#focus on the ppl who show you love on the daily

[rafesthroatbaby]

so real…

#Sunday quote #those who fuck with me? ily #know your place #focus on the ppl who show you love on the daily #don’t waste your energy to ungrateful ppl

[starsworldd]

hello!!! this is my first astrology post bc im bored af lol 🌸

please take these observations with a grain of salt!! they may resonate some may not :)) i put orbs (for conjunctions only) as suggestions but ofc feel free to use ur own interpretations and guidelines <3

general observations:

- mars trine pluto (specifically in fire signs)in men >>> the sex appeal is so **chefs kiss**

- 10th stelliums tend to care a lot about their image. they can attract a lot of online attention too!!

- pluto opposite ascendant or conjunct the midheaven attract a lot of toxicity from other people. pluto on the mc is on a broader scale regarding your reputation as a whole, but on the descendant i’ve noticed it affecting one on one relationships whether that be friends or partners.

- ^^ to add on to the pluto on the descendant observation, the native can also get really obsessive crushes on other ppl.

- i love pisces moons so much they’re really easy to talk to while also having depth and insight when needed <33 such a lovely placement.

- jupiter in 5th house natives tend to date a lot of ppl👀 could also be indicative of talent in the arts (i have this placement :p)

- neptune in the 6th house could have hypochondria or a lot of health anxiety

- people who have planets/asc in your fourth house tend to make really good friends :))

- aquarius venus tend to fall in love with ppl in their friend circles

- do NOT argue with pluto in third house people they will win oml they’re so dedicated

lunar return observations: (orbs: 1-3)

- this is gonna be an odd one but if you have saturn switching between conjuncting your ic/mc for 3-4 consecutive months it can show major adjustments in your home/private life or career for those months ahead.

- fifth house ruler in the fifth house or part of fortune can indicate talking to someone romantically for that month ;)) (ofc 5th house also rules over creativity so maybe as an alternate outcome, it can signify focus on creative endeavors too!!)

- part of fortune in 1st house can also bring confidence and overall good feelings about yourself

- pluto opposite the ascendant can bring a new person/people into your life or bring back an old friend group/friendship but can also indicate ending a connection with someone depending on context.

- pluto in 12th house can signify poor mental health for that month :(

- saturn in 12th can show major sleep deprivation for that month

- jupiter conjunct mc 🤝 achieving big goals for that month (and maybe getting some recognition for it too, but mostly ACHIEVING THOSE GOALS!!!)

- moon in the first house can mean crying yourself to sleep every night or feeling on top of the world (depending on planets in 1st house and aspects to moon for that month)

- neptune in 4th house can bring a really dreamy, “sleepy” and relaxing vibe in your home life.

- mars/chiron/mars conjunct chiron opposite the mc can mean a big fight at home might happen that month :(

solar return observations: (orbs: 1-3)

- moon in the 6th house can make it dififcult to be consistent with daily routines and doing work throughout the year

- uranus in 12th is sooooo difficult i had this last year and i was mentally so exhausted and stagnated

- venus opposite uranus may mean some sort of major break off with a close friend/partner or going through mutliple friend groups/friendships (like getting with one friend group then breaking off with them and joining another one and so on…if that makes sense?)

- mars opposite ascendant may make the native feel like another person or some sort of third party is getting in the way of their plans for the year. this is a really aggravating aspect, had these last year and i felt like school was getting in the way of my artistic goals but yet i still had to put the majority of my energy (mars) into something else (descendant) which was school for me in this case.

- pluto conjunct mc in the 9th house can indicate a major change in life direction. it may not manifest into reality but this is more of a mental change of where you want to go in life.

- sun conjunct mercury can mean a year with a lot of work ahead.

- sun square moon can mean big changes happening (whether that be home, school, career, etc..) but can also show a v stressful year

- pluto conjunct mc can also indícate divorce

- pay attention to where your part of fortune is!! whatever house it’s in may show which area of life will go really well for you (ofc depending on aspects)

- stelliums in houses can show reoccurring themes for that year.for example, i had a third house stellium for my 2019 solar return chart which was the year that i got serious about songwriting!! a lot of my energy was put into writing lyrics and music and also communicating with others too hehe.

i hope you’ve enjoyed reading these :) i think some of these observations are very obvious. maybe i’ll try and research some more insightful ones in the future <3 bye for now!🎀

#astrology #solar return #lunar return #pluto #midheaven #astrology observations #stellium #6th house #10th house #pisces #jupiter #neptune #aquarius #aquarius venus #saturn #uranus and neptune #venus opposite uranus #moon in 6th house #uranus aspects #pluto aspects

[jimmyysea]

FK OFTS interview -

they are asked to say a little bit abt their characters/intro them

khao: i play ray, who is very a self-centered and lonely person. his family is rich so he likes to use money to fix his problems

first: i play sand who is a guy who has to work hard to earn money and make a living because his fam is moderate. he does whatever he can to earn money to keep on living and fulfil his dreams, which is to travel to music festivals around the world.

since you've already worked on 3 shows tgt, what did you guys have to do meet the expectations for the chemistry that you've built previously? how did you step it up for this show?

khao: we do homework like usual. mostly we focus on workshop of our character, with our director and other actors/actresses. yes, but the part where we get to act tgt also makes us comfortable. there's not much to change since we already know like the way he will act and how i will act.

since this is a more mature show, what was your reaction to reading the script?

first: wow.

first: amazing, surprised, amazing [in english]

khao: yes, but we can also feel the excited and fun feeling. the ful feeling we will get to work on this story

first: as an actor, when i read the script, i felt that the script is very detailed and good, cuz the character we read seems so fun, it makes us, as actors, want to jump into the fun they are having. is it confusing?

outside your own characters, what other characters do you find intriguing and why?"

khao: sand is an interesting character. because he's a musician, and the music he listens to is also the music we listen to irl

first: yes, this is the real story. sand's taste in music is totally khao's style

first: yes, and first wants to play "ray" role. i want to play ray because this character has smth that resembles me. first wants to play a rich person who can use money to fic his problems. i want to play a spoiled rich kid who stays home and is cool. [he says this so EXCITED and PASSIONATE]. im self-centered and i want this and that. i want it so yeah. in the past, all my roles are like life fighter, strong and i have never played a role that is young and rich. i just feel like i want to try being like that. okay, what problem do you have? how much money do u need? here's the money. how much do u want, write it on the cheque, and u go fix this problem for me. i want to try being a rich guy!!

actors often become attached to props/costumes since they work with them almost everyday. do u guys have any props/costumes u became attached to?

khao: there are three things. these earrings [points to what he's wearing]. these are mine. i bought them myself to wear it when acting in the scenes. [first is grinning at him] when i bought it, it felt like an excuse to buy that i bought it for work. then my watch [also wearing it]. same as the one in the series [first: its the same as the one khao uses in his daily life]. i went and bought it. and the rings [index finger rings] that i wear in the series. i like to play with them.

first: i have two. actually 3 things, that make me feel like i can be in character with these things. there's the guitar cuz sand plays it at night in the series. a guitar and the motorcycle. sometimes ppl wonder if sand is really poor since his mum is a gogo bar manager and and he has a motorcycle to ride. and the third thing is a fit vintage shirt because its sand's taste that in every scene he will have a jacket but inside he will wear a fit shirt

set locations often become an attachment for actors also because u are filming there all the time. do you have a fav set location?

khao: YOLO bar. its like a gathering place for all the actors/actresses. whether there's trouble or love stories it always happens here. its like a centre place of the series. (why does this remind me of the FRIENDS cafe??)

first: like he said, every crucial story that happens in the story is mostly always at the bar.

first: khaotung likes bars.

