#cripple self love

[spoonful116]

The most punk thing you can do as a disabled person is love and value yourself and not push yourself past your limits for the sake of other's approval

#spoonie #disability #chronic disability #cripple punk #punk #cripplepunk #cripple #crip punk #self care #self help #self image #self improvement #self love #mentalwellness #mental health

[super-nova5045]

sylvia plath, todd anderson and virginia woolf (aka ACTUAL tortured poets) watching taylor “im breaking up with my boyfriend for his intense depression and blaming it on him, im dating a racist who enjoys watching woc being brutalized and harasses young woc artists, i sent my fans out on a hate train to attack a young woc actress for a line she had to say as part of her job to show how mentally ill her character was, im dating a maga supporter, i refuse to say anything about a current genocide despite being the most influential person in the world right now, i am a billionaire, i fly 13 minute flights and have the highest carbon emission of any celebrity, i am a known white feminist who only speaks about issues when it affects me and has constantly let my fans get away with extreme racism and even encouraged it by associating myself with known racists” swift call herself a tortured poet (her writing sounds like a bunch of thesaurus words slapped over gabba hanna and rupi kaur-esque poetry that was created purely as a trinket for an edgy pinterest board)

#anti taylor swift #like she can be problematic that’s okay #there are SO many problematic artists i like #but she’s not even that good #like read sylvia plath or virginia woolf or listen to LDR or fiona apple or mitski or lorde or boygenius or olivia rodrigo #aka her peers #and realise how much better they are #they truly write art because they have a compassion and rawness for it #whereas taytay only writes to get more money LOL #she’s so extremely privileged that her life is not at all relatable and now she tries to make it so #by romanticizing the most mundane #thats never been your brand babe now it’s going to sound like dogshit #GUTS by olivia rodrigo is better because it has such an intensity to it. liv means what she says and you can feel it! #fiona apple means what she says when she writes about begging her lover to love her back! #mitski means what she says when she writes that she is self destructive and puts herself in bad situations since that’s all she knows! #lana means what she says when she writes about her suicide attempt at 15 because of constant abuse from her mother and crippling depression #all of it such haunting and beautiful works because it truly comes from the soul and isn’t a cash grab #Anyway i’m so sorry virginia and sylvia and todd #todd anderson #AND JOE ALWYN #joe alwyn my favourite man ever #joe alwyn #dead poets society #anderperry #sylvia plath #virginia woolf #the bell jar #lana del rey #fiona apple #mitski

[crazycatsiren]

I see a lot of positivity posts that focus on "you're not broken".

But what if I am broken, but it's not a bad or negative thing?

What if I am broken, but it's simply a neutral description?

What if I am broken, but it's ok?

#lorelei's mind #positivity #recovery #healing #self love #traumas #cptsd #actually mentally ill #mad punk #cripple punk #disabled #neurodivergent #survivor

[jasontoddenthusiastt]

Imo Jason is “irredeemable” by default because I don’t see what he needs redemption from.

#I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this before but joining this fandom made me fucking hate the word ‘redemption’ #no person I’ve seen who is in love with the concept knows the who what where when why or how it should work in a story #apparently it isn’t just themes and tropes anymore people don’t understand the proper use of the word ‘villain’ #kelseethe #also hilarious: Jason should recieve sensitivity training HR style from Bruce ‘I’m the government and children are my cronies’ wayne #if Jasons headstrong/‘answers to no one’ attitude towards vigilantism is what makes people think he's villainous #I hate to be a broken record but the baddie you’re describing is Bruce #nobody thinks he’s a villain for only trusting in his own methods/self and repeatedly isolating himself #and on top of that gaslighting and hurting people around him in attempts to do what HE **thinks** is the right thing #you people always thought *him* heroic not problematic for all these traits #the only difference is Jason isn’t psychologically abusive & controlling #yet he’s still the bad guy just cause he liberally kills folks in the crime business. #l'd argue goth ham war is the b*tman story to remind you of everything that makes Bruce authentically himself #Idk how to tell you that Bruce mentally compromising/crippling his son in a twisted attempt to ‘save him from himself’ #is perfectly in line with slitting the same son’s throat because he couldn’t stand to see him avenge his own killer #and yk what a redemption arc could be interesting for someone like Bruce #because he rarely questions or doubts his choices esp wrt Jason. no matter how morally dubious they may be #I think it would be quite fun to witness his extremely restricted worldview be challenged/shattered he deserves that humbling experience

[keshetchai]

As someone who enjoys religion blogging/discussions, I've come to realize that it's a good practice to be aware of the general signs/symptoms of religious-OCD thinking (aka scrupulosity), because if the conversation is taking on all the hallmarks of scrupulosity, it's actually a definitive sign that we cannot meaningfully and compassionately engage in a conversation about religion in a healthy way. I've actually had this play out a significant number of times online, and when I realized what it was, I also began to realize that the intrusive thoughts/obsessive and compulsive thinking are only ever fed by continuing the discussion with that person.

