#and it has gotten easier!

[gwinverarrouz]

me: well, I’ve decided that I would draw whatever my heart desires for the last part of the challenge, so. what do I want to draw

me:

me: LITTOL CRITTERS

Aah, that was so nice. I love this actually. Just pay me to paint various amphibians, crustaceans, insects and other little beasties and I will be happy I think.

(Featuring my beloved little cat as well!)

And thus concludes my “photo studies without picking colours” August challenge! I redrew the picture I did at the beginning of the month and while the difference might not be the greatest (?) I do feel more confident so, yay! Good job me you did it

I really want to go back to drawing less realistic stuff tho XD

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

(references from pexels.com, except the cat which is mine, putting some comparisons under the readmore if you want to see how well I did with the colour matching) 

:>

#mydrawings #studies #August drawing challenge #insect #bugs #frog #crab #butterfly #snail #my cat #ask to tag? i know not everyone likes to see realistic bugs or frogs but honestly this was #such a breath of fresh air after the portraits #they all took one hour except my cat who took two because she deserves it #part of me wants to keep working on that cat picture a bit... it looks fine at that scale but if you zoom in some parts are a little rough #and that would be nice to have as a polished piece... we'll see we'll see #decided early on to redraw the first one at the end of the month to see how that had changed #and it has gotten easier! #which is good

[powdermelonkeg]

Important rules/tips I've learned as an adult that helped with anxiety

If people are mad at you, it's their responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess

If they're mad at you in secret anyways, they're the ones in the wrong, not you

If people don't like what you're doing, it's their responsibility to tell you

If they say it's fine when it's really not, they're the ones in the wrong, not you

People are allowed to be wrong about you

If they are wrong about you, wait for them to bring it up, because if you try to, you will inevitably overcorrect

Some people are committed to misunderstanding you. You will not win arguments against them. Yes, even if you explain your point of view. They do not care. Drop it

The worst thing that will happen from a first-time offense is being told not to do it again. Maybe with a replacement if you broke something

You can improve relationships and gauge willingness to talk to you by giving compliments. It's like a daily log-in bonus and nobody thinks twice about it

Most things are better after you sleep on them

Most things are better after you have a meal

Most things are better after you shower

Your brain makes up consequences that are irrational. If the worst DOES come to pass and someone acts like they do in your head, they are overreacting, and you are entitled to say "what the fuck"

If your chest hurts after you feel like you've made a social error, that's called rejection-sensitive dysphoria. It means your anxiety is so bad that it's causing you physical pain, which is a good indicator that you're overreacting. Tense yourself, hold it for 20 seconds, let it go, then find a distraction

If you're suddenly angry at someone after you feel like you made a social error, that's also rejection-sensitive dysphoria. You are going to feel annoyed about it for awhile, but being genuinely pissed off is your anxiety trying to find something to blame to take the responsibility off your shoulders, and getting scared because it can't justify itself. Deep breaths, ask yourself how much you ACTUALLY want to be angry at that person, then find a distraction

"Sour grapes" is more healthy for you than stewing. Deciding you don't like someone who's perpetually annoyed with you, won't talk to you, etc. makes letting go of anxiety over them easier

If people don't like you, they will find reasons to be annoyed with you when they otherwise wouldn't. If people do like you, they will find reasons NOT to be annoyed with you when they otherwise would. People do not ping-pong between the two

You DO have to make a conscious choice not to think about something. If you're having trouble circling back to it, say out loud that you're done thinking about it and why. Then find a distraction

When you're upset, part of you is going to want to make false bids for attention (suddenly texting differently, heavy sighs, etc. but when someone asks you about it, you tell them it's nothing). Do not listen to it. You gain nothing from it except more misery

People like to help people they care about. It makes them feel good about themselves

If you think you're insufferable for needing help, see above. Yes, really. They get a serotonin kick from it

If you think you're insufferable for mannerisms you have, you either have to consciously choose not to do them, or accept that they're part of the package that comes with you. Being apologetic about existing does nothing except make you more miserable

If you do things you don't like when you feel meh about it, it makes it easier to do them when you hate it

