#am i still poor though

[appalachianne]

the problem with getting a tattoo is that then i want a million tattoos. but a million tattoos cost a million dollars. and i farm flowers and clean up horse shit for a living which, despite popular belief, is not a very lucrative industry.

#tattoos #like do i live sophie from howls moving castle life but w/o howl? #yes #its glorious #am i still poor though #also yes #taking applications for someone to be my howl btw

[frodo-a-gogo]

Let us be brutally honest with ourselves and with eachother for a moment. If he weren't obese you motherfuckers would be capable of percieving evrart claires sexy sexy moral ambiguity and complex charms

#i am (lesbian) sipping him like a fine DESSERT WINE #my evidence by the way is very simple and very damning. joyce messier. there i said it. #if you guys can appreciate the fact that Joyce is a complex figure worthy of disgust yes but also worthy of empathy #despite being a venal coward facilitating acts of violence and slaughter of the organized working poor of martinaise in the name of capital #if you can understand that she is a dimensional figure while also being an embodiment of the moral apathy and cruelty if capital owners #but you cant look at evrart and see that he is (while deeply flawed and morally suspect) also a dimensional figure #on top of the fact that his motivations are eminently relatable and dare i say it baser #and his greatest failing imho is in failing to advocate for the interests of *all* the poor of martinaise #opting instead to marginalize the inhabitants of the fishing village in favor of a power grab in the interests of himself and his union #though this is imo a bit of a grey area morally. undeniably a wrong and bad thing to do but done in service of clairs political goals #to gather power to advocate for the working class against ultraliberal monoliths like wild pines and fascistic orgs like krenel #still super wrong but i can follow the moral arithmetic there tho i don't like it #but like my point is if u can see that joyce is evil and pathetic but still cool and sexy but you consider clair flatly distasteful #thats cus hes not conventionally attractive #cus he is *every bit* as dimensional and interesting as joyce and he is not nearly as politically shite even if hes interpersonally a jerk

[wrylu]

idk why i'm so moody these days but i find my despair funny

aka my average day as of now

#1. impulsive silly thoughts #2. STOP FORGETTING TO EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!1 please :3 (note for myself me myself and i) #3. i get sad 🥱 #4. tired #(tumblr deleted half of my tags. isnt that nice though you wont have to listen to my essay of vents nobody wanted to hear that) #vent art #wrylu #lu's canvas #negative thoughts below :) have some flowers 💐 #sometimes i feel like i should get up more and spend time with my family i miss how it used to be #but you know what i suck and im practically glued to my chair and im lazy like if i was one of the 7 deadly sins i would be sloth #im surprised im not dead yet #this is purely for myself to speak my poor mind #no i actually hate this #i wanna die #i wish i was dead #not really #but still #i wish time just stopped so i can re evaluate my life #and whoa damn dysphoria makes an appearance ever #i wish i had a schlong (funny) #this is awful #sometimes i feel manipulative like i switch my emotions and personalities so hard #am i manipulating you guys?? #i feel like im being sad for attention #ugh i hate that the internet is my comfort #thats bad isnt it #i feel like an attention seeker #why am i even writing this 🥱🥱 #i cant wait to fall asleep forever

[lilyoffandoms]

Bianca & Adan

[wip here]

My Art Ish Thing Tag (Choices Edition): @storyofmychoices @aallotarenunelma @twinkleallnight @thosehallowedhalls @dutifullynuttywitch

#choices ame #choices america's most eligible #bianca sandoval #playchoices #my art ish thing #i polish nothing #does this still count to the monthly challenge since his tattoo is still visible haha kidding #my oc: adan mcintyre #two more stops today #can confirm iowa is still very iowa-y #so back on the road in a bit after i finish my yogurt and coffee and newspaper #(or until I get sick of listening to the couple hissing at each other at the table next to me… #…she is not pleased that he packed her bag because apparently he did it all wrong… #…i feel sorry for him and wanna just unpack her bag right here in the breakfast area and tell her well than maybe she should do it herself.. #…but i won’t though i am trying to convey my sympathy to the poor thing) #in game refs used #clothing refs used

