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Sage and nutmeg!! 😊💜

sage - what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

I CANNOT CHOOSE yes i can no i cant um i shall say............ poetry (but also music also paintings also film). ok but let's say poetry is a small percentage higher than the rest simply bc i read words that describe sensations that i did not know could be put into words -> i feel like hitting my head against a wall and drowning and coming back from the dead etc. i will feel like the most alone most pathetic creature on the face of the earth, but a poem will remind me that im not unique in my loneliness or suffering and then i can sigh a little more comfortably. so yeah

nutmeg - how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

i just answered this but my room is like a blank canvas furniture-wise (everything is white... the bed, bedside table, desk, chair, lamp, dresser.. u get it i think). the splash of character comes from a nearly excessive amount of dried flower decorations as well as many sketches/paintings/printed out photos/collages from old books. i think it's cute but im always itching to put more stuff up on the walls lol

#zahra !!!!! ty for asking i hope u had a chill saturday #mewchiez #asks

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higihihihihihi orchid & abelia

hihhhii

orchid - what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

at first this question seemed extremely hard to answer, but then i realised i literally have one criteria to judge based off: how a song makes me feel. and tbh "the science of sleep" by verycoybunny is a song that i go back to whenever i find myself overwhelmed (which admittedly, is quite often). i think what makes it "perfect" to me is the fact that i feel like it sums up how life feels to me on a daily basis. im getting by, im falling apart, im getting back up, im bruised, im treading the water, and im sooo back and the sun sets and rises and sets and rises and sets and it was probably never that deep LOL i just like the instrumental an insane amount bc it Sounds like what catharsis feels like to me.

abelia - do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with

im not that attached to any of my jewelery, but i think if i lost the pearl + gold beaded necklace that my nani gifted my mother when i was born (to gift to me when i'd eventually get older) i would die inside a million times. so yeah. i dont wear it that often but it's proof that someone was glad i was born. haha <3

#omg arden its been 84 yrs wtf.... hope u r well despite finals and all.. #mewchiez #asks

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good evening🧛🏻 jasmine and nutmeg !!

jasmine - do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wait allow me to think.... im pondering.... i will say The Secret History by Donna Tartt just bc its around 600 pages long and listen: i adored it at age 15 (i read 80% of it in one day during the winter break of 2019 i believe), but i cannot be bothered to sit through it again! i dont really remember how it went exactly, i just recall that i was incredibly moved by the prose and the nature of each character's development (or lack thereof). also i dont want to reread it and ruin it for myself. like that book was my personality for the rest of grade 10. so.

nutmeg - how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

yassss love this question. so my room has super plain warm grey walls and all white furniture (white bedframe, white desk, white desk chair, white desk lamp) but get this: i have SO many dried flowers. i have dried flowers hanging from yarn above my bed, hanging across the easel next to my bed, hanging from the windows. i have dried flowers in glass bottles on my desk. i have dried flowers masking-taped to my walls. i also have a lot of old sketches and paintings from when i was in hs on my walls. so yeah ^_^

#hello river shelby txtdejavu... hope u r resting it up on this saturday night... #asks #mewchiez

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aloe and jasmine (hi zay)

jasmine - do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

ermmmmmmmmmmm so. "your name engraved herein" is a really beautiful film abt being gay in taiwan in the 80s and bc i watched it while i was severly depressed + unmedicated + untherapised + 17 years old with shitty familial relations, it made me cry so hard i couldnt sleep till sunrise. so even though i really sincerely adore the movie, i dont think i could watch it again w/o losing my mind a bit. this was an overshare i fear. love and light. sorry and thanks for reading

aloe vera -  what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

im abt to get soooooooo corny rn sorry. i think itd be nice to experience the following: i wake up early in the morning on a sunday; i make two cups of coffee while the sun slowly fills the kitchen with light. one cup is for me and the other is for the person i might be in love with. (who knows?) and it all just feels so simple. #deep sorry i cant take my own desires seriously ever actually. im fine

#thanku for the asks belovedest.. #asks #mewchiez

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 ﹟random get-to-know-me ask game  !! 

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

cactus ⇢ something you’re currently learning (about)?

bamboo ⇢ do you change into a different outfit when you get home?

abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?

daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them?

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?

chia ⇢ what’s an inside joke you have with someone else?

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you?

camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?

jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts?

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

palm tree ⇢ do you have a fictional villain you shouldn’t like but love regardless?

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about?

#pleeek hello HELLLLLOOOOOO

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i want 60 thousand votes by next thursday

#i went through a brief rpf phase at 14-15. and then i had many realisations abt the ethical implications and quit. so. yeah.my dark past </3 #since then i shifted over to improving my poetry/prose skills teehee i love taking inspiration from actual legitimate literature #to better my writing

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jay (epipen boy) has a writing credit on a jrock song and hes performing with the band too woaaah that's cool of him

#enhypen rock mini album next... #this reminds me. hyuka said he wants to do a rock inflhenced solo song i need that too.... #z.post

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a day with m essential: he xinqi and cao ziwei for idest magazine issue 10, ph. ye fei

#soft.jpeg

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being obsessed w a piece of media is so scary. what if my mutuals see how insane i go about it and think oh i gotta check out what this is about and then think it sucks and kill me with rocks. what if they hate my favorite characters

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whatever

#this is what i look like when im at uni #overdressed bc i have to serve cunt or ill die #sipping an iced drink in some building that's literally falling apart bc it was last renovated in 1980

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april has tasted bittersweet every year since I turned 14

#lol hiiiiii ^_^ #z.post

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BEOMGYU :: WORKOUT JJANG BEOMGYU EP. 01

#princess beomgyu .... icb his dramatic ass was getting carried back to the gym bridal style 💀 #beomgyu

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i talked to my mom about having a bad week and she kissed my hand and told me she was rooting for me. we both cried a little and it felt equal parts cathartic and dread inducing. afterwards, i took coco outside for a few minutes because it's 19°C with a warm breeze. for lunch im having pancakes, greek yogurt with sliced banana, and earl grey milk tea (I woke up at noon -_-). i even took a cute picture of it! I'll be okay maybe. I don't know but I feel a bit better right now at least.

#haha . sighs #z.post

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critically acclaimed but the critics are me and my mutuals

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tagged by zahra my oomfiedoomfie @jinsouled to shuffle my fav playlist and then list the first five songs that come up :]

here we go ^_^ :

think fast - dominic fike (feat. weezer)

radio - freak slug

miracle - txt

sunburn - dominic fike

heavy - the marías

tagging a handful of the beloveds and darlings in no particular order: @melancholic @poliploki @newporters @spiderbyhoshi @secondhandlovers @txtdejavu @cellaisaredpanda @powm (if ur feeling up for it ofc <3)

#z.post #tagged

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ohhhh i have faggot mannerisms

#well yes! which is why i am the mainfaggot

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ok im fine nothing happened im good it's fine

#fuck my stupid baka life #z.post