#and the other was like no! thats selfish! dont die and leave me!

[try-set-me-on-fire]

I don't think Buck knows what anime is but I'm once more watching hunter x hunter and thinking about the absolute breakdown it would give him

#two characters who are best friends were captured by the bad guys #and one of them said ill sacrfice myself to distract him so you can escape #and the other was like no! thats selfish! dont die and leave me! #and the first was like literally before they put us in this room you said you were going to do the exact same thing!!! #and the second was like well its different if its me! #anyway chris watching this on the couch with his dads and theyre avoiding eye contact over his head and hyperventilating

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

hello! i’m love your post and arts so much! I look at your posts after a hard day and my mood immediately changes to excellent. can I ask a couple of questions?

which pairing with Ethan do you prefer?

and… can we get to know you better? a little biography?

Thank you for your time! I'll be waiting for new arts! (sorry if i made mistakes, my english is not so good. im russian)

i like basically every ship with ethan! it mostly depends on the mood im in, but if im being honest, mithan, winterfield, and wintersberg gets frustrating to think about because they all dont treat ethan well canonically... lethan is fun because they have never met and i can make my own assumptions!

i used to like wintersberg the most and i still do like it, i just have expanded my horizons to other ships as well...., its mostly like a punchline to me though. they have the funniest potential which is why a majority of their posts is just joke comics. i do not like how people try to erase how karl is arrogant and egotistical tho. thats like removing the flavor.... the way karl acts is just very funny to me, hes so lame in a good way and i like how everytime he talks to ethan it sounds like hes twirling his hair and kicking his feet. canonically speaking, karl was very much in the wrong for trying to use rose and not elaborating and i will die on this hill. ethan is not in the wrong for being disgusted and angry that karl would ever try and propose that in the deal. karl is very arrogant so when ethan says no to him it makes him mad and he tries to use fear to get ethan to take his deal (kicking his chair and warning him) i like karl, i like how messed up and arrogant he is but i dislike how people try to portray him as a nice guy. however, in a AU where everythings the same except he doesnt try to use rose i do enjoy the dynamic they could have, especially if the teamed up (not with the deal where they use rose. ethan wouldnt agree unless karl never involved rose in the first place). karl is just a very entertaining character and i like him a lot, hes funny and his personality can be extremely hilarious

mia and ethan is pretty tragic and thinking about it too much makes me a bit sad, imo in a reality where ethan survives re8, he needs to divorce mia. im not saying ethan needs to hate mia and never talk to her again i just dont think they should be so intimate together because of her behavior... please do not take this as anti mia. they loved each other dearly but it wasnt healthy. their relationship was kept afloat by lies and mia doesnt change even though she deals with the consequences of her own actions in re7. she actively tries to hide her past from ethan and is mostly focused on trying to move on and have a normal life even if ethan will have to live the rest of his life in the dark.

she loves her family so much, shes very afraid of them leaving her so she hides all the bad things in the hopes that they wont leave. its selfish, its human, its real, her character is so amazing and i love her. she doesnt learn from re7 and hides important information from ethan again. i geniunly think they should have gotten divorced after re8 if ethan had survived. its tragic and its sad but they love each other so much. it sad because they both geniunly love rose so much but they themselves shouldnt be together. its just sad to think about it. whenever i draw them it usually takes place before re7. they should have divorced on good terms and shared custody of rose.........

ethan and chris is also frustrating to think about... chris is a major jerk in re8, whenever i draw it, its under a unspoken AU that chris did not behave the way he did in re8. his weird behavior in re8 is probably for a meta reason imo. capcom wanted to set up a twist villian so they make chris very vague and unesscarily cruel. while its frustrating that they turned chris into a jerk for the sake of a twist, it still happens in canon and i will forever roll my eyes whenever i see him on screen. he did what he thought was best but imo, execution matters more than the intentions. same applies to mia. they both did things that hurt ethan because they thought it would be the best but in the end they just hurt ethan.

all the ships ive discussed with people ethan has met canonically just makes it look like i dont even like the ships... LOL ... ethan just has horrible luck with the people he meets i guess... but i do enjoy the ships and drawing them, but again all of them come with the canon baggage that ends up making me sad because everyone treats ethan poorly whether they had good intentions or not

which is why leon and ethan is the most fun to draw without getting stressed... LOL... they have never met but just drawing what i think their dynamic would be like is very fun.

please dont take this post personally, this isnt a post declaring why ur fave ship sucks, this is just my own personal preferences and in the end i draw all of them anyways

if i had to rank the ships based on drawing silly comics it would be

wintersberg

mithan

lethan

winterfield

wintersberg has the funniest potential just because of karl and mithan can be funny if u water it down to "i love my wife so much" and said wife comes home with suspicious amounts of hard cash

i enjoy making joke comics far to much

if i were to rank the ships based on how healthy they would actually be for ethan it would be

lethan

winterfield, mithan, wintersberg (no particular order)

sorry 😭

leon and ethan have literally never met but imo it would still be the healthiest because ethan gets to start new

the three other ships r all unhealthy in some way, at least canonically without changing much about the characters (i do like winterfield but just because of how chris behaved in re8 it knocked them down)

i cant even rank them on personal preference because my opinion changes so often 😭 it changes based on discussions i have with my friends or recent art i see that inspires me... me and my friends recently had a discussion about mia and ethans relationship which made me very frustrated and sad with mia so i defiently wouldnt be drawing them anytime soon... meanwhile i hvae been talking to a friend who really likes winterfield often so the conversations we have give me art ideas and i end up drawing it more. if a friend of mine really enjoyed wintersberg or lethan and talked to me about it often id probably start drawing it more, the joys of being a multishipper

it changes a lot based on how im feeling and if im in the mood to draw something funny or something serious

sorry u asked a really simple question and i responded with a essay

and a little bit about myself is that i go by crumb, i am 18 and i go by all pronouns and prefer it/its

im vietnamese and live in texas

i made this tumblr acc solely so i could post my ethan art and im a re7/re8 girly so if ur here waiting for me to draw the re1-re6 characters im sorry u should probably expect nothing

i also make personal animations sometimes which u can find here

thanks for the ask and sorry for the rant!

#ethan winters #crumbessage

[murky-tannin]

im not disagreeing on the selfish route; but its been a while since i watched the vod, wasnt fit one of the only people online that day? genuinely cant remember. regardless; i dont think qwil is a bad dad, considering if he had even wanted to stay, he likely would've been forced due to the federation; people are free to critique the character regardless. im not one to argue and i don't really plan to defend if its a debate, i just don't entirely think itd be entirely right? (esp considering ccwil really dislikes the whole 'deadbeat dad' and said he irl didn't have time to keep writing letters, but his character did keep sending letters, now if tallulah and phil got them thats different)

Personally I think that no amount of letters make the whole adopting a kid you just met and then instantly leaving them ok. qWilbur didn't need to establish himself as a parent. He could have served as temporary guardian/babysitter and helped find her a parent when others were online. He didn't. Tallulah didn't need to be adopted within a time frame or anything. She wasn't gonna keel over and die without someone instantly calling themselves father.

