#develop orthorexia

[awsydawnarts]

I hate you weight loss ads I hate you packaging that prominently displays calorie content I hate you menus that don’t show how much something costs but instead show the calories I hate you magazines that blast weight loss strategies in your face I hate you influencers promoting detox teas I hate how the world is so unfriendly to people recovering from EDs who are just trying to get through their everyday life without being reminded about it under the guise of a “fitness girlie” lifestyle

#tw eating disorders #tw disordered eating #I’m fine btw mutuals don’t worry it’s fine #I just get so frustrated with how all the fitness lifestyle crap that’s so popular today has created this environment where it’s so easy to #develop orthorexia #one minute you think that the world is getting better about this shit but then one of those fitness girlies pops up and you realize we’re #still doing the same stuff just packaging it differently #I recently performed coffee in my schools nutcracker and i would almost argue that my mindset going into it about my body was WORSE than it #would have been 10 years ago bcs yeah now no ones going to SAY that you’re supposed to be thin #they’re just going to judge you for not having a fucking six pack #bcs it’s just so easy and it’s this cute quirky lifestyle that you can just achieve #and it’s so healthy #it’s good for you #i don’t think the fact that I wound up doing ab workouts every day for a month was super healthy thanks #and all the stuff I mentioned above was so fucking unhelpful #I’m just going about my day not worrying about whether I’m going to hit this fitness goal and then bam some food is in my face telling me #how many calories it has and how it’s so HEALTHY #when that wasn’t something that was on my radar AT ALL at the moment #anyway #getting off my soapbox now thanks #mine

[serialunaliver]

you can eat healthy and stay the same weight or eat healthy and gain weight. eating healthy does not correlate with weight loss as much as you think, it's something you should do because it will make you feel better, not lose weight.

#if you go in any *honest* dieting community the focus is on calories and not healthy eating #while people usually associate high calorie food with junk food it also depends on the quantity you eat #this is how orthorexia develops partially imo - the person realizes eating healthy wasn't 'enough' #sad all around

[adobodemon]

The way that this article (and the tiktok vid that put me onto it) changed my perception of gym bros and muscle queens

#anthy&tea #long read #like i been saying that there's so many sexy sexless people out there lately #it's so enlightening to read a rationalized argument for that #and this is mainly why I eat whatever I want and go to the gym as regularly as I feel like cause I am not trying to develop orthorexia

[unpretty]

from Karen from HR chapter 10:

""I did have an eating disorder for a while, but she didn't even notice that. I read somewhere that most eating disorders are actually about control."

"Mm," Bruce agreed.""

from Gotham High chapter 3:

"""You should eat more real food, too," she added.

"That wasn't real food."

"You know what I mean, though," she said. He didn't respond. "I'm pretty sure you have a disorder." She said it vague and off-hand, as if she didn't actually care; she wasn't sure if she did. He was rich, and he was eating. No one got to that size without eating. He was still better off in every way than most of the people she knew. She could not rationally explain why his careful lists of calories and vitamins felt so wrong to look at, seemed so inhuman.""

the fucking. DETAILS. the stupidly wonderful way you weave character details throughout your stories make me scream. it's so good

also I wonder if he still has that eating disorder??? or at least, disordered eating habit. like, he STILL doesn't like most "junky" foods (I'm specifically thinking of Tim suggesting he try Doritos from Anti-Social chapter 7, and Selina suggesting coney dogs from Stolen moments)

but SOME foods that can be kinda gross he IS okay with and sometimes even seems to prefer (like bad Chinese and hot dogs from Third Wheel chapter 3. I would include gyros from the same chapter and Anti-Social (again) chapter 6 on this list but that shit's tasty. can you tell I've read this collection of fics too many times)

but that doesn't necessarily mean he DOESN'T still have that eating disorder. it could just mean he's gotten very good at gestimating nutritional information and keeping mental track of stuff like that

anyways. I also feel the need to mention his "my father liked to cook" mini-monologue from HR chapter 7, but I don't know how to weave it into here. it just feels important somehow. have a lovely day, I love your writing i'm far too obsessed with it

you missed a couple! >;3

backup:

"I'm not apologizing for the fact that I wanted real food," Nightwing said. He turned around in his seat to look back at Harley. "Have you seen his little protein shake things? "They're his robo-fuel!" "You know he's not a robot." "Yeah, I know that." Harley and Nightwing both looked at Batman.

earlier in stolen moments:

Tim huffed. Then he knocked on the silver-domed lid resting at the desk, covering a dish that rested on a hotplate. "Alfred left a plate." Bruce only glanced at it. "Then eat fast." "It's for you." "I'm not hungry." Tim crossed his arms. "I'm not leaving until you eat." His chin tilted upward, attempting to look implacable. She came out from underneath the desk to circle his legs, and smelled the air. Salt and fat and starch. Bruce stood straighter to look at Tim. Tim immediately faltered. "You have school in six hours," Bruce said. "Go to bed." "... promise you'll eat?" She wound around his legs. "You're aware that I'm the adult here." "Are you going to eat?" "Yes. Bed. Now." Tim sighed. "Night, Bruce."

and there's chapter five of anti-social and probably some other bits in various places

i don't know if orthorexia is really the word for what i write bruce as having, because that's usually associated with Clean Eating and Health and No Processed Foods and that's not really what he does. what he's concerned with is Maximum Efficiency. if he were left to his own devices he would take a multivitamin and then eat mostly peanut butter out of the jar and possibly some kind of whey slurry (which is p much exactly what he's doing in chapter five). protein and calorie density are the priorities.

the foods he favors tend to be things that in his mind don't 'count', foods that made it onto his list early on and now he sticks with them. like cucumbers. or yogurt. a handful of plain kix. when you have an eating disorder and you're carefully tracking everything you develop certain habits and certain 'safe' foods, and even when you try to go back to eating intuitively you still have that list in your head. if he's going to eat Real Food he favors protein-heavy and cheap because it feels like less of a waste that way. he thinks high quality foodie stuff is a pearls before swine situation when he's the target audience for soylent.

he hasn't noticed that he thinks of cheap chinese food as special occasion food, but he does

#original #ficblogging #ednos #once he decided to Travel The World In Disguise keeping a food diary stopped being realistic #he's capable of eating normally the same way he's capable of smiling #he has practice

[donniesexceptionalmind]

'Oh, you have a girl. It's not autism.'

Disclaimer: I will use the term afab instead of girls because the assigned gender at birth plays a big role in diagnostic processes (not happy about it).

Second relevant point: the criteria for diagnosing autism spectrum disorder are based on data derived almost entirely from studies of boys.

It was also a common assumption that autism is at least four times more common in boys than in girls.

Experts also believed that autistic afab people were, on average, more seriously affected:with more severe symptoms, such as intellectual disability.

Newer research suggests that both these ideas may be wrong.

A 2012 study found that if amab & afab people had a similar level of autistic traits, afab people needed to have either more behavioural problems or significant intellectual disability, or both, to be diagnosed.

This suggests that clinicians are missing many afab people who are on the "less disabling end" of the autism spectrum, previously designated Asperger's syndrome.

Disclaimer two: I am not a fan of functioning labels. I am considered high-functioning but I am really NOT.

What may be different in autistic afab people?

Social & personal factors that may help to mask traits or compensate them

Biological factors that lessen the symptoms

Special interests not fitting the stereotypes are not recognised as such

Huge amount of anxiety that stems from socialising & sensory issues, the latter is often missed

Eating disorders such as anorexia/orthorexia & arfid as a way to release autistic hyperfocus and/or to battle food sensitivities

ADHD, Bipolar & OCD are common labels to be diagnosed with instead of autism (misdiagnosis)

Struggles may firstly present when adolescence arrives: social life becomes more complicated, development of the female body, not connecting with the female stereotypes

Dismissing experiences because of social/cultural norms: "Women are too sensitive, they make a fuzz out of everything, ..."

Why does this gender bias still exist?

Afab people have been absent from the growth of psychology as a field & medicine in general, thus making the way the mind is seen is based on male subjects.

Why have they been left out? Because the afab body is much more complicated due to its complex hormonal cycle.

