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artistrybyarielle · 21 days

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#everything reminds me of my dog #jane siberry #music #dogs #song

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bandagemanl0ver · 4 months

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i forgot to post this here. i think it’ll do better in tumblr.

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dazais-guardian-angel · 1 year

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Dazai truly has become Oda in every way imaginable now. :’ ) the final words he gives to Sigma are the exact same words Oda gives to Dazai in the original scene Asagiri wrote for the end of the Dark Era stage play, 後は頼んだよ, ��I will leave the rest to you.”

And I really love the progression of the way his eyes look in this chapter, and how Sigma is allowed to have this moment of questioning and rebelling against all the faith Dazai had naturally been leading him to place in him up to this point, which is what I hoped would happen. He’s been confused ever since Dazai first chose him, and everything he’s ever known about how everyone sees/treats him turned upside down by Dazai’s words and actions, and just when he’s finally started to feel like he’s found some hope and lowered his guard, Dazai pulls him back underwater, instantly reinforcing all of Sigma’s trust issues and reinforcing that he should never believe in anyone, because (he thinks) everyone lives to manipulate other people. Dazai’s dark eyes here reinforce that, too, and the other panels around this point where they look white and hollow and demonic, all like Fyodor’s. He appears like an evil, looming force pulling him back under, trying to kill him, when Sigma is so close to the freedom of the air he desperately wants (aka free from pain, which is what he’s been seeking his whole life).

But then Dazai makes this face, and the first one I posted above, and Sigma understands, even without words, that Dazai doesn’t have evil intent: on the contrary, he actually is bound and determined to save his life -- and the light in his eyes comes out through this determination and kindness, arguably the most light we’ve ever seen his eyes have in the entire manga (in the “I leave the rest to you” panel too). The “No” could be Dazai wordlessly telling him to not leave the water, but my first assumption was that it was Sigma telling himself no, stopping his own train of thought about Dazai being the same as Fyodor and someone he shouldn’t have trusted -- he soon realizes why Dazai stopped him, and that he’s still going to try to save him, that he wasn’t wrong about him, and it’s all because Dazai’s earnest expressions get through to him.

And it’s just so heartwarming to see how far Dazai has come. :’ ) He tried so hard to save Sigma (doing the most physical action we’ve ever seen him do, really), did his best to be reassuring and comforting to him afterwards, and then reaffirmed his promise to ensure he escaped Meursault alive, his final words to Sigma echoing Oda’s and his last action being to save an orphan, just like Oda did in his last moments. Obviously Dazai isn’t actually going to die, he’ll be saved somehow, but I do think as of right now he really does think this is the end for him, and that he didn’t foresee the elevator dropping -- he was examining the wires a few chapters ago because he thought he might need to know how to open the doors in case Fyodor pulled an uno reverse, hence why he looks more annoyed than shocked when the water starts, but here, when the drop collision sequence is initiated, he looks genuinely shook in comparison. There’d be no reason for him to give the thumbs up if he knew more danger was on the way, either; that’d just be cruel. No, I don’t think he saw this coming, and it’s important that that turns out to be the case: it’s important that he spent what he believes to have been his last moments saving someone like Oda wanted for him, and doing what Oda would have done in the same situation. That doesn’t mean that it’s okay that Dazai throws his life away so easily, and cares so little for his own safety; he still has a long way to go in that regard. But it’s still so beautiful to see how much he’s changed, and how much he’s truly begun to embody Oda and his legacy; the fact that he messed up and miscalculated, because Dazai isn’t infallible, but in turn didn’t hesitate to use his last moments to save Sigma. Oda would be so proud for everything he did here. :’ ) 💖