Tell me- if you lived in a community full of parents and you met a little kid with no one to take care of them. Except you are going to leave in a little over a week and don't have the time or ability to take care of a child. What would you do? Would you tell the kid that you are their father? That you may leave but you'll come back soon and take care of them? Tell them you'll always be there for them? No. You'd shelter them and take care of them while finding someone else more capable of that role, incidentally not heavily emotionally damaging that child in the process. ccWilbur did nothing wrong ofc, but qWilbur is 100% in the wrong for that in my opinion

And also- that's another thing. Wilbur didn't want to stay. He wasn't forced on tour nor was he aware that that was a possibility. That was entirely of his volition.

ccWilbur may not like the whole deadbeat dad thing, but unfortunately that's kinda what his character is due to circumstances. I support the character in trying to be a good dad and i love him and Tallulah's relationship a lot! But the character was also just straight up fucked for that initial completely unnecessary adoption kkkk

#wilbur soot #qsmp #murky mumbles

[kattsect]

finished wakfu season 4 and i have thoughts! spoilers below! OK im so glad we get to see yugo aged up b/c i hated the fact he had no change whatsoever throughout the 4 seasons... ESP with the yumalia ship stuff i also think some scenes were unnecessary or too short-lived for example; armands death, i feel like amalia barely had time to grieve (i know they were in the middle of war and she needed to lead her people but after that, she had no other scenes of mourning armand or even a full scene for his memorial??? which is crazy) and armand didnt really NEED to sacrifice himself. it was not a life or death situation , there could have been other solutions and what was the point of the power-ups yugo gave everyone if only like three of them would use them to the fullest? everyone else only MILDY used it... a little more couldve been shown also eva telling dally to leave w/ the kids (essentially saying shes sacrificing herself?) their scene gets interrupted and they are saved, making the scene completely pointless? if ur gonna make angst, at least go through with it!!!! also things were a little rushed and slow at the same time. i feel like the story was only moving forward towards episode 8 - which is fine but that left the major episodes feeling really rushed and ending in an unsatisfactory way (at least, to me) plus i feel like the stakes werent really high this season? i understand that the necromes are invincible but yugo had such a simple plan in getting them out and the way king toross had one of his sram's fall on him....??????? that was such a bad way to make it end for him like. At least make yugo or one of the others push him down i feel like the other seasons threats were more major than this, like nox and qilby and oropo. they all had reasons for being villains but i feel like the necromes were not up to par with the previous threats i know the world was ending Again and they were going to die Again but still it was not as severe as it seemed. still, i really liked the story especially w/ nora and efrim and them being in the whole plot of the story with king toross. she was my favorite part of this whole season and i loved her lore HOWEVER i hate how they did NOT show any reconciliation between nora and efrim and they just were fine together now. after his sacrifice and his grudge?? not even a "im sorry" from nora????? Ok.... also ruels freaking story. he doesnt even say anything to arpagone and they part ways. there is no dialogue where he thinks he's selfish and greedy and he should see how much good his fortune is doing.NO!!! There is no remorse or empathy shown other than him looking around at the town and BARELY LOOKIGN empathetic . but its fine i dont. really care about his story anyway (im sorry to the 2 ruel fans ever) i hate how some parts of the story were left without any closure; like flopin and the eliatrope goddess just leaving . i know we're getting a webtoon but i feel as if they could've done more in the show with their development instead of not showing anything and evas dad?? i forgot about that too... i dont know if it was relevant cause i forget, but it was nice to learn about eva lore a little bit more i hate to say this too but i did not like the yumalia wedding. i swear they had to rush to a happy ending to end the series off but they could have shown anything else. I also dont get the ship in general b/c i swear they had no chemistry other than them saving each other during battle and blushing but thats it. I dont rlly like the ship but thats just me!!! I really wish this season had 26 episodes like 1 and 2. everything doesnt really feel fleshed out as much and I just wish in the time that they had to make this they could've expanded on WAY more things than they showed in this season i really dont hate this season and i thoroughly enjoyed it myself, these are just my thoughts & complaints on what could've been done better! i will always love this show with all my heart i think those are all my thoughts for NOW.. wakfu art coming SOON!

#wakfu #wakfu season 4 #wakfu s4 #ankama #spoilers

[princeshilo]

oooooooo im. im wavibg my fingers tell me about juno

ooooooo

ooohhhhhh noooooo… ive been hypnotized by your finger wibbling…. i guess i have to talk about hiiimmmm……

@ my fellow players in the d4 campaign DONT READ THIS. none of them actively use tumblr but jic

(LOTS of text under cut)

the first thing i always always always say about him is that he fucking SUCKS. hes the worst man alive i hope he dies im literally obsessed with him. juno infyris is a tiefling celestial warlock :3 his patron god is homebrew that i made myself! basically he grew up in the underdark (gracklstugh to be specific) doing odd jobs to make enough money to leave. since almost all of the underdark is under lolth, he genuinely just didnt. think gods were real. he was an atheist he just thought everyone else was in a cult on something LMFAO once he was old enough he started a little shop of his own selling fake magic items (most of which he stole). like spamton but not actually like spamton at all. now while setting up his window display for candlenights he ACCIDENTALLY SUMMONED A DEITY. shes like ohhh brave one you have summoned me….. your wish is my command… i shall aid you in your journeys…. and hes like Uh Um Uhhh Can You Help Me Out. (<- INCREDIBLY UNSPECIFIC THING TO SAY TO A LITERAL GOD.) she takes this and fuckinf runs with it hes now soulbound to this deity thats trying to make him a better person and have him do good deeds and stuff amd he HATES IT. as aforementioned he is the worst fucking guy alive hes greedy and selfish and an all around bastard who literally scams people for a living and now all of a sudden hes forced to be a good person or else god will kill him and its the funniest dynamic ive ever written. anyways he escapes his master and leaves the underdark and meets up with the party etc etc etc BUT i wanna talk more about his life before then. see the underdark is a really shitty fuckinf place to live for like 90% of the population and basically anyone that isnt a drow or duergar. SO. you can imagine his life kind of sucks. he is forever in servitude of at least one master at all times & is FOREVER trying to convince everyone he meets to let him live. he used to have wings, in fact! however when they grew in, his master used him for his wings & made him do a bunch of shady shit for him before cutting them off, not wanting juno to seem too valuable to others and have him stolen. juno currently doesn’t remember ever having wings & is convinced hes just naturally discoordinated and clumsy but in reality he’ll never fully acclimate to living without his wings. for all of the 18 years he lived in gracklstugh he spent every day trying to be good enough so that he wouldn’t be deemed useless and killed. his main tactic for this is flirting. see, he knows he’s fucking annoying, and he’s spent years trying to ‘fix it’, and he just can’t. so if he cant change his personality, he believes his only use is his looks. he’ll flash a charming smile and a kiss on the cheek to the vendor he’s currently robbing, distracting them so that he can steal just enough to get by. he’s fucking pretty, and he knows it, so he uses it to his advantage. he exists as an accessory, something to be used, and believes that’s the entirety of his worth. when he escapes the underdark by killing his master (with the help of angel, another pc in our campaign), he takes his left eye out. the scar changes everything. if he’s not pretty, not appealing enough, then he’s fucking useless. he finally got his chance to escape the underdark and now he’s going to be left to die as soon as he sees the sun for the first time. OBVIOUSLY THIS ISNT WHAT HAPPENS. throughout the campaign, one of the other pcs, rpck (no that’s not a typo his name is rpck) falls in love with him. this shit changes EVERYTHING his entire worldview begins to crumble as he learns he can finally be loved and. Yeaghf. im fucking normal about him. theres ALWAYS more i can say abt him but this is long enough already LMFAO thank u for letting me ramble jack :-)

