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firegirl888101 · 7 months

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in honor of spooky month, I think the harbingers going trick-or-treating(or watching a horror movie) would be entertaining

(I'm the same anon who asked about the "reader who's good at drawing thing" :D)

You have specifically asked, and I have answered dear friend!

The Harbingers and Y/N are still in modern world and NOT Teyvat. Just thought I'd put that out there.

Also, I added something my family and I used to do when I was really young! (Obviously this was way before lockdown so there was no shortage of toilet paper lol) Not sure if its the regular thing but I hardly see the tradition on the media anywhere...

This was posted before the Insatiable Madness (9) was published! (meaning there could be some things mentioned to keep in mind for the future of the series... 👀)

Decided to post this 2 hours early because I was bored and didn't want to wait for the 12 o'clock mark lol.

Insatiable Madness

Diverted-Dimension (Halloween 2023)

|Sagau Yandere Fatui Harbingers x Reader|

Where am I..? This doesn't feel like the main storyline.

Reader is Gender Neutral!

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"You mean to tell me it's normal to wrap yourself in waste as a tradition?" Signora threw the toilet paper at you, her face telling you all you need to see.

"Pleeeeease? I promise it's clean!" You begged her, picking up the toilet paper she threw at you and offering it to back her.

"Absolutely not. Why would someone, besides Childe, have fun by wrapping themselves up in that nonesense?"

"I agree with Signora." Pantalone gently coughed into his hand. "Why would one choose to have filth around them for amusement?"

"You lot are sour little bitches."

"How DARE you--"

"Either way, it can't be too bad. Especially since this tradition has been around for atleast a century." You smiled at Childe rolling around in the toilet paper.

"I think it looks fun!" Columbina pitched in, her head wrapped in toilet paper delicately.

"Of course you would, you brown-noser. Anything you see Y/N do is an instant hobby to your personality." Scaramouche glared at her, sitting on the sofa behind her.

"Well, not like you had a personality to begin with."

All the Damselette did in response was giggle, and continued to look your way. "It's my turn now!"

"Your turn to do... what?"

"To wrap you of course! Didn't you say the whole point was who could wrap each other the fastest?" She made a 'grabby hands' motion.

Oh dear, this doesn't look good.

"Yeah, Y/n..." Scaramouche teased, tossing the toilet paper in his hand up and down. "Let's wrap you up."

"You changed your mind very quickly. Are you sure you weren't feeling sad that you were missing out?"

"Of course not." He scoffed. "Hey, Damsel. I'm going for their mouth first, you do their legs."

"Perfect, that way they can't run away!~" She giggled once more.

Haha... I'm in danger-

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You don't know how long you've been tied up with toilet paper. You reckon it's been a good hour of Columbina singing as she worked on your 'Wedding Gown'.

Scaramouche also had fun wrapping your entire head very tightly. Thankfully, Pierro cut your eyes and nose loose when you complained you couldn't breathe.

"Y/N!! You look so pretty!" Columbina clapped in delight, a wide smile on her face.

Scaramouche just stayed silent, clutching a hand to his mouth trying not to laugh.

"Thanks everyone, I definitely see you trying to help me." Is what you would have said if it weren't for the tight toilet paper wrapped around your mouth, practically gagging you.

"Now, now," Pulcinella interjected the laughing, holding your back when realising you were about to fall over.

"Let's not tease them too much, they planned our night out did they not?"

"Oh, right, they did!" Childe piped up, looking behind him and cringing at the strips of toilet paper he shredded.

I am not cleaning that up for him.

"You rarely ever let us out of the house, I'm excited to see the neighbourhood you live in!"

"One, there's a very good reason for why I don't let anyone out the house. Two, how on Earth could you be excited about my neighbourhood?" You finally managed to rip through the tissue around your mouth.

"Who said you could unsilence yourself? I enjoyed the brief moment of peace we had without your squealing." Sandrone scoffed.

"I did, plus, I was starting to choke on it and my throat feels very dry now... No, Dottore, I don't need any of your pois-- I mean medicine."

"What an insult." He shook his head in disappointment.

"Should we all get ready to begin going out? Before we know it, it'll be 9 o'clock and people will begin to walk around." You suggested, watching Dottore roll his eyes.

"I agree, however, you never mentioned why we'll be going out tonight." Arlecchino said.

"Well, on Halloween there's this tradition we have---"

"Another one?" Signora sighed, her boredom being evident from her tone.

"...You do realise festivals don't just have one tradition right?" You sighed back at her.

"As I was saying, on Halloween we dress up as things we find 'spooky', and 'scary'. Some even cosplay as their favourite fictional characters! Then, at night, you walk around with neighbourhood with bowls knocking on doors for sweets! It's pretty delicious I'm not gonna lie."

"Can't we just dress up as ourselves? I often hear my soldiers gossiping about us Harbingers when they think I'm not listening. Are we scary?" Capitano suggested with a heavy voice.

"I mean... sure, you do come off that way when you walk around killing people just because you can't find one person."

"Haha, very funny." Sandrone looked at you, tapping her finger on the arm of the sofa opposite to you.

"I hate sugar." Scaramouche rolled his eyes at your explanation.

"Oh yeah! I forgot you don't like anything sweet!"

"Anyway, I would prefer it if you didn't dress as yourselves, you'll look very out of place." You sighed.

"Yeah, no. I'm not dressing up at all."

"Well, I'll be going as an angel! I saw on your... phone? (I think that's what you called it) A lot of people were dressing up as one and I wanted to see if it suited me!" Columbina showed a white dress in front of your eyes.

"Where did you get that? I didn't give you permission to go into my room - especially my wardrobe. I haven't even worn it yet!"

"I thought it looked really pretty!"

"That is not a solid argument!" You argued back.

"Now, now, you two..." Pulcinella put his hands on your shoulder and hers.

"Let us not show animosity towards eachother."

"Oh, so she can steal my shit but can't atleast apologise for keeping it in her possessions without telling me?"

"You didn't even notice it was gone. I don't understand the source of your anger~" She giggled at you.

"You're lucky you're a harbinger keeping me here against my will."

"Are you two finished now?" Pierro grumbled. "We have a long evening ahead of us."

"'We'? I thought you insisted you didn't want to come?"

"That is true, however, I cannot help but worry about the Damselette and the likes of you going off together causing trouble only the Tsaritsa will remember."

"Dude, she's not even here--"

"Let's change topic." Arlecchino sighed to herself, watching Columbina run off with your dress somewhere.

"She asked me to also dress as an angel with her, the one with black wings instead."

"Oh, you mean a fallen angel?" You sighed, a headache beginning to form inside your mind.

"Let me guess, you want to borrow one of my dresses too?"

"No, that wouldn't be courteous. Besides, it would be very tight on me if I were to wear one."

"Thanks for insinuating I'm small."

"That is not what I meant."

"Heyy, Decider? What should I wear?" Childe enthusiastically threw himself on the sofa next to you.

You shrugged as a reply.

"If you don't assign me a character, I'll steal the Captain's clothes and dress up as him."

"Please don't." Capitano walked off.

"Just be a corpse. You'll be one in less than a hundred years anyway." Scaramouche suggested, smirking at his own joke.

"I actually like that idea a lot." You smiled with him. "Rather than a corpse, just be a zombie."

"Ehhhh? You mean like that girl at Bubu Pharmacy!? Y/N you're so mean!"

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"You... You lot are so boring."

"Fuck off, I am not in the mood." Scaramouche folded his arms with a scornful face.

One by one the harbingers all met outside your front door. The idea was they were supposed to come out when they'd dressed up and finished getting ready.

Unfortunately, they all didn't dress up and went in their Harbinger coats.

"Alright, I understand some of you not wanting to dress up. But what happened to those of you saying you would?" You asked, feeling slightly betrayed.

"Believe me, I was going to!" Childe looked at you guiltily.

"No you didn't you big liar, you took one look at the costumes available and left the room." Arlecchino scolded him.

"I'm sorry okay!? Won't you forgive me?" He blinked very fast, mocking a begging expression.

"I'll be honest," You struggled to contain your laughter. "I really wasn't expecting anyone to dress up."

"Ehhh? But what about you putting options for us to dress as?"

You simply shrugged with a wonky smirk.