If you avoid things you don't like when you feel meh about it, it reinforces and magnifies how bad it feels when you hate it

Seriously. Read those last two points again. If you can make yourself make a phone call when you've got nothing to lose, you will slowly lose that panic you get when you have to make a phone call you haven't prepared for. You do have to CONSCIOUSLY take that step

Hobbies that make you care for something get rid of that nagging feeling that you're not doing enough. Go grow some rosemary

If you don't engage with your hobbies regularly, you will feel miserable, and anxiety will spike

Hobbies are things that give you a bit of happiness. They do not have to be organized or named to do that. Go be creative in something. Play with coins. Make up lists. Start a new WIP

No one cares what you look like

If people point out things they don't like about how you look unprompted, they are being rude. You are entitled to say "what the fuck"

People who like you will find you pretty to some degree. Minor things about your appearance go completely unnoticed. Literally, scars and dots and blemishes do not register to someone who likes your company

You looking at yourself in the mirror is 10x more closely than anyone is going to look at you

If you're anxious about your body type, and you're creatively inclined, make/write an oc with that same shape. Give them nice things and make other characters love them. Put them on adventures. You'll start to see yourself in the mirror more kindly

You care about wording and perfect lines/colors way more than anyone who views your work ever will

Sometimes when you're upset, you're going to feel like not eating. Do not do that. Not eating makes you more miserable

Same with things you normally enjoy. Denying yourself helps no one. You are punishing yourself for being sad. Stop it

Both of these will take conscious decision to break the habit of. Make yourself do it anyways, and it will slowly get easier

And again, to reiterate: If someone is mad at you, it is THEIR responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess

#anxiety #long post #i have been an adult for the better part of a decade and it has gotten SO much easier as i internalized these #swearing tw

[writer-room]

You ever just see people talk about the Percy Jackson books and know somewhere, deep in your heart, that none of these people have understood that this is a series made for middle schoolers. And that fandom will very frequently lie to them like, all the time. No, that character probably isn’t ooc, you’re just thinking of what the fandom turned them into. No, this book isn’t a horrible stain next to the others before it, literally all of them were like this. It’s Percy Jackson. It’s cheesy and occasionally makes a very questionable writing decision.

You gotta be in this for the long haul or jump ship my guys. Be cringe and free or be gone

#percy jackson #tsats #solangelo book #rick riordan #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #the sun and the star #text post #yall are astounding me in ways i didnt know was possible god bless #also this was mostly written by mark not rick. like yes he signed off on it but still this is mostly mark #but its still Fine??? its fine?????? besties a book abt our favorite gays not being perfect is not the end of the world #did i cringe? hell yes. but was i free? tremendously. and i had a lot of fun i think #'bianca is in elysium but she was reincarnated??' yeah thats odd. anyway that scene was cute wasnt it #'everything is so on the nose' yeah its for middle schoolers and percy jackson isnt known for subtlety. its very rare #'will was ooc' weve literally barely gotten anything on him and no povs until now this IS establishing his character #'the puffs remove nicos whole trauma' no it doesnt. its a fantasy way to sort of explain that nicos trauma is now open instead of repressed #do i wish it wasnt sometimes explained as 'now the trauma is gone'? yes. but i think its moreso meant to be a way of nico dealing with them #he still HAS that trauma fellas. hes still going to be living with it. its just gonna be easier now. thats part of healing besties #also we dont know how these puffs are gonna act in the future so like. hush. shhhhhhhhhh. shut. it was literally never going to be perfect #its pjo. i love this series to death but. its pjo. it is. in fact. sometimes badly written. as it has been many times before in books before #and what else??????? it may not be written the greatest but its MY series that isnt written the greatest square up

[badolmen]

“I’m scared to pirate stuff - ” do it scared!*

*with Firefox and Adblock and a VPN and -

If you want a nonspecific, nonexhaustive “where do I even start” guide…

Sail the cyber seas at your own risk!

Streaming - “I want to watch xyz”

This is normally what most people want when they talk about pirating.

Use Firefox with uBlock Origin and additional privacy add-ons such as PrivacyBadger, TrackMeNot, etc.

