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another-lost-mc · 8 months

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a/n: this is for a friend that celebrated a birthday this week. I hope it was a good one! 🎉

when it's mc's birthday | the demon brothers

2.6k words | nsfw | gn!reader | fluff and non-explicit smut

cw: my fav bias is showing again. mostly soft!demons. car sex; levi's tail gets its own warning; bathing together and bath tub sex; dream magic and implied dream sex.

Lucifer plans your birthday with the utmost care. He booked a reservation at your favourite restaurant so that he can treat you to an intimate dinner. He remembered the various items you've pointed out to him in the past while browsing through the Devildom's shopping district. He went back and bought every single one of them, and they're already wrapped and tucked away in the back of his closet for later.

After he walks you home from the restaurant, there's a bottle of Demonus on ice waiting in his room. You share a toast while he watches you open your gifts. You kiss his cheek, eyes shimmery and warm with so much affection, and he can't resist the urge to kiss you properly. A soft, booze-sweetened kiss leads to another kiss, and another, and another after that. He strips your clothes off slowly, like he's unwrapping a gift of his own. He memorizes the sight of your body stretched languidly against his dark sheets. He almost feels selfish for a moment because he wants you so desperately, but the lust simmering in your gaze makes his heart race. He knows how much you want him too, and he's powerless to deny you.

The first time he makes love to you, it's heat and frenzied passion, the build-up of coy anticipation that finally boiled over. He reaches for you throughout the night between quiet conversation and short naps. Each time he pulls your body close to his again, his lips whisper tender confessions against the delicate shell of your ear while he worships your body with his over and over again.

Mammon isn't very subtle. In the days leading up to your birthday, he asks random questions about things you might like or activities you're interested in. He wants to get a head start and beat his brothers to the punch. His fake nonchalance isn't convincing, but it's still endearing how much he truly cares. Who else should celebrate your birthday if not him? He's your first, and he's not going to let anyone else spoil you more than he does.

He tries to budget his money and curb his spending so he can afford whatever it is you ask for. If that fails, he takes on some less-than-prestigious part-time gigs for extra cash. You could ask him for the world and he'd find a way to scrimp and save and scavenge and steal if he has to so he can give you whatever you want. He doesn’t realize (or doesn't believe) that his company is what makes your birthday really special.

He dresses up nice and polishes his car to a high-shine to match your own stunning smile and natural radiance. It doesn’t matter what you wear because when he tells you how gorgeous you are, he’s so sincere. You outshine all the riches and jewels he used to dream about—now he dreams of you instead.

He takes you on a date that's sweet and light-hearted. He holds your hand and stares at you across the table with a dopey grin on his face when he thinks you're not looking. Once you're alone in his car, that boyish giddiness fades into something greedy and confident. You meet him halfway when he leans over to give you a kiss. When kissing isn't enough for either of you, you push the seat back so he can climb over and settle between your legs. He takes you apart in the cramped front seat of his car until your voice is hoarse and you push him away from sensitivity. The car smells musky with sweat and cum and he doesn't care that you made a bit of a mess on the seat. He palms himself on the drive home, and by the time you get to his room, he's eager to do it all over again in the comfort of his bed.

Levi isn't sure what to do for your birthday, but you offer to plan a little outing for the two of you. All he has to do is keep you company, right? He braces himself with a mantra he repeats over and over in his head: do it for them, do it for them, do it and LIKE IT because you love them. It ends up being a lot more fun than he expects: a lunch date at one of the cafes you both like followed by a movie you’ve been excited to see. You don’t make fun of his sweaty palm when you hold hands in line to buy movie tickets and overpriced snacks at the concession bar. There's a cute plushie on display where they sell collectible merch. He buys that for you too and shoves it into your arms before you can protest.

He relaxes when you take your seats and the theatre lighting dims as the movie starts. You lean against his shoulder and he's glad you can't see how pink his cheeks are. Partway through the film, he decides he likes the movie, but not as much as he enjoys your warm fingers laced with his.

He jolts suddenly when you pull your hand away and slide your fingers onto his denim-clad thigh instead. Your fingers squeeze with the tiniest bit of pressure and he nearly gasps at the unexpected wave of lust that washes over him. He glances at you in confusion—you're still focused on the screen, but he can see the little smile curling the edge of your mouth. He squirms a little and pretends not to notice your fingers drawing lazy circle-eights across his jeans, inching higher up his leg when he doesn’t stop you. And you're right, he's not going to stop you. You run a fingertip over the growing bulge hardening against the zipper of his jeans, just as you feel his tail slide onto your lap and tease the sensitive skin between your legs.

Satan decides to take a different approach when he sees how overwhelmed you are by his brothers' plans for your birthday. Sometimes simple is best and what could be more relaxing or romantic than your favourite home-cooked meal? He fusses in the kitchen until everything is cooked exactly to your liking, and the dish he serves you looks as good as it smells. His room is tidied enough so that a small table fits—he doesn’t want the others bothering you if he serves you in the dining room. There are dozens of candles that cast you both in an ethereal glow while you eat together. His room might not offer the rich ambience of Ristorante Six or the electric atmosphere of The Fall, but nothing outshines the romance he creates here, just for you.

Once dinner is finished and he tidies up the mess, he pulls you to your feet and wraps his arms around you in a slow dance. It's more like swaying back and forth together as a classical record plays quietly in the background. Candlelight flickers playfully along the walls of his room, and your face is painted by a mirage of shadow and flame. He eagerly traces those shapes on your skin with his tongue after he lays you on his bed, and by the time you're shaking and falling apart in his arms, you'll know how much he loves you.

Your birthday is another chance for Asmo to spoil you. Throughout the afternoon, he leads you to each of his favourite boutiques in the Devildom's shopping district. He holds up dozens of clothes against your body and admires how the colours bring out your eyes or compliment your complexion or how luxurious the fabrics are. He pretends that he didn't pick all these out to show you (and buy them for you) in advance.

When he finally takes you to Majolish, his greatest gift is revealing that he personally designed this outfit specially for you. It fits flawlessly and even you think you look amazing. It’s obvious that he poured his love and passion into creating this for you when no one else ever has before. It’s almost overwhelming, the way his smile radiates warmth when he looks at you. His eyes burn with all the ravenous love he feels for you. He loses control of himself and kisses you, pressing you against the changing room wall and sliding his thigh between yours. He doesn't want to stop, but he doesn’t have the time or space to touch you properly here. When he pulls his leg out from between yours, he misses the searing heat of your body against his. Perhaps it’s for the best that he take you home first—he would hate to get stains on your new outfit so soon.

(He originally planned on taking you to The Fall but he changed his mind. He’s not in the mood to share you with anyone else tonight.)

When he takes you home, he leads you straight to his private bathroom and urges you to get undressed while he gets everything ready. He draws a warm bath and the steamy air clings to you both like a second skin. You feel self-conscious about being naked even though he stands before you, waist-deep in the bathwater and just as naked as you are. He takes your hand and pulls you gently into the water with him. He supports your weight when you lean against his chest and his hands start to wander over your body. His fingers leave a soapy trail up and down your spine. He cradles your neck and leans forward, capturing your lips in another kiss because he can't possibly wait anymore.

The kiss reignites both your desperate desires to touch and be touched. He walks you back towards the edge of the tub. When your back touches the cool marble stone, he reaches behind your thighs and lifts you onto the edge; he swallows your half-hearted protest with his lips moving greedily against yours. His mouth moves away from yours, ghosting along the curve of your jaw and down your neck while his fingers gently pry your legs apart. He bends his head low once you’re spread open for him, hot and trembling and all his. His eyes glow bright when you tangle your fingers in his hair, and it’s the last thing you see before he dips his head between your legs.

It's not surprising that Beel plans to take you out for dinner on your birthday. It's a tricky proposition because it's easy for him to lose control of his hunger when he goes out to eat. He doesn't want his sin to ruin your birthday dinner, so he eats a meal's worth of food beforehand. Having a partially-full stomach means he's not going to be completely distracted by hunger—he wants to focus on you.

He likes taking you to nice restaurants and your birthday is no exception. You put on a new outfit he’s never seen you wear before, but it looks so good on you that he's drooling from the corner of his mouth before you even leave the house. The restaurant is cozy and everything on the menu sounds delicious. Your nose bunches up adorably when you can't decide what to order, and Beel suggests ordering one of everything. He laughs deep in his belly when you glance at him skeptically over the brim of your menu. His eyes are bright with mischief even though you know he's dead-serious. He simply grins at you from across the table and reminds you that he won't let the food wouldn’t go to waste.

It doesn't take long for your food to arrive. Beel enjoys watching you eat while you make little sounds of contentment between bites. He offers you food from his own plate to try. When your plate is empty, he worries you might still be hungry; he's only satisfied when you promise that you're close to bursting and completely full. He leads you out of the restaurant by the hand, and his other hand carries a bag full of leftovers to share with you tomorrow.

When he walks you home, he doesn't want to seem needy or presumptuous even though he's reluctant to end the night so soon. He pauses outside your door and kisses you softly, whispering happy birthday against your lips that still taste sweet from your dessert earlier. He can’t resist swiping his tongue across the seam of your mouth for one more taste, and the kiss deepens when you part your lips for him. You only break the kiss just long enough to open your door and pull him inside your room before slamming the door shut again. Your hands tug impatiently at his waist, and he shivers at the metallic clink of his belt buckle coming undone. He can sense hunger rising inside you again, and when he pushes you gently onto the mattress and covers your body with his own, he realizes your appetite is as insatiable as his own.

Belphie doesn't mind if the others want to take the initiative and plan your birthday party. He prefers it that way, actually. When his brothers ask for his input, he recommends something casual at the house, nothing too fancy. He wants you to be happy and relaxed and spoiled where you can be comfortable.

He sneaks into town to buy you a gift before the party, of course—something you mentioned to him in passing once that was too expensive for you to justify buying at the time. He and Beel wrap the presents they bought you in their room. Belphie's present looks insignificant compared to the large pile of gifts stacked near your birthday cake. He's not worried, especially when your eyes light up when you open it. You're just as appreciative of his small gift as you are of the others you receive. He knows you so well.

(You keep the contents of his card to yourself: a reminder that he has something special to give you later.)

Sometimes when he takes you to the attic for bed, he falls back against the mattress and waits impatiently for you to crawl on top of him. There's no hint of his lazy smugness tonight though. His hands are gentle but efficient when he strips your clothes away first before taking off his own. He follows you down onto the bed and smothers your body with his. The soft mattress cushions you when he grinds against you, and it squeaks from the force of his thrusts when he rocks inside you too. Your skin is littered with the little marks he sucks and nibbles into your skin. He cleans you with a warm, damp cloth after because your thighs and belly are covered in a sticky mess of you and him. He takes care of you with so much tenderness. You’re already snoring lightly by the time he's finished, and he cuddles against you with a yawn.

Shortly after you fall asleep, you dream of him. It’s a shared illusion between you conjured with the sleepy brand of magic he commands. You writhe against him in your sleep as the embers of lust continue to burn deep inside you. When the dream ends, you both wake up and instinctively reach for each other as the remnants of the dream fades away. He kisses you breathless despite your stale morning breath. You whimper against his mouth and he rolls over until you're underneath him again. After indulging in a night of dreamy, lustful sins, you're both still desperately eager for more.

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vinelark · 11 months

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ALL timkon recs I BEG

hello hi! here are some of my favs! it got long so putting some under the cut

💄 Lipstick on the glass by @cairoscene read for timkon being soft and goofy and disgustingly in love, set in vague future college-y years with amazing core four dynamics too. cair is one of the funniest people to ever exist and we are so blessed that they decided to write some timkon. (also read for my own greatest contribution to literature, the fictional “jerry the void nexus” meme)

🎢 been a number and a name by @wynterstars i had SO MUCH FUN reading this one, a 90s comics-divergent AU where robin and superboy become friends—and crushes—when superboy is pretty new on the scene. feat. lex luthor being terrible, tim staging a rescue operation that at one point involves platform shoes and a blonde wig, spice girls references, and fantastic action sequences. it’s also a series, with an installment focusing on kon & clark, and a currently updating longfic sequel with SO MANY timkon identity shenanigans (my beloved) and kon feelings (also my beloved).

📸 the surveillance series by @smilebackwards i feel like i rec this all the time but it’s because it’s THAT GOOD. a tim-centric AU where tim joins the family late, but is still involved in bat business without the bats realizing. there’s some fun timkon identity shenanigans at the top, and some of my all-time favorite tim characterization (ruthless! lonely! brilliant!) plus a great tim & bruce arc, too.

🦉 Detours by miyaji_08 this is part 2 of a series and i def recommend reading the whole thing! a reverse robins + joker jr au that has lots of trauma and lots of healing, and in part 2 there’s timkon identity shenanigans that’s simultaneously enemies to lovers + And They Were Roommates. tim sure does run a gauntlet of horrors in this series, but it has so much healing and also one of my fav reverse robins concepts i’ve read so far.

📱 unfurl by @burins tim and kon might be dating, and there’s no kryptonian sex ed handy. bruce, being bruce, makes it his business, which means talking to clark and Realizing some things about his own feelings. superbat are billed first here, but i think timkon steal the show—i laughed out loud like five different times reading this. hilarious and sweet on all sides. (and if you like this, check out their timkon road trip fic!)

