#but at the same time you always doubt the extent to which he means them

[paimonial-rage]

lol yeah ok - how about 12 and 13 instead? - last anon

[Character Analysis Ask Meme]

What is Neuvillette’s love language?

As that he does not have a way with human relationships, Neuvillette shows his feelings best through acts of service and gift-giving. After all, words are difficult and easy to construe. Quality time often leaves him at a loss for the very words he has a difficult time with. And physical touch? That’s simply too intimate for him. So what better way to show how he feels through something concrete? Surely if he gives of his time and resources for the people he cares about, they will understand how high of a regard he holds them. At least, he hopes. 

What is Neuvillette like in a relationship?

As unfamiliar with human emotions as he is, you notice Neuvillette’s feelings for you long before he does. How can you not? You see it clearly—the softness in his eyes whenever they fall upon you, the fondness in his smile, the requests for you to stay if not just a moment longer. You are taken by surprise the day he notices. He approaches you with a troubled, albeit bashful expression. He says that it was brought to his attention that he has feelings for you. Adorable as he is, what else can you do but accept them?

Much to your expectation, there is a hesitance in his step after he begins to court you. He has never been in a relationship before. He doesn’t want to mess it up. So how close is he allowed to walk next to you? Is it proper to offer you his arm? Will you refuse him if he asks you to accompany him to a show? But your presence at his side leaves him light-headed. How many times this has lead to social gaffes and things of the sort? But when you laugh, how can he not chuckle to himself in turn?

With Neuvillette, you will find no bombastic displays of affection. There will not be poetic words of love and adoration. After all, Neuvillette is a simple man and will show his love through simple, yet earnest ways. He will want to spend time with you. He will want to do his best to communicate and be honest with you. He will want to make you happy in any way you see fit. He will do his best for you.

Zhongli's below the cut!

What is Zhongli’s love language?

Anyone close to the Geo Archon knows his penchant for gift-giving. Really, it often catches many by surprise the sheer thoughtfulness and rarity of the gifts he gives. Not only are they often pricey, but also chosen with the receiver specifically in mind. It’s not rare to see people moved to tears upon receiving them, touched by the amount of care he puts into each one. As with gifts, Zhongli is also liberal with the words of affirmation he gives others. He does not hesitate to state a person’s strengths, nor how high of a regard he holds them. With him, there is no room for doubt. 

What is Zhongli like in a relationship?

You don’t exactly know when you both became an item. As wordy as Zhongli is, he never bothered to tell you his feelings plainly. He even rejected you at first, stating he didn’t see you in that way. But then he said he’d try, didn’t he? And from that point, things began to change. How he’d invite you to Miss Yun’s performances, or offered his arm for you to take while he’d walk you home. How he’d tell you the most outrageous stories with a straight face, then laugh with an amused glint in his eye when you took him seriously. Somewhere along the way, the wall he kept began to fall.

Still, it is hard to tell his feelings as he never becomes the most physical with his affections. He does not hug you, nor does he hold your hand when you walk at his side. Sparing the moments when you’re the most endearing, he does not often kiss you of his own accord. Still, there is a level of familiarity and intimacy that he displays with no one else. You’re the only person he’ll let by his side on the days he wants most to be left alone. You’re the one whose opinions matter the most. You’re the only one he’ll tease as mercilessly as he does. You’re special.

With Zhongli, you realize that your relationship with him is not primarily one of romance, but of companionship. He does not simply view you as a friend. No, you’re much more than that. Out of all the things that come and go in his life, you are and will always be the only constant. You are everything to him. Even if you may part ways for a time, the place by his side will always remain yours. A relationship with you is a contract, one that he will always uphold. 

#genshin impact #genshin x reader #neuvillette #zhongli #neuvillette x reader #zhongli x reader #my writing #character analysis #sorry for the wait haha... but at least it's better than more than a month right? ;v; #i will apologize if you wanted something overtly romantic with the relationship question #zhongli's was especially hard #okay i can talk about it now #zhongli is the kind of guy you can talk with for hours and then leave not knowing a single thing about him #and that’s the weird thing like he does not hide his thoughts and feelings towards things #but at the same time you always doubt the extent to which he means them #like he may call the traveler a good friend and other warm things but…. #does he follow up his feelings with actions? #he’s so easygoing that you can’t picture him falling to raw emotion #and it primarily is because he sees everyone the same way a grandfather looks at his toddler grandchild #he feel warmth and affection for them but they will never be equals #that’s why if you confessed your feelings for him he’d turn you down at first. he’d need time to change his thinking #and even after accepting you zhongli is not one for passions. he’s not gonna change much. he’ll still be a retired old man #also just a personal headcanon but i don’t think he’d get with a human. he’d humor then but he wouldn’t accept them #yeah hes just… hard to figure out romantically speaking

[herslvt]

K-pop Soft Thoughts with Ateez Maknae Line

From a black female writer-

My men 🤭 anyway enjoy there are no warnings unless you think Jasmine is better than Rapunzel…then we got a problem.

Hyung version

ATEEZ members who spoil the literal hell out of you and treat you like a princess in their own individual ways, but this time featuring the sassy members because they’re princesses too and you can’t say otherwise!

San! Who loves to feed you not in a teasing way, but in an ‘I love you and I want the best for you’ type way. You’ll just be sitting on the couch minding your business and he’ll come up to you, favorite snack in hand and feed you. He knows he doesn’t have too but he wants too so he does.

San! Who adores you so much you’re glued at the hip, and when you’re not glued at the hip he’s got you on FaceTime because in his words he can’t breath if you’re not there, when you two are together he’ll wrap you in his arms and continue to complain about you not being close enough. If he could have you under his skin he would which is insane because you and him both know he’ll be fine but he just has to be a little dramatic first. (I love pushing the clingy Ateez agenda)

Mingi! Who once dedicated a song to you, but it made him so shy he refused to tell you about it for months. When he finally let you listen to it, he wasn’t expecting much of a reaction from you but you ended up breaking down in tears which then led to him doing the same. He wasn’t expecting you to like it but you did and he was happy.

Mingi! Who literally gets shy when you call him princess minki as a joke. He’s so used to Atiny and the members doing it to tease him so when you did it for the first time he was definitely flustered. He wouldn’t admit it but he thought it was adorable how you addressed him in that way every time he entered a room you were in. Regardless though, you were his baby and he wouldn’t let you forget that even if you called him princess for fun,

Wooyoung! Who debates with you on who the best Disney princesses are but ultimately gives into your opinion because he loves you (you threatened him) even then he still will refuse to admit Rapunzel was better than Jasmine but you let it slide just for now. He did agree with you that Mulan and Tiana were number 1 so you gave him the benefit of the doubt. (Bro I feel like all of them would do this at some point, just sit and argue w you over Disney movies and stuff)

Wooyoung! Who accidentally on purpose buys two of everything or always orders extra of whatever. He just got a new jacket? Just so happens they sent him an extra. He got food? Suddenly he ate earlier and isn’t as hungry. You know he’s doing it on purpose, but you won’t acknowledge it. He wants you to have whatever he has and if that means buying everything for two he doesn’t mind, though he knows you’ll just complain about his being better anyway. (Strong believer that Jongho would do the same.)

Jongho! Who will sing you to sleep. You beg him to sing to you and he always refuses, but when he knows your drifting off to sleep and barely still in this world he’ll sing a song that you love to relax you and as much as he refuses to admit it he enjoys it. The way he can feel you relaxing in his arms when he starts softly singing melts his heart.

Jongho! Who cherishes his time with you so much he has to take a picture whenever you’re together. Though they never leave the confines of his gallery, he likes looking at them when you’re not around. He has pictures of you doing any and everything, you in the kitchen looking for food, you walking back to the couch to sit down. He doesn’t care what you’re doing, the more domestic the better. You’re his home though he’d never admit it. You don’t even know to the extent of his picture taking goes. He even has a picture of you scratching an itch and he absolutely does not care.

#ateez #ateez fluff #ateez soft hours #ateez fic #ateez x black reader #ateez mingi #ateez san #ateez wooyoung #ateez jongho #ateez x reader #ateez scenarios #ateez headcanons #ateez imagines #ateez fanfic #mingi x reader #san x reader #wooyoung x reader #jongho x reader #K-pop x black reader

[alexiethymia]

hitsuhina and choice

I mean I love all iterations of hitsuhina and any version of them and their backstory, but the fact that Hitsugaya and Hinamori didn’t actually live together gets me y’know? (despite that many people thought the same, like me too and I always loved reading fics with that premise).

Because the fact that they didn’t actually live together (in fact they weren’t even neighbors, Kubo just says they lived in the same neighborhood) just hammers down Hitsugaya's strong regard for her. Because sure you could always argue that Hitsugaya was protective over her because they lived together (I mean I’m pretty sure many people characterized their relationship as familial because of that), and yeah I could totally get behind that, but knowing that they didn’t actually live together shows that of all the kids in their neighborhood, it was Hinamori who he grew his bond with to the point that he was ready to murder for her. It’s such an intense emotional tie to a childhood friend (*cough like Gin with Rangiku*) that I always wondered what could have led to it.

And I think a lot of it has to do with choice. Like Hinamori was popular. Hinamori was well-liked. Hinamori already had friends in their neighborhood. Hinamori didn’t have to be friends with the ‘cold’ kid that everyone - children and adults alike - were wary of. But she still did. She still laughed and smiled at him, hung out with him and ate watermelons with him, kept on visiting him even when her other friends were scared of him. And from Hitsugaya’s pov, she didn’t have to. She wasn’t family like his Granny. And it wasn’t as if he was alone either precisely because he had his Granny. In those early days he must’ve been confused why this sunny and warm girl would choose him. And this is way before he eventually becomes a powerful and well-liked captain, way before he was a prodigy, way before he was discovered to have strong reiatsu. He must have kept wondering why this girl kept on choosing him when he felt like he had nothing to offer her back and when it might have been detrimental to her to keep on hanging out with him because of the chance that she could have been isolated as well, like what was in it for her?

And this goes into the core of why I love Hinamori so much, of this little thing being an integral part of her character where we see snippets of it in the manga (like with Byakuya, Zaraki and to an extent Gin) that she never really judges people by their looks, that she’s open and accepting. Even when people were generally creeped out by Gin, she was only on her guard when Hitsugaya warned her about him. Sure it could be seen to be a weakness, but for something I’m sure she thought nothing of, I’m sure it meant a whole lot to Hitsugaya, enough that he considered her laughter like a spring breeze. Like honestly, I could believe how that ended in Hitsugaya becoming so intense about her and becoming incoherent with rage with what Aizen did.

Because that something that she ended up beating herself up about in the aftermath of Aizen - her trusting and accepting nature which I’m sure she thought was a weakness that she had to change, that nature of hers which was trampled upon and taken advantage of by Aizen and Gin - it was that very same nature which in Hitsugaya’s view probably saved him from his loneliness. He couldn’t stomach how that very same thing which made Momo who she was, the very same nature of hers which saved him, was so carelessly used to hurt her. Like, how dare they? Even worse, how dare they make Momo doubt herself? It was no wonder then that he couldn’t even hope to control or bottle up his unstable emotions threatening to overflow until they eventually did, with disastrous consequences.

In the same way Momo chose him so long ago, he continues and always chooses her, time and time again. Even when her attention was drawn away, even when her bright smile was no longer solely his, he never begrudged her. Time and again, he continued to prove that he’d always choose her - her safety, her well-being, her happiness - always choosing to protect her, even sometimes above and beyond Soul Society.

It’s all about the choice.

#hitsuhina #bleach #hinamori momo #hitsugaya toshiro #like I have not rambled about them in so long #seriously now that we know they didn’t live together #it once again makes me insanely curious to know how they first met #cause we had rangiku and gin’s first meeting #and even for almost all of the important relationships in the series #so how did hinamori and hitsugaya meet for example?? #ramblings about hitsuhina

[sky-is-the-limit]

My opinion on Dutch van der Linde.