*if you could give ur character a theme song, what would it be?

khao:: Lets try. its my song haha

first: i came across this sing and i think this represents my character's mood. the feeling i feel in ep5. the song is "Blue Butterfly". when i listen to it i feel very into the character's feelings. [he plays a little bit of the song on his phone] im very into it, it suits ep 5 vibes very well

if your character had their own podcast, what would it be about?

khao: 'Review Whiskey'.

first: 'How to be Rich People'. what to do to become a rich person.

okay, khaotung! we're super excited that you're doing the OST for the show. we absolutely love it. what is the process, when u record the song, and what was your reaction when you got the OST?

khao: this song…when i was in the studio to record the song.. o felt that its a song thats like, how to say it, hmm, like a complete song. a song that i can feel and reflect the most since i have been recording the song. since from when i first hear it i the studio.

first: khao had a song before but every song he has recorded previously all had the songwriter's personality in it. but when khao first recorded this song, after he finished recording he said 'this is the song', he feels like this song belongs to him and reflects himself well because of the mood and tone and instrument in bgm, every detail comes together as Khaotung element.

khao: yes, totally.

were you like excited to get the OST for the show?

khao: very. i was very nervous and excited and also very happy that everyone likes it. because its a voice tone that i have never sang before. sometimes i might scream my lungs our alone in my room but [first: 'AHHHHHHH' while giggling], but i never sing it for the public to hear before and im very happy that everyone likes it.

first, for you, your character is a singer in a band. so if you could create your own band with the characters in the show, who would they be and what would their positions be?"

first: ray first. ray between guitar and singing. ill bring mew for the keyboard. boston on the drums. nick and top looking after all the props, and as our audience. chuem as the band manager.

what would your band name be?

first: yes i have some in mind but i think it sounds weird to say out loud. band name 'Chip Hye Leaw' (Holy Shit!). but we will play around w the sounds like c-h-i-p that means plastic coins or potato chips and 'Hye' and 'Hai' like gone and then 'Leaw' that stays as that. so it becomes 'Chip hai Leaw' (Chip is gone). there is a story behind this name because if we create this name ppl will be like eh? what? we will use Chip as our band mascot and if one day the band is gone, ppl will ask qs like "Hey! where has the Chip gone? The chip band has disappeared and gone, where are they? we want to listen to their performance again.

we have different couples in the show but your characters have the most intense emotions right. so did you have any challenges when you were portraying the roles?

khao: its. its not that hard.

first: he's kind of easy. not that hard.

khao: we're getting better at acting. its not that hard in terms of changing and delivering emotions. but the hard part is sometimes when the character's actions doesn't make sense. we have to try and understand it

first: its the same has khao but i would like to explain more. when we have to go back and try to understand why the character acts that way. sometimes in actor shoes or or as a person, we have different opinion than the character's belief. which it could me we think 'what?" (wtf is wrong w the subs here idk) i dont wanna do that here. why do i have to act like that? why? its a conflict feeling that comes tgt when i have to overcome because if i will act as that character, if i want to portray the character, i have to connect with the character's choice of action. which could have a conflict of rejection inside that i have to overcome.

any funny moments bts?

first: there was some dialogue we misspoke. and we were so confident. the script that was written goes like this: "so what? do you want me to make this uni a white area? you arent that good of a person". i misspoke this when i was acting. and i was so confident but actually i said "so what? do you want me to make this uni a green area? free of drugs and has trees growing?". i said the wrong colour. i was so confident w my poker face, like the thing i said was right.

khao: its a kissing scene. the scene atmosphere was super quiet. it wasnt like in the script. we were at the scene filming and were continuing each other's dialogues and we were closing in on each other and then…"pff pood"? and i was like eh? what? whats that sound?

first: at that time it was a filming where the recording was going on and the surrounding was very quiet, like complete silence and only us were continuing each other's dialogues. we were talking until one point where we have to kiss. our faces are very near each other. and suddenly, theres a sound "woop woop" and both of us stopped. and staring at each other's face like ??? one of the staff was farting. yea, we couldnt stop laughing and all the recordings we did for the long run couldnt be used since we didnt follow the script to the ending scene.

FAN QUESTIONS

if you could give advice to ur character, what advice would you give?

khao: pls look after ur health more

first: you can love others but pls dont forget to love yourself too.

for ppl who havent watched the show yet, can u tell them why they should watch it?

khao: cuz everyone will be able to relate w the character no matter which character cuz every character in this story is somebody out there or someone whom we may have met in our lives before. or some experiences that u might have faced before will be similar. this drama might remind u of some of the moments in your life. both nostalgic or sad or bad moments. something that might or could be a life lesson.

word association game (words to songs) [in eng] [faster person wins]

word: LOVE

khao: oh, theres a lot of music [in eng] first: Love Somebody

word: BABY

khao: baby. baby by justin bieber.

word: NEVER

first: Never Say Never

word: SHY

khao: [ sings super shy super shy] super shy by new jeans

word: WORLD

first: you are my world, your world is my world

word: LATE

khao: [singing] its too late to apologise first: the song is Apologise

word: CRY

first: OH KESHI SONG i forgot the lyrics [he is Struggling] i rmb there's cry in the song but i dont rmb the lyrics.

khao: [sings] first time you ever saw me cry. taylor swift

word: FRIEND

first: company by justin beiber? its slightly diff working, is this okay?

word: Happy

first: [sings] happy happy happy happy… what were the lyrics again? [khao: ????????] HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

word: LONELY

[after googling] khao: lonely by justin bieber

word: DRINK

first: DRUNK by keshi

word: SAD

[after a while both of them going Through it emotionally] first: Sad Movie

#ofts #only friends the series #ray #sand #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #firstkhao #firstkhao interview #Youtube #*mine

[tsaritsa]

Congratulations on winning Nano!!! Any hot takes or unconventional tips on how to achieve a huuuge milestone like that in so little time?