🌾 A Saturday Evening by malcyon in which tim visits the kent farm for family dinner with kon, feat. very sweet established relationship timkon and fun superfamily dynamics, and it touches on tim’s past grief over kon’s death (and complicated feelings post-undeath).

🤼‍♂️ Sore Loser by @hearteyeshayley kon learns that tim always let him win while sparring, and has to process that. this was such a fun exploration of tim’s prowess as a fighter—one who regularly has to go up against superpowered friends and foes alike—and also tim as a person who is always doing mental calculations about the people around him (in an endearing way). kon, too, got his time to shine and grow, and the ending was so smart and sweet.

🔮 Ascension by Violet_Witch an AU longfic where tim is a witchling and kon is a fallen angel who has (oops) just lost his wings. tim sets out to help get kon’s wings back, and there’s a ticking clock because angel wings are dangerous in the wrong hands—and tim has a big, horrible secret that’s about to come due. the plot/worldbuilding of this was WILDLY cool, and there was a big ol misunderstanding in the middle that had me clawing my face off (in a good way).

🌌 straight on ’til morning by merils kon vs. the terrifying ordeal of growing up, feat. sweet friends-to-lovers timkon and really thoughtful exploration of some of kon’s canon past relationships and their abusive dynamics. i haven’t finished this one yet but it’s been rec’d multiple times and i’m excited to dive back in (and it's recently complete!)—and what i have read so far gave me an amazing sequence of kon and dick interacting and dick’s big brother mode activating in an instant, which is something i now desperately need more of.

📧 aaaand would it even be a reclist by me if i didn’t include send to all by @cairoscene the absolute moment i find myself feeling down i go reread this and boom. i am instantly laughing again. timkon are just one part of a bat grab-bag here but they are so so funny and cute and in-character. maybe one day i’ll compile the timkon-centric sequel that exists in my head but for now i’ll just go reread this for the zillionth time.

okay yeah!! i’m probably missing so many good fics here because i constantly have like a zillion tabs open that i plan to read someday. also i reserve the right to reblog later like OH I FORGOT— but in the meanwhile, happy timkon reading!

#timkon #fic rec #asks

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smuttysunny · 7 months

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[ADA]Osamu Dazai NSFW Alphabet!

Genre: Smut

Synopsis: NSFW alphabet for our favourite bandaged suicidal maniac!

Contains: Overall GN reader, regardless of sex! Refrences to bdsm, public sex, pregnancy and breeding kinks, sex toys and more overall sexual stuff 😭🙏 there's way too much in here for me to list

Warnings: Not proofread‼️ English is also not my first language so there might be grammatical errors cuz despite me being fluent, i'm dumb asf!

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Ngl... May seem a bit ooc but I imagine him actually being really sweet after sex, that is if you two are like together and not just a hook up or something lol. He'd praise you and tell you did so good and def help you clean up and take a bath/shower afterwards. Maybe even order food if you two feel up for it.

I imagine he'd also be pretty cuddly, holding you tightly as he nuzzles his face in your shoulder. Moments like these where he shows his vulnerability to someone yk?

B = Body Part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partners)

On himself, probably his eyes or hands. He just loves looking at you and watching all your adorable reactions! And with his hands he, of course, gets to touch you anywhere and everywhere!

On you, the fav is either your face or thighs. Your face of course because of how it can twist and contort in pleasure! Again, he loves your reactions very much. As for thighs, he just loves grabbing and holding them, thin or thick, doesn't matter to him! He loves caressing them, kissing them, licking, biting, leaving hickeys on them, you name it! He also ADORES how your legs try to close when giving you head! Squishing him to death between your thighs truly seems like a great way to go!

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum, basically)

Cummin on you. This fucker definitely loves coating you in his cum. If you can get pregnant he'd definitely be against the idea of cumming in you if you're not using a condom, he is NOT ready for the responsibility of raising a kid, sorry breeding kink people.

But if you can't get pregnant then he's more than willing, he still prefers to see you coveres in his load tho, it's just hot to him, yk?

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

I think he'd have a liking to purposefully walking in on you changing, just seems like the type of guy to ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Oh boy this man is def experienced from all the sleeping around he does 😭🙏 for all sexes too, not just afab ppl.

F = Favorite Position (This goes without saying)

Following on from the hc from earlier, any position where he can see your face will have him satisfied! Although I don't think he'd be particularly picky, just would prefer to see your face.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment? Are they humorous? etc.)

I'd imagine him to be quite silly while not ruining the mood, unless he's absolutely tired and done and needs something to let his frustrations out, ofc, but even then after he starts relaxing he'd def go back to his usual teasing and cracking jokes here and there!

H = Hair (How well-groomed are they? Does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

He'd do the bare minimum grooming 💀🙏 listen, he's too occupied living to really care about his hair down there but ig in some way the carpets would match the drapes because no matter how unkept he has his hair, it still looks shampoo commercial worthy so probably same thing down there aswell. Would occasionally give himself a trim tho, not fully unkempt.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment? The romantic aspect.)

Depends on his mood and what it is. Quickie? Maybe less intimate as it's just meant to be a quick fuck but if it was proper sex at home he's def be on the more romantic side, unless again pouring his frustrations out on you, and even then, the way his eyes shine looking at you would still reveal the love he holds for you so <3

J = Jack off (Masturbation Headcanon)

This cunt has the sex drive of a teen boy so he'd def be jerking off often, maybe like at least 2 or 3 times per week? Although he can hold himself back pretty well. I can also imagine him absolutely obliterating No Nut November just because he thought it'd be funny.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Can of worms... Which we will be disecting and studying as if its our finals hitting!

For starters, def maintained some of the less healthy kinks he had from his PM days like sadomasochism and gunplay, but at least now it's more of an overall roleplay/bdsm kink with no actual danger. Speaking of which he would LOVE to get tied up or tie you up, same for choking but more on the receiving end. Both giving and receiving for edging and orgasm denial too. Probably also has a big thing for being dominated; he doesn't mind domming but he'd absolutely LOVE to be stepped on and get his brains fucked out!

L = Location (Favorite places to do the do)

He's shameless but not entirely. As far as he'd go is semi-public places like an alley or his car. As for favourite place, peobably the ADA office LMFAO particularly when it's empty because there's a risk of getting caught!

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

As mentioned previously, this guy has the sex drive of a horny teen so even the smallest touch could accidentally set him off.

N = No (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

He would NEVER hurt his partner on purpose. Even for his more extreme kinks he'd make sure you're okay with it first and foremost before anything. Also ik dacryphillia is a big thing in these kinds of fics but if you ever started properly crying he'd stop IMMEDIATELY.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

I think he'd prefer giving slightly more than receiving. He just loves being in between your legs, you know? And again, would love to get choked to death by your thighs <3

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

Depends. If he's making love he'd 100% go slow and sensual, but if it's a quickie his pace would def be fast, a bit rough too but unintentionally! If he's fucking though... Walking privileges will 100% be lost from how rough he'd be lol

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He LOVES them. Legit cherishes them as if they're god's best gift to man, and to be honest to a man like him they sure are.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment? Do they take risks? etc.)

Seeing as how he'd be more than willing to fuck you in his car he'd def enjoy risks here and there, with consent of course(minus pregnancies goodness gracious, if you two are at it without a condom he'd immediately rush you to take your morning after pill afterwards). Again, he would never hurt his partner on purpose and if risks aren't your thing he'd be more than understanding

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for? How long do they last?)

His stamina matches his horniness. If it were after him, he probably wouldn't stop till the sun rises so really it's up to his partner for how long sex will go lmfao

T = Toys (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

Ohhh he'd love toys. Most likely owns a fleshlight for when you're not there to please him lolol

And don't feel left out! Because he'd love using toys on you too! Be it vibrators, dildos or something more obscure!

U = Unfair (How much they like to tease)

King of teasing™ will not miss a minute to joke about how desperate you are for him or any of the sort

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Loud but he does it on purpose just to add to his teasing. Also because he enjoys annoying the neighbors and if he'd doing it in a semi-public place, adds to the risk

W = Wild Card (A random headcanon for the character)

Loves getting pegged.

X = X-ray (Let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

As a non dick haver I actually had to search a bit for this bit-

Uhhh maybe just a little above average idk??? Maybe like 6.2 inches or smth? I o ly rlly have a vague image of him not really being too thick but making up for it in lenght so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I'll just leave this one up to your guy's imaginations 💖

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Already mentioned it like 5 times but omd he gets so horny so often you might aswell assume he's a rabbit

Z = Zzz (How quickly they fall asleep afterward)

Although I hc him to have slight insomnia because of depression, probably after sex is one of the only times he can actually fall asleep rather quickly. Just snuggle up to him nice and warm and he's out like a light in approximately 3 minutes. And he def sleeps like a log too lmfaooo

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emmitaaa4 · 4 months

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TIME magazine knows whats up

You know, regardless of personal preferences and what not, I find the absolute resistance/denial of the idea that Elain's book is could be next pretty nonsensical--especially considering everything Sarah has said in the last few days. Do people not see just how much she highlighted the importance of her *female* leads, and how much of herself she pours into their emotional journeys? Her heroines are a labour of love, and it shows in the way that so many of us love Nesta (&Feyre as well ofc).

The promise Elain holds as a character is insane, and honestly her story is begging to be told; there are so many answers only she can offer us. SJM also has always spoken very fondly of Elain--that interview when she calls her the quiet dreamer; her saying Elain would be her bestie out of all the acotar characters; that bonus acofas interview where she not only says she'd be a florist were she not a writer, but also says she is doing research for our girl's book, and mentions the literal dreams/nightmares Elain would be having.

She is tied to pretty much every major plot point mentioned in acosf... so as for her supposed lack of presence/importance, I'd just like to point out that girlie is literally a walking spoiler. From a purely logistical & narrative standpoint, we have to consider the fact that her visions give us a wealth of information that are pretty essential to the furthering of the plot--the demystification of her powers would fall weirdly were they revealed in, say, the last book of the series. (Plus aren't we all still discussing those she had all the way back in acowar?). Not to mention that her powerS (plural, as we find out in acosf), as well as her being made and her having been capable of wielding Truthteller, make her the perfect character to introduce... well massverse spoilers ig but if you know you know. And let's be real Azriel makes tons of sense as the second MC/PoV in her book considering, well, everything. I've seen many theorize that she has life-related powers (so many possibilities, my fav being her bringing life/light back to the Dusk court and/or the barren lands of Prythian… plus the barren Prison is the third SISTER peak to tackle) and you just know from the way her arc has been set up that her journey will be one of adventure & self-determination as she defies others expectations of her (reader included).

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Ouuff rant over. But yea, still not too surprising too see Elain so often disregarded /let out of the conversation given the last few years and how much some parts of the fandom have decentered her in her own story. Cannot wait for our quiet dreamer's time to shine.

#elain archeron #sjm interview #acotar 5 #pro elain #azriel #acotar #acosf #elriel #azriel shadowsinger

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acciocriativity · 8 months

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WRITTEN IN THE STARTS - KHJ (FROM THE 300 FOLLOWERS EVENT)

(Pictures are not mine, credits for the rightful owners)

Requested from @redheavenwater

This was the definition of trust the process, but ended up as my fav soulmate! au that I've written. I hope you guys enjoy it just as much as I did. @snwusberry your post pushed me to finish this, so thank you very much, love 💕

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It was obvious, so obvious to the point of being written in the starts, but it seems like your soulmate didn’t know how to freaking read.

Where the actual fuck are they?

You’ve been walking around the lake for hours now. The place was packed, there were kids running around, parents screaming, dogs barking, and you had a headache for the last 40 minutes.

It was the third time a place appeared in your dreams, the place where you’d met your soulmate, and you swore the moment you found them, they would be dead. You being there was all their fault in the first place, since they seemed to like nature so bad.

The first time it was a waterfall in the countryside, 135 km away from the comfort of your home. You knew you had the right place as soon as you found the photos. The where you had, but the when was nothing more than a feeling. Three days later to be exact. You were confident in your powers to be excited about this moment… but they didn’t show up, and you made sure to put in the effort to look out for them still.

Is still fate if I have to put this much effort?

You asked yourself as you looked around the beautiful place. It still was a beautiful place, you had to admit the motherfucker had a good taste.

In the other side of the park, Hongjoong sighed as he took another disappointing photo at that beautiful place. If anyone looked from the outside, they could say it was good, almost perfect. But there was something missing, a certain someone, actually.

Ever since he could breathe, he had this vision of his soulmate when he was asleep. She was in his every dream, first in the background, then little by little the protagonist alongside of him. If he closed his eyes, he could see her blurry figure running as fast as possible from a giant monster, but the tattoos in her arms always stood out. The symbol of the witches was the only part he could find on the internet, the meaning of the rest remained unknown. It wasn’t like he did nothing to find her, but he never felt like any of the girls that fitted the description was the real her.

One more, just one more to finish this project

He put his camera inside his bag, then grabbed all of his stuff.

He needed a change in scenery, now, something good enough so that he wouldn’t hate to look at the photos for the next 6 hours while editing them. The families around almost made him regret the decision of coming today. It was his intention to capture those spontaneous moments, but oh god how much he wished it was him in one of those photos instead.

He looked around once again, searching for an empty spot. The lake caught his eyes first, the light shining in the water would make a good shot. Then he saw a girl, she had curly hair as far as he could tell…

Don’t, don’t do this bullshit again, there are a lot of girls like that around here

Yet he couldn’t control the way his heart pumped fast in his chest. He slapped his own chest. It was like that every time, his stupid heart would make him have some faith just to be disappointed later…. he fooled himself a lot this week, so why not one more time? The pain will be Hongjoong’s future problem.

