#always sick

[marinettevonkarma]

coworker: you're always sick. you shouldn't go out so much and calm down with your crazy lifestyle

me: you mean my two dance practices a week and walking along the harbour ???? do you just want me to ROT ????

#chronic illness #chronically ill #always sick #always sleepy

[littlelilac-wintergirl]

Ugh.

fasted for 15 hours. got sick as fuck & thought, okay ill snack. 2 bites of smartfood popcorn and im sick again.

( allllll while @ work )

back to fasting it is....

i've gone days without eating because of my constant nausea - i can do it again!

& why eat something if it only makes me feel worse?

#adult ana #anadiet #ana rant #ana trigger #ana meal #anatumblr #over 18 ana #tw ana diary #ana bllog #always sick

[chronicillnesswarrior92]

So since this is a new account, I figured I would do an introductory post and hopefully find new friends 😊

My name is Tiffany, I'm 30 years old, I live in Ontario, Canada. My hobbies are photography with my phone since I can't afford a DSLR, social media, crocheting, thrifting ❤️

I unfortunately drew the short straw when it comes to my health.

My diagnosis are:

PTSD / CPTSD

Anxiety

Fibromyalgia

Atopic Dermatitis / Eczema

Severe deterioration in my teeth and bones.

IBS

Limited Lung Function

Osteopenia/almost osteoporosis

Severe Asthma

Chronic Migraines

Chronic Allergies

SVT/AVNRT, heart condition which I had a procedure for.

SI Joint issues

Hypoglycemia

Depression

High/low blood pressure, it switches when I'm over stressed.

Benign headache disorder

I've lost many friends, because they don't seem to want to understand that when I have chronic pain and fatigue, and I force myself to do things, that I'm suffering in worse pain for days afterwards. So when I'm already in pain, I would rather stay home then cause myself more pain.

I have also had to be put on my province's disability program because I can't work. So I've started crocheting for my health.

If you suffer from chronic illnesses, or want new friends please message me or follow me 😊❤️

#chronic pain #chronic illness #fibromyalgia #chronic migraine #mental illness #PTSD #Depression #Anxiety #canadian #canada #introduction #asthma #always sick #chronic fatigue #invisible illness #invisible disability #thrifting #disablity #ontario #crochet

[themellowyellowmomma]

Pneumonia followed directly by sinus infection with double ear infections but I'm finally better.

My nose skin in flaking off in sheets🤣

#beautiful #ginger #red hair #calm #red hair don't care #simple #non binary #love #fatty don't care #me #no immune system #anemic #always sick

[undoctrine]

i am slowly getting my writing vibes back and u know what? good for me

#trying to find the right balance of my new meds #not a fun time actually #always sick #ugh #anyways…. #love u all

[only-living-to-survive]

I hate having constant migraines and headaches and constantly feeling like I'm just sick 24/7. I have felt like throwing up for multiple days this week, and it doesn't just go away it's an all-day thing. I almost coughed up blood because of PE. Stupid fuckin mile run! and then there was the fact of feeling dizzy and shit today and yesterday and the day before that. my body is sick, and I can't just be home because I have school to keep up with and my mother to take care of.. I am fuckin losing it.. :(

#vent post #vent #stress #sickness #always sick #nothing is going right #i hate school #school is hell

[mbella112]

Ugh I woke up so sick today… stupid dialysis is kicking my ass … wish I was being babied

#im over it #always sick

[cherrysnax]

damn that chronic illness is really chronic

#I hate it when I say I’m #in pain or sick and someone’s like ‘still? or again?’ #like yes mf I’m sorry it’s such an inconvenience to youuu #sorry I thought abt just ur problem for a sec #but ueah #it’s not a huge deal yet #but yes I’m always in pain #always sick #always this always that

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

#this is true #writeblr #warm up #relatedly for some reason one of our Favorite Jokes #amongst the Siblings #is like - ''this is so good u will love it'' #while we are reacting to something we OBVIOUSLY find viscerally disgusting #like we will be actively retching and be like ''nooooo it's so good'' #to the point that i sometimes get nervous if someone outside my family is like oh u should try it its good #(obvi we never force each other to eat anything. we are all just curious birds and #like. we're GONNA try the new thing.) #edit to answer why we had so much vanilla: #my mom is a very good cook and we LOVE to bake. so she just had a lot of staples in the house. #it's one of those things that's like. have u ever continuously thought ''ah i should get butter im probably out'' #even tho u are not out of butter. so u end up with like 5 years of butter. #my mom would do that in a costco but like with vanilla extract #to be fair we WERE always using WAY TOO MUCH bc we were kids #so like she was right to stock up #ps. yes we were VERY sick after this lol i just didn't want to include it in the post in case ppl had an ick about that #u can tell it's real bc we knew "oh no we fucked up that's too much vanilla to waste'' but our reaction was to just. keep drinking it #> sibling understanding that vanilla extract isn't free > knowledge mother doesnt mind if we use it for milkshakes #> sibling choice to maybe get in a loophole of ''not wasting it'' if we drink it bc that's the same as using it (not throwing it out) #listen bud i was like 13 and my sister was like 9 #when my mom discovered this we. got in. A LOT. of trouble. a lot of it. a LOT of it. #3rd edit bc i guess it isn't clear - i am 1 of my brother's 2 little sisters #i am the middle child #out of all the ways i have had to explain a post before being like ''did u forget a middle child can happen'' is my favorite

