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me hearing about someone or something being queerphobic in some way and wanting to know what happened: 🤨☕

me when the "queerphobic" stuff in question is just people being supportive of contradictory labels and other identities that most people don't understand, and the drama is just exclus people complaining about harmless stuff again: 😒🫗

#if i see one more person say that ''weird'' identities are queerphobic i'm gonna explode #sigh.... it's just more people being exclusionary again... what else is new.... #anti exclus #anti exclusionist #sorry for being discoursey lately #i don't like when people make a big fuss about harmless stuff they don't understand- #-and immediately label it as ''bad'' #i'm very supportive of people with ''contradictory'' labels and funky experiences with gender and sexuality- #-and i want to make that clear on this blog #i'm annoyed that people are still making drama over literally nothing in the year of our lord and saviour sans undertale #please stop arguing over labels when us queer people are literally getting our rights written out of existence by lawmakers. #this is the last discourse thing i'll rant about this week i swear

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how it feels to be an aegosexual looking for slash fanfics in your favourite fandom:

finding a fanfic that has a really good premise and is really romantic or smutty and has your favourite character but then seeing "slash reader" in the tags or seeing it mention "you" as in the reader is an instant turnoff for me. it's like noooo why did i have to be involved in this character's life all of a sudden :(

#aegosexual #acespec #slash reader my beloathed... *shudders* #why do i have to be involved in the life of my favourite fictional characters. why can't i just like. watch them kiss from the void instead #i know there's plenty of slash fics that aren't reader based but there's also so so many that are slash reader that i have just come to- #-really dislike the slash reader genre in general #i hope fanfic sites like ao3 or fanfiction.net have a tag filtering option so i don't gotta see so many slash reader fics #my aegosexual ass is NOT enjoying this lmao #also using the sayori format because sayori is epic :)

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just had another oddly specific Star Trek thought.... what do they do with all the replicated cups and plates at Ten Forward? like pretty much every food and drink comes with its own glass and its own plate or bowl and cutlery, and yet we never see what happens to them. do they keep them or do they destroy them with a phaser after they're done? does Guinan just have this comically large collection of glasses and plates stored in a secret closet no one knows about?

mid-post update: looked this up and learned they actually just go back into the replicator and get dematerialised. that explanation sounds really boring though so i'm going to imagine Guinan's hilariously gigantic crockery collection instead because that's funnier

#star trek #star trek tng #guinan #i read this was explained in voyager but i'm not up to voyager yet so. L. #guinan having a huge dish collection is better anyway #she just goes through everyone's quarters while they're sleeping and takes their cups and plates away for her collection #dont know what else to add because this is funny enough on its own #i wish that was canon

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in love with this new official multiplayer art someone posted as a screenshot in the jj discord

two of them!!! two barrys!!!! i LOVE how grumpy the right one is, lookat him he's so angy, grumpy little guy <3

#barry steakfries #jetpack joyride #i love how whenever a new piece of jj art involving barry is made i'm immediately on it like ''guys have you seen this???'' #and i'm just obsessed with it for several days #grumpy barry my beloved #i love seeing him express a wider range of emotions #i think this multiplayer thing is just something they're rolling out or testing #i don't have it yet #i think this does explain how the jj download page sometimes has two barrys on the screen in its screenshots #it was foreshadowing #imagine barry just like cloning himself #it would be extremely disastrous #australia would be in shambles #he's already got like two other versions of himself running around #having a whole army of barrys would destroy the world #''i cloned myself this morning'' - barry #barry freaking clones himself #barry you violated international law by cloning yourself!!! #oneyplays ref no one with sanity over 90 will get #anyway grumpy little australian guy my beloved <3

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being real for a second if i had an actual fictionkith/fictionhearted list, Fluttershy would absolutely be on there. like. she is so me. she is just like me. we both have a love of animals, we like having a cosy and relaxing atmosphere to stay in, we have really terrible social anxiety and deeply traumatising childhood social experiences, we have trouble being assertive because of those experiences, we probably both have a huge crush on pony Q (i know i do lol), it's all there. she's so me she's best pony <3

