#for all its many. many. MANY. flaws

[semiotomatics]

idk abt yall but im still not over the fact that the internet lets you communicate w ppl literally all over the world, ppl you'd never have a chance to talk to otherwise. its just so cool to me!! i absolutely adore talking to ppl abt their cultures n their homes n their lives n getting to share mine in return. i know that as our online lives have gotten more complex the "internet culture" has kind of superceded a lot of ppls irl ones, at least when interacting in online spaces, but i rly hope we dont lose that desire to share pieces of where we came from w others. i think doing so not only enriches our own lives, but enriches our relationships w others as well.

#personal spewage #for all its many. many. MANY. flaws #the internet has some ginormous upsides #n getting to hear abt what someone halfway across the globe is having for dinner. or what cute thing their pet did. or whatever else #is absolutely one of them #i wonder if i feel this way bc i do still remember when that _wasn't_ a thing? or at least wasnt as common of a thing #cause like yeah i grew up w the internet but the internet of the 90s/early 2000s was. p different to how it is now #yes you could still interact w ppl but things were usually relegated to walled-garden forums and IRCs #which! i freaking love old school web forums! we def need to bring those back somehow #but idk. nothing beats something like. well. tumblr #for getting to meet new ppl and actually _get to know_ them #anyway #thats my soapbox rant for today #lol

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

He was just being a silly little guy!

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jin guangyao #wen ruohan #nie mingjue #lan xichen #JGY's character is the zigging and zagging guy of all time #We love a little meow meow that can bite and scratch and kill you. #We also love a little meow meow that can mewl pathetically! #'He's evil now and torturing his former friend?" ZAG TIME: He's a spy and feels soooo awful about it!! #ZIG TIME: He (probably) didn't need to go that deep into the role and kill as many people as he did. #Something I really love about the sworn brother trio is how they reflect how our feelings distort our perception of others. #Lan Xichen represents how when we love/care about someone -anything they do can be endearing. They aren't manipulative: they are clever. #Its less about rose tinted glasses and more about reframing every look you get of them. The constant justifications you make for them. #They just need a space to be loved! “They care for me so I will stand by them no matter what to show them I'm there for them!” #While NMJ represents how when you dislike someone - Everything they do is an affront or proof of their foul character. #Everything is a sign. Everything is 'proof' they are just as awful as you want them to be. Every 'good trait' is twisted. #The problem is that most people are just human. They are flawed and they are capable of good and bad things. #Meng Yao's motivations are very complex. Yet he's extremely human all the same. He isn't the saint nor the monster of the story.

[cornpickerart]

Scanlaaaaaaan🎵🎶🎵✨️

#thank you sam riegel for taking all of my fav character tropes and stuffing them into one person #its embarrassing how many times ive watched bards lament #we stan flawed characters that have to hit rock bottom before they can change👏👏 #scanlan shorthalt #critical role scanlan #vm #cr1 #critical role #critical role fanart #vox machina #my art #cornpicker art #purple columbine #it symbolizes resolve!✨️

[10jo10ge]

#i cant believe its finally over uuuu im so emotional and have so many mixed feelings #even with all its flaws though this manga is so important to me #tokyo revengers #sano manjiro #ryuuguji ken #mitsuya takashi #baji keisuke #hanemiya kazutora #haruki hayashida

[mejomonster]

Modu by priest was truly such a good read. If you like romance? It has a sweeping romance, with a well done bisexual and gay lead (and straight best friend) all written in ways that manage to feel realistic, it's got features people likely found it for when looking for a danmei - rich manipulative younger man, older investigator who's got a hero streak, and yet those categories don't really do justice to them (and of course tao ran is the more grounded detective story lead who keeps his theories to himself and worries about dragging others into his mess).

