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ridiculoser06 · 6 months
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Beatrice Baudelaire (Hcs)
• Baudelaire was her name before marriage.
•Her and Bertrand never had a wedding as they technically got married on an island, they just done the paperwork when they came home.
•straight but has “bi-husband” energy™️
•Romanian/American. (Mum was 1st gen romanian immigrant to America, dad was American)
•Trilingual; English, Italian and Romanian
•Would die for Monty (he’s a December boy so was the youngest in their year group in school.)
•Was briefly an actress, Co founder of Prufrock Prepatory School Drama Club (ft Count Olaf- also Co founder, Jacques Snicket and Larry Your-waiter)
•Her, Kit and Esme used to have really girly sleepovers. Bea rlly missed them after the schism.
• Ballet dancer (briefly)
•Very shaky hands, can’t paint her nails to save her life.
•cries when she sings, sings when she cries.
•favourite Disney film is lady and the tramp.
•loved a Sunday dinner, went to a pub in England and had steak pie once and thinks about it every day.
•Has known Olaf’s family since they were young, regarded each other as sort of cousins.
•prefers necklaces and earrings to any other jewellery.
•Does all her own stunts (sometimes cartwheels because she feels like it/ will just do a handstand if you ask her to, no questions asked)
•climbs mountains for fun.
•prefers rocky beaches. Collects sea glass.
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etherealwaifgoddess · 4 years
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Run To You - Chpt.2
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Summary: Steve calls Bucky to tell him he was right and the two get to know each other a little more. Still drawn to one another, the guys go out on their first date. Master list is HERE :)
Content Warning: mention of past child neglect/ abuse in regards to how Bucky lost his arm. It’s only a couple paragraphs but it’s depressing AF. 
Word Count: 3.3k
Author’s Note: Hello lovelies! There is a smidge of angst in this chapter and I had never really intended for it go that direction. Damn characters not behaving the way I want them to! I apologize in advance for giving you some sad feels on this one, I got myself with them too. But hopefully there’s enough fluffiness to balance it out. XOXO - Ash
Chapter Two
Becca sleeps the day away but it’s a restless fever ridden sleep with her waking up every few hours to cry that her stomach hurts. Bucky manages to catch cat naps while she sleeps but they’re both exhausted by the time the day is over. He manages to get some fluids in her once she’s fully woken up and she keeps most of it down, much to Bucky’s relief. He hates seeing his baby girl sick and is thankful for his medical training, so that he knows what to expect and look out for. It’s just past seven o’clock at night and while they would normally be doing Becca’s bath time routine, he doesn’t have the heart to disrupt her. She finally drank the rest of her Pedialyte and is half watching an episode of Wonder Pets while her eyes droop sleepily. He waits until her eyes stay shut for a few minutes before awkwardly scooping up the little girl to carry her off to bed. He doesn’t have a free hand to turn off the TV, having taken off his prosthetic the second he got back from the bodega, but figures he needs to go back out to clean things up for the night anyways. 
“Bucky?” Becca slurs sleepily as he lays her down in her bed. 
“Yeah, Becs?” He pulls up her comforter, getting it tucked tightly around her body like she prefers. 
“Love you.” she half says, half yawns. 
Bucky fights back the tears that prickle in the corner of his eyes. “Love you too, bug. Get some rest.”
Becca gives a little nod and then sprawls out into her usual sleeping position. 
Bucky shuts off her lamp and closes the door, leaving it open just a crack in case she needs him in the night. She seems to be getting to the otherside of whatever virus she’d caught but he knows it isn’t always a sure thing. He hopes he’ll only have to miss one day of work staying home with her but knows it’ll most likely be two.
There isn’t too much of a mess to clean up but Bucky busies himself with turning off the TV and clearing the coffee table. He’s washing the dishes and debating his dinner options when his phone buzzes angrily in his back pocket. Drying off his hand, he pulls out his phone and sees Steve’s name on the screen. Bucky swipes to accept the call and nestles the phone between his shoulder and jaw. “Hey, Steve.” 
“Bucky, hey.” Steve replies eagerly. “So I’ve spent the last six hours doing nothing but reading history articles and I gotta say, you were right.” 
Bucky smiles as he rifles through his cabinets for something to eat, “I suspected as much. How far off is it? Out of curiosity.” 
Steve sighs heavily through his nose and Bucky wondered how exasperated the other man must look. “It’s pretty fuckin’ terrible.” he finally admits.
Bucky laughs, “Wow, you really do know how to curse!” 
“Yeah, yeah, laugh it up, ya jerk. It was just… surprising, I guess, to see how much these so-called experts missed. Don’t get me wrong, I know some people had it okay and some people had it a lot worse, but the way they make the whole thing feel so… sterile... I don’t know. They don’t seem to capture the feel of the times. Like yes we had food rations, but they don’t tell you how small those rations were. And how even if you got your stamps you might not be able to find the food you had a stamp for. My mother had to go all the way to Queens one time just to buy eggs so we’d have something with protein to eat.”
“That sounds terrible, I can’t even imagine.” Bucky juggles the phone carefully as he pulls down a tin of tuna. 
“We made it, somehow. And it wasn’t all terrible all the time, but it was a sight worse than they make it out to be. It’s like that now too, isn’t it? The world isn’t quite as progressive as people like to think it is?” 
Bucky pauses, trying to sort out his words. “It is and it isn’t. I think my experience is a little different than most but it’s definitely not the rainbows and goodwill that they say it is.” 
Steve’s voice is low and rich like good bourbon pouring across the phone lines. “Tell me what it’s like for you, then.” 
Bucky stills, shocked by the raw earnestness of Steve’s words. There’s an undercurrent too, like something whispered in a lover’s ear in the dead of night. It stirs things inside Bucky that he hasn’t had the time or inclination for in a really long time. Figuring he should reciprocate the honesty Steve has afforded him so far, Bucky hops up to sit on the kitchen counter and gets himself comfortable to tell his story. “Well, I grew up in a little backwater town in Indiana. The biggest export of our town was meth and most everyone was affected by that. People used religion like a weapon and thought The Republican Way was gospel. I didn’t fit in to any of that from day one and it made growing up there hard.” 
“What were you like as a kid?” Steve asks, curious.
“I was pretty much everything that town wasn’t. My parents weren’t really able to take care of me so I figured out early on how to care for myself. I was angry a lot because of that once I got older. I didn’t really try to fit in. I studied hard, worried about getting good grades so I could earn scholarships to a decent college and get out of there. I didn’t care much about religion and was fiercely liberal from the time I understood what politics were. And I’m queer, that didn’t help me fit in either. I, uh, I hope that doesn’t bother you.” Bucky falters, knowing Steve’s generation was a lot less forgiving about that sort of thing. 
“It doesn’t. I’m bi, actually. We did have homosexuality back in the thirties despite what the historians think.” 
“Holy shit.” Bucky blurts out. Captain America is bisexual. 
“It’s not something that comes up a lot, but I don’t hide it when asked. Somehow it never seems to make the news though.” 
“I think it would seriously fuck with some people’s world view if it did. That’s good, though. That you don’t have to hide it. It’s one of those things that isn’t quite like the news reports it. Sure, things are a hell of a lot better now for queer folk, but we still get bullied, discriminated against, sometimes even killed.” Despite himself, Bucky yawns deeply. He’s beyond tired but unwilling to hang up. 
“You sound exhausted.” Steve notes, “I should let you go.”
“No, it’s okay. I just had a long night followed by a long day. I’ll crash soon and hopefully Becca sleeps in tomorrow.” 
“Becca is your… daughter?” 
“My sister, actually. I adopted her when she was born. She feels like she’s mine but I never wanted to hide that fact that I’m her brother, not her dad. I don’t want her growing up not knowing who she really is.”
“You’re pretty amazing, Buck.” And Steve means every weighted word of it. 
Bucky shakes his head, almost dislodging his phone in the process. “Just got lucky enough to make a better life for myself, and her. That’s all.” 
“I think there’s a lot more to it than that, but okay. Really though, I should let you go. We can talk another day? Maybe grab that lunch together?” 
“Yeah, definitely. My schedule is a little crazy but I have off rotation in a few days, we could go out Thursday while Becca’s at preschool?”
“It’s a date. I’ll text you later this week so we can figure out the where and when.” 
“Sounds like a plan. Night, Steve.” 
The warm smile on Steve’s face practically shines through the phone line, “Night, Buck.” 
Bucky hangs up and stares around his tiny apartment in amazement. If you had told him a week ago that he was going to insult Captain America to his face and end up befriending him, he would have called you crazy. It’s a little odd having to separate the public persona he knows as Captain America, from Steve, the real guy under the cowl, but Bucky is looking forward to getting to know the real him better. 
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“The best pizza in Brooklyn, huh?” Steve questions, squinting up at the shop’s sign. 
Bucky nods enthusiastically. “Definitely. They still use the old fashioned brick ovens and homemade sauce. Fresh herbs, locally sourced cheese. It sounds fancy but it’s really just good, old school, pizza.” 
“We’ll see. Sam recently introduced me to the concept of a dollar slice, and I think anything will be better than that.” 
“Oh man, yeah. Some places are decent, but most are shit.”
Bucky and Steve order a large pie to share, picking a small table in the back to sit at. Steve is amused when he spots a cooler with real glass bottles of soda and grabs one for each of them. Bucky smiles when he sees the bottles, able to guess Steve’s amusement at seeing something familiar. 