Ever since I started playing this game, I've seen many fans claim that the change happened when Dutch hit his head etc or blame it on everything else but the man himself so I wanted to pitch in and say my opinion as someone who went from adoring him to hating him even more than Micah. Way more.

I truly believe that this man was always a manipulative narcissist with a 'hero complex' just to feed his delusions that he was an idealistic leader, a good man with big dreams who had such a big heart to take weaker people in, only to use them for his arrogant ambitions and throw them out when they'd no longer 'need' him or start questioning his means to achieve whatever he set his mind to.

Arthur was used for his loyalty to be a brainless soldier that would not raise his voice, never question, never ask for further explanation and always blindly follow orders to pay him off for his act of kindness, to take Arthur in when he was a child and give him a family.

When Dutch realised that Arthur was starting to become his own man and disagree with the dangerous and hopeless plans to a "better life", Dutch turned to the only man who openly voiced that he disliked Arthur and was shamelessly kissing his ass for his own selfish reasons (Micah).

Dutch raised a weapon and when that weapon was no longer needed, he threw it out. He didn't raise him as a son, he gave Arthur that illusion to have his blinded/unconditional dedication and love. Because a son is not meant to go against his father but to take orders and do as he's told.

Now John, I think he was always a wild card for Dutch. Yes, he raised him to be just like Arthur, but in the end, he could not tame him. And what did he do when John was locked up, in serious trouble and about to get killed? He found the easiest way to get rid of a future problem. Because if 'loyal Arthur' was starting to voice concerns, imagine John.

Though they had disagreements and fights, John was always loyal to Arthur. It was clear that if Arthur was to stray away from Dutch, John would follow him, no questions asked. His ride or die. And John being John, his way out would come with a bang. He masked it as not the right time to save John and tested the waters.

Arthur went to get him, but of course he did. They were raised as brothers. Dutch feared that because he intended for both of them to belong to him, not to choose each other. He tried to get rid of him twice so the threat would get minimised.

To him, Arthur was easier to manipulate because he truly loved Dutch. John was more careless and that saved him in the end. The only man he was loyal to, the only man he'd give his life for, ended up giving his life for him.

Now Hosea, I don't doubt that Dutch cared about him but to an extent. I wholeheartedly believe that he would not hesitate to leave him behind for the sake of his ambitions. Lenny as well. Which is why when they died, to him it was like they opened new spots for people who would follow him and have the same selfish mindset (aka Micah and his men.) as it was clear that his old gang/what was left of it, was catching up to him.

Now, in the epilogue when Dutch kills Micah, some say that it was guilt or shame for what they both did to Arthur, perhaps even guilt and sympathy for John.. I disagree.

I see it more realistically tbh. He saw Micah as a future problem (aka like Arthur but in a man that was dangerous, selfish and would not hesitate to betray him) and ended it before it was too late. It was clear that John was there to avenge his brother, not to mess with Dutch and so he took out the only opponent.

Anyway, I'm not saying my opinion is right, it's just what I feel about Dutch as a character. I adore the way he was written bc no matter how many times you play the game, he manages to evoke such anger and sadness in you that is truly remarkable and what I love about good storytelling. In my opinion, the 2nd time you play it, it hurts even more because you see him treat Arthur as his son knowing exactly what will follow.

#this is why rdr2 is the best game ever made #rdr2 #dutch van der linde #arthur morgan #john marston #read dead redemption 2

[lorcandidlucienwill]

Lucien loses his shit part 2

This is a follow-up to the first part, Lucien finally loses it and does something bat-shit crazy!

Yeah, no.

Enough was enough.

Lucien came home to the mansion in the human lands only to find Jurian and Vassa at it again. Very intimately. With his superior sense of hearing, he detected it immediately.

He was soooo sick of being the third wheel. He had been so when Tamlin and Feyre were living it up and he was now.

So, he decided to sit on the grounds (well outside of hearing range of Jurian and Vassa’s various noises) with some books he had nicked from the Night Court’s libraries in hand.

There were entire books dedicated to the mating bond. Lucien had taken them initially to try and cope with his own problems, but he wondered if there was something else in there. Something about breaking the bond.

Not his own, of course. He still held out hope for Elain, and he had grown up learning about how sacred the mating bond was. He wasn’t about to give that up.

But Feyre’s…

He was so engrossed in his reading he hardly noticed when Jurian came up to him.

“Trying to figure out how to woo Elain? I thought you were experienced, man.”

Lucien snorted. “Trust me, that’s the last thing on my mind. Though you might need the help since you’ve been out of it for 500 years.”

Jurian smirked. “Yeah, I was an eye for that long, so I’ve seen everything. I know exactly what I’m doing, trust me.”

Lucien chuckled. “I’ll take your word for it.”

“So, what are you doing anyway, if not searching up tips for the ladies? Aren’t you super knowledgeable and stuff?”

Lucien scoffed. “That doesn’t mean I know everything.”

If I did, I’d have broken that curse on Vassa ages ago, he thought silently.

“Well hurry up, lunch is waiting.” He walked away. “Stop reading, you know-it-all.”

Lucien called, “You’re just jealous you don’t have the brain capacity to read!”

“Fuck you!”

“No thank you!”

Laughing to himself, Lucien walked back to the mansion, highlighting some important passages as he went.

The mating bond is considered to be sacred, gifted by the Cauldron itself…

 No one is quite certain how it chooses, but it is said to be the guiding hand of the Mother herself who picks mates for her humble devotees. It is theorized that all are gifted a mate but only some are lucky enough to find theirs. Others assert that only those favored by the goddess herself are gifted a mate...

A mating bond intensifies instincts and emotions to the extent that a fae/faerie may find themselves acting exceptionally out of character in the presence of their mate…

Rejected matehood is considered a sacrilege on the powerful and rare gift handed by the Cauldron’s magic. As a result, even those who love another or may believe the magic wrong often try to make their mated relationship work out of respect for the God-given gift. Some faeries assert that the mating bond is merely a pairing-up of two faeries who produce the best offspring, but others have claimed to have received same-sex mating bonds (unconfirmed), which puts this viewpoint in heavy doubt. Mated pairs have been shown to produce more powerful offspring than nonmated pairs, but this is not proof that this is the sum of what the bond is. Rather, a majority of knowledgeable Fae assert that the stronger offspring is as a result of the power of the mating bond and a mated pair’s union, rather than the idea that those two fae together would produce powerful offspring. There is an entire group of scholars dedicated to studying the mating bond at the Day Court, which deals with spells… Should a mate be rejected, it is still possible for the rejected mate to feel happy. It will take an incredibly long time to get over it, even if their mating partner was a stranger to them; however, a powerful love is sufficient to alleviate most of the pain. However, there will always be that urge to protect their mated partner. As for the rejector, it is slightly easier to move forward, but they will also feel a tug even if they do reject such a bond. A mate always knows if something has happened to their partner. Even if the bond is rejected.

A mating bond can be repressed and manipulated by only the most powerful magic known to our kind. There are legends of dark, fell creatures being powerful enough to suppress a mated male’s instincts and even trick them into believing another female is their mate. However, these are false imitations of the mating bond, not the true nature of a mating bond, and both sides will know, deep down, that it is wrong, but they will not understand why. There is no record of a mating bond having actually been broken, for even when a mate is rejected, there remains a link between the two faeries forever. However, scholars assert that an exceptionally powerful spell-cleaver could, in fact, break the bond between two faeries in theory. It has been universally accepted that a mating bond is a spell, albeit a sacred one handed by the Fae’s female goddess. Some hardcore believers rebel against this description, saying that to describe the mating bond as a spell is an insult to this incredibly rare and powerful gift.

Not all mating bonds are created equal. Some creatures feel the tug stronger than others, and males feel it more so than the females. This is postulated to be due to a male’s inherent instincts to claim and protect all that is theirs. However, even the pull towards each other may be stronger or weaker depending on the pairing. Most scholars suspect that the faster the mating bond clicks into place, the stronger the bond; if it clicks for both faeries at the same time, it is the most powerful mating bond one could possibly have. A more powerful mating bond is also typically accompanied by a stronger scent… It is possible for a mating bond to click between a Fae/faerie and any other species that exists in this world. It is rare to have an inter-species mating bond, but it is not unheard of. In Fae-human mating pairs, the Fae typically binds his/her life to the human’s life, for it is unbearable to live a full immortal life without the life of your mate…

There are spells written in an ancient language that is rumored to have come from another world that can temporarily mute a mate’s instincts. They create a temporary effect where a mate may not be aware of foul play their mate may have fallen prey to for an extended period of time after it begins. They are written as follows…

Interesting. So, of the three Archeron sisters, his bond with Elain is the strongest. According to this, anyway. It means that Nesta and Cassian’s bond must be the weakest. He had suspected as much anyway; he could detect things other people couldn’t with his eye. See through glamours and walls and even the back of his head (exceptionally useful when he was spying for Tamlin and nowadays, Rhysand). So, while the eldest Archeron sister might not be aware of her mating bond, Lucien certainly was. And he’d bet his healthy eye that Cassian was aware, too. The moron certainly acted like it. Sometimes, it felt as if he believed himself entitled to Nesta. He had no love for the eldest sister, but Cassian should know better than to butt into her space. He wasn’t even trying.

God knew it was impossible for Lucien sometimes. Every time he saw or smelled Graysen, his blood roared to rip the man to shreds who had dared to claim his mate.

Focus.

According to the book, mating bonds could be broken in theory, but it has never been done. Either because nobody could, or nobody dared. And hmm. Perhaps these muting spells could help. If he could learn to read them.

He returned to the laughing of Jurian and Vassa and decided to put this idea to the side for the moment. For now, he’d enjoy a happy meal with his two friends before Vassa had to return to her firebird form. ~~~~~~

The language the spells were written in was easy enough to learn.

It was called Wyrdmarks, and it was considered to be a universal language that spread across all worlds. Lucien scoffed at the theory of their possibly being other worlds. He honestly couldn’t care less about the origins of the language, as long as it helped him accomplish his goal.

If the mating bond was as powerful as the books claimed, the mating bond was most likely the primary cause of Feyre’s deteriorating behavior. He would have to break the bond in order to sway Feyre to his side. And Feyre was exceptionally powerful; she held the might of every High Lord in her veins. If such a power was taken away from Rhysand…

They’d stand a chance. An even better one if they swayed Nesta. Lucien hardly knew the viper, but he suspected it wouldn’t be so hard. From what he could tell, Nesta despised Rhysand.

And he had felt her power that day in Hybern. It was fire, yes, but like no fire of his own. A fire so cold it burned. Feeling the power from the simmering woman had chilled him to the bone. And she felt…even more powerful than Rhysand. Even if the Inner Circle hadn’t detected a lick of that power since. It was still there. Lucien could feel it.

Wow, these Wyrdmarks would be exceptionally useful, and not just for breaking mating bonds. Lucien was suddenly very glad he had picked up this book. He had acquired it from the library which happened to be a haven for sexual assault survivors (with permission from Clotho, of course). There were all kinds of spells in here. Shielding, fighting, mind reading, glamours, disguises, healing- you name it, there was a Wyrdmark for it.

It is believed that the origin of the Night Court bargain tattoos also stems from the nature of Wyrdmarks, and it bears similar properties.

Very interesting information. Would’ve been more useful several months ago when he was trying to find a way to break Feyre’s bargain, but good to keep in mind for the future. He was going to be dealing with a lot of Night Court nowadays, after all.

So much information. Lucien’s head was suddenly pounding from all the reading. He hadn’t done this much reading in quite some time.