They're so much more... Fei Du is a traumatized young man who's worried he's as monstrous as the people who scarred him, who is preparing to take the leap and cross the line to become an even more terrifying version of himself if it will destroy the corruption poisoning this city and harming so many, Luo Wenzhou is a cop that used to want to be a hero and learned he will fail people and be unable to save people and holds onto Fei Du as someone who reminds him he DOES fail but also reminds him why he wants so hard to keep Trying to help people even when it seems impossible... why trying and putting in effort to care and help Even when its too late to fix things is Worthwhile. Tao Ran is a contrast to them both, Fei Du living in a world where there's only monsters and victims and Luo Wenzhou desperately trying to force the world to be a place where justice CAN prevail and win even as he sees it fail over and over, trying so hard to believe all people have the capacity for everything and are worth trying to save. Even though Fei Du doesm't believe that, being around Luo Wenzhou makes him want to consider it. Tao Ran, their contrast? Believing the world can go either way, and its up to people like him to create any justice at all, any structure at all, or else everything is just meaningless suffering chaos. As characters, the three of them serve to explore how the world works and views on it in terms of a detective murder mystery encompassing the whole city, the small scale version of the world. Modu is a romance, but its also fully commited to being a murder mystery that wants to tackle the kind of themes that come up in the setting it's created. Its characters are so much more than Insert Character Ship types here. These characters were made this way to explore these ideas (just as the villains are all made to parallel and contrast Fei Du to explord these ideas in comparison to our point of view Fei Du moments, our impressions of Fei Du from Luo Wenzhou and Tao Rans varied perspectives, all of them are different lenses to view humanity and how it works, if the world is just or if we have to make it good, if we can be inherently good and if good people will reach out to us if we just keep treading water to survive, if its luck and chaos, and how much... and much more frankly).

Modu is like. If you want a story about a corrupt city and its victims, symbolizing a corrupt world and all of us at its mercy, and you want to see the heart of the people doing something about it. First the main trio, but also every victim Fei Du recruits to help, every murderer recruited to the corruption, all the people in the cases swayed to some side. Thats what Modu is about.

The romance is just one facet of exploring that, the personal debate about what these things mean about the world as told through two people who view this world incredibly differently. Yet find some way to exist in the same space, same mutual world, when together. It hooks you in and doesn't let you go and youre wondering right there with them, left to draw your own meaning in the end. Hopefully that its worth trying, that doing something is worth trying even when its just the trying you can do and not the succeeding, at least thats what I got from it (at least in regards to Fei Du and Luo Wenzhou meeting each other, unable to live up to the pillar they put each other on but trying anyway, is what I felt from them).

Then like? Modu gives you THAT story, which in its own right is enough to make you contemplate.

And if you're like me and care about people, about characters? Well it gives you, like I said, those big themes and a city's nightmares symbolizing the world, and brings them down to an individual level. You read from the mind of the little girl who grew up in this (one of my favorite scenes and when I felt this novel was going to not shy away from dark psychological moments and bringing them to you). You read from the mind of Fei Du when he knows himself, when he doesn't. You read from the minds of all kinds of people, and the heart of much of the investigation is peoples motives and things they'd gone through and how that shaped what they'd do next. Why they'd do it. Leaving you to wonder who's right. Jaded idealist Luo Wenzhou who wants to believe in the goodness of the people he loves, but also is willing to risk that strangers may have good intent? Fei Du who thinks theres only victims and perpetrators and everyone is going to fall into one in the right circumstance? Tao Ran, who feels the world is too messy to dare declare predictable, who thinks even your closest can betray you and even you can accidentally hurt them, nevermind strangers, and the only thing you can control and rely on is your own choices? Some mix? None of them? The side characters as they come up, grow and evolve, do they understand the world better or worse, and is the world they experience different than anothers and justify why their worldview is likewise different? Modu gives you that up close and personal, over and over. Im still thinking about it. And the way its done, they all get to feel like lived in people. Not structures to tell the themes only. But on their own, there's a personal struggle between Fei Du feeling like a monster who'll destroy Lup Wenzhou if he loves him, like his dad destroyed his mom, and Luo Wenzhou carrying the guilt he could never save Fei Du and desperate to believe in Fei Du (and keep trying to save him in that way if only that way) as person who can do good despite not being saved and despite Fei Du's fears. You could cut the entire city's plot away, all of the crimes and make the city calm, and still that core of their plot would be carrying a Lot of weight. Theyre playing a game of "enemies" to lovers sure, or whatever romance story structures they fit into. But they're also made to be deeply rooted into each other, their personal beliefs tied into the outcome of what they hope or fear happens if they are close together. Modu made me care about that. Its like the fears many people might have, abiut theur own flaws, about getting close to others, about trusting and being unsure if that trust is safe to give. Its that and magnified into bigger form, in this landscape of a fucked up city and the tragedy of Fei Du and Luo Wenzhou's meeting and former lives.

