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trickshottruths · 1 year

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No Trust for Half Truths

Robyn + Qrow ( @littleblackqrow )

Robyn Hill, like her crossbow bolts - capable of going many directions at high speed, and once one path begins, will fly unstoppable, straight and true to a target, no matter how many ricochets it takes to get there.

Her right hand extends out to Qrow. He knows what it means by now, the challenge set forth.

Clearly he came here with something to say.

What had made him think this was a good idea? Clover had warned him. Sobriety had given him clarity, but Brothers he’d clearly gotten overconfident. But… if he was very careful he might be able to navigate this one. He might be able to bring a cease-fire in an entirely unneeded conflict at the very least. Don't push your luck-

He took her hand.

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“I know you want the truth, but… I don't think Clover is the right one to take it out on. Those aren't his secrets to share.”

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“You don’t think so, huh?”

Reply does not fall from her lips agreeably. Shade lines the hollows of her face with its phrasing, sarcasm drips from the quirked corner of her mouth, from the tilt of her head.

Robyn stopped believing in Clover the moment he stopped believing in the truth of what’s happening in Mantle. She takes nothing out on him. She’s going through him. Robyn Hill, like her crossbow bolts - capable of going many directions at high speed, and once one path begins, will fly unstoppable, straight and true to a target, no matter how many ricochets it takes to get there.

Her right hand extends out to Qrow. He knows what it means by now, the challenge set forth.

Clearly he came here with something to say. Something weighing on his conscience. The voice of a little bird on his shoulder which Clover had stopped listening to long ago. Clearly he came here knowing there are precious little topics she’d have to talk about.

Palm open, she beckons.

“…Are they yours?”

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That was an immediate challenge to what Qrow thought was going to be an offhanded comment.

He took her hand.

“Not all of them.” Qrow said, barely waiting for her aura to extend over him. “Some are James’, and while I’m not his biggest fan, there’s too much friendship there to betray his trust completely. Some are…. my mentor’s. And he died at the Fall of Beacon; cant exactly ask him at the moment if its ok to tell just anyone.” He felt fairly confident that would be true. Ozpin had died. Apparently Ozma was the one who reincarnated.

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Robyn grins as Qrow accepts. Curiosity, excitement, reaching out to tap into another’s aura. Pleased that Qrow is at least half the man she hopes he is, and ecstatic that she might finally get some useful answers.

But with his answer their connection obviously turns green, and the woman can only laugh, short shots fired off into the night air, fighting off the pang of hurt she felt when Qrow speaks of lost loved ones for the sake of the mission at hand.

“Brothers, I really hoped there’d be more brains somewhere above that beard of yours. You misunderstand me.”

Her fingers curl closed, but don’t tighten. Qrow’s free to pull back whenever he likes. It’s simply easier for her if he doesn’t.

“I don’t actually care whose secrets they are. I care who they’re about,” growing frustration remains evident in the grit of her voice, “I just want to know who we’re really up against.”

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There was no move to pull away. He’d clearly passed some sort of test there, and it was a shot of confidence right in the arm. Maybe he could navigate this.

He took a deep breath, and said, “A threat. Not an approaching army from another kingdom like what Jimmy feared with this stupid embargo. This threat is the same one that caused the Fall of Beacon, and the attack on Haven a few weeks ago. I cant tell you when its coming, or what its going to look like. I dont know, not yet. They infiltrate into organizations - like at Beacon, they posed as students. These terrorists’ only goal is to destroy the Kingdoms completely.”

That felt safe enough. Qrow hadn't lied, but he also hadn't given Robyn anything particularly shocking either. Anyone paying attention would notice the pattern of Academies getting attacked.

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Qrow has her rapt attention, violet eyes boring into his, waiting for this all to lead somewhere,

…and then it lands right amidst a pile of vague replies and obvious conclusions and things that leave her with only more questions,

…and the green covering their arms shifts to a fading, flickering yellow,

so Robyn growls and yanks her arm away, glaring, sweeping her arm across her chest in a gesture of how brushed off she feels! “You and those kids. You’re all the same. Dancing around the truth!”

“You didn’t come here for help,” she points towards the ground - the direction this conversation is headed - and her boot thumps with an angry stomp into the ground! “You came here to placate me…!”

She steps back, away, yet again to slink away like a hunted, wounded animal, and maybe it’s just as well when she shows her teeth to protect her own.

“You know, Five O’clock, I almost thought you were more than another one of Ironwood’s yes-men. I can honestly say I’m disappointed.”

But go ahead. Keep underestimating her.

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Just his luck. There had been a severe miscommunication about how Robyn’s semblance functioned somewhere down the line, and now Qrow had gone and stepped in it.

Qrow’s grip remains on her hand, firm and steadfast, even as she stomped and yanked him around. “I’m not done yet, Robyn Hill. I’m here to warn you because I doubt that Jimmy has given you any sort of heads up. But I already told you I wasn't going to break my word.

“I don't work for Ironwood. I’m working with him right now, but don't fucking insult me by comparing me to one of his lap dogs.” He took a deep breath, collecting his thoughts. “If you want to protect Mantle, I suggest you figure out how to question better. I cant give you direct information, but if you were to figure it out on your own…”

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He’s stronger than he looks, and blonde hair whips around as Robyn looks back and forth to where he holds tight, eyes narrowing to dangerously sharp lines, even as rippling waves turn green again.

The nerve. She’d meant to hit one and she did. At least Qrow confirms he is bound by choice and not orders.

“Warn me? Warn me?” she nearly shrieks, “You mean to tell me you believe my life and the rest of Mantle is on the line, and you’re pulling this shit on me? Hasn’t Clover mentioned I don’t deal in half-truths?”

A scoff, all that anger beginning to fizzle into hurt exasperation, “Tell me, oh so loyal, not-lapdog. What exactly is the difference between me jumping through hoops and wasting time to get you to spill enough information to effectively break your word anyway, and just telling me straight like a fellow human being?“

These are not test questions of a quiz. Merely the venting of Robyn’s own heart bleeding through. This is a stupid game played by people unwilling to trust her, and she’s had enough. There are multiple ways to get her answers. Ones that don’t involve dumb men acting like they care when their priorities lie elsewhere.

Internally, she sighs a great big sigh, and figures maybe she was always going to turn out to be a criminal, since that’s what everyone’s treated her like.

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“Because I don't know fully if I can trust you.” Qrow answered with utter conviction. “I cant find a single person who gives me a good reason why I shouldn't, but I also don't know you yet.

“From what I’ve seen, though, you’re someone Mantle looks up to. You want the best for these people, and you want to achieve that by working together. My mentor would like you. … I wish you could have this discussion with him, because he’d certainly do a lot better than I am.” He sighed, face dropping just a little as Qrow thought about how much better Ozpin would be at managing this situation. My fault we’re in this bind.

“Ironwood may not see the benefit of letting you even peek behind the curtain, but I don't believe in leaving potential allies on the board in uncertain play. If you’re the woman I’m led to believe you are, you’ll find out the truth sooner rather than later. But its better to have an idea of what it looks like, rather than have it all dropped on your lap in the middle of a crisis. And believe me, if these people aren't headed off a the pass, there will be another crisis like the Fall.”

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That internal sigh becomes far more external. Qrow breathes out a bunch of hot air, flattery and deflection, and somehow, especially as green still shimmers to reflect them both, especially as his own, genuine personal touches are woven in - those tiny human connections she’d asked for - it works to get Robyn to take a breather of her own.

Validation isn’t trust, but it’s a step in the right direction. And it feels good compared to every other tiresome hurdle she’s faced so far.

She, apparently, can’t bring her arm back until he allows it, but her semblance drops. She knows what range she’s working with, can read it all over him without it. And it’s useless anyway if he’s going to make her run in circles just to trick it.

She shakes her head, and hurts. She wishes it didn’t have to be like this. It doesn’t have to be like this. She could do something if she knew something, and if people could just be straight with her, she wouldn’t have to be like this either.

A softer tone speaks with idealism, and the bitter sting of life not living up to it.

“Pieces of the truth aren’t a firm foundation to build a solution on, you know? And anyone who can’t function in a crisis doesn’t deserve to call themselves a huntress. Sure, we can potentially work together under potential trust, to potentially stop this secret enemy if any of you potentially pull your heads out of your asses. Until then, I’m going to continue to unite and fight for people instead of withholding information and supplies and acting like it’s fair to put people in very real danger now to potentially save some others later. You’ve been incredibly unhelpful, but hey, sounds like you got some guilt off your chest by pointing out the obvious and considering it camaraderie. …Are we done here?”

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He sighed, letting the tension bleed out of his shoulders. Qrow didn't grip her hand nearly as hard, but he continued holding it.

“What I wanted to tell you,” Qrow said softly. “Is that this enemy is old and never comes at its target directly. It works from the shadows, exploiting people’s fears and making fault lines between people stronger. In Vale, they used the White Fang as their fall guys. At Haven, they tried the same thing. Probably would have destroyed the school if the militia from Menagerie hadn't made it there in time.

“Atlas right now is on a knife’s edge. If one thing breaks the balance that you, James, and Schnee have created, how likely is it that things escalate? I wanted to warn you to keep an eye on potential infiltrators. Increase your security. This enemy wants us too focused on each other to put up an organized defense against whatever it is they’re going to throw at us. I can give you one or two names to keep an eye out for, but I don't know everyone on our enemy’s payroll. I’ve been a bit too busy chaperoning kids to do my… normal investigative work.”

Did he think that was going to satisfy her curiosity? No. But Qrow had to content himself that this was more information than James had probably given her. And if she asked the right questions, he’d happily divulge more.

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He almost had her. Call her too soft for someone willing to hold her hand and see her soul and stand there with her. Call her curious enough at finally some new information that still wasn’t helpful in practice, but gave her that hint that this sounded even deeper than some terrorist coup.

And then he tries to tell her how to do her job with advice that is far too late.

“There you go again, potential,” she spits, and pulls her arm back with as much strength as it takes. She doesn’t want someone who’d say that touching her in the slightest.

It’s like a sucker punch to her gut, sweeping her focus away, twisting the dagger to spill blood as she sees red, so very much blood, “You’ve already been infiltrated, idiot! Or have you forgotten about election night already? When your extra security failed to do its job. Or is that not escalated enough for you to care? Doesn’t count til it reaches up to Atlas, does it?”

