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catmelonwriting · 8 days

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Oohmygofd pleaaase plsplspls write bulimic reader... As some1 who's bulimic i will die if u do (positively)

BSD Men with a bulimic!reader

Warnings: Bulimia, not proofread, vomit type purging, very self inserted and based off my experiences, bad body image, reader is not underweight, hurt/comfort, a couple usages of (name) in akutagawa's bc I just can't see this man using pet names

Characters: Akutagawa, Chuuya

A/N: I'm sooo glad I'm not the only one who wanted this.. I was really hesitant to write it bc my blog is entirely smut and that usually does better than hurt/comfort, angst, or fluff, but if I'm not the only person who wants it I'm deffy gonna write it!! I don't really like Akutagawas I definitely didn't do him justice but I loveeeee chuuya's

Akutagawa

- Probably will not notice until you tell him.. just thinks you're sick or something when he hears coughing noises from the bathroom.

- From then on he's really concerned, he'll probably do a lot of research on it (w/o you knowing ofc)

- Will try and get you into treatment, even just IOP, but if you refuse HE is going to monitor everything your eating

- If you do end up binging in the middle of the night or while he's not there, the bathroom is off limits for the next 45 minutes.

- He will literally stand in the way of the doorway if you try to go, he's not risking anything.

- If you try not to eat too much the next day to 'make up for it' he'll sit with you while you eat and give you encouraging words here and there, but neither of you are getting up till your finished.

One shot

You're kneeled over the bathroom toilet, the back of a toothbrush nudging your throat, when you let out a loud gag. You immediately take the toothbrush out and cover your mouth.. you had learned to be so quiet after akutagawa found out about your eating disorder, how could you let that happen?

You hear footsteps approaching the bathroom door before three short knocks. "Yeah, Ryū?" You ask, your voice was raspy and you sounded like you had been crying. Fuck, he knows.

"..(Name) are you alright? Are you doing something you shouldn't?" His voice was sharp, like he was angry. You knew he wasn't, you knew he would never be angry at your for something like this.. just.. upset, but you can't help the guilt that courses through your body at his words.

"No." You choke out, shuffling to shove the toothbrush back in the holder. "I heard gagging." You clear your throat, trying to get rid of the rasp. "Um.. I wasn't. Just coughing. I'm not feeling well." You call out, quickly flushing your thrown up dinner down the toilet. "I'll be out in a second."

You dig in the drawers for your perfume, air freshener, dry shampoo, anything you can spray to cover up the smell of your throw up, but you couldn't find anything. So you hesitantly clean your hands and leave the bathroom with the overwhelming smell of vomit filling it.

"Hey, love." You mumble, sitting down next to him on the couch, your voice shaky. "..(Name), don't lie to me. I know what you were doing." He mumbles, placing his hand on the back of your head, pulling you closer to him. You blink back tears as you push your face into his chest. "Im sorry.. I'm so so sorry.. I didn't mean to.. I didn't.." you choke out, sniffling.

"Don't apologize to me, dear. I'm not mad, or even upset. Just.. concerned. You told me you would stop." His voice sounded sympathetic, something you weren't used to with him. The smell of cigarette smoke hung on your jacket, a scent you had grown to love and found comforting since meeting him. The way his lanky, boney, ring covered fingers glided through your hair, his soft voice, it all comforted you, it all told you it was okay to cry.

His heart ached at the little gasps and sniffles and whimpers you let out whilst sobbing into his chest. It made him want to start bawling with you, but of course he wouldn't. He could never appear weak to you. "I'm sorry- I'm so sorry Ryu- I just can't stop- I can't stop no matter how hard I try.." you sob, hands moving to cling onto the fabric of his shirt. "I'm so sorry!"

"Oh baby.." he sighed. You didn't want to look up, you know he's looking down with pity. Pity you didn't want. "It's alright. I don't want you to cry, it's not your fault.. I understand- well, no, I don't. I don't understand, but I want to help you." Wrapping his arms around you, he leans into your head, the scent of your shampoo filling his nose.

That's where you two lay for the rest of your night, him whispering comforting words in your ears, giving you all the love you could ever ask for, something you'd never expect from a man like him.

