#depressing on main lmao

[gayforcarstairsgirls]

Great so now we're outing children/teenagers to their parents! And therefore possibly endangering them! Fantastic!

#kemi fucking badenoch #i genuinely cannot stand that woman #at a tory event one time she stuck 'male' and 'female' signs on the doors of gender neutral bathrooms #who fucking does that? #and who does this?? you are FORCING teachers to out their students #what if they hear by accident that a student's friends refer to them with different name/pronouns? #they have to report that home? #for some queer kids the ONLY place they can be themselves is at school with their friends (and even then it's limited) #and now kemi badenoch is taking that away as well #for FUCK'S sake #uk politics #trans rights #kemi badenoch #this is taken from a guardian article btw!! #sorry to be like #depressing on main lmao #but i can't rant abt this to my mum bc tbh she'd probably agree with badenoch #so tumblr it is #i am just #SO FRUSTRATED BY THE TORIES AND THEIR 'CuLtUrE wAr' #GROW TF UP AND GET SOME EMPATHY UGHHHHH #transphobia #tw transphobia

[itty-bitty-sunshine]

I know this is random but reading your blog and seeing your art made me so motivated I made my 1st animation ever (not counting pixel art ones), after not drawing digitally in months and it looks kinda basic and it isn't colored but I made it and I'm really happy with it so I guess what I'm trying to say is thank you for motivating me to make digital art again! I hope you have a wonderful day/night :)

MKJSJWJW HI!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TELLING ME THATS GREAT!!! Animatics need time and patience so the fact you went straight for it is so cool!!!! I bet it looks lovely!

Hope you have the greatest day/night too!

#I'm gonna go in a bit of a ramble in the tags because this got to me #but this legit means the entire world to me #i had ups and downs and good and bad times so its something i even forgot about for a while #but all i ever wanted was to make silly things and have those silly things be of help to someone #that has always been like. my main objective and reason as an artist other than liking to draw #i always hear about the potential i got to helping out in the world and yada yada and i decided i wanted to make it in the unconventional- #and small ways. i wanted to make people happy. entertain them when they are going through something. inspire to see things in a better light #its stupid and simple and something anyone can do but it was a wish of mine #hearing i actually got to do that gives me hope this can actually work out so thank you so much for bothering on telling me this #for a while i forgot the little things mattered too. but you helped me remember it #I've had people do art about ideas i had. i had people laughing with an art i did. i forgot those things meant the world all the same #and i forgot those little things are what had gotten me out of depression in the first place lmao #it helped once so i guess it can help out twice #thank you for telling me and im happy i helped somehow!! i'd love to see it! but either way wooooo!!! you make that art #well this was a cringe ramble lmao #might delete later #(the ramble. the ask im putting in my wall) #but yeah this is nice :] #ask #anon

[sad-leon]

I know one of my AUs is in two seperate competitions but wouldnt it be so silly if I started focusing on an entirely different one

haha... jk.........

#rambles #.....maybe #<- wanted to make that tiny text but i do not have the patience to sift through google to figure out how to make the super small text #anyways...... #im getting overwhelmed by mental health and comp stuff so my brain went “hey what if we thought about this other au instead” #....... not that i have that much stuff for it because im deep in burnout and depression so making art is real hard #outside of the one thing im really focusing on #even after thats done i dont know if i have the patience for a whole other comic.... but my only other idea is like- a fic??? but.... #looks at kraang leo* #my fics are... uhhhh.. they definitely ... exist #but writing is hard #might do what somni and teaa do for emd and write fic for the main thing but have comics for the important parts???? #but they day i get the confidence to approach someone for collab is a day i dont think will happen until after years fo thereapy lmao #this has reminded me that i should edit the next chapter of kraang leo

[genericpuff]

It's Pride!

CW: Ranting about sexuality stuff, mentions of trauma

So I fall under a few different flavors of the alphabet soup that is LGBTQ+. I'm genderfluid, but more specifically, two-spirited, as a person hailing from Mi'kmaq soil. I'm bisexual but find myself veering more towards men than women most of the time, that's the beauty of the sexual orientation spectrum.