The pizza is up before they know it and Steve is moaning at the first bite. “Sorry.” he mumbles around his mouthful of gooey cheese. “It’s really good.” 
Bucky swallows quickly so he can respond, “Told ya.” 
Steve nods, properly contrite. “You did. Thanks for bringing me here.” 
“Any time.” Bucky smiles over at him and wonders what it would be like if they were out on a real date. One that ended with Steve walking him home and kissing him goodnight. He tries to shake the fantastical idea from his mind but it lingers, coming to the surface whenever Steve looks at him a little longer than most would find polite. 
They’re quiet through Steve’s first two slices, Bucky finishing his first as Steve goes for a third. Bucky has a healthy appetite but Steve is something else. “Super soldier, sorry.” Steve tells him with a shrug when he sees Bucky eyeing up his plate.
“No judgement here. Everyone’s gotta eat.” Bucky assures him. 
Steve slows down enough to make conversation after a little while, asking Bucky questions about his job and Becca. Steve is infinitely impressed with Bucky’s job as an ER nurse considering his mother had been a nurse and he knows first hand what a toll that profession can take on people. 
Bucky catches Steve glancing at his sleek metal prosthetic but the blonde is too polite to bring it up. “You can ask, you know. Most people just make assumptions about it, none of which are even close to the truth.”
“I’m sorry,” Steve apologizes, “I didn’t want to be rude.” 
“You’re not. It’s not my favorite topic but I’m better talking about it now. Go ahead, ask.”
Steve hesitates but trusts Bucky to know his own mind. “Okay, then. Bucky, how did you lose your arm?” 
Bucky takes a steadying breath and dives into the polite for public version of how he lost his left arm. His parents took him to the lake one summer when he was six, he’d begged for months and they finally agreed to drive out to spend a day there. He got a scratch on his arm and it got infected from the lake water. His parents weren’t too great on the whole “parenting” thing and didn’t notice when it got infected until he collapsed. At that point the arm was too far gone and the doctors had amputated it just above the elbow. 
What Bucky leaves out is that the scratch had actually been a gash and he’d gotten a beating for being careless before they headed for home. Sitting sorely in the backseat the whole bumpy ride home, using his own tshirt to wrap around his arm to help slow the bleeding. It was his transformers tshirt and it had been his favorite. Bucky leaves out the week of agonizing pain as the gash got worse, the infection burning and itching horribly until he couldn’t handle it anymore. Both of his parents were too strung out to notice and he’d tried, the best he could at that age, to put band-aids on it but then he caught another beating for using up all the band-aids. Bucky doesn’t tell Steve that the days he spent in the hospital were some of the best he could remember back then. The nurses were nice and brought him hot food three times a day. On Friday an ice cream cart came around. There were books he could read and other kids he could play with. When it was time for him to go home, he’d cried the entire way. 
Bucky notices Steve is staring at him expectantly and realizes he's gone silent, lost in the less than pleasant memories. “Sorry, it was a long time ago.” he clears his throat, pushing past the ugly memories and moving on, “I got this bad boy through a grant from a children’s hospital when I was fifteen. It was strange having two arms at first. Up until that point I’d spent most of my life with just the one. It was after that hospital stint that I decided on nursing. The nurses who cared for me during both of my hospital stays were just amazing. They took what could have been really scary experiences and made them into something good. I wanted to be able to do that for someone else, someday.” 
“Nurses are definitely superheroes.” Steve acknowledges. “My ma worked in the TB ward when I was a kid. She just had this way about her that she could spin any negative life threw at her into a positive. She was incredible. And I wasn’t an easy kid by any means.”
“Yeah, I heard something about that in the history books. Something about you being a feisty little shit always getting himself in trouble.” Bucky smirks, waiting for Steve to dispute it.
“It wasn’t quite as bad as they say it was. I only broke up a handful of fights over the years and always bullies who deserved it. I was as sick as they claimed though. The medical records were all real and my poor ma worked herself to the bone just trying to keep my lungs and heart going.”
“I feel for her. Even with medical training, it’s awful watching your kid get sick. Becca has some issues, she was born premature, and even though I know exactly what’s an annoyance versus a true issue, it’s still so hard watching her struggle.” 
Steve’s expression falls, “I’m so sorry, Buck.” He reaches out across the table on impulse and grasps Bucky’s hand in his. “What, uh... if you don’t mind me asking, what issues does she have? You’ve seen my list and part of that was from being a preemie myself. It’s not like mine, is it?” 
Bucky wants to melt through the booth into a puddle at the warm heavy contact of Steve’s hand over his. “No, not quite so bad. Her immune system isn’t the greatest, she has asthma that we have relatively under control, a heart murmur that the docs still think will close as she gets older, she’s anemic but has meds for it, and she’s never quite been out of the danger zone on the growth chart. She’s just a tiny little thing, but she's the cutest little girl you’ll ever lay eyes on.”  
“I have no doubt. She’s really lucky he has you.” 
They’re quiet for a moment, nothing to fill the silence but Steve’s thumb rubbing rhythmically over the ridges of Bucky’s knuckles. “Sorry, I didn’t exactly pick the happiest first date topics, did I?” Steve forces a painfully awkward laugh, taking back his hand as he tries to think of a less serious topic for them.
“First date, huh?” Bucky grins despite himself. 
Steve blushes from the tips of his ears down past his collar and Bucky wonders just how far down that blush goes. “It doesn’t have to be. Unless you want it to be one. I had a really great time, regardless. I don’t get out mu-”
“Steve!” Bucky cuts him off, waving his hand in surrender. “Breathe a minute so I can answer.” he pauses and Steve takes a slightly dramatic breath, shooting Bucky a wry smile. “There we go. I had a really great time too. And yes, I’d like it if this was a date. And if there are more dates following this one.” 
“Oh,” Steve is rendered speechless by the warmth blossoming in his chest. “That would be swell.” 
“Swell? Really?” Bucky laughs in disbelief. 
Steve’s blush flares to life again. “Sorry, sorry. Old man word, I know. What are the kids using these days? Nifty?” 
Bucky groans, “Cool, Steve. Just stick with cool.” 
“Okay, cool.” Steve sasses playfully. 
Bucky rolls his eyes before checking his watch. It’s almost time to go get Becca, they had spent two hours talking and it still feels like not enough time. “Shit. I gotta head out for Becca. Preschool lets out at three.” 
“Not a problem, I’d say I’m sorry for keeping you so long but I really enjoyed myself.” Steve snatches the paper slip with their bill on it and hurries over to the counter to pay. “You were right, so lunch is on me.” he insists.
“That’ll teach you not to bet against me, huh?” Bucky quips.
“I don’t know. This worked out pretty well for me. I learned a lot of new stuff, broadened my perspective on some things, went out with a cute guy, ate the best pizza in Brooklyn, and it sounds like I’ll get to go out with that cute guy again. I think this turned out pretty good.” 
Bucky laughs and gives him a playful shove as they leave the pizza shop together. They pause along the brick wall of the shop, neither man wanting to part ways just yet. “I don’t have off rotation for another three days but I’d like to see you again.” Bucky says, toying with the hem of his shirt. He feels like a damn teenager again. 
“Whenever you want, Bucky. My schedule is flexible unless I get called away for a long mission. I’ll take whatever time you’re willing to share with me.” Steve doesn’t want to push, but he’s willing to do whatever he needs to in order to see Bucky again. 
“I appreciate that. I know my schedule isn’t traditional but it’s my life for right now.” 
“And that’s okay.” Steve assures him, though he looks pretty nervous suddenly. He clears his throat twice before he finally asks, “Would it be too fast if I asked to kiss you right now?” 
Bucky’s pupils flare at the question, his reaction answering Steve before his voice does. “Not at all.” he murmurs moving closer to Steve.
Steve’s lips are a breath away from Bucky’s as he whispers “Oh good” and takes the kiss that Bucky so freely gives. Steve fights for composure, they’re on a public sidewalk for heaven’s sake. Bucky’s mouth slots against his like missing puzzle pieces, both warm and insistent as the kiss deepens. 
Steve kisses like he’s drowning and Bucky is reeling to keep up. How something so innocent turned so quickly is beyond comprehension but Bucky doesn’t want it to stop. The alarm on his phone reminding him it’s pick up time for Becca ends things quickly though. “I’ve gotta get Becca. Like, now.” he breathes raggedly against Steve’s mouth. 
“Okay. Okay.” Steve repeats like he’s convincing himself. “To be continued?” 
“To be continued.” Bucky agrees, leaning in for one last quick peck and then heading off to go pick up Becca.
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ivybucky · 4 years
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cookies and cable-knit sweaters (s.r.)
prompt: baking christmas cookies puts you in the best mood
A/N: this is day 2 of 12 Days of Winter fics! Knives Out and chris evans in that sweater got me feeling all sorts of things and I thought it was the perfect plot for Steve fluff. Some of my best friends have never had snickerdoodles??? ridiculous 
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author: abby
words: 1395
pairing: steve rogers x reader
song i’m listening: winter song - leslie odom jr.
Cinnamon and sugar wafted through the air. 
The soft hum of your voice softly echoed down the hall, the melody of a slow rendition of ‘I’ll Be Home for Christmas” filling the moment went sound. Steve felt dragged down the hall to the kitchen like a cartoon smelling a freshly baked pie. 
In leggings, one of Steve’s sweatshirts you stole from the laundry, and apron, you swayed gently to the music playing in your head as you measured out cups of sugar. 