It was entirely worth it, however. This was an information gold mine. How many people knew about this stuff? He’d had a thorough education fit for a High Lord, yet he had never heard even a whisper about Wyrdmarks. This information had been buried deep in the Night Court’s archives. He could only imagine how much more knowledge there would be in the libraries at the Day Court.

Using the information he had gathered, Lucien came up with a plan. The next time he came up to the Night Court to report to Rhysand about the status of the Spring Court and the human lands, he was going to test the Day Court scholars’ theory. Sorry for the information dump lol. It's all interesting though! We don't know much about how mating bonds work, so I came up with some of my own information here! Stay tuned for part 3, shit is going to go DOWN!

#pro lucien vanserra #lucien vanserra #anti feysand #anti nessian #elucien #fanfic #jassa

[allycat75]

What is bothering me about "Red One".

Terrible movies are about as common as the lies our former president spews from his cracked and diseased face, so why is this one so different? I think when you start looking at something, you start seeing things you can't unsee. Kind of like when Brad Pitt decides to make a movie about the two women who helped bring down Harvey Weinstein, even though Mr. Pitt not only knew for years what he did after confronting him in the early 90s for harassing his girlfriend, ran straight toward him to produce his movies even though his wife at the time was traumatized and requested he not do it. But that is a rant for another day.

Overall, this movie just doesn't seem warm and Christmas-y. I almost feel forced to participate and enjoy it.

The Rock is a flim flam man, as many are in Hollywood, but the fissures are starting to show in his "nice guy" image. He is vulnerable to his fragile male ego and can't admit a failure, which only makes it worse. He created a real life villian of himself with the whole Black Atom/DC controversy that is so convoluted, the only thing I know is that if a woman had attempted these hijinks she'd be branded a hysterical, compulsive liar who should not insert herself in matters that don't concern her.

The marketing for this movie has already started with a lie- that it has tested "through the roof". Just the irony of being dishonst about a Christmas movie- maybe because they know this is already a big steaming lump of coal.

Here, the Rock's describes this gem of a movie:

Or I can just watch any of those movies individually and get sick of Dwayne Johnson playing the same character over and over in every movie, and enjoy Harry Potter and It's a Wonderful Life on their own. Truthfully, is that meant to sound good? (He also referred to it as a "joy bomb", and like most things he says I can only believe about half of it).

You know what also doesn't sound warm and Chrismas-y? This:

The film has been described as "a globe-trotting, four-quadrant action-adventure comedy, imagining a whole new universe to explore within the holiday genre." If you're wondering, "four-quadrant" refers to the four major demographics Hollywood is always looking to win over — males, females, people under 25, and people over 25. And Amazon evidently feels "Red One" will appeal to all four quadrants.

Yeah, let me take my four-quadrant family on opening weekend! So welcoming.

Also, both leads are over paid and need a hit as they have had some major, I mean major, debacles to overcome. And it is not great being known as profit poison at a time when there is much more scrutiny of the bottom line. I can sense the desperation of this cash grab oozing off of them.

Interestingly, only a few years ago CE was named one of the best bang for your buck actors. Now he can barely get work and no longer has an audience (he alienated his fans and the general public either doesn't know him, doesn't care, or thinks he is hella creepy). But he has said he wants to quit and smoke pot all day, so maybe Hollywood will call his bluff this time. Besides, I doubt they were able to get the best performance out of him, considering his life was beginning its implosion while filming, even if he might not have known the full extent of the eventual destruction at the time. The mindset he displayed wasn't conducive to authenticity and Christmas-y-ness.

Ok, I know we all want original content, but maybe I should have been more specific and added that it needs to be sincere, too. I hear nothing sincere when someone tries to describe "Red One". It doesn't help that this is home grown from 7 Bucks, Dwayne Johnson's production company. They probably looked at the material in an echo chamber and lost perspective. And as we have seen, The Rock isn't know for his humble acceptance of criticism. The following official description sounds like a nerd wanting to show up all the popular kids who made fun of him in high school ("See, I wrote a Hollywood script that is now a movie. Bet you wish you went to the prom with we now, Courtney!"):

Red One is a fire-breathing Christmas action movie that completely reinvents the holiday genre. […] Red One is a really fun original action film for both Johnson and Evans, and it’s a world building piece of IP which lends itself to potential sequels set around different holidays

Boy someone thinks highly of themselves! Already on the make to ruin other holidays. I saw somewhere they claimed this could be a franchise comparable to the "Lord of the Rings". Whoa, Nelly. Pump the breaks on that male privlege. You are embarrassing yourself!

It's this need for empire building, I believe, is what will crush "Red One". This forced joy, what many of us feel at this time of year, has takes away the true spirit and fun of the holiday season.

Well, we know CE can ruin Valentine's Day, Halloween and Thanksgiving. Looks like he is well on his way to doing the same for Christmas.

This has about 7 more months to play out and maybe I am wrong, but right now it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth, like egg nog left out from last Christmas. So, I think the two leads better get their measurements in now for the suits they will be wearing at the 2025 Razzie Awards. Here are some ideas for their rapist-supporting stylist:

PS- And, by the way, what the fuck is with the name- "Red One"? Sounds like a horror film about an itchy rash that will destroy the world. The Rock is the only one that can save us, but decides there is too much division right now and isn't going to support the President, played by a sad, hollow Chris Evans.

#don't piss on my leg and tell me it is raining #liars suck! #do better #check your privlege #Is there a woman any where or is this a complete sausage fest?

[unhappytimeleaper]

Hello, may I request Q, T, and Y with Kuro x reader? Thank you and have a wonderful day. 💟

requested by anonymous

Word Count: 3,150+

I love Kuro. It was a while ago on a chat, but I realized I kinda have a type for delinquents. Oops. This mainly doesn’t go too much into the actions that make him a yan, I do touch on it occasionally or try to slip some of it in there, but I didn’t want to get too off-topic from the letters which meant I had to leave a lot of it out. Also, I wrote half of this 7 months ago and the rest today, so I’m sorry if it’s a little disjointed.

Also, I finally gave in and watched up to part 5 of Jojo, and I have… feelings. My poor friends are being subjected to all of them,, and someone should come to save them. TLDR for those curious, but I did not care for part 3, parts 1 & 2 were decent, I love part 4, from the art style to the characters, and part 5 I adore the characters, but I’m weak to character deaths :(. Maybe with time, I’ll possibly add them to my list but no hopes. Anyway, Kuro.

Kuro Kiryu; Unedited. Gender Neutral Reader.

Warnings; yandere content, mentions of potential threats, alludes to minor manipulation, self-isolating, and simple fights. Nothing is in detail nor is there truly anything bad but as always it is yandere. 

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Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

This would vary on if you leave or die rather than escape as he is also one where a lot of the relationship borders on unhealthy. It mainly is because Kiryu has some self-awareness to where things run too far but gets lost in the minor details. His delinquent past might affect some of his actions, but it's not as of he's one to ever use physical harm against you to get you to obey. He tends to focus more on voicing opinions. While he rarely might force you to not interact with others [generally completely strangers rather than friends or family unless he has proof they are bad news], there is a self-imposed guilt you feel when doing so, causing you to avoid others. Unlike others who force rules, and force isolation, Kiryu doesn't make it, so there ever is something you need to escape from. This would be unlike Eichi or Shu, for example. Even being yandere, it’s likely that with Kuro, the relationship develops naturally– or at least appears that way to an extreme extent that there never was some sort of reason to fear Kiryu in the form of genuine escape.

Leaving might be the most common reason or situation the two of you might face. Various reasons; thinking you need to experience life outside of a relationship, becoming tired of the relationship, dating an idol being too stressful, realizing you and Kiryu just don't connect past a honeymoon phase, etc. There are many reasons why you might want to break up, not wholly reliant on his yandere behaviors, but regardless of what it is related to, he often will have the same reaction.

No. Okay, maybe it comes off scarier than he intends when said like that, but Kiryu means, no, we can work this out. You know he's not attempting to come off as scary. He has never been in the relationship, and more so, his fear factor comes from how he traditionally is himself. Kiryu rarely even goes out of his way to threaten others to avoid you; the way he talks and carries himself does that for him unless he can find some valid excuse that even you can’t deny being a good option. Kuro also has never had a past of lying to you when he says he didn't threaten them or did something— it really was the others who picked to act that way post their conversation– although it’s hard to say for sure if there truly was never any violence or threats under his actions. However, no reason to doubt him is still no reason to use it in a breakup. It's not to say that he isn’t aware of his fear factor and thinks of it as a benefit in these situations, but honestly, he tries extremely hard not to do anything bad. He's changed from the delinquent days anyway when he would have quickly jumped to use violence to get them to stay away from you. Really, he doesn't want to do anything to tarnish his new reputation to you, nor have his actions come back and likely affect his sister or career. Leaving him becomes a lot more difficult because while he isn't necessarily the smartest at problem-solving or convincing you to stay as others might be, he tries. He tries so hard that it's impossible to stand your ground firmly. He works to make it so you can compromise [in his favor] to stay with him. Or a break up isn't really a break up— yeah, you've agreed to label it as a break, but this only if it's clear you don't want to date anyone else. Kiryu, even in this situation, hovers around more; not quite a relationship way that you feel you need to tell him to back off, but enough that it feels you're always on the brink of appearing still together. You can blame it on ES, for such a large building; it seems everyone is always wrapped up with each other in some way, although all of it is still profoundly intentional in Kiryu’s actions to stay near. If it is the route of still dating with compromises, these can vary but rarely will it alter or break aspects of his yandere traits as most of these result from his stoic, straightforward, and scary appearance. It's more working on adding things into the relationship to keep you more excited or understanding while a honeymoon phase is over; there are still think you can do together/have in common. Just cause one stage ends doesn't mean to give up; it means working to enjoy the next phase too. So ever really leaving is quite tricky because Kiryu's directness just results in a rebuff of finding reasons to stay, even if it gets to the point staying is just easier than leaving. There even is sometimes a sinking fear that you’d be throwing away the best partner you might ever get because of his personality over this. What if there really never would be anything better? Would you have to come crawling back to him begging for another chance– it’s entirely self-inflicted, but a tiny part of your mind would have to eat away at the possibility.

If you do manage to break up unless you are leaving the country as a whole, where it is hard to avoid Kiryu even if it's clear the relationship is over. Most of his actions feel like he's trying to win you back, such as cooking your meals or asking to spend time with you while he works on a sewing project. It's often weird, but his ability to be direct can make him easily be able to pass it off as being over you. These are just him, well, being him. Even in ways other idols can verify this is just his personality, even if he is being that awkwardly kind self. Under the surface, you know it's more than that… but there is no proof, the uneasiness no one else can understand. Though it's not misplaced, Kiryu's kindness might appear as just his standard attempt to make amends for his past as a delinquent, but everything he does is his goal of making you regret ending the relationship. That maybe you'll fall back in love with him, or you'll come crawling back, calling it a mistake. It’s undeniable that even with his jealousy and misplace tendencies he’s a wonderful partner, brother, and teammate. Kiryu deep down is still a good person fighting against his past and urges– and it’s hard to find someone who would likely treat you as good. Post breakup you’d likely fall back into seeing only happy couples too, it all sinking in just like you feared that even though you have so much life left to live you just tossed aside the best person you could have been with. Perhaps all that anxiety and weird feelings you were getting was from something else– your mind making all sorts of excuses to convince you to just text him those simple words. “Let’s get back together.”

Also all of this is his way of hovering to ensure no one else can pursue or harm you. Kiryu is well aware that even if he's changed from his past, others might hold grudges, and much like how he feared that might impact his sister, he knows that if it got out you were his ex, there is always a chance they might you use against him. Or there might be jealous fans— both upset you hurt him by breaking up or upset that you had the opportunity to date him. There is no telling what might happen, and he might not directly admit these reasons to you as it could become a bigger fight, thus harming the chance of ever getting back together.