There are a lot of options for how Dazai will be saved, and by who, but personally I hope (and I kind of expect) that Sigma chooses to not give up on him and ultimately plays a role in saving his life, to return the favor and repay him for his kindness. Not only would it be a beautiful way to initiate Sigma’s ADA entrance exam as people have said, but it would bring the Dazai > Atsushi > Sigma chain full circle: Dazai saved Atsushi at the start of the series, allowing him to (spiritually) save Sigma at sky casino thanks to the growth fostered in him by Dazai, and now finally, Sigma could potentially save Dazai thanks to Atsushi kickstarting his own growth (and Dazai continuing it). Fyodor is overly cocky right now and so tunnel-visioned on killing Dazai, it’s possible that he has no idea that Sigma managed to escape the elevator and is now a wild card; even if Sigma doesn’t go as far as killing Fyodor himself (which I don’t want, tbh; that’s endgame stuff arcs down the line and imo Nikolai and Dazai should be the ones involved with that), he could throw a wrench in the jailbreak duel, and help Dazai and Chuuya get out alive. It would be poetic, and only fitting, for Fyodor to underestimate and be outdone by the kind of person Dazai told him is the strongest in chapter 77 -- a self-proclaimed “ordinary man” -- who could only have the strength to take such action thanks to the chain of kindness that Oda originally started. 💖

#bungou stray dogs #bsd 106.5 #meta #this chapter was literally everything i could have wanted i am SO EMOTIONAL #I WILL NEVER BE OVER IT #ASAGIRI GIVING ME LITERALLY EVERYTHING I EVER COULD HAVE WANTED #DAZAI HAS GROWN SOOOO MUCH HE'S BECOME SO MUCH LIKE ODA I COULDN'T BE MORE PROUD 😭😭😭💖💖💖#as soon as i saw that big panel of his face i was like........ he looks like oda......... ASAGIRI I SEE YOUUUUUU #AND THE FINAL WORDS #I SEE YOUUUUUUUUUU #ISTG IF DAZAI THINKS ABOUT ODA WHEN HE THINKS HE'S GONNA DIE BEFORE HE GETS SAVED I WILL SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST #ASAGIRI PLEASE THIS IS THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY I WILL CRYYYYYYY 😭🥺🥹💖#Dazai was so much like Oda here and Sigma looked just like Atsushi in that one panel DONT TOUCH MEEEE #THIS WHOLE CHAPTER WAS SO PERFECT #I NEED SIGMA TO SAVE HIM NOW #the longest chapter we've gotten in AGES and it was a banger god bless #tbh i really needed this after season 4 lmao i needed a reminder of why i love this series so much :''''') something to soothe my rage #asagiri saw my bitterness at anime sigma and was like 'here u go babe i got your sigma and dazai and oda feast'#probably means next month will be short again and a pov change lmao 🥲💔#gonna enjoy this while it lasts #anyway i was really happy to see that moment of Sigma getting mad even if it didn't last long (and for a beautiful reason)#because he Deserved that #(because that's what i wrote in my fic and i feel vindicated now even if that wasn't the main focus of this chapter looool oops-)

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fisheito · 10 months

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Resting body temperature headcanons based on pure speculation

#nu carnival #no i didn't put them at their proper heights they are all just existing randomly #yakumo is an icicle because i want him to be i need him to be #but does he technically go in the middle?? bc someone says “endothermic temperature regulation”#and yakumo will respond “who is that”#how can rei and Dante be similar resting temps but one is almost dead and the other has the energy to fight at the slightest provocation #i don't know #none of this is science #maybe Edmond got his baseline down after his desert training lol #something something muscles higher metabolism than fat something differing temperatures something #edmonds fat thighs are the only thing keeping him from heat stroke #kuya needs everything to be a crisp 17.6 degrees Celsius for optimal comfort #i don't even know why quincy is the king Master heat radiator 6000 #i have no evidence #just a feeling #this entire scale was sparked by the lingering idea that yakumo would enjoy using quincy as a personal heater #they started this #as soon as i finished this i started changing my mind on everyone #gOOD THING temperature isn't a forever one time value----- huh---!!!!!#garu reminds me of those tiny dogs u hold and they're just somehow so warm and their lil hearts beat so fast and you're just wondering #how yall keeping cool under all that fur??? i need to get u some watermelons to lie on #the clan's all here!

