#also this is a fun hopefully relatable vent post

[chipper-smol]

food allergies are bullshit what do you mean i cant eat apples, plums, peaches, nectarines, and carrots, some of the most peak food sources when im having a bad adhd day bc they take forever to go bad and all you have to do to prepare them is to pick them up and on top of that they taste good AND ON TOP OF THAT THEYRE FULL OF GOOD VITAMINS N SHIT

utter bullshit

):c

#brought to you by a fox stubbornly still eating apples plums peaches nectarines and carrots #even though they make the fox’s mouth itchy and gives them bad indigestion #how is this fair #also this is a fun hopefully relatable vent post #not looking for advice

[2hoothoots]

i was having a chuckle to myself last night about Gristol, and how his plans are basically:

Restore Ford Cruller's memory

Find Maligula

???

Profit

but then... of course they are, right? this is Gristol we're talking about. Fatherland Follies drives home again and again that he's still operating on a child's logic, a warped and reductive version of the world that he never bothered to grow out of. both of his memory vaults center on the images of his childhood, this idealized version of the past that he clings to no matter what. and that's still how he remembers Maligula, too - as this saviour figure, who rushes in to help him when he's in trouble.

[ID: Two slides from Gristol's memory vault, Glory to Grulovia! Left: Gristol clings to Maligula's back as she summons waves to sweep away his assailants. Right: Gristol and Maligula waving from a balcony as the people cheer. Gzar Theodore brandishes a dagger in the background.]

like so much else, Maligula represents a return to this idyllic childhood - to the peace and simplicity of his youth, when he was free from worries and responsibilities. in his mind, he doesn't need to make any further plans - once Maligula's back, everything will go back to normal. Maligula will make everything better.

...is what i thought, but then i remembered this line:

[Screenshot source. ID: Gristol, in Truman's body, bows on his hands and knees in front of the newly-awaked Maligula. The caption reads: "Yes, High Priestess! I am here to correct the mistakes made by my father!"]

and that's kind of interesting, right?

to be clear: this happens directly after Maligula sees Helmut-in-Gristol's-body, and recognises him. her line before this is:

"Little Gzesaravich! Have you come to pay for your father's sins?"

my first thought was that Gristol hadn't expected to still be in Truman's body by the time he managed to find Maligula, and this was him trying to placate her and buy some time until he could explain the situation. but watching the cutscene back, that's clearly not what's happening here. Gristol is answering as himself, and his response of throwing himself to his knees before her is, as far as i can tell, genuine.

so what is going on here?

in Fatherland Follies, there's this line in the ride narration that stuck out to me:

"Why didn't the Gzar help Maligula in her time of need? No one knows, but historians agree - it is Gzar Theodore's biggest failure."

other lines mention Gzar Theodore's "mistake", and it's wording Gristol himself echoes in the screencap above. evidently, he believes that his father abandoned Maligula, leaving her to her fate at the hands of the Psychonauts, and it was that mistake that lead to them being driven out of the country - that mistake which he seeks to correct. maybe he even feels like he has a debt to repay to her for his family turning their backs on her all those years ago.

the 'High Priestess' thing, though - that's kinda weird, and threw me for a loop the first time i played the game. it took me until my second playthrough to connect the dots, and remember how the room in the Lady Luctopus - Gristol's room - was full of Delugionist scribblings and symbols.

[Screenshot source. ID: left, the walls of the hidden backroom in Gristol's hotel suite, covered in scrawlings of eyeballs and Maligula's name. Right, the pinboard from the hidden backroom. On its surface are photographs and newspaper clippings connected by pieces of string.]

i mean, look at this stuff! he had a whole conspiracy board and everything!

we learn very little about the Delugionists and their beliefs as a whole during the game, but i think drawing the connection here suggests two important things. one: that Gristol was in deep with this stuff. i don't know how he linked up with them - maybe via old family connections, or just good old-fashioned digging (we know he's skilled at worming his way into peoples' good graces, after all) - but it seems likely that he's begun to internalise their ideas, maybe even warping his own memories of events. and two: the Delugionists themselves are, if you'll pardon the pun, pretty far off the deep end.

like... i understand why PN2 didn't go heavy on the "mass-murderer cult worship" aspect of things, in the end, but man this is such a tantalising glimpse into the wider mythos around Maligula. Gristol is proud and haughty and thinks himself above everyone else; the fact that his first reaction seeing Maligula is to throw himself to the ground at her feet says so much about the way he's come to see her. he's not just trying to bring back Maligula, his childhood bodyguard. he's trying to bring back Maligula, the High Priestess of the deluge, the semi-mythical figure whose supporters believe even death couldn't stop. he doesn't even flinch at the way she confronts him, and maybe it's because he's bought in so completely to this deified figurehead, this idea of Maligula; more a living force of nature than a person. and it all comes back to the same place: an abdication of responsibility, not just to the person who protected him when he was little but to this avatar of floods and destruction. Maligula will make everything better.

i'd write more about my thoughts on the Delugionists but that'd be taking a hard turn into speculation, and this is already kind of long and rambling so i'd better end it here. but what an unexpected and evocative line, right? it's some of the only stuff we have to go off of regarding the Delugionists as a whole, but i think it does such a good job of hinting at the wider story - at teasing another layer to the mythos surrounding Maligula, one whose ripples we see throughout the game but which never quite breaches the surface.

#psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #bored waiting at the airport so you get more psychonauts meta from me #the delugionists have been on my mind recently (because i Might Just have an upcoming au lorepost about them and also cults are fun) #so tossing my thoughts up here because people seemed to like the last few times i did this #and also it's my blog and i like to talk :) #related vent i HATE drafting posts in the tumblr editor because if you hit crtl+z to try and undo a formatting change #it deletes like half the post you just typed out #(yes i did it again while i was writing this. yes i'm still salty. why do i even bother) #what else... this is just becoming a disconnected thoughts dump #but if you've seen my posts you knew what you were signing up for when you hit the button to expand the post tags #there's new art coming hopefully this weekend if i can get it finished! it's more mermaid au designs #i'm two and a half weeks late for mermay but it turns out starting a new job and moving house doesn't leave you with a ton of free time #but that's okay it's never too late for mermaids #omg and artfight's coming up next month too! geez #i gotta make refsheets for the fsau trio because i would LOVE to get art of them #and this year i don't have a thesis to crunch on so i might actually have time to participate #oh and then in august i'm having top surgery! will make a proper announcement post for it at some point #i say 'announcement'. it's just a life update but it's nice to share #i'm super excited about it :) #i might end up blogging the process and recovery but obviously it won't be going here lol. i'd put it on my main #idk if anyone would find it useful but when i first started looking into surgery i had like very little idea about the whole process #and it's only through joining a bunch of online support/discussion groups that i managed to find more info and resources #so hey it might be useful to share? we'll see #our flight doesn't land for another fifty minutes so now i'm just writing in the tags because i'm bored #alright i'll proofread this and then post it when i land and have signal again. peace out yall hope your pride month is going well

[haeroniel-doliet]

God that mood where you both need to do stuff and want to do stuff but both needs are vague and have too many options so you just. Do nothing you want or need to do and realize all the time you had is disappearing. A good time!!!

#haeroniel talks #forget the tag oh well #but for real. had 4 days off work and a ton of real life stuff i both have to get done and have been meaning to get done for a long time #ive pretty much only played video games and called my friends. genuinely not time wasted and i love when i get to do that #and like rn i would love to play more games and spend time with my friends like if one offers you know i never say no #but its also already getting dark and i have to go back to work tomorrow and ive not done everything i promised to have done yknow? #time doesnt feel real and i dont wanna get up even if the anxiety slowly builds to hopefully productive panic #but in the mean time im like ugghh i wanna stop laying around just playing sudoku and watching lame youtube. i wanna play something #(unclear what it is i actually wanna play too many options i kinda wanna play all of them and none huehheh) #im also very sad i havent drawn in ages and any attempt just feels shit. like maybe if i read enough fanfic thatll respark the love. #id love to post something before christmas to get me excited to draw again over the break but who the hell knows if i'll manage #and yeah still have the annoying job related/driving school related/therapy applying/other life admin that really really should be done #im just being grouchy and stuck and need to vent hi tumblr love you all kiss kiss i wish i could function better #i think maybe perhaps. ill concede that driving school and therapy arent priority (important but ive wasted ages on them already) #i think i can do work related things bc theyre sort of fun. i can use my parents help to whack through the life admin and then #maybe i can let myself spend the rest of the evening guilt free either calling my friends and/or playing or if im going totally w drawin

[sparkly-caroline]

(TRIGGER WARNING, this is a vent post, it's a long post and involves FNF drama)

I'm fucking tired, man.

The recent news of FNF left me a little bit dead inside, not gonna lie. Those who use Twitter know what I'm talking about.

No joke, I've been scrolling Twitter dot com all day just so I could get as much info as I could on what's been going on, and... ugh, this drawing of me (or my sona in this case) ain't an exageration, that's literally my expression after all that's been going on.

I still wanna continue making FNF doodles and stuff like that, cuz me personally, it's a "separate the maker from the art" kind of deal. So long as the creator(s) isn't part of the in-universe game, I can do it fine.

And even then, the person being outed here is the coder, not the musicians or the artists, if anything happens they can just get another coder. So we should be good. Hopefully, keeping my fingers crossed.

Also, FNF is what got me into posting and making drawings to begin with, and I feel like it affected my artstyle in irreversible ways at this point. I don't think I'd be able to change it even if I wanted to. If you wanna leave FNF behind for the rest of eternity, I understand and it's your choice, but please don't feel like you HAVE to do it if you don't want to. If drawing or making FNF related content is something you genuinely like and have fun doing, then by all means keep doing it. You're doing it for fun and for passion, not to make FNF Dev senpai notice you.

Though, I do plan on branching out from making FNF stuff for a while, drawing other stuff from other franchises and shit. To give my brain a break from the FNF situation at the moment.

I also kinda wanna wait for a bit to see if You-know-who responds to this whole thing or not, cuz I feel like they can't just ignore something like this, right?

That's it for my ramblings, sorry this one's not my usual "haha funny" stuff or even a drawing. I'm just exhausted from all this. Before I end this post, I'd like to shout out these fellas on Twitter dot com for making threads that stopped me from spiriling into depression because of this whole situation:

I'm going to bed early today, y'all, buh-bye.

#venting #long post #ramblings #i'm so tired #friday night funkin #fnf #and by the way yeah it'm talking about ninjamuffin #no point hiding it its ninjamuffin #i do not condone anything he did #i'm just posting my thoughts on the whole thing

[spnfanficpond]

Weekly Pond Newsletter

Halloween is almost here! Do you have your costume ready? Are you or have you ever dressed up as an SPN character? Share pics if you've got 'em!