“Good morning, Y/N,” Steve hummed, taking in your relaxed appearance, marveling in the simple beauty of you. “What’s got you up so early, doll?” 
You flushed at the nickname and the rough, sleepy voice of America’s wonderboy. You turned towards him with a grin trying to mask your redness. You took in his disheveled look, blonde hair sticking up in directions it shouldn’t, loose sweats hanging low on his hips, and t-shirt sitting off on his broad shoulders. “It’s almost Christmas, so I thought I would make everyone some cookies.” 
Steve huffed out a lazy laugh. “At seven in the morning?” 
“Well, I’m making a lot,” you chuckled. “Lord knows you’ll eat one batch alone.”
Steve smiled sheepishly, leaning his back and hips on the counter next to where you were working, crossing his arms over chest. The t-shirt strained against his biceps, causing your eyes to flit down to the material before meeting his eyes again. “I’m sorry you make the best food in the world. I just can’t help but eat it all.” 
You giggled, “I’m just teasing, Steve.” You looked at him with soft eyes. “You know I’d make anything you’d want.” 
Steve growled, sending a shudder down your back. “Don’t tempt me, Y/N/N,” he chuckled. “What kind are you making right now?” 
Your grin widened as you looked back at the ingredients in front of you. “Snickerdoodles! They’re my favorite.”
Steve’s brows furrowed. “I don’t think I’ve ever had those,” he said, eliciting a gasp from you. 
“What?!” You stared at him in disbelief as he shoveled one of the countless sugar cookies already baked on the counter. A star shaped one with red sugar on it. “But they’re so good!”
Steve chuckled at your disappointed frown. “Maybe I can help you make them then,” he cleared his throat before stuttering. “That is if you want my help, doll.”
You blushed at the thought of spending the day with Steve doing your favorite activity. You smiled looking up at him, nodding. “Go get your apron on, Cap.” 
You chuckled as Steve smiled widely before jogging down the hallway to change clothes, sliding around the corner into his room in his socks. For an old man, he sure acted like a child.
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Adorned in a white cable-knit sweater, jeans, and some leather boots, Steve bumbled into the kitchen with a large smile on his face. He quickly made his way to the pantry, grabbing a red apron from a hook and not paying much attention as he looked at you. “What do you want me to do?” he questioned, pulling the apron over his neck before tying it around his waist. 
You couldn’t help but giggle at the sight standing before you. His flushed cheeks, eyes full of excitement, and an apron that read “kiss the cook.” Deciding not to mention it, you waved him over to your side. “So first we gotta beat the sugar and butter together, like this,” you motioned as you used an electric beater in the bowl in front of you. 
Steve watched with furrowed brows and a tight lipped frown in concentration as you smoothly walk him through the steps of making the snickerdoodles. The way your face lit up when giving him instructions. As he rolls cookie dough in cinnamon and sugar he ponders, “So how did you get so good at baking?”
You smiled softly, rolling dough alongside him. “My grandmother used to bake and cook every single day. After school, I would spend afternoons with her waiting for my mom to come back. It was always comforting to spend time baking with her. It just kinda became a habit to bake when I was feeling down or needed a pick me up ya know.”
Steve smiled, turning towards you and leaning his side against the counter. “It sounds like y’all were close. What made you wanna bake so much today? Something gotcha down, doll?” Worry clouded his voice.
“I don’t know,” you sighed, “I think this time of year always get me down and lonely, ya know? It’s hard getting through the holidays alone.”
“But you’re not alone, Y/N,” he put his hand on yours, stopping your movement. “I - the team,” he corrected himself. “We’re always gonna be here for you.”
“I know,” you gave his hand a squeeze. “I just wish I could share this holiday with someone other than family if that makes sense.” You looked at Steve, his mouth parted as if he was about to speak. A timer went off behind you, signaling that the batch in the oven was done. 
“Oh shit,” you whispered, wiping your sugar covered hands on your Christmas apron. 
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You and Steve continued to make your batch of cookies, your conversation not leaving Steve’s mind. You meant the world to him and knowing that you’d been feeling lonely when all he wanted was to be yours. 
You stuck your batch into oven, taking off your apron and hoping on the only empty space on the countertop, letting your feet dangle. Smiling wide at Steve, you grabbed a candy-cane shaped cookie with red sugar on it and shoved it in your mouth, just as he did before. You giggled when crumbs started falling in your lap. Steve chuckled, pointing towards your mouth. “You uh- you got a little something there.”
The back of your hand, moved to brush off the crumbs, missing entirely. “Did I get it?”
Steve grinned, “Haha no, let me get it.”
He moved to stand in front of you between your legs. You held your breath at his closeness as he swept his thumb over your bottom lip, gathering what crumbs were left there. He brought his thumb up to his mouth without hesitation, gently sucking the sugary taste off. His eyes met yours, noticing your blushed cheeks, and widened pupils. Nervously, he moved his hand to cup your cheek. You leaned in without hesitation.
“I know you feel alone right now, Y/N,” he said quietly, his thumb gently brushing your cheekbone. “But you don’t have to be.” He rested his forehead against yours. 
“Steve,” you whispered, breath entangling with his. “I’m about to listen to your apron.”
Confused, Steve pulled back just enough to look down at the white lettering on the front of his apron. Looking back up at you with realisation, you pulled him against you. His soft lips pressed against yours, tongue tasting yours. Sugary sweet, just like you. 
Your hands wound their way into his, pulling him impossibly close to you as his hands tightened around your waist. Steve fucking moaned against you, the feeling of you being too much to handle. Your lungs started to sting from the lack of air. You pulled back from Steve, his lips chasing yours, hungry for more. 
“Fuck,” he cussed in a whisper, leaning his forehead on your shoulder. “You have no idea how long I’ve been wanting to do that.” He laid a kiss on your neck, causing you to hum. 
“I think we can just agree we were both idiots for not doing that sooner,” you giggled breathlessly, fingers running through the hair on the nape of his neck. Suddenly, he sat up straight and looked you in the eye with determination. 
“Let me take you on a date,” he practically demanded. You laughed. 
“What, like right now?”
“No, silly,” he rolled his eyes taking your hands in his. “We can wait for the cookies to finish baking and then I’ll take you out.”
You smiled, rested a hand on his neck. “I’d love nothing more.” 
His smile widened, nearly blinding you. He brought is hand up to your chin, pulling you into another long kiss. Wrapping your arms around his neck, you smiled into the kiss knowing you wouldn’t have to spend the holidays alone this year.
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loquaciousquark · 5 years
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Talks Machina Highlights - Critical Role C2E73 (Aug. 6, 2019)
Gooooooood evening good evening good evening all! @eponymous-rose is off packing for a cross-country move (as if THAT’S an excuse), so here I am isntead to lay waste to all you love. 
Tonight’s preroll: Sam’s costume from the liveshow getting dunked in acid.
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Tonight’s guests: Laura Bailey & Sam Riegel, in a fully human and normal tshirt and jeans. Everyone oohs and ahs over Laura’s adorable live show outfit; Sam waits eagerly for equal attention. And waits, and waits...
Tonight’s announcements: Huge thanks to everyone who came out to the live show in Indy last weekend (I was there! It was great!). Laura talks about everyone singing the theme on the intro. Sam sent his entire costume back with Dani so he wouldn’t get stopped in the airport. Poor Dani! Season 3 of Between the Sheets, featuring Amanda Palmer, is up for Twitch subs now and will be up on YT on Wednesday. CR is headed to Austin, TX, for a live show on Sept. 23! Everyone talks about how Doty will definitely, definitely be in this show: The Adventures of the Darrington Brigade, ft. the return of Sam as Taryon. Sam says he already has something in mind for his costume; everyone else will be playing new characters. Laura’s got an idea for a backup character for Jester, but BWF advises her not to use this for the live show since Jester will def be dead in less than 20 episodes. Go to critrole.com/events for more.
Episode 73: Uthodurn, which is not spelled at all like I thought
CR Stats! Nott dealt 124 damage this episode, only 23 of which was friendly fire. Sam: “You know, he just needs to get out of the fucking way.” Nott rolled her 50th nat 20, resulting in a 43 stealth check. Laura and Sam quietly talk about Sam’s tendency to touch everyone else’s dice as opposed to his “playing fairly.” Sam also laments he’s lost his dustbuster in the studio somewhere after the last bit. Jester is tied with Beau at 9 for the most HDYWTDTs. Jester also played her 50th prank this episode: creating the ballpeen hammer as an offering to the Allhammer.
Laura thinks part of Jester’s new anger in battle is part of losing Yasha, especially when she disappeared right in front of her and Jester wasn’t able to help her at all. “Jester mammoth-raged.” Laura raves about being a mammoth & talks about needing to work on her elephant noise. Both Laura and Sam fail miserably at making the noise.
Sam slowly drinks a shot. It’s... a thing.
We have a close-up of Sam’s nail polish, which was done for the live show. He doesn’t own nail polish remover, it turns out.
Nott will talk to Cad about the explosive arrow whenever Cad brings it up. First, Cad was invisible & therefore at fault because he couldn’t be seen; the second part of the blame goes to Laura Bailey, who leaned over and told Sam right before his turn he had to kill this thing right now. The explosive arrow was the best thing he had; Sam accepts one part of the blame for forgetting it would be fire. Sam & Laura agree the bolt should have had some thunder/force damage associated with it because of the concussive blast. (Hilariously, my father presented this precise argument to me with GREAT VIGOR right after this episode aired.)