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whentherewerebicycles · 2 days

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I seem to be fine most of the day and then I have a BIG mood dip around 8pm. I think I should just immediately go to bed instead of entertaining any thoughts at all about the future

#I’m finding pumping quite demoralizing #but we did have our first breastfeeding success today so I am hopeful it won’t be forever #I’m also leaning so hard on my mom and it’s made the transition SO much easier to handle #but it’s also making me scared for when she leaves and I have to do everything myself #I already find it quite exhausting to work + do dog care + cook for myself + do all other chores + handle misc life tasks #adding baby care feels like it’s going to be a lot #but I’m trying to remind myself that I have five more weeks to learn the basic skills and build good routines #and then she’ll be back in august for two and a half months so July can be a test run #and then a little more help/support with her being in town but not living with me #anyway what did I say about not thinking about the future after the mood dip starts! get to bed jes #baby tag

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pepsi-maxwell · 9 months

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distracting myself from the cult of personality, king of suffering on the cross like jesus himself to play far cry 5 instead and oh fuck oh no god dammit

#banging my fist on the desk everything reminds me of her!!#took my house my kids my dog and left me with nothing but a 24-pack of pepsi cans and a heart full of break

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jklpopcorn · 3 months

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Some doodles! vibin

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lonely--seeker · 28 days

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I think I'm going insane. Lately my dreams have been so mundane, it wouldn't be weird if I wasn't just a person that has nightmares 80% of the time, so I now my dreams are so hard to distinguish from reality.

I wouldn't be able tell what was real from what not if it wasn't because last night I went to my doctor's appointment and I was handed new glasses by Harvey just to go back home and find out Laois was cooking something in my backyard.

#to be fair. in my dream i was back at my old house. so the horrors where there still #also i've been dreaming about my dog. but sometimes it's not him. it's other dog trying to replace him. but it's not him. i miss him dearly #but it's... weird. i never actually dream with characters either. something strange is going on #I've been telling my brother i wake up and i have to remember who i am #for the totally normal dreams. it's like my soul is divided and it's living somewhere else for the night #who is the person i am when i dream. because it's not me. it's a whole different live. whole different people around me. I'm going insane #there's such a strange feeling about it. it's familiar? it's comfortable?#which only makes it even more weird. why is a life so different to mine feel so comfortable...#to the point i wake up and i don't remember who i am for at least ten minutes #but then i forget what i had dreamt about. and then i go around my day randomly reminding things. then that's when i realize those memories #were actual dreams #i should write a fanfic about this lmao #it was a nice dream though. i remember vividly i was sitting in one of those chairs thingies that hang in the air?#and i was swinging happily. i think Laios was talking about where he got whatever the fuck he was cooking. i couldn't understand him really.#he wasn't speaking in spanish but it wasn't english either. i think it was a made up gibberish... I'm still baffled by how comfortable i was #i think there were friends around too. maybe a hangout was going on? everything was nice. it reminds me of the times #i would go eat at a friend's house. but things felt a lot nicer. it was like if time had stopped and nothing wrong could ever happen.#and even then. i was still there. which i think that's why i started to feel dizzy in my little swing. i ended up waking up from that.#i still get dizzy remembering it.#welp. I hope i don't lose myself tonight...#I don't actually know what's worse. the nightmares are common. they are familiar. there's comfort in knowing what to expect.#but “good” dreams like that... i end up thinking about them too much. the residual feeling is weirder #and i have to deal with the whole different layer that is.. there's was a fucking anime guy there. kill me. kill me. get him OUT of my brain #I'm not lying when I say I can physically feel Laios rearranging my brain in ways i will not share publicly #kill me.

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calliopechild · 1 month

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Friends of tumblr who have gotten dogs from the shelter/pound/etc., please tell me your process and how/when you knew they were The Right One because I am trying to be careful and A Responsible Adult(TM), but also LOOK AT THIS SWEET BOY

I went down to see him at the shelter today and he's so sweet. He loves being pet and takes treats so politely and gave me so many kisses and very gently nibbled my fingers a bit and put his front paws up on my legs at one point so he could sniff my face and lick my chin, and I know it is not fair to either of us to make a hasty decision but THAT FACE.

And you can sorta tell from the pics but this sweet boy has been on his own for a while because he has ratty patches all over his coat and you can see his hips too easily :( and he just needs someone to spoil the hell out of him and I volunteer as tribute.