Old Business:

Manta Ray chat postponed. Admin MJ had to postpone her scheduled chat due to adulting. Please keep her in your thoughts as she continues to brave the real world as an adult who adults very adultly. Adulting sucks but is necessary, sometimes.

The New Member Spotlight post is late due to some technical difficulties. We're working through them and trying to rebuild! Hopefully, it will be posted soon!

Last week's #TweetFicTues prompts were:

New Business:

SPN Rewatch: Fanfic Edition - 1x03 and 1x04. We had a good chat yesterday in the Discord server about the episodes Dead In The Water and Phantom Traveler. We decided to add thematic docs to the Archives in addition to the docs for each episode. These docs are listed at the bottom of the masterlist doc after all the episodes. So far, we have added, John's Parenting, Dean's trauma - mutism, Sam's trauma - anger, Sam underestimating Dean, and Dean is Smart™. Some of these are still under construction, but keep checking back for updates! Click here to access the masterlist and find links to the new docs!

Fishing for Treasures at the @fanficocean is next weekend. November's theme is Gen fics! No romance here! If you're in other fandoms and you're looking for fics that don't include smut or focus on relationships that are not romantic, check out the Ocean's blog next weekend. If you write gen fics for other fandoms, submit links to your fics for the Ocean to reblog by midnight Friday, Eastern US/Canadian time!

#SPNJAX is next weekend! If you're going to the con and want to find fellow Pondies to meet up with, head into our Discord server and the channel we have created for the con. Arrange meetups, find a roommate, or share ideas for photo ops and autographs. You can even ask questions and get answers from con veterans!

Manta Ray in the Discord server. On Saturday, Admin Michelle will be in the discord server just hanging out! Feel free to come on in and get help with fic ideas (she breeds plot bunnies in her backyard), vent about editing, or ask questions about the Pond.

Paul Carella on Lounges.tv later today. Paul is trying out a new platform, so head on over, create a free account, and enjoy some fun and good music! Click here for more information and to get tickets.

Jason Manns on UrsaLive for another Tuesday Tunesday! This week, it's going to be extra early for the US folks, but more accessible for those in Europe and further east. Click here for more information and to participate!

Daylight Savings Time ends in the US next weekend! For some in other parts of the world, it ended this weekend. For others, they don't mess with this shit and never have to worry about changing all of their clocks, the lazy bastards. 🤣 No matter what, be sure to double-check time zones and DST specifications when making plans with your international friends! (We use TimeZoneConverter to make our posts, which tells us about national holidays and DST and other cool stuff that helps us schedule things!)

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[oraclekleo]

Lee Sang Yeon (The Boyz) Kinky* Reading

Hello and welcome!

I’m Kleo and I’m here to present some k-pop related tarot readings to you.

Disclaimer:

I would like to state that all these readings have a purely entertainment nature and their purpose is to bring some fun into my and hopefully yours lives. I have never ever met any of the idols / actors / celebrities in my readings, I don’t know them personally. Tarot reading isn’t an exact science and I can never guarantee any of it. Most of it is my intuition mixed with fantasy. Don’t take these readings seriously and don’t base any important decisions on tarot readings only, use your common sense.

If you wish to request a tarot reading, please read the pinned post on my profile first to see the instructions on how to request. I only do readings for idols / actors / celebrities of 18 years of age or older. Requests for readings including younger people will be automatically dismissed. If you feel uncomfortable with these tarot readings, do not engage in reading my posts. Thank you for understanding.

Reading Info:

Rating: 18+

Reading Type: Single - Couple

Requested: Yes - No

Deck: E. A. Poe

Spread: Kinky*

Questions:

Position

Libido

Turn On

Kink

Dirtiest Secret*

Full Name: Lee Sang Yeon

Stage Name: Sangyeon

Group: The Boyz

Lee Sang Yeon

Sangyeon (The Boyz)

Deck: E. A. Poe

Spread: Kinky*

Position - XX Judgement

Yikes! Do you see how many major arcana cards this boy has in his reading? This one is a powerful man indeed. And as such he’s most likely to take a dominant role in a relationship, though he’s not completely against giving control up if his partner proves themselves to be as competent and powerful as he is. So let’s call it a pragmatic switch, shall we?

Libido - 10 of Wands

Sangyeon is clearly suffering from some build up sexual tension. Maybe he hasn’t been in a satisfying relationship for a while or maybe it’s just his permanent state. Hot blooded guy. He’s likely to suppress his urges, trying to keep his inner beast under control but sometimes the cravings are way too strong. It would be wiser from him to actually let loose a bit more often so he’s not such an unchained savage in bed once he allows himself to have fun. His carnal needs can become rather overwhelming when not vented regularly.

Turn On - XV The Devil

No surprise there that Sangyeon is likely to feel attracted to someone who’s not only able to satisfy his wild desire and keep up with him in the bedroom (or any place he finds fit) but they also enjoy the physical aspect of the relationship as much as he does. He’s not looking for a good samaritan to help him out with his ‘problem’, he’s looking for an equally thirsty and hungry lover who will break all those chains Sangyeon put on himself and will encourage him to go even wilder, harder, faster… you get the picture.

Kink - XIV Temperance

Sangyeon is likely to actually dream about a relationship where he wouldn’t have to control or pace himself down for the other person’s comfort. No boundaries, no measure. He wants it all and he wants it now. Sangyeon likely craves a partner who could take him with all the raw energy he’s bottling up inside and allow him to release it. Imagine heated and fast sex marathons, clothes and pillows and blankets scattered on the floor, Sangyeon and his lover on the bare mattress, their limbs entwined, their chests heaving, their skin glistening with sweat and hair dumped and sticking to their foreheads and they grin to each other and go for another round with gleeful cheer.