Chuuya

- He notices within the first month of FRIENDSHIP

- The way you get up and scurry off to the bathroom after every meal you share, the guilt on your face after grabbing a third serving at the party you two are at, how quick you shove shit down your throat before tears well up in your eyes and you excuse yourself.. all of it.

- He definitely cares, but probably won't confront you about it till later on in the friendship if you're still having trouble

- He won't just send you a lousy "have you been eating properly?" Text either, he's gonna invite you over to his house making it known you two are gonna have a serious conversation, then sit you down in his living room then prod and probe till you admit it.

- If you're still struggling w/ it when you're dating/when you move in together (which you probably are bc eds are harsh) he'll be like Akutagawa and monitor everything you eat, just a little more stealthily

- He is not afraid to tell you to slow down if you seem to be overeating.. he takes the binging just as seriously as the purging.

Oneshot

You had awakened in the middle of the night with a need for food. Anything you could get your hands on you needed inside of you asap.

You quickly and carefully slipped out of his arms and out of bed, tip toeing to the kitchen and flicking the light on. The first thing you see is a brand new box of cereal you had bought today, Chuuya hadn't had it in awhile, it was his favorite as a kid and he seemed happy while buying it. Guilt tote through you when you ripped open the box and shuffled handfuls into your mouth, before discarding the half empty box on the ground.

You reached for the cake you two had made for your birthday last week, taking fistfuls with your bare hands and shoving the icing covered cake in your mouth.

After shoving everything in vicinity down your throat, you open the fridge to find a diet coke, or a regular, just anything with bubbles.. anything with carbonation to help you get this all up better. Anything. Your eyes land on an energy drink you had bought yesterday.. you were saving it for today, but in your eyes you needed it now.

You crack it open and glug it down, before looking at the mess you made on the floor. Empty boxes, half eaten cake, a carton of half eaten cookies, an empty bowl that was previously filled with salad, an empty milk carton.. you felt sick to your stomach. You needed this out of you now. Now.

You quietly tip toe to the bathroom, turning off the kitchen lights behind you and locking the door behind you, kneeling on the ground in front of the toilet. You hated doing this, you hated how gross you felt hovering over something where your ass went.. but you needed it gone. You couldn't gain weight.. you already felt so fat as it is no matter how much chuuya tried to convince you you're average.. you just couldn't believe it. Looking in the mirror all you could see was piles of fat.

You push the back of your toothbrush down your throat, gagging almost silently as the first few things came up. You recognized some chocolate, veggies, something.. red.. you didn't want to think about it too much as you shoved the toothbrush back down your throat. You watched as everything you ate came up opposite to the order you had it in.

Finally, you recognize barely chewed lumps of cereal fall into the toilet, and after you throw up stomach acid mixed with dark blood, you sigh, wipe your mouth and stand up, flushing the toilet, and clean yourself up.

Walking out of the bathroom, you see the kitchen lights on. Fuck. You could've sworn you turned those off.

Your ginger haired boyfriend turns the corner from the kitchen, looking you dead in the eyes with disappointment on his face. You wished you could just evaporate. "Love, what is this?" He sounded.. exasperated. Tired of you, tired of your illness, tired of having a girlfriend who can't just eat normally. You were tired of it too, but the Internet made recovery seem so much easier than it really was.

Tears flow out of your eyes as you wipe the remaining spit dribbling from your mouth away. "Did you throw up?" He sighs.. you can't tell if he's being sympathetic or if he's annoyed. Maybe both. All you can muster is a nod before you fall into his chest, letting out broken sobs and choking out apologies. From where you are you can glance into the kitchen, noticing he had cleaned up the little mess you made.

God, not only did he have to deal with such an emotional, disordered girlfriend.. he had to clean up after you too? You felt like such a terrible person, like you didn't deserve his love.

"Cmon, sweetie, let's go to bed. Let me tuck you in." He mutters sleepily. "Don't apologize.. don't apologize, it's not your fault. You know I'm not mad." His whispers comfort you and make you feel worse at the same time, you didn't understand it. "I'm not mad, just worried. I could never be mad at you." He speaks softly, nudging you towards the open door of your bedroom.

