#don't waste time doing things you hate

[spywhitney]

How I sleep knowing I'll never trust anyone that hates Sydney but worships Richie:

#the bear #the bear fx #sydney adamu #carmen berzatto #richie jerimovich #jk kind of #well on days I don't see or think about Sydney haters #under every damn comment section in this fandom is someone saying Sydney didn't take accountability #like I know we all have our biases but yall are really shameless about it #Sydney scored A LOT of Ws for The Beef AND The Bear #but one time she makes a mistake and justifiably walks away from a toxic work environment she's the devil #Richie worked at The Beef for years and Sydney did more for it in what less than four months than he did #on top of being a prick to Sydney in particular because she was changing things he wanted to keep the same #to the detriment of the restaurant but also everyone #and overall being unpleasant to Carmy #Nat and anyone that didn't find him funny or interesting or like his bs #pre-Forks Richie reminds me of those types of people that only listen to people that like them #and I love that because it's realistic to some ppl #I do like Richie #it just leaves a bitter taste in my mouth knowing there are people that hate Sydney #ignore her accomplishments only to raise up Richie #in the same breath when the actual show is showing you what's up #like you'd think there were different versions of the show with how these two are perceived #I get this weird need to defend Sydney when people shit on her because I wonder how often said people treat the Sydneys of the world #but that aside #In Fishes Richie mentions something about wasting potential at the beef #In Ceres it's implied he called the popo on the dealers after Sydney deescalated a situation Richie previously dealt with #in an unorthodox manner #he recognised he needed to change but still was an arsehole to the one person who was facilitating that change effectively Sydney #this show is great but people denying what they're seeing on their own screens is crazy

[insignificantfailure]

I'm such a failure, a complete fucking failure

#why can't I do anything in a day #all I do is waste my time #like I wanna do so many things but my brain is just like nah aaah no you don't bitch #rot in bed like the corpse you are #all days blend into each other #and time is passing me by idk #I just can't #I can't do anything at all #I can't #personal #vent #venting #depressing shit #mentally tired #tw depressing thoughts #mentally fucked #actually mentally ill #mental health issues #tw depressing stuff #tw depressive #tw depression #tw depressing shit #i'm exhausted #i'm so tired #sad shit #sad thoughts #i hate my self #i hate this #life is shit #there's a few good things that keep me alive at least

[skrunksthatwunk]

why the fuck did i write about birds this fucking sucks. i just found out birds only sleep for a few minutes at a time, hundreds of times a day. do you know what this is going to do to my structure? the logistics of their road trip? this is already like three days late and i've been fighting for my life to get A Plot Like Any Plot That Makes Sense out and now the birds fucking sleep for 5 minutes at a time.

#i should've just bailed and written another story when i had the chance #i'm not joking i've never fought a fiction piece this hard before. usually because i'm not writing for specific deadlines #and not a piece so big. and not one that's gonna be workshopped. i wanna blow them away but if things keep going the way they are everyone' #gonna tell me the pacing sucks and it feels pointless and the characters feel really confused. I KNOW. I KNOW THAT. FUCKK #i'm the type to do about 15 passes before i let someone see my 'first draft' and i'm just not gonna be able to do that if i want to get it #in time for a workshop. every day i delay is making things harder for my classmates y'know?? but i've been writing like 1k words a day #and it's still not done. GUHH #I DON'T LIKE WRITING THESE CHARACTERS THAT MUCH THEY'RE NOT FUNNY OR ENDEARING AND THAT'S MY LIKE. #MAIN SKILL AND VIBE WITH SHORT STORY DUOS. BUT NOOOO I HAD TO MAKE THEM DIFFERENT CUZ I WAS SICK OF DOING #THE SAME DYNAMIC OVER AND OVER. BITCH THIS IS YOUR FINAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TRIED AND TRUE GETS THE BLUE (RIBBON)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #head in my hands head in my hands head in my hands head in my hands head #going to work on it some more. fuckk #the voices aren't consistent and i'm trying to make it clear that this is toxic bird yuri and not a mother/daughter thing but the maternal #themes are kind of fucking with that but they're important and i don't wanna get rid of them but it feels forced cuz im forcing it #sigh. i'm gonna have to cut the yuri. these two don't work romantically at all. what a waste of time. #i watched the entirety of mnthly girls' nozaki-kun in the past two days while avoiding writing. did you know that? the lengths to which i'l #go? anyway it was fun i appreciate fellow creative agony and i uh never knew how they did screen tones and wasn't expecting that somehow #so i learned something new (hooray). anyway back to. fucking. bird story stuff #i'm so mad i hate these two (<- lying. just pissy) i hate this story (<- mostly exaggerating. throwing a tantrum) #eughhhhhh i just wanna lie on the floor and cryyyyyyyyyy (<- completely deadpan irl. not That upset just kind of sick of shit) #i'm so burnt out and it's only gonna get worse. ughh #why can't someone just come in and write it for meeeeeeeeeeheheuhhh (<- would hate that)