Also, if you'd like to share, I'd love to hear more about the piece(s) you worked on during this year's event! Big yay if you want to tease us with a sneak peek as well. 🙂

Congratsss again!!!

ty!!!! i am afraid my tips might seem kind of obvious and not that much of a hot take but here's what worked for me:

writing sprints. do 10 min. do 17 min. do 30 min. whatever it is, just get words down on the page. after each sprint was finished i'd look at what i wrote, fix up the most glaring mistakes (espe if the words looked terrible. i've learned to live with a lot of spelling errors bc otherwise u waste too much time. during nano each day i'd prolly manage between 2-3 sprints -- usually enough to net me between 1000-1500 words each day. i wouldn't stop if i hit the daily total, i'd stop when i could feel the motivation waning. my lowest day was under 300 words, my biggest was just over 4000.

get a community. writing sucks alone. i feel very grateful that i've made some friends on here who were also trying to write regularly, so now there's 5 of us in a little discord i've made. we do sprints with each other and share lots of snippets, memes, pretty pictures etc. it keeps us excited about our own projects, but also allows us to cheerlead each other on.

get used to placeholders. i use TK. anytime there's a word i need but it's not on the tip of my tongue? TK my beloved. sometimes i'd write like she sighed in a TK kind of way, or like harry opens his mouth to argue about TK TK some work thing he's doing TK TK. it just keeps u in the pace of writing ur in, but allows for a few words to be spent writing down a piece that needs further expansion.

establish habits and goals. for me, it's stuff like trying to write the bulk of my writing with a nice candle lit, but also the silly stuff like putting on lippy so I feel like. Ready to do shit. have a few drinks avail. one to hydrate (ice cold) one to caffeinate (also ice cold). play music or sounds that will help u get into the zone without overly distracting. now that i've won it i'm gonna treat myself to some silly purchases as well bc i should reward myself for such hard work and dedication. i'm thinking a v comfy hoodie.

overall if i didn't have the community i had this month i think my external motivation would've been lost quickly, so find friends to yell at about ur project. watch yt videos about ppl doing writing! make posts and don't give a flying fuck about being cringe or not suiting ut 'aesthetic'. this is u. do it for U.

in terms of this project: the short version is hermione goes back to hogwarts post book 7 and has to slowly begin to recover from/learn to live with the PTSD she's gained. alas, draco is also back and she's gotta learn to make peace with the fact that he's allowed to want to change and that he's making small steps to become a better person than who he was. they're gonna kiss and be disgusting with each other. ultimately this is a story about hermione's journey, as the whole thing is written from her perspective, so although the dhr aspect is there, there are also other important relationships i want to focus on -- especially her and harry.

i'm ignoring/expanding on a lot of canon, and using some details from the movies i prefer over the books (namely her mudblood scar bc mmmmm parallels). i don't really know if anybody is in character but i don't care! this is my story and i'll do it how i see fit haha.

the following excerpt comes from late sept in the current draft. at this point dhr has been forced together a few times already. draco has surreptitiously managed to drug slughorn with a potion of his (slughorn's) own making during their potions class bc the potions professor was spending an entire lesson just showing off instead of. u know. teaching.

#ask #live by the cringe die by the cringe #i'm seriously thinking about starting a little vlog journey for this so i can just keep myself even more motivated haha #ty for the ask!!!! basically u just gotta write. doesn't matter how bad it is. it counts!

[rosetyler42]

Hi! I want to ask what you like about Martha Dracula.

Personally, I hate how she had no purpose other than die to make Drac sad. We didnt see any of her personality so her death feels far less impactful than say, Bambis mom, and I hate the concept of zing/love at first sight trope" because the idea you will immediately know who you are supposed to be with forever based on immediate attraction sends a harmful message to kids and erases aromatic and polyamorous people and ppl who break off romantic relationships but are happier off that way.

I do wish we got to know more about Martha beyond the tragedy of her death and her book about Mavis finding her own zing, but I can kinda understand it as...the story's more about Drac, Johnny and Mavis and there were alot of other things to focus on. We do have SOME window into her personality and relationship with Drac: Mavis is implied to be similar to her and be the peice of Martha he has left, part of the reason he's so protective of her (With all the talk of Ericka being Martha's reincarnation - basically this universe's Mina to compare to other Dracula adaptations, I kind of think MAVIS is actually closer to that role. At least symbolically, although there are other similarities after having read Dracula Daily.) We hear that Martha is clearly the more bold of the two (similarly to Johnny and Mavis.) There's the legend of her and Drac's love story and family in the "Lady Lubov" legend, Drac's been clearly sitting Shiva for over a century, Her book about zings and how they met when she was Mavis' age, And it's implied Drac and Martha loved making music together as Drac mentions he hasn't sung in public since Martha passed. But as much as I do love the things we got, I wish we'd gotten to see more of Martha, seen her and Drac together and their (Less amorous) Gomez and Morticia type dynamic. Now, there IS a deleted scene on the HT bluray that shows Drac and Martha meeting, their courtship, and them having Mavis which gives more of a glimpse at Drac and Martha together which you may be interested in seeing if you haven't already. Matter of fact, Martha's reveal of her pregnant belly as a bat CLEARLY got reused in HT2 in Mavis' reveal of her own pregnancy.

As for the whole zing business...Yes, like all "Love at first sight" and Soulmate stuff, it does spread some harmful ideas, particularly for aro and ace people (like myself!) My mother had similar issues with it herself when we first watched it (though I don't think she knew about aro identities) Though I can kind of understand why it exists. Social interaction, particularly dating, can be a confusing, difficult, and potentially painful process. And I guess it's nice to imagine that you COULD just know the person you're meant to be with without having to go through all the mess. In the case of the HT films, it's also supposed to be a gothic fairytale Romeo and Juliet kind of story, which Love at first sight and soulmates are common tropes in that. Not to mention the trying to juggle a love story plot, a buddy film, family antics, gags, worldbuilding, (and in HT3, the whole "Monster Genocide" business) doesn't exactly lend itself to slow burns. The zing is a sweet idea, even if it doesn't necessarily work that way in real life.

This got long as I have some feelings about anatonormativity + HT , so here's a read more:

To a certain extent, that's part of what I like about HT3: It challenges the "A Zing only happens once in your life" idea by having Drac find love again. And having him DEAL WITH the "You only zing once" being wrong. Alot of people hated that. Some seek to think him falling for Ericka lessens what he had with Martha or means that he's forgotten about her. That he's cheating on Martha somehow. Some dunked on Ericka saying she was "weird" and "ugly", saying Martha was prettier. Some tried to find explanations like Ericka being Martha's reincarnation. But to me...I mean, we tend to think of love as being "The One," yet people fall in love again and remarry all the time. There doesn't HAVE to be a reason Drac zinged twice. And it resolves an issue the first movie had ABOUT "If a zing only happens once, what about people who fall in love and remarry?" Making it at least a BIT less amatonormative in my opinion. Of course, I'm something of an expert at bending rules and finding less amatonormative interpretations, and they never explicitly state EVERYONE has a zing.

Honestly in some ways the HT films are both amatonormative and anti-amatonormative. You have the whole zing/soulmate business, Drac teasing Dennis about Winnie, the guys setting Drac up on dates despite him saying he's not interested, and the whole "late bloomer" conversion therapy business. Most characters in the show have a partner except the mummy (who's shown dating), Vlad (who's showing off for the witches and talks about Nefrititi) and Blobby (who's more comic relief.)