Its like. Id love to to read another danmei (Ive got a lot on my to read list). But what's going to give me roo

#modu #silent reading #lb #meta #like... modu was so fucking good. #it was 3 characters symbolizing their city symbolizing the world in terms of worldviews morality justice and if theres a point to #trying to help at all. like damn #i want to read ANOTHER danmei that makes me weigh those questions. that uses the characters this personally and intimately with the readers #because the Characters weigh the themes in their OWN lives so heavily. #like... i know priest can probably give me this kind of huge delivery in can ci pin and sha po lang (at least i estimate #priesr probably can as theyre very popular novels by priest) #and 2ha can (because ive read half and know its themes) #but like. what other danmei can? can thousand autumns? can peerless? can wu shang jie? #can Mistakenly Saving the Villain? #like... the only non priest danmei i read was svsss and i got supremely lucky #cause i personally LOVE satire and critique commentary affection for the topics it explores #and svsss AS a satire is incredibly well done. having read 2ha first? and seen Eternal Love? #svsss does an amazing job at critiquing webnovel culture and flaws. at the way capitalism effects writing #at the way some tropes have become staples of certain genres and when used well yeah you get 2ha but when used badly you get #the fake novel svsss was making fun of that there Are many real novels like

[thefiresofpompeii]

river willing to fracture all of time to save the doctor ... the doctor willing to fracture all of time to save clara

#this show despite all of its many flaws has THE most expansive space-and-time-transcending modern epic love stories you've ever seen #'epic' in the greek sense not epic as in awesome. though that too #dw #jamie catches up #the wedding of river song #hell bent #jamie.txt #doctor who #river song #twelfth doctor #twelve #clara oswald #twelveclara #eleventh doctor

[xhanisai]

I think one of the main reasons why I don't go out of my way to follow a lot of people on socials even if I think their art is amazing is because at least half the time, they're shitting on the canon source material and act very big-headed. It happens too often.

#applies to all fandoms ofc #but especially ml atm #i remember i was suddenly being followed by this big artist on ig #and they drew so much pretty marinette art #and i was like okay i'll follow back #and then i see them posting marinette hate in their stories after Kuro Neko dropped #and i was like yo wtf #quickly unfollowed #i don't have time to background check every single artist whose art I like man #i genuinely love ml #with its flaws and everything #i don't mind when people do some sane critiques on the show #and i know everyone will have differing opinions #but my days it is such a pain when a hater comes into the fandom and draws fanart for the clout #and they get praised for it???? #literally 10 years ago i used to follow soooooo many people on all socials #now i have to keep it as limited as possible #no one can enjoy anything in peace

[midnightdemonhunter]

Encore!

#heathers #Veronica Sawyer #heather macnamara #martha dunnstock #heather duke #heathers the musical #midnight draws #plus secret jocks in the second pic yahoooo #WE DID IT BOYS #a drawing for each song!!! woo!!! #very happy with all of these honestly...cheers for reprises and for learning new artstyles! #ALSO if you suspect there is symbolism tying different pics together...you are absolutely right i included so many motifs and running themes #and colors in all of these #try and catch them all! #anyway. one last hooray for a finished project #hooray!! #need to link that one quote about heathers musical state.....the real love story is between veronica and her flawed yet reedemable classmate #its all about the horrors. but also love

[lycanr0t]

the thing about aplatonicism is that just like aromanticism and asexualism, it doesn't inherently mean you don't want friendships, every individual apl person has different needs and wants in regards to friendship and each person will go about it differently.

I for example am aplatonic and don't specifically feel platonic attraction as in, i don't feel a drive to befriend people. I don't get "friend crushes" or ever get the desire to befriend specific people. I am personally, very open to the possibility of friendship if someone else approaches me and we vibe. I am not platonically attracted to them, but I also do get enjoyment from socializing with others in that way and can become attached to them, etc. Platonic attraction does not equal caring about someone/being good to them. Attraction is not moral in that way. it just is.

Just like how some ace people still enjoy sex, even without sexual attraction. Some aplatonic people still enjoy friendship, and some don't. And that's okay! There are so many types of relationships out there that people can form and explore what makes them happiest and it looks different for every person and that's such a wonderful thing.

