERFECT for each other, from their complementary personalities to the fact that their relationship allows us to delve deeper into batim's historical and social context. Sammy and Norman have one of the few relationships that develop the most during the game's lore : Norman originally complains vehemently about Sammy's frenetic behavior, only to end up lamenting to Buddy and Dot how 'Sammy isn't the same anymore'. What's interesting about this statement is that he says it in relation to Sammy's strange behavior : clearly, the two men have grown close enough for Norman to differentiate Sammy's extravagant habits from his ink-influenced behavior.

Furthermore, Sammy is a very gray character morally, a perfectionist who is extremely socially maladjusted (surely due to the fact that he's coded on the spectrum and autism wasn't properly diagnosed at the time), naturally ostracizing him. For his part, Norman comes from a rural background (which surely earns him the animosity of the people at the studio, given the historical context and the fact that he could very well be poc) and also seems ill at ease socially : to me, it's fascinating to see two characters excluded from their peers because of differences they can't change (being autistic or poc and gay) getting closer to each other, to the point where Sammy, who is deeply misanthropic, naturally compliments Norman by describing him as very bright. To me, Norman is the perfect partner for Sammy : ready to apprehend him as he is, since he's completely free of social conventions, without taking any shits from him.

I think Sammy and Norman can really get the best out of each other, during a historical period when being different was strongly proscribed. I think I'd have trouble enjoying Batim as much without their dynamic at its heart (considering how narratively rich it is) : Norman is Henry's confidant, Sammy is Joey's, both remain morally gray deuteragonists fundamentally opposed to the ink machine, while remaining fascinated by its powers. And who wouldn't love a good old enemies to lovers ending tragically with the unwitting murder of one by the other ? After all, Norman's main flaw is that he's too curious for his own good, and it was Sammy who inevitably led him to his doom..

Allison x Tom : what more can I add. She's everything. He's just Tom. I've always been drawn to characters/ships with a vibe completely opposite to the vibe of the work they originally came from, and the 'turning poison into positivity' energy that Tom and Allison bring to Batim has always fascinated me. In a world as tragic as their own, I find it touching to see these two find beauty in all the ugliness and manage to ask themselves 'what if we were happy after all ?' It's really striking and brings a narrative richness to the work, since they directly mirror what failed with Sammy and Susie : Allison is perfect, but that was never what was at stake in Tom's eyes. Tom was looking for humanity, not perfection, and he managed to go beyond the image of the muse to discover a friend, unlike Sammy with Susie. They're literally Romeo and Juliet but, well... Not dead.

Joey x Henry/Henry x Linda : oh boy. These three... Let me get it straight right away : Henry and Linda are perfect for each other. She's exactly what he needs to be happy : she's present, patient. There's no denying that he loves her immensely. But Joey... oh Joey is undoubtedly Henry's soul mate. The subtlety is that Joey can't bring him the stable happiness Linda can : Joey tugs at him, pushes him over the edge. He knows exactly what to do to push him beyond his own limits. The love Joey offers Henry is an uncomfortable but unconditional one, one that would allow Henry to go beyond what he thinks he's capable of achieving because no one knows Henry better than Joey ! And let's be honest, Batim only exists because Joey refuses to move on, to live his dream without Henry in it. He's stuck in unrequited love and refuses to learn to live with it. And that's the tragedy of this trio : Henry sincerely loves Linda but is truly himself with Joey, which prevents him from hating OR loving him (And Joey exploits this information by remaining extremely toxic and convincing himself that he can wear him down lmao). Henry is stuck with this dilemma : Existing peacefully with Linda or living painfully with Joey. And that's why I love the dynamic of this love triangle : because there are no solutions that will satisfy everyone.

Joey x Sammy : okay, don’t get me wrong : these two are HORRIBLE for each other. Does Sammy periodically want to quit just to piss Joey off? Yes. Isn't Joey's fascination with Sammy intimately tied to his refusal to forget Henry, who was a genius like Sammy? Yes. Nevertheless, it's impossible for me to read The Illusion of Living without feeling embarrassed and like I'm reading Joey's diary : whether you ship them or not, Joey is practically canonically smitten with Sammy. I sincerely don't think Joey and Sammy can sustain a healthy relationship with each other, but oh boy, surely that won't stop me from exploiting their bizarre obsessive love-hate relationship, where it's hard to determine whether they're going to throw hands or make out.