That said, there's one that I tend to focus on during Pride because unlike my gender identity or my dating preferences, I still find myself struggling with one in particular - asexuality.

While it was cathartic - albeit chaotic - to realize that I wasn't my assigned gender or that I was open to being with more than one gender, asexuality has always felt more like some confused self-diagnosis to me. I struggle to identify with it fully not because I don't feel confident in my own ability to identify myself, but because it always comes with that nagging voice in the back of my mind - "you could just be faking it."

Maybe it's 'just' the trauma I experienced as a child and I just need to go to therapy. Maybe it's 'just' some chemical imbalance and I just need to get on medication to balance me out. Maybe it's 'just' me still being in the body I was assigned and if I finally transition, I'll find myself enjoying the concept of sex more. Maybe it's 'just' me being autistic and ADHD and not being able to be interested in things long enough to want to have a regular sex life. After all, it's not like I'm completely anti-sex, I still find enjoyment in the erotic and I'm no stranger to my more 'adventurous' side.

But maybe I'm just looking for a deeper explanation to justify what it truly is - a lack of interest or attraction to something that I just don't need. Why did I chase it all those years ago? Was it the pressure of growing up? The compulsive urge to feel desired and wanted? The fear of rejection? Did I ever really enjoy it, or did I convince myself that I had to because it was what was expected of me?

I'm still not sure how to answer most of these questions. It gets easier, but at the same time, it also feels far more complicated than it should be when I know, deep down, it's not something that I care to worry about because it's not something I desire. If I really wanted to change this part of myself, if I truly believed it was just a medical problem that could be diagnosed and treated, then surely I'd take those steps.

But I don't. Because I don't want to.

And that's okay.

#sorry i didn't mean for this to get depressing LMAO #self post #depression on main #happy pride #pride month #pride 2023

[cookinguptales]

hmmm I want to challenge myself to write wwdits fic that defies canon more

I think at some point I am going to write fic where instead of Guillermo getting some weird crisis of conscience at the end of s5, he and Nandor fuck nasty covered in the blood of their victims, but like

other than that

if I were to write a canon divergent AU that diverges at any point in the series, where would you want it to be?

challenge me. (ง •̀_•́)ง

#wwdits #it doesn't have to be nandermo but I'll admit I always like writing nandermo lmao #I guess my only exception is I don't want to write something where freddie sticks around bc I simply do not wish to write him lmao #I've really really been struggling with writing lately #and some of that is my health but I think a lot of it is just feeling kind of depressed and at odds with my main fandom #so I want to attack this a fresh way

[lairmadness]

hiatus notice!

It's been a long time!! We are both well, but life has been collectively kicking both our asses a little bit, and the prospect of picking up and running the blog as consistently as we used to is feeling kind of daunting as a result. So we're going to step back for a little while and work on some other stuff while we clear our heads, and come back later ready to continue.

(how much later? unsure! But hopefully not long, we still both care a lot about the blog and its story. This isn't the last you'll see of it by a long shot :))

Additionally, both mods have both moved main blogs over the past few months- you can now find us instead at @alien-shmalien and @creaturelytracker.

Take care!!

#i (tracker) should also apologise for. um. disappearing for like the whole of august and september and most of october #i am no longer insanely depressed like i was but other stuff is still grating on me hence the continued break #and My problems are relatively tame in comparison to what dox has going on!!! so!!! this was just better for both of us #than being guilty and hemming and hawing over when we're gonna start the blog up again yknow #but we will be back.. eventually..... #(mod dox here) HI shits been insanely hectic and tracker is back so i think. we just need. a little bit of a break. #i am personally working on a webcomic ish thing so if you enjoy our stuff you can check us out there (you can find a link to it on main) #(as for what tracker is mentioning in the tags. i um. got disowned <3 lmAO im totally fine but its stressful yaknow?) #ooc

[juniperhillpatient]

alright besties new happenstance is officially written I’ll edit & post tomorrow after my job interviews 😊

#see there wasn’t even THAT much of a delay when I was having a full on depressive episode lol #i’m so good #although my ability to come up with ideas for the main characters of this story is definitely waning lmao #I don’t really know how to write like. happy established relationships that aren’t supposed to be taking critical hits #I just feel like this story is coming to an end #probably gonna shorten it to 80 chapters I think #this new one is pretty hilarious To Me #but like there is just Nothing goin on with the actual main characters or relationships