He walked slowly to the other side of the lake, he made sure to take the longer way around it, and to count 30 seconds before he looked at her again, that was a respectful break, right? right?? His hands were shaking, why his hands were freaking shaking? Did he ever feel like this before? No, he couldn’t remember, actually he couldn’t think at the moment, so maybe he did.

You laid down on the grass, tired of all the walking you did and still planned to do today, but especially tired of your own thoughts. You closed your eyes as you tried to let yourself relax for a moment, but the confusion refused to left your body. More than angry, you couldn’t understand why you were failing so much. You were never so mistaken, ever since you’re first discovering your powers in divination.

What if they don’t want to s…

Something felt weird, so weird to the point where you couldn’t dwell in a hole of self-pity anymore. It was like an itch in your mind, but you couldn’t figure it out what it was. Then it became a heat under the skin of your arm, you thought it was actually going to burn you.

You sat as fast as you could, then took out the jacket you wore on top of your dress. All the black ink in your arms slowly but surely turned into a deep purple right in front of your eyes.

Hongjoong felt tears in his eyes as the burning in his skin turned into lines of purple ink, from the very tip of his shaking fingers to his shoulders. He was crying because of the unbearable pain, but then he recognized the symbol, the witch symbol on his body. He was born nothing more than a human, he was sure of it. Now he was crying for a whole other reason.

He envisioned this moment a lot, how romantic and sweet it would be, and he’d shared it with his grandkids one day.

The moment his eyes met yours… he wanted to run.

“You’re going down”, you said as you got up and ran straight to him.

He was paralyzed. it was exactly like the scene in his dream, but now he could see in the perfect angle to have all of your features memorized and… why wasn’t you slowing down?

He felt all of his air leaving his lungs as you both fell to the ground.

“So that’s how it feels to fell in love?”, he dared to say as you leaned over him. You hit his left arm with all the anger you still feel.“Ow, that one, it’s still hurting…”

“Oh, sorry”, you hit the other one.

“Ow, how are you so strong…”, he whined as he moved his arms out of your reach.

“How did you miss the only girl in a protected national park 103 km away from civilization? Are you blind or stupid?”, you tried to keep yourself mad, but it was getting harder and harder as he stared at you with adoration in his eyes.

“Wha- yo- you mean you were there?”, he was wide-eyed staring at you while you got off of him.

“Weren’t you?”

“I got sick that day, I had to ca- wait, you were waiting for me that day? all day?”, he sat up and scoot over beside you, his smile was way too big for someone who just got attack by his soulmate.

His eyes scanned your face over and over and over.

You had people think you were a god because of your powers, but never someone looking at you like you were a god just by existing like he was doing at that moment.

You didn’t know what to do, nor what to say. This wasn’t going how you planned. You were the one making people shy, not the opposite.

“What is your name?”, he asked after a minute in silence.

It was a reasonable question, but it caught you off guard. That was his first question after you jumped him like an angry animal? He didn’t seem fazed after the initial shock.

“Why?”

“I’ll need it for the formal complaint in the police”.

You were the one left speechless as he laughed so hard he fell on his back.

You couldn’t help but giggle, his laugh was too funny to resist.

“How can I be forgiven?”, you asked as you looked down at him. You didn’t notice how much you were smiling, but he did.

“How about you stay like this while I get my camera?”

“That easy?”, you corrected your posture.

“Yeah… it’s all I need”.

#soulmate au #ateez x reader #ateez fluff #ateez imagines #ateez scenarios #ateez reactions #ateez headcanons #ateez masterlist #hongjoong x reader #hongjoong fluff #kim hongjoong fluff #ateez hongjoong

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Okay so I watched all of Ninjago Dragons Rising s2p2! I've got so many thoughts and I'm dumping them all here in a long list. SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

to start: Cole!! He's a family man! He's got a boyfriend and they hold hands and they care for their kids and Bonzle so obviously came out to them and omg I wanted to cry. The joy of acceptance. I mean come one she kept saying how alone she felt, they're found family, she was repeating that she chose he town name and identity and the villains were insistent that she wants a person but just a spell like come on

But there's more than that, I have questions I have concerns!! Like wtf happend on Coles quest?? With Sensei Wu??? Like he disappeared and turned up again and said he would explain but never did.

Cole also came back from that in his bolder form so did he figure out he could do it on his own then? Is that what he learned on his quest?? If so it's gonna be a little awkward when he tried to explain that to his bf Geo.

With part 2 I really want to see the whole gang meet them and talk and catch up on everything. Like cole has been missing since the merge and no one this season cared. At all. They hadn't seen him in ages- didn't even know if he was alive until drs1 but nope no worries or concerns. Not even a question of what he was up to.

When he came through the portal Zane wasn't worried or confused at all, just oh? You need some help?? Sure let's beat these bad guys and not worry or show emotions! Is a tearful reunion for my fav character too much to ask?? Cuz he clearly deserves it. :(

And then into both Zane and Coke this season!! Love them!! They've always been my fav duo (gonna have to start shipping geo/Cole/Zane as poly now) it was so fun to see them going around together with Bonzle. They had some great moments and I'm praying we get more in the next part.

On the other hand it was a shame they got such small roles- just seperated from the others as a way to help Bonzle. It means they didn't have the same lessons or knowledge the others got which is totally unfair!! They have a lot to catch up on. They also never got a chance to be part of the main battle

It's dumb but I was kinda hoping for Cole to show off his stronger powers (he always seems to get new powers every other season but that's a discussion for another day). Like sure he could use his robotic mech suit but that's been done before! He can do his boulder thing now (unless somehow he still thinks he can't which means he kept up that form for several days on his quest) and when he made that giant mid hut to protect his family!! I want to see him do that again! Let me man go ape shit to protect Bonzle.

And on another note, Geo my beloved, you should get a chance to shine with your powers. A chance to show off or at least have a talk about them with Cole.

Next up WyldFyre. I was worried they would make her the annoying comic relief cuz if her injury but her talks about losing loved ones and dragon culture and her home were really sweet and it was great to see some development so driven by battles. I love those too don't get me wrong but like I needed to see this side of her. And I adore her relationship with Kai, being besties/mentors/dad for her works so great for both characters.

I will be first to admit that

Kai wasn't really my favourite. If you couldn't tell I love Cole followed by Zane. Always have and likely always will. I suppose that early Kai reminded me too much of some guys form my class and they turned into shitheads and I've always struggled to reconcile Kai's image form theirs. He was always a little too brash, hotheaded, and too often written as stupid to fall into my good graces.

And yet this season I adored him. Of course I've never hated him but like this season made me see what all his fans (many many fans) see in him.

I thought Kai being the first to master such a new, difficult and crucial skill was incredibly satisfying. Form all the way back to season 1 he's been the butt of jokes- having to learn he's not the centre of the universe and sometimes it's others like Lloyd who are the chosen ones. That's all great but him now getting a starting role, his ability being fueled by thoughts of his family, by his childhood and by protecting is friends was just too good to ignore him. Love this form of his character more than any other I've seen.

And now Kai is trapped :(

I'm glad he's got Bonzle with him tho so hopefully they can have each other's backs (she's meant to be a POWERFUL spell after all) they'll need each other if they're trapped with those other 4 guys. If they can apparently demolish everything then I'm rather worried for the duo. Tbh I'm sure they'll survive just fine, probably making jokes at Cole's expense all the while.

On a side note, I found it super cute how WyldFyre was willing to protect and go down with Kai. Besties I'm telling ya

Now Jay. I've never thought too hard about him I know he's one of the favs of the fandom but like Kai I was never so besotted with him. Still a great guy and omg I feel so bad. One of his worst fears was always being alone and now stuck, confused, forced to hide such a fundamental part of himself.

On the other hand he's got a gun now so that's fun!!

And you can't talk about him without mentioning Nya. He worst fears being him forgetting hurts my soul. And she was so sure it could never be true that she snapped out of her nightmare state!! She's going to break when she finds out.

She's already grieving her own brother, we saw her break down into WyldFyre (more proof she's an honorary sibling by now) but now knowing what's happening with Jay, I'm saying the angst is going to be overpowering. It's a greek tragedy fr

Part 2 is going to be rough. Jay only had a single scene but it's already a sign for the worst to come.

Speaking of things being rough, Lloyd is going THROUGH IT!! give this poor guy a break. I do appreciate that we physically get to see the effects of all his trauma- that everything that's happened has real consequences for his character and the story but I can't help but feel bad.

I've also suffered from anxiety for most of my life so to see it in a character like that feels really personal to me. Hope he gets a little break though, god knows he deserves it.

Have to say it's pretty funny that Lloyd's had so much Oni trauma that he forgot that he's part dragon too. Yes ninjas dragons can do spinjitsu why are you surprised at this point

The animation this season has been incredible, the fights were beautiful the angles so interesting and dynamic and I could go on for hours about how much I love it. It's always great when kids -and even animation in general is treated with respect. It doesn't dumb it's ideas and stories and characters for the sake of it's younger audience, and that makes it so much better for me who is definitely out of the age range.

I have my more points to make but I've been adding stuff in and off for ages so I'll probably go through this all later. Thanks for reading, please I want to know your own thoughts too I love discussing that kinda stuff!!

#cole ninjago #ninjago kai #ninjago cole #lego ninjago #ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #ninjago dr spoilers #ninjago analysis #dragons rising season two #spoilers #ninjago spoilers #thoughts #discussion

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sillycicle · 11 days

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mha oc!!!1!!11!!

hes so silly I love him so much and he doesn't even have an actual name yet 😭 I've had this guy rotting my mind since December when I last hyperfixated on mha and decided to finally give him an overhaul (hehe) and actually design him

Im about to start blabbering about his quirk and story so if you want to hear more just go ahead and read but be warned!1!1!!

His hero name is the Energy Hero: Starboy and his quirk is Light Energy Manipulation. He's able to manipulate light energy from the sun & other light sources, all having different effects when in use. As he uses his quirk more and more, his hair slowly starts turning more white. When he uses his ability his white hair also shines iridescent, like a rainbow.

His horns and tail come from his father, who had a quirk that simply gave him horns, a tail, and manipulation of his own energy. His mother had a quirk that would make her hair light up and glow like the sun - but thats all he was told by his adoptive parents, as he was abandoned alone on the street with no memory when he was five years old. He was told that his father was murdered, and his mother was missing, so he devotes himself to heroism in order to make sure nobody else leaves children and family alone of the street to defend for themselves.

Energy from the sun & stars: gives him his basic fighting style, which is creating waves, shields, weapons, transportation, and all around general use. Its similar to Denki's, but only a bit. If denki was able to refine and control his quirk w/out the use of support items, he'd be exactly like my oc lol.

He later figures out that energy from the sun & stars gives him a new ability as part of his Quirk Awakening: Lightspeed - this ability gives him the ability to move his position in time. There's two versions of this ability, Red Shift and Blue Shift - they rewind him and fast forward him respective to the color shift they match. Also it isn't time travel, its more just like??? If he fell off a building facing one way, when he uses lightspeed to rewind himself, he can move freely during his way back up, but he's still moving upwards??? Like he can turn around and face the way he wasn't before??? Hope that explains it. He can also use this ability on objects and people that he touches, but only for the duration of this ability in use.

This ability also has heavy drawbacks on him, and he regularly suffers from nosebleeds, head aches, and tremors after he uses it (he almost died from a nosebleed in class once bc Aizawa was tired of him leaving to go to the nurses. He never made him stay in class again lol). Similarly, is he uses this ability on other people more that regularly, they suffer the same conditions, just lessened. The first time he uses this power, his body is rewound an entire day as part of his drawbacks, but his body being rewound rarely happens after her begins to train with this power.

Energy from UV: He can turn invisible and things he touches invisible, kind of like Violet from the Incredibles. This ability is primarily used as an ultimate move.

Energy from Incandescent Light: sort of electric-like, similar to denki's, but he uses it less because its for difficult to harness and get enough incandescent energy for use. Also, incandescent energy is regularly mixed with his sun energy, so its kind of useless to try and seperate it.

He is involved with any arc involving the whole/most of the class like the USJ and Sports Fesival arcs. He is also involved with the Stain and Shie Hassaikai arcs, and maybe more as I continue to rewatch the show. He also plays a supporting role in the Two Heroes movie, and his own arc that happens because why wouldn't i give my main mha oc his own arc??? What???

During said Starboy arc, he has some shenanigans with a villain who basically has a quirk similar to (what i know of with my limited jjk knowledge) domain expansions. Also iida is a big part of this arc too bc he's my fav character why wouldn't i involve him in my main oc's arc??? What??? Anyways, Starboy and Iida literally dance to beat this villain lol. Also Starboy almost levels a 10th of a city ❤ After that, his right (your left) eye is permanently in a sunburst shape and he is semi-partially blind. He also has sunburst-like scars on his hands and forearms after this battle. His original character design had ties to AFO and stuff, but he was WAYYY to plot relevant and could've lowkey replaced Deku with his backstory alone lmao.

He's closest with Iida, Kirishima, Kamanari, and Sero. He's also pretty close with Shoji, Tokoyami, Ojiro, Hakegure, and Mina, but not as close as the aforementioned four.