Dirtiest Secret* - VIII Strength

Am I going overboard with this guy? Hopefully not. So! Sangyeon’s dirtiest secret! He would like to find himself a partner who would be actually able to tame him to a certain degree. And when I say tame I mean make him calmer and better balanced in public. To achieve that, they would have to show great understanding and patience with him and also properly exhaust him in the bed, release all that tension that he carries within and make him feel loved and accepted, even his savage and raw side of him. This person would be the only one he would be willing to submit to occasionally because he would know they will lead and guide him the right way.

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[diedbydeath]

new pinned cuz the last one sucked

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[zhalar]

i was trying to reply to the post of yours i just liked and almost blazed it instead why are the buttons so close to each other.............. aNYWAY i only saw it now, and it feels A Bit weird two weeks later to be like Oh Hey. but. i've never been able to shut up in my life so! Oh Hey. i had to move to your ask box bcs the reply thing's word limit was like shut the fuck up!!! but. so. i don't even have anything useful to say except i'm 24 and started studying for my degree when i was like 19 and i still Don't Fucking Have It and in between i've moved like four times and am almost broke and saurrrr unemployed and Local Employers Hate Area Woman-Ish bcs of my very unsexy mental illness and lack of work experience. and i also fucking hate dishes and cleaning and groceries and everything IS stupid! we could all be eating berries and raising chickens and doing weird art in the woods! and maybe we should! all that to say that your vent was Extremely Relatable. modern society is a harsh maze. and shit's scary!! but i see you. and i'm rooting for you, for what it's worth 🐻🌻🍀🍄💕 and i hope the rest of your summer is good and joyful and everything goes smoothly with school and everything!! <3 good vibes and cheers ✨

YOURE SO SWEET TO REACH OUT TO MY SANGSTY (sad/angsty) VENT-POST OOOHHH places a fresh and washed stone fruit or suchlike of your choice onto your palm as a form of thanks....... im sorry to have left you hanging with my answering this btw, it was my last work day for the summer today and i didnt dare to open the message last night in case i got so distracted that the lateness woulda got me lol. love to plan my every move within the bounds of a work-life schedule. btw fully dying-laughing about the possibility of you somehow accidentally blazing that post CAN YOU IMAGINE DSHFKJGH

im real sorry that the general sentiment of that post resonated, sucks how we're ALL constantly in the trenches, here :-( (and also a bit sheepishly sorry if my vent caused any alarm or whatnot... sometimes it alll just gets to be oh so much and one must air their grievances out to the world unprompted like that. grhyeah..) truly would Shrimply Love To Own Chickens and Thatse It. my viiru&pesonen -fantasy lifted its head once again this summer, i meannnn now thaaaaats what i'd call living!! ffs!!!!

i would never ask you to shut up the reply-feature does Not reflect my views and opinions in case you were wondering. for real this msg brightened this day considerably, youre both a complete sweetheart and so fucking funny for the formatting and tone of this ask, good lord. hopefully you'll have some easier times going forward, typically i wouldnt wish a job onto my worst enemy but i also recognize how that is something thats uhhh, quite valuable actually, indeed, so in that sense im beaming some fking sense into your local employers' brains. [HIRE THEM!!!!!!!! for some NICE TASK!!!!!] I HOPE YOUR SUMMER THUSFAR HAS BEEN COOL AND FUN!!! and that the rest of it/the upcoming august treat you well also <3

#we r holding hands in a lush forest and skipping in a circle we are escaping the horrors of modern living tralalalaa #reply #dykenadjas #needed the good vibes. gonna hold them in my heart tomorrow as the School Times Begin #cant fucking BELIEVE that im going to SCHOOL. AMIKSEEN SIIS. idk ANYTHING about amis-culture theyre going to eat me alive there i think

[efangamez]

Hi :) I'm very, very depressed. 2/15/23

So I wanted to make this post to kinda humanize me a lil bit. If it's putting too much out there so be it. But don't get sad just yet though, there is a bit of hope! TW// Self loathing, self harm, eating disorders, depression

From about Thanksgiving, I have been very depressed. In this post. I kinda wanna talk about the things that have been making me feel this way and what happens because of it.

Living With Parents Living with my parents is a huge drain. My mother is not as homophobic and transphobic as my dad is, but it certainly is there. Also, we live on a farm, so I'm expected at any moment to help my family with whatever they need. This is a puts a HUGE damper on my mental health. Not only do I have to constantly remind them of my boundaries, but I also cannot express my gender as freely as I would like. I just want to wear dresses, maybe try some make up, hang out with friends, etc. But, here in south VA, I have no car and I have a phobia of driving, so there's that.

2. Burnout

I've been suffering from a lot of creative burnout. With the release of Reilley's Roadtrip, the last 1st Edition Neon Nights expansion, I have just felt completely wiped off the face of the earth. Yeah, sometimes I'll muster enough courage and energy to release a small game, but damn if I don't have the energy to make games more than 20 pages. I just feel...drained and conflicted. I have ALWAYS wanted more people to enjoy my games. I have. But I do ask people leave reviews for my games when they pick them up for free, and no one has been doing that. Wrath of the Undersea, my most recent game, has no reviews on Itch. That really sucks. I really like that game. Granted, more people downloaded it, but I want people to do more than that. I want them to have fun and maybe throw a little love my way. Idk, maybe I'm being super selfish with this. I'm a one person team living on a very small budget below the poverty line. I can't really afford to both hire people for games AND live. I can't. Also, I started these game jams recently, but I feel like I'm not advertising them enough and that kinda sucks, you know? Doesn't feel right. Idk. I do wish that I had my Twitter again, but it's kinda like a give-all thing over there that I just do not have the energy for. I guess I just kinda miss attention. I think that's the big thing here.