Free VPNs are out there. Get one - but vet it’s efficacy. My go-tos are Proton VPN, or Windscribe if you plan to do a bit of torrenting.

What is torrenting? How does it work? Here’s a guide!

Back to streaming -

Make sure that a) you’ve got your Mozilla browser with all its adblocking private glory, and b) you’ve got a VPN turned on to hide what you’re doing in that browser from your ISP (internet service provider).

Now you need to actually find a site to stream from. This is the tricky part, because openly sharing these sites will get them taken down if they’re talked about widely enough. (Remember how tiktok idiots got zlibrary taken down?)

You’re going to have to talk to people on forums. You’re going to have to experiment with sites you find yourself. Search for ‘x online free’ and look at the links that come up - is the preview text mangled or clickbaitey? Are there Reddit threads about that website confirming or denying its content? A good rule of thumb is to ignore the top result or two - copycats of good streaming sites will often buy out the top result spot. Eventually, you’ll develop a good gut feeling and understanding of what a good site ‘looks like’ from the results page alone.

However, there are some places that compile good sites that haven’t been nuked by lawyers (yet) - check out r/FMHY! The masterposts are actively curated and updated when a site goes down or is found to have malicious downloads.

Remember - loose lips sink ships. No tweeting (xeeting?) or Facebook statuses about your new favorite piracy website and where you found it. Even posting to tumblr (kind of like this…) isn’t a great idea if you want those websites to stay under the radar and stay accessible. Nobody talks, everybody walks (away with their share of pirate booty)

If you aren’t downloading media, pick pretty much any site and watch away! Adblock and Firefox will keep away pop-ups and other annoying ads, and your VPN means your ISP can’t tell that you’re visiting an unofficial streaming service.

Note: In my experience, I’ve never heard of visiting a site and watching stuff on it infecting or otherwise compromising your computer. That tends to come from misclicks on invisible or overwhelming pop-up ads that redirect you to an automatic download or similarly malicious bullshit. If you’re using Firefox and uBlock, you shouldn’t be in any danger of an accidental redirect.

Downloads - “I want to keep xyz”

This is the realm of pirate archiving - you’re keeping files physically on your hard drive, an external hard drive, or burning a disk.

Adblock + Firefox browser? Check. VPN on? Check.

Go to your streaming site of choice - most if not all have download options. You can download those files or, manually, right click and save the video file from the webpage as an mp4. I honestly don’t know if there’s a difference in quality or more danger in clicking the download buttons, but regardless -

Run that puppy through VirusTotal.com! It’s a reliable browser based virus checker - if the file is too large, use a local virus checking program (your native Windows Defender on Windows computers or, I prefer, Malwarebytes)

Generally mp4 and mp3 files are clean - choose where to save them for the long term, and bam! Free forever media.

Optionally, I also upload mp4 files to a named Google document - this way I can easily share them or make them findable through a ‘xyz Google doc’ search for others :]

Torrents - “I want to keep and share xyz”

I’m not going to go into this subject in depth because, honestly, it’s not something I do regularly.

See the previously linked Torrenting guide for information on how the process works, and check out r/FMHY for recommendations and warnings about different torrenting clients (I’ve personally only used qBittorrent - I’ve heard to stay away from the Pirate Bay and Bittorrent.)

As with streaming, turn on that VPN baby! You’re going to need one that supports peer-to-peer (p2p) connections, so Proton’s free version is a no-go. Windscribe is what I’ve used for torrenting (and it’s a good free VPN on its own - I’m just partial to Proton). You get 10GB every month on Windscribe’s free version, which is more than enough for a few movies/a season or two of your favorite show.

(Bigger torrents like video games are easily 30+ GB, so be prepared to either pay for a no-limit premium account or spend a few months downloading your files in chunks.)

VPN on? Double check.

Boot up your torrenting client - I use a slightly out of date version of qBittorent, but there are other options. The Reddit thread and previously linked torrenting guide have a few dos and donts of selecting a client, so be thorough before you download your client of choice.