"Well, I'm glad we have all what happened earlier behind us, as well as getting out of the house in one piece." Pierro coughed into his hand, eyeing Columbina.

"So... You're not mad at me for stea-- borrowing your dress?" She asked you hopefully.

"No, I'm still pissed off."

"Aww..."

"Can we just leave, please?" Dottore groaned into his hand. "I'd like to finish the episode of the show I was watching."

"And I would like to distract myself from all of you impudent bastards - but oh look, I'm forced against my will." Sandrone gave a frown to you.

"Haha, very funny." You mocked her words from earlier, the mechanic's frown turning into an angry look.

"Oh... my... gosh. LOOK AT THOSE COSPLAYERS!!" Loud voices exclaimed from over your garden fence.

"Destiny, you're right! They look so... real!"

Oh no...

"Are they referring to us?" Arlecchino whispered to Pierro, the two harbingers sighing when seeing Childe walk up to the two girls.

"Of course they are," Signora answered the man for him. "They're pointing and talking whilst staring at us."

"How unmannered."

"Alright, alright, alright!" You called out to everyone around you after hearing the conversation behind you.

"We need to head up the street north, as that's where I usually trick or treat. Plus, the neighbours are nice there which is a nice bonus."

"If you could move away from the gate?" Your attention turned to the girls, a stern expression on your face.

"Oh, yeah, sorry... We just got a bit excited." One of the girls holding their phones apologised.

They walked away and you soon turned to face the clueless harbingers stood behind you.

"This is why I wanted you to dress up! You'll be noticed so much easier when you're dressed like how you were in the trailer!"

"Trailer?" Pantalone questioned you.

"Nevermind. I forgot everyone around me in this house is clueless."

"Clueless? Clueless about what?"

"As I said before, it doesn't matter. Let's go get some sweets!" You cheered, ignoring Pantalone nudging you for an answer.

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"Oh... Life is sweet, life is good!" You praised the harbingers after asking them to empty the bowls you gave them.

Somehow, although you knew there were a lot of you, you'd rounded up with a mountain of chocolate bars and colourful sweet packets. And calling it a mountain wasn't an exaggeration, it practically covered your coffee table.

"And this, my friends, is the triumph of our labour."

"I'll be honest though, it'll last me less than a week knowing me." You began picking out your favourite chocolates.

"That is not healthy, how are your teeth not rotting?" Dottore muttered, turning to your face and inspecting you.

"I'm blessed."

"You are definitely not." He mused, opening your mouth and looking inside at your teeth.

"Hwwey!" You tried to voice a complain.

"Ugh, just let them destroy their mouth. They'll learn that their pleasure will be their downfall." Scaramouche scoffed, pushing the doctor off of you.

Pantalone then laughed at the two in front of him. "I can always pay for them to get new teeth."

"Why would you need to pay when you have a qualified doctor in the house?"

"Qualified doctor?" Sandrone chuckled to herself. "More like insane experimental scientist."

"You little--"

"That's where you're wrong, they're simply heartless businessmen as I have always stated in the past." Arlecchino shook her head.

You glared at the Harbingers bickering as if you weren't next to them, and continued to pick and sort out the sweets covering your table.

I can never get a days peace. You shook your head, collecting and sharing the packets with Childe and Columbina on your left and right.

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kristeristerin · 1 year

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hi, seeing as you have so much angst, i was wondering if I could request Picture to Burn with original Azriel and later Eris x reader? thank you!

AN: First of all, Thank you for the ask! Although, I feel like it was quiet mean to give me more angst after I was already sad about so much angst. Lol. 😉😘 I hope you enjoy how this turned out! Disclaimer. This one is not for the Pro Azriel Girlies, but don't worry there will be more Azriel fluff later this week.

As always asks are open for prompts!

Song: Pictures to Burn

Pairing: Reader X Eris , Reader X Azriel (Mentioned)

Content Warning: None

Words: 494

The throne room shakes as the High Lord and Lady approach. I try in vain to hide my scowl as I and everyone around me drop into a low bow. Once Rhysand and Feyre have taken their places Rhys dismisses everyone with a flick of his wrist. Looking around the room I can’t help but crane my neck in an attempt to look for a distinct head of red hair.

“Looking for me?” I jump at the sound of Azriel’s low voice. I roll my eyes when he laughs. “It seems like you haven’t kept up with your training then?”

For a moment, I contemplate ignoring him altogether but ultimately decide not to give him the ammunition to use against me. Instead, I shrug and turn to face him fully. “It’s a little hard to set aside time for training when one is using their time to barely scrape by.”

My words cause him to recoil and grimace. “You didn’t have to leave Velaris. I’m truly sorry if that’s how you felt.”

I give him a halfhearted shrug, “After everything that happened there was no way for me to stay Azriel. I didn’t want to be the pining fool that you made me, and I certainly didn’t want to see your blossoming relationship with Elain. We were done, and so was my role in Rhysand’s inner circle. Besides, he needed someone here to keep an eye on Eris when he’d visit.”

“I don’t like that you’ve had to spend so much time with him.”

“Why? Are you afraid that I’ll show her how a proper male can take care of her needs?”

Eris’ bored draw never fails to bring a smile to my face. When I shift my gaze to his I can see the question in his warm eyes. If I should so much as signal that I am in distress Eris wouldn’t hesitate to put space between me and Azriel, his bargain with the Night Court be damned. I gave him a small nod, as his arm snaked around my waist and he pulls me flush against his chest. The possessive gesture does not go unnoticed by Azriel.

“You two have become close, then?” he’s barely able to hide the sneer behind his cold mask.

Before I have a chance to respond Eris is already leaning toward him with something dangerous flashing through his eyes. “We have become quite close. Which is something that you’d do well to remember, dog. Should you continue to make her uncomfortable you’ll learn just how far I’m willing to go or the future High Lady of the Autumn court.”

At that moment I am not sure whose face looks more shocked, mine or Azriel’s, but Eris just smirks as he drops a quick kiss on my shoulder and whispers in my ear. “Care to dance, my love?”

Still speechless, I just nod and let him lead me away without another glance back at the fuming Shadowsinger.

#acotar fanfiction #acotar x reader #acotar fic #azriel x reader #eris x reader #eris x you

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sgiandubh · 6 months

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"He's actually paying those PR people? Whatever for? A drunk wombat would be better at the task." I LOL'd because my god have we been asking this very question of both Sam and Cait for years. They're PR is actually the worst. It's honestly hard to believe at times. Absolutely zero idea who either of them are trying to reach. The recalibrating after that VF disaster sent Cait into hiding, I'm not sure she's done another print interview since Belfast promo ended and if the Sam articles are going to continue on this way, he can quit too. Boring.

Dear Quit Anon,

I am flattered I managed to bring a smile or even a LOL, but I am not particularly glad about it. Unlike droves of people who think this PR shitshow is sad, I actually find it mystifying.

You are right. Goddess C went into occultation after that cursed VF interview. There are clear reasons, I think, for that. Also, please take into account the fact that, despite the illusions peddled by some fuckwits in this fandom, there are many things we simply do not know (nor should we, most probably).

As for S, I guess that ever since she went totally MIA (as I said, make-up and fash-un promo don't really compensate), he is overexposing himself. On purpose. Perhaps to protect her (I think so). Certainly to hide something. Since this is no way in hell about being gay (I will die on that hill and I know I am right), the only thing he could hide is well... I don't really need to draw it, do I?

Smoke and mirrors is always a risky strategy. S simply hasn't got what it takes to play that game long term, probably for the same reasons he was never a serious shortlist candidate for Bond. At this point in time, he'd mechanically go with whatever merde du jour is thrown by his imbecile PR on the table. Still, it's high time he'd seriously pull himself together. He can do better, as I wrote in a comment: he can do NYT and he did it very well, recently. And I was glad to see that. But Metro is just disappointing, clueless and tasteless. And it's padding up a press portfolio with amiable, meaningless bullshit that goes nowhere. Or at least nowhere near he wants to be or see himself in, let's say, five years from now.

OL is going to end. It has to. It's been both a blessing and a curse, I said that before. Then, it will be high time to end the fucking Truman Show. He (abstractly) knows that, he keeps hinting about it. “I’m ready for new challenges, but also nervous about what it’s like in the real world” - for some reason, I found this phrase very telling. But I doubt he internalized what probably still feels like a safely remote occurrence, right now.