#d&d #oc tag #d4 campaign #juno infyris #ocs #frog answers

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

am sick so if you'd like to speak some suitehearts/killjoys thoughts to me i would love to hear them :P

im sorry ur not feeling well :(( heres a (too goddamn long sorry) summary of all the suitehearts Thoughts i was struck with in latin earlier to hopefully make you feel a bit better <33

so first i was just thinking abt Benz and how hed get roped into the show via threats from bli and then i was like ohhh okay what if they offer him a lab space/equipment to do whatever experiments/research he wants if they agree to being on the show. bc like at this point its abundantly clear that hes not gonna work for them by making new drugs as originally planned but they dont want to risk losing his potential (and they wanna show that theyre still fucking in control) so they make them this "deal" (which theyve really got no other option to take if they dont wanna die) and he gets this lab and figures he can find a way of counteracting blis bullshit sort of in secret bc he knows hes never gonna be able to get this equipment anywhere else

AND THEN i started thinking abt how this would effect his relationship with everyone else on the show (namely Sandman and Donnie bc Crab atp basically just exists off set in a drugged up haze) and i started thinking that maybe thered be some tension there bc the others are either poor or poor AND heavily demoted from past positions of power, and they look at Benz with his higher education and seemingly wealthy lifestyle and they think hes an enthusiastic participant in the system thats fucked them both over. so maybe theyre both kinda dicks to them off set but im thinking Benz doesn't really care bc he doesnt hang around much anyways if they arent filming- hes gotta spend every possible second in the lab yk? and then i started thinking about what might push them all to really talk and become friends which led to THE fucking idea ever

so one day Sandy and Donnie are looking for Benz in his dressing room bc they were supposed to start filming like fifteen fucking minutes ago god Benz this isnt just your show stop being so fucking selfish and come do your job- but they stop as just outside the door as they very clearly hear Benz arguing with someone important and they're saying something about a deal? and Benz sounds pissed saying this wasnt in the agreement and they said he could research whatever he wanted and they cant just do this- if they take this from him hes done. he's walking. they already took everything else from him so if they dont let him have this then hes off the fucking show and they can just try and catch him when he runs. and Whoever theyre talking to is just like "lolz okay well if you're leaving guess were gonna have to recast everyone for 'consistency' so i guess all the others have no reason to be kept around anymore-" and its like. a VERY clear threat on the rest of the Suitehearts' lives and Benz fucking freaks out. he backtracks immediately apologizes for speaking out says they can take his research he doesnt care jesus just dont bring them into this they didnt even do anything

so then Sandy and Donnie are like "ohhh What The Fuck :D" and they kinda feel like assholes for making assumptions bc clearly this isnt the first time Benz has been threatened (and its very much implied that blis gone through with last threats when he wasnt compliant) and theyve both already had their own shit building up and their hatred for bli was already basically at the tipping point already so yeah. they confront Benz and Benz tells him that theyd been trying to develop a sort of blocker for bli's pills. something people in the city can take to negate their effects. he didnt even know if it was possible or if he was on the right track with his research but apparently bes gotten close enough to something for bli to have to step in now. and the other two are obviously like ?????? WHAT THE FUCK YOU MEAN YOU LITERALLY INVENTED A WAY TO FREE PEOPLE FROM BLIS CONTROL WHAT THE SHIT WE HAVE TO HELP YOU SAVE THAT SHIT RIGHT THE FUCK NOW

and Benz is all like "well technically idk if ive invented shit yet bc i haven't actually tested the drug on anyone" and the others are like "bet okay you need a test subject? lets yoink Crab". Benz is incredibly fucking against doing that bc Consent and Ethics. he lets it slip that he does have a stash of the drug already made and hidden in his apartment and hes just gonna test the shit on himself but Sandy and Donnie are noooot fucking having it bc "dude. you understand they arent gonna let you go after this right? even if they keep you alive, they are gonna start tightening the reigns and pumping you full of shit and then youre gonna be the one who needs the blockers" and yeah they really do have a point there so Benz agrees to join them on the escape plan theyve been devising (which side note. yeah those two were planning on running away together anyways but thats a different post probably-) and what follows is the most stressful fucking two weeks of all of their lives as they start discreetly gathering the shit theyll need to leave all while having to wrap filming this season and dealing with management watching their every fucking move and making vague ominous comments about "the future of their careers" AND theyre slipping Crab these new fucking pills and having to keep a close eye on them and keep them calm as theyre slowing coming out of their trance and realizing Oh Fuck Im In The City

and then like. it all comes to a head and they very publicly are chased by a bunch of crows in costume bc they end up having to fin in the middle of filming and i havent thought much abt this lart yet so yeah. thats what i spent all of latin thinking abt I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON KAZ <333

#asks #my headcanons #danger days #danger days headcanons #americas suitehearts #killjoy suitehearts #<gonna try use that tag to keep all my thoughts together :p #danger days the true lives of the fabulous killjoys #and yes this is literally the exact shit i said i wasnt gonna post abt and this is what im writing a fic on so spoilers ig but not really #BUT ITS NOT MY FAULT OKAY I NEED TO CHEER NY FRIEND UP AND I JUST STARTED TYPING AND COULDNT STOP #so enjoy all my Too Many words ig #my writing

[avatarkurukdefender]

Adhd is still adhding so lets talk about A Literal Team Avatar instead of writing it :3

Aang is NOT gonna have a good time. In fact to quote Sans he's in for a BAD TIME

So you know in the Yangchen books how her past lives would frequently possess her body at the absolute WORST TIMES for example, the past life that had really really really bad claustrophobia possessing her when she was in a tight claustrophobic space and making her freak out? Yeah that. You know how none of the avatars after Yangchen never seemed to deal with this? Well I headcanon that the reason why was because Yangchen actively BLOCKED the previous incarnations for pulling that same awful shit with every avatar after her.

So what do you think is gonna happen when Yangchen has been removed from the avatar cycle (and teenified) and is no longer to keep the others from fighting over Aang like a chew toy?

:3

Lets see how badly this can fuck with the poor twelve year old boy

(aka a bunch of random headcanons I came up with for the avatars we only have names and even a few of the nameless ones)

Szeto first of all had BAD sleep paralysis. Like almost every night, hallucination fo something just standing over him (or in some cases full on trying to strangle him) and he cant move or even speak levels of bad. Also had severe hemophobia (fear of blood) and would literally faint at the sight of blood (hehehehe)

Next is Salai who had severe thalassophobia (fear of the ocean/ fear of deep bodies of water) like he would get full on panic attacks every single time he had to cross the ocean. Even worse since I headcanon that he drowned in a a severe storm while sailing on the ocean. And considering the fact that the gaang presumably spends a few weeks on a BOAT on the OCEAN to get from the Northern Water Tribe to General Fong's base...yeah thats gonna be a really bad time for Aang.