#oh god the normmy one I’M SO SORRY ANONS #I just love this ship so much I got carried away #anyway that’s just my own personal analysis #which are sometimes a bit far-fetched I admit #BUT STILL it’s so fun to over analyze batim when you know the creators really don’t give a shit about their own lore lmao #thank you so much for the asks anons :)) #I hope my answer has enlightened you #sammy lawrence #norman polk #normmy #allison pendle #thomas connor #thomson #joey drew #henry stein #linda stein #creatorship #how do you call Sammy x Joey ?? #jammy ? or is that the name for Sammy x Jack ? #god i dont know #susie campbell #(mentioned) #samsie #(derogatory) #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #ask response #berlingot’s asks

[thebluesky-that-loves]

When you don't know the difference between who they are and who they are pretending to be , you're in for a situation.

#god i dont know #just dont know #quotes #life quotes #motivation #literature #lit #relationship #words #poetry

[fella-lovin-fella]

i was saving the very small amount of weed left but girls? i cannot

#i hate the brain i have #i shouldn't be like this #one small problem should not send me into a spiral #but im losing it #god i dont know #ugh #not mlm #dantes talking again

[iqmmir]

thinking about my friend saying that im like the sun on monday when we were drawing each other

#.mimiming ❜ #thinking about my friend laughing with me at my english teacher #thinking about my friend making me laugh so much i was cryingn #thinking about my friend helping me in chess and reassuring me every five minutes that its fine that i dont know what to do #thinking about my friends hugging me each day after school #thinking about my friends i think im gonna cry #< attachment issues and horrible personality haver is planning things that are horrible for her #sighhh i miss them i miss them so much #i hope i die #theyre all so nice #and theres me #god i dont know #i didnt think id get this attached.... i usually stop talking to anyone who i start getting attached to #but they just. kept talking to me even when i tried to stop talking to them #i miss them i hope they never hate me

[a-chicken-with-adhd]

On discord with my friend.

"I just realized I'm not wearing a bra, it's a bralette (takes of shirt dramatically)" -me

#god i dont know #juni what do i doooooooo #i dont regret this at all #i made it myself so its even better #quotes #quotes of myself #funny i guess?

[deathbirby]

I'm SORRY but "she doesn't call TWSITD less important" she HAS to think that the Agarthans are less important to deal with considering she DOESN'T DEAL WITH THEM FIRST.

Something something church more dangerous something something lizard people

#edelgard discourse #grey borb #god i dont know #like #dont even bother

[nintendont2502]

okay but what the fuck does he want with the body. why is it there. he kills john and then tells terezi to captchalogue the body and then tells her to come onto the ship and then hasn't done anything with it yet. what is he cooking

#it has to be the same reason he killed john right #john is the protagonist and is practically the narrative so of course he has to kill him to remove that threat to his control #but then having the *body* of the protagonist could be useful for #something #...heart is the aspect of the self. the soul #all im sayin is if he could bring john back somehow completely and fully under his control #thats essentially guaranteeing that he controls the narrative right #god i dont know #me.txt #homestuck

[aizhits]

Just michael vibing :)

#@aizhits #tma fanart #Michael fanart #Sketch dump #The distortion #Is that a word #God i dont know #My keyboard is in German #Xhhhhgghh #Nope i think thats right #Damn #Offical Au tag #oat

[bloodbankzz]

im doing soooooo bad♡ besties and others♡

#its OKAY becayse im ALIVE #this is mentallt and physicaally for those INTERESTED! #i need to PEEL the worms from my BRAIN after NEARLY passing out walking across the ROOM #MANY MULTIFACETED STRUGGLES! #TO ALL READERS WHO INQUIRE! #i dont really believe im like yhis but i dont knpw what i really am supposed to be #i cant figure out whats underneath even when i can see the cracks #what do you do when you can tell its wrong but you dont have any answrrs for what is right #rejection feels like futile struggle #its wrong or nothing #right???? #what do i do #i hope when i have to face it and see a cardiologist they are niceys to me and helpful and everything goes okay #im so scared of doctors nowadays #if anything goes wrong it will be my fault and even if they knew a lot are too busy to care #and why am i even worried about the social aspects when its my fucking blood pumper at risk anyway right #god i dont know #i dont know anything anymore #i dont get better anymore #i dont know the way forward #but im gonna put off dying for as long as possible #better an alive aloof listless failure than dead #its so difficult to be berated though #and i am so afraid all the time #and being in the applying for jobs limbo means i cant even get high about it all!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ashhaven]

Hi!

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you. Spread the positivity! 💜🔥＼⁠(⁠°⁠o⁠°⁠)⁠／

god this came in at probably the worst time what with working 9h cus im negative on overtime rn. Hm OK.

1. My girlfriend (Mwah). look i had to

2. the fact i finally got an official hrt scrip yesterday

3. speaking of which, 8 days til im one year on E, pretty good, pretty good

yeah it gets hard around here.....