What are his real projects? For the moment, zero. Directing? I'd love to see it, but he's got no real credentials for that. Bond? I mean, publicly gushing and insisting is not going to manifest it. He needs a real movie, a good one to break that glass ceiling. Is he going to get it? I hope so. But his personal brand awareness is still low. The PR clowns should stop talking to us, in here: we are already here and not going anywhere. All of us: antis, mommies, shippers, fencers, haters, trolls. They should talk to the people who have no clue who S is, and do it differently. He should step out of his comfort zone, ditch the leeches and refuse to discuss his personal life, for a while. There, I said it.

What are her real projects? For the moment, not much. Sure, we have The Cut, where I gather her part is minimalistic, to be kind. We also have The Amateur, of which very little is known at the moment. However, if I am correct, she is not one of the leads. Enough said. And beyond that? Crickets.

Make no mistake. The real litmus test is not now. The real litmus test is 2025. And then we'll see. And I'll still be here, taking weeping Anons because I don't know who said I don't know what I don't know where. Mark me.

#anon #fandom #shitshow

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othervee · 3 months

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Season 3

On my rewatch though not finished yet. I had to take a break. Thoughts so far:

In the opening scene the queen doesn't even LOOK at Wilhelm as she comes in. Not a glance! Although she certainly watches Simon when he comes back after the little recess.

Boys! Why didn't you pre-warn your respective mothers about the drugs, at least? Sitting in front of August and his stepdad at a mediation is the second worst possible way for them to have found that out, and surely you would know he would bring that up because that's the only leverage he has apart from being the spare.

LOVE Wilmon boyfriends era. I love the soft little smiles and touches, the heart emojis, the way they say "puss" when they say goodbye. The fact that when they see each other for the first time they kiss in front of everyone and all the Hillerska background noise and chatter completely fades to nothing, because there's nothing else but them in the world.

Happy Wille is so adorable, decorating his bedroom with the poem and the polaroid of Simon... and then sitting down and being restless. Everything has changed and nothing has changed at the same time.

The way it cuts from the fight scene to Wilhelm and August sitting silently in Boris' office is LOL forever.

They are actually talking about the racism and classism. And again, it has to be the elites who find out it exists and what form it takes, to see that change should happen. August, who scoffed at Wille's "socialist safari" in season 1, is now angry when Vincent talks about them "sitting on the bus to the slums". Felice is not just aware of the microaggressions but actively pointing them out to the other girls. So glad that she points out the hair thing - and Stella's utterly tone-deaf reaction.

(There's at least one scene back in s2 where the housemother tells her to put her hair up and then Stella or Fredrika, I forget which, also puts hers up. Is there one in s1?)

And Felice's reaction when she hears about her father's experience at Hillerska. He started out as himself and ended up a complete cookie-cutter perfect upper-class Swede, and he thinks that's OK. And that it's important for her to do it too.

The Wilhelm/Kristina and Sara/Micke parallels they are drawing this season are really interesting. They represent potential futures for their children. Micke is Sara if she retreats from the world and from trying to form and maintain true relationships. Kristina is Wille if he retreats from himself and continues to put up a facade.

Micke has some pieces of childrens' art on his walls and a photo of a little girl... Sara as a child? Sara and Simon's artworks from their childhood? If so, that's really powerful and sad.

Wille's frog prince has the YR stylised crown:

Loved the kids all partying together. Kids are kids, whether rich or not. But oh, Fredrika, you are such a naive little nuffnuff.

Wille's SSSHHHH! to Simon in the tent is so like Kristina.

I am not surprised by the Erik thing at all. But I am curious about how that particular initiation went down, and how the homophobic taunting was stopped. Nils says, "I didn't dare to speak up". August says, "Hey, at least we put a stop to it. We kept our promise. We didn't do the same thing to our first years." Did one or both of them react? Who was it who promised to stop it, and to whom?

I have not forgotten that in s2e3, when Wille asks Boris whether Erik used to come to him, Boris says, "It can be useful to see someone like me, so that you don't feel you have to risk hurting somebody." We see that panic attacks run in the family; do violent outbursts, too?

I have so many thoughts about the royal family this season but that's going to take a longer post. "Not in my family", eh, Wille?

#young royals #young royals analysis #young royals season 3 #young royals spoilers #young royals season 3 spoilers #yr s3 spoilers

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ofliterarynature · 8 months

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AUGUST 2023 WRAP UP

[ loved liked okay no thanks DNF (reread) bookclub*]

I’m late I’m late I’m late! Oops

It’s only a month late, right? ‘Only’ lol, work has been exhausting! Anyways:

At this point I wonder if Ann Leckie can ever do wrong, Translation State was good! I was completely enthralled, which is all I ask, even if I don’t get as passionate about it as the main trilogy.

I continued the KJ Charles reading, with these supposed stand alones that are also kind of related? Honestly it’s no less of a stretch than Society of Gentlemen to Lilywhite Boys, so I don’t know why she can’t officially list them together. Anyways, mostly fine, and Band Sinister is still a delight!

Camp Damascus…I’m thrilled for Chuck, really, and I think he’s a delight to follow, but this one wasn’t for me. Religious trauma is turning out to be a hard no.

Ocean’s Echo was good! In some ways I definitely thought it was better than Winter’s Orbit - miscommunication is the worst I’m sorry, this story was more consistently engaging! I just like the characters from WO a bit more.

Chrestomanci! I’ve been going by the suggested reading order on Goodreads, and while I wasn’t particularly enthused by Charmed Life, once I had a grasp on the world the other books have been fun! Im very sad this might be my last DWJ, as I seem to have exhausted my library’s collection of her audiobooks :(

Grimoire of Grave Fates had a really interesting premise that lured me in, despite my reservations - an anthology where all the stories work together to solve the mystery of a murder at a magic boarding school? I thought it worked fairly well (and could definitely spin itself out into a series of novels), but just ok for me. Maybe one day I’ll finally concede I can’t read YA or boarding school books anymore.

Q’s Legacy was the last (I think) of the 84 Charing Cross Road books, and honestly the worst. It had its interesting moments, but it lacked the cohesion of the other two, speed,-running the before and during of those stories, to then spend the second half on the adaptations. It was not at all what the descriptions led me to expect. Maybe worth a single read but not a revisit.

I will also be honest, I didn’t really like the first Veronica Speedwell! The plot felt a bit contrived, and Veronica was so blunt as to almost read as rude or mean. Also very unexpectedly…clinically horny? Does that make sense? I’m not quite sure what prompted me to continue, but I’m now several books in and enjoying it! To be blunt myself, the historic setting is just set dressing, the plots can feel contrived, the mysteries are mediocre, but the real draw is the Veronica and Stoker show once they get themselves settled in and comfortable with each other. It’s a hoot.

I’d heard good things about The Art of Prophecy, but I still didn’t know quite what to expect going in. It was wonderful. Maybe a little long, but if you’re looking for a fantastic fantasy with lots of fight sequences, no romance, and some fascinating characters, this is a great read. The sequel comes out soon and I can only hope it doesn’t take as long for my library to get the audiobook as it did for this one.

I don’t know where I first found An Enchanted April, but it’s been on my TBR for a little bit, and I thought it would be the perfect fit for my classics challenge I gave myself this year! It wasn’t what I expected at all - it’s entirely character driven and very focused on their flaws, and the entire first half I thought I was going to hate it. But the second half, there’s a twist, almost, born of some very naïve optimism that nonetheless works out. Very improbably, but I was happy for them, you funky little weirdos.

What can I say about The Angel of the Crows except that it is still very good! It’s maybe lost a little of the shine it held when I got obsessed with it for a few months last year, but it is definitely now one of my comfort books. I really ought to read more canon Holmes though lol.

The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo was, to be fair, one of my suggestions for book club. It was OK, but there were definitely parts that really did not work for me, the frame narrative in particular. The other members of the club really liked it but I don’t have any plans to read more of the authors work.