On the OTHER hand, You not only have a 3 generational Non-nuclear family (with a stepmom, yet!) Living together in the same building in close proximity to eachother, but also a bunch of friends that are basically considered family, and at no point in the franchise does the romantic relationship get put higher than the familial or platonic ones. Heck, half the franchise I'd about the familial relationships. And even in the ones about romance, the familial relationships are a big part of those too. (There's also quite a bit if gray-rose coding with Drac himself looking back at the series - including the fact the man only experienced confirmed romantic attraction TWICE that we know of despite how much of a charmer he's shown to be. He can flirt until he's actually interested, then he can't function around them. There's also possible internalized aphobia that does get touched on, particularly in HT2 with him trying to make Dennis a vampire but then turning around and saving him from Vlad's "scare the fangs" plan and ultimately coming to accept Dennis as he is - which there's parallels between Dennis and his younger self drawn there.) I'll also point out that despite the "love and family over racism, we're all basically the same" message, love isn't treated as what makes one "human" in the series. If ANYTHING, it's bravery and willingness to take risk. Particularly to have fun OR protect others.

So yeah, kind of mixed feelings there as an aroace fan.

PS: I'll warn you about the HT3 junior novelization, there's a scene of VH dismissing Love as if it means nothing to him which...more aphobic than the scene in the film was. Particularly since Van Helsing gives off aroace vibes himself.

#hotel transylvania #martha dracula #martha lubov #aroace #amatonormativity #ask #asks #chinesegal #aro #ace #zing #I headcanon Drac as grayrose for ALOT of reasons #Mavis is probaby aspec too #As is her son Dennis. #DO love the fact Martha and Drac ARE basically a less amorous Gomez and Morticia dynamic #and the duality of her and Ericka's Debbie/Ophelia vibes is beautiful. #long post

[rvrend]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN. respond to the prompts out of character!

what made you pick up the current muse(s) you have ?

at first, i had gained interest in rod from seeing a comparison of him to another one of my all time comfort charas (glenn harod.) when i found out about him and stephanie, i cried at the thought of a middle aged protestant reverend accepting and unconditionally loving his butch lesbian daughter without any preaching to her, it really solidified my interest in him as for making this blog, it was a combination of my wife @dollene encouraging me and being very excited for it, and i will shamelessly say i was excited about the potential of writing with @moralpuppet now that i had a newfound appreciation for orel and sav's writing of him ♡ ♡ ♡

is there anything you don’t like to write ?

i'm not the best at writing heavy angst these days, i have to take breaks on stuff that's super intense or it can get to me a bit. i also only rly write nsfw with @dollene / discuss nsfw topics with ppl i'm very close to ^^

is there anything you really enjoy writing ?

i love writing mundane scenarios a lot ! seeing characters in each other's daily routines, exploring mannerisms, etc. love that stuff !

how do you come up with headcanons ?

analyzing what i'm shown and going off that + my own experiences i've either lived or seen. headcanons are very fun to make bc i ADORE analyzing people and figuring out how they think, talk, move, etc. i could spend years analyzing characters (and i have,) it's a huge passion of mine

do you write in silence or do you play music ?

it depends ! since my mind is always constantly making noise anyways, i like to have some level of noise to quiet that part and let me focus. sometimes it's music, but i also enjoy listening to slime asmr videos, voc.aloid (as i can't understand the lyrics most of the time,) random videos / movies, or animals making noises. lately i've been writing listening to wrinkle the duck

do you plan your replies or wing them ?

plan plan plan ! in general, i'm a huge planner as is, and that comes into play with writing too.

do you enjoy shipping ?

to a degree ! every character i've written as of late has been exclusive to one other character and interpretation (usually just writing it with my wife,) and i do enjoy it very much ! but in terms of casual shipping that's just in general a no-go

what’s your alias / name ?

theo, though in the past i went by mothman for several years

age ?

24

birthday ?

october 28

favourite colour ?

oranges, greens, yellows and browns

favourite song ?

i don't have any technical 'favourites' atm, but i love kiltro and glass animals a lot as artists

last movie you watched ?

shrek 🫶

last show you watched ?

i'm almost in a continual state of rewatching m.oral or.el tbh

last song you listened to ?

rev.erend putty is a babygirl .........

favourite food ?

i've been loving making paninis lately ! i also love macaroni with tomatoes and smoked gouda, yum yum

favourite season ?

autumn ! i've always been a big fan of the fall since i was a child, though i've also been appreciating spring a lot too lately

do you have a tumblr best friend ?

many of them ! so many that i've dedicated a portion of my personal neocities to have a little friends section, which of course includes @dollene as my bifey and my lil puppet family ♡

tagged. @moralpuppet ily sav !! tagging. @itsposabule, @dollene and anyyyone who wants to

#OUT. #long post #i gotta haul myself back into a proper sleep schedule so i can get more energy again but erm #welcome to my autobiography i suppose LMAO

[somuchyoudontknow]

I don't know if this has been talked about on other blogs since I was but as I am going through my DMs, a friend has sent me ss of many photos of n*k*d bodies that Alba has liked. Cevantines on twitter and wakeupitsscalet on instagram have shared them. wakeupitsscalet has also shared some ig pages that she has been following.//

Trollba's behavior is creepy as hell!

I doubt she suffers mental issues, that's why the pr is different from Seb and Ale's. This shitshow is too much difficult and unpredictable, it's the most ridiculous pr in HW so far!

She deleted 100+ porn pics before signing the contract, and liked many nude pics, she’s obsessed with naked bodies. We noticed she always wore the same clothes and no bra, it seems she never care what she wears! She loves to sleep with anyone, normal ppl will be shy and hide this behavior to their family. But she has to be accompanied by her mother or sister wherever she goes!!! It's highly possible her family will give her pills and control her when she got attacks and out of control! I'm sure Alba has hided many secrets from Chris' team, her team is untrustworthy!

Professional info about schizophrenia and it’s treatment:

Personality and Behavior Changes - Disorganized behavior

https://www.msdmanuals.com/home/mental-health-disorders/overview-of-mental-health-care/personality-and-behavior-changes

"Disorganized behavior refers to doing quite unusual things (such as undressing or masturbating in public or shouting and swearing for no apparent reason). People with disorganized behavior typically have trouble doing normal daily activities (such as maintaining good personal hygiene or obtaining food)."

Schizophrenia CHPATER 16 -List and define the types of schizophrenia. https://quizlet.com/790284946/schizophrenia-chpater-16-flash-cards/

"These difficulties are the source of many bizarre behaviors such as public undressing or masturbating, speaking about oneself in the third person, or physically clinging to objects in the environment. "

Family support and adaptation mechanisms of adults outpatients with schizophrenia

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7376456/

"Previous researches have shown the practice of self-care in about 70% of ten families, which involves making the patient available for treatment, providing supervision while taking medications, and engaging the individual with activities. Specifically, family support includes the provision of emotional, informational, instrumental and research assistance by the client’s relatives, in order to maintain a therapeutic regime. The delivery of home care by the family members to strengthen and augment health services maintains the independence and dignity of schizophrenia outpatients. Being the closest unit to a patient, families play a role in determining the nature of care, and also to prevent relapse. This participation helps in the initiation of treatment at home, in order to prevent the possibility of relapse. The support provided has been associated with the decline in stress levels, which consequently strengthens the individual and collective mental health."