Jester’s call to the Traveler was just in the heat of the moment. All of her power comes from him, so Jester calls out to him (and Laura thinks it cool) when she gets a big oomph. Sam wonders aloud if her powers genuinely come from the Traveler or not. Laura: “I mean...as far as she knows.” Sam’s also distracted that the question card had a straight-up name on it rather than a username.
Sam considers the outcome of the election a win, since he’s one of the bi-Presidents of D&D Beyond until further notice. “It doesn’t matter how you get there, as long as you get there.” Laura asks if he thinks about it being a hollow win when he goes to sleep. Sam: “Do I look like the kind of person to have thoughts as I’m falling asleep?”
Nott’s usage of the pistol’s single shot was pure pettiness. Sam thought Nott had a shot because she’s acrobatic & fast & has some tricks, and he just didn’t want Beau to win. Making loud noises & drawing attention didn’t even cross my mind.
Jester was very proud of Fjord making those strength checks, but she wasn’t surprised. “He’s very strong, even though he looks like he’s not.” Laura thinks it’s funny and poetic that Travis rolled so well after ditching his sword/powers.
Travis has three sets of dice. Liam has a bunch of sets, but they’re all red (says Laura, offended). Laura only used purple dice at the live show because of how she was dressed.
Cosplay of the Week: a great Scanlan cosplay with Ioun’s third eye by @cxptaingrayson.
Sam realizes something that’s been holding back the Nott-Fjord relationship is that Nott has always been a little suspicious of Fjord. Now that he’s “talking like a real weirdo” and is still brave, braver than before, she can trust him more.
Laura’s asked about Jester’s conflict between healing & DPS. Laura: “Do you think Jester asked to be a fucking healer?” When they were deciding their characters, Laura was originally going to be a warlock with the Traveler as her patron; then Travis was like, warlock! What a cool class! Can I have it? And Laura said sure, she’ll be a cleric, that sounds cool. “And now he got rid of his fucking patron! Who knows if he’s going to be a warlock anymore? What a waste of a warlock!” She likes being a cleric--but even from Jester’s very first inception she’s always been a healer who hates healing. Brian: “She’s a battle Mercy.” She’s not regretful she healed Beau; the reason Laura didn’t immediately heal her is that she thought from Matt’s face that the remorhaz was very close to death, closer than it actually was. She confirms Jester is Chaotic Neutral.
Brian tells Laura he texted Travis to tell him Laura accused him of stealing the warlock class. Laura: “YOU DID NOT!” Brian: “You said it on the air!!”
Travis, via text to BWF, apparently in all caps: “I WAS CHANGING RONIN. YES I STOLE WARLOCK.”
Nott’s teasing of a powerless Fjord is 100% just because she thinks it’s funny. Sam: “There’s not really a deep reason to it. They tease each other all the time. Why would that change just because he tossed his sword in the lava?”
Laura needs to do research on other animals she can become since she enjoyed the mammoth (and giant eagle) so much. Sam keeps a list of flying creatures Laura can turn into because Laura struggles looking it up and often keys it into her D&D Beyond app before she’s even started. BWF: “This is uncharacteristically unselfish.” Sam: “Well, Laura is--I love her. Laura is pure harp music and I would do anything for her.”
Their environments are just getting better and better for Nott in terms of how goblins are seen. She’s given up the mask now, but it’s nice to have people look and not scream.
Both Sam & Laura pause to fan over the design of Uthodurn. It’s way cooler than either the Empire or Dynasty to them right now.
Laura points out that Nott has been fairly outgoing lately; it’s been a while since anyone said “you’re a goblin, stone her!” She’s beginning to come out of her shell as she gets used to her body (not that she likes it in any way), but it’s a development from Veth’s original shyness. She’s also drunk a lot; Sam says this will continue until he gets more Laura Bailey speeches.
BWF still has Laura’s copy of Game of Thrones, which he borrowed in 2011. Laura doesn’t listen to books on tape because she likes the inflections in her own head.
Fanart of the Week: a cool grouping of portraits of the M9 by @dylanbydoodles.
They apparently threw an election party after the D&D Beyond President reveal. Sam talks about convincing the Lyft driver on the way back that it was a swinger’s party in the most ridiculous way possible. Poor Indianapolis.
Nott & Veth’s relationship is getting very complicated. Sam says they’re beginning to blend a little together, but he’s now coming to realize there’s a part of Nott deep down that is deeply scared of going back to Veth & losing her rogue abilities, her adventuring; she wants to be herself again for sure, since her body is definitely wrong, but she’s beginning to fear the loss of some of what Nott is now.
BWF sincerely thanks Sam for the effort and thought he puts into his character. Sam sincerely thanks him. It’s a lovely moment.
Jester’s slip about Fjord’s powers was deliberate on Laura’s part but accidental on Jester’s. Everyone’s a little worried about Fjord without powers, even though he proved himself in the remorhaz fight. She thinks the slipup happened because Jester wasn’t on guard--because Fjord had done so well in the fight, she’d forgotten.
So far, Nott’s choice to leave the family behind in Nicodranus is worth it; no one’s died and they’re making headway on their goals.
BWF: “The Mighty Nein: no one’s died-ish.”
Apparently Matt owns the building they’re filming in? I missed part of this and genuinely can’t tell if it’s a joke.
BWF talks about how Liam, Matt, & Travis have all been genuinely mad at him before. Matt and Travis were mad; Liam was just disappointed.
How did Sam lose the election? He doesn’t think it’s because of him or anything he did. He thinks there’s a demographic shift in America; the electoral college hurt him; both he and Liam ran the campaigns they wanted. Liam’s was serious issues & serious passion, while Sam farted around for three months. BWF asked Adam Bradford at D&D Beyond, who’s the General Manager, about the results; apparently the pie chart was VASTLY in favor of Liam with only the tiniest sliver for Sam. Laura thinks it’s because Sam’s done nothing but troll Sam for five years and this was their chance to troll him back. Sam: “To that I say: good job.”
Dani & Max both voted for Sam. Laura didn’t vote. BWF voted for Liam. Chris forgot there was a vote. Zach voted for Liam.
Sam talks about the game they play, the app for D&D Beyond, and how the whole campaign allowed him to shine a spotlight on himself. “I didn’t get as many votes as Liam, but I got a lot of attention.”
Everyone loved this last live show. Laura legit loved wearing her dress; Travis & Liam looked great. Tal looked normal. Brian marvels at his own tattoos. He and Tal went through a lot of ideas before they committed to the bag situation--he sent it to Jaimie Alexander before the show happened so she could vet it. Ha! “Her response was 25 crying emojis and ‘please send this to my boyfriend.’“
Reminder: Mica Burton, Overwatch League host (and daughter of Levar Burton), will be guest-starring on Critical Role this coming Thursday.
And we’re out! Is it Thursday yet?
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★ FILL IN THE QUESTIONS AS IF YOU ARE BEING INTERVIEWED FOR AN ARTICLE AND YOU WERE YOUR MUSE.
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1. WHAT IS YOUR NAME? “Kung Lao. The Great Kung Lao. The best of the best. The White Lotus hero. The greatest Shaolin. Th--”
2. WHAT IS YOUR REAL NAME? "Kung Lao. Can’t get tired of hearing it, can you?”
3. DO YOU KNOW WHY YOU’RE CALLED THAT? "I’ll never forget, so you shouldn’t either. I was named after my ancestor, plain and simple. He reigned as champion after he defeated Shang Tsung, but his life came to an end when he faced against Goro. My family’s spirit may have been crushed by his death, but his legacy was bound to continue-- and it has within me. I remember asking my father one day about why, and he only told me that he knew I was special. I’m the Great Kung Lao’s number one legacy; no one within the family can top my skills.”
4. ARE YOU SINGLE OR TAKEN? “Single.” (This is verse dependent.)
5. WHAT ARE YOUR POWERS AND ABILITIES? "Of course I have a plethora of skills, but my favorites fall upon using my hat. I can do so much with my hat, like manipulation of its direction or allow it to spin around my body to protect myself; just call me the hat master. With Lord Fujin’s instruction, I learned how to teleport and how to create wind vortexes by using my chi, and I can never be more thankful for his teachings. Even my ancestor plays a part in my abilities; his spirit rests within me. I can call upon the Great Kung Lao to assist me whenever I need him, but I never truly need help. I’m constantly blessed that he’s there for me though.”
6. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? "Brown hazel.”
7. HAVE YOU EVER DYED YOUR HAIR? "Nope. I rather keep its natural color.”
8. DO YOU HAVE ANY FAMILY MEMBERS? "What kind of a question is that? Everyone has a family-- in one way or another. My father Kung Peng, my mother Mao Xiang, my sister Kung Shi, and my nephew Kung Jin. While both sets of grandparents have been dead for some time, I have eight uncles, eight aunts, and twenty five cousins; isn’t that a big family? ....I wish I could talk to most of them. In the future, when I-- I mean my future counterpart died, I realized that the family has fallen apart, lost their status, moved on to America. I even heard rumors they wanted to forget I even existed! And my nephew-- it is crazy seeing him all grown up. I don’t know what to even say about any of it...but I can say that...that I miss Shi...”
9. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? "I have eight bunnies; five does and three bucks. My does are Xiao Xue & Qi Qi- both Hol/land Lops, Hua- who’s a Bev/eran, Yuming- one of my two Flem/ish Giants, and my special albino Himalayan: Xiaolian. My bucks are Bao- another Holl/and, Jiaozi- the American rabbit, and Xing- my other Flem/ish.”