Would he move on? If you're around, no. There is always a lingering chance, and if he is around just the same, you’ll unlikely be able to meet someone new. Okay, well, if you were gone completely… maybe. Just like how Kiryu has changed from his former delinquent lifestyle, he also knows there is a point in growing and changing in other ways. Not to say his yandere tendencies heal from this, but he knows it's unfair for him to forever pine after you when you are entirely gone living away from him. It doesn't happen quickly, he locked his heart away for years after this loss, and it's easy to tell even to others he becomes even more reserved [something most won't think was possible, but you proved them wrong]. He might become more snappy with subjects and reject many other forms of care, such as friendships. But in five years… ten years… things might change, and some of that ice might melt again, allowing him to try again. However, the second you show up once again he would be ready to start anew.

Furthermore, if you were to pass away either while dating or post-break-up, where you are still around, the answer is no. Kiryu will have believed that he was lucky enough to have met his soulmate so young, and unfair it might be he doesn't deserve a third chance. His personality is the same as if you were to move away forever; colder, and that stoic nature becomes bitter and quick to tell others off. He doesn't need anyone else, not friends, not someone to love. His sister really would be the only one who would have close contact with his personal life and understand on a deeper level his feelings, usually being the voice of reason to others as to why he became the way he is now [assuming this is in the future and she is also growing up]. He'd care for a grave site weekly, and overall, it feels like a piece of him died along with you.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

There are more what feels like two layers, and it depends on the reason and reason you might be having a moment of out-lash at him.

Take, for example, isolating yourself because you’re upset with him or an action he took or an argument. In this sense, Kuro would probably think you’re being childish. This is the behavior his little sister would have if upset or pouting, not an adult in a relationship. He would likely become more closed off and stoic at the moment and find himself annoyed at the action you are taking rather than settling to deal with the problem at hand. Ironically, it’s just as contradictory that he closes himself off too and doesn’t work to resolve the problem, but if you want to act like a childish brat, why should he have to fix the case you started? Kuro isn’t really the type to make it so you’re fully locked away, unable to have any form of life, and thus resort to isolating yourself in disdain for him. If in a fight, you do resort to isolation to calm down or whatever, then it’s expected you should be able to talk for a short moment before coming to Kiryu to resolve the issue. The longer you wait to talk over the ‘tantrum’, the more frustrated Kuro will get and likely leave him in a grumpy, cold mood to you for longer, unable to express his emotions as he doesn’t want to take them out on you either. Like this, his fear factor only increases, and his hovering nature seems to double for the amount of time you hid progressively. Even if it wasn’t forced isolation or him actively trying to scare other people off, they are now wanting to avoid him and you, by extension, even more. In the end, it only seems to backfire creating a cycle of loneliness problems.

As for something like screaming or crying in a fight, Kuro gets quiet for a reason of self-reprimanding. Not that he feels too guilty over his actions but that his actions once again come back around to hurt someone he loves. Kuro is well aware that his jealousy isn’t normal, and that his actions have never been the healthy solution, but he’s trying. He so desperately wants to amend his past, to melt and burn and tear up the negative and harsh feelings of jealousy boiling in his mind and heart. That this could all be normal, you could love each other and not have to feel this way if he just had done something different. And while he’s quiet, appearing perhaps slightly disinterested or the scowl on his face making you only fear more, he does nothing. He doesn’t take a step; he doesn’t flinch his hands, it almost looks like he’s not breathing with how steady he goes, telling himself not to lash out like the delinquent side of him wants to. He’ll simply wait, running scenarios and words over and over in his head while you exhaust yourself. Honestly, he’s probably not even processing the majority of your comments, so fixated on his thoughts. And as your screams turn into whimpers and tears begin to dry along your cheeks— too exhausted to keep going, Kuro will finally make his move coming over to comfort you. He’ll wipe away the crusting tears with a personal handkerchief and wrap you in his arms slowly as you hiccup those feelings away. In the end, you don’t remember what you were even screaming and crying about; Kuro too distracted to fully reflect the cause either. The fights are usually too far and few in between, but they are draining, with nothing ever being resolved waiting for the next time it comes around.

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

Kuro takes a long time, at least compared to the majority of the other idols. And it stems from keeping his guard up— both because of his past haunting him and his natural exterior from being a delinquent, his personality, and his wish to change.

To start, Kuro knows his personality is… rough at least from an outsider’s perspective. He’s aware he’s intimidating, his a wall of a person, and his face doesn’t always convey the intentions in his heart. It’s no secret to anyone that even the softness he has is not easily exposed in his demeanor, nor that his ability to pick and throw grown men isn’t terrifying in itself. Even if you don’t come off as frightened by his rough exterior and bluntness to topics that come off as harsh or off-putting at times pre-relationship, there is a lingering doubt in his mind to rush into things. And this leads to the other point; Kuro wants to change. As mentioned, he’s deeply aware not only of his feeling of being over-driven to a not-so-standard degree but being a delinquent doesn’t come with an easy change. It’s not even the fights that are hard to shake off; it’s all of the mentality, the lessons, and skills that come from that life. He doesn’t want, you know, to see that person he once was. He might still be underneath everything because change is more complicated than people expect. Kuro wants the soul mate relationship he feels; he wants to be the knight, not the villain. He wants the fairy tale love from the stories and movies he watches with his little sister— more than giving in to his jealousy and unsavory thoughts. So he waits. Hoping that things can change, not progress.

And the other reason I touched on a little before. His guard has to be still and shaking when getting into a relationship is not easy. Kuro wants to relax, give in, and just let things happen. But being a delinquent means always being on guard, and his softness, while a strength can only be shown in small amounts, tries to keep himself safe. It falters around you more than others, even more as time goes on, but it takes a long time to chip away that shield. And the other guard is, like I said— Kuro knows delinquents make enemies. He has plenty, and while being a famous idol can protect him more so now others might seek revenge on his sister or you. It’s one of the key factors that both hinder and progresses his yandere tendencies because if his guard is up, you can’t love him back, and you won’t be a target. But you’re around him anyway… and it’s unlikely that delinquents care to verify a relationship’s true nature as long as it’s exploitable.

Between these contradicting factors, it takes months. This is beneficial for Kuro means everything can play out, and fall into a relationship like an average couple. One void is his tendencies fogging up the back of his mind, eating away at his heart. It genuinely starts off simple… progressing into seeing him while he sews— one of the few times he lets down his guard— and hanging out with him more and more. It turns into bringing you lunch and hands brushing over each other. It’s hard to suspect him of doing anything wrong, or thinking anything wrong. His rough exterior becomes a flustering teasing point that makes his ears burn, chin buried in his hand. And the bluntness is useful. Asking you out is direct. It’s effortless and more of a command, so you can only blush and agree when the time finally comes. Kuro doesn’t need to snap or to lure you into something. He’s one of the few that isn’t genuinely trapping you, but that doesn’t change the manipulation and fear dripping down his heart; one day, you’ll see past his facade to the delinquent locked away but never truly gone.

#enstars.leaps #yandere #yandere writing #yandere x reader #yandere ensemble stars #yandere enstars #yandere headcanons #yandere scenarios #Yandere Kuro #yandere akatsuki #Yandere Kuro Kiryu #enstars x reader #ensemble stars kiryu #kuro kiryu #tw: yandere #Yandere Kiryu

[k-s-morgan]

Hi Katrin! I’m really sorry about all the hardships you’ve been through lately. Sometimes when I read your posts I feel so frustrated because I can’t really do anything to help you. I can only pray for your safety and happiness, but I’m sure everything will get better for you. Maybe it doesn’t mean much, but you are in a lot of people's thoughts and prayers <3

I have some questions for you (and sorry if you already addressed this in a previous post) about TGSTLTH:

What do you think is the extent of demon powers? Which do you think are the set of “standard” abilities inherent to every demon (highly enhanced senses, super strength, flying, altering their appearance, etc.)?

We know there are demons with special powers (Gremory in the last chapter being a very good example). Are any of Sebastian’s displays of power unique abilities only he possesses? Like are all demons able to will a garden into existence, create illusions, control the weather, recreate a mansion? Is there a unique ability from Sebastian you haven’t yet showed us?

Sebastian was really concerned when he thought Ciel had been hurt by Miss Taylor, so we know he’s unable to help Ciel by supernatural means if he’s already physically hurt. Do you think there are demons capable of healing humans? Manipulating time, mind reading/control, etc?

Sorry for all the questions :B haha I’m rereading your wonderful story and it got me thinking.

Hello! Thank you so much for your kind and reassuring words. They mean a lot, and sometimes praying is the only thing I can do. It's extremely difficult to live under this kind of constant threat of dying, losing my home and/or my loved ones, day after day, night after night.

And thank you for such interesting questions! So, questions 1 and 3: standard abilities of demons. Your answer lists the majority of them: they all have enhanced senses, they can assume any shape; they can fly and they become stronger by consuming blood. All of them can do some magic, like materialize food or create an illusion, but the extent of it differs. The higher rank a demon has, the more invulnerable they are, the more power they hold. Sebastian has a high rank and he is very strong, so his illusions are elaborate and his grasp on magic, such as when he created that garden, is above that of the majority. But other demons of his rank and higher can do the same things.

Demons are also very hard to kill even by demon standards (which is why, as I headcanon it, Sebastian asks Grell to kill the triplets - he doesn't want to waste his time on ending them when he needs to get to Ciel).

Question 2: special abilities of demons.

I like the idea of some demons having unique abilities! So yes, we have Gremory with a gift of seeing the future. The spell she used to mask Ciel's soul isn't anything special, on the other hand, and Sebastian could do the same. But since she outranks him, her magic is stronger. There is also demon Shax who can sense lies. I think some higher-up demons might be capable of healing, playing with time a little, and sensing someone's thoughts, but they are extremely rare as these gifts are particularly powerful.

With Sebastian, it's complicated. I think he definitely has some unique abilities, and based on the anime, I feel like one of them is the level of his demonic strength. It's boring, but it seems to be canon. I always found it fascinating how he keeps fighting in a human form even against strong opponents like Grell, Ash and Claude, almost losing sometimes but not seeming bothered by it. On the contrary, he's curious and amused, like he knows for certain he has an ace up his sleeve that he can use any moment. In his most serious fight against Angela, he assumes his true form and he destroys her in 10 seconds. We don't really see him doing anything special, he's just fighting with all his might at last, and he defeats an actual angel. I doubt any demon, including Claude, could do the same. So, I think that despite his aversion to Hell, Sebastian has a special connection with it. He can draw strength from it to surprising extents, to the point where he has good chances of defeating a demon with a higher rank in a one-on-one fight. Hell favors Sebastian because he's such an oddball.

There might be some other ability, but I haven't decided on it yet! I guess the plot is going to dictate it sooner or later. Until then, Sebastian will remain mysteriously silent :D

#my fics #black butler #kuroshitsuji #sebastian michaelis #sebaciel #demons #lore

[tagthescullion]

Diplomacy: a Net of Embellished Lies

Fandom(s): Percy Jackson and the Olympians, Heroes of Olympus

Rating: G

Summary: Five times Nico lied to the people around him, and one time he told the truth.

Chapter 1 - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4

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Chapter 5: The Doors

“He’s turned up in Camp Jupiter.”

Hades’ eyes lingered on his son’s troubled expression. 

“Percy Jackson,” Nico clarified. “He’s been accepted into the legion.”

“How relieving,” he told the boy. “I’ll be able to sleep peacefully tonight knowing my sister has released my brother’s favourite bastard.”

Nico gave him a look that conveyed extraordinary amounts of contempt considering his age. 

“Isn’t that good?” He asked. “You said Hera’s plan might work.”

“No, that’s not what I said,” Hades refuted. “What I did tell you was that it might work out for you and Hazel. If Hera managed to bring your two peoples together, that would give you a valid excuse to be seen around with your Roman sister.”