[panevanbuckley]

IT'S BEEN SO LONG I'M FORGETTING WHO I AM WITHOUT MY FAVOURITE BLORBOS

#i went to bed able to read a new fic so i thought it was back and sleep in blissful ignorance #because i've woken up and it's disappeared again 😭 #those poor volunteers out there doing the lord's work though like seriously it's been so long and they're still tryna fix it #bless them 🙏 #ao3 #fanfic #i am still however dying of boredom without my beloved idiots doing stupid shit

[squishosaur]

thick lineart and round shapes beloveds. thats what jumps to mind first to me at least :3

now presenting: my wife with thin lines and sharper shapes (evil version)

#I AM SO GLAD YOU APPRECIATE MY THICK LINES AND ROUND STUFF THOUGH.. i think it is cutesies... #before i colored i did not even recognize my poor idia akdkdmd #i can still tell i drew it though. i think it's... the shading? #twisted wonderland #idia shroud #twst fanart #my art :> #digital art #doodles #'havd you drawn cater with similar piercings?' yes they havr matching piercings when i remember to draw them ajdndndmd

[svtskneecaps]

can anyone confirm if there are multiple qsmp eng updates twitter account admins or if it's literally just one person held hostage until badboyhalo decides he's gonna turn off stream

#qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #it is 3:30 am where bbh is to my knowledge #he's still live. #please tell me the eng updates has people from the us time zones; british time zones; and australian/new zealand time zones #bc oh my god if not i feel so bad for these poor souls #i hope they just pop in a discord gc like 'ok guys i'm passing it to you [UK user] bad is still live' 'OH MY GOD AGAIN' #at this point i think the qsmp eng updates twitter admins deserve their own tag lmfao #shoutout to them even though i don't use twitter. SHEEEEEESH they're putting in Work. good job <3

[kirkwallguy]

can i get your mary having Realizations. maybe at the day of her wedding?

omg TY for this prompt i love talking about mary but very rarely actually write about her. this stumped me for a little while because everything that happens at her wedding requires SOO much context that i had no idea how to start, and it felt ooc to just have cullen suddenly do something so terrible. so here's him and mary just kind of sucking in unique and strange ways. this takes place juust before the wedding when everyone is beginning to gather at the winter palace.

mild tw for vomit mention and templar ptsd-esque nightmares (???).

Mary awoke in Cullen's arms. Their bed at the Winter Palace was bigger and softer than any she'd ever slept in - she and Cullen gravitated towards the middle of the feather mattress together, leaving a large indent that would inevitably linger after they crawled out of it in the morning, waiting for their return later that evening.

Cullen never looked more like a Templar than when he was sleeping. It was strange - Mary had heard (and, she was ashamed to admit, read in Varric's romance novels) that people were supposed to look innocent in sleep. Haunted heroes became innocent boys, creased foreheads smoothed, racing thoughts slowed.

But Cullen's brow remained creased as he dreamed. He muttered to himself, kicked, scratched, growled like a dog. Sometimes, he frightened Mary. She'd cling to him in the dark, heart pounding, as he whispered cruel words at some imagined threat that taunted him behind his eyelids.

Were all Templars like this? Were there thousands of people all across Thedas just like her? People who lay awake with their palms flat against their lovers' sweaty backs, thanking the Maker that they weren't born a mage? Was she just unlucky? Or was this, as Hawke had darkly insinuated that final time they'd spoken, exactly what she deserved?

According to Varric's stories, Mary had a duty here. She was Cullen's reward at the end of a difficult road, a symbol of all he had lost and gained. She was supposed to comfort him, to soothe and fix his troubled soul - her arms designed to wrap around him like bandages, her kiss the perfect antivenom.

But on nights like this, when she pressed her lips to his twitching cheek, the taste of stale sweat always made her draw back with disgust.

One night early in their relationship, Cullen had drunk far too much and vomited all down himself. Shuddering and crying, he'd reached out for comfort. The smell of his breath, beer and vomit mingling together, had made Mary turn and run, leaving him alone on the floor in his own filth. The next morning, he'd kissed her chastely on the cheek at breakfast and his breath had smelled of peppermint.