10. TELL ME ABOUT SOMETHING YOU DON’T LIKE. "Shang Tsung-- Oh, something. Disrespect towards the elderly.”
11. DO YOU HAVE ANY HOBBIES OR ACTIVITIES YOU DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME? "I like to meditate, train, and practice swordplay. On some days, I’ll participate in playing soccer with other monks, especially when the weather is nice. When I am not in the mood for vigorous activity, I like to read or take naps, or spend quality time with my rabbits.”
12. HAVE YOU EVER HURT ANYONE BEFORE? "All in the life of a Shaolin. In other words, yes.”
13. HAVE YOU EVER… KILLED ANYONE? "Yes, but do not be afraid. We Shaolin call killing someone a drastic measure.”
14. WHAT KIND OF ANIMAL ARE YOU? "Do you mean my animality? A cheetah.”
15. NAME YOUR WORST HABITS. “I cannot think of a single one. People tell me that it’s my pride, my confidence, my ego; they think I brag; what is so wrong about a healthy confidence? ----Okay, maybe I come off as prideful. Hey, even I am not perfect. Also, my sleep pattern can be screwed up some nights, so I tend to nap during the day and that’s what causes me to slack during training sometimes. You better not tell my masters or Lord Raiden about this.”
16. DO YOU LOOK UP TO ANYONE? "Yes.”
17. GAY, STRAIGHT, OR BISEXUAL? ”I’m...bi.”
18. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL? “Not exactly. I study and live within a monastery, and receive a monastic education as well as martial arts training.”
19. DO YOU EVER WANT TO MARRY AND HAVE KIDS SOMEDAY “Some day, but I am not yet prepared to drop everything and leave the temple. There is still so much I want to do and wish to achieve. ”
20. DO YOU HAVE ANY FANS? "I’m no movie star but I know I have fans-- tons of fans.”
21. WHAT ARE YOU MOST AFRAID OF? “I fear being unable to protect the Wu Shi. Again, I had to witness dead monks before me... The carnage must stop!”
22. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY WEAR? "All it takes is to look at me. The long answer would be something comfortable, not constricting to my form, but nothing too revealing. Sometimes, I will wear the classic orange outfit monks wear, but not always.”
23. DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE? “What do you mean by love? Romantic love or platonic? Platonically, of course I love someone-- more than one.”
24. WHAT CLASS ARE YOU? "The class of being the greatest, obviously.”
25. HOW MANY FRIENDS DO YOU HAVE? "I have many friends whom I consider allies.”
26. WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON PIE? "On pie itself or a specific kind of pie? Can it be mango pie? I want mango pie.”
27. FAVORITE DRINK? "Tea.”
29. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE? "Besides the temple, there is the Kung family home, and besides that, I have a place where I train in seclusion, where I can view the mountains for miles and admire the scenery from the cliff side. It’s watching the sun rise and set, and gazing upon the moon in all of its glory that make it a nice place to be”
30. ARE YOU INTERESTED IN SOMEONE? "I have a small crush, but that is not your business.”
31. WHAT’S YOUR DICK SIZE? "That’s REALLY none of your business! But if you’re so curious, I’m bigger than you-- is what I would say if I knew you had one.”
32. WOULD YOU RATHER SWIM IN THE LAKE OR THE OCEAN? "The lake, I suppose, but I prefer a river, to be honest.”
33. WHAT’S YOUR ‘TYPE’? "Back to this? What do you mean by type? Are you asking me because I said I had a crush? I shouldn’t of said that; just forget I said that, okay?”
34. ANY FETISHES? "UH-- EXCUSE ME?!”
35. TOP OR BOTTOM? DOMINANT OR SUBMISSIVE? "WHY are you ASKING me these QUESTIONS??! I am a monk! I took a vow of chastity! I can’t answer that kind of stuff when I don’t even know myself!”
36. CAMPING, OR INDOORS? "Finally changing that last subject! ---Both.”
37. ARE YOU WAITING FOR THIS INTERVIEW TO BE OVER? "You’ve been polite enough until you started asking me those risque questions, so yes.”
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 Providence 
dean/cas  |  teen  |  2k  |  canonverse s6  |  ao3 
for @profoundnet's bi-weekly Bot Stat challenge. prompt issued: July 9th 2019 
dedicated to @saltnhalo ~ crack-free! 😘
Dean is cleaning his gun. Cas is the pizzaman. Sam is on the demon blood again.
Dean doesn't miss the apple-pie life, not really. He's a Hunter and this is what they do, this is the life for him. Doesn't mean he can't do with some small comforts, now and then. Or some hope - even if it's just a clue to find a way to stop the stuff of nightmares from wreaking havoc on the world. Pizza helps, too.
So, she broke things off.
..Unclip the mag.. 
So what?
..Clear the chamber.. 
Not like Dean really expected it to last, right?
..This cloth probably needs to be thrown.. 
Guess it was nice while it lasted.
..Where's the pipe cleaner?.. 
Maybe it would've been nice to last a while longer.
..Need more oil.. 
Had a whole year, though. And it was a pretty good year, as Hunter standards go.
..Should grab some rock salt, too. Runnin' low.. 
Sure as hell wasn't perfect. Dean was no model boyfriend or parental figure. Not with all his baggage, his demons.
..Need to make a list. Probably need a bunch of stuff. Wonder if Soulless Sammy's hacked any more cards yet.. 
That life isn't the thing to miss, though. That's not the life for him. He misses them. Her smile, her strength, her warmth. Little Ben growing up so fast, Dean pained he'll miss the rest. But he's not that guy - Mr. Family Man. They deserve better.
..They can hit the store before they leave town. Baby needs fuel. Grab some Johnny to replace the backup. Get outta dodge before the rains come. Sam can find 'em a case once they hit the interstate. They need snacks for the road, too. With any luck they'll find some monster to gank by nightfall.. 
Dean's only halfway through with their arsenal when his stomach reminds him he's past due for supper. Dinner had been a bust; Soulless Sam needs a lesson in acceptable menu classics, asap. Forget beheading a vamp with a baseball bat he could've sworn wasn't on the pitch a moment earlier - Dean'll be lucky not to get salmonella poisoning from that so-called food!
The mini fridge is bare, the cooler barer - unless you count half a dozen syringes of Dead-Man's blood. Dean doesn't. But considering Sam's choice for dinner, maybe he does? Never again. Sam is off food-duty until further notice.
What Dean could really go for, right now, is some pizza. Extra Large and all to himself. There's gotta be takeout menus around here somewhere.
He's barely scuffed one boot over the worn carpet when there's a rap at the door. At midnight. Sam wouldn't knock. Soulless Sam even less likely. 
Grabbing one from the newly-cleaned stash, Dean silently draws up into the crook of wall between door and curtained window, gun cocked. Swift to pull it open and hard to throw himself against it, on the other side of that door is the last person Dean expected to see. "Cas?" Standing in a fuzzy halo of sickly yellow halogen, holding a goddamned miracle in his arms. "Is that pizza?"
"I thought you might be hungry."
"For me?" Cas nods. Dean yanks him - and the pizza - inside. "I'm starved, actually. That's some good timin'."
And so much for the brief trip into Bizarro World where a certain Angel actually respects personal space; Cas' hands are on Dean - shoulder and forehead as he tries to lean over the table, flipping the lid to inspect the toppings. Meatlovers and extra BBQ sauce. Awesome. But those hands are turning him away from pizza, now. "What's up with you?"
"You're not in any stage of starvation, Dean. You're in perfect health.. Aside from you-.. your wrist." He takes Dean's arm from bicep to sprain without hesitation. "What happened?"
It's kinda hard to shrug outta the grip of a guy who could literally throw you as far as the eye can see. "Vamp nest. But we got 'em, no biggy." No more deaths once they arrived in town, too, which was a nice change. "Can we eat? Sam bought, like, raw fish for dinner, man - I think it's still swimmin' around in there." Dean eyes the garbage where he tossed his takeout container, forcing back bile at the memory: one hasty bite before he'd realised his mistake. It had been.. slimy. 
One of Cas' hands slips from his bicep to palm over Dean's stomach. The other leaves his wrist, at least, so Dean seizes the moment and steals the nearest slice from the box; chase away a bad memory with something good. OH, yeah - screw clouds - this is heaven. 
"Nihon unagi." 
"Huh―?" Dean tries not to let the precious pizza tumble from his mouth. 
"Freshwater eel, and they're not swimming. Not consciously, anyway."
Dean's jaw stills. He stares at Cas. 
"Digestive enzymes."
Oh, of course. 
Cas' eyes refocus on Dean's pizza. No - his hand. His injury. "May I..?" 
Mid-chew, Dean figures it can't hurt. He switches his pizza from right to left and holds out the sprain he'd forgot he had. 
Cas' hand closes careful around it, a slip of warmed ice flowing quick through Dean's veins - and then his minor injury is minor no more.
"Thanks," Dean murmurs, and follows it with another mouthful of beef and pepperoni.
Cas leaves him to his second slice to survey the room. "Where is Sam?"
"Li'b'ary.." This is food. This is what every meal should taste like. All the meat, rich with smokey goodness. "R'se'rch."
"I thought you said the case was over?" Cas regains some proximity to the little round table where Dean stands with hips hugging the large pizza box. He takes a few moments to chew, swallow - rushing the savour-part, but Angels don't really understand the pleasure of a good pizza-pie, now do they?