[sherlock-is-ace]

everyday i find that an autistic trait i didn't relate to because i do the opposite, is actually also an autistic trait

#was anyone going to tell me about blank masking?! dkjfgfg #all those questions that are like ''in conversations do you monologue about your interests and won't let the other person get a word in? #even though sometimes they are not interested in what you are saying?'' #and i'm always like nah because i simply won't talk. i don't monologue BECAUSE the other person won't be interested #i will sit there and listen to someone talk about whatever the fuck they want to talk while i make an effort to seem interested #but i will not say a word myself #and if they ask me questions i will answer in the shortest most concise way possible as to not seem annoying or waste their time #and you're now telling me that's also an autistic trait?! #that's masking?! #are you fucking kidding me!?!?!? dkfjghkfdg #this is the same thing as when i found out thinking everyone hates me is also a form of not being able to read people's reactions #lol #fuck! #angel talks #personal

[bandzboy]

looking back at the first big 4 boycott attempt, even tho YES it was very disorganized but i think one of the main reasons why it never worked it was simply because people were discouraging others from participating and saying that it would never work and no one would get on board and etc. i remember from cameron phillip's video on the hybe boycott that he said that saying these things will make people not want to boycott and no ones want to participate in other words: is not productive at all and doesn't help with anything. i also think that people would often use the fact that it wasn't organized to not even bother participating because in hindsight, the goals were pretty simple these people just didn't wanna inconvenience their comfort and it's honestly why it never worked since so many people were in denial that there was a problem

#i hate to break it to you #but this is a music industry problem #and something needs to be done #people don't understand that if everyone comes together #things could probably move forward faster but no #we are here wasting our time questioning whether we should be doing this or not #when people are dying every day bc of these genocidal and propagandist assholes that exist in the industry #tris.txt

[criscura]

I wish I wasn't so exhausted and I could make more art.... I even planned out a whole prompt-a-day month for Saigenos/Genosai, TWICE, but the first time no one seemed like they could participate when I asked about it, and the second time I friggin lost the damned plan. I could remake it a third time, but I just....I don't know.

I've been really struggling to get along for a while, and I think if it didn't hit it off--or even if I just got really productive and it seemed like I was reaching crickets--I'd be so incredibly discouraged that it would bring me down even further. It usually takes my stuff a few months to a year to get reach, and that really doesn't do anything for me when I need the support immediately.

It's not that I don't have a billion ideas for so many different things, but my battery has been taking longer and longer to charge up and it's been running out faster and faster, and it's been like this for....a year?? Ish?? Maybe longer, I don't know.

I wish I could just stop needing so much fucking time to bounce back.....

#written from my bed as I'm almost crying from exhaustion and hopelessness #I'm PMSing and I had a really tiring day so i know this feels worse than normal #but when you've been struggling to fall asleep for months because waking up means being disappointed in yourself #for everything you failed to do the day before and everything you know you're going to fail to do again today #it's really hard not to feel like shit about yourself #trying to be constantly hopeful but never living up to your expectations #and then the few times that you do you completely crash for days #and then the only way to not crash is to have your big accomplishment be 'i went to the gym' 'i took a shower' 'i answered a message' #and just. again #to have the be the way you're living for months and months and months #it's so embarrassing to admit how little i can do and it makes me so ashamed knowing how much I've done and see what everyone else around me #is constantly doing #and then when i do share things it just kind of dies off because I've been too exhausted to maintain most relationships #which ALSO makes me feel like absolute fucking shit because i think people think i just don't care about them #when it's really that it takes me hours to get out of bed and I'm lucky if i remember to eat before 4 #and I hate so much of myself and see it as such a huge waste of time that it uses up almost all the energy i have to take care of myself #but if i don't do it I'll just hate myself even more #i know i keep on complaining about this but I'm. I'm trying to fix it #i have BEEN trying to fix it actively for so fucking long #but it's.....i think I've stopped believing anything i do has significant worth and it makes it hard to keep trying #and i know people will read this and say take something for it but when you're only interactions with medications and drugs #are one experience that scarred you so bad you didn't go to the doctors for ten years and one experience so bad #that you couldn't even explain it at first without HARDCORE disassociating #it's hard to convince yourself that anything will ever be any better and that it won't make everything intensely worse for years

[craycraybluejay]

Internet suibait doesn't work on me but do you know what would. Put me in a place full of people that hate me before even knowing me that is so unfamiliarly Normal and Priveleged and Beautiful and give me a lifetime supply of opiates and ket and a few other choice substances and watch me just get so disillusioned, bored, vacant, and longingly sad that I just give up on holding back and only one time it'll take for me to go too far into heaven to a place where I can't come back from.