She pauses for breath, but it only makes her madder, “The pipsqueak was right there, and her friends were the first to come to me with at least one answer. Sounds like both your chaperoning and your investigation need work.”

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“Dammit Robyn! I am trying to do my best here, but there are some things that you’re better off not knowing yet!” Now that their hands weren't connected, Qrow flung his in the air, palms out.

“No one’s keeping you in the dark because they think you cant handle the truth. Jimmy is paranoid; he believes that you’re going to go out and spill every state secret he has!” Qrow pinched his nose and took a few small breaths.

Since she brought up election night… That was one thing that Qrow could give freely. “Your friend… the faunus woman. She was poisoned, right? Purple, some sort of long lasting toxin?” He paused, long enough to see the potential recognition in Robyn’s face. “That sounds like the creep I fought in Anima. Scorpion faunus. I don't know his name, but he’s a nasty one.” Qrow put his hand over the freshly healed scar and grimaced. “Nearly put me in the ground. He is a member of our enemy’s inner circle.” He could not keep calling Salem that. Even Qrow was beginning to get tired of it.

“… The Witch also has under her a man by the name of Hazel. Big bastard, can inject Dust right into his arms because his semblance lets him block out pain. He seems calm and collected, but he packs a punch. My back is still sore from Haven.”

The last one I know for sure…” Qrow’s voice dropped down into something closer to a hateful growl. “Cinder Fall. She’s the one who orchestrated the Fall of Beacon, and attempted to destroy Haven. Its hard to say if she’s in play, or still off licking the wounds that my sister probably gave her. She’s the one responsible for killing my mentor, and the reason why these kids are involved.”

Qrow crossed his arms and glowered at the woman across from him. “I don't have a problem sharing what I know when its my secrets Robyn. I’ve been at this game for far longer than Jimmy has. I’m just not normally the one who decides to bring people into the fold. I fill them in after the fact.”

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Robyn has almost a thousand things to say, steps forward and opens her mouth, but is left no room to say them while Qrow rambles off.

Talked over, as usual.

But the further he gets, the less she cares to interrupt.

It’s not his decision to make what she knows or not. Ironwood being paranoid is a given. Fiona wasn’t poisoned, she was clawed, but the memory of a purple, glowing stinger pegs the person Qrow talks about enough for her eyes to flash.

Weight shifts back from an angry stance to a thoughtful one. Names, she finally has names and profiles. And she didn’t even have to ask.

She gets her answer, no matter how many ricochets.

“Now,” her hands move out to her sides too, but lower, more open, “was that so hard? I’ll find out whatever it is I need to know to protect Mantle, don’t you worry. But this is a better start. And a path to some payback.”

Knowing the name of the attacker soothes some of her ire over the night. And she almost feels sorry for Qrow that he’s starting to sound as frustrated as she is. Gloved hand comes up to her chin while she thinks aloud, “So some witch and her own Generals are out to ruin the world, huh? No wonder The General’s got his military tights in a twist. Sounds like he’s out of his league. and his ego won’t let him admit it. …But that’s still no excuse for making Mantle pay the price to try and make himself bigger. ”

They’ve already given so much for so long while only those in the sky see the benefit. She’s no intention of stopping her pursuits until she knows the entire truth, if it gives her a reason to. But she’s beginning to have a feeling that’s not what this man is here to convince her of.

Robyn moves towards instead of away again, tilts her head one more time, “Anything else you want to fill me in on, then?”

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Finally they were back in a place that Qrow felt more comfortable, and he dragged a hand through his hair in a gesture of relief. “I don't disagree that Jimmy likes making himself look good. He always has done that for as long as I’ve known him. Its one of the many reasons I would never work with him willingly under normal circumstances, but you’ve pegged it.

“This Witch and her generals outclass Atlas just in terms of raw power. You could say she’s almost in league with the Grimm. They certainly aid in her goals. I’m sure you’ve heard about the Wyvern frozen in place at the top of Beacon’s tower. That's the sort of power heading towards us.” Qrow pulled out his flask, finding his throat dry. Ruby freezing the Wyvern had been a fluke, one that they could not count on working every time, as they’d seen with the Leviathan.

He took a deep breath, and asked a question of his own, hoping to coach Robyn to a path of understanding without actually saying anything. “Solitas is up here all on its own. Isolated because of geography and protectionist politics. War game this out with me for a moment. What would you do, knowing the resources that are here, and knowing that an enemy that has already crippled one kingdom, and was barely fended off in another was coming?”

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Violet eyes raise from their contemplation and Robyn’s hand finds her hip, one brow raising in invitation.

“It’s starting to sound like you came here less to warn me, and more like you’re rethinking who to lend your services to. I thought you didn’t trust me, now you want my opinion?”

She shakes her head as she considers the question. A single one which is worse than any of the interview she’s done before. Politics were a necessary evil, not necessarily her strong point. But with a crumbling reputation, and apparently questioning support, she’s beginning to wonder if it’s Ironwood’s either.

“Hah!” Robyn sneers, “Wouldn’t it be nice if I did know what resources the kingdom has? Unfortunately the best stuff is classified. Aaaand the proper clearance comes with that council seat I lost, so my ideas don’t matter now, do they?”

Just a little bitter.

“But I’ll tell you one thing,” her arm hand holds out and fingers fold open in gesture, not challenge this time, “I’d be expanding our borders, not closing them. If someone’s out there trying to pick us off one by one? One kingdom at a time? It tells me that true strength would come from united numbers.”

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“I don't trust you,” Qrow agreed. “But we have a common enemy in more ways than one. The scorpion faunus that attacked your people nearly killed me in Anima, and I would dearly like to pay him back for that. Preferably lethally.”

At her actual idea, Qrow snapped his fingers and pointed at her like he would have one of his students, “Right. Now, obviously, as we’ve pointed out, James is paranoid. I doubt even friendship would be able to get me out of this if he knew I was talking to you, not without a lot of fast talking. I don't understand why he’s not recruiting the Huntsmen of Atlas to help his cause, but I suppose that’s what a shitty institution like the military does for you.”

Qrow took a long pull of his flask before he continued. “How would you get the word out with global communications down, especially if you’re a paranoid idiot who thinks that the other kingdoms blame him specifically for the Fall of Beacon?”

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And her face falls flat once more. Robyn thought they’d been building some sort of bridge, beginning to trust - with her dropping her semblance and him coming further forward, maybe he could even be becoming someone who’d see it her way; her prior statement carried sarcasm in its intent, …but his admission sends that all up in flames. It stings.

And a common enemy doesn’t change the fact that he’s working with another of hers, and continues pledging his loyalty. He prattles, and then points at her. …so that’s what it feels like to be on the other end. Patronizing. (Well, that’s why she usually does it.)

“I don’t think so,” she swats his hand and flicks her head to turn away, “I said I’d tell you one thing, and I meant it. No more stalling, and no more free ideas or insight into how I do things. Run on back to the paranoid idiot you keep insisting you trust more than me, then.”

Extra, unearned bite to those last few words suggest she’s said them before. Just. a little. Bitter. She doesn’t want to do this again.

“I’ve got people here and now to worry about instead of playing your ‘what if’ games.” Target information acquired, she can take it from here without jumping through hoops of 20 questions or 20 answers; she’s leaving, and her arms tense, ready to pull her weapon if he tries to stop her this time, “Goodnight, Qrow.”

And yet, as the weight of some recognizable names and implications upon implications of things he’s said sinks in, and she softens in the space of solitude, an unwitting utterance overcomes her in a whisper on her way out, “…stay safe.”

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And he blew it again. Gods dammit.

It didn't feel right to let her go off again like that, but it also wasn't his place to stop her. Or follow for that matter. Qrow ground his teeth in frustration, and actually stamped his foot.

“What do you want from me, Robyn?” He demanded, raising his voice as she walked away, “Throw fifteen years of…” What were he and James? Friends did quite cover everything, and neither did colleagues. “Uh… camaraderie and trust out the window? If I were just risking me being tossed in Jimmy’s brig that’d be one thing, but my nieces are here, and I have to look out for them!

“I cant tell you specifics of what he’s doing. I can tell you what his goal is. And I can tell you why. If something as catastrophic as what happened in Vale is heading towards Atlas, and the best solution is to call for help…?” Qrow left it open ended, hoping that the hint was enough.

“But fine, if you’d rather not.” Qrow sighed and turned away. “You know where to find me. You and Clover deserve a more fulsome truth, and I doubt James has even told Clover everything he needs to know.”

He didn't wait for an answer, or to turn and see if she’d stopped walking. The only sound was the soft flutter of wings, and a black feather or two fluttering back towards the ground. Mistakes had been made.

#( you're not the only one who's feeling this way || littleblackqrow )#( whatever rocks life throws / each rock is a stepping stone || thread archive )#this was such a good thread!!!#let!!! your!!! characters!!! fuck up!!!!#let it end on a bad note!!!!#conflict!! yasss!!!

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literalite · 2 years

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i know u didn't ask for opinions but id say hydro user

her like Colour is blue so like ive been deliberating it idk

#i might choose one of the other prompts i cba making a whole ass like detailed outfit somehow for her but. Thoughts..#no idea on what weapon but i cant in good conscience do a catalyst bcos theres already like three female hydro catalysts LMFAO #ask #reply #anonymous

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parasolids · 2 years

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been feeling just straight up bad all the time for the past couple months so i made plans to hang out with my mom and my friends but then my coworker hopefully unknowingly came to work with covid and he's from a different department/building but unluckily for me for some reason he was in my building on wed sitting next to me, and he seemed fine then but now he's out with covid and there are just no covid tests available til wednesday so i get to spend the weekend at home quarantining instead. but lucky me i do get to keep coming in to work cause i can't get a positive test and since i'm still a contractor if i do test positive i do not get paid. 40% of the salaried employees at my workplace are out with covid but god forbid anything ever lock down ever when there's money to be made

#my job is contract to hire and everyone whos on the company's payroll does get paid sick leave im just unlucky #since they hire after around 6 months and ive only been here since october #cactus.txt #i really do want to just go out and my mom keeps asking me if i want to go do the thing we were planning anyways #or if i wanna go do groceries with her or something but it feels like a bad idea to go out since i know ive been exposed #just man im sad and now i have to be sad at home where im stuck with it instead of outside where i can focus on something else #was really looking forward all day to my plans for tonight too and then found out i got exposed in the Parking Lot while i was Leaving Work #but i cant go out in the first place in good conscience knowing i might be carrying it

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bri3ll3 · 2 years

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the other woman - tasm!peter parker

pairing: tasm!peter parker x black!reader, peter parker x gwen stacy

summary: you’ll always be the other woman

warnings: angst, heart break, one-sided love, mentions of death and greiving

a/n: this is what you get when i listen to the other woman and think of peter and gwen. i have no clue what is up with me and that one sided love trope but i love using it and writing for it is so much fun. i really hope you guys enjoy this as much as i enjoyed writing it <333

i loved peter the moment i saw him on that play ground when we were five years old. he had fallen off the swing and of course me being me i helped him.

