#and abandoning her for these other girls (who bullied me for yrs)

[waitingforminjae]

anyone else haunted by the shame of goodness they did not deserve to receive or is that just me

#this isn't abt thinking u don't deserve good things or kindness this is abt me being a girl's only friend in elementary school #and abandoning her for these other girls (who bullied me for yrs) #and years after she had left the school i ran into her again bc he lil sister was in my dance company #and she always treated me like nothing ever happened and we were still friends every time we would cross paths at performances #and it rlly.........truly abashed the devil stood and felt how awful goodness is or whatever #anyway she just walked into the library and asked me a question at the desk but idk if she recognized me or not #she still loves pokemon apparently </3 #noise pollution #i have one great sin in my life and it's abandoning her like that.

[yakocchi]

Becoming a Family With Him, Part 3 // Shuichi, Hikaru, Rhion, Luke, Eisuke

so this came out, as further celebration for the anni. VERY GOOD, much more appreciated than the prior story set lol that one was kind of boring but i get it

they made the kids for all the... kid-less ones, and the eisuke one that used to be VIP-exclusive is now here for everyone to buy (rip those ppl who gacha for it)

my rambling behind the cut (spoilers!!)

shuichi // as ud expect, shuichi has a literal hime ass looking girl (kikyo) for a daughter. she’s only 6, but is pretty calm and ladylike. She even calls her parents with –sama so... ok luckily shuichi does not strip down all the way in the presence of her daughter and only takes off his suit coat. thanks dad

anyway since shuichi has a break coming up, he wants to have a family trip how nice. but then the dang girl wants to go over to see eisuke WHAT when soryu exists and lives a block away? unrelatable, im closing the app anyway eisuke is her first love, which wtf he’s like 20 yrs older than u. even worse, mc says she’s been in love since she was like 3.

shuichi is reconsidering the benefits of democracy in his mind but eventually relents. but then they’re still following the fucc-days rule they set years ago. well, as he says in the story, RULES ARE RULES

blah blah i don’t want to go over everything bc then it’ll be boring reading the story when it comes out in engl right? also im tired bc it’s 1 am and i just want to play toontown in bed but nothing really bad happens. they are a v cute family bc shuichi is a pleasant and mature dad. kikyo and mc even do a little surprise for him at the end and it is very sweet. i feel like out of all the families, this is the most ideal

mad hatter // so they have twin sons named Rui and Kai. Rui is the childlike one that resembles Rhion in personality, Kai is the more mature one that resembles Al. man i forget that boy’s name but u get me i know they only can use stock bgs but it’s killing me that these dang kids get to sleep in what looks like separate king sized beds.

even though rhion is now a father of two, he still acts like... 10. i mean he still horni but it makes me feel weird

later it’s revealed that Ota teaches them both as an art tutor bc they both showed an interest in art. this is cute bc ota is bad with kids in this universe LOL

the ending on this one was weird cuz the kids didn’t show up in the entirety of the last ep bc it was about WORK. so uh... interesting

hikaru // so their son is named akari. haha get it because it means light. like how hikaru also means light. can mc name her kids unrelated to their father or is that against the Geneva convention

this kid actually acts like an actual little boy. like what hikaru would’ve probably turned into if not for the whole sad backstory. the story starts with akari just bringing a dog randomly home one day. he actually saved the dog (it is very cute bc he did not want the dog to cry), and then after a talk they decide to keep the dog as long as akari knows the responsibility of taking care of an animal.

so next day, the bidders come over to their house and everyone’s like woaw a dog. lol they come into their house as guests and eisuke and mamo still demand for beverages, they all suck

akari names the dog... “Light” (Raito) and i want out of this nightmare. Naturally bc Light is an abandoned dog it’s still kind of bad with interacting with things. But then Light suddenly be giving the ( ╹ਊ╹) to soryu bc remember, animals love him. everyone clowns on soryu for being an unintentional dog whisperer and then akari is like “soryu san pls make me ur apprentice” and he gives some advice like approaching it slowly, and talking to it from the front instead of back.

blah blah there’s a situation where Light goes YEET after a Doberman gets all angry and then hides bc then another dog is scaring it. hikaru swoops in to the save the day as the Real Dog Whisperer. ok it’s cute when hikaru actually gets to look cool  for once LOL

luke // luke is cute on the bc “pre-story” scene he’s actually pretty open to the idea of having kids; he actually goes “well imo we should think abt it pretty soon, but i wanted to hear ur opinion on it” but then he gets horni. and then he’s like “our kids are going to have your collarbones. awesomeee im looking forward to that” ....ok

ok cut to the actual story and they’re in Japan. Luke’s kid looks... strange versus the others. why are his eyes so big? omg voltage his eyes arent going to be saucers just cuz he half white also the kid’s name is Yuri (Or Urey). They couldn’t think of any other Brit-styled names? Like Harry? Henry? William? Wilfred? hey stan be my princess btw he’s pretty cute, though he gives serious “timid kid that gets bullied in the children’s movie” vibes. He calls Luke “daddy” and mc “mammy/mommy”.

so luke talks about his relationship w/ soryu and eisuke and then yuri is like “i want friends like that” wow cute but also find less ethically-complicated friends

so luke lets yuri meet a young patient of his (haru) so they can be friends. they get along so it’s good. haru gets in critical condition later so luke zooms outta there to do the operation.

LOL but at the end yuri is like, “i want to make more friends. (...) can i go to the bidder’s room from now on?” this boy works fast

And then he’s like “Eisuke-san... please be my friend.” HIS POWER. even eisuke was like :O so then eisuke orders a whole bunch of food and books up to the penthouse. But then yuri’s like “...i like eisuke’s eyes” and everyone’s like oh man that’s gonna be his fetish

Baba: why have u started to have an interest in eyes Yuri: I read it from one of daddy’s medical books Hikaru: wtf u can read that at 4??? (...) Soryu: wat Yuri: um... i want soryu to be my friend too Yuri: bc soryu’s eyes are also powerfully cool...

eisuke // ok this gets an extended ramble bc the more annoying the story the longer i must complain

so you might be thinking, “oh so this is gonna be a flashback in some in media res styled story with your 2 kids, u know in the style of the others” and well, no you just go straight to white screen into the flashback, back when eito was smaller and thus a little more cute. well it’s not really false advertising bc they did say “reminisce” in the description. but i wanted to see eito be a good big brother for a moment! or... less good? man i wanted to see kaito go waaaah like a baby idk i wanted to see him exist

so back to the story they cut to small eito. even as a smaller punk he does fight with his dad a little, just w/ a more narrow vocabulary to work with. tho at this point he’s still pretty sweet so clearly eisuke clowning him day and night was a negative effect on his development. (doesn’t treat his child like a child) (child grows up to a punk that doesn’t respect him) (surprised pikachu) being the son of a billionaire means that this child has to go study at a very young age and listen to MOZART. no child of eisuke ichinomiya will be listening to degenerate bops like lee taemin’s criminal next day they all go to the very fancy school that eito will be attending. eisuke does a speech, but then eito is all like “why is papa over there all the time” in reference to how all the other parents in attendance are having fun with their children, but eisuke is busy talking to other people for business and connections etc. etc. mc kind of has a hard time trying to explain it to eito bc... it’s honestly poor parenting... eiji shows up after arriving late, and he’s like “gramps is gonna be with ya today! instead of papa” which is cute but then she’s like psst thanks for coming and im like oh... so grandpa just didn’t randomly come to the open house for fun he’s just gonna be surrogate dad while real dad is busy... aw... and then at the end eito’s like FUC THIS KINDERGARTEN. eisuke is like “(smh) don’t yell in public. (despite everything) you are still the eldest son of the Ichinomiya family”

and so afterwards it’s clear that eito does not want anything to do with this school. he just sits in the classroom until mc is there to pick him up instead of playing in the courtyard or w/e, wanting nothing to do with the other kids.

so later there’s a hiking trip for the students and both of their parents, and mc asks eisuke if he’ll be available for it. eisuke is like, “i have a business trip that day, so I’ll have to adjust my schedule” and he’s been very busy in the opening of a new business or w/e. mc tells him to not do so much for something like that and that it’s ok if she goes alone with eito on the trip.

it’s the day of the trip, and mc goes alone with eito. she notes that a lot of dads did indeed come along for the trip. she apologizes to eito and says that she did talk to eisuke about the trip before, but he’s simply busy for this day. and im like... but girl, you were the one who told him not to change his schedule for the trip. yes a trip may seem less important than business ventures, but don’t make it sound like you weren’t the one who stopped him. lol. idk why im pressed abt this single line of dialogue bc later she does realize she fucced up there well eito is just like w/e about it and has pretty much accepted that sort of thing

anyway eito goes missing later and one of the kids said that he told eito that his dad (eisuke) didn’t come bc his dad thinks that his work is more important than his son. so eito got mad and ran off somewhere

and then mc finally gets the lightbulb moment that eito... wants to see his dad!! he ran off to go try to see him somehow??? !! wow so sweet

it’s raining like a mf but then in her search for eito eisuke randomly pops out of nowhere. He’s like “ho i did not remember saying that i wasn’t coming” and she’s like “im sorrryyy” and both me and him are like “just find the dang kid”

ok yea they find eito, he starts being a good student, and u start to see where he starts being antagonistic towards his dad LOL etc. etc. lol this story annoyed me so i don’t feel like doing the rest of the play by play orz

anyway thanks for reading my garbage LOL

#kbtbb #kissed by the baddest bidder #spoilers

[myfinalform-kaz]

I know no one will read this whole thing but I really need to talk about what happened to me and it would mean alot if someone read it so what he did to me would be known

So background story: My brother abused me for 10 years of my life and completely fucked me up. My entire world view was formed by him and he convinced me everyday that I was worthless and ugly and anyone who loved me only pretended to becuase they pitied me and no one in the future could possibly love something as horrible as me. And I believed it every goddamn day and I didn't know any better and I adored my brother cus he was the only one that "really loved" me and he was my big brother and that meant to mean something good and all of my self worth came from the slivers of validation he'd throw out a few times a year. And every time I thought he went to far and I said something I would get an adult saying "Big brother's are suppose to pick on their little siblings, it's how they show their love" and I believed it so I stopped talking about it. I didn't say anything when he bruised me or pushed me off of barn roofs or the two times he tried to kill me. I didn't say anything becuase every one said that all those things just meant that he loved me. The worst he was the more he loved me and this was the kind of love I deserved. I didn't deserve soft gentle love filled with encouragement and kindness, I didn't deserve unconditional, non judge mental love. I was too weak and I needed to toughen up becaus ethe world would never be kind to a disgusting person like me so I need to get use to it. I believed every lie he said becuase I was a child and nobody told me he was lying.

He was why I stopped eating in 8th grade becouse I "obviously needed a diet" then I became addicted to the control it gave me, I craved the hunger I thought I deserved. I lost so much weight and it was the first time he told me he was proud of me. One of my first memories is of when I was six years old and got my first two piece swimsuit. It was bright grean and turquoise and had frills and I was so excited about it and the first thing he said when he saw it was "wow you are really fat" how does an 8 yr old even think to say that? And of course I was chubby I was 6. So him saying he was proud of my weightloss was like a huge weight off my shoulders, I no longer had to be bullied by him about my body. Of course there was always other things wrong about the way I looked or what hobbies I had or what friends I had. I was never enough no matter what I did, but I was enough when I was starving. I had a full blown eating disorder by 10th grade and nobody said anything so I figured I was doing the right thing.

By the end of that year he left for the military and my entire life flipped upside down. The one thing that I clung on too in life left. I was completely alone. He was the only one I could say anything too, of course he always ended up using what I told him against me but I didn't see that at the time. I thought the only person who loved me had left me behind, the only person who truly understood me had a abandoned me. I had my first and worst depressive episode then. It lasted a year and a half, I attempted suicide four times, and started self harming and lost 40lbs. I was a shell of a person. I tried talking to my only friend at the time about it be she never cared (my brother always told me she didn't actually care about me and still talks about how he was right and how stupid I was to think she could possible care about me) this of course only enforced that maybe he was right all along and I was an impossible person to actually care about.