It was easy to resent him for drinking like that. Many women resented their men for drink.

"Drink doesn't make men into beasts," her mother had whispered to her one night before bed, not loud enough to cover her father's heavy snores in the next room, "it just tells us which ones have beasts hiding inside them."

After that, she'd spent years of her childhood trying to see who did and didn't have a beast inside of them. She wasn't sure about her father - if he was a beast, he was nothing but an old bear, loud but too tired and lazy to do any harm. A few of the Chantry Mothers, the ones who would rap her on the knuckles when she giggled during the Chant, seemed to have dragons inside of them. The men who fought outside the taverns late at night were wolves, howling at the moon with their hackles up. And the girl in the portrait that hung above the fireplace in Mary's bedroom stared at her with the eyes of a songbird.

Cullen had something inside of him as well, but Mary wasn't sure if it was a beast. A beast, after all, could be killed.

As his dreams became more violent, so did his body. He writhed in her arms, as if a demon was taking over him. Mary held him tighter.

"She'll regret it," he muttered, "she'll be sorry soon."

Mary shuddered. Trying to distract herself, she traced the muscles in his back with a morbid fascination, feeling as they shifted and bulged unnaturally. If she'd been a healer, she might have understood how muscles worked - the violent snap and pull of them beneath her fingers might have been cause for gentle concern rather than a sensation that revolted her. But the inner workings of the human body were as good as witchcraft.

Cullen groaned, "kill it," he said, so loud that Mary squeezed her eyes shut and prayed that nobody else could hear, "kill it now!"

Whatever he was dreaming of terrified him. He cried out and twitched, kicking Mary hard enough in the shin that she yelped and pushed him away roughly enough to wake him up.

Cullen's eyes flew open. He stared directly at Mary, panting.

"Oh, thank the Maker," he whispered.

Mary stared back at him, keeping her eyes half closed as if she'd just woken up, "hmm?"

He looked like was going to cry. To Mary's horror, his trembling lips embarrassed her; she edged away from him a little, hoping he wouldn't notice.

"I was dreaming," Cullen said, "it was just a dream. A terrible dream."

Mary didn't respond. This was exactly how this scene played out in every single one of Varric's stories. She swallowed her disgust and reached out to brush Cullen's hair from his sweaty forehead, almost gagging as her fingers met his wet skin.

"Just a nightmare." She agreed, hoping Cullen didn't notice how flat her voice was.

Cullen, Maker help him, closed his eyes at Mary's touch. He lay there and shook as she stroked his hair, tense shoulders beginning to relax. That innocence he lacked in sleep was plain on his face now - he looked like someone Mary had never met before, someone she wasn't sure she would ever meet again.

"What was the dream about?" She tried.

Opening his eyes, Cullen stared at her for a long moment. His gaze passed over her face, lingering on each detail for so long that she almost found herself blushing.

Only when Mary was sure that he'd forgotten she'd asked him a question did he answer her:

"You." He said.

It should have been a shock, should have made her blood freeze, but in that moment his answer seemed like the most logical thing in the world.

Mary continued to stroke his hair, "what happened to me?"

"You were possessed," Cullen closed his eyes again, sleepy, "an abomination."

"Did you kill me?"

He was halfway back asleep now. He leaned in closer and wrapped an arm around Mary's waist, "I did," he whispered, "I killed it."

And then he stuck his face into Mary's neck, his hair brushing her collarbone, and fell straight back asleep.

Mary didn't sleep again. She stayed awake, palms against Cullen's sweaty back, and thanked the Maker that she wasn't born a mage until the sun was high in the sky.