#my husband and i are both aplatonic and it manifests in VERY different ways for each of us but like. its neat its cool #i don't have many friends bc i don't seek ppl out but i love talking to people. i am a very social anf i like to think friendly person #i also have incredibly strong morals about treating people with kindness and trying to make the world a gentler place. #bc platonic attraction does not determine how good a person is or their morals #you can have 0 friends and still be a good person who treats people well #we NEED to get away from the idea of 'person with no friends = bad' #bc like. its a bad concept. its inherently flawed and bigoted and shit. tbh #the power of friendship isnt the most powerful thing actually its not any worse or better than any other relationship #friends arent worse or better than romantic partners or family or coworkers or strangers #its just another relationship and subset of attraction and putting it on a pedestal isnt a good thing actually #just how ​ace advocacy that relies on claiming romance is the best thing in the world is flawed #aro advocacy that claims friendship is the most important thing is just as flawed #all are equal. theyre not better or worse just different #rot posts #anyways unprompted apl post its just been on my mind

[piratefishmama]

(let me preface this by saying I love Nancy, I just don't like the way some events are disregarded in the series) regarding the ronance thing, I read your tags and totally agree

not dating your bestie's ex (and this is thee ex we're talking about for steve) is like the basics!

but what I always think about is that Robin might already not properly like her because of barb (like I can see them being friends or at least friendly later on but dating? nah)

correct me if I'm wrong because I listened to rebel robin awhile ago but your best friend (barb) stops hanging out with you for another friend (nancy) and that person also breaks your current bestie/platonic soulmate's heart and y'all think Robin Buckley wouldn't hold that grudge for both herself but most of all for Steve?

I didn't even know abt barb!!! I rly need to read these background books tbh. Are there audio book options for them??

But yeah more to the point, Nancy IS great, I adore Nancy, she's a badass and the relationship between her and Steve has clearly improved a lot since Steve clearly cannot seem to hold onto a grudge to save his life, but that wouldn't erase the anger /Robin/ would feel as his best friend. It wouldn't erase what she felt about Barb either, Nancy not only hurt Steve, but as you say, Barb left her for Nancy.

And then Barb died, an I think as an "in the know" person, Robin would eventually have found out exactly what happened to Barb which would have made it worse.

Some people could argue that she should be mad at Steve too for Barb, but Steve had nothing to do with that. Steve never told her to go, never made her feel like she didn't belong there.

Steve wasn't even expecting to get laid that night. He was obviously surprised. Wouldn't have been against the two girls going home or staying over in a guest room! It was Nancy who made Barb feel abandoned. Nancy, who pressured her into joining in when she clearly didn't want to, resulting in her getting the injury that drew the demogorgon there.

Nancy seems pretty blind to other people's feelings tbh. She does what she wants without regard for other people's feelings or thoughts. That behaviour would absolutely contribute to her being surprised that Robin would reject her. She's blind to what's happening in other people's lives.

Plus, Nancy acted like she didn't recognise Robin at the mall, and that's just rude. Sure, Robin cut her hair (I think???) But I've had hair cuts, it doesn't permanently alter your face or anything, you're still recognisable after a haircut.

Nancy has issues. They ALL have issues tbh, but Nancy's makes ships tricky to navigate and potentially unhealthy.

#pirateanswers #nancy has many flaws #they all do #but its every writers choice to abide by them or ignore them

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads

The Water Outlaws

fantasy inspired by a wuxia classic

a woman who’s an expert arms instructor is labelled a criminal after being assaulted by a powerful man

she joins a group of rebellious bandits who fight for justice, and becomes entangled in politics both with the group and the empire - who are trying to develop powerful magical weapons

mainly queer & female cast

#The Water Outlaws #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #i loved this a lot!! #I will say I think it has a few flaws: if I hadn't read audio it probably would have been a bit slow/weirdly paced #and i think there's too many characters that aren't developed fully enough #(maybe a result of being a retelling of something that had many characters ) #like there's setup for some amazing interesting relationships but they only get a couple scenes together? #there's this fight scene with the commander and a bit after it that made me insane then they didn't really interact after that.. #and lu junyi's storyline was a bit unconnected... #BUT ALSO the characters are all really cool and i can like. imagine in the gaps u know #LU DA my beloved himbo flower monk....i love her....... #also!!!! #no romance #there’s some discussion of a past ones…and maybe it was implying things between certain characters but I didn’t read it obviously that way #anyway i gave it five stars #its kinda one of those books where im like. #actually i would've liked more of a lot of things BUT also the baseline of what is here is already at a rly high level of what i like. so.