When I was 16 I had gone to a routine doctors appointment and taken a mental health test. I thought I was giving normal answers and downplayed how I really felt, unfortunately my life was so twisted that even what I thought were normal answers were alarming to my doctor. She ended up making me take my clothes off so she could see if I self harmed, I hadnt in a few months but there were still scars of course. I begged her not to tell my mom and she said she wouldn't if I told her before my next appointment, I said I would. She scheduled a few appointments for further testing and then we left. The whole ordeal was traumatic for me and of course I never told my mother hoping that next appointment never came. And it never did. I havent been to a doctor in over 3 years. I was digging through some old medical records a year ago to find my glasses prescription and I found the file for that day. Turns out my parents knew about my self harm the whole time then after the doctor told them I might have anxiety and she wants to do further testing they cancelled all further appointments and never said a word to me. I had to struggle completely alone, I always thought that they would have helped if they had known but they did know and they did nothing. They made me go through so much pain and I have no idea why.

After all that my brother came home for a visit and he was so proud of how thin I was and how well I was doing in school and everything was going so well. Then of course that couldn't last and he turned cruel and insulting and then he left again.

The last time he visted we did so good the first week, I thought he had really changed, he had actually apologized a few times when he said something mean and I was so happy he was trying to be the big brother I had always wanted. Then we were having a pleasant conversation in the car and out of blue he said "you know you will neber find a partner who won't cheat on you becuase youre asexual" and after I was upset he said "It's not my fault you can't handle facts" and of course I believed him.Then my dog died and all he could do was make jokes and mock me for caring. I told my Mom she told me that if I looked hard enough I would see that he actually loved me and all this other stuff was just surface level and didn't matter. And I believed her. But I met an amazing person who became my best friend in the whole world and the only person to ever say "that's not how sibling normally treat each other, he is abusing and manipulating you" and I could never be more grateful for her, she has taught me how to be my own person and recognize my own worth. She has encouraged me and accepted me with all the flaws I have. We have gotten in fights but it's only becuase we love each other and it never ends in screaming or beating and it's always about trying to understand each other better. We talk about triggers and experiences and always try to be mindful of them. I have never met someone that I love more.

The current situation: He is coming back in two days and I have no idea what to do. I thought I was ok becuase for about two weeks I didn't feel bad about him coming. I felt a little off but I couldn't put my finger on why then I read a post about a girl dancing with her brother at his edding and realized that I never had and would never have that kind of relationship with my brother and I had a completely mental break down an hour ago and I realized that I don't feel fine I was just emotionally shutting down and that's why I was feeling off but now I feel everything and I am so fucking scared of him coming. Now that I know what it's like to not be under his control I can't go back even for a couple of days. I can't sit across from on the couch and pretend nothing happened. I can't let him touch me like I'm not disgusted by it. I'm not that strong, I'm not that good of an actor. I am so fucking scared and no one in my family believes me, they thing I'm a bad brother for not talking to him for a few months. I am so scared of what he's going to do or say. I don't know what I'm going to do. I use to dissociate a lot but recently I haven't been and I don't think I can just mentally not exist while he's here. I am so scared that I am making a big deal out of nothing and that maybe he is a good brother and I'm just a bitch. I don't know. I don't know how I will live the rest of my life with him popping in and out to kick me down and remind me how worthless I am. I don't know how I'm going to spand the rest of my life scared of this person I am suppose to love. My parents have made it very clear that me not talking to him dissapoints and hurts them and how much they hate to see me notbe best friends with him. They always act like they support me until it actually gets down to it, then they blame me for never telling them anything even though I have a life time of being told that what was being done to me was normal and I have no idea where the line between sibling teasing a nd abuse is. I have no idea what is normal because I never had normal and nobody told me it wasn't normal till I was 18 yrs old.

I'm so sorry for dropping all this and how long it is but I've never really talked about it before and I am so scared

#abuse survivor #emotional abuse #family abuse #abuse #sibling abuse #trauma recovery #emotional trauma #trauma #eating disroders #eating disorder #tw self harm #self harm #self hate #self pity #social anxiety #anxiety #depression #suicidal #suicide #tw suicide

[dokidoki-tae]

Hey! I really like your blog so far! I was wondering if you also do some sad/angst stuff... how would each member of la squadra react to finding out they have a little daughter (like 5 or 6 yrs old) that they didn't know about? And then meeting her? Thanks!

Hello! So I will break this into individual parts throughout the next couple of weeks since they are turning out longer than I thought. I will post them one by one! First, we have Risotto!

Risotto: He never thought he’d be back in hometown inSicily especially so soon. It had been a little over 5 years since he had lefteverything behind. When he was assigned an assignment to take out a targethere, he wanted to pass it on to someone else, but the situation called for him.Evidently, almost nothing had changed, only a few new businesses had poppedup and some of his favorite stores he loved visiting as a child had closed down. Hedidn’t have the luxury of walking around in the open; he would stand out toomuch and be recognized. Using Metallica to cloak himself in case he needed togo out, other than that he had to hide out in his motel room until his mission wascomplete. This whole assignment had Risotto convinced Boss was doing this tospite him in hopes to bring up old memories. Boss doesn’t know much aboutRisotto or his stand, but he does know where Risotto originates from. He probablyexpects the assassin to “feel” something “nostalgic” from this trip. Begrudgingly,old memories stirred up for Risotto, memories of the family he abandoned. A smallprice to pay to avenge the murdered child of his cousin. It wasn’t like Risottohad many happy memories here. All his life he felt estranged and detached from thepeople of the Sicilian town, only ever feeling attached to his family, thebeauty and history of his home, and someone special.

Until he was 18, Risotto was once an awkward short teen, hitting his growthspurt when he was 16 and towering over his classmates who often bullied him forbeing the shortest and then for being the tallest. His neighbor and classmate wereoften there to speak up for him and defend him. The bullying never got to Risottobut to watch someone defend him with such passion, feelings began to develop.They spent much of their time together; she was there to support Risotto and theNero family when their family member was killed by the drunk driver even whenRisotto lashed out at her to leave him alone. She stuck by his side, and she was the one who Risotto lost his first kiss and virginity to. He thought she couldbe the one who could help him make peace with the cruelties of this world, butwhen he heard this family member’s murderer was going to be free after justfour years, any thoughts of settling down and living a normal life no longerexisted for him. He left his family and left her without a word.

He found himself thinking about her without warning one night andmindlessly went out without hiding himself to walk and feel the cool airagainst his skin. He needed to feel something, to experience the nostalgia ofbeing back home at least once. He knew it was a senseless and reckless thing todo, but he didn’t care. On his walk, he heard his name being called out, knowinghe had been recognized by a local. Deep down, maybe it was something he wanted.To be remembered as the young, awkward, Sicilian boy and not the cold-bloodedmurderer he had become. When he turned to look at his caller, his breath hitchedwhen he discovered who it was.

“Is that really you?” He heard no resent in her question, just confirmher suspicions. As she walked closer, her eyes and smile grew wide, extending herhand to wave eagerly at him. “Long time no see, Ris!” Just like nothing haschanged, she softly punched his chest, and he couldn’t fight his smile.

“It has.” He wanted to say more but couldn’t bring himself to. He simplysmiled down at her, hoping she would continue, but she equally struggled to saysomething, making the air awkward.

“Who’s that?” A small voice bringing them out of their own world. Risottohadn’t noticed the small presence holding the hand of his former lover. A smallgasp escaped his lips when he saw the little girl with ashy hair and red eyes. Thislittle girl couldn’t be…

“He’s an old friend of mine, sweetie.” She explained, nonchalantly. Herbehavior made Risotto question if this was his child. The little girl’s appearanceand the time he left, it added up but her casual attitude made him questionhimself.

The little girl remained watchful and looked Risotto up and down, observinghim. He watched her for a reaction, but the little girl gave him nothing,completely stoic. Though, she did stick her tongue out at him when he staredfor too long.

“Are you just visiting or…” His childhood friend asked, unsure if shewanted to know his honest answer.

“Visiting.”

“Oh. I see.” He watched as disappointment made its way onto her features,but she quickly perked up. “If that’s the case, come have breakfast with ustomorrow morning! We were just out buying some last-minute groceries, turns outwe were out of eggs and milk and a few other things. You should come over beforeyou go!” She offered, hopefully.

When Risotto opened his mouth to decline, a simple “okay” came outinstead. His childhood friend enthusiastically told him where she lived and thebest to go over while the child frowned and pouted, scrunching her nose at Risottobut said nothing. When her mom wanted to continue her conversation, she pulledat her mom, telling her she was tired and wanted to go home. They bid their goodbyesuntil the morning.

Risotto had a mind to simply not show up, but his mind was not beingreasonable, so he found himself eating breakfast with the mother and child.Risotto and his childhood friend talked and caught up. She spoke animatedly abouther career and hobbies while Risotto nodded along. She did all the talking andnever once made Risotto explain himself for leaving so abruptly without sayingso much as a word to her. While she spoke passionately about herself, she madeno mention of where this child came from.

“Can I go play outside?” The child asked before pushing her empty plateto the middle of the table.

“Oh. Don’t you want to get to know Mr. Nero?”

“No.” She said bluntly.

“It’s alright. Let the child play outside. She must be bored just hearingus talk.” Risotto interjected. He wanted to speak privately anyway. The child narrowedher eyes before heading off outside.

“I’m sorry about her. She’s can be very straightforward about her thoughtsand feelings.” She apologized, getting up to wash the dirty dishes. “People sayshe’s exactly like me when I was her a-“

“Who is her father?” Risotto interrupted 

She pressed her lips into a thin line and went silent, letting the sink faucet run, the running water replacing their conversation with neither of them moving an inch for a couple of minutes.

“I-“ She paused again. “I’ll discuss this…” She sighed. “I can’t say, not when you’re leaving again.”Her voice shook.

“So she is mine?” Risotto asked one last time to confirm.

“I…Yes. I’m sorry…” She breathed, Risotto watched as her shouldersshook but didn’t move to comfort her. He had his own feelings he needed to sortout. What did this mean for him? Did this change anything?

“Has she ever asked about me?” Risotto wondered out loud, catching himselfand her off guard. She looked down at her fiddling hands and thought deeplyabout his question.

“Only once.” She said honestly. “Only once did she ask where her fatherwas. When I told her I didn’t know, she never brought it up again.”

Risotto bit the inside of his cheek to keep himself composed; hecould not let this get to him. Not here. He got up before asking permission tospeak to the child.

“You're not going to tell her, are you?” She instinctively moved to block the door. He could see the fear,distress, and hope in her movement, expression, and voice. Fear and distress as to what the child couldfeel and hope that it could mean Risotto would stay.

“I am not. I just want to speak to her if you’ll let me,” Risotto reachedout and held her cheek to calm her. She relented and gave him permission as shesat down to collect herself.

Risotto found his child sitting by a tree, seeking shelter from theunforgiving sun and saw her filling in a coloring book. She must have grabbedit before heading out. She glanced up when he approached, giving him a quick “hi”before returning to her messy coloring. Knowing that this little girl was hisdaughter caused his heart to lurch, and he was angry at himself for it but choseto ignore it in the moment.

“Hello,” he greeted awkwardly, seating himself next to her.

“… Hi.” She responded quietly, not looking at him. Risotto noticed her downtrodden faceas she colored absentmindedly. As the adult, Risotto figured he had to strikeup a conversation, but his child beat him to it.

“That’s the happiest I have seen mom in a long time…” She opened up, “EvenI never made her that happy,” she said mumbled bitterly. Risotto didn’t know a childher age could saying something with such bitterness. She stabbed her cartoon onto the page and color furiously,breaking the crayon in the process. “… Thanks for making mom happy, I guess,”she muttered.