[[ Important edit to clarify why I am saying it's not healthy — made after I went back to look for more concrete facts about OCD or anxiety (I have GAD, not OCD, but many resources overlap since they're both anxiety disorders):

When Reassurance is Harmful — this explains how/why reassurance-seeking specifically about an OCD fear is a compulsive behavior, and engaging with reassurance-seeking interferes with recovery/management/treatment.

This table from the Anxiety Disorders Center lists key differences between Information Seeking and Reassurance Seeking.

This IOCDF page on Scrupulosity info for Faith Leaders identifies "symptom accommodation" as enabling. Two of the examples of doing this by participating in the OCD behavior are: "Engage in excessive conversation focused on if-then scenarios (e.g., "If I did this, then would X or Y happen? And what if Z was involved? How about W?")" And, "Repeatedly answering questions about ‘correct’ religious or faith practices."

That page also goes on to outline more info about reassurance seeking. "Although providing answers to (often simple!) questions may seem harmless, providing reassurance serves to maintain the anxiety disorder cycle." (This BMC psychiatry article cites a lot of related studies establishing this.)

The IOCDF page on What is OCD and Scrupulosity? ]]

Imo, the responsible thing to do is to recognize that (even if the other person hasn't outright stated it/isn't diagnosed)* the conversation is not about religion, it is about needing mental health support from professionals and experts. Talking to me, the layperson who enjoys chatting theology and my religion — is not only not helping, but is actively harmful. I'm not just talking about the person who I replied to today, either. Like I've said, I've seen this happen dozens of times in various online forums.

*[while I am against diagnosing strangers on the internet, it's important to realize A) lots of people don't know what Scrupulosity is, so it's possible they've never considered this is a mental health concern that could be treated, and that B) for the purposes of my concern, it doesn't matter if they actually have diagnosed OCD. The only thing that matters is that their thought-process causes them genuine distress/fear, and every response given to them seems to only incite new/additional distressing questions/thoughts, or further entrenches the original distress.]

Ultimately, any discussion aside from "you might want to speak to a mental health professional about scrupulosity OCD" seemingly puts me in the position of feeling as if I am being used for their self-harm. I hate that feeling. I do not want to be leverage for fear and pain. I have GAD, I despise the idea that I am making things worse.

No matter how much I love religious discussion, the answer in these cases is always "please reach out to an OCD specialist/mental health professional. I am not qualified to discuss this." And then to stop there. I have never once seen anyone stuck in this compulsive thought spiral be reassured or feel any better by hearing from someone else's approach to theology handled with things like empathy, compassion, logic, or even atheism. It doesn't matter what we say, how we say it, or how we relate to our own religion. The urge to engage in this kind of conversation in order to chat about religion is a sign that we are not equipped to help.

You can't have a conversation here, because intentionally or not, ten times out of ten, you are adding fuel to the fire. Just like people can't simply tell me something that would erase/talk me out of my ADHD/depression/anxiety disorder, you also cannot simply argue/reassure/persuade people out of scrupulosity. We should not try. We have a responsibility to consider that it's outright harmful to do so, and to disengage.

#this is a massive pet peeve of mine #im not mad at the people who responded about religion and religious thinking bc it took me time to realize what this was too #like im sure i used to view these kinds of questions in a more...idk flippant light when i was a teenager and maybe even in my 20's #as i became more educated about my own mental health though i started to realize the pattern in these fears #and like many of you i probably originally started replying to people with scrupulosity or similar religious anxieties genuinely #not realizing at first that replying to their fears or questions was inevitable harmful #not realizing that hey actually this is far above my paygrade #ocd/obsessive thinking and anxiety spirals can be crippling life ruining and immensely painful #and unfortunately my love of theological discussions sometimes tripped me RIGHT into what was essentially self-harm #so im not mad at other people for also making that mistake - but i am asking everyone to think about this actively #its too easy to leap in without considering if the discussion is healthy to have for our discussion partner #its definitely too easy to contribute to the pain and fear while only meaning to genuinely help what is misunderstood as a mere “worry” #bc these arent just small fears or worries but thoughts that are causing them immense pain

[davidtennantgenderenvy]

Just had the most psychotically evil realization right as I was about to fall asleep

#riza hawkeye #crowley #good omens #fullmetal alchemist #royai #Ineffable husbands #Emotionally repressed characters with crippling self loathing losing all will to live when they think the person they love is dead >>> #And cursing the being/group that took their love from them #“You BIIIIIITCH!!!” = “BASTARDS!!! ALL OF YOU!!!”