“hey you okay” i ask kneeling beside him, he nods as tears continue to fall down his face. i looked down and saw him holding his knee, i looked up at him again and he was looking directly at me. “can i see your knee” i asked and he nods before uncovering it, i gasp as i see the big cut on his knee he hisses as the breeze touches his knees “im sorry” i squeal and he laughs a little making me smile. “im ok don’t worry” he says and i smile a little bigger and nods l.

“i’m y/n” i say as i hold my hand out and he takes it, i pull him up with a little struggle but get him to stand up right. “peter” he says with a goofy smile. “nice to meet you peter would you like to play, we don’t have to because you just fell” i ask and he nods “i wanna play” he says and he grabs my hand again.

and ever since then we had been inseparable. i was there with him for everything, the good and the bad. i was there when he rode a skate board for the first time and when he became spider man, i was also there when his parents and ben died. i helped peter through everything even getting his first girlfriend.

peter was absolutely head over heels for gwen, he would do anything for her in a heart beat. i remember the first time we talked about her after he met her.

“y/n she’s so amazing, i think i’m in love” peter sighs and i smile at how happy he is “what is she like” i ask and he looks at me with the biggest smile on his face. “she’s like a shot of espresso” he says like he’s day dreaming.

i smile once again, feeling my heart chip “im happy for you, she seems amazing” the words are truthful, gwen seems like a wonderful but i just wish i was in her position. “she is, she is more than amazing actually words can’t describe how great she is” he goes on and once again i smile through it.

“im happy for you pete, you deserve it”

the day they got together i cried myself to sleep, feel my heart continuing to chip slowly. i had boyfriends through out their relationship but none of them lasted seeing a though i was in love with my best friend.

the relationship didn’t last long, they broke up after her fathers funeral and he was an absolute mess. he already felt like his death was his fault but leaving gwen was the icing on top of the cake, and once again i helped him through it.

“peter none of it is your fault, he made that choi-” i say gently but i’m cut off “you don’t get it, he’s dead because of me and i left gwen when she needed me the most because when i- i look at her i remember the promise i made to her dad and i- i cant break that promise” he yells, startling me.

the room was silent for a moment, the air suddenly becoming cool “if you want what’s best for gwen you keep that promise but if you want what’s best for you then that’s a decision you have to come to on your own and know that there will be consequences with that” i say before getting up to leave his room.

“if you need anything you know i’m always a call away” i remind gently before closing his door

peter broke the promise and got back together with gwen not too long after her father funeral, once again my heart chipped.

by senior year they were inseparable but peter was dealing with his own problems. the promise he broke was constantly on his mind, haunting him. on the day of our graduation peter was contemplating not being with her because his conscience was finally getting to him.

“y/n it’s like every time i’m spider-man i see his face and the words he told me replay in my head on a constant loop” he explains and i nod “it’s eating alive because i don’t want to break her heart but i don’t want her to be in danger because of me” i explains and i nod.

“would you rather her have a broken heart or her end up hurt or even worse dead because i know you and you wouldn’t be able to live with yourself if she got hurt because of who you are” i explains and he nods.

that night at her dinner be called it quits and they were both heartbroken but over time they both healed, or at least that’s what it seemed like because quickly after they ended up seeing each other again. peter explained it to me as trying to be friend with her which i could tell he was trying to do but, it was eating him alive not being with her all the time.

shortly after they got back together gwen died and that night peter showed up at my windows needing some type of comfort.

i opened my windows and helped him climb into my bed room, i knew by his body language that something was off so i pulled his mask off gently and laid it on my bed. i looked up at his face and saw that tears were falling down his cheek “what happened” i asked barely above a whisper and he chokes on his sob.

“gwen’s dead” he says and my heart drops, i feel tears well in my eyes not just got my own heart break but peters as well. “she’s gone” he sobs and falls to the ground talking me with him, i pull him into me and he cries into my shoulder. he clings onto me as if i’m his life line.

that night i cleaned peter up, bathed him, dressed him, and put him to sleep. it was like he couldn’t function so i did everything for him and it went like that for months after her death.

he got better with each day, coming back to his senses. he still refused to be spider-man no matter how bad the city was getting, crime was up 43 percent and he was still sitting in the house. well at least until i encouraged him a little.

“peter i know you’re all woe is me but you need to get the fuck up and put that suit on and go help the city, last night two women got abducted hell i almost got mugged the other night” i express “it’s not safe anymore peter and the people are i need of a man in a red and blue suit peter” i finish and he nods.

“you sound like gwen”

there would be many more comments like that over time, if i was patching him up it would be “oh gwen’s would to it this way” or if i was cooking it would be “gwen would add this” and it was never ending.

and the more and more he made those comments the more and more he thought it was acceptable. one night it all just became too much and i lost it.

“peter i really need you to help around the house” i beg and he shrugs “peter i don’t get it i’m doing the absolute best i can to keep everything together all im asking is for you to help around the house” i yell and he gets up.

“im going through a rough time” he says and i nod “i know and i’m trying to help but i can’t do everything myself” i say and scoffs. “gwen would be more understanding” he says and i lose it.

“well newsflash peter im not gwen” i yell “i cant be gwen and i’ll never be gwen’s but i can be y/n because that’s all i can be” i yell. he looks at me with an apologetic look on his face and i walk away from him and go to my room and shut my door.

that night i cried myself to sleep knowing i’ll always be the other woman.

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uhhhh this has been bothering me for a bit but i remember you reblogging a post that went something along the lines of "don't turn nice characters into rapists uwu" or something like that and yeah that post was cool yknow great message but uhh you've literally interacted with people who turn sidon into a rapist or with people who have rape kinks and it seems kind of hypocritical on your part... like you're a real nice guy sid but practice what you preach please lol

yeah i know what youre talking about. i realize now it is real hypocritical n i apologize for that. idk how to phrase it well but i am sorry n ill not do it again

#asks #i worry this comes across as angry or bitter im not im 100% sincere #im just not so good with words sometimes #idk why im so fuckin thirsty for her approval and attention anyways #but youre right i cant in good conscience be against that and still interact with people who do #rape m /

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nebulousfishgills · 3 years

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In Reality

Request by @nosfera1 : hiiiii is your request open? i was wondering if i could ask for an angsty wanda x fem!r fic where they've been in a relationship for a year and r is absolutely head over heels with her. r planned their anniversary date and during that dinner wanda confesses that she's only been dating r to move on from her previous relationship the whole time and cant carry it in her conscience anymore? make it reaaally really heart wrenching as possible please. thank youuuuu

Ah, thank you so much for sending in your request!! (Yes, requests are open lol). I'm always excited to recieve a new request, especially for a character I have yet to write for!

I hope I get this the way you want! ❤

Warnings: Angst, feels, fluff (but like, fake?)

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"Wan, are you okay?" You asked, noticing your girlfriend looking a bit uncomfortable. Her hands were in her lap, her eyes staring at the table or the wall, and she seemed like she was zoning in and out. "Wanda?"

"What? Oh, yes, dear?" She asked, jerking up from looking at the muted paisley tablecloth.

"I was wondering if you were okay." You repeated.

"Yes, I'm alright, dear. Just a little tired is all." She said, showing her teeth in a smile that almost seemed forced. You chose to ignore it.

"I was going to say, but I didn't want to be rude." You said, chuckling.

"We've been together for a year, we can tell each other anything."

"I'm glad you feel that way."

The waiter brought your dishes not long after that, the thin veil of steam curling off the top of the Italian dishes you ordered. Your glasses were refilled and parmesan was grated on top of your meals.

You started nearly scarfing down your food, the wait having been a little too long without a breadstick refill. You watched Wanda gently cut through the meatballs on the top of her pasta, dividing them into quarters. The delicate movement entranced you for a moment, a bashful smile creeping onto your face.

To say you loved Wanda would be a severe understatement. The past year you had been together was the best year of your life. Before, you had been in a slump, everything seeming sad and dreary. You had been having a particularly bad day that day, as a matter of fact. You missed the bus in the morning, so you had to walk to work. Halfway through, it started raining buckets and you had no umbrella. You were lucky your boss was so understanding, else she would have reprimanded you for sure for being late. Still, the woman signed your paychecks; staying on her good side was in your best interest.

While pondering your latest excuse for being late to work again, it suddenly stopped raining.

No, someone was holding an umbrella over you.

That someone happened to be Wanda, offering her umbrella to you to shelter from the storm. You took one look at her and it was as if the color started to soak back into your previously grey world. Not only was this woman going out of her way to help you, she was beautiful as well.

Wanda held the umbrella over your head while you both walked to where you worked (she didn't mind in the slightest; she didn't have a set destination when she started walking). You told each other a few things about yourselves to pass the time. You were working at your current job until you could afford to move to a better part of the city. The apartment you lived in currently had a lot of small problems that would pop up every now and then that would take your savings. Your dishwasher had just broken and you needed to save up to get that replaced.

Wanda told you about things in her life, too. Her brother had died a few years ago in what she called a "tragic accident." Her last relationship had ended pretty suddenly more recently, so she took frequent walks to give herself something to do.

Suddenly your dishwashers woes seemed so nominal.

You arrived at the building you worked at and Wanda bid you goodbye. Though, not before passing you a small slip of paper with a few digits on it you recognized as a phone number. You went pink and walked into your office, sending a text to Wanda as soon as you sat down. You saw each other more frequently after that, going on your first date not long after.

And here Wanda was, sitting in front of you with her steaming pasta and quarter sliced meatballs. You ate your dinners in silence to start, the only noises between you two being the scratches of utensils on plates and quiet chewing.