Just--reassure me that housetraining a young adult dog (if necessary, shelter is unclear if he's housebroken but he's usually fine about making it overnight) isn't that daunting even if you're doing it solo. Reassure me that if you like the dog and the dog seems to vibe with you then you can make it work. I very specifically did not make any hasty decisions today so I could sleep on it, and I'm gonna go back and see him a second time later this week to be Really Extra Sure, but like.

Google how do I know if I'm taking the commitment of getting a dog appropriately seriously or so seriously that I talk myself out of it entirely.

#my anxiety manifests as an ever-present fear of making The Wrong Decision #on everything from buying a new clothes rack to accepting a job offer #i've been wanting a dog for years but also what if i get ''the wrong one''?#and now i'm in this super fun anxiety spiral of 'he's so cute and what if someone else gets him first'#to 'you can't rush this just bc he's adorable that's not responsible'#to 'okay but you're never going to fully know a dog's personality and house behavior until you actually take them home #bc a few shelter visits do not a complete picture make and eventually you just gotta go on faith'#i know shelter dogs are worth it so just like...remind/reassure me of that fact

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greatestjubilee · 2 years

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Your love for sellen invigorates me because I share that love

thank you me too. im going to put the rest of my response in the tags

#SORRY #LOVE DRAWING MY TARNISHED WITH HER BECAUSE THEY FIT MY FAVORITE DYNAMIC OF CAT AND DOG OR GENIUS AND DUMBASS #also i was going to be an axe user but then i saw her #like the door to her basement cave opened #theminute isaw that hat it was like #this bitch is weird. thats the one #i havent been the same since #now i have 64 intelligence and am mostly sorcery #glintstone pebble is my best friend and lover #(pebbles someone) everything reminds me of her #this game is also good because you can just draw your tarnished with everyone #i have drawn a lot of sabelina with her but i havent posted it yet because people on twitter have told me im h-rny #and i hate that comment #SO WHAT IF I AM #FUCK OFF! ITS PRIDE MONTH!#SABELINA CAN BE HER CHAIR IF I WANT HER TO BE #AND SHE CAN PUT HER SOUL IN HER MOUTH IF I WANT HER TO #ITS FOR THE FLAVOR!!!! SHUT UP!!!!#YOU WOULDNT GET IT! ITS A HOMOSEXUAL THING!!!#ONLY WLW UNDERSTAND ME

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neo-shitty · 8 months

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“this gifted intruder…manipulates gravity!” 🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦

#AND MY MAN THANK YOU TO MY MAN #i honestly thought i was so over chuuya atp but alas look at me #i have been giggling every time hints were dropped that someone else was in mersault #I MISSED HIM SO MUCH IDC THAT HE’S UNDEAD #WHY DID HE SOUND LIKE A BIRD IM CRYING BABY???? blink twice if u’re not ok #BUNGO STRAY DOGS AND STRAY KIDS ENJOYERS PLEASE AGREE WITH ME WHEN I SAY KENJI GIVES FELIX VIBES #AND VICE VERSA #THE FRECKLES THE ATTITUDE EVERYTHING #tecchou 🫦🫦🫦#OH FUCK as much as i love teruko as a villain i wouldnt want her to be my enemy at all 😃#the way bram speaks is knocking my out 🤣 the effort put into his character’s dialogue actually #TECCHOU DOESNT GIVE A SHIT ABT WHATS UP HE’S JUST LOOKING FOR HIS BF #he actually wld swear that he hates jouno and proceeds to find him when he’s missing i love them actually #tecchour forgetting he had a whole other mission when kenji offered to look for jouno with him #YK WHAT #TECCHOU REMINDS ME OF WONWOO #the only thing i gained this year from bsd was a mad crush on both tachihara siblings i hate it here i really do #bring him back asagiri 😔😔😔😔😔#TACHIHARA MY MAN 😭#he’s so cool and i love him so much i might cry #THIS WHOLE CLIP OF HIM IM SOBBING #atsushi you’re so naive 😔#kenji tecchou fight tho 😗#toff.txt #bsd spoilers

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todayisafridaynight · 6 months

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not to make people believe in me and my work ethic but im lowkey a liiiitttttleeee stoked to share the fics ive been cookin lately..