Unable to find the right words, Risotto placed his large hand on her headand gently ruffled it. Without direction, his child leaned into him and restedher head against him. The sadness on her face chipped away at his heart. Thiswas his child, and he had no way of comforting her; he couldn’t tell her who hewas to her. Not when he couldn’t stay.

“Are you my dad?” She suddenly threw her question at him.

He paused before asking, treading light. He didn’t want to break his word to the mother. “Why do you think that?” He wanted to know.

“Because of how happy mom was when she saw you because we share the samecreepy eyes.” She said, pointing to her own.

“Creepy?” Risotto repeated?

“That’s what all the kids here say about them. My eyes are creepy,” shesaid, matter-of-factly and unbothered.

“They aren’t creepy,” Risotto expressed, a protective and sudden paternalside manifesting, wanting his child to be confident in her appearance.

“Are you my dad?” She repeated, ignoring Risotto comment.

He remained quiet, knowing his silence was both an answer and not an answer at once,and she seemed to accept that and chose to go back to drawing. Things suddenlybecame tense, and Risotto realized he had made a mistake and stayed too long.He had to go. Without warning, he used Metallica’s ability to cloak himself andleft without uttering a word to his daughter and former lover. As time passed,the young girl’s mother came by to check on her.

“Where is Mr. Nero?” She asked her lonely daughter who told her that heleft a while ago.

“He told me to tell you sorry that he couldn’t say good-bye and that he’llmiss you,” she lied, hoping she lessened the blow for her mother.

“Is that so?” She smiled understandably, kneeling to give her daughter asoft kiss on the forehead. “That was very kind of him. Thank you, bambina.” Thelittle girl trembled and wrapped your arms around her mom’s neck, fighting theurge to cry. “There, there, my little sweet pea. There is no reason to cry.” Shetook her into her arms and carried her away, leaving her coloring book behind andtaking her inside.

The mother and daughter did not come out the rest of the night when Risottofound himself on their property once last time. He was tempted to cloak himselfand see them one last time but now had enough sense to know it was not a goodidea and would stop him from going back to Naples and his team.

As he began to walk off, he noticed the coloring back, picking it up and flippingthrough the pages. He smiled at his child’s reluctance to stay inside the lineand using random uncommon colors for common things. He didn’t expect to takeany gifts for back home, but he carefully placed the coloring book in hissuitcase when he finally headed back to his new home in Naples.

On the plane ride, he fell asleep thinking about his former lover andtheir child and dreamt about the life they could have had if things had turnedout differently.  

#shay replies #risotto nero #my writing #jojo hcs #for later #Anonymous #jjba #vento aureo

[gionamim]

BRIANNE TJU,  CISFEMALE, SHE/HER.  —  looks  like GIONA MIM is  attending   AURORIA UNIVERSITY  in  auradon.  they’re  the  NINETEEN  year  old  child  of MADAM MIM,  which  means  they’re  from  THE ISLE OF THE LOST.  heard  they’re  SOCIABLE  &  LOYAL,  but  can  also  be  RECKLESS  &  FORLORN  ;  we all have our bad days.  people  normally  associate  them  with  LETTING MUSIC LEAD YOUR BODY , MUSHING A PIE ONTO SOMEONE’S FACE , STOMPING AROUND IN BOOTS TOO BIG TO FEEL POWERFUL ,  CLOSING THE DOOR SO NO ONE SEES YOU WISHING ON A STAR —  

hello hello !!! it took me way too long to plan this child but now that she’s here im so excited for her !! pls if u like cabaret, magic, baking, and bitching, then step right up !!!

[ PROFILE ]

NAME: giona giulietta mim

NICKNAMES: gg

AGE: 19 

HEIGHT: 5′1″ (smol)

BDAY: november 2 ( scorpio! )

BIRTHPLACE: camelot

DEATHPLACE: .....camelot

FEATURES TO NOTE:

vk colours: pink and green and black

tattoos of constellations dotted and lined on her left calf: the lyra, and scorpio

dotted by herself

she has no pulse, no heartbeat

she doesn’t bleed

body temperature is cold

her skin heals quicker than average, if damaged

DOESN’T LOOK ‘DEAD’ (no dead skin, no disconnecting limbs)

she actually looks pretty perfect lol thats the star in her heart ayyy

when she’s truly happy*, she glows (like a halo around her head)

*truly happy = well ..... it’s a case-by-case basis

ON THE ISLE: it wouldn’t have been a full halo ... just more like a sparkle in her eye 

[ BACKGROUND/ SUMMARY AT THE END OF THIS SECTION  ]

madam mim has always been an average witch, but the way she gains excessive power momentarily is by eating the hearts of other witches, wizards, and magical creatures. this was how she fought merlin, way back when. and when she was defeated, she was furious, distraught, ashamed, embarrassed, but mainly furious

she spent years trying to find the perfect heart to consume, the one that would give her the ultimate power to defeat merlin once and for all (petty bitch)

she REALLLYYYY just hated losing and its SO PETTY BUT SHE LETS IT DRIVE THE REST OF HER DAMN LIFE

and it took her years and years. TOO LONG, in fact. because by the time she found one, the creation of the isle of the lost had been found, and she was running out of time.

she figured out that the way to beat merlin was to use his own tools against him: LOVE, BELIEF, GOODNESS. and she was losing power, so there were no pure hearts to be found easily (though snow white had plenty of children, they were too heavily guarded), so she sought other means. 

she studied the lore of stars. she charted, planned, and waited for the next fallen star. it is said that if you were to consume the essence of a star, you would be filled with the purest magic of all, an everlasting, and sustaining magic. 

a week before she’s meant to be thrown into the isle, she finds a star. 

but it’s not all she thought it would be. the essence of the star was so pure, it was fading in her evil hands. in its raw form, it refused to be consumed, let alone touched, by her. so she wrapped it up in a cloth (its light already fading slowly), and scurried away, seeking another way to keep the star and ultimately eat it. 

bear in mind this is all just to defeat merlin 

she experiments quickly, using millifractions of the star and testing it on different creatures: she finds out that if she chooses the little woodland creatures and let them eat the heart -- and she eats their hearts...she’s awashed with the intense magic. 

but how to find a large enough heart that will stay alive all these years in the isle? she decides to find her child. the child she abandoned decades ago, the one where she can’t even remember where she left it. 1 year old, wandering the woods, died in the cold of winter. but she knows where it would have gone -- to the land of the dead.

and there, she finds a wizened old skeleton (elder gutknecht) telling her that she simply cannot take the dead out as she pleases -- but madam mim uses the last of her magic to find a way and now she finally has a capsule in which to keep the essence of the star

she keeps it in her daughter’s heart. and as soon as it is in there, the girl comes back to life -- well, an almost-life. she has no blood rushing through her veins, no heartbeat. she doesn’t feel pain or exhaustion as a living girl does. 

on the isle, mim begins a MIM’S MUSICALE -- a cabaret show and dinner theatre. giona is the cleaner and the waitress, as soon as she was old enough to carry a tray of food and a mop&bucket. it helps when your child’s half-dead and somehow seems more energetic at night. 

this is where mim’s ego truly thrives bc even tho she’s lost her shapeshifting powers, its still like 7 nights a week, ppl going to HER place to watch HER perform (like they have a choice lmao)

probably gives herself awards

fast forward to 12 yrs old: mim is settling into isle life but still impatient for when she and the other villains can break out. she hears giona singing while washing the dishes from the night before. the girl can sing. and, yes she was losing patrons bc mim’s performances are just too abstract for ppl to like (clearly). so she forces giona to become the new act. makes her perform, sing, dance, every night. 

mim almost forgets that there’s a star in this girl’s heart. she almost forgets, until she sees those small moments when giona’s in the kitchen, when she thinks mim can’t see her; baking a small cupcake from whatever ingredients she could find, and though there’s no magic allowed on the isle ... there is still something unnaturally bright about that girl. and she hates her for it. 

this ‘goodness’ and ‘purity’ thing is very merlin-y and she HAAAAATES THAT

HATES SUNLIGHT, HATES BRIGHTNESS, HATE, HATE, HATE!!!

BLACK SORCERY IS IN !!! MERLIN IS OUT !!!!!

so she works giona to death (sort of). and tells her she’s ugly. and bullies her into low self-esteem. 

16 years old: mim is getting more restless about being trapped in the isle. she decides to take action again. she begins to teach giona the mim magic, which is hexes and jinxes and shapeshifting, and ofc, a hatred for merlin. 

but by this time, giona’s made up her own mind about her life. and she won’t let her mother live it. 

SUMMARY: giona was dead and brought back to life with star-essence that mim put inside her heart, so she will eat the heart when giona breaks her out of the isle and then she’ll use that star magic to destroy merlin and be considered the greatest sorceror once and for all mwahahahaha. also the star thing is a complete secret, mim hasn’t told ANYONE and giona has no clue about the glowy thing.

WHAT CLOSE FRIENDS OF GIONA WOULD KNOW:

she has no heartbeat, her body is sort of cold, doesn’t bleed, doesn’t need as much sleep

probably if they’re the kind of friends that like ... are genuinely good for each other lmao, they probably saw a bit of giona’s ‘glow’ when she’s truly happy

[ PERSONALITY ]

100 bad bitches can’t tell me nothin’

still a sort of mini-mim because giona also has a very short temper and is prone to just .... never letting things go lmao 

hates her mother: found out at a young age that actually, she’s not ugly, and she’s not stupid and she starts to drown out mim’s nagging and bullying

but still, in the middle of the night (bc for some reason she feels more active at night and cant sleep), she hears her mother’s voice in her head and cries herself to sleep

loves music & shows & plays & acting & performing:  but hates being forced by her mother to do everything. she hates being forced to sing by someone, she hates being told what to do

hate hate hate !!!!

loves to bake: little cupcakes and muffins and baked goods, and cookies ofc, and bread, she loves to make all kinds of bread and pastries. at least, that’s the dream. on the isle, she’d be lucky if she could find clean flour. so far, she’s only made cookies and tiny cupcakes.

these foods are only reserved for her friends, and they are all SWORN to secrecy that they will never tell her mother

loyal to a fault: once she feels she can trust you, she will never let u go. it’s ride or die. growing up with a mother hell-bent on hating her, she began to appreciate the few friends she made on the isle, and will do absolutely anything for them

still tho she’s like ..... she’s a bitch first and a friend later 

loud as hell and speaks her mind and would probably get a tattoo that says NO RAGRETS.

loves magic: CAN’T WAIT TO USE HER POWERS AND TURN INTO ??? A BIRD ???

doesn’t know anything about her heart: all she knows is that her mother tells her to keep herself safe, otherwise all that “business of trying to bring you back to life will be for nothing”. 

so yeah, she knows she was dead. but she just believes her mother used necromancy to bring her back, and it clearly didn’t work the whole way because she’s not fully alive

but you wouldn’t even know it unless you tried to find a heartbeat

[ how they feel about heroes/villains ]

giona only hates one thing for sure that is her mother lmao

merlin ???? will be fun to see but like otherwise doesnt give two shits, will probably praise him and send him a cupcake to thank him for defeating her mum

operates on a “if you mess with me, i will mess with you back” basis

doesn’t want to join any squads that plan to ‘ruin auradon’ because to her its just hakuna matata bro let it go why can’t you just be happy we’re actually here ?? lets fuckin run away !!!

[ CONNECTYONS ]

from the isle:

VKs who regularly came to MIM’S MUSICALE and saw her perform! she will hate the reminder ty 

MIM probably also hired a few weekly performers, ppl who performed once a night so if ur muse was a performer on the isle pls hmu !!!! 