Avatar Gun, aka the one that possessed Yangchen to go on a rant about how humanity is selfish and uncaring, how they expect you to pull of a hundred miracles and then get mad you didnt do a hundred and one, yeah...they're gonna be a fun one (also they are nonbinary now because they were never said to be male or female and the wiki used they them pronouns for them so bite me) aside from...that they also absolutely HATED crowds, like avoided them at all costs unless absolutely necessary, otherwise would be sweating and shaking the entire time until they could leave. (Which means Omashu, Ba Sing Se, literally any crowded town or city is gonna be absolute HELL for our favorite little airbender)

Ok now for the ones without names (I have two of those so far)

This armless firebender who someone on tiktok named Avatar Kazza (I dont remember who named her that though)

Oh boy :3

So you know how General Fong pulled Katara under the ground to trigger the avatar state in Aang? Well the same thing happened to her partner. Only difference is that her partner wasn't pulled back out. Oh no. Her partner was pulled underground and CRUSHED to death. (When Kaaza bent them back out, there was nothing but blood, broken pulverized bones and completely crushed organs...) Yeah its gonna be a lot bloodier than in canon (None of General Fong's soldiers will die Im not gonna traumatize Aang THAT badly, but they will be maimed very badly.)

Next is this pretty avatar

I think someone on tiktok named her Avatar Imiq but dont quote me on that

She's the avatar that was absolutely terrified of the Spirit World, to the point that it caused Yangchen's sister Jetsun to get kidnapped by spirits when they went there (because you know the spirits get hostile when you're afraid and guess who decided to pop in at the worst moment?) Luckily this one isnt going to cause too much trouble since I dont think Aang actually goes to the spirit in books two and three unless you count Wan Shi Tong's Library (though Aang is not gonna have a good time when Avatar Imiq starts freaking out because of Wan Shi Tong) but I havent rewatched the show in awhile so I could be wrong

Also you know the avatar that had claustrophobia? That was Wan. With the exception of his tree house Wan absolutely hated small tight spaces. And that is something he was going to make everyone's problem (just like how every avatar inherited Wan's iconic crooked avatar smile, every avatar also inherited some claustrophobia, some worse than others. Unfortunately thats now gonna be Aang's problem)

I just keep coming up with these and thinking "What would suck/be the most inconvenient for Aang to have in this moment" and then assigning that to one of the past lives

(Also here's something funny, you know the air nomad avatar behind Kuruk? They actually used him TWICE in the TLOK image of all the past lives. He's also the second one behind Szeto on the left side)

#avatar the last airbender #hehehehehehehe #Yamgchen is gonna give Aang so many hugs when they eventually meet #because she knows how absolutely miserable and stressful the past lives can be #especially when you dont know hoe to cope

[pansypr3p]

tonight, the emotions blend together as they flow back to me under the cover of three benadryl and a bowl of cereal.

i dont have the words to explain how anything feels or exists to me.

i dont ever have the words, i have never had the words, and that is why i am a wordsmith.

because maybe one day i'll find the words, or they'll create the words, or something - i don't know. hope is stupid, but i hold it anyways.

i dont have the words to say that 'i love you' isn't 'romance'

nor the words to say 'boyfriend' isn't 'romance'

nor the words to say 'i love you' isn't 'boyfriend'

nor that i

am not 'romance'

i am not romance, nor anything in between!

i am a vampyre. your vampyre.

how can i express that i am the mary austin to your freddie mercury, in my eyes?

even if i

am not her

in yours?

how could i ever express that i will never be romance or know what it is, but that i will never stop loving you with my entire chest?

how can i ever hope to express that you are, and always will be, my world?

whether you like it or not?

how can i tell you that i will give you the world, one way or another?

that you can never hope to stop or escape me, unless you kill me, like i've hoped from the beginning?

did you know i was never supposed to become attached to you? you were an intrigue, then a project, and then you were a mission, and i became the missionary that the lord sent to convey that you are the world.

i will die by your hand or i will never die at all, i fear. i will not let another kill me, not even time. it is your right alone.

i have always idolized the violence you hold in your palms, cold and small and strong in ways no one expects, in ways that leave marks on my body and soul.

you, a person, human entirely in every way, are so much more violent than i have ever been, and i love it like an addiction. maybe thats why i always want to hold your hands, dear.

the marks make me smile. i doodle around them. to have a mark from you is to have a memory forever, of the thing i have chosen, to make my life.

i have not ever chosen before.

perhaps you hurt me, and perhaps it is not good for me. perhaps i should have chosen otherwise. perhaps, another might change their mind, after so much.

but i chose you. i will not choose another. not over you. never over you. my first choice, my first freedom, my first hope.

you taught me that even though i am a monster,

i can be free.

that even though i am a vampyre, and i have drained you entirely,

i am still a person.

i will never leave the one who showed me freedom, even if he is pain, even if he is violence, even if i must learn that to be human is to hold anger and pettiness and uncaring like no other, even if i must hide my love in the shadows and live for him without the words at all.

love or not, free or not, person or not, i am loyal, like a dog, to a fault.

i have chained myself again, away from freedom, but i alone hold the keys.

i made a mistake, yes. in being as i was, in behaving like we did, we made mistakes.

i am still learning to be human, and you are still learning to be kind.

sometimes, i still make mistakes.

sometimes, i still want to kiss you, and sometimes, i still want to fuck you, sometimes, i still want to hear you beg for me to take from you again, to drink your blood, sweet as honey, and feel the power you can give me.

but other times, i just want to watch you smile and know it's because of me, just because i'm there, and you like my company, and listen to you laugh because of a dumb joke i made.

most of the time, i want to hear you talk. most of the time, i want to sit with you and watch something i wouldn't care about, if not for you.

most of the time, i want to hold your hand for my own selfish reasons, and brush your hair because you hardly ever do, and make you food because you don't eat nearly enough.

most of the time, i want to buy you your favorite snacks and drinks, just because it makes you happy, and i love knowing you're happy.

most of the time, i just want to play card games and board games and video games with you, and listen to you giggle and make fun of me for making a bad move or not understanding something.

most of the time, i want to listen to the casual noises of your home, of your existence, and watch some video that neither of us care about much because it's just nice, to exist near each other.

is that romance? am i romance, are we romance?

i don't know.

but

is it love?

do i love you?

of course. of course i do. i dont know what else to say. i love you. i love you. i love you

i am not leaving. i will never. i cannot. not truly.

i will love you until you take my life from me, your vampyre, until you stake me through the heart and watch the life bleed out of my eyes.

i will smile as your hands are covered in my blood, as you take the revenge you deserve, as you express to me that you hate me as much as you love me.

i drank your blood, once.

i sucked you dry.

i dont think i'm capable of apologies.

but know i will die for you,

just as much as i am living for you.

#my post #original post #op #poetry #writing #aro #aroace #aspec #arospec #love #love in poetry #bpd #quoiromantic #wtfromantic #borderline personality disorder #fp #fp posting #a little #mcr #reference #as a treat #i will suceed in my classes for him so i can get a good college. i will complete a degree so i can get a good job. #i will obtain certifications so i qualify for more jobs. i will work tirelessly to provide for him as much as i can. #my life will be a memorial when i am done with it.