[aquietanarchy]

Yarrow, do you happen to have any good vegan recipes that you'd be comfortable sharing on tumblr at all? Have been trying to eat way less meat and am somewhat hankering for more recipes than my two vegetarian cookbooks have. (Hope you're doing well!)

sure thing! it might get a bit long because i really like food. you know how some dogs are primarily food-motivated and will do anything to get a treat? i am one of those dogs lmao

i'm really bad at making decisions, including what to eat, so lately i've been "stealing" some recipes from Purple Carrot. the whole meal plan/food delivery thing doesn't seem practical to me, but they post all their recipes for free online and i really enjoy a lot of their ideas, just modifying them a bit for my own needs. for example last night i made this Crispy Harissa Tofu, except a) didn't have fresh mint available so i used dried basil; b) had raisins in my pantry already so i used those instead of currants; c) couldn't find harissa locally so i literally just used sriracha, and made a separate dijon mustard-based glaze for my husband who can't handle spice; and d) i'm okay with honey so i used that instead of agave. (maple syrup or simple syrup works too as a vegan sweetener) ...so a lot of my cooking is stuff like that, finding a recipe and only vaguely following it. i've been modifying Purple Carrot ideas for maybe the last month and a half or so. only having 8-15 recipes to choose from helps a lot with my decision fatigue so i might be doing this for a while xD

here's some more websites that i like to look at for inspiration:

From My Bowl

The Buddhist Chef

Minimalist Baker (not everything here is vegan, but still a lot of good, simple ideas)

Cheap Lazy Vegan (the title of this one says it all <3)

Shane and Simple (i don't agree with the whole diet-culture flavored "oil free" thing, but i remember really liking a squash casserole i made from here before)

Plant-Based on a Budget (i followed some of their meal plans back when i was first going vegan and they were very helpful! i got sick of oatmeal real fast though and am only in the last few months enjoying it again)

Pinch of Yum (again, not all vegan, but still plenty of ideas)

Holy Cow Vegan

Rabbit and Wolves

Here's a few easy staple dishes that i fall back on regularly:

-spaghetti: you can spruce up canned marinara by first cooking onions and garlic in margarine before adding the sauce, and get some protein in there by either using plant-based "meatballs", lentils, or textured vegetable protein. you can also make a nice mock-parmesan topping by adding walnuts, nutritional yeast, onion powder, and garlic powder to a food processor and pulsing it until its crumbly. or just use a generous amount of nutritional yeast. i know i'm being that stereotypical vegan by hyping up nooch but it's SO good and life-changing i swear to dog

-tofu stir fry: press extra-firm tofu to get as much moisture out as possible and cut it into cubes. fry in sesame oil with seasonings of choice. (salt and pepper, of course; if you can get or make a Chinese Five-Spice blend that works really well; otherwise i would probably fall back on a blend of cumin, cinnamon, anise, and ground ginger). cook the tofu on high heat for about 3-5 minutes and set aside, then dump a bag of frozen stir-fry vegetables into the same wok or skillet and continue to cook on high heat. add in minced garlic (i keep a jar of pre-minced garlic in my fridge because i'm lazy), ginger paste (again; lazy), some brown sugar (or other sweetener), a hearty splash of soy sauce (or tamari), and some lime juice (or other acid-- i was out of lime juice the other night so i used rice vinegar, and that worked well) ...you can see i don't really "measure" things lol. cooking is an art and baking is a science which is why i don't bake serve cooked vegetables and tofu on top of rice or noodles

-rice bowl: rice and beans!! canned beans because who has time for beans!! very good with roasted broccoli, sweet potatoes, brussels sprouts, or butternut squash(you can roast most vegetables straight from frozen) and topped with a creamy sauce. if you're in the Pacific Northwest of the US and can get your hands on it, i highly recommend Yumm Sauce. i am addicted to this stuff and go through it too much so i've had to start to looking for alternatives because it is admittedly a bit pricey for how quick i can go through a bottle. a lot of vegan creamy sauces will call for soaked cashews, which requires a level of forethought i can't usually commit to, but is worth it when i remember to soak the cashews beforehand. other than that, tahini is my go-to base for a creamy sauce; i just whisk it together with lemon juice, syrup, garlic, some water, salt, and pepper.