VK friends that giona met and has them try her tiny baked goods 

they must love the cupcakes and cookies OR ELSE >:(

now in auradon:

those who know magic, who would investigate/recognise why she glows when she’s ‘truly happy’ and tell her that she’s a STAR and that her mother is probably planning to EAT HER

DEAD PEOPLE TO BOND WITH OVER BEING DEAD 

women/nb to squad up with and go shopping with and basically pls give her a girl squad she will fight anyone for you and you can do each other’s nails and just MAKE HER TRULY HAPPY W REAL FRIENDS AAHHH

someone to show her the kitchens :0 and take her grocery shopping :0

MAGIC PPL TO TEST-DRIVE MAGIC WITH. i’m talking fun duels, and pranking people pls.

musicals ?? to join ??? where she can finally play the roles she wants to play, and sing the songs she wants to sing ??? amazin

[ MAD MIM MAGIC ]

shapeshifts into any animal !

shapeshifts their size ! can be teeny-tiny or gigantic

shapeshifts their features to look a little different ??? like can look hideous, or more beautiful, or taller, or with bigger ears -- but can’t change into a whole other person

potions and hexes and jinxes take more concentration, but she can do it

[ NOTES / STAR THINGS ]

oKAY SO !!!!

the star part is greatly inspired by Stardust, the movie, especially the part about her glowing when she’s truly happy

mim is essentially growing her child to one day be able to eat her heart, gain the infinite powers, and defeat merlin

but since giona is the star (over the years, the star became a part of her heart), rather than someone who consumed it, the magic works differently for her. so she glows, and she heals easily, and she is awake more at night. with giona, the star ecomes a way of being rather than a power-source.

if her heart were to be taken out, she would go back to being dead, with no hope of a second life as an undead or zombie, because the star is the only life giona actually has. once it is gone, she is nothing.

giona can still do all of madam mim’s typical magic ! shapeshifting is the big one, and her thing is pink-green coloured animals. 

#usoa:intro #dear GOD #this took me 3 DAYS TO FIGRUE OUT #but i goT THERE EVENTUALLY #HERE'S MY CHILD

[horrible-monstrosity]

some nonsense about capitalism, and some more nonsense with the egg girl being far too willing to act for herself, which just raises questions about how this works and why these girls need saving in the first place and bla bl a bla also brownie, who we haven't even seen fight before, has like five different weapons already... dude just let the other girls modify their weapons if they can imagine it in place of randos giving main girl random shit that just works for some reason. second ep, main sees gynmasts gym whip and thinks, what if I did that and makes her own weapon change like that; third/fourth seeing the two fan girls being friends inspires main girl to tell idol girl we needs to do the teamwork and they both work their weapons into something matching and do the thing. this would also imply that summoning two related girls gets you an approximately twice-as-strong monster, as though their monsters had merged rather than spawning as seperate entities, which would be implied to be what happened when brownie cracked like 20 eggs at once if THE SHOW EVER FUCKING ADDRESSES THAT also man bad woman victim a bloo bloo blooo

hey remmer last episde wehn muh sawki name was cliffhanger dramatic? now they jus dump it on us that the mom recognises her and she just says she's his niece. glad to know i don't need to care about that either thanks main namedrops koito aka suicide girl like she expects the other two to know who the actual fuck she's talking about so brownie can exposition to them that she's the girl main's trying to save without having to actually write main having any emotions about having a dead fucking friend she's trying to bring back, like she might have to pause slightly before she says "my friind who committed fucking suicide because of me" wow that'd be too hard to write... not that they didn't already kill it by having her just casually, emotionlessly namedrop the girl in the first place. idol girl then immeeeeeeediately decides sudoku girl was sucking sawasaki man's dick and that's why she killed herself, right to the face of main girl who has likely considered this many times over and who should be pretty fucking fucked up about this shit, who idol girl knows damn well should have thought about this and that maybe saying a girl's friend fucking killed herself for some teacher love scandal reason is kind of a dick move... and main barely fucking reacts. OK, COOL. AND THEN THE TEACHER INSTANTLY APPEARS AT THE HOUSE AT THAT EXACT MOMENT A AHAHAHAHAH H AH DHFSDUBGUBGTEV BYSU Y OES5YSYUYYYBRND BY65 YRBYB YIB8TU A4YT4W6 T UGG U FUCK OFF SHOW uncle adopts cats so he can't be bad.......??????? I mean I'm entirely sure this show will, in the next second immediately after I unpause this shit, immediately turn the teacher into the most absurd superdemon ever known to mankind so it can smear the slurry of MAN BAYUD WOMUN VBICTUMUUUUUMMM in our faces like the slurry of brain-diarhea coming out of thw writing staff's ears, but that doesn't actually excuse anything, gendergirl. Maybe he was kind to the girl like he's kind to his cats and that's why she fell in love with him, and whatever happened next wasn't even his fault. you dumb fuck.

lol they mentioned the injuries again lol they're still pretending that's an actual functioning plot point lol somehow asking mom-chan about why sudoku-chan fucking died turned into telling her about the dream fights... those two things have nothing to do with each other and can be completely separated. what the fuck.

lololololidolgirl has abusive mom completlely offscreen and she's just telling us lololololololol but talking about main's dad simply leaving turns into "lol men weak and bad can't hanble stronb wimun" lol fuck off

for some reason, or for absolutely no reason, or because the writers are pretentions tards who're like 'lookit how smurt we ar durrrrr' we cut from the meaningless grousing exposition schoolgirl slice-of-life club with brownie laughing to the not-sees laughing as brownie saves a grown-ass woman who tries to give her hair-care tips... "ain'tcha gonna ask why i diiiiiiied?" nope, brownie has as much interest in your meaningless exposition as I do. I'd say as the audience does, but you know there's a fuckload of dunning-krugers eating this shit up and claiming you only don't like it becus it needs u think durr even though thinking about this shit for five seconds is enough to show how much of a pile of bullshit it is. also, remember the first episode where it was kept beautifully ambiguous whether the girl main was saving had actually done the sudoku, or if she was considering it and being saved there would help her have the strength to keep living or some shit, or if she was a conceptual personification of a suicidal bullying victim created out of the subconcious of humanity and not even a real existing person? especially since she somehow knew what was happening, making it seem like she'd been through this before, like she'd been hatched and saved (or failed to be saved) previously? naw let's just spoonfeed everything to the audience, anally even. here's your suppository of bullshit. i know they'd already made it fairly clear the girls being saved had done the sudoku, but this "durrr do you know that uhhhhhh i'm dead?" bit is just... jesus christ shut the fuck up show, shut the fuck up what's the line between sudoku girls who end up as statues and ones who end up in eggs? could one of the main casts' sudoku girls end up in one of the others' eggs, or even in one of their own (especially given someone else can buy the egg for them and they don't even need to crack it themselves to get slapped into a fight) and end up being saved? how would that affect the statue's progress? what the fuck is any of this shit, even?

brownie slaps the shit out of haircare girl lol and the monster is... a hair-care monster. i... why the fuck are there two of them this time? sorry, three of them?? you'd think the "mirror mirror" shit would imply a theme of duality because reflections and shit but just... "how do i beat them?" fuck i don't know you're the mahu shuju here you figure it out then it....... cuts to the middle of the day with brownie hanging out with the rest of the girls... WHAT THE FUCK? so was that a flashback (for no fucking reason), did she beat them offscreen after having gone home and gone to sleep offscreen as well since it jumped to this from them hanging at main's home? what the fuck is happening and why the fuck should i care, show? and what we cut away to was a bunch of incoherent fucking babble in random fucking locations as the girls walk... somewhere for no reason at all... yeah, this was worth cutting off the battle for! i... after enough wandering they sit down to eat in some abandoned-ass-looking fucking I don't know where the fuck they are and... THE EGG PEOPLE TELL THEM TO BUY THEIR EGGS AND LEAVE. WHERE THE FUCK IN EGGLAND DID THEY FIND FOOD? DOES THE FOOD ACTUALLY EXIST? WILL EATING IT MAKE THEM FAT? WHERE THE FUCK ARE THEY? WHY DOES EGGWORLD EVEN HAVE A PLACE LIKE THIS? WHEN  DID THEY GET HERE? THE FUCK IS THE POINT OF THIS? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-- ........................the egg people turn on the lights for them and let them pkay game because.............................. aegIibuGHUHgHGbgb i thought they wre unfeeling and caulous vgny yueyy y jb that was like their one character trait you rubbed in in out faces how tyey were ht0hing but a shitty kyuibey ripoff dgbbky yr dj jffj why should they care? why did the girls even try to appeal to their sympathies for a fucking bowling game when they had previously been shown to have none?? agdaaaaaaaaaaaa

do fucking selfies carry over to the real world? who the fuck cares? gender girl tries to garner more sympathy with the audience by repeating her exact same gripes and character traits but this time with selfies. i could not care less. apparently we're supposed to care that 'ura-acca', whichever the fuck of the eggmen that even is, being softer on the girls than... other acca, even though they've been shown to have no appreciable differences before this, and also they're both completely offscreen so it's hard to even associate these shiny new character traits with whichever one of them is supposed to be doing it. what the fuck is the point of any of this again? "so buy your eggs and go to sleep"- WHAT THE FUDK I THOUGHT EGG-BUYING HAPPENED IN THE DREAMOWLRD TO BEING WITH. FUCKING MAIN CHARACTER SAID SHE WAS IN A DREAM WHEN THE CICADA STARTED TALKING TO HER AND THEN SHE WAS LED TO THE EGG-MACHINE. THIS PLACE EXISTS IN THE WAKING WORLD? CAN PEOPLE JUST FUCKING WALK IN HERE BECAUSE IT JUST ACTUALLY FUCKING EXISTS? WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUUU just as we're wondering why the fuck these girls don't just fucking buy their eggs already and get on with it idol girl just fucking suggests that they just fucking give up with it and stop buying eggs. fuuuuuuuuuuck I'd been long wondering about what the fuck was going to keep them doing eggs if they didn't want to, but it's just going to be something fucking dumb and they're just going to slam us in the fucking face with it like a fucking frying pan aren't they. also, idolgirl is just fucking saying this to the face of ura acca and other acca after they'd been bitching at the girls to get a move on, which just seems... really cheap and lazy on both her part and the writers' part. you wasted acca-kuns' time for nothing you little brat! also also, this is the girl with the derpest feelungs evurr who cut herself over the sudoku, whose dreamworl overrode main's? yeah remember that? she actually doesn't give a fuck and is going to give up now lol. ha ha bitch bye lolololol "im w9man so muh emotions spwepwpt away" you dumb fucker. and yeah, it's true that feeling guilty shouldn't mean you need to risk your life for some unknown payoff (none of the girls have even gotten CLOSE to reviving a statue as far as I can tell), but you'd think this conversation would come after a near-death harrowing battle or some shit, not just WANDERING AROUND AND EATING DREAM SNACKS AND TALKING ABOUT FUCKALL YOU LITTLE SHIT. Or after actually connecting with the main cast and making actual real-life friendships with them, with the idea that she has in real life now what she was missing when sudoku did the sudoku, but the main cast has absolutely no chemistry. The writers want us to think they do, but they just don't. "someone has to be the bad guy!" real funny line considering there's no real villain in this show, or conflict, or anything... but no, no one needs to be the bad guy, this whole "durr we riskung our lives for nutttun" came out of nowhere for no reason, we don't need it, and then yeah she informs us all that "we freinds" because durp. You were the one shittalking her dead best friend to her face either like five minutes ago or a day ago depending on how the fuck this is actually supposed to be paced, you fucknaut. None of these girls actually know each other aside from babbling about their shitty backstories and idol in particular is just an asshole. I hate this fucking show lol then... brownie......... dumpers her exposition backstory on us and it's EVEN DUMBER THAN ANYTHING BEFORE, SOMEHOW. naw, she has a huge fucking fuckoff scar all down her back from being...... stabbed, because a knife stabwound is like having your entire spine ripped out, and WE'VE NEVER HEARD ABOUT THIS AT ALL, SOMEHOW, OR EVEN GOTTEN A HINT OF IT, and somehow SHE KNEW FROM THE START THAT GOING TO EGGWORL WOULD MAKE HER SCAR HURT LESS BECAUSE IT MAKE U SWONGER, BECAUSE IF SHE DIDN'T KNOW THAT FROM THE START AND DIDN'T WANT TO SAVE HER SISTER WHY THE FUCK WOULD SHE START GOING THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE? and then finally eggmang tells us there was no reason for anyone to keep going to the eggworl in the first place, at all, ever, so they can all just give up if they decide they don't care abymore. GREAT, NICE TO KNOW I DEON'T NEED TO CARE ABOUT THAT EITHER, THANKS SHOW, YOU FUCKWIT.