[literaphobe]

man i will forever think gabe was selfish and everything but for like. 2 seconds i saw the love in him when he said he just wants to be with her and also especially when he hugged her, like there was no kiss or anything but the way he pressed his face against her and smiled like i dont think i have ever seen his forehead relaxed like his body language in that scene was done so well and it made me, even if it was for two seconds, think wow it is all for love. and then ofc i remember everything stupid and horrible he did in the name of it later but for those two seconds wow it really hit me

i was in the kitchen doing dishes thinking about this ask and also all posts ever and the show and things people have said etc etc. and im thinking of. 'the power of love always so strong' and ive seen people like oh scoff at that and im sure its been dissected to the moon and back but i was thinking about 'love' the way you mentioned it and 'power' and how power corrupts and how the power of love they speak of is not always. a positive strength. love can corrupt you like it did gabriel and. the two seconds where he looked very happy in his decision to essentially die to avoid all the problems he created. to leave his son fatherless in this world, without even a proper message or apology to pass on....................... (thats for another post). he's horrible for that. but he's also.... at peace? in love? and that doesn't change. his love for emelie isnt a fabrication. but it has done nothing but hurt everyone else around him. even emelie, in a sense, because if there is a proper interactive afterworld in the mlb universe, and emelie knew about everything he did...? bro is getting dumped beyond the grave

and well im also thinking about the love that adrichat and maribug have. and the strength of their love does not also immediately correlate to. happiness. in fact even if they don't mean to? even if they want to do what's best? they help to hurt each other. like with the secrets being kept. marinette genuinely wants to keep adrien happy. and in doing so she's making decisions that will hurt him in the long run. without even trying to, adrien's given marinette trauma because in some erased timeline his head was filled with far too many truths and he was betrayed by someone who was supposed to love him and she is still reeling from the memories, the nightmares................ and yet they are the only ones who can make it better somehow. only ones who can fix it

#ask #this is all a mess im just rambling #Sorry #mlbposting #ml recreation

[cowboy-robooty]

hiyaaa i was looking through ur art and was wondering if u could elaborate on why u think prumano would be toxic and evil if they were dating anyone else. 😀 thank youuuu! i <3 ur hcs in case u couldnt tell

hello my loyal prumanohead. it has been literally 2 months since you asked this i am so sorry i did that to you. not even gunna get into what happened my lord anyways okie LETS ANSWER DIS BAD BOY!!!

ANYWAYS OMIGAWD I LOVE PRUMANO SO SO SO see i actually talked all about this with my bruder LMV (user lucianoirlmurdervictim) like an hour ago on minecraft but theyre made for eachother because prussia is too stupid to die from romanos aids and romano is too insane to die from prussias aids. prussia is a terrible boyfriend. hes loud hes direct he doesnt think before he does things and above all he cant fucking take a hint ever hes an idiot he never THINKS but hes always like yay!!! 360 noscope gamer time! hes loud and just constantly parties and has fun no matter what and thats what makes him able to survive romano, an even worse boyfriend. romano is fucking psychotic. that bitch is constnatly on PMS he is an idiot he is a tsundere but a violent and cruel at that. its always his way or the highway and he gets mad at literally everything at all times but see prussua is too fucking stupid to feel damage when romano hurls insults at him and tries to make him die because everyone already does that to prussia so he just goes "DAWWWEEE I LOVE YOU ROMANO CHAN!!! <3" romano to prussia is basically a "nobody can bully you but me" boyfriend except prussia doesnt even think hes being bullied at all so they end up matching perfectly bc prussia's ignorance in relationships acts as an antidote to romanos violence and romanos violence ends up just making him pay attention to prussia at all times and prussias like OMIGAWD HE DIDNT LEAVE ME ON READ OR GHOST ME!!!! 😍😍. i actually think that prumano is really funny because romano wants to be really toxic and evil but is just too stupid to be able to and prussia is too stupid to get trapped by it. like because i wrote a whole prumano bible post before that i assume youve read but to reiterate i think prumano is special together because romano is able to learn the joys of loving instead of only desiring to be loved. because prussia loves him and because he doesnt care abt romanos insanity it feels like an unconditional love and its able to make romano chill out on his desperate need to be a pillow princess (since he doesnt have to fight for it for once) and realize that he enjoys loving prussia too. he wants to be the one who makes prussia smile too. romano learns he desires prussia because he likes seeing him happy too not only because he likes when prussia makes ROMANO happy. i think in most relationships romano has at the core he usually mainly likes people because they like him, not because he really likes them. so because prussia unlocks this true love shit in romano by being a tone deaf idiot whos constantly selfish and clingy to romano even when hes furious, romano gets his possessiveness HARDCORE. since i believe that romano inherently has a possessiveness built in him because yknow hes the fail italy brother mf literally gets NOTHING for his entire life. he dont even get the name italy hes fucking romano rodf. i think romano is very possessive towards prussia even though he constantly tries to kill him and because of that and his general inexpereince in relationships and his tsundereism it mixes together to make him actually have pretty toxic intentions because he genuinely loves prussia. i think hes the type of fella to be like "grrr.... i dont like when prussia is spending so much time with other people... hell no im not gunna tell him i miss him thats some fucking gay shit... i think instead i will punish him everytime he talks to his friends so he'll do that less. yes thats a very normal thing to do." and obviously you can see how that could lead to a super duper toxic relationship all bc romano refuses to communicate and i think in relationships with other people it would end up becoming toxic bc the other person would obviously catch on and become isolated n shit and all the bad shit would happen. but not prussia he built stupid 😍 because prussia doesnt notice when romano is being exceptionally mean to him as a punishment bc he just cant pick things up since hes too wrapped up in his own world. he cant pick up subtle queues from his partner so hes like la de da with romano

and doesnt get manipulated at all to become isolated or anything. plus romanos way of manipulating is fucking stupid and terrible too because he only thinks of trying to pavlovs dog other people to get what he wants or make them think theyre cursed unless they do what he wants without telling them what he wants. so hell punish/curse prussia by like putting spiders in his drinks secretly and thinks to himself "heh. that should teach him. next time hell know he should be only smiling at ME" and prussia just thinks that maybe he should change his name to spider georg after accidentally swallowing the 15 spider in a row. so really. i guess because romanos so incapable at manipulation it wouldnt really be hed be a toxic boyfriend more like just make life insufferable (on top of the fact ur dating romanos personality). so anyways though. i hope this answered ur question idk i kinda rambled abt prumano bc rn its hard to explain the intricucies of how they are perfect for eachother because they are the antidote to eachothers aids. but i hope you get what im sayin here 😍 i think actually prumano is like the mirror evil version of itager, but thats a whole nother post and maybe ill write it if someone asks me or if i feel like it. they make me crazy asf okay i lovee prumano i should write a prumano fanfic romano chan is so crazy hes so #girl they love eachother FOREVER <3

heres a old doodle of italy i did to test a pen. sorry i need to answer this now or else ill never answer it ever so i cannot get up rn and draw prumano or else this ask will be answered probably never 💔

#i also think bc romano can expell his demons onto prussia he never builds up enough anger to actually say n do shit that will hurt him #like as in make prussia wanna kms or genuinely make him feel like he wants to die #he knows where the line is and he always goes right up to it but would never cross it #and prussia only reacts when people cross his line they can get as close and they like and he does nothing so it works out #romano be my possessive king fr #dont even get me STARTED on how he feels about prussias past love with friedrich #ask #hetalia #aph italy #hws italy #prumano #romapru #draws

[pupuseriazag]

Tw: venting (mentions of death trauma, family problems, etc)

I think I am going through another episode like years ago, I have tried my best to keep myself stable and silence the dangerous and panic inducing thoughts but I dont know how much more I will be able to endure.