creamy root vegetable soup: start by sauteing your aromatics (onion, garlic, leek, shallot etc) in olive oil. add Root Vegetable (carrots, potatoes, parsnips, beets, celery root, whatever you have on hand) and continue to saute for about ten minutes. add vegetable broth and a can of coconut milk. bring to a boil then reduce heat and let it simmer for about 20 minutes. add some acidity at the last minute, with vinegar or citrus juice. you can use an immersion blender to make it extra creamy or just eat it as-is

salad: arugula, spinach, or a spring mix for the greens, plus nuts and dried fruits, and some mock-chicken strips if i'm feeling fancy. make an easy vinaigrette dressing with olive oil and balsamic or red vine vinegar, plus a bit of salt and pepper and maybe some dijon mustard

general vegan tips:

-most tofu recipes are best with extra-firm tofu. just press it first by placing it on a plate, covering it with paper towels or clean kitchen towels, and then put another plate on top and let it sit for a bit. but if you're pressed for time, in my experience usually just firmly and thoroughly patting it as dry as possible before cutting works good enough

-while i love cooking, i'm also aware that i'm liable to run out of spoons at any moment, so i allow myself to take as many shortcuts as i can. pre-minced garlic and ginger paste, pre-made spice blends, even pre-cut and frozen produce, etc

-salad greens can last up to two weeks in the crisper if you put a paper towel in with the bag/box

-mushrooms last a lot longer if you store them in a paper bag

-oat milk is my favorite plant milk because it's very creamy and is much more neutral tasting than soy or coconut. if you're trying to replace milk and fat is one of the main things you're getting from that milk, try not to use almond milk because it's thin and sad and flavorless

-cooking oatmeal with oat milk is existentially weird but overall tasty

-there are a lot of great meat alternatives out there nowadays! Gardein has good frozen meatballs and chicken strips; Beyond Meat makes good burger patties and sausages; Field Roast also makes sausages that i enjoy; and Tofurkey has some good chicken alternatives. if you can find it, young jackfruit makes a really good alternative to pulled pork. i made some tacos with it a while back and it was uncanny how meat-like it was. the only thing with jackfruit is you might want another source of protein with your meal, since the fruit itself doesn't have much i don't think

-any balanced meal imho should have a combo of carbs, protein, and fat. mix-and-match plant-based macronutrients to find what works for you. grains are a good source of carbs: i love white rice (easy to cook), couscous, millet, and even the occasional quinoa; legumes and nuts provide a good amount of protein; nuts and seeds are also great for fat, along with coconut and avocado

-nutritional yeast nutritional yeast nutritional yeast nutritional yeast nutritional ye

-oreos are vegan thank god for oreos

hope this little ramble was helpful! :3

#answered #fannish-snailien #like. i really AM food motivated #i make meal plans for each week and it's absurd how much it helps with my depression #like...having yummy stuff to look forward to is enough to get me out of bed and semi-functional lmao #fuck diet culture #if food is my motivation for living a good life then GOOD i have a reason to live bitch!!! #my other piece of advice is related to this: if you're going to plan recipes make sure they're recipes you're excited about #don't feel obligated to eat something if it's healthy but not appetizing #idk my two cents #long post #food #recipes #vegan #plant-based #veganing on main #resources

[boydykedevo]

Isn’t it cool how you can see something completely innocuous that has nothing whatsoever to do with you and it can fuck your brain for a whole day I think that super awesome and cool and I love mental illness a lot

#sorry for being depressed on main. lmao. #(< guy who is depressed on main 24/7) #icarus is talking #vent ish

[carcarrot]

well everyone now that sparkstember is over i can now devote my energy to being insane in other still sparks-related ways