then finally we get back the hair battle that happened..... whothe fuck knows when, it turns out the real monster is the egg girl some fucking how, brownie has a stupid fucking catchpjhrase because fuck you, the monater was actually egg girl's hair actually because that doesn't make any sense either, fuck you. why was this battle chosen as the one to flash back to repeatedly like it's indicative of brownie's storyline somehow? At least gendergirl's exposition battles were related to her dumb fucking issues, this shit's just random.

and then idol girl goes to... buy... the fucking egg...... even though she just said..................... sob eggman 2 tricked them into buying the eggs by saying nthyey didn't need to buy the eggs, some bullshit about teenage rebellion and reverse psychology, like he said "absolutely don't buy the eggs" instead of a wishy-washy "eeeeeeeeeif you want to or not auiehgfgh". why the fuck do they want them to buy the eggs again? and then eggman 1 has this... fucking..... "animation" of it """laughing"""" just by its stupid fucking solid black triangle of a mouth blinking in and out of existence and the artists see fit to put this right smack in the middle of the full screen for a good second so we can look at how good their animation is gsdfhdfhmvf  dtjf f then brownie looks sad or something, because having her reneg(g)e on the backstory and conviction they just exposited to us five seconds ago and didn't actually integrate or develop in the fuckinbg slightest is good writign fck, this shit i'm logging into my anime list and giving this show a 1 out of 10 i'm done

[bpdeadd]

I had other weird nap dream again - this one kinda makes sense to me bc it was about my old friend (who I hate and who ghosted me - she wasn’t very nice in the end as well), anyways so before I had a nap I was lit watching a YouTube vid about bpd and got rly emotional about the whole abandonment thing, and angry and upset so I took a nap to calm myself down, and I was thinking to myself in my dreams I could basically ‘kill’ people who hurt me and abandoned me bc to me that would mean cutting ties w them and I'd be able to move on and be ‘happy’ as it were - sounds weird but ugh anyway - lo and behold this friend I was thinking about showed up in my dream she was also known as an ‘identity thief’ in my dream and she was working w these ppl to sell these drugs or smth idk, and then I rem I was eating some vegetarian food (it was like ‘fake’ steak or smth lol idk if that even is relevant) in my dream by myself before all these random ppl showed up - and there a mix of diff ppl w skin colours and sexual orientation and I felt quite happy being around them and then this friend showed up next to me out of nowhere - also eating but I ignored her and pretended she wasn’t there and paid attention to the other ppl around me - I even spoke to one of them (tho after I noticed this friend like ‘oh sorry I didn’t realise you were sitting next to me, and this girl chimed in like oh! next to you - jokingly to get offended bc of what I said to this friend, and I was like saying oh no, you remind me of someone I went to school w (one of these popular girls I knew idk) and then this friend started to drag me away from these ppl like she just refused to let me be w them any longer and then I somehow got drugged at some point- I saw her mum and her sister they were wearing sort of ‘rock concert’ clothes and then I suddenly was drugged and I rem shaking and not being able to move in my dream when they were pressing down on my stomach - as I was laid on the floor (this friend nowhere to be seen) and smiling creepily and stuff, and I looked down on my self and saw myself wearing skinny black jeans (usually what I'm wearing atm) but this shirt w ‘district’ on in so ??? and then it went dark for a bit bc I could hear myself screaming at myself, and then I rem like it was me from my own pov screaming in this dark place - like I was just floating around in the void, but my voice was sounding all ‘echo-y’ and I was screaming ‘kill them ! kill them all! ‘ but I saw this Japanese writing on my shirt and in English it also read ‘rest assured’ so idk what that means but it was just weird bc it felt like me myself and not my dream self screaming that at my ‘dream’ self, and then I woke up so I'm abit ?????

the only thing I can think of is this friend had such an influence on me, she was my ‘fp’ as it were and bc of her actions towards me - she was horrible towards the end of our ‘friendship’ after I lost her I couldn’t bare to have any friends ever again which is probably why she was ‘dragging’ me away from all those ppl in my dream, bc she made me refuse to have any friends (and to this day I don’t have any, I don’t know anyone, plus we moved house in late 2019 so don’t know anyone and I just don’t have any friends at all like lit (bc I just refuse to be abandoned in anyway at all) and the drug thing is like an influence over me, and she sort of ‘stole’ a part of me when she left that I feel like I can’t get back which may be smth to do w the identity thief thing bc obv w the fp thing u base yr whole identity around them but when she left I didn’t have an ‘identity’ anymore so ??? idk about the mum and sister bit but her family were weird (they were very wealthy and I think her dad at least was involved w the mafia in Spain so they were rly weird family - her dad was a carpenter but idk if he ever worked for them and it was just a cover for drugs or smth which is why they were rly rich but idk - just rem this friend telling me an experience she had when she went w her dad when they were in Spain and her dad was a ‘client’ of these ppl he was meeting w, and also said to me her dad knew the mafia in Spain bc she didn’t like this one girl and said she could get her dad to contact these ppl and do smth bad to this girl but idk if it was ever true so 🤷🏻‍♀���🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️) so they were a weird fam and I think this friend was heavily influenced and forced into a lot of situations that were bad for her by her parents - especially her dad, and her mum divorced her dad obv but before that, she ran away w her sister when her dad was away for ‘business’ so idk why they were included but maybe smth to do w them influencing this friend and then in turn she influenced me idk and she did basically lose herself and become more or less like how her ‘family’ wanted her to be, and basically dressed and acted like she was ‘rich’ which she hadn’t before. Like she used to dress emo and goth and then went sort of ‘sporty’ fashion before she was like dying her hair blonde and wearing like Chanel or gucci or smth and I was like??????? what happened to this friend ? and I liked her back before she was like that bc she just dressed however she wanted and we used to talk about anime all the time and she basically just changed into alot of the girls at school who used to bully me so I didn’t rly like that but she was my friend and I tried to not judge her too much but yh she just got really horrible at the end of it. 

it was a weird dream and idk if what I was thinking to myself was true that I had to kill this ‘friend’ in a dream to be able to cut emotional ties/connection to her and stop having her influence me in such a way, it was really smth that triggered me off severely and made my bpd more obvious which led to be getting a diagnosis sooo

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MY CITY IS BEING DESTROYED BY CHILDREN

So im picking up my son from monroe elementary after his bus ride home from camp. Bus arrives. I get out of the car and immediately i notice nearly all of the children, some with large bright red marks on both of their cheeks, sobbing so inconsolably that they could not breathe. Some were runnin away from the bus frantically lookin for their parents and some were already clutching their parents tightly and bawling, burying their lil tear soaked faces into their parents stomachs. they kept saying "please i dont ever wanna go back there, i dont wanna do this again, dont make me do this anymore, i was so scared, i didnt know what to do" let me tell you....these babies had the most traumatized faces ive personally ever seen on a kid and it just broke me. At this point i am very confused, concerned, and alarmed. my instincts kick in to try and help a little so i try to comfort some of em. im askin other parents what happened, but they understandably couldnt pay me attention as im sure their minds were probably as lost in all of this as mine. I keep aimlessly sayin wtf is going on and why is everybody crying like this. I start askin some of them if theyre hurt or if there was an accident but they couldnt even speak cuz they were too hysterical. Im trying to calm some of them down a bit like "hey its ok baby dont cry ur ok ur safe." still friggin looking around for adults who arent too absorbed in this mess to ask them wtf is happening. at the same time im searchin for my own kid in the crowd tellin ppl "hey, i cant find my son! is there another bus coming?!" A little girl said no this is the only one. So now im REALLY WORRIED. WHERE THE FUCK IS MY CHILD?! I run into a kid nate knows. him and a little girl are shouting, to what seems like essentially nobody in particular, about having the police called on them by the driver and that they coulda been tossed in juvi. (Honestly they should have been tossed in juvi! this particular kid brought a knife to camp and steals shit constantly from the kids at school especially my son) Grabbed his shoulder and said "calm yourself down and look at me! why?! what happened?! was there a fight? were u involved? Was nathan involved? Where is he??" The boy, (still shouting for some damn reason even tho he is right in front of me), says no nathan wasnt involved. He doesnt know where he is. (Turned out he knew where he was but lied cuz just minutes prior he threatened to beat him up and tried punching him, the little fucker, but staff grabbed his arm midswing) Then he tells me that almost the entire bus was gettin into fight after fight and there were kids punching, slapping, verbally abusing other kids, a lot of whom did nothing to warrant the abuse and continued being abused repeatedly for almost the ENTIRE 3 FUCKING HOUR RIDE, by much older kids whom they were afraid to defend themselves against. I was like "omg this is terrible. where in the hell is my son!" Some guy finally says "they are keepin some kids with staff up by the front of the bus" so i literally gotta force my way thru people who's kids were still hanging off of them in fear. now im crying, other parents are crying, some are screamin at the children who beat up their kids and the children who beat up their kids were screamin at them..... FINALLY.... I find nate. He had been slapped in the face by a 12 yr old girl but he was alright. they had made prior note of his behavioral disorder and quickly got him away from the situation while on the bus and sat him by camp staff. thank goodness. Im asking him, "are u ok?! did anyone hit u?!" before he can answer, suddenly i see an enraged mother almost attack an older girl who hit her kid in the head. The girl is shouting at the jefferson staff member who stepped in AND the mother. She yells out that she hit her in the head, at first, then 2 seconds later she says she didnt, and shouts "yea yea lady! bye bye! fuck off! shut up!!! i didnt hit her!! quit runnin ur damn mouth!! Shut your mouth!!". My. Jaw. Dropped. I saw her gramma or whoever she was doing absolutely nothing about this little shits behavior, actually trying to get the staff to stop speaking to her and leave her alone, and thats when i just plain SNAPPED. When i say snapped folks i mean i damn near deadass rowdy roddy pipered this child. It took every muscle i had to stop that train from derailing. I was pissed. Told her shes an awful disrespectful little shit and will go no where in life with that bullshit. She was like "thank u! Thanks bye! BYE!" Thats when i probably should have split. But i didnt. Conveniently forgot how to adult for a minute there. My bad! She was a repugnant little fart sniffing booger eater who felt a lil too validated from decking a much smaller kid in the head and just, just....fuck THAT... Then i word barfed. "good riddance to bad rubbish youre an awful AWFUL child and should be ashamed of yourself. Shame on you!" i looked at her gramma and shouted "good luck with your apparent lack of being able to deal with that mess of a child! Shes terrible! You have failed!" then basically i walked away tellin her shame on her for sucking. ****************************** A 16 yr old was shot n killed recently. A pastor was shot and killed recently. We got all ages of unsupervised kids vandalizing everything in site. Kids shootin off guns in parkin lots, stealin vehicles n crashin into buildings. breakin into cars 4 valuables or just breakin the windows cuz they feel like it. We got kids having knife fights n runnin round with gd knives, tellin other kids theyre gonna cut em or kill their siblings if they dont hand over cell phones money bikes hover boards u name it. Kids breakin into ppls homes. Kids stealing n vandalizing walmart 2-3 times a day. Kids stealin carts bringing em here and pushing each other around into ppls cars n then they run away. They beat on my son at school n bully him all the time stealin his things verbally abusing him. He got beat up by teenagers just playin with his toys in the backyard! Theres just hoards of em. Never supervised or disciplined. Not once have i seen the parents of any of the kids causing problems in my apt complex regardless of whether theyre 6 or 16. sumtimes theyre out there in the parkin lots screwin around til 2 am. They plain as day are simply not being parented and have no guidance. Sum of these piece of crap parents just dont wanna have the responsibility of raising their own kids period. Sum of em run away n their parents dont see em for days weeks months but never report em missing cuz they dont care. Theyre out there sleepin in abandoned sheds houses alleys parks n gotta steal their food. 12 yr olds smokin pot and having sex in ppls yards. Even when they mess up n end up at the police station n the police either cant even find their parents or they do n theyre told "i aint dealin with it find something to do with em urself" juvenile hall is FULL. There is no where to put them. And they just run away from annie whittenmeyer n nobody does anything. Im dead tired and fed up. I hate living here and im stuck. We dont feel safe anywhere. My kids cant have friends cuz u cant trust the kids nor their parents. Nate had a lil 9 yr old buddy next door and he would come to play n his mom would just leave n lock the door without saying shit to anyone not even him. He'd go home n come back like "nobody is over there" so i had no choice but to keep him with me even if i had shit to do or it was 10 pm n we wanted to go to bed. We have GOT to spread the word about this shit and try n get sum awareness. This is a crisis we are having in the qc. Im sick of the ever escalating crime here. I dont encourage ANYONE to move here. And i absolutely hate that i gotta raise my kids around this. Create a discussion about it. Get involved. if ur readin this n u kno ur kids causing mayhem but still u do nothin dont do right or make excuses then u better recognize UR JUST AS MUCH OF A PROBLEM. if u arent gonna give enuff of a shit about ur own offsprings lives 2 check n change urself then get u n ur kid the hell out of my city n away from me n mine!!