#iceta #ask #oh mary.... i mean this is on cullen too but i think she's disgusted by vulnerability beyond the templar stuff #i ALMOST just said fuck it and started planning a 10k thing about her wedding day but it STILL didnt do the context justice #maybe one day ill do something about the trevelyan siblings. idk how though. i like the idea of a bunch of concurrent short stories #anyway i hope you find this a fun insight into mary's twisted mind sorry it took like 2 weeks and is short #also a little purple prose-y. but when its under 1k it doesnt count ok i just wanted flowery mary being terrible.. #also aware i am on the piss on the poor website and anyone can see this... this is just mary's pov i dont think addiction #or violent nightmares make you a bad person. its just terrible circumstances. #fanfic

[sysig]

A bit more Defeated, and thinking about this post (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #But actually starting with chibi Maxes because cutes!! He's the cutest!! #I was looking through some old doodles of my own and my chibi style from 2019 was so flippin' cute ugh #That Zedaph in cold weather clothing? Honestly still a fave of mine Zed is So soft in all my doodles of him lol #Figured it'd be nice to float some cute loves Max's way :) And I was right! Though I am out of practice lol #Was still fun to do tho haha #And then since I'd reread Defeated poor ZEX got a chibi as well! I'm sure he appreciates it poor lad haha ouq #Didn't even use my white ink to put a shine in his eye for that one haha :'D #And then a bit more with Dex </3 I had these ideas on the first reading (or so - in the same time period anyhow) but only got to them later #Dex speaks so.....patronizingly about ''Max's'' attachment to Caleb :) It's interesting to me :) #For a lot of it he's very understanding and gentle with him but it really seems like Caleb is something of a sore spot for him huh #Still ♪ I wonder if he'd consciously acknowledge it - and what his reaction would be at himself if he did hmm #He's no help to Max if he's caught in his own feelings! That doesn't make them not meaningful or important tho #And then to a bit of silliness ♪ No subtlety with the guard dog comparisons pffft #I will not apologize - if ZEX gets to play with a collar and leash with the Captain then let Max have just a little! As a treat! #Besides we all know the Real Dynamics here lol #Max and Dex do stupid couple's costumes for Halloween - who doesn't love a callback lol - and Dex is Not Amused lol #Hey I mean if the shoe fits! #And then the last one is just silly lol I may be misinterpreting the intended message but I couldn't not give it to them lol #And also Max in a ponytail for funsies :D Cute lad ♥

[tennessoui]

About to go reread all your mob aus ✌️💙

!!

🤔🤔🤔🤔

new mob au obi-wan is the mob boss and anakin is actually just like. a normal civilian this time. no thoughts of murder, no bloody past, no bloodlust. just some dude, but he ends up seeing something he shouldn't and then taking out one of obi-wan's men when they go to make sure he stays quiet and obi-wan...likes that a bit too much

so instead of killing anakin, he threatens him into working for him occasionally.....after all, he has a wife and kids so he's pretty easy to threaten into compliance, either by threatening the kids directly or threatening to use his influence to charge anakin with the murder of his man

fast forward a bit and there's nothing obi-wan starts to like more than seeing the mayor's husband standing in his office with red hands giving him a report on what his wife and the police are gonna try to do next to clean up crime and corruption in the city.

and then eventually there's a shift down the line where anakin starts to think obi-wan is doing more for this city than anyone else and he's really actually helping people, giving them food and shelter and controlling the violence.......so anakin becomes a turncoat voluntarily, spying on his wife and her political friends and going to obi-wan to tell him things like what the police commissioner talks about after four glasses of win

and then the threats become rewards when they fall into bed together and there was no way obi-wan saw all this coming but he's always known skywalker would be a wise investment

#asks #obikin #longterm investment au #mob aus are something that can be so varied and personal tbh #in this one i can see anakin being someone who grew up very poor/on the streets #lost his mom younger #idk maybe he even worked for obi-wan's mob when he was a kid as a runner or something #and obi-wan digs those records up and blackmails him to work for him again #so many interesting options #once again i am sorry padme #lol at me saying this is normal civilian anakin #and then breaking him and pushing him off the civilian cliff #tbh i find civilian anakin in a mob au ooc it just doesnt feel right #here he starts as a civilian but it doesnt take long #but we can still make this one squeamish about killing people #even though its also ooc lol #dark

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I can't express to you how much I adore Weaver Márquez. The ghost in the static. A mystery not a puzzle. A person gone but still taking up space. A thing still leaving marks after it's gone.