You whimper and sniffle as he tucks you into bed, before getting back in himself and wrapping his arms around your waist. He leans in, whispering sweet nothing's in your ear, tracing shapes in your hip, telling you you're beautiful and it'll all be okay until you fall asleep.

When you wake up the next morning, Chuuya isn't there. He must've gone to work already. You see a small note on the bedside table next to you, and hesitantly pick it up to read its contents.

"Hey doll, I'm sorry I left for work before we could talk about this in-person, and I definitely have a plan to speak to you about it tonight. But I wanted to let you know I'm not mad at you, nor am I upset with you, I'm just concerned for your well-being and safety. I want to get you into some treatment program because I'm not trained in this, and I don't really know how to help. I know this isn't entirely about your weight or how your body looks, but baby believe me when I say you're beautiful. You are the most gorgeous girl I have ever laid my eyes on and I am so lucky to have you. You are not 'too much' and your emotional baggage is not too much for me to carry. Even if it was, it's worth it for a girl as sweet and caring as you.

Love, Chuuya"

You hold the note close to your chest and push yourself backwards into bed, draping the covers over yourself and falling back asleep with his letter held close.

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clandestineloving · 9 days

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you bsd fans know nothing clearly atsushi is emo and akutagawa is goth.

#self shipping community #selfshipper #fictional other #bungo stray dogs #bsd #ryūnosuke akutagawa #atsushi nakajima

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sugurusdiscordmoderator · 1 month

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my type??

~depressed men with dark hair~

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awoogayanderes · 1 year

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THE WAY OF THE HOUSEHUSBAND - RYŪNOSUKE AKUTAGAWA

➪ sypnosis : ryūnosuke akutagawa, the infamous blood hound of the port mafia, who is also your hardworking lover who wants to make you happy

➪ other notes : i love the way of the house husband, such a good anime so ofc i had to do this prompt with aku, a bit ooc so i apologize for that

- now who would’ve thought this man could feel such deep love for someone

- sure he’s a very dangerous man but that doesn’t mean he can’t be sweet

- you make him happy and he just wants to repay that feeling tenfold

- every morning before he goes to work, he makes sure to boil some tea for you, not too hot but not too cold once you wake up

- if you message him that you need any type of groceries, be prepared for him to bring a lot of that specific product

- while he’s not too knowledgeable with shopping, he takes his time to make sure he doesn’t screw up

- i have a feeling that he somewhat knows how to cook, having lived in the slums for so long, he has to have some kind of prior knowledge

- in order to learn more, he watches cooking shows while you’re not there to see what he can improve on

- your bright smile as you try the food is all he wants and needs

- though i do think he hides this domestic side from you as much as possible

- he has too much pride for that

- but it doesn’t take you long to realize as you flip through all the cooking channels he’s subscribed to

- while you shower, he’ll silently bring you warm towels in order to prevent you from being too cold once you finish

- if you forget to do so, he’ll often do your laundry, not wanting to stress you out even more

- sigh imagine seeing atsushi on a shopping run

- “weretiger!” he shouts as rashomon swings grocery bags at the poor white haired boy

- “ryū!” you call for him to stop, not wanting to start a fight with you, he walks off

- not before side eyeing atsushi ofc

- he can’t help to ponder as to why he immediately stopped when you called for him

- and then he realized that he genuinely cares for what you have to say

- hmm i see aku cleaning out your fridge every once in a while, trying to figure out what to throw away

- he genuinely cares for you so much, you’re the first person who’s loved him

- all of these actions make you feel relaxed, and thats all he wants because you cool him off whenever he needs you

- 10/10 husband material :)

#written by terra #sincerely terra #engraved with tenderness #bsd #bongou stray dogs #bsd x reader #bongou stray dogs x reader #bungou stray dogs akutagawa #bsd aktugawa #ryūnosuke akutagawa #akutagawa ryunosuke x reader #akutagawa x reader #akutagawa fluff #ryūnosuke akutagawa x reader #bsd fluff #hehehehehe

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dave-strider-draws · 2 months

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Birthday boy

#ryuunosuke akutagawa #ryūnosuke akutagawa #bungou stray dogs #Bungo stray dogs #bsd #bsd akutagawa #rashomon

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wizardfrog69 · 1 year

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'•.¸♡Switching clothes.♡¸.•'

I got this idea by watching Jarvis Johnson do a review of high school musical two.