Scientists want theories, which requires sameness. Individual differences are looked down because if you consider them it's much harder to generalize:

Everyone needs to fit into a category.

Conclusion:

Science is flawed and far from perfect.

The tools to diagnose autism are designed to recognise boys or 'severely affected' afab people.

The truth: autism presents differently in afab than in amab people because of many different reasons that need to be researched more intensely.

There shouldn't be a gender bias at all.

Sources: [📰]

And I have also lost my point of writing this. I feel very sleepy & not present at the moment.

#I feel not too great today but I haven't infodumped in a while now so have this? #donatello infodumps #donnies exceptional mind #turtle net #rottmnt #autism #autistic spectrum #autism community #gender bias #autism research #autism awareness #autism spectrum disorder #infodump #infodumping #donnies special interests

[maryishappy]

So this might be a stupid question, but how do you know if you’re developing an eating disorder/tendencies?

honestly that’s a really good question!!!

here goes a really informative post with all research made by me:

you may have to look at some behaviors and attitudes like:

- extremely frequent dieting, and control of food becoming primary concern;

- insecure and worry with weight, calories, carbohydrates and fat grams(others too);

- refusing to eat certain foods (fear foods), and restricting against whole categories of food (like carbohydrates, dairy);

- looks uncomfortable eating around others;

- food rituals (eats only a particular food or food group, excessive chewing);

- skipping meals or taking small portions of food at regular meals;

- extreme concern with body size and shape;

-frequent checking in the mirror for perceived flaws in appearance;

- wanting to look unhealthily thin;

- wanting to fast and doing it for unhealthy periods of time (varying from days to weeks).

Now some specific Eds to separate each one! (some may have the same characteristics as others)

4N0REX1A NERVOSA:

- may dress in layers bc of insecurity;

- extreme worry with weight, food, calories, and dieting;

- some make frequent comments about feeling “fat”;

- wanting to have a body weight inappropriate for their age, height, and build;

- presence of packages of l4xatives;

- drinks extreme amounts of water or non-caloric beverages;

- maintains an excessive, heavy exercise routine.

BUL1M14 NERVOSA:

- evidence of binge eating, including disappearance of large amounts of food in short periods of time;

- also evidence of p^rging behaviors, including frequent trips to the bathroom after meals, signs and smells of vomiting;

- presence of packages of l4xatives;

- drinks extreme amounts of water or non-caloric beverages;

- does self-induced v^miting;

- dental problems, such as cavities, discoloration of teeth from vomiting, and tooth sensitivity(bc of the above);

B1NG3 EATING DI1S0RD3R (BED):

- secret recurring episodes of binge eating (eating in a discrete period of time an amount of food that is much larger than most individuals would eat);

- feels lack of control over ability to stop eating;

- feelings of disgust, d3pr3ss1on, or guilt after overeating, or feelings of low self-esteem;

- may steal food;

- evidence of binge eating, including the disappearance of large amounts of food in a short time period.

OTHERWISE SPECIFIED FEEDING OR EATING D1S0RD3R (OSFED):

Because OSFED has a wide variety of eating dis0rd3red behaviors, any or all of the following symptoms may be present in people with OSFED.

- frequent episodes of consuming very large amount of food followed by behaviors to prevent weight gain, such as self-induced vomiting or st4rv1ng (fasting);

- evidence of binge eating, including disappearance of large amounts of food in short periods of time;

- self-esteem overly related to body image;

- extreme dieting behavior (reducing the amount or types of foods consumed);

- expresses a need to “burn off” calories taken in;

- evidence of p^rging behaviors, including frequent trips to the bathroom after meals, signs or smells of vomiting;

- presence of packages of laxatives or diuretics.

AVOIDANT RESTRICTIVE FOOD INTAKE D1S0RD3R (ARFID):

-limited range of preferred foods that becomes narrower over time (like picky eating that progressively worsens);

- fears of choking or vomiting;

-may have no body image disturbance or fear of weight gain.

RUMINATION D1S0RD3R:

- repeated regurgitation of food for a period of at least one month. Regurgitated food may be re-chewed, re-swallowed, or spit out.