This is getting into the logistics of torrenting a bit, so forgive me if this is vague or incorrect, but now you need a torrent seed. These will be .tor files found through pirating websites or archives - these are rarely malicious, but it’s good to run any piracy related download through something like VirusTotal.com or scan it with a local program like Malwarebytes.

You open your seed file in your client and wait. A ‘healthy’ seed tends to have lots of seeders and few leeches, but sometimes you’re stuck with an obscure seed you just have to wait for.

Your torrented files have fully downloaded! Now what? a) keep your client open and seed those files for others as long as you want to - sharing is caring! and b) run those files through a security program like Malwarebytes (not sponsored it’s just the only program I’m familiar with).

Be wary of what gets flagged - sometimes the files seem important, but are just trojans, and likewise sometimes they seem malicious, but are just cracked software getting flagged by your system. It’s good to check and see if others have had a problem with this particular torrent before - Reddit threads from 2008 are your long dead friends.

And that’s about it. Feel free to correct me if anything I’ve recommended is malicious or outright wrong. I’ve been doing this for years and haven’t had an active problem to my knowledge, so if there is something fishy with how I do things, I am a statistical outlier and should not be counted.

I wish you smooth sailing and strong winds in your ventures me hearties!

Obligatory ‘don’t pirate small author’s or artist’s works what the fuck dude’ statement.

#ra speaks #piracy #pirating #pirate to make hondo ohnaka proud #I’ve seen so many people on my streaming piracy post bemoaning that they don’t know how like !!!! #congrats you get to learn without the middle school trial and error phase we zillenials had (RIP family computer 2004-2009) #I genuinely think piracy has gotten easier/safer than it used to be. that or I’ve gotten smarter. which is also likely.

[juniper-clan]

Moon 23 WIP 🚧

Slick is 18 moons old in Jan. 1703! It feels so hard to believe, he’s a big man now that’s finally grown into his cheekbones. 🥲

#he has barely gotten easier to draw #warriors oc #wip #clangen

[masquenoire]

>> Pokemon Personality Quiz

Well, this was off to a good start. Roman looked at his result proudly, finding it very accurate for a man like himself. Nothing suited him better than a Dragon, being a natural leader with strong ambitions to take over Gotham and claim the city as his own. Damn right he had high standards and he wasn't afraid to show it!

"Agreeableness is very low? Fuck you, I'm perfectly agreeable when it suits me!" The rudeness of this quiz.

It was only getting after his result that the grumbling stopped, Roman completely in shock at what he'd gotten. He'd expected dragons; fierce, proud, powerful beasts that matched the vigor and menace he exuded and what he'd gotten was far from what he'd expected.

"And just what the fuck is that? A Goodra? Are you fucking kidding me!?!? That ain't no fucking dragon, that's something out of My Little P.ony or some kid's shit! Don't get mad if it slimes up my good suit? You better believe I'm gonna get PISSED at this gooey-eyed piece of shit touching me! Sure, don't give me the badass with blades in his face or the giant Blue Crocosaurus. Even the frozen turkey would be better than fucking Goodra." Roman seethed. This shit was exactly the reason why he didn't like Pokeymans or whatever the hell the stupid series was called.

Tagged ByStolen from: @peranarkia (♡) Tagging: Whoever would like to do it?

#💀 || dashboard games #💀 || memes #I wasn't going to post this but when I saw what Roman got #I just had to I'm sorry #Don't underestimate Goodra Roman it's a strong Pokemon! #And you could do with a hug however snotty you are about your suits #Thank you all for the lovely asks you guys sent btw settling down to do them now! #Honeycomb has been devoured and bedding is made #Room is bright and beautiful and fresh #In a very good mood despite the drop in temperature #And sad things from years ago #Finally come to terms with my aunt being gone after all these years #It still hurts but it's gotten easier to manage #Can't believe it's been 8 years since she's passed #death mention tw #death mention cw #Just had to post a funny real quick to stay on top

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hello hi. Will LaughingStock and/or PopStar appear in the Lights Out au?