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GODHEAD'S DAUGHTER ELS Traveling Singing Preacher Of Righteousness

Annyeong Haseyo, Ni Ha Ma, Ohayo Or Good Morning Everyone Around The World.... This Is What People Of Racism Get!!! TO REVOLT ON MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND THE EARTH, Y'ALL NOW HAVE TO DEAL WITH HIS DAUGHTER WHO IS ULTIMATELY ONE IN HIM WHOLEHEARTEDLY FOR ALL ETERNITY!!! IT WAS ADONAI IDEA, TO FOOL OUR ENEMIES, BECAUSE I WAS TRULY HEARTBROKEN OVER MY TWIN, WHO I JUST BEGAN TO REALLY LEARN MORE ABOUT HIM, SO ADONAI CALLED MY NAME, IMMEDIATELY AFTER THE CORNERS, CAME AND GOT HIS BODY, BUT CHECK THIS OUT, THE VERY AMBULANCE TOLD US THAT THEIR DOCTORS MADE THE CALL NOT TO PUT THE BREATHING MACHINE ON HIM, JUST BECAUSE HE WAS A YOUNG DEARLY, BELOVED CHOSEN BY GODHEAD PRECIOUS ANOINTED PROPHET OF GODHEAD, THAT WAS BLACK, BUT HE TOO WAS A MIXED BREED!!! STARING DOWN ALL OUR ENEMIES WHO TOLD BALD HEAD LIES TO OUR FACES, FILLED WITH SO MUCH ANGER, GOD REALLY GOT MY ATTENTION THAT NIGHT, SO I RAN INTO MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ARMS, BECAUSE I KNEW THIS ONE THING MY ANGER, WAS VERY TERRIBLE BACK THEN AND I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO CONTROL IT!!! SO EVERY TRIAL THAT CAME MY WAY, I LEARN TO SEEK GOD EVEN MORE. THE MORE DUMB, OUR ENEMIES BECAME THE MORE I BECAME DETERMINED TO UNDERSTAND MY KING OF GLORY LORD JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH, MY VERY DEARLY, PEACEFUL, VERY POWERFUL, LOVING CHERISHED HUSBAND ALPHA AND OMEGA HEART... IT'S TRUE GENTILES ALL OVER THE WORLD[ THE TRUE OUTSIDERS OF GODHEAD YAHWEH, AND YESHUA KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW, IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH TOGETHER FINALLY!!!! IT'S VERY FUNNY, NOW BECAUSE THEIR WAS ONLY ONE TIME MY FATHER GOD WAS MAD AT ME, AND IT'S A CERTAIN YEARS AGO, BUT WHEN ADONAI, LITERALLY STATED TO ME SAYING THIS" WHY DO I HAVE TO KEEP TALKING TO YOU LIKE THIS, I DIDN'T HAVE TO TELL YOU THIS AS A CHILD!!! BEING REBUKED, BY MY ABEOJI FATHER GOD, I QUICKLY REPENTED, AND DECIDED TO CHANGE EVERYTHING ABOUT MYSELF, JUST TO MAKE MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD PROUD OF ME IN EVERYTHING IN THIS LIFETIME!!! I NEVER CARED TO BE LIKE OTHERS, BECAUSE I TOLD MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD FAMILY, I NEVER THOUGHT IT MADE SENSE TRYING TO BE LIKE ANOTHER HUMAN BEING, IT'S JUST A IMITATION OF THE REAL BEING!!!! SO I STARTED TO REALLY CONSIDER GODHEAD YAHWEH AND YESHUA, BECAUSE MY NAME GOD GAVE MY PARENTS OUR NAMES, BUT SPECIFICALLY FATHER NAMED ME PERSONALLY. SO I COULD NEVER CARE TO BE ACCEPTED BY A WICKED SOUL FROM HELL, CAUSE I WILL BLAST THE WHOLE DAMN TERRITORY DOWN, CRUMBLING TO HELL ITSELF!!! ALL THOSE BELOVED SOULS FROM GENESIS TO REVELATION ALL THE WAY TO MY VERY OWN YEAR I WAS BORN IN!!! PEOPLE CHOSE THE CREATURE BECAUSE THEY NEVER LOVED GODHEAD IN THE FIRST PLACE, AND IN FACT, THEY REALLY HATED BABY LORD JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH, MORE BEFORE HE CAME TO DESTROY THE WORKS OF THE DEVIL, WHILE ALSO TEACHING PEOPLE[MANKIND YOUR FOCUS SHOULD BE ON STUDY THE HOLY BIBLE TO KNOW THE OWNER OF THIS WORLD FOR YOURSELVES [ELOHIM HIS MAJESTY, THE REAL SUPREME BIG BOSS MAN OF CREATION ITSELF!!! SADLY IT IS AMERICA FAULT AROUND THE WORLD WHO CAUSED THIS DISTURBANCE, IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE, BECAUSE AS A CHILD I KNEW THE DIFFERENCE OF WHO WAS RIGHTEOUS, AND WHO WAS WICKED!!! GODHEAD DESIGNED ME, SPECIALLY THIS WAY, TO HELP OUR LOVING FAMILY IN THIS WORLD, TO OBTAIN THEIR GOD GIVEN INHERITANCE TO THEM... BUT HOWEVER, YOU ALL HAVE TO SEEK GODHEAD WHOLEHEARTEDLY LIKE MY HUSBAND ALPHA AND OMEGA TOLD YOU ALL IN THOSE 4 BOOKS MATTHEW -MARK!!! NO ONE CAN BLAME, ANYONE ON NOTHING ANYMORE, WHO YOU CHOSE TO SERVE, OR CHOOSE TO SERVE IS YOUR CHOSE, BUT I JUST REFUSE TO JUST SIT BACK AND DEAL WITH THESE STUPID DECEPTIVE BASTARD WAYS!!! BECAUSE ACTUALLY DONALD TRUMP = DAISY TRUMP IN OFFICE [HE'S A GIRL, PEOPLE!!! BECAUSE YAHWEH ALWAYS HAD ME TO BE CLOSE TO PEOPLE OF 1970, BECAUSE THEY REALIZED I WAS MY AGE AND HEIGHT, BUT I NEVER LIKED GOSSIPERS, THAT'S NOT HOW WE JOINT-HEIRS WITH OUR LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST KING OF GLORY, LIVE IN THIS LIFE!!! REAL MEN AND REAL WOMEN, TRUE HOLY PEOPLE OF GODHEAD CLINGED TO ME, AND I TO THEM BECAUSE WE SENSED WE WHERE FAMILY SPIRITUALLY TOO... SO TECHNICALLY EVEN THOUGH YOU WHERE ACROSS SEAS AND IN AMERICA TOO, GODHEAD MADE IT TO WHERE BOAZ AND I WHERE STILL IN THIS WORLD TO SHOW YOU ALL LOVE IS ALWAYS IN CONTROL, AND NO ONE, AND NO THING ON OR UNDER THIS EARTH, CAN STOP, THE UNSTOPPABLE, UNSHAKABLE, AND UNTOUCHABLE ANCIENT OF DAYS [EL ELYON- MY TOUSAN, HE'S VERY LOVING, BUT WHEN YOU DEFY HIS VERY OWN ORDER, HE'S OH SO VERY DREADFUL... THAT Y'ALL PIST MY DAD OFF LAST YEAR, THAT I FEARED EVEN GETTING OUT OF THE BED, IT SHOOK MY VERY SOUL, BECAUSE NO ONE HAVE THE RIGHT TO ANGER MY DADDY GOD, TO A LEVEL THAT IT'S SO FIERCE, I THOUGHT I WOULD SEE HIM STEP ON EARTH LITERALLY!!!! Y'ALL LOVE LUST SO MUCH, THAT YOU ALL ARE DAMNED TO HELL, FOR ALL ETERNITY, IT'S FOR EVERYTHING YOU ALL EVERY DID IN THE DAY AND IN THE NIGHT, THINKING WE DIDN'T KNOW YOUR PLOTS ON MY FAMILY'S AROUND THE WORLD!!!! YOU ARE RIGHT DUMBASS BASTARDS THIS WORLD IS ON FIRE, IN FACT YOU ALL ARE IN CONSUMING FIRE EVEN AS I SPEAK... YOU ALL SET ON VIDEOS, IN MINISTRY CONVENTION, DID MOVIES, AND EVEN SET AT THE TABLES AND ATE WITH OUR DIVINE CREW FROM HEAVEN, ACTING LIKE YOU ALL WHERE FOR THEM, BUT YOU WHERE INDEED AGAINST THEM!!! THEY LAUGHED AT ME, IN THOSE HOSPITAL CHAPTERS OF MY LIFE, CAUSE I TOLD, AND TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING, AND EVERYONE TO THEM!!! THEY CRACKED UP LAUGHING SAYING WHY DIDN'T WE KNOW ABOUT HER??? MY GREAT KING WHO REIGNS SUPREMELY IN EVERYTHING, RESTORE EVERYTHING TO EVERYONE THAT IS A CHILD OF GODHEAD EL ELYON[ A ROYAL KING & A ROYAL QUEEN , FROM THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN, INTO THE EARTH, SO WAKE Y'ALL ASS UP ALREADY AROUND THE WORLD, STOP LETTING PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY ARE LITTLE EMPS OR LITTLE ASS FUNKY TROLLS, TELL Y'ALL HOW TO LIVE IN GODHEAD ALONE!!! MY VERY BEAUTIFUL,AND VERY TREASURED LOVE ONES DIDN'T ABANDON ME OR YOU ALL THEY ARE RESTING FROM THAT DAMN TRADIOUS CRAP, THOSE DAMN MINISTERS AND ARTISTS FROM HELL, LU THE FALLEN DUMMIE CREW, TRICKED Y'ALL INTO THINKING YOU WHERE ALONE, Y'ALL WAS NEVER ALONE, YAHWEH AND YESHUA, ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL LOVE Y'ALL VERY DEARLY, BUT YOU ALL HAVE TO DECIDE WHAT IS IT YOU ALL REALLY DESIRE TO HAVE NOW??? 2 OPTIONS ONLY MAKE IT COUNT, CAUSE WHEN MY HUSBAND ALPHA AND OMEGA RETURNS HE WON'T BE PLAYING WITH NO DAMN BODY!!!![1(MATTHEW 6[ THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN LIFESTYLE,LIVING IN GODHEAD ELOHIM HIS MAJESTY FOR ALL ETERNITY [EVERLASTING LIFE]... OR [2(ROMANS 1[the dumpster kingdom of darkness living in lust LOVING DOING EVIL TO EVERYONE=DEATH AND DESTRUCTION FOR YOUR SHREDDED IN PIECES DISOBEDIENT ASS SOUL]!!! [NO ONE IS PLAYING WITH NO BODY, IN THIS WORLD THAT HAS CHOSEN TO REALLY HATE THE VERY SEED WHETHER IT WAS JUST A BELOVED,PRECIOUS,TREASURED DAD, OR A MOM, WHO REALLY JUST TAUGHT YOU TRUE LOVE IS CONTENT IN JUST DOING RIGHT WITH THE MAN AMONG MEN, MAN THAT'S JUST PERFECTLY FOR YOU[ELS]... ABEOJI NEM KNOW I SEE, I WAS RIGHT ABOUT WHEN A CHILD IS 18 YRS OLD THEY SHOULD HAVE ONLY THEIR VERY OWN ACCOUNTS, SO THAT WHEN THEIR SPOUSE'S SHOW UP, THEY CAN