#can you tell im in a spiral

[thecrownisagift]

Full version of Christian Borle singing Chip on my Shoulder in 2024 (where he also tells SO many stories and sings the Ebay commerical song) for those who need it (ME)

All video credit to Peter Lee

#chip on my shoulder #broadway #broadway cruise 2024 #broadway cruise 2 #christian borle #can you tell im in a spiral #legally blonde #legally blonde the musical #warner #ahhhhhhhh #bway #Youtube #get this man a 54below show #asap

[malk-with-tea]

Some magma doodles I did last night :)

#can you tell im a little brainrotted #ough uhh from order from top left to right and down???? #hs terezi #terezi pyrope #dungeon meshi #marcille dungeon meshi #ivor mcsm #karkat vantas #hs karkat #quirrel #hk quirrel #hk hollow #the hollow knight #the star fella at the right corner is an oc (totally not tezzy inspired hcjc) #and the ivor look alike at the left corner is my partner hfjfjfjdkdjdbjd #i need to play mcsm again man #but i think the moment i think im gonna go down the mcsm brainrot spiral all over again #aauhhh #hk #mcsm #delicious in dungeon #hollow knight #homestuck #oc #oughhhhhhhhhhhh #magma art #magma doodles #WAIT EDIT FUCK I JUST REALIZED I MIXED UP MY LEFT AND RIGHTS #finally added id!

[casual-socks]

hey heres some tma concepts i came up with over the course of,, a while

-lonely/corruption avatar that is gifted with the all consuming love of the hive and then the bugs just. leave. you have experienced what its like to be wholly loved and useful and now youre hollowed out and left with nothing

-spiral/corruption domain where youre in a twisting, incomprehensible, rotting forest and whenever you think youre headed in the right direction a swarm of bugs flies directly at your face to disorient you

-spiral/lonely domain where the fog literally just makes you high off your fucking rocker

-flesh themed cooking show (hells kitchen where everything is the same but gordon ramsey is an avatar of the flesh)

-hunt/lonely domain where youre endlessly hunting someone who doesnt exist. you arent sure if that scares you or thrills you, endlessly hunting non existent prey.

-beholding/corruption domain where youre given access to endless books full of knowledge, but theyre all being infested by all sorts of bugs that eat books. youre on a time limit to consume all the knowledge you can before its lost to the bugs

-slaughter ballroom dance

-slaughter high school band

#tma #jonathan sims #the magnus archives #the hunt #the corruption #the lonely #the slaughter #the flesh #the spiral #tma spoilers #can you tell i like the corruption #always thought we should make the fears collab more often #edit: REALIZED THIS POST HAD THE WRONG YOUR FOR SO LONG PLEASE IM NOT STUPID I PROMISE

[nerdie-faerie]

I'm once again thinking about the missed opportunities to have Klaus and Kol bond more. Part of Klaus' whole motivation as a vampire is to get his werewolf part back and to finally be stronger than Mikael (sort of, I'm simplifying) both of which can be obtained by breaking his curse. But Kol? Kol is the only other original that can relate to having a fundamental part of themself ripped away from them. Klaus might not have known he was a werewolf until he killed, but he likely still had a connection he couldn't explain, as evident by him going to watch the wolves transform. And something he'd never been able to explain was now gone. He might only be able to realise the connection afterwards through its absence.

Kol though. Kol had grown up with magic, a connection to nature and the world around him in a way the rest of his siblings supposedly didn't have. And then he gets turned. And not only has his baby brother died, his father has just murdered him and the rest of his siblings after forcing them to drink human blood, which he'll later learn. Now, not only does he have to deal with the grief of Henrik's death and also his own but also the loss of his magic. A loss that's likely only worsened by Kol being a self-proclaimed child prodigy.

Kol is pretty much the only one who could understand what Klaus is going through with the binding of his wolf. We know Kol searched for ways to get his magic back/carry on practicing magic in the same way that Klaus was looking for ways to break his curse. While Klaus likely could still feel his wolf there despite being bound, Kol has no access to his magic anymore. I just think they should've been able to bond or connect over their shared loss of an intrinsic aspect of their selves at the hands of their parents