#i love her i love her i love her #one of the very very very few characters i relate to across any media piece. i can only think of 4 that i relate to even a little #shes more unteathered to reality than i am but shes an odd person with bizarre niche extremely academic interests #who just drifts through places like a ghost. more memory than person #she makes me so sad but i guess everyone in kr0 is a tragedy #but weaver is like thr 2nd big anomaly u meet. standing in her farmhouse where a grave out front reads marquez even though as far as #Shannon knows its not a family member and her one last echo of impact on the world is seemingly to guide Shannon to a place where maybe she #can make somwthing better once the rain has washed everything away #uuuuuugh its such a beautiful gorgeous game that i love so so so much #as an Appalachian i feel it in my soul Even tho im not from Kentucky and i was lucky enough to grow up not in poverty the town where i went #to school was better than a mining town but still poor rural America #its just a game that changed my brain chemistry #kentucky route zero #krz #kr0

[sequesteredbhaalspawn]

Just going to go ahead and be silly with this post.

Because I miss EA Wyll so much I'm going to rename him "Byll" (I am so creative, sorry for the sarcasm, might think of a more unique name when I have the brain power to do so) Full Release Wyll Ravenguard's twin brother who also entered into a contract with Mizora- but instead he's an oath breaker paladin and can't reclaim his oath until he is freed of his contract. When he is freed he becomes an oath of devotion paladin.

He would be found in act 2 also being sent to save "Zariel's Asset" and have a reunion with Wyll- but something is wrong and Byll wont speak or look at Wyll- part of his contract being he can not talk to his brother. Part of Wyll's contract being he can't mention he has one. Which play into Mizora's already (abusive) tactics of isolating people.

If you didn't massacre the goblins in act one, you can travel back to their camp and have things play out similarly to how EA went (but without the ''where is Mizora'' angle because that would be settled in act 2). OR just have the content play out in Moonrise towers, but in a more limited way.

Romances between Byll and Wyll would be mutually exclusive (meaning they can not be done at the same time). Byll will be poly though.

Need to think more on how he and Wyll will interact and stuff, and how to fit him in better with Wyll's story.

#wyll ravengard #bg3 #( EA Wyll was my favorite companion. ) #( STILL upset he was completely rewritten. ) #( I do love Full Release Wyll. but he is just not the same character. ) #( Byll's a paladin because ''poor warlock who needs to be saved'' is such a tired trope. for me. it's the laziest way to write one. ) #( Wyll's story is compelling enough though. with how and why he is one and in the situation he is in. i am not saying Wyll is boring. ) #( going to do a Wyll origin play-through while I make more mods for the Durge. xD )

[lotus-lamps]

ONESHOT ANNIVERSARY!!

im not late what do you mean im late

(PLEASE ITS LIKE 12 AM IN MY TIMEZONE I ONLY REALIZED IT WAS THE ANNIVERSARY LIKE ONE HOUR AGO)

anyways image on left is a really old drawing, one on the right is the one i spedran for the anniversary but i was still late

I eep now

#oneshot #niko oneshot #art #digital art #I gave up my daily sky cr for this was it worth it #Idk the lack of a background is really bugging me #Oh well i made this in like an hour anyway so #I used to be more into oneshot lol #But my obsessions change quickly #I still like it a lot though #Super underrated #MARKIPLIER PLEASE DO SOLSTICE. AVG PLEASE CONTINUE YOUR RUN #JACKSEPTICEYE PLEASE START PLAYING #am BEGGING #Guess my favorite (its proto) #I had like two sketchbook pages of proto doodles. Just proto no one else #But yeah anyway rip my candles in sky #Lamplighter came home #No time to cr dude i need to sleep now my eyes hurt #I will have to deal with being poor #Bye bye #PSST IF YOUR USERNAME STARTS WITH H AND YOU’RE MY FIRST REAL FOLLOWER #THANK YOU ILY AAAAAAAAA #HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY/NIGHT!! <3 #lotus drawdles #artists on tumblr #artblr #oneshot fanart