#fluttershy #mlp #mlp g4 #fluttershy best pony #by the way pony q is discord :) #he's literally q but if he was pony. sounds like him acts like him has the same powers #discord's just more cartoony than q #anyway fluttershy is so me she's just like me for real #some people say fluttershy is so painfully she that's she's not relatable. but i say she's relatable because she's painfully shy #she's so shy that it hurts (in a good way) and i love that there's a popular fictional character who i can relate to more than anyone #apart from jon arbuckle of course. he'd be right next to fluttershy on the list because man if he isn't the most relatable guy ever #i like how everyone else's fh lists have like really cool anime characters and stuff and mine is just a shy horse and some dork from indian #i should make like an actual post about this so you guys can see how deranged i am :3 #im kidding it wouldn't be that bad #it'd mostly just be weird guys with anxiety and anger issues #anyway fluttershy my beloved

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i was thinking about how it took me a while to figure out i'm aegosexual (which basically means that there's a disconnect between yourself and being the subject of attraction) and i thought about how much i really dislike and just cannot see myself in slash reader fics. i tend to dislike these fics for multiple reasons, but some of them include that the reader self insert is usually really boring, has no personality outside of being lovey dovey and isn't unhinged enough for certain characters for reasons outside of contrasting personalities for my tastes (like spamton for example, why are you writing a normal protagonist to pair with fuckin spamton of all characters). but another reason is that i literally cannot connect myself to the reader self insert. like i cannot imagine myself in their place at all, it's always another stand-in that i imagine instead and thinking about myself in their place makes me uncomfortable. i can't see myself in their place because i don't see myself as a subject of attraction, and i'm repulsed to that idea. so i imagine someone else instead because that's better to me. and also because of the aforementioned reasons that have more to do with the writing of the self insert, i just cannot imagine myself acting the way the self insert does because I Personally Would Not Fucking Do That™. like i would not be romantically kissing a guy on a date, i would be infodumping about my special interests for 3 hours and then start ranting about how funny cars are while he just smiles and nods lmao

this is why i've never really self-shipped with any character. like i can be attracted to them and be like "i wanna hold his hand/kiss him/do inexplicable things to his psyche", but in reality i could never actually see myself as a subject of attraction by this character, so i'd either ship them with another character i like or imagine a sort of stand-in that has some of my traits and lives out my fantasies but still isn't me. i can fall in love but i can never connect because ew that's gross and weird. watching from the sidelines by reading fics and looking at fanart about characters being shipped with others and being intimate with each other is more my cup of tea.

#aegosexual #also i'm not like. sad about this or anything #maybe i'm a little disappointed that i probably won't experience some things but i'm not like. crying about it. #i literally don't care about it and i think i actually prefer it this way #being seen as something arousing is fucking disgusting and weird in a bad way to me and i don't think i should ignore how i feel just to- #-experience something i won't enjoy. #i just want to watch my little fictional men hold each other and kick my legs like an excited schoolboy about it in peace #also unpopular opinion but slash reader fics SUUUUUUCK and i'd rather read something else instead #now let's sit back and watch literally everyone get mad at that opinion lmao #i'm kidding i'm kidding you're obviously free to enjoy slash reader fics #i just find them to be completely unrelatable and i feel like throwing a self insert into the mix kinda ruins the whole dynamic for me #like i just personally find the idea of meddling in that character's life and being their hubby to be very unattractive #especially when the self insert is so barebones that there's no chemistry #we need more slash reader fics that are just an expression of how much the reader admires the character and nothing more i think #idk maybe i just haven't read enough slash reader fics to appreciate them as their own thing disconnected from me but i really just kinda- #-don't like them because the ones i've read were mostly kinda boring..... sorrgy #i always preferred projection anyway #although i do like dating sims. of course i don't attach myself to the MC but i do like them more than reader fics. i wonder why that is. #probably because the MC tends to have more character traits i guess? so then i can just consider them to be a different person- #-and i'm just pressing buttons for them #it's more free and directional i guess

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hey g uys, i'm a little nervous to share this fanart but very recently an animator whose work i really liked when i was a younger preteen and who i've been kinda watching online for a few years now recently came back with a banger and a half, and it's Birdie!! i've been super excited about his return to the internet since it uploaded a couple days ago and in celebration of hearing that he's doing well now, i drew his sona because it just looks super cool dude like lookat him!

i'm excited he's doing well and i'm even more excited for the new art he'll be posting in the future! welcome back Birdie!!!

(also ignore the sad fluttershy i just kinda accidentally draw birdie's sona too close to her and awkwardly draw around her lmao)

#birdie #welcome back birdie!!! #animators on youtube #animation meme community #fluttershy #i'm super happy he's in a safe stable environment and i'm glad he's doing much better! #we are so back!!