[zoomclown]

TMA/ Red Valley shower thoughts

just thinking today about the differences Warren Godby and Jonathan Sims.

Like Jon's fatal flaw is that he will do anything to aquire knowledge. He needs to Know everything, and be known.

Warrens flaw is that he will do anything to remain ignorant. The truth of his past was literally handed to him and he refused to take it. He would rather avoid knowing or thinking about his past in favor of taking a nap for several months at a time.

Jon runs from physical danger, but pursues knowledge, Warren runs from knowledge but throws himself headfirst into physical danger.

Yet both are just pawns in someone else's game. Someone who is using them as a tool to meet their own ends. Someone who is using what they don't know against them.

Just shower thoughts.

#they as both also absolute garbage at communicating with their loved ones but that's unrelated #tma podcast #tma #jonathan sims #warren godby #red valley podcast #red valley #They also both suffer from crippling self loathing #also they both have a boyfriend who is worried sick about them 24/7

[haru-se]

BLUE LOCK CH. 260 SPOILERS UNDER CUT

In the trivia for Blue Lock Exhibition (if I remember correctly), Kaiser’s habit is that he wraps his hands around his neck as if choking himself.

I wonder if that habit that comes out when he’s stressed stems from his abusive dad choking him all the time.

Like when he started feeling like he was losing to Isagi, he purposely reminds himself that he’s trash by choking himself. His competitiveness/need to win is from the fact that when he wins, he’s EVERYTHING but when he loses, he’s NOTHING.

He has to win because what is he without it?

Also, the reason why he hates milk is probably because of his dad as well.

#sports manga #blue lock #michael kaiser #blue lock spoilers #spoilers #i have been brewing on this concept before we even got close to this chapter #it’s always the insane outward self confidence paired with crippling self worth #i love you michael kaiser #may you find your peace one day and continue the soccer that saved you

[milotheshrike]

The Little Transmasc (an art reference) dms are open if you have specific tastes

#queer #dwarf #hot #lgbt #transmasc #art #disabled #dwarfism #queer cripple #self love #chubby trans #trans #transgender #intersex #why not both

[nightmareonpeachstreet]

self-indulgent headcanon time:

I headcanon that Furina has 2 dogs. their names are Philippe and Jeanne Marie, they're poodles and they're treated like doggy royalty.

Neuvillette gave her her first puppy hundreds of years ago and ever since then it's been absolutely vital to make sure she always has at least 1 dog in her care at all times. They're basically her emotional support animals and she probably couldn't go a single day without them unless you want to deal with the ensuing meltdown.

she'll take this secret to her grave, but the reason she loves dogs so much is because she never feels judged by them, or like they secretly think she's incompetent and a failure. they simply just love her for what she is.

#admittedly the poodles thing is incredibly self indulgent #but also as a poodle owner I can tell you that they are some of the most loving and friendly dogs on the planet #so I think they'd be wonderful for Furina and her crippling god-anxiety #I thought about Furina cuddling a dog and ever since this has been living rent free in my head #Furina #Focalors #Neuvillette #Genshin Impact // #Genshin Impact spoilers // #Fontaine Spoilers // #headcanon

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

Any AU: *sun and moon aren’t in love with y/n right away and sometimes are mean but in a ~ooh I’m just teasing~ way*

Me, sensitive and one bad happening away from tearing everything to shreds with nothing but my teeth and feral determination: pls be nice me

#yea I’m dumb sorry folks #why u think all of my fics r like #’robots fuckin head over heels falling all over the place heart eyes incarnate in love with u’ no matter the setting #’ooh but enemies to lovers’ I would literally rather chew my arm off like a trapped coyote than end up loving any of my enemies ever #’oooh but they’re just teasinggg it’s harmless poking fun’ I’m made of wet tissue paper and mentall illnesses #my stupid baby ego and crippling self loathing would be activated before they even finished a sentence #anyway I have normal feelings about silly goofy things

[majaurukalo]

Disabled people who shit talk their disability (and other disabilities) and think less of themselves if they don’t overcome their disability and are so full of self-hate and even go to social media or television to spread that kind of thought always raise in me some mix feelings.