HELP EACH OTHER, IN SAYING WHAT'S MINE'S IS YOURS, AND WHAT'S YOURS IS MINE'S MY LOVE!!! THROUGH THOSE CHALLENGES I LEARNED THIS EVERYONE IN THIS WORLD, NO MATTER WHO HAS MONEY OR DON'T, AS LONG AS YOUR HEART IS ONE IN GODHEAD, AND YOUR HEART'S DESIRE IS FATHER'S GOD ULTMATE SUPREME KING OF THE UNIVERSE... HIS MAJESTY WILL SEE TO IT, PERSONALLY THAT YOU HAVE EVERYTHING THAT'S YOURS, EVEN IF THAT ENEMY HAS TO DIE OFF OF THE FACE OF THE EARTH THIS DAY, AND EVERY SECOND,EVERY MINUTE, AND EVERY HOUR OF OUR GLORIOUS DAYS WITH THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW, Y'ALL WEEDS, AND TARES IS MADE AN EXAMPLE OF IN THESE DAYS... SO DON'T THINK YOUR CRIMES, WON'T BE BROUGHT INTO HIS VERY MARVELOUS,VERY BEAUTIFUL, VERY SHINNY, VERY MIGHTY,AND VERY POWERFUL LIGHT [ALPHA AND OMEGA MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST KING OF GLORY, MY ONE AND ONLY TRUE LOVER OF MY SOUL FOR ALL ETERNITY, WILL SEE TO THIS ONE FACT ALONE.... THAT EVERYONE IN THIS WORLD WILL GIVE AN ACCOUNT OF USING THE HOLY BIBLE SCRIPTURES TO CORRUPT OTHER SOULS AROUND THE WORLD... DO Y'ALL NOT KNOW HOW MANY INNOCENT PEOPLE REALLY DIED, COMMITED SUICIDE BECAUSE YOU EVIL ASS DAMN BULLIES IN THIS WORLD!!! IT'S THE VERY ARTIST Y'ALL HAVE BEEN IDOLIZING, THE VERY MINISTERS TOO YALLHAVE BEEN SAYING AMEN TOO.... BUT HERE THIS YOU MASON BASTARDS, THE DAMNATION ON Y'ALL HEADS, IS MORE DESTRUCTIVE THEN Y'ALL WICKED ASS COULD EVER IMAGINE!!! NOT KNOWING THIS SECRET ALONE[ IT'S WAS MY FATHER GOD IDEA TO SEND ME INTO ALL OF THE FATHER OF LIES SATAN TERRITORY ITSELF, JUST TO INVESTIGATE YOUR VERY OWN COMPANY'S IN AMERICA... STUPIDLY YOUR CHILDREN PIST ME OFF EVERYTIME, AND THEY KNEW, I'M THAT CHILD FROM LONG AGO, EDDY MURPHY THAT GIRL TOO, PROTECTED A CERTAIN CHILD, BUT I WAS PIST OFF,CAUSE I TOLD MY FATHER GOD IT WAS NOT IN Y'ALL HANDS TO PUT OUT OUR STUFF, ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS... IF ONLY YOU ALL ACROSS SEAS REALLY, UNDERSTAND BOAZ AND MY HEART THROUGH THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH, THE SPIRIT OF GODHEAD, IT WAS NEVER SUPPOSE TO BE ANOTHER SHADY UNDERCOVER WORLD WAR ATTACK NO ONE, WE WHERE BORN INTO THIS WORLD THE CHOSEN GENERATION OF GODHEAD THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN, WE DEFIED EVERYTHING OPPOSITE OF THE HOLY BIBLE, WE ALWAYS HAVE, AND WE ALWAYS WILL WHOLEHEARTEDLY WITH OUR HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM HELPING US IN ONE ACCORD TO FULLY LOVE WHAT OUR ABEOJI LOVE'S ,AND TO FULLY HATE WHAT OUR TOUSAN HATE'S!!!! DESPISING THE VERY CORE OF DISOBEDIENCE, IS THE DEFINITION OF ME[ QUEEN ELIZABETH L.SMITH], BOAZ MY LOVE I PRAY I HAVEN'T MADE IT HARD ON YOU ALL MY LOVE, BUT SOMEONE HAS TO, STAND UP AND STAND OUT IN AMERICA, EVEN IT'S JUST THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW WITH US TRAVELING PREACHERS OF THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW, JOINING HANDS TOGETHER TO DRIVE THESE WICKED ASS BASTARDS OUT AND DOWN BACK INTO THE VERY PLACE THEY CAME FROM!!! BUT THIS TIME, NO FAMILAR SPIRIT FROM HELL, WON'T BE RETURNING, IT IS YOUR VERY TRUE AND FINAL DESTRUCTIVE END, JUST SPECIALLY FOR Y'ALL WICKED ASS SORCERER'S!!!! DO Y'ALL NOT UNDERSTAND DOING THAT TRIGGERS THE VERY ANGER OF MINE IN THIS EARTH, I TOLD YALL I WAS TORMENTED FOR YEARS, HAVING SLEEPING PROBLEMS, BECAUSE PEOPLE WHERE MESSING WITH MY FAMILY, AND I SENSED IT, SO IMMEDIATELY MY ABEOJI HEAVENLY FATHER GOD TRAINED ME STRICTLY, TO NEGATE YOUR DAMN TRAP CRAP!!! SHOULD WE REALLY HAVE TO SHUT DOWN EVERY DAMN COMPANY Y'ALL HAVE IN THIS WORLD, THAN SO BE IT, WE WILL PERSONALLY MAKE SURE YOUR DAMN ASS, AND YOUR DAMNED COMPANY'S GET SENT TO HELL RIGHT ALONG WITH Y'ALL CROOKED ASS!!!! WE DON'T LIE, CAUSE LIES =DEATH DUMBASS DUMPSTER BASTARDS!!! AND YOU KNOW I'M GETTING ALL OF THESE DAMN FITHLY ASS HELL CREEPING THING CHILDREN OF HIS= THEIR RACIST ASS HAS AND ALWAYS WILL HAVE THE COOTIES[LOVL LAUGHING OUT VERY LOUD]... I'M FROM THAT GENERATION, WE TALKED ABOUT YOUR DUMBASS STRAIGHT IN YOUR FACE AND AROUND YOU, BECAUSE IT'S OUR WAY OF SAYING DON'T BE STUPID, YOU TRIFLE WITH ANYONE OF US, WHILE I WAS NOT AROUND, AND I FOUND OUT ABOUT IT, OH IT WAS AND IS GOING TO BE ALL OF THE ELEMENTS ON,UP,LEFT,RIGHT,AND DOWN YOUR BACKSTABBING FUNKY STRINGS ATTACHED ELVE'S FROM HELL LOOKING ASS!!! I TOLD EVERYONE, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU LOVING EACH OTHER IN A SICK MINDED TWISTED ASS WAY, BUT PUTTING THAT DAMN X IN FRONT OF MY HUSBAND ALPHA AND OMEGA MONTH OF DECEMBER... DAMN NEAR I FOR SURE HAD IT IN FOR Y'ALL DRAGON LOVING ASS, I TELL Y'ALL THIS I WILL SHOOT ELECTROMAGNETIC FUSED ELEMENTS OF ALL TYPES OF NATURES KIND, TO SHOOT THAT DAMN ONE WINGED BROKEN BACK BASTARDS ASS DOWN, ONLY JUST SO WE KOH KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW CAN SHOW ALL OUR ENEMIES, WHEN WE SAY, DON'T YOUR ASS DO NOTHING ABEOJI SAID NOT TO DO, YOUR STUPID ASS BETTER NOT DO IT!!!! AND THAT'S THAT, Y'ALL WICKED ASS DECEPTIVE PARENTS LIED TO Y'ALL, FOR NOT TRAINING Y'ALL CAUSE I NEVER HAD PATIENCE FOR A FALLEN ONE,OR OF ANY KIND OR NOTHING... THEY DO TOO DAMN MUCH STUFF, THEY LOVE ATTENTION JUST TO DO SOME MORE DAMN DUMB STUFF, AND Y'ALL TURN AROUND AND BRAG ABOUT THEIR DECEIVED BLIND ASS!! YAHWEH AND YESHUA IS NOT COLOR BLIND,BUT THEY DO HATE Y'ALL ASS THOUGH, CAUSE YOU'VE BEEN ROBBING PEOPLE Y'ALL BALD HEADED ASS LIVES, AND GO BUY SOME ROGAIN TO PASTE ON Y'ALL DAMN HEAD, THINKING WE DON'T KNOW THAT PATCH WAS PASTED ON YOUR LYING ASS HEAD!!! SO LET ME GET THIS RIGHT MY KING OF GLORY, THE MEN IS BEEN REALLY WOMAN, AND THE WOMAN THE MEN REALLY= BECAUSE I REALLY SAW EVERYONE TRUE IDENTITY IN THOSE 4 BATTLES!!! Y'ALL REALLY TRIFLED WITH THE WRONG CHILD OF GODHEAD EL ELYON, THEY BROKE MY 2 TEETH,HAD ME WITH MIGRAINS, EXPERIMENTED ON ME, AND EVEN MOCKED ME IN MY FACE, DON'T FORGET THEY LET ME WET ON MYSELF KNOWING I'M A VERY CLEAN WOMAN OF GODHEAD, AND DON'T FORGET THE DAMN AMNESIA, WHEN YOU TOLD THEIR DUMBASS JUDGE'S IN THE EARTH, THEY SAID YOU CAN STILL WORK EVEN MORE HARDER STILL BASICALLY, JUST BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T WANT TO PAY ME NO ASSISTANCE IN THIS VERY COUNTRY AMERICA, THAT HAS HAD A TOTAL OF 6 PRESIDENT'S ASSIGNED FROM HELL, TO GET INTO OUR VERY VERY VERY, HOLY OFFICE ANOINTED BY GODHEAD PERSONALLY TO UPHOLD HIS PRECEPTS IN THE HOLY BIBLE, TO PROTECT THIS VERY UPKEEP OF THIS WORLD ITSELF!!!! 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THAT LOUD MOUTH SUCKING BOTTLE BABY FROM THAT CHURCH WITH A STEVE GREEN, WHAT TO YOU KNOW SOMEONE NAMED STEVE AGAIN, JUST THE SAME NAME AS THAT UGLY ASS MALE BARBIE DOLL I HAD, LORD JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH KNOWS, I WAS LOOKING FOR ME A DOLL OF EITHER MY KIND -KOREAN, ASIA,AND JAPANESE KIND OF MALE DOLL... LOVL LAUGHING OUT VERY LOUD, I'VE BEEN TAGGED UP WITH MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM CREATOR OF THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE THIS WHOLE TIME..... OH MY WHAT WILL THEY DO BOAZ, MY LOVE MY MAN AMONG MEN, MAN YOU HAVE THAT UPPER ROOM CLASS OF SKILLS, OH HALLELUJAH, HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST OF PRAISE... HOMIE YOU HAVE THE VERY ADVANCING SKILLS FROM ON HIGH SKILLS, I HAVE TO HAVE THIS VERY SPECIAL INVITATION ONLY FOR YOU MY LOVE, CAN I COME OVER TO YOUR HEAVENLY PLACE, SINCE WE ARE ULTIMATELY OF THE SAME VERY CLASS, AND EVERYTHING ELSE DO YOU STILL HAVE THE INFORMATION I GAVE YOU AKA!!!! SEND ME A MAILING JUST FROM YOU ALONE MY LOVE, I'LL BE EXPECTING IT SUDDENLY JUST FROM YOU ALONE MY PRECIOUS BELOVED, CHOSEN OF