#TVD #The Mikaelsons #Kol Mikaelson #Klaus Mikaelson #briefly back on my the originals shouldve gotten to be a family goddammit and as someone from a big family im personally offended bs #i did right a lil snippet about them bonding over this that i havent posted yet for the joml verse but still think its an unexplored concep #need more witch!kol acknowledgement honestly. just need more content of my boy #anyway. klaus having a fascination with the moon and kol telling him about celestial events and how it affects his magic when theyre boys #klaus losing that connection to the moon feeling lost & extra tempermental feeling his wolf claw at its binds and vowing to break his curse #kol determined to get his magic back at any cost relating to that devasting loss and promising to help him find a loophole for his curse #kol who becomes extra reckless and determined when he learns that theres a way to break klaus' curse so maybe he can get his magic back too #that knowledge and recklessness combined with his loss of magic driving him to become the volatile vampire that we see #that leads to him being daggered repeatedly but that first time breaks something in that bond between him & klaus that never fully recovers #it makes him bitter and resentful only fueling his reckless behaviour particularly when there seems to be no leads on reclaiming his magic #that he becomes distant from his siblings in the process especially with finn still daggered but that distance only cements the idea #to his siblings that hes a danger and cant be trusted that he needs to be daggered if theyre to stay safe from mikael #the loss of his magic leading to his spiral as a vampire and him being ostracised by his family > actual tvdu kol canon #klaus being trapped in a room staring at the corpse of his little brother knowing he never repaired that relationship with him #and now he never can so he refuses to look away as penance and a reminder of his failings to his little brother #*edit: one of the reblogs on this post is the author of big bad wolf and honestly she does an amazing job at portraying the mikaelsons #as actual siblings if you havent read it its one of my favourites for characterisations but we need more 😭 i want it to be the norm

[luck-of-the-drawings]

VIOLATOR!! DESECRATOR!! TURN AROUND AND MEET THE HATER!!

VEEERRRY HAPPY WITH WILLIAMS LIL SCARY ARC. HORROR MOVIE BOY. LIL ZOMBIE GUY. UNDEAD AND PIIIISSED OFF LIKE CMAAAHHHNNN I HOPE HE KEEPS THAT CHAINSAW FOREVER. IF YOURE UNDEAD CAN YOU STILL GET A NICOTINE ADDICTION? I SURE HOPE SO!

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi pd spoilers #william wisp #FIRST: IF YOU DONT PUT ROB ZOMBIE IN YOUR WILLIAM WISP PLAY LIST I KILL YOU. SECOND: BEHOLD MY EASTER EGGS. FIRST EASTER EGG IS THE CHAINSA #I WROTE CHAINSAW ON IT A BUNCH BC I DIDNT WANNA DRAW DETAILS. ALSO ITS FUNNY. SECOND EASTEREGG IS THE LOBOTOMY CORP HOODIE. #THIRD : HEY KIDS YOU WANNA SEE A DEAD BODY? QUOTE FROM HELLSING ABRIDGED. REMEMBER HELLSING ABRIDGED? YEAAAH YOU DO #OKay those are the easter eggs. also i hope william actually gets into smoking i think thats SO funny. also its cool as hell #like with the blue wisp fire n everything? COOOl as hell i hope he gets his leather jacket back too. REMEMBER KIDS! #smoking is COOL AS FUCK but also itll kill you so dont. if ur undead its fine though. #IN OTHER NEWS! williams 'need a hand?' bit was SO fuckin funny. like it didnt need to be that funny. I WISH I COULD ANIMATE THIS WHOLE SHOW #ITS SUCH A CLEAR CARTOON IN MY FOUL BRRRAAAAIIINNN!!!!!! SPEAKin o my foul brain i LOVE SWIRLS!! CAN U TELL??? #I LOVE DRAWIN WILLIAM WITH THE SQUARE/ROUND SPIRALS DEPENDING ON HIS MOOD. ESPECially in the black/white/grey arc #i draw him with only sharp spirals in that arc. the spirals soften once he chills out tho. YOULL SEE IN THE NEXT DRAWING I POST #guyyysss i love william so mmuuuuch i project all my middleschool gothness onto him and it makes me so happy #im sO GLAD I FIUCKIN FIGURED OUT HIS HAIR BTW. IT LOOKS SO GOOD NOW. LOOK AT ME IMPROOOVOEEE AAAAAIUURURUGHHRAAAUUGHHHHHHH

[duskandcobalt]

wip wednesday 💕

i'd like to take a brief interlude from my depressive spiral to present a small excerpt from the slutty elriel fic i'm working on, still hoping to get this out this week but taylor swift put a pin in my plans and i've been wallowing in bed for like 96 straight hours.

no warnings here bc im saving the actual slutty content for the full published piece.

hope everyone's having a good week 💖

Elain blindly wandered down the dark hallways.The echo of her heels on the stone floor was menacing, causing the already frantic beat of her heart to rise to an almost worrisome crescendo. It didn’t help that she could barely see and was relying solely on the occasional flickering fae light and the cool, insistent shadow pressed to the small of her back to guide her towards her mystery destination.