Other Food & Behavior Concerns:

ORTHOREXIA:

- cutting out an increasing number of food groups (all sugar, all carbs, all dairy, all meat, all animal products);

- an increase in concern about the health of ingredients;

- an inability to eat anything but a narrow group of foods that are deemed ‘healthy’ or ‘pure’;

- may have body image concerns.

C0MPULSIVE EXERCISING:

- Exercise that significantly interferes with important activities, occurs at inappropriate times or in inappropriate settings;

- intense anxiety, depression or distress if unable to exercise;

- Exercise takes place despite injury or fatigue.

This is just my research and my own and other experiences, if i missed/used wrong information please let me know! 😊

#@n0r3xia #ed not ed sheeran #tw disordered eating #@ana #anarecja #disordered eating mention #ed disorder #i wanna be weightless #st4rv1ng #tw ana diary #@tw edd #@nor3×14 #@na vent #@na motivation #@na buddy #@na tips #@n@ buddy #@nor3xia #@na trigger #pro @na #@na rules #notprojustusingthetags #4nami4 #4n4m1a #4n4t1ps #4narex1a #tw mia #ana and mia #ed bllog #ed not sherran

[crustgremlin]

sorry to get controversial on main but aside from the fact the statement "ed's are inherently fatphobic" is untrue because the ways in which they can develop and the reasons behind it are so incredibly complex (eg. there are literal genetic factors) the other major reason you're all fuckin wrong is because:

Binge eating disorder is an eating disorder

PICA is an eating disorder

ARFID is an eating disorder

Orthorexia is an eating disorder

Rumination disorder is an eating disorder

OSFED is an eating disorder

massive, sweeping statements like that not only show that you have no real idea of how this shit works, it also shows how little of a fuck you actually give about people who, may I remind you, have one of the deadliest mental illnesses.

mental health problems are more complex than the watered down shit you learnt about them in health class or whatever

[nymamacha]

🍓 trigger warning: calorie counting, binge and restrictive ed behaviour, mental illness discussion 🍓

this blog is 18+, minors DNI

feel free to message or send asks, but please understand that i do not want nor need help to recover

hii, my name's nyma (on here at least), i'm 23 years old and have been suffering from anorexia for 12 years now. while trying to recover, i developed BED and orthorexia, but that last one is a bit under control. i have no way of weighing myself because of the multiple relapses i've had (people get worried), so there won't be a lot of weight talk here, it'll be more counting calories and venting. i smoke, i drink, i do drugs from time to time, and i've tried to unalive myself multiple times (only 3 times this year so this is a win), especially while in recovery. do NOT follow my example, i'm a fucked up person with PTSD and a number of other disorders, i'm a failure. anyway, i enjoy reading, watching movies and tv series i've watched 100x before, and taking care of my 5 animals. i'm learning how to ride a bike and how to cook as well.

☆ more about me below the cut ☆

☆♡ i will be at my ugw on september 22nd ♡☆

my rules for now:

• stay under 1000 calories a day

• count all calories (including alcohol, seasoning, etc)

• eat slowly and without distractions

• drink as much water as i can

• there are no "safe" foods, unless it's actually 0 calories; low-cal in a big amount turns into high-cal

• prioritise protein always

• do yoga and go for a walk once a day

• log/ post everything i eat

incentives:

• 7 days of 750-700 calories: get nails done (1)

• 7 days of 699-600 calories: new stuffie (2)

• 7 days of 599-500 calories: new videogame (1)

• 7 days of < 500 calories: new lingerie (2)

rewards:

• goal weight 1 - 65kg: cute new pillows and blankets

• goal weight 2 - 60kg: new yoga equipment

• goal weight 3 - 55kg: new furniture for my bedroom

• ultimate goal weight - 50kg: new tattoo

• under ultimate goal weight - 45kg: clothes haul

#tw restrictive ed #tw ed diet #food log #weight loss diet #low cal diet #calorie control #calorie counting #tw ana diary #ed not ed sheeran #🕯️as a 🪶