Also also: ⭐️

allow me to provide Over Explanation for this supposedly simple yes/no answer. technically, yes! however

the au is structured into four main chunks - Acts, if you will. we've got Act One, which is the story i've shared bits and pieces of with you all. it's the main body of the au, the "in the dark" part. the Only romantic relationship progression / development (beyond little blink-and-you'll-miss-it hints) is FranklyDear.

Act Two begins with Sally waking up, and there's a whole... thing for that, where everything falls apart in an entirely new and way more sad way! Act Three and Four are the "aftermath" of the au - in a sense.

like - if i were to write a fic, the main one would be Act One + (maybe) Two, though that one might need it's own - shorter - fic. then Act Four would be the immediate squeakual. Act Three could be just an extra fun addition, cause it wouldn't be strictly necessary or overtly Vital due to Act Four's needs. it's more of a... uh... ~Behind the Scenes~ thing.

ALL THIS TO SAY! Popstar would become a thing either in Act Two or Act Three, but Laughingstock would solidify well into Act Four.

#I HAVE VERY GOOD REASONS AS TO WHY LAUGHINGSTOCK TAKES SO DAMN LONG I PROMMY #but popstar. popstar can take center-stage first #especially since Act Two would be Sally-Centric #i think one would be for frank #two is for sally #three is broken up between povs #four would be... uh.... frank again.... maybe wally too? #but wally's would come Later. OH yeah ok i could dole out povs between the two of them #shit but i also have ideas for like... barnaby.... and that thing for sally... and - #ok i think act four would start out frank-centric and slowly include other povs #wh lights out au #rambles from the bog #ive been reworking the aftermath after an Epiphany i had the other day #its gotten more complicated but in an easier way? somehow? #this au still has a ways to go before it'd be Fic-Ready though #i need to streamline and tweak and implement.... #in fact i think i will go have a Thinking Session rn #pulling up the doc for it <3

[imflyingfish]

save me dungeon meshi... save me... save me dungeon meshi

#man ive been so tired today #i had a more full on day than usual so im actually taking this evening a bit easier than usual #....which i now feel bad about lol #anyway #guess wht show has gotten me through it #i don

[sunshowersanddandelionwine]

does anyone remember the fairy tale where a girl has this magical gift given to her by a witch where every time she says a word, either a flower or a gold coin (depending on which version) falls from her mouth?

you can make a ghostsoap au out of that

#soapghost #ghostsoap #and by you i mean *i* could make an au out of that #something something soap never actually gets listened to #his words are only a means to an end after all #and after a while he just. stops talking altogether #its easier and safer this way #he learns bsl and just keeps himself distant #and then he joins the 141 #and oh no hes gone and gotten attached #especially to the awkwardly endearing lieutenant with shit tastes in jokes #and he has all of these words just begging to come out now #but he doesnt know *how* to say any of it #and hes just so scared #idk man this came to me in a Vision

[jays-supersonic-dynamo]

HUH. SURVIVALSHIPPING?!?!?!??!?!

#my art #fanart #lego ninjago #ninjago #vinny folson #(wait it isnt foalson? hrm.) #vinny ninjago #lord garmadon #garmadon ninjago #survivalshipping #yknow as a whole i think my uh. caption game has gotten a lot stronger. you know #and more verbose and easier to like. tell people what its about #ok this is a bad bit #i drew some guys look! #i wanted to draw something easy but all the drawings i kept on starting just were. more and more complicated and #this is simple and its finished! i just wanted to finish something

[steakout-05]