Also the last photo is his winter costume =p

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asongofstarkandtargaryen · 9 months

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Thoughts on Gotham war Batman 137 (part 2)

Bruce, I realise that you have a strick code however how are you gonna protect the city if you arrest every superhero that has a different view from yours? Not only is impossible to arrest all the batfamily members who disagree with you but even if you succeed, good luck trying to solve all Gotham's crimes only with Damian on your side.

( and on a personal level, fuck you Bruce for being so harsh on Tim after everything he did for you these past months. You are still my fav. superhero but your parenting skills need improvement)

About the fight between Bruce and batkids, I can get behind Bruce knowing their weaknesses since he's their mentor. Also, he learned some new stuff they aren't awake of yet and that makes sense too.

However, Bruce being able to win not against each of them individually but against Cass, Duke, Tim, Jason and Dick as a team seems too bad. It seriously downplays their skills. And comments like this show that the author really don't mind to make the rest of the bats look bad as long as. Bruce( and Damian I guess?) get to shine:

Nightwing's offense is sloppy? Since when?

I guess for now I'm gonna give the benefit of doubt to the scene of Damian punching Jason bc he caught him by surprise. In previous comics we've seen Jason dominating fights against Damian which is to be expected since Jay is both older and stronger.

Not the best start for the Gotham war and this issue doesn't do justice to plenty batfamily characters. I hope next issues will improve, tho I won't be surprised if they don't.

#batfamily #batman #dick Grayson #Jason Todd #tim Drake #dc comics

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wariofranchisefanblog · 6 months

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A new WarioWare has come out and I got enough playtime in to feel comfortable talking about it in full, so I’ll do just that.

Right off the bat I can say in short: this is a good game and a good WarioWare. Not up there with my favs, but it does a lot right. My experience did end up quite differently than anticipated and I’ll explain why soon enough.

First I want to talk about the presentation, which I think is an easy high point. Everything is vibrant and colorful, the art keeps showing the strengths of the current style and everything feels very much like it should. Microgames run that perfect mix of genuinely nice looking and deliberately cursed and the cutscenes are the best of both worlds, being smooth and lively, while returning to Gold’s full voice acting.

Speaking of cutscenes, that brings us to the story related stuff and that’s where the game shows some interesting tricks up its sleeves. In terms of structure it’s a return to the pre-Gold era, with the closest to an overarching theme being the vacation set-up.

I do think the Ware crew is in top form, likable, fun and full of life as always and two stories in particular even do something major.

Kat and Ana’s story marks the shocking return of Cractus, bringing a Wario Land character into WarioWare and Young Cricket’s story sees his Kung-Fu Ball partner finally brought into WarioWare properly. Both of those are really massive and show a willingness to more heavily utilize elements from other parts of the verse, which I find incredibly exciting.

Oddly enough, the weaker link of the story for me this time is Wario himself. Now don’t get me wrong, everything that happens here is usual Wario antics and I do like how non–english versions of the script like japanese and german, have him be actually be nice about bringing the others along. His confusion at the Crygor drawings and later ascending to godhood, with the cast roll confirming he got a happy end, are all good too, plenty of nice stuff here.

He just feels weirdly absent here. Having no presence in the Remix stages, no bonus mode in his image and even the final stage has him stuck being cursed to have his face be the avatar of an angry volcano. It doesn’t really feel like Wario and ends with him being the only one of the cast with no moment to shine during the climax, which I can’t help but find a little disappointing.

Still, it’s not a big deal, after so many games Wario taking a slight backseat isn’t a dealbreaker, it just stood out a little.

Moving away from that, there is the audio side of things. The music as usual is full of unapologetically catchy jingles and some major stand-out tracks such as MegaGame Muscles and the Form Guide theme.

We got full voice acting again and with it our first taste of Kevin Afghani as Wario. Pre-release stuff had me very on and off with how I felt about it, but having heard all of him in the game: yeah, I like him! He does have some wonky deliveries, but the overall voice still feels like Wario and has its own fun appeal. Certainly more noticeably different than Mario and Luigi, but I am optimistic Kevin will greatly grow into the role, as he gets to play him more and more.

Then we get to the big one, the gameplay and this is where I was thrown for a loop the most. With this being a direct Smooth Moves successor I thought I’d know what to expect, but was quite caught off-guard in many places.

This surprisingly ended up being the most difficult WarioWare for me by a long-shot, enough that I actually had to take advantage of the second chance mechanic, which I never had to do in Gold and GiT.

If I had to sum the game up in one word, it would be demanding, Wario commanding you to move it is not just a funny title, it’s the name of the game.

With the Wiimote, you could get away with just sorta doing the poses in a lot of cases, but Move It really demands you do the exact poses, down to holding the Joycon juuuust the right way.

More than anything I was surprised how strict it could be in that regard, not following the form instructions is asking for trouble, but I have to say, at the same token I was amazed how well things worked once I got the hang of it.

I’ll admit, I was ill while playing the game, so maybe that caused me to be a little more daft than usual, but it took me a bit to really get into it and I had to consult the museum several times for some microgames to figure out what I even needed to do.

I do think the game is a touch more complicated than usual for WarioWare, since you have to take effectively two controllers and specific poses into account, on top of grasping what each microgame demands of you, but once it clicks everything feels well thought out and purposeful. Getting things down is immensely satisfying and shows some really stunning results of what the Joycon can do.

That said the game isn’t entirely without jank, Hand Model being a notable culprit of it. The game finds several fun applications for it, but anything regarding reading forms or how many fingers you hold up, can be really clunky in the heat of the moment. In general, the strictness of the forms also means you need to really be prepared for every microgame, since slouching with your form could lead to a bad desync

Still, even with some jank I do think stepping up to the challenge to get a feel of it and get better is very much worth it. I wasn’t sure how to feel at first, but my opinion on it only went up the more I played.

That covers it for the main stages, as for the side-content though, yeah, that is where the game shows a weaker side of itself.

Not so much in terms of what’s here though. You got your standard towers, as well as MegaGame Muscles, which no joke, may be my favorite stage in the game. It’s frantic, fun, the music slaps and the set-up of Mr. Sparkles having ascended to being a literal god of fitness, is pure WarioWare.

The new Pyoro game of the day is a fun, different take on it, much like the one in Smooth Moves was as well and Dirty Job is a cool bonus game expansion of a more stand-out microgame concept.

That is really it as far as the single player content is concerned though and it does feel a liiiittle on the meager side. No souvenirs, which Smooth Moves and GiT didn’t have either, but Smooth Moves had more bonus games and GiT had the final Pyoro stage, Penny Remix, more bonus games, unlockable art and the Wario Cup.

We do still have a decent variety of multiplayer modes to work with and I did get a friend to come on by to try them, save for the 4 player exclusive one.

I think it’s a good selection, in concept it has the best multiplayer mode offerings since Mega Party Games (though I did like GiT a lot too), but there is one issue I have with it and I think GiT was a little guilty of it too.

As I mentioned, I do think there is a learning curve on how to play this game most effectively and you feel that even more in multiplayer, where someone not as in the know, is naturally gonna accidentally grip his Joycon slightly wrong, despite doing the pose and need some extra instructions, much like the characters in GiT can take some learning.

It is something you can overcome and have a good time with, WarioWare is a very good ‘’don’t take me too seriously’’ kind of multiplayer experience, but on the whole, if they want a true party game WarioWare, I still think something simpler like Mega Party Games is in order and by all means, I wouldn’t mind them doing something like that again.

On a side note, I also find it a bit of a shame that the nice new models for the cast, updated to resemble their designs in this game, are ultimately watered down to sprites of their heads during multiplayer gameplay. With how much emphasis is being put on multiplayer to carry the game for longer, I think it would have been nice if they put in the work to fully animate GiT-style models for the multiplayer modes.

That small gripe aside, as I said, I think multiplayer is fine, but not quite the pick up and play experience for people new to the game, as I feel they wanted it to be and I do think a bit too much of the game is locked behind multiplayer.

But yeah, that’s WarioWare Move It. It’s good and if you like WarioWare, you’re getting what you wanted out of it. It’s not one of my top games in the series and feels a bit too lacking on the side content front, but on the whole, I had a good time and it gets a surprising amount out of a controller that I have an openly low opinion on.

#WarioWare #WarioWare Move It

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17 is Right Here Initial Thoughts + Ranking

Cheers to youth- This song instantly became my top vu song. The upbeat instrumentals compliment their voices sooo well. It reminds me of a coming of age anime op (for example Hikaru Nara- Goose House) and the message about being kind to yourself since it’s your first time listening is so sweet🥺

Spell- Let’s get into it! Love how sultry it is and something about it reminds me of south african music which I love (Tyla or Tswala Bam beats yk). I love when pfu does sexy concepts and the choreo is exactly how I imagine it would be godbless. Hoshi really stood out to me, he really has so much charisma. Also, I have to laugh at Dino taking off a jacket to reveal that theres another jacket. These men will always be borderline shirtless but never topless LET THEM BE SEXY THEYRE ALMOST 30😭

Maestro- DARKTEEN IS BACK!!!!! The performance is really cool, very difficult choreo but they pulled it off. I do love that they use props like the baton to show they’re controlling the members. The song sounds very svt, especially reminding me of getting closer, fearless and hit era. Also this song does give me old boy group vibes like block b which is nice but it’s still a very fresh sound.

Lalali- The beat is interesting. Wonwoos part is my fav. I love how aggressive he sounds and I love the callback to monster. I did watch videos of the performance and Mingyu really shined out to me. I still find it hilarious that they banned this song cus Vernon said fuck.

#i love all the songs tho<3 #svt #seventeen

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tuiyla · 3 months

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NATLA Ep. 4 "Into the Dark" initial thoughts

Okay wow, I think this is my fav so far in terms of changes they've made. The best ep so far is probs Warriors but this was quite bold in the changes it's made and you know what, the first episode made me fear they'd be too timid to actually lean into their changes but no. Just like Danny Pudi put his whole Pudissy into his role, this episode committed to its direction and I can respect that even in places where I don't agree with the changes. The only exception is Bumi's tests, a lot of the dialogue and other aspects lifted straight from ATLA didn't work because it felt more forced in this context than anything. And overall I think Bumi is my least favourite part of the episode and its adaptation.

I was glad to see Jet in this episode, too, even if it was brief. I'm still lacking stronger emotions and a stronger presence from Katara but I'm glad for this goodbye with Jet and how it sets up exactly what it needs to. We did lose Jet being a foil to Sokka and there was a major missed opportunity in having Jet actually interact with Sai but ah well, can't have everything.

Instead of Sokka foiling it out with Jet there's the surprise inclusion of basically Book 2 Chapter 2 which I did not expect but am pleasantly surprised by. This ep went hard on the music taken straight from ATLA between the nomads' songs and Leaves From the Vine playing over the Iroh flashback. And! And!! Oma and Shu are lesbians!!! This is not a drill, Oma and Shu are lesbians in love. If there was one thing I hoped for in terms of the live action show it was casual queer representation and I got it in the most unexpected but pleasant place. Love it.

And!! On top of the surprising but not unwelcome inclusion of The Cave of Two Lovers, the story is recentered entirely on Sokka and Katara. I'll share more thoughts on this later but suffice to say I always love me some Water Sibs appreciation and this was much needed in this version. I still take issue with essentially erasing Katara's mothering of Sokka but it's clear the impact Hakoda leaving had on them is the same and, most probably in lieu of Bato of the Water Tribe, we get this storyline with them. The fact that love being the answer was reframed as the love between these two siblings is honestly a galaxy brain change and decision and I respect the hell out of it. There's still much lacking in terms of really fleshing out our cast but I will never, ever say no to more Water Sibs content. If we were gonna spend so much time in Omashu and put so many familiar faces in there, makes sense to also do the Omashu backstory AND utilize it to shine some light on the sibling dynamic that otherwise doesn't have much room to breathe in the live action. This is the kind of bold new direction that they have to take and own to make this show work.

I also enjoyed the Zuko and Iroh stuff and that's some interesting inclusion of more Book 2 things as well. The way even their plot from the Winter Solstice part one ep was integrated here is quite clever and I enjoyed both the past and present Iroh scenes. We'll see how they handle the actual Zuko backstory and I do think this version of Iroh needs a bit more, how should I put it, softness, but there's much to like here. Especially giving Zuko the option to pursue Aang instead and having him choose to rescue Iroh. Similar to a choice he made in the above mentioned Spirit World ep but honestly, lowkey more poignant here.

That's it for me for today but I'll watch the second half of the season tomorrow. I have to say, so far it has at least provided some interesting new takes worth taking a deeper critical look at, and I don't agree with those who dismiss the show entirely. It has merit even if, halfway through the first season, it's yet to convince me it can justify its own existence.