[citylawns]

the “clean aesthetic” for me personally was really a manifestation of needing to make my life as in control as possible. peaked during the pandemic but was happening just before lockdown began. I still like to organise and clean and tidy and make my life sanitised to relax. It makes me feel like I understand, that I know, I can account for everything, nothing is slipping my mind and I’m not about to fail or make a mistake, it’s 100% a good coping mechanism when it’s not taken too far and I do see how it can develop into things like anorexia and orthorexia, and I do think this probably resonates with a lot of other women too. I like plain white walls, minimalism, it feels calm, the environment is not contaminated, it’s sterile and pure. I think the psychology behind this is fascinating

[waybeforeyourtime]

would kill to know where august’s body image issues stemmed from bc like yeah need for control obviously he seems to rely on it when hes spiralling but him mentioning it in his letter to his future self too and when he described liking the feeling of hunger it just seemed like full blown orthorexia/anorexia. i saw someone on twt say maybe he was on the chubbier side during first year so in the initiation when he had to be naked he felt conscious so it could stem from that which is interesting tbh

ED doesn't always develop in people simply because of body issues.

Not everyone who has an eating disorder has body image issues, and not everyone who has body image issue has an eating disorder. 

Eating disorders can involve a complex array of emotional, psychological, biological, and genetic factors. From an emotional and psychological perspective, stress or trauma can set the stage for the development of an eating disorder as a maladaptive coping mechanism.

#young royals #young royals august #august of årnäs #eating disoder trigger warning

[neurodiversebones]

I want to hear the ed + recovery thoughts. I want to hear them so badly. I have post notifications on for you and saw your post within a minute because of how much I love your thoughts.

should i be sleeping? yes i have to leave for work in exactly 8 hours (i said when i started this . as im finishing it we are looking at 7 hrs 15 min lol) . but i Have to Talk ! also just letting you know you almost made me CRY with this ask you guys are all genuinely so sweet and kind to me i cannot believe it 💗💐☀ i love you all :-((

OKAY gonna put this under a cut so anyone who doesn't wanna see ed related content can SCROLL AWAY ! gonna avoid being triggering but . protect ur peace and all that <3 also i wanna put out there that this is mostly based on my own experiences with seven years of various eating disorders so if you are reading this and it doesn't fit your idea or perception of ed's that may be why !

ok so the three main characters i have ed-related headcanons for are brennan, angela, and cam (before anyone comments that it's only the women . there is no correlation i promise . i am projecting and these are my Projection Characters .)

i hc brennan as having arfid and orthorexia-- arfid developed for her from a combination of sensory issues with food as well as food-related anxiety from foster care (not always having enough to eat, rarely having any choice in what she ate, food-related punishments within abusive homes). being avoidant is an easy way to ignore the anxiety and stress that comes along with eating, between her sensory issues and the fact that she wasn't given an opportunity to develop much of a healthy relationship with food. orthorexia also developed as a control mechanism, but later in life (around college age). it was the first time since her parents left that she had control over her life, and that included food-- she became very obsessive about what she was putting in her body, because it gave her some of that sense of control back. her obsession with being "healthy" allowed her to feel like she was the one in charge of her body for the first time since she was fifteen.

in regards to recovery, she really didn't realize she had a problem for ages. since she wasn't medically unstable or engaging in super obvious behaviours, she didn't see herself as suffering from an eating disorder at all. it wasn't until sweets pointed out her disordered eating habits that she realized there was anything wrong with what she was doing-- she brought it up to booth, who agreed, which culminated in a fairly major argument as she didn't see anything she was doing as "bad" or disordered, just "healthy" and "in control". after a Real Conversation though, she eventually accepted that she might have some sort of problem and started looking into it more. she is definitely still in recovery, as it is a very slow process after so many years of disordered eating, but she makes an effort to engage in things that scare the disordered part of her brain. her favourite memory in regards to this was getting *real* ice cream for the first time in god knows how long when her and angela were out with the kids <33

my headcanons in regard to angela's ed are very connected to my headcanon that she has bipolar disorder-- many of us with bipolar really struggle with disordered eating and i specifically hc angela as having bulimia. it started when she was a teenager and first starting to experience bipolar episodes-- when manic or depressed, it's incredibly easy to fall into b/p cycles. when she was manic, it was like a form of thrill seeking, and she didn't have the capacity to care for the destruction it was causing, and when depressed, it felt like she was putting her awful feelings into something physical. it was hard to express her emotions through words, so she used her body instead.