3. Self-Image Issues.

I am fat. I weigh WELL over 200 pounds, and because of this, I have major body issues. But get this; I am too fucking depressed and burnt out to work out. Hell, it is EXCRUCIATING to have to shower and brush my teeth now. And ALSO because of this, my gender dysphoria is CRAZY rn. It creates this super hellish loop that is just too much to bear sometimes. Right now I am so burnt out I want to take a month of unpaid vacation to just clear my head. Yeah, that will put me back a couple grand, but so what? Idk.

4. I Tire of Even Writing This

I am so burnt out even venting right now is a chore. I'm pushing through, but it's super hard. I can't even describe my own feelings without feeling I'm dumping everything on everyone. This sucks.

Anyway, yeah, idk why I am even publishing this. Hopefully people relate? Maybe send well wishes? Idk. Love y'all.

#burnout #burnt out #depression #sad #games #indie #gamedev #game dev

[salt-volk]

hopefully this can get through since its a different take & not just more complaining about the same, though i get it if its deleted bc we wanna get off this topic but: i thought the shitpost asks werent just lolz random humour? i read them as adjacent to satire, mocking that on a blog like this anyone can say anything with no proof.

the whole wave of anji shitposts first started after someone non ironically sent an ask about going to uni with anji which folks were questioning/asking for evidence bc anons can say anything & dont have to back it up. maybe some others eventually turned it into a "lolz random" thing with the asks about eating underwear or w/e, but i thought the initial group of anji shitposts were more intended to be humorous not from being "random", but from poking fun at how you can lie about anything online, like “yea i went to class with anji too”, inventing increasingly outrageous scenarios that can be presented as fact though theyre obv not. 

not all were funny ofc, but i did at least get where they came from as a "mocking the idea that anything submitted to a salt blog w/o proof should ever be taken seriously" perspective, or typical "people will lie about anything on the internet" jokes akin to classic fake tumblr posts like the down with cis bus or oppa homeless style.

then those few that referenced npcs as if they were real people, i saw as just creatively expanding on the premise like what if instead of the blog just covering drama between users of dv it included interpersonal drama of npcs as well as if it were a gossip tabloid reporting from inworld dv, doing the same ironic outrageous scenarios but with characters instead, which is more of a genuine premise to me than just mindless lolz random.

really i think we all interpret humour differently & its valid to find it all a tad silly, but i also disagree that all of it was just try hard mid2000s xD humour. they would seem that way w/o context, but given the background like when asks were first sent, what they were in response to, i guess i interpreted them differently as a mocking commentary of online culture & how easy it is to speculate about anything when everyones anonymous (aside from the few that were just folks jumping on bandwagon with weird pee & stuff ofc).

context is also easily lost online as things arent presented neatly back to back always so it makes sense that if some folks are viewing the jokes w/o the background, it would indeed seem quite random to them, or theyd come in feeling like they dont "get it". even beyond folks having different senses of humour, its also a matter of original intent being unclear bc of context loss, plus others coming in on the joke when they didnt fully get the premise either.

or thats at least my analysis of how the anji shitpost asks became a mild topic of debate, when weve had many shitposts previously that didnt cause such a stir & what the original intentions or interpretations might have been. 

theres also maybe something to be said about culture here & how folk view the aim of the blog differently. some see it as a serious space to air grievances, vent, commiserate, a “salt only” area they come to to engage in a specific type of emotion, while others may see it as lighthearted popcorn entertainment drama discussion zone with space to go off topic & fool about so long as it relates to dv. the camp you fall in on that may also affect how you see jokes in the space. but anyhow, thats too much extra to get into haha.

#blog-related #submission #anonymous #mod egg #this anon is socially analyizing anji shitposts #props to you anon

[cloud-anon]

Pinned post!!

About Me:

I’m a minor! Do with that what you will- if you don’t feel comfortable interacting with minors then don’t, I won’t judge!

DNI homophobes, racists, misogynists, ableists, etc. you know the drill. Don’t be rude or I will be rude back. If you’re nice I promise I will be too!

I am neurodivergent- highly likely anxiety and depression (according to me and everyone I know) and self-suspected autism and/or SPD.

I’m Christian! You don’t have to be Christian to talk or be a moot, just don’t come after me for it lmao. Sometimes I talk about Christianity whether it be a random topic (probably that we’re learning about in school) or my personal experience but check the tags section on this post for that one.

Pronouns:

any at all! He, she, they, ze, zey, xe, play Russian roulette with them I’ll watch delightfully from the sidelines

Edit: I have a pronouns page now because it’s easier than explaining everything fully. Here ya go! That^ still applies though it’s basically that

Hobbies:

-writing

-drawing (ish? Not well lmfao)

-singing! (Both choir and for fun)

-softball

-volleyball

Favorites:

Animal- rabbits!

Colour: blue and purple!

Food: any kind of pasta, usually

Song: changes frequently, will not stay updated if I try! If you want to know, shoot me an ask and I’ll tell you what it is at that moment!

Character: same as above but doesn’t change quite as frequently. Any character that I latch onto probably has a sickfic written about them.