Anon, I would have to disagree with you. Although I am not a dr but I have seen some patients of schizophrenia my surroundings and what I have seen there are other symptoms as well which we do not see in Alba in any way. I don't know if you are a dr or you have some kind of knowledge to the field of medicine but it seems not okay to label someone as a patient of a mental disease.

Her behavior seems to be weird from liking disturbing photos to showing her liking for Lolita and also Marlon. It seems like a case of focus on hypers*xuality. She had a boob job at a very young age and it is very alarming that her parents didn't stop her and let her have it. Also, most of her career is based on soft p*rn movies. Some of her work also depicts disturbing relationships between old men and young woman where she plays the role of the young woman who looks like a teen. It satisfies the ill-minded fantasies of creepy men.

#alba-baptista

[nyxopenjournal]

I want to be surrounded by people who can not only tell me they love &/or care about me but can also show it. And the thing is. I don't expect everyone to love me in the same way. But if you show me the way you express your love then take it away? That hurts like a mf. Because you've gotten me comfortable with your giving-love-language. So when things change without explanation I panic. And I think rightfully so. No one really does well with sudden change. Nothing is ever quite the same after, either. Now I have to shift my thinking about how to interact and interpret what you do or say to me. Now I'm on edge about how to approach things. Like I said earlier, I don't expect people to show love exactly the same but put in the effort if you really do care. If you are the type to send "this reminds me of you" memes & then check in every couple days, do that. If you'd rather text everyday to give daily updates, do that. If you'd rather call a few times a week to talk about everything & nothing, do that. If you'd rather check in every couple weeks but still be happily present & around when you're able, do that. I've experienced all these types of relationships. I've had people who I'd check in with every 3 months & people who couldn't go more than a few hours without talking. I will shift my efforts to match yours but it also requires communication. In any of those situations, I would always try to say when I wasn't in the right headspace to talk. Whether it was a serious conversation or not. I'd always try to let them know that I missed them & was thinking about them or send things that reminded me of them whenever I saw it. I don't think my efforts were wasted I appreciated and respected everyone's level of communication to preserving our friendships. I just don't like when something is consistent and then suddenly there's a heavy, noticeable shift but when it's acknowledged, it's said that nothings wrong? Bc I'm a whore for details. I notice things that ppl think I don't or shouldn't care about but I have to hyper focus on it bc ppl will try to make me seem like I'm bonkers for pointing out the things I see have changed. I just want to feel secure in the attachments I create. I cannot thrive in confusion. I hate being confused. Tell me what is and what isn't. Put the emotion to the side. I can't deal with that myself. All I need is honesty. The rest will fall where it may. And I know it sounds like an oxymoron to say I need honesty but also say I always believe I'm being lied to, but the catch-all to that is if someone consistently shows up for me, my mind is put at ease and those constant negative thoughts will dissipate. It will take time, but I'm willing to put in the work if they are too. I know I'm not easy to deal with. I don't make it easy, but it's because I'm scared. Kinda lame excuse. It's true though. I'm tired of people leaving. It makes me want to give up. But my heart still yearns for connection even though I try to numb it. Here's to hoping the universe will give me a hand. Cheers.

[enchantechante]

Hey Tae and hey last anon! This gonna be long :

Anon...THOSE ARE NOT YOUR PEOPLE!!!PERIODT!!!

Sis,when I was reading your message,I saw soooo much of my OLD self in it(years 2012-2021 to be exact).I WAS that woman who was ALWAYS there for EVERYONE no matter how I was treated in return.I would ALWAYS come up with excuses when it came to the treatment of being treated as if I WASN'T important in other people's lives. I would be like...oh,well MAYBE they are busy and have a lot going on? Because that's life and all of us go through shit even if it's not mentioned. But man,listen! I was really playing BOO BOO THE FOOL! Two of my EX bestfriends got away with soooo much because I knew they really were going through so I let things slide then they started skating on a bih! Lol. I heard the same excuses... I got a lot going on,I forgot to call you back man you know my memory bad,I thought you probably didn't want to talk,I know you hate talking on the phone,I was depressed,you could've called me,I lost your number etc.

Like,say what? I was there for both of them when I barely had and was struggling to get on my feet!Even when one of them was locked up(he was the most ungrateful and in the end thought he was better than me, picture that,lol) and the others mom passed/he was jobless and without a home,I WAS THERE TEN TOES DOWN because that's what real friends do!

I provided money,years worth of time, support and inspiring them daily to not lose their shit!I tried to get my guys to eat better etc.

While I was working two sometimes three jobs six days a week,mom battling cancer,uncle ill, catching cabs to and from because my car broke down, depressed for real, struggling with being bipolar,hair coming out ,skin breaking out etc.

Meanwhile,they would NEVER text or call me to check and see how I was,my mom,NOT NOTHING!

I felt worthless and was considering suicide!I had no one to turn to other than talking to God and my sweet mama.

I woke up one morning and said fuck it!Fuck my so called friends and fuck my mindset!I told myself it was time to make a change in EVERY part of my life and I did!

I deleted their numbers and blocked them on social media including a couple others.I focused on myself for seven months.I lost weight(85 lbs),got my money up, credit right,fell in love with ME and met amazing people.I even got started with real estate.When I think about that I laugh.WHY?Because one of my EX friends is the one who made it seem like I wouldn't make it in real estate because he knew more than me and at the time,had more connections than I did.GUESS WE'LL NEVER KNOW BECAUSE I'M JUST GETTING STARTED AND ABOUT TO PURCHASE LAND! 😩🤭😂

It's crazy how life will turn around in a positive way once you release what's not meant for you and also FOCUS ON YOU!

What's also even more crazy is more than likely you will cross paths with those SAME people who treated you like shit and took you for granted once you really get your life together!

And when that happens,still SAY FUCK EM!Ain't no spinning the block on a REAL good person who IS genuine and did EVERYTHING out of love and NEVER counted them favors!You'll see what I mean baby girl!Release everyone who makes it seem as if you're too hard to love or show up for!Nothing is wrong with you!I wish you the best with EVERYTHING!and once again,FUCK ANYBODY WHO DON'T POUR INTO YOU LIKE YOU DO THEM. Leave them where they had you fucked up at boo! PERIDOT!!! 😉

me, cackling through the mssg 😂:

yall are hilarious!

And thank you for this thoughtful response.

Youve caught on to something really empowering & often hard to see at times like this.

Our love and care are powerful.