GODHEAD EL ELYON, MY DESTINED PARTNER FOR LIFE VIRTUOUS ONE I LOVE YOU FOR ALL ETERNITY, AND ARIGATO,XIEXIE,AND GOSAMANIDA, AND SARANGHAEYEO EVERYONE IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH... GODHEAD AND SPECIALLY BOAZ HERE🌏💎😍😍😍🌟🍒🍉🍽🍴💑💝... ABEOJI OH MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM MEN, LOVING YOU FIRST AND FOREMOST IN EVERYTHING WHOLEHEARTEDLY, I CAN FINALLY SAY I'M FREE TO MOVE ON FROM EVERYTHING NOW, LOVING GODHEAD YAHWEH AND YESHUA, AND YOU BOAZ, HAS TAUGHT ME EVERYTHING SERIOUSLY, LOVING YOUR VERY OWN GODHEAD DESIGNED PARTNER ALONE, THAT IS ONLY YOURS, AND NO ONE ELSE'S, I REALLY TREASURE EVERYTHING FROM THE MOMENT WE MET EVEN UNTIL NOW AND FOREVERMORE WITH YOU MY ONE AND ONLY TRUE LOVE OF MY HEART BOAZ YOU AND THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN FAMILY, HAS TAUGHT ME IT'S OKAY TO JUST BE A WOMAN OF GODHEAD AGAIN AND ONLY, I REALLY DON'T HAVE TO DO BOTH PARTS NO MORE, ABEOJI, TOUSAN NEM, IT'S REALLY BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME SINCE, I WAS PROTECTED IN THIS WAY AGAIN, MY HEART IS MORE FREE THAN YOU COULD EVER KNOW BOAZ MY LOVE, I REALLY WAS A HIDDEN CINDERELLA FROM ALABAMA IN AMERICA, I JUST BEGAN TO RAGE IN THOSE HOSPITAL CHAPTERS, BECAUSE NO ONE WANTED TO SAY IT WAS THIER FAULT, AND THEY JUST DIDN'T WANT TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR ANYTHING IN LIFE ITSELF!!! HOW CAN YOU YOURSELVES CLAIM YOUR A ADULT IN THIS WORLD WHEN THE HOLY BIBLE SAYS THOSE THAT ARE BABIES NEEDS BOTTLES FOR THEIR BEGINNER LEVEL OF GODHEAD!!! BUT WHAT DO YOU ALL DO WHEN THE ONES WHO HAVE A MUSTERSEED OF FAITH, MEANING THEY NEVER WHERE OF GODHEAD, THEY JUST HAVE BEEN LIARS THEIR WHOLE LIVES.... [YOU CAN'T WALK IN TRUTH, AND LIES= EITHER YOU ARE OF THE FATHER OF TRUTH, OR YOUR EVIL BLACK ASS IS OF THE FATHER OF LIES, THAT DAMN THING, FROM THAT FALL!!!! I REALLY HATE ANYTHING THAT'S A CREEPING, AND Y'ALL GOT THAT DAMN THING ON THIS EARTH LIKE THIS, YO HOST OF HEAVEN I REALLY FEEL LIKE, Y'ALL MIGHT HAVE TO REALLY GET MY RIGHTEOUS FIGHTING SELF!!!! THIS IS AN EMERGENCY FOR REAL NOW, DAMN MARIAH,TIMBALAND,R.KELLY, LIL KIM, JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE, AND THAT DAMN DRAKE FROM DEGRASSI YOUR SISSY ASS IS A GIRL... THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE MATCHED MY TWIN WITH YOUR ASS, YOU ALL DON'T KNOW BUT NOW YOUR ASS WILL KNOW TO PLAGIARIZE A HOLY VESSEL OF GODHEAD, TO MATCH THEM WITH A HOMO A VERY UNHOLY AND STUPID SOUL FROM HELL. GODHEAD JUDGED ALL TO HELL QUICKLY BEFORE Y'ALL EVEN KNEW IT, AND I'M NOT TELLING Y'ALL WHEN!!!! BLAME IT ON THIS SAYING YOU GIVE ENEMIES ENOUGH ROPE, THEY WILL HANG THEIR OWN ASS!!!! WELL, BOAZ WE REALLY ARE VERY EXPENSIVE, TO CORPORATE VESSELS FROM HEAVEN TO EARTH, HOMIE THESE INFIDELS, HAS SUNKEN THEIR OWN ASS INTO THE LAKE OF FIRE!!!! OH MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM, MR.VERY SUPREME, VERY ULTIMATE, YOUR THE MASTER OF EVERYTHING YOUR WAYS ARE REALLY NOT LIKE MAN, AND I'M SO VERY GRATEFUL TO YOU ALL ABEOJI NEM, MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM HEAVENLY CREW [KINGDOM OF HEAVEN FAMILY IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH TOGETHER IN ONENESS, THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY SOUL, FOR TEACHING ME EVERYTHING, AND I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO YOU CONTINUE TO TEACH ME IN THINGS I'M STILL DESIRING TO LEARN ABOUT YOU ALL YAHWEH AND YESHUA NEM, LOVE CHANGES EVERYTHING WHEN YOUR FOCUS IS TOTALLY ON MY WHOLE EVERYTHING, MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST KING OF GLORY, MY KING AND LORD JESUS CHRIST THE SOLID ROCK I STAND ON AND LIVE IN FOR ALL ETERNITY, YOU REALLY ARE MY HERO, YESHUA, BECAUSE YOUR LIFESTYLE TAUGHT ME THE VERY TRUE MEANING OF LOVE, NOT IN JUST SPEAKING IT, BUT TO WALK IN RIGHTEOUSNESS FOREVERMORE... 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HOW WE KNOW THAT'S EASY I USE TO HAVE 2 GIRLS WITH ME IN SCHOOL, AND SOMETIMES I WOULD JUST GO CHILL WITH THE BOYS, THE HATER HARLOTS, WOULD ALWAYS FRONT IN MY FACE TALKING ABOUT THAT'S MY GIRL WE WILL HANGOUT AND COME OVER MY HOUSE AFTER SCHOOL, TOO MANY DAMN COMPLIMENTS, THE SCHOOL HAD A TRAIL I USED TO WALK AROUND WHEN I WAS ANGRY, AND DIDN'T WANT TO BE BOTHER WITH NO ONE, SO I WALKED AROUND WHAT TO YOU KNOW THE SAME GIRL THAT COMPLIMENTED ME THE OTHER DAY TURNED AROUND AND SAID I CAN'T STAND HER SHE THINKS SHE IS ALL THAT!!!! I ELECTROCUTED THAT DAMN RELATIONSHIP WITH WORDS. NO NEED TO CALL ME,TALK TO ME,OR NOTHING IT'S OVER I DON'T KNOW YOU, AND YOU DON'T KNOW ME!!!! IF YOU CAN'T STAND SOMEONE DON'T SAY YOU LOVE THEM AND YOU HATE THEM!!! THIS STUPID PUZZLE CRAP I'M DONE WITH FOR ALL ETERNITY, DON'T BRING YOUR DECEITFUL ASS AROUND ME, NEVER AGAIN, OR YOU WILL REALLY BE SENT TO HELL INSTANTLY!!!! ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK DUMBASS BASTARDS CHILDREN, I'M PIST OFF AND I REALLY DO MISS MY TRUE CREW, I'M NOT IN THE MOOD FOR THIS DAMN MIND GAME NO MORE, CAUSE I MIGHT REALLY BUY A STAFF JUST FOR MYSELF AND WHOOP YALL ASS LIKE ANUBIS AND KAIRA COMBINED ALL INTO FROM RONIN WARRIORS!!! I STUDIED THE HOLY BIBLE, AND GODHEAD BLESSED TO MASTER ALL OF MY GIFTS AND TALENTS FOR HIS GLORIOUS NAME SAKE ALONE!!! Y'ALL SERVE WHATEVER JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME, IF YOU IS NOT LIVING A LIFE VERY PEASING UNTO GODHEAD ELOHIM HIS MAJESTY.... I DON'T WANT TO KNOW NOTHING ABOUT BEYONCE AND JAYZ STEALING ASS, HOW IN THE HELL, DO YOU BOTH TOOK 2PAC SONG ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND, AND CHANGED IT INTO SOMETHING ELSE. WHEN JAY-Z KNEW 2PAC SAID HE COULDN'T STAND HIS SISSY ASS!!!! Y'ALL THAT SHADY ASS HELL, TO KNOW THAT ORIGINALLY Y'ALL KNEW THEY HATED Y'ALL AND Y'ALL HATED THEM, Y'ALL JUST DECEIVED THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD THINKING Y'ALL WHERE COOL, BUT NO THEY WEREN'T CAUSE I TOLD MY TWIN, NO MATTER WHO SMILE IN OUR FACE, A JUDAS AND A JEZEBEL WILL ALWAYS JUST DO WHAT THEY KNOW HOW TO DO IS JUST BE CROOKED AS HELL, IN LIES AND EVERYTHING ELSE!!!! DON'T THINK I'M ALL TALK, THIS HAS BEEN MY WHOLE LIFESTYLE, DEALING WITH Y'ALL DAMN KIND, TOO SORRY TO OBEY THE HOLY BIBLE AND SEEK GODHEAD WHOLEHEARTEDLY, Y'ALL WENT TO SOMEONE LIKE ESTHER ROLL FROM GOOD TIME, TO FIND OUT ABOUT AALIYAH NEM, SO Y'ALL COULD FAKE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA AS IF Y'ALL WHERE VERY TIGHT BUT MY SIS EXPRESSION TOLD ME EVERYTHING ON A CERTAIN PERFORMANCE SHE DID, AND GOD TOLD ME LOOK I NOTICED AT THE SAME TIME SHE FELT THE SAME BUT WE WHERE IN DIFFERENT STATES I COULDN'T GET NEAR HER IN TIME. BUT MY PRAYERS SAVED THEM YOU ARROGANT BASTARDS!!!! IT'S PAY BACK ON Y'ALL WICKED ASS UPGRADED IN A WHOLE NEW CLASSIC WAY THE VERY NEW AND IMPROVED CROSS OF CALVARY WHOOPING OF A LIFETIME JUST FOR YOU ALONE MY LOVER [ALPHA AND OMEGA, I SHOW THEM THIS BRIDE OF YOURS, IS NOT PLAYING ANYMORE WITH OUR ENEMIES. WATCH Y'ALL BACKS AND ALL AROUND CAUSE I KNOW SOME ANGELS WHO FEEL THE SAME WAY I DO, THESE AND I CAN COMMAND THEM AT ANYTIME TOO, THIS IS FOR EVERYONE WHO EVER HAD TO DEAL WITH Y'ALL ASS STARTING WITH GODHEAD NEM FIRST THEN ADAM NEM IN THE HOLY BIBLE ALL THE WAY TO BOAZ AND MY AGES...... TO GOD BE THE GLORY FOREVER AND EVERMORE, AMEN, AND AMEN... ENJOY BOAZ MY LOVE I LOVE YOU FOREVERMORE WITH MY WHOLE HEART. THE ELEMENTAL QUEEN STRIKES BACK AGAIN WITH MY FATHER GOD SUPREME JUDGMENT, PRAISING THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND THE, FOR ALL ETERNITY AND EVERMORE, AMEN,AND AMEN.....😗😙😛😛😛

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