I’m almost tempted to put The Last Sun last just so I can yell more. I’d heard such good things about this series, but turns out my expectations were a bit skewed - it is not historical or secondary fantasy world, oops. So we got off to a bit of a rough start, not to mention all of the Capital Words. Not usually a good sign. And while I still wouldn’t say I love the worldbuilding necessarily, or that these are the next great work of fantasy, the action is really great, and the characters are flipping fantastic. You’ve got a pair of 30 year olds who are bad ass fighters, have a traumatic past, are immature assholes, can be so so kind, and accidentally adopt a posse of troubled teenagers? Sign me up, I love them, this reminds me so much of my days reading tons of Teen Wolf fanfic AUs.

My history with 2 AM At the Cat's Pajamas is that they cannot stop recommending this thing on the Book Riot podcasts. When I found a copy at Goodwill, I thought surely it’s meant to be! Well. It was not bad, but it was not great. I don’t know. It just wasn’t for me and I will not be keeping my copy. I probably should have DNF’d it, but I continued in hope.

Only one actual DNF this month though, The Mistress of Bhatia House - the newest Perveen Mistri book. I was actually fairly excited for it despite my reservations about the earlier books, but I hit a mental roadblock with this one. There was some contrived feeling tension with her sister-in-law, but really, I realized that one of my main problems with this series is that, despite being in a very precarious social position, Perveen is just incredibly reckless - usually in the name of doing good! - but it just hit all the wrong nerves at the moment. I’m hoping there will be a better time to read this, but not right now.

#bec posts #2023 #book log #wrap up 2023 #translation state #kj Charles #camp Damascus #oceans echo #chrestomanci #diana wynne jones #the grimoire of grave fates #helene hanff #Veronica speedwell #the art of prophecy #the enchanted April #the seven husbands of evelyn hugo #tarot sequence #the last sun #2 am at the cats pajamas

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indigo-creates-chaos · 15 days

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So I drew stuff-

I was bored at a meeting type thing two days ago so I did a lil bit of rough sketching.

These are the results! I like Rae and Momboo the most. I don't know what went wrong with Icarus though lol, we'll just ignore them-

I also just did some rought coloring bc I wanted to, here's how that looks.

I don't know whether I prefer the uncoloured or the coloured versions but I am glad I did the sketches in the first place.

This is my first time drawing any sort of specific fanart for a fandom and I am a little sad that it took me until days before the finale airs to draw anything related to fable smp, but it is what it is.

I kinda want to do a bigger, digital lineup with more characters but knowing me that's gonna take a long time (if it gets done at all). I'm posting about it here so I have more incentive to actually do it. I did want to get that finished by the time I watch the finale (not when it airs bc that's not possible), but I don't think that's going to happen, no matter how much I want it to. But I guess we shall see! For now, thank you for reading and have a lovely [timezone]!

This section is optional and mostly just an update.

About the finale. I will not be seeing it live and I will not see it when its posted since a) i'll have a guest over for a few days and b) its airing at 1am my time. Its probably gonna take another week or two for me until I can watch it because I am behind. I do know about Sherbs summary vod but now I might as well catch up by watching the other vods... all this to say that if you see me posting about old vods after the finale is aired, don't worry about it lol, just let me vibe in blissful ignorance. You'll know once I've seen the finale, trust me. I'm also going to continue being pretty inactive in terms of reading other posts on here since I don't want to spoil myself. Once I'm all caught up I might just spend some time reblogging a bunch of posts and talking about the acting and all that good stuff. But anyway! Thank you for reading the additional stuff lol and have a nice [timezone]!

#indigo rambles #indigo sketches #fable smp #fable smp rae #fable smp icarus #fable smp aax #fable smp fenris #fable smp wolf #fable smp ven #fable smp momboo

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dweamofsweep · 6 months

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Final few drawings from this sketchbook now that I’m recycling it! Kind of sad because this particular notebook was one I used as a little kid, it has some suuuper old and embarrassingly bad (but funny) drawings in it.

Also just going to put this here; I know something kind of blew up here over the weekend in this corner of Tumblr. Dr. Tezuka has been dead for several decades now, so we will never know exactly what “ending” he thought about for Tenma and Astro further than how they got separated and never really permanently reunited throughout his numerous re-writes and loose canon tendencies. That’s up to us to parse and make meaning of and potentially imagine beyond for ourselves as audience members of the series, which many fans have done over the years (And even any other official work done after Tezuka’s passing, like AB2003 and ATB, Pluto etc are basically the same thing). I believe we are allowed to disagree with the evaluations of media that others come up with, whether just in our heads or posted publicly! However, it is not our job to budge every last person’s opinion on the internet. We may “see” each other on a somewhat regular basis because, let’s face it, this fandom is pretty small, but at the end of the day none of us know everything that informs the meaning being made by the others — and we are not obligated to disclose such personal information for any reason, in real life or online. To give you an example and offer up something about myself, Astro as a character resonates with me in large part because he stands on the border between one group and another; although he is certainly a robot, he lives his life as a human would most of the time, creating a split between himself and other robots while still not being accepted fully into human society. It gives him a unique opportunity to bridge the two together, but as a result he can never be entirely one or the other. The reason why I find that fascinating is because I am a second-gen immigrant Asian-American, and it forms some parallels with the way I feel in my own life, having been raised more American than Asian. Also, my parents are culturally Chinese-Indonesian, but ethnically appear Chinese (as do I). I will never be fully accepted into native Chinese, Indonesian, or Chinese-Indonesian communities because I act too much like an “American” despite my appearance. I will also never be fully accepted into the American community I live in because I still cling onto some of my heritage, and of course also because of my appearance. But maybe due to my experience in both worlds, the chances have increased that I could foster greater empathy, interest, or understanding between them, and Astro gives me hope for that.

However— I wouldn’t expect anyone here to know that (or even remember after reading it — it’s fine, you can purge the info from your brain LOL) even if it does affect my readings of certain scenarios and stories. If someone were to post something that doesn’t acknowledge or reflect the perspective I have, I can feel any type of way about it, but I have to remind myself I don’t know where they’re coming from and to try not to take it too personally, since they don’t know where I’m coming from either. Maybe someone has had the exact opposite experience from me, maybe they just haven’t been in any comparable situation to begin with, they could also be a lot younger or older, or from another part of the world — on the internet you really just don’t know, and a person doesn’t really have to tell you if they don’t want to. Personally, once I’ve said my piece, I’ve said it. If someone disagrees with me over the same point repeatedly, and I considered their viewpoint but decided to retain mine, I don’t continue to engage them, because I know it gets unproductive sooner or later (neither side changes their mind or learns anything new, if anything we both just become more stubborn about our own arguments because we have to keep making the same one over and over). I do think about Tezuka’s and other artists’ work very seriously, as an artist myself and an aspiring professional, and I believe that’s a valid angle to come from. Yet I often just draw things on a whim despite the aforementioned, and as embarrassing as it is to admit, most of my drawings have very little meaning. I just post on here hoping it might make someone else a bit happier to see it; I suspect that many others in the community do the same. (Obviously if I misrepresent something severely in my own work, which I hope I will not but you never know, I want someone to tell me about it, but I didn’t think this was the case in the particular situation happening now.)

and… I will freely admit to sharing outlandish internet takes both as a kid and as an adult, then changing my mind and looking back on it, as well as my behavior in general, later with regret 😭 it will happen again, I’m sure… perhaps this is one and I should have kept my mouth shut, but I hope this at least gave some of my perspective. If you want to probe any further into my thoughts or ask for clarification you can!

#Astro boy oh boy

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why hello old friends, you’ve found me once again (it wasn’t a secret really lol). to start off myello. sorry for disappearing off the Mewcrew blog. It gets all kinda wordy so it’s under a readmore.

Long story short I suffered from a mental Illinois(tm) spiral of depression, work exhaustion, undiagnosed/untreated adhd and big time imposter syndrome + burnout. Zoom into today I’ve been in therapy for my big time sads with some new perspectives and management, got some adhd meds, my job quit on me (long story) so now I’m slinging it freelance artist style and seeing how it goes, and back with family cause living alone was expensive and very Not Good for my brain it turned out. Still working on new changes and learning about the anxious smorgasbord up in the head.