i think she entered recovery for the first time in her late teens (around 17) when her mental health hit like . rock bottom and her dad decided that they needed to do something about it. she got the treatment she needed, and also took time away from school to tour with her dad-- exploring the country and having so much time to just sit with her thoughts (especially now that they were a little easier to manage with medication) is what made her start doing art really seriously-- if she couldn't express her hurt with her body anymore, she was going to do it on a page, and she created some of her most beautiful paintings during that time that she is still very proud of to this day. she still has slip ups to this day when she is struggling with her episodes, but with hodgins and brennan she is much more capable of talking through it before it gets to a dangerous point of relapse.

as for cam's ed, i feel this is the one i've talked about the most before bc she is my comfort character in this aspect? i headcanon her to have anorexia, specifically restrictive subtype. for her it's a control and perfectionism thing, as well as a "growing up masking autism" thing. cam has a very perfectionist and obsessive personality type, and it's mostly directed toward herself. everything she does needs to be perfect to be enough, and she needs to feel in control at all times. food is one of the easiest ways to do this-- if she can control her body and the food she consumes, obsess over numbers and physical changes and symptoms, it makes her feel a little more at ease in her life because she feels she has *something* under her control. as for the masking thing, she often masked with hyperfemininity growing up-- she was praised frequently for being a "good girl", and part of keeping up that image was looking the "right" way (aka, thin). if she could keep up this image, people wouldn't notice the things that made her odd or how unnatural everything felt to her. it's another control thing, but with another layer to it.

cam took a *long* time to start real recovery. she had phases where it got less severe, even some to the point where she barely thought about it, but restriction and denial was always still a part of her mentality and routine. it wasn't until arastoo came along that she felt comfortable enough to explain her pain and her thoughts to another person-- she was always too scared to unload on anyone else, so she kept it a secret essentially her entire life. arastoo was the first person she trusted to listen without judgement, and he encouraged her to talk to her other friends and loved ones about it (all of whom were incredibly understanding and supportive). in a similar sense to brennan, recovery is really difficult for her, having struggled for so incredibly long and having her disorder be a part of her daily routine for the majority of her life. however, she tries incredibly hard-- arastoo is teaching her how to cook (she never learned) and she's learning to find the joy in food through that, and allowing herself to relax around it a little more <333

that is all !!!! wow this is so very long lol . i hope you enjoyed this it was cathartic for me

#local girl with anorexia projects onto their silly little scientists to feel better . #anyway i feel like it should be more normalized to talk about ed's the same way we talk about any other mental illness . this was cathartic #temperance brennan headcanons #angela montenegro headcanons #cam saroyan headcanons #tw ed #mental health headcanons

[ed-recovery-affirmations]

Just airing a personal frustration here and venting a little tbh. I am not at the point where I want to turn off reblogs or comments just yet, because I really appreciate the community feedback that these functions create. Still, it would be VERY nice if people could stop adding commentary to my "why x diet is bad" type posts with responses like "Thank you for correcting this information! This is why y diet is better instead!"

Like I am very hesitant to put ANY diet advice on here because it can trigger people in very different ways, especially if they have a complicated disorder like orthorexia, because I can never know if they will use that advice in a way that is healthy for them or if they will be triggered into extremes.

For example, someone added to my "junk food does not cancel out healthy food" and said that does calcium "cancel out" iron. So while this has a grain of truth to it, studies have shown that it takes a significant amount of calcium to even begin to inhibit iron absorption over a lengthy period of time. I really get sick of food purism being introduced to this blog specifically, just because I have a following of people who are particularly vulnerable to being harmed or developing feeding anxieties by it. If your body is healthy and absorbs food typically, it is generally very good at absorbing the things it needs to absorb from a varied and balanced diet. Unless you are absolutely mainlining calcium pills or chugging milk all day, you probably aren't making yourself iron-deficient. If your body is NOT healthy and does NOT absorb food typically, then I hope you have the personal resources to consult with a skilled nutritional team and not with Tumblr.