Ask me more of my favorites?? I don’t know what else to put lol

Fandoms: (will add to as I remember- these include games, musicals, shows, etc.)

✍️- will write for/have written for

⭐️- has been or is a hyperfixation

📢- will rant about

❗️-currently in

❌- not currently in

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Beetlejuice ❌

Bendy and the Ink Machine ❌ (only really know anything about the first game)

Dear Evan Hansen ❌

Five Nights at Freddy’s ❗️📢⭐️(every game except AR (Special Delivery), VR (Help Wanted) is iffy|working on Fazbear’s Frights, hoping to read other books, have seen movie)

Kirby ❗️⭐️📢(played Epic Yarn, Return to Dream Land, Planet Robobot, Triple Deluxe, want to play Forgotten Land, have watched anime)

Legally Blonde ❌

The Legend of Zelda ❗️✍️⭐️📢(played Skyward Sword, Twilight Princess (and read manga), Majora’s Mask (incomplete), Link’s Awakening, Link to the Past (incomplete), Wind Waker (incomplete), Hyrule Warriors (not DLC), Breath of the Wild, Tears of the Kingdom (incomplete, in progress))

Linked Universe ❗️✍️⭐️📢

Mario ❌ (have played 3D World, Bowser’s Fury, want to play Odyssey)

Newsies❗️⭐️✍️

Pokémon ❗️✍️⭐️📢? (Never played a game in my life, show is in progress)

School Bus Graveyard ❗️

Sonic ❌(kind of?? Not really. Yet)

Tattletail ❌

Undertale ❗️⭐️✍️📢

Undertale Yellow ❗️⭐️✍️📢 (have not seen neutral or genocide routes yet but know quite a bit about them)

Wicked ❌✍️⭐️📢

Tags!:

#cloud speaks and #cloud rants: I talk about stuff

I believe #christian stuff is my tag for when I talk about anything relating to my religion- need to double check this tag (update: I can’t find the post where I said what the tag would be so I can’t confirm it was correct but that’s what it will be from now on)

#cloud does stuff: other tags will fall under this (#cloud watches Pokemon, #cloud plays totk, etc), basically me playing/watching/reading whatever

#cloud sings: I post me singing! Hopefully will happen more often when I have time over the summer

#cloud writes. He does?? He does!: I do writing stuff!

#cloud writes lyrics: I write lyrics. Either to songs that don’t have lyrics or if I’m writing my own song I guess

#cloud does art and #cloud pretends she can do art (latter is not used anymore I don’t think): I talk about drawing/animating/etc

#cloud’s art: the actual products or WIPs (not me just talking about them). Will also be tagged with #cloud does art, probably.

#asks have evaporated to the sky :): asks! Accompanied by #anon ❤️ or #[name] ❤️

Vent posts are tagged #tw vent. Block if uncomfortable.

#cloud’s goodnights are just me saying goodnight to everyone (I try to be consistent with this. I fail, but I try!) same with #cloud’s good mornings

#cloud’s [] misadventures (musical, school, softball, volleyball, etc): just me doing things at practice, musicals, school. The works

#cloud shouts random lyrics: this will happen from time to time. Frequency varies!

#cloud’s words: my fics and/or other writing (not songs/lyrics)

Probably missing some, will update

Ask games, prompts, reblog games, picrews, and tag games are tagged accordingly!

#cloud speaks #pinned post

[gilmores-glorious-blog]

cameron antis stop commenting about hating cameron on my posts that are explicitly about me liking cameron challenge.

#this doesn’t seem like a difficult concept to grasp #i don’t like knox but i don’t seek out posts from people who like him to comment hate on #sure sometimes i post about not liking him *on my own blog* but that’s different #it just always makes me uncomfortable to see hate for my favorite characters #but when i come across just on the tag or smtn and least i can understand it bc like i said it’s on your blog and you can post what you want #but coming on to *someone else’s post* to talk about hating a character that they clearly love? that’s just mean. and unnecessary. #i blocked the person who kept doing this so hopefully it doesn’t happen again but still. i’m frustrated. #was not a fun way to start my morning #oh and also as a related aside: people who justify hating cameron because they ‘worship nuwanda’ piss me off. #imagine thinking loving charlie means you can hate cameron 😐 couldn’t be me 😐😐 #a n y w a y s i’m not tagging this as dps so please don’t start shit this is just a vent #tw vent #vent tw #eli.posts

[skyfcx]

     hm.

#(OOC.) ''The kind of tired regular sleep can't fix.'' #;negative #;vent #((it's just another one of those posts where i wanna write my thoughts down)) #((i think i might take a small break. i've been pretty eh as of late. not really wanting to write or my writing not coming out correctly)) #((really it's just been a lack of motivation)) #((and depression; definitely that. im getting medication soon so that'll help me; hopefully)) #((but also there's a chance that the side effects are going to fuck me up for about a week; so i might fade to radio silence for a while)) #((and not to mention; super fixated on animal crossing. i definitely just wanna do ac-related stuff)) #((haven't hitched onto something like this since smash ultimate was coming out scdvfghnyhgtrfcd)) #((but uh; yeah. might chill it for a bit. focus on school and try to get myself together. i just havent been the happiest i suppose)) #((lots of future stress that's swelling since im growing up. get me off of this endless ride btw i dont remember getting my ticket punched)) #((it's a strange feeling having bursts of happiness but then just. sinking straight back into a slump)) #((like wow that was fun! ...anyways back to this permanent frown that's been pressed onto my face)) #((it's really not as drastic as im making it out to sound; i haven't been Bad per say. just... certainly not on the up and up)) #((i'll always be lurking on the tumblr dash and to those who have my discord; i'm around and will respond if i've got it in me)) #((but i might be a little quieter for a while.)) #((again; i tag this as negative and vent; but. im still not //Bad// but im not Good either; y'know?)) #((i hope this doesnt wig anyone out. i'll be fine <3))

[memes-in-a-half-shell]

Personalities

Guess I’ve never really did one post like this one, but I wanted to list out how I envision the guys to be like, generally. My creativity has been going down the drain lately, so hopefully that’ll boost me up a bit !