Pouring out for ppl who only take (regardless of the reason) will drain you. Not just during those interactions, but draining you of energy that could make a real difference in your own life.

Creating boundaries w ppl, like blocking them on social media, closes that drain.

We decide how long we suffer w bad friends. We need our own friendship deeply, before anyone else.

i love yall sm

#anon #friendship goals #self love #advice #acceptance #boundaries

[jenniferstit]

hello 🦋 if you don't mind could I get a reading about the stagnation between me and my partner? we've both been feeling stressed and in a weird place so the energy between us is quite monotone lately. idk if it helps but we know we're each other's soulmate so overall we love each other to death but the energy is not there atm. his work/daily life is boring him but he's trying to hold on until school starts again. I'm getting out of my shell and looking for work to support, also been trying to regain my confidence. I'm not sure how to approach everything right now.

lmk if my explanation is a little confusing and thank you in advance. ❤️

hi! so i’m not sure what energy exactly that you want me to look at but i just looked at what specifically is the cause of the stagnation & also some oracle advice.

(sorry if this message is messy there’s a lot of energy here) someone in this connection is feeling very abandoned and has retreated inside themselves. there’s also an emphasis on not receiving enough physical affection/sex. the result of this person not getting their needs met is the creation of fantasies/low vibrational thoughts that involve wanting to spent time with other ppl. again, i’m not saying that this is what this person wants exactly, it’s just that they find themselves thinking abt it bc their needs are not getting met. now this next energy could be the same person or a different person but i feel like there’s someone here who feels like they have tried everything to maintain this connection and nothing’s really working. this has created a lot of confusion and arguments inside this connection wherein someone just feels completely defeated & almost desperate to seek some sort of external help or support.

as far as oracle advice, i’m not getting anything directly relating to the reading. the main message im seeing is that this is a time for both of you to focus on finances/career. and ultimately i think that’s the real takeaway from this spread. intuitively i feel as though universe has guided this connection to this point— both of you are no longer getting your needs met though each other bc it’s time to fulfill your own needs. it’s time for each of you focus on yourselves a bit more and step into your individual purposes. i do feel that if both of you shift your focus from the overall connection back onto yourselves, you two will find yourselves on the same page again. i think universe really wants to help show if you this connection can elevate to a more mature level, as you both ascend to a higher version of yourselves.

#answered

[lemoneyyy]

💌 7th house ruler in signs and houses 💞

7th house ruler and what you attracted to (your ideal partner).

♡ Check the degree and planets aspects as well!!! ^^

💗 7th house ruler in 1st/Aries

- you want a partner who is bold, confident and ambitious.

- who can motivate and always inspire you.

- someone who is similar to you in some way.

- you may meet them on an ordinary day, but there's something about you two that attracts each other, can be a "love at first sight", something could happen really fast. A very active place, like a sport field or a gym. Even a place have an accident brought the two of you together :) (actually idk what to say lol >_<). 🐏🔥

💗 7th house ruler in 2nd/Taurus

- you prefer a person who is trustworthy, loyal and have good finances.

- you or them may really like to cuddling, a huge ass fan of pda ✨

- someone who can cook, so you and them can cook together. (omg so cute argggg)

- you may meet them at a comfy and chilling place. A place related to beauty, like a spa. Somthing related to cooking and food : restaurant, chef, supermarket,... Somthing about makeup, clothes, perfume, jewelry, looks very nice and luxurious. Money, related to banking and trading. Bull and horns. 🐂💸

💗 7th house ruler in 3rd/Gemini

- commucation is the key here.

- who is witty, highly intelligent, also have a great sense of humour.

- someone who will impress you with their quick mind and courage, keeping you curious about them.

- you may meet them through your siblings or neighborhoods, at school, a fair, a market. Short distance travel. Transportation and social media. Things related to knowledge : books, magazines or newspapers. Talking, reading or writing. Very noisy and funny place, which have a lot of ppl, make you hard to focus. Since it's a dual sign, so you may meet two ppl, a twin, a couple, and there's your spouse :) 📚🧑‍🤝‍🧑

💗 7th house ruler in 4th/Cancer

- you like a sweet, cute partner who can protect you.

- someone in need of a deep emotional connection with you.

- this person can be your childhood friend, someone reminds you of your parents, or a loving person who feels like home to you, makes you really feel peace when ur with them!!

- a homebody and traditional person who always respect older ppl.

- you may meet them through your family, or something related to your family. Very comfy and nostalgic place, reminds you of your childhood (maybe deja vu??). Something related to home and vehicles, a hotel or a car showroom. During a holiday. A place have water like a beach or pool. 🦀🌚

💗 7th house ruler in 5th/Leo

- you like a cheerful, energetic, confident, optimistic, creative partner.

- a person who is the center of attention, very prominent and magnetic.

- someone will boost your pride and ego.

- you or them may really love children.

- you're drawn to playful partner, famous ppl, artistic and very outgoing

- you may meet them at a creative place, where everyone can show off their talents. A very lively and dramatic place. Related to music and performance. Something about romance, playfulness and flirting. "Blastly" atmosphere. Hot/sunny weather, summer. 🦁☀️

💗 7th house ruler in 6th/Virgo

- you'll definitely keep an eye on someone who is humble, pratical and nurturing.

- you like to spend your time with your partner.

- someone who does more than says, always listening to you.

- a person has a healthy lifestyle, clean and organized.

- you tend to enter relationships more slowly because you value long term and commitment relationships.

- you may meet them at school/work, or through a coworker. Through daily routine. You could meet them through a "normal" way, nothing in common. A place related to health, a hospital, gym or a pharmacy. 🏥👧

💗 7th house ruler in 7th/Libra

- you're drawn to a diplomatic and social partner.

- maybe you may desire yourself in a relationship and think about it many times when you were young.

- a balanced, diplomatic, elegant and attractive partner.

- probably someone who has bf/gf material on them ;)

- you want a true love, very passionate and fascinating.

- you may meet them through somebody introduction. Could be a blind date or a matchmaking (arranged marriage). Very polite, elegant, political enviroment like a business or a meeting. Social media. There could be flirting from either or both parties. A library or a court. On a holiday, which could be a lot couples around (valentine or new year's eve or smth like that i guess so). ⚖️👩‍🎓

💗 7th house ruler in 8th/Scorpio

- who mystery and hard to read.

- you want to connect your soul with them, want to feel trusted and understood.

- someone who can accepts the darkest parts of you and satisfies your sexual need.

- someone who gives you intense emotions and make you feel alive again.

- you may meet them at night, dark/heavy place. Can be a love at first sight, ONS, a hookup. Something very intense will draw you two together like a magnet. A very taboo and sexual place. Meet them after a big transformation in your life. Watery place. Spooky and deadly place. Place related to home and vehicles (lmao sounds so scary ☠). 🦂🖤

💗 7th house ruler in 9th/Sagittarius

- your type is someone passionate, curious, funny, quickly, frank and honest.

- a free spirit who can always be with you.