"Not that. Purgatory." With slice #3 in hand, he realises he's got nothing to wash it down with. Slightly annoyed, he leads Cas past the bed laden with guns to the one neatly made with a duffel bag open on top. He pulls out a book, hands it over. "Officially, it's a work of fiction, and we still don't really know what we're dealin' with exactly, but.." He takes another bite. "..There may be a way to counteract the spell Crowley plans on usin'. Last line of defense, sorta thing."
Cas goes pensive and Dean goes back to his pizza, leading Cas over to their Wall of Crazy. They're still trying to track Crowley's whereabouts; It's ongoing. Vamps get beheaded on slow progress days.
"It's almost midnight."
So..? 
"The library would be closed."
Dean gawks. "You know what time libraries close in small-town America?" Cas nods, clearly not seeing the issue. Whatever. "Not a library, a church. Secret archive in the foundations. The pastor, Father Roberto, let him in, a favour for takin' care of the vamps." The fact that one of them had been a colleague of his must've hit close enough to home to warrant unlocking the storm shelter: a small basement room stocked with hunter-esque reads. The guy had only been in their once - twice, including when he caught his former colleague breaking the rules with B&E (and reading). 
They may not find anything ther, but since Sam doesn't need sleep nowadays he agreed to pull the all-nighter and check for certain before they skip town. 
Gaze flitting from Dean and his pizza, to the leatherback book in his hands and up to the Crazy Wall, Cas keeps his thoughts to himself. He looks concerned, wary almost.
"You okay?"
Cas turns the book over, gently. "Where did you get this?" he says to the back cover.
"St. Bruno's. Got quite the collection of lore stashed away in the basement, but Roberto confiscated that one from one of the vamps, before.." Dean trails off, leaving out the details of his bloody foul ball at the local park. "Demonic possession's a big feature, no surprises there. Some monster stuff and gods stuff scattered through - most of it we know already from Bobby's. Also a bunch of balony text. But there was a couple dozen copies of that," he points at Cas' hands with his pizza tip, "so we figured we should see what else was down there that might be useful."
He joins Cas by the map printouts, newspaper clippings, highlighted notes and online article stubs. He watches as Cas traces delicate fingers over the black leather and gold-embossed spine. There's something about the way he handles it - with such care, and hesitation. It's a little odd, but then again he did kinda the same thing with Chuck's books, too. Only this time he hasn't even opened it. 
"It's a graphic novel," Dean explains, "Words and images in a badass, super freaky, pretty damn cool comic strip setup." He'd been more impressed by it than Sam. Apparently his brother's passion for all things Geek was another thing that'd been left behind. It's one thing Dean never thought he'd miss.
Cas is still regarding the ripples in the leather when Dean's pocket vibrates. "You find somethin'?" The last thing he expects to hear are the words Demon and Blood, but measured against the bar of strangeness and crappy circumstance that is their lives, Dean's not as freaked out as he probably should be.
Soulless Sam, Heaven at war with itself, Purgatory existing, Angelic pizza-men.. Anything's possible these days. 
"What about Demon Blood?" Cas must feel Dean's eyes on him because he looks up to pay attention. Dean nods along, shakes his head, wishes he had that spare Johnny to wash down the news. "Yeah, okay. Grab what you can. Forget finding a new case, we'll head to Bobby's in the morning." Hanging up, Dean can feel Cas' eyes on him. "Apparently, St. Bruno's has a book on demons we haven't seen before. Says somethin' about Demon blood relating to Purgatory, but he can't read much of it. Says it's in 'some kind of code'," and Dean shakes his head away from the shadowy thought of just how much of 'Sam' is really left. 
Code-breaking? He used to do that shit for fun, at breakfast, before Dean had even poured his first cup of coffee. Now he.. can't? Or he's just not interested? Dean's not sure which is worse. 
Cas' face steals back to Angelness, all signs of wariness painted over with a blank canvas. He glances at the clock, oddly, and places the book gently down on the nightstand. "I have to go." 
And it's not like Dean expected him to stay, but it would've been nice. Least he brought pizza. "Yeah, okay. We'll keep in touch, let you know what we find." 
Cas nods, and Dean can tell he's about to I Dream of Jeannie it outta there, so he quickly adds, "―You too, you hear me? Don't be a stranger." They lock eyes for a moment, and it feels like old times. "Thanks for the pizza." 
With a tilted trace of a smile, Cas nods again, softer. "Be careful, Dean." 
The fridge kicks on as invisible wings take flight. An owl hoots somewhere outside, waiting for an answer. It's suddenly quiet and the room feels empty in a way it hadn't before. Lonely. 
He flicks on the old box set, turns some late night movie low, and snags the pizza box along with the little black book to settle down in the neatly made bed, tossing his duffel aside.
HP Lovecraft may have some relevance to what they're dealing with, but for now he just reads for the hell of it. To get lost in it; someplace else, somehow familiar. It's a clue, a step in the right direction, hopefully. And though it's not exactly a comfort, there's something grounding in knowing the answers are out there, somewhere. They just gotta keep looking. 
There's fiction and there's reality, and sometimes the impossible is what's real. Sometimes it's a nightmare instead of a dream. That's the Hunter life. Figuring out what's dark fantasy and what's really lurking in the shadows. 
No Lisa, no Ben. No Sam, even if he walked through that door right now. Bobby three states away. Cas off at war. 
He's got pizza and Lovecraft's Cosmicism and Mitchum on the grainy tube. It's not everything, but it's enough. With any luck he'll dream of something better, something more. Probably the best he can hope for, really: if he can't have a better life, dreams might be the closest he ever gets. 
But as long as he gets his four hours, he'll manage, dreams (or nightmares) or no. 
The telltale pitter-patter of rain starts in, grows steadily heavier as the pages turn, the black-and-white noir futzing and pizza filling him, making him sleepy. He drifts off to the flicker of blue neon through the tear in the curtain by his bed, distantly wishing he'd removed his boots or at least his belt; it's digging into him, but he knows on the plus side he'll be ready to jump up and fight if something goes bump in the night.
Just another night in the Hunter's life.
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jahaliel · 6 years
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tag game
i was tagged by the lovely @empresstress13 in a thing ^.^  thanks lovely, under a cut for lengths sake - tagging anyone who wants to play.
Name: Chelsea
Nickname: Chelsea, Jah
Height: 5′6″
Nationality: Australian
Favorite Fruit: i like apples bananas (apples bananas green apples bananas apples bananas juicy...) cherries blueberries strawberries raspberries, boysenberries. rambutan papaya (pineapple) starfruit kiwifruit, mango mango sweet mango mango, rockmelon, watermelon, honeydew... guava guava guava guava
(if anyone gets this reference that’s amazing and you’re probably a local)
Favorite Season: Winter.  I love the rain and the storms.
Favorite Smell: hubby’s cologne, jasmine in the rain, lavender crushed in your hand on a long walk, fresh cooked baked goods, brand new books and also old beautiful books...
Favorite Color: indigo is what i put for this for my bridal shower.  so many people guessed green because my engagement ring has an emerald.  i’m also in love with the colour of fire and the ocean.
Favorite Animal: penguins, dragons, kakapos, phoenixes, cassowaries, cockatoos, quokkas, echindas, platypi, yellow-footed rock wallaby, emus, keas
Tea, Coffee, Hot Cocoa: tea or cocoa, not a coffee drinker.  i enjoy a wide range of teas especially fond of my green jasmine and pear tea
Average hours of sleep: 6-7 i prefer even numbers though.  (seriously me on 4 hours sleep is slightly weird but functional, me on 5 is GRUMPYAF)
Dogs or Cats: Axolotls or Alpacas
Dream Trip: Being able to go to my friends wedding in America and then up and down a few states to visit friends.  then to England to visit Jamie, then Antarctica to see PENGUINS
When my blog was created: 2013
# of followers: way more than i thought i’d ever get *love n (optional) hugs to all*
Random Fact: Bagpipes and Concert Bands tune to different A’s.  
Favorite Food: oh boy are you ready for this list:  mum’s macaroni cheese, dad’s bbq potatoes, mum’s lasagna, dad’s lamb roast, millionaire pizza, baked potatoes, korean bbq pork, chicken tikka masala, pad thai, burgers and chips, margherita pizza, the ridiculous choc-raspberry ice cream cake, capricorn ice-cream cake, tutti frutti jello mellow, marshmallow sauce, caramel sauce, chocolate sauce with waffles, icecream and meringues, improper pavlova, triple trouble trifle, chocolate pear pistachio cake, lemon slice, choc caramel slice, nuts and bolts, mango cheesecake, blood orange and dark chocolate gelati, lemon gelati, ferrero rocher gelati, boozy strawberries, toblerone mousse, grandma’s fruit cake, nana’s cheese ball... yeah food is good.  for some non-homemade things bacon cheese and egg pie (Rheinland bakery) Blueberry Vanilla Slice (the Cottage Bakery).
Favorite TV Show: GBBO, 8 out of 10 cats does Countdown, Gruen Transfer, classic Spicks and Specks (miss me with that new series), Daria, Looney Tunes, technically the BBC P&P miniseries, Queer Eye
Favorite Movie: LOTR Extended Editions, Hero, Crouching Tiger/Hidden Dragon, Fantasia 2000, Beauty and the Beast (ANIMATED VERSION), Christopher Robin, Ever After, Princess Bride subgenre musicals:  Mary Poppins (movie is pretty high up but musical trumps it just), Mozart le Opera Rock, My Fair Lady, Legally Blonde
Favorite Vine: I have never actually seen any vines.