Now there’s still no guarantee? That Mewcrew stuff is going to come back in full force like it did. Im still trying to like it again cause I do miss them. It took a long time and effort just to draw them for the wips I got going in the bg after like the three years leaving. Tbh the blog became something I didn’t want and instead of casual, low effort, funny not serious Just Roomates on misadventures in a pink void comic it became long hours of planning and plotting and rendering and feeling it wasn’t enough with my nasty soup of brain ick continuing to make me feel bad for not keeping up with a constant pace and comparing my work to the artists around me (again it was my brain funguses making reality hard-no one else. The artists around me back then were legit the nicest peeps around-still are). I’m also still really nervous and anxious around big communities that seemed to have sprung up HELLO ALL OF YOU LOL. I remember when it was just three of us xD And I still have to sit with my imposter syndrome and understanding I have things to offer that people do want to see and to stop anxieties from comparing my work to others.

So for now if I am posting Mewcrew stuff it’s mostly going to be here on my main from now on and not an individual blog (me figuring it’s just a lot of effort to keep up with so many blogs and logins, I think any new project or direction I go is just gonna be slapped on my main from now on. The less effort the better for my energy.). It’ll be sporadic and in a much different direction that was more akin to what I wanted it to be and much more casual comedy (or my flat sense of humor-I’ll laugh at knock knock jokes fr) slice of life with very little, even parody “plot”. And most of it until im comfortable with releasing complete mewcrew/mewtwo content will be on my patreon with again spurts of it here on tumblr and on my other socials. And if any of you come into my inbox saying I’m paywalling my own content AGAIN I will come for your kneecaps no joke you are NOT entitled to my work ESPECIALLY when this is now my main form of income. Anything on my patreon is /extra/ and early works and for peeps who choose to/want to and or capable of supporting me. That was literally the final straw that made me take a step out way back then: there’s still somebody behind the screen please remember that. This is just for my anxieties and getting comfortable with my characters again at a slow pace👍 I do miss everyone I use to interact with and want to be part of the bigger community here that’s sprouted up. Just gotta walk slowly with my social anxiety and other things first.

Thanks for reading and choosing to stick around if you do!

#lechetxt #lots of brain soup problems here #but hello again pals 👋 it’s been awhile!#and hello to new folks 👍

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nolongerapileofashprobably · 1 year

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First Impressions (will be adding as I play)

DOMESTIC ZELINK THEH ARE SO FUCKING CUTE (like PLS he is such a gentleman and is still a short king, we stan— and Zelda always worried about him 🥺)

Link lost an arm to protect Zelda. My guy sets a HIGH BAR

Once I fully understand zonai devices it’s over for you bitches

Rauru my main man gets a love interest. What a dude

NOOOO NOT THE WAY THE MASTER SWORD GOES TO ZELDY IN THE PAST IM SO AHSJKDJSBAHSJZ I MISS FI SO MUCH

yo Hyrule be lookin DIFFERENTT AND OMG EVERYONE IS LOOKING FOR ZELDA AND LINK

Fucking SHOOT ME IT WOULD BE LESS PAINFUL THAN SEEING HOW MUCH EVERYONE CARES ABOUT THEM LIKE ????? GODDDDDD

DID A TREE JUST FUCKING ATTACK ME WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF SHIT IS THIS those scrubs really upped themselves ig

TULIN MY CHILD IVE NEVER BEEN SO EXCITED THAT IS MY SON!!!!!! THATS MY BOY!!!!! lol I love that the game points you towards Rito first bc no matter what the game wanted me to do, I was going to Rito village first bc I wanted to see all my CHILDRENN

Where the FUCK is Kass.

Not me avoiding both the entire East portion of the map in preference of going to Gerudo to see Riju

YOOOOO GIBDOS????? Need the suns song

OH LIGHTNINGGGGGG interesting I am DIGGING THIS and we get to go into Gerudo without disguise???? BANGERRRRRRR

I want my HORSE 🥲 silence my trusty white stallion where art thou

I’ve made it to Hateno and I’m fucking sick of these Koroks, like get up you lazy tree spirit are you fucking KIDDING me

ZELDA’S HOUSE!!!!! IS!!! THE!!!! HATENO!!!! HOUSE!!!! THEY LIVED TOGETHER!!! We been knew but OH MY GOD ITS SO FUCKING OBVIOUS WITH ALL THESE IMPLICATIONS. HIS HAIR TIE. THENEW TUNIC. THE KIDS DRAWING OF ZELDA. I AM GOING FERAL THEY ARE SO GODDAMN DOMESTIC

Yo where the FUCK is Kass.

Okay okay I’m having a time with paragliding so I’m just going to do Rito Village’s thing so I can get Tulin’s power

Lmao they’re not gunna kill off the babies like they did with the last champions…. Right?

LOL OKAY OKAY COOL THEY WONT CRISIS AVERTED but MAN I’ve fucked myself bc it is nearly 5a and my sister is coming over at 8a 💀

my HORSEEEE I HAVE MY HORSE BACK yo that is TRULY the best thing I missed my horse so much

Okay now I’m going to do the tears of the dragon quest bc WOOOOOHWEEEEE I miss Zelda

This was a fucking mistake it is 3am and I have to be up in four hours for work and I’m SOBBING bc ZELDA HAS SACRIFICED SO FUCKING MUCH I CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK NINTENDO

At least I have the sword 🥲

I’m loving everyone sending asks and talking to me about this game I love each of you SO MUCH… not as much as I love Tulin and Riju but still LOL

Yo I’m so fucking sad bc of Zelda rn I think I’m just gunna get a shit ton of shrines and explore the depths

THE DEPTHS ARE SO FUN AND COOL!!! I also think I found a temple in eldin ???? COOOOOOOOLLLLL !!!!!

What’s not cool? Yunobo being all macho macho man bruh when that is not the sensitive little Goron I know and love. Marbled rock roast? Sureeee Cuz that’s not suspicious.

Okay I’m going to avoid Zora’s domain and head to the great plateau…. Why the fuck is the Old Man’s Cabin inhabited by the Sheikah what the fuck is this

Okay so the Yiga are just camped out in Akkala too??? Bitches. Next thing you know Kohga is alive and in the depths LMAO

Now I’m going to Zora’s Domain bc it’s my last pit stop before I actually continue the story LOL… scratch that Imma head to Tarrey Town and see how the fam is doin! And !!! Hudson has a daughter!! Guess that answers my question as to how long it’s been between games lmao

I keep procrastinating Zora’s Domain OOOOFT but I’ll go there now for reals—Sidon is engaged??? Man was like “Omg bestie it’s been forevs btw this is my fiancé” like damn okay how long has it been since Link went to Zora’s domain

I’ve been searching for Kass and I’m having major doubt atp 🥲 I want my beloved songbird back

OKAY DUNGEON TIMEEEEE Imma do Yunobo and while I know it wants me to save Riju for last I simply cannot stay away for long so I’ll go there next!

Yo these temples are fire I got majorly concerned with the Wind Temple but it genuinely makes sense to have a more familiar groundwork for players to begin with that’s just different enough that you notice so it prepares you for the more complex classic Zelda dungeon twist the rest of them have

I’m annoyed all of their abilities require me like ‘asking’ their spirits rather than having a function button to summon it at will

Except for tulin bc he is my child and all is forgiven. And Riju bc she’s pretty and I love her

DID I FUCKING MANIFEST KOHGA BEING ALIVE AND IN THE DEPTHS?????? BITTTTCCCCHHHHHH I thought these people be straight up loyal but nah he ain’t dead, just chillin in the depths

Yo I thought I was at the end of the game but nope I find out that the Zelda I’ve been chasing is a puppet WOW who would have guessed 🙃

BUT THE WAY GANONDORF WAS LIKE “using her made it so easy to lure you into traps” like my man KNOWS

Okay okay fifth Sage down and now I’m going to the Hyrule castle chasm

Was no one going to tell me this might be difficult bc I’m just tryna sneak through but that ain’t happening LOL

I’m going to shower and eat dinner and THEN I’ll beat the game

Oh my god we back at the place we started I LOVE FULL CIRCLES

I’m going to fucking sob this has been such a good fight!!! Getting to use the master sword the entire time >>>>>

(Even though i legitimately used a lynel bow and bombs to deal most of my damage to Ganondorf… don’t judge me I am ✨strategic✨ and I only managed fo do real damage if I did arrows, arrows, dodge dodge dodge, flurry rush, backpedal it up)