For those that dont know, I have major anxiety and phobia to death. In 2021 I had to be taken to a psychologist because I broke down in my moms arms, not being able to stop the constant storm of my brain making me panic about how one day Im not going to be here,that I could die any moment and I dont have a guarantee of whats going to happen after that... Its hell, its horrible I love living so much and I know I should already have processed the thoughts... But I cant man. I cant and its horrible to live like this.

I was medicated with anxiety pills (my mom was afraid I could get addicted to antidepression pills until months later another doctor actually prescribed them to me) and ever since I "became better" I've been feeling guilty to ask her to buy me more because I dont want to worry her more.

Before turning 18 I NEVER visioned myself getting to live 24. I cried the early morning I turned 18 because I just didnt knew what to do. I still dont know what to do.

Im at 24 and Im getting let down more and more by life. Situation at home is still shitty and I just... Dont see a way for us to leave here.

Its been 5 fucking years since we began searching for a home to move away from my dad (to clarify: my dad is not physically nor verbally abusive. But he is a cheater, a selfish person and emotionally manipulative jobless liar.) and we cant... We just cant. Everywhere expects you to be paying 400$ a month for a one room apartment or 90k for a home thats falling apart, we cannot afford to move to another departament because of my university and her job. Traffic from other cities like San Marcos, San Martin and even Mejicanos is just too fucking much. Its already too much where we live.

Even if I had a job, we couldnt be able to move somewhere better, we have been stuck here for 5 years, two fucking years taken from covid and 3 to try to stabilize ourselves after that (plus his medical bills after he got kidney stones riiiight after leaving his job, very fucking convenient)

We cant even move to my grandma's or my mom's sister's house. They live on the other side of the country and they have always been very vocal about being against my mom and siding with my dad. And even tho we have the support of some of my dad's sisters... We just cant move to their home.

Everyday I wake up here is like being stuck in a time loop. Every day is the fucking same and I just find a way to distract myself before being yanked back to reality, same with my mom. And you know the worst? I also have to be my moms therapist.

Im tired man, all of this is driving me crazy and the hopelessness I feel when I realize my position is just... Overwhelmingly sad. I hate this life, I hate the life I was given and I hate being brought to a broken family, I hate that my life could have been better if ONLY my dad was not a piece of shit cheating on my mom and putting HIS family side before us, I hate that things could have been so... So much different if only he was a good person. Im not strong enough to continue pretending its not affecting my mental health, no wonder the intrusive thoughts increased these months... These past days.

I feel miserable, I feel worthless, I feel like everything is not worth it. I have insomnia until like 4 am and I panic when I cant find anything I can listen to so I can get some sleep. I havent been able to draw because I dont feel its worth it... I have only been able to distract myself playing and going to uni.

And even putting my family problems aside, I still cant find joy or hope. National news and seeing how this country its being turned into the gringos/politicians playhouse, how even if my life was "better" Im still in danger for being a queer afab person. How people still have blind faith in a fascist regime and money runs lower and lower for the working class meanwhile they proudly announce the inauguration of gentrified beaches and zones of San Salvador, displacing markets and historial establishments to put a fucking starbucks and other multinationals to be more gringo friendly while zones like Apopa and Soyapango are heavily militarized and the police can just say you are linked to the gangs to abuse you.

On top of that coming to terms that I may not end up working in anything art related and having to accept thar if I ever get a job Ill have to rot in an office, seeing how even tho I want to stay away from the norm I feel forced to join it... And that also means having to ""accept my prewritten gender role"".

Everyday that passes feels as if life will force me to live as a straight cis woman or otherwise I will just have to accept being alone the rest of my life.

I know Im being too negative right now, Im letting out how I've been feeling because lately its just been... Too much. Last night I even had a small disagreement with my mom because Im just not in the mood for being her therapist during this we're dealing. I know my dad is an asshole and I know hes using the few money he has to pamper his other woman instead of helping with the bills, I already know he tries to lie to us and acts as the victim. Its tiring to go through the same conversation about him everyday.

So yeah, back to my life... I just wish for some peace you know? I wish for a house where I can actually see the sky from my window and not worrying about at least my family problems. Srry for the sudden emotional explosion

#zagreus rambling #venting #Ill try to see if I can get another prescription of the anxiety meds soon #maybe with those things could get more bearable #I cried writing this so... yeah

[skunkes]

sorry for now rare vent post [incredibly long] but

I was JUST thinking about how funny it is to now be half a Positive Thinking person but still incredibly doomer and pessimistic. Like I'm better than before and you can tell! I have to cobble together simple delights so I don't fully snap...like, I go to the grocery store and I get so Happy that I get to leave my house and buy little treats and such. I've trained myself to get excited over the smallest things, because they're all I have.

Doesn't change that my life is never going to not suck + I'll never be able to afford to Live and I don't think there's anything good in my future. And if there is, it's all so much Work + I've had the motivation to Live beat out of me since I was small.

Which then gets countered with "well it doesn't matter what happens to me, I hope the people I love make it out and end up happy." But I dunno. Seems selfish and dumb to get sad about stuff knowing It Doesnt Matter What I Think, Because I'm an NPC, but I do anyway... I get sad... god forgive me, for I have had the impudence to yearn and cry and ache for a better Life despite being a crack in the sidewalk in the grand scheme of things...

I do things for others because I'd want em to do it for me but nobody ever will do it for me and thats fine because I don't deserve it. But I'll still get sad...! Because I'm kind of stupid in that way...!

Its just a cycle of my gosh. i wish i had good things ➡️ i dont really deserve good things because I suck + am lazy and will die (🧿) one day anyway ➡️ i hope others get good things...+ i will try to help ➡️ i feel stupid for getting sad over wanting and not having good things. when I have no right to be...because it doesn't matter...im not da main character...i jst hope everyone else gets what they need/want deserve...etc....

-

well... I'll never be able to live comfortably, and I'm unlovable and incapable of interacting with human beings, whom I adore. I have no prospects and no future. In 5 years I will still not be on T. + Whatever job I can manage to get will kill me in between struggling to pay rent (implying I ever move out.)

But at least on Thursday I'll be able to go with my sister to get some pancake bites, with nutella and strawberries and bananas...

Im really really excited...!!!!

#talkys #long post #sorry sorry...i finally regain sentience after a few days of antibiotic induced grog and fog + the first thing I do is write another #feelings novel...wah! i promise it wont be happening often again. jst didnt feel like putting it on priv

[mikeyelistsukasa]

HELLO

SO

May I request a Hanakou oneshot where Hanako feels insecure about being Kou's boyfriend, thinking he can get something much better so Kou comforts him??

Thank u 🤭

Ah cat ofc

My first hanakou writing (took me while to make that ugly banner)

Daily hanakou🧡❤️

Insecure hanako!

It was a basic day hanako said to himself

Exept he is all alone

In the bathroom

Waiting for the the next day to start so he can see his boyfriend kou again

For some reason this time it felt like a WEEK has passed and not 4hours

So he decided to go take a walk at the garden to clear off his mind

While he was outside he was not able to think straight because all he could think of is kou

He barely started to visit for cleaning duty with yashiro

Because he was too busy hanging with another ghost

Or sometimes he leaves earlier with yashiro to go somewhere fun

He mumbled to himself.

