#i feel like an attention seeker

[wrylu]

idk why i'm so moody these days but i find my despair funny

aka my average day as of now

#1. impulsive silly thoughts #2. STOP FORGETTING TO EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!1 please :3 (note for myself me myself and i) #3. i get sad 🥱 #4. tired #(tumblr deleted half of my tags. isnt that nice though you wont have to listen to my essay of vents nobody wanted to hear that) #vent art #wrylu #lu's canvas #negative thoughts below :) have some flowers 💐 #sometimes i feel like i should get up more and spend time with my family i miss how it used to be #but you know what i suck and im practically glued to my chair and im lazy like if i was one of the 7 deadly sins i would be sloth #im surprised im not dead yet #this is purely for myself to speak my poor mind #no i actually hate this #i wanna die #i wish i was dead #not really #but still #i wish time just stopped so i can re evaluate my life #and whoa damn dysphoria makes an appearance ever #i wish i had a schlong (funny) #this is awful #sometimes i feel manipulative like i switch my emotions and personalities so hard #am i manipulating you guys?? #i feel like im being sad for attention #ugh i hate that the internet is my comfort #thats bad isnt it #i feel like an attention seeker #why am i even writing this 🥱🥱 #i cant wait to fall asleep forever

[more-anxiety]

Feeling extra lonely tonight. Joined a discord for people like me and somehow still feel like an outsider. I feel like I can do nothing right.

#kinda depressing #personal #anxious #mentally ill #mental help #anxitey #anxi4ty #tw depressing thoughts #lonely #interact with me #tw depressing stuff #I feel like an attention seeker

[uncanny-tranny]

The frustrating thing about having good days with pain or bodily irritation or mobility or whatever else isn't that it's a "good day." It's the feeling that you are either greatly exaggerating your suffering or worse, that you're secretly wanting attention/admiration for your suffering. I think people sometimes are confused as to why good days in terms of disability can be distressing to some, but it is precisely that you almost... overthink the Implications of good days.

It isn't that you want to be suffering, it is that you are taught you will only be "worthy" of help if you are suffering in the Right way (and having any good days are often seen as a sign that you aren't "truly worthy").

#disability #internalized ableism #internalized ableism tw #ableism #ableism tw #it's also for me like... 'are my aids helping me because i am disabled or am i just an Attention Seeker' #i just don't want people to get the wrong idea of people who aren't... happy about having 'good days' #because sometimes you are almost expected to be Grateful to Not Be Disabled Today when you have a good day #but it's like... you're still disabled but your body (for whatever reason) isn't suffering as much as it might other days #i was really weirded out these past couple days because my back pain is almost nonexistent... #...and it makes me worry because: 1. this is temporary 2. is it because my aids are helping to prevent pain or is it something else? #3. again it's temporary and i am really really scared that these non-pain days are going to fucking bite me in the ass #you tend to get caught in this cycle where good things make you scared because it feels temporary and reversible at any second

[basofy]

ive never talked about their dynamic but this is one of the many thoughts i have about them

#ive been having power outages all day help me #my stuff #lisa rpg #bo wyatt #lisa garth #lisa the painful #i imagine hes saying do you liiiiike it :) with a deep yet nerdy voice #ok deranged thoughts time #yes i in fact like them becuz theyre both artists #but heres the thing #theyre both STRUGGLING artists who have a very deep bond with their art which reflects who they are as people #they both also suck at it lol #yet they continue cuz their art is their life pretty much #and i like to think that having another artist buddy would feel nice for them #especially in garths case it's like dude lives pretty much under a rock feels ignored by everyone cares too much about others reactions etc #either it becomes some sorta onesided artist rivalry or he becomes obssesed with the fact that there is another guy in the team #who knows what it's like #he would be all like YOU. YOU UNDERSTAND!!! and bo is just like lol #becuz while he struggles too he doesnt make a big deal out of it doesnt care about being underappreciated #like garth who is A BIG ATTENTION SEEKER #so imagining them hanging out and having this weird artist bond is cool to me #id also include jack cuz they all make an artist team but yknow SIGHHHHH #also i have different thoughts on what does art mean for jack since hes younger #these are definitely not all of my thoughts i am insane about artist characters #and yeah it could be said gart in this post is trying to get bo's attention #through a mix of what bo likes and what garth likes and it's a funny and cute thought to me #lisa ramblings #still love this post

[jjsstars]

I keep seeing character appreciation week/blogs but I’m waiting for Theo week. I need it. I need it so desperately I might just have to do it myself

#jj rambles #theo raeken #teen wolf #thiam #<< target audience #<< you’re the target audience cause there’s no other super popular theo ship & I want recognition like the attention seeker I am /j #the /j doesn’t feel necessary but just in case #can y’all tell I’m sleep deprived #but no seriously if I made a theo apperception side blog and made an event would anyone be interested #and if it’s already done will someone PLS direct me to it

[joyflameball]

You are not a bad person for wanting attention. The stigma around "attention seekers" is honestly just fucking horrible, and has done real damage to my mental state. Wanting attention and seeking attention isn't inherently bad. It's normal and human to want love and attention and affection. Trying to make everything ever about you is bad and can hurt people, but just wanting attention, wanting to be noticed and seen, isn't inherently bad. And you deserve your time in the spotlight as much as anyone. You deserve to not just fade into the background. You deserve to be heard, seen, appreciated, and given the attention and love you need.