autistic coded men who have orange cats my beloved

#star trek tng #star trek #star trek data #garfield #garfield jon #jon arbuckle #jetpack joyride #professor brains #jetpack joyride 2 #this is my type. weird silly or otherwise quirky guys who have orange cats #brains being autistic is more just a headcanon i have rather than deliberate coding #but he's been shown to have a few autism-like behaviours and traits across the shorts and jetpack joyride 2 #it's kinda stereotypical but he's more of a logical simple thinker and he finds strings of numbers to be easier to remember than names #which i find to be interesting! he just has different thinking patterns from what i've seen in neurotypicals. and it's like. #it's the autism radar. i can always tell when a fictional character seems to be Not Neurotypical because holy shit they act like me- #-or another autistic person i know! #also all these characters are like. different facets of autism and i think that's so interesting #on the left we have highly logical direct and ''idk what to do with my face or my hands help'' sherlock spin autism #and then there's slightly unhinged dorky possible ADHD combo and complete lack of social skills autism #and finally there's the evil autism #and i love all three of them <3 #i just realised they're also all sitting in big comfy chairs! #jon's armchair looks so comfy though. like i really wanna sit in there #it's probably slightly dirty and most definitely scratched up by garfield but my god that's what make it more homely and comfy #i wonder how many armchairs jon has gotten over the years. i should count all the instances of him having a differently coloured armchair #anyway yeah. autistic cat dads my beloved <3

[miodiodavinci]

laying down by a brook with one hand in the water like some kind of tragic prince , , , , , ,

#my break is now over and tomorrow resumes the final hell rush before the end of the semester #well i say break but in all honesty i spent 90% of it working or being so so scared for my car #i did get a little time to clean my room finally and turn into gelatinous ooze #though now i am The Slightest Bit Scared that i have gotten too oozelike and will not be able to fully reform into a functional being #in time to deal with The Horrors #(read: two intensely busy weeks on internship as i basically take over for my mentor all day) #(on top of the big portfolio assignment that my (project) partner Still Has Not Done Anything On) #like as long as i do my part i’ll get a B in the class no matter what but #aheem heem #my gpa that i worked so hard for….. i don’t want it to disappear……. #aaaaa it’s just hard to focus when i am so so tired and really just want like 5 solid days of No Thought Just Video Games And UTAU Dev #before getting back to my own big deadlines #i am looking at this document that i could probably write in 20 minutes but my brain is just. fried meat. #or more precisely i think i can get this done in an hour but Everything Else This Week? #i think i would have an easier time chewing shoe leather than getting my brain to do it all #if it weren’t for the fact that i would Literally go broke if i did not finish all this next semester #i would be soso tempted to take another semester off #only this time for my mental health………….

[a-polite-melody]

Look.

Even if it were true that every big name blogger talking about transandrophobia is a transmisogynistic trans man

That shouldn't deny every and all trans man and masc the opportunity to speak about the oppression that affects them.

That, "the coiner of transandrophobia—" or "the big name bloggers talking about transandrophobia—" or even, "everyone I've seen talking about transandrophobia is a transmisogynist," is used as a blanket statement to systemically deny language to trans men and mascs is, in itself, a form of the infantilization and silencing and forced invisibility trans men and mascs face.

Call out transmisogyny when you see it. Sure. No one wants that to stop happening.

But stop pretending that trans men and mascs having a word is in-and-of-itself transmisogynistic, or coming up with reasons that it must be. It's not trans men and mascs speaking on their oppression that is causing the transmisogyny they may be also saying, it's the transmisogyny. It's not productive to place the blame for transmisogyny on something that isn't the transmisogyny.

Even if every single trans man and masc were violently transmisogynistic, what would need to change would be their attitude and views on trans women, not their being able to talk about their own oppression.

#my post #this is honestly the bare bones of it all #if you're worried about transmisogyny from trans men and mascs #you're not doing anything productive targetting that we are talking about our oppression and have decided having a word makes that easier #by stopping trans men and mascs from speaking on their oppression you haven't gotten rid of or changed a transmisogynist #you've just made transmisogynists be quiet in a specific way that has nothing to do with their transmisogyny #and have signaled to other queer groups that we are acceptable targets #that's not tackling transmisogyny #(and this isn't even starting on that people try to portray trans men and mascs talking about our issues #as taking space away from trans women and fems and so is transmisogyny) #(but I'd like to hope that at least only the people saying that are ignorant enough to think that) #(trans men and mascs ARE oppressed and deserve to be able to talk about that as well) #transandrophobia #transmisandry #transmisogyny

[unforth]

Whenever I see people talking about TGCF Book 4 they always talk about Mu Qing leaving, Feng Xin being driven away, the temple scene, the creation of Ruoye, etc.