I have mixed feelings on sharing diet/health ideas on Tumblr. On the one hand, I know that a lot of chronic health conditions are very underresearched and sharing what works for you can help others figure out how to start the process of researching what works for them. But if you are reading or posting feeding advice, I'd advise you to be aware that all bodies are different and that what works for you might not be the thing that works for others.

#diet culture #food purism #food purity #orthorexia #ed recovery #long post #rant

[lonleywriters-blog]

How Gotham villains (you chose who) deal with an SO who’s developing an eating disorder.

(Doesn’t matter what disorder, but I suffer from orthorexia myself.)

: )

I always love your stuff : )

Omg I'm happy to

Gotham vilians with an s/o who has orthorexia

Oswald never really saw your eating habits as dangerous or to serious. He found it a little strange, it was like you had to see all the health facts about what you wanted to eat before you took even the littlest bite. He realized that it was bad when you couldn't even eat the cookie he bought you. He asks you why you seem to be obsessed, and when you tell him he feels so bad. It was obvious and he didn't realize, he should have been there to help you. "Oh I'm so sorry I didn't do something sooner love" he would look down a little ashamed. He will be super supportive and will try to help you recover or do anything to help.

Edward will see the symptoms pretty fast, he's always close to you so it was easy to tell. At first he thought you just liked healthier food, but he realized that it was controlling your life. As if it was a person forcing you to eat things with low carbs. He would sit you down and ask you if he could help you in anyway. He will try to ease you into a simi-normal diet. He really does love you and just wants you happy.

When she finds out she feels horrible for not noticing faster. She will not push you no matter what. She will sit down and ask you if there is anything she can do to help you, she might also suggest some therapy or help groups for you. She just wants you happy and she will be here every step of the way.

Even though he doesn't quite understand he knows that something is up. He looks into it and when he finds out he feels horrible and will look up good ways to talk to you. When he gets the courage he will sit you down to talk. He will ask questions and find a way you both like to try and help you. Even when it gets rough he is right there to help you.

#gotham x reader #fish mooney x reader #edward nygma x reader #oswald cobblepot x reader #victor zsasz x reader

[dykelawlight]

director's cut of to love and be loved by me?

MY BELOVED!!!!! I really loved writing this fic. For me I think centering it so heavily around food was kind of a weird decision but one I really enjoyed working with? It's a strong headcanon of mine that after L dies Light develops severe orthorexia, in large part because indulgence in desire related to food is such a strong trait of L's, so in excising the remnants of L from his life Light also excises like...a LOT of normal relations to food. I specifically picked a dish from the Japanese Buddhist cuisine shōjin ryōri because it's very elegant, healthy, and "pure" in terms of ingredients, and I think Light would twist that idea up unhealthily into all kinds of insane things. I think he has a huge thing about the idea of impurity or basically the idea of Secretly Bad stuff pervading the things he eats, which is why he eventually stops letting Misa cook for him because he can't trust her to do it right.

This also has a huge impact on Misa, who I think gets a lot of legitimate joy and also sense of self-worth out of being able to do Good Housewife Stuff for Light and who is completely blocked from doing so the more obsessive Light becomes. Like he completely takes over this very feminine domain and one of the few things Misa is able to do in this apartment she never leaves and I think turns Misa into a bit of a food hoarder, because she's like fuck, dude, can a bitch eat a fucking potato chip without it turning into a lecture on trans fats and carcinogens? No? Okay fine I'll do that on my own time whenever your weird ass is gone!!!

#ed tw -

[runawaycarouselhorse]

[TW calorie counting, disordered eating behaviour?? Also, religious fasting, since that could be triggering for some. I accidentally let an app that tracks calories somewhat dictate my life, realized what was happening, and backtracked away from that, welp. I also describe some of my typical meals here, so, careful if this might be triggering?]

Things I appreciate about the Lifesum app: helped me realize I was eating far less protein than I actually needed and helped me drink more water.