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[spiderziege]

first day shenanigans

#life series spoilers #secret life spoilers #im SICK and all i wanna make is silly doodles forever and always #life series #secret life #bdoubleo100 #bigbst4tz2 #grian #zombiecleo #ethoslab #pearlescentmoon #goodtimeswithscar #tangotek #my art

[thevioletcaptain]

i genuinely don't care how good a piece of ai generated art or writing looks on the surface. i don't care if it emulates brush strokes and metaphor in a way indistinguishable from those created by a person.

it is not the product of thoughtful creation. it offers no insights into the creator's life or viewpoint. it has no connection to a moment in time or a place or an attitude. it has no perspective. it has no value.

it's empty, it's hollow, and it exists only to generate clicks (and by extension, ad revenue.)

it's just another revolting symptom of the disease that is late stage capitalism, and it fucking sucks.

#''but i just want to use it to--'' don't care! it's shit! stop fucking feeding it! #if you need help generating ideas or jumping off points then join an artist or writer group online #talk to people #make connections #that's what art and writing is supposed to be about in the first place #i'm mad as hell etc. #so goddamn sick and tired of seeing ai shit get passed around on here #it's bad enough in general but every time i see more of it showing up #tagged as fan art or as fic #the angrier i get #heartfelt imperfection in art and writing will always ALWAYS be worth more than the most technically ''perfect'' ai generated image or text #fandom problems #ai generation algorithms die in a fire challenge 2k23 #just a heads up that i'm muting this post and will no longer see responses to it #because i'm tired of seeing dogshit takes from jackasses who want to ''debate'' me #there's no debate you're in the wrong on literally every level and you can die mad about it

[willowser]

HMMMMM bakugou being just. the absolute picture of sin.

he works overnight and comes home early in the morning, around 3 or 4 am or so, and you greet him and give him a kissy and ask how it all went. and even though it's still dark outside and he's been working for twelve hours—he's still coming off patrol, right ? so he's still got some energy left, and he eats something and takes a shower and winds down as you fall back to sleep.

and it's not until much later in the day that he wakes up, early afternoon, and you're kind of tiptoeing around so that he can get his much-needed rest. you slip into the closet of your bedroom for something and you think you're gonna get in and out without a sound, but his hearing is so attuned to just about anything and everything at this point.

so rough and raspy, he grunts out, "what're y'lookin' for?" and you whip around real fast and he's just—

half sitting up in bed, bare back leaning against the headboard. an arm behind his head, so that his bicep is tense and round and stone-solid. stretched like that, his obliques are more prominent, taut and rippling up the side of his ribcage. he must have gotten hot while passed out, as he usually does, because the comforter is all askew; one of his legs is bent, the fine hair a dark gold in the waning day; the other is hanging off the bed, lightly swinging as he watches you, and the blanket has come down enough that you can see the bulge of his thigh muscles beneath his stupid tiny black boxer briefs.

and he's just so. man. in every single way.

(his hair is flat on one side, too, and his eyes are still a little puffy from sleep—but you think that adds to it, all in all)

#i have to get this image out of my head you don't understand #please take this from me i'm PLAUGED by him #he's so WAAAAHHH #like. he's always handsome. always. at all times. #but sometimes he opens his big fat mouth enough that you forget just HOW handsome #and then suddenly he's sitting there looking so cozy in your bed and softly blinking at you while looking like THE MOST ENTICING GUY #ON THE PLANET #and you're like............................oh my god............. #please take this image from meeeeeee GET IT OUT I'M SICK #✿ theme: domestic bakugou #✿ thoughts: bakugou #i've been back less than twenty-four hours and already i've had so much to say LMAOO

[bestjeanistmonster]

Dc au- felt like being goofy

…but since Shadow is raising these plants i think we can classify this as a case of passing on generational trauma.

#Sonic always gets woken up by him traumatising the next generation of tomatoes and he’s so sick of him dtyfytfy #the next morning Sonic tells him to write his thoughts down instead of trauma dumping on plants #(shadow’s offended cuz paper comes from TREES-) #sonic au #sonic fanart #sonic fandom #sonic the hedgehog #sonic the hedghog fanart #sth au #sonic the hedgehog au #sonic #art #drawing #sth #doodles #digital art #sonic the hedgehog fanart #sth art #digital aritst #sth fanart #sonadow harlivy au #sonic art #sonadow fanart #shadow sonic #sonadow #shadow the hedghog fanart #shadow the ultimate lifeform #shadow fanart #shadow the hedgehog #sonic x shadow

[sneckoil]

why did wilson feel the need to go gender neutral when talking about the homewrecker he cheated with that made him fall out of marriage? why did house feel the need to describe his ex-bandmate with “if he was a woman i would have married him” ? why did they both say “you’d be surprised with what you can live with?”

There is no closet there are only two men afraid of changing the dynamics of the good thing they already have

#shioshpam #do i bother #house md #hilson #guess i bother #i feel so sick. neither of them are oblivious #they just chose to convince themselves that the nourishment they receive from each other is enough #there could be greater sustenance if acted upon. But they fool themselves into being contented with what little they receive #they would rather remain half empty for the rest of their lives if it means they can always be half full

[datagirl14]

I apologize that I haven’t been updating anything. I got sick over the weekend. Like really sick. I am trying my best to finish up the next Chapter in Out Of The Woods but it might be a few days or so before I do.

#always sick #weak immune system #hating this #just want to write