it is also a lot more money than i will ever have. my student loans make up half of that - they're coming back, i'm told, like we all bounced back recently. the other day while paying for gas to go to work, i overdrew my account without knowing it.
i sat in the car and looked at the charge and tried to do the math. where the fuck is the money even going? i don't live extravagantly. i live in a hole in the ground, in an apartment the size of a sneeze; covered in ants. yes, i wanted to live close to a population center. maybe that's my fault. i've downloaded the apps and i've spoken to the experts and i've cut back on excess. i can't help the pharmacy bills or the medical debt.
i have a good, well-paying job. when i googled it to see if i was getting a fair salary, i found out i'd be making "upper middle class" money. which doesn't make sense - is "upper middle class" now just "able to afford a one-bedroom without a roommate". when i was younger, upper-middle meant a nice big house and a backyard and vacations and not flinching about eating at a resturant.
i was talking to my friend who is a realtor. he said 100,000 dollars is extremely cheap for housing. he's not wrong. 100,000 dollars would change my life. 100,000 dollars also won't really buy you anything. it could get you out of debt, potentially, if you were lucky and had a certain amount of scholarships to tack onto your degree. you could pay off the car and then have enough left over for "spending" money. how fucking amazing. one vacation, maybe two if you're thrifty. and then - like magic - the money would evaporate into nothing. people would sigh and tell you see, you should have put it into savings! like "upper middle class" people can't afford to value "actually living" over squirrelling wealth. you should spend your life only in scarcity. like that is what made the rich people all their real "actually a lot of money".
100,000 dollars would literally set me free. it also would just set me back to "earning normally" instead of paying down debt into infinity. god, do you know how many of us just want that? that our first thought is we could stop scrambling and just be free of debt if we won the lottery? that we don't even necessarily need to stop working - we just wouldn't have to worry about failing or falling?
and. at the same time. 100,000 dollars is next to fucking nothing.
love that nobody can function without echo in the empire era. the batch keeps losing the ship, barely manage to finish their missions, and entirely forgo strategy. and then on the other hand, rex pre-echo-joining-the-rebellion was living in an abandoned garage with one singular tiny ship. then shortly after echo joins they have a whole base with like twenty troopers and real doors and actual food and a ship actually designed for long distance travel.
people who post about "i'm not proship or antiship, i pay taxes" have the same energy as people who joke that their pronouns are "nor/mal": they aren't funny or interesting and they're inadvertently enabling fascist & bigoted behavior
Preorder will go live on my kofi at 1:00 PM EST on April 6th!
Shipping is 6 USD for United States, 20 USD for Worldwide. Shipping is possible to any country covered by USPS. If your country has any specific shipping stipulations that you know of, when it comes time for the preorder you'll have my email to contact me about any of those extra concerns!
There will be 100 made; manufacturing is currently underway for the lil guys. I'll be sure to update my kofi with further info about the process as it goes along!
“It’s been so long since your last post about building your new fence, we really miss hearing about it” said no one ever, but here’s yet another fence post (<- laugh) anyway. Progress has been made!
In the above pic you can see the new gate was still held close by a piece of string, but I found a tree root that makes a cute latch, here it is <3
I had the worst trouble screwing it in! The last few fence posts I bought were acacia because the store ran out of chestnut ones, so I discovered that acacia is unbelievably hard. It’s nice to know the posts will last a long time, but they killed a drill bit without breaking a sweat. I didn’t know wood could do this to metal:
In the first pic you can see that fence posts have been installed to the right of the gate, but nothing else—well the crossbars and wire netting are now in place:
Since I screwed the crossbars on top of one another to make the fence a bit higher, the wire netting didn’t go all the way up, so I had to do some patient lacework with string to fill all the gaps, or else Pampe would put her head between the bar and the netting and just push down to widen the gap and squeeze through. (Lived experience.) But it looks oddly nice:
I also left 1 gap at the bottom, too small for a llama but large enough for a Pandolf and two chickens to enter and leave the pasture as they please. (Though Pan can’t gain any weight in his butt or he won’t fit anymore):
At one point I had to go to the store to buy some more washers and bolts and I met a teenage cow happily wandering on the road far away from her family. It’s always nice to know I’m not the only one with fence troubles.
Go back to your mum immediately young lady! I have a llama who would be very proud of you.
I used to have a very convenient little tree where I hung the hay nets, but unfortunately it had to be felled when we built the greenhouse. But one of its roots became the door latch, and I also salvaged one of its branches to build my new hay net holder where the tree used to be, so it will continue to carry hay nets in the afterlife. I intended for my modern art installation to look like a llama but everyone is telling me it’s more of a moose:
The target audience was very puzzled by it at first, and Pirlouit was the first animal who dared to approach it because he would do anything for his hay.
Although at first he stretched his neck and lips as far as he could so he wouldn’t have to go too near the hay holding-animal’s head...!
Then everyone followed his lead (except Pampe who in the below pic is right in front of me checking the fence for weak spots) (but there have been no llama escapes through the new fence! it is as of yet undefeated)—and then even baby Poldine started eating hay :) For the first time! She was just waiting for her hay to be served to her hanging from the spine of a wooden moose butler.
you know the contrast between how Vergil is presented vs thinking too hard about Vergil’s story is pretty funny. Man’s reputation is this iconic badass, the pinnacle of what video game rivalries can be, the coolest guy to play as, the guy who breaks every game he’s added to,
and then you go to the story and like. man’s lost his free will and autonomy at 19 and then came back a fractured man half of which was a lovecraftian eye beast the other half of which was a chronically ill goth man. and then he reunites and hes in like his 40s now I believe but legit the last time he was actually in a game where he wasn’t being mind controlled when he was 19 which is both sad but also thinking about how this guy who’s considered one of the top badasses of gaming has never really lived life outside of being a teenager.
Anyways this is the secret comedic potential of post DMC5 for Vergil because not only has the human world probably changed a fair bit in terms of technology, if he’s sticking around Dante he’s gonna actually have to learn in depth how taxes and grocery shopping work. Amazing.
If you're wondering why I set up ko-fi membership stuff after I really resisted monetizing in any way for so long, btw... Honestly, it's because taxes and some big surprise vet bills this month kinda. decimated my savings. by a lot.
Normally I'm okay enough financially, but I'm in a really high cost of living area, and it's just been a really rough month in a lot of different ways.
So, if you're interested in supporting me or my work, whether it's with a membership or a one-time thing or whatever - and only if you can genuinely afford it - that would honestly be amazing and more helpful than I strictly like to admit
As an extra incentive, if this ko-fi thing goes well, I'll commit to actually answering asks and shit again lol