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

one weird thing about me is that i feel like i am not as into music as normal people

(or at least normal very online people)

#i always feel like angela martin ('i just don't enjoy the general spirit of music!') compared to everyone around here lololol #i do think i have a complex and sprawling love of many many artists and tunes #but i'm so bad at keeping up with new releases from artists i like #and also i feel like i just don't listen to music as much as most people????? #even though it's still an almost-daily activity #idk #am i weird? i can never tell. i feel weird. #dollsome's deep thoughts #i'm just so busy being obsessed with fiction 24/7 #poor music falls on the back burner

[meringuejellyfish]

being into a work that is ongoing is a really interesting experience especially when its something like a manga/comic which takes a Long time (what an insane art form im always thinking about this) im waiting for the water to boil for my pasta im so hungry for dinner. Ok well by the time im posting this i ate like 40 minutes ago maybe an hour im so tired of eating dinners that do not have a side dish

#its so funny 2~ years ago seeing some things start to build up for/during the current wha arc and be like well id say i feel as though there #are a few too many plot threads and characters trying to be balanced all at once right now but im still very excited to #see where this is going #and now seeing it in its current state like oh my ! and so the story goes ........ #after such a high point that volume 8 was. ahh ! #very general ramblings oh my i just remembered the other night i fell alseep after going on a wha writing dissection ramble/ ''rant'' #i Love to talk . dont be my roommate i love to talk. i think fondly of falling asleep after digimon rambles #and one time that i woke up and the first thing i said that morning was something about the last unicorn #and my sibling was like ''you wake up and just think of these things ?!'' its My fun #how unique. a guy who thinks about the fiction he consumes. how groundbreaking #i am genuinely curious how anyhting will happen after this arc. so many strange and poor and fascinating choices .... #probably delete later i get self conscious about of the moment loose rambles online

[deadbeatdadjokes]

Thinking eternally about how most of Lancer’s interactions/relationships with the people in his life require him to excavate fondness himself because they’ll do things for him that would insinuate affection but it’s usually heaped on by a copious layer of “It’s not cause I actually LIKE YOU OR AnyThing hope you die but u better not :((” 

Spade (on his good days), Rouxls, even Susie in the beginning, all of them on this spectrum range messily from feeling as though taking care of him is a genuine burden to pretending they’re too cool to acknowledge their attachment altogether so even if they love him it is a fuckin MESS they’ve left him to sort through and draw his own conclusions. 

So when Queen knows him for all of like 3 hours and immediately adopts him/starts looking after him he’s probably wildly confused and maybe a little suspicious bc he hasn’t done anything to ‘earn’ it yet. 

Not really trying to make a significant statement here so much as I am pointing out the comedy (and the inherent tragedy) that comes with all the important people in Lancer’s life fighting over wall space to lean against and go ‘tch’ at him as he walks by bc that trope is usually more effective if he at least already has ONE person in his life (THAT IS AN ADULT SORRY SUSIE) to take responsibility for him willingly and gladly.  

#poor kid's perception of what it means to be loved is probably warped as a result #THIS IS NOT SUSIE'S FAULT BTW but she should be held accountable for her brief contributions even though she's likely a victim herself #all of them are fist fighting each other in the parking lot for the role of 'heh not bad kid' #and during the scuffle queen points at him eating mulch like 'Anyone Want That' #and then not wait for an answer #queen probably did it to piss off her ex at first so idk if she's entirely off the hook but hey #she stepped tf up so she gets credit for that #I am BEGGING someone to treat this little boy with the love and care he deserves #he's sacrificed so much for everyone and STILL feels like he has to be useful in order to be deserving of any warmth bc bitches (Spade) #instilled that reward system into his brain and reinforced it with abuse #deltarune #lancer deltarune #susie deltarune #rouxls kaard #queen deltarune #king spade #long post #word vomit yet again groundbreaking #i know he enjoys digging y’all but cmon