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Really fucking sad. No words.

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Saturday

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The Girl On a Motocycle by Jack Cardiff 1968

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skinty fia

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This was fun because I felt like a robot

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Lotta Volkova & Kristina Nagel for Double Magazine

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zhong lin

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have you read sheila heti's novel pure colour? I recommend it xx

I haven’t but I’ve been really curious to read her work, thank you for the rec !

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that 'how to read more' graphic is sooo nice! what program did you use to make it?

ahh thank you so much!!! I used photoshop but it’s a really simple design you could do on instagram stories or canva I just use PS for other stuff

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Don’t worry bae I be playing these mfs in your honour

fuck post-punk, it's a landfill genre now. tired of all these bands trying to be fat white family. okay no more gossiping and shit talking from me hehe :3

anyway, this is a band I'm really excited by atm. you probably either love them or hate them, this single is so addictive to me

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ohh i see. what an awkward position for your friend to put you in ack

mmm well its a boys club and it only got more unbearable and toxic and isolating being friends with them after that, the worst was watching them whispering and snickering with each other as my ex boyfriend told them about a sexual act I'd done, Grian who I never saw again at least said out loud what my friend was thinking

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#me

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mens egos go completely unchecked and constantly inflated while some of us are being reminded over and over how inferior and replaceable we are

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beef w grian?? :o do u know him

No not beef... a grudge lol. it was all one sided on my end which was my immaturity. we had one interaction in which he said something dismissive when my ex's band had just finished touring with them, basically i was excited to see my ex and his band at this gig, they were my closest friends and had been away on this tour and I had just finished work up the road- i couldn't find anyone at the venue and my ex wasn't answering his phone, I spotted L and was relieved to see a friend (frontman of ex's band and my best friend) he had just gone up to Grian and I went to say hi quickly and ask if he knew where my ex was so I could stop wandering around by myself looking lost and alone. I said "hey" but my friend didn't even look at me, instead literally turned his back to me like I wasnt there even though I had been right in front of him, and I knew it was cos he was talking to Grian who is very much the type of guy he wishes he was (better looking, better lyricist, bigger band) so I get why he didnt want to speak to me just then, but I would have just gone away if he'd taken one second to say "I dunno" but he made a point of blanking me and instead going into a deep convo with Grian, who I hadn't met before. there's a lot of history with me and my ex's band and this kind of behaviour so it goes way beyond this one instance with us hence why it hurt so much and why its something I really remember. but instead of just walking away like I should have I shook his arm because I was angry at being dismissed again. then Grian points at me obviously finding me annoying and says "oi L I think you've got a little fan there" then walked away. I dont think anyone should be judged entirely from one anecdote but yeah that was our only interaction, which I felt was undeserved, so that was my grudge for a while. he didn't know me but he managed to hit a sore spot. it's more to do with my old friends than Grian really, his comment referring to me as a "fan" because my friend was deciding to blank me was just a little cherry on top of it all - but he just spoke the words of what my friends actions were saying. Grian is married/engaged (?) to a really nice and very beautiful girl I used to be friends with, I'm sure he's lovely to lots of other people. I was bitter about it tho but you have to move past what is obviously a mindless small slight. I was just obviously not someone anyone wanted to be around that night, even my boyfriend didn't act glad to see me. too many other interesting (meaning famous) people to talk to instead. weird I saw L at the pub last night he was the person who came up to say hi when I was drunk and fell of my stool

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i love fontaines too but they aren't big in my country so i don't think they are coming, will you see them on tour?? also i wonder what status they have in the uk and ireland like are they recognized on the street??

aw that's a shame, what country are you in? I might do cos I haven't seen them in years now since debut album era. I had a small personal grudge with Grian that put me off listening to them for years

they're def not recognised in the street in here, only by people who know who they are. maybe they're more recognised in Ireland considering how small the country is

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fontaines dc - starburster

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