-- Leo --

Leo gives out that tough, serious vibe, mostly because he’s the leader and wants to show that he’s in control.

...

But in general, that dude does like to laugh and have some fun!

Don’t worry though, he knows when he has to be serious!!!! ... At some points he just has to relax, you know?

A Man of Culture ™ , he owns some bonsai trees and loves to meditate so he can have a clearer mind. Tranquility is his way to recharge his batteries (yes, I do see him as an ambivert, with a strong introvert side).

 A comic books fan, shares that passion with Mikey! He’s more of a Marvel fan, personally - some of his favorites are Spider-Man, Black Panther, Captain America, and probably a bunch of others).

Anger and strong emotions can hinder his leading choices. Anxiety rises in him, which can cloud his thoughts, but he’s working hard on that (and he’s kinda good at hiding his panic, generally).

Even if he doesn’t say it often - he does love spending time with his brothers! Watching basketball matches is definitely a must for those four.

A Leo in love is a smiling Leo. A true gentleman, he can turn into quite the passionate lover when alone with his s/o. He’s not much a fan of PDA, but his s/o shouldn’t worry much about that as the affection is multiplied tenfold later on.

Actually has a good singing voice, but he would prefer to die than to let people know.

Values Splinter’s opinion highly and often goes to him for guidance about many things - mostly regarding his leadership.

It’s a bit hard for him to let new people enter his life, since he’s scared for his family to be discovered and out in the open by any means possible, but he’s slowly starting to trust his instincts and his brothers’, knowing when it’s safe to let certain people in their world or not.

He’s an avid reader. Has a preference for classic litterature, but also enjoys horror, crime stories, and a bit of romance (if he really feels like it).

-- Raph --

Sir Raph bitchinson is in DAH HOUSE.

He’s not afraid to speak up and call out anything wrong in this household.

He and Donnie love to gossip and bitch around - you can’t change my mind. But they do that in secret though (wouldn’t want to hurt people with their judgements!!!)

Can be pretty much eloquent, when given the chance. He’s more street smart than book smart, but all knowledge is good knowledge.

He always likes to come up with some challenges for himself and his bros. Some sort of “friendly” competition amongst them, just to spice things up. He does consult Splinter sometimes to see what could be done in order to train certain skills.

Raph has a lot of love to give, but doesn’t like to show it plainly. He’s gotta show that big buff strong man attitude !!!!!!!!!! ... But he does have a big heart.

He and Mikey definitely do some music on the side - which has sparked the hilarious idea of a Hip Hop Christmas album. ... Mikey does call himself “MC Mikey”, but Raph is a better rapper.

Suprisingly good with arts and crafts (ex: woodcarving, knitting). Patience, precision, and carefulness are skills he has to work on often.

Training and lifting weights are his prefered ways to think back and analyze various things. That’s why when he’s angry, he goes out to train. It gives him the opportunity to calm down (somehow) and review the situation.

Even though his arguments with Leo can turn quite bitter, he knows he’d miss them if they were to stop. Butting heads with the leader is what brings them together (some would argue it’s not a healthy relation, but both are strong headed so it’s just always gonna be like that, you know~)

-- Donnie --

You know that shy, awkward, nerd stereotype? Throw that out the window, please.

Donnie sure is quiet when he first meets new people, but that’s only so he can observe them better and get to know how to interact with them better.

Once he’s starting to grow more comfortable, he’s probably one of the chillest dude you could hang out with.

Sure, sometimes he’ll start blabbering about his projects and throw out some complex terms, but that’s just because he’s always happy to include people into his things (IF the project is going well, that is...)

A patient teacher. Yes sometimes it’s tiring having to explain whenever he says a big word, but he doesn’t mind overall explaining and bringing forth new knowledge to those who seek it.

He’s not one to flaunt his intellect. He is not above anyone and he understands that not everyone has the same passions as him. Everybody can learn something new everyday - himself included.

Has a good sense of humor, mostly sarcastic. Is always up to doing some pranks around the lair with Mikey.

Donnie’s anger management could be described as “the calm before the storm”. He usually has a good control over his emotions, but if they ever get to explode, he can be quite ... “sharp”. He doesn’t hold his words and can be a bit judgemental when angry - but he’s quick to rectify the situation and apologize. Overall, when he’s facing a situation that displeases him, he is silent  and thoughtful. ... A lot goes on in his mind.

When in love, Donnie’s heart is soft and he’s a big romantic/cheesy dork. He’s often caught gazing at his s/o, with a smile on his face. He’s not afraid to lay his feelings in the open and doesn’t mind some PDA, but when he and his s/o are alone together, you can say it gets cranked up a bit ;)

Listens to various music genres. Has a preference for 80′s-90′s rock, jazz, and various types of electronic music.

Sometimes does some remote tech support jobs on the side so he and his family can have some money to spend.