It gave him an uncomfortable shiver to think of the whole Greek/Roman division. But he’d rather fade into oblivion than let his son see him in such a weakened state.

“You don’t believe it could bring both camps together, then?” Nico wondered.

Hades hesitated for a moment. “I am not sure it is such a solid bet as my sister believes it to be. There’s many years of bad blood between both sides.”

“I know that,” Nico said. “But the stakes are high enough that they must see we have to work together!” 

“Rationally, your differences could be put aside for the greater good,” Hades agreed. “My grandmother is a formidable enemy and so are her second batch of children, it’s unlikely you could beat them without cooperating.” He made himself more comfortable in his throne, he’d been on edge for months, with the disappearance of Thanatos, and the issue with the Doors. Yet he made an effort to make his son understand. He was an idealist, he needed things spoken clearly. “But you’ve lived part of a memorable mortal conflict in your childhood, haven’t you? Tell me, how well did people put their differences aside to beat a common enemy back then?”

“That’s not the same,” Nico argued. “Those were governments. This is just… a bunch of children.”

“Why, of course,” Hades nodded. “Teenagers have always been known to be more reasonable and level-tempered than adults.”

The boy exhaled, no doubt in an attempt to avoid rolling his eyes at Hades, which would have ended up with him grounded for a month, life-or-death conflict be damned.

“I only mean,” Nico began slowly. “That I think leaders of both camps are much less corrupt and selfish than governments tend to be. They would at least consider cooperating.”

“Let us hope so,” Hades said. “In any way, we should first wait for Hazel and her two companions to return from their quest before we start speculating.”

Nico looked uncomfortable. “They will return, won’t they?”

“Only the fates can tell,” Hades stated. “Thanatos must be returned to his position as my lieutenant. Spirits are growing uneasy without him.”

He was rather worried, if he was honest. As Hades, the fear he felt for his Roman daughter was slightly dampened, but he still wanted her to return unharmed. It irritated him to be unable to help, even if subtly, while she was in Alaska. Damned place, just off the extent of his powers.

And, of course, the issue with the Doors of Death was much worse than he wanted to admit. Spirits returning? His family would never let him hear the end of it.

He could almost hear it, ‘You have one job, brother, do  try to do it properly’, they would be unbearable.

“How are you faring without him?” Nico asked. “It’s been quite a while.”

His tone was concerned, which Hades both appreciated and found ironic, since the boy had benefited from the situation when it suited him, but Nico needn’t worry about such things. Or perhaps he should, if he could use the information to put pressure on either camp.

“The Furies can keep things in order here, for the time being,” he replied. “The problem is that the other side of the Doors is in Tartarus.”

Nico paled. “I see…” 

“Yes, it’s not ideal.”

“And, hypothetically,” Nico commented. Hades frowned, he never liked his son’s hypothetical questions. “How would one be able to close them, then?”

“You defeat Gaea,” he explained. “Either you blackmail her or bribe her into closing them herself —rather unlikely, as you can imagine—, or you send a couple of expendable creatures to close them from Tartarus.”

“Demigods, for example?”

“No,” Hades dismissed the notion with a wave of his hand. “Demigods could never make it, your kind is not prepared for the abyss, your mind would shut off.”

Nico frowned. “You once told me demigods were ideal for all this crap because we were part of both worlds.”

“You have an incredible ability to distort my words into whatever is convenient for you, did you know?” Hades was losing his patience. “I told you that demigods were my family’s ideal tool to annoy me by sending them here —to the civilised bit of the Underworld— bearing demands. Not to dive into Tartarus in a suicide mission for their souls to be lost forever.”

“The soul would be lost?” That seemed to concern his son more than the rest.

“Of course,” Hades confirmed. “Thanatos —assuming he ever returns to his post— wouldn’t venture that far to pick up a wayward foolish spirit. Besides, who would be idiotic enough to—” Then it clicked. “Absolutely not.”

“What? I didn’t say anyth—”

“You’re not about to throw yourself into Tartarus,” Hades ordered. “That’s the most ridiculous plan you’ve come up with so far, and the Fates know you’ve had plenty of wacky ideas.”

“Now who’s understanding whatever they want?” Nico snapped. “I didn’t imply that I’d go to Tartarus, it was all theoretical.”

Hades stared at him firmly. “You want to close the Doors.”

“That would be useful,” he confessed with a self-conscious shrug. “But I didn’t know they were in Tartarus.”

“And now that you do know,” Hades insisted. “You won’t go near that cave, will you?”

Nico stayed silent.

“Answer me,” Hades demanded. “Promise me you won’t be reckless enough to go near that bloody cave.”

His son looked at him defiantly. But staring contests were Hades’ speciality. Even his spoiled youngest brother couldn’t beat him.

Reluctantly —very, very reluctantly—, Nico nodded. “All right. I won’t.”

#hades pjo #nico di angelo #percy jackson #pjo #hoo #pjo hoo toa #riordanverse #pjo fic #mis fics #tagthescullion #embellished lies

[hisbutler-problematic]

Same anon as the huge ass ask from before lol - 🔮

Oh, I definitely agree that in some ways R!Ciel was even more 'careful' with O!Ciel than the adults, but I feel like it manifested in different ways? Vincent and Rachel wouldn't be against O!Ciel making a name for himself away from the estate since that's what tends to be expected from a 2nd son anyway, but I don't see them having a lot of faith in him as the Earl and, by extension, the Guard Dog (again, not completely baseless given his sickness but going to affect a kid anyway). While R!Ciel I see as the type who'd say O!Ciel could do it, but of course "together with him, side by side". Although both ways ultimately feed into the idea of "unworthy to be Earl spare in the original's shadow", you know?

I remember reading the fic "Prepositions" if I remember correctly and there was a chapter where Sebastian was thinking about O!Ciel's past and the twin situation, referring to R!Ciel as "the spare he never wanted". I remember thinking Yes Yes this is it, because Sebastian's toxic ass is, imo, the first person to give such razor sharp focus to O!Ciel and not his brother. I doubt R!Ciel crossed his mind much before circumstances forced him to think about him again. Too busy becoming obsessed with the walking contradiction that is [Blank] Phantomhive.

Going from this I tend to wonder how things would have gone had O!Ciel been taken out of the cage first? I honestly do not know if R!Ciel would have managed to summon Sebastian himself. He seemed more hopeful, even if fakely so, compared to O!Ciel who spat on God's name directly (which also is quite interesting given that O!Ciel's always been featured as softer in their past while R!Ciel had the more bone chilling moments). And even if let's say he did manage to do it, would he and Sebastian ever become as enraptured (not the most canon accurate term, but close enough to obsessed) with each other as Sebaciel?

R!Ciel, at least, I see as less willing to get over Sebastian eating his brother's soul. It would probably show a lot in their interaction. He might even put more emphasis on the master-servant status difference between them. In the end though, he might become disgustingly intrigued by Sebastian at least.

In regards to Sebastian, a big factor in his and O!Ciel's bond imo is that they both started by "faking it 'till they make it". They are hugely responsible for shaping one another's persona and that element would bs missed to an extent in this scenario. Sure, Sebastian could still tutor him, but they wouldn't be together on quite the conspiracy Sebaciel have in canon with their fake identities. On the other hand though, seeing R!Ciel's "hard core" moments could be entertaining for Sebastian as well.

Long story short, does this mean Sebastian fits the trope "evil (supernatural) bad boy pays attention only to little old me forever ignored and in the background"? The jury is still out on this one.

hello and welcome back, anon, who is the love of my life

i think we’re kind of saying the same things and are generally in agreement but tbh i love putting this story under the microscope SO i will just (lmao “just”) add some (lol “some”) thoughts

i agree that rachel and vincent didn’t seem to even consider o!ciel as a possible heir. like even if they’re willing to let him strike out on his own, far away in london, they DEFINITELY do not see him as a candidate to be the Queen’s Watchdog. we’re shown that, while the twins do have some lessons together, r!ciel had lessons that o!ciel did not (im pretty sure there’s an implication that o!ciel didn’t take sword classes from the marchioness, but i could be wrong. either way there were still other lessons they didn’t share but i’d have to go back and check to know which lesson it was, exactly). for the time period, i could see this as being a normal thing, especially since second sons generally were considered spares (not going to inherent anything, aren’t the ones expected to carry on the family names, etc etc) EXCEPT when have the phantomhives done anything as it would “normally” be done. tbh i could see it being common practice in the phantomhive household that EVERYONE is taught what needs to be known to be the Phantomhive Earl because they know it’s a dangerous role to play. from vincent’s conversation with francis and francis’ skills in fighting, i think it’s safe to assume she was also brought up and prepared to take the mantle, should need be (and we know that there HAVE been female Phantomhive Watchdogs, so it’s completely plausible). my main point being: o!ciel probably would have been brought up the exact same way as r!ciel if they hadn’t already written him off

you are ABSOLUTELY correct about r!ciel seeing o!ciel as capable but in a “lets do it together!” way (probably with the unsaid “then i can cover for him if ever his sickness gets in the way”). but also i don’t think it’s purely “he thinks o!ciel could do it, if they do it together” i think on some level, for r!ciel, they HAVE to do it together. tbh might be less of “o!ciel could do it, if we did it together” and more “i can’t do it, if we don’t do it together”. he needs his brother. and we can see that in the way he’s absolutely devastated by o!ciel saying he’s going to leave

(it does make me wonder why he’s so so clingy tho. my current theory is that he grew up with the role of “Oldest Brother” being beat into his head so much that he doesn’t know who he is without o!ciel, without being the older brother. (which was probably made worse by o!ciel being sickly, both because now there’s the idea of “you have to Take Care Of your younger brother” and the added pressure of being the one and only Phantomhive Heir and added pressure there, because he can’t mess up because o!ciel can’t take over))

all of which, of course, o!ciel cannot see. instead, from his point of view, this is just more “unworthy spare” rhetoric

and like. okay so i never read the fic you’re referencing, but there’s something there. something that’s been kind of been cooking in my brain, about o!ciel’s thoughts/attitude about his brother and their relationship. of course he loves his brother, who is his protector and clearly cares so much about him, but i think he’s less. obsessed(? i don’t know if that’s the word i want to use but i can’t think of a better one) with his brother, than his brother is with him. and i don’t know if he resents his brother specifically, but he definitely has some resentment. it’s because of his older brother, who is way more perfect than him in every way, that o!ciel is a spare—and to such an extent. he admires his brother and he only thinks it’s natural, which is why i think he doesn’t blame his brother (and plays into why he goes SO pissed when r!ciel just shows up and steals his spot, after o!ciel put in so much work (was the one to put in the work) to earn (rightfully, too) the title)

but o!ciel is also amazingly full of contradictions and i think there was also a part of him that thought that without his brother, he would no longer be the “spare”. that’s probably why he wanted to move to london: to be away from his brother and prove himself capable (hence being pissed when he DOES prove himself and then r!ciel shows up to mess that all up)

which, listen, i’m not going to pretend i know how twins work (or even that all twins have the same relationship) but there really is something to be said about growing up side by side with someone from birth

BUT THEN comes sebastian who adores adores adores o!ciel. and not in the way his brother did. nor is it in the way anyone else (lizzie, his parents, etc) ever has. o!ciel has been told and shown all his life that r!ciel is perfect and preferred. r!ciel is the ideal and o!ciel is just there (he was undeniably loved, but he was also undeniably the spare). to the point that it’s obvious to o!ciel that r!ciel is the one that should have been the one to live. that r!ciel is more perfect and deserving, that it would have been better if o!ciel had been the one to die instead.

and in comes a demon who says he sacrificed his brother (he would never do that, he loves his brother!) (isn’t that what he wanted to do, in essence, on some level, by leaving r!ciel behind?), a demon who speaks as if this is something to be admired, to be praised (has o!ciel ever really, truly been praised?), a demon who o!ciel effortlessly enraptures by being himself.