It felt like she’d been walking for hours, turning this way and that in the labyrinth that made up the various chambers of this unfamiliar place but finally, the pressure of the shadow on her back eased as she approached an arched door right at the end of the seemingly never ending hallway. She paused in front of it, unsure what to do until the shadow slid up her arm and along her neck, wrapping itself around her ear. 

Go.

Elain swallowed, her gloved hand reaching out for the doorknob. 

Subconsciously, she knew where that shadow had been guiding her. Knew that the neat, dark interior of this room was the perfect match for what she’d always imagined in those salacious dreams of hers.

She’d been ready to see him. Aching to see him. But to open the door and get her first glimpse of him… she hadn’t quite been ready for that. 

Azriel was reclined in a leather chair behind his desk. The jacket he'd been wearing earlier had been discarded and left to drape on cabinet at the far end of the room. The first few buttons of his crisp white shirt was undone, providing a glimpse of the tantalising tattoos hidden underneath. He had one long leg folded over the over, one ankle resting on his knee. And on that knee, cradled by his large, scarred hand, sat a short glass of amber liquid that perfectly matched his honeyed eyes.

“I’ve been waiting for you.”

#elriel #yes this is the under the weeping willow follow up hehe #elriel fic #wip wednesday #my writing #anyway if you're reading this pls tell me what your favourite ttpd song is #or what the one you relate to the most is #my fave is guilty as sin? for obvious reasons #the one i relate to the most is the prophecy lmao #hence the depressive spiral! #but also the bolter so good luck working out how both of those things can be true #ALSO down bad is a bop and i really do be crying at the gym teenage petulance and all #ALSO loml but i actually cant discuss that one yet for the sake of my sanity #thanks for coming to my taylor swift ted talk im going to bed now

[anxiously-sidequesting]

Sorry to be posting twice in one day but now I wanna talk about Sybil's last line of dialogue at the end of Wallaru. Bro says "The Spiral will always need its Scion." In terms of new villains always arising, new worlds to explore, etc.

Now of course in the real world this means something totally different than in narrative; for us it means yay Wizard101 will continue and it's not ending and shit and thats good!!! But in universe, I believe that fact would have brought different feelings. Like sadness. Or anger. Or maybe just numbness.

Like if you think about it. The implications. The Wizard will never, CAN never rest. It's an ongoing, neverending thing of always being needed. It's You and ONLY You. There will never NOT be evil. If not GF Spider, then the Schism. If not the Schism, then the Old One. If not the Old One, then someone else. Someone or Something will always come up as a Threat that only the Scion (for some reason. Gods exists here) is expected and able to defeat. When Sybil said that I was legit terrified because gotdamn I can't retire???? I will Always be The Legend who Always saves the day???

Like even setting aside the social consequences of this (the whole people suspecting us/fearing us Thing) imagine what that does to your emotional and mental health. Fuck even physical health. Going through all that strenuous trauma and exercise and magical ordeals and shit???? The pressure of knowing it's the universe at stake, not just you or the world? I actually would have died just in arc 2 personally how the fuck are we supposed to carry this. For the REST. OF OUR LIVES. FOR HOWEVER LONG WE LIVE

✨ Anyways here's hoping the Schism Soldier is arc 5's new big baddie haha #enemiestolovers101 😘✌️💕💕💕

#im not good with words ir explaining things but i still wanted to talk about That. what sybil said #thats fucking rough man. thats fucking rough #ALWAYS???? the spiral will ALWAYS need its scion??? the fuck you mean. whats this ALWAYS business #mr krabs voice: whats this WE stuff!? #i just need a picture of malorn and the wizard getting drunk as fuck on a tuesday together looking beaten and bitter. beaten and bitter. #idk if the wizard is like quasi-immortal now or what. how long do we live actually #are we like gonna outlive dyvim. mellori and the bat??? will we be alive for centuries and STILL defending the spiral??? hello?????????????? #so like what happens if and when. we die. is the universe just fucked then? #what is the point of the council of light. gf spider and gm raven. BARTLEBY. if none of them do shit #they could literally do anything they wanted to but its US that has to be superman. okay #id actually go crazy i would actually just Become the joker guys. guys i would fucking lose it #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts #wallaru spoilers #wizard101 spoilers #can you guys tell i just want the soldier to come back