Loves to play videogames! The first one he ever completed was Super Mario World on the Super Nintendo (hence why he has a SNES controller with his gear - an object filled with good memories!).

The self proclaimed “handyman” of the lair. He loves tinkering around and find ways to upgrade simple things in the house. He’s always up for a good challenge! (May or may not have a suggestion box for his bros and his dad to drop ideas once in a while <__< !!!)

-- Mikey --

Searching for a litteral ray of sunshine? Look no further; Mikey is here.

For him, finding joy and positivity in anything is a must - at least, most of the time.

He knows his family is not of the ordinary kind with a normal house, but that doesn’t mean things have to be grim and miserable!

This mindset does come at a price though. It does happen for Mikey to have his morale drop considerably low, but in those moments he knows he has his family to support him and make him feel better.

In return he is extremely supportive of anything his family does and will always encourage them when they’re going through a rough patch.

He and Raph love to collect various human items. Mikey has a tendency to go for art related items, which sparked his interest in arts (painting, spray cans/graffiti, drawing).

He also developped an interest in cooking.

Both skills are well received by his bros and he loves to teach them some tricks here and there, along with providing creative inputs to anything (mostly Donnie’s projects).

He’s an empath and doesn’t mind when his brothers vent to him. He wants them to know they are heard and valued! The best medicine he can provide is humor.

He’s a big flirt. Everyone is beautiful in their own way and he’s not afraid to express his admiration.

A party needs to be organized? Leave that to him. He always come up with some cool playlists, lots of booze, various activities, and a theme (if needed).

Loves to reference a lot of movie quotes, popular stuff and such. And it’s never out of place too, which can be surprisingly clever!

#I'll maybe expend more at some point #but for now I am leh exhausteddddd #I love exploring their personalities 😊 #and fsdjfbdj of course Donnie's has a lot of stuff LMAO #also I imagine Leo to have a similar level of anxiety to mine - so that's easy to imagine

[daisiesonafield-blog]

oh, you. just take a step away from the stunt side and concentrate on the fun parts! if that can be done. blogging/posting in tumblr should be fun (uh and venting and sometimes just trying to understand what is true and what is not) and we can live without your verified infromation (hopefully just for like few months?). just don't cut the tags, please! but take a break if you need it! happy thoughts and rainbowy hugs!

Hi dear,

It's not even that I want to step back completely on the stunt front. I'm just tired of dealing with these dumb theories spread by Holivia shippers on the daily. And then having the stunt shoved in our faces everyday on tour is exhausting.

I'll still post, but I'm kinda overwhelmed with content due to tour and my recurring posts. I haven't even been able to do my monthly timelines on @larrytimelines lately bc they take so much time (like 12+ hours, not including actually logging everything as it happens day-to-day).

So yeah...anyways...ignore this. I'm just tired lmao. But I'll be here and posting.

Also, thank you for the kind words <3 And I'll keep my tags going, don't you worry :)

Note: in relation to this post

#horry #holivia phase 4 #holivia october 2021 #stunt on tour #oct 5 2021 #oct 2021 #ignore this

[bitter-sweet-coffee]

it's honestly kinda upsetting to me that that mutual's reddit post made you out to be some kind of monster when the minute i read it i just KNEW, like... "this is going to be a neurodivergent person telling people not to take headcanons as fact to harass people they don't agree with, but in a more long-winded form, isn't it?" i knew this, because i am you in another corner of tumblr lmfao. but that they've got ppl on reddit saying you're a "grown ass adult" and implying you're weird... just :\

okay but the funny thing is that... they're all debating random people's lives on reddit... in a fanfiction forum... venting about how i don't have a life... but... but they wanna dedicate a whole convo about me...? 😳👉👈

LIKE THERE'S A REASON THIS IS ON MY BUCKET LIST, IT'S BECAUSE ANYONE WHO'S GONNA READ EXTREMELY INCORRECT AND BIASED POSTS ABOUT A STRANGER AND OFFER PARAGRAPHS OF ADVICE... for. for me??? 😌 like babes that's kinda... that's kindof an ego stroke. like unironically. no i'm not enjoying someone's misery and everyone is entitled to their feelings, but to slander me on a public forum? most people would talk things out with a friend or with me directly so i'm not sure who the immature one is here.

look. i have crippling ego issues, there isn't an arrogant bone in my body and that's the joke whenever i'm dramatically full of myself and mean!!! it's something that mutual would have seen and watched me explain. "bittersweetcoffee" yeah the bitter still exists guys 🥴

even though i talk about my job a lot in research & academia i don't unironically list off my qualifications with malicious intent or for praise or status because it's TUMBLR and i don't want to come across as pretentious nor do i want to be taken fully seriously like i am with my real work, that's why i exaggerated the harshness so we could all learn something while making it fun because clearly i'm not actually that cunty i've even broken character to remind others.

anyways this is a long way of saying that even if i've dealt with actual defamation cases, this one doesn't bother me because anyone who matters will pick up on the fact i'm acting and also... was never saying the things they claimed in the post. we're actually on the same page, but the comprehension hasn't made its way over yet.

ALSO, FOR ANYONE WHO KNOWS THIS MUTUAL WHO MADE THE POST: don't hold this against them or send hate or malice. i have no ill feelings towards them (normally i'd be incredibly sick from something like this but i've been managing with some lighthearted fun and fantastic irl news about my academic relations but more on that another time). i understand how having other things in your life can build up and suddenly one foggy tumblr interaction sparks a whole disastrous spiral and hopefully they're okay and they work things out with their health and wellbeing before returning to tumblr.