- you may meet them at foreign lands and long distance travel. Higher education like a college or university. You can meet them in the lecture hall, where someone is teaching. At a playground or amusement park, which is funny and exciting. A place that very big, expands. Religious place like a church or a wedding. During a vacation. Related to horse, archery, arrows 🏹🐴

💗 7th house ruler in 10th/Capricorn

- you're attracted to mature, ambitious, successful and responsible partners, authority figures

- you don't need someone who is too romantic, just someone who is realistic and hard-working 😌

- somebody who can help you in your career and make you feel more mature.

- your relationships can be quite popular and be due to public eye 👀

- you may meet them at work/office or school. Serious and busy environment. Lots of awards, certificates, trophies, etc. Perharps you meet them later in life. Your father can play a role in this. 🐐⛰️

💗 7th house ruler in 11th/Aquarius

- you want a partner who can be both your friend and lover.

- intelligent, quirky, unique and independent partner.

- a non-binding relationship where you feel most free with your partner.

- if afflicted, you may feel constrained and uncomfortable in relationships.

- you may meet them through your or their friends, or both of you've been friends before. Online friends or social media. At the airport or plane. A modern and technological place. Place that have lots of ppl, like a fandom, community or a group. Waterfall or fountain. ⛲🏞

💗 7th house ruler in 12th/Pisces

- an artistic, dreamy, spiritual, creative partner is your type.

- you may want to keep your relationship secret.

- someone mystery, stand out the crowd.

- who is sensitive and empathetic enough to understand your pains and flaws and gently forgive that.

- this also indicates that you could have a healing or karmic relationship.

- you may meet them through your dreams. At a quite and spiritual place like hospital or church. Foreign lands. Somewhere creative like art museum, movie theater, etc. A place that have a lot of water. Fishy 🐟💦

#7th house ruler in houses #7th house lord #7th house ruler #spouse astrology #astrology notes #astro notes #astrology #astrology observations #astrology degrees #astro observations #vedic astrology #sidereal astrology #lemoneyyy

[papers4me]

Fruits Basket Manga Review , ch 119 -120

“ Of all ppl, why me? “..The author starts the climax with this question.

it sums up kyo’s perspective of himself when it comes to being loved by tohru. Why me? The guy who hurt your mom & caused you to be orphaned which led to you being tossed between ur relatives till you slept in a tent.. me? the one whose mom couldn’t even bare to live with him? me? whose dad outright wish him death? me? who watched as you desperately tried to link everyday’s events to ur deceased mom... 

it also summed how Isuzu felt, “Why him? is it pity” ? How the sohma felt knowing tohru is in love with kyo” oh no, He’s the cat & will be locked soon ” . There’s a sweeping feeling of “poor tohru”.

It sums up how the audience felt seeing his flashback & knowing how much he loved kyoko, how much the kid kyo truly wanted to protect tohru, how awfully the teenage kyo is tormented by guilt. As audience we understood how much kyo is depressed & although we rooted for this couple the most of any show even, it’s irony that tohru would fall in love with the one who was involved in her mom’s past.

-Brilliant writing that takes a melodramatic plot twist & writes it in a realistic gut-retching way. Kyo’s question is so true to his view of himself. The sohma’s question is so true to their view of him, the audience questions is so true to their fear that kyo might not do what he hope he does!

--Part of setting the climax is not surprising the audience with unforeseen plot twists that shocks them. NO. On the contrary, you gotta set up the dread, the fear of the worst case scenario, this will keep the audience /readers glued to ur story!

-The Suffocating Love:

Se01, ep 24, kyo describe living with tohru as “ lukewarm water” he felt “ suffocated”. It wasn’t a lie, but it wasn’t the truth either. Master Kazuma understood what kyo meant. When you feel you should be rejected, being accepted hurt. When think you should be hated, being loved hurts. When you believe you should be punished, being forgiven hurts like hell! weird, right?

Nope. That’s so relatable. ppl aren’t computers where you can program them & then deprogram again. To be accepted, loved, forgiven is wonderful & liberating! but it needs time to wash away the rejection, hate & desire for punishment. Kyo’s problem is that the one who eventually gave him all these, is the one who he think he hurt the most. That’s why every time tohru loves him, he feels so much joy, but the knife of reality stabs him hard! Every time she opens her heart, complains & become vulnerable with him, he’s overwhelmed with happiness to see her genuinely relieved but the guilt comes & strangles him with “ YOU CAUSED THIS”. He didn’t. But alas he’ll never know as kyoko died with the true meaning of her words with her & kyo would need to grow despite this pain & learn to let go of guilt.

---I’ve never read a love story where being together is the ultimate joy as well as  the ultimate pain. both weaved in realistic display of emotions & logical reaction of years of trauma & pain! forever my favorite love story!

-Logical Reaction & Realistic Assessment of self:

The anime made me appreciate kyo’s inner monologues the most in furuba! It only happened in big moments & revealed deep painful thoughts! Tohru was the narrator of se01, she commented to the audience abt everything & yuki was the narrator of se02 & commented on all characters feelings. Buy kyo was shrouded with silence to keep the “ suspenseful plot hidden”. He had way more inner monologues in the manga! I was delighted! But let’s focus on what he says here:

1. loneliness.   2. shame.     3. frustration.

Kyo explain why he felt each of those & what reaction it caused him: sulking. He then commented on his reaction back then: “ I was a brat” !

Age gives us wisdom even if he didn’t think which is good. so, child kyo is different from teenage kyo, is different from 18 years kyo. Age is coupled with experience brought by daily encounters. You live more, you learn more. Mostly, you look back at yourself & assess it, which is good. We all do. Most of the time, we berate our young self. We lament the stupid choices we did. We look back at our mistakes back then & see them with magnifying lens!! which is BAD!. Kyo being in this state of mind where he feels trapped by tohru’s love that he is forced to “ confess” his “ sin” of knowing her mom, looks back at his young self & althou gives a successful assessment, ends up with a harsh judgement! Kyo doesnt want tohru to forgive him cuz he is not forgiving his younger self. He wants the current self to be punished severely. So, the future self won’t exist at all. He is committing emotional suicide.

Punish the brat.

The brat who, few years earlier, saw his mom throw herself at a train...

The brat is still listening to his dad wishing him death & fuming hate... 

The brat who will grow up few years older & once again see a loving soul bleed to death on the street knowing that he had 50% chance of helping & hearing her say “ I’ll never forgive you” ...

If kyo was looking for forgiveness before, it’s long gone after kyoko’s dying words~~

So, yeah kyo. You are right. You were a brat, still is now with your hate of yuki. But that brat existed to preserve your soul from doing what your mom did. You know that, too, right? that’s why it’s been long since you really hated yuki. It actually stopped completely after beach trip. The hate is directed to you. It always was. but hid behind yuki’s image for awhile. but now. it is unleashed. His heart can’t take it anymore.

Buy kyo.... You said your part. Explained yourself.... unleashed your hidden pain.. Go ahead, Judge & Punish yourself.