(and the way that what enraptures sebastian first, what is that first spark of interest, is the way o!ciel goes about negotiating their contract, with o!ciel treating it like a chess game–the only thing he has ever been better than r!ciel at)

this is probably the first time in o!ciel’s life that anyone has loved him for him, who hasn't seen him as an extension of r!ciel (or the defective byproduct of r!ciel), who he can truly, truly be himself around (and, this is complete speculation here, but i wonder if he’s ever even had that before–if he was held back from doing things, or expected to behave a certain way, because he’s the second son, because he’s sickly). who loves him not in spite of his negative traits but because of them.

and the thing is: r!ciel never would have been able to pull this off. if he had been able to summon sebastian (and i doubt he would have; where o!ciel became infuriated when r!ciel was killed, r!ciel would have instead been devastated if o!ciel had been killed) (touching on the “he seemed more hopeful, even if fakely so” thing, he was probably being hopeful for o!ciel, forcing himself to stay positive for his younger brother, unwilling to believe that anything would happen to o!ciel. going off this assumption, if o!ciel had been taken out of the cage first, i think his death would have destroyed r!ciel, his whole foundation for his forced hope gone from beneath him. yes, we have seen r!ciel behave more bone chillingly and o!ciel more softly (and how much of that was expectation?), but there’s something about the way r!ciel’s evilness(? NOT the word im looking for but idk how else to put it) manifests–it’s a sharp, sudden thing. there’s no sustainability to it. o!ciel–who has been cast aside again and again, who has buried resentment, who is constantly, constantly comparing himself to the omnipresence that is his brother and is always, always finding himself falling short–has a capacity for loathing that his brother simply does not)

anyway, back to what i was saying, if r!ciel had been able to summon sebastian, sebastian would not have found him nearly as enthralling. sebastian might find r!ciel interesting. r!ciel is clever and is not afraid of maliciousness or cruelty. the fact that hes so young and able to be clever and cruel would be a curiosity. but he’d just be another human to sebastian. sebastian is used to death → anger → revenge. literally a cycle he sees like three times a month. r!ciel doesn't seem like he has the capability to hold the same depth of hatred as o!ciel. i feel like, where o!ciel said he is going to go on and make a name for himself, make those who targeted his family members come to him, r!ciel would demand sebastian finds who is to blame and take him to them (r!ciel would still want to kill them himself tho lol)

(what i wonder is if r!ciel would also want to avoid taking “innocent” lives, or if he would be willing to kill whoever to get to who he wants to.)

this is, of course, if r!ciel could even forgive sebastian for taking his brother’s soul. if he could find it within himself to work with sebastian for the sake of revenge. which i don't think he could, so there’s the second reason r!ciel never would have landed himself a sexy demon butler. not that he would care how sexy the butler is because he would hate sebastian on principle. r!ciel would have the relationship with sebastian that o!ciel likes to pretend they have: to r!ciel, sebastian would be no more than a tool. a means to an end.

BUT im so glad you brought up treatment of servants (you didn’t, im extrapolating) bc i am going to take this opportunity to mention what is SUCH an important fact to me, which is that o!ciel treats his staff SO WELL i love all the little hints throughout the story that add up to the obvious picture that o!ciel is the best among the nobility in terms of how he treats his staff

anyway.

all this is to say, on a fundamental personality level, they’re already not working out. like, okay sure, sebastian might find it neato that r!ciel is suuuuper willing to just stab a dude. r!ciel might appreciate how efficient sebastian is about taking care of business. personally, i don’t think they’d even be together long enough to develop a relationship (as im convinced r!ciel wouldn’t play the slow game o!ciel does), but even if they were, i don’t see their relationship developing beyond being a tool/meal to the other. o!ciel’s upbringing is so inherent to sebaciel’s obsession with each other: on o!ciel’s side, sebastian is the first person to see him purely for him; on sebastian’s side, o!ciel is so so so complex in a way that is so perfectly intriguing to sebastian, and it’s a result of the way o!ciel’s been treated his whole life and how he’s internalized it and the way it now manifests.

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[strawhatsoraya]

Hi! Can I request a megumi fushiguro x senpai reader? Where they try to keep their relationship, but during a mission reader gets injured and megumi freaks out? Thank you so much!!!!

Wahhh another Megumi request!! Thank you. It got a little angsty but I think that's to be expected. I did try to lighten it up with some fluff. Thank you for requesting!

Here ; to You

MEGUMI X SENPAI READER | FEM READER, SHE/HER PRONOUNS | 1k wc | SFW

CONTENT WARNING: mentions of death, and blood, is a swollen eye considered gore? i wouldn't think so but just in case *thumbs up*

A (BADLY WRITTEN) SUMMARY: secret lovers.mp3 (i just told my age woops)

A relationship between two was built on trust, and mutual affection. A relationship between two, sometimes thrived in secrecy only. 

Megumi never really knows if that is true. He ignores the doubts, as he pulls you close, limbs entwining with each other with a sense of familiarity. He knew the taste of your tongue for a while now. He knew what made you laugh, and what made you cry. He knew how you liked for him to scratch gentle circles on your head when he played with your hair. He knew the face you made when his fingers danced on your skin, when his body heat would take your breath away.

He knew all this, and kept it to himself. The same way he allowed confessions to die behind his lips when he saw you in the halls.

A part of him wanted to show you off. He grew tired of secrets. His life itself was tiring, had been tiring since he could remember. There weren't many people he could rely on. He had grown used to the loneliness, interpreting it as being content with his own presence. It wasn’t until he met you that he discovered the extent of the lies he told himself at night. You reminded him that there was comfort in solidarity; that there was a reason to fight for survival.

He didn’t fear death, but he feared losing you. Thoughts kept him up at night, terrors in the shadows whispering tragedies he didn’t want to hear. He was no stranger to death. He had grown apathetic, but when you brush the back of his hand with yours when you pass him by, the tiniest of smiles on your plush lips he thinks he could never face death again without knowing the true depths of what it means to love you; love you like love had been born from the heat of his hands, like it had never been discovered before, until your lips touched, like this was the first love in humanity; the origins of man.

In his fear he found reason to hide his feelings from view. He worried that Nobara and Yuji would find out. They were excitable, eager. They would share too much and before he knew it, his obnoxious white haired benefactor would be on his case. Even worse, he feared that you would become a walking talking target in the shape of his name. If he had made an enemy too great, too clever for him to stop, how could he live with the guilt of you being used to gain access to him?

He simply couldn’t. So he lied some more. You didn’t seem to mind which only increased his guilt. You, alway so understanding, so mature, so deserving of so much more. 

Then why did it have to be you? Why did it happen to you?

He heard the news from Nobara. Sweet, personable Nobara who had no idea what you meant to him. She had dropped the news casually, as they all had gotten accustomed to. Death and destruction was part of their daily lives. Another dead sorcerer, another injured friend. It was common enough for them all to develop thickened scars over the same wounds being cut open time and time again.

At the change of colors on Megumi's face, Nobara began to realize something was amiss. He doesn't really listen to her interrogations, and Megumi wishes he had the decency to feel guilty as he rushes out of the room without an explanation. Time was a limited resource. Time left as it pleased, and never returned.

His legs feel sentient. He is in a haze, a strange nightmare where the halls go on forever, where doors never lead him to you.

When he finds your room, he stands at the threshold. He takes in the sight of your face, dried blood on your chin, an eye swollen shut. He sees your arm wrapped in bandages, an unformed shape around where one of your hands should be. His hands tremble. He clutches his fingers into tight fists before relaxing them, wiping fingertips on his trousers.

He makes it to you, sits very carefully on the edge of the bed. You look up at him, one eye was enough–you think, as you peer up at him. He is looking down at you through thick dark lashes. It was all enough if you could still see him looking down at you that way. You raise a hand, its trajectory jittery in the process. Megumi reaches for it, gently brings it to his cheek and holds it there.

“I heard you fought like hell,” he murmurs to the inside of your wrist. He kisses it there, realizing with moderate relief that at least there’s a part of you that’s not bruised. You chuckle softly, but stop quickly. Your chest and back aches when you laugh. 

“Of course,” you tell him, a little breathless. Your cracked ribs made it hard to take a deep breath. You were forced to shallow breathing, and short sentences. “I had somewhere to be.”

He kisses the inside of your palm, allows his lips to rest there for a moment. You wiggle your fingers when he doesn’t move.

“Where?” he asks, curiosity getting the best of him. You laugh against better judgment, take the pain in exchange for the quizzical look on his face; the cute way his brows furrowed together. 

“Here,” you breathed out. His frown doesn’t disappear but he drops another kiss on your hand. “To you.” You feel him expel a noisy breath against your fingers. His lips brush against your knuckles.

“Dummy,” he mumbles against the back of your hand. He didn’t always have the right words to say, but you somehow did, even now. He curls your fingers gently into a fist, holds it between his hands. He brings it to his chest, and watches you quietly, as his heart beats quickly in his chest. There is so much he wants to say, some much he would like to give you, but words continue to fail him.  “Thank you.”

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[kitwing-moving]

UMMM i was thinking about my last viveichi fic and i wanted to write about the friendsies forever promise its been on my mind a lot :] also no way vivian writing at midnight again wtf. sorry this got a little long my brain moved a lot

The little cafe where Vivian worked wasn't one that gained much traffic, tucked away in an unassuming spot, yet it had a welcoming and homey atmosphere that Eichi was particularly fond of. And today, he couldn't help but appreciate it more.

Vivian wasn't aware of the extent of his condition, or at least she masked her concerns rather well. Honesty, if she could, then Eichi would be surprised - it was easy to tell what she was feeling, so expressive it was almost comical.

He adored it. He adored how easy it was to make her simply react, no matter what emotion, and he came to adore the cafe simply because of her.

It was nearing the end of the day, but Eichi didn't pay that any mind. He knew what time the cafe usually closed, but Vivian never seemed to mind letting him stay after hours. Occasionally she would act annoyed, rolling her eyes with a scoff before she smiled at him. It was always a big smile, radiant and clearly excited to see him. She even memorized his usual order, having it ready nearly the moment he came. As if she had started to expect him. It was a routine Eichi came to adore as well, something that was strangely relaxing with a girl who was so expressive and loud. It was part of Vivian's charm, he supposed.

Surprisingly, the door wasn't locked yet. Eichi quietly pushed it open, watching as Vivian mumbled to herself, such an intense look of concentration on her face as she cleaned and dusted. The smell of freshly baked cake caught Eichi by surprise too, and his eyes landed on the two plates of chocolate cake sitting at their usual table.

Ah, how ironic... It was something his doctor would strictly advise against, especially on Eichi Day. But he didn't want to tell Vivian that. He may adore her overly expressive reactions, but the thought of those eyes filled with fear and concern over him was not one he wanted to see today.

"Good evening, Vivian." Eichi took himself by surprise with how eager he sounded, excited. Maybe the earnest way she talked was spreading to him as well.

"Eichi?!" Her head snapped over to him, eyes wide before she smiled. He could see the excitement spread through her, and Eichi felt his own smile widen.

"Yay!!! I hadn't seen you for a while, I thought you were neglecting me..." Vivian sniffled, wiping away a fake tear. "Tell me I'm still your favoritest, riii~ght?" Her voice wavered as if she was really about to cry, yet the smile on her face never left as she drew out her words.

"Sorry, Vivian." Eichi only chuckled, patting her head and watching as she stood on her tiptoes, pushing her head even further against his hand. Just like a cat asking for more pets.

"I, ah..." Eichi trailed off. He had been hospitalized for the past few days, and once more the thought of the unpleasant face of worry from Vivian made his heart clench for a moment. He couldn't share that with her.