[dyketubbo]

loving both ctubbo and cwilbur is so hard. where are the rest of the tubblings that appreciate the sentiment cwilbur gave . like i get being anxious over the sorrys and yes sirs and how wilbur was the one to choose what they did but like come on. how was ctechnos apology better than this for yall come on 😭😭😭😭

#IM SORRY THIS IS LIKE. PURE SALTPOST but im soooo tired of people still making cwilbur out to be like. #malicious?? towards ctubbo?? #like. tubbo has been Wanting things to be how they were in the past yknow #like hes been wishing to have experiences like the early lmanburg experience #wilburs gesture wasnt about like. saddling him with responsibility Again or pulling him along on a conquest tubbo didnt want to go on #and yes tubbo had his hesitations but jesus christ i wont lie i think this was like. something that shows cwilburs mentol illness more? #the stream was abt ctubbo but it was Also about cwilbur. he like. literally has the vibes of someone whose going to try to die again #yes theres room for cwilbur to have improved here but. #i dont think characterizing this as a negative experience for ctubbo is accurate either? #ctubbo enjoyed himself he was having Fun yes he said yes sir and said sorry a lot but like. thats how ctubbo.. is sometimes? #i think cctubbo has been characterizing ctubbo as like this cruel unfeeling character for long enough that its been forgotten- #-that at his core hes like. a polite kid who finds fun in fucking with things and likes playfighting without serious consequences #and wilbur was like.. giving him something without serious consequences. and yes there were flaws in the apology #and situation overall #but.. just. jhfjenkd i dontt knowwww so many tubblings continue to read cwilbur in such bad faith #like come on. he cares about ctubbo hes trying to make up for it and ctubbo genuinely appreciated it this time he Had Fun #cwilbur was doing this as a gesture to show hes truly trying to see ctubbo as an equal now yknow? #the symbolism with the blocks and all #mask mews #dsmp #wilbur #tubbo #dsmp spoilers

[arsene-fixates]

Though all the layers, it’s still me

#hurray for accurately drawn height!!!! #I’m going to ramble a lot in the tags so just bear with me #Sometimes I like to imagine that the seeker’s just part of many acts (many s/is) because even though I have all that backstory #And even though it doesn’t line up with me as a person (context: the seeker has no memories) and even though I feel distant from the seeker #It’s still me. That character is still me at its very core #It sometimes makes it hard to imagine Informant comforting the seeker since they don’t face the same issues I do #So I imagine the ‘persona’ melting away to reveal me as a person #That one post that’s like ‘no matter how small the shard of mirror is — you’re still reflected in it’ I can’t remember the exact phrasing #here’s a confession: It’s hard to imagine informant reacting to the real me #I just hope he still loves me with my many flaws #art tag!! #arsene-blogging

[butwhatifidothis]

Ultimately, I think one of the worst things Hopes does wrt its writing of Claude is take out all of the complexities and contradictions that had made him so interesting to begin with.

OG Claude lies and manipulates people and closes himself off while still searching for the truth and wanting people to come together and be open with each other, because of how his traumas meld together with his dreams. He says that he'll do whatever it takes to get what he wants and shows off opportunistic tendencies and then buckles at the first sight of innocents getting hurt, because no matter how much he wants what he wants he still prioritizes the lives of the people around him over anything else. He knows of people's capacity to hurt others for petty or illogical reasons - was raised with that knowledge beating its existence into him - and yet still dreams of a world where people of different lands and cultures can still be friends, because that is how tightly he holds onto his dreams. He's a kind person with the capacity for being a dick, and his contradictions add on so much to his character; they in large part are his character.

Hopes Claude? He lies and manipulates people and closes himself off... and that's it. He says he'll do whatever it takes to get what he wants... and he does. He knows of people's capacity to hurt others for petty or illogical reasons... and has no real dreams of stopping it (or dreams of anything in the future really, by his own admission) and he indulges in that very behavior himself, seemingly without any awareness. He is untrustworthy, and manipulative, and opportunist... and that's it. What you see is what you get. And if this were a character unto themselves, if we're kind and we ignore all of the other issues with Hopes!Claude's writing, that would be a fun enough villain to follow around.

But it's not; this is supposed to be Claude. This is a character who has so much of his foundations be built on the idea that what he presents on the surface isn't all that he seems. That he's more than a character who is just "tee hee I'm only pretending to be nice but I'm actually eeeeevil evil evil evil evil evil evil," but someone who both uses kindness as a means to an end and embodies it genuinely. Warm yet calculated, a good man with real flaws - THAT is who Claude is. Hopes Claude is who Claude is if you strip him of any complexity - He Is Only Pretending To Be Good, But Actually He Is Bad.