#ramblings #my aesthetic is live hard die fast be yourself #and don't overthink socializing too much because everyone hates you anyway #just fr have fun. dont waste it all at a desk hanging around people you hate doing things that make you want to end it all. live for reals #be afraid. be sad. be so jealous of that quiet life and know that you are a destructive force against it even when you do nothing #idk. beauty in agony. sadness in kindness. good in evil. pain in happiness. do you feel me #when i think of all the times i was so close to death #i find much pleasure in the fact that most of those times were my choice or my fault. that ive overshadowed my enemies #that if i die it will be because i chose to and i did it the way i wanted to

[blujayonthewing]

I really should not try to add 'create video content, a thing I have never done before' to my cicada plans when I've already got a lot of other stuff to keep track of but I do kinda want to on account of I do wanna try eating some and I'm really annoyed that almost everything I could find about doing that is framed as 'WOOOAAHH EEEUUUGH you can EAT?? these HUGE DISGUSTING BUGS???? watch me EAT some BUGS OOOAAHHHH' like okay I get it we live in the culture we live in but there's really not even one video on this from the perspective of approaching entomophagy in the spirit of sincere openness and curiosity??

#I've had this problem before researching entomophagy it's so annoying kfgjhdfkj #'eating crickets and grasshoppers is like. really popular and normal in a LOT of places' #'SURELY I will be able to find SOME recipes and flavor perspectives from someone for whom it's just normal food' #no. lol. #gotta do everything my damn self #there is ALWAYS nestled somewhere in these things 'this is super normal all over the world and actually it tasted pretty good' #but it is ALWAAAAYSSS couched in 'WOAHH... OOOUGHHH... can you BELIEVE????' sensationalism #I'm not SURPRISED I'm just ANNOYED. like of course that's the majority but like. ALL of it?? #so anyway I don't know how to do this but I wanna make a 'trying a cicada dish' video that blithely pretends that's normal #like listen you don't need ME to tell you 'in our culture this is weird and gross!!' you know this already #incidentally I feel the same way about articles or videos about 'look how cool/ beautiful/ interesting/ beneficial this spider is' #that waste A LOT of time going 'obviously everyone HATES spiders and thinks they're TERRIFYING and DISGUSTING' #before lamely segueing into 'but this one's cool actually. believe it or not' UNNECESSARY AND ANNOYING. UNDERMINING YOUR OWN POINT #... you know if it turns out I don't like them at all actually I'm going to be incredibly annoyed kjgfhdfk #about me #cicada quest

[glacialdeath]

;Rukia is not a tech-y person. If she has to be around someone in tech for more than a few minutes of waiting, watching them mess with hardware or something, she loses 30% energy and 30% of any good mood she has. And it's 100% your fault.

#;I don't think she could do a tech support call-- which is really funny to me #;she has a tech debuff-- #;but if you give her something and it does something cool by her standards she gets a buff of awe #;and all debuffs are doubled down if it ends up not working after wasting her time #;hates the process-- loves the cool new things-- your usual consumer #;headcanonthings #;late night ramblings to maybe delete in the morn #;notic

[lovecolibri]

Okay but imagine not having the promo for your big season finale after the last episode, waiting 4 days, and then throwing up 7 seconds of promo mixed with other promo 3 day before the episode airs and using half that time to showcase a character the audience hated so much she had to be erased from the show in every scene they could possibly cut her out of. FOX is like...DONE done trying to get people to want to watch. Good riddance.

#911 #911 spoilers #anti lucy donato #sorry i don't fuck with things that are a waste of time or steal screentime from main characters who should be having these conversations #< oh look time to bring that tag back #are we going to have to suffer through her wailing caaaaaaaaap like a cat in heat again? because i fucking cannot #this looked like SUCH a good firefam focused emergency and i just KNOW kr is going to force her into it as the 'hero' #just to steal more time from the main characters again 🙄🙄🙄 #thanks i hate it #no wonder they held onto that promo #couldn't give people time to make a ruckus about it and have the studio make the call to cut her scenes again #(because you KNOW kr fought tooth and nail to not do that and got overruled)

[radioconstructed]

⌖ HI, HEY, HELLO! IT’S ME, hi, I’m the problem, IT’S ME, SIMULCASTING LIVE ON AIR and LIVE ON CAMERA! I almost NEVER DO THAT! Are YOU tired of scam calls? I SURE AM! Let’s make these CLOWNS our little APRIL FOOLS! TUNE IN for WILD IMPROV, VOICE ACTING, SCAMMER MALDING, and COVERS OF THE SCAMMER PAYBACK SOUNDTRACK! ALL DAY!