Now it’s Tohru turn to say her part, explain herself... Logic? deliberate Choice? reason? It all doesn’t change how I feel! I’m not a button that can be pressed to change a channel. three whole years of love I carried in my heart for you, only you, can’t be erased just like that. Goddammit kyo that’s not how ppl work! You resisted loving me?  I’m resisting hating you! Now, I’m the one unleashing my anger!

Side Notes:

I don’t like so many things in se03 & how rushed it was. But ep 8 is my favorite in this entire season!! I’m so thankful it only covered two chapters!!!!! It gave space for kyo’s pain to sink & impact the audience! How silly would it be for a character that was locked away emotionally & expressively during all 3 seasons to be rushed in one ep? How horrible would it be for the the hidden plot of kyo seeing kyoko’s death which was teased since se01 (grave visit ep) & to be mixed with Akito & tohru bonding under the rain? I’m so happy ep 8 ending wasnt tohru falling off cliff, but tohru left by kyo while akito approaches. This way the emphasis is on the pain kyo caused not the harm akito caused.

Another thing I’m thankful for in se03, ep8 is kyo’s animation. Looking at the manga panels, I see kyo’s pain so clear, so well-drawn!! Looking at the anime & my God the pain is well-drawn too & coupled with marvelous voice acting from both Jerry Jewel & Yuma Ushida! The animators didn’t care for pretty style of drawing & focused on realistic facial emotions, hence, the picture matched the voice!

As I said previously, the only thing I hated in ep 8 was not showing tohru’s face when she confessed her love for kyo, the emphasis was on yuki’s face...... weird choice!!!!!!! but meh~ the anime never cared for tohru when it comes to realist emotions, so not seeing her face will equal seeing it with weird tears or whatever they do with her, plus yuki was coming on to the picture & within frame, so it was expected they will only focus on him.

I’ll complete my analysis of ch120 next post along with the following chapters cuz this was getting long!

It is so rare for anime to make a character look at their self, assess the past & not come back triumphant with self knowledge, or enlightened on what to do!!! I’m loving how kyo’s look back on himself was both good & bad given his emotional state & depression! one of the best writing element in the story!!! It’s also one of the few moments where I didn’t feel Takaya-san was giving us a direct lesson about life or urging us to “learn” something on the spot.

I enjoyed these two chapters so much!!! They contain cut content as well, but I believe the soul of the c2 hapters was beautifully preserved in the anime ep8. so I’m satisfied.

It took me a whole month to start reading furuba again!!! Man... life was tough~ oh well, hopefully, it gets better now that the holidays are approaching <3

Hope all of you guys are doing well<3

#Fruits Basket #manga review #manga spoilers #tired paper #missed you guys!!! #Anime Only #furuba

[personasintro]

tell me slow burn isn’t for you without actually saying it, lol

they’re entitled to their own wrong opinion of course, but to say that there isn’t any progress between the two is just not true, maybe they need to reread or focus on the details more because they make a big difference

It's their opinion and I respect it, whether I agree with it or not! It's hard to talk about certain things because you have to realize my lips are sealed for most topics, parts! But I'd like to point out that not every chapter has to mean a progress, there are chapters where it simply just shows their current relationship, their daily lives etc... I know it can get frustrating because I realize how many ppl want them to be together and yes, this is fanfiction and it usually happens quickly etc... and then suddenly there is Mutual Help and it's so different that it makes ppl frustrated when it doesn't go as they wish. And I understand that! That's why I said it's not everyone's cup of tea :)

But in my opinion, there are more important things to be shown and discussed than just focusing on them being in love or jk being 100% jealous. But then again, I understand what the anon meant by the whole Benjamin/jealous thing... but does anyone understand me?😬there really are just situations where he feels other emotions as well and those emotions are bigger. And like I said many times before, I like for things to be found out by you as you read the story and realize it... not me answering every little detail. But I admit, some things are low-key shown and there are ppl who simply don't catch those details/meanings etc... and I don't mind discussing those things, for example when you guys thought jk is jealous (probably at every opportunity he's not a complete sweetheart and there's another guy involved) but no, with Benjamin it was mostly about him being protective, wanting to help her and get her out of her discomfort. What y/n should've done or not... she decided not to tell him right away but all of that has been already explained, so I'm not gonna talk about it again.

#ask: anon #ask: mutual help

[fairycosmos]

do you also do this thing where you set yourself x amount of time to like, kill yourself? i'm like 'i'll kill myself tomorrow, in a week, etc etc'. and also where you constantly plan and wonder how to do it? like everything i see i wonder if i can use it and how and it obsesses me. i just want to die man

i go through phases of doing that, it's suicidal ideation, yours also sounds like suicidal fixation :( it's awful. i think part of me thinks that if the end is a. coming soon and b. in my control then life will suddenly become more bearable. it's never the case really. i had it pinned at new years for like half of last year, didn't work out, was actually just even more traumatizing. turns out trying to die is actually physically pretty hard and survival instinct is a fucking bitch anyway. its frustratingly more pathological than depression, and those moments where you actually are able to act on your thoughts are usually so intense that they don't last, none of it is built to last. but i understand it's completely exhausting nonetheless. ANYWAY my point is yeah i definitely know what you mean and a lot of people do. it's a very scary place to be in mentally, i'm really sorry. when you're dealing with mental illness and completely disenfranchised by life and the future it's easier than ppl realize to slip into an obsession w death/suicide, but the fact that you have the self awareness to realize its worrying and unhealthy is a really good sign. are you in regular contact w a mental health professional rn? if not i think you could really benefit (even tho ik you don't want to hear that but like, honestly) and if you already are, have you been open about having these thoughts? if you're worried about money you can usually find a therapist w a flexible schedule and sliding scale price to fit around your financial needs. i am completely aware that asking someone to fight for their life and stability when all they can think of is throwing it away is kind of a long shot, but at the end of the day you do deserve better than this. and it really sounds like you need to talk this out w someone who is trained to show you how to map out and cope with your specific brain. finding out why you feel the way you do and analysing root causes, implementing coping mechanisms into ur daily routine, having a care plan, even just having someone to talk to......they r not cures but they do mitigate the damage and make it a little easier to carry. obviously i understand that you've probably been dealing with shit i cant even fathom and i know being vulnerable abt this is a super daunting idea, but i'm just asking you to keep it in consideration for now. and know that it is always an option for you, that you aren't alone. and that you deserve to have a support network, and that these states of mind are often transient even if they are also extremely heavy and hard to handle. it's the worst though, i know. if it all feels like to much please just focus on getting through the next five minutes, that my go to. if thats too much, then the next minute. it's all that exists to us rn anyway. if you ever feel like you're an immediate danger to yourself, please call a loved one, a hotline or a professional as soon as you can. try to get yourself on autopilot, disregard what your brain is spewing and get on the phone to someone. ofc that's way easier said than done but i really hope if it comes to that you're able to do the right thing for yourself even if everything in you is demanding the opposite. ur life has inherent worth and the world is lucky to have you. sending a lot of love.

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