After a few minutes, you noticed Wanda poking at her pasta with her fork. She hadn't eaten very much. Her chin rested on her other hand, the food on her plate starting to cool down.

"Wan, are you sure you're okay?" You asked. "You've barely eaten anything."

"I'm fine..." Wanda replied, letting out an exhale as if she were holding her breath. She put the fork down and rested her hand on the table.

"Wanda, it's okay. If something's bothering you, you can tell me." You said, resting your hand on top of hers. She took it, rolling your fingers in hers. She pulled her hand back and rested it in her lap, her other hand following suit. She took a breath.

"Y/N, can I tell you something?" She asked.

"Anything, Wan." You said. Wanda took in another breath and looked you in the eyes. That's how you knew she was getting dead serious with you.

"This isn't easy but... I can't keep holding it in. I can't do this anymore." She said.

"Can't do what?"

"This." She wagged her finger in between the two of you. Your breath hitched in your throat.

"What do you mean? You can't do--?" You asked, your voice cracking slightly.

"No, I can't." Wanda cut in. "Listen, Y/N, I'm telling you this now so I don't hurt you worse later on. I can't keep stringing you along."

"'Stringing me along?' Wanda, I don't understand. Don't you love me?"

"I... I... No. It's just..." Wanda bit her lip and averted her gaze from you.

"Just what? Something I did? What did I do, Wanda?"

"Nothing! You did nothing! It's not you, Y/N, it's just..."

"Wanda, are you joking? One year, Wanda! This is our one year anniversary and you're telling me this now??" You asked, the tears streaming down your face through your anger.

"I know, it's not ideal, but I couldn't find time to tell you before!"

"Couldn't? Or wouldn't? You're telling me you lied to me for a year, Wanda. Why?"

"Because I needed a distraction, okay? My last relationship ended badly and I was having a hard time getting over it. I thought you would... provide support until I could get back on my feet." Wanda admitted. Your face got hotter as the realization sunk in. Your voice got low as you continued speaking.

"You used me? You dated me to get over someone else? Is that all I was to you? Just a distraction? A plaything?" You growled.

"Y/N, you don't understand--"

"Oh, no, I understand plenty, Wanda." You stood up from your seat, throwing on your jacket and grabbing your handbag. You looked at the half empty water glass at your seat and picked it up. You examined the water inside for a moment, looking at Wanda over the rim. "I'd throw the water in your face right about now, but unlike you, I have standards on how people should be treated. Like a person with feelings and not something you use to play pretend with."

You downed the rest of the water and put the glass back on the table.

"Y/N--" Wanda said weakly, but you cut her off with a pinch of your fingers.

"Not another word, Wanda." You snapped, before turning around to walk away. "Don't even try to call me."

You burst out of the restaurant and sat down on one of the stone benches out front. You sent a quick text to your friend asking for a ride home, sending the address. Wanda had driven you here.

"What happened to your date?" Your friend asked.

"I don't wanna talk about it."

"Alright. I'm on my way."

You shut off your phone and stared up at the sky. Not a moment later, thunder rumbled above you and it started to rain.

You had no umbrella to cover you.

Finally, you allowed yourself to cry, your tears mixing with the rainwater that dripped onto your face. You let everything out, all the anger and sorrow until your throat went raw.

The headlights of your friend's car pierced through the wall of rain. You stood up and ran over, climbing inside of the heated car. You let out a sigh and leaned back against the seat.

"You okay?" Your friend asked. You didn't reply, just turned to look out the window, the raindrops gliding down it. As the car started pulling away, someone ran outside of the restaurant, screaming your name.

Wanda.

You looked at her as your friend pulled out of the parking lot. Wanda caught sight of you inside the car, watching you leave. You just stared back at her coldly as your friend whisked you away back home.

As soon as you got back to your apartment, you blocked Wanda's number and collapsed onto your sofa. Tears leaked down your face as you fell asleep.

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alreadyblondenow · 3 years

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One is a big number | Lee Taeyong

❤︎ Taeyong x female!reader ❤︎ Very fluffy, Smut, Smut, Tiny bit of angst, Highschool AU, Strangers to lovers, Love Alarm universe, Love Alarm au? ❤︎ 1/4 for LOVE MONTH SERIES: Boys Don’t Cry One is a big number | You and your words | Sweet | He loves me, he loves me not |

Summary: Under the universe of Love Alarm, you rang Lee Taeyong’s Love Alarm loud and proud and you as a new girl at the school, has his attention more than anything else.

Word count: 7,682k

Warnings: Protected sex, loss of virginity, touching, teasing, making out, corruption, goodbye innocence, mentions of first base to home run, taeyong having a boner while kissing, all that high school exploring in bed while Taeyong’s parents are not home, Trusting an app regarding love, swearing, mentions of alcohol, mentions of other idols

A/N: PURE FICTION. PURE FICTION. PURE FICTION. This will be very fluffy because I wanted to start February on a light note. hehe. Also, this is inspired by First Love by NCT 127 under Loveholic’s single. It’s a good thing that I finished this before they announced that First Love is all about your first... love... hahaha so I had time to incorporate in more with my fic. As always, I enjoy writing for my Bubu. Happy reading!

For NCT-WRITER’S FEBRUARY EVENT, LOVE ALARM @nct-writers

Can you still remember your first love? The day you met and the day you realized you officially like that person?

When that one person hold your hand for the first time? Did he kept you close and kept you warm?

When that one person kissed you for the first time? How did it feel?

When you had your first fight, how did you fixed it?

Do you remember the time when you realized that, that one person is slowly slipping into your hands?

When that one specific person broke your heart?

Do you remember it?

It’s been over four years since Love Alarm has been launched and they’ve been using it for almost everything. The world seemed to have progressed a lot now that we have Love Alarm in our phones but did it really made our lives easier? Especially when it comes to love?

Walking to school on a beautiful day, your first day as a transferee... what could possibly go wrong? As you enter the school premises, you see students holding their phones like they’re waiting for something or someone. Perhaps they’re waiting for someone to ring their Love Alarm? Who knows?

“He’s here!” A rather excited student exclaimed and brought out her phone and grabbed her friend. You being the only clueless student right now turned your back too to see the man they’ve been waiting for.

He was like a celebrity when he stepped on the first few steps upon the school’s entrance. Lee Taeyong, a senior. Very good looking, smart, athletic, and voted junior prom king. He literally looks like an angel walking in the middle of the school’s entrance together with his friends who look liked angels too. Their Love Alarm rang so much as they walk in front of the new and old students, making fun of each other and having a bet on whose Love Alarm will ring the most.

You looked at him. You looked at his face like you don’t already know that it’s impolite to stare at someone, but you still did because Lee Taeyong is handsome. And you’re not immune to his charms. What a good way to start school, you thought. It’s only the first day but you feel like you’re going to have a blast as long as you see Lee Taeyong around.

From there on Lee Taeyong has become your crush and your heart thumps so hard whenever you ring his Love Alarm every morning like the other girls. For you, there’s no shame in ringing his Love Alarm, you’re glad it does that. At least you’re being honest to him in silence and let the alert from Love Alarm do the talking. But even though you ring his Love Alarm again and again and again, you never wish for him to ring your Love Alarm back, no. He deserves someone perfect like him.

Day by day and whenever you see him around, you look at him to feed your heart and eyes then look away again and ignore him as if you didn’t ring his Love Alarm loud and proud. It frustrates him you know, but in a good way. He now recognizes you as the new girl who rings his Love Alarm every day but seems to don’t care about him enough. In other words, you’re not like the other girls.

You know that good feeling when you go to school and you’re looking forward to seeing your crush even just for a few seconds? That’s what Lee Taeyong feels for you. With just a couple of weeks of ringing his Love Alarm, you had the man thinking about you and wanting to know you. Sometimes he can’t understand Love Alarm. He is completely sure that he likes you already and he is very interested in you, but he can’t ring your alarm.

Have you ever had that good feeling when your crush is around and you are free to look at him no matter how long you want and whenever he caught you staring you just avoid his eyes? It’s like playing chicken but you’re both enjoying the game, he smiles at you and brings up his phone as if he’s telling you ‘Thank you for ringing my Love Alarm again’ and you just smile at him, completely clueless that he’s starting to flirt.

“Why don’t you just ring her Love Alarm back?” Doyoung asked.

“Cant. For some twisted reason, I can’t ring her Love Alarm. That’s why I can’t make a move and can only flirt back, I want to trust Love Alarm” Taeyong says, eyes completely glued to you but you don’t know that because you’re busy reading.

“Maybe you don’t really like the girl?” Doyoung blurted out. Lee Taeyong didn’t really want to admit it with his friend but maybe he’s right.

“The Lee Taeyong flirts back now huh? And to a new girl? Interesting” Johnny swings his arm to his friend and ruffles his hair. Teasing him for flirting back at you because he saw Taeyong smiled in your direction.

“Am I not allowed to flirt?” Taeyong snorted and turned off his Love Alarm when he saw the place getting crowded already. “It’s senior year, I need to change” he added.

“So changing your relationship status is a good start? Hmm. Okay, I agree with you on that. But don’t waste your time if you're unsure,” Johnny explains. But Lee Taeyong doesn’t care, he looks at you as you gather your books thinking of many ways to start talking to you and secretly wishing he can ring your Love Alarm back. But for now, he just can’t.

While you were studying at the library, you can’t help but remember how Lee Taeyong thanked you for ringing his alarm.... he fucking thanked you, that must be something? He isn’t thanking every single person who rings his alarm, just you. You smile at that thought which you think is crazy but a girl can dream. Then again you remember that you’re studying and shook your head for the nth time to stop yourself from thinking about your senior.

When you finally focused on studying and finished tons of school work, you didn’t notice that it’s already dark outside and that going home alone would be scary but you have no choice. You walk and walk and walk until you finally reached that scary alleyway you’ve been trying to avoid but it’s your only way home.

“Hey- don’t go there”

A familiar voice warned you before you can even start walking, you turned around and wish that you were wrong but you weren’t. It is as if the world heard you thinking about Lee Taeyong and the universe made you meet in an unexpected way. “It’s dangerous there, where are your friends? Is that your way home?” He asked the question like you two were close and talking already, his face looked cold but funny how he makes you feel warm.