#this sounds very positive and to note i do have major issues with the bumi stuff lol #but i really do respect the bold changes made in these two eps #feels way more cleve than just. having Kyoshi scold aang #natla #natla initial thoughts #oma and shu are lesbians 😭😭😭#netflix avatar #the worst thing this show could have been is bland and it's not that

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big deep breath OK SO . ive been so excited for this comeback like idk with every new cb i feel like i get even more excited than with the precious one yk so i was really waiting for it to come out!! they released the mv while i was in class (they hate me) but during a little break not long after i managed to watch it and i was bobbing my head and swinging my feet at the sound LJKE U DONT GET IT I WAS GENUINELY SO HAPPY

honestly this is one of my fav svt albums and idk it just makes me so happy all the songs are so perfect and good there's not a single one i don't enjoy and the aesthetic is so cute and im so excited and impatient to FINALLY HAVE MY ALBUM IN MY HANDS ARGHHHH but yes this was such a success im so happy they broke so many records and they just continue to prove how talented they are wooooo

for the songs there isn't one i dislike at all but i really like SOS idk the beat js so nice and the lyrics are really good and this may be also due to me loving marshmello when i was younger but STILL !!! Diamond days makes me SOOOOO NOSTALGIC i love it so much im so glad they used kind off the same sound/sample as Shining Diamond im in love 💔💔 i think back 2 back is my fav song of the album!! i love minghaos highnote and the beat and just the overal vibe idk it stood out to me sm their voices fit the song so well im obsessed with the part around 1.30 where dino and hao sing in like a low voice? YGM BUT ITS SOOOOO GOOD just the entire song is so good i think tbh i have a soft spot for pu songs 😭😭😭😭 i haven't had much the time to really analyze yawn but the soft voices and vocals are heavenly i genuinely passed away BECAUSE YOU ARE MY BREATH 💔💔💔💔 LIKE WDYM UR MY BREATH WHY IS THIS SONG MAKING ME TEAR UP DONT EVEN LIE RNNN monster is such a fun song i just know I'll play it on repeat like fire while im walking to uni to wake me up and get me in study mode 💥💥💥 it's giving Halloween vibes and im here for it!!!! it's also just fun to me because my roommate/bsf and i bet on who sang the first line and she swore it was gyu and i swore it was vernon and today we didn't see each other much so like 1h ago she told me she saw in a lyric vid that gyu sang that line and i was like ??? girl i have weverse and i follow it religiously so ik it's both of them AND WE COULDNT AGREE BECAUSE WE DIDNT HAVE ANY PROOF so i ended up showing her weverse and it was so fun we were both right in the end and we did a silly dance LMAOOAOOOO IT WAS SO FUNNY 😻😻😻😻 but lemme tell u about headliner. FUCK THAT SONG BRO WHY AM I CRYING ??????? no it's actually my fav song along back 2 back like are u actually kidding me ???? this song makes me wanna study even more for my Korean classes like FUCK HEADLINER SO BAD 💔😭😭😭😭😭 I CRY AND LAUGH WITH YOU THIS NIGHT💔💔💔💔💔 WHERE WE OFFER ALL OUR LOVE💔💔💔💔 HOW BEAUTIFUL💔💔💔💔💔 BEVAHSE YOURE MY HEADLINER 💔💔💔💔💔 this moment when we shine together don't lie rn I'll actually kms and take a bath with my toaster like wow jumping of the 9th floor of the apartment building next door seems like such a fun activity today 😻😻😻😻😻😻

RIGHT OMG I WAS LITERALLY TUNING IN EVERYDAY AT 12 AM KST TO SEE IF THEY DROPPED FHE ANNOUNCEMENT AND WHEN THEY DID I WAS SOOOOO HYPED ‼️ like fml was SO huge i couldn’t wait for this one ALSO THE MV LITERALLY RELEASED DURING A PRACTICE FIRE DRILL FOR ME 😭😭

it genuinely is one of my faves too, like although the songs aren’t necessarily my fave of each unit (i still LOVE each one) the album was just so well put together ?? everything flowed perfectly and like usually it’ll take me like two or three listens to like some songs but i listened to the album start to finish ONCE and fell in love w EVERYTHING i’m not even kidding ❤️‍🔥 I CANR WAIT FOR MY ALBUMD TO GET HERE AYSHSHAHDJHS

right like there wasn’t a bad song at all !!! my fave has to be headliner bc it’s just so fucking emotional like woozi why u got me crying on the train home 😐😐😐 it gives me MAJOR our dawn is hotter than day vibes which i love sm !! the whole album vibes reminded me a little of you make my day a little i think it’s just me but yeah ‼️ i LOVED back 2 back too omg perf unit ALWAYS hits and YAWN OMG 😓 every track was amazing 😓😓😓 STOP THE DEBATES ON THE MONSTER FIRST LINE LMFAAOAOAO 😭😭 speaking of monster, cheol’s part.. changed me . i loved SOS too omg it gave such like band vibes ??

ALSO HELPPPPP HEADLINER’S LYRICS OMG 😓😓 my mom heard me listen to it and said “girl why are u listening to such sad lyrics..”

#dori .. 🪼#seventeenth heaven we luv you

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lovessidney · 1 year

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I could wait until the end of time

Please note that this explicit story was written by an adult, for adults. If you are under the age of 18, please do not interact.

Pairing: Gerard Way x Reader.

Pronouns: they/them (anatomy: AFAB).

Requested by: Semi-requested by @Layla2-49 who asked for a continuation to ’First date’

Summary: The reader and (y/n) meet once again. (Y/n) come to see Gerards gig and they end up spending the night at (y/n)s place having some fun.

A/n: This is my first time ever writing smut, and let me tell y’all; I’ve been STRUGGLING. It was fun, but also very tricky. I did my best though. I hope you enjoy it, and if anyone wanna send me some constructive criticism I’m more than happy to read it!

(Y/n) was running late. They were so angry with themselves. They’d gotten ready well in advance, multiple hours before they needed to leave in order not to be late. But then Alex had called and they had gotten talking about Gerard and the magical first date they had shared. They ran across an intersection, a car honked angrily after them. The really hoped the band hadn’t started playing yet, or even worse, that Gerard thought they’d bailed on them.

Soon enough they spotted the bar in which the gig was taking place, and they could hear that they had indeed started playing. (Y/n) sighed, but headed inside, hoping they hadn’t disappointed Gerard. The place was very crowded, but (y/n) managed to see the total explosion of the band at the end of a song. They headed to the bar to get something to calm their nerves. They ordered (y/ fav drink), payed, and found their way in to the crowd.

The band kicked off their next song and (y/n) found themselves absolutely mesmerised. By the music, by the lyrics, the energy, but most of all Gerard. Gerard on stage was a whole different person comparing to the shy, sweet person they’d gone on the date with last weekend. And (y/n) absolutely adored this part of them as well. They were singing their heart out, trashing about on stage, interacting with their band mates. Just when (y/n) thought that Gerard couldn’t get more intriguing and magical. (Y/n) really hoped Gerard had seen them in the crowd. They’d tried waving a few times, but they weren’t sure they’d managed to stand out in the chaos.

As the set came to an end (y/n) retreated to a table in the back, as most of the visitors headed either for the bar, or outside for a cigarette. They sat there, alone, with their drink, trying their best to calm themselves down. Gerard had asked when they would see (y/n) again, and they’d invited them to the show. Surely, that must’ve meant that Gerard was interested in them?

Suddenly, (y/n) felt two warm hands on their shoulders. They looked up, and surely, there they were. They looked absolutely gorgeous. Still all worked up from the show, with a huge smile and a glimmer in their eyes. (Y/n) stood up to greet Gerard, and they immediately threw their arms around (y/n). And then recoiled just as fast. ”Oh my god, I’m so sweaty. That’s disgusting. I’m so sorry” the rambled, all at once, blushing. (Y/n) pulled them closer again. ”Hi Gerard” they said softly as they both parted. Gerard was shining like the sun. ”Hi yourself” they said softly, meeting (y/n)s gaze. For a second, the world around them was still and quiet. Only the two of them in the whole world. Then someone bumped into Gerard, who in turn fell onto (y/n), who in turn fell onto the table behind them. ”Oh my god, I’m so sorry (y/n)” Gerard gasped, immediately reaching out a hand to help (y/n) up. ”Sweet Jesus. I’m so sorry. I’ll buy you a new drink” they continued as (y/n) was up on their feet.

Said and done, they went and got (y/n) another drink. ”So, are you ready to meet the band?” Gerard asked, smiling and squeezing (y/n)s hand. (Y/n) was surprised, but very happy. Gerard seemed so shy and (y/n) really didn’t expect to be introduced to some of the most important people in their life so soon. ”Sure, let’s go!” (y/n) agreed, once again squeezing Gerards hand.

Gerard knocked on the door to the backstage dressing room. ”Are you lot fucking decent in there?” they shouted, not waiting for an answer before opening the door and stepping inside. They immediately sighed. One man was lying on the floor, smoking a blunt. Another was laying upside down on the sofa experimenting with how to drink his beer in this state. A third was playing his guitar. ”Honestly, what did I expect” Gerard said with a little laugh. They pointed to the man on the floor with the blunt, ”that’s Frank, he’s just batshit crazy”. Next they pointed to the man on the couch, ”that’s my brother, Mikey. Bit of a wildcard, I must admit”. Lastly they pointed to the man playing the guitar, ”that’s Ray. He may seem normal right now, but I promise you, that’s an act”. (Y/n) waved to them all. ”I’m (y/n), very nice to meet you all”. Frank immediately sat up. ”Oh, you’re (y/n)! Nice to get a face to the person Gee has been gnawing our ear off about all week” he said with a huge grin Gerards way. (Y/n) looked at Gerard and quirked an eyebrow. ”Gee, that’s a sweet nickname” they said with a soft smile Gerards way. The man on the floor reached his arm out (y/n)s way. ”You want some?” he asked, offering his blunt and smiling kindly. (Y/n) shook their head. ”I’m good, thank you” they said, pointing to the glass in their hand.

”This is some first impression you’re making guys. I can’t believe you” Gerard said, laughing and shaking their head at the guys while cracking open a beer. ”You made quite an impression on stage though” (y/n) quickly added. ”You were amazing, really. I was absolutely spellbound, I can’t wait to see more” they quickly continued. They chatted for a while more, just hanging out and having a couple more drinks. Soon enough, they all felt like it was time to go. The guys were taking all the equipment back to the studio, and Gerard was coming with (y/n).

They got outside and Gerard lit a cigarette as they started walking. Walking no particular way to no particular place. (Y/n) thought for a moment. ”Do you wanna get some pizza, bring it back to my place and have a couple of drinks?” they looked at Gerard out of the corner of their eye, trying to see their reaction. They weren’t quite sure if it was taking things a bit to fast for Gerard, who after all was quite shy. Gerard pondered this for a moment before breaking up into a smile. ”Yeah, I’d love that. That’d be great” they said happily. ”Okay then, let me treat you to the best pizza ever then. And- uh- I think I have something to drink at home”.

They picked up pizza from (y/n)s favourite place, Massimos, a little pizza shop close to their apartment, and so they headed over there. They sat down in (y/n)s little kitchen, lit a few candles and opened a bottle of wine. The wine flowed freely, and so did the conversation. They talked about everything and anything in between. From time to time (y/n) caught themselves thinking that they were so incredibly lucky to have met Gerard. The butterflies in their stomach let themselves known every time Gerard said something funny or interesting, and (y/n) knew that they really were something special. All from the sparkle in their eyes, to their beautiful and heartwarming smile, to the way they were talking, gesticulating with their hands and laughing. And they were absolutely stunning too. The way their dark hair curled around their face, their stunning hazel eyes, their cute nose. Everything about them were absolutely breath taking.

After polishing off the last of the pizza they opened a second bottle of wine and cuddled up on the sofa. (Y/n) found themselves in Gerards warm embrace, with their head resting on Gerards chest. (Y/n) could hear their heartbeat. It felt safe. Like coming home after a long time of being away. They caught Gerard looking at them. ”You’re so beautiful” they said softly, and kissed the top of (y/n)s head. (Y/n) could once again feel the butterflies in their stomach, and a warmth in their chest. They leaned up to look at Gerard and softly kiss their cheek. ”So are you, Gee” they said with a smile, trying out the new nickname. Gerard smiled at them and pulled them closer.

They stayed like that for a long time. Just being close, enjoying each others company. The second bottle of wine came to an end. When (y/n) tried to get up to get them something else to drink, Gerard held them closer. ”Don’t leave me” they said softly, slightly slurring their words. They both had had a lot to drink after all. ”I’m just going to get us some water sweetheart. Don’t worry” (y/n) said softly, kissing Gerard again. ”Fine” they said, jokingly, and letting go of (y/n).

They disappeared in to the kitchen, and Gerard could hear them rummage around the cupboards. They got up too. They looked around the room, (y/n)s record collection catching their eyes. They strolled over and started looking through the records. Soon enough they found the one (y/n) had bought at their first date and couldn’t help but to smile. They felt absolutely radiating with happiness, and couldn’t believe that first date had gone so well and that they were actually in (y/n)s apartment now, cuddling and having such a nice time. They were fully aware that they hadn’t known (y/n) very long, but they could feel it in their heart that there was something special between them. They felt so happy and safe in (y/n)s presence. Just as they’d put a record on, (y/n) returned with two glasses of water and a big smile.

”One of my favourite records” they exclaimed happily, while handing Gerard a glass of water. They gratefully accepted it and downed the whole thing pretty quickly. In some way, despite feeling so safe and happy with (y/n), they also felt a bit nervous. Maybe because they thought about how the night could end, what potentially could happen. Just thinking about it made Gerard feel dizzy and go weak in the knees. They put their empty glass down on the table and wrapped their arms around (y/n). Gerard couldn’t believe this was happening, and their thoughts went a thousand miles per hour as they swayed softly to the music from the record player. They were convinced that they could stay this way forever, holding (y/n) close, feeling their warmth and the sweet scent of them and softly singing the lyrics of the songs in their ear.