#// gonna drop context in the TAGS! #scambaiting is exactly what it sounds like! you bait scammers. for example pretending to be a potential victim to waste their time. some #people can go further and get their info to report to authorities or reverse connection into their computer and mess up their operations. #Al's goal here is to improv some insane scenarios (see link for an example) and have fun wasting these clowns' time so they can't make money #(this also saves victims but she is fueled mostly by pettiness and spite bc she hates robocalls) #they do get raging tho and she is gonna have so much fun making them rage. she has her own creative insults too. #(first link is long (but worth it) but the second two videos are short) #Her focus is improv but pls remember that she's pretty techliterate (like... her operating system is a linux and she set the hotel network #up with pihole to block all ads on the network) so she is running a virtual machine in case some scammer asks to remote into her computer. #Also! Scammer Payback is a scambaiter with a large following. He collabed with musicians to make a soundtrack. The songs pass as love songs #and stuff but they're about scammers/scamming/scambaiting and it's great. It's Al energy. #Anyway she VERY RARELY goes live on camera bc she dislikes being on camera in real time as there's no editorial control #but this is the sort of thing she wants to be on camera for! she's also broadcasting. #So. Lots of fun improv with live music between calls. It'll be fun. You'll get to see her make music live. Live looping and live instruments #(I don't think city lights & rain on me are officially part of the soundtrack. it's just the same artists collabing. but they have good sax #solos and I think april fool's is The day for Al to unironically refer to herself as h*rny in a song.) #⌖ online #⌖ hellfie #OH! THE FIREARM! I had drafted Al doing an iconic moment from a pengu*nz0 video and decided to use it for this. #She has that bisexual lighting going on too. It's to match the vaporwave music and also bc it's classic youtube.

[lamortwrites]

I fucking HATE the amount bg3 expects you to be resting

#I think I just fucked up a dark urge plotline bc I was too efficient ig #I am NOT going back #WHY do you need me to long rest 1000 times before giving me a fucking quest lol #the worst part is that like...I KNOW it gets to the point where nothing happens in rest cutscenes #why can't you just fucking. give me the information I need #I am not wasting 50000 camp supplies just bc you don't know how to pace a video game #IF YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE ME WAIT UNTIL I LONG REST TO GIVE ME INFORMATION ABOUT A QUEST I CAN FUCK UP WITHOUT KNOWING ABOUT IT #THEN YOU SHOULD FUCKING GIVE IT TO ME ON THE EXTRA REST YOU FORCE ME TO TAKE BETWEEN ACTS #UGH I HATE THIS GAME #IT'S NOT EVEN LIKE I FUCKING DID THAT MUCH #I am resting SO much on tactician #I LITERALLY GOT INTO ACT II #DID THE MAIN PLOT THING #DID A MINI FIGHT #THEN DID A BIGGER PLOT RELEVANT FIGHT #AND THEN IT DECIDED I'D COMPLETED A QUEST THAT MY BUTLER HADN'T EVEN FUCKING GIVEN ME YET #AND THEN I DIDN'T EVEN GET A CUTSCENE ABOUT THE QUEST I SUPPOSEDLY COMPLETED I JUST GOT THE EMPEROR'S FIRST ACT II CUTSCENE #WHY #LITERALLY WHY #IF YOU ARE GOING TO GIVE ME RESOURCES TO LIMIT MY LONG RESTS THEN STOP FUCKING PUNISHING ME FOR GETTING AS MUCH DONE AS POSSIBLE BETWEEN #RESTS #GOD I wanna kick someone's fucking teeth in #ash.txt #I'm gonna have to do an easy run and just rest 100 times in each act before I do anything #do they really fucking expect me to do one fight then sleep

[dearedwardteach]

I open tumblr just to see your tags 🙏 it’s a highlight of my day

armys don't scare me. i've been on the internet for fifteen years and i used to be a directioner, jungkook fans wish they were as insane as me 👍🏽