#snap chats #its only two. if i even decide to post them we know how i am #BUT NOOOO i think i like what i have so far... i spent all evening working on them #which means nothing cause All Evening consisters 80% of just watching youtube videos while thinking of what i should write #but yeah :) i think i like what i have :)#theyre cute :) i think :) one of them is. i dont think the other one is but whatever anyway #Unrelated Tag Ramble Time found out the building my dad and his wife work at's called monarch #and of course that reminded me of my baby boy drew because i still refuse to believe he's a papillion #but he is... i still see it.. it's not just the face but also his ears #Which Sounds Like A Lie cause his ears dont look super like traditional papillion ears #but they have like. The Buds of it if that makes sense <- it doesnt #idk something bout his ears just screams Butterfly Wings.. maybe its how the little stray hairs remind me of swallowtail butterflies #ok bye im making pizza . which is funy as hell cause my br just came home with pizza. from work. where i got my pizza #SMALL WORLD ok bye. alsohave you guys ever drank kombucha what is this shit <- is gonna finish it #it reminds me of seltzer but if it wanted me to kms. sorry i compare everything to seltzer its the only thing i drink apparently #OK BYE my dog wont stop looking at me.... he wants me to play fetch with him.... well when you look so handsome Lil Man #who am i to say no right. OK BYE HE'S CRYING MY BABYS CRYING

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blueboyluca · 10 months

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(Just found your blog, you have some great posts about everything dog, definitely going through stuff!) I'm in a similar boat with a Third Dog potential, and needing neighbour approval, do you have any tips on making a lil proposal document? Did taking cookies help? I don't really know my neighbours, so I want to make the best impression possible >v< Thanks so much <3

Hello! Just noting that I don't have third dog yet, which means I don't have 100% approval yet as the dog needs to actually be here for that, but I don't expect anything to go awry now.

This got long, sorry. But hopefully it's helpful as it outlines everything I did.

To start with, I am friendly with my neighbours. When I first moved in I introduced myself to 6 of the other units as they were home at the time. Since then, I am cordial and wave when we pass by, and sometimes I chat to three of them if we are outside at the same time. The others keep to themselves, which is fine with me. Other relevant information is that I've never had any complaints about my current dogs and five other units have or have had dogs or cats (never more than two).

For my proposal letter, I kind of treated it like a job proposal and a cover letter. I put my personal details at the top. I titled it "Proposal for third dog at Unit X" and I added the date. I broke the document into sections with headings – Background, Council approval, Appropriate care, Impact and Conclusion.

In Background I talked about my history at the property, information about my current dogs and information about the proposed dog. I purposely downplayed some of the details, e.g. highlighted the dog would be under 10kg fully grown, called it a "papillon mix" instead of a "border collie mix" and focused heavily on the sporting dog angle. I also talked about my dog credentials, leaning on my current role as president of a dog club. If you don't have something like that to mention, I'd just focus on your commitment to training, accomplishments of your current dogs and a clear and concise explanation of why you want to add another dog, focusing on the positives and absolutely not adding anything that could be taken poorly.

In my area you need to register dogs to legally be allowed to keep them and a third dog requires a special registration. In Council approval, I briefly talked about how I would seek some kind of pre-approval registration and I also got to mention that I personally made five animal education videos for the council (I'm a professional video editor). For someone who doesn't conveniently have that on their resume, I would just talk briefly about the process you intend to undertake if registration or similar is required in your area.

In Appropriate care, I talked about how I'm a responsible dog owner, i.e. my dogs are registered, microchipped and up to date on vaccinations. I pointed out how often my neighbours ought to see me exercising my dogs, how I attend a dog club, that I utilise local parks (as my yard is small) and maintain an exercise schedule. I also have the benefit of a partner that stays home during the day. Basically this section is just to talk about how I'm good at owning dogs.