They stayed like this for a long time, just slowly dancing and holding each other close. As the music came to an end, (y/n) leaned in and pressed their lips against Gerard's. At first, it was just a soft, tentative kiss, a gentle exploration of each other's mouths. But as the seconds ticked by and their desire grew, the kiss deepened and became more passionate.

Gerard's nerves melted away as they lost themselves in the moment. They wrapped their arms around (y/n) and pulled them closer, deepening the kiss even further. They had never felt this way before – so completely and utterly in love, so completely and utterly turned on.

(Y/n) straddled Gerard on the sofa, pressing their bodies closer together as the kiss continued. Gerard's hands roamed over (y/n)'s body, exploring every inch of their skin. (Y/n) could feel the knots in their stomach tighten. They could feel everything getting hotter. And they could feel Gerard felt the same way.

The kiss was long and deep, a passionate, all-consuming embrace that left them both panting and wanting more. As they finally pulled back, both of them were breathless and aching for more.

They stayed like that for a long time, locked in a passionate embrace, completely lost in each other's love. They couldn’t get enough of each other, and every touch between them felt absolutely electric. Not knowing what came over them, (y/n) bit Gerards bottom lip. They moaned at the interaction and pulled (y/n) even closer. The feeling between them was like fire at this point. Every touch was positively electric.

Gerard could feel the fire between them, and they didn’t quite know what they’d gotten themselves into. They knew that they absolutely adored (y/n), and they couldn’t deny the electric passion between them. They also couldn’t deny the fact that their body was sending all the signals that this was something they really wanted. Yet, they couldn’t help but to feel nervous. And of course, (y/n) noticed.

"It's okay sweetheart, we can take things as slow as you want. I just want to be with you” (y/n) whispered softly in Gerards ear and peppered their whole face with little kisses. ”Thank you. That means a lot to me. I adore you so, but I’ve never done this before. I definitely think you’re gorgeous, and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this way about someone before. I know this, even though it’s early” and then Gerard kissed (y/n) again. It was softer this time. But just as filled with love.

Gerard knew that they wanted this, and they didn't want to let their nerves hold them back any longer. They had waited long enough, and (y/n) had made it clear that they were willing to go at Gerard's pace. It was time for Gerard to take the lead and show (y/n) just how much they desired them.

Gerard pulled back from the kiss and looked into (y/n)'s eyes, filled with love and understanding. "I want this," Gerard said firmly, surprising even themselves with the conviction in their voice. "I want you" they continued. (y/n) smiled and brushed a strand of hair out of Gerard's face. "I'm ready when you are," they said softly.

Gerard's heart raced as they stood up, taking (y/n)'s hand in theirs. They knew that this was it, the moment they had been dreaming about. They led (y/n) to the bedroom, their nerves giving way to excitement and anticipation.

As they entered the bedroom, Gerard couldn't help but feel a little overwhelmed by the magnitude of the moment. But (y/n) was there, grounding them with their love and understanding, and Gerard knew that everything was going to be great.

Gerard turned to (y/n) and pulled them close, gazing into their eyes. "I adore you so" Gerard said softly. "I’ve thought you were absolutely magical from the moment I met you".

(Y/n) smiled and pressed their lips to Gerard's, their love for Gerard clear in the gentle touch of their lips. Gerard wrapped their arms around (y/n) and pulled them closer, deepening the kiss as they finally let themselves fully give in to their desire for each other.

(Y/n) straddled Gerard once again, taking off their sweater and starting to unbutton their shirt. ”Is this okay, sweetheart?” (y/n) asked Gerard softly, trying to conceal the lust in their voice, at least slightly. Gerard nodded, to lost in the moment to manage anything else. (Y/n) carefully got their shirt off, and then just admired them. ”You’re just gorgeous. I can’t believe how fucking gorgeous you are” they whispered in Gerards ear. (Y/n) kissed their neck. Maybe a little rougher than they should’ve. Gerard let out the absolutely prettiest moan (y/n) had ever heard. ”You like that, baby?” they whispered. ”Yeah, I like that. I like that a lot” Gerard managed with a breathy voice. (Y/n) kissed Gerard again, leaving pretty little marks as they went.

Gerards pants were growing tighter by the minute and they felt so desperate for touch. (Y/n) was grinding against them and they felt like they might explode, just by that. Gerards hands were travelling all over (y/n)s body, touching every sliver of their skin they could get in contact with. ”Can I take off your shirt?” Gerard mumbled, wanting to see and feel more of (y/n). ”You can do anything you want honey” (y/n) gave for an answer, helping Gerard take their shirt off.

”Oh. You’re so beautiful” Gerard managed, after a quick moment of being absolutely stunned. (Y/n) laughed and kissed Gerards cheek. ”You should see yourself honey” (y/n) whispered in their ear. Carefully, (y/n) started their decent down Gerards body. They kissed their neck a few more times, down their chest and over their tummy before lastly placing a hand over their pants. Gerard whined at the touch. ”Can I take these off?” (y/n) asked him, careful to get consent. Gerard nodded. ”Please” they added. (Y/n) made sure not to disappoint them and worked their belt open before carefully sliding off their jeans. Then they palmed Gerards cock over their boxers. Once again, Gerard let out the most gorgeous moan. ”Honey, you sound so pretty. So very pretty”. (Y/n) looked Gerard in the eyes, and they could see the lust that resided in them. ”Do you want me to touch you? Will you let me make you feel really good honey?” Gerard only whimpered in response. ”Please. I want you so bad” they managed. (Y/n) admired them. The looked so gorgeous. Their whole body on display, just for (y/n).

They could see the spot on Gerards boxers where a slight wetness had started to form. They bent forward to kiss it. Gerards hips jerked up in response. They were so desperate for even the slightest touch. (Y/n) smiled up at Gerard, who looked back with half-lidded eyes and a desperate face expression. And so, finally, (y/n) removed Gerards boxers, leaving them exposed in the faint light of the lamp on the nightstand. They admired Gerard laying there, just waiting for what was about to happen. ”Everything okay honey? Do you want to continue?” (y/n) asked them softly while squeezing their hand, wanting to make sure that Gerard was still on board. They nodded eagerly. ”Good. You’re so good, sweetheart” (y/n) said softly, sending a heart warming smile Gerards way. ”You promise to tell me if you change your mind?” they then asked. Really wanting to make sure they didn’t do something that Gerard might regret later. ”I promise” Gerard stated softly, once again squeezing (y/n)s hand in their own.

Gerard breathed out. They knew this would all be fine. They knew that they had nothing to worry about. (Y/n) made their way up to Gerards face again, they kissed them lovingly all over. “You’re so beautiful Gee. I want to do this with you. I could do this with you tonight, but I could also wait until the end of time if that’s what you need. I promise” and with that, (y/n) kissed them again. Gerard looked at them and smiled. It really was the most beautiful smile (y/n) had ever seen, and they knew they would never get tired of seeing it. Slowly, Gerard leaned in again. They kissed (y/n) softly, slowly, but with passion. They wanted to show that they wanted to do this, and that they were ready. And so, the kisses grew more passionate again, deeper, more needy, craving. Almost animalistic. Gerard caught (y/n)s bottom lip between their teeth and tugged slightly, imitating what (y/n) had done before. (Y/n) gasped at the interaction, and something told them that this was go-time. Once again they made their way down Gerards body, kissing their neck, chest tummy on the way. And so, they carefully took Gerards cock in their mouth. Gerards response were imminent, their back arched and their hips jerked upwards, trying to get more of that long awaited friction. “Shit. Sorry. I’m so sorry” they panted as soon as they realised what had happened. “Don’t worry sweetheart. Everything is okay” (y/n) responded, gently rubbing circles on Gerards hip to comfort them. Slowly, they began again. (Y/n) worked their way around Gerards cock, focusing only on the head for a while, slowly sucking them off, twirling their tongue around it. The noises Gerard made was astonishing. Then, without warning, (y/n) took their cock all the way down their throat, just relishing in the beautiful noises Gerard made as a reaction to it. They kept that up for a while, occasionally looking up at Gerard to see their beautiful reaction to it all. ”You’re still good baby?” (y/n) asked whilst taking a moment to breath. ”Never better” Gerard offered with a weak smile and half lidded eyes. Gently (y/n) kissed their tummy, up their chest and neck.

Their lips collided yet again, meeting in a frenzy. They switched places, so Gerard was on top of (y/n). ”I want to touch you” they said, no longer nervous. Just determined to make (y/n) feel good. (Y/n) reached up to kiss them again. ”I’m all yours baby” they answered with a sweet smile. Carefully Gerard lowered their hand, down the most magical body they’d ever seen. They soon realised they would have no real idea about what to do when they reached their goal. ”Can I take these off?” Gerard asked, gesturing to (y/n)s pants. ”Please do” they answered quickly, nodding eagerly. They fumbled with the belt for a moment, before finally removing (y/n)s pants. They then leaned in to kiss (y/n) yet again, as they carefully rubbed their thumb over (y/n)s underwear where a wet spot was forming. Gerard looked at (y/n), somewhat surprised. “Don’t look so surprised sweetheart” (y/n) said with a soft smile. “I want you” they added, kissing Gerard again. And with that encouragement, they dared to continue.

They took of (y/n)s underwear. Carefully they dragged a finger across (y/n)s slick skin. (Y/n) gasped at the sensation, already so wet and waiting to be touched. The gasp went straight to Gerards cock, as if they could get any harder than they already were. They gently rubbed the pad of their thumb over (y/n)s clit, which resulted in another very vocal respons. ”That’s so good. You’re doing so well baby” (y/n) encouraged them. They kept this up for a moment, finding relief in having find something that seemed to be doing the trick. They placed themselves on (y/n)s side, as to allow them to keep touching (y/n) and kiss them at the same time. They decided trying their luck with kissing (y/n)s neck, remembering the effect it had had on themselves just a few moments earlier. ”Fuck. Gerard. Fucking christ” (y/n) managed between hitched breaths. ”Just keep that up. God. Please” (y/n) continued rambling. Gerard, who wanted nothing but to please did as they were told. They continued kissing and nipping at (y/n)s neck, leaving little marks, not unlike the ones they themselves were marked with. (Y/n)s ramblings were closing in on unintelligible, but Gerard managed to make out their own name among a slew of curses and pretty moans. And so finally, (y/n) came tripping over their orgasm. Gerard was just astonished with their beauty, and with actually getting someone off, no less the most beautiful person in the world. (Y/n) looked up at Gerard, eyes half-lidded and with that magical, dazed look in their eyes.

”I’ve been dreaming about this” they confided. Gerard couldn’t believe their ears, it seemed unreal to them. ”I’ve been dreaming about this too” they dared admit. ”I’ve dreamt about you” they continued between kisses to (y/n)s neck and collarbones. (Y/n) who was still coming down from their orgasm looked up at Gerard, with newly awaken eyes. ”Tell me honey, what have you been dreaming about?” they asked, craning their neck to allow them to reach Gerards lips. Soft kisses were exchanged. ”I’ve dreamt about sex with you. About you riding me. About you fucking me”. They could feel their cheeks burn at this admission. (Y/n) wasted no time and got Gerard on their back, positioning themselves over them, despite their still wobbly legs. Just the sight made Gerard feel dizzy. (Y/n) placed Gerards hands on their hips. ”Are you sure you want this sweetheart? Just say the word and I’ll stop” (y/n) said softly. Gerard shook their head, quickly. ”No. No way. I want this. I want you. So fucking bad” they managed. That was everything (y/n) needed to hear.

Slowly they sank down on Gerards cock. Gerard moaned loudly as they were enveloped in (y/n)s heat. Their head fell back against the pillows. ”Oh. God. Fucking god. This is amazing. You’re amazing” they managed between hitched breaths. Their grip on (y/n)s hips tightened as they bounced atop Gerard. (Y/n) leaned in close. ”You feel so good baby. You were made for me, you must’ve been” they whispered in Gerards ear, eliciting yet another moan from them. From somewhere deep down their throat. They kissed once again. A passionate, almost ravenous kiss.

(Y/n) broke them up, getting up once again to increase the tempo. Gerard was absolutely stunning, mumbling soft curses and (y/n)s name. They looked up at (y/n). ”Fuck. You’re so beautiful. So beautiful when you fuck me. Oh. God” they rambled. Their hips jerked, meeting (y/n)s. Gerard could feel they were building towards a climax. ”Please, (y/n), whatever you do don’t stop. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck” they mumbled among moans and hitched breaths. And with those words, they came. (Y/n) continued rocking against them, riding out their orgasm with them. Just the sight of the most beautiful person in the universe in that state had (y/n) tip over the edge with a string of curses and gasps.

The both of them collapsed together in the afterglow. (Y/n) just laying atop Gerards chest. Slowly coming down together. (Y/n) carefully slipped off Gerards lap, cuddling up by their side. (Y/n) looked at them, and they looked positively euphoric. They softly kissed Gerards lips, as they returned to reality. Gerard blinked a few times before gaining focus on (y/n)s face next to them. Carefully they placed a strand of (y/n)s hair behind their ear. They laid like that for a while, just making the most of the moment and the ecstatic feeling. ”You’re magical” Gerard managed at least. (Y/n) smiled a warm smile. ”We’re magical, sweetheart” they answered, and softly pressed their lips together once again.