ZELDA BEING MY HOMIE IN THIS DRAGON FIGHT WE LOVE TO SEE IT !!! She makes me so happy she went straight for Link to save him bc that’s simply instinct

🥹🥹🥹🥹IM SOBBING THIS IS SO FUCKINNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG THIS IS SO GOOD I LOVE HER AND I LOVE THAT WE GET TO DIVE AFTER HER AND ACTUALLY CATCH HER 🥹🥹🥹

Lifting her out of the water… Zelda waking up to the feeling of a warm loving embrace… telling Link “I’m home” and that she has “so much to tell” him… I’m going to need another box of tissues bc I be EMOTIONAL

Awe all the sages pledging themselves to Zelda

Link just being a silent supportive boyfriend bc homeslice can and will do everything to protect Zelda (and okay he already did a ceremony for this but let me have my shipper goggles on)

I’m just going to say it. This might be my favorite game. And I’m a diehard Majora’s Mask fan. Like that’s been my favorite for a WHILE. I miss the simplicity for some of the game mechanics but thoroughly enjoy the new creations we can make. I also understand zonai devices now so when Kass comes in the DLC it’s over for y’all

Anyway botw/totk zelink is canon and no one can change my mind

#this is essentially a reaction post now that I think about it #this post has been a week and a few days in the making #worth it def #loz totk spoilers #loz totk #zelink #totk zelink #loz tears of the kingdom spoilers #loz tears of the kingdom

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taralen · 2 months

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"My girl, I'm here again to continue being sweet. You know, I couldn't help but read you early. There are curious little cherubs wondering what I'm writing to you. This makes me nervous for some reason, but I like this threatening tactic, and you won't stop me from putting more dedication into my letters. You know that you are my source of inspiration. When I close my eyes, I think about how you would be in person, but a description of you is something that I can't define because perfection knows no limits, just like describing your voice, your scent, your skin... Oh God, you're so perfect that I feel insignificant. It's not because I fall into those silly clichés of others, but because when one truly loves another, there is no one else, because our souls harmonize to the tune of the birdsong to become one. Because your concerns, your anger, your needs, they are also mine. I want to learn more about you. I want to know what it feels like to share a walk through the city or a town, pampering you in the smallest detail with sweets or maybe pastries. How about something savory? Do you like being treated like a queen? Well, let me open the door to that restaurant you've been longing to go to. Sit down before I take your seat. Let me show you that I am a gentleman first and let you take the order. Laugh at my formality, but I am happy that you are there. Order whatever you want, my little angel. I am so in love and lost in your eyes that all I want is to join my lips with yours and feel like I've reached heaven. Soft and wet, it's paradise to feel this flutter in my chest. Can I touch them? With a soft and fearful movement, let me run my thumb over them because this sensation is so strong. Why do you let me do it? Not only caressing your cheek, looking into your eyes, you imprison me, you corner me, you've blinded me. My girl, come and take my hand, and let's keep walking through this city or town. We'll laugh at anything, talk endlessly until you get tired. You're ecstatic, and so am I. Don't feel bad when we have to say goodbye. There's always tomorrow and a new day to smile at. I'll kiss your hands as many times as necessary, I'll scare your pain away, and I'll be your handkerchief when your tears fall. My girl, no matter how hard it is, I love you. Together we can overcome that pain. You are strong, you are beautiful, you are a gift that no one can compare to. Can't anyone see how incredible my angel is? She can create unimaginable things that no one can appreciate like I do because she is so misunderstood by many, but for those who get to know her, they can't understand how you do it. Let's dance, my precious, let's dance again and again on this night. Hide your face in my chest, feel my heartbeats, they are for you, don't you see it? It's not a joke. What I would like most is to live in the same place, on the same street, and in your same space. My love is pure. I don't want to hurt you, just listen to what I want to tell you, just a little... Even if we never see each other or hear each other, let this beautiful memory live on of two beings who loved each other through fearless night letters."

LOVE LETTER #8 (Last One So Far)

Received this one from him less than six hours ago...

I was crying so hard through this I couldn't properly draw anymore. I'm sorry... I'm just so moved. I'm not crying from sadness but because I am so so happy.

I think it was (hilariously) a response to the playful Twitter post I made lol:

#musings #my art #self portrait #ask answered #answered #inbox #love letter response #serious post #confession #my heart is racing #my throat is tight #and I have never cried so much over feeling loved...#thank you anon...

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s1lly-gh02tz · 11 months

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IM LUCIFER!!!

I go by he/they/it pronouns

I am a minor

I’m an artist and sometimes an animator and writer!!

I don’t have many other socials but I do have a TikTok!! (Same user as my tumblr)

I love making fanart of characters from fandoms I’ve been in such as fnaf, dsaf, Dhmis, Batim, cuphead, spooky month, welcome home, undertale, animal crossing, deltrarune, the owl house, invader Zim, Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, I Feel Sick, Squee!, murder drones, and sometimes my own characters!

I’ve made other posts about my ocs if you’re interested under some form of an oc tag lol I also have other tags like #rambles and #Lucifer loosing his marbles (first one is just me talking and the other is me talking but I’m going wacky)

Please only send in asks if they’re drawing requests. Unless you’re an irl friend or a mutual. I do not feel comfortable when people send in asks. Even if it’s asking for money. I am a minor and there is no way for me to send you money. ⚠️

If you’d like to hear more about my AUs or characters please don’t hesitate to ask! I love talking about them

I also SOMETIMES posts vents but I’ll usually delete them within a little bit so just ignore those lol

Drawing requests are open!!! However I won’t be able to get to them for a little while because I’ve got other stuff to do

I’m currently really into: Johnny the Homicidal Maniac and Invader Zim!! (Sad to see deltarune go☹️)

If you ask me to do something (for example continue an old au or draw something) I might not always respond/or do it. I probably have something going on that results in me not responding! So be patient and if you send me an ask i might not respond, but I really love when people send asks!

Alr that’s about it’

Drawing request info⬇️⬇️

So yes as I said I do take drawing requests! I don’t charge or anything, it’s just something fun I like to do!

I will be able to answer/respond to requests however if I have something going on or will be busy for a period of time I will not be able to work on anything. I will update when I am able to take requests as often as possible!

I will draw:

Cartoony/non realistic things

Ships

Animals/anthropomorphic

Gore (I’m not super good at drawing it but I will^^)

Preferably 1-2 characters depending on complexity but I can draw more if requested

I won’t draw:

NSFW

Realism

Compships/ships I’m not comfortable drawing

Thats basically all I can think of for now. However if the request is something I personally don’t feel comfortable drawing, I’m not afraid to kindly decline the request. I apologize for any inconvenience this brings💔

NOTE: I CAN AND WILL REFUSE TO DRAW ANY REQUEST I AM UNCOMFORTABLE WITH‼️‼️

Hope this helps if anyone was wondering <3

#pinned post #intro post #fnaf #dsaf #batim #cuphead #spooky month #welcome home #undertale #deltarune #animal crossing #invader zim #johnny the homicidal maniac #murder drones #intro

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sourholland · 2 years

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Glamorous || Tom Holland

Part Eleven

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Summary → In this Princess Diana retelling, you are working in a nursery school as an aid in London, as well as a part time nanny. With slight aristocratic ties, you choose to live a more normal and mundane life. When the Prince of Wales comes to know you and bring you into the spotlight, everything changes. Truths coming too late, lies straining your relationship, and the impending future of the country falling on your shoulders. Is this really the stuff of which fairytales are made?

AN → Feedback is greatly appreciated and inspires me to update this story lol. ALSO to those of you who read “A Royal Convenience”, did you pick up on that little easter egg???!!

Pairing(s) → Prince!Tom x Princess!Reader

Warnings → Language, Mentions of Sex

Word Count → 2.0k

March, 1986 - You’ve left me no choice

His name was Major Stephen Harris.

He stood just over six foot tall. He was kind to you, and not only that but he was handsome and helped ease the nagging loneliness. An officer in the army, a hardworking man with life skills and ambition. Only a year your senior as well.

He was your riding instructor for a time. Only after the prolonged sadness consumed you did he become anything more. However, you did not love him. Not the way you love Tom, the way you love your family.