[glouris]

it is very cool that the main motif of Heimdall’s theme seems to go over the strong beats of Atreus’ theme and have the exact same rhythm but NO I am so done WHAT IS THIS FOR 

HOW DO YOU CREATE THE PERFECT ANTIPODE FOR YOUR SUPPORTING MC AND HAVE HIM KILLED OFF BY HIS DAD 5 MINUTES IN

edit: I forgot that Heimdall’s theme is actually a rework of Magni and Modi’s theme. Is this supposed to be some kind of a parallel between sons then, why is it so similar to Atreus’ theme? 

#imagine you're reading batman's origin story and joker gets snapped in half by alfred smh #god of war ragnarok #god of war ragnarok spoilers #god of war spoilers #god of war #spoilers #atreus #heimdall #its my third heimdall post in a span of 4 hours i think im going into downward spiral #the vid makes me laugh bc it kinda looks like they are arguing and the music comes out instead #so cartoonish #can you tell that i really want heimdall to be back somehow

[yourbbygirlxo]

Oh my god it makes so much sense. Listen. Charles thinks he can fix Ferrari, he thinks that the idea of Ferrari he has as a fan and representative of motorsport is enough to heal Ferrari. He can't accept that it's shit? Maybe he has but like he's having a hard time leaving (he's delusional) and Ferrari just? doesn't give a fuck? Bro is in a toxic relationship with his job. Lmao us.

Forza Fuckboy Ferrari

#can you tell im spiralling? #💌bbgy.txt #formula one #formula 1 #charles leclerc #lewis hamilton #ferrari #carlos sainz #mercedes

[percydontyoudare]

nostalgia is crazy! everything i ever liked at 13 will always be loved by me then and me now, and 13 year olds forever all over again! it never stops!

#can you tell im spiraling #feeling a lot about all of this #pjo #pjotv #percy jackson #pjo series

[4acoffee]

Burning your old homework papers with Katsuki. 

After school ends, of course. He disapproves greatly, but after a particularly difficult day, you want nothing more than to finally release your frustrations on something. To watch it shrivel up and burn. 

He always makes sure you have supervision if you’re not feeling alright, because he knows how you’re prone to being reckless when you’re alone. He also knows the feeling all too well, the pressure of overwhelming anger and frustration that builds up and threatens to tear him apart at the seams from the inside out all the time. 

As a hero, he can usually rely on his quirk to get rid of some of the stress, but he knows you don't exactly have the same liberty as him. 

You send him an abrupt text one day about burning your homework, — perfect grammar, spelling, punctuation, and he immediately knows there's something wrong. Shoots you back a quick text to wait for him and shows up at your door 10 minutes later with a scowl on his face and hands shoved inside his pockets. 

Doesn't ask any questions, just makes sure you know what you're doing and leads you to a safe spot. 

When he's satisfied with all the safety precautions, he sparks you a carefully controlled little fire with his quirk and watches as you start dropping your papers in.

There's a certain vengeance to your movements, a distraught kind of glee in your eyes that toes on the edge of tears as you watch a part of your burdens rise up into the air as smoke. He sees your shoulders shake with some emotion a few times but just lets you get it all out of your system. 

Something that you're endlessly grateful for. 

Eventually you've burnt yourself out and exhausted your supply of trauma inducing paper fuel for the fire. As the fire slowly burns out and coughs up more smoke, Katsuki draws you into a tight hug by the side of your arm. 

Your face is squished against his chest and you try to control your breathing to stop the tremors racking through your body, but he just, holds you through it. Doesn’t let go when your knees threaten to give up from under you, or when your nails dig moons into his skin from under his shirt when you grasp at him desperately. 

There’s a hundred unanswered problems that make you want to rip your hair out and scream at the world. Have someone else acknowledge them for you so you don’t have to fix them by yourself.

But you don’t, you keep them to yourself, you hold them in like you always do, like it’s expected of you. The responsible one, the calm one, the reliable one. Anticipate, don’t complain, adjust yourself. You are so fucking sick of it. 

And Katsuki still holds you through it. You have a hundred unanswered problems and he doesn’t know what they are, but he doesn’t let you go. You have a hundred unanswered problems and you keep it in, but you don’t have to keep it together. Not with him. 