#planning my next projects #on the one hand glad to not have to get a whole video done in the span of like 2 hours every day #on the other hand it was a fun creative challenge that gave me a sense of purpose. it was fun #but i need to keep myself busy as we descend into winter and ✨seasonal depression✨ #if i dont get it done today over the next couple days im going to make something silly for goofball's upcoming birthday #and then once that's done i dont know. i want to get back to work on my screenplay and try to FINISH IT!! but idk how long that'll take #i also have to finally finish watching that film course i bought oops. maybe ill start it over #and then????????? #i have a vague Idea of a possible short film i could make. that would also be like a kind of prequel to my Main Film Idea #and its something i could actually reasonably do as a short film and its not like insanely big budget like every other idea i have is #and I'm debating abt emailing my old film teacher and being like heyyyyy maybe you could help me make this short film???? #but id want to have this idea way more planned out and written before then. but OUGH WRITING ANOTHER SCREENPLAY??? #WHEN I HAVEN'T EVEN FINISHED MY FIRST ONE??? sigh. #the road to making my Big Great Movie is long and arduous. will we get there. who knows #oh also debating abt writing a letter to those silly guys. but i don't knowwwww #OH lmao i keep forgetting to mention i finally got my passport (it actually came earlier than expected) #so like. goodbye everyone im heading to the sydney opera house on halloween (JOKE i am not that insane. but i wish i could)

[astrababyy]

stans always say that antis moralize shit too much, bringing up concerns about the ic’s actions when it’s “not that serious”, but these are also the same people who will cry about how terrible tamlin and nesta are because he locked feyre in a house and nesta let feyre hunt.

meanwhile, feyre’s destabilized an entire fucking court and felt proud of that — which is not only a war crime, but caused the invasions of summer and actively contributed to the fall of the wall because she made the utterly dumb decision to destabilize the ONE court keeping hybern from his goal.

rhys terrorizes the vast majority of his court like the dictator he claims is jUsT aN aCt. he legit sold them all out to amarantha, letting her torture them so he could protect one freaking city that was already hidden from her view. he groped and debased feyre utm, and he twisted her broken arm and forced her into a deal with him. he is constantly lording his power over others, especially the other high lords, which is just freaking pathetic. he’s got no damn respect for others, clearly shown from his insistence on taking the book from tarquin instead of asking. not to mention that whole pregnancy subplot in acosf.

don’t even get me started on the rest of the inner circle. like, you wanna like them? sure, i don’t give af. im not gonna go around calling you an abuse apologist for liking rhysand. but don’t sit here and say we’re unnecessarily moralizing shit in a book about murderous faeries when, in the same vein, the author herself (and a lot of stans) legit does the exact same thing. like there is no world in which maas can stuff a moral scale into these books and not be a hypocrite without it being anything beyond the characters’ own spite. but guess what? SHE DOES IT ANYWAY.

so yes im going to keep talking about how terrible rhys is as a character. yes im going to keep talking about how much the ic sucks. and 80% of the time, idec when characters are horrible people, but when the author herself and the freaking fandom sit there and say with their full chest that they’ve done nothing wrong, that’s when im like ???no??? ESPECIALLY when they call other people abuse apologists for liking characters they constantly try to moralize like no just no.

so keep your stupid contradictory morality in these books idc, but it means that i am going to judge the absolute unapologetic fuck out of your favs.

#it’s not even like the characters themselves that i really care about #it’s more so the double standards behind them #like one of your mains legit tortures people #and the books choose to bully a depressed twenty five year old war veteran over that guy #like no that’s just not logical in any way shape or form #and even if it was biased povs #everyone hates tamlin even though this is the guy who prob took in a lot of refugees from their courts during amarantha #who worked his ass off to fight against her and get an edge over her #who never gave in against amarantha #like i can understand them being wary due to his shtick with hybern #but you’d think they wouldn’t be so outright disdainful without hearing him out first lmao #especially considering refusing Hybern clearly would’ve resulted in his Court being attacked and ultimately defeated #there’s no contradictions ever given that Nesta doesn’t suck #and idc how biased your POVs are #if there’s no proof that those POVs are biased #in that people called them out #it doesn’t count as a biased pov because it’s like every character bends to their reality #anti sjm #pro tamlin #astrababyy #anti rhysand #anti feyre #going on a rant cause acotar reddit is getting on my damn nerves

[hellpride]

@fizzarollitm: gay

"Expect your period within the next three minuets!"