#i never see positivity posts for people who feel like attention seekers #so i just went fuck it and made my own #cassie rambles #positive

[cnidarianrui]

one projection-headcanon i have is that rui is not at all open about his age regression.

he did not grow up with a group of friends around him that would accept him.

he has found away to keep himself company, to hide all of his secrets away in himself.

you'd think that now that he has wondersho he can just spill his secrets and let them flow, not afraid of rejection.

its not that easy

growing up lonely then having friends doesn't mean a complete attitude change

even though he has friends

though he has people who care about him

he is still horribly lonely

#project sekai agere #sfw agere #project sekai #vent #mine ★ #projecting minus having a group of friends that care about you as anything more than an acquaintance #not very coherent its hard to think when i feel like this #i hate posting vents i feel like an attention seeker but i am so i guess the shoe fits

[mainfaggot]

had my 25 minutes of quirkiness induced dopamine I am nauseous and afraid now

#i got a little gelato cup thingy from the convenience store on campus and was eating it outside which attracted . some unwanted attention #weirdly the stares of fascination were funny and made me feel special briefly before i realised i looked like an attention seeker #although honestly. i just wanted some fucking gelato despite it being -3°C that's all it was so im not defacto an attention seeker #its people that are attention givers. MIND YA DAMN BUSINESS! #it was kinda funny tho which made me feel special idk 😭 that was before i started getting all self conscious and pessimistic #then I made a spontaneous decision to go downtown and now i regret that decision bc im sitting on display furniture in some stupid #department store #the thing is. my dad was going to be late to pick me up from the bus stop either way so its not all in vain #but i think I should've just stayed at the university in a comfortable chair for an hour instead of coming all the way here. 😶 #i thought i would have fun. i was deeply wrong #z.post

[queenie-blackthorn]

is it normal to sometimes wish something god-awful happens to you because youre scared of ppl asking "what do you have to be sad about??" or am i just seeking attention

#my parents sure do seem to like calling me an attention seeker #the thing is i know ive gone thru some stuff #but like getting occasionally hit by ur parents for exploring your sexuality #fsr does not feel like enough justification for being depressed #for other people it is #for me it isnt #idk how to explain it

[miwtual]

hate when im having a good day and then am forced to remember biphobia exists. brings the whole mood down immediately

#kai.txt #im literally just sitting here #idc if someone calls me a crybaby or an attention seeker or whatever. i hate being made to feel like my sexuality isnt real or valid #or somehow ??? anti feminist???????? #im literally BEGGING yall to go outside and talk to actual people instead of yelling in ur echo chamber

[feral-radfem]

Oh my God I'm so surprised that super persistent but consistently flawed debater on Tumblr is actually a child. I never saw that coming.

Look, there's things that adults shouldn't say/ topics we shouldnt bring up around children and should be able to create spaces away from them. If I'm being completely honest, radical feminism almost entirely falls in this category of 18+ content. We are constantly talking about sexual violence and other extremely adult topics that aren't appropriate for developing minds to be constantly bombarded with. It's bad for your young minds and it's bad for the movements that you seem to think you care about.

If you want to be a child activist then volunteer for your local community, don't get in online spaces with adults. It's simply not safe for children and creates an unproductive environment for adults. Children will learn better skills and build more fulfilling relationships and achievement doing local community activism anyways.

If you're a minor you need to put that shit somewhere so that we can tell that we're talking to a literal baby. I really don't enjoy this increasing trend of purposely not telling people when y'all are minors because you think that it's going to make people dismiss you, when you having limited life experience is a legitimate limitation on your analysis. You're being deceptive because someone placed a social boundary that you don't want to respect. It's high key gross.

On the same note, different tune, I hope this serves that is a reminder that people can literally be lying, either outright or by omission, about everything they claim about themselves on here. We, people in general, have created the online culture where it's completely normal to lie about important identifying features about ourselves for social clout/elevation. While I know there are some of us that may not participate in this practice, I know plenty of radfems do. We've caught a few doing it red-handed and all they're doing is breeding distrust amongst us in these spaces.

Can y'all not just act like normal honest people?