„Ofcourse. Whats so fun in hanging out at school“

Was he not good enough?,was he getting boring? He hopes that this isn’t the case

He wished that he could also go outside with them. To the beach.park.Restaurants.

But he just HAD to be cursed by not being able to leave the school

He didn’t even realize that the sun is starting to rise

He was too deep in his awful thoughts

But after snapping out of it he went back to the school into the girls bathroom

„4 more hours“

It’s Friday so they had a short day today

Just as all the kids started to enter the school he was on his way to greet both of them

He didn’t see yashiro „probably is late“ he thought to himself

But then his eyes landed on kou

He was about to approach him until he saw him

Mitsuba. One of kou‘s friends

Guess he was faster than him..

Not wanting to „disturb“ these two he decided that he should go.

„2 more hours….should i?“

He was unsure if he should go visit kou

He did miss him so he went

„You’ve got to be kidding me“

Why is He there again.

He is so damn CLINGY

He didn’t try to make a move on kou though right?

A small panic ran through his mind

And without thinking straight he just went up to these two

They both look at hanako

„Oh hanako! How are you? Ive missed you!“

Mitsuba just stayed quiet not wanting to say anything to the other ghost

Missed him huh? If he really did then he wouldn’t have avoided him so much

„Uhm yeah hey kou.im ok.ive missed you too„

„Oh by the way is it okay if we won’t do the cleaning duty today? Me and yashiro promised to meet up at her place today“

Again?.

How long will this all keep going?!!?

„Ah well can’t you like dunno skip it on another day? You know its very VEEERRRY lonely being allllll alone here~“

„Oh come on you wont die from boredom. And besides its pretty important to me.“

„Fine fine. I have to talk to you later anyway. So I’ll see you at lunch“

„A-actually i promised to go take pictures with mitsuba at lunchtime“

Hearing that made hanako snap on the inside

He quickly turned around to the pink ghost giving him a death glare

„Is that so?…“

„I-I UHM ACTUALLY HAVE SOME THINGS TO DO dont hurt me SO SORRY KOU WE CANT MEET UP UHM BYE“

This sudden reaction made kou startle a little

„uhm bye? See you.“

„Soooooooo still busy?????“

„Well not anymore hah“

„GREAT“

He hugged kou tightly happy that he can spend time with him

This made kou blush a little by his sudden hug but he still hugged back

„Can you let go? People are starting to look weirdly at me“

„Just five more minutes❤️“

As expected kou went to the bathroom to meet up with hanako

Just as he entered he was already greeted with a kiss on his cheek

„Hahha you should’ve seen your face!“

He was right kou‘s face looked super funny. He was red like a tomato!

„YOU DAMN BASTARDS THATS CHEATING“

„Nope. No it wasn’t ~“

Kou just mumbled some light hearted curse words while hanako was laughing

„ hahahh…ah Ive missed this“

„What do you mean by that?“

Crap

Hanako frowned and took kou‘s hand

„Listen this might sound selfish from me but…“

Kou was feeling intense at this moment

„I’ve been feeling as if im not good enough for you“

Ok help the poor boy he is about to have a Heart attack

„Maybe you should find someone e-„

Kou quickly grabbed hanako‘s other hand

„DONT YOU DARE SAY THAT“

Hanako was taken back by his sudden rising voice

„Hanako.you mean a lot to me.i don’t know what made you feel that you aren’t good enough but i will do my best to make you never EVER feel like that“

These words almost made hanako tear up

„Its just. Why would you be with someone who can’t even leave the school“

Kou just suddenly hugged hanako

„I understand what you mean.mitsuba also told me how much this suck-…no this is isnt about him right now.“

He pushed hanako slightly to look him in the eyes

„always stuck to the school or not.i dont care.ghost or human.i dont care. Ive fallen for your personality.and all the adventures we’ve had“

„I love you and only you hanako“

Hanako was speechless

„He just hugged him back but this time more tightly

„I know idiot.i love you too“

Thank you for your request! Hope i left you satisfied as always! Please visit again <3

#tbhk hanako #tbhk kou #hanakou #hanako x kou #tbhk hanakou #tbhk amane #jshk kou #jshk hanako #jshk hanakou

[upagainstthesunset]

Last rb got me thinking about how Metron is written. In his first appearance Orion outright slanders him to his face, which sets the tone for how readers will see him. Immediately it's established that he lacks empathy or feelings and is more like machines. Orion is somewhat hostile, but doesn't fight him or really do much more than throw insults. Plus, Highfather summoned Metron and includes him when communicating with the Source. So Metron is not an enemy, and is at least esteemed enough to be shown as an important player to our good guys, whether they like it or not.

And he himself makes it clear he cares only for knowledge. But then he immediately gets involved and interrupts Orion's fight w Kalibak. So i mean, seems like maybe he's driven to do more than just what he says. Im a big proponent of Metron as a character saying and doing two different things, but im not sure if I've absorbed that from other depictions.

Then he's shown with a young child flying around and observing creatures and space! Imo not what youd expect from someone as cold as Orion seems to think, and certainly not what a villain would do. This is Esak, and ive gone on tangents about him before, so all im going to mention now is that he's shown as innocent and full of ideals. Interesting to put him alongside Metron! I dont know if Kirby already had Esak's downfall in mind at the time, but the intent would vastly change how this dynamic is interpreted. But since i dont think we have that information, im going to go with Hunger Dogs coming later and for the time, Esak's innocence as a way to show that Metron is not evil. There is good in him.

But then the past is revealed. After we are feeling more comfortable with the primary players, that's when we're hit with flashbacks. Metron makes a deal with Darkseid for the x-element and ingratiates himself to Heggra. Its clear he'd do ANYTHING to get the key that unlocks a path to near infinite knowledge. He puts technology above all else, knowing that many will die, and thats exactly what happened. This was such an impactful part of the history between New Genesis and Apokolips that i think its what stuck with many future writers, leading them to depict Metron as more of a villain, bc nobody good would ever do such a thing. And i could debate whether or not hes true neutral (i dont think he is) but im not getting into that now. The point that im getting to is that the interpretation that makes the most sense for the scenario and fitting his character is the amount of selfishness and egoism in his action. I think the sacrifice was equal to what he gained, but the lives of others werent his to sacrifice and thats the problem. All very interesting to think about.

Side note that #22 in Evanier's run digs more into this, which is fascinating since he had worked directly with Kirby on the original Fourth World titles. Makes me wonder about what went into his writing.

I feel like there was another topic i wanted to address but now i cant remember, so i leave it for next time. I dont think im saying anything new or revolutionary here. Just rolling things over in my mind. I love thinking about character motivations through the lens of what the author wanted us to feel, so anyone out there feel free to chime in if youve got your own interpretations.

#katetakes #metron if i fits i sits #metronmeta

[haruhey]

chronological thoughts of 11x20

i left my laptop charger at home (i’m at my dorm rn) so i’m not in a good mood so let’s hope twd helps 🤩

i heard carol’s in this episode so i’m so ready rn

- LANCE 🫶

- EUGENEEE 🫶🫶🫶

- OMG CAROL AND DARYL SLAYYYYYYY

- CARYL SLAYYYYYYYY

- SEASON 7 REUNION THIS IS SICK

- opening carol scene 🫶

- oh shit oh no zeke

- ?:!-?1?-?