Basically how would they react to their s/o wearing their clothes after they have a quicky round a public area, e.g. if you have a quicky in the bathroom at work and come out wearing each others clothes. It's hard to explain.

Gn!reader

Fluff

Masterlist

Enjoy! Feat. Kunikida, Dazai, Ranpo, Mori, Akutagawa, Ango, Fyodor, Nikolai.

Doppo Kunikida:

He would think that having sex at work is highly inappropriate and would never do it, but, if you do some how exchange clothing he will absolutely love it.

It shows that he's a part of you and you are a part of him in a way.

He isn't the possessive kind and wouldn't see wearing each others clothes as a way to show that you belong to each other but are a part of each other or being in a relationship.

He wouldn't wear your whole outfit but if you "accidentally" wear his shirt he wouldn't mind.

Obviously the item of clothing has to atleast resemble things he wears.

Osamu Dazai:

Man, he fucking love's when you wear each others clothes.

He would pick up something of yours pitting it on and when you ask him to give it back he'll just make up an excuse and you have to wear his clothes.

He is more on the possessive type and probably does it for others to know that he's with you but he also does it because he thinks you look cute in his clothes.

He's also a little thief of your stuff and your wardrobes would mix together until no one knew who owns what.

Ranpo Edogawa:

He thinks you look cute with his hat or coat thing but he isn't necessarily one to give you his whole outfit.

He also wouldn't want to randomly wear something different in the middle of the day.

Ogai Mori:

Yet another way to show off how you are his and another way to scare anyone away from you.

He wants you all to himself and for everyone to know that so what better way than to randomly leave and come back wearing each other's clothes? People will know you boned and if they don't then they definitely know not to hit on you if they want to keep all their limbs.

He also thinks you look hot in his clothes.

Ryūnosuke Akutagawa:

He doesn't fuck at work... usually.

There are times when the two of you just cannot wait and end up doing it somewhere away from the others or while away on a mission.

During those moments you could try and swipe his clothes away and hope he doesn't notice but he does, maybe he pretends he doesn't from time to time to see you walking around with his jabot tie or his shirt.

He wouldn't let you have his coat, his coat is a way he can protect you both.

Ango Sakaguchi:

He is way too busy to do such things but if you do, he wouldn't realize you switched his clothes out for yours, he is too sleep-deprived to pay attention to his clothes.

Once he comes to the realisation (or someone points it out to him) he will quickly as you to change back into his own clothes.

He doesn't see any meaning behind wearing each others clothes, he just wants to wear his own clothes and get back to work (and also sleep).

Fyodor Dostoevsky:

He doesn't see people often so changing clothes would only mean you seeing people while wearing Fyodor's clothes.

He would only agree on wearing your clothes if they were warmer than his.

It wouldn't bother him if people assumed you two just slept together while at work or that you were his and he was yours and no one could take you away from him, he would enjoy those thoughts roaming other people's minds actually.

He isn't one to fuck at work though so good luck getting killed after stealing his ushanka or Cape.

God forbid you do a poor impression with the worst Russian accent in the world of Fyodor while wearing his clothes, he will literally kill you, no second thoughts.

Nikolai Gogol:

He would fucking love it when you switched clothes.

He finds it hilarious but he loves it. You will get laughed at by him (and possibly others) when wearing his clothes because of how silly they are, especially the silly little hat, he is so silly.

He will probably keep his cape thing because it is very important to have on hand if anything happens.

Over all fucking loves it when you wear his clothes and also loves fucking at work.

༺♡༻ 𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊 𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧 ⋆ 𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧 𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊 ༺♡༻

I was going to add more characters but it's too late for that.

Have a wonderful day/night as I inhale expired essential oils.

-love, Az