Things I do not appreciate about the Lifesum app:

got me behaving weirdly about food, so I'm going to lay off it or just input what I ate after the matter and not worry too much about normal things like ocasionally eating more than I ought to or eating more when I'm going to be fasting the next day because it doesn't understand that.

I realized I was on my way to developing an eating disorder when I sat there counting potato chips in my head (?!?!) so I can more accurately calculate how many calories because the serving size written on the back wasn't the whole bag but measured in 15 chips and I felt that was ridiculous. I'd input it into the app and then be like hmm, still hungry and still have tons more calories I could eat today, I'll eat another 15, then calculate, then another… wow, how does anyone even enjoy food like this, I have to keep eating them in succession so I don't forget which number on, wait, should I just pick out fifteen and put them in a bowl instead of doing mental mathematics??? Wait, am I for real doing this right now?!

The worst was when I realized I could eat not-so-healthy food if I didn't eat much or at all (not intentionally, this happens sometime if I'm busy or have to get to work but don't have time for breakfast [I usually grab a protein bar, especially for on-call days when I might be woken up and have to get ready for some life-saving case or some other emergency]... it got so bad I started eating my fruits less because I didn't wanna have to input new items not already listed before. Yep, my sheer laziness to add things to an app made me eat less, which is funny, but not so cool when it means I'd start to eat less healthily and therefore end up with less energy, oof!

I also didn't like from the start the goofy neutral line face it gave me about some (perfectly good!!!) food it just didn't like and I'm like, don't you try to be judgmental about the ocassional french fries or jam, are you trying to encourage orthorexia? People can have snacks...

I realized how goofy it was after and I saw in an article someone talking about inputing things so dutifully they included one lettuce leaf (and I was like wait, it's not normal to be trying to input things like that??? Becuase I kept trying to input things even if I ate only a tiny bit of them too……), and avoiding eating things they can't input into it and maaaan, I've calmed down since not inputing things before I even eat them (because often, I wouldn't even eat everything I set out anyway, it's not my habit to finish food, there's usually one spoonful or two sitting and it drives mama up the wall because I'll keep being like "I'll get back to it!!")…

Anyway, it's very good for keeping track of what I need, but I find eating more naturally (eat when hungry, stop when full--some days you'll need more food, other days less, that's all okay) and trying to structure my meals like the ones at the hospital (including all my food groups or doing my best to in each meal--it's amazing what having a cup of milk or laban or yogurt and a fruit alongside protein-rich food like beans or eggs, bread or rice, some vegetables, and a fruit will do for sateity), better and healthier, but I like that it lets me know if I'm deficient in protein or fat or whatever because then it lets me know why I'm feeling persistently hungry.

Feeling happy and comfy now from eating a nice, balanced suhoor/pre-dawn meal [they're supposed to give you energy for the day while fasting, but they're also often kind of light because you'll be sleeping shortly after]: a boiled egg with cream cheese, a bit of fuul/fava beans, a peach, half a sandwich (peanut butter and a new jam I didn't like the taste of, but, gotta finish it! ^^;;;) leftover from yesterday, lots of water. Usually, my suhoor is stuff like a bananas and peanut butter (maybe in sandwich form!) or a boiled egg with cream cheese. Nice and alkaline, to avoid reflux.

#personal #oops #disordered eating * #fasting

[teddytoroa]

re; my prev reblogged post. I think it makes some really great points and has solid advice about improving your diet because its much easier and healthier (physically AND mentally!!) in the long run to add things like fresh produce and proteins to your diet to balance the foods and drinks that are low in necessary nutrients

HOWEVER

id be rly interested to know how folks with health anxiety around things like latent allergies/health problems can handle adding new foods to their diet? for example, someone who previously ate nuts and nut products but now has a fear that theyve developed a severe nut allergy since they last ate any, or someone who is healthy on paper and in tests but is afraid of eating sugary foods in case they become diabetic. im not even sure if this type of disordered eating has a name (i thought it might come under orthorexia but idk) but i think especially since covid has made many many many folks more aware of their health and more anxious about taking care of themselves, that anxiety can easily turn into one that restricts your eating habits in ways that prevent you from adding new foods even when you know theyll be good for you. is any of this making sense lmao