The first reaction is anger. I’m angry at them for spreading such an abysmal view on disability and other disabled people and basically downgrading all the amazing work real disabled activists do everyday to make us see as humans and for having such horrible thoughts of a community they belong to.

They also trigger a very sensitive spot inside of me and I think they shouldn’t be given a platform to talk in such a way.

But then I try to calm down and rationalise and remind myself that I was in their shoes once.

That is basically internalised ableism which I, as many other disabled people, suffered from for a very long time.

Throughout my childhood and teenage years I would shiver at the idea of ending up in a wheelchair, I prayed that I would be healed and “fixed”, I would cry myself to sleep just to be normal. I hated myself.

I didn’t know any better. My parents didn’t teach me a better view because they didn’t know any better either.

You know what helped me accept and love myself? The disabled community.

All the amazing disabled creators, who talk about this topic in a healthy, empowering way.

So what I think is… disabled people who still suffer from internalised ableism are not our enemies. They are just people who haven’t found this community, who are still processing this difficult reality (and maybe they are newly disabled so that’s even more understandable). They are traumatised, they are suffering from the toxic views the able-bodied society puts on us. They probably don’t have a healthy support system, maybe just family and friends who are pushing them to get fixed, who are telling them to not give up to that kind of life. They think they are unlovable.

So let’s not shit on them. Let’s not insult them because that’s not how they will feel welcome into the community.

Instead, let’s encourage them to change view. Give them positive and empowering disability resources and examples.

#cripple punk #cpunk #disability #cripple #crip revolution #crip punk #disability justice #disability rights #disability pride #ableism #internalised ableism #disabled blogger #this may be related to a recent disabled person who went to an English program I think #and spread around lots and lots of ableism #it saddens me that there are still so many horrible stories about disability being spread on tv #but I don’t want to shit talk this person either #they might regret it in the future #I hope they find acceptance and self love

[crazycatsiren]

Meemaw is right. I'm an ostrich.

Birds are expected to fly. When we think birds, flight tends to be the first thing that comes to mind. I can't fly, like other members of my species, like others would expect me to be able to do, even though I do have wings. But there are things that I can do, that I'm good at. I can run really fast, bite hard, swim, make myself pancake shaped, and lay very large and tough eggs.

Of course, bless meemaw's heart, she used to affectionately call me ostrich because of my very long and lanky legs.

#mother witch ramblings #different not less #actually autistic #cripple punk #mad punk #mental health #self love #radical acceptance #recovery

[magicallythey]

thank you @chaoticsweetheart for letting me post this!

I know I need to hear this often ESPECIALLY during mental and physical flare ups so I figured I'd share this message here

Being disabled does NOT mean you are UNLOVABLE.

Being disabled does NOT make you UNWANTED.

Being disabled does NOT make you UNDESIRABLE.

Being disabled does NOT make you UNDESERVING.

Being disabled does NOT make you a BURDEN.

[Video Description: A tiktok by user chaoticsweetheart. She speaks to the camera in a darkened room. A text box in the middle of the screen reads, “Red X emoji, Do not give unsolicited medical advise. Red X emoji.” Captions are also provided in white writing at the top of the video. At the end of the video, the woman kisses her pointer and middle fingers, then brings them closer to the camera to simulate sending a kiss to the viewer. End description.]

Video Transcript

[The song “Repeat Until Death” by Novo Amor plays in the background throughout the video.]

I’m in so much physical pain right now, but I felt like I really needed to say this for myself and for other people: your disability DOES NOT make you unlovable.

And the people that hurt you, that get to go on with their lives and be happy and joyful, is NOT EVER a reflection on your worth.

And I know it’s SO hard to keep that in mind, and I know it’s so not fucking fair.

But, your disability does NOT make you unlovable.

It does NOT make you UNWANTED.

It does NOT make you UNDESIRABLE.

And it does NOT make you a BURDEN to anybody.

#disabled #disability #cripple life #cripple punk #physically disabled #mental health #spoonie #chronically ill #chronically disabled #self healing #chronic illness #chronic disability #chaoticsweetheart #thank you! #its nice to hear this from someone else #definitely caught me at a good time when my mental and physical health is tanking #disabled people are worthy of love #disabled people are not a burden

[tmntkiseki]

Ever since joining the TMNT fandom, one thing I've thought very long and hard about is the whole concept of adding a fifth/sixth/seventh ninja turtle and at this point, I'm in a weird middle spot where I'm definitely not against the idea of there being more ninja turtles? But I don't think those turtles should be a part of the main group, if that makes any sense.