#ksjhfjksjhdjksjd ily too #i finally listened to golden btw #(cant believe i wasted 30 minutes of my time on this when i could have been listening to indigo instead but ANYWAYS) #my take is: still not sure how 3d is supposed to be about heterosexual sex and the term champagne confetti still has me rolling on the floo #i guess i kinda like closer to you? but i like major lazer's stuff usually and it's clearly not my fav sound he's ever put out so yk #grasping at straws there #his falsetto in seven is good but that's about it with this song #overall jk's voice when it's not completely overlaid with autotune is nice he's doing what he does best #but his voice is not enough to save the overall mediocrity of the songs #(also bc i guess his voice is the one i like less in the band so ofc it won't hook me like jin's or tae's singing voices might) #(but that's very personal in no way i'm saying he's a bad singer) #standing next to you sounds like a rip off from a michael jackson song so it's not that it's bad necessarily #just that it's... not... original. at all? i mean the song is very representative of the whole album in that way. #it's not that i dislike it necessarily just that it sounds like a cover album more than anything #the only thing i truly hate about golden is that i don't listen to bts to listen to mediocre white men's music and that's all that album is #yes or no is a skip boring as fuck #please don't change is. lyrically and musically underwhelming but i do like his voice? id say it's a white people festival song which. yeah #hate you. white man christmas movie song. skip. #somebody is ewwwww i do not like his voice in it at all and the rest is uninteresting so yk SKIP #too sad to dance. unoriginal literally have nothing to say about it. white man song. skip #shot glass full of tears. once again it's not that it's bad per se. id even say i like it. its just that it sounds like somebody else's son #this is so frustrating!!!! gaaaaaaaah!!! everything about this is frustrating! #id say im disappointed but it's what i expected since seven came out so im not. #overall boring and disappointing i beg u poc artists dont let white men make music for u thanks for coming to my ted talk #raplinenthusiasts #ask #answered #it's not even that golden is horrendous it's just... mediocre. idk what's worse tbh #anyways not tagging all that i might be insane but im not gonna consciously invite the crazy armys in #thank god for rapline huh

[casboobs]

actually so dean coded (severe abandonment issues)

#why am i like this i hate the ways in which i'm dean coded i don't wanna have abandonment issues i dont wanna get triggered by the smallest #most idiotic things other people do or dont do while simply living their own lives i hate feeling like this having mental breakdowns for #nothing just wasting time feeling like shit for no reason other than getting triggered wtf #it just feels stupid but oh i gotta deal with emotions bc of trauma well i don't want to thank you very much

[ante--meridiem]

I have waited a full hour outside my lecturer's office just to get confirmation within a couple seconds of talking to him that yeah, he got my email and accepts the submission, he just didn't feel the need to send me a reply confirming that.

Maybe I do need to "take a chill pill" especially wrt academics as many people over the course of my life have suggested.

My defense is that given how my undergrad went I think I'm justified in wanting to have absolute certainty that nothing goes wrong this time around.

#Liveblogging my masters #I didn't even have lectures today so I could've stayed home & had the whole day to study #But instead I wasted half of it coming here to get confirmation in person #I am a very chill student. The Most Chill. As you can see. #Now only thing I'm left anxiously awaiting confirmation for is the guy who said he might supervise my thesis if I sent him an email #With my idea #Which I sent a week ago & haven't heard back about since #Which is fair since I attached articles & he probably needs time to look through them #Buuuttt he's supervising a reading course next semester on quiver reps that I'm very interested in #& sign ups are by email too #So signing up for that is a good opportunity to make sure he got my other email too #..........I do not like the fact that I am the kind of person who freaks out about not getting immediate replies #& then tracks people down for updates #Especially considering I don't *give* prompt replies myself #But. I hate uncertainty more!

[kaijujube]

I got SO MUCH hate in my inbox for this ask I sent to straycatj

#I got like two or three nice messages but there are fifty more that are transphobic or calling me a freak or telling me to kill myself #kinda regret sending that ask i should've known better considering the internet is toxic as hell #if it bothered you so much just block me? why waste your time (and mine) telling me i should be dead #i don't think I'm responding to any of the messages in my inbox #ty again to the extremely few people who said kind things but the rest of you are just. yikes #the notes in that post are a mess too honestly i feel guilty straycatj has to see the worst of the internet #all because i wanted a little comfort from a stranger #i do have a therapist but i think most of y'all might need therapy more than i do #if you think it's ever appropriate to tell someone to kill themself #or literally harass them for needing comfort #if you find it that difficult to be respectful and/or you have fun harassing people you should seriously consider talking to someone for it #very telling that all but one of the hate messages is on anon too