For Impact, I stated that I didn't think a third dog would make a major impact on the property due to the aforementioned appropriate care, and that my workplace is dog friendly and my yard is secure. This is where you could say something similar about what you intend to do to limit the impact on neighbours.

The Conclusion was just basically me reiterating that I'm a great dog owner, saying thanks for considering this, and please contact me if you wish to discuss further.

Then I printed out copies and put them in envelopes and bought a couple bags of cookies which I divided up into little party bags. Then I worked up my courage and knocked on their doors to chat. I started by apologising for interrupting, then briefly explained the situation (I want a third dog, this is why), gave them the letter (explaining it had more detail), handed over the cookies and thanked them for listening. My goal was to kind of get it all out before they could really say anything and then leave. This generally worked as most of them just took the letter and the cookies and said thanks. A couple of them said right away they didn't mind at all. One expressed doubts about barking. I asked if he had issues with my current dogs and he said no, so I just thanked him for his time and left it there.

A couple days later I went back to find out what they had decided (the ones who hadn't already told me) and they were all yes votes. I didn't approach one of the units because they're renting and I was socially exhausted by then and was happy with the majority I had.

I hope this helps! It can be really intimidating to do social things like talking to people about something you really want, but I like to rip the bandaid off and I wanted to know if it was going to happen or not so I just forced myself to do it and then it was over and now I get what I want!

#third dog #dogblr #I asked my parents' advice on this #and their advice was bad #they told me to not do cookies #but the cookies actually softened quite a few people #my mum also told me to add certain things or not include other things in the document #and I was just like... no I'm happy with what I've written #I did a few versions though #like the earlier ones mentioned things that could be taken negatively #or mentioned how I had no complaints #I took all of that out #I figured they already knew that and they didn't need to be reminded about the possibility of barking dogs in future #basically I framed everything positively and left out anything that could be taken badly #like a job application

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kyouka-supremacy · 2 years

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I... Like (hate) the theory that Dazai sent Akutagawa to Atsushi's rescue already knowing he would have died, but I like even better the theory that Akutagawa's last deed to save Atsushi was a first (and last) act of free will: Akutagawa doing something completely unexpected that Dazai could not predict and finally - if only in his last moments - freeing himself from Dazai's conditioning.

#I mean it does make sense in a way‚ if you think it was probably more convenient for Dazai to keep both Atsushi and Akutagawa alive.#I mean why get rid of Akutagawa if you can help it‚ after all he's a strong ability user #(who's also conveniently willing to do almost anything you ask him to)#But maybe Dazai just hated Akutagawa that much. Maybe he just wanted him dead.#Yet it's entertaining to think of a scenario where Dazai had planned for both Atsushi and Akutagawa to survive–#and couldn't predict Akutagawa would have sacrificed himself #You know what this is reminding me of the last episode of season 1 of The Good Place–#Dazai: I had everything going according to my plan. Then it all started going off the rails.#Akutagawa: *Sudden moment of realization* When I saved Atsushi. You had no idea I was going to do that.#Akutagawa: Because honestly‚ *I* had no idea I would have ever done that.#And it would come with the dread of having let down Dazai's expectations–#but it's a pain Akutagawa has to go through in order to gain his own free will‚ to finally let go of Dazai's judgement #Also as I keep saying Eleanor! Akutagawa supremacy #Man that seriously makes such a great AU #I initially gave it to Kuniki/Dazai but actually. I'm claiming it back #Watch The Good Place please I'm begging you #ryūnosuke akutagawa #osamu dazai #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd ch 84-88 #mine #q.#26/05/22

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cuteniaarts · 2 months

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Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way.#so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

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datastate · 5 months

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been getting really into reading up on random animal behavior lately. "Why do they do that?" well now i've gone through thirteen different pages on the subject and i've concluded this thing is just a little freak <3

#kidding. usually it does provide some interesting insight though #especially the collaborative scenarios between different species w/o (or before) human intervention #anyway. this whole thing reminds me abt my panda spinterest aegehehe #despite all of this though i still struggle to really understand dogs when i see them. esp excitable ones; l #feel like* they're so enthusiastic about Everything that it's hard to keep up #jestersvaguely

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