Stephen was a temporary way to ease the pain of your marriage crumbling. He came along on those nights you couldn’t be alone, when Tom was away doing God knows what. The staff knew, therefore the King and Queen knew as well. However, as unfortunate as the unfaithfulness was on both sides, the whole family knew that Tom’s infidelity had only been a catalyst.

This is when you and Tom were both sat down in front of his parents and given no choice. Nicola had called you both in, saying this behavior from two adults was unheard of and she would be putting a stop to it.

As you both arrived at Buckingham Palace in separate vehicles, you were escorted in and sat down outside of the Queen’s drawing room to wait. Neither of you met the other’s gaze, as this encounter was both incredibly embarrassing and hard to handle.

“Their Majesties will see you now,” a member of the staff said, opening the double doors.

Both of you walked in, giving your respects by bowing and curtsying for both the King and Queen. She motioned you to sit, a pinched look on her face. King Dominic looked rather put off, unable to grasp the intervention that was sitting two adults down for scolding.

“The show that you’ve both insisted on putting on has been nothing but an embarrassment to the institution,” the Queen remarked. “Tom, I thought I’d raised you better than to disrespect the Crown as you have, and continually done. And Y/N, I truly thought different of you as you entered this family.”

“Mother,” Tom began, but was swiftly cut off by his annoyed father.

“Tom, you’re a bloody fool if you think I will stand to watch you throw your perfectly good family away for nonsense. You’ve everything anyone could ever want in life, including a loving wife and children. I can’t stand to watch this any longer! I’ve heard the last of it!”

The room fell into a tense silence, Tom looking utterly defeated. You looked at him, the curve of his jaw and dip of his lips. You saw all of the happy, beautiful memories you’d shared together and all of the things that had come out of your marriage. Henry and James were, and would remain for the rest of your life, your biggest accomplishment.

“Tom, I do love you. I am willing to do whatever it takes to show you this, and to make this marriage work. That’s all I want, I just want to make you happy,” you confessed. “I’m sorry I have not done my absolute hardest to do my part to be the best wife possible.”

He went rigid in his seat, staring at his hands like a bemused child. Tears spilled generously from your waterline, cheeks hot, chest heavy. He would be the death of you.

“I want to be good to you, I made a vow,” you whispered.

“Very well,” said the King. “That settles it! You will both let go of this insolence, this—this spoiled attitude! I wash my hands of it, of the headlines, of the whispers. Tom, you are beyond a lucky man. I believe you forget yourself.”

The moment seemed to have stopped, utter silence broke out and you’d swore you could hear a pin drop.

Lately it had been so hard to get out of bed, to go about your day. Neither the King nor Queen knew this. They saw only the surface level, perhaps they were right, though. You were lucky, you were spoiled, you were a fortunate woman—but God, you were so lonely.

“Walk with me, Thomas,” his mother said lowly, beckoning him up and out of the room.

Left with only the King, you wiped your childish tears and made crescents out of your fingernails into the flesh of your palm. He looked at you sorrowfully, his pointed features burned into your brain.

“I haven’t one clue why Tom would choose Eleanor over you, I really haven’t,” he admitted aloud.

“Sir,” you choked out. “I’m not sure what you mean.”

“I mean to say that my son is a fool. I sympathize with you, truly.”

Later that night, Tom entered your bedroom of Kensington Palace. This was the first time in months that he had come to see you in the night. His white button down was loose and wrinkled, untucked from his trousers.

The boys were asleep, you were staring into the mirror of your vanity when he sat solemnly on the edge of the bed. Eyes meeting his through the reflection, you felt like that same nineteen year old girl. She was naive, charmed easy.

Except you were no longer that little girl, and he was no longer that same prince. He was nearing thirty, you now twenty five. Neither of you said anything, really you just sat there stiffly, hoping he’d say something.

“I have not been good to you,” he admitted.

“Tom, I’m not going to fuck you—if that’s what you’ve come in here for.”

The words left your mouth before you could even process them. He looked taken aback, not necessarily disappointed or surprised. He shook his head at you, the corner of his lip upturning just slightly.

“No, that is not why I’ve sought you out. I do appreciate the candidness, though.”

He looked around. Apart of you wondered what he was thinking. He saw all of the pictures scattered around, your record player and all of the music you’d been collecting for years. He’d always loved your love for music, or at least he’d acted as if he did.

“You’ve been with this Major Harris?” He asked, making you snap in his direction.

“Fuck you, Tom!” You seethed at his selfish, conceited question.

He truly was taken aback by your attitude, squinting at you like you were a whole different person. The air felt stale, you felt flustered and slightly embarrassed. Tom only sighed and shuffled his feet.

“I only ask because I’ve heard things about you, the staff talks,” he commented.

“Let them,” you said flatly. “My loyalty has always been with you, can you say the same thing?”

He stilled, looking down at his feet and shaking his head, ashamed. Apart of you wondered if he could be a good man, if he could want to repair your marriage in the way you did. He flexed his hand, looking back up at you with teary eyes.

“Helen told me that it is in the nature of a man like yourself,” you laughed menacingly. “That there was never a Prince of Wales who was not unfaithful to his wife.”

“Mother told me stories of an ancestor of mine, my namesake actually,” he sniffled with an ironic laugh. “Around the nineteenth century, a certain Prince Thomas married a young French Princess. She says they remained in love until the day they died. Him shortly before her, she mourned for the rest of her life.”

“That’s lovely,” you responded. “Too bad you’ve yet to live up to such a beautiful memory.”

There was a part of you giving in, letting his tricks suck you back in. Immediately, you eradicated it. This could not keep happening. If he wanted to repair this marriage, he’d have to make that clear himself.

“Leave, Tom. We can speak more on the matter tomorrow.”

“Y/N,” he breathed out. “Couldn’t you just—”

“Tom, I am twenty five years old. I won’t be made out to be the child you once knew. I meant every word I said earlier, but I am no fool. The only time you do this, the only time you come to me begging for forgiveness is when the guilt finally becomes too much.”

April, 1986 - What is worth fixing?

Both you and Sam rode on horseback outside his property. He was giving you looks from time to time, most looking like they stemmed from disapproval.

“Are you going to tell me why you keep looking at me like that?” You asked in a laugh.

“Mum has informed me that you and Tom are over your ‘rough patch’, and are hopelessly in love once more.”

This, you found funny. Sam clearly did not find it as humorous. While it was definitely an exaggeration, you’d cut Major Harris out of your life and had begun to focus on salvaging your marriage. Tom had been good, he was seemingly trying for the same thing as you.

“For the boys,” you responded. “We’re trying to remain a unit for the boys.”

“What about for you? Aren’t you going to do what Y/N wants?” He asked in all seriousness, patting the mane of the horse.

“I love him,” you said finally.

Sam sighed and rubbed the bridge of his nose, he only wanted the best for you. He and Elizabeth were happy, you envied them. It wasn’t so easy in your position.

“I do not know that he is capable of love. Do not let him fool you.”

Easter came quick enough, leaving the whole family to join together at Balmoral for festivities.

You and Tom drove in the same car with the boys, the first time you’d driven together in ages. Somewhat because Tom had never had to do much driving himself, there was always someone to do it for him. You, however, preferred to drive yourself everywhere.

While everyone trickled in, Sam sat idly by his mother’s side. She was telling him about her recent charity engagements and asking about his family life. They had grown closer over the years. Sam and Harry were now both married, Paddy twenty three and maintaining a respectable bachelor lifestyle.

“Mum?” Sam said aloud. “I don’t want to have to be the person to tell you—but I don’t believe you should prolong Y/N and Tom’s marriage any longer.”

“Are you suggesting they separate?” She seemed taken aback. “Samuel, I’ve heard they’re happier than ever before.”

“You don’t understand—”

“No. It is a holiday, you will not start with this nonsense! It is not your marriage, therefore it is not your concern!”

Sam stayed silent, knowing his mother was partially right. He heard the noise of children playing in the distance, meaning the arrival of his brothers and their wives. Somberly, he slumped down into his chair.

“I don’t understand, Samuel. Could you tell me what it is that I am not understanding? Tom is lucky, Y/N is lucky. They are two of the most fortunate people in the world and all I hear is endless complaining!”