#fizz even LOOKS at lucifer wrong and he'll make it last a month #LMAO #fizzarollitm #main verse. depression™ | ˚₊ ꒰ა shh! don’t bother me ˚₊ i’m having enrichment time in my enclosure ໒꒱ ₊˚

[cat-scarr]

god fuck the topic of benkai’s future kids propels me into a state of I need to go outside and smoke a cigarette

#bitch don’t make me read that shit #I will complain about the pairing and unpack its issues #but that fucking shit is borderline depression inducing #lmao not to sound deranged on main #(and expose my bad habits) #dw it’s not that bad #a post was recommended to me and I got the ick #anti benkai #ben 10 #vent #I guess

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

Its like. To luz, most of her friends/family have someone else in their lives that would lessen the impact if she were to, say, dramatically sacrifice herself for her friends. Perhaps in the events of the finale? This isnt true. She isnt replaceable. But luz is as close to suicidal as they can make her if they want to keep the shows rating and i can see her thinking that.

Her mom has vee now, another daughter in case her first daughter dies. Gus and willow, her best friends, are close with hunter. Maybe closer than they are with luz now, since shes been avoiding them. By the time they get back, eda will probably have gotten together with raine. King may have even befriended the collector. (though based on danas art hes probably just in a perpetual state of "mom pick me up im scared") and no matter what, eda and king will have each other like they did before luz. we dont know what luz was planning to do with her palisman when she decided to permanently stay in the human realm, but hunter is now conveniently without a palisman, so she could just let him use hers.

Hunter definitely has a family in camila but we dont really know if his relationship with vee is anything like his relationship with luz. If luz were to sacrifice herself, hed lose a sister. Or at least a trauma bestie. Or whatever found family niche he considers luz to be in. And amity? There is nothing luz could do to convince herself that amity would be fine being left behind. But luz already toyed with ending that relationship when she decided to stay in the human realm. It hurts, but i can see luz justifying to herself that whatever dramatic sacrifice shes planning is for the good of everyone and its worth breaking amitys heart.

And ofc by the power of good storytelling, good rep, and disneys s&p department theres no way luz and her friends aren't going to get a happy ending. She'll try to dramatically sacrifice herself as the climax of her character arc but her loved ones will save her. And then theyll finally get it through her head that she has value as a person, actually. And then lumity will kiss and the animation will get all smooth and the framerate will get high enough for them to do sick spells and defeat belos. And camila will adopt the collector and make him the powerful last of their kind noceda-clawthorne sibling #4. And the show will end with luz going to therapy or smth.

#the owl house #toh #shut up pandora #luz noceda #im so mentally ill about her #but yeah even fucking hooty has become bffsies with lilith #i know luzs suicide ideation so far has been because of her guilt #but part of suicide ideation is looking at your loved ones and wondering if theyd be okay if you died #in most ppls case no they would not be they would be fucking devastated but depression fucks with your perception of studd #and luz is the same #tbh this idea is probably too dark for a disney show and they dont have time to explore it probably #so theyll probably just go with 'luz feels soul crushing guilt' and leave it at that #but i love to explore it in fic #i do think luz will try to sacrifice herself like she does in every season finale #and like one member of the main trip actually does in every season finale #but the luz will die theorists are straight up wrong lmao it goes against the message of the show and the show ratings #she'll at most get a sick scar out of it #yall sound like me in middle school when i though disney would let alex hirsch kill off 12 year old mabel pines #suicide tw #to clarify nothing in the second paragraph is true luzs loved ones cant just replace her with another daughter/friend #and be done with it #but luz can think that

[mcmcntomorii-later]

— would anyone like to be affiliates with me 🥺👉👈

#\\ this is ABSOLUTELY me getting into my own head about it lmao but it's that and mains that i'm like 🥺 ' would anyone like me to be one? ' #\\ it's dumb i know but got that super rad mega depression brain #⌈ ✨ ⌉ OOC. || ✧ — KOOBIE OR NOT KOOBIE.