I think my thought process regarding this is reflected in my choice to make my version of 2003!Venus a completely unrelated turtle with a different backstory regarding her origins (was a human transformed into a turtle yokai via sorcery, alongside her younger sister, Primavera.) She does briefly stay with Leo, Raph, Don, and Mikey while searching for Prim, but after they rescue her, the girls end up getting their own place and more or less become regularly recurring allies in a similar vein to April and Casey—they show up very frequently, but if a single episode/arc goes by where they don't show up, then it's not a complete loss, ya know?

#star's turtle talk #I do really like the plot I've come up with for the Imai sisters #Congratulations! You both have crippling self-esteem issues and struggle to love yourselves!

[ilynpilled]

what do u think is jaime’s biggest flaw

oh he has a bunch

Biggest one: his fear of truly confronting things. his cowardice (the brave knight is deconstructed)

Arrogance is a given. His obsession with perception and his ego. His destructive dissociative tendencies and forced detachment. His self delusion and cynicism he uses to enable acts that his conscience knows are wrong. He also often falls into the trap of cynicism when he expects quick results and does not get them. When he makes choices to become better and people keep dehumanizing him and expect the worst from him he gets super frustrated and petty (less so atp, just compare his behavior to Brienne’s reaction when he gives her Oathkeeper and she misreads his intensions vs the gate not being opened for him in ADwD) His misogynistic and classist blindspots. Him weighing his values wrong even when his conscience is screaming at him (multiple examples of this, e.g Jeyne Poole: “her eyes were sad and wary”, “then why do you sound so frightened?”: vows from so many vows speech in conflict: obey your father vs protect the innocent. He obviously chooses wrong. George was telling us the way he changed by the end of ASoS is not enough he is not where he needs to be yet) His desperate want to make his “so many vows” compromise instead of making the correct choice and drawing the hard line he already did at 17. His desire to become Goldenhand the Just (just a mess frankly, gold tends to have negative symbolism in his story, his goldenhand also is associated with violence and is his desperate attempt to recreate his old self, his phantom fingers — again, has to be addressed in a dream.) While we are here also his need for his subconscious to literally repeatedly slap sense into him (his dreams addressing things he refuses to consciously address because it would hurt to do so). His tendency to repeat his father’s dogma when he is viscerally aware that that man is the worst man oat (Lannister sibling parallels! uwu!), unwittingly contradicting it in every way, then trying again. His desire to pursue glory as well as honor (and whatever they mean in the subtext) when the symbolism is very clearly established that the two cannot be achieved simultaneously for him, he cannot ride two horses at once. It might be that both get turn down at the end in some form. The honor related to the KG, and the glory related to duty to house Lannister. I think that conflict is getting picked apart right now with the choice he makes in ADwD to abandon his position/hunting down the brotherhood any kind of glory tying to house lannister pursuit etc to follow an injured and suspicious Brienne alone (mind you he was also riding Honor in that chapter, ntm the half moon). I think both honor and glory are very abstract and are rooted in some form in his desire for love as well (honor and glory paid their parts but in the end it was for cersei is something he reflects on) but “the things we do for love” has to be something not destructive and prejudiced. He is disillusioned by both honor and glory, especially after aerys. “What is honor?” A horse. Like deep down he knows. His arc in AFfC-ADwD was about about taking apart and looking at all of these flaws imo, put him in a spot to make his choice in adwd. and all that matters are choices. He is also an asshole.

#ask #jaime lannister #valyrianscrolls #this is another reason i love his arc so much bc changing is really not simple at all #to ​what and why you are changing has to be thoroughly examined #and all your flaws have to be brought to the surface #and also how our self concept plays into our choices and what altruism even means #or what becoming better even means #i also think ppl take vows a bit too literally like they also represent something more abstract in terms of his values #and he does this too like he fixates on it bc its easier to just be like yeah im just keeping this vow nothing else haha #like his self proclaimed ‘’im doing this for the bit’’ is so easy to pick apart #trying to keep that oath to a dead lady like #cat is dead. she couldnt be kicking piles of doodoo at him #like what’s he got to prove? #it is something deep rooted for him and him only #‘’let them see the cripple. i wont show them a golden lie’’ and the return to that ‘’one hand. only one. no golden one’’ #alright then lets keep going anyway #when it comes to analysis of jaime the subtext is so important #the show whitewashed him and kept him stagnant #george explores his flaws and forces him to start addressing them #and constantly presents him with dichotomies #i hope then his trajectory will be now actually confronting his sins directly #the lady stoneheart confrontation will have to be a key pivot point #especially as per her symbolism as the monster that is the product of the lannister regime #and its her family that he caused the most harm to #his biggest sins relate to her