Sexuality: Bi
Gender: Female
Favorite Book Series: just going to LEAVE THIS HERE
Favorite Video Games: MYST, Riven and Obduction by Cyan <3 <3 <3  Bejewelled, the Ravenhurst Manor Hidden Object game series, Dragon Age, Dark Souls series, Demon Souls, Enter the Gungeon, Crusader Kings 2,  Symphony, Dungeons of Dredmor, Halo 3, Super Mario 64, Deus Ex, DOOM (both classic Doom and modern Doom), Commander Keen
Favorite Subject: Music, English, Chemistry
Favorite Fandoms: ??? well I have met a lot of A-M-A-Z-I-N-G friends in the Dragon Age and Star Wars fandoms.  I adore the small-yet-mighty MOR fandom and also enjoy seeing FFXV on my dash.  I also love, AtS,  Trek and the few and far between of us who love the Chronicles of Elantra.
Favorite Superhero: um.  idk?  i don’t really pay attention to these things but Storm is kinda cool.
Guys or and Girls:  fixed it.
Celebrity Crush: mmhmm.  yep have a couple of those.
Last Time I Cried: this afternoon when i got home after my APA meeting.
Hair Color: Dark brown (currently its got a purple tinge under certain lightings XD)
Eye Color: grey.  like not grey-silver or grey-green or really blue but kinda grey.  nope boring grey.
What should I be doing: right now?  sleeping.  which i’ll be doing soon.  or writing more poetry.  (i got my first payment from lulu today :D) 
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zonerobotnik · 7 years
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It's the Gleeful Family Circus, here together as one at last! From left to right, we have: Fiddleford McGucket - Practically husband to Stanford, he's a scientist of mysterious background. Supposedly he has a wife and son, but he never talks about them. He always keeps a clipboard and pen on hand for taking notes and crafted a magic version that brings whatever he writes down or draws to life. He's been missing for thirty years with Stanford, but he's back in this world and here to stay. Stanford "Ford" Gleeful - A caring and devoted brother, he doesn't let anything bad happen to Stan. After their father was killed in a break-in, he took Stan with him out of state to care for him while he went to college while their mother went to live with their older brother. Also a scientist, he's always looking for something new and exciting to study - like dream-demons that he can enslave. Mason Gleeful: Sadistic from the moment he could crawl, Mason is pleasant and charming to everyone he meets - until they piss him off. He's in Gravity Falls for an undetermined amount of time while his wealthy parents deal with the mess of the last people to piss off Mason and his sister. It was his idea to start the circus with him and his twin as the main acts, prompting his uncle to quit his job and do so. He enjoys toying with the minds of anyone he meets and the magic stone they all carry assists him with this quite pleasantly. Mabel Gleeful: Sweet as cream pie, Mabel Gleeful will charm her way into your heart and then rip it out. She's not one to think lightly of, that's for sure. Born five minutes older than her brother, she won't let anyone but family tease him - and live, that is. She's not afraid to get her hands or her bed-sheets dirty to get what she wants. Wendy Corduroy - Cold-hearted goth, she's very possessive to the point of violence if something messes with what she thinks is hers. She left her father's logging business with Stan and Soos and joined the circus and has been having the time of her life. Jesus "Soos" Alzamirano Ramírez - An immigrant from Mexico, he's half-American and the grandson of a fearless crime-lord, who he affectionately calls "Abuelita". He keeps to himself mostly and chooses not to speak due to his flawed English skills, but when he gets upset he will curse you out in Spanish. He came to America in search of his runaway father, got a job at Manly Dan's Logging Plant to pay for his lodging here, and ended up ditching it and his plan to find his father when Stan suggested he and Wendy come join Stan's brand-new circus. Will Cipher - A dream-demon that was summoned and enslaved by Stanford thirty years ago. In his efforts to escape his enslavement, he accidentally sent away Stanford and Fiddleford away through a portal and with it most of his power. He stayed with Stan as an apology, and all was pretty decent...until Mason found one of Stanford's old journals and enslaved him again. Forced to do the bidding of the twins, Will has dirtied his gloves more times than he cares to think about. Now that Stanford is back, he thought his power would return. (Apparently not.) Stanley "Stan" Gleeful - He's a sweetheart with a heart of gold that has pretty much been stepped on his whole life. From an abusive father to a possessive twin brother to many failed relationships and now the younger twins, you'd think he would be upset but he's not. As long as he's with his family, he's happy. Unlike the rest of the circus crew, Stan has never dirtied his hands with the blood or whatever else of anyone to get his way, believing in honest, good work. For all of his love of them, he's pretty terrified of his family sometimes, though... -- I made two versions of this picture, whee! Look at these smug guys. And though Mabel is blocking it, Wendy is actually holding a whip or a knife behind her back in her other hand. Maybe I'll make individual versions sometime. Maybe if I use this for a video sometime. I'm gonna rest my drawing hand for a bit before I draw the others in this AU.
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agnosticanimist · 7 years
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Holidays I Observe/Celebrate
Taken from my sh!tty Book of Shadows, here's a list and summary of the holidays I attempt to celebrate. 
KEEP IN MIND: These are holidays that I personally celebrate, they are described as I personally see them, and the celebrations mentioned are the ones that I personally observe. There are no “right” or “wrong” ways to celebrate a holiday, even “culturally important” ones. Everyone celebrates them differently, some people don’t observe certain traditions, and that’s okay. If you celebrate differently than I do, that’s okay!  I can already smell the hate and annoying responses I’m going to get because of this but whatever let’s get started!
Putting a keep reading because holy farts this post was SO LONG!!!
New Years Day 🆕
January 1st --- A celebration of the new year. Usually celebrated by staying up the night before until midnight, then toasting a drink to luck and prosperity before going to bed. Lunch and/or dinner are usually comprised of black-eyed peas, greens, mashed potatoes, and cornbread.
Feast of Fools 🎭
January 6th --- A day to mock authoritative power, the church, religion in general, and the government. Mock ecclesiastical rituals are performed, a mock king/pope/bishop is elected, and drinking, dancing, and singing occurs. It's a day to laugh at that which is taken so seriously the rest of the year.
Chinese New Years 🐉
New Moon between January 21st and February 20th --- (I’ll update this part later!!!)
Imbolc 🏠
February 1st --- Marks the first day of spring. Celebration of hearth and home. Activities include making St. Brigid’s crosses, making bride’s beds, making priapic wands, lighting candles or bonfires in the snow, and eating pastries and dairy products. 
Valentine’s Day 💝
February 14th --- A day to express your romantic love to those whom you love, usually by giving them a love note/card or a Valentine. Other gifts include roses, stuffed animals, chocolates, etc.
Mardi Gras ⚜
3 Days before Ash Wednesday --- Traditionally occurs 3 days before Ash Wednesday (which occurs 46 days before Easter). Activities include parades, throwing beads, eating good food, wearing masks, singing/playing music, dancing, and drinking.
White Day 💮
March 14th --- Usually celebrated in Asian countries, White Day is a response to Valentine’s Day. On Valentine’s day, women are the ones expressing their love to men. On White Day, men who received love are expected to return it, oftentimes with gifts triple in value to the gift they were given. Common gifts include white chocolate, white lingerie, cookies, etc. (Slightly sexist, but hey, a second day to spoil my partner with love is a-ok in my book!) 
St. Patrick’s Day 🍀
March 17th --- A day to celebrate Irish culture and heritage. Activities include wearing green (and pinching those NOT wearing green), listening to traditional Irish music, and feasting on things such as roast, potatoes, greens, cornbread, whiskey, beer, and/or cider. A common tradition is “wetting the shamrock” where a clover is placed at the bottom of a shot glass that is then filled with alcohol. The shot is gulped down, and the clover goes with it, or alternatively is tossed over the shoulder for good luck.
Ostara - Spring Equinox 🌱
March 19th-22nd --- Ostara, the inspiration for Easter, is a celebration of new life, birth, fertility, growth, etc. Celebrated by planting seeds, starting gardens, planting flowers and trees, etc.
April Fool’s Day 😜
April 1st --- A day of pranks and jokes that I hate to death but also still celebrate for some reason..?
Easter 🐇
1st Sunday after the Full Moon --- Activities of celebration include painting and hiding boiled eggs which are collected in baskets, feasting on shepherd’s pie and carrot cake, eating candy and treats in the shapes of rabbits and chicks, etc.
Beltane 🔥
May 1st --- Originally celebrated by casting protection spells onto cattle who were headed out to summer pastures, today it is a celebration focused on protection of the self. Bouquets of primrose, rowan, hawthorn, gorse, hazel, and marigold are made and hung over the doors or windows of a home. Maypoles are danced around with colorful ribbons. Massive bonfires are lit and feasts are held.
LGBT+ Pride Month 🌈
The Entire Month of June --- A month to celebrate lgbt+ identities, such as lesbain, gay, bisexual, transgender, and queer. Notable days for me are June 3rd: Bi pride day, June 5th: Pan pride day, and June 23rd: Androgyne pride day.
Litha - Summer Solstice ☀
June 19th-22nd --- These mark the longest days of the year. Protective amulets are made out of rue, rowan, and basil tied together with white or gold ribbon. They’re kept until the next Litha, when they’re burned and a new amulet is created. Other activities include picnics, making flower crowns, and dancing/singing around a campfire. 