“Yes, this is the only way. Usually, I go home when the sun is still up but I have to study” you explain.

“I have no choice then. Let me walk you home, my conscience will not let me sleep if I just let you-“

“I can take care of myself, I can easily call my dad. If I refuse your offer, will you still think about me?” You don’t know where the sudden bravery came from but you’re glad you did it.

He was completely shy, blushing and keeping his head down. And that’s the push that Lee Taeyong needed. He held out his hand and introduced himself properly like a decent person would and you did the same. Both hands are shaking because of nervousness but that’s understandable you both thought. “This isn’t how I imagined meeting you officially-“

“So you do think about me?” You further tease the blushing man and finally admits the truth and said, “Yes. I do think about you. A lot” it was silent for a few seconds before he started again, “I wish I could ring your Love Alarm too, you make me nervous you know that? Whenever I’m in school I look forward to seeing you, even just for a few seconds” he came closer to you as you grip your bag tightly and the butterflies in your stomach won’t stop flapping their wings when Lee Taeyong put strands of hair behind your ear so he could see you clearly under the lamppost light.

Either way, you still let him walk you home and cherish every second you could have with your crush. You feel like you’ve won something like you’re winning this nonexistent race with the other girls, you feel happy for yourself. He told you about his day, you told him yours, he made you laugh, you make him shy for no reason. And when you and Taeyong finally reached your house, you exchanged numbers. Now you can tell that you’re winning something. His attention and interest.

“I hope I can ring your Love Alarm,” he says again, looking at you like it’s going to be the last thing he’ll do.

“That’s fine, ring mine when you’re ready. We can’t rush romance, even when Love Alarm is involved” you watch him let out a small laugh and you think he’s so handsome even when he’s cute.

“Usually girls get offended when someone they like can’t ring their Love Alarm, but you... you don’t mind waiting”

You didn’t want to end the moment yet but it’s getting pretty late and he needs to go home too, you told him to stop flirting and go home safe so he can flirt with you some other time. And for the last time, just to wrap this wonderful night, he tilts his head and smiled so sweetly to you and told you ‘good night’

That moment you had with Lee Taeyong felt like a pretty damn good song but just like every song, it needed to end. But you will never forget about it.

After that momentous night with your crush, Lee Taeyong has become a whole entire playlist and a well written album wrapped into one. Every love song you listen to was suddenly all about him he and the man was head over heels to you. He was texting you nonstop even during class, calling you after school and will probably end later at night, and getting the tiniest chance to flirt with you in the morning before you both head to class and meet again by golden hour to walk home together.

Not long after a week of flirting and getting to know each other more, he finally rang your alarm in front of many students in school accidentally. Your eyes went big and Taeyong was as shocked as you are. It was like you have this 10-meter radius for yourselves only and you were both giggling when your Love Alarms went off together. It was a happy moment, definitely one for the books. “Finally” he whispers, standing close to you, not caring if a lot of people are watching. Let them watch, Lee Taeyong thought. So they know you belong to each other now and you have Love Alarm on your side.

“Are you free this weekend?” He asks while walking you home.

“Free, but I have to study. What do you have in mind?” you answered as calmly as you could because you have a hunch that he’s going to ask you on a date.

“Well, now that I can finally ring your Love Alarm, I want to take you out on a proper date” you knew it, “movies?”

“Sounds fun, as long as it’s scary” he nods and took his phone out of his pocket.

“Can I ring your Love Alarm again?” He requests which you gladly gave in and opened the app. You two waited for a few seconds for Love Alarm to work its magic.

Waiting

Until the number ‘1’ appeared on your screens and says “Someone within 10-meter radius loves you”. Taeyong sighed in relief and swing his arms around you for a hug and a kiss on the forehead. “That scared me” he admitted.

Unconsciously, he doesn’t know what his hug and kiss can do to you. While his heart calms as he hugs you, yours is beating so fast like you just ran a mile. There’s that winning feeling again.

On your first date, he took you to the movies and as promised the movie was scary. It was so scary that he had enough opportunity to hold you close and hold your hand the whole time. The moment your fingers intertwined, you felt some kind of electricity flowing in your body and the movie house suddenly felt warm. “I know, I felt it too” he whispers and went back to watching the movie.

The next few days with Taeyong was something you’ve never imagine that will happen in your high school life. He has become the epitome of new things and first times.

He is the first guy to hold your hand in public. Swinging it high, up and down, holding it tight, and he even kisses it whenever he feels like it. Not a day goes by that he didn’t hold your hand or kept you close to him ever since you made it official through Love Alarm.

He is the first guy to sweep you off your feet, through his sweet words and gentleman gestures. “Can I flirt with you later?” he asks, putting a bottle of juice in front of you before he goes to his next class. ‘Flirt with you’ simply means he wanted to spend time with you before he walks you home.

Still in your school uniforms, Taeyong brought you somewhere quiet where the river is calm, and just looking at it makes you calm your nerves too. “The sun feels nice, let’s watch the sun go down,” he says lying comfortably on the ground and enjoying the warm grass underneath his body.

“How’s your day?” you sat beside him and Taeyong was quick to cover your legs with his school coat. He grunted while covering your legs as he remembers how stressful being a senior is.

“Was having a bad day, when I talked to you earlier. School has been kicking my butt” he says and lies again beside you. “How about you? How's being a new student so far?”

“So far so good, I have a handsome senior who just made my high school life more interesting”

He handsomely giggles in front of you, so close that your lips are just inches away. “You’re flirting,” he says.

“You said you wanted to flirt with me?” you bite back.

“Mmm-hmm. Can I flirt a little differently today?” he came even much closer to you but you didn’t pull away because you know exactly what he’s talking about.

And just as you expected, he kissed you. Softly. Holding your chin as he moves his lips on yours while the sun goes down. Your eyes were shut and all you did the whole time your boyfriend was kissing you is return the kiss and savor the feeling of being kissed for the first time.

When the kiss was over, he did not pull away immediately but looked at your lips for a few seconds as if he wanted to kiss it again but even more fiercely this time but he knew this is not the right time for that. So instead, he kissed your nose and your forehead and flashed a sweet smile at you. Something that you will never forget like the kiss you just shared a few seconds ago.

After that day, kissing became an everyday habit to you and Taeyong and you both love it whenever you get the chance to share a kiss privately. Well, he does kiss you in public, but those are nothing compared to the ones you share inside his room after school and his parents are not yet home. Lee Taeyong’s lips are simply addicting but little did you know that your boyfriend is even more addicted to kissing you.

“Just one more kiss” he pulls you close to him begging for another kiss before he watches you go inside your house. “One more please” he pouted like the baby that he is.

You crashed your lips on him and feel both of his hands hold the sides of your head so you won’t pull away from him so easily. But when you do, he simply asks for another kiss and then another other, until you’re basically making out in front of your house.

“Mmm” he moans like he’s not planning to stop kissing you soon.

“Tae-“ you giggle and tried pushing away and finally, he stopped. Lips swollen, slightly panting with a…. hard cock.

“Sorry about that. I- I have no control over that, I’m sorry” he apologizes and tries to hide his boner. You let out a small laugh and fixed his ruined hair with a few pat.

“You don’t have to be shy, I’m your girlfriend. See you tomorrow, okay? Go home safe!” you slowly walk towards your house, waving your hand goodbye until you see him walk away.

Just like any new couple, you and Taeyong crave for each other in many ways. After exploring enough with kissing and teasing each other whenever one of you gets too turned on, soon you talk about different levels of physical intimacy freely without being awkward.

Given that Taeyong is more experienced than you are because you’re a virgin, he knew exactly what to do when it comes to expressing his physical needs to you and making sure that he doesn’t pressure you with anything.

“So how do I know if what base are we on?” you asked innocently.

“First base is kissing. Open mouthed kisses, tongue- basically, the things I already did to you or the things we did already” he explains, hands on your waist as you both lie on your sides facing each other.

“I’m guessing we're way past first base then” you smirked and made him shy.

“Yeah. Way past first base” he smirked back at you and hovers on top of you. “The second base is more on touching” he emphasized the word ‘touching’ and better explain it by moving his hand from your leg up until he reaches your inner thighs under your school skirt and run up a finger on your slit unexpectedly which made you curl in no time and curse at him. Not because you didn’t like it, but because it felt good and he immediately stopped the teasing.

You glared at him as if you’re telling him through your eyes to touch you again, be he just snorted and kissed your cheeks. “Don’t hate me. I’m just waiting for the perfect timing” he explains and enjoys how you’re so annoyed but horny.

You let out a sharp sigh and made him continue again. “Third base is giving head or fingering. Oh, you’re going to love third base” he teased you further by just using his words. You pushed him away from you playfully but your boyfriend is strong and caught your hands, “okay okay. Enough teasing, home run is having sex. And come on I have to get you home before I could no longer stop myself”

He’s not lying because you see the growing tent in his crotch. He’s been stopping himself by teasing you. You sat up when he got out of his bed to change into some much comfortable clothes but when he got back, you teased him by putting on a show. Lifting your skirt slowly just before you reveal your panties and as expected, he stopped you.

“Don’t tease me, I don’t have a condom right now” it was a warning but it sounded more like he’s begging.

“I’m just joking” you kissed him on the cheek and got up from your comfortable position to fix your wrinkled school uniform before you head home.

Tonight, you attend a party with Taeyong for the first time and his Love Alarm kept on ringing the moment he stepped into the room.

Every day, Lee Taeyong rings your Love Alarm and you ring his too.... together with the other girls and quite frankly, you don’t know how long you can stand those girls who fantasize about fucking your boyfriend. He’s your own private buffet, for goodness sake.

“Don’t drink anything unless I’m the one who gave it to you, okay? I’ll get you something- Doyoung!” he made sure you won’t be alone and called his friend before he leaves.

“So you’re the lucky girl. Hi, I’m Johnny” he offers you his hand for a handshake and accepted with a smile.

“Don’t mind Johnny, hi I’m Doyoung. Taeyong’s best friend,” you shake his hand and smiled at them, hoping that you don’t look awkward. They made small talk, asked you how you’ve been and how’s your Junior year going so far which you answered too seriously. Soon, you feel Taeyong’s cold hands on your shoulders and hands you a drink before he shoos his drunk friend Johnny away.