- A CAROL SLAY PERIODDDDD

- CAROL MAIN CHARACTER CAROL MAIN CHARACTER CAROL MAIN CHARACTER THIS IS WHAT DHE DESERVED 💕💝💝💕❣️💕💕💝❣️💕❣️❣️❣️💕💕💝

- omg daryl getting murked thats on period

- OMG HE WALKERED

- WHY DIDNT HE JUST PULL OUT THE KNIFE AND STAB AGAIN???

- OH MY GOD THE DREAM TEAM 🫶

- omg is it only them two left?

- THIS IS WHAT WE COULD HAVE HAD IN THE CARYL SPINOFF 😭😭😭

- ok but consider sebastian sucked major ass 🙄

- yumiko slay

- THEY KILLED THEM?/!-?/??2?/ HELLOOOOOOO???

- why do i kinda love the commonwealth arc

- its like all these big bads are just really selfish bitches in suits who needed to be bullied as a kid like just punch them fr and they’d crumble and i think thats so funny

- NOOO THEY TOOK DOG???

- “it isnt gonna be easy” “when was it ever?” ♥️

- why dont u just agree to do it and then convince pamela to let ur friends go and then at night kill pamela and then the next day dont show up in court

- CONNIEEEEEEEEEE I LOVE HER I LOVE HER SO MUCHHHHHH

- ?? if these bitches hurt kelly i’m gonna piss on their pillows

- omg connie is so slay

- nooo yumiko having to deal with the fact she’s not gonna know whats gonna happen to her friends for a while 💔

- YES CAROL AND DARYL ON A MISSIONNNNN

- then they’re gonna start k i s s i n g i just know it

- jesus christ i love their teamwork❣️

- um hey what the fuck

- daryl is giving very much judgemental current boyfriend looking at ur ex

- lance looks like he likes being choked a lil too much

- omg they really are zooming

- caryl prison break ♥️

- LONGING STARE??? WITH EMOTIONAL MUSIC??? BYE

- this episode is the best fr

- lmaooooo sebastian

- YOU WERE RIGHT TO LEAVE HIM BEHIND??? HE WAS SLOWING YOU DOWN??? HORNSBY STOP

- omg carol is not like the other girlies

- yes she is so slay❣️ lance hornsby rights 🫶

- why does he always look shocked scared and terrified

- nooooo bbys dont worry carol’s on it u know how she is she is going to slay!!!

- NOOOOOOO EUGENE 😭😭😭

- MY RAT MAN PLEASE I LOVE HIM 😭

- just kill her guys

- this is not the end!! period!!!

- josh mcdermitt actually pops tf off as eugene he’s so good

- lance and carol on a lil insanity date 🫶

- ummmm so lance had a crush on pamela??? and is he saying that carol has a crush on daryl???

- “which, i admit, was… mishandled” guys i literally love hornsby

- “more importantly, there’s something i wanted to ask you” hornsby wants to make out w her so hard

- WHY TF IS THIS SHOW SO DARK

- no fucking way are there whisperers down here

- omg is he gonna die

- OH MY GOD THERE ARE SO MANY

- HES GONNA LET HER DIE??

- HIS FACE CAME OFF oh my god thats disgusting

- oh god oh no they got caught 😭😭

- OMG DARYL TO THE RESCUEEEE

- literally fuck off pamela this isnt for your people we all know that

- OMG YUMIKO SLAY

- ik if i was yumiko my pettyass would be making a show of the fact i was reading a script 😭😭

- “its uh, a great, uh, pleasure to uh, hold on let me-“

- booo this speech sucks get a new writer pamela!!!

- OMG SHES MAKING SURE THE COMMONWEALTH KNOWS WHO HE IS IN CASE PAMELA GETS “RID” OF HIM AND TO LET HIM KNOW HOW SHE REALLY FEELS IF THEY KILL HER THATS SO SLAY YUMIKO

- YUMIKO IS SO SLAYYYYYYYYYYY I LOVE HER I LOVE STRONG WOMEN ON TELEVISION I LOVE STRONG ASIAN WOMEN WITH UNAPOLOGETICALLY ASIAN NAMES I LOVE HER I LOVE HERR

- not lance pleading his case to daryl and carol as he’s covered in blood 😭😭

- “ik you heard me” “yeah, only because you wouldn’t shut up” CAROL YOURE SO LEGENDARY I LOVE HERRRRR

- carol and daryl are so tired of him pls 😭

- do u think carol and daryl like chat over tea and talk abt what they’re gonna do to hornsby or do u think carol and daryl just think the same and had the same idea without talking to each other

- “i’ve made mistakes” BRO??? WHO EVEN ARE YOU 😭😭

- SLAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY CAROL KILLED LANCE SLAYYYYYYYYYY SHES SO COOL SLAYYYYYYYY

- daryl didnt even move a finger he knew she got it

- damn rip to a real one u were so fun

- daryl dixon passenger princess❣️

- THEY TOOK DARYL’S KIDS FROM HIM DARYL YOURE SO AWESOME

- HERSHEL?? LEAVE HERSHEL ALONE LEAVE HIM ALONE GET BACK 🤺 BACK I SAY 🤺

- aisha tyler my girlie 💕

- carol daryl divide and conquer iktr iktr!!

- “i really think he believes what hes saying” girl you wrote him 😭😭 wdym “i really think” 😭😭

- this episode was so fucking good omg

#get to know haruhey #haruviews #the walking dead season 11 #the walking dead #the walking dead spoilers #twd spoilers #twd season 11 #daryl dixon #carol peletier #carol please give me a chance i’m begging you please please please

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tw sui, vent about suicidal friend

my friend who lives on the other side of the country is having a really bad depressive episode and says their gonna commit sui i dont know what to do im terrible at talking to people especially comforting people and they dont wanna talk about i either but like i feel like i need to do something

they've threatened sui multiple times before but i feel like they're actually serious this time she said shes written a note and has a plan and they also already sent a message about it to their teacher who she trusts as well as tried contacting a chrisis line but apparently the line was too long so they hang up. i dont wanna lose them idk what to do

i have their mums contact info but i feel like if i tell her mum 1 it wont help and 2 shes never gonna forgive me cause her mums a bit abusive and has downplayed their symptoms a LOT so she probably wouldn't even take me seriously if i did text her.

but also i know what theyre going through and i get wanting to not talk or get help when it gets like that and the worst thing is that i have no idea what could help. idk what helps me so how could i help her. idk whats gotten me through wanting to commit, im still kinda there. yes its better for me rn cause i know i have something to look forward to (getting out of a shitty situation in like four months) but i know they dont really have anything to look forward to. theyre stuck in that shitty situation (thats much worse than mine) and cant leave for at least a year probably longer, so its not like i can say that it gets better cause idk if it will.

and also theyre not in therapy and dont really have any friends where they live so i feel like im the only person who can make them feel better or rethink this but i cant. i know ive said i dont wanna be a sui hotline but if i somehow could convince them not to do it id talk to them for hours on end about it but i cant and they dont wanna hear it

plus i thought they had gotten better and now theyre back to this again and it just makes me so sad.

also this feels selfish but idk if im gonna be able to continue if they die

#apple rants #tw sui #tw sui ideation