America’s Independence Day 🎆
July 4th --- Celebrations include barbecues, grilled foods, lemonade, pool parties, American patriotism, and shooting off/watching fireworks after dark.
Tanabata 🌠
July 7th --- (There’s so much lore about this holiday that I’m going to leave out because this post is already so long.) Essentially, it’s an Asian (more specifically, Japanese, or the version I celebrate hails from Japan) holiday centered around two lovers who get to meet only once a year (the 7th day of the 7th month). On the day of their meeting, you can write down wishes on tiny strips of paper and tie them to trees/bamboo, which are burned at midnight to release the wish into the universe in hopes that it will come true. Also it’s bad luck if it rains on Tanabata because the lovers can’t meet.
Lammas/Lughnasadh 🍞
August 1st --- The first harvest of the year. Feasts of breads, grains, and beers as well as bonfires are common. Activities include making corn dollies, wicker men, making crowns of wheat/corn stalks, creating/decorating staves, wands, and besoms/brooms, etc.
Cherokee National Holiday 🐦
1st Monday in September ---  An annual event celebrating Cherokee heritage and culture, held each Labor Day weekend in Tahlequah, Oklahoma. The theme of the celebration changes each year, but activities include a two night inter-tribal pow wow, stickball, Cherokee marbles, horseshoes and cornstalk shoot tournaments, softball tournaments, rodeos, car and art shows, gospel singings, the annual Miss Cherokee pageant, the Cherokee National Holiday parade, and the annual "State of the Nation" address by the Principal Chief of the Cherokee Nation.
Mabon - Autumn Equinox 🍁
September 19th-22nd --- The days and nights are equal in length. A time to wear your finest clothes and spend time with your family. This is the second harvest of the year. Activities include offering tributes to nature for the harvests, making wine, gathering dried herbs, walking in the woods, and decorating burial sites with acorns, leaves, and pine cones. 
Halloween 🎃
October 31st --- Inspired by Samhain and celebrated on the same day. Activities include carving pumpkins into jack-o-lanterns, wearing costumes, going through haunted houses, riding hayrides, and giving/receiving treats like candy, popcorn balls, and little plastic toys. 
Samhain 👻
Sunset of October 31st - Sunset of November 1st --- Marks the beginning of winter. Feasts inviting the spirits of dead loved ones to join are held. Offerings to fae and spirits are given. Masks and disguises are worn to hide from evil entities. A time to honor the dead, be they kin, friends, or pets. 
Dia de los Muertos 💀
November 1st & 2nd --- A time to celebrate the dead. Activities include tidying up or decorating graves/burial sites, creating shrines/altars to the dead or deities connected to the dead, leaving offerings like sweets and marigolds to the dead, painting your face to look like a calavera (a skull), dancing and singing to honor the dead, feasting on pan de muertos, etc. Meant to be a joyful but still respectful celebration of those who have passed on.
Thanksgiving 🍠
4th Thursday in November --- A time to gather with the family over a meal and express thankfulness for what you have. A traditional feast includes turkey, stuffing, sweet potatoes, cranberry sauce, pumpkin pie, pecan pie, and more.
Yule - Winter Solstice ❄
December 19th-22nd --- The longest nights of the year. Activities include toasting to trees with spiced cider, creating/lighting a yule log, decorating with ivy and holly, kissing under mistletoe, and enjoying a feast of pork dishes, eggnog, turkey, spiced wines and ciders, cookies, and cider-soaked caraway cakes. 
Christmas 🎄
December 25th --- Inspired by Yule, celebrations include caroling, giving/getting presents and gifts, decorating a Christmas tree, making snowpeople, eating gingerbread cookies and candy canes, watching parades, watching sports, watching ballets, and feasting with friends and family. 
OH IT’S FINALLY DONE THANK THE MOON!!!
This list is subject to change/edit at any given time.
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graceless-potato · 7 years
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Things My Squad Has Said/Done
So my good relative @hello-darkness-my-familiar-faces, compiled over the course of a year, things our squad has said/done into a list. In her words, “it’s not much but tbh I’m proud.” Other contributors include @artlessplum @saddie-baddie-baby @p9nda and myself.
 "I'm a hoe"                                                                                                        "MY MIND GOT FRICKLE FRACKLED"                                                              "I have drugs you want some"                                                                     "meme meeting"                                                                                                  "I'll throw a deck on u"                                                                                      "I've planned my life around getting a sugar daddy"                                         Me: "I'm triggered" Friend: "Hi triggered I'm dad"                                            *pulls hair off head* "The daily shed"                                                                  *to a hickory falls employee; loudly* "SIR"                                                          *in a granny voice* "SUCK ON THAT ETHEL"                                       "NARUTO RUN OUR WAY TO FREEDOM"                                                  Friend: "Did you ever marry?" Me: "No being put on trial for your parents murders is kind of a turn off for most people"                                                         "I just beat a giant spider to death with a foam sword"                                          "MY FRIENDS *zooms in camera* THE CARCASS"                                     "Crickey mates,this here is the dangerous outland grandma. One of the most dangerous if I do say so myself. This species can only be found in America due to the love for Donald Trump and the American pride"                                      "I'm gonna spit on her"                                                                                          "I wish I was a goat"                                                                                           "IM A SQUIRREL"                                                                                              me: *burps* Upperclassman dude: "that's not very ladylike" me: "I killed my parents"                                                                                                                *in a granny voice* now watch me whip! Now watch me nay na- oH MY HIP" "Take a chance. Be a hoe"                                                                                  "I'll be a hoe in secret. An undercover hoe"                                                 "JesUS ChRIsT"                                                                                                    "I had a dream where '___' tried to kill me"                                                        Friend: "She wants to become a child-tamer or something" Me: "You mean a teacher?"                                                                                                    *inhuman screaming from the other room only to investigate and find they're stuck on a math problem*                                                                            *singing What'd I Miss (Hamilton)* "Mr. Jefferson welcome, hoe"                          "What do you call a cowboy with a nice butt? Butch C*ass*idy!"               *singing Memory (Cats)* "Has the moon lost her- shit!"                                 "These outdated memes give me new life"                                                       "You playin a dangerous game ol buddy ol pal ol friend ol chum ol amigo"             "We bought extra virgin olive oil and I'm just like: me"                                       "My sufferings constant"                                                                                    "Did you sit in some sugar? Because you've got a sweet ass"                                "I'm going to wear a sheet to prom because it's all I can afford"                         "You can date a pie for all I care. It'll never *dessert* you"                               "Don't hoe it up. Hoe it down"                                                                                "I thought you were going to say fashion is such sweet sorrow"                          "Justin Bieber doesn't deserve my bowels"                                                   *while picking up litter* "I'm the only trash allowed to wander the streets!"           "I wanna put this in the nicest way possible. Don't come near me"              *Shows friends how to say "douche canoe" and "pussy waffle" in sign language*  "I know how to say *'I want to die'* in Latin"                                                     "Out of breath and ready for death"                                                                "When you see his cowboy boot shaped sideburns~ NUTT"                                  "Bi and ready to die"                                                                                           "I'm so dead inside vultures follow me around"                                                     "Rip his head off and make sweet love in his warm fresh blood"                             "I don't want my ass eaten. Please don't eat my ass"                                            "Klondike bars will melt in hell '___'" 
Nobody was harmed in the making of this post, unless you count one big ass spider. 
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You: Captain America is Bi
Me, an Intellectual: Captain America is Bi Bi, Miss American Pie
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it’s very simple, is you dont experience any degree of same gender attraction and are cis you arent Lesbian Gay Bi Trans. i know it feels like youre missing out on a cool little group but you arent search trump lgbt rn
I… I am trans? And gay. And politically aware, I would say, living here in America and trying to keep up with things as best as I can. As it seems you believe my other identifies give me a bigger cut of the mythical “LGBT resource/oppression” (whichever is currently suiting to people’s indignation) pie, I am speaking out of experience, on all facets of my identity and personhood.
I hate to be the bearer of bad news, especially since I’d like to assume you are at least trying to come from a good place, but you. You are the one making it into a “little club.” No one (at least that I know) is seeking that out. I don’t know where you’ve gotten that idea, but in needlessly gatekeeping a community, resources, a sense of belonging, safety, love - ALL that we stand for, you are the one making this an exclusive get together.
I want to be here for you. For our community. I know we struggle with feeling alone, and afraid - we are hunted, and shunned. You and I, probably, share similar stories of persecution. I don’t begrudge you your anger, your fear, your desire to protect those you love - the community we share. I’m trying to tell you, just like in the messages you found me through, that I am here for you. For us. For everyone like us, and those who think they may fill in the gaps. That’s the point of the LGBTQ+ community, I think. To stand for each other, and a world without hate.
I hope you’ll be okay. That you’ll find your place, not just in the community we share, that we share with so many others, but with the world. I believe in you. In us, in all of us. And I do think, if we stand together, work together, fight together, we can overcome the shit that’s been thrown our way since society deemed us unworthy of its own stupid ideas of moral authority and the majority it thinks we should belong too.
But yeah. I know the internet, inherently, is inarticulate. It is inhospitable, and cruel. I do not think I can change your mind - I am but a small blip in a sea of usernames, and icons. We both know you cannot change the minds of those who are not yet ready to change. And again, I don’t hold that against you, and I think I understand where you’re coming from (I hope you can do the same for me.) But… yeah. We’re both human. Whether or not the majority sees us that way. At the very least, we have that in common. I wish you the best.
I really do.
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