#this was supposed to be a funny lil drabble #i had a rlly bad day #he will absolutely give you his notes btw if you need them later #will make sure you know this too #im so sorry this turned into a rant #stressed out about everything feels like everyone is out to get me #if you look closely you can tell exactly at which point i started spiraling #anyways #i hope this can help someone else feel better too <3 #bakugou x reader #mha x reader #bnha x reader #katsuki x reader #bakugou katsuki x reader #bakugou x you #katsuki bakugou #coffee's fics

[todayisafridaynight]

mine's done a lot of sexy things in my opinion but top five to me still is asking daigo if he wanted to prioritize The Family or one man Not In The Family

#snap chats #you know what i mean. that rggo story I Think That Was Very Attractive Of Him #i simply understand why daigo was like 'fuck man .............. kinda right with that ................ wanna get married--' #but no cause real shit daigo ily and its very cute that you love kiryu so much #and i get it i do. i live for daigo's idolization of kiryu it makes for delicious drama and many emo spiralings at 1AM #i just really appreciate mine being able to speak up. from his position. yk what i mean #like mine's relatively green to the yakuza atp and this is the first time he's personally going out with his boss but not just His Boss #THE Boss and he still sees value in being like 'idc if you're my superior i need you to really evaluate your values rn for the whole org' #its so sexy of him ........ love a man who can cut the bullshit when he gotta ... #ESPECIALLY in regards to kiryu cause like .... kiryu ily and ily because youre messy ... i just need others to call you messy too ... #its also just so good because it's exactly the type of thing daigo wanted from companions #people who could look at him beyond his name and money and status and tell him what he needs to hear ... its very yummy ... #so yeah thats one of my top five sexy moments thanks for watching im gonna kick my feet and think about mine #he's such an epic character ......... i wish i had blender so i could spin his model for an hour #ill just have to settle for doing that in my brain

[le-dormeur-du-val]

Corporate wants you to find the difference between these gifs

I think the only difference is that they'd go IN the hole-

#riding through the void #ive been thinking about tom and jerry skk paralells recently... #yes im going insane can you tell #probably from the bee sex post chain i made #spiral’s asks

[lottieurl]

thinking about. who does natalie have. and of taissa paying for rehabs. and of lottie's and misty's desperate attempts at trying to save nat. of the trust and the distrust between all of them. i trust you because we know each other like no one else can ever know us and we saw what we are capable of and we protect each other by never telling anyone about what we've been through. i don't trust you because we know each other like no one else can ever know us and i saw what you are capable of. we can't bear to keep in touch but you are who i'd go to in crisis anyway. we can only be free around each other but it's destructive. WE BELONG TOGETHER AND IT'S TERRIFYING. we skip 25 years because none of those years were real and they've never really left the woods and there's no "it" just us and we brought it back with us

#im spiraling can you tell. #yellowjackets blogging

[mountain-lion-gremlin]

a good reason to leave for me:

i honestly think it would be safer for me and therians to not be in the same space sometimes haha. P-shifting isn't safe for many and it can really hurt others.

Although I would love to stay, I know that it's probably safer for everyone to no longer teach it and keep to myself about things that involve how to shift and such.

P-shifting isn't a joke and can harm people who suffer from mental issues and other things of that sort. Its just not safe to teach in a large public space. It's something only some can stomach and be safe while doing. Plus some communities that are too unregulated exist and may mess with people's reality and how they perceive it. Some are too open to allow people to start p-shifting right off the bat and it's just too dangerous that way. (including those that say "oh just wait you will shift eventually but you cant control it at all" those are even worse.)

Theres a very good reason why newer communities are very apprehensive about teaching, or telling, or allowing new people who know nothing about it just hop in and start shifting. Usually if you are coming to the "learning" community (as in, you are following steps laid out by others to understand your identity) there is guidelines, there are warnings, etc. It's just too risky to not follow these guidelines and not listen to the warnings.

Dont start p-shifting right when you find out. Take the time to start a journal. Understand that what you are getting into isn't something that will make you cool or quirky. You risk your mental health if you are not careful. You have to be born to be a p-shifter. You must first mental shift before you can even think about p-shifting. P-shifting is not easy and will take years to even get to a point where you start getting somewhere physically.