It was a fun night, but it can be better if the other girls can respect your relationship. You wanted to snap so hard but instead, you focused on how Taeyong kisses your nape, shamelessly while you watch his friends play beer pong and he’s standing right behind you, hands on the front pockets of your jeans like he’s telling those girls he belongs to you.

But the warm feeling was shortly cut off when they heard Johnny shouting and drunkenly pushing himself to walk straight so he could get a hold of his girlfriend. Everyone heard it. The words, “Johnny were through. I’m breaking up with you” were heard on every corner of the place even under loud party music.

After hearing those words, you looked at Taeyong like you’re telling him through his eyes that you’re scared. But Taeyong and his other friends were quick to get Johnny and stopped him from making a scene.

Everything happened so fast. One second Taeyong was beside you, but now you're in the middle of the place alone and watching your boyfriend and his friends carry Johnny outside.

“Johnny didn’t ring her love alarm today,” Taeyong sits beside you after leaving you alone for a few minutes to talk to his friend. “And if he’s going to be honest he fell out of love. But he wasn’t ready to let her go and wasn’t sure about his feelings, he’s just being paranoid because he’s going to graduate soon” he let out a sharp exhale before he continues, “We're going to graduate soon. I guess Love Alarm caught him having second thoughts for her already”

“Do you want to leave now?” you asked your boyfriend. He can only nod because he still feels weak about what happened to his friend.

The supposedly warm night with Taeyong became cold and quiet. Not because there’s something wrong with your relationship. But because you were both scared of the idea of breaking up. He wanted to tell you he saw the look in your eyes when you heard the words but he figured enough sadness for one night, wrapped his arms around you and told you “I will never let you go” and kissed you on your temple.

Few days after the party is exams week so you and Taeyong didn’t see each other that much. But by the time it’s over, he waited for you outside the school and you know he’s the one waiting for you because he rang your Love Alarm.

While walking to his house, it suddenly rained so hard that the raindrops hurt your skin. But instead of avoiding the rain, Taeyong pulled you in the middle of an empty street and kissed you under the rain.

It was so sweet.

His arms were perfectly wrapped around your body while yours is placed behind his lower back. You tiptoe unconsciously so you could reach him well. “I love you,” he says and lifted you off the ground effortlessly for a tight hug.

“Here wear this” He left some clean clothes on his bed for you to change with while he puts your wet uniform on the dry cleaner.

When you’re finally dry and clean, you cuddle with Taeyong in his bed wearing his big clothes and listening to the sound of rain with no lights on, but the gloomy sky outside.

“I saw the way you looked at me the other night” he started. And you tighten your embrace to him as you remember the words and the whole scenario.

“I'm just scared and not because I’m doubting your love” you admitted. “I never thought about it you know. That things can go wrong someday-“

“No, no. Then I’ll love you, even more, every day. Don’t be scared please, trust my love” he says and kept you close by putting his legs on your thigh. His big hand is placed under your shirt, drawing small circles on your tummy to give you more comfort.

“I’m guessing this is second base then?” you teased him to change the mood.

“Do you want to proceed to that level? Hmm?” he rolls on top of you, teased you, and kissed your neck in a way that seriously turned you on in no time.

“If you’re brave enough to do it, then go right ahead. I give you my full consent” you reached for his lips and kissed him deeply. You felt him smile during the kiss and also felt his hand slowly lifting your shirt or rather his shirt. Hands roaming your body like he never touched you before, squeezing your butt cheeks and kneading your clothed boobs. To be honest, he’s shy to put his hand inside your clothes but to his shock, you put yours inside his, bravely touched his body, and shamelessly put your hand inside his sweatpants and touched him.

That made him swallowed his shyness and knead your unclothed breast under the shirt that you’re wearing. Brushing his fingers on your nipples softly, pinching them to make giggle.

After a few minutes of intense touching, he was slightly tugging the sweat pants that you’re wearing and asked you, “Do I still have your consent if we proceed on third base?” He whispers oh so sexily beside your ear which made you remember what he told you, ‘you’re going to love third base’ and that is enough for you to nod and give him further permission.

He kissed you on the lips, his way of saying ‘thanks’, and proceeds to lift your shirt and suck your nipples which made you moan his name and grip his locks so tight that he needed to reach for your hands and intertwine them with his.

Lee Taeyong showed you who is in bed and you can't help but think that you’re the luckiest girl on Earth.

“Hey, you okay? You’re spacing out, I think should-“

“Don’t stop” you moaned and grabbed his head for a deep kiss. You reach for his hand and made him knead your boobs while you kiss and grind on each other and in a matter of minutes you felt him putting his hand inside your panties while he distracts you with the way he kisses you. He flicks his fingers once and you curled immediately, legs wide open so he could freely move his hand. But soon his patience went thin and removed your panties, throwing it on the side of the bed before spreading your legs even more wider.

“Do you like this side of me?” He whispers on the shell of your ear and bit it eventually making you tickle and giggle with parted lips.

“I definitely do” you moan out.

And for the main event under third base, he kissed your body all the way down until he meets your wet entrance. Kissing your inner thighs first before he proceeds to drive you wild with his tongue.

First, he parted your wet folds, looked you straight in the eye, and licked you like you’re his favorite flavored ice cream. “Tae-“ is all you can moan out and decided to put your hands above your head and grab hold of his headboard. Which he didn’t like so he stopped and told you, “touch me, I like that”

And so you did. Gripping Taeyong’s locks as he makes you feel good with his tongue. Putting a finger inside your cunt and flick his tongue faster together with his finger, making you cum in no time and crushing your boyfriend’s head with your legs. “Stop- stop” you cry out because of over sensitivity. “You weren’t going to stop eating me unless I told you so”

He smirked and hummed because you’re right. He gave you a few minutes to catch your breath, taking that time to strip himself naked without you noticing. And when you finally came back from your high, he kisses your lower stomach and there you see your boyfriend all naked and really horny.

“I want to have sex,” he shamelessly told you, touching your body with care while he waits for your answer. “Can we have sex?” he kisses you more like he’s persuading you.

“Do you finally have a condom?” You asked with a smile.

He did not waste any time and get the condom from his drawer, putting it on in front of you. Putting it on in between your wide open legs and very wet slit.

“Put your arms around me,” he said and you followed immediately. He ran his protected cock on your wet slit, just to make him hard even more but the feeling for you is very different. You are very much aroused, very horny and it already felt good. So when you feel him poke your tight hole and slowly push in finally, your eyes shut close and feel every inch of Lee Taeyong’s cock go inside you oh so fucking slowly until he’s entire inside.

He grunted and moan directly on your ear and told you, “virgin no more” and kissed you on your temple before he rolls his deep which made you both crazy and even more horny for each other.

Your tight walls were so wet because of the foreplay that his cock was sliding in smoothly, hurting you good and stretching you right before he fucks you harder.

“Fucking thin condoms, I feel like I’m fucking you raw,” he said in between thrust and rolling his tongue on your nipple, tugging and biting it as he pleases.

When he sees you smiling through the pleasure and felt your body more relaxed, he put his mouth on your mouth and made you catch his moans as he fucks you harder and faster, enough for his bed to creak, your body to be dragged on the mattress and your nails to dig on his skin.

He came hard and had a great orgasm, slowly thrusting deeper as he rides his high and showers you with kisses. Truth be told, he didn’t want to cum just yet but your tight walls did its magic on him.

The moment he pulls out to discard the condom, he went back to kissing your weak body and told you to “Calm down,” oh so sweetly, and eventually giggled when he saw you still breathing heavily.

“How can I calm down if you’re kissing me like that?”

“Okay I’ll stop,” he says and pulled down your shirt to cover your exposed body, reached for your panties, and helped you wear them again then covered you with his thick sheets. “Better?”

“Yes, thank you” you smiled weakly at him and watched him get dress again before he joins you under the covers.

“What are you thinking?” he asked, hoping that you’re okay. “Are you hurt somewhere?”

“How many girls did you bring here before me?” You watch your boyfriend’s eyes get big upon hearing your question, “I’m joking. And no, nothing hurts. I’m just processing everything that happened. How about you? What are you thinking?”

“I’m thinking about you, how I want you to be the last girl I have sex with in this bed” it was a joke because he only brought a total of two girls into his room. His first girlfriend and you.

“Buy a new bed or I’m breaking up with you,” you said with a straight face but he clearly knew you’re joking.

They say that being close with your partner emotionally, physically, and even sexually can strengthen a relationship. And right now, as you celebrate seven months of being in a relationship with Taeyong, you believe in that saying because you’ve been closer than ever after being intimate for the first time. In other words, the sex was a good way to strengthen your relationship.

“Why do you love reading so much?” he asks, totally jealous over reading a good book rather than talking to him.

Taeyong is busy nowadays because he’s graduating in a few weeks and he’s part of the prom committee because he has seriously good leadership skills. That’s why maybe he wanted more attention.

“Oh! I'm gonna miss you when you graduate” you pinch his cheek and sat closer to him. “Will you be fine being away from me?” You teased him but your question was serious.

“No, I will not be fine. I will miss you every day- can we please talk about something else before I start crying?” he attacked you with kisses on the cheek but the moment was cut off when Johnny pullovers to fetch your boyfriend.

“Have fun shopping for prom decorations with the boys rather than being in bed with me” you whisper to him while you both wear your bags and walk towards Johnny’s car.

“I love you, go home safe, okay? I’ll call you as soon as we're done”

During your walk alone, it felt nice to do something without Taeyong for once. Not that you wanted him to be gone, no. It’s just that nowadays, things have been becoming like a routine and less of a relationship. You go to school, see him before class starts, see him again after school, and go home together. Then you do it again the next day. Like you don’t have any more doors to unlock in this relationship.

But what do you expect? You’re high school students.

“Are you done studying?”

“I can’t study tonight, my brain feels tired” you whine through the phone, eyes closed and thankful that it’s going to be the weekend tomorrow. “How about you?”

“Well, Johnny accidentally broke a few lights so we need to fix it before we go home. I’m tired, I miss you”

“Mmm. I’m tired too...” your voice was a little groggy.

“And? Do you miss me too? Can I see you tomorrow?”