But to me, the hardest part to read, the true lowest point, is the robbery. It just took me a week to force myself to read that chapter. The second hand embarrassment is so strong, but more than that: the attempted robbery is, in my opinion, the only depth that Xie Lian reaches entirely on his own. Bai Wuxiang doesn't (directly) drive him there. No. He reaches the conclusion that it's the only way himself, implements it himself, lies to Feng Xin and his parents about it himself. After that, he catches his first post-fall glimpse of Bai Wuxiang (presumably because Jun Wu heard about what the heavenly officials saw), and he slips into an extended panic attack brought about by all the factors that drove him to that low point, but everything that happens afterwards has outside influence.

But staking out a mountain pass and deciding to rob a passerby?

Xie Lian does that all on his own.

And God he breaks my fucking heart doing it.

#unforth rambles #tgcf #ive only read this part once before and i put the book down mid graveyard scene to write this #when i realized that i actually felt relieved to know that id gotten past the robbery #all the rest feels easier to read by comparison #but that scene makes me feel like someone has a hand around my throat #because theres no choice theres no escape Xie Lian isnt trapped at all theres no bai wuxiang there but it doesnt matter #because his palpable sense that hes out of options is so smothering #i truly think that even after his parents die and feng xin is gone and hes mumbling to their air about his loss #hes still never as low as the robbery #the temple and its aftermath are things that are done to him and the bad choices he makes as a result #but the robbery attempt and the accompanying shame #are all him

[keeps-ache]

hm. i do not remember the screenshot being this big hfvsh

#wip #i like this one the best and also.. it might be the best one Lmaofhvs #[points] its the He #this is also very nearly the final product hvfhs #i'm just gonna colour them a bit and then leave it at that :) #(i'm doing an expression sheet again :3 :D) #i'm drawing each of these individually unlike how i did with the bl.s ones cuz his funkin Hair likes to catch me out hbvfsh #//anyway i've been working on this thing for nearly a week ??? #'keeps why' i have been. writing #i do So enjoy infodumping about this project hvfhs #plusss putting it in a little booky means people don't have to be bothered with me looping back and over myself lol :> #i just dunno where i wanna put it lol #wattpad makes the most sense.. but also mm i dunno hfhsh #i haven't really used it in forever... #oh i should update it though fr fr #/also Geeeeez what is happening to my writing HFH #like one day i can't stop overusing the world 'occasionally' and then next i sound sort of obnoxious overusing synonyms and stuff lol #though you know what it Has gotten easier to just get stuff down (even when my brain is pretty much dead !!) when i just ignore everything #i forget about hfvhs :D #cuz i forget like every 15th word and it screws w/ the flow but if i do [this] with a similar word for later it's so good :DD #/also why can i Never remember the word Conscience lmao #that's a little bit of a funny one to always be losing hvfsh #//anywho... woo.... :33 #i'm gonna go do my stuff now... and prolly sneak a soda.... and if i do i'll prolly be back ranting because that's what caffeine does to me #Loll #have a very empty brain recently. it Has been full of lovey doveyness tho so not bad not bad hfvhs :D #okay bbbye now toooodles ciaaaoo see ya .u./

[jonquilandlace]

BG3 update so I started a Dark Urge save last night because I was curious and also had a great character from DND for it based on what little I knew about how that playthrough would work and

Ohhhhhh now I get why everyone likes Dark Urge playthroughs so much lmao

#jonniejonniejonquil #like first ofc it feels *so* much easier to get with Astarion here (despite the fact that IRONICALLY I WAS THINKING OF *NOT* THIS TIME) #but like most pressingly #your character actually has like. a subplot of their own??? #I would have tbh expected the same of Tav for being the protagonist but I get why they didn’t #like no subplot (or at least act 1 as far as I’ve gotten in both saves) there’s no details they give you on tav #which makes it so much easier to plop your own character on top of them #but also just feels like #so much less narratively fulfilling??? #anyway not a roast of tav ofc but #dammit I was planning my durge to be my dark playthrough and now I’ve gotten attached 😂 #dark playthrough gets to sit in the corner one more time #bg3 #bg3 tav #bg3 durge #bg3 dark urge #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3