The list goes on. When someone who is teaching shifting slacks in saying these things, you can harm someone. It takes a very long time to even get to the point where you may be ready to p-shift. Some never will p-shift. You have to accept these realities too. Not to mention how some older guides, although effective, can be so incredibly risky. (Such as completely shutting out the world and being an animal 24/7. Some people just take it too far and do it too early and ruin themselves.) Its just not worth it sometimes.

Thats why I'm leaving Tumblr. Too open, not safe for neither me nor others looking in. I know I usually don't have these sorts of posts, but I just saw someone in an anon saying how unstable their reality and they were after lurking in the community and it just.... its just so hard to see. Nobody deserves that sort of mental torture. Sometimes I forget that p-shifting actually can be dangerous to some if nobody teaches how important it is to regulate yourself, check in on yourself, and remember that p-shifting isn't for the faint of heart.

It's only for those who have spent so much time over years of their journey, exploring themselves, askong questions, taking breaks, questioning themselves so many times, and checking in, to finally be able to claim that they are able to p-shift. (There is so much more to it than that obviously.) My fourth year of shifting is coming up, and after so long I might be ready to leave the online community permanently and start my journey. (of physically shifting i mean. I spend more time teaching others rather than doing the practice itself right now lol. When i say p-shifting im trying to refer to the whole process, but really talking about the mental shifting and phantom shifting etc. Sorry if its been unclear, many know the whole community as "p-shifters" when in reality "p-shifters" are only those who havw actually preformed a p-shift. I havent yet in my conscious memory so i just call myself a shifter or nonhuman.)

Please be safe. Please, if you are curious about the p-shifting community, remember that it is a mixed bag and not for everyone. As always any community can be a mixed bag, but p-shifting "learning" communities can spiral and be too lax on the warnings and importance of these warnings.

Thats all. (make sure to read all tags fully too.)

#please be safe #if you are interested in p-shifting feel free to approach me but I'm not going to be as open as i used to be #this whole post isn't to claim that the p-shifting community is incredibly dangerous #i can be full of the most amazing kind people #the only issue is people forget how dangerous it can be to not remember the warnings that follow the community #many young people toss them aside because they think it's gatekeepers or a “cool kids only club” #(like i did) #but it's for safety and making sure you take it slow enough so that you can back out without being permanently damaged #p-shift #I will always tell anyone interested that you have to spend time researching thinking evaluating the list goes on #And it's nobody's fault #when you've been a p-shifter for a long time (like me) you forget the warnings that you followed in the beginning that protected you #from spiraling mental issues depression etc. #p-shifting can be done and practiced safely #hey i did it and I'm doing fine. I've lived with it for so long and don't hold onto it like a lifeline anymore #it's more of an aspect of my identity #im just trying to help others understand that it can be fun and safe but it's not something to joke with or play with #it is something that is serious and if the warnings are ignored usually very risky. #bro it's like rock climbing almost #“WEAR THE HARNESS. If you fall you won't plummet to your death!! Remember rules ABC and you will be okay!!” #it's sort of the same thing in that matter. #we do unsafe things all of the time but since we know the dangers and the warnings we will go about to be much safer in practicing it #Im just trying to say p-shifting from the “learning” side of it - these warnings should be heeded and taught. #Or else you get whats been happening lately with people wandering into places that are too lax with teaching the dangers #and people are traumatized and damaged from it #Many new people who I've seen wander onto my Amino don't even really know that there is even a process before p-shifting itself #it's scary and I'm afraid even more people will have to deal with the rough bumpy road of understanding that they aren't p-shifters #yeah so uh #this might not get any likes or anything but I still wanted to put this out there. #Please don't crop this and use this for out of context hate against p-shifting and p-shifters

[widevibratobitch]

lmao it's not even funny how ridiculously easy this exam was. i love oral exams. im a master of manipulation. you WILL listen to me talk about mozart whether the subject warrants it or not. and you WILL enjoy it.

#she literally interrupted me mid-sentence saying 'i can see you know what you're talking about that's it you can go haha' #and i begged her to let me talk about schumann and she was like 'no no haha i can tell you know it all go go' #i didn't jsgssksbsjdhddj but im really good at being funny and sillayyyy #even in the midst of spiraling into the worst depressive episode ive had in a few years #and people are eating it up babyyy #i literally havent showed my face in this woman's class in almost two months and she just let me pass with the best possible grade #after basically saying herself half the shit *i* was supposed to tell her im obsessed with this woman #my god. this is the one thing im really glad i inherited from my mother. tho ofc ill never quite reach her level. #fake it till you make it babeyyyyyy