#I really thought you were a stupid attention seeker who everyone just gave way too much attention to in her mid/early 20s #just an adult with way too much time on her hands who knows how to act the same questions and chronically online #so I'm actually very happy to learn that you are actually a child. because I spent like 2 years thinking you didn't know how to read/argue #however #I do disagree about lying about your age by deception or omission. you knew that most people on here thought you were an adult #though that was definitely their own dumbass mistake #you should have been honest with your age in the bio because you knew it would have given people context to judge your content better #I'm really sick of y'all pretending to be adults on here until it is convenient for you not to lie anymore #you get more leeway for the stupid shit you say when I think you're a kid but I also don't think kids should be actively in politics #adults don't want to talk about adult topics with children it makes us uncomfortable and it stops us from being able to have open debate #lily responds #really this is why I encourage you to get offline and join local political movements #okay I'm done ranting I'm just so tired of figuring out after the fact that y'all are liars especially about your age #I also just don't like feeling like I've been lied to so maybe I'm taking this more personally than I should be

[kokoiep]

I know people is actually not gonna see this but I just wanted to rant a bit before going back to sleep

But lately I’ve been feeling so so lonely for some reason, since I can remember I’ve been dealing with that feeling all my life, and thanks to my social anxiety it’s not easy to actually try and go and make friends.

I found myself often depressed, and with an empty feeling inside my chest and realizing how I’m really really lonely, and there’s nothing I can do but also maybe it’s just me, I just can’t get enough of it, maybe is also my own selfishness that I always want more

I often try to look at the future and it’s hard for me to actually see me more than who I am now. Am I really going to live that far? Am I going to actually do it? It feels scary

I feel like a burden, I don’t like sharing things with friends because I feel they would judge me or I’m just being annoying to other people, I found myself pretty annoying by times, I just want to feel that I actually did something with my life.

Constantly thinking on dropping everything is itching my brain, I already quit a lot of things a few more won’t change the fact that I don’t know how to feel filled. This loneliness consumes me so much, I want to hug someone, I want to kiss, I want to hangout more, I want to be hold like if I was important. I think everything would be better if at some point I have enough friends to go to the beach and enjoy the sunset. I want to see the sunset with someone else, I want to actually live.

And let’s not begin with Social Anxiety + Asexual, it just makes it worse, I really just want to be hold, by someone else, not my family, to feel loved and warm. I just want this loneliness to stop.

#koko almost midnight thoughts #I’m sure people aren’t gonna read all this Bible #but it’s good to let it out once in a while #if you are here and actually read this AND these tags #let me say #thank you #for taking a minute of your time and reading my experience with loneliness by newly young adult #sometimes #(which is all the time) #want to actually ask for love #but I feel like an attention seeker or smth #or that I don’t deserve said love

[chemdisaster]

one day. one day i will get the confidence to reblog my own shit

#prattledisaster #i feel so. guilty? when i think about it #i worry that i'll look like an attention-seeker if i do it #logically i know that's nonsense of course #for all the hours i put into my fics they deserve recognition #and that goes for other people too #reblog your shit all you want please #and one day i'll be brave enough to join you

[o-sahiba]

I need someone to stand by my side or even better hold my hand kyunki bass boht ho gya ab mujhse ni aise khud ko band krke akele panic attacks se deal kiya jata

#and I hate when you share with your friends and they say it's not a big deal and that it's common and normal #No! #normal is when you don't have to physically put efforts to breathe #normal is when you don't feel like dying or out of breath #normal is when you know the reason behind your unstoppable tears and uncontrollable crying #normal is when you don't have a stiffened body due to all that pressure #don't even try to tell me otherwise #you can't help? okay. Good. #but just don't go around thinking us as nothing but attention seekers #it hurts #idk #shut up sahiba

[greentrickster]

Sometimes I have to remind myself that it’s okay to describe myself as having a disability even if it is ‘just’ ADHD. Me being in the ‘more manageable’ section of the disability spectrum doesn’t take away from people in the ‘more difficult’ section or take me off the spectrum entirely; it just puts me in the ‘more manageable’ section. It still comes with its own difficulties and things I need to work around, and it’s okay for me to admit to and claim that.

#my life #adhd #my relationship with my adhd is so freaking weird #in that I tend to have such a good relationship with it #that it makes it hard for me to own up to the parts of it that make my life hard #and makes me feel like a faker or attention seeker when I point out to people that adhd is considered a mental disability #(also it's apparently been a protected disability in the US since 1973)

[yurki-posts]

For the ones who see this, please be honest..would you notice or miss me if i'm gone?

Would my account had mattered at all for you?..

#I just feel terrible in this point of my life tbh.. #dw i'm not planning to do what you're thinking. That'll be selfish #I just..need some assurence. I had been repeating to myself that I matter and that i'm worthy #but it's hard to believe it rn #not to mention school is hitting me real bad rn with all the homework #I feel like such an attention seeker omg #tw self destructive behavior