He's just... easier to swallow, in a sense. Claude is a good person who is willing and able to do bad things, but only up to a very specific, very clear point, all for a good dream he's held onto for years and plans extensively to make a reality in the future; Clyde is a shit person who's willing to do everything short of bombing specifically whatever land he himself is ruling, all for what essentially amounts to no concrete purpose. There's no need to think about Clyde as hard, since he just does what he does because he's doing it and that's enough.

It's why I'm glad I am Dev-Approved to just fuckin' ignore Hopes entirely as a horrific fever dream, because Hopes does not understand what made Claude so lovable at all

#clyde discourse #like alongside ALL of the other issues with Hopes' treatment of Claude this one is just. a huge one for me lol #Underutilized as Claude was in 3H he was still SO interesting to think about! What he showed off was SO refreshing! #because he took the I am Not Who I Seem Tee Hee trope and turned it on its head #his strict moral boundaries and sincerity in his love for his pipe dream contrasted so well with his underhandedness and genuine flaws #he's manipulative! he can be opportunistic! he's secretive and yet he noses around other people's business! #he has qualities that are VERY flawed! #but he never goes too far; he never intentionally puts people in danger; he apologizes and tries to make up for his missteps #ultimately his pros outweigh his cons and he comes out a complex character #MEANWHILE #fuckin' CLAUTHEW over here #he makes so many people MISERABLE with his actions in the war and does not give a shit #he kills or otherwise threatens to kill anyone who gets in the way of him grabbing more power - even innocent people #he just closes his eyes and ears to ANY information given to him that contradicts his viewpoints #and slurps up any that validates his confirmation bias no matter HOW untrustworhy the source is #he is NOTHING. He's interesting in the same way getting hit in the face with a cinderblock sounds fun; IT ISN'T #just wanted to rant a bit about it lol

[viaphni]

im. im. i am so unwell after that finale. i am i am so unwell i am left unsatisfied and disappointed and despaired,,,,,,,,,,,,i i i i i i i i i

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#ruined reality #i... #rr #ii #i #iii. #i. #i.. #i Cant #Do This #i am. #J AM REACTING BAD .... I ACBNNSOT... #TR ALL OVER AGAUN #THIS CANT BE IT IT ACNT IT ACNIT WAS IT #IT WAS BAD ENOUGH WITH RUN ADN FJSLALLEN #HHHAAAERGEHEJEJERRRRR #EITHER WAY IT WAS INCREDIBLY MADE #BUT I CANT DO THIS AAGAIAIIIINNNNNNN K CANTTTTY #j had so many WIPs #all yhe motivation has VANISHED #its the TR flashbacks i cant. do it #IT WAS SO GOOD #IT WAS SO AAMAIZING #BUTO CAN TDP THIS... #SSSKKSKSKISUSUSUSJSJ #IT WAS SO OERFECTKY MADE #RAAGHH #no but theres a major flaw #fallen and ruin.

[soldier-poet-king]

I literally just do not understand how full grown ass adults go thru life like this. 0 self reflection. 0 concern about the impact of their behaviours on others. Continuing said behaviours even when they're pointed out as hurtful. Like????

#the duality of fran #idk its like the every few months i realize i sort of forgive my parents #bc things could be much worse #and they didnt MEAN to be hurtful. theyre just immature and selfish #they're not deliberately being like that #like their behaviour comes from a place of hurt and insecurity #and Yet its been pointed out SOOOO many times how bad it has affected me #and theyre always so guilt trippy woe is me when it's brought up #and maybe theyre trying. but honestly folks???? I DONT SEE ANY PROGRESS #like I cant cut them off i need somewhere to live + need somewhere to fall back on #once i move out. in case yknow. financial disaster (sh we are not thinking about my fears of financial instability that they left me with) #but like. ffs. ffs yall. I AM SO ANGRY #AND HURT #and im tired of being angry and hurt about stuff that isnt ever going to CHANGE #its a wound you know is there but it vant ever heal it just. prods and prods and prods #like the tldr of u can have a severely traumatizing shitty upbringing without ur parents being actually abusive #and it just adds this extra layer of guilt and complicated feelings on top of it all #like #please. just get a fuckin divorce. oh my god. also maybe dont have four kids while barely above the poverty line. #and then harp on your kids for every single perceived flaw or financial burden they incur. just. yknow. a thought