In this moment, everything felt absolutely perfect. Like all the stars in the sky had lined up just for the two of them. Like everything would be wonderful, always. (Y/n) dragged the blanket up over them, and held Gerard close. They stayed like that for a long time. Just enjoying the stillness and silence together. ”Do you want a glass of water?” (y/n) asked after a while. Gerard yawned, having almost fallen asleep. They nodded. (Y/n) got up and disappeared into the kitchen, soon to return with two big glasses of water. They handed Gerard a glass before getting back into bed, propping themselves up on a few pillows before downing the water and placing the glass on the nightstand beside them. They pulled Gerard closer, so that they were resting their head on (y/n)s chest. (Y/n) carefully kissed the top of their head. ”My sweet, sweet Gerard” they whispered softly between kisses. Gerard looked up at them, still with that slightly dazed look in their eyes. ”Can we stay like this forever?” they softly mumbled as they nuzzled their nose against (y/n)s. (Y/n) kissed them softly. ”I would want nothing less, sweetheart” (y/n) answered Gerard, who was already half asleep. (Y/n) reached out to turn off the lights before finally cuddling up with Gerard and closing their eyes too.

That was the whole thing. Thank you so much for reading, and I hope you liked it! As usual; if you want to send me a request, don't hesitate, I'd love to see your ideas.

#My Chemical Romance fanfic #Gerard Way fanfic #Gerard Way x Reader #Smut #Ssidney writes

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alex-a-fans · 5 months

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BTTF Year-End Tag Game!

AAA THANK YOU @cheriboms AND @bttf-dork FOR TAGGING ME!!

This year:

How many times would you guess you watched the first back to the future movie?

Too many times to count...

Did you get any sweet bttf merch? If so, what!

Yes! BTTF Playmobil advent calendar and an off-brand Funko pop Doc!

How many cans of Pepsi Free did you chug this year?

Pepsi free? None. Normal Pepsi on the other hand.... Over 50 cans for sure.

What was a favorite bttf fanfic you read this year?

There were so many good ones, but if I had to choose... I choose 3!

Oh, How the World has Changed by @itsthemorph I just love the idea of Clara in 1985, even if it's only one chapter, I am sure the other parts will be great :)

June of Doom: let the Suffering Begin by @unknooooow. Now these ones are dark. They have become my Roman Empire, so I think about it once every few days. But again, I love angst, especially realistic. :)

Double Visions by @daryfromthefuture. While there were many good ones this one stuck out due to it having the talk of Citizen Brown (the not-so-silly doc). And it's also very touching and captures the friendship spirit greatly!

A favorite bttf fanart you saw this year? (please give us a link, not a screencap/repost!)

AGAIN MANY GOOD ONES.

this one by @future-boi LITTLE MARTY LITTLE MARTY

this one by @maxintime Cause Browns my beloved <3

this one by @bttf-dork (do u have any idea how long it took for me to find it, I thought I imagined it) THE COLORS, THE SHAPES AAA.

This one by @cheriboms The silly, the goofy, the little Baby Emmett (I WILL EAT THE FANART)

Did you create any bttf fanart or fanfic? If you did, what one(s) are you proudest of?

My time to shine :) /j

I am especially proud of June of Doom chapter 11 (Better known as Doc Has a Stroke literally). It took me two months to write, and it is still the longest one chapter I ever wrote (3k words). Also! I am afraid of hospitals and blood, so I have no idea how I wrote it. Also believe it or not, it was inspired by the animated series...

One more writing project I am proud of is Alteration. It is not because of how much I wrote, but how much I am still planning, and how many Ideas I have for it. I have every single detail planned :)

With art it's a bit more tricky. Since I am not THAT proud of any of them, but BTTF 2 end scene redraw is still one of my favs :)

How many times were you late for school this year?

At least three times, due to reasons outside of my control. But I hate being late.

Did you watch any other movies/tv shows with BTTF actors in them?

My Favourite Martian (1999) Where Lloyd plays an Alien. I watched it because of my silly alien doc au. And I had an amazing angst idea out of it (I wrote it for June of Doom)

That is about it...

Was there a memorable moment you heard a Huey Lewis song this year?

In the car. My parents are tired of me ranting about BTTF so Imagine me (not a singer) scream-singing Back In Time. :DDD

How many times did you fall down this year?

Honestly, either I didn't. Or I did too many times to count. Cause I don't remember

Did you get to see BTTF: The Musical? What was your experience like!

No...

How many times did your mom retell the story of how she and your father met?

Not many, maybe once.

If you could describe your year in a BTTF quote, which one would it be?

This one is the toughest.

It will either be "I repeat, Verne, this is a fool's errand." "Does that mean you're coming?" I always tagged along when I knew my friend was making a dumb decision.

Or “Why do we have to cut these things so damn close?”

⚡️LIGHTNING ROUND⚡️ Did you get to: go on any trains, skate on a skateboard, ride a horse, drive a Delorean, run in the rain, go to a dance, hang up a clock, play the guitar, pull an all-nighter, read science fiction, or drive thru Burger King this year?

To the dance, I even went as Marty McFly. (Even if it was 80' themed I did not win, they did not get the joke :(

Your future is whatever you make it! So what are you going to make of this coming year?

More art. Even more angsty fanfiction :)

I am tagging @unknooooow and I believe everyone else has been tagged. Maybe @jayisnotdrawing @bri-to-the-future @brinkle-brackle and @bentothefuturee @pine-killer55

Game by: @mjf-af

#bttf #back to the future #bttf ask game #ask game #bttf tag game

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t00turnttrauma · 1 year

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sincerely yours

Part Three: A Royal Engagement

Word Count: 4.7k

Warnings: mentions of narcotic abuse

It had been a few weeks since Valerie accepted Josh’s proposal. You continued working on the garden, using it to avoid everything happening in the palace. Now, instead of using the speaker, you switched to earbuds. They still helped you pass the time but they kept you guarded from the world. Josh tried to strike up conversation a few times but he’d quickly noticed that you weren’t listening. The apology played in your head. No one would accept you as Queen consort, and that stung the most.

“Rise and shine princess!” Sam shouted, ripping the sheets from Jake’s bed. He should have been shocked when he found his bed empty. The youngest prince was far too used to finding an empty room so early in the morning. Jake often went missing for the night, sometimes for days.

He sighed, beginning to kick the laundry strewn around the room towards the bathroom. After the heirs reached 15, respectively, the housekeepers were only allowed to do the heavy cleaning once a week. Smaller tasks like collecting laundry and making the bed daily was the responsibility of the prince or princess. Sam was about to open the bathroom door to toss the old jeans and button ups into the hamper, but he was beaten by his older brother who used his free hand to towel his hair.

“Oh,” Sam said softly, shocked that his brother was awake at the ass crack of dawn. “Breakfast will be ready soon.”

Jake nodded, walking past his brother and to his dresser. “Thanks.”

Still just as confused and shocked at how calm he is, Sam finished his task, nearly slipping on the puddle of water Jake left on the floor. “How have you been?”

Jake shrugged, rolling a stick of deodorant beneath his arms. “Fine.”

“Are one word answers your thing now?”

“Yes.” Jake gave a cheeky smile, grabbing clothes from his wardrobe. “Now get out before I drop my towel, snot bucket.”

Feeling a twinge of normalcy, Sam couldn’t help but smile at the insult. “There’s the brother I know and lo- I’ll make sure to save you a blueberry scone.”

Jake flipped the lock to his room. Josh visited him the night before. Jake was lying on his bed, trying to fall asleep but the thumping from Sam’s room made it difficult. Josh walked in, turning his light on harshly.

“Jake, wake up.”

“Do you think I can sleep with the lovebirds next door?” Jake snipped, sitting up in his bed. Sam and Daniel had been an echo of giggles and praises all night.

Josh chuckled. “Yeah, they made up.”

“I gathered that.”

“You need to grow up. All of this partying bullshit is ridiculous. Do you really think you’re going to get anywhere?” The serious edge in Josh’s tone were his years upon years of teachings coming through.

“Where else is there to go, Joshua?”

“That’s the point, Jacob. You have all of it and you can’t smile for a few pictures and show up to places that we ask you to?” Josh placed a hand on his hip. This is not how he expected this night to go.

“Like some trained dog?” Jake scoffed. “This is exactly why I challenge the system. I can’t drink without a camera in my face. I can’t sit on the balcony without some creep with a telescope hanging from a tree waiting for me to screw-“

“The system? That system is our mother who does everything in her power to keep your name out of the mud. The same woman who cries when she sees you coming home drunk!” The future king sighed deeply. “I don’t want to fight anymore. I just came to ask you a favor.”

Jake rolled his eyes. “Yell at me and then ask for a fav-“

“Help me out here,” Josh pleaded. “This engagement is the biggest thing to happen in years. I just need you by my side to… put out a good image and at least make it seem like we’re on good terms.”

Jake clenched his jaw. “You have my word, brother.”

You dug through the grass, ripping up the stubborn weeds. The garden was proving more difficult as the project developed. The strong voice of Patsy Cline floats through the speakers, giving you a calming ambiance. She sang of heartbreak and missing out on relationships. While she wasn’t your favorite, the lyrics hit hard today. You sang along, hoping to get your mind off of the summer sun beating down on your back.

“If you love me half as much as I love you/ You wouldn’t worry me half as much as you do,” you sang, “You’re nice to me when there’s no one else around/ You only build me up to let me down.”

You sat back, grabbing the bucket of yard waste. The latest letter had you feeling more angry than heartbroken.

Y/N,

I have it all, Y/N. My home is my hidden treasure chest. There's grand pianos and everything I could ever ask for. Acres upon acres of land that we plant flowers and place statues of our history and hold celebrations. I know that you will never be queen if you and I decide to marry. But for you, I'd leave it all. My family fear that I'll lose so much if I take your hand but, for you, I'd leave it all.

Sincerely yours, PJ

The idea that Josh wrote you these letters, but continued to make the next steps with Valerie made you feel sick. While you worked on the garden, Valerie was inside taking lessons on courtesy and manners. Etiquette lessons are the foundation of any royal family. Despite not being in the family, you had your own lessons. You spent ages learning the different types of forks and how to eat without your back leaving contact with the chair.

The media storm started the moment the official announcement was made. It was the first marriage between senior members of the family since the King and Queen. Josh underestimated the insanity that would surround his news, completely overwhelmed with the crowds and constant requests for interviews. Every news outlet wanted to have the first interview. Valerie’s social media pages saw a jump in following before they were taken down. Custom to big announcements, like the birth of a child or engagement, there were photo ops and walkabouts and interviews given to create a bridge between the royals and the people and to give them time to warm up to the new addition. The family had been out of the house for most of the week, greeting the hordes of people who gathered outside of the home to see them.

“Y/N, get dressed,” Sam said, catching you in the hall. You started taking breaks from gardening in the middle of the day when the sun was the strongest. “Shower and then meet us on the balcony on the east wing. There’s no rush. There will be cameras.”

You did as told, finding a dress laid out on your bed when you came out of the shower. After quickly blow drying your hair, you met the family in the east wing of the palace. You looked around for a letter, wondering if the dress meant something. After drying your hair as fast as you could, you found the right shoes and rushed to the east end.

The Queen adjusted her son’s clothes, smiling widely at Valerie. “This is it. The tabloids know and the entire world is waiting to see you two, Josh, Valerie, as a couple.” She motioned for Sam. “Sam, Daniel, you’ll step up first. Hopefully the media will get a clue.”

Veronica stepped forward. “Then me.”

Jake nodded. “I’m next. With Y/N?”

The Queen looked around, her eyes landing on you. “Actually, Y/N. I was going to pair you with Jake, but that may send the wrong message. Would you feel comfortable going alone?” You nodded. “Good, then Josh and Val and then Kelly and I. Y/N goes last and you’ll stand wherever you find room.”

Edward jumped in. “It’s time, your majesty.”

Sam and Danny stepped out first, the crowd exploding into cheers at seeing the youngest prince with what the media calls his doting best friend and not long term boyfriend. Ronnie went next, waving lightly before stepping to the side. The camera flashes weren’t as blinding in the day. Jake went next, sunglasses on his nose and smiling. The crowd somehow became louder. A drone whirred in the air, capturing photos from up close. Josh offered Valerie his arm as the king and queen stepped out. They went last, standing front and center. The family posed, waving at their country and the global news companies. You stood in the back, a little shell shocked at the gaggle of screaming fans. Finally pushed to stand on the balcony, you waved down at the crowd.

Sam pulled you towards him, having you stand closer. “Just a few more minutes,” he mumbled. “Media circus at its finest.”

Lunch was served in the main hosting room, housing everyone who had come. Valerie’s family arrived, meeting the royals. You listened from the sidelines, much more interested in the greenhouse that had been built in one of the more private parts of the grounds. It was fairly new, the panes almost clear and clean. You wanted to ask Josh if it was due to his new interest but he seemed more occupied with his fiancee. She beamed at everyone in the room, almost making you feel uneasy.

Eventually, the siblings began to disappear, allowing you to slip out unannounced. You returned to your room, finding another letter on your bed with a yellow carnation laid on top of it. Checking your book, you found its meaning. Rejection. Part of you wanted to toss the entire letter and completely forget about it. Instead, you opened it, figuring that no harm would come from it.