“Tae, we just saw each other five hours ago and no, I want to enjoy my weekend by staying home and watching Netflix”

“So you’re not having fun when we're out together?-“

“I never said anything like that” you opened your eyes because the conversation is getting pretty serious, “Don’t be angry, I just want some time for myself you know? We see each other every day, talk through text every hour, it’s like there’s no more room to breathe” you wish you can properly tell him what you’re feeling but those are the words that came out from your mouth.

“Time for yourself, huh. Okay” and just like that, he ended the call. No ‘good night’ or ‘i love you’. And even though you’re sleepy and things escalated quickly, you heard the tone of his voice like a mixture of, annoyed and hurt.

Instead of having a good night's sleep, you stayed up all night thinking about what you said to your boyfriend. Analyzing every word and repeating the scenario in your head, over and over again. If telling him what you want was wrong, then you don’t know what’s right anymore.

On the next day, you sent him a few messages telling him that you’re sorry and that you didn’t mean to put it that way. You even told him you wanted to see him, hoping that he will finally get back to your messages. But still, he never replied. The whole weekend.

Come Monday, you didn’t get to see Taeyong in the morning like you usually would because you and your friends did your group project together last minute. And the truth is, you’re starting to hurt because you feel bad for being honest even though you didn’t intend to hurt him like that.

“I think you’re being too clingy” Doyoung protest to his friend during lunchtime.

“Girls love clingy boyfriends-“

“Well, unfortunately not your girlfriend. Give her some space, don’t make her all about you, you know?”

“I just want every time I could get with her before I graduate. B-but, yeah. Now I’m giving her the time that she wanted for herself-“

“But you’re hurting her. She’s worried, she just wanted you to return her messages dude” Johnny pats his back and gave him the look like he’s saying ‘fix this before Love Alarm screw the situation further’

And while Taeyong is enjoying his lunch with his friends, you’re with your friends at the school bleachers watching the other sections use the field. Talking about hot boys, prom dresses, and what to do after prom.

“Did Taeyong asked you to prom already? Was it romantic?” you see the excitement of your friend as she asked you the question and see the others wait for your answer.

“N-no. He hasn’t” the once cheerful faces were replaced by disappointment. Come to think of it, maybe he will not ask you to prom because of this stupid fight. You shook your head and returned the question to them and pretended that you care who’s taking them. But deep inside you envy them.

School was always exhausted and you don’t know why you’re suddenly tired. Usually, after school and you meet Taeyong outside, you still have a lot of energy left. And maybe that’s it, Taeyong’s cheerful energy and happy aura are the ones recharging you after a day in school. That’s when you realized that you don’t need to push him away just so you can breathe.

Speaking of the devil, you see him leaning on Johnny’s car the moment you stepped out of the school grounds. Head down, hands inside his pockets, and waiting for you.

The moment you stepped inside that 10-meter radius, his Love Alarm rang and he knew it was you. But the problem is, your Love Alarm didn’t ring this time.

Taeyong didn’t notice it. Taeyong didn’t notice that your Love Alarm was silent. He still welcomed you with a tight hug, kissed your face one too many times, and said his sorry sincerely. It felt nice that you are now okay, he’s talking to you again and on top of that he apologized. Of course, you didn’t want to ruin that peace anymore and pretended that you’re not hurt.

Few days went by and Taeyong hasn’t rung your Love Alarm and he’s too busy to notice it. Senior year is making him busy and you have nothing against that. Yes, you do miss him but he calls you before you sleep and quickly apologizes whenever he feels like he’s being a clingy boyfriend again.

“N-no. Please, be clingy. I’m sorry for that night, I don’t know what I’m thinking” you sounded desperate but he doesn’t know why.

“Okay, just making sure we don’t fight again”

And few days before prom, he still hasn’t asked you yet while your friends all have dresses already and plans for that night. It sucks, but you don’t want to get mad at Taeyong for not asking you to prom because he’s busy.

On a quiet afternoon after school, you’re waiting for Taeyong outside the school while reading a book, and page by page you digest every word just so you could stop thinking about prom. And just as you least expected it, your boyfriend asked you to prom on page 127 of the book that you’re reading.

“Will you go to prom with me?” -T.Y

Then it hit you. You started reading this book on the day prom was announced so basically he asked you ever since day 1 and he has been waiting for your answer for weeks already. He just keeps on giving you more reasons to ring his Love Alarm loud proud, while you give him nothing to make him ring yours.

“Finally. Hi”

You didn’t know he was right behind you and his kiss brought you back on Earth. He was smiling handsomely and proud because his surprise worked on you, even though it took you a while to answer his question your reaction was worth it.

“You know my answer Tae. And to be honest I thought you forgot about asking me” you finally admitted, but your lack of faith in him didn’t hurt him one bit.

“Perfectly fine,” his arms swing around your waist and pulled you closer to him while you're sitting on the bench. “I’m free now and I don’t have prom committee duties. Can I flirt with you tonight?” the way he said it sounded just like old times, like the days when you were just starting as a couple.

The flirting was continued in his room of course, with his thick curtains down, Netflix playing and hands intertwined the whole time. And after the movie, you two cuddled in bed with you on top of him and just listening to his heartbeat.

“Does your heart beats for me?” you asked soft, hoping he would tell you the truth.

“Of course, you’re my first love” true. Even though you’re not his first girlfriend, you’re the first girl he ever loved.

“Your Love Alarm says otherwise Tae. I think I’m not giving you enough reasons to love me” you admitted. “You haven’t rung my alarm ever since our first fight”

“W-what? Maybe it’s off?” He was panicking, shaking because maybe it’s true. With quick movements, he left you on his bed to get his phone then looked for your phone in your bag and opened the app to see if what you’re saying is true.

His rang, of course, but yours didn’t.

“Tae it’s okay- It doesn’t matter. You know you proved to me that you love me even if you can’t ring my Love Alarm” you went beside him and hugged him from behind. Feeling his frustration and anger to himself but your hug helps him a lot. “You tell and show me you love me every day. I can feel it in how you kiss me, how you treat me with respect and how you’re always patient with me. Come on it’s okay, don’t ruin your day”

To make him feel better, you talked him out of his sulking and convinced him to go back to bed with you which eventually worked. You’re now sitting on top of him, grinding on his crotch, only wearing your panties and his hoodie. You can tell by the way he kisses you that he’s more than sorry about not ringing your Love Alarm and that makes your heart sad too because he didn’t do anything wrong.

“Let’s turn this night around,” you said before removing the hoodie that you’re wearing and making your boyfriend grip your boobs and play with your nipples while you kiss him and distract him as you undo his pants.

“Clever” and finally he smiles and puts one of your nipples in his mouth, hands inside your panties and spreading your ass cheeks before he inserts a finger in your wet slit.

After that night, Taeyong had a hard timing accepting that he can’t ring your Love Alarm again even though you told him so many times that it’s okay. Sometimes your conversation escalates too soon and he just ends up arguing with you. Soon fighting has become a weekly thing for the two of you whenever he brings up Love Alarm again. But that’s okay, couples fight and that’s normal.

On prom night, you purposely did not bring your phone so Taeyong will not try to make your Love Alarm ring. It’s going to be a beautiful night and you didn’t want to ruin it for him. You danced with your boyfriend and went crazy with him on the dance floor, you dance with your friends and ate good food. In other words, you had a great time.

And when the slow song started to play, everyone’s Love Alarm kept on ringing and people started to confess their feelings. It was amusing to watch and of course, you’re happy for them. But amidst that busy dance floor, that busy place, you and Taeyong had your own 10-meter radius and you don’t need Love Alarm to feel that you love each other.

“I’m sorry for giving you a hard time these past few days” he started, swaying you under slow music and not caring what's happening around you even though people are very loud and excited. “Let’s stop using Love Alarm. That app lies. I know all too well that I love you and even though I can’t ring your Love Alarm, I sure know how to love you”

“Mhmm. You do” oh you wanted to kiss him so badly but the teachers are looking.

“You still love me right?”

“Of course Taeyong. What kind of question is that?”

“I know, I just want to hear you say it” he came closer to you and kissed you on your temple when the teachers looked away, “You look beautiful tonight” he added and dance with you more, looking straight into your eyes and thanking you secretly for liking him first.

Now it's his turn to like and love you forevermore.

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Things I like and can't stop thinking about in Jessica Jones Season 3

Jessica and her journey in acknowledging she is a hero

"Giving a shit and doing something about it. That's what mom defined as being a hero even if she wasn't an expert. I didn't want it But she had hope and like a trick arrow she passed it down to me. And now it's the only thing I have of hers"

Just keep your eyes on the line. Don't get over it (S2 where is the line)

Jessica doing same and expecting same from Erik like Trish did from her but not pushing him

"Shitty power to have" - Jessica

"Still a power" - Trish

"If it was me, I'd do it in a heartbeat" - Trish

" Yeah but you chose it. I chose it. He didn't" - Jessica

At what point do you have to stop trying to prove yourself? To your friends. To yourself. To your mother who carved her expectations in your brain. Everyone needs goddamn much of each other // No one is ever whom you need them to be

" I get why you do it because it's who you are and not doing it would be a lie" - Erik to Jessica

"bona fide hero"

You earned it

I did

Jessica deciding to not run away and go back because she heard Kilgrave's voice - doing the opposite of what he says because she says anything he says is not good or right for her growth and life.

"Your gonna ask yourself what its gonna take to make ot feel right the answer is too much" - Jessica Jones

Jessica and Trish

"Trish was the only good thing about you. Closer than any two blood sisters I'd ever seen. You were her protector. She was your conscience" - Dorothy to Jessica

Trish sees things in black and white, wrong and right. Now she must think the same way i do "who the hell am i to judge"

And when she overhears Oscar and Jessica talk about her mom- how she misses her, how she took the choice away from Jessica - she runs not just from place but her own feelings- as seen when she deletes the apology and doubts about her action she had typed

"You cant accept that I may know what I am doing"

" Because you are never wrong are you?"

"Why can't you let it go?

" Let it go?"

"Its time"

" It's time to get your head out of your ass and admit you were wrong. You killed my mother"

" A mass murderer who killed other people. And could have killed you one day. Why can't you see that

" Because I finally had someone"

"You've always had someone"

- A conversation between Jessica and Trish

" I wish I didn't kill your mom"

"I wish she wasn't a mass murderer"

- A conversation between Jessica and Trish

Jess hugging and saying "we are gonna get through this" consoling Trish after her mother's death - the same Trish who killed her mother, who told her it's time she should let go when she was still clearly grieving the loss

"I was strong way before I gave a shit. You gave a shit way before you were strong"-Jessica to Trish

"I had to make a decision. Destroy him or save you. I choose you, everyday" - Jessica to Trish.