"I was overwhelmingly busy. I didn't mean to leave you alone for so long."

"That's oka~ay." Vivian hummed, the sound akin to a purr. "I'll forgive you if you eat cake with me, okay?"

"Of course, of course." Eichi looked at the slices of cake once more. They were cutely decorated, which was no doubt something she did. Brightly colored candies were sprinkles around the vanilla frosting, and Eichi knew his doctor would absolutely advise against eating this.

Vivian was strangely quiet now, stretching out her arms with a drawn out yawn before plopping right down in a chair. Eichi did the same, watching as she picked the candies off both of their slices and ate them. He couldn't find it in himself to stop her, watching as her eyes sparkled with joy at just having his company.

"Hey." After a moment Vivian broke the silence, swinging her legs under the table. "You're, uh.. Really famous, right?" She glanced up at him sheepishly, smile falling for a moment.

"Hm. Well, I suppose you could say that." Eichi chuckled, reaching over to take a candy off of her cake now. She didn't seem to care, only pushing her plate closer to him.

"Hm." Vivian echoed him, legs now still. "... Do you have any other bffsies?"

Eichi's eyebrows drew together in confusion. "Bffsies...? Best friends, you mean?" He didn't know where this conversation was going, yet he couldn't help but feel the tiniest bit guilty at just how lonely she was starting to look.

"Yeah. I-I mean! It's okay to have other friends, but... Um." Vivian trailed off, picking at the fabric of her work uniform. "You... so, uh... Eugh." Sitting up straight, she scrunched up her face. "It almost seems like I'm asking you out. Gross."

"Oh? Would such feelings towards me really be so bad?" Eichi leaned forward with a grin, watching as Vivian bristled before quickly shaking her head. "No! It was a joke, no! Um! I just wanted to know if you consider us friends?! I'm sure plenty of people find you cute and desirable and want you, I mean, I underst... eh. Uh." Vivian scrunched her face up even more, something Eichi didn't know was possible. Her face turned several shades of red as she realized her words. It was a rather adorable look on her, and Eichi felt he wanted to see that blush from her much more.

"I'm just digging myself into an early grave. That sounded like I really was confessing to you. Good lord."

Eichi couldn't help the laugh that escaped him, leaning back as he took a moment to let his laughter die down. "Sometimes you seem to just talk without considering your words. That might be dangerous, Vivian." He let out a sigh, rolling her question around in his mind now. "I do suppose I'd consider you a friend, Vivian. If I remember correctly, you treated me as a friend ever since we met..."

"Yay. Woohoo." She whispered, kicking her legs as she interrupted him. "I'm your friend.. hehe! Yay."

Eichi already had a fond smile on his face just watching her this entire time, but it grew so much that his eyes crinkled at the edges. "Yay." He repeated after her, nodding. "But back to what I was saying... you had treated me so familiarly even when you didn't fully know who I was. It's charming from you, but you tend to act very..." He trailed off, trying to find words that wouldn't be so harsh.

"Naive? Foolish? Stupid?" Vivian suggested. Oddly, she didn't seem to take offense like he had guessed. "Yeah, I guess. I know. It tends to fuck me over a lot, so I already know why you're gonna warn me." Her foot lightly kicked at his. "But I felt in my gut you weren't a weirdo, and my gut was right this time. So there's really no reason t'be on my case about it, rich boy."

"Ah, but what if I was? What if I ended up betraying you, hm?" Eichi's smile fell as he studied her. She didn't seem to care much for his warning, brushing it off so casually, and it worried him. He decided to push further. "You can't trust your gut all the time, Vivian. You won't always be right."

"Yeah, I know." She sighed heavily, picking up her fork to finally eat her cake now that all the candies had been picked off. "But if you're saying all of this, I know you really aren't a weirdo, Eichi. You're trying to warn me 'nd stuff. And if I'm wrong then I really couldn't give a crap."

Eichi opened his mouth to push even further, but she lightly kicked at his leg as an unspoken 'shut up.'

"You don't have to keep saying things about this, okay? It almost sounds like you're trying to paint yourself as a bad guy, and it sorta sucks. It's kinda stupid." Vivian still kept her lighthearted tone despite the topic, seeming to still brushing his concerns and worries away.

"I don't have many friends here, Eichi. It's still so scary here, and I do tend to be scared a lot of the time." She reached over now, stealing a bit of his cake as she continued on. "But I know it's dangerous to not be cautious when it comes to trying to make friends. If someone is nice to me at least once, then I consider them a friend, y'know? Life seems a lot less lonely then."

"That's an interesting way to live. You must experience a lot of disappointment from that, then." Eichi watched as she picked tiny bits and pieces from his cake, mindful to still leave some for him. Her plate was still full though, only one or two bites that had been taken.

"Yeah. It's really trial and error. But I gotta suck it up and get over it cause I know I'll find others that care about me." Vivian hummed, locking her ankle with his as she cut her cake in half to give him some. Eichi knew he would be scolded harshly by his doctor, but seeing how enthusiastically Vivian shared her cake, he couldn't help but want to enjoy it as well.

He let silence fall for a few moments, savoring the taste of the cake and the warmth of her actions. Vivian leaned forward now, elbow on the table as she held her face up with her hand.

"You're a really nice person, Eichi. Others had told me different and they may be right, but in my eyes you're my best friend." Her voice was quiet and just so adoring, and Eichi felt his heart leap. "Not the heir to some... rich person thing, or someone who's widely known. My first impression of you was someone who could be my friend and make this place not so scary, and I was right."

Vivian's mouth hung open for a moment, as if she wanted to say more, but Eichi couldn't tell from the frustration on her face that she couldn't sort out all of her thoughts.

"I understand, Vivian." He kept his voice quiet like hers, matching her tone. He was almost speechless, and he felt a little sheepish under such adoration. In the back of his mind, Eichi wondered if this is how Wataru felt with him.

"Okay. I'm glad. Promise we'll be friends forever, okay? No matter what, we'll always be bestest friends forever, Eichi. I like you a lot."

Reaching her pinkie out, Vivian's leg tugged against his slightly, as if she wanted him closer. Eichi could only chuckle, nodding as he linked his pinke with hers. It was such a childish promise, yet it was charming.

"Of course, my Vivian. We'll always be best friends, alright?"

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[lovesosweeet]

better left unsaid // cth

chapter forty one

in which orion has leukemia, and calum doesn’t know.

calum hood x fem!oc

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november 21, 2018 san diego, california orion

I wake up at an excruciatingly early hour, incredibly achy and just feeling awful. I knew this would be part of letting my body ride out whatever leukemia has in store for me. That doesn’t mean that I feel any better about how awful I feel. 

It’s not even 5:00 yet. The alarm clock on my windowsill reads 4:48. 

I do what I seem to do best these days, grabbing my phone to scroll on Twitter more than I probably should. 

@ILoveCashton: anyone else feel like cashton is… gone? Idk how to explain it

@5SOSItalia: Replying to @ILoveCashton: no same! something is weird. 

@5SOSNo1: already missing tour! </3 but hope cal can get the time he needs to heal. we can all tell he needed a break by the end.

@5SOSFangirl: Replying to @5SOSNo1: 100%. Cal needs time to separate himself from her, for sure.

@OrixnSux: god i’m so glad they finally broke up @OrixnSux: anyone could see how awful she was @OrixnSux: i met her in the pit at a show once and she was SO entitled. thankfully cal is finally away from her. excited to have our man back!

@CalGirl2011: Let’s cheer @Calum5SOS up! Reply to this using #SmilesforCal and show him how many of us are here for him! 103 Replies

@5SOSFan14672: Oh my god Cal and Luke’s version of Yellow has me on the FLOOR!!!!!!! SOBBING!!!!!

@CashtonGirlie: Replying to: @5SOSFan14672: FUCK THIS HURTS @MikeyPizza4: Replying to: @5SOSFan14672: he deserves the whole damn world

@CalumStan: hate seeing how sad cal is. It hurts seeing someone so special look so hurt.

@ILoveCalumHood5: cal deserves the world. RT if you agree! @ILoveCalumHood5: ori*n deserves to rot in hell. RT if you agree!

@CorionFan: i still can’t wrap my head around the breakup @CorionFan: do we actually have confirmation or is this all just a speculation of sad shit from cal?

@5SOSUSA: Replying to @CorionFan: no we have confirmation. someone asked orion in person and she confirmed.      @CorionFan: Replying to @5SOSUSA: damn. :( 

@5SOSUSA: haven’t ever seen cal this sad. If you see this @Calum5SOS, we love you!!!

The Tweets and the photos posted from onstage and the clips of Calum being silent in interviews all send me into a spiral. I break down and fall into a weird, exhausted, in-between state of crying, sleeping, and crying again. My dreams aren’t restful. It’s always an unrelenting torture session of seeing Calum torn apart again and again by my news. I wonder when the last time I actually had a good night’s sleep was, and guess that it was probably before I broke up with Calum. Long before it.

When Emelia walks into my room around 8:00, I’ve been up for a few minutes and am already crying again. She comes to my bedside, perching on the carpet in front of me with worry written all over her face. 

“What’s up, babe?” She asks. I know that she knows the answer without me saying anything.

“Em,” I whimper. “I... I miss him so much.”

Emelia nods an reaches out to rub small circles into my side. “I know, O.”

“I can’t reach out, though.”

She sighs and looks at me with worry. “Orion, I swear, he’ll answer you.”

I want to believe she’s right, but our last few interactions have me doubting everything about my relationship with Calum. Actually, I can’t say that. I don’t doubt the strength of our relationship a few months ago, it’s just that whatever we’ve been since then is hazy and blurry and the bounds are unintelligible. I know nothing has changed for me, but I don’t know the extent of how things have changed. 

I grab the box of tissues on my nightstand to blow my nose, which is all runny and gross from crying so much. As I blow my nose, I look down at the tissues and groan as blood starts to soak them. Of course my nose would bleed now. Through teary eyes and with fresh tissues shoved up my nostrils, I look at Em, feeling helpless and tired and awful.

“I don’t know how to do this, Em. I don’t know how to get out of bed or eat or fucking breathe anymore. Everything is broken, and I’m the one who broke it.” 

The pity on Emelia’s face makes me unable to look at her. She’s on the brink of tears too. 

“It’s gonna be okay,” she quietly says. She’s trying to be soothing, but it’s not working.

“It’s not, though! I’m going to die! It’s not going to get better, Em. This is it. Nosebleeds and crying in bed and not being able to eat… this is my life.” 

I look back at Emelia and she’s now crying along with me. I hate to do this to her, but I can’t do anything else right now.

“I fucked up my life. I’m fucking up your life. I fucked up Cal’s life. I fucked up Ashton’s life and Mike’s and Luke’s and my moms’ and Eri’s and—“

“You’re not fucking up our lives! Sure, you made a mistake — with good reason — with Calum, but you are not at fault for having cancer, O. It’s not your fault.” 

I look at her, tears blocking almost all of my vision. “Ash and Cal aren’t even speaking!”

“That’s not your fault!”

“Yes! It is! I ruined them. I ruined everything, Em. I…” 

I know what I want to say, but I trail off, not wanting Emelia to have to hear it. 

I deserve to die.

Michael’s texts may have hurt to read, but I now think he was far more accurate than anyone else has been. Karma has come around for me. 

Emelia gets in bed next to me and hugs me tightly. “You didn’t ruin everything. We all still love you just the same.” 

Do they? Does Calum? I hate to think it, but he’s really the only one that’s at the front of my brain. He's the only one that really matters.

“I don’t know, Em. I feel so… lost. I used to think I was a good person, but I don’t know if I am anymore.”

Emelia is still crying next to me, and it sends a pang to my chest to know I am making her cry right now, or at all. “You’re still the best person I know.” She sniffles and hugs me even closer. 