“Tom and Y/N are only perceived as perfect because they are the fairytale that everyone’s gotten off to since 1980,” Sam started. “When in reality, it’s hardly a fairytale at all.”

The Queen sat puzzled, her hands folded neatly in front of her as she urged Sam to continue. He sighed in frustration and tried to figure out how to say what he wished in a way she’d be able to understand.

“Once upon a time there was a beautiful young girl, not yet a woman, but not still a child. She went on to fall in love with a handsome prince, who was already in love with someone else.”

The Queen’s face fell, her face almost expressionless.

“And in the end, they both lived unhappily ever after,” said Sam, finally.

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dirtyoldmanhole · 10 months

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this man continues to have my two brain cells in a vice, so making a mini to do list of prompts/ideas/related shenanigans on the checklist, roughly in order of how fleshed out they are:

finish conquest already omg (finished three chapters last night and i'm 90% sure i'll get thru the last two in the next few work nights since i need something sfw to work on while company's over UNLIKE THE REST OF THIS LIST lol)

this spanking fic, (i'm like, 90% sure i want it to be a fic but art will probably happen too) but it's a pretty short and filthy drabble, and i'm hoping a good proving ground for getting gunter's voice right especially in "early life disciplinarian mode"

short erotic whipping strip when she's older (NOT TEN PANELS long) because i want that to lead into this bootlicking doodle......... i already.... have.... >_>

'niles gives them the idea that fates!viagra exists, the weirdly sweet erectile dysfunction fic' (i do truly want to start including other characters! and i feel like he'd be a great one to get their off-kilter dynamic.)

literally the only platonic fic idea on this list: gunter talks to azura in valla when she saves his life - both physically, and also, a growing headcanon that talking to her and her song lowkey heals some of his old, old emotional wounds as well.

hot springs doodles, might be a setting for a fic somewhere or just shameless fanservice/smut

fuzzy ideas for 'corrin breaks the news she's pregnant to gunter with kana and he kinda has a BSOD' it's a little sad! plotting that out is weirdly shaking out a lot of lines since it's making his insecurity of corrupting her really apparent since they can't just ... stealth mode that. also the nohr sibs each have their reaction.

(edit: oh my god backstory implications makes this A THOUSAND TIMES SADDER FUCK ........ okay this one's going to be an emotional wreck)

(THAT SAID there is a genuinely hilarious line in there re: gunter asking corrin how she wants to handle garon finding that out and she's all, paraphrased, 'i don't give a damn what he thinks, if i wanted a father figure's blessing, i have yours and you've already made your thoughts known :3") (pfttttt-)

i am also kind of debating on 'each nohr sib finds out about them hooking up and it's a fic written from their POV' as another character-voice finidng exercise.

them just sleeping in the nude together because it's just weirdly tender sweet god dammit lmao. (i love how these swing from WILDLY kinky to the most basic vanilla romantic shit possible)

'corrin and gunter use valla as a sexcapade adventure with convienient time hole properties so she milks him for every year she has him (and it's slightly depressing despite being pure smut)'

start revelations

so much possession dub + noncon drawings >:) (i have a feeling bootlicking's going to come up a lot in these doodles.)

(also: really sad revelations hurt/comfort endgame spoilers)

(help)

#shitpost #what's truly hilarious is after most of this i'll have enough drawings for a fucking gunter doujinshi #(don't say that krad you might actually make it)#(......................) (KRAD NO)

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abimee · 11 months

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same anon as the stew ask - i forgot to mention this but your tags about fat really reminded me just how much i love love love your depiction of nophica. I love the way you draw skin and fat, your drawing of ysayle (i forget if it was her or someone else but the point still stands) with acne almost made me cry with happiness when I first saw it. Please keep doing what makes you happy and I hope you can continue to find love in the act of creation. I was surprised to hear that you once got told that your work was depressing but more over I'm so happy for you that you're finally reaching a point in your creative journey that you can be proud and happy of. Thank you for sharing what you make with us.

oh yar it was pretty common in both my fanfiction and art to get told that but admittedly i do think i wasnt really drawing anything of substance besides vague sad thoughts and emotions i was having in highschool LOL

like looking back on it i cant blame people for extrapolating the Bad Emotions from the stuff i made even when the piece wasnt about that cause i was in like, a really bad spot constantly but it being the only thing i heard was definitely something people could've lighten up about cause i was also just trying to draw fanart and live in peace but even my friends from back then told me such and its like GOT DAMN (ITS REALLY FUNNY NOW)

but i am really happy to know that im at least a little more well enough that that has stopped being prominant in my art and that people get good fuzzy emotions AND IM HAPPY that i can finally make ''the art'' i want..... i can never really describe how i felt held back in a way i didnt know of back then but i really do think it was because the artists around me just never Talked or Made an effort to draw things in their art like acne and such, and since i had no way of learning about art besides by listening to big artists back then i never Thought i could do that, or i thought people wouldn't like my art if i did that that i even refused to draw features I Had (i even remember once trying to hide that i started forming acne as a teen because i was so hyperaware of being seen as unsightly on the internet for it after having smooth skin and that was rough. ROUGH) so the fact that now what i once feared of ''what if people are rude about the way i draw people'' is entirely flipped upside down to ''people really love the way i draw characters'' i think also helped me get out of my shell of insecurity with my own art and actually Enjoy drawing because i feel like i can really express something

thats a lot of rambling but what im trying to say it is from viewers like you that my art has made it where it is today and i wouldnt have developed how i have and with the love i have in creating without it so [pbs channel voice] Thank You..... im hanging this one up on my fridge as well

#im glad you like my ysayle and my nophica i need to draw both of them more ough

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whentherewerebicycles · 1 year

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spent 3+ hours on the phone with liz walking the dogs in the rain and doing chores and making dinner so I’m cured of sadness basically. kind of a hard day but mostly just in the ways I anticipated it would be. job is official official and I’m very happy about it. I’ve decided not to psych myself out about the fact that it’s a big career jump and instead dive into the work with the assumption that 1) I can learn how to do it with practice, 2) not having done this work at this level before means I’ll have to really listen to/observe/build relationships with people around me so I can learn from their expertise (which just seems like a good philosophy in general), and 3) I don’t have to stress about molding myself to some norm I made up in my head! I can decide what kind of professional I want to be and can just go about being that kind of professional. and if it takes a while to figure things out that’s normal—it took me a full two years before I really felt confident and competent in my last university job, so I should expect a similar adjustment period here.

I also just spent an hour paging through the two new cookbooks I ordered and looking at this other one my friend recommended online. this has given me lots of recipe ideas obviously but it’s also making me think about what the next stage in Learning How to Cook is going to look like. I feel like 4-5 months of focused practice has helped me achieved my initial goals of wanting to feel more confident in my ability to make new recipes, to produce consistent results when re-making old recipes, and to be able watch/taste food while cooking and make adjustments (to salt, fat, acid, and heat) as needed to improve the outcome. I’ve also tried a lot of new foods, taught myself to like new things by preparing them in different ways, and amassed a bunch of easy, low-fuss vegetarian/vegan meals that produce great leftovers.

I’d definitely like to continue expanding my repertoire of meals, but I’ve also been thinking that I want to develop a better understanding of how to construct really good meals. to me this means learning…

how to choose dishes that go well together,

how to prep simple starters and sides (both for planned meals & for when you’re just throwing things together based on what’s in the fridge)—idk I am such a one-dish-meal kind of person but I’d love to try a bunch of things and have more ideas to draw on!

how to make little tweaks to existing recipes that will amp up the wow factor of the dish… i feel like I have friends who are good at things like swapping out a run-of-the-mill dressing on a salad with something more intriguing, or preparing sides in ways that make the food feel a lot fancier without making the actual prep part more difficult. I always admire it when people can think of quick little upgrades to a simple meal and I wanna be able to do that someday too.

I think that’s going to be my next area of focus! I know that going back to work in person means I won’t have as much time/energy for extended all-afternoon cooking sessions but I know myself lol if I can make this next phase into a structured ~learning experience~ it will seriously boost my motivation to actually follow through. so I gotta think a bit about what I want this to look like and how I’m going to identify the skills involved & create opportunities for myself to practice them. gonna make myself a curriculum babyyy that’s what life is all about

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