"I've got it (being hero) covered. Maybe I can carry the burden" (something Trish said in earlier episodes on why she can be a hero and Jessica can't)

"But I am so angry"

"So am I. But that's the burden we have to carry"

"I am not sure I can. Most people cant. They either end up dead or in jail"

- A conversation between grieving Trish and Jessica

"In fact, if I ever go too far, I hope someone gives enough of shit about me to take me down"

"Is that a risk these days? Going too far?"

"Some would say its inevitable "

- A conversation between Jessica Jones and Luke Cage

Jessica and Hogarth

"Because you can make hard choices"

"Because I have killed someone so it should be easy"

"Those were different circumstances. I am asking you to do this"

Hogarth about medicine us invalids we need to stick together

"You overestimate her"

" You underestimate her"

- A conversation between Hogarth and Salinger about Jessica Jones

Jessica and Erik

Good and bad is bullshit?

That only applies to people

Jessic trusting Erik about his powers after not believing the speed kid.

Trish realising who she is

"I am sorry you gave up" "I havent. I am just getting there my own way" "Keep our number on retainer since we keep guilty people out of jail" - A conversation between Malcom and Trish

Dorothy and Trish

"I'm this way because you made me this way"

"You gave me no choice"

"I always worried I did too much damange.Turns out i did"

"Well at least I had you for a minute"

"I am grateful you are back in my life too"

"Cause she has to prove me wrong because if she isn't right then she becomes the thing she hates the most"

"Please don't hurt my daughter. I wouldn't."

Paralleling the fear she felt when she her father hurt her mother

"I thought it was Salinger did this to you. Maybe side effect of your powers. It has been there all along. I saw it when you shot my mother. It was there all along. Dorothy beat self- righteous resolve into you. To think you are avenging yher. You've become her"- Jessica to Trish when Trish tried running away

Acceptance

"Ms walker, do you understand?"

"I am the bad guy" - Trish when Costa read out her crimes to her

Salinger

Whatever I have got is real - by real human pain

Comparison to Donny and father- dismissed his achievements, wished his living son was dead instead and stabbed him at the funeral of son he loved

How he describes good looks and charms to Erik "Crippled" by good looks and charm

Jessica and Dorothy

Dorothy leaving Edwardian winged back armchair. "Sat on in after school and plugged in with mh man" . She was giving Jessica the space she felt comfortable in but Jessica thought she "banishing" her into that corner of house.

"Dorothy had no clue she was gonna die and even she did something good before she checked out. You know you are dying. What are you doing?" - Jessica to Hogarth

#jessica jones season 3 #show review #jessica jones #trish walker #krysten ritter #rachael taylor #erik gelden #malcolm ducasse #jeri hogarth #marvel netflix #netflix marvel #netflix mcu #marvel cinematic universe #character analysis #the parallels

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How start to love favoritism and get redemption arc in LO.

So i want to talk about Underworld work, especially how much there prospers favoritism. There is you can read post why favoritism is bad

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as in this post i started to interest in it after discussion between Daphne and Thanatos, but after i started reread LO i have seen how much Thanatos was right, but his position was shamed by everyone, by"good" characters, by audience, even Author have shown it as something wrong, and only he strated to love Persephone and thought that special attitude to her is fine, he became good person and start his redemtion arc.

i don't want to talk about how unbalanced this relationship is (I saw many posts about it and i have nothing to add), i am more interested how it influences on other co-workers.

Favoritism in underworld or maybe on Olymp seems to be something normal, because Hera given this work for Persephone for to get closer with Hades (it was hinted very clear), although they had antoher opotuinities for this, with their finances and love for Savor they could do Dinner party, ball, party etc where Persephone and Hades could know each other better. Why was love affair at work best variant for it? I sincerely have no idea.

Wherein Persephone said that she isn't enough skilled for this work, so someone enough skilled doesnt get this position, because Hera want to make couple from Persephone and Hades.

i would be fine if Persephone try hard for this job, yes, some characters said that she is smart, but I didn't see her labor and striving, i dont feel like she deserve this position, her only merit on that moment was beuty, it s not enogh i think, btw to be nice and kind too. As they say in my country "a good person is not a profession".

Let's look on Underworld's bosses.

in story RS tried to show as Hades is hard worker, he preferred work to relationship, he thinks about work even in strip club and many characters said that he is so. But his behavior shows him absolutly from another side.

to my mind he and Hecata busy only his personal life. With Minthe and after with Parsephone.

as soon as Hades knew that Persephone in Underworld he left everything and flew to save her, very romantic, isn't it? but let's think a bit: Persephone came in dangerous closed facility (btw where their security system?) and made accident, it like someone broke in secret laboratory and start the fire, even if it accidentally it s not something that would be left without responsibility.

Someone can said: it's not her fault, it reptile Minthe! I partially agree with it (only partially) but it s truth for audience not for Hades, he didnt know it. For him it should be random person which got into forbidden place and acted badly there.

Hades reaction: he started to regret her, to apologize, to go everywhere with her, What the Hell was going on? oh yes and another co-workers had to look for Persephone`s brooch and cloak, so they had to left their their direct responsibilities, because somebody coulndt go away after she understood that this place is dangerous, she could wait after door of Tower 4 or befor Hades cabinet, she wouldnt lost anything in this way. But Persephone is sooo smart, isnt she, Hera?

btw very considerable moment Thanatos started to worried about his work when he knew that Persephone is liked by Hades, because he entered in train before her, does it mean that Hades not only choose favorites but shamed co-workers which dont like this favorites? we will see that yes he do it.

Another situation is presentation Persephone, oh i feel your cringe Minthe, i were in similar situation, my past boss forced our team to congratulate his girlfriend with birthday, should i say that we even didnt know her? it was so awkward. when i read this part of story i feel the same cringe as in that day. Yeah this boss was kinda terrible, mb he didn't like me because i am not enough beauty for him? i have this feeling after LO reading.

First working day of Persephone is just quintessence of favoritism. initially Hecate went with her everywhere, after - Hades started to do it, they even changed his schedule and yeah i find indignation of Minthe and Thanatos (i dont care about their motives now) very reasonable and Hecates arguments were just silly. Why he should work with someone unqualified? and why boss dont have better business than to take an excursion on Underworld with new intern?

Hecate arguments is annoying, he cant said that she is unskilled (she is really so) because he eaten her baklava? great. Why they need to apologize for Persephone stupidity? Tell me someone pls, it s to hard for my mind. And yeah it's not school prom, mb Hades will start to work and stop flirting with new intern?

Oh i start to hate her, how she can be one of the favorite character by audience. Can she just be honest? Persephone is here and everyone go around her because Hades find her attractive.

Another favoritism example it is Persephone salary, Author could not accentuate that trainee dont get salary in Underworld, and it would be fine, okay she get receive income now but no, Persephone should be special and other interns aren't so special, it would okay if she would work in office some time and she would be so hard worker that leadership would want to prize her for it. But she is just special, just because she is attractive for Hades.

In chapter 88 Persephone confessed that she flirt with Hades, but she dont want special treatment, but she embarrassed only by business card, not salary, not that everyone worry about her. It shown as joke, oh ha-ha how naive Persephone, for me it looks not like joke, more like mockery for people who work hard and don't have such prizes, because they are not attractive for their bosses.

And in this chapter Hades left his working place and gone to decide Persephone's problems, problems other workers don't matter, but Hecata asked nice question.

i think no, how Hade's corporation are still active and success with such directors?

but actually no, looks like Thanatos and Minthe are still try to do some job, because only they could teach Persephone how to work with computer program (why is not Hermes? he works in the same position as Thanatos does it mean that he doesn't understand in this work anything because she even did not ask him?) and I on Thanatos side in this, why he should spend his time for her? (He already has trouble that he works worse than Hermes) and btw he tried to work, did not fawn for boss favorite, so he tried to make his work better in honest way.

And maybe she will try to read user guide? if she learned how to rule car from reading what is problem to do the same with computer program? and doesn't waste time of another workers.

Anyway It's strange that people which try to work are not fire yet. Because another worker who tried to do her work right was almost fired, because princess don't know her ID. Whose fault is it? Again for Persephone's fault another worker had trouble, and why is shown as humor again? why pain and fear are funny here, and it's unfunny where Gestia acted with Persephone in similar way. I think if it s funny it should be funny with everyone not only with defenseless and weak workers which isnt boss favorite.

and of course hades gone to bank with their interns, because what else he could do on the work? pffffff

the only time where Hades reaction looks adequate at the start at least, it accident where Persephone given coins to souls which made riot because of it and again with it should deal other workers. everything what happened with Persephone that Hades was a bit angry and after they kissed, she transformation in butterflies, he forget about this accident and started to search what transformation means.

I thought it makes no sense to compare relationship Hades/Persephone and he\his other workers. For everything that she done any other worker would be fired, beaten, killed or something.

this leitmotif in LO if you like Persephone you are nice, if you don't - go to hell. Thanatos redemption start from his liking Persephone and think that Favoritism is fine.

Why it should care other workers and Thanatos especially? because they have trouble because of her, she tried to waste their time, and some great hard worker dont get any prize, where she get prize only for flirting with boss. their boss became unproductive and don't care about them, he think only about his sweet princess.

So go away Daphne, pls. You are such smart as Persephone.

Btw Thanatos is gathering souls, and Hermes falsified counts of souls because of Persephone, i am not sure about that but looks like Hermes productivity were such great because of this falsification, so if it is so, he can hate her with pure conscience, because he was blamed that he is lazy and bad worker and didnt get increase in salary.

So okay, i think Favoritism can be in fiction, but not how it was shown in LO, as something unequivocally positive and romantic, and Thanatos opinion was unequivocally shamed, everything it can work with grey moral story and such type of characters, someone can say: in LO characters are "grey", maybe, for me they are much worse than grey, but in story they dont show as grey, grey moral story it s when you can like any character and dont be in others eyes "misogynic" or no one will say to you "dont sit right with me" because of it, and another phrases which get person who prefered unpopular LO characters.

Oh what a huge post, thank you if someone read it to the end)

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