We cry together for a while and I feel like my head is pounding. The inevitable sickness is kicking my ass today. 

“Can you get me some Nyquil? I think I need to nap.”

Emelia nods and wipes under her eyes. “Sure, I’ll be right back.” 

Emelia gets up and leaves the room, coming back a few moments later with the bottle of green liquid in hand. She wordlessly opens it and pours me a dose of it, handing it to me for me to gulp it down. She hands me my water so I can wash out the taste. 

We’re both still crying.

“I’ll let you take a nap, okay? I’m just down the hall in the guest room if you need me.” 

She doesn’t wait for me to respond before she leaves. We both need to be alone. I hear her cry quietly as she walks to the guest room and shuts the door behind her. I don’t think she knows that I can still hear her, because what she does next breaks my already shattered heart even more. 

“Ash?” She asks quietly, sobs making her voice wobbly. “Hey, I just… fuck. Everything is so bad. I don’t know what to do!”

I do my best to block it out, not wanting to hear her private venting session with Ashton. I turn on white noise and put a pillow over my head, flipping over to face away from the light and closing my eyes. I do want to sleep, and my body knows that’s what I need.

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[absolute-flaming-trash]

Hii, this is not an ask for a fic or anything like that (more like asking for your personal opinion as the Mahito specialist)

After reading your Two is a Crowd, I wanted to ask what do you think would be Mahito's reaction if the baby was completely human? And do you think he would be a decent father or he would like... Kill the baby by accident in 5 minutes?

It's ok if the topic is unconfortable or anything like that, I was just really curious and wanted to know what you think

Hope you have a great day <3

Okay first of all I hoarded this like a little gremlin because I get warm fuzzy feelings when I get asks like this. I also deeply appreciate you being considerate on what I'm comfortable talking about, so you're an immediate gem in my book for that.

I also do not mind talking about previous fics of mine, I welcome it at any time!

In regards to your questions, I've thought about Mahito being a parent more times than I'd consider healthy and I've always come to the same conclusion.

He wouldn't be good but he wouldn't be horrendous.

At the end of the day he's a curse. Mahito is not going to dote on any kids of his like they're the most precious thing in the world, but he would be absolutely fascinated - and in a way that would extend into "care".

Would he kill or mutilate them? No. Either intentionally or by accident, because I almost always write him as a yandere, he is always going to have a softer spot for his darling to some degree; and while their reactions are always fun to see and exploit, he'd see kids as an extention of them as well as himself rather than individual beings to toy with.

That does not mean that touching their souls is off the table though, he is absolutely going to do that - I have zero doubts in my mind there. It's just a matter of degree and what he can get away with.

Going onto his reaction to his darling having a fully human child, I sincerely doubt that would ever be possible based on genetics alone, but IF by some miracle (or true misfortune in this case) that ever happened, it would not be end very well.

He'd be disappointed for one, ending up with such a boring result. Interesting that that happened, yes, but there isn't anything he can really DO with that.

I'm unsure whether or not Mahito would accuse his darling of cheating, which is just... a whole other can of worms, but it would be a reasonable conclusion. He is a curse, they're not, and he's far from stupid.

I do think it would also drastically increase the chances of him messing with the soul of said child in some way to try and understand them. Again, killing them or mutilating them would be a no, but he'd be far more "hands on" for lack of better words. If he could make them part curse, then he would.

#riri answers #lovely nonny #Mahito #fic talk #character analysis #tw yandere #tw children

[lupicalled]

the hairbrush works smoothly through silky, freshly-conditioned silver locks, ex-knight having long since washed away dirt and picked the twigs and leaves from razor's hair and simply indulging in the act of grooming. as razor grows up, makes new friends and hones his survival skills in the wild, diluc feels as if he's seeing less and less of him--to help him integrate into society to the extent that he's comfortable, to see him thriving and loved and cared for was always the end goal of taking him in, but he hadn't expected the bittersweet ache of missing him even when he hasn't really gone anywhere.

but he can be content with these moments, the increasingly rare occasions when the two of them can simply sit and enjoy each other's company, if it means giving the young wolf room to grow and learn in his own right. hairbrush set aside, diluc begins to weave his fingers through razor's hair, carefully separating it into strands that he starts to manipulate into a loose braid.

" ...you're a good kid, razor, " dawn admits rather suddenly, leaning forward to press his nose into razor's crown, nuzzling him gently like his lupical might show affection. his voice is a bit morose, but certainly not without its sincerity, " i'm very proud of you, and i always will be. don't ever forget that. "

despite his usual silence and avoidance of humanity, razor was, at his core, a very tactile person. grooming was how he communicated with his lupical, the family not like him. he could understand them to some degree, not with human words but actions and sounds, but it always came back to touch. licking, nipping, bathing, even the way the pack slept together all held meaning. touching humans was different, it was hard to know exactly what a certain touch might mean. but he knows this.

diluc has always seemed to understand this, understand him in a way most other humans didn't. he's learned over time spent with the man, that it came from their general disposition; a desire for comfort with oneself, but also an innate need for connection. he's always found it hard to express himself with words, thankfully diluc required none of him. teacher was wonderful, kind and smart and pushed him to explore new things. but diluc? diluc nurtured the parts of razor that he couldn't change, and never made him feel bad for it. it's why he comes back. like a dog returning to the place it knows is home, time apart vanishes when he returns. diluc doesn't pry what he's gotten in to, where he went - razor will tell him, he doesn't mind. but he knows diluc doesn't expect it. wolfkin knows to expect a warm meal, a warmer bed, and a unique bonding he hasn't found elsewhere. 

he could fall asleep like this, which is unlike a boy raised in the wilderness, always keeping one eye open. but diluc's hands are warm, the brush melodic almost. he feels safe. red eyes slot open when diluc speaks. 

"proud," razor parrots, as he often does when trying to make sense of words he's heard. he's not sure what prompted diluc to tell him this, now of all times, but he likes how the word makes him feel. he doubts it would feel the same if someone else said it - it makes him feel warm because it is diluc who does, "i carry name, now," he turns to look at diluc behind him, hand curled with thumb out, so he can point it back at himself, "i am ragnvindr. i will always make proud, so i know i deserve it." // @piercingdarke

#( answered. ) #piercingdarke #bet you thot i forgot #i didn't bitch #father son time thank you

[pommunist]

i hope i dont sound like i am immediately picking apart what you said because i basically agree with 99% of it i just wanted to add a couple of thoughts i had (this got so much longer than i intended i am so sorry)

I don’t like how he said to be mindful about the intentions of people who raised the question, because a lot of them had genuine concern about it being a possibility and this could have been a very serious and dangerous thing if it had been true.

i fully agree with what you said here - however i feel like the death threats/harassment he was getting kinda justifies what he was saying to an extent. in his position, i doubt he is looking at each and every account to figure out whether the individual was coming from a place of concern or was adding onto the harassment. i don't think outright dismissing things like this is a good idea so to speak, but to me it does make sense, from his pov, to tell people to be mindful. many of those people were coming from a place of concern, but i can see how some of it could have came off as less than such in addition to the threats he was getting even though they were mostly separate situations. if this hadn't been the case it would have rubbed me more in the wrong way, but i can understand why he would say it in this scenario even if its like :/.

however this is something i would encourage of everyone - he is not wrong to basically be saying check the source of where you are getting your information from. i would say 90% of the people talking about it were acting in good faith, but that is not always the case, and people acting in bad faith can still have good points that should be taken seriously. it is just something that i think everyone should take note of - in any situation everyone is going to have bias and if you're going to take someones words as fact you should recognize that. that goes for quackity's words too. he is obviously biased in one way in this situation which doesnt mean he is lying in every word he says, but take that into account when looking at what he says. same goes for the admins who speak out you know?

And great that he’s saying that there has been some restructuring made within the team, and hopefully these changes will only leave the studios with competent people who are good intentioned towards everyone involved. I won’t like though, I fail to see how asking for everyone’s feedback and taking it into account to make these changes wasn’t an option. Also the fact that this restructuring ended up causing them to massively letting go of all the twitter teams as well as some other admins is still an issue.

this is a double edged sword imo - im gonna take it in two parts. he says that the restructuring is good and full of people who are good intentioned, but there really is no way to know that? i am under the assumption that he thought the first set of people were good and they weren't, and im not saying we can't trust these people/his judgement, but there truly is no way to know until things progress. id like to trust that the new management is good, but im wary just because of everything and it is hard to put trust into the new managment without seeing anything come out of it. i know these things take time, but its hard to blindly trust that these guys are good when there is nothing to prove it.

on the twitter admins/other admins, as much as i do not agree with it, it does make sense. it sucks and i hate that it happened, but it was pretty clear that financially keeping the same amount of admins on the team wasn't going to work. removing the twitter admins seems like a logical choice (i loved what they did. i wish they weren't removed. but in the grand scheme of things it does make sense to let them go first because even if it sucks the life and some of the fun out of it, their jobs were not essential to keeping the server running) but the way it was gone about was so... not it. the way they were all informed of how they were fired was just not good. point blank not good. i dont know if there was a way to keep them on while being able to pay them, im inclined to believe at the moment he probably wasn't lying and there wasn't, but it doesnt change the fact that that situation was not handled well. they could have let them go with more communication to the situation. thats what bothers me the most.

Meanwhile people will discuss these topics that are so far removed from the main issue and focus less on what the admins went through.

THIS!!! i do understand why people have brought talks about lore and stuff into this conversation - it highlights what the admins went through using tangible examples lol, but part of me wishes they hadn't because exactly as you said. people focus on these issues and not the other ones! it happened at the start of this too, where people focus on the lore/story related problems (which isn't a wrong thing to point out) but in doing so kinda push away the other issues even if that isnt the intent. sharing these stories was not to complain about pushing x creators lore to the front and holding y creator's back but to highlight some of the conditions and i wish that didn't get misconstrued as much as i feel like it has.

Hey anon ! sorry if i took so long to answer but I’ve wanted to take the time to answer everyone of your point !

-I can also see where he was coming from, and I also don’t doubt that there were bad intentioned people in the lot (thinking of a particular group of people, i think you can guess who 🟩). It’s just that it paints people who have genuine criticism/concern as just being haters, and it’s not the first time he used the "things said by people with bad intentions" point so I’m kinda over it

-YES to everything you said about researching information !!!! Jumping to conclusions or blindly believing any piece of info you see is literally doing for harm than good for anyone involved, always always try to find sources source, fact check and look from an unbiased POV the things you see. Will never forget when the union released their first statement and I saw people either saying that they were a fake account trying to smear the reputation project or that quackity was going to jail, I was like « oh my, we are cooked » 😭

-Also agree with your next point, but as you said we don’t know who these people are (and I don’t necessarily think we should know btw), so we can only hope that they will be competent and caring people who will run the studio in accordance with the law and with better work ethics.

-On the twitter admins getting fired well first we can agree that the way it was done is fucked up. And I understand the difficulty of the financial aspect (to an extent, don’t ask me details about finance, idk shit about money numbers lmao), but it’s giving « Your work was very needed and appreciated while it was free, but now that we may have to pay you we can actually do without it, bye guys ». Especially ehhhh about it since multiple Twitter admins have expressed that getting paid wasn’t an issue, the working conditions were. Though to be fair idk exactly how volunteer work is regulated in every country the admins were from so this may have played a part in their firing.

-And finally yes, the distracting from what matters. Like fans can discuss whatever they want obviously, my argument is more about Q here, like dude are you really sure the main point of contention here is to debate whether or not you were overly interfering in other ccs lore ??? Don’t get me wrong, great that you’re saying it wasn’t the case but the main point of everything was missed by a mile.

Also don’t worry your ask didnt came across as you picking apart what I had said but even if it was, as long as you’re not rude i dont mind people coming to my askbox like « tumblr user pommunist you are wrong about everything and let me tell you why »

#qadmins situation