Dearest Y/N,

I’ve given it a bit of thought and I have come to the conclusion that I’m afraid. I’m afraid of what I’ve become and afraid that someone may take my place. It sounds ridiculous, but my friends lie to me. They tell me I’m fine and that I’ll get through it, but I’m afraid I never will. Those who are honest with me tell me I’m too mean, too serious. It makes me want to scream. When I wake up, I’m terrified that I will look at myself in the mirror and I won’t recognize myself. I have many regrets, like ruining the relationship with my brother that I fear is far beyond repair. All I want is control of my life and bringing you into it would help me feel like I’m normal. Y/N, you help me remember what it’s like to enjoy the sun and forget about the silver spoons and crowns and designer suits. You make me feel human.

Sincerely, PJ

Your heart melted once again. Josh’s words made so much sense. He wasn’t in love with you, but he rather saw an exit to the royal family. You began to panic. Wedding plans are starting, and here was Josh, afraid of following his own path in fear of being shunned. The question came just as fast: is he thinking of abdicating the throne? And is it my fault?

You tiptoed around the family all day. Wearing your heart on your sleeve, you could never keep a secret for long. You avoided Sam. He’d figure you out in a heartbeat. By the time everyone left the palace, it was far too late to continue working on the garden. You counted the days for the Jubilee, finding that you were over halfway there from when you started. The idea of having to rush the rest of the project brought a sigh to your lips. Everything was going too fast.

You stared at your plans in the drawing room. The vision came together almost perfectly. All of the materials were there. If you worked through the day, even the hottest part, you’d finish it on time.

“Excuse me.” Valerie tentatively stepped into the room. She curtsied. “Hi, Y/N.”

You smiled at her. “Valerie, hi. Also, I don’t know if anyone told you, I’m just a friend of the family. You don’t have to curtsy.”

She cocked her head to one side. “Sam said-”

A laugh escaped your lips as you led her to the chairs in the corner. “Please. I don’t even know what- what did he tell you?”

Her face burned red beneath the makeup she’d been taught how to apply recently. “He told me that your parents died in the war and that they found you cowering in a cardboard box and you’re essentially a secret child.”

In an attempt to make her feel better, you rolled your eyes. “Of course he did,” you sighed. “The lake over on the other end of the palace grounds, that’s where my family lives. My parents are often gone for different events so I spend my time here.”

Valerie finally found the situation funny and began to laugh. “That makes so much more sense.”

The conversation fell into a lull. You considered making an excuse that you had work to do. Sitting beside her, you could feel the kind energy radiating off of her. She smiled, though her eyes looked worried. You decided to bite the bullet and ask her, “is there something bothering you, Valerie?”

“The media,” she said, a southern twang poking through, “they followed me around the shops today.”

“As future queen, you’re going to have to get used to it,” you said. “Just ignore them. Don’t interact with them. Just go about your normal business. Once your security detail is solid, they’ll protect you.”

“Should I keep it going?” Valerie asked. “With Josh, I mean. This is a big change. I’m used to being a big name, but this is so much more than I expected.”

You took a deep breath. This is your moment. Come clean about the letters. Tell her that Josh has been sending you love notes. Instead, you took her hand into yours. “I think that’s a decision you have to make for yourself. Josh would have never proposed if he didn’t think that you could handle it.”

You stopped. You finally had a chance to really look at the future duchess, future Queen Consort. She looked desperate and tired up close. Just an hour ago she’d been smiling for the cameras and clinging onto Josh but now she looked frazzled. You were met with a choice that would dictate both of their lives. Your answer would either ruin them or make them stronger.

“Do you love him?” You asked, leading her over to the chairs. The cameras outside flashed at the stirring of the tulle curtain.

She looked nervous at the commotion outside, picking at the wood on the chair. “I do, Y/N. So much.”

“Then I suggest you have a talk with him about the media. Remind him how you feel, give him some insight into that brain of yours.”

A door slam in the middle of the night jolted you awake. Shuffling in the hallway kept you from going back to sleep. You opened your door. Sam sat on one of the benches, his head in his hands. “What’s wrong?” You asked, sitting beside him. “I heard a door slam.”

He looked up, meeting your eyes in the moonlight. “I think it was the wind. Danny had the window open.”

“Another argument?”

Sam shook his head. “No.” He sighed. “Let’s just go to bed.”

You wandered through the palace. The silent palace reminded you of what it was like before everyone grew up.

“We can take a break,” Karen said, seeing the tired look in her son’s eyes. “That’s all for today.”

Josh nodded. He hugged his mother before leaving the room. He had about fifteen minutes before his foreign language lesson and after that he had tennis with his trainer. His days were spent inside the palace walls, learning rule after rule and old tidbits of history. Josh had to have this information drilled into his head to prepare him for his future. He followed the shouts and laughs echoing from the foyer. He looked over the balcony, seeing his brothers and their friends playing a round of indoor floor hockey.

“Josh!” Sam shouted, lifting his goggles. “Come play!”

Josh looked at the game that paused. Jake lifted his goggles, tapping the hockey stick on the ground. “You can take my spot. I need a water break anyway.”

You scoffed. “Wimp!” You laughed, tossing Jake a water bottle from the nearby table. He glared playfully at you before beckoning for his brother.

Josh thought about it. He could be pummeled by his siblings or he could run to his room for his workbooks. “Helmet,” he said, running down to the bottom of the stairs. Jake kicked off his roller skates, swapping them with Josh’s loafers. Once he was appropriately protected, he took his position.

You removed your mouth guard, learning the hard way that Sam was a pusher. “You’re on my team. Get the puck past Dan and between the tables.”

Josh nodded, spotting two end tables that were set up at the end of the hallway. He barely moved his goggles over his eyes before Sam barreled into him. He fell to the ground with a grunt. Upon shouts from you, he scrambled to his feet, using his stick to balance himself. He spotted the puck being tossed between you and Sam.

“Just accept it,” Sam said, blocking your stick from the disc. “You’re going to lose.”

Using the moment he was distracted, Josh swooped in. Jake cheered him on as he raced through the foyer. Josh took the panicked look on Danny’s face as a sign that he was still distracted enough. He took his shot, pulling his stick as far back as he could for a legal hit.

“Joshua!” The Queen called as the puck zoomed past Danny. The sound of the vase shattering brought the room to a halt.

Sam kicked off his gear, throwing as much as he could beneath the stairs. Jake disappeared just as fast, yanking you with him. Josh swallowed as he looked up at his mother. She frowned deeply as his Portuguese tutor stood behind her. Without saying a word, Josh tossed the stick to the side and took his goggles off. An apology ran through his mind as he trudged up the stairs.

“I’m so-“

“We’ll discuss this later. It’s time for your Portuguese lesson.”

Josh hung his head as he walked to the makeshift classroom. Veronica was already scribbling in her workbook. He shuffled behind the desk, opening to the next page.

The discussion he had with his parents after his daily lessons was one he’d never forget. He argued that his lessons were pointless, that Danny didn’t have to learn how to bow to the kings of Africa or be forced to play with the next generation of monarchs. At 15 years old, he was made to understand his purpose in life. He understood that as he grew older, his responsibilities would be taking care of his people. His mother sighed, knowing exactly how he felt. She’s been in his shoes when she was his age. She’d been caught arguing with a princess from another country over her dolls. Queen Karen held Josh’s hand. She explained that his poise and behavior and welcoming of new cultures could make or break their small kingdom. He seemingly matured overnight, shutting himself away from his rowdy brothers. Josh pulled all of his focus to his studies. He dedicated himself to his country, learning everything he could. He read book after book, annotating the margins and bookmarking the topics he found most interesting. He learned to block out the pillow fights and thumping of different games. Josh found himself far too immersed in the real world to remember himself.

Unable to sleep after Sam retreated to his own room, you took a stroll around the grounds. All sleep had been pulled from your body though you were still more than tired. The toll of gardening for weeks on end had taken its place as a dull ache in your lower back and peeling skin on your shoulders. You decided to see what the garden looked like in the night. Most of the flower beds had been situated and were ready for plants. The fountain finally had its pipes fixed and the benches were put back. You nearly jumped at the sight of a body sitting on the bench. Stepping closer, you recognized the mop of curls and pajamas.

“Josh,” you said, making your presence known.

He turned to look at you. “Y/N. How are you?”

“Fine. You?”

He sighed heavily. “Am I doing the right thing?” He stared out into the garden. “I mean I know marrying Val is what I want, but am I fit to be king?”

You furrowed your brow, attempting to get a better look at his face. He shook his head and looked down. “The monarchs often retire when their oldest turns 25 and are often crowned around their birthday. I’m almost 27.”

“Why don’t we take a seat?” You asked softly, leading him to the lawn chairs set on the balcony. “Where is this coming from?”

Josh wiped his cheek. “How can I keep my country together when I can’t even keep my family together?” He sniffed, tears falling freely. “Jake refuses to come out of his room anymore. Sam and Daniel are fighting because of the choice I made to propose. Veronica has been caught in the crossfire.”

You stayed silent. Josh always seemed put together.

“I can’t do this, Y/N. I was fitted for the crown this morning and it’s so heavy. When they said that it’s a big responsibility, they’re right. Not only do I have to keep this house together, I have to keep the country alive.” He pulled his sleeves over his hands, pressing them into his eyes. “It’s so much.”

“Take a deep breath, Josh.” You rubbed his back. “Take it one step at a time.”

“How? Everything is getting thrown my way.” He looked at you. “Can you just hold me for a moment?”

You leaned closer, pulling the future king into a hug. He wrapped his arms around you, crying freely into your shoulder. Unsure of how to comfort him, you stayed quiet. The realization of choosing between different shades of navy blue and arranging a seating chart is the easiest decision he’s going to make, which he can barely even make. All of it began to weigh on him heavily. Despite having Valerie by his side, he couldn’t bring himself to burden her. You’d been part of it since before, hearing conversations that you probably shouldn’t have. There was an understanding between you and Josh.

He pulled away after what felt like an eternity. He dried his tears and took a deep breath. Using his media training, he turned off the tap that controlled his tears and did his best to pat away the redness. “I should go say goodnight to my mother if she’s not asleep.”

Josh didn’t mention his breakdown at breakfast. In fact, he seemed happier. He smiled brightly, patting Sam’s head as he walked by and squeezing Danny’s shoulder. He greeted his fiance with a peck to the cheek before taking his usual spot at the table. You swallowed your pride, asking for extra hands to lay the bricks and fixing the flower beds. You could have done it alone, but not with the deadline nearing. The Queen granted your request and there was a team of people two days later. They helped you, beginning much earlier than you did in the morning.

You still did your work quietly, offering tips and gentle direction to your helpers. It felt like second nature by now, the vision you had coming to live. It wasn’t until Valerie finished her homework for the day, joining you in the garden, that you finally felt a connection to her.

“You don’t have to,” you said as she scooped a hefty amount of fertilizing dirt into a bucket, mimicking your movements.

She waved you off. “I’m sick of those lessons. I want to get my hands dirty and just… spend time with you.”

You smiled at her. The two of you worked quietly, patting down the fertilizer around the bushes you planted a few days prior. The mulch cut into your knees, keeping your focus from the burning of the sun on your clothed back.

“So your family owns a chain of grocery stores?” You asked, trying to make conversation with the tidbits you’d picked up here and there.

She nodded. “My grandfather started them.” She wiped the bridge off her nose. “Our farm has dairy cows and the local stores never agreed on a price, so he set up his own store.”

You chuckled. “That is the greatest origin story I’ve ever heard.”

Valerie filled you in on her family. They’re coming in the next few weeks to officially meet the family. They’d already met Josh over the course of their relationship. She spoke highly of her siblings who all went into agriculture or veterinary medicine. You listened intently, warming up to her presence. Another comfortable silence fell, cushioned by the other employees placing the bricks on the other side of the hedge and another crew cleaning up the last of the brick wall that had been knocked down with The Queen’s permission.

“Did something- what- I don’t know how to say this. What is up with Jake?” Valerie looked at you. “I wasn’t sure who else to ask and I think you’re the least likely to bullshit me.”

You sighed. “I really don’t know.” The reality of Jake’s gradual slip into whoever he is now hit. You’d never truly paid attention. He was just your best friend’s older brother. “Jake’s a good guy, just on a separate track.”

Valerie nodded. “I just haven’t seen much of him even though he’s here and he seems like a sore subject.”

You shrugged, looking at her and dusting the dirt from your hands. “They love him and like I said, I don’t know why he’s doing what he’s doing and even if it’s true. All I know is that they don’t know how to show their support without supporting his habits.” She hummed, quietly asking you to explain more. You scooted closer. The palace always had listening ears and people itching to spill secrets to the press for a hefty check. “Jake’s mixed into some stuff. We, meaning Sam and I, used to hang out with him a lot. I don’t really know when but one day he just… stopped coming along.”

It was weird when it unfolded and it was even weirder looking back. For four years before you left for university, you spent most of your time at the palace. After Sam’s morning lessons and lunch, you’d walk over and see what trouble you could get into. Usually the trouble involved some kind of relay race or physical game when Danny made it to the palace. Jake usually came out of his room when he heard the commotion that came from the three of you.

You always thought fondly of Jake. He was always your partner in the games, but you never knew him on a personal level. He excelled at marble floor hockey and often carried your team in the swimming relays. It felt like he’d just stopped hanging out overnight. Sam never really answered why, just muttering that he must have grown up before pulling you into another activity. Eventually the roughhousing turned into trashy reality tv watch parties and sleepovers where you’d take up the guest room. Rumors fly and the tabloids pick up every little noise happening in the palace walls. While Sam hated the assumption, he liked the idea that the public only assumed he and Daniel are friends, not a couple that has been together for years.

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