4. Ive been watching GWitch lately and that is very good

5. and ofc i finally have the energy again to spend some time on Heaven Will Be Mine and We Know The Devil again, which just destroy me eternally (positive)

4 and 5 could have been a lot of things like my friends etc but idk, this was what i could think of

#god i dont know #im having some good stuff happening #but just so much is stressful and bad #sigh #gotta carry on #so it goes

[tysonfurybattlepass]

what is enough. my mindset is to broken to know anymore.

#having my mental illness be interpreted as laziness and lack of work ethic for years has irreperably damaged my understanding of myself #am i ever doing enough? #will i ever do enough? #am i really tired? is there really something wrong with me? #or am i just looking for an excuse to weasel my way out of work #god i dont know #i dont know myself or my motivations. i dont think i ever did #is the fatigue even real? #i wish someone would tell me im enough. no caveats. no ‘as long as you keep working’. #just tell me im enough.

[crows-home]

part of my nimona viewing experience. idk why but i got super emotional in the first five minutes.

ID by @peachygos

[ID: A comic juxtaposing screenshots from Nimona 2023 and drawings of a person watching the movie. The first screenshot is Ambrosius's introduction; he grins at the camera as the news anchors introduce him, his name in big print on the screen. The person watching thinks with a bored expression, "Ah. Ok. This guy is gonna be the jackass. Typical golden-boy stuck-up prince that thinks he's better than the underdog. I see where this is going.

The next screenshot is of Ambrosius and Ballister on the platform above the arena, Ambrosius doing his news anchor bit and saying, "Aaand will Ballister be broody on the biggest day of his life?" Ballister laughs at his antics. The person watching now has a small smile, as they think, "Huh! Aw, they're actually nice to each other and are friends! I wasn't expecting that, that's nice-"

The third and final screenshot is a shot from behind of Ballister leaning his head on Ambrosius's shoulder. The caption reads "the knighting ceremony is just moments away." The person watching now has a touched, soft expression, like they're holding back tears. They think "OH." as a partially transparent doodle behind them bends over crying and blubbering, with another doodle showing their heart shot through with an arrow. /end ID]

#nimona #nimona movie #my art #i dont know WHY the relationship between these two made me so happy. genuinely. but i was tearing up when they held hands #idk man. just- the feeling of 'ah. friendship between these two men like always. i see-' and then #'OH. oh god theyre in love. that so sweet. i wasnt expecting that what the fuck.' #im not an outwardly emotional person

[thebluesky-that-loves]

Low key ..... I have no idea why I'm here . You want to be with someone who believes in you , speaks to you, and just will be honest. I feel not enough, I feel like I'm letting myself down.

#quotes #love #motivation #life quotes #literature #love quotes #words #lit #relationship #god i dont know #poetry #mentally drained

[bastardiando]

posting across the targetverse here bc it did numbers on twitter

#across the spiderverse #spiderverse #miguel o'hara #hobie brown #im posting my art here from now onnnnn #maybe ill make a sideblog thats art only who knows. #bastardibujando #< thats my art tag btw. no i dont remeber what it was before so whatever art i have posted here is gone forever #hi for the love of god hello anyone wanna talk about spiderverse. #og post

[mutualcombat]

SPIDERWEAVE GANG RISE UP

#my boyfriend of all fucking people gave me this idea #he literally burst in the room while i was sleeping just to tell me emma gregory said minthara likes gale #hes stupid #also gale with the bun is canon sorry #bg3 romance #bg3 fanart #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate fanart #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #minthara #minthara baenre #dj minty j and the gay #bg3 gale #bg3 minthara #bg3 shitpost #baldurs gate minthara #baldurs gate gale #my art #holy shit how many times can i tag something i honest to god dont know the limit and ive been using tumblr since 2009 #spiderweave #gale x minthara #minthara x gale #this is probably the sweetest way minthara has ever told anyone to shut the fuck up #galethara

[machinerot]

#my art #you know he was being a little shit #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #harrykim #disco elysium #disco elysium fanart #this is the first drawing ive managed to finish in over a year (we dont talk about the 3 million wips) #so thank you gay people for getting rid of my art block 🫶 i love you #i didnt use a reference though so apologies if the proportions look a bit wonky but GOD i had so much fun making this #ive missed Enjoying doing art. like actually enjoying the process and not just impatiently rushing for the finished piece #like maybe art IS fun.. #crazy. anyways #this sideblog is brand new so i doubt people will even see this but!! if you do then i should have some more DE art on the way :-)