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ok that's so real actually

hey wait i just had a thought. what would Data's handwriting look like. do you think whenever he has to handwrite he just perfectly prints New Times Roman in size 14 onto the paper in three seconds or something. wait imagine if he wrote in Comic Sans

#star trek tng #data soong

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hey wait i just had a thought. what would Data's handwriting look like. do you think whenever he has to handwrite he just perfectly prints New Times Roman in size 14 onto the paper in three seconds or something. wait imagine if he wrote in Comic Sans

#star trek #star trek tng #data soong #star trek data #data star trek #would he though #data writing in barcodes or wingdings is extremely funny to me #imagine if they all had to like sign their names on a piece of paper for some reason #and everyone has like normal handwriting with curves and mistakes and imperfections #and then data is just perfect new times roman in the middle #do you think he would mimic the imperfections of human handwriting so his doesn't look so jarring #answering my own question: yes he would

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this is officially the dumbest thing i ever made

#not me spending 20 minutes manually making the caption instead of just uploading it to tenor #simpsons #simpsons hit and run #simpsons hit & run #i love this game so much it's insane #the little green lawn chairs in this game are so silly #their physics are so janky #if you kick one with even the slightest force it will go FLYING #i kicked one like halfway across springfield and now i don't know where it is #they are so sily #i used to have this game on the ps2 and i think i would have spent at least 150 hours just fucking around and not doing what i was supposed #-to as a kid #i used to just drive cars around and cause destruction #what i like about this game is that it's fun even when you're not just going through the main game #a lot of games struggle to do that #let alone licensed ones #very funny game

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throwback to when i spent half an hour editing this and posted it on my jon arbuckle blog back in like 2022

#jon arbuckle #garfield #garfield comic #garfield edit #little fella #you seen this little fella garfield???????

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i might get some hate for this depending on where this post goes but i think lesboys are so valid and the discourse about them is so ridiculous. like you guys shouldn't have to deal with all that and it frustrates me that people throw hissy fits over an identity that literally does not affect them at all.

"but men cant be lesbians-" wrong. butch lesbians and trans men have a really closely connected history with each other that practically intersects and you should really do some research on that before you make blanket statements, not to mention that gender and sexuality is weird and wobbly and fluid and a very personal experience. it means a different thing to each person. being a man can be something completely different and saying stuff like this ignores people like demiboys, demigirls, genderfluid and genderflux people etc. these people will really preach "demolish the gender binary!! love is love!!" until someone's relationship with gender and sexuality is a little too freaky for them to handle and be challenged by lmaoo

"ohhh but what about the cishet men who say they're lesbians to prey on women-" YEAH WHAT ABOUT THEM????? THIS AIN'T ABOUT THEM BRO!!!!! this argument also REEKS of terfy "trans women are just predatory men!!!111!!1" rhetoric and it grosses me out. yeah some men are gross and do try to pull this but that does not negate someone's entire identity completely just because of a few bad actors, you know that right? actual black and white behaviour.

queer discourse is silly and i don't know why it's a thing. just let people exist. it isn't that hard. we have worse things to worry about than whether someone calls themselves a lesboy or not. i think we need to unplug our ears and yank our heads out of the sand and remember that the queer community is what it is because of our unique and amazing diversity. arguing over labels like school children isn't gonna help that. damn.

#also this should be obvious but terfs fuck off go explode you are not welcome here this is a terf UNsafe space #terfs fuck off #terfs dni #terfs eat shit #terfs explode #this post is really random but i'm actually quite compelled and interested in queer discourse even though i think it's stupid and silly. #i'm compelled by how angry other people get over literally nothing and ironically i end up discovering some new identities and developing a #-newfound love for the diversity of our community #like i could be reading some shitty post about an identity i don't know about and all i would be thinking is ''that exists? thats so cool!' #and then i end up ignoring the bad post and research the identity and think ''man i love how queer we all are'' #exclus people seem really sad. like im not saying this to be mean i genuinely think they seem really frustrated by everything. #where's the joy in limiting your support and policing people around all day. where's the fun and growth in that. where's the learning. #i obviously cannot change people's minds but if i could then i'd make sure no one falls into the trap of being an exclusionist because that #-sounds like it really sucks. #going full hippie mode in the tags lol #i'd rather be a hippie than make allies with terfs #anyway lesboys are cool gender is an illusion buy gold bye

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i dont remember where i found this image but look at jon. look at him. he's such a dork. i love him so much <3

"people tell me i have a cute smile" IT'S ME I'M PEOPLE <33333

#jon arbuckle #garfield #im literally in love with jon you dont understa nd #he's so babygirl i love him i love him i love him #hides face with hands and kicks legs gayly #jon is my favourite dork in the entire world #and he should never stop being a dork no matter what anyone says or thinks #it's incredibly adorable #jon arbuckle my beloved <3

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the way ADHD is named is actually so frustratingly funny though. like yeah i experience paralysing procrastination to the point where it negatively affects my life, drive myself to tears and insanity trying desperately to remember where i put my wallet 3 seconds ago, hyperfocus on something to the point where i accidentally ignore my hunger for 8 hours straight and find trying to focus on an assignment physically painful and difficult, it's cause i got "Stupid Little Shit Can't Sit Still For Five Goddamn Seconds Disorder"

#adhd #actually adhd #undiagnosed adhd #adhd problems #i feel like adhd was named after what neurotypicals perceive it to be rather than the internal experience of how it feels to have it #that goes for a lot of disabilities and disorders actually #i saw an article on ADDitude that calls it ''variable attention stimulus trait'' which is more accurate honestly #or something like ''stimulation functioning dysregulation disorder'' would be more accurate than adhd too #fuck it just call it ''my executives are NOT functioning'' because damn if that isn't the most accurate part of having adhd idk what is #ironically ''little shit can't sit still for five seconds disorder'' does kinda describe me pretty well a lot of the time #because i am a little shit and i can't sit still unless my hands are doing or holding something #you know that jerma clip where he's talking about how he needs to hold something or he can't sit still? yeah that's me

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a few days ago i found out about this interesting little track from an old GirlsGoGames game called 'Easter Rush' while listening to lostwave music. it's a fragment of music that only really goes for around 20 or so seconds before looping, and it has no artist, name or origin. it seems to be a generic track that was picked and used for the game and not one specifically made for it. i found out about it from this video, but couldn't find any higher quality audio, so here's some hq audio i recorded while the game was running.

i wonder if anyone can identify the name or artist of this track. does it sound familiar? was it used in other games? Easter Rush looks like one of those generic reskinned runner games, so it's possible it was using leftover music which might help in tracking down its origin if that theory is true. i also tried having a look through the files of the old app version of this game to see if the music had a name, but unfortunately it was just called 'music.ogg' which obviously isn't very helpful. i hope something turns up one day, the music's quite nice and reminds me of better days playing Flash games on the family computer :)

#lost media #lostwave #unidentified #unidentified song #unidentified media #girlsgogames #easter rush #this is such a cute little ditty and i hope it gets identified soon!! #btw you can find the app version by searching 'easter rush apk' #it's the first result on apkcombo #it doesn't work properly on newer devices unfortunately but you can look through the files if you rename the apk to a zip file and extract- #-it. i do it all the time with apps i have it's pretty cool #anyway it's likely the music was probably taken from another website or another game as games like this usually do #and if an older game that uses this music can at least be tracked down it'd probably make the search a lot easier #here's for hoping this obscure little track gets identified!!

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she is balloon....... flogting through tha air where will she go????

#derpy hooves #derpy mlp #mlp derpy #mlp #derpy balloon derpy balloon #i should draw mlp characters as funny balloons more it's fun #i have an older drawing of pinkie looking through a balloon and her face is all big and silly #if i remember i'll see if i can dig it up #or i'll just redraw it or something #heeheehooha

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hell o do any other autistic people dislike the term 'meltdown'? for me, the word has a lot of negative connotations because it feels like i'm being degraded and referred to as an uncontrollable tantruming child. i think i have a lot of trauma associated with the word because every time it's been used about me, it's been from teachers who really should not have been around autistic children at all, using it to describe a kid they did not understand, a kid they only saw as bratty, unreasonable, stupid and purposely hard to deal with. it just makes me feel icky and it feels really infantilising to have a term that's usually associated with bratty kids be used to describe a hard-to-understand, unique and painful inner turmoil caused by sensory distress. but that's just my experience.

you know what? let's put a poll here for funsies because i'm genuinely interested in seeing what the people who come across this post think about the word!!

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #actually autism #autism spectrum disorder #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #audhd #neurodivergency #autistic experiences #sensory overload #sensory issues #sensory processing disorder #disability #ableism #ableism mention #poll #polls #autism poll #first poll post baby!!!!!!! #i'm interested to see what the answers will end up being!! #also i made this into a poll halfway because my brain suddenly went “DATA” and now i'm interested in seeing what results will unfold #